#It's also something for me to talk about with my therapist tomorrow I'm sure 😂

[herefortarlos]

Please wish me luck as I call my dad back almost a week later since he tried to call me, but I was not in the mindset to deal with that. I am just barely in the "I can deal with this", headspace and I'm hoping this doesn't drain me. The second he inevitably starts taking about politics though, I am done.

[nani-nonny]

I swear nonny am about to go to your house and enter just to ask you; WHY YOU MADE IT SO SHORT?!?!?!/HJ

Ngl, i was watching gameplay of video game call " ghost trick " until i got email notification about your " am blue " it took me half minute to realize it's; 1- from you. 2- it's " I'm blue " fic 💙💙💙💙.

I start reading and what else?! Mf Old timer strick again with LCD, am.so close to tackle that mf to STOP BULLYING HIM!! He had enough!/j

Like the cry bullied baby he is, LCD leaves immediately to his tent to cry leaving the big boys to talk.

Blue chewing the jerky reminded me of that one obnoxious kid who chew gum just so he doesn't focus on the lecture in classroom 🤣

When DMD asked old timer why he get called old timer i felt; 1- bruh moment because " old timer = old as fuck ". 2- What if LCD's turn came up?!? ( now idk what i must get worried about?! LCD get exposed to the rest of the leos or WDS's fic end & bishop... Nani you're torturing me).

So back to the name choosing and no lies or disrespect? I feel you took half of chapter describing what old timer feels whe he got asked the question 😂 it made me think " yo nani are you trying to skip or give little details in the fic?! Answer me! " 🤣

After 24 years, old timer finally answer with he's obviously older which wants me to pull the " you don't say " meme xD

Then here comes the age reveling where i get to know REUNION IS 61!! AFTER THAT IS DMD WITH 49 And WDS is 44 and i bet you money on it; LCD is the youngest!! I just know it!! (Which make it more funny because the middle kids are gonna bully the youngest for begin a killer)

Reunion's Audacity calling them " children " made me laugh, imagine his old ass whenever he regroup with them he say " okay kids/children... " or " kids that's enough " 🤣🤣

And then he turns to LCD's tent and called him out remind me of mom when she says " you're (name doing something) tomorrow " which DOESN'T help me sleep at all.

It would be funny if LCD wasn't sleep but after hearing Reunion's order he REALLY isn't getting any sleep LOL.

AND THEN THE BIG STUFF HAPPENS!! My dude slips and admits he didn't win the war on his first try and man oh man!! He cracked some gears into the two (who knows maybe 3 if LCD wasn't sleep).

And then dipped and left like a dad announcing he's going to get the milk.

Leaving DMD & WDS, am sure WDS WANTS to share about his ghost brothers but after knowing DMD lost everyone... Yeah he said nope to that, NANI YOU'RE TORTURING THEM!!!

Hahahaha! All I’m Blue chapters are about 1-2k words long heheh

Also, you have me on your notifs? :((( thank you /pos

Achilles(LCD) just makes it so easy for Old Timer (Reunion) to tease him. /j Old Timer’s totally not trying to see where Achilles’s limits are so that he knows where are the good places to step in a field of metaphorical landmines /hj

“Nani you’re torturing me” I’m not trying to :) /t

Old Timer is a sentimental old man whose therapist told him it was okay to take a moment to himself to think long and hard. And he’s trying not to spill too much about himself, so he has to take a moment to think or he’ll say too much, as seen at the end of the chapter :)

Yess!!! Age reveal! Old Timer is the oldest at 61, Barbarian (DMD) is 49 (I thought a lot about what his age is and nearly made him 53 because it made more sense for the DMD fic but he also greatly exaggerated his age in his fic so… *shrugs*), and Big Blue (WDS) is the youngest at 44 (he’s currently 1 or 2 years younger in his fic at the moment).

Old Timer’s original age was going to be 70, but I cut him some slack and reminded myself that he’s not that old, I’m unconsciously trying to make fun of him. But he does have some elder rights to call them children, they are almost 2 decades younger than him hahaha

And it would be funny if Achilles (LCD) was awake through it all *sweats and runs away*

And oh how the mighty have fallen! Old Timer slips up his words and spills more than he would have liked hahaha! He really kicked into high gear and left as quickly as he could, can’t risk spilling more beans!

“Nani you’re torturing them!!” Nuh uh /t

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 2985

i like that the month of october goes along with how many days it's been past 2980. like today is the 5th, it's 2985. cool.

also my birthday is tomorrow (the 6th). it's technically my birthday here now, but it's not even 1am and i'm not asleep yet from the 5th. but birthday. more on that later.

today i got up early and went in for PT. we didn't even do much but my shoulder was YELLING all day. sore. achy. deep, deep ache. pretty miserable. but i took two advil and made the best of it.

after that i went to work with the kiddos. they are both doing really well and i'm super proud of them. like they've both improved so much since i started working with them in january and i'm so, so happy for them. their mom is happy too. she also asked me to teach her husband about the math so he can help when the kids get stuck and i'm not around. 😂 which is fair.

after that i stopped for a soda and ice cream which i had a feeling i'd want. we had game tonight, but we didn't focus on anything, really, but i was even late to doing things because i was talking to lisa and joel and daniel about the con schedule. i told lisa i wasn't going to fill up the craft room, and she gave me a look like "sure okay *rolls eyes*" all in one look and i said "im not fucking doing it. i can't handle it." and my voice broke, of course, because that kind of stress is not something i can fucking handle. no. i'm not doing it again. i didn't fucking eat last year. i'm not doing it again. and of course i cried, and joel came over to hug me and i weakly tried to protest because all i initially wanted to do was punch a wall. he held me and i just slumped to the floor and cried. i'm not gonna do it again. i'm never fucking doing that again. i don't want that stress, i don't want that chaos, and i don't want to be yelled at again by some entitled asshole who doesn't fucking get to tell me what to do.

anyway.

PT sucked this morning. deep tissue massage made it hurt even though i didn't do almost anything. the therapist gave me a few things to do at home.

work was fine. it was a "lie under the table" kind of day.

other work was satisfying. i drew gabby and myself on a paper and then gave the kids math problems.

in the meantime, my cybersecurity class professor hasn't posted module 3 anything. it's almost the end of week 3 of a six week class and we haven't heard from him since last friday. i sent a few people emails. one kicked back saying "i'll be out of the office." the other said "i'll pass this on and see what i can find out." fuckin professor hagen comin in clutch, as always. the absolute fucking legend.

got ice cream.

changed up the con schedule. had a breakdown.

had game and didn't even really so much. looked at financial aid stuff and assignments due.

watched a bunch of facebook videos while eating my ice cream which i definitely needed.

been reading fics.

in bed now.

want joel hug.

birthday tomorrow.

turning 30.

thirty???

jesus.

[dreamwritesimagines]

chapter 3, let’s go! probs gonna be the last i do tonight, cause it’s late and i have a lab tomorrow morning soooooo…. yeah…

my boy curtis!!!!! oh i love this man. he’s the only one with at least two functioning braincells. he literally runs a daycare for these kids (yes that includes frank, because i said so). honestly, we all need a curtis in our lives. he’s funny, he’s smart, he’s sensitive and he knows how to keep a secret.

the flashback made me tear up. they literally act like a couple. people perceive them as a couple. how blind can they fucking be?! also, maria, my darling, i love you so much.

‘what’s there not to afford, your hair products?’ SKITTLES, BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH THE KILLER BLOWS. omg, love, might be one of the best lines in this entire fic.

not skittles literally saying that bill would only present to them the girl he’s marry and then being too blind to realize she’s talking about herself… come on girl, you’re supposed to be smart.

skittles is jealous that billy has a girlfriend. still willing to play blind, sugar plum?

curtis knowing when to mind his own business is something i need people to do in my life. gosh. good friendship. also, him commenting about billy’s love for the drama. this shit’s gonna become a recurrent theme.

ooooooooh right. the fiancé’s name is carter…. that’s so bland….. lol

‘i love you charming’ what is he, fucking toilet paper? skittles, come on girlie, you can do better than that.

the vibes of skittles and billy in a shitty bar are immaculate. she must look so out of place though. btw, what was her style? like how does she dress herself? we’ve seen what her mother makes her wear but not really ho she dresses herself, except that she refuses to wear jeans. does that means she rocks the pantsuits often????? please tell me it does…

not billy throwing shit about the fact that ‘his girlfriend is the only one who cares about him’. boy, she’s your therapist. she should be stripped of her licence to practice psychology/psychiatry just because of that, amongst all the fucked up shit…

they way they know each other and bounce of each other is beautiful. i wish i could have that but unlike skittles, my childhood best friend turned out to be an asshole that i am still forced to see almost every single day soooo yeah… (oops, trauma dumb!) the way that she knows not to push him because he will close up and ignore what she asks and the way he knows that she’s constantly living in shock.

skittles being in brand and shading the shitty beer as if she can’t see the ambiance… queen behaviour.

Omg loveeee you made my day with this, I can't thank you enough! 😱❤ you're amazing! ❤

Oh Curtis is the only calm and responsible person among them 😂

Loll they acted so much like a couple and I have this HC that after that night, Maria told Frank they would end up together ❤ And Frank was like "Too bad they're both oblivious idiots" 😂❤

Oh Skittles has no problem with dragging Billy 😂

She was so jealous even if she had an actual fiance 😂

Drama is fun though! 😂😂

I feel like she wears a lot of dresses and omg pantsuits?! 😱😱 Great idea! ❤❤ She would make sure to pick eye-catching pieces and always high heels 😈

Billy is still bitter over the fact that she wasn't at the hospital ❤

Awww I'm sorry to hear that! 💔 I hope things feel better honey❤❤

Thank you so much for this comment, it is incredibly nice of you! ❤