#Im sorry for the person I become June 18th

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DARLIIINGG

GUESS WHO’S BACK FROM JAIL?!!?

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190311 Soohyun Fancafe Chat (Part 2)

[Japanese translation by Hanae_93]

Everyone, what kind of hairstyle do you like〜? I heard that KISSmes want blond! Even if you say that, he doesn’t want to do blond any more. He said that his scalp hurts because it was bleached 6 times. Even pink. (laughs)

Someone in this photo is called grandpa  kekekekekekekekekekeke

・ There’s also a karaoke in the unit where Soohyun is, and he practices singing in there 🎤

・ There’s a soccer field, and after training, he plays soccer or futsal ⚽️ 

・ On the other hand, during vacation, he misses the squad.

・ Jun is a treasure. He does really well. I think Jun will do a solo in Korea. Soohyun isn’t able to do it because he’s depressed when performing solo (laughs)

・ In April, he’ll become a Sergeant

If you enlist the same time as Soohyun, normally you'd become a Sergeant in June, but because Soohyun worked hard, he became a Corporal about a month quicker, and he became Special Forces, so it took him 2 months less than usual to reach the top rank ✨

[English translation by junhaera_]

KM: i also changed my nickname Soohyun: ttinttu ttinddong - kkkkk - Kissmes - are you all doing well - let me know what you're up to these days

KM: working hard  - doing good  Soohyun: Wootokki  - kkkkkk  KM: i came back from the office  - clearly, i liked you since i was a student, now im employed and working  SH: everyone grew up a lot  KM: i had a dream where oppa made a comeback with blonde hair  SH: kkkkkkk

KM: and got married  SH: anyway - kissmes you cant get married  *kissmes be like why*  KM: i had a boyfriend because you are not around  SH: we'll be left out  KM: out  SH: eng?  KM: i wanna get married too  SH: do it , do it, do it  - just do whatever you want

Soohyun: Kissmes  - we're already 50 people (in the chat)  - yoohoo~~  - now we're getting serious  - it's so scary  KM: oppa when are you getting married  SH: kkkk  - my marriage  - hmmn  - ill do it with one of the kissmes (in a cute way)  KM: fail again  - kkk  SH: ill do it when im 50yo

KM: no one's answering  Soohyun: kkkkkk  - im not that bad  - why do you hate me, kissmes? (it's cute coz he wrote it in korean as 'kissmedeul-ah')  - so mean  - kissmes  - you're all dead set/firm  - kkkk

KM: it's bcoz kissmes have aged and changed  SH: kkkk  - when i get discharged  - i'll do activities in Korea  KM: finally  - wow  - solo?!  - looking forward to it  SH: solo?  - i think not  KM: unit?  SH: i dont know yet  KM: the other members are entering military  SH: i wanna do it in KR

KM: we'll look forward to it  Soohyun: Hoon will go in on 18th ㅠㅠㅠ  - so sad  KM: do a unit with Jun  SH: should I do a unit with Jun  KM: it'll be nice  - Junyoung oppa is a popular guy now  SH: Junnie - is very popular?  - he cant do it with me~~  - ey

KM: im surprised  SH: why?  KM: a lot  - avid fans of unb  - he's got a lot of fans  SH: kkkkk  - he has a lot of fans kkkk  KM: a lot of fansites too

KM: hello  Soohyun: hi  KM: pls take care of Eli oppa too kkk  - you should come out with Minsoo's dad too  SH: these days  - in the camp  - i watch music shows a lot  - i wanna do it too  KM: we miss seeing u on stage too oppa  SH: pls support me a lot  KM: yes  SH: but everyone is busy

KM: oppa can't you do a fanmeeting soon after getting discharged? just a simple one ㅠㅠㅠ teary  SH: phew  - me too  - i want to  - really;  - are you listening to YOU a lot?  KM: oppa aint you a powerful person in the company ㅠㅠㅠ you said you were ㅠㅠㅠ  SH: i am

KM: yes, listening a lot to it  - the wishlist  - please  - tell them to upload it  - im listening to YOU / YOURS a lot  Soohyun: kk kya  - YOU YOURS  - i gave it to you as a wonderful gift  - Ready 4U is high (note) song  - kkkkkk

KM: Junnie will have a solo concert and sing your song  Soohyun:  Jun will do a concert?  KM: yes  - on April  SH: April  - ah right  - is Jun's solo out?  KM: not yet  SH: kkk  - why do i not know this  KM: Jun is really working hard  SH: Jun is a treasure  - he's doing a great job

KM: After in Japan, he'll do it in Korea  Soohyun: i didnt know too that he'll do it in Korea  - he should (in a cute way)  KM: soohyun-sshi will definitely have a solo concert too, right?  SH: because i get nervous when im solo, i think i cant do it

KM: on ukiss youtube...the wishlist...they didnt upload for a year  SH: kkkkk  - i'm gonna film it after my discharge  - the wishlist  - on the camp, there's karaoke room  - im practicing  - kkkkk  KM: really?  - wow

SH: can i talk about it? kkkk  - later on  - when promoting in Korea  - i'll buy kissmes chicken again  - yup yup  KM: beer and chicken  SH: kkkk  - but the fancafe is really quiet  KM: right  - because there are no activities.. ㅠㅠ  - nonghyeop (NH) is not uploading pics or vids

Soohyun: writing letters after entering the military  - the response is really good  KM: it's quiet because the members are not posting  - if the members can come often

SH: ah right  - Kissmes  - sorry about my sudden enlistment  KM: ㅠㅠㅠ no, it's okay  SH: i wanted to go with you when i entered the army but there was a problem ㅜㅜ  - i will let you know after i get discharged  KM: it's okay as long as you are doing fine  - we understand

SH: even so after enlisting  - it's a relief that YOU & Ready 4 U was released, together with Yours  - fyi, my enlistment  - i was restless, i entered suddenly, u know it right? - said ill make memories with KM  - i want to say sorry to our krn kissmes  - im so sorry  - sorry, im sorry

KM: no, dont be sorry ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ  Soohyun: after my discharge I'll try my best without stint kkkk  KM: please take care of your body  SH: yes  - I'll go now  KM: bye  SH: im not leaving kkkkk  - there's nothing to do  KM: let's chat again here  SH: it's not even going to 100 ㅠㅠ  - kkk

KM: leader-nim has come here but why aren't people coming! ㅠㅠㅠ  Soohyun: kkk it's okay  - earlier  - i made the chatroom  - but for 10 minutes  - i was alone kkkkk  - talking alone  - kissme~ kissme~  - i was calling out alone  KM: solitary chat room  - we didnt know  SH: poor ttuhyeonie

KM: there's no notif when you make a chatroom  Soohyun: look after the members too ㅠㅠㅠㅠ that should do ㅠㅠㅠ  - im so ashamed kissmedeul-ah  hayan:  i just got off from work and came here ㅠㅠ  SH: hello~

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https://www.facebook.com/104057744428568/posts/156998459134496/?sfnsn=mo&d=n&vh=e

Fucking told him its a huge red flag if someone doesn't get rid of their apps. Multiple apps. Smh 😠 "oh yea i don't use them anymore" proceeds to use fb dating app" for real come on bro!

Some comments of the post:

"If you have to be checking up on your Partner then you shouldn't be with that person.. Idk how people have time for all this .. love yourself and know your worth.."

"If you're in a serious committed exclusive relationship you should not be on tinder. That's how I met my fiance and as soon as we said we are gf and bf and exclusive we both deleted it. Honestly if I was her I would have broken up with him too"

"a person also has a right to trust their gut feeling and check things out if something's not feeling right. Knowledge is power"

I've already discussed this but this news clip further validates my point of the topic, nothing more. I could call him out on hs bs further with detail, but I won't....yet, out of respect even though he probably doesn't deserve it. Til he reaches me & apologizes for everything he's done, i can say whatever tf I want & i could make a whole damn list.

Its the events of this what happened that started our downfall to begin with cuz i didn't trust him & he didn't even try to gain it back just left it as is when I could've turned my back right then & there, no apology either. Didnt apologize much actually, not even when i last saw him. But from then we spiraled & he got bored of me. I wasn't giving him what he wanted in whatever way & he wanted to find more. Closed himself off from the beginning & that created his boredom 😒

Would've had a blast together like a normal fucking couple if he was less closed off, & wouldn't have felt the need to do shit behind my back.

I'll stop talking about it for now, I have the anger & urge to keep going but I wont...actually no Screw it im pissed 😡 but ill keep it light. Its just not fair, I did so much for him but I was disrespected in different aspects of the whole relationship. Fuck! I've talked about the positives alot cuz i do love him..but the negatives are such bs too.

I want a good ass sincere apology for all of it so I can forgive him & move on, ive already apologized myself even though I dont think I should have to 😒. Didnt even give me a straight answer for the breakup, it was always a different excuse when I know he just wanted to pursue other women without me around im not fucking stupid. His own toxicity was too much even for himself & I was in the line of fire, to where i was the toxic one? No fuck that its unacceptable, he always lied when it came to covering his own ass.

For all i know he's watching me squirm & taking pleasure in all the pain I'm going through over him cuz he likes the attention. But no I actually don't think so on that one he's still good & ill give him credit where its due. But I gave him all the attention he wanted/needed & still wanted more from someone else. Really dude fucking really!?

Man up & own up to your mistakes, speak to me where I can actually hear ur voice speaking back to me with sincerity. We'll apologize together. Yea ull be pissed about this, but after u get over it & calm down. Give in & call me, granted when ur ready, & open up for once in your damn reserved life. Itll help us both with more closure & may even take a weight off our shoulders if we just talk it out, no arguing...since we're done there's no point anyway..a friendly non judgment zone cuz idc, i won't think of u any less.

U confused me during & especially after the relationship cuz i didnt know who u really were, i know the good cuz that's what u allowed me to see, ive accepted the bad that I knew already & from what ive learned...i accepted u regardless.

I always forgave u & not cuz im passive, cuz forgiveness is what the Bible teaches.. ive forgiven u & myself the best i could especially with the last things ive showed u, (accept this part cuz im pissed rn & standing up for myself, ill delete eventually maybe if u ask cuz nobody wants to be seen any less of a person. but I can make it alot worse, calling me the mistake was the worst thing u ever said to me & pointing out your faults so u can be better throughout the relationship was my only toxicity to u) we actually never really fought except the 1 time, just argued a tiny bit rarely about little things.

Ive tried using every ounce of my courage to show u how much im sorry for any wrong ive done. but its up to u now to make things right. U know me, ive always said that u can talk to me about anything. I want to be able to trust again & move on whilst staying friends. What else do u have to lose, might even have a great heart to heart convo dude to dudet

Everything ive ever said up to this point lies all my Questions. But here's most of the list, we both were equally in control of the relationship. Maybe u didn't want me to? But doing everything I had to for myself & the household, what u & ur parents wanted of me & just me being me cuz i had to, u had your own part to play & did provide...but did u actually not want me to cater to u if it were a sign u were lazy or something? Like did u not feel worthy of me? What is it u think is my "addicting personality" that isn't fixable on the surface? What is it really that u didnt like about me? This is why i don't have closure, u left me like this, confused as well as wanting more since u held back so much. Was that on purpose to give me even more false hope & want me to pine over u? Did u ever or do u still, love me at all? What did u want from me & out of the relationship, what was the purpose of it from ur perspective & why do u think i couldn't give that to u? What did i lack that u felt compelled to not tell me so I could improve & vise versa so we both could improve? Why wouldn't u allow me to help u become a better man when (I shouldnt have to btw), its exactly what u wanted but maybe didnt see it? Do u realize your own faults even as u do them? Lol. Like i genuinely want to know as much as the good ive seen, cuz to be better the more open of a person u are the more u understand yourself too.

Unless claiming u want to be a better man is part of ur alluring charm in love bombing process to land a caring girl on purpose lol...god I hope not, that would just mean u rinse & repeat like a for real narcissist 🤔 seriously tho look into that im not even kidding, im asking cuz i care. Im pissed now but 1 thing is that im trying to not put ur behavior against u cuz maybe u can't help it, its just the way u are, all ive seen & experienced points to maybe 50% of u lol. Ive always suspected narcissism, a real psych problem that might be worth looking into. But yea 1 of the reasons especially why im so forgiving & trying not to put it against u, why i still care despite u being a dick lol. I chose to look past it, all the time & up to now cuz I understand what its like to have psychological ailments. The worst part about it is most dont realize it, so i encourage u to do some research & self reflection & admitting it to urself are the 1st steps. Okay? There's different kinds & levels to being 1 too, i found that fascinating. bryan is definitely a different type, ur more lighter than that...definitely not the worst which is the physical harm type. Trust me its worth finding out more about yourself, just dont use it to ur advantage in a bad way but i trust u to do right & grow. Not sure a discarded supply (ie me) has ever tried telling a narcy what they might be for the benefit of their own self awareness 🤔,idk if its ever been done, but theres a 1st for everything? U can find alot on it in quora digest alone but Google is also ur friend.

You always were worth every effort of mine to help u in any way to be happy, & i was most happy when u were. U mean alot to me still, its the effect u had on me, I was under ur spell lol its hard to rid myself of it still, not sure when it'll pass. I chose to see it as a gift rather than a curse, that ur effect on me is still so strong when I shouldn't give a damn. If u really are a narcy, then I understand & don't put alot against u cuz its just the way u are & i need to accept it, but if it somehow helps u to help yourself cuz of it, then whats the harm? But, even in doing this or having my socials public for u...maybe just feeds into what u want...i still dont care, I want u to see how bad or good im doing without u in my life, so u know im okay at least. U promised friendship, least I can do is allow u to keep tabs on me too we spoke of, on my end of things.

The 18th of June was the last time i saw u. It'll soon be a month ago in about a week & a 1/2 & your birthday would mark 2 months. Cant believe we couldn't even last through to that 😔

Mark my words playa I will be contacting u on that day lol. Can't ghost your homie forever sweetie