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20+ Books That You (Might Actually Want) To Read During Pride Month!

Right, so. I got annoyed after seeing the list referenced in this post last night, told myself that my books are all packed up so I couldn’t do anything about it, and lasted all of a whopping 10 minutes before picking up my phone and attempting to make my own list instead. Behold, my from-memory attempt to present 20 books with strong LGBTQ plots, characters, and/or authors, that DON’T just rely on Suffering and Identity Politics and are... you know... fun.

Listed in alphabetical order by title. Links take you to Bookshop.org, where you can buy them from your local independent bookstore at a discount and NOT from the evil empire.

1. A Master of Djinn – P. Djeli Clark * author of color * steampunk Cairo in 1912 * djinn! magic! murder mystery! * butch Arab lesbian main character * devout hijabi Muslim badass assistant * anticolonial alternate history

2. An Accident of Stars – Foz Meadows (Sequel: A Tyranny of Queens) * trans author * bi, pan, trans, aro representation * racially diverse characters * all female POV characters * high-fantasy world adventures

3. Boyfriend Material – Alexis Hall * queer author * look I love this book SO MUCH and have absolutely screamed about it before but also I LOVE IT SO MUCH * contemporary M/M fake dating in modern London, complete with full cast of disaster found-family queer friends * it is. fucking. HILARIOUS. I almost died the first time reading it * there is a sequel called HUSBAND MATERIAL scheduled to be released in 2022; I am a normal amount of excited for this book

4. Gideon the Ninth – Tamsyn Muir (Sequel: Harrow the Ninth) * the book cover says “Lesbian necromancers explore a haunted palace in space!” * that is exactly what you get * slow-burn enemies-to-lovers F/F main romance * I cannot describe this book, it is dark, genre-bendy, science fiction-y, Hunger-Games-with-lesbian-necromancers-in space? Kinda? I have literally never read anything like it * also fucking HILARIOUS

5. One Last Stop – Casey McQuiston * queer author (who wrote Red White and Royal Blue) * bisexual fat girl from the South/lesbian-daughter-of-Chinese immigrants from the 1970s-riot-grrl main romance * time traveling mystery involving the Q train in Brooklyn (mentions Brighton Beach ahem) * magical realism * many more found-family chaotic queers including a trans Latino psychic and a Black accountant by day/drag queen by night and the mean little gay disaster who has a hopeless crush on them

6. Parasol Protectorate (series) – Gail Carriger * this is one of my favorite series, and there are five books: Soulless, Changeless, Blameless, Heartless, and Timeless * steampunk vampires/werewolves late Victorian London, like Jane Austen crossed with P.G. Wodehouse (they are all fucking hilarious) * pretty much everyone is queer; we got your flamboyantly camp gay vampires (Lord Akeldama ftw!) We got your gay werewolves! We got your lesbian French inventors! We got your big disaster idiot werewolf main male love interest! We got your crazy adventures! You name it we got it! * two spin-off novellas: Romancing the Werewolf (M/M) and Romancing the Inventor (F/F) * she has a ton more books in this same universe and writes sexy queer supernatural romance as G.L. Carriger

7. Plain Bad Heroines – Emily M. Danforth * queer author * historical horror-comedy set between a haunted girls’ school in early-1900s New England and in the modern day * all sapphic female main characters * plays with style/form/voice, a story within a story within a story

8. Red White and Royal Blue – Casey McQuiston * you’ve probably heard of it but here I am reccing it again * the biracial son of the first female POTUS falls in love with the Prince of England; shenanigans absolutely ensue * yes, the British monarchy still absolutely sucks a big fat dick * hilarious, heartfelt, reads like fanfic, just go get it, it will change your life

9. Rosaline Palmer Takes The Cake – Alexis Hall * same author as Boyfriend Material, this is his newest * bisexual female protagonist * absolutely perfect satire of The Great British Bake Off (you can tell this man has watched EVERY SINGLE SERIES and all of the holiday specials) * sweet and surprisingly thoughtful

10. Starless – Jacqueline Carey * genderqueer/transmasculine main character of color * almost all main characters are brown people! * lush Middle Eastern/India-inspired fantasy world * gods, prophecies, monsters * the best Oh God Why Me I Am A Horrible Mentor wise-old-mentor

11. The Future of Another Timeline – Annalee Newitz * nonbinary (they/them) author * time travel but make it The Handmaid’s Tale * will probably make your head explode * feminist, queer, subversive * diverse characters

12. The Gentleman's Guide to Vice and Virtue – Mackenzi Lee * queer author * technically YA but historical/magical adventure set in the 1700s * bisexual disaster main protagonist and love interest of color * (mis)adventures across Europe * has a sequel (see below) with the badass asexual sister of the protagonist

13. The Hate Project – Kris Ripper * nonbinary/genderqueer author * M/M enemies to lovers/sex with no strings attached (spoiler alert: strings attached) * HECKING HILARIOUS * sweet, escapist, and very low stakes * diverse characters, including fat protagonist with realistic anxiety disorder

14. The Lady's Guide to Petticoats and Piracy – Mackenzi Lee * PIRATES, obviously * sequel to Gentleman’s Guide * asexual female protagonist * strong queerplatonic f/f friendship * more historical/magical 18th century adventures

15. The Last Rune (series) – Mark Anthony * Imma be real with you chief, I haven’t read this series since I was a clueless teenager with no idea why I liked Gay Stuff so much, so if it does turn out to suck now, don’t throw rotten veggies at me * but especially since it was written in the NINETIES, this series was hella progressive?! * gay characters, disabled characters, characters of color, all playing significant and heroic roles in six-book epic fantasy cycle * people from Earth end up in high-fantasy world of Eldh * endgame M/M romance for the main character * books out of print, I think, but you can find them cheap somewhere like AbeBooks; first one (Beyond the Pale) linked above

16. The Library of the Unwritten – A.J. Hackwith * queer author * heaven-hell-Valhalla supernatural adventures * The Good Place x Good Omens x Lucifer x The Librarians * Pansexual Black badass female heroine * Queer found families * The Sassiest TM Bisexual Villain Turned Reluctant Hero (is he my favorite? Why on earth would you think that.)

17. The Priory of the Orange Tree – Samantha Shannon * epic doorstopper science fiction/historical fantasy set in a vaguely 16th-century world * main F/F romance between a queen and her sorceress bodyguard * sassy old gay alchemist whose backstory will give you Feelings * so many strong women and characters of color * no homophobia! marriage is fully gender-neutral, spouses are called “companions”

18. The Song of Achilles – Madeline Miller * likewise one you have probably heard of but still * a little light on the myth/historical part imho, but the writing is beautiful and will give you many feelings * M/M romance between Achilles and Patroclus  * reimagining of The Iliad (her other book Circe is also really good)

19 The Stars are Legion – Kameron Hurley * all-female apocalyptic space opera * messy messy antiheroines * grimdark war fantasy * queer sci-fi drama

20. Witchmark – C.L. Polk * author of color * M/M romance * main character is a veteran and a doctor dealing with his own hidden magic and repressed war trauma * gaslamp fantasy set in a world reminiscent of post-WWI England * strong sibling relationship

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Random but does any other BNHA fanfic stuff annoy you? I agree with you on the Bakubitch stuff so I’m curious on more of your thoughts?

1) BakuBitch?!?!? I love it.

2) Honestly... a lot of my issues are with him. However, I will address the points I do have that aren’t about him.

-It annoys me no one does research. Look, it’s not hard to look up information about Japan and about schools IN Japan. It takes like five minutes. Japanese school years start in April and go until March. There are three semesters and summer vacation isn’t really a break for them. Plus, homeroom teachers move with the classes and classes stay the same. Like I get we default to our own experiences but c’mon, at least try. (Side note though, admittedly I made the mistake of thinking entrance exams took place earlier so Imma have to play with some stuff. See? Research is important!)

 Christmas also isn’t a thing for them and this more annoys me as a non-Christian than anything.

 Also, I’m only saying this as a writer who loves writing. I bitch about people not doing research for any sort of fanfics, including Harry Potter ones.

-This is more about comments but like... stop fucking commenting, great story I don’t like the pairing! I don’t care. You’re being a dick.

-I’m not a huge fan of the chat fics where EVERYONE is trans/gay/LGBTQ+ but those ones are usually ones you can tell are written by someone trying to seem cool or whatever. Also, as someone Nonbinary it just annoys me for some reason.

That’s actually kinda it. I avoid the other stuff that annoys me to much, but these things always happen (Above and below) and I often can’t avoid them. It’s more nitpicking stuff.

Now, onto the Bakugou specific stuff. But also not because really, the idea that a bully needs to be forgiven because they were abused makes me sick.

More under the cut.

Not only do we not actually have proof Mitsuki is abusive, not really as one scene proves nothing. But it also really annoys me as the person who bullies people is not held accountable.

 Here’s the thing- bullying someone is your own choice and your own fault. “But he’s having a hard time at home-” AND?! Why is a bully more important then their victims?!

 Newsflash, they aren’t. Bullies are abusers themselves. ‘Bullying’ is simply a nicer term we use when the truth is it is all abuse. So no. If it turns out Mitsuki is beating the crap out of him, I would feel bad. But I would still ask Bakuou face some fucking consequences for his actions. A bad past is not a get out of jail free card. Bullies do not become better people JUST because you’re nice to them or they’re removed from bad situations. It is actually therapy, punishments and consequences that make them better people.

 That leads to my next annoyance: A simple ‘sorry’ isn’t enough. Bakugou tormented Izuku. He physically beat him (first scene in the anime has him beating Izuku up for defending another kid- so it wasn’t JUST Izuku he bullied either). Bakugou told him to kill himself. That’s not okay. And I hate the argument he didn’t know better. No, I do. He’s not a little kid. He was 14 when he said it and by that age you do know better.

 Also- I’ve said it before, I will say it again.

 BAKUGOU DID NOT BULLY IZUKU BECAUSE HE WAS QUIRKLESS.

 He bullied Izuku because he was a dick with an ego problem who everyone spoiled the fuck out of and thought Izuku was looking down on him. So no, if Izuku did have a Quirk, Bakugou would NOT be his friend unless Izuku never was kind to him.

 My last issue is that honestly I just don’t like the idea he’s super important to Izuku. Bakugou has done nothing but torment Izuku and as someone who was bullied, and who started out as friends with my bullies, I just haven’t forgiven them and wouldn’t unless they actually proved to me they were sorry. I don’t care I was a kid back then, my feelings are valid.

 Bakugou really has no right to know about OFA, no right to be considered important to Izuku and he just... he just hasn’t earned that right. I don’t care he has a redemption arc, he hasn’t fucking made up with Izuku.

 Izuku has actual friends, let him hang out with them.

 Actually that gives me an idea...

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(1/?)Hey! I'm really sorry for the late reply :( I don't like sending long messages on my phone because I'm lazy lol. Anyway, I am not but I'll try harder 🤡 my biggest fear in love is meeting the right person at the wrong time, but I hope I find someone who loves me the way Kuroo loves (Name). Can I just have an irl Kuroo please. And I feel that! Kuroo is my ult fave but now I have a fave from each team. I'm actually lowkey becoming an Iwa simp again lol.

omg please don’t feel bad! we all have our own lives and you definitely don’t owe me anything. i’m the very same way. i actually only use this account when i’m on my desktop so dwai lol. i’m the biggest iwa simp istg. i started this account to simp about him but kuroo is out here stealing all the love/attention 🙃

i promise, you will find someone someday to treat you right. the right person will find you when you need them, but not necessarily right when you want them if that makes sense.  

(2/?) and it's okay! It was painful but the writing was great and it made me emotional :') I also take comfort in the idea that none of the haikyuu!! boys would actually do that. yeah! I don't know much about terushima and astumu but I know that I always see them depicted that way. Oikawa is such a complicated character and it sucks seeing people reduce him to an annoying play boy. They're all hard workers who care about their friends and have admirable goals

atsumu and oikawa radiate the same energy to me. they’re both ridiculously dedicated to volleyball, have fan-girls, and probably couldn’t maintain relationships in HS because of their volleyball dedication. not to mention they’re both a tad immature sometimes and rely on their friends/team-mates to reel them in.  

terushima is literally such a major nerd too like, this mans is in the highest class level. he’s smart and the way he plays volleyball? just a huge goofball. i may be slightly biased though bc i definitely thirst for terushima LMAO. he just matches kuroo’s energy to me and i live for that aesthetic  

(3/?) Honestly I haven't had a bad experience in a relationship (probs because I haven't been in one lol) but I've had bad experiences with guys in general so 🤷 I think mine come from the unhealthy relationships around me and a lot of self doubt/insecurity. We'll get there someday though. I'm glad you enjoy those scenes! I'm a sucker for angst but the gentle and genuine love between Kuroo and (name) is what really gets me :') It's hard to decide which scenes are my favorite tbh.

i am a jaded old lady when it comes to relationships imma be real 🙃 i’m bi and have dated one girl and multiple guys, and i’ve just been disappointed an endless amount of times. i'm more than happy to spend the rest of my life sharing a house with my home-girl and my dogs at this point. 

i’m really sorry to hear that you’re surrounded by unhealthy relationships and that you have insecurities. it’s not easy to overcome, but i know that you’ll be able to overcome anything that you put your mind to. 

shameless plug but my Complementary fic is also Kuroo angst ;)  in all seriousness, i’m glad that what i’ve written makes it difficult for you to have a favorite  😂

(4) The entire first chapter really got me because it was a mix between the pain that Bokuto went through and the relationship between Kuroo/name and Hikori (HIM HAVING KUROO'S LAST NAME??? I'm uwu but poor Bo). The soft and domestic scenes in chapter 5?? my heart ;-; also the "look at that, baby." you're killing me, Skye (are you okay with me using your name?)

(5) Reading about the past and knowing how it ends up when Bo comes back makes me so eager to see how it all gets there. I'm so excited read Chapter 6, esp since it's your favorite!! I have to brace myself for it haha. Also you are LOL. but really it's worth it and we're v luck you're sharing it :') (I hope this doesn't seem creepy akdfhkdj) same tho. I try not to hurt myself but here I am reading angst all the time and putting myself through my faves/reader suffering 😔 

you can most definitely use my name Skye! Please lmk what you’d like me to refer to you as 😍 I know not everyone is comfortable with terms of endearment

i’m ngl, the first chapter was actually supposed to be like the 9th chapter or something. but i (sadistically) thought that it might hurt more if that’s how the story starts off  🥴 

your compliments are 100% not creepy. they make me feel so warm and floofy hehe  🥰 i lowkey have desensitized myself to angst now, but i still won’t read “In Another Life” because I’ve seen spoilers for it and that made me cry. idk if that’s your type of thing though  🙃

(6/7) That's such a sweet reason to have that. I'm glad you have that kind of reminder. It's so important and I'm really happy for you ❤️ Ahh I wish, but I'm broke :') I know I want the aries constellation behind one ear and cat eyes behind the other (I love cats already but lowkey bc I love nekoma/Kuroo to akdfjh). My sister and I are going to get matching winnie the pooh and piglet ones too

(7/7) Then I want an islander inspired one because ya girl is Chamorro. and then one spanning my back diagonally but I'm not 100% what I want yet. I did end up doing it, just last minute haha. I hope yours went well for you btw! School is hard lol

that’s so cute that you and your sister are getting matching tattoos! that’s literally the dream 😍  is there a story behind the winnie the pooh and piglet? 

and i love your idea for the constellation tat! I was planning on getting a quarter-sleeve bicep tat centered around a Sag constellation. ugh i just love tattoos so much, i can literally talk about them for hours 🙃 i’m multi-racial, and i was gonna get an Asian dragon quarter-sleeve on my other bicep, a phoenix on my shoulder blade, and maybe even a tiger on my rib-cage but IDK it’s so expensive and just so much pain. the left side has all my Western tattoos atm  🤣

school can be so rough!! i promise though, it’s worth it in the end. what are you studying? 

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PLEASE DO NOT READ. PLEASE. IM BEING SERIOUS. ITS MY BIRTHDAY. WILLYOU GIVE THAT TO ME AS A GIFT? PLEASE. DONT READ THIS. :)

Ahhh soooo hmmmmm if you arent into dramas, emotional, depressing thoughts then i suggest that you stop reading this right now cuz im about to start something deep, something emotional

Its 11:47pm, 13 minutes before 12. Wow. I did the math right? Right? 13! Yep i love that show! Where did you cry? I cried at the beginning of episode 12. Where Hannah picked her phone and called Clay. Remember she put the bag on top of the car? And that moment, when she called Clay. Its fckd up! I have to stop! I felt i know what will happen next! I stopped! Not even kidding! I pause it. Went to the bathroom and cried. I dont even know why the heck i was crying. I just cried! But dont worry i finished it. I have too! Anyway. I dont know where to start.

I actually want to write this on my other account. Cuz i dont want people to be annoyed about this because some human in this world doesnt unfortunately understand depression, suicide or the feeling of being alone or left alone or someone who dont have someone.

But hey if i do that, hide and just be scared then im weak. So here i am :) that is why theirs a note at the beginning so that YOU HAVE A CHOICE anyway okay im gonna start now

Tomorrow is my birthday. Yey! Another day of fakesht. Some will post things about me. Good things about me. “Memories” we had. They will say they loved me, that they will be there for you always. That they are thankful to have you in their lives. Mygoodness. Im done with that. Done with that shts. Im sorry but i do not feel the way you guys think. I dont feel im appreciated enough. I dont feel the loved. I dont. Sorry.

Imma tell you a story about. Im not pleasing you guys to believe me that this is me. One who will always supports you. One who will be there for you whenever you need me. One who will tell exactly everything you wanna know. Im quite frank. I mean i say things straightly. Im that girl who will do everything for others. Who pleases people. Who tried a lot of times to be the number but always failed. Im nice. As much as possible i want to understand others. I want to love everyone. I hate wars. I hate discrimination. Colors or gender. Social status. Im open to everything and anything. I wont judge you if you are gay. If you are poor or fcked up kid. I wont. I will never ever. As much as possible, i dont wanna judge. Cuz man i dont know what the heck they are going through. I dont know the reason why she is wearing high heels and a leather jacket in the middle of sun rays. I dont know the reasons behind those smiles, those tears. I dont know anything.

I started being like, person who is as-much-as-possible-do-not-judge-people-base-on-what-my-eyes-can-see back in 2012 and beginning of 2013. Dont worry ill past forward things. Those years, i experience depression. I want to kill myself. I always cry. In the middle of the night. Those years the only thing i know is phone. Phone helped me a lot to somehow forget things. Those times im alone. Like no one is there for me or with me. Even parents. I was asking why the heck im into this. Im sooooo nice. Why the heck this is happening to me. What i have done to deserve this?

If you havent felt the feeling of suicidal. If you havent thought to kill yourself. If you havent try to kill yourself. The you wont understand. No. Depression is not just a “thing” that could passby. No. its not a joke. Its not a joke when you want to kill yourself because you feel that is the only way to end pain. That is the only option to stop sadness. If you never felt that feeling. If you havent thought using of knife to end your life while you are washing the dishes. Then you wouldnt understand.

Depression for me is fighting your self. You against yourself. The only way to get out of this is you, you have to figure it out on how you will fight againts your thoughts, those emotions, those negativities. You drown yourself on your on pool. It is a bit insensitive to say. I know sorry. But that is the definition i came up because that is my case. I wasnt bullied. No. at some point yes. But that is not the reason why felt suicidal. Its being alone and left alone. The feeling of you thought you have friends but you really do not have. Thats the reason why i wanted to kill myself. I love them. My friends. I truly love them. I treasure them. But the feeling is not mutual. They were smiling in front of you but guess what they are talking about you being so overreacting all the time. Being so weird. They stab you at the back. Loved you in the front.

That was back in 2012 and 2013. When i found that out. I stopped for a while. I was defeated for few days. But i said no. They wont win. Ill do what the fck i want to do. Fck them! Who cares! They are not happy with their lives thats why they look outside to make their feelings better.

Past forward. 2017. I thought everything is fine. I thought im done with those kind of stuffs. I thought i have “friends” now. Or at least someone i could talk to. But heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey. Nope. You havent. It feels weird actually. I really do thought im done with that. Feeling of being left alone. I really do thought im done. Its so weird im experiencing this again.

I chatted someone to see if that person cares about me cuz i really do care about her. I chatted her. She saw it. And didnt respond. Hmmm okay. I left the group chat to see if someone do care and chat me nice things or convince me or will try to help me. But no one. I posted something, like “stop caring to those who dont care about you” something like that not exactly okay. I wanted to see if someone or some of them will try to ask me if im okay. Or is there something wrong.

No. Nah. Not a single word from the people i was expecting to do something. That something matters to me cuz if someone did that something. At least i know i have one. I have someone.

But no one did.

Their silence kills me. Non response breaks my heart.

You know what hurts me the most? When they need me. Im there! Whenever they feel down. Dude! Im there to tell them theyre not alone. When they need a support. Im there! If i see them sad or alone. Im there! Im fck here. For them. But they are not. And i dont feel they will. They will someone be there for me. Its hard to explain. But i really do not feel like, they love me or they do appreciate me or they are there for me. No. i dont.

That is why i asked myself. Am i demanding? Am i not worthy? Am i expecting too much from them? Am i asking for more? Am i not being appreciative of their actions?

Am i selfish?

I dont feel i get what i deserve. I dont feel enough love. Im sorry

Im so sorry. I really dont.

That is why i decided to stop loving you guys. To stop caring about you and being rhere for you. Any of you.

I told you depressionn for me is fighting againts yourself. Yep i stand by that. But, a lift from ONE friend can help a lot. You dont need the world to fight with you. No. its your battle but a little help will help a lot. It could do so much things. All you need is one friend. Just one. ONE THAT WILL LISTEN TO YOU AND WONT JUDGE YOU. ONE WHOS OPEN TO TALK ABOUT YOUR SITUATION AND CAN UNDERSTAND YOU. JUST ONE.

2012 or 2017. I dont have one.

But there are 4 people who is still there for me on times i need someone. Im so sorry guys if i dont consider you as the one. Hahaahaha! If in case in the future you guys see this. Chesca my lovely chef. Diego my face of the night. Kezia my mentor my spiritual adviser my somehow everything kasi you always give me reason to breath again hahahaha and Rhea… yep youre here too. On the list. Wow hahahaha i mean on the list of people i should be thankful and whatever happen nanjan pa rin sila. Bukod sa pinautang mo ko. I felt the sincerity. Yung buong pusong tulong. I felt that with you when i needed money. I did not felt na may utang na loob ako sayo. You are sincere when you were helping. And i will never forget that.

Okaaaaayyyy where the heck am i?

Im lost. Ang haba kasi. Hahahaha! Its soooo long. I dont know if someone can survive on this longgggg emotional post hahahahaha

Its 1:02am

My birthday wish is i hope we can all have someone with us. Just one. One who will be there until our breath. It could be your future wife or husband. I dont know. But i really wish. We could all have the one. We deserve one. Everyone deserve one!

And be nice!

Your “hey are you okay? You can talk to me!” Could save a life!

And if you guys will ask… hmmmm how am i dealing with this sht again. I HAVE GOD :) well im still asking for someone cuz i want to have like a physical contact. Like i can call in the middle of the night and talk about non sense things. You know physical contact? Love you Lord! Dont hate me! Hahahaha!

But right now since i dont have someone, i have God, i can talk to and phone. Tumblr! Duuuhhh! I can write a book in here! Hahahaha!

Deep sigh I dont feel like i gave the message i wanted even though its like 134 pages now hahahaha ALL IN ALL. DONT BE A DICK. DONT BE A RUDE. BE NICE. BE OPEN. DONT JUDGE. HELP OTHERS. APPRECIATE PEOPLE. SPREAD LOVE. KINDNESS. AND TO THOSE WHOS SUFFERING SADNESS RIGHT. HEY! DO NOT STOP BREATHING OKAY? YOU CAN DO THIS YOU WILL WIN. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! GO FIND SOMETHING THAT COULD HELP YOU GET THROUGH THIS. GO BASKETBALL OR VOLLEYBALL OR PLAY PIANO OR LEARN ABOUT VOLCANOS IDUNNO JUST STAY BREATHING!!!! PLEASE!!!! FIND SOME INSPIRATION. YOUR IDOL!!! Selena Gomez or Demi Lovato!!! I dont know!!! Just, stay breathing okay? Okay? Promise me! I love you! And i love myself. Eventhough im fck up sometimes. And i love life eventhough sometimes it punches me right in the face. AND I LOVE GOD. EVENTHOUGH SEMANA SANTA IS ALWAYS ON MY BIRTHDAY! Love You Lord! :* Love you everyone! -eya