#Jean Moreau cpstd hc

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CW talks of self harm and suicide related to Sunshine Court, spoilers of The Sunshine Court under the cut.

(Headcanon and my own interpretation/experience heavy, I’m not the word of god here)

My interpretation of Jean’s mindset in TSC in relation to his self injury and self harm behaviours is seeking a sense of control when his trauma is triggered. He seeks to hurt because at least that is something that he is doing to himself, the pain grounds and the pain makes the thoughts stop. If it’s him doing it then he knows it’s him, or in moments he’s in a solid trigger his body moves to make it stop but makes it worse. Suicidal ideation, thoughts, plans and attempts are a product of mental health issues + trauma and not something he consciously wants even when he believes he does. It’s easier to escape that way. With the deal made with Ichiro Jean has a strong reason to have to keep living, that works as a crutch to endure.

Specifically the hand around his throat and nails digging into his skin could be seen as a grounding technique for him for his Complex-PTSD. It’s the only tried and true method he knows he can use to cope, the nest wasn’t a space for him to develop regulation and grounding techniques because that was an actively harmful space he needed to survive instead of heal.

Jean does start to engage with better habits in TSC, going on a run with Jeremy. Running with him means 1) He’s with someone safe and 2) physical activity helps peak constant anxiety felt with trauma triggers.

Jean setting boundaries when things get too much so he doesn’t touch trauma boxes he’s not ready to is great too. Avoiding triggers isn’t helpful long term, but having a time and place to have the capacity to deal with them is important.

Anyway this is to say, grounding techniques like

exercise,

breathing (I know, but it works),

comfort activities,

having a safe space to return to,

distraction activities,

having someone co-regulate with him,

tight hugs or deep pressure

sour candy,

talking about it/writing it down

Could be safer alternatives for Jean to engage with. Note that I am approaching this from a trigger management perspective and less from a self harm perspective, can only speak from my own perspective and experience<3