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dhusa · 10 months ago
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Kes - Banga (Official Music Video
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curryvillain · 1 month ago
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.@Protoje Shares "The Jamaican Situation" In New EP
The word is out, Recording Artist Protoje is gearing up to release a Short Film! The new venture will add to his ever-growing creativity, and give the world a new way to experience Jamaica. While he hasn’t shared much details as yet including the release date, he’s giving us new music that will give us an idea of what to expect. “King Digg” steps in with a project called, “The Jamaican…
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ask-izi · 8 months ago
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Sparks and Flames
A Death's Heads Reaver, a sundering blow.
So it was that the enemy engine fell beneath Chhota Raajakumaar's clawed strike; Its snarling features were rent, but the worthless traitor still raised its chainfist in a futile attempt to fight on.
The Warlord bulled through, already grasping the Reaver's elbow joint. Princeps, Moderati, and the savage machine-mind behind Chhota yanked the clumsy attack away as one.
Still grasping, the Warlord titan, a blackshield now, cycled the megabolters set into its powerclaw and fired through the traitor's face-grille. Up close, the bolts tore into the Reaver's cabin and detonated within.
A head struck with a slug.
When Chhota Raajakumaar rose amid the dimming light of Nyrcon city, it held the enemy's torn chainfist in its claw. Deep within the warlord's warrior mind, Izi heard the clarion call of Chhota's war-sirens.
The traitors were dead.
Engine kill.
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wauln · 1 year ago
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[ Zherka Fight Explained ]
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gam3bo1-movedagain · 2 years ago
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     ᘛ⁐ᕐᐷ 🧀   𓈒ㅤ⋅    "it's avant-garde," jiang says with a roll of his eyes. he's been doing that a lot around izy recently. "you're a model, right? aren't you supposed to know this?"
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" — that shirt is ugly. did you get dressed in the dark or something ??" or, hello, as people in some circles of the world might say. / @gam3bo1 for jiang.
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48lexr · 4 months ago
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Heads up, Seven up!
Thanks from @authorcoledipalo for the tag!
Take these seven lines of dialogue from Part Three:
"She killed her ... in front of us. In front of me." "Izi ... I'm not doing this because you can't, I'm doing this because you can." “When you get back in power, make it so the train is free.” "Too late...you're cooked." “Obviously not! The layers of deception with her go so deep it’s not even funny anymore.” "Do you even know how you feel?" "We're going to get our mother back and beat the shit out of her for lying to us."
Plus seven tags:
@theothersideofthewoods, @oldfashionedidiot, @flurrysahin, @the-letterbox-archives, @eternalwritingstudent, @koinotfish, and @moonsbetween
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wooodyguthrie · 1 year ago
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Phil Ochs : Interview on the Democratic National Convention
When Phil Ochs returned to New York from the chaotic 1968 Democratic National Convention he gave an interview to Izzy Young of the folklore center in Greenwich village.
Transcript by Mitch Abidor under the cut.
IZZY: This is the afternoon of Wednesday, Sept. 4, 1968, In Izzy Young’s apartment and I’m talking to Phil Ochs who has just come back from Chicago.
PHIL: Don’t shoot! Don’t hit me! I’ll talk, I’ll talk! We’re not in Lincoln Park.
IZZY: It seems you were about the only folksinger in Chicago. I mean, Judy Collins didn’t and Pete Seeger didn’t show up, and -
Phil: Peter and Mary showed up __
IZZY: Do you think there’s a good reason why a lot of singers didn’t show up?
PHIL: I don’t know. It’s hard to tell. I’m sure everybody was afraid. I was afraid. And it was sort of vogueish – the folk crowd has always been very much an in-vogue crowd, and it became very vogueish to attack the Yippie festival of life as a festival of death, and it gave them a good reason to stay away. It was almost a cycle: first the underground press ballyhooed the Yippie thing and then there was all this publicity and everybody put their name on the list. And then second thoughts cam in and people started to think, well, this is an exploitation of youth and they’re leading them to a slaughter, and besides they really didn’t want to go anyway. So everybody sort of mutually decide over a two month period – the underground press and the performers – that the whole thing was a shuck.
IZZY: You mean they decided not to go out of fear?
PHIL: I don’t know. That’s pretty strong language. They probably really thought it wasn’t a worthwhile project in terms of confrontation. There really hasn’t been that much involvement of folk people and rock people in the movement since the Civil Rights period except that one period where the anti-war action became in vogue and safe – you know, large numbers of people and all that publicity, and then they showed up.
IZZY: Do you think things are really becoming serious and the singers are afraid to face up to it?
PHIL: I think it’s become more and more like that, yeah. America is in desperate trouble, you know.
IZZY: well, how important is the underground press in all this?
PHIL: The underground press is a vital link. It’s a way to break the censorship of the establishment press, and that is very important. But the underground press is very skittish, too, very immature. But it’s a good thing.
IZZY: I heard there was a tremendous reaction to your singing in Chicago, that it went over very big.
PHIL: Yeah. (Laughs)
IZZY: They really wanted to hear music. But they didn’t have much of a chance. I heard that, in terms of rock music, that was impossible altogether. That was really squelched from the start.
PHIL: There was so much intimidation. On Sunday they tried to get a sound truck through, just for some local bands, and they couldn’t. Police blocked that. Some people were beat up; a guy I know was hit on the back of the head with handcuffs and they cut his head wide open. Anyway the songs I wrote, the political songs, are coming into vogue – I’ll use that word again. I think in ‘63 especially, at the Civil Rights apex, musical esthetics came together with politics, and it was good to be involved with both. And I think now the same thing is happening.
IZZY: where do you find politics mixing with esthetics now? What music groups?
PHIL: I mean just that certain historical movements come more to the fore than mere love of music, and they start to merge. And music becomes very important.
IZZY: can you give me some examples of groups that are that way today? How about Country Joe and the Fish
PHIL: Country Joe and the Fish is a definite example of that.
IZZY: Did you hear about them? I just saw in the Times that they were beaten up in a hotel.
PHIL: Yes, they were beaten up.
IZY: And they didn’t appear anywhere?
PHIL: No, and I understand Joe McDonald gave an interview to the press charging that the Yippies were irresponsible, which I thought very irresponsible on Joe’s part. It’s the kid of stuff that could be used by the Establishment. If people had been killed they would have used stuff like that against the protestors. It was a dangerous thing to do.
IZZY: About how many people were on the march altogether, would you say? The papers said about 15,000.
PHIL: It’s hard to gauge. But that’s a good count. A lot of the bravest people showed up. I mean they were people from around the country who really went through a major personal dilemma. Daley’s pre-convention terror tactics were a success in keeping out large numbers of people. For instance, his threats to set up large scale concentration camps. Daley issued many statements like that, very threatening statements, and these and come succeeded in keeping a lot of people away. But the people who did show up were the toughest, really, and the most dedicated. And a lot of great things happened in the middle of the terror of the police attacks. There was a definite spirit, a good spirit, unleashed in the streets. There was more coming together with Blacks, more than on any other march I��ve seen. A joining of Blacks and whites to resist mutual oppression. Especially in Lincoln Park.
IZZY: On television they kept calling these people – - they kept calling these people outsiders. You know, they’re Americans. How can you call somebody an outsider in his own country?
PHIL: yeah, well, the Chicagoans were unable to recognize that this was a national convention. They literally, psychologically couldn’t. They kept thinking, “This is our city, our convention. “ When it’s a national election they’re talking about. I’m really beginning to question the basic sanity of the American public. I think the public itself is just -- I think more and more politicians are really becoming pathological liars, and I think many members of the public are. I think the Daily News, Tribune poisoning that comes out is literally creating – and television, all the media are creating a really mentally ill, unbalanced public. And it’s significant. I think what happened in Chicago was the final death of democracy in America as we know it: the total, final takeover of the fascist military state – in one city, at least.
IZZY: Most people have no contact with the politicians who are selecting the nominees.
PHIL: well, in that sense, it was a major victory for the street people in terms of unmasking the facts. But still, basically, there’s been opportunities to deal with the convention system and come up with decent candidates; you know, the conventions did produce Adlai Stevenson and John Kennedy. But now, I can’t accept this election. I can’t see myself being loyal to a Nixon or a Humphrey administration. I don’t think there’s any choice. I think the final corruption has com home, the final – the ugliness and corruption of a South Vietnamese election which is a non-election has come to America, and now Americans are faced with a South Vietnamese election.
IZZY: Do you think there’ll be any results from this unmasking, from this education of the American people, so to speak? I mean, are they going to be more radical, eventually, because of it – the way some of the kids feel?
PHIL: I’m not sure; it’s definitely one process of radicalization and definitely another process of reaction against it.
IZZY: And the reaction against it is stronger.
PHIL: Yes, I’m afraid the reaction is stronger than the radicalization. And it seriously makes me wonder about the country. How much does this country have a right to exist at all, especially with the kind of power it has?
IZZY: I think the question always boils down to: can you change the country, or do you have to destroy the country?
PHIL: Yeah, right. I’ve always tried to hang onto the idea of saving the country, but at this point I could be persuaded to destroy it. For the first time I feel this way.
IZZY: I was with some girls from Germany yesterday, and they said, “You can talk to the Establishment people, you can be nice to these people.” And I said, “You can be nice to Jacqueline Kennedy all day long and present beautiful arguments to her, and then she’ll say no at the end of the day in very cultured language.” What I mean is that the people in control are not going to give up their mode of income, and that’s the only way the system can be changed. Did you come across any of that in the delegates there? I mean were there any delegates who showed an active support for the Yippies, the kids who want to change things?
PHIL: By the end some delegates were marching with the kids in the streets.
IZZY: You mean the Wisconsin delegation?
PHIL: Yes, and some New York people too.
IZZY: What about in the beginning?
PHIL: I’m sure there was mutual sympathy at the beginning. But they couldn’t show it. Chicago was just a total, absolute police state. A police state from top to bottom. I mean it was totally controlled and vicious.
IZZY: The police beat up about forty news people, and yet the news people on the radio and on television were on the side of Daley almost uniformly. In New York most of them later would say, “Well, Daley was just doing his job, taking orders from Johnson and Humphrey.” I heard your voice just for a moment one the radio. And you were the only person quoted among the folk singers. You said: “This was not Daley, this was Daley doing a job for Johnson and Humphrey.” Do you think McCarthy could have said more than he did?
PHIL: Yeah, you have to fault McCarthy for lack of dynamics and not being more outspoken. I mean it should have been summed up. There should have been a very literate and clear-cut case made against the police right there by a man of McCarthy’s stature.
IZZY: That didn’t happen.
PHIL: It happened in little bits. He and McGovern at different times spoke out. But there was nothing sustained, nothing up to the occasion. There was a defijnite lack of leadership on McCarthy’s part.
IZZY: Ted Kennedy could have said something.
PHIL: All these so-called liberals kept their mouths shut. They’re all still being good Germans, even up to today. I believe this election should be boycotted. It shouldn’t be taken seriously. That section of the middle class who went for McCarthy and Kennedy should somehow organize themselves and break away from loyalty to the present government. But it could be that the country is so diseased that it just can’t function on any kind of a decent level. T may be that the country has to be destroyed from without. That seems as likely as anything. All we’re getting is more and more repression.
IZZY: Wallace will get a lot of votes.
PHIL: Yeah, I think Wallace will get a huge amount of votes in this election.
IZZY: I think the liberal people will accept that too, now.
PHIL: probably, and when they do that’s the end. I really don’t know what to say. At a certain point, I’m going to become an enemy of the state. I’m not going to be an American any longer. I’m going to be an enemy of the Americans.
IZZY: Yeah. But how can you be an enemy of America in America? What can you do? Sabotage?
PHIL: No, not that. I might leave the country.
IZZY: I can’t see a guerrilla movement in America, actually, because the guerrilla movement, I think, would be destroyed. What other country could you go to?
PHIL: I might go back to Scotland.
IZZY: How can that help things in America?
PHIL: At a certain point you start losing interest in helping things in America.
IZZY: I’m also faced with the choice of leaving. I just got a letter from Africa and the writer says, “Gee, Izzy, I’m always thinking about what you’re saying, that the people who go to Canada aren’t helping people in America.” Phil, if you leave America, you’re making it harder for thousands of people that believe in you. You’re already more than an individual. You stand for an idea already, and you can’t just leave your followers behind.
PHIL: It’s not fair. (Laughs)
IZZY: Dylan doesn’t care. Judy Collins doesn’t care. Or they’d speak out openly. But you do care. And you do speak out openly.
PHIL: You can’t presume to say that Dylan and Collins don’t care. I’m sure they care.
IZZY: well, I feel that when a person has access to mass media and they keep quiet that means they don’t give a damn what’s happening to the people. In other words, getting Judy Collins on a TV spectacular doesn’t help the cause of freedom or peace or anything.
PHIL: it’s just that at this point America is an uncontrolled death machine. And since she failed in electoral politics to check that, it has to be checked in other ways. And one way would be a mass denial of manpower to its corporations. The extension of draft resistance: keep your body out of the Army; a” right, keep your body out of the college and out of the university. That is just preparing you for the corrupt corporation. Keep pulling people away from the establishment until it collapses.
IZZY: I don’t think it would collapse. If the intelligent people pull out the corporations would be happy.
PHIL: I’m not talking about intellectuals only. I’m talking about all the people who work for corporations.
IZZY: Well, they’re not leaving.
PHIL: No. I’m only looking for a way to get them to quit.
IZZY: I don’t think there is a way. These guys are getting their $15,000, their $20,000; they’ve got a taste of the honey and they want more.
PHIL: All right, then America I the rule of the devil. The devil has won.
IZZY: Is there any country where you see a possibility of human advancement?
PHIL: I think Mao could be the most important man in the world right now.
IZZY: Mao’s is one of the few Communist nations to criticize the Soviet Union for Czechoslovakia, whereas Castro went along with it.
PHIL: Which provided an incredible psychological blow to the left in America, which romantically almost equates Cuba and China. Which I still do. What is happening is that America is forcing the world into this kind of military protection. It’s the same thing; what the Chicago police did, and the kind of attitude that Mayor Daley has, is the same kind of thinking that was going on with John Foster Dulles. That policy forced Russia, more and more, into this protective position – this over-defensive position – which led to Czechoslovakia. You can trace Czechoslovakia to John Foster Dulles. And you can trace Mayor Daley and the Chicago police to the same kind of reaction.
IZZY: So Dubcek didn’t have a chance from the start, then?
PHIL: He had much less of a chance with a crazy America running around. You know, from the Russian point of view, America is a mad dog loose around the world. What it will lead to is lots more assassination; terror will start in Europe against American business. I mean America is buying Europe, America is completely buying Europe. Economic brutality, you know, comes before police brutality.
IZZY: I agree with you completely on that. I’ve been saying for two years – my friends say I’m crazy – that America is going to be destroyed from the outside, not from the inside.
PHIL: From both.
IZZY: When Bob Kennedy is killed by an Arab that shows how American imperialism has pervaded the whole world. Christian Arabs are one of the smallest minorities in the world; there are only a few hundred thousand of them – but if they get angry they can kill a Kennedy. That means almost anybody no could kill an American and get away with it.
PHIL: We’re helping every government towards hell. Maybe America is the final end of the Biblical prophecy: we’re all going to end up in fire this time. America represents the absolute rule of money, just absolute money controlling everything to the total detriment of humanity and morals. It’s not so much the rule of America as it is the rule of money. And the money happens to be in America. And that combination is eating away at everybody. It destroys the souls of everybody that it touches, beginning with the people in power.
IZZY: There’s one man, Mao, who is trying to change all that. He’s trying to change the character of the Chinese people in one generation; do you think he’ll succeed?
PHIL: It’s going to be very difficult. More importantly, Mao has rally succeeded in spreading an international revolutionary feeling. In his lifetime he physically transformed China and set the basis for a sensible world revolution. And in the years when he’s supposed to be retired or dead, he had managed to mentally psych out the world. You can trace a lot of what happened in Paris and what happened in Chicago to Mao Tse Tung and the Red Guards; the whole idea of transfer of power to youth and thereby salvaging the militancy of the Revolution. Which I happen to think is a very noble effort.
IZZY: Phil, while you’re saying all this I’m thinking of folk music ad how that can possibly fit into the way the future is going to be.
PHIL: well, by the use of brute force by America internally and on the world, resistance will have to be formed step by step. In music, things like the Newport Folk Festival will have to be radicalized.
IZZY: Yeah, but there was no radicalization in Newport this year.
PHIL: No, there wasn’t; there should have been.
IZZY: I man zero, and you had some supposedly left-wing people trying to run it as directors. This year they ran amuk with country-western singers who are for the war. When Roy Acuff got the humanitarian award they gave it to him for his many appearances for the troops overseas.
PHIL: yeah, well... As a middle-aged Jewish merchant in America, you are in trouble, Izzy. That’s all I can say.
IZZY: I hear that from other people.
PHIL: We’re all in trouble.
IZZY: How do you stay sane? How do you stay sane in America? That’s the problem I have; how can you actually stay sane?
PHIL: I don’t know. That’s what I think about right now. I’ve always felt a contact with political reality from 1960 to 1968. But after Chicago I’m totally disoriented. I’m disoriented because the time has come for guns, and I’m not personally ready for guns. America’s such a violent country. The American revolution is going to be ridiculously bloody.
IZZY: Do you see a resistance growing in America? Is that possible?
PHIL: I’m just not sure.
IZZY: I think other things are happening which illustrate what you’re talking about. There is a tremendous discontent among the workers, even though they’re getting supposedly higher salaries. They’re not happy at all. And the next step would be for the workers to try and understand why they are not happy. It’s not so much that they have bad working hours or low wages. It’s just that they are not part of anything. I think the worker knows it but he hasn’t formulated what to do about it. In other words the workers hate the Kennedys and they hate the Melons [sic] and the Rockefellers, but they’re still afraid even to say it openly. They see the advertisements on TV and in the subway: travel to beautiful Bermuda. But now they’re beginning to realize they can’t go to Bermuda, you know – fly to Hawaii and all that stuff.
PHIL: I disagree with you. Part of the problem is that a lot of them can vacation in Bermuda. This part of the problem is the entrenching of the working class’s right wing by the bosses giving them an extra amount of money, which is what Hitler did, and what’s going on in America right now. And that’s the most dangerous aspect.
IZZY: Do you see any rebellion among the managerial class?
PHIL: I do see more sign of discontent from the managerial class -much more.
IZZY: How do you see it? How is it showing? What’s the visible form of it?
PHIL: The visible form was people like me participating in the McCarthy/Kennedy drive. I saw how elements of the middle class and the upper-middle class could be brought out in large numbers and contribute large sums of money to try to get a basic change in American policy. That’s the major fact that was overlooked in the Chicago convention. It had already been clearly shown that the American public would get behind decent candidates. Most of those people who came out were from the managerial class.
IZZY: Do you think they could force McCarthy to go on a fourth ticket?
PHIL: If McCarthy had the right personality, yes. But I think he’s too much a member of the democratic Establishment himself to make that break. We still need a Kennedy.
IZZY: I’ve always disagreed with you on a Kennedy.
PHIL: I know you have. But I still think that way.
IZZY: I don’t, because I feel that a man like that can’t help the people unless he changes the mode of his own income. He has to give the example. He can’t keep taking a dollar from every bottle of whiskey coming from England to America. He has to work for his living, and until he does I don’t believe a man like that can possibly change anything. I mean, I wonder why they kill only the Kennedys. Many of the rulers of this country lounge around on inherited wealth.
PHIL: The Kennedys went out of their way to flirt with the American public, and the American public is totally infatuated with death. Anybody who flirts with the American public is taking a chance with their life...
IZZY: Do you feel that wiping out McCarthy wiped you out, too?
PHIL: It wiped out that part of me that was interested in electoral politics. But I do feel frustrated all around.
IZZY: Yeah, we still have the same problem.
PHIL: Yes. And that problem is can America be saved. And for the first time in eight years I question whether it can. I think it’s quite possible the country is so far gone and decayed that there may be no way left to save it, and that the only logical course for the progress of mankind is the destruction of America.
IZZY: America has pushed everybody to the edge of the cliff. It’s forcing people to make this kind of decision: shall I enjoy what’s left of my life and forget everyone else, or should I devote myself to working for a better world. If you can’t do either then you just have to leave. And if you leave, you get the inevitable feeling that you’re copping out.
PHIL: Well, I may cop out. But the basic thing I feel is that there’s going to be death and destruction as far ahead as one can see now. That’s all I can possibly see.
IZZY: I can see that if I continue my radio program and give concerts and put out my newsletter then I’m going to be shot, or I’ll have to shoot somebody else. But I still can’t imagine coming to that point.
PHIL: I can see it happening to you. Our only hope is the emergence of a politically tempered international youth movement which will involve itself in international revolution.
IZZY: How do you feel that writing songs can help such a movement?
PHIL: I’m not so sure that they can. The radical German students think that it’s past that stage. The songs themselves aren’t enough obviously. The songs are an adjunct to the movement, essentially, which is why the Chicago experience was really interesting for me. Let me explain: there the songs were being used in a totally non-professional, non-show business, non-paying, non-staged situation. It was an integral part of the movement while things were happening, and therefore the words and music had their greatest possible effect...
I’ve got to go. Thanks a lot, Izzy. It was nice being here on this September day, in this rotting country.
IZZY: One more question, Phil. Do you think Dylan is a secret revolutionary? In other words, he’s reaching more people and changing their minds without them realizing it. A sort of subliminal revolutionary.
PHIL: I think it’s possible. It’s possible for any writer, depending on the quality of his work, to function in that way. Brecht faced it as a responsibility. He said to himself, here I am, a writer, and I can write things that can change peoples’ minds therefore do I belong in the street getting my skull cracked which may damage my writing, or should I stay out of the way of the charging police and create my plays? Where is the primary responsibility? To me, Phil Ochs, the answer is obvious.
IZZY: Anyone who has any control in the mass media has a responsibility to speak out, both as an artist doing his or her work, and separately as an individual. Definitely, the case now is that most people won’t speak out anymore.
PHIL: But there are always those artists that function outside the active realm of politics.
IZZY: I prefer the example of William Blake, who dreamt of Jerusalem and heaven and hell; but when Tom Paine was in England and I was dangerous to harbour him, William Blake was hiding him in his own home. So William Blake knew what was going on politically even though he had his own private world as a mystic poet.
PHIL: If you’d been around at that time, you’d probably have condemned Blake for not issuing a statement to the London Times about what was wrong with the King’s politics.
IZZY: Oh, no. That wouldn’t have been necessary. Blake went on one of the few marches of the century against the King. And that was a very dangerous thing to do. But it was his way of speaking out. He believed in his vision and the only way he could protect his vision was by fighting for it.
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somethingscft · 1 year ago
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closed starter for @isolctions
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you up? yeah. you hungry? yeah.
it wasn't always at the same time of day, but it was always the same diner. the same booth. izi swore these were the best fries in the city, and avery would follow her wherever she went. they would order a rotation of the same three things with extra fries to share. tonight was no different. he still let izi beat him to the side of the booth that faced the door. he got a coke and a double cheeseburger. they played catch up. she met someone. he met someone. something strange happened over the weekend, and now her someone wouldn't stop calling. her phone even buzzed at the table. "he's in love with you, izi," avery answered her question before she even asked it. there wasn't a shred of doubt. "trust me." he should know.
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fragileizy · 2 years ago
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my parents tensed up last night when i said i wanted to go back upstairs alone.
friday night in the big city and i was ready to turn in at 7pm. maybe it’s the depression, or maybe the heartache, or maybe both. maybe the cold. it’s freezing and i don’t do well when i have to wear layers. i want to peel off my skin whenever i have to wear more than two shirts.
i wanted to go back upstairs. back upstairs and watch more cartoons so i could turn off my brain, but my parents wanted to stay in the lounge— i’d been able to get a few large bitefuls of dinner into me before hand— to listen to the live music in the reception desk + bar area where surprisingly a lot of people were congregated.
i wondered if i should get a drink myself. i don’t do alcohol, never have, always afraid to. i realized i’d left my wallet back upstairs with my phone, one that i’m on the tip-edge of powering off and chucking into a trashcan, so i don’t have to wonder and wish to get a text message.
dear god, i am grateful to get text messages at all. it means he’s thinking of me. even if it’s just to tell me that he’s seeing his new girlfriend today.
“no, not right now, i don’t want to go up. it’s different here than back at home,” my mom said. “we don’t have life back at home. live music? that’s unheard of.”
we live on farm land. suburbia clashing with farmland, actually. white-picket fences. cookie-cutter houses. common to find goats and pigs passing behind it. horses are expected in our town.
“you’re right,” i told her. yelled out, actually, because the music was loud and it wasnt very good and hurt my ears. artistic flair while singing stand by me isn’t the absolute best idea. my parents are starting to get deaf in their 60s, and though i tease them a lot for it, there’s always a ping of fear.
my parents are aging.
i’m an only child.
i’ve lost my friends, and the few that were solely mine are on the computer and not tangible. i’ve lost the man that i thought i was going to be with forever— he has six little brothers and one little sister, with one tired father trying to keep it all together, did you know that? he’ll never be alone. he’s got family.
my family is sick. i’m worried about them. dad coughs a lot, mom went to the hospital for heart problems, and i was told that the man that i loved would rather be with someone else than with me. the lines under his eyes are deep. the tone of finality is painful. i wonder every day if i should’ve been better. well, i should’ve been. that’s not much of a question.
it’s a lot easier to be with her than it is to be with you, izy.
i started counting up to ten in my head. i don’t know where this habit started, but it’s helped. beat out the thoughts by yelling out numbers. over and over and over. if i stop myself from thinking, i won’t cry.
“i want to go back upstairs,” i tried, after my seventh or eighth count. taking in my dad’s hesitation to swallow around his juice. “uhm. i don’t feel so good.”
“are you sure?”
i know my parents. i know that they asked my therapist to make sure i wasn’t… critical. what a bad way to talk about it. i’ve never been suicidal— ironically, i’ve always been the type of person to think it’s rather useless. i want to live. i like living. dying always sounds so painful. i like listening to music. and drawing. and writing. even if it’s hard and difficult when i’m like this.
i know that my therapist asking me if i’m safe meant that my parents asked her to make sure. and what i told her was true: i’ve never been suicidal. it’s the only thing “left” to truly say i have depression. it’s the only box left unchecked.
just because you’ve never had it doesn’t mean you won’t. and i want to check, because i obviously don’t want you to die. i look forward to talking to you all the time. you’re one of the funniest clients i’ve ever met, and so interesting.
probably not a good idea to be called interesting by a psychologist.
the hotel room we have is twenty floors up. nineteen, actually, because this hotel skips level 13. superstition? it’s so fun. my dad and i snickered about it the first time we spotted it. twenty floors up. the window opens. it’s too cold to do that, but it does.
i made eye contact with my dad across the table in the lounge. i know my dad. i know how he thinks. he’s always telling me to pay rent if i’m gonna read all of his thoughts so clearly.
my dad is aging right in front of me.
and he is absolutely terrified of letting me go upstairs alone.
“i’m sure,” i told them.
my dad swallowed slowly. he struggled to pull out his key card from his wallet, taking his time. i’m not sure if he was taking his time because his fingers don’t move as quickly anymore. i’m not sure if he was taking his time because our fingers were red from the cold that we’re not accostumed to. i’m not sure if i was reading too much into it.
i took the keycard. i went to the elevator. i pressed the button.
the live music really sucked.
and i thought about my parents. sitting there. wondering.
before the doors of the elevator opened, i went back to the lounge. i sat through the aggravating music, and played with the bottle cap of my mom’s barely-touched diet pepsi bottle. we’re a coke zero family.
when an ambulance stopped in front of our hotel, glittering red and blue lights into the lobby, my parents said nothing.
and it said everything.
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djdysfunkshunal · 3 months ago
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thekpopgossip · 11 months ago
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Roundup: Freshest Releases
TWS "Oh Mymy : 7s"
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Song starts at 2:50. I guess this pre-release could be considered experimental, since the beat change ups between the verses and the chorus are really stark, but the verses are really nice while the chorus just sucks. The group will debut with their title track later this month.
ITZY "Mr. Vampire"
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Great b-side, and this is the most mature they've sounded. The chill lo-fi hip-hop beat was a good choice and a great change up from their usually more bratty and pop/rock infused songs. ITZY have been super inconsistent with their discography - and from what I've heard so far, I'm not going to like the title track.
RIIZE "Love 119"
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The song samples Izi's "Emergency Room" which was a huge hit in the 2000s (I don't like it much). The track sounds okay, but I can't stand the chanty chorus, which almost ruins the song for me. Also the voices sound very processed (and high pitched), SM usually does better productions than this.
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quadquotes · 1 year ago
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izy: holly isnt beating the furry allegations holly: no, if i’m a mouse i’m not a furry, i’m just a mouse clay: sounds like a furry’s excuse
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curryvillain · 1 year ago
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.@IzyBeats Links Up With @ManuelTurizoMTZ & @StefflonDon On "Tu"
GRAMMY-winning Producer/Recording Artist Izy Beats has been really busy these days. When he’s not collaborating with some of the biggest names out, he’s reaping the benefits from all his hard work. Having lent his sound to Gold and Platinum selling, and GRAMMY winning projects, all this didn’t happen overnight. Get ready for a hot summer with the release of his new single, “Tú“. Featuring UK…
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dhusa · 1 year ago
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IZY BEATS - MASEGO - TOIAN - "TIPSY"
IZY BEATS – MASEGO – TOIAN – “TIPSY” More music at www.Jamdiggy.com
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ask-izi · 1 year ago
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/ i think Izi’s story in the heresy begins with the shattered legions/disciples of the flame story beat. If I ever write about it, I’ll have Izisquad join the disciples of the flame on Mezoa (bc salamanders are my second fave legion) until the titandeath.
Izi 🫱🏾‍🫲🏿 cassian dracos
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48lexr · 4 months ago
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Day 32 (1:02 in extended-base 30-7) of re-writing my novel
Yeah ok today I couldn't help myself and I cut to the chase: introducing Taguchif, the Hero of Doom, and easily the character who would beat all the others in a full-blown battle.
(Also, I never answer it anywhere, but Zenestian surnames are always first: In, Ihine, and Eheste are the most common surnames I write about.)
In Taguchif
19 year old Taguchif (nick. Tagif) is the Princess of Atepsi and the Sixth Hero, and therefore the last one needed to save Meiste. Due to other circumstances, her Realization isn't what sets Meiste's return to normalcy in motion. That will come later. She's Izi's sister, tech god, and explosive (in a literal sense).
She's about 5' 10", and goes around wearing her metal chestplate with gauntlets, wearing gray sweat pants and sneakers. Her midriff is usually exposed, as well as her arms up to her elbow. Her skin is darker than Izi's (whose is already pretty dark), and she has green eyes with long, wavy hair.
Backstory
Taguchif and Iziser were separated once Izi was born, and Taguchif was raised with her mother in Atepsi city as an only child. She was never aware her mother, Ihine Dolgof, was the Hero of Life.
As a child, she gained a knack for working with technology, and she came up with her best invention, termed the 'technoplate.' It's a chestplate and gauntlets designed initially to harness magic, but later designed to suppress it.
Speaking of suppressing magic, Doom can be a volatile magic, and Taguchif's Realization is no different. When she turned fifteen, she started seeing signs, but it got progressively worse until her final Realization when she's with Izi and Hota.
In addition to being Hero of Doom, though, she's also the Princess of Atepsi, and a very influential figurehead, though powerless under the Atepsi Constitution.
Abilities
Fire is one of the key symbols of Doom. She breathes fire out of her mouth and her eyes glow orange.
But also there's poison skin, so don't touch her unless she says it's okay.
She can also shapeshift, but it takes a lot of energy, especially to get a lot larger.
Those are the main three for now.
Quotes
"Too late...you're cooked."
"Huh...nice."
"Oh! You want to hear about the holograms!" Yaps for 30 mins uninterrupted.
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