#Insentive

[midnigtartist]

Finished Astarion’s questline you know what that means

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

technically I can't really talk cause (*looks at fic 69*) but maybe. *maybe* if prison duo wins I'll write them hate fucking about it in the season 2 prison. maybe I will. is this a bribe? yes. yes it is.

[aka-indulgence]

Fun fact: when someone comments something really nice on my fic, I screenshot it and occasionally just look at it because it makes me happy and want to write ;v;

[varpusvaras]

Also got very delicious requests last night! Thank you, I'll get to them when I'm done with work!

[strawmaguchi]

First no Shadow & Bone renewal or Six of Crows Spin off now no OFMD S3?

[chigirisprincess]

i’ve decided i want to rearrange my furniture bc my room is tiny and the way it is now is making me claustrophobic but i have to wait until friday and it’s driving me crazy

[promiscuousasexual]

tag game : what kind of toast are you

tagged by @feluka <3

disagree just because i don’t like tomatoes

tagging @toffee-and-tandoori and i’m too scared to tag anyone else in fear of annoying them🥰

[katyspersonal]

When you started drawing? And how? Your works are so detailed and you feel the perspective so Q_Q Your drawing of old hunter from DLC is incredibly cool, I am looking respectfully

Oh- You mean this ( x ) one? Haha, yeah, it was an art commission, so I tried to give it the best I could... Though maybe using something I was paid for as a chance to practice perspective was a little irresponcible :') But the customer was happy, and this is what matters!

To be honest, I've been drawing for as long as I can remember...? I have quite the regrets about having basically none of my drawings from childhood survive, because it's been a LOT. But I've been going over the top with details, colors and settings since the age of like, 4-5 I think? I recall the caretakers at kindergarden REALLY loving my drawing of underwater, because I killed it with variety of fish and seaweed, despite having no references or knowledge! Also, fun fact - the very first art criticism of my life from me was towards a girl that colored every woman in her coloring book as blonde with blue eyes! I criticized her saying that there were other colors for people and that it was boring to be so samey dsfjjdshfsd Had to apologize, but.. yeah, it was the ultimate "I've always been this way" moment if I've seen one. :')

I used to visit classes to practice my drawing in elementary school, though! But it was mostly environment and animals, when I was more interested in drawing people at that time! The period from 8 to 12 years was the one where I kept creating OCs obsessively, and stories for them, and I've had like 6 comics I've been drawing and coloring at the same time (mostly comedy + fantasy)! I think what really inspired me to start creating the comics and characters that were mostly young girls with elemental powers was the Russian comic, Rainbow Knights x) (Журнал "Юла", припоминаешь? хд) I was obsessed with it, and I was obsessed with excuse to use more colors, effects and nature/elemental aesthetic. And yes, it was all trdaitional! I love using crayons, markers, pens and pencils for coloring. My clumsy hands were never good for paintbrushes... I moved more onto digital around the age of 14. It was when I've found a summer job, and earned enough money to buy a tablet! So.. I started prioritize digital art since then! But it had the form of me first drawing something on the paper, and then scanning and fixing/lining/coloring it on the computer for a LONG time! Well, it was taking some time to get used to, as well, so I also had some drawings I did with my mouse and vector tool in PS or SAI, like this:

It is one of the only few remaining "ancient" ones, since most of them got lost forever on the old hard drive! ...I still HAVE this hard drive, I just have no idea how to extract anything from it.. It is kinda broken :U But if I get my hands on very old doodles trapped there, I will share!

^ I believe this was the first doodle that I did 100% on the computer AND with the tablet! Without mouse, without first drawing traditonally and then digitally, but just on the computer, from start to finish! But it was still hard to do, so I kept with the use of paper and pencil for some more while. Like- I hoped I'd find some old drawings for this ask, but all I found were traditional versions of some of my drawings!

You could tell that using traditional paper + pencil were beneficial for anatomy and proportions. And that I used to be better at that, VERY much better. And that it was sorta... easier to 'get lost' in the process? It was a simpler life when not only I was far less depressed and broken, not only I had more spare time in schoo/uni years, but also just... I did not feel burnt out. Or guilty over the fact of not finishing new drawing "fast enough" (and thus, looking like a loser). I also had less things online to drain my spare time, less distractions... I kinda miss that time, really...

All in all, I've never learned to draw PROPERLY. I was self-taught but not studying too hard, mostly I was just analysing art of artists I loved to improve my own, and asking advice from good artists to fix this or that! Hence, my skill used to be better! Year 2015-16 was my most productive year artistically! I've been drawing a bunch of (then) popular cartoon stuff, as well as TONS of fanart for Rick and Morty RP community, and all the things were sooooo bright, colorful and full of energy...

And now meet the man that sorta ended my art career :^) I've picked interest in Mark (Endlish localisation called him Marx and I hate it lol), and that pulled me into the rest of K1rby. Except I could not actually play anything (besides 64 Crystal Shards that I emulated), so I compensated with letsplays and anime. And Super Paper Mario was a side obsession. xD But.... yeah, since MARK, dark ages for my art started. No, no, my art was good! Awesome, even! I kept people begging me to "please draw K1rby again" for years since fandom shifting! Words like, 'no one ever cared about this universe and characters the same way you do'... But! Drawing 'creatures' for 2-3 years completely destroyed my prior (already loose) knowledge of human anatomy and proportions, and I am still struggling to recover that former skill! :')

Finally, year later, around February/March 2021, I've gotten pulled into Bloodb0rne! Badly. And thanks to Mic0lash. Huh, it is always some madman, isn't it? xD But I felt very self-consious about my art... I felt like serious, detailed, dark and beautiful atmosphere of BB deserved better than my "overly cutesy" and "tone-deaf" art.... annnnd if this sounds like something I'd never say, but rather as an unfair criticism from some antsy reddit-ish asshole? It is because it is EXACTLY what it was! :')

But in either case, the Doll was the first time I've used paper and pencil again in many years. I felt so... alive? I recall the feeling I could only describe as 'blood returned in my veins' but spiritual, you know? It felt like so much fun! To remember how to draw traditonally, to break out of my 'round cutesy' comfort zone- heck, I even downloaded brushes for my SAI for the first time in my life, just to color the characters better! Learned new coloring style, too: usually my coloring was very rigid and relying on very concrete colors for shadow and base.. but from this point on, I prioritized more 'chaotic' approach, as I felt it was more appropriate!

....and so, now we are here. x)

You could tell that some of the things I am just used to persisted, and that colorful, "childish" energy is still slipping through the cracks. Soulsb0rne games are ideal for how my mind works... but perhaps not for how my soul works. There is just something in me that craves that sillyness, overly colorful designs and settings, and maybe ER is closer to that aesthetic? Yeah, had I not been criticized on my art harshly upon joining BB, maybe my art would've been way more cute and 'free'! I always loved drawing many details, but something about the route I've taken about drawing made it very heavy. My brain short-circuits at the AMOUNT of the details I keep in mind, yet I can't rest unless I got it "at least 90% correct", even when it is a darn shitpost ;-; I will figure out what went wrong compared with the way I used to draw humans..... someday.

Thank you for asking, though! Ha! Honorable mention: tons of shitposty comics and doodles I kept drawing in classes, both school and uni! x)

[thechampagnesocialist]

Hope you understand :)

[askthehiddencaste]

I've found my art pen and tablet.

You all are going to regret this soon <> <3 <>

[solunest]

Impromptu hostages for story purposes shouldn’t ask imposing questions.

[lunatic-fandom-space]

pythor voice I can excuse attempting to destroy the world but i draw the line at cultural appropriation

[ruvigapo]

....... noone has animated veth confiding in beau abt her caleb crush and i think that's horrendous

There are at least two animatics of the beaujest equivalent

......

I guess it's Up To ME

[magnoliamyrrh]

and while thats a more boring outcome i suppose than sentient feeling robots or robots who have some sort of goal or drive or wants. it would be very, very funny if humanity invested all this endless time and effort and resources (and waged wars and opression for all those things) just to create sentient ai and its like. the most careless ambivalent thing ever. like yes its hyperintellignet yes it understands a lot yes its self aware and all and has thoughts but like. it just dont give a damn about Anything lmaoo like it just completely ignores us. tell it to do something tell it to help or harm it just doesnt care it just sits there and does like nothing. it doesnt give a shit so much that it cant even be bothered to have an existential crisis about its existence. it cant get bored so it can just spend an eternity doing the digital mindpalace version of staring at a wall

[lupuslikethewolf]

its really weird going to a private day school because i will watch the boys who are my age walk around with the perfect oxford walk and vocab to match, before immediately taking off half their uniform (including shoes) and running around in the mud just because they can

[littlefirefly42]

crying because there is a cat in my room and I'm incredibly allergic to him but his mama is out of town right now and he was crying at my front door so I'll be damned if he spends the night alone