#Jockbull Summer

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 4 Set B (3/12/23-10/12/23)

Model Used is Oliver Forslin.

1.

I’m not adhering to this one as strictly. Maybe that’s not what abg intended but oh well. I’m more so expanding its scope to be more about risque clothing choices in general. On that front I made perhaps the stupid purchase of a thrifted Wrestling singlet. But damn it feels so good and tight on my skin. But i’m way too tall for it so the cut looks ridiculous.(Buff, hypnotic, AND tall. Swoon more.) Maybe when I'm more shredded I’ll be able to wear it more unabashedly.

2.

Maybe I should start offering a combo Hypno-workout routine. Or maybe an archetype centric workout split to enhance and build certain aesthetics. I wonder if anyone would pay for that.

3.

Got one in and because of the nature of weeks and spacing out my rest days the next one would be Monday of the week that i’m posting these. I’ll only take the cals from this week to be consistent so that's 700 calories burnt, while on a fast.

4.

Focusing the dropsets on pull day has been insane. I know it’s not likely but my arms already feel bigger. 17.5 inches. The peak that I've been missing all this time is finally starting to show through. Fuck the degree. I’d drain every course I took this year from my head (except Bio 206, 205 and 395) if it meant I could get some extra inches on these fucking pythons.

5.

First tumblr pic incoming. Try to contain yourselves(don’t contain shit. Go wild brahs)

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 3 Set A (26/11/23-2/12/23)

Model is Tsonghan Wu

1.

The Highest score this week is 39 in one go. I kept hitting an unfortunate timing block where I keep having push up days directly after my Chest gym sessions. In those I'd usually struggle to get to about 30. But I'd do Pause push ups to make up for the lapse. Those feel so good. Another benefit of this is the constant failure and progressive overload is exploding my chest. In 3 weeks of doing these in addition to MURDERING Push days, my pecs have grown so much. Gonna have a whole library shelf by the end of the summer.

2.

This one was a bit of a bust this week. My bro’s were out sick or busy so i couldn’t challenge them to anything. And I just didn’t have a chance to do the non-muscle comps either. No one was around. Anyone out there wanna offer themselves up as my Anime rival? Come on. Make me wanna beat you, pussies. All challengers welcome. Give me the pleasure of victory or the drive of defeat.

3.

2nd piece of clothing gone. I’m happy this one bit the dust. It’s an old one that i got in about 2019. I thought it was good cause I liked the feel of flow-y oversized clothes. But as time’s gone on I realize that this shirt actively makes me dysmorphic. The Horizontal stripes. The Monocrome washing me out. The way it hangs off my body and disguises any growth. The old discoloration reminding me of much worse times. I’m happy to throw this away. If I was more wasteful I'd fucking burn it. But some schmuck at a charity shop can have it instead.

4.

Dude’s I’m so fucking good at this accent lol. If I ever move to another country again i’m making this my default. Had so many chances to practice and show it off. A whole hour long chat with jockrs, a half hour call with my bro @jocksupremacy, A jock NPC in a game i run, Even showed it off a tiny bit on a date with this cute dude. I get such euphoria from hearing how i sound with it. Maybe i should consider Cali for my postgrad. Come for the school, stay for the Venice Beach muscle bro culture and frat parties.

5.

This show is dumb as fuck and I love it! It’s also so fucking gay and you can’t tell me there isn’t something a little fruity about all the gymbros latching onto this the way that they did.

6.

 No new Gym bros, but lots of opportunities to chat with the ones i’ve already got. Which is progress in and of itself. Adrian comes and talks and I actually had an opportunity to help him train his triceps cause he was doing cable Pushdowns so wrong. I sometimes feel a little lecherous admiring the muscle of my gym bros because it is such a strong erotic factor for me. But there’s also so much of just pure aesthetic appreciation for all the ways these men are beautiful and astonishing. The small details in every growing body. The appreciation and glory in someone’s normal appearance that you can only really appreciate in person, looking in their eyes.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 1 (12/11/23-18/11/23) - Set C

1

My diet on this cut is already so much protein. Between 160-200 g most days. Removing carbs and sugar will be an undertaking tho. But a necessary one. I recall last year when i was in such a heavy deficit with no carbs at all. That was not ideal for my mental health. Hopefully this is slightly healthier.

2.

Only did this once to start. Sat by my door to let the fresh air in. I’ve been meditating since I was 10. Not consistently, but I've got the techniques down. Simplest method is counting down from 100. Once you reach 0 you start again from 30. It creates an excellent mental silence as you sit there and just breathe. In doing so you can let your mind flow naturally to what it wants. For me it wanted to envision different ways and strategies of accomplishing all the goals in this JBS set. I would like to get this one to be a daily ritual. It’s very blissful.

3.

This is a task where i know ultimately how it’s gonna develop. One of my favorite tactics for ramping up intensity in the gym has always been super prolonged periods of edging. Not just days but weeks and months without cumming. Constantly stroking. It gets you to some dark, deep places. And every time I pull myself out I always bring along some stuff permanently. The longest I’ve gone is 60 days straight. I think maybe this summer might be a chance to push that record.

4.

God I really hope I can manage this one. There are so many fun Avis Abstractions in my head that I wanna get to you all. We will reassess in a week.

5.

Not fully constructed yet. I want to take inspo from scand who’s routine list is extensive and exhaustive. I’ve made a lot of massive strides in the last year however in terms of building a routine from nothing. Mostly in terms of skin care and hair stuff, but also in terms of certain night time activities like crunches or forearm exercises. Its time i just level it up. Maybe not to the point of incel looksmaxxing but I definitely think there is so much more attractiveness to be cultivated in me and I just need to work harder to find it.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 6 Set A (18/12/23-24/12/23)

Model used is Tsonghan Wu

1. 

Man push ups this week were rough in terms of actually being consistent with them. Too many fucking distractions and bad days and just overall misscheduling. It's not too bad tho because on the 1 day it turned out perfect i managed to crank out 50. And even writing that is such a fucking thrill. We got halfway to the goal in 1 month. Its so euphoric.

2.

I am just gonna have to start competing against myself aren’t I? I guess its just a bad time of year for it. Everyones tired and tuckered out and in fairness so am I. New year means a mental refresh and reset, so i’ll be more structured in this one in january. Which sounds like the kind of New years res bs you normally hear. But i’m serious (famous last words)

3.

Nothing to throw out this week but I did FINALLY get that rawgear drop. Its actually very nice and is a good set of replacements for what I’m planning to discontinue as well as some new styles that i wanna try out, like this sleeveless hoodie.

4.

 Fewer opportunities to do this one but the times that I did were super fun. I tried to give brah Jockrs a lesson on it and he got some of it down, but only a few aspects at a time. Truly he just ended up breaking down giggling at the way Americans say Cock lol.

5.

Baki was also a bit shaky this week ngl. i just had several days where the cut was taking its toll and my energy levels were stuck. And then some of the days i had some other more pressing matters to deal with which will be elaborated in Set C

6.

Big gains on this one. New Gym contact acquired

There’s this dude i’ve seen around occasionally since I started. He’s not a super regular but he looks amazing. Shredded, lean, cut. Calisthenics type build. Gorgeous blond bro with a beard,  almost stereotypically good looking. I’ve seen him sorta training other folks. He’s always had this super cocky aura whenever I saw him. Would always be smirking and chatting up a bunch of girls he randomly seemed to know. And when I was more insecure it did also feel like he was showing off and being a bit of a douche on purpose around my former fatass self. Which is kinda hot. But it didn't make me feel good.

Well on a really nice heavy pull day i was sitting waiting for a machine to free up and HE came up to ME and started chatting. He told me that I was looking so much better than I was a year ago. We talked a bit and he said he wants to be a PT but is kinda just doing it unofficially. Got his name, Liam. Very golden retriever.

The shitty thing is; despite looking almost 25 i’d say, the fucker is only 17. That was a little heartbreaking. Obviously we’re training for different goals and different ideals and there’s no real competition between us. But come on, that's catfishing at that point lol.

An additional point. Which sounds a little woo woo This was the day that I received some new pheromone cologne. So I like to think that had a little effect in making me more approachable.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 6 Set B (18/12/23-24/12/23)

Model used Onome egger(yes this is reused, didn't have time to make a new one)

1

So this is the first time I fucked up the fast. I still did manage to keep a net caloric intake of about 700cal because of cardio. But I was so out of it in the morning that i forgot to remove the egg yolks in my eggs. And egg yolks are so full of carbs and delicious delicious fats.

It didn’t ruin the day by any means, and arguably made the morning much more bearable. But it was an extra like 200 calories that I could have docked.

2.

Only one meditation this week and it was very standard. Just trying to sort out my brain and prioritize things so i don’t feel so overwhelmed. Coalesce and relax and remind myself that not everything is actually important. Things can go undone if they don’t need to be. Set things in order so that you can deal with the few important things and everything else can go on auto mode.

3.

Always doing this ngl. I wake up from my pre-gym nap and i stroke a bit before getting ready. But also i did break the edging streak…several times..with a cute himbo slut tho so it’s alright. Was so pent up. Bred him and *literally* tore him open with this fat fucking bull cock. Disturbed all his neighbours for hours. But i Can't wait to build back that energy.

4.

Okay I am working on an ACTUAL creative work right now in the form of an avis abstraction. But I am gonna cheat and declare this as one too.

I have a 600 song music playlist that i’ve been building and curating since I was about 13. My music tastes are very incongruent and eclectic and i love them.

So what I’ve done is I went through the songs and picked out a few for each archetype and put them into little vibe playlists that i thought evoked their essences. Enjoy them! (Alpha/Bro/Bull/Jock/Himbo/Pup/AVIS)

5.

I didn’t write up Last week’s Set C. For that I apologize. If I did I would have told you all how the routine feels set now. I’ve got a whole bunch of skincare stuff. Supplements. A process. And its really helping me I feel. It doesn’t feel monotonous. I feel like its placing me into a good starting position for the day to feel good about myself. 

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Final Week Set C (1/1/24-7/1/24)

Model used is Onome Egger

1.

Part of the reason I am discontinuing this project is because a lot of the tasks just aren’t relevant to me anymore. This is one of them.  Overall I feel more balanced without fast days. With them and while i was cutting more generally it was a wider swathe of feelings. Higher highs but also lower more exhausted states where I was running on fumes. Dieting and restricted eating is something a lot of people struggle with. There’s a cultural emphasis on it. Lots of people hawk it as a cureall and grift tons of fucking money from it. I don’t think this is that. I had a plan. I stuck to it. I achieved the goal. I ended it. When i need it again i will pick it up and maintain it in as healthy a way as possible.

2. 

I could have really used this this week. But one thing about meditative practice that folks don’t really tell you is that it is a Prophylactic. It is not a cure and a balm. It builds your defenses and strengthens your mindset for hardship and stress. But when that stress manages to penetrate you aren’t always capable of mustering up the headspace for meditation. Meditation is prevention so you don’t get to that point. And sometimes that point comes before your immunity is built. So you’ve gotta start building again.

3.

Generally unhorny week. New years malaise and all. Half considered redownloading Grindr but good god, i’m not that desperate. 

4.

Does it occur to me that I could have probably put out a lot more creative works if i didn’t lower my writing battery with all these diary entries? Of course not why would you ever suggest such a silly thing…

5.

I think the skincare routine is 100% showing changes in my face and I’m loving it I’ll go more in depth about this in next weeks retrospective.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Final Week Set B (1/1/24-7/1/24)

Model Used is Oliver Forslin

The bulk of this set was a total wash ngl

1.

Started on a totally new training regiment. A modified Prebuilt PPL from Jeff Nippard (registered Shortstack big titty science bro). So im usually more honed in on that and I want to give myself as good a chance as possible with the new movements. That unfortunately doesn’t mean freeballing it.

2.

Ideally i’d like to work at my own gym once this is all over. Maybe get some of the richer high schoolers with Mommy’s money to hire me out so they stop training like morons. But it came to my attention that they already hired on 2 new trainers out of nowhere that i’d never seen before. So who knows. The alternative course would be applying at my University rec center now that it’s finally reopened. It would mean a massive readjustment of my schedule and soo much stress having to come in on days i don’t even have school. But it would mean a bit of extra security in income since the school would pay out of the Student’s rec center registrations. Plus, there are a fair few studs on campus. Not many since it's a research university in the middle of a city, but there are some. I suppose the final option that might end up blowing up in my face is leveraging the 4 years of hard community building work i've done and going into Online coaching. Combine the hypno spin with an actual plan to help dudes transform. I think that's pretty reasonable.

3.

Got a single one of these in on probably the worst day to get it in on. No sleep. Minor fever. House bullshit and an infinite amount of fucking stress leading on to the rest of the week. And then the next day realizing that 25 mins straight of decently high resistance cycling isn’t great for my fucking knees. Sighhhh. The relationship with cardio is so precarious.

4.

Same justification as number 1. This Nippard programme has Dropsets integrated intp some of the exercises and I want to stick to it fairly closely. It’s not bad, but the stimulus to fatigue feels so weird. I don’t get crazy pumps from it which is a bummer cause i’m FINALLY back on carbs and could swell tf up. But this workout tuckers me out and leaves me sore the next few days. Which doesn’t normally happen unless its for novel movements. Interesting state of things Mr Nippard. I shall keep at it for now but i feel like i got a better stimulus with my own designed workout.

5.

Speaking of being back on carbs. The first couple weeks of shifting from a heavy cut to maintainence again (roughly. I imagine i’m still in a slight deficit), is that your body retains more water again because of the new replenished thirsty carb stores. This means I look fairly soft, fairly round. Especially in my cheeks. SOooooo fewer pics taken because i would like to not take psychic damage.

[avissapiens]

JBS retrospective.

Jockbull summer was definitely something where I shot for the stars. 15 tasks where everyone else had only 5. Fairly stringent time limited goals that got more intense and all consuming with each set that was developed. I knew I wasn't going to be perfect at it or even approach 50% completion. And yet i still feel fucking amazing to have done it! In an 8 week span i jockified certain segments of my life in ways that really did feel like they resonated through my whole being. It sounds a bit hyperbolic, I know. But I do think that undergoing such a structured battery of tasks, having it constantly in my mind every single day, even to the point that for 8 weeks straight my phone background was some of the images I generated for each set of post diaries did something to me. Thinking about these Jockbull tasks definitely left a mark on my mindset. And the tasks themselves left a mark on my life because I think some of them are simply going to stick with me. 

But they were starting to drag and i noticed myself getting more and more exhausted with..well..everything as the cut came to its end. So it had to come to a close as all good things must

Set A

 Of the tasks that are gonna stick with me here I definitely think elements of the competition task are gonna have a big impact. It was perhaps overenthusiastic to demand weekly competition from other people. But I have noticed my approach to things the longer I've held this task in my mind is a lot more geared towards winning and just enjoying competition in general. It’s still not fully realized yet though. There is more I can do to embody that jock mentality of victory at any cost. Maybe i should delve into some specific self programming so that i take it beyond just video games

The other task I think is going to stick is Baki. I just didn’t anticipate how fucking fun it would be and how much it aligns so well with my particular kink ecosystem. But moreover, I think deliberately pursuing baki rather than just mindlessly consuming it has opened me up for more media exploration, and exploration of the sort that will help me see the archetypes in more forms of art. That definitely had an impact on my vibes sets too. And in the time since then I've opened up to exploring shows like Letterkenny which has a whiff of jockbroness to it.

Set B

I feel like Set B was mostly more geared towards accomplishing a specific goal for the cut. And now that it’s accomplished and thensome I can thank it and file most of it away. Maybe bring some of it back around when I do a cut in future. One thing that will definitely be sticking is the Personal Training element. Keeping this task in my mind has really opened up the possibilities. Especially as I’ve talked it through with Abg and others more thoroughly. I want to keep synthesizing my loves and my passions. I moved here to NZ specifically because I wanted to combine my interests into something niche and eclectic but that could still serve me. And the same goes for Personal training. At first I thought I'd be stuck just working in a gym and I was fine with that. But I want more. I want to be able to take this knowledge, this business, and combine it with the different brilliant works I've already put so much work into. The abyss, the archetypes. I wanna do online training and help you all actually physically attain these goals and help you make a transformation Even more astonishing than my own. Combining Personal training and the hypnotic structures I've created. And I'd love to be able to make something steady and sustainable out of it so I can get my own space and grow even more while finishing my degree here. I know it’s lofty. But I've always put in the work and this is no exception. We’ll see how things go once I've got the quals.

Set C

I truly wish that the meditation task was the one I was gonna keep around. Set C however really illustrated how precarious setting too many things in stone can be. Daily routines, a biweekly creative work schedule, weekly fast days. It was a lot. Things eventually had to give and meditation was one of them. Now that I'm trying to gain some muscle mass, fasting days are actively counter productive. And being on commission mode means that a lot of my creative bandwidth is taken up by those. I will however be maintaining the daily routine. It’s not perfect. It never will be. And it sure as hell isn’t for everyone. But I am very much an abyssal creature of habit and structured chaos. And the creation of a daily routine for skincare, supplements, Breakfast. It all makes me feel a lot better and has 100% elevated my aesthetics. Not to mention really entwining himbo as something I relate with and aspire to more and more. For most of JBS i was also using a pretty strict time table for a bunch of summer related things.

But I've decided to retire it because the longer it went on, the more tired and numb I grew and the lower my success rate with any given day’s tasks were. But it was incredibly successful at the start of summer and allowed me to get a lot done and set a great momentum for the rest of it. My libido never really “went away” during the cut like sometimes happens to bodybuilders, but it defo got attenuated or at least shifted. But holy fuck now that i’m back on carbs you can bet that i’ll be doing task 3 almost unthinkingly

All in all, I really enjoyed this experiment and I’d love to try it again in a different form. Maybe with a wider sample of bros who might also benefit from the structure and accountability. In a way the dudes I generated these with stopped being the main form of accountability for me, and you all reading the blogposts and listening to the Voice logs kept me going instead. So thanks so much. Back to regularly scheduled programming

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Final Week Set A (1/1/24-7/1/24)

Model Used is Tsonghan Wu

Here we are bros. I decided to end it early since I accidentally started the Jockbull summer in like the last month of Spring. So we’ll call this a season. 8 weeks and then onto the next. Additionally, interest largely seem’s to have waned and I wanna focus on giving some more stuff that’ll keep your attention rather than flooding your dashboards lol. These will be my last set of diary write ups. And then next week I'll have a retrospective detailing how things went and what I'm likely to keep

1.

I’ll be straight and real with yall. This was probably the worst week yet lol. Mentally i just wasn’t here. Lots of stress and strain. I do have a new workout structure, that includes AMRAP pushups near the end. Diamond push ups that really tire you out by the time you finish all your other training, but its not quite the same or for the same purpose. I tried to sort my time table so that Pushups were combined with the times i wanted to work on my PT cert early in the day. But that has yet to really work out.

2.

Keeping with the smite idea from previous weeks I managed to go on a 3 game win-streak. Total ez streak, possibly because my Elo was reset from not playing in such a long time. But dunking is still dunking and you still get the mental endorphin rush from winning. Only thing that broke the streak is that my Duos partner (yet another Muscle brained Gym bro that i’ve known for years) had to dip mid game. Tragic.

3.

Since this is the last week and its even I didn’t throw anything out. But I am going to have one final push to get some of the last chunks of shitty oversized clothing out of my life. Gonna make an attempt to throw out 4 more pieces of clothing and then the lot will be going to the charity/thrift shop.

4.

I’m good enough at this. I’ll use it more often. And I am 100% going to do that Bro voice file at some point in the future.

5.

There is an episode of Baki where the main character is lying in bed with his girlfriend horny as hell, and they are about to fuck when Baki’s father, Strongest man in the world Yujiro, appears out of the darkness to cheerlead them fucking. And more than cheerlead. This man encourages the most relentless rauchy unending stream of fucking bitches from his 18 year old son. Literally morning noon and night boning down. It sounded like a passage from Alpha breeder. Unbelievable. Why doesn’t this show have more fanart?

6.

A kind of gymbro failure story which makes me sound like a bit of a douche but i also don’t care.

I’m pretty regularly one of the bigger guys in the gym at any given time. Not always. And that’s not really a compliment to me and more of a dunk on the kind of establishment that my gym is. So this one dude has kinda latched onto me as his story for hope cause of all the weight i lost and how much i’ve grown. I think he’s convinced i’m going to give him the secret formula and not just tell him “Just keep training and eat properly.” He came up to me this week and asked if he could come and workout with me another day. Gave some spiel about needing someone to motivate him and keep him going. He’s another immigrant too. So I commiserate with that and I told him sure, even tho i don’t particularly like training push with other people. But then on the day he was supposed to come at the time we had set up he just…didn’t show. Which makes sense. I tried telling him, motivation should be internal. Consistency comes from discipline. But he didn’t want to hear it. And so the outcome made sense. I wasn’t super broken up about it, Just meant i got to train push on my own in peace and quiet.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 1 (12/11/23-18/11/23) - Set B

Model is Oliver Forslin

1.

No progress made on this one specifically. I typically wear joggers and loose track pants in the gym. Personal preference thing since I’m not well-adapted to the cold. There’s a pair of magenta YoungLA joggers/pump covers that flow so nicely, and also always press against the bulge no matter what. Makes me think the design was intentional.

2.

I need to think on this. This is my little announcement saying i’ve finally been steeped in muscle so much that I took the plunge and decided to spend my summer doing a PT certification in between doing actual school. There’s something so alluring about doing this in a way that integrates the abyss. Make some proper monsters not just mentally but physically. Corrupt and push those around me to true greatness…and make some extra cash on the side from clients of course.

3.

I used to do this more often but school and various bouts of sickness just kicked me off that groove. It’ll be hard to jump back in at a full hour every time, but i’ll do it. I need to sweat. To feel the heat. Need to burn that fat away and reveal the power beneath.

4.

I ended up doing not one but 2 of these my first week. Once for Push day, once for legs. Its so intense. You almost enter a state of pure euphoria. The pump is so ridiculously juicy. If i was bulking and properly fuelled i bet my skin would have felt tight around my chest. The pain is pleasure. But your strength drops so hard after each drop set. You gotta either push yourself super hard or compromise some level of form or execution by the end.

5.

Simple. Bulls love showing off to other bulls. I look great with a pump.

Check the Discord Progress pics section for more proof

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 4 Set A (3/12/23-10/12/23)

Model used is Tsonghan Wu

1.

The max this week was 40 which felt pretty fucking good. Ngl I sometimes think i’ve got crazy elite genetics. To be on such a hard cut and still be making gainz in muscle, strength and now endurance. People have to blast grams of tren to be able to do that. I almost want to push harder. Increase the rate of progress. See how far I can get by march.

2.

Challenged Bull inspiration Abg(of set B) to a competition where we see who can increase the weight in the most number of exercises on our given workouts. On my Push day i went up in 4. Not massive increases usually just by 5kg or 2.5, but all progressive overload is good. Abg got fewer exercises for his pull session but greater increases. So we’ll call that a draw and I'll come back this week and kick his ass.

3.

This task has really made me be more conscious and critical about the things i wear. Why i wear them. How they make me feel. It’s made these subconscious feelings around comfort or dysmorphia or confidence finally rise to the surface. Which is important. If anyone does any of these tasks, I'd honestly recommend it be this one because it really encourages a new level of mindful self-presentation.

4.

I have been planning since discovering this new skill to maybe eventually do a whole file in cali-brah voice. Honestly, when I'm talking to dudes in it, everything flows so much more easily. It’s like second nature brah. 

5.

I love the clear emphasis on muscle that the show has. Every time there’s a new character or a big guy, they’ll always enter the scene wearing a baggy pump cover or some ridiculous outfit that hides their bodies silhouette. And then before combat they’ll slowly shuffle it off with such an artistic brilliance to really force the audience to appreciate every inch of muscular development. Even the one-off characters who just exist to get their asses kicked have good moments like this. Keeps me focused and watching.

6.

Yet more dry-spells on new gym bros, but at least the bar has been kept up with pre-existing ones. I need to just make the swings for it and stop getting in my head about the right moment to strike. It always ends up with me just waiting and waiting and then suddenly they leave and i’ve lost the shot.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 7 Set B(25/12/23 -31/12/23)

Model is Oliver Forslin

1.

Back on the train with this one. Push day was super good while freeballing. You feel so loose and flowey. And you can feel the whole pump and pulse of your blood in your crotch so much more. You pay attention to the surroundings and become aware of sensations.

2.

Less focused on month goals at this point because they’re just harder to work towards and write about. But one thing that i have been doing is watching a LOT of Jeff Nippard and Mike Isratel. Both short kings, both great content creators and sources that can help be synthesized into my personal PT journey.

3.

Look y’all. It’s christmas week so i will admit, I skipped cardio this week. I know I know crucify me. I’ll get back on the horse for 2024 tho. It was a short relax period to celebrate being off the Cut diet finally because i hit 100kg. So now we’re maintaining/very slightly bulking for a bit.

4.

In addition to the dropsets i also got myself some occlusion band just to try them out and these things make the pump go fucking crazy. Veins on veins on veins like waterhoses on my arms. Killer stuff even for triceps.

5.

Did the year’s before and after this time. I think progress has been made especially in my chest. I did make a lot of mistakes and have a lot of stalling periods this year tho. 2024 we can try to avoid those like the plague. But all in all, i’m glad about where i am and where i’m going.

These are probably my favorites

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 4 Set C (3/12/23-10/12/23)

Model used is Onome Egger

1.

I have continued the trend of fasting+cardio day. It’s actually not that bad. What was bad was the decision to bake while fasting. It’s not that I wanted the food. I don’t eat most of what I bake. But I couldn’t realistically test things too much to make sure they came out well. Luckily they were quite good the next day. Only half of one. It’s still cutting season.

2.

I got two in again! The first one was just kind of a general muscle flash. Brain producing lovely images for myself. Who needs AI when your head is already so full of muscle.

The second one however was a deeper introspection done together with Abg. We’re both POC but in many senses we are atypical. And yet still the presence of stereotypes still kind of gets in the way of both of our minds, and in particular our muscular journeys. We are both dead-set on breaking stereotypes and still coming out on top, so that was the seed for this meditation. There’s a lot of stereotypes for Black folks. And I know they are nonsense because not only do I not embody them, but most of my friends, relatives, peers etc from back home don’t either. But every time that one encounters a situation where you do meet that stereotype in yourself or in others, you pause for a second. Because especially while living in a mostly white country, you become extremely aware of the fact that everything you do is a form of ambassadorship for anyone who looks like you and visa versa. Which is a shitty burden to bear. Even after coming from a background of Black excellence in the Caribbean, there’s still so many stereotypes that come to mind. The perception of black people being unattractive, or if we are, it can only be in a brutish, animalistic, unrefined non-aesthetic way that doesn’t adhere to societal norms.

The mental stereotypes of underperformance and stupidity. The lack of ambition.

So many stereotypes are strangely contradictory too

That we're just needlessly loud and confrontational all the time but still get portrayed as servile slaves.

That we can only be good at sports but still deserve to be excluded from them. That we can't perform well at anything else. The strange juxtaposition of the athletic achievement that many POC are forced into because they lack the resources to pursue other interests and the idea that Ethnic food is unhealthy, dirty. And the very real reality of unequal access and outcomes for healthcare. The idea, often reinforced within the community, that we do not belong in certain places. In certain professions. In nature, in the world at large. That we should remain forever in this conservative slave mentality while we exist in the west.

Frankly, I see muscle and hypnosis as ways of outgrowing and defeating these stereotypes. Of changing perceptions not only for me but for my community. Perception is everything because it means that those who come after can see something different for themselves.

3.

Anyway on a lighter note. Yup, we’ve entered an edging period. It always feels so fucking good after a full week of building that erotic energy. It takes you to new and darker places and makes you vulnerable to things you might not have been before. Sometimes thats good. Sometimes its dangerous. But even that danger comes with a certain appeal.

4.

Its been a rough and busy week working on the first comm. I have some ideas brainstormed with Jockrs for an avis abstraction, it’s just always a whole different story putting pen to paper. Wish me better luck for the next week.

5.

So this one’s been interesting. It’s less been a process of drafting and then sticking. More a progressive building of momentum. Incorporating more and more things until the morning and myself feels more whole. I’ve ordered a bunch of supplements to take. A bunch of skincare stuff to harden my routine. I’ve expanded my already existing routine and even incorporated some new concepts from the world of Looksmaxxing. Truthfully, there is this deep desire in me to grow so much more in so many dimensions.And the himbo programming has definitely made one of those dimensions my aesthetics. Not for anyone else’s pleasure but for my own. I already know i’m gorgeous to other people. I want to be brilliant for myself and to be able to use that element of me like a tool and a weapon.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 6 Set B (18/12/23-24/12/23)

Model used Oliver Forslin

1.

I’ll be honest, my head was just everywhere and scattered this whole week so i intended to go about hanging brain in the gym but i just totally forgot.

2.

I am slowly considering the viability of opening an instagram account. The only thing is that most PT instas are so fucking cringey and bland. Clearly it works because they make bank, but idk if i can stomach it. There’s also the thing that my phone camera quality isn’t iphone level so i can’t do all the fancy lighting stuff.

3.

Got through with this one. Little difficult The cut’s almost over but I know I’m going to have to keep this up during my mini bulk because I don't want to put on too much fat. This week's combined cals was somewhere in the realm of about 1000. It’s going down, but like I said, I'm tired and cutting and scattered and it’s the pre Christmas week.

4.

Pull day drop sets are enjoyable because something usually gives out before the muscle you’re training. Either your forearms or shoulders or whatever. So dropping down the weight allows you to keep reaching that failure stimulus in your back and biceps while giving your forearms a rest.

5.

Since the end of the cut is nearing I took stock of it by doing the before and after photos. I admit, on the day I did them I was a little bummed out. I was feeling like I did kinda slack off for the first 2 months, or that I didn't progress hard enough. But after a few days and some Christmas carbs in me I'm seeing it in a better light and better able to appreciate the clear areas I've improved and developed in. And I am certainly leaner and more defined without losing too much muscle mass apparently.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 5 Set A (11/12/23-17/12/23)

Model Used is Tsonghan Wu

1.

This week was..disappointed in terms of actual progress towards the goal. I kept having Pushup days fall on Days where i was training chest. So there’s been no increase in the max because i didn’t even hit the max this week. I did however attempt to integrate a different mode of reaching the new maximums where i do it in sets starting small and then aiming for the final set to be 40+. But idk, i think just going one and done has seen the best overall increase. Gotta get back on track.

2.

Nil on this front save for the comps i’ve already got going. I did also rope my best friend of a decade into the push up comp and he is already on my heels after a week which makes me really proud but also really pissed.

3.

The Item for this week is another shirt. I threw this out because i realized that i have to pay more attention to my colour scheme if i want to get my aesthetic on point. This is another cheapo, over-sized Grey sweatshirt. That dull grey just washes me out. It’s not a shade that speaks of distinction, but blandness. I have an alternate to it that's in black and I think that one looks a lot better on me despite being the same type of shirt. That said, I may regret having chucked this one when winter finally rears its ugly head again. But its summer and we vibe.

4.

Dewds, this one is like so fukin fun rite? Like i feel so godamn Chad when i’ve got this voice goin. I had like an hour long convo with my brah @jocksupremacy an like i know duder was getting chubbed up listenin to me. I even like tranced the fuck outta him just with the voice. It was super rad.

5.

If you would have told me that hypnosis would be a major plot point in this hot man fighting anime i would have laughed in your face. And after seeing exactly how it manifests I’d laugh even harder.

6.

Kind of funny but the day after i wrote the stuff about over-thinking the approach to new dudes, I went and just did the thing. Dude i’ve seen around suuuper regularly. He’s never seemed to grow all that much but his strength is fucking impressive. Crazy Prs. Name’s Henry and he’s going into Uni next year. Stuck between a Compsci and an Engineering degree which frankly is what everyone seems to be getting into here. Seems cool as hell, disarmingly broey voice.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 7 Set C(25/12/23 -31/12/23)

Model used is Onome Egger

1.

This one’s going to have to change because we’re switching from the cut diet to a Maintenance phase. I’m not super inclined to have super excessive days where i eat a bunch of food. So we’ll have to find something different to pursue.

2.

No meditation unfortunately. Just wasn’t the right kind of week for it. The week after christmas always feels like a strange malaise. One long sunday. So nothing gets done and you can’t focus. Its like looking at the world through smudged glass.

3.

Done and Done. 

4.

The next creative work will either be an abstraction or a series of non-fiction creative pieces for the archetypes. It's just a little rough juggling as many creative projects as I am at the moment.

5.

I’ve totally revamped my time table of things for january. I was starting to feel a little numb to them so things needed some rearrangement. Added some interesting little spaces for exploration and development