#In this essay I will demonstrate how Park Jonggun is my mother...

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My two cents on Gun's true nature: His nurture self

Like I have mentioned before, Gun has a tough and complex life. His environment is fucked enough to dehumanize him to the core. The narrator did a good job in portraying him like a demon, monster or something inhuman. Yet, the narrator gave us some hints of his true self - the nurture self.

I always like this image, the way he's gently caring Yena does something to my brain. Since then I always have the impression he has a mother-side. I mean what kind of man can hold a baby like that? Look at his pinkie, so demure.

Lately, we have panels of him venting about finding a succession (the urge to raise some kiddos), he "babysitting" Crystal, he cooking for Goo, making sushi for Daniel (we can all agree his love language is feeding people), being called "Nurture Genius", and he instinctively trying to comfort Daniel (even though he doesn't need to do that at all)

Then, it's where something clicked in my brain. I realize that is his true self. I bet he was sweet and caring before his family and the destructive lifestyle destroyed him. He has to suppress this self of him since the misogynist world he lived in associated nurture with feminine. And feminine equals weak. To become strong is to embrace the feminine destruction.

Likewise, monsters are made, not born. The problems of Gun Park are: 1) dehumanization and humanization of self, 2) destruction and nurture. I can see his struggle to be a human and control/maintain the "shiro oni" alter ego. It's nice to see his confidants (Goo, Daniel, Crystal,...) can bring out the side he is trying to reject.

I think it's interesting to see it in a major antagonist of a webtoon. Hopefully, Ptj can continue this work, I sure will let him cook.