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pinkykitten · 6 years ago

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Safe and Sound

Marvel

Loki x female! reader

Warning: some violence, 1 curse word

Specifics: angst, romance, man vs man, based off of iw, race neutral reader

People: Loki, you, Brunnhilde, Tony Stark, Pepper Pots, Stephen Strange, Bruce Banner (mentioned), Thor (mentioned), Thanos (mentioned), other Asgardians, Valkyries (mentioned)

Words: 1,825

Requested: By @jinx-is-fire 😢 um so ive been pretty upset because of this so could I have something where Loki lives and goes with Hulk to earth and meets back with the reader and just something that will get me to stop crying everytime someone says Infinity War

Authors Note: i am so sorry that this took me so long to write（>﹏<）please forgive me! im kinda still trying to get all my requests done just pls everyone just be patient with me cuz I AM SO SLOW! i also took an idea of what (i think) the russo brothers said happened to Brunnhilde. i hope u guys like this its my first loki fic and i tried my hardest. so pls feedback is much appreciated, thnx and enjoy!

“No Loki...I won’t leave you,” tears streaming down your face. Your hands grasping on tightly to Loki, your significant other, shoulders.

Asgard was destroyed, but you and a couple of others had rescued the people of Asgard. As you all were heading to your new home, Earth, an unknown ship appeared. When you all figured out it was the most powerful enemy known to mankind, Thanos, the whole ship was chaos. Many Asgardians sending distress calls to anyone who would listen. Children scared and sobbing, afraid, mothers trying to soothe them, but you knew they were also in fear. Some wanted to fight, but you and almost everyone on that ship knew Thanos could kill everyone. Thor gave an idea that a few people, because of the only few mini ships they had, could escape, so that Thanos would not wipe out all of Asgard. Brunnhilde was the leader of helping some Asgardians escape. Ushering and sending orders.

“Y/n...listen to me. You need to get off this ship, if you stay you will die,” Loki whispered to you, he tried to sound strong but you noticed his hands were shaking. His hands were placed on your cheeks, wiping the tears away.

“I don’t want to leave without you. What if-,” you swallowed a sob. “What if you get killed, Loki? What will I do without you?”

Loki chuckled, “Love, you do realize who you are talking to, right?”

“Loki this isn’t a game! The most ruthless being is outside this ship as we speak and you want to joke about it!”

Just then a loud bang was heard, and all the Asgardians ran around panicking. Thor sent out a few warriors to go fight and see the commotion.

“They’re here,” you breathed.

“My darling...you need to leave now. Please, listen to me,” Loki raised his voice, pushing you to Brunnhilde’s side.

“NO! Loki, please, I can’t leave you. We are one! If you die so will I! I can’t let you fight by yourself.”

“My love...there is no other way. Remember our time together,” Loki gently lifted your hand and laced his fingers with yours. “Remember us laughing, remember us crying, remember our magnificent love. For if I was any good enough for a second chance, we shall meet in Valhalla.”

“I love you Loki,” you sob as you embrace him, and kiss him goodbye. You put your forehead together with his and whisper, “may we meet in Valhalla.”

Brunnhilde sprinted to your side and grabbed you by the shoulders, “Alright y/n, its time to get it.”

You walked side by side with her and looked back to see Loki. Loki looked lost as his puppy eyes stared at you. He looked as if he wanted to shout your name so as you could rejoin him. He looked as if he would never see you again, that all that he is about to fight for is for nothing. It was as if his heart was taken away, ripped right through his chest.

“Goodbye...my darling,” Loki whispered and ran the opposite direction.

You were led to a tight ship, filled with many Asgardians. The ship started and all of you blasted away to a destination. You sat next to Brunnhilde to help her pilot the ship. You turned around to see if maybe you could spot Loki but all you saw was destruction. More tears came out like a waterfall. Deep in your heart you knew that you were to never see Loki again.

You straighten your posture and put your focus to the space in front of you. “Where are we going now?”

“Earth,” Brunnhilde said, tears also coming out of her eyes. You could hear a slight sniffling coming from her. “We need to warn the midgardians about Thanos.”

“I think they might already know.”

As your rescue ship heads towards Earth, the Asgardian ship suddenly explodes.

“NO! No...this can’t be happening! Please tell me he’s okay, that he escaped,” you asked to everyone, searching for a reassuring answer that he was fine, that he did make it out. But everyone just gave you a saddened look, all hope vanished, sucked out of the room. All the tears you tried to keep in suddenly rushed out. Your sobs were the only noise in the ship. You could tell some felt bad for you. The floor was covered in your own depressing tears, all of life that moment was ripped out of you. The moment that Loki died a piece of you went with him.

You stood up, your hands turning into violent knuckles. Your nails digging harshly into your skin, blood being created from that. “I will avenge you Loki Odinson, god of mischief,” you paused to cry some more, “my...god...my...love...I will avenge your death. I will make sure all those who hurt you pay.”

Brunnhilde nodded and set the ship to Earth. After the enemy.

You all landed on Earth more towards the city and to Tony Stark to warn him about Thanos. You wanted to hear his plan and if he didn’t have one then you would discuss something with him. To save humanity.

“Thank you Brunnhilde. But just as Thor ordered you and trusted you to protect the Asgardians...I am going to go my own way-”

Brunnhilde interrupted, “Y/n, I understand you are sad and scared because...I am too. All my nightmares are coming true and I don’t know what to do-”

You brought her to you and hugged her tightly. The hug in your mind was from Thor, Bruce, and all those Valkyries who were watching her from Valhalla and cheering her on. Your tears fell on her shoulder.

“Yes...Brunnhilde...I am scared, in fact I have never been more frightened than this. But these people, now your people, are more scared. They trust you and you are their only hope. I trust you, girl, you got this. You are the most incredible fighter I have ever seen. Keep that in your heart and use it. Try to find a hide out and keep them,” you say as you point to the Asgardians. “Safe. Protect them with your life...my friend...Brunnhilde.”

She nodded, and announced to the others to follow her to safety.

“I do hope to see you again, y/n.”

You bid your goodbye and left.

You called Tony and met up with him. You felt so bad to interrupt his non-violent life for the time. He was trying you can tell to be normal to focus on his life rather than others.

“Hey Tony,” you waved and try to give a smile, but it backfired on you. Your face was written with worry. “I heard the famous Tony Stark has gotten engaged you chuckled. At least a little sunshine, a little good news came out of this reunion. “It was about dam* time. Wish I could of seen it.”

Tony gave you his millionaire smile seeing you, his long time friend. You were by his side since Loki tried to take down New York. “It's really good to see you too, y/n.”

You went to pepper and gave her a hug as well as Tony. “You guys look...happy…,” you said feeling guilty.

“Y/n, what's wrong,” Pepper asked panic setting in.

“Great y/n, you’re ruining their lives,” you thought to yourself.

“Oh, guys, I don’t even know where to start,” you began sobbing over again. Your knees meeting the soft green grass of the park. “Thor, and Loki, and the ship, and Brunnhilde, and Bruce. I tried, they’re gone, I was so scared, I just,” you realized you were currently have a panic attack. Everything now was starting to affect you mentally. You all were going to die. There was no way out of this. Your breathing was heavy and you felt you were being suffocated. The world was getting tinier, darker.

“Y/n,” Tony got down to you. “Y/n, you have to breathe for me. Come on breathe for me, please.”

You started to do breathing exercises with Tony. Those breathing exercises would come handy, you just knew it. Finally, you got control of yourself to be in a normal state.

“I’m sorry, its just. I feel so empty, and lost.”

Tony hugged you and suddenly Dr. Strange appeared. He told both you and Tony to go with him, because he had to show you two something.

You were more nervous to find out if this something that Stephen wanted to show you guys was another pile of bad news.

As you walked into the portal that Strange created with his string ring you saw Bruce.

“Bruce,” you shouted as you sprinted towards him. Greeting him with a rough embrace.

“Hey y/n, good to see you too. Are you okay?”

Your arms, still wrapped tightly around his shoulders, squeezed tighter, “No, I’m not okay. But I’m happy you’re alive, was there any chance that maybe…”

You stopped hugging Bruce and returned your hands to your sides. You knew that Loki would not be alive. It was just pointless asking.

“Now why the long face,” came a familiar soft voice.

You lifted your head and turned around seeing the one and only Loki.

“Loki!”

Running as fast as your legs could take you, you hopped right onto him. You and Loki fell back and you hugged him the hardest ever. You were like a snake, your arms were aching from all the strength you put. You were just so overjoyed to see him here, alive, with you.

“Oh my god, I thought I would never see you again. I was frightened Loki, I was so scared that you had died. But now you’re here, alive, its, it's a miracle my love!”

“Oh my dear sweet darling, I am terribly sorry to have you frightened. All I wanted to do was keep you safe and sound. My heart broke in two when I saw you weeping, I also weeped.”

You cried some more, having your bodies against each other. To hear and feel his heartbeat was incredibly comforting and in his arms you felt safe.

Loki wiped your tears away and kissed lightly your cheeks, “Oh my love, please don’t cry. I hate to see you in such a state.”

“Loki, I’m just so happy to see you alive. I thought you were gone and now my life, my world you’re here. I never want to be away from you again. We fight Loki...together,” you declared lacing your fingers with his pale white fingers.

“My job, love, is to always protect you. Without that what good am I?” “I will protect you as well Loki, with every fiber of my body I will protect you...I love you so much Loki,” you embraced him again.

“As do I love you, sweetheart. Forever,” Loki whispered as he kissed you. A passionate kiss that set your whole body in flames. Now you and Loki would have to prepare yourselves for the battle. The battle of Thanos.

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discranola · 7 years ago

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autistic robin evidence

warning: super super long

y’all ready for this

evidence number ONE!!!! raptor hands!!! (this is also a thing i do!!)

ok so theres a rlly good blog called starbutterflyisautistic that shows exactly wht raptor hands are so!! heres a pic of star with raptor hands:

aND NOW HERES ROBIN W RAPTOR HANDS!!!

i have more examples in a post here (i only used th hd examples fr this post)

evidence two!! no gotdam personal space

that last one gets bonus points because hes literally inside cyborgs body (they have to tear apart cyborgs body to get him out)

evvvidence three: difficulty understanding the rules of conversation, difficulty understanding group interactions, difficulty maintaining friendships.

hoo boy this one. robin is, rlly, rlly bad at this. like rlly bad. combined w his poor empathy this puts him in a lot of bad situations like,

...the titans kicking him from the team for working them too hard and having no cares for their problems (the only reason robin became the leader again was because he broke kid flash’s leg). this situation happens twice, actually! theres two whole episodes (well, three since the second one is a two-parter) where kid flash takes over the titans since hs actually treats them well.

this isnt just robin being mean though!!

in one episode he says that he really does love and appreciate his team, he just doesn’t know how to show it at all, which leads to situations like him promising them pizza and then saying they have to pay for it

evidence four (back to th positive stuff!!!!!): special interests and infodumping!!!

...the other titans dont rlly appreciate it.

see, robin doesnt really infodump about idk, movies or games. he infodumps about money planning and public holidays.

this doesnt even happen once, theres several episodes where robin goes on about them while trying to explain them to the other titans and hes absolutely delighted. of course, it always backfires because well,

the titans think hes more boring than paint drying.

evidence five! oh boy this is a lot of evidence the way he talks

i was debating on whether or not to include this one, since it seems nearly every character on this show yells.... except apparently that isnt really the case.

in the episode jinxed, its shown that robin actually talks. a lot. loudly. so much that the other titans celebrate when he loses his voice (its a little mermaid-esque episode, kinda). dont know if this one exactly counts, but thats how i saw the episode.

evidence six is unusual attachments to objects and comfort objects, which is the plot of an entire episode!!

in the episode staff meeting robin uhh

is really attached to his staff (he straight up calls it his best friend which makes cyborg upset), and gets mad when his friends insult it and his attachment. in the same episode, the staff breaks (thanks to the other titans) and,

robin breaks too. he literally cant fight crime effectively anymore because he cares about his staff that much and pretty much falls into a depression until the titans decide to fix it for him.

EVIDENCE SEVEN!!! perfectionism.

in the episode ‘some of their parts’, robin gets split into his 5 main personality traits. obsessive, paranoid, crazy, controlling... and perfectionist.

apart from that already glaring piece of evidence, in the episode ‘uncle jokes’ when the titans dont meet the team dynamic they usually do, robin breaks down and starts acting like the other titans to “fix” the dynamic and make everything normal again because he cant handle change (which would fall under controlling as well, maybe???).

evidence eight/nine, and its two i really relate to. sensory issues and samefooding. (samefooding is when you eat the same foods over and over again without eating anything else, and its pretty common w autistic ppl including me)

to start this evidence off, robin literally cannot eat spicy foods. sometimes he cant even be around them.

he gets choked up and instantly has to replace the sensory with something else bc its simply way too much for him to handle, same buddy

and onto samefooding! robins done this twice in the show, in the episode ‘spice game’ (potatoes) and in th episode ‘the avogodo’ (avocados, duh).

the titans dont like eating potatoes because theyre too bland (see th sensory issues above) and are sick of robin samefooding so much, which leads to them eating spicy foods (which robin understandably hates)

evidence ten (oh boy, two digits) is routines. theres probably a lot of evidence for this in the show and im just forgetful, but at the moment all i can think of is robin’s sleep pattern. in the episode ‘spice game’ (oh boy theres a lot of this episode on this list), he quickly abandons a conversation with the titans at exactly 7:15pm stating that its his bedtime why would he have one theres no adults in the titans tower and in other episodes, he states he needs an exact number of hours of sleep and that he apparently makes sleeping a sport (according to cyborg, at least). this behaviour COULD also count towards evidence seven (perfectionism)

evidence eleven!!!! robin is, really gullible and trusting. and really, really bad at sensing sarcasm at times. when the titans joke around at the idea of him becoming a cat by wishing on a shooting star, he honest to god gets off the couch and starts talking to the sky hoping it’ll work

in a meaner example in the april fools episode (although its implied the whole episode is staged im still including this one) the titans apart from raven somehow manage to trick robin into thinking his parents are alive which isnt too unbelievable for him to think, since hes hallucinated them before, but thats for a completely different overly long headcanon post and gets extremely upset when he finds out the titans were tricking him.

and finally, for evidence number twelve, because if i keep going this list will be way too long, the one you probably all saw coming,

robin stims!!!!

well, i only have two gifs of evidence for this, but he stims!! which i think is the one autistic behavior everyone knows about

in conclusion, i have no idea how to end this post, since this took me literal hours to type which is probably why the tone changes alot,

but i hope u guys enjoyed me infodumping for way too long about a headcanon i have!!!!!

💖

#ttg #autistic robin evidence #long post //#this post is such a mess hngjh #BUT HERE IT IS!!!!!#matt.txt

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palace-of-freedom · 5 years ago

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I wss filling out a friend's questionnaire earlier today and it asked "by your definition of abuse, have you been in an abusive relationship as an adult." To that I answered "No", not realizing that my definition of abuse was flawed. I read the questionnaire and the character described in it was being abused. The boyfriend never hit her, but he did call her worthless multiple times. He was suspicious and did not trust her, however much she reassured him that she didn't cheat on him. He demanded her phone and remained relentless until she handed it over to him.

Now, I haven't exactly been through this. But I can imagine where this situation will end. The next time, the boyfriend will be more aggressive, realizing he can get away with it. In future, he may even hit her. He will have gotten inside her head and manipulated her into believing that she was worthless. That this guy was the best she'd ever get. That she wasn't worth loving. That no one would ever accept her. That she would never be good enough. She would become trapped and be unable to ever leave the person she claims loves her. In truth, he doesn't love her. Not in the traditional sense. He fears being left alone. He believes that she is his in every way possible and that she should know it - she has no hope of ever leaving him, not without a lot of emotional blackmail.

I haven't been through this exactly, but I did realize today that I was in an abusive relationship as a teenager. And I never came to terms with it or accepted it. My ex boyfriend too had called me worthless and useless countless times. He called me selfish, arrogant and helpless too. And I could never think of that as being verbally abused. I used to justify his words and fit into his label, because the more I fought the label, the more he fought me. The bigger the issue would blow up. And I've never been the type of person who argues or fights. Four years ago, I was even worse than I am today. Today, fighting with someone causes a full blown panic attack. If a friend doesn't speak to me for a few days, I begin to think of every way I've screwed up. I self-blame a bit too much. I internalise problems. I panic and I freeze.

I was abused by mother as a child too. Being a child of an Indian family, its weird if you dont get slapped a few hundred times for whatever reason. So I figured it was part of my culture and that its normal - everyone goes through it. I played it off the way I did with my relationship, nd treated it as though it was all normal. Slowly I've been breaking out of that pattern. I don't let people control me anymore. I stand up for myself more. I'm drawing boundaries that should have been there years ago. And I'm proud of myself for this small growth. I see where things are going wrong and I'm trying to correct them now. I'm about 7 years too late, but still - better late than never. The reason for this growth: learning psychology.

The last 3 years of studying have taught me that you should not hit your child. Its not okay. It taught me that your attachment style with your significant other will reflect the attachment style you had with your mother. It forms a basis on which your every relationship is defined, described and explained.

Personally, I have an anxious attachment style. Over the past year, I've been trying to change it to a more secure attachment style, but I think I'm now avoidantly attached. Im not a 100 % sure, but its a feeling I've been having recently. When the going gets tough, I avoid looking at my phone. I avoid people. I crawl into a shell and isolate myself, until someone pulls me out. But this wasn't the point I was trying to get at.

I wanted to say that "its okay." That these may have been my life experiences over the past 21 years. But they're not going to define the rest of my life. Based on the patterns described by psychological theory - I am destined for more abusive relationships, until I break the pattern. Until I rewire my brain. Until I figure out my defense mechanisms and start using healthier coping styles.

The first thing I did today when I came to this realization waa criticize myself. The first thing I asked myself was "how stupid are you to miss this guy even after four years since your break up. He treated you like crap and called it love. He said no one else would ever love you and you believed it. You've jinxed yourself to end up alone. You've become so scared of love because all you've seen is how badly it hurts. How do you know its your destiny to stay like this?" Whats wrong with you, you idiot? How could you be so stupid? You've just wasted four years of your life in this. Why can't you move on?"

This was a mistake. If a friend told me this story, I would treat them with compassion and understanding. Why cant I do the same for myself? I deserve the same love, the same understanding and the same compassion as does anyone else. I want to start being kinder to myself. I want to let myself feel. I want to accept that I went through this. I want to realize that I went through this and I got myself out. I'm the only person I need to save myself. And I need to get myself to know and remember that. I'm okay and I will be okay. And soon I can really be happy without it being by surpressing my feelings and emotions, or distracting myself. I look forward to that day when I can say I'm truly happy, and mean it.

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dangerouscrusadefire-blog · 7 years ago

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I can't stand my Tilt2, and I want to get a different phone without paying the outrageous prices on the AT&T site. I was just wondering, will their insurance plan cover a phone I buy off ebay? any help is greatly appreciated. (p.s. the phone I want is also sold by AT&T, and their insurance covers it if you buy it from them.)""

Is Geico a good auto insurance company?

I have been looking at a lot of different insurance companies recently. I have gotten a lot of online quotes and so far, Geico is the cheapest, not by a lot, but every little bit helps. Can anyone let me know the good and the bad with Geico? I'm in Michigan if that helps...""

Who pays my car insurance?

As a Christmas gift my boyfriend bought me an X6. I didnt ask any questions because he and my parents got into a fight about it because they didnt think it was appropriate so I dont know anything about whos name its under or insurance or anything, anyways. Im almost positive the car is under his name, but will the insurance be under his name since the car is under his name or would the car insurance be under my name since it was a gift to me?""

How much will my insurance be when I start driving next month?

I am turning 16 next month and I'm just wondering what the insurance cost will be. I believe I'll be driving my dads Chevy trailblazer which we've had for 5 or 6 years and has been paid off with no wrecks and such. We live in NC. In one of the country parts (not going to give out where I exactly live sorry creepers). I'll only use it to go to school which is like 5 minutes away and work which is right around that same time and maybe occasionally go into Wilmington which is like 30 min away. Thanks!

How are forced health insurance and auto insurance the same?

Many on here say that forced health insurance i sthe same as auto insurance, but how is that? I do not need auto insurance if I do not own a car. I make that choice whether to drive or not. I do not get fined if I don't have a car for not having auto insurance. So in what way are these in any way the same?""

Who makes the best affordable medical oxygen concentrator?

portable preferred

Category 1 Cars To Insure? Also Insurance Tips?

Hi everyone. I am a 20 year old driver who is 21 in March. I have my test on the 17th Feb and I am hoping to pass, obviously! I would like to ask for a few tips to make driving as cheap as possible. I have been looking at category 1 cars for insurance prices. Like a Citroen C2 or a Corsa, and I would like to know, before I buy, if anyone knows any tips to keep my insurance down. I currently have my own small business, and I live in the Midlands, which may class as a high risk area.. But I would like to know, what is the cheapest cars to insure, and tips to keep the insurance as low as possible. Also, will it help that I will be a little bit older than the 17/18 year olds who start driving? I am a male also. Thanks for anyone who can help me out!""

How much would i pay for car Insurance?

How much would i pay for car Insurance for cheap car that cost me honda accord 2000,I am 28 Years old, never been in any accident,I got my license 8 years ago""

How much would car insurance for a 16 girl cost?

Im 16 and thinking of getting a 2000 ford explorer and a 2000 jeep cherokee. how much would my insurence cost? and what car is better to get?

""If my stepdaughter causes a car accident, can the injured come back on my car insurance policy to pay?""

my stepdaughter caused a accident and her insurance had to pay its limits but the injuries to the person was more than her policy would cover, can the injured come back on my car policy under resident relative claus? She lives with me and I have her on my health insurance but not my car insurance, even though she occ. drives my car.""

How much would insurance be for a 2006 Mercedes Benz 230c?

How much insurance ratew for a lotus elise?

Okay lets see... I live in mass.worcester I'm 19 Never owned a car before Has 1 year driving experience with a clean record And the dealer is selling it for 12,999$""

How much does motorcycle insurance in Texas cost?

I'm 16 and plan on buying a motorcycle and getting my license soon, how much would I pay a month/year?""

""First time driver, why is a Smart Fortwo 2002 reg third party fire and theft so expensive on insurance?!?""

I recently did an insurance quote for a Smart Fortwo, the value of it 2400, and the insurance came up third party fire and theft at 2900!!! :O why for such a small and low engine car would it be so gob smackingly expensive?! I hope someone can put my mind at rest because i really would love to know! Thanks :D""

Will my insurance payment go up a lot?

I was recently in a car accident, unfortunately I was the one who was at fault. It had just rained the night before and the road was wet and so my brakes did not respond and i ended up hitting another car. Anyway, my question is, how much will I have to pay for my insurance now. Will it double, triple? I know that payments tend to skyrocket after your involved in an accident and your the one at fault.""

Car insurance for 17 year olds?

Hey people, i am 17 in april and i have been looking into buying a 1983 mini mayfair with 13 alloys and arches....and thats it... onlly a 998cc, not the fastest of cars but guess what quoted over 1,300 Whats the F%$*& point, any body know ov any good car insurers that i may get a quote from? cheers.... Kyle""

""I need short term auto insurance, since i will be on vacation for 45 days in southern california,?

Now my insurance company doesn't cover me in the states

Consequence of lending your car in terms of car insurance?

If I lend my car to my brother or sister, but I have car insurance, will they get a ticket when they drive? The car insurance covers the cost of the damage to the car, so does it matter who is driving it? What is the purpose of having someone as a secondary driver?""

Cheap insurance for 18 year old?

does anyone know any cheap websites or company's because on all the comparison websites im getting 3500 pound for a 1.1 Peugeot 106, and that's third party fire and theft :( please help because this is ridiculous.""

Good insurance for a small liquor store/market in Los angeles county?

I am looking for a good commercial insurance company for my newly purchased small liquor store/market in southern California. It's a tiny 850 sqft store. I am looking for one that is reputable & lower price. Anybody know? What kind of coverage should I get? approximate cost? best most helpful answer gets full points!

What is a good cheap Car Insurance Company?

I am 22 years old, single mother of two children ( 2 & 4 ), looking for cheap insurance quotes, I live in NC I'm not sure if that matters. I checked Allstate and that's the cheapest quote I've found, but I had them before and owe them money, so EX them out. Any other people, I checked with Progressive, State Farm, AND Gecco (sp). Who are you with what are your companies??""

Who is looking for affordable health insurance?

life insurance, health insurance, long term care

What are the best/cheapest insurance companies in the uk for motorbikes?

and yes i will only of just passed my Direct Access and likely to be riding a 600cc.....thanks

Repayment of my health insurance premiums?

I received a letter in the mail a week ago, and can't locate it now. It was explaining as to how there is a government program in place to reinburse for health insurance premiums paid if someone in your household gets NC Medicaid? Anyone know about this as for the life of me I can't put my hands on the letter. Any insight would be helpful. Thanks.""

Are there any crotch rockets or street bikes in which i could get cheap insurance for?

BMW car insurance?

my car insurance doesnt provide anything with mechanical problems, is there any other way on this or is it a dead end?""

Why is car insurance more expensive based on age than value?

I am trying to shop for a new car but I want to know if I can manage the monthly expenses such as insurance and gas. I am interested in the 2011 Nissan Altima 2.5 S Coupe the Kelley Blue book value for the car is $17,000. The car has really good gas but I was shock to see the estimated quote for car insurance to be over a $100 a month. I was also interested in the 2008 Lexus IS 250 and the Kelley Blue Book value is $21,000. The gas for the car is okay but not as good as the nissan but the estimated car insurance quote to my surprise was only $45 a month. That doesn't really make any sense shouldn't it be more expensive since the car is worth more?""

17 year old responsible driver that can't find car insurance?

I have a 1997 Mercury Sable with an ABS. I am a full time student and also have rent to pay. I need car insurance and fast, but nobody wants me for a decent price because of my age ...show more""

Can a change in surname increase car insurance prices UK?

I obtained a quote for a car a couple of weeks back by putting in some fake details that were relatively similar to mine so I wasn't inundated with insurance company spam. The quote was for my mum and I was to be a named driver. The only thing that was noticeably different from reality were the names and email I used. Today, I went to get the quote again, this time for real and so typed in our real names and the quote went up by 600! I then changed the names back to the fakes but kept everything else the same and it went back down!! What's going on? Or do Aviva have something against people with Celtic surnames - I sincerely hope not! Just to clarify, I have previously never obtained a quote in my name with Aviva before this nor have either of our marital status' changed from the fake details. Any help would be great! Thanks in advance!""

Insurance Question for owners of the 2007 pontiac g5?

Im a 22 yr old male, never had a car before, just got my license; and im about to purchase me a new pontiac g5. Im wondering how much i can expect to pay for insurance every month?Plz help!""

Unemployed 18 to 25 year olds forced to have health insurance under Obamas plan?

if you where laid off, then your ok. But if you quit your last job you will be required by law to keep health insurance or be fined $2700/yr. And by the way thats $225/mo. for the ...show more""

""I am staying in Italy,but i want to know much a car insurance will cost me for a year?""

I am staying in Italy,but i want to know much a car insurance will cost me for a year?""

Does anyone know the estimated cost for a FULL physical w/o insurance?

does anyone know the estimated cost for a full physical (that detects cancers, run pee tests etc.) for someone with no insurance? Are there any programs or places that will give the low income a more affordable price? In the California area.""

""How much is the fine when a cop pull you over and dont have licence,insurance and tags!?

My uncle got pull over by a cop and gave him a fine without taking his car away(he got lucky) he didnt have a license or insurance and somebody stole his tag! he's not a resident or a citizen somebody know how much is that fine????he still have to go court but i wonder how much is going to be????

How does a car qualify to be eligble for classic car insurance in the UK?

Are there specific companies that deal in this? Is it generally cheaper due to restrictions on the use of the car?

Can i insure my car under my dads name?

so im an 18 year old boy right now i drive my dads old car under his insurance, and the registration is in his name, and thats all fine and everything. however my mom is renewing her drivers license soon (she had an accident that didnt allow her to drive for a few years) so my dad is giving her the mini van back and obviously, taking his car back. luckily, i have been anticipating this happening, as all good things must come to an end, and have saved up for a car of my own. i found one, and i went to get an insurance quote and found it was near $90 a month under my name. I put in the same coverage but with my dads information this time and got a quote of $30 a month for the same car. (because apparently 18 year old boys are dangerous drivers or something?) any way, what i am wondering is can i buy the car, and get it registered in my name, but have the insurance covered under my dads name? or should i just give my dad the money for the car and have him buy it and put it in his name and under his insurance but i just drive it, much like what we do now?""

Insurance company said my car is totalled?!?

So this last Saturday before St. Pattys day I took this girl out to the movies and i went to go turn into a gas station and randomly this guy smashes into me as i was making my left turn, didnt see him at all until last second which makes the crash weird because he hit my front driver side and his front driver side is messed up, cops automatically said it was my fault probably because im 19 driving around in a car that is nicer then theirs or something. Insurance company came to the body part place and said it was totalled without leaving a report. No damage hit the engine my intake and radiator got pushed in alittle bit more towards the engine and my window washer tube cracked thats about all ive seen plus the smashed out headlight and my bumper hanging. Please leave me some thoughts on if you think its totalled, really dont want this thing to go. PICS BELOW!!! http://flic.kr/p/e4Gwdd http://flic.kr/p/e4Gw7s http://flic.kr/p/e4GvZ3 http://flic.kr/p/e4AV3a http://flic.kr/p/e4AUr4""

When my boyfriend turned 18 he lost his health insurance. where can he get health insurance at?

He doesn't see the importance of it, but I know he needs it. dental and health insurance. He doesn't make a lot of money either.""

Low Cost Health Insurance?

I am contemplating quitting my job and going full time to school so that I can have a fresh start with a new career. It would be fine if it was just me, but I have 2 kids and I am single. With school I would work about 40 hours/week doing clinicals at the hospital plus my school work, so I wouldn't be able to work as well. I know I could get state assistance with medical but I did that before and it was the absolute worst healthcare I've ever experienced. They treated us like we were scum. I want my kids to be well taken care of for the few semesters that I would be out of work. I will be getting all of the student loans that I can to pay for basic expenses and hopefully some sort of sliding scale healthcare...Any ideas?""

How much is insurance on a motorcycle for a 16 year old caucasion male in Texas??

i have never had a car or anythin. i am wanting to buy a kawasaki 599cc. i havnt had any accidents or anything. i just need an estimant on how much it would be monthly. now plz dont say call your insurance company or give me a site to go to just plz gestimate what you think it would be.

Insurance and std testing?

A friend told me my previous partner was shady and shared needles, etc... so, now I want to get tested for everything as soon as possible. I was going to go to planned parenthood. But im also considering just going to my doctor since I need a physical anyways or even my gynecologist.. Aetna is my insurance. Which way would be more affordable? Would it be roughly the same for all 3? Would they cover more as part of a physical? Seperate? At all?""

Can a person with kaiser permanente insurance in colorado move to arizona and retain that insurance coverage?

Is a Land Drover FreeLander 2 cheap to insure?

Both of my parent's drive 2011 Range Rovers so they have experience with the Land Rover brand- and they said that as I'm living at home.. my dad could be the policy holder and I could be a named driver. I may be buying a 2010 model when I'm 18, I'm 16 currently as people have told me that it's not really worth buying a brand new one. Just so the car is old and isn't new. I'm not in to small cars..""

Co-operative car insurance - third party liability?

i am 17 years old. I have a fully comprehensive car insurance policy with the Co-operative insurance. i am a named driver on this policy but would like to be able to drive my parents cars. What i am wondering is, is it possible to change something on my policy so as to get third party liability on their cars, as i would not use them enough to warrent adding myself to their policys.""

Can I go to a doctor and claim no insurance even though I have health insurance?

I don't want my father getting bills from the doctors office or his insurance company.

What is the cheapest car insurance I can get in Minnesota?

I am a young mom and getting my first car this month so I don't have a lot of money to spare so I'm wondering what is the cheapest insurance I can get in Minnesota? Thanx (:

Please help with this health insurance problem...?

As an immigrant to the US with no job or citizenship, only holding an American Visa, and in a month to have a Green Card, what can you tell me about getting a health insurance? any information available and any websites please.""

Who is looking for affordable health insurance?

life insurance, health insurance, long term care

1997 camaro insurance?

Hey , wuts a ballpark answer 4 how much the insurance for a 97 camaro z28 would cost for a 17 year old ? Also, are they pretty good cars and reliable? I alresy got an online quote , but I want answers from ppl who've owned a camaro from 1993-97.""

Roughly how much will my insurance cost? (New driver)?

I am a 17 year old female, I am thinking of getting a car If I got a 1999 VW Polo and registered myself and my mother (who has held a full license for over 10 years) as named drivers, roughly how much will my insurance cost? I was hoping about 500? Is that unreasonable? Thanks""

Looking for a good insurance company?

Im barley getting by as it is so i need an insurance company that can help pay for expensive monthly inhalers, and i need dental insurance. But like i said im barley making it as it is, is there anyone out there that is paying for there on plan and what are you paying? Im 19 my moms 55 and we both need coverage. Any suggestions would be really appreciated.""

How much motorcycle insurance

I'm 16 and i live in new york but i don't know how much insurance is

Im a 20 yr old female- much would it cost to insure a 1.4 2007 astra sxi?

JUST PASSED TEST. Its insurance group 6 Tanks

""Pregnant and no health insurance, what can i do?

Im 6 weeks pregnant and i dont have health insurance. I have a full time job and my husband does also but I cant get health insurance through either company. I know we make too much money for medi-cal but what other insurance company can i contact in California?

Auto State Farm insurance almost up?

I just looked at my auto insurance card that it expires next month.....i still want to keep it so do i have to call them to renew it or something, or do they call you ?""

Where can I get 1-day motorcycle insurance?

I'm looking for motorcycle insurance for just 1 day to borrow my brothers bike but can't seem to find any online I also don't have the time to phone around asking Insurance companies if they do. Are there any companies that do this?

Motorcycle Insurance 16yr Old?

I am 16, I am thinking about getting a crotch rocket, and just wanna know about insurance. State: Minnesota Year of bike: 1995-2005 I am thinking 650cc - 750cc I have experience on motorcycles (dirt bikes) I do realize their is some difference I have a grade average of B's or higher.""

""What would be the best insurance group to go in, if I am a first time car owner/driver?""

Hi, I am going to turn 17 in the autumn and I am looking for a first (used) car. But I am unsure about which insurance group is the best to go in? Someone told me I could get insured fairly cheaply on Group 5? I would like a reliable car, at the moment I am looking at Ford Focus, Volkswagen Polo, and Fiat Punto. I want it to be fairly new, and look good. I can spend up to 2000. Hope you can help

What would be a rough estimate on a monthly insurance price for and 18 yr old kid with a '12 motorcycle?

I have no previous accidents or anything But I want a new ninja. Just a ballpark if you can

How long do you have to get insurance on a car after loaning?

A relative of mine wants to take over notes to my current car. I'm waiting for papers to come back to approve her and get the title in her name. The note was too high anyways but I have to pay for the note ($375) and insurance ($251) until everything is situated. Well I found a cheaper car for 6,000 and I'll be paying a little more than $100 each month. I want to hurry and get this car because I really like it and if I wait too long then it would be gone. Do I have to get insurance on it right away. I won't be driving it until I get insurance. Would they come and repo it if I don't have insurance but paying the note? I can't afford two notes and two insurances. So that's why I wanted to wait until I got rid of my first car to get insurance.""

Can a 17 year old hold insurance to more than 1 car?

can they have fully comp insurance on more than 1 car

Young Drivers: How much did you pay for car insurance?

Hello all, I'm trying to find out the average cost of car insurance in the UK or Ireland for a political debate on the subject and was wondering if young drivers (provisional license) could provide some. Thanks very much!""

Does my insurance liability have to match my room mate's?

They own their own home and I was told by their agent that my liability on my car has to match theirs for their protection. Note my car is very old and I just want the cheapest insurance I can get.

Crashed car 3rd party no-one else injured what to do with insurance?

I'm in my first year of driving as a 17 yr old male and i crashed damaging my car beyond repair. My insurance is only 3rd party and that cost 3200 no-one else was involved however the police,ambulance and fire were present. What shall i do, do i inform the insurance company however without making a claim? Do i scrap the car and change my insurance? What are my options to prevent the premium going even higher than it already is.""

I need to have all my teeth removed and have dentures in California?

The dentist gave me an approximate estimate of about 11 thousand dollars, I have no insurance, and bad credit, is this estimate fair?""

How much over your medical bills cost will an insurance company pay you after a car accident?

Where to a find good site Affordable Family Health Insurance?

Hello, please suggest me a website for affordable family health insurance.There are many sites that offer you discount, but i think most of them are scams.I need cheap price for my health insurance.Please let me know.""

Around how much is Driving Insurance for a 17 year old?

Or is it car insurance...w/e What would be the cost? Allstate is the insurance my parents use. What would it be from.

My husband needs life insurance but has diabeties?

My husband needs life insurance about 50,000 but want payments cheap payments 40.00 monthly. We been trying to find some life insurance but some dont take with diabeties. My husband doesnt take insulin. Hes ranging about 100 to 180 every month on sugar level.. Any ideas on life insurance we should quilified!!!""

""I need cheap car insurance, I'm in college?""

I'm 19, a college kid and need car insurance. I now it's going to be crazy high, but if anyone has any insight or tips to make it cheaper, it would me much appreciated.""

Do I need car insurance?

I am getting my permit in a week. Do my parents need to add me to the car insurance policy?

Cheapest auto insurance?

What is the cheapest auto insurance from personal experience, Please and thank you!!""

Which car insurance company is the cheapest if you have many points?

Who is looking for affordable health insurance?

life insurance, health insurance, long term care

https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/need-condo-insurance-florida-ruby-holder"

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Last night I was masturbating and breathing quite loudly. My housemates friend heard me. She told my housemate and she was like WELL EVERYONE DOES IT. which I just felt so good to hear, amongst the immense shame. I was trying to hard to be quiet, but also I wanted to enjoy myself and I wanted to push the boundaries to see what effect it would have. I continually put myself into shameful situations... I think in the hope that something good will come of it. In future I think I will be more quiet. I just don't quite know how to be quiet. Without compressing my whole breathing. She must have come out to the kitchen and heard me. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed, just, ugh!!! Avoid everyone!!!! NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN, PRETEND IT NEVER HAPPENED AND THINGS WILL FEEL BETTER ERASING THAT MOMENT FROM HISTORY. But I also feel like, how to go forward? Maybe just accepting it and being like, ok... I guess you heard me enjoying it. And also trying to suppress my breathing but UGH!!! UHH I AM SO ASHAMED, I AM SO EMBARRASSD. I can think of ways out of it. But honestly, I want to move towards acceptance. And I fee I can move towards that acceptance and feel comfortable to just, enjoy myself sexually. I suddenly think of queena, dreadfully. Her sexuality had to be hidden whilst she was right next to her parents. So Her sexuality formed from that. Perhaps that's why she liked the idea of public sex. Also hidden sexuality in compromising situations. How did her parents not even masturbate? I get so turned on when I think of how she got to be sexual when she was so young, and experience all those taboos. I want to crush it, IF I DONT GET IT WHY DO YOU GET IT. I was completely restricted from having those sexual experiences. And I wanted them SO BADLY. I wanted to be that guy she seduced and let her have sex with her. Then again, I want these things, but I don't allow myself to act on them. Because I know it's going to get me into trouble. And I worry about an opportunity where I am given the circumstance to do so. I so would. I wonder about where her hypersexuality comes from. It is said the unlived life of the parents makes the biggest impact on the child. Perhaps... she was given that emptiness of sexuality and felt the need to fulfil it, in order to move forward and then further have healthy children. I get the feeling continually and again, that she will do the best for her and her children in her life. Although she does seemingly have to traverse the entire dark side of sexuality. And she liked it, yet she hated it. She just wanted to be normal, and not struggle with wanted sex in all forms, all genders. She tried to deny she was attracted to girls. I am still unsure of whether it was a power game thing, isn't sex about power? I guess so. That's the unintimate form of sex. But it's always blended. I used to churn with putrid rot inside when I thought of her going on to live her sexual life. As I saw no way forward, and I'm not sure I still do. I really don't know a way forward . I'm so scared to even say such a thing. I want sex so badly that I keep finding ways to jinx or play myself into thinking I'll just make myself be comfortable to go for it. But I'm not. I'm not comfortable to have sex. I start to dissociate. I repress, get paranoid. I get anxious, I get angry. I get so incredibly tense. And I hate it, too. I hate that I chokehold myself when I know I want it so badly. I hate that I choke my own sexuality. I don't know why I do it. I have theories. It could be that it was an adaption to not feel shame. It also further got worse when my mom always looks at me in grotesque sexual ways. It's just so disgusting. She'll come up to me and look straight and my penis with her lips like wet. Like she wants to just touch me. I recoil, I feel absolutely disgusting. She comes up in my fantasies sometimes and it just DISGUSTS ME. I do everything to have it back to how I like it. It's feels so intrusive. She disgusts me in all ways. She disgusts me. She touched my penis when she was putting this cream on. I think she knew I was hard. I didn't even know I was. I just pulled my pants down as she said, and noticed it. She put it right on the tip. Except she like tapped it. It's so disgusting. I didn't know whether I could hand done it myself until I saw her do it to Jamar. She says that it has to be done. Like she absolutely has to do it. She enjoys having me afraid to be in my own skin. Where I'm afraid constantly of people's fast movements. I try to recoil and live in a fake outer shell. Live somewhere inside, where the pain doesn't reach me. Where am I to go? I live with this constant fear, CONSTANT, that I am going to get hit, kicked, held down, suspended, without any possible way to defend myself ... whilst I get beaten .. and cry and scream for help. I don't know when I was first hit. I can hardly remember most of the memories. It's scary. When was I first hit? I remember being invalid, asking for anything was met with instant scolding, existing in that space was wrong, however it was ok to be non-existant. Saying no wasn't allowed. You weren't allowed to have your own feelings or values or opinions. I was never asked how I felt, I was never considered to have feelings. And if I did show feelings, any feeling which was sad, would mean that she would take me to psychologists over and over until I was forced to share the feelings under conditions which were complete lies about why I felt that way. I would be forced to lie about any abuse, and that my helplessness is wrong and my own fault and it is my fault that I feel that way. Naturally i, at all costs, avoided any expression of feeling. It was the one thing that kept me alive. Having my own genuine feelings. No one could take them from me. If I never let them out, I would be ok. I could share them with myself, and I wasn't so mean to myself then. I was pure and felt suffering as a new real thing to experience my way through. I had that. It was my own, it was real, it wasn't pain. It didn't hurt, or make me want to run away. I could stay with my own sadness. I wasn't allowed to feel sad around other people, especially in public, as it would most certainly lead to her being reported back to. And then I would suffer an investigation. I never learnt to share my feelings. I didn't think it was appropriate. It terrified me to think of what would happen ... if someone saw me cry. I would walk into school every day, I had completed the disgusting ritual of having to kiss her. I would be ok. Now I am free. And I am so sad. I am alone, in my own world. My bag is undone, but I liked it that way. I wanted to show the world, why does it matter if my bag is undone? It is ok, things don't fall out. I would wander sadly... into school, slowly repressing the sad feelings and getting ready to put on my happy face. It's the only place I wanted to show my fake happiness. I knew it would be the end of me to breakdown there. But I felt I could achieve things there. I never trusted anyone, I never knew what it might feel like to say,, I am really sad. I am really sad and I'm really afraid and I'm scared... I want to cry and bawl my eyes out into someone like A guidance counsellor. What if they listen to me? What if I can hug them? I just want to hug them. I'm really really sadscared. IM SCAREEED, HHHHHHH I AM SO SCARED I AM SCAAAAAAARRREEEDDDD I am scaaaaaaaaaaAAAASSRRRRESDDDDD I'm scared she'll leave me. But what if she listens to me? I do not know how to say what I am scared about HHHHHHUHHHHUHHHUHH IM JUST SCARED!!!! IM SCARED!!!!!!! What if she just listened to me, what if she was understanding that I didn't know why I was Scared, but that I was, and that I needed her so desperately. I am scared, but with you I feel better. I continue to be scared, but you bring me comfort. I'm scared all the time, I'm too scared to move. I'm too scared to look anywhere but at my feet. I'm scared to Open my eyes. I'm scared I'll flinch. I'm scared I'll try to put my hands in the way and have more hurt forced onto me for doing the wrong thing. I'm scared that I want to try and make it not hurt as much, if I try to make not hurt, I will get into trouble. I'm scared. I'm scared to turn around. I'm scared . Im really scared. I'm scared she'll hit me again. I'm scared. I'm scared to go to bed. I'm scared. I want to sink into the ground, underneath the house, live in the cold soil with the rocks. What wonderful things, these rocks. They are so beautiful. I am so glad I can spend all my time with these rocks, you know? They can be my friends. Down here no one can hit me. I wonder about the rocks, god I am just so happy. I HAVE ROCKS!!!! I HAVE ROCKS!!!!! I wonder what the rocks would like to do. How are the rocks feeling? I love the rocks so much i look at them like a mom sees her child for the first time. Every day I will wake up, and when I wake up, I will ask the rock, how are you today? He has his own bed, and I even made a little blanket for him. I carved some extra space out so he can sleep next to me. I like to curl up, too. It's like we're both rocks. I love him so much.

#how about wondering how I felt on the inside when I used to wear my hair over my eyes

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