#JDHSHDKSHDJ and thats just scratching the surface and like normally i can get myself to do hw but. i cant tonight i just want to go

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college fucking sucks because i need to finish having my breakdown and then process everything and also text people back and get on top of my study abroad shit and figure out my major change crisis and also get some sleep but also i have homework due at 10am that i haven’t even started working on and i can’t get myself to do it and i can’t ask for an extension bc i already got an extension the first time bc it was rosh hashanah and school doesn’t close for jewish holidays and i thought i could get my homework done by 10am on thursday but i wasn’t expecting that counseling would make me have a breakdown and now i can’t fucking move and i have work at 10 and im probably gonna have to talk about all of this stuff bc my coworkers are concerned about me and we check in with each other a lot and im not gonna lie to them about it or anything but also im embarrassed and ashamed to talk about any of this bc if i was less of a fucking disaster i wouldnt have to rely on them as my sole source of genuine and effective emotional support and i don’t want to constantly need to lean on them but what fucking choice do i have when college fucking sucks!