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Yes! We are speaking from experience! It has helped me to take regular long breaks and not force myself to make art to post online on a regular basis. The break resets my expectations from being unrealistic so that every interaction means something to me and I start making art because I enjoy making it and sharing it, not just because Iâm chasing a âhighâ. Admittedly, the internet has allowed for many artists to get exposure and even use it as a job, but realistically if you are pursuing art as I career look at real life opportunities!! Look for contests and art exhibits to put your work in! Thatâs the stuff that will matter more than how many people follow you on social media :)
Small artists you need to understand that when you see an artist who you think has 'made it' tells you not to worry about the numbers and to not fret about getting more likes than reblogs they are not telling you it because they think you are stupid for caring or because they dont need to network to survive they are very likely telling you that because they have witnessed first hand the way the numbers game tears people to shreds in terms of mental health and motivation
#Yeah.. and also the likes and follows always have potential to keep going up so thereâs no actual moment that you will feel satisfied#The follows especially are appreciated but they donât mean much if most people that follow you donât interact#and it gets so easy to establish a new norm of getting a surplus of people looking at your work only for them to start leaving#and think itâs a failing on your part and stress over what you did wrong and thus ignore how good it is#you still have the regulars who show up and comment (yâall are fantastic and so wonderful <3)#The algorithm is not worth it to try to appease please keep making art for the sake of it and your own enjoyment#This is why my instagram has so many posts because I was on that grind for four years and then dsmp happened and boosted my following#to an insane level it was only because I joined a really popular fandom at the right time that got me where Iâm at#but I want people to be able to see how much time it took for that to happen cuz these things donât happen instantly either#If you want ppl to see your work be patient (it could take years for your stuff to be seen) and be genuine#anyway this is definitely turning into me rambling
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Astrology observations-33
I notice a lot of Taurus moon/mars people tend to hoard a lot. Iâve seen ppl with this placement go thru periods in their life where they lost a lot of valuable things whether it be because of money issues of moving away or they may have had a period in their lives where material possessions were very scarce.
Venus in retrograde people tend to come off very cold in social situations. Iâve only seen a handful of ppl with this placement bc itâs quiet rare to find but I notice they tend to lack social graces so people assume they are rudeâšď¸ but deep down these ppl are so shy and sweet. I also notice this is lowkey a beauty aspect like ppl with this placement be sooo FINE but they never see it themselves (similar to Venus square Ascendant)
Saturn square Venus synastry is SOOOO annoying to have for both parties. You both wanna connect badly but everytime you interact thereâs this overly formal way you guys about things especially on Saturns end. These people are so attracted to eachother too but thereâs always something that keeps you from really getting to know this person whether it be distance, vulnerability problems, communication barriers ect. It usually takes these people a long ass time to connect but when they do itâs so long lasting just takes a lot of trust.
Aries sun/venus tend to try to over dominate their partners and friends a lot. I notice these people always try to compete with others to prove their superiority. This can cause them to have a bully reputation.
Mars in Taurusâs tend to work best when they are working with their hands ESPECIALLY in nature. They are usually amazing farmers/gardeners.
Mars in 3rd house people tend to have a very intense relationship with their siblings. They usually grew up arguing with them a lot or not getting along. Could also indicate having aggressive siblings. Could have a lot of resentment towards them.
Dating a Sag Venus & Aqua Venus just feels like youâre being friendzonedđ
Scorpio moons tend to get really embarrassed when they act out of emotion (Scorpio suns too but Scorpio moons definitely take the cake) they can lose control of their emotions for a second then start ghosting you for like a year lmao.
Aquarius risings are all soo hottt but when you get to know them deeper your just kinda like â????â Uk
Aquarius suns tend to be the least ambitious. They arenât as attached to money like most I notice. (Unless they got a lot of Taurus and Capricorn)
Virgo moons are such clean girls đ§ź
Venus in the 7th house people (especially with libra in the big three) usually canât be alone for too long. Needs a lot of romantic attention to function. I notice if they donât get that they tend to lowkey self destruct and go back to toxic exes.
Venus in the 2nd house people have the best self esteem. People usually only associate this placement with finances but people forget 2nd house also rules self worth. When positively aspected these people have such a deep love for themselves which turns them into a magnet. However If underdeveloped they can be very pessimistic & greedy & attract a lot of narcissists that use them for their $$.
Aries sun Cap moon people tend to be bullies.
Lilith in Pisces people tend to victimize themselves in every situation where they may be viewed negatively. They hate being held accountable for their faults.
Aries placements love provoking people and pushing their buttons. They find it stimulating.
Do not argue with someone with a Virgo moon and Scorpio Mars unless youâre ready to cry your eyes out for months
Taurus moons are usually very shy especially with a water/earth mercury it can be harder for these people to make friends due to their fear of getting out their comfort zone. You usually have to be very patient with these people they scope you out for awhile before they decide they want to be friends. Be lucky if they pick you too cuz they are PICKY.
When a Scorpio rising is attracted to you they will STAREEE INTO YOUR EYES. They are the masters at silent seduction. They wonât be overly flirtatious but the minutes they look at you itâs like theyâre looking into your soul. And while it can make your heart stop it is very intimidating at times. You see so much obsession in their eyes when they like you. But when they hate you itâs like youâre invisible to them they wonât even acknowledge your presence most of the time.
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Kiss It Better?
Young!Vander x Medic!Reader
First Vander one-shot in *checks notes* three years! Holy Shit yâall! Had two separate asks from ppl wanting a medic!reader soooo here we go!
Itâs good to be back
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The clinic was dimly lit, the hum of faulty fluorescent bulbs blending with the faint metallic clangs from the mines outside. It smelled of antiseptic and iron, a scent youâd come to associate with long nights and questionable patients. Back then, you were still green, running on coffee and ambition under the sharp gaze of an older, jaded medic. And yet, even with your mentorâs grim mutterings about wasting resources on ârepeat offenders,â he always came back.
The pit fighter swaggered in like clockworkâdust and sweat clinging to his skin, his knuckles split and bloodied or some fresh stab wound marring his side. A walking disaster, and yet somehow grinning through the pain, cracking some awful joke the moment you picked up a suture kit. You used to roll your eyes, scoff at his shameless flirting, brushing off his comments as easily as you patched him up.
But after a few months, when he insisted on waiting for you even when another medic was available, something shifted. You started noticing the way his gravelly voice softened when he talked to you, the way his laughter filled the quiet corners of the clinic. And against your better judgmentâagainst all your judgmentâyou began to look forward to those visits. It was maddening, really, the warmth you felt when he called you âdocâ like it was a nickname meant only for you.
The sigh you let out feels like itâs been building for hours, maybe days. As you press your fingers into your temples, you tryâreally tryâto recall what it was about this infuriating man that once made your stomach flip. The memory is distant, hazy, like trying to grasp smoke.
âYouâŚâ you start, pausing as though the sheer absurdity of the situation has stolen the rest of your words. âYou fought a man three times your size?â
âYup.â His response is maddeningly casual, accompanied by the faintest smirk on his stupidly chiseled face. Like he hadnât just dragged himself in here looking like a near-death experience wrapped in bruises.
âAnd you thought this was a good ideaâŚwhy?â you ask, more exasperated than concerned. Youâre not sure why you bother asking anymore; his explanations rarely hold water.
He leans back on the examination table, as if your question requires deep thought, though the glint in his eye says otherwise. âMaybe to get some more time with you, gorgeous.â
Your jaw drops slightly before you clamp it shut, heat rising to your face despite every effort to suppress it. âUnbelievable,â you mutter, grabbing for the antiseptic. His grin only widens.
As you began to apply the serum to his wounds, Vander sat on the edge of the exam table, his broad shoulders hunched, shirt torn and bloodied as you worked to clean the deep gash along his ribs. He barely flinched at the pain, but you could see the tension in his jaw, the way his hands gripped the edge of the table like he was bracing for a fight that wouldnât come.
âYouâre too old for this,â you muttered, your tone more fond exasperation than scolding.
He chuckled, the sound low and warm. ���Couldâve fooled me.â
You rolled your eyes but didnât argue, focused on your task. He watched you, his gaze heavy but soft, as if you were the only steady thing in a world full of chaos.
âYou take better care of everyone else than you do yourself,â you finally said, taping the bandage in place.
âAnd you take better care of me than I deserve,â he replied, his voice quiet, almost reverent.
You paused, caught off guard by the honesty in his words, before shaking your head and packing up the supplies. âPlease try not to make this a habit,â you said, knowing full well he wouldnât. But the faint smile he gave you, a mix of gratitude and something deeper.
As you step closer, lifting the damp cloth to the cut along his cheekbone, Vander tensesâjust slightly, almost imperceptiblyâbut itâs enough for his hand to shoot up, catching yours mid-motion. You freeze, startled, but the pressure of his touch is unexpected: not the iron grip of a pit fighter, but something softer, deliberate, as if heâs afraid he might hurt you.
Your gaze snaps to his, and for a moment, the room feels smaller, quieter. His calloused thumb grazes the veins on your wrist, a slow, almost unconscious movement that sends a warmth skittering up your arm.
âIâll try to be gentle,â you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper. Youâre not sure why you feel the need to apologize, but the words slip out before you can stop them. âIâm sorry.â
His lips twitch into a faint smile, the kind that feels more like reassurance than amusement. âItâs fine,â he says, his voice low and steady. âJust⌠surprised me, is all.â
The silence stretches, but it doesnât feel uncomfortable. Slowly, his hand slips away, and you return to your task, though now your fingers tremble faintly. For all his strength, all his rough edges, moments like this remind you of the man beneath the fighter. And for some reason, that makes it even harder to focus.
âWhatâd you say to me taking you out tonight?â Vander asks, his tone laced with that easy flirtation youâve come to expect. Thereâs no edge to it, no weight to sway your answerâjust an offer, simple and open.
You roll your eyes, the corners of your lips twitching despite yourself. âYou visit a free clinic twice a week,â you say, giggling as you finish securing the bandage on his arm. âYou canât afford a night out with me.â
He leans in, close enough that you catch the faint scent of smoke and leather, his voice dropping to a warm rumble. âIf itâs you,â he says, eyes locked on yours, âitâll be worth it.â
Your cheeks heat under his gaze, but you refuse to give him the satisfaction of seeing you falter. âYouâre impossible,â you mutter, brushing past him to clean up your tools. But even with your back turned, you can feel his grinâand the weight of his wordsâlingering in the air behind you.
âYou know the bar across from Jerichoâs?â you ask, still facing away as you organize the tools on the counter. You donât need to look to know Vanderâs posture shiftsâstraightening up on the table as if heâs been caught off guard.
âYeah?â he replies, cautious but curious.
Finally, you turn just enough to catch his eye, a smirk tugging at the corner of your lips. âNine oâclock sharp,â you say, tilting your head toward him. âAnd you better be wearing something nicer than this,â you gesture vaguely at his torn, bloodstained shirt, âor Iâm leaving.â
Suture kit in hand, you step back toward him, fully prepared to get to work on the fresh wound on his arm. But before you can begin, his face lights up with a smile so boyish and bright it nearly stops you in your tracks.
âOh, trust me, Love,â he says, leaning just a little closer, his voice soft but sure. âIâll be there.â
You roll your eyes, but the warmth in your chest betrays you. As you thread the needle, you find yourself already imagining what he might look like when he shows up. Because, for all his teasing and bravado, you know he wouldnât dare miss it.
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dessert before dinner ⥠gale dekarios x f!reader
nsfw (18+) - minors DNI or i will call the cops and also ur mom
word count - 4.3k
description - domestic life with you has turned gale into a big softie, in more ways than one-- he's already got the dad bod, why wait for the baby to match?
aka dad bod malewife gale wants to knock u up :3
tags/warnings - dad bod gale w mild self esteem issues at the beginning but he gets over it, technically bg3 spoilers ig (takes place post-game), food mentions, praise, p in v, creampie, breeding kink but fluffy cus gale is sappy, inappropriate use of the Weave, inappropriate use of mage hand
a/n - this piece was commissioned by my LOVELY LOVELY SWEET BABY ANGEL @d10nyx WHO DESERVES EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD AND MORE AND IS SUCH A FUCKIN SAINT FOR BEING SO PATIENT FOR THIS ;n; pls go check out her work i adore her so bad
also just as a note b4 i get One Billion Asks about it for posting this-- i am not abandoning 'something permanent' nor am i abandoning writing for resident evil just bc i am posting one singular bg3 fic !!!!!!!!!! might seem obvious but i just wanted to get ahead of it bc i'm paranoid and have seen it happen to other ppl ;~;
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fic under the cut, thanks so much for reading and i hope u enjoy ;w;
-venus âĄ
Life post-Netherbrain softened Gale Dekarios in many ways.Â
Some of the most obvious ways included the relief of tension that came with no longer bearing the weight of the world on his back, ridding himself of the curse that plagued so many of his living years, and finally being able to settle down back home in Waterdeep.Â
But if you asked Gale, the one thing that softened him the most was you. You, you, you. Ever since the moment you tugged him out of that collapsing portal, everything Gale did was for you, and by the looks of it, that wouldnât be changing anytime soon.Â
Stability was something Gale hadnât had in a long time, and while he wouldnât exactly call running around Faerun fighting deities and monsters and people alike âstability,â he could at the very least find that stability in you. Every battle, every brutal journey through the swamp or the Astral Plane or the wreckage of Baldurâs Gate, you were right there with him.Â
And now you were home.Â
Home had long since become anywhere with you, of course, but now you were really home, back in Waterdeep with Gale and his family and his beloved Tara, and whatâs more, you had his last name. You were truly his and he was truly yours, in every possible sense. With his days spent teaching the art of illusion magic to the next generation of hopeful mages and his evenings spent returning home to his precious wife, Gale wasnât sure it would be scientifically possible for him to be any happier, let alone any more fortunate.Â
Gale was in the kitchen preparing dinner when you returned home, having spent the afternoon handling a few errands and wandering about the city. It always came as a delight for him to see you exploring his hometown in the same ways he did growing up, discovering all the neat little oddities and secrets that lay beneath the unassuming surface.Â
He turned over his shoulder to face you at the sound of the door creaking open and then clicking shut, a smitten grin tugging at his face already. The sight of his beloved would never cease to fluster him, after all.Â
âThere she is,â Your handsome wizard greeted warmly, âThe lovely andâ might I say, stunningly beautifulâ Princess of Waterdeep.âÂ
Just like that, you were blushing too, approaching to wrap your arms around him at the waist from behind, pressing a sweet kiss to his shoulder, affectionately roaming every inch of him you could get your hands on with a gentle touch.Â
Yes, life post-Netherbrain softened Gale Dekarios in many ways, and his figure was no exception.
It was no secret Gale had an appreciation for the little indulgences in life, like rich wine and too many sweets, alarm clocks shut off when they really shouldnât be, cozy bedding and plush furniture and hearty âmarry meâ dinners. But, luxuries like that were rather few and far between when the two of you were on the road, and long days of traveling by foot and fighting to survive made for great exercise at the time.Â
Suffice it to say, having a stable home and living without being under the constant threat of death meant you werenât quite as active as you used to be. With time, his cheeks filled out a little more, and his clothes became a bit snug as lean muscle gave way to plush flesh. His skin glowed. He looked relaxed and nourished, he looked healthy, and you couldnât get enough of him if you tried.Â
Your wandering hands did make him a little timid in the moment, howeverâ he hadnât put on a concerning amount of extra padding by any means, but still, this new look was taking some getting used to.Â
âQuite alright, my love?â Gale asked with a soft laugh as your hands came to rest at his hips, your kisses trailing up the side of his neck. His skin was glowing warm beneath your attention.Â
âMhm,â You hummed innocently, nodding, your hands sliding forward to feel along the delicate roundness of his belly through his shirt. âI just missed you today, dearest, and you look so delightful. I have half a mind to talk you into dessert before dinner, hm?âÂ
Your beloved husband was well and truly burning up now, stuttering over whatever he had going on the stove and very much considering abandoning it in favor of bending you over the countertop, but something made him hesitate.Â
With a bashful laugh, as though he were trying to play it off, Gale replied, âRight, well, I suppose I could use the exercise.âÂ
Your brows furrowed with confusion and you glanced up at him over his shoulder, trying to read his expression. He said that so casually, like he didnât think anything of it, and it broke your heart a little bit.Â
âFor all it may be worth, I think you look divine,â You said, face straight and meaning every word of it. Even if Gale was trying to laugh it off, it wasnât a joke to you. Quietly, you added, âI would argue a bit of fluff suits you well, my darling.âÂ
Thankfully Gale tended to be rather easily convinced by you.Â
His posture relaxed a little bit, and now the laugh that puffed out from between his lips was noticeably more genuine. âPerhaps itâs about time we put âa bit of fluffâ on you. I fear my mother will lose her head soon if I donât.âÂ
You tilted your head and narrowed your eyes with playful curiosity. âYour mother? And what concern is that of hers, hm?â
âOnly the same concern of every mother, dearest,â He grinned as though it were obvious, âGrandbabies.âÂ
This response of his gave you pause. Galeâs mother hadnât exactly been quiet about her desire for grandchildren since the day you met her, but sheâd never gone too far, never pestered you to the point of being uncomfortable, and never made it out to be particularly urgentâ you wondered if perhaps sheâd been less patient on the topic with Gale.Â
Your pause had a lot less to do with the pressure to please his mother and a lot more to do with the undeniable fact that the thought of Gale fucking a baby into you made your knees go weak. You werenât even sure you were breathing for a moment, until it occurred to you that youâd been quiet for too long and any further hesitation to respond could be taken the wrong way.Â
Clearing your throat softly, you continued the playful banter, âI think my earlier suggestion stands to remedy that concern as well, no? Dessert before dinner?âÂ
What you didnât know was that Gale had been thinking about this a lot more often than he was letting on. Sure, the pestering of his baby-crazy relatives was one factor, but more than anything, the safety and security heâd felt in the year since youâd married had him throwing himself into the romantics of domesticity with abandon. When you first met, he never imagined such a future would be possible for him. The chaos and uncertainty that came along with defeating the Absolute brought death far closer than most people would see the other side of, and yet you made it.Â
Against all odds, hand-in-hand, you still made it. And every night since your wedding, as you tucked into bed alongside one another, he dreamt of you glowing with the radiance of motherhood. He didnât want to pressure youâ after everything that had happened, it felt like a lot to ask of you to also bear his child, like that might be pushing his luck⌠though you had all but just confirmed your interest with that last remark, and that didnât make it past him.Â
Gale turned off the stove so as not to burn the masterpiece heâd been cooking before turning around to face you, his broad hands coming up to cradle your face. The look he gave you was intensely romantic and almost vulnerable, his eyes gazing deep down into your own as he asked, âMy darling, do you know how long Iâve yearned to make you a mother?âÂ
Your heart was hammering now, warmth creeping up your cheeks as you found yourself unable to break eye contact, not that you wanted to anyway. Bashfully, your hands came to rest upon his soft shoulders, feeling his own heart pulsing away in his chest, his cheeks going rosy with the same warmth. There was always a certain synchronicity between you and Gale.Â
Voice lowering to a near whisper, the emotion behind your words just as strong, you replied, âHow long?âÂ
The look he gave you was tender and reverent. Your husband clicked his tongue and smiled at the floor before cupping your jaw in his two strong hands, meeting your eyes once again. Tone rich with sincerity, he began, âBack in the Grove, seeing you with all the little Tieflings⌠a lot of people would have disregarded them as scoundrels, but not you, my darling.Â
âYou embraced their mischiefâ not only embraced it, but nurtured it. Refined it. You treated them with patience and respect, and you didnât look down upon them, you kneeled to their level. At every turn, you protected them, but you never patronized them. You learned just as much from them as they learned from you.âÂ
He paused for a moment, thumbs stroking over your flushed cheeks, his own skin burning just as hot. Pressing a soft kiss to the tip of your nose, Gale continued, âIâm sure you can imagine how that sent off the train of thought. For the longest time, I bit it back. It felt like a pipe dream, and I didnât want to kid myselfâ Iâve done enough of that for two lifetimes. But then the Netherbrain fell, the Absolute released her iron grip on the commonwealth of Faerun, and whatâs more, you accepted my hand in marriage.Â
âThe first morning I woke up next to you in the safety of our marital bed, it didnât feel like such a distant reality anymore. There you were right before me, and in my mindâs eye, you were bathed in the golden glow of dawn and fertility, your nightgown clinging to your divine, ripening figure. Ever since that moment, the image of you with child has dominated my every waking thought. I crave it like the sweetest wine, my heart, to see you become plump and radiant with motherhood.âÂ
Leave it to Gale to so easily render you weak in the knees with his poetics. The way he described it, you could see it too. You could see the silk of your nightgown becoming snug around your middle as your belly would come to rise like pastry, you could see the vein in Galeâs brow tense while he would struggle to put a crib together. You could see your grocery lists growing to include nappies and baby food, you could see a space at the dining table occupied by a high chair.Â
He was right, it didnât feel distant at all. It felt so close you could taste it, the veil between this reality and that one now paper thin, like a cobweb you could just blow away.Â
Before you could think up a response, he was speaking again, his tone delicate and low, âJust imagine it, dearest. A child born of you and I would have the purest connection to the Weave imaginable, and you would make a gorgeous mother⌠You know I adore you always, but I must confess, Iâm not sure I would be able to leave you be, seeing you like that. It might just require the strength of a thousand men to pry me away.âÂ
You puffed out a laugh, your face and the tips of your ears burning with bashfulness. Leaning forward to hide your face away in his soft chest, you teased, âSo it wasnât your mother who put you up to this?âÂ
âAh, Iâm afraid not, my darling,â He cracked a grin, planting a smooch to the crown of your head. âAt least not entirely. This was a hole I dug the both of us into largely on my own, Iâll admit.âÂ
His hands slid down to rest upon your hips, and for a moment, you just held each other like that. It felt cozy, it felt comfortable, like time itself had paused around you. In all your days, no one but Gale could make you feel like that so consistently. You almost wondered if there might be some subtle illusion magic at play in moments like these, but you knew all too well that Galeâs charm had very little to do with the Weaveâ he was just like that, and you were all the more fortunate for it.Â
Galeâs hold on your hips tightened in an affectionate squeeze before his arms were snaking around you, one at your lower back and one where your thighs met your bottom. He lifted you from your feet and spun you around to face the other way, propping you up on the countertop in one smooth movement, the tightening front of his pants nestled right up against the crotch of your underwear through your dress.Â
Your breath hitched in your throat at the feeling, and he didnât make it any easier for you to remember how to breathe when his next move was to stoop his head down and smother your throat with languid kisses.Â
âGale,â You gasped, hips rutting forward to knock into his own, your head spinning as the distinct outline of his arousal grinded right up against your clit. âGods above, youâre going to be the death of meâŚâÂ
A low chuckle rumbled from his chest at your accusation, his teeth nipping playfully at your pulse point before he spoke against your skin, âAlways a flair for dramatics with you, my beloved bride⌠though if that should turn out to be true, then youâd die how you lived; ravished, revered and adored by your most loyal wizard.âÂ
Just as soon as heâd put you there, Gale was plucking you up from the countertop again, and while it was your immediate assumption that he was going to carry you off to the bedroom, it would seem he didn't even have the patience for that. Your back hit the dining table with a gentle thud, though the ever mindful wizard braced the back of your head gracefully with an oven mitt just in time.Â
You dissolved into a fit of squirms, giggles, and quiet yelps as his lips and teeth met your neck in a display of needy attention, his fingertips crackling with magic as they found their way up beneath the skirt of your dress. Grip printing into your hips, he dragged you back until your clothed cunt was flush with his bulge again, and the electric shock of pleasure that rang through you in response threatened to knock the wind out of you.Â
Gale wouldn't, you thought to yourself, surely he wouldn't enchant his--Â
He tilted your chin up with his knuckle, a brutally smug grin plastered on his rosy face as your eyes met again. "Are you with me, dearest?" His thumb came forward to stroke over the plush of your bottom lip, almost pulling it into a pout himself.Â
"Yeah," You shivered, nodding without even really thinking about it. You couldn't even bring yourself to poke fun at him for that like you might have otherwise. "Did you--"Â
"Shh," Gale cooed, untying the laces of his trousers to relieve some of the pressure before he folded over you and rolled his hips forward again, caging you between the table and his warm, plush frame. The barrier between you was lesser now, and you felt it immediately.
He was radiating the Weave, delicate strands seeping through the thin fabric of your undergarments to kiss, lick, and tingle over your flesh. The sensation wasn't completely foreign-- taking a master wizard as a partner and lover for life naturally lent itself to inappropriate use of the arcane-- but no two intimate encounters with him were ever alike. Sometimes it made you wonder just how many of those hours he spent locked away in his tower were giving him ideas.Â
In hardly any time at all you could feel yourself soaking through your panties, your hips rutting forward to chase him and your mind slipping away into a helpless little puddle of mush, and he had barely even touched you yet. It was all by design, of course-- he didn't want to get too cocky and risk wasting a drop of himself that could otherwise be getting you pregnant.Â
Discarding his shirt and dragging your panties down with shaking hands, Gale groaned at the sight of your arousal, the extent of it. You were right drooling between your legs, pussy glistening with the very same juices that drenched and clung to your underwear. He couldn't help but dip two fingers between your silky folds to collect your nectar for himself. As soon as it hit his tongue he felt like he couldn't breathe. Your taste was creamy and sweet like icing, a flavor he wouldn't ever tire of even if it was the only thing he could ever have again. He could devour you for a lifetime and still hunger for eternity.Â
"You're going to grow so beautifully," He said lowly, eyes half-lidded and his pupils blown wide as saucers. In you he saw nothing but the future. One hand shoving his pants and briefs down his thighs and the other planting itself upon your stomach, his cock sprang up to kiss the plump flesh of his own belly as he continued, "I will thank the divines for the remainder of my life that I should have the pleasure of watching you ripen with our fruit."Â
You could have cried. Your bottom lip did wobble a little bit as you gazed up at him, choking up, and he stooped down to kiss you immediately.Â
"None of that," He mumbled against your lips, dragging his stiff, weeping cock through your folds to keep you good and dizzy, every contact of his skin against yours still buzzing with the arcane. "I have you, okay? I have you. I love you. You're alright."Â
Nodding in response, feeling the tears dry up right then and there, your lips parted in preparation to respond but all that came out was a deep, pleasured cry. Gale was sinking into your hole like he was made for you, stretching you open with slow, delicate thrusts, his breath heavy and lustful in your ear.Â
Stuffing you full of himself until the head of him was threatening to kiss your cervix, Gale stilled for a moment, nipping at the shell of your ear before kissing your cheek affectionately and checking in with you, "Feeling good, my darling?"Â
"Mhm," You nodded, and as soon as your approval registered to him, he began to move.Â
Bliss. Pure and uncut bliss. That quiet little hum of approval quickly melted into staggered breaths and mewls, your hands finding purchase in kneading at the dough of his waist. You really couldn't get over how well the extra weight suited him, how perfectly it softened his edges and padded out the warmest parts of his physique. He was made for a body like this, a little bit round and squishy and sweet. You wanted to swallow him in one bite.Â
Every stroke of his cock inside you felt like true euphoria, crackles and tingles of pleasure radiating outward from each and every nerve ending, and he felt it too. You could tell by the look on his face, the way his mouth hung open with deep, wanton moans, the way he shivered and stuttered with damn near every thrust.Â
"G-Gale," You cried out, nails printing into his flesh as you tried to tug him down to you.Â
Typically he would have obliged you without hesitation, but Gale had other plans at the moment. Bracing himself against the fine oak wood to the right side of your head, his other hand gripped at your thigh and angled your leg up with ease. Before you could register what he was about to do, he was already doing it.Â
Folding you into a half mating press, he drove into you deep, the Weave sinking into your bloodstream with a staggering intensity that nearly made you scream.Â
Swallowing your cries with his own lips, Gale kissed you just about as deeply as he was fucking you, his facial hair scratching and tickling at your cheeks as his silky tongue slipped over your own. Every knock of his hips against your own had the dining table rattling too, the walls of your marital home ringing with the sounds of sex, the obscene squelching of your pussy sucking him in, the needy whines and moans slipping from you both.Â
You felt like you were on fire in the best possible way. Every square inch of your body was alight with lust and magic, your legs hooked around his hips to draw him even closer. The two of you could fuse together and you would still want to get closer.Â
Soon enough, your throbbing clit was met with the unexpected pressure of arcane fingertips, measured strokes of a figure-eight over your swollen bud that coaxed you higher and higher and higher until you felt like you were weightless there on that table, lifting from it, your lips only parting from his own as your head fell back against the oven mitt in a desperate gasp for breath.Â
That breath was almost immediately followed by a broken cry of his name, the stimulation causing your greedy cunt to clench and pulse around him, again, by design. Sinking down on his elbow so he could speak directly into your ear, his cock stroking so deeply into you that it nearly felt like it was prodding at your lungs, Gale groaned, "That's it, pup, there you are... Such pretty noises from my good girl, my darling little wife..."Â
"I love you, I love you, I--"Â
Cutting you off with a kiss, Gale replied, "I love you more, and I'll give you as many babies as it takes to prove it."
Your vision went white, thighs wrenching tight around his hips as you plummeted over the edge unlike ever before. It felt like traveling through a lightning bolt, your spine arching up into a fine point, your stomach pressing up against his own as he emptied his load inside you, mage hand still circling your puffy clit.Â
Ropes and ropes of creamy seed flooded your hole until you were stuffed to the brim, leaving behind that delicious pressure that came along with being stretched so full. Your bottom half felt heavy as you fought to catch your breath beneath him, tears leaking from your dewy eyes.Â
"N-No more, no more with the mage hand," You stammered, sucking in a sharp breath as its thumb and forefinger took your clit in a delicate pinch.Â
Another second or two passed in which he continued to have his fun before deciding you'd had enough. The stimulation to your bud slowly ceased, but as he withdrew his softening sex from you, you quickly realized you didn't feel any less full.Â
Brows knitting together, you squirmed and struggled to sit up, watching Gale turn his back to dampen a washcloth before returning to you, gently wiping the sweat from your brow and the slick from your inner thighs, brushing your hair away from your face reverently. "Shh, shh. Just sit still for a moment longer, alright? Let me get you cleaned up."Â
He continued his gentle work until you were refreshed and sparkling before scooping you up from the dining table like a princess in his arms, carrying you off to the bedroom to get you both changed.Â
It was only as the two of you entered the room and you caught sight of yourself in the floor-length mirror that you realized Gale's mage hand was still very much at work, its thick middle and ring fingers plugging you up nicely. Not a drop was wasted with the diligent digits blocking the way.Â
Gale helped you out of your dress and into a soft nightgown, and in your exhaustion you were ready to just crash into bed for the night. Curling up atop the covers as Gale changed into loungewear of his own, you were about to fall asleep right then and there when he woke you with a loving grin.Â
"Huh?" You mumbled, reaching up to rub your eyes, and as his own raked over the image of your beautiful body, he couldn't stop thinking about the many ways it would come to develop over the next several months.Â
"We still haven't eaten, my love."Â
You groaned, burying your face back into the bedding stubbornly. "But I'm tired..."Â
"You were the one who wanted dessert before dinner, sweetest," He teased. "We've had our dessert, and now it's time for dinner. Besides, I thought we agreed to fluff you up a bit?"
A bashful smile tugging at your cheeks, you narrowed your eyes at him playfully, huffing out, "Okay, okay, fine," reaching your arms out for him to carry you again, and you were so lucky he loved to baby you.Â
Gale didn't hesitate to take you into his arms, your head nestled up against his chest as you returned to the kitchen together. He placed you gently down in a chair at the dining table before assessing what he'd left on the stove earlier. His 'masterpiece' was now ice cold and unappealing to him, and surely his darling wife deserved better than cold and unappealing.Â
Turning over his shoulder to look at you, Gale asked you a question that you didn't think you'd ever hear him ask; "How about tavern food tonight?"
#venustext#sintext#baldur's gate 3#bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#bg3 gale#bg3 gale smut#gale dekarios x reader#gale of waterdeep x reader#bg3 gale x reader#gale dekarios x tav#gale of waterdeep x tav#bg3 gale x tav
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Ughhh what about any sub character begging for me to breed them after something turned them on while Iâm reviewing and writing reports
u know HOW PPL LOOK SO MUCH GOOOOODDDD IN A SUIT (drools)
and me being the insanely NICE individual I would probably make them wait the entire time maybe cockwarm me??
Then I would probably breed them until they pass out and make them scream so fucking hard that they couldnât even make noise for a week and walking got threw out the door eons ago
I PROMISE ITâS BECAUSE OF THE SUIT AND DEFINITELY NOT BECAUSE IâM SO FUCKING STRESSED AND THEY LOOK SO GOOD BEGGING
The way I instantly thought of Aaron Hotchner
He seems to be the type to grunt and whimper, occasionally groaning; especially if you're jerking him off in his office. Once you get home and you have him to yourself, he's moaning and begging for you.
THE THINGS I WANT TO DO TO THIS MAN HE HAD NO RIGHT LOOKING THIS GOOD IN A SUIT.. I love dilfs so fucking much bro
Warnings: sub aaron, dom reader, true gn reader, very lovey dovey sex, aaron and reader being absolutely WHIPPED for each other, reader can have a dick or a strap, mild begging, implied morning sex, cockwarming, grinding, implied overstimulation
You sat in your home office, reviewing a few case files from the past few weeks. The door opened quietly and then shut, Aaron's gentle footsteps being heard as he walked over to you. He placed his warm hands on your shoulders and you leant back into his touch.
"Hey.." he said quietly, looking down at what you were occupied with. "You want to take a break?"
"I'm sorry baby I can't.." You hummed gently rubbing the back of his hand with your thumb. "I have to review these for Strauss.."
Aaron made a soft noise of disapproval, pulling back your office chair and practically pulling himself into your lap. You were both big, barely fitting in the desk chair as he situated himself over your crotch. You sighed, still seeing him in his work suit.
"What do you need Aaron?" You murmured, cupping his cheek and running your thumb over his lower lip.
"You.." He replied concisely, practically demanding.
"Honey I have to work.." You sighed, pulling him down into a soft kiss.
"Please..." He asked, looking down at you with those eyes of liquid chocolate. It made your heart squeeze and your stomach do flips even though you had been together for years. You sighed.
"Fine.. pants off baby. You can keep me company while I work." You unbuckled your own belt as he removed his lower clothing as fast as he could.
He was already half hard as you slid inside him, the remnants of this mornings lube coming in handy. Aaron moaned softly in your ear, snuggling into your neck as he waited patiently for you to finish your task. Your girth made his muscled thighs shake, and every so often he would grind down onto you as he let out soft 'a-ah's of satisfaction.
Eventually you would finish up, man handling him over your desk after you had cleaned up. Aaron often made a mess and a conversation with Strauss about 'suspicious stains on the report' was not one you were willing to have.
You set a deep, hard pace, your thrusts reaching every spot inside him. He was grasping onto your desk, moaning out low, gravelly strings of 'thank you' and 'I love you so much'.
"I love you too, sweet boy.." you grunted, rutting your hips sharply into him. It was true and you wouldn't stop until he was shooting blanks over your desk and limping to work the next morning.
#dom reader#sub character#sub criminal minds#sub aaron hotchner#aaron hotchner x reader#aaron hotchner#aaron hotch x reader#aaron hotchner smut#aaron hotch hotchner#aaron hotchner x gender neutral reader#aaron hotch smut#sub hotch#sub!hotch#sub hotchner#mino chats //
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unexpected - part 2
guys itâs finally here and Iâm so sorry it took so long! but daddy barz is finally here! please lmk if youâd like more of this or something similar (daddy barz)
PART ONE PART 2.1 PART THREE
word count: 3.5k
warnings: pregnancy, children, childbirth (not in detail)
note: if you hate the name, sorry not sorry, but also lmk and if enough ppl donât like it Iâll change it haha but I love sort of uncommon names but I also wanted it to be short and sweet so this one is not that out there for me lol
December 25 - 4 months
"Wait, I have one more for you," you told Mat and hurried to you closet where you had kept an extra special present for him. You loved giving gifts and you knew he was going to love this one. You were doing a gift exchange just the two of you, before going over to the Martins to celebrate the holiday with them and a couple more team members. Today was also the day you were going to tell them about the baby. "Here."
You sat back next to him on the floor and watched with teary easy as he tore the paper away. His eyes fell on the little blue onesie with the Islanders logo on the front. "Baby-"
"Turn it around." He did and a huge smile crossed his face. In tiny letters his last name was written across the back with a '13' underneath. "Do you like it?"
"Like it? Baby, this is-" He pulled you into a hug, taking a deep breath fighting his tears. "I love it. This is so cute. I can't wait to see the baby in this."
"Me neither. Little baby Barzal." You smiled at each other before he kissed you deeply. "Merry Christmas."
"Merry Christmas," he replied. "Next year, this little one will be sitting right there."
"Can't wait."
January - 5 months
"What are you doing?" You jumped at Mat's voice breaking the midnight silence. The kitchen overhead light turned on and you were caught red handed rummaging through the fridge in the middle of the night. "Are you crying?"
You quickly wiped your tears away, closed the fridge and turned to him. You watched him rub his eyes sleepily as he made his way towards you, then wrapped you in his arms for a warm, comforting hug. You started sobbing again, even tough the reason was ridiculous, but you couldn't help it. Your hormones were out of control. "What's wrong?"
"I'm craving pickles with peanut butter, but we don't have any," you said between sobs. Mat chuckled lightly and rubbed your back.
"But you hate peanut butter."
"I know."
"And nothing else sounds good?" You shook your head. "What about Nutella? You want to try that?"
"No!" You we're still silently sobbing when Mat took your face in his hands and tilted it back to meet his gaze. He had a small crooked smile on his lips as he kissed your tears away.
"Do you want me to go buy some?," he asked gently. God, he really was the sweetest man alive.
"Where the hell are you going to find peanut butter in the middle of the night? Plus, you should be sleeping! You have a game tomorrow, go back to bed."
"I'll be fine," he said and kissed your lips this time which were wet from your tears. "And there's probably a gas station that sells some."
"Mhm," you shook your head and leaned back into him for a hug. Your 5 months pregnant belly prevented from hugging tightly, but his hugs still worked their magic.
"Then what can I do?," he asked softly, rubbing his back.
"I don't know." Your hormones got the best of you again and the tears started flowing once more. You could only fixate on that damn peanut butter and every other food you thought of made you want to vomit. While fighting with yourself in your head and silently crying into Mat's chest, you suddenly felt a strange sensation in your belly. Your tears stopped and you pulled away from him. "Oh."
"What?"
"I think the baby just kicked." You felt it again and a smile broke out on you face. "Maty! Feel this."
Your placed his hand on the lower right side of you belly, then patiently waited for the next kick. His sleepy eyes opened wide when he felt it. "Baby, this is..." He pulled you in for a kiss, but pulled away when the baby kicked again. "He did the again! Did you feel that?"
"Yes, I felt that," you laughed. "And she kicked."
"We'll find out soon." His face beamed with happiness. "I never want to remove my hand."
"Kinda hard to play hockey this way, though."
"Eh, I could manage." You both chuckled and he pulled you back in for a hug after kissing your forehead. You stood in the embrace for a bit, enjoying the moment.
"Are you still hungry or can we go back to bed?," Mat asked after a while, yawning. You thought about it for a second, then rummaged through your pantry and settled for a bag of chips. With a sleepy grin, you held up the bag and followed Mat back to bed.
"This will do."
February - 6 months
"How was the checkup? Is the little squish okay?" Mat asked over facetime from his hotel room. "Did you find out?"
"Yes, the little squish is okay. And I have the envelope, but don't worry I'm waiting for you to come back to find out," you answered and told him more of the details of your six month checkup. The baby was as healthy as could be and you couldn't be more grateful for that. You due date was May 25th, one day before Mat's birthday and everyone was excited to see if they'd end up having the same birthday. The doctor also was able to tell the sex of the baby and had written it on a piece of paper that you stashed inside an envelope so you wouldn't find out until Mat came home from his road-trip.
The last few months had been absolutely crazy. Your lives had been thrown upside down when you found out you were unexpectedly pregnant. Now, you were both trying to figure out how to make your lives work with a new addition to the family. Your friends and family were shocked to say the least when you told them, no one had expected it, but everyone was very supportive and excited for the both of you.
"I'm looking at the house later, too," you started a new topic. At around four months your bump started showing and all of the sudden it clicked how fast this was all happening and how unprepared you were. So taking Mat's suggestion, you did agree to start looking for houses. After all, you carrying his child was a fair exchange for a nice house.
"Ok, take videos for me, please. I think this one is going to be it."
"Only because Anders lives down the street."
"Well, we'll need help. And it doesn't hurt having someone experienced close by." You grinned, chuckling, then spent the next while talking.
A few days later, Mat came home from his road-trip more excited than usual. He had a bouquet of flowers and your favorite Starbucks drink with him and showered you in kisses when he saw you. "I missed you, too." You kissed him one more time, before taking a sip of your drink you had been craving all day.
"Ok, I need to know. Now!" He was of course referring to the sex of the baby. You were more relaxed about the subject, not really understanding the need to know (except maybe to know if you should buy those absolutely adorable pink baby dresses or not), but Mat was dying to so you gave in and agreed to find out as well. You grabbed the envelope from a drawer you had kept it in and handed it to Mat who basically ripped it apart.
"Ready? Final vote?"
"Girl," you said confidently, trusting your mothers intuition. "What's the pool from the guys say?"
"The majority said boy, but probably only because most of them have daughter and we need more boys," Mat replied. Of course, when he had told his teammates he was going to be a father, immediate bets on the sex, weight, future hockey career, etc. were made. "I'm going with boy, too. Ready?"
He slowly opened the piece of paper so the both of you could read it at the same time and after a few seconds of scanning the page, you let out a scream.
"I was right!" You almost tackled your boyfriend with a hug jumping from joy of soon getting a daughter. Mat's face however wasn't as joyful as yours and sort of killed your mood too. "You're not happy? Mat!"
"What? No! Baby, I am, I just," he sighed searching for his words. "I don't know anything about babies, let alone girls. How on earth am I going to raise a girl? I- What am I supposed to teach her? Or play with her?"
You put a hand on his cheek, calming him. "You'll figure it out and I'm here to help. Trust me, it'll all come naturally once she's here." You kissed him. "And you could probably teach her how not to fall for a hockey playing fuckboy like her mom did. That would save her a lot of heartache."
"Hey!" He playfully pinched you and trapped you in between his arms. "Oh, she is not going near any boy until she's 30!"
"There you go! That's the spirit." You smiles turned serious again when he dropped his forehead against yours.
"You really think I can do this?," he asked, doubt in his voice.
"I know you can. You take great care of me and I'm a girl. She'll be like a mini me."
"A mini you? Uf, I'm in deep shit if she turns out like you." Now it was your turn to pinch him, but you did it harder. He could handle it. "I'm kidding! I couldn't ask for a better role model for our daughter than you."
"Thank you," you said and kissed his soft lips again. They were so addicting. "And she'll tell you what she likes and doesn't like. And when she's old enough you can bring her on the ice with you and teach her to skate."
"Yeah! She'll be the best skater in the world. Oh! I'll get her little pink skates and a matching helmet! And a pink stick, too? Or is that too much pink?" You chuckled at how quickly his doubt turned into excitement.
"Maybe a little."
"Ok, we'll figure it out then." You nodded in agreement. You still had a few of years until then.
"Hey, (y/n). I am excited. I just panicked for a second."
"I know, it's ok. I like that you're sharing your fears. As much as I am excited and overjoyed, I'm terrified as well. Teenage girls are horrifying."
"We got this!" Mat stepped away and high-fived you. "Dream team."
You picked up you drink again and watched as Mat worked his way over to the fridge looking for food. This man was always hungry and now that you were pregnant, you were grocery shopping for what felt like five people. "Oh god!," he exclaimed, closing the fridge again but not before stealing a piece of cheese. "What if she doesn't like pink?"
Yeah, he was going to do just fine as a girl dad.
April - 8 months
"Guys, thank you so much for today. This was truly so sweet and I'm so grateful I'm going to have you guys around for help." The girls in the room smiled and cheered as they came over again to congratulate you again. The Isles wags were sweet enough to throw you a baby shower today and you truly felt the support by each and every one of them. You would really need it, especially when Mat would be on the road for games.
You went home to your apartment with a lot more gifts than you expected and were ready to just lay down and put your feet up. Yes, still your apartment. You actually had closed on a house (the one close to Anders) a couple of weeks ago but since your birth was so close you had decided to put off moving until after the baby was born. That would lessen the stress and also allow time to do some renovations to the house. The baby would be sleeping in your room for the first few months anyway and didn't need her own room. You couldn't decide on a nursery theme anyway so hopefully once she was here, you could make the final decision.
Music was blasting throughout the apartment and you followed it to find Mat on his knees in the living room putting together a rocking chair. "Oh, you're back," he got up to kiss you softly. "You look beautiful."
"I look and feel like a whale."
"But whales are beautiful amazing creatures." He kissed you again. "Did you bring me back cake?"
"In the grey bag," you pointed to where you had dropped your things and then plopped down on the couch, moaning in discomfort.
"Want me to massage something?," Mat asked when he came back to the living room, already digging into the piece of cake.
"My feet. But build the chair first, I wanna see how it looks." He raised a hand to his forehead, saluting, then started up building the chair again. It was relatively easy, so he was done quickly to massage your feet.
"I also put the bassinet together. It's in the bedroom already."
"Aw, I can't wait to see it. It's getting so close. Oh god, there's still so much to do. I need wash the clothes, and-" You started spiraling.
"Baby, calm down. It's gonna be ok. I'll help and you parents will be here soon who will help, too," he calmed you. "Take a deep breath."
Every day getting closer to you due date, you're anxiety increased, but it was usually trumped by your excitement over holding you baby girl. The timing of your pregnancy also wasn't the best since it was right during the playoffs that the isles were guaranteed to play in. You felt bad about it, but you were secretly hoping they'd get kicked out so you could be sure Mat would be there for the birth and help support you every day.
"Hey! Squish is kicking," you announced excitedly and Mat jumped from his spot landing next to you, eagerly placing his hand on your belly, feeling for his girl to kick.
"We're really gonna have to come up with a name. We can't call her squish all her life." You chuckled. The nickname came about when you saw the first ultrasound picture of her whole body and you noticed how cubby her cheeks were (or at least that's what you told yourself). Mat's response was that she looked like she was very squished in there (your belly) and the word kind of stuck around. She was your little squish and you couldn't wait for her to get all chubby.
You ordered in that night, too lazy to get up from the couch and cook a meal, and cuddled on the couch seriously discussing baby names.
May 11th - 9 months
That was the worst night of sleep you had gotten ever! You had been uncomfortable for last few months and hadn't gotten the best sleep, but last night you probably only slept for 30 minutes. Everything was hurting, your back, your legs, and most notably your belly. Looking back on it, you probably should have realized you were in labor or the idea should have at least crossed your mind, but for some reason you denied it and you just laid in bed and endured the pain. The pain was also nothing like a 'normal' contraction, you thought your body was just preparing for labor, it was more like Braxton Hicks and that was definitely not labor. Mat was also leaving for Florida the next day for a few days and you didn't want to worry him. Plus, you were scared. So yeah, you just laid there and took it. This would all be worth it in the end.
Mat noticed your discomfort, asking multiple times if you'd rather he stayed with you, but you assured him it was only false labor and even the doctor a few days ago said that she probably wouldn't come until at least her due date.
"Alright, bag is packed. I got my plane snacks," Mat listed in the afternoon, thinking out loud. He sat on the bed and leaned down to kiss you. "Now you," he said placing a hand on his stomach. "Don't come out until I get back, okay? It's nice and warm in there so stay comfy for a few more days."
"Yeah, she's nice in there but her mama is definitely getting tired of not being able to move." Mat shot you a worried look. "I'll be fine. I've got my girls coming over and my mom will be here in a few days."
Of course in that moment you got a cramp like feeling that paralyzed you with pain for a few seconds. "I don't like this, I should stay."
"No, no. Go. These are important games. I promise I'll be safe and I'll have people stay with me."
It pained him to go, but after a bit more convincing and a long hug and kiss goodbye he did. When you heard the dot shut, you moaned again in pain. Okay, this was much more painful than just a few hours ago. You turned the TV on, trying to distract yourself but the pain got more intense. Then you felt a little wet, like you had just peed yourself (and horribly that was a normal part of pregnancy). And suddenly all of the alarms went off. You were in labor.
"Shit!" You started freaking out, but the pain limited your movements so all you could do was reach the phone. "Maty!," you yelled when he picked up.
"What? What?," he yelled back, panicked.
"It hurts." You started crying. "I think the baby is coming."
"Ok, I'm coming. Hold on, I'll be there in a few minutes." Thankfully he was still in his car so he was able to turn around easily and come back to get you. He stayed on the phone with you the entire time while you explained to him what you had been feeling for the past few hours. Mat was very good about not being mad that you had lied to him about how you were feeling, he understood you anxiety about it for which you were very grateful.
"Baby time," Mat shouted when he stormed into the apartment and into the bedroom where you were struggling to get up. You couldn't help but chuckle at his grin while he was helping you stand up. "Let's go."
"Wait! I want to change." He rolled his eyes but helped you change outfit. He did the same, changing out of his suit and into comfy clothes. Once you got everything, you waddled out of your apartment and on your way to the hospital you were. One waddle step at a time. One waddle closer to meeting your daughter.
Which you did after a long few hours of painful labor. Mat stayed with you the entire time, never leaving your side except for getting you ice chips. Since you technically started labor the night before, you only spent about five hours in the hospital bed before your tiny girl made her appearance.
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"Our first choice seems like the best fit, eh?"
"It does," you replied smiling. The smile hadn't left your face since the moment you held your daughter. Your head leaned against Mat's shoulder who was sitting next to you in the hospital bed. In your arms, you held your perfect little girl.
"Wanna make it official?" His fingertips traced her tiny face. He too, hadn't stopped smiling. You nodded. "Myla."
"Hi, Myla." She opened her eyes for a second and let out a cute baby noise and of course the two of you were infatuated with her all over again. "She looks like you."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah, she has your eyebrows." You traced them softly, outlining the distinct shape.
"She has your nose, though."
"A perfect mix." You looked up at him and he leaned his forehead against you. "I love you."
"I love you more," he whispered. "Thank you. You did such a good job. I am so happy. She's perfect. You're perfect. And I can't wait to take her home. And read her books. And put cute little outfits on her. And-" You chuckled at him rambling, but took all of his words to heart.
"I can't wait for all of that either." You kissed him again, but you little moment was interrupted by a nurse who was coming to take baby Myla to the nursery so you could get a couple of hours of sleep. While your heart broke watching her being wheeled away, you definitely needed to catch up on your sleep. With a final kiss from Mat, you got as comfortable as possible and fell into a deep sleep, the image of your daughter never leaving your mind. You had everything you ever wanted. The perfect boyfriend (and hopefully soon to be husband) and now a perfect daughter.
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LOVING YOU FROM A DISTANCE â TEASER.
S â â Heeseung has liked you for ages, too long for him to even recall how. Sure, he should be confessing now, but he couldnât. He couldnât, especially if you have a boyfriend. So how is he going to tell you his feelings in only a span of a year before he leaves?
2 LOVERS? â best-friend!heeseung x best-friend!fem!reader
GENRE â high school au, bsfs to lovers to ???, he fell first, she fell harder (+ sort of right person, wrong time), angst, fluff
WARNINGS â some curse words possibly, insecurities (abt looks, way they act, etc), some ppl might act shitty .. (will add more if any in actual post for the fic)
FEATURING â beomgyu from txt, sunghoon from enhypen, yoon from stayc
SOPH â since lyfad had the most votes in the poll, here is the long fic that i will be working on đ hope you guys think you made a good choice on picking this!! enjoy this little snippet đ¤ + thank u sona fans (or u guys) for picking one on sonas poll, as promised, here is the teaser <3
"Dang, you're good. Never knew you could play," you exclaimed as he finished playing the guitar.
Heeseung smiled and put the guitar down beside him. "You know me, always good at everything, but I don't mean to boast," he said. âYou really don't know your best friend, do you?"
"Seriously, you're good at everything. It's hard to keep up with you," you joked, thinking about all the skills he possessed. "I wish I could play like you."
"It's not that difficult to learn. You're a quick learner," he reassured.
Eagerly, you suggested, "Could you teach me?"
"Sure, why not?" he agreed with a smile.
Excited about the opportunity to learn from Heeseung, you both decided to take some time for a quick guitar lesson. You sat right beside him, preparing to learn a few tips.
"Alright, let's start with the basics," Heeseung said, holding the guitar and showing you how to hold it properly. He hands you his guitar, allowing you to copy what he did.
You watched attentively, eager to learn everything you can. "Like this?" you asked, mimicking his hand position.
âExactly, just position that slightly a bit more towards this way,â he scoots closer to you, propping the item correctly in your hand. âYouâre doing great!â
"Now, let's learn how to strum the strings." He demonstrated a gentle strumming motion. "Try it yourself." He hands you the pick, watching over you as you try it out.
You nervously held the guitar and attempted to replicate his strumming. The sound was a bit off, but you kept trying.
Heeseung smiled reassuringly. "Youâre doing great! Perfect for a first timer."
He patiently taught you the chords, giving you encouragement and guidance that you needed. Even if you fumbled a bit, you gradually started improving the sounds. "Wow, that sounds much better now," you exclaimed, surprised by your progress.
Heeseung chuckled. "See? You're a fast learner. Just keep practicing, and you'll be playing like a pro in no time."
"I just have to teach you a few more basic chords before I can teach you a song," Heeseung said, reaching over to take the guitar from your hands. However, before he could proceed, the door swung open, revealing Beomgyu. He greeted you both with a warm smile.
"You know," Beomgyu chimed in cheerfully, "if you really wanted to learn guitar, you should've asked me." He plopped down beside you, extending a hand towards Heeseung. "Hand me that guitar, Hee."
You exchanged surprised glances, amazed by the unexpected turn of events. Handing the guitar over to Beomgyu, you watched as he effortlessly adjusted his posture and strummed a few chords.
"I've been playing for a while now," Beomgyu continued, "and I'd love to share what I've learned with you."
"You know how to play guitar too?" you asked Beomgyu in surprise.
"Of course I do. Your boyfriend knows a thing or two," Beomgyu replied cheesily, earning a giggle from you. As the playful banter continued, Heeseung couldn't help but feel a twinge of discomfort, sensing himself becoming the third wheel. However, it wasn't an entirely unfamiliar situation.
Gradually distancing himself from the two of you, Heeseung settled into a corner, observing your interaction. He wore a gentle smile, occasionally chuckling at your playful mistakes and Beomgyu's teasing scolds.
In that moment, Heeseung couldn't deny the bittersweet longing within him. He wished he could be more than just your best friend, wishing for something more.
In the corner, Heeseung's heart felt conflicted as he watched your interaction with Beomgyu. Part of him wished he could be the one making you laugh and sharing those playful moments together. He couldn't help but wonder what it would be like if he were the one holding the guitar, strumming strings that would make your heart skip a beat.
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GET TO KNOW ME TAG GAME!
tysm for tagging me and thinking of me @end-hyphen and @petrichor-han ! i am late to the game as always 𤥠bc i did let this marinate in my drafts for a week for absolutely no reason but !! this was fun hehe i loved reading yalls too <33
this is also super long so answers under the cut!
BIRTHDAY
october 17
FAVORITE COLOR
dark blues and pastels
DO YOU HAVE PETS?
one cat! he is staring up at me from across the room as i write this lmao
HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5â5 (165 cm)!
HOW MANY PAIRS OF SHOES DO YOU OWN?
i think between 10-12 but thereâs only 5 pairs i wear regularly. literally wear the exact same loafers to work every single day đ
FAVORITE SONG?
literally changes every day lmao but rn itâs probably between good life by wayv, back down by p1harmony, or avalanche by walk the moon
FAVORITE MOVIE?
everything everywhere all at once OR kikiâs delivery service OR scream (1996) LMAO i love watching all different kinds of movies but horror has rlly been my fave over the past year or so <3
WHO WOULD BE YOUR IDEAL PARTNER?
lee seokmin OR someone who makes me laugh, is patient, kind, caring, and a good listener. someone who i donât feel like i have to put on a performance for and who i can be myself around. and who understands all my little interests! like tv and movies and kpop hehe
DO YOU WANT CHILDREN?
absolutely not! LMAO the cat is enough <3
HAVE YOU GOTTEN IN TROUBLE WITH THE LAW?
iâll copy genieâs answer and just say i was a very stupid teenager who thankfully never actually went to the police station BUT i try to be a smarter adult now bc of it HAHA
WHAT COLOR SOCKS ARE YOU WEARING?
blue and white striped!
FAVORITE TYPE OF MUSIC?
i rlly do listen to just about anything but since this IS a kpop blog iâll say kpop. honorable mentions include 70s dad rock, alt/indie rock, anime osts, and classical (study playlist my beloved)
HOW MANY PILLOWS DO YOU SLEEP WITH?
two! one for my head and one beside me lmao
WHAT POSITION DO YOU SLEEP IN?
on my side usually. or curled up in a ball since my room is always freezing cold ahahaďżź
WHAT DONâT YOU LIKE WHEN YOUâRE SLEEPING?
when i can see light coming under my door from another room in the hallwayâŚdrives me absolutely bonkers i need complete darkness to be able to sleep or i cannot đ
WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
if i have time to eat i usually just make cereal! sometimes my work brings in bagels and cream cheese too which is always a treat <3
HAVE YOU EVER TRIED ARCHERY?
yes! HAHA my parents tried literally any and every sport/activity they could get me in as a kid bc surely i had to be good at ONE, right? (answer: no đ) i was decent but definitely not a sharpshooter by any means lmao. i do still have my bow and arrows and the target we used to practice with (and this is also why the reader in frw&d shoots w a bow n arrow â since itâs the only âweaponâ i have any real experience with for writing đ¤)
FAVORITE FRUIT?
strawberries, kiwi, and mango!
ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR?
absolutely not lmao i have tried for many years but apparently i just look incredibly obvious when i try to lie đ
WHATâS YOUR PERSONALITY TYPE?
enfj!
INNIE OR OUTIE?
literally what does this mean. my bellybutton??? do i like going outside????
LEFT OR RIGHT HANDED?
right-handed!
FAVORITE FOOD?
poppyseed chicken! OOO or i had lemon bars the other day and they were absolutely đĽ
FAVORITE FOREIGN FOOD?
omg thereâs a thai restaurant literally 2 seconds away from my house that is SO damn good. iâd eat there every day if i could LMAO
AM I CLEAN OR MESSY?
i think iâm very selectively clean bahaha like my bathroom has to be nice and organized or iâll lose my mind but my room is always in some state of disaster
MOST USED PHRASE?
do i have one?? idek actually đ
HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE FOR YOU TO GET READY?
i donât put in a ton of effort for work these days LMAO so like 10 minutes probably?? if iâm going out for dinner or something else w other ppl tho between 20-30 minutes
DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF?
100% HAHA this is the best way to get fic ideas and also sometimes i think iâm funny yâknow đť
DO YOU SING TO YOURSELF?
every time i get in my car itâs a concert babey !!
ARE YOU A GOOD SINGER?
absolutely not HAHA but thatâs why itâs fun to just jam in the car or in my room <3
BIGGEST FEAR?
drowning, caves, letting ppl down
ARE YOU A GOSSIP?
đľđľđľ bring me the tea PLS i think a healthy dose of gossip is good for you actually
DO YOU LIKE LONG OR SHORT HAIR?
on me i think i prefer short (even though itâs growing out again rn). long hair for literally everyone else though HAHA
FAVORITE SCHOOL SUBJECT?
any english or writing courses and history!!
EXTROVERT OR INTROVERT?
extrovert!
WHAT MAKES YOU NERVOUS?
having to drive long distances and making phonecalls đ§
WHO WAS YOUR FIRST REAL CRUSH?
one of those mfs from newsies (1992) most likely LMAO or nick from walk the moon đŤś
HOW MANY PIERCINGS?
just two on my earlobes for now! not going to do anything else until i figure out if i can get more with my job HAHA
HOW MANY TATTOOS?
none </3 i wanna get the homunculus tattoo from fmab SO BAD
HOW FAST CAN YOU RUN?
if iâm running iâm either on the treadmill or being chased so. probably not that fast
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HAIR?
brown. rlly want to get skunk hair with blonde underneath but once againâŚâŚneed to see if my job will allow it lmfao
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
blue!
WHAT MAKES YOU ANGRY?
many things but today itâs the governor of my state and ppl who are rude to service workers
DO YOU LIKE YOUR NAME?
yes! i picked out beck a long time ago bc i liked the androgyny of it and i still rlly like it <33
DO YOU WANT A BOY OR A GIRL AS A CHILD?
no kids babey!! my cat is a boy though and heâs enough
WHAT ARE YOUR STRENGTHS?
iâm resourceful, creative, and i donât give up on things that are important to me.
WHAT ARE YOUR WEAKNESSES?
why is this a job interview i canât shut up once i start talking and have a hard time being able to tell when i need to stop. also mega perfectionist and tend to overanalyze every other conversation i have lmao
WHATâS THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSPREAD?
white with purple flowers!
WHATâS THE COLOR OF YOUR ROOM?
itâs this purplish grey (which doesnât sound super appealing but i promise itâs a very calming color LOL i painted it over the summer) and i have brown wood floors.
tagging: @seung-scrittore @decembermoonskz @sulfurcosmos @lotus-dly @lixesque @txtkids and anyone who would like to or hasnât already done this! as always, no pressure on the tags â these are just for fun and nothing serious đ¤
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I cannot tell you how much it hurts my heart to read your feelings about your mom. I lost a very close relationship with my brother because of the extreme right lies and trump crap. I don't think i have spoken to him in a year outside of birthday and holiday wishes. As a mom of 4, ages 16 to 23, I have 1 that has come out as bi, 1 as a lesbian, 1 is straight and my oldest says labels are for soup cans. I'm not your momma, and I wouldn't want to budge in where I don't belong, but I am proud of you. You are a hard working, sweet, intelligent young lady who genuinely cares about others feelings. I have seen posts from you where you could've dived into the mud and dragged people and you don't do that. You take the high road. You are patient with repeated questions and still answer each one no matter how many times they come up. I have yet to see you make someone feel stupid. In times like now, these characteristics are rare. Most people don't want to show they care at all. Being bi is just part of it. I wish I could tell you it will definitely get better and your mother will come to her senses, but it could take a long time or never happen at all. But she could have an epiphany. I admit I rage verbally at the news, sometimes I rant and rave like a mad woman. but I don't think politicians, the government and the church have the right to decide how human a person is. I know you didn't ask for all this, that you were venting. But I hear you. And I accept everything about you.
thank you so much for this ask. your kind words made me tear up. i appreciate you reaching out to me to say all of this. it's nice to see something like this unexpectedly.
i will say outside of politics, my mom and i get along really well. she's been my best friend since i was a kid, even more so now since i don't have any physical friends. it's just when it comes to politics we do not agree AT ALL. which is why i do my best to remind her every time she starts to talk about politics that i just don't want to hear bc it just becomes a screaming match.
i just wish at times i knew how to debate better, or had all the facts. bc i usually just get too angry to even speak and just have to walk away bc i don't want to scream at my mom. and she likes to act like she knows everything and that i know so little when in reality i'm paying attention to the news just as much as her, the difference is i just don't watch fox news and don't listen to whatever bullshit they're trying to make ppl angry about now.
i will say my saving grace is that while my mom is republican and likes trump, she isn't a maga person. she's not all about him, and she's not devoted to him like some of his followers are. she's just a somewhat-conservative, republican. she isn't into qan*n and all that shit, thank god. she's mostly level headed, she justâŚ. watches way too much fox news. and i do also have the benefit of my brother, who is very good at debating and is on my side for the most part. i wouldn't say he's a leftist like me, but he doesn't agree with her and ngl i kinda always love hearing them debate bc he says all the shit i wish i knew how to word. he points out a lot of her hypocrisies.
as i mentioned in the tags of my post, i think once my father passed away, her jadedness for life just... grew. i think she lost a lot of her empathy for ppl when he died since that was her soulmate. and it breaks my heart to see her change like this, but i understand her hurt. she was like this too back when her father passed away, but i was four or five when this happened, so i never noticed. but her and my dad talked about it before as i got older and how she just stopped caring for a while. so i'm kinda hoping things will swing back around eventually.
and growing up, i had a really good home life. a safe one too, which i know a lot of ppl (and a lot of my ex-friends) couldn't say the same so i'm grateful for my parents. my mom had a really hard life, and life hasn't been easy for us in a very long time. i get her frustration, i get her anger. however, she's taking it out on the wrong ppl and it's just easier to punch down than up. so i try my best to give her the empathy she doesn't give others anymore.
my life hasn't been easy either. i've had depression and anxiety since i was 13, and have tried to end my life twice. all the financial struggles my family has had i have had. but i think what sets me apart from my mom is that i don't want to be angry. i don't want to hold onto that stuff the rest of my life. i know i won't make it if i do. the pain and anguish i've dealt with makes me understand ppl, not wish others feel the same as me. i don't want ppl to suffer like i have. and i don't want to grow envious of those that have it easier than me.
one of the worst things she ever told me growing up was "once you get older, you'll understand how the real world works. you'll be just as jaded as me and your father." and i made a promise to myself that would never happen. and so far i'm sticking to it. i just find it strange that the ppl, the person, that taught me to be kind isn't kind anymore. or at least is decidedly kind, which is almost worse in my opinion.
(and as i said in my previous post i don't feel unsafe to come out, i just don't want to deal with the hassle of having to explain myself. i'm a grown adult, if i want to fuck somebody and that somebody is a woman, or even identifies as something else entirely, it really doesn't matter what my mom has to say about it. i'm not a teenager anymore hoping my mom approves. tbh i just want her to know and to accept it as normal so if it ever happens it's not breaking news lol)
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Recovering from being cheated on. I feel sick to my stomach. Havenât ate for the past two days. I remembered I talk to you often on here anonymously. Besides me I like seeing your rĂŠponses to other ppl. Looking for way to distract myself and find healthy entertainment.
Words honestly cannot express how sorry I am that youâre going through that. When I first moved out of my mom's place, I moved in with a woman who was adamant about us getting a place together when I finished school mainly because it was financially beneficial for both of us but partially when considered in retrospect was more beneficial for her. My mom had reservations and wanted me to move into my own place alone but when I talked to the woman at the time about what my mom thought she guilt-tripped me into moving in with her anyways. We were together for a year and a half before moving in and our relationship lasted 2 years in total. It deteriorated when we lived together and she didnât want to try and make it better then the pandemic happened and she started working from home and then eventually got laid off. All the problems we faced in our relationship could no longer be avoided. I worked really hard to better our communication and figure out how to designate tasks between us as far as household responsibilities so that neither she nor I would feel taken advantage of in our home. She ended up cheating on me anyways and I found out the day she broke up with me âto figure herself outâ because she was so insistent on us splitting everything 50/50 despite me being able to pay for everything it took 3 months for her to move out. I had to lay my head next to her for weeks until I eventually couldn't take being next to such a terrible person and started sleeping in my living room and eventually moved out of my apartment for the last month because it was such a toxic environment. (I was going to work seeing patients die almost daily-weekly while trying to put on a smiling face while going through hell every day internally and not being able to even feel peace when I went home) The day I found out she cheated I confronted her and she lied to my face and told me she would never and that she loved me so dearly, then I showed her the texts and she then said she was so sorry and would never do it again only to find her texting pictures the same guy later that night and proceeded to tell him I was some bum ex that was living in her couch because I had run out of luck. Cheaters will try and turn you into a hollowed shell of yourself by slowly disposing of all of the goodness you have in yourself. DO NOT ALLOW THEM TO WIN. I couldnât fathom the thought of true happiness again after that, but my family and friends were there for me, I took time to learn to love myself and experience life alone, I eventually met the love of my life who I lost at some point but have recently reconnected with again in a turbulent time in my life. Iâm not saying you need to find love again to feel whole but essentially what Iâm trying to say is theyâve already taken your joy away once, every day you allow them to continue taking is a day you sacrifice your own happiness and potential for true satisfaction. Guard your heart but donât lock it away. Your love is what defines you, you cannot allow the mistakes of another to break you. This all may not make sense now but someday when you climb out of the depths of despair, the sun will be there. I use Tumblr as a point of reference, I document my heartbreaks and deeply emotional moments here to later look back and remind myself âwow Iâve really been through some shit, Iâm so proud of myself for not giving upâ. Who knows someone like you may see your notes and reach out as you did for me and that one person can make all the difference. I know you and others have helped me so much without me even knowing your names, and that speaks volumes.
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I've followed you on different blogs for what feels like a long time and always wanted to send this message but never thought I could, so I just wanna say now: thank you for being so kind to your past self. it took me... a very very long time to realize I wasn't the enemy of myself, that it was okay to make mistakes when I was younger, and I hardly ever see anyone acknowledge this fact. your comics really helped change my view and like... reaffirm, I guess, that it's not healthy to blame your past self for everything it did.
obviously you're no mental health professional, and I'm not sending this message to be like 'you cured me!' but rather to just say those comics make me tear up every time I see them because I've finally in the past few years stopped viewing younger me as an enemy and its so refreshing to see something that portrays that kind of feeling. so uh... thank you for sharing them, I guess? thank you for sharing something so personal with people who can relate in a positive way.
take care!
hey, thank you so much. i'm really really glad you've found that kindness for yourself too. it took me SOOOO fucking long to get here and i'm still working on it -- i feel like i've said this before but like, 90% of why i make art abt it when i have realizations like this is literally bc drawing it out helps me remember it, and then 90% of why i share it is bc it's really valuable to me to think i can potentially help ppl find similar realizations more easily/faster than i did. it sucks to do this stuff all by yourself. it sucks marginally less to see someone u can kind of wave and "same hat" at
anyway i still forget all the time lol. so thank u, and also thank u to everyone else who is impacted by my work and says literally anything abt it (tags, messages, etc) bc that also kind of helps keep this stuff fresh in my mind/keeps it "real" to me instead of like, a therapy platitude i think about and then stop living with. the super frustrating thing abt recovery/change is that once u figure something out it's not cemented; it's very easy to just like, forget and go right back to treating urself like shit the next day. (we have a lifetime of practice in pain but for most of us kindness and patience is very new, btw, which is why we have to be patient abt how long it takes this stuff to stick.) but getting reminded of the way other ppl connect is often what keeps me on track
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passing notes | jjk
pairing: jeon jungkook x female reader
summary: a year of crushing and jungkookâs finally asked you out on a proper date.Â
genre: classmates to lovers??!, established friendship, they go on a date <3, jk is so stressed out, !fancy restaurant warning!, jk is A GENTLEMAN!! but wbk, oc is a nerd but is BOLD AF!!
warnings: mature!! (18+!!), SMUT,...they make out, LOTS of built up tension is let out tonite!, fingering, praise kink, handjob, backseat action, semi-public sex?? very strong language, jk overuses the nickname âbabyâ
word count: 9k
authorâs note: pt. 3 of seatmate!jk. WEâVE GOT SOME FILTH TODAY PPL!!!!!!! this is my first time releasing a piece of writing that has smut in it so pls!! let me know what u think!!! iâm open to criticism but i cry easily so⌠pls pls be nice (ďź´â˝ďź´) LMAO!! i also completely made up the program for ocean scientists that oc talks about LMAO i just needed her to ramble for a bit hahahah
additional note: also pls imagine jungkook looking like this in class and then wearing this for their date. also if ur curious, this is what i imagined ocâs dress to look like :)
okay enjoy!! thank u ( Ë ÂłË)
it was the end of the semester and of course, the only time jungkook would be running late to class was when he was finally going to ask you out on a date. so far, everything seems to be going against the idea. his alarm didnât go off on time, the shower took way too long to warm up, and his car was low on gas. now heâs speed walking, almost running, to lecture to make sure that his seat next to you isnât taken.Â
he wants to make sure this goes perfectly. he spent the past two weeks stressing over the plans. asking for recommendations for nice restaurants in the city in almost every group chat he was in. his friend (the one with parents as ceoâs, eunwoo), helped him and got him a reservation at this one five star restaurant that jungkookâs never been to. eunwoo told him that it was the prettiest place heâs ever been to, said it would be perfect for a first date.Â
jungkook specifically remembers you telling him that youâve never gone on an actual dinner date. ice cream dates, movie theater dates, and amusement park dates were what you were used to. there was nothing wrong with that, itâs just that youâve never experienced a candlelit dinner at a restaurant, thatâs it. jungkook just wanted to be the first one to experience it with you.Â
so when his morning starts off this shitty, he wonders if his plans are falling apart. he tries to keep a good, positive mindset, but heâs already so nervous and the universe seems to be telling him: donât do it, sheâll reject you, youâre gonna look stupid in front of her.Â
meanwhile, youâre early this lecture. it was the last class of the semester and you were hoping that you could get a nice conversation with jungkook in before it started. the two of you have gotten a lot closer since you last hung out. the chain of events starting with you apologizing for being so embarrassing,Â
[12:44 pm] you: jungkook!!! oh my god i am so sorry for last night đ
[12:45 pm] you: i donât take alcohol very well đ
[12:50 pm] jungkook: đđđđđđđđ
[12:50 pm] jungkook: no need to apologize! are u feeling sick? hungover?Â
[12:52 pm] you: omg no not really
[12:52 pm] you: ur a great drinking buddy, i owe u one đĽş
[12:53 pm] jungkook: itâs alright cutie
[12:54 pm] jungkook: just happy ur feeling okay :)Â
[12:56 pm] you: let me make it up to u đ iâll buy us lunch one of these days?Â
[12:57 pm] jungkook: ah no can do cutieÂ
[12:57 pm] jungkook: have to buy u dinner firstÂ
the thought of the conversation makes you smile. that one conversation starting the domino effect of the two of you talking almost everyday for the past two weeks. you couldnât help but expect jungkook to at least be here, but if he didnât wanna come, then he didnât have to.Â
you sat in your seat, patiently waiting for the one next to you to be filled by him. the hall was starting to fill now and class was about to start. you look around one last time to see that jungkook is still nowhere to be seen, and that a familiar brown-haired guy was beginning to walk up to you.Â
âhello, ___! is this seat taken?â taehyung smiles brightly, you look down at the seat next to you. your bag saving the spot for jungkook. maybe he skipped this lecture, since it was practically for nothing anyway, youâve already taken the final and there was no other material to learn, it was more so to wrap things up and see if anyone still needed to understand something.Â
your brain comes to a conclusion. you remove your bag and say, âno, go ahead,â to taehyung with a small smile on your face, one that hides the disappointment riddling your mind.Â
itâs about five minutes after the professor starts talking when jungkook finally walks in. he looks up to try and find you as he walks up the steps of the auditorium. his eyes land on you and taehyung, chatting amongst yourselves. he canât help but feel a slight twinge of jealousy, thatâs his seat. even though there were no assigned seats, the place next to you was always his, thatâs just how it was, and seeing someone else sitting there, especially taehyung, makes jungkookâs green monster pop out.Â
you feel a presence step behind you while you were talking to taehyung, and before you know it, jungkook is sitting in the seat next to taehyung. âoh! good morning, jungkook!â youâre smiling to him. he doesnât grant you one of his regular vocal responses, rather he gives you a tight-lipped grin before he leans back into his chair and focuses on whatever the professor was saying.Â
maybe he was jealous. witnessing you and taehyung having a wonderful conversation, one that makes you smile and laugh like he does. you didnât even notice him when he came up the stairs, only greeting him when he sat down. no, he was definitely jealous.Â
youâre stealing glances his way, pretending to be interested in whatever taehyung is talking about. heâs wearing the most boyfriend-est outfit in the world. a white long sleeve with grey sweatpants, his long hair tied up in a ponytail. youâre unconsciously biting your lip as you stare at him, heâs just so cool. heâs not even doing much other than looking straight forward. but this angle lets you see his sharp jawline and his side profile perfectly.Â
you felt bad, one hundred percent. you should have told taehyung that the seat was taken, because now he was talking your ear off and you didnât mind it, but you wanted someone else to be talking your ear off and it was the guy sitting next to him.Â
when taehyung changes his focus to your professor talking about a summer he had in paris. you steal another glance at jungkook. you catch him staring at you, your eyes meet. he doesnât keep the connection, cutting it off by moving his head and looking straight ahead. his jaw clenches, arms coming over and across his chest. he seems angry, you pick up on the energy now. an idea pops in your head to try and make him feel better. reaching into your bag to find one of your index cards, writing a message on it.Â
feeling okay?Â
you scoot your chair back a bit, pretending to stretch as you tap jungkookâs shoulder. he turns his head to you, eyebrows raised. you hand him the paper. he stares at first, eyes flickering between you and the paper. reluctantly, he takes it, unfolding his crossed arms to receive the note. you scoot back into your seat and lean into the table, lowering your chin onto the desk.Â
jungkook tries to hide his smile as he reads your little note. how could he ever stay mad at you? it wasnât your fault he was late. so he replies, his black ink has a stark contrast against your green highlighter. he can already feel his bad mood brightening.Â
yeah, didnât save me a seat? :(Â
this time he folds the note, handing it to taehyung and telling him to pass it to you. âreally? youâre passing notes? weâre in college, jeon.â taehyung snickers as he slides the paper towards you.Â
you let a small laugh, reading the note. taehyungâs scolding continues as you write your response on the index card. you changed your green highlighter out with a blue pen.Â
i came super early :( waited 20 mins for u </3Â but i didnât think u were coming so i let taehyung sit hereÂ
you send it back and watch jungkookâs somewhat straight face contort into a smile. there it is, the smile that you know and love.Â
jungkook on the other hand could cry. you came early. you waited for him. god, had he royally fucked this up. he makes his mind up now.Â
iâm sorry :( let me make it up to u? can i take you out on a date tonight?Â
check: ⯠ yes ⯠noÂ
jungkook keeps the paper for a good minute, reading the note over and over again, thinking about how childish this way of asking is. but at the same time, jungkook knows that if he talks to you about it after class, heâll gloss over the words and never ask you. letting the reservation and plans he made weeks ago render themselves useless. it was now or never.Â
so he fully sends it, tapping your shoulder and giving it to you directly. you open the note and scan the words, sending him the sweetest look heâs ever received in his life. he thinks that would be a yes. he hopes. you write something onto the card and pass it back to him, your hand grazing his for a second.Â
⍠yes :) âĄÂ ⯠noÂ
the rest of the class passes pretty quickly. not that you were paying any attention. jungkook had emailed you a link to a game that the two of you could play, a weird version of snakes. jungkook kept cheating, you swore it, but in all honesty, you knew you couldnât compete when it came to jungkook and his computer games. a clap from the professor breaks your attention from your screen, âalright, that was the last class of anatomy 101!â he then goes on a two minute long speech thanking the entire class for their great work this past year. he ends his ment with, âgood luck and make good decisions! have a fun summer!âÂ
you take your time packing your things, a little too long for someone that just has a laptop to put into their bag. taehyung says goodbye to the both of you and leaves first, the seat in between you both empty. now it was just the two of you. a small blush creeps onto your cheeks. you were well past your high school crush phase, but jungkook makes you feel so shy again.Â
you try to hide it by speaking first, âso, a date?âÂ
he sends you that award winning smile that makes you swoon. âyeah, did you change your mind?âÂ
you shake your head. âis it casual? fancy? want me to wear a dress again?â you tease, finally pushing your computer into your bag and standing.Â
jungkook gulps. you looked so pretty that night in a dress. âfancy,â he answers, âyou can wear a dress if you want, pantsuits are cool tooâ whatever you want.â he finishes packing as well, standing next to you as you both begin to walk down the stairs.Â
âokay then,â you smile. âwhat time should i be ready?âÂ
âiâll come and pick you up at seven, is that okay?â he replies, hand in his pockets. you both make your way out of the room and start to move towards the parking lot.Â
âsounds good,â you nod, approaching your car. jungkook walks you to your door, his eyes focused on your sweet smile and your eyes. if jungkook didnât know any better, he would have thought you were leaning closer towards him. a small laugh leaves your throat. âsee you later, kookie.âÂ
he sends you a smile, the nickname tugging at his heartstrings. the realization hits him after youâve already driven away and heâs sitting in the driver seat of his car. an embarrassing blush covers his face, he takes a deep breath and laughs to himself. finally. a year of crushing and heâs finally asked you on a proper date.Â
jungkook is quite frankly, freaking the fuck out. he isnât sure what to wear and his hair isnât working with him. the long strands seemingly out to make his life a living hell when he tries to style it. one strand always looks out of place, or the way that it parts doesnât sit right. heâs pacing his bathroom, debating if he should just shower again and take all the stupid fucking product out of his hair.Â
he gives in after ten minutes of deliberation. a quick shower removing all the wax and gel from his hair. the ends of his hair dripping when he goes to check his phone, the time reading: 6:45. he was gonna be late to pick you up. now heâs full on panicking. he has no other choice then to skip the hair product all together and just let his hair dry and part on itâs own. he slides on his all black fancy outfit he had planned out just in case the first one didnât work out. he steps out of his apartment after grabbing his car keys, wallet, and the flowers he bought earlier in the day for you.Â
a friend of his works in a flower shop. jungkook remembers you saying that you like all flowers and that you couldnât choose if you had to. so his friend asked what you were like, trying to figure out a way to style the bouquet without knowing your favorites. jungkook said the general things; youâre sweet like an apple, probably sweeter, like candy. youâre so pretty, itâs blessing that heâs able to lay his eyes upon you. youâre smart, too smart for him to flirt stupidly like he always does, âcause you outsmart him and flirt with him back in a wittier way. youâreâ that was enough information, his friend told him he was babbling again. jungkook only had to wait ten minutes for his friend to finish fixing up a beautiful bouquet for you.Â
the bouquet is placed on the passenger seat as he starts his car, texting you when he realizes itâs almost five minutes until 7.Â
[6:54 pm] jungkook: fuckÂ
[6:54 pm] jungkook: iâm gonna be a little late
[6:55 pm] jungkook: i swear iâm not standing u up
[6:55 pm] jungkook: ok iâm putting my phone down to drive to u now, sorry cutie!!Â
[6:57 pm] you: ah okay!Â
[6:57 pm] you: i was getting a little worried haha
[6:58 pm] you: see u in a bit <3
jungkook drives safely, but efficiently to your apartment. the drive only taking about five minutes because the stop lights were gracing him with green lights his entire way to you. he parks right in front, grabbing the flowers and hopping out of the car. when he knocks on your door, he starts to feel his nerves work against him. the adrenaline from rushing here gave him enough energy to hype himself up, but now as heâs standing here at your door, waiting for you to answer, his throat starts to dry and his hands start to sweat.Â
the metal door slides open, revealing you. in your silk dress, draping over your body in the most flattering way. the neckline deliciously hangs down to reveal your cleavage ever so slightly and the slit on the dress, displaying your thigh teasingly. jungkook is speechless at his first glance at you. his eyebrows raise and his mouth drops open, catching himself drooling once you step out from your apartment.Â
âhâ hi, you lookâ wow,â he stumbles over his words, taking a step back to admire you once again. âyouâre fucking stunning.â Â
you brush your hair back behind your ear, your hand covering the blush covering your cheeks. âthank you, you look very handsome, jungkook.â you reach out and play with his black tie. he looks down when you do, remembering that he was holding a bouquet of flowers for you.Â
he holds them out, âthese are for you.â like a kid giving his crush a dandelion he picked from the grass.Â
âthese are gorgeous, jungkook! thank you.â you look up to him with your signature sweet eyes, the ones that never fail to make him melt. âjust give me one sec, iâll put these down and then we can go?â you ask, holding onto the bouquet and waiting for him to respond. a quick nod is all you need to open your door and place them in the fridge. you come out a few seconds later, locking your door and standing by jungkook again.Â
âthat was fast,â he comments. he holds his arm out for you to hold, which you gratefully take.Â
âi just put them in the fridge, my grandma showed me the trick, it helps them live a little longer,â you explain. the two of you walking out to his parked car. he never lets your hand touch the handle, always opening the door for you.Â
âwhen they die, iâll just buy you new ones.â closing the door for you and making his way to the drivers seat.Â
you scrunch your nose. when he comes back and joins you in the car, you voice your worry. âitâs kind of a waste, donât you think?âÂ
he shakes his head, âif itâs for you, nothingâs a waste.âÂ
jungkook was a professional with his words. always rendering you speechless.Â
with that he starts the car and begins driving into the busier part of seoul. he makes his way into the restaurants parking garage, the building looks to be about five stories. the architecture itself looks expensive, you wonder where jungkook is taking you tonight. he parks the car, turning off the engine, and moving to open the door for you. he takes your hand and you hold onto your dress, fixing it once you get out of the car. god, youâre so pretty. he was so nervous.Â
âready, my lady?â he smiles, his arm out for you to hold.Â
it makes you laugh, a snort almost. âiâve never seen you so proper, mr. jeon.âÂ
âonly for you,â he winks. your heels click against the concrete floor as he leads the two of you into the building. the high ceilings and multiple chandeliers are what greet you first, the brightness of the place giving the sun something to rival. jungkook brings you over to the waiting area, telling you to wait for a minute as he checks you guys in.Â
this was crazy to say the least. the last time you went on a date, it was to the movie theaters. youâve never been in a place like this; a doorman greeting every guest as they walk in, checking in to eat, multi-story, etc. the more you look around, the cooler it is. âletâs go?â jungkookâs voice makes you turn your head. you stand, taking his hand.Â
the two of you follow a man wearing a black and white suit, with a long tail jacket. he brings you to the elevators, holding the doors open for you both. you step in and he presses the fifth button, which was the top floor. you squeeze jungkookâs hand. he repeats the action, looking to you and silently asking if you were okay with the look in his eyes and the raise of his eyebrows. you nod, a smile on your face.Â
with that the elevator doors open, the metal doors sliding apart to reveal a private terrace. only a couple tables on the entire floor. a few people sitting down and enjoying their dinners. beautiful greenery surrounding the perimeter, the night sky only making it prettier. your mouth is left agape, youâre stuck in the elevator, speechless. jungkook gently tugs you forward, following the suit man to the table.Â
jungkook pulls your chair out for you. you could cry at the chivalry. you sit and he pushes the chair in, jungkook follows soon, sitting in the chair across from you. the man hands the two of you the menu and moves away from the table, standing back near to the elevator, waiting until you are both ready to order.Â
âthis is fucking crazy,â you whisper-shout. the terrace was lit by these bright fairy lights that were hidden in the plants and were above the tables as well. it looked like little fairies and fire flies were in the air, roaming around.Â
âi know right!â jungkook looked as surprised as you were. âi asked my friends for some help and holy shit!âÂ
âthey know youâre on a date with me right now?â you ask, raising your eyebrows.Â
to this he furrows his eyebrows, âof course they do, i talk about you all the timeââbut he stops himself from exposing himself any further. you canât help but giggle. âi mean, i asked them to help me make this special, and here we are.âÂ
you swoon. heâs so sweet for planning all of this out and wanting to make you feel special. the two of you look through the menu, jungkook warns you not to look at the prices, telling you to get whatever you want because the price doesnât matter. but of course, your eyes stray to the numbers, the meals costing a pretty penny for a simple spaghetti plate, the cheapest thing on there. you were craving pasta anyway, you didnât mind. the two of you order and wait for the food to arrive.Â
the city of seoul was just below you, not too high but high enough to turn people into smaller figures of themselves. the night lights look gorgeous from up here. the warm summer night only complimenting the gorgeous atmosphere.Â
âthe view is so pretty,â you gaze out into the city. the pretty colors from all the lights of the different stores and restaurants complementing each other so beautifully.Â
jungkook was in awe, he knows that the city below you is gorgeous, but he canât seem to get his eyes off of you. your chin resting in the palm of your hand as your eyes search through the streets. âyeahâŚâ he agrees, âvery beautiful.â he smiles, only looking at you.Â
the food comes and you both dig in. the two of you enjoy some conversation with each other as you eat. the topic of growing up comes up, both of you explaining the occupations you wanted, and you said something that sparked curiosity in jungkook. âyour childhood dream was to live in california?â he smiles, chewing on his steak. most of the time kids dream about going to the moon or finding atlantis, but you wanted to go to america?Â
you nod, âsounds funny right? when i was a teen, i watched a lot of 90210.âÂ
âis that all though? you only wanted to go because of a tv show?â he asks. thereâs something youâre hiding, and jungkook can see it in the way that you hide your smile.Â
at first, you hesitate, but you open your mouth to speak, âwellâ there isâ no, itâs embarrassing.â you shake your head, changing your mind and reverting your eyes down. staring at the plate of pasta in front of you. guys you talked to didnât wanna hear about it, they thought what you were into was boring, embarrassing almost. a part of you feared that jungkook would feel the same.Â
you feel his hand on your chin, tilting your head up. âi wanna hear about it.â his face telling you the truth, the sincerity in his eyes as he patiently waits for you to explain.Â
âthereâs this science program in california, they explore new ideas for researching the ocean, like trying to see what lurks in the deep blue, helping fix the rising oceans, everything-- oh my god, and they like go on field trips to different countries to see the coastlines and historical sitesââ you cut yourself off when you realize that youâre talking at the speed of light. âiâm rambling.â you were terrified to see his reaction.Â
but when your eyes finally meet jungkookâs, theyâre full of light. and his smile is so big. âdude, thatâs so dope!â he grins, âi didnât know you were so into the ocean!âÂ
it was the bare minimum, being nice, but that was hard to find when it came to the majority of the male species. obviously, jungkook is above average, he only proves that the more time you spend with him.Â
âoh, i love it! my parents would bring me to the beach and i would cry every time we would have to leave, aquariums too, and the fish section in the pet stores.â you gush, leaning into the table to tell jungkook more. he leans into his hand, resting his cheek against his fist as he listens to you spill your knowledge and love.Â
he notes that the next date should be at the beach or an aquarium. it was a great time for him to learn this, especially since it was summer. the weather in favor of the cold ocean waves. jungkook swears he can listen to you talk until the end of time. your sweet voice can be the narration to his life, heâd never get sick of it.Â
the food on both of your plates had been cleared, the conversation sizzling into a comfortable silence before the man came back to give you the bill. jungkook doesnât let you see it, instead just sticking his card in the black folder thing, and giving it back to the fancy suit man. it wasnât long before he came back, handing jungkook back his card and giving the both of you a lollipop with gold flakes encased inside.Â
you gasp at the piece of candy, now that was ridiculous. you werenât one to reject a lollipop though, gratefully taking the candy and popping it into your mouth. jungkook does the same. it tastes of blueberry. at this point he stands up, moving in front of you and holding his hand out to you. âletâs look around? i heard they have a cool museum on the second floor.âÂ
you take his hand, âi love museums!â the two of you make your way to the elevator, the man (he never told you his name) kept the door open for you both. he presses the second floor button when jungkook asks him for the museum. the elevator landing on the second floor, the doors slide open to show a completely empty art hall. this place shocking you every chance it gets. you didnât think it could get better, but it did.Â
when the two of you exit the elevator, the man leaves you to it, taking the elevator down and leaving you alone. your eyes scan the place, huge paintings on the walls, small paintings in collages, some sculptures on the floor, it felt like a pop-up museum. you both make your way down the enormous hallway, both sides of the roomâs wall displaying works of art. you stop at one specific painting, the familiar work has you spewing random facts. âthese are the lovers! i had to analyze this once,â you speak. the art displaying a couple kissing, both of their heads covered by a white sheet. âthe real one is in australia, i think.â you laugh, tapping the lollipop against your lips.Â
jungkook listens intently, but he doesnât pay attention to the painting on the wall. everytime he does, his eyes always revert to you. the art doesnât stand a chance against you in his book. you, yourself, were a piece of art, one that was rare in this world, one of a kind.Â
he canât seem to resist. taking your hand and raising it over your head, the way that they do in ballroom dancing. if a twirl was what he wanted, then so he got it. âbeautiful,â he compliments, pulling you in close for a hug. the two of you swaying in the middle of the hall of this stupidly expensive restaurant.Â
you look up to him, making full eye contact as the two of you lean on one foot to the other. probably looking like a lovesick couple, getting lost in the moment. which, you were. your eyes flicker from his eyes down to his lips, he seems to do the same thing. his hand moves to caress your face, the swaying ceased. now the two of you are centimeters apart, noses brushing against each other. if jungkook doesnât kiss you now, he thinks heâll combust. so when he feels you pushing forward, he does the same, meeting you in the middle. your lips connect. the kiss almost identical to the painting in front of you.Â
jungkook swears he felt himself levitating. your lips are sweet, the blueberry flavor of the lollipop lingering on them. heâs had his fair share of kisses in his life. makeouts, pecks, cheek kisses, all types of kisses. but something about this one tells him that heâs in for it. heâll never be able to get enough now that heâs gotten a taste.Â
neither of you want to take it too far; swallowing each other's faces in a distinguished, five star restaurantâs museum didnât seem very proper. so the two of you make your way out of the building, thanking everyone at the front desk, especially the man that helped you out today, and walking into the parking garage where jungkookâs car was.Â
when you get to his car, he moves to open the passenger door for you but you stop him with a hand on his arm. you reach to open the back door handle and his eyes almost bulge out. everyone knows what happens in the backseat, and jungkook did not prepare himself for something like this.Â
you look up at him with the most innocent eyes, but thereâs something devious hidden in your smile when you ask, âdo you wanna talk for a bit longer? in the backseat? itâs more comfortable than sitting in the front.âÂ
jungkook never took you for someone this bold. itâs either you didnât know the meaning of the backseat (which was totally fine) or you knew very well, and had plans to devour jungkook (which was also totally fine).
he chickens out, his hands starting to sweat. âdo you want to just go for a little walk or something?â itâs not like jungkook didnât want anything to happen, itâs that he did. if he starts, he doesnât know if heâll ever recover from it. he walks a tightrope around you when it comes to his self control. one wrong move, and heâs terrified that heâll fuck everything up.Â
âoh, itâs just my feet kinda hurt from these heels.â you pout, lifting you foot up to show him the almost stiletto heel.Â
his eyes widen. why didnât he think of that? âohâ oh shit, i didnât evenâ yeah, letâs sit.â he tugs on the door, letting you slide into the back seat. he follows, leaving a good amount of space between you both to make sure that there was nothing too suspicious going on. you hope your bold moves hide your nervousness, despite your confidence, jungkookâs unsure looks make you want to curl up into a ball. did he not want this?Â
the air was different now. in the restaurant the two of you had been so carefree, slow dancing in the museum, and landing a sweet kiss on each otherâs lips. but now, an uncomfortable silence tears at the two of you. your hesitance makes you speak, trying to see if a conversation would ease the tension in the air. âi had a lot of fun tonight, kookie, thank you.âÂ
it seems to comfort jungkook, he lets out a breath he didnât know he was holding in. with a small smile on his face he replies, âme too, i was really nervous you wouldnât like the food.âÂ
âoh it was good! iâll eat anything really, itâs justââ
âyou didnât like the place? was it too muchââ
âno, jungkook, oh my godâ i loved it, it was just really expensive, i still feel really bad about you paying for all of it,â you look to him seriously. âlet me give you at least my half?âÂ
he shakes his head, âi asked you out on this date, it means i pay, donât worry about the price.âÂ
you roll your eyes playfully, âbig spender huh?â
a pretty laugh escapes his lips. âhard worker too.âÂ
to this you smile, you stare at his impossibly-perfect face, noticing a stray eyelash on his cheek. you see a chance to strike and you take it immediately. you lean forward to swipe it off. jungkook almost leans into your touch. heâs so terrified that heâll embarrass himself right now, so heâs been holding back tremendously. but the way you pick the eyelash off and place it on your thumb with a smile on your face, it eases most of the tension in his chest.Â
âmake a wish!â you hold your thumb up to his lips. his eyes cross to look at the piece of hair on your finger, but nevertheless he obliged. shutting his eyes tight, making a wish, and blowing the eyelash off of your thumb.Â
you let out a small cheer before you ask him, âwhatâd you wish for?âÂ
âif i told you then my wish wouldnât come true, right?â he boops your nose. suddenly, jungkook doesnât feel so nervous. his nerves calming at the feeling of your soft hands against his face. you make him so nervous, but at the same time you make him so comfortable and make him want to be himself. it seems as though the two of you were staring at each other for a while. jungkook was thinking about how much he likes you, the same ideas run through your mind. the thoughts make you wish for something more.Â
âcan i kiss you again, kookie?âÂ
he stares at you, weighing his options. if he kisses you now, then he has to strategically only give you a few kisses, he absolutely cannot make out with you, or else, jungkook will succumb to his desires.
but he takes a little too long to respond. the both of you overthinking the fuck out of the situation. it makes you draw back. âitâs okay if you donât wantââÂ
âno, no, please, kiss me,â he brings you back, moving closer to you. licking his lips in anticipation as you slowly push forward, closing the gap between you both. the kiss is so sweet, like the one in the museum. jungkook can still taste the blueberry lingering on your lips. he doesnât think heâll ever get tired of kissing you.Â
you pull away first. your eyes scanning his face to see any expression of regret. thereâs none. his hand moves to the side of your face, caressing your face and bringing you to him once again to meet your lips. he canât get enough. âtell me what you wished for, please,â you speak against his lips.Â
he smiles into the kiss. he wasnât going to tell you, but since you were asking so nicely, he gives you a kiss on the cheek when he answers, âi wished for a second date.âÂ
âoh, didnât you know?â you kiss both of his cheeks before speaking again, âi grant wishes,â with wink.
âfuck, youâre so cute,â he thinks out loud, it makes you blush. pink cheeks out for show and jungkook thinks you look even cuter. he dives in for one more kiss, telling himself this will be the last one, but when you make sweet noises against his lips, it has him wanting more. hands moving down to your waist, pulling you in and letting you climb onto his lap. he pulls away first, trying to get a hold of himself. âi uhâ actually, didnât plan for this to happen,â he mumbles against your skin, tripping over his words.Â
you look down, arms wrapped around his neck. âhm? what did you plan?âÂ
âwe were supposed to kiss on the next date i take you on and i didnât thinkâ weâre just ahead of schedule, thatâs all.â jungkook tries to explain that he didnât want to rush it, god no. he wanted to take his time, make sure that you didnât feel pressured to do anything. but now, it seems like youâre taking the wheel and jungkook doesnât mind it one bit.
âoh so you had like a real plan? like times and everything?â the thought of it makes you laugh, and the way that jungkook flushes makes you want to pinch his cheeks.Â
he pouts when you giggle, âdonât laugh, i just really, really wanted to do it right, youâre just so amazing and i didnât wanna fuck it up.â
you smile at his concern. the fact that you have the uni heartthrob planning dates in his head down to the details and wanting to be sure he does it right makes your head spin. you hope jungkook doesnât notice the way that your heart is beating three times the normal rate when you go to kiss him again. the only sounds in the car are labored breaths and your lips smacking together. it doesnât take long before youâre grinding into him. his growing bulge rubbing against your soaking core. a groan leaving him when you grind particularly harder, his hands moving to your ass to grip it. you melt in his arms, small whimpers leaving your throat as jungkook drinks them up
you pull away from his lips, giving his cheeks attention then leaving a trail of kisses as you make your way to his ear. one final kiss is planted below his earlobe before you whisper, âam i ruining your plans, kookie?âÂ
jungkook tries his best to conceal his groan, tries his best to ignore his incredibly hard dick in his jeans, but youâre so pretty and youâre on top of him, kissing him. it feels like a dream to jungkook. it is quite literally a dream come true.Â
he was already playing with fire, your body a flame in the cold, he moves closer and closer until he burns. âfuck plans,â he breathes. a hand comes back to caress your face once again. filthy thoughts flooding his brain. he wonders what being in between your legs is like, what you sound like when you cum. he wants to make you cry and beg for his cock. but he holds himself back, knowing that youâll have time to try everything out, if you wanted of course. he leans the both of you forward, his large hands splayed on your back to secure you on his lap. your lips find each other once more. âcan i touch you?â he asks so sweetly, a hidden poison weaving through that you can slightly hear through the deep rumble of his voice.Â
youâve never wanted anything more. âplease,â you nod. your lips chasing his when he pulls further away.Â
jungkook smiles at the action. âlay on my lap, baby.â he instructs, tapping your thigh. the nickname rolling off his tongue, his voice seemingly dropping an entire octave. you raise your leg and move it over to sit on his lap, sideways. your back against the car door and his right hand rubbing your thighs ever so gently.Â
âlike this?â you ask, looking to him for reassurance. he looks to you with eyes that youâve never seen, lusted and dark.Â
âmhm, perfect,â he nods. âgood girl.â the praise goes straight to your belly, your panties flooding from how much you want him. his hands move slowly down your inner thighs as he goes in to kiss you again.Â
youâre absentmindedly spreading your legs, making room for him. he smirks against your lips when he realizes. he knows what you want, so his fingers move to your panties, lightly putting pressure over your clothed bud. you whimper at the feeling, biting his lip in the process. he moans in response, putting a little more pressure against your bundle of nerves.Â
âjungkook,â you whine, pulling away from his lips, âplease.âÂ
âplease what, baby?â he kisses your cheek, âtell me what you want.â Â
âplease touch me, please.â you beg, making eye contact with him. jungkookâs dick twitches at the sound of your begging. he wanted to string you along a little longer, but youâre being so good.Â
âsince you asked so nicely, baby,â he obliges. bunching your dress up around your waist and noticing the pretty black lace underwear you were wearing, âfor me?â he asks. you nod, your teeth taking in your bottom lip. he groans at the thought, you getting ready and picking out these cute, risque panties out just for him. itâs just too bad theyâre gonna be on the floor on his car. heâs gonna need to ask for a rain check on admiring you and your cute underwear later. Â
you lift your hips to help him, underwear coming off to reveal your soaking pussy. âoh, fuck,â jungkook murmurs at the sight of it. âyouâre so wet baby.â he almost starts drooling, he canât wait to taste you, but heâs still hesitant, only wanting to do what you want to. next time, he can eat you out. right now, heâll admire the delicious sight and make you cum on his fingers.Â
your eyes travel to the window directly in front of you, suddenly feeling insecure. thighs closing, thinking about how someone could look in and see. âwhat about the windowsââÂ
âtheyâre tinted, no one can see from the outside in, i promise.â he reassures, giving you another sweet kiss on the cheek before asking, âdo you still want to do this? we can stop now.â heâs so lovely, his concern and change in demeanor only making you want it more, knowing that he wouldnât want to push you to do something you were uncomfortable with. sweet was sexy on jungkook. you never thought there would be a day that jeon jungkook fingers you in a parking lot of a five star restaurant, but here you are. and you wouldnât have it any other way.Â
so you shake your head, taking his hand, and placing it back in between your legs. âplease.âÂ
âanything for you.â he whispers in your ear before running his middle finger up your slit, collecting your wetness, and spreading it around your clit. he continues making tight circles on your clit, the sensation drives you crazy. you lean your head back against the window, moaning out. it was almost humiliating how reactive you were, you hadnât indulged in this kind of intimacy in a while, almost a year to be specific.Â
it wasnât helping that jungkook was a fucking pro. the right amount of pressure and the placement of his digits against you has you dripping onto his nice, dress pants. you hoped nobody else was in the parking garage, else they would hear your cries of jungkookâs name. âmore, kookie, moreâ fuck.âÂ
âmore baby?â he questions, the sound of your moans going straight to his already hard dick. he thinks he could cum just to the sound of your voice. heâs one hundred percent fucked when it comes to you. he dips his middle finger into your hole, you gasp in reaction. âlike that? hmm? âÂ
jungkook knew was he was doing, he had you spread wide in the backseat of his car, already on the verge on an orgasm. he had a few years of experience on his belt, a âretired fuck boyâ he was, but heâs never wanted to please somebody more than he does right now with you. you just looked so pretty like this, so eager and begging for more.Â
he adds his ring finger now, his thumb against your clit. âoh, godââ you mutter, the feeling of his fingers and his thumb on your clit is too good. his fingers fucking you better than anyone elseâs dick ever has. you found yourself bucking your hips against his fingers. âkookie, kiss me, please,â you look up to him with the eyes he can never fucking deny. so he kisses you, drinking up your moans as you fuck yourself up onto his fingers.Â
âi didnât know you were such a dirty girl,â he murmurs against your lips. your walls clenching around him, âletting me touch you like this in the backseat of my car?â his usual sweet demeanor now contorting into this cocky guy with an ego. it makes you even wetter. the squelch of your pussy every time his fingers push in is loud, the sound is music to jungkookâs ears.Â
âonlyâ only for you, jungkook,â you whimper. you feel a familiar knot in your stomach tighten. he looked so hot like this. eager to please. his bottom lip caught in his teeth and a strand of his long hair dangling in front of his eyes.Â
âgood girl, all mine,â he kisses your neck. it may seem just like something you say during sex, but jungkook wanted it to be true. wanted you and only you. all to himself. he makes his way to a sweet spot, the feeling makes you tilt your head, giving him more access to kiss and suck along the sensitive skin. the discomfort of your back against the hard door was the last of your worries. your orgasm creeping closer and closer, juices leaking all overs his fingers. âso wet baby,â he growls, âi know i could just slide in, fuck you so good.âÂ
âp-please, i want it.â the thought of jungkook fucking you senseless, oh, youâd go crazy. begging wasnât something you did when it came to sex, most of the time it was quiet, moans and breaths were the only things that youâd hear, no dirty words or praises. it was a good change, you never thought that youâd be so into being talked through it.Â
he smiles at your eagerness, âpatience baby, gotta take you on another date, yeah?â kissing your pursed lips. always so sweet and lovely.Â
you feel his fingers push a little deeper, curling to find that sweet spot inside of you. your reaction does something to him, makes him hit the exact same spot, over and over again, in a slow, torturous beat just so he can draw those delicious gasps and moans out of you. jungkook feels close. heâs never felt like this before, so wound up. he ignores it, pushing it to the back of his head to focus on helping you reach your climax.Â
lucky for jungkook, he didnât have to wait very long. his fingers were longer and a thicker than yours, his efforts making you get there faster than you ever could. the consistent deep strokes of his fingers make the warning signals go off in your head. you speak a verbal warning before, âfuck, iâm gonna cum,â your voice pitches a little higher than usual.Â
âgonna cum all over my fingers, baby?â he gives you one last sloppy kiss before youâre moaning out and coming onto his fingers, eyes screwed shut as your walls convulse rapidly as his fingers fuck you through your orgasm. âfuck, youâre so hot, ___.âÂ
you feel a smile break on your face. âyouâre not so bad yourself,â you wink, still trying to catch your breath. a laugh slips from his mouth, small smirk on his mouth to match. he slips his fingers out, your body twitching at the over stimulation.Â
 âiâm sorry, baby,â he apologizes. inspecting his fingers, your pale almost-white cum coating the digits. he brings them to his mouth, sucking on your sweet sap. youâve never seen anything hotter in your life. âsweet, just like you,â he smirks. you shrink in his stare, hiding your blush. like you totally didnât just cum on his fingers.Â
youâre distracted by the feeling of something hard resting under your thigh, itâs then that you realize, âwhat aboutââ you start but jungkook cuts you off quick.Â
âno, no, itâs okay, itâll go away soon.â he shakes his head, but you furrow your eyebrows.Â
you pull on his black tie, making him lean forward and make eye contact with you âcan i?â you ask, so sweetly.Â
he stares at you with the most sexed eyes youâve ever witnessed. âyouâre driving me crazy.âÂ
âyouâre always so sweet to me, jungkook,â you kiss his cheek. readjusting yourself in his lap, straddling him once more. âtook me on this amazing dinner, always treating me like a princess.â your lips travel down from his cheeks to his jawline, then to his neck. he shudders at the feeling of your lips against his sensitive skin. your hands move from around his neck to travel further down, to the latch of his belt. his breath hitches. âlet me return the favor, kookie.â
âiââ he laughs, the embarrassment evident in the pink tint on his face. âi wonât last very long.âÂ
you didnât mind, just assuring him with a sweet kiss on the cheek before you start removing his belt. jungkook leans his head back on the headrest, his neck exposed for you to kiss and suck. you unbutton and unzip, pulling his pants and his boxers down at the same time. his size makes your eyes bulge. he was huge. your mouth waters at the sight.Â
âyouâre so big, kook.â you egg him on, fueling his ego because he just looked so hot. your hand moves to hold him at the base, he lets out a shaky breath when your soft skin meets his. jungkookâs head is in the clouds, he could cum right now if he let go, but heâs holds himself back, not wanting to look like a fool in front of you. your hand moves up his dick, your thumb collecting the precum dripping from his hole, your thumb running over his slit as he groans.Â
his hips buck up, âshit, baby.â he just sounds so good. you could just lick him up. you collect some saliva in your mouth, letting it drip from your mouth onto his dick to lube your hand. he groans at the sight, âyouâre so filthy, baby, holy shit.âÂ
you smirk at the admission, the spit making it so easy for your hand to glide against his cock. the feeling makes him throw his head back again. his chest rising and falling. the picture of him with his eyes screwed shut in pleasure and his mouth agape makes your lower belly light up once more, you clench around nothing. leaning in as you pump his cock to whisper in his ear, âwanna fuck me so bad? have me crying on your cock? you want that, donât you, kookie?âÂ
jungkook twitches at your words. thatâs exactly what he wants. was he that easy to read? was that what you wanted too? the thought of it makes him want to explode, âohâ god, ffuckâ fuck,â he sputters. his hand coming up to hover above his head, your hand still pumping as the spurts of his cum shoot out. you smile at the action, knowing he didnât wanna fuck up your dress. instead just making a mess of him and his hand. he takes deep breaths before speaking, âthereâs a little box of tissues in the center console, could you hand it to me, baby?âÂ
you lean back, opening the console and reaching for the small box that sits in the center. before you give it to him, your eyes flicker to the sticky mess all over jungkookâs hand and groin. a sudden urge to lick takes you over, holding jungkookâs hand and bringing it up to your mouth. you lick the dripping cum from the palm of his hand as he watches, maintaining eye contact the entire time.Â
jungkook shivers, a smile creeping on his face, âyouâ youâre evil.â the remark makes you laugh.Â
âsorry, just wanted to help clean up.â you smile, swallowing the cum you collected on your tongue.Â
âyeah, yeah, youâre not the sweet girl i thought you were,â jungkook quirks a brow.Â
you roll your eyes playfully, âyou donât like it?âÂ
ânope, i love it, youâre perfect.â jungkook wipes off the remaining mess from his lap and his hand. you help him clean up tissues and he picks up your panties that were discarded on the floor. the two of you fix yourselves before stepping out of the back seat, jungkook opens the passenger door for you before he goes to a trashcan and throws away the soiled tissues.Â
he joins you back in the car, starting the car and pulling out of the parking lot. you were rambling about how happy you were that no one was around and how there were no security cameras in the parking garage. jungkook blabbers too, telling you about how embarrassed he is that he barely lasted a few minutes. before the two of you knew it, his car parked in front of your apartment complex.Â
he stands outside of your front door, leaning against the doorframe. all dreamy and not like he just made you cum in the backseat of his car. âtext me before you sleep?â he smiles.Â
you nod, âof course,â reflecting the same smile. you wave before closing your door. the date being more than you ever expected. there was no way jungkook was real. he had to be a figment of your imagination, he was the absolute dream guy.Â
you lay in bed, staring at the stars on your ceiling. a blush creeping up to your cheeks once more when you think about the events that took place tonight.Â
[11:02 pm] you: thank you for tonight, jungkookÂ
[11:02 pm] you: it was magical <3Â
[11:03 pm] jungkook: no problem cutie, i had an amazing time with you
[11:04 pm] jungkook: feeling okay?Â
[11:06 pm] you: iâm great!!! more than okay
[11:07 pm] jungkook: đ
[11:07 pm] jungkook: iâm glad cutie
[11:08 pm] you: lunch on me next time? now that youâve taken me for dinner :)Â
[11:08 pm] jungkook: sure, iâm down :)Â
[11:09 pm] you: iâm rlly tired kookieÂ
[11:10 pm] you: gonna head to sleep nowÂ
[11:10 pm] jungkook: alright cutieÂ
[11:11 pm] jungkook: sweet dreams!Â
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I think we can find a middle ground between bashing every single thing you're fav is doing and prohibiting yourself from having discussions about the goods AND the bads of your fav career. I think you can do both. And can still keep your stan card. It's not exclusive.
I can say I hated Cherry and Uncharted, and still want better for him because I genuinely think he is talented and love to see him on my screen. I follow him because of his personality and I think he is a great actor with potential. I don't think we should turn this into a "good fan/bad fan" debate just because you criticize something (movies) that are meant to be criticized. If we didn't had opinions, what would be the point ? It doesn't have to be always negative, and I agree that fans acting like he has the worst career in the world rn is over dramatic. But wondering why we have 0 casting announcement ? Looking back at his filmography and saying you dont like most of it ? I don't think it's that far of a reach.
Whoa wait a second Anon.... You "hated" "Uncharted"? Whaaaa? 𼴠TOM in a wet t-shirt couldn't even save the movie for you? đ
This is the first time I've heard someone say they actually HATED the movie. But hey, I guess art is subjective. đ¤ˇđžââď¸
To me it was just an enjoyable popcorn đż flick with some great eye-candy đ Not to be taken too seriously. I enjoyed it! Reminded me of a cross btwn Indiana Jones and Lara Croft. đđž
Anyway....
I don't usually think there's anything wrong with having a healthy discussion about your fave and their work. As you all know, I love discourse lol. đ
Do you know how many films I haven't really cared for, or thought were dumb that some of my acting faves have been in lol? đ I either just watch simply to enjoy them in it, or just make jokes about how crappy the movie was, but I still love the actor and appreciate their projects that I DO enjoy. đ¤ˇđžââď¸
The problem I mainly see with SOME of Tom's fans however is that it seems like this "constructive criticism" gets a bit out of hand, fans go a little too far, and it almost comes across as being a bit mean to me. đđ¤ˇđžââď¸
I feel like SOME fans take things a bit too seriously, and don't know how to just ENJOY an actor, enjoy the journey they're on at this moment in time, and simply just relax, be patient, and appreciate them for them.....instead of nitpicking over every single little thing. đĽ´
Do you know how LONG it's taken some in the industry to get their "big break"? đ Or to FINALLY be recognized for their acting talent? Sometimes it takes some ppl a long time! Some fans have been waiting YEARS.
Say what you will about Marvel films, but Marvel DEFINITELY helped put Tom Holland on ppl's radar. It probably would have taken Tom a LOT longer to even get in people's view had it not been for Marvel. And he certainly wouldn't have had so much close access to such incredible acting talent in the industry who constantly pat him on the back of it weren't for Marvel. So Marvel has done Tom good imo.
I almost feel like the complaints some fans have about his career aren't even really about Tom tbh.... I feel like it's more so about competition or smthg, and I just don't feel like it's even necessary.
Tom is a GOOD actor. He will always have roles waiting for him because he's actually talented. I honestly don't know why some fans even worry? Jmho đ¤ˇđžââď¸
I could see if he were a BAD actor.... but he's not! đĽ´
Long story short, there's nothing wrong with being honest about how you feel about your fave's work. You can still hate a project but love the person. đ¤ˇđžââď¸ But sometimes it just feels like some just complain JUST to complain. That's my only gripe.
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DAMAGE DONE FOR KENPACHI SOULMATE CAN YOU IMAGINE THE A N G S T AND CONFUSION
 I know ppl who follow this blog have taste because you were the the first of four ppl to ask for this exact combo jdhdjsjs. We are all Kenpachi brain rot compliant.
Features: Cutting/self harm, a real shit start to a relationship, and angst.
Bleach Your Soul: Ask Meme
Kenpachi Zaraki + Damage:
So much of your life was defined by isolation. A patient treated terminal. Everyone paid you the same attention they would a ghost, fleeting smiles and tears that fell over your bed as though it were a grave.
How could you not feel tortured and angry, to be saddled with a soul mate determined to drag you through hell with them? There were times you truly believed were your last. Stabs too close to your guts. Slashes peeling open to far towards your heart.
There was little room in your thoughts to worry about who suffered with you, other than to curse them. Whether they struggled to live or delighted in violence, you didnât know. You didnât care. It was hard to care about anything while laying in your deathbed. Through childhood, your heart withered like the flowers always dying on your window sill. If only theyâd throw you away for good, as well.
You garnered hobbies to keep busy rather than to enjoy them. Your stitching, calligraphy, and precocious little drawings stained in blood more often than not. The 4th division was your jail. Your soulmate, your warden. Keeping you there, always.
For years, you begged them. Desperate to be heard--to have a modicum of fucking control--, you carved words into your skin. Were they scared the first time you did it? Did they hate it? Did it hurt them?
Vindictive, you hoped all your horrible thoughts were so. When you cut âstop. stop. stop. stop.â you did it on your side and hip, so it would reopen. Again. And again. And again. And--
They never responded. No matter what you wrote. âPlease stop.â âIt hurts.â âDoesnât it hurt you?â âI hate you.â âWho are you.â âDonât you care?â âKill me.â âDie.â âIâm sorry.âÂ
Slowly, then suddenly, the damage that had been near daily stopped for so many years stopped. Your family settled you back in the home, a living urn. They said your name and stroked your cheek and smiled too small when you spoke.
Your skin buzzed with the absence of what had plagued your entire youth. Was it sickness or shame that drove your blade through your skin still? Did you just miss it? Was the violence boiling you alive with no where to spill out anymore?
There were times you swore minuscule nicks would appear, healing too fast to smooth over, but staying long enough to feel. Older, able to be among people, you realized what that could mean. What kind of person youâd told to die as a pithy little tween.
Were they alive--really alive? Did anyone else care or were you the only one?
âSongbirds.â âHello.â âYour name?â âSorry.â âWork sucks.â âToo hot.â âAlive?â âHotpot.â âCut words.â âPlease.â âAlive?â âShinigami.â â13th.â âRank?â âRukongai?â âIâm sorry.â
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Retsu Unohana, the only woman he couldnât quite look in the eye, was there to smile all serene-like over him. After heâd lost. Figures sheâd be there when he fucking lost.
She asked him all those annoying questions about how his body felt and told him all the things he needed to heal from. He wanted to shake her like Yachiru did when he wasnât paying attention enough for her liking. Who gave a shit about all that--he lost and got what he deserved. He had to get stronger. Just because sheâd abandoned her pride didnât mean he would.Â
âYour soulmate is here, too.â
Kenpachi couldnât ignore that one. He never ignored that one. Not that they let him, with all their fucking writing. Saying the strangest shit sometimes too.
When he was young, heâd been paranoid, not knowing what the fuck was doing the writing. Heâd swing his sword over his calf or side or thigh, expecting to lob and invisible arm off. Running, Kenpachi would try to out pace the fucker.
 Yumichika explained it like having one was exciting. Ikkaku had yelped for Yumichika to knock it off as the man with beautifully kept hands had given himself a paper cut.
âSee? It means the person youâre meant for feels everything you do on the battlefield.â His colorful eyelids narrowed, sights shifting between his captain and Ikkaku. âOr in the file cabinet, if either of you would bother to help out.â
The more he understood--and thought about it--the less he wanted to meet them. His soulmate. Kenpachi wasnât a person who forgave weakeness and anyone meant for him wouldnât either, right?
Heâd been consumed by sleepless nights, futile attempts to nap, and brutal training sessions, trying to keep his failures out of mind after the realization. What if Yachiru had been forced to take every blow the same as he had? Whenever he tucked in his lieutenant, the question ate at him further.
With time, there had come some form of solace--one day heâd find the thrill of a horrible battle again, to drown the thoughts out. But what Ichigo Kurosaki had offered hadnât been horrible in the way heâd imagined. And here he was, face turned away from Unohanaâs thinly veiled impatience, his feelings too complicated to bother with fully.
âWell?â
Unohana stood, like she was disappointed and Kenpachi couldnât help but snap at her, âFine. Whatever.â
She smiled, soft as sheâd gotten, and went to the door. âFine to what? I only told you theyâre here. But if youâre so determined to see them, Captain Zaraki, follow me.â
@
Grumbling about how much he hated âthat sneaky shitâ, Kenpachi did follow her, and went through the door she gestured at before being closed in with your recovering body. Your body hadnât healed as fast as his, but that wasnât a surprise--youâd be a captain for sure if you could pull that shit off.
Worst of all, you were awake, the scar lining one side of your face as thick as his own. No one else was in the room with you. There were no flowers or cards. And your mouth was hanging open.
âYouâre alive.â
âYeah well,â Kenpachi didnât know what to say, trailing off as one of his fingers brushed over his thigh.
âEveryone is talking about your fight,â you said, filling his silence with a light shrug. âI figured it was more than coincidence that I ended up like this at the same time. Iâm glad it was you and not the ryoka.â
âYou thought that kid was your soulmate?â
âHow was i supposed to know? No oneâs seen him since your fight, or so theyâre saying.â
âThe scarâs pretty fucking obvious.â
âUh, Iâve never seen you before and itâs not like youâre ever in the Seireitei Bulletin or...or wandering around where people could find you!â
Kenpachi winced, not because of your words, but because the closer he got, the more your sweat and shaking arms showed. You mustâve been like this for a lot of your life. A worming feeling of guilt he seldom felt curled in his belly. Now that he had a person to pin to the thought, it swelled large.
Maybe if he were a softer person, someone rounded out like the long gone Yachiru turned Unohana, heâd say something comforting or concerned or even charming. But his hand was still on his thigh and his mounting frustration at himself, all revolving around his lack of strength, felt thick on his tongue.
âThis mean youâre gonna stop with the fucking words?â
You pulled your head back slow, looking up at him like you couldnât decide between succumbing to exhaustion or lunging at him.
âWhat if I donât? What if I just keep going till you respond?â
âYouâll keep going until ya die.â
âWell, great! Thereâs youâre answer,â you scoffed. âYouâll have to kill me.â
It was a shit start, all things considered, and the silence that took over the room as Kenpachi sat on the nearest chair, so hard it almost cracked, felt as horrible as his zanpakuto refusing to answer him.
âThe nameâs Kenpachi Zaraki,â he said, resolved to at least get your name.
âYeah, I know.â
âDamn right, you do. Now tell me yours.â
You wouldnât have introduced yourself if he hadnât looked so...well, you couldnât quite tell what he looked like. Tired, maybe. Tired and wanting something.
So you gave him your name, your relief that he was alive, that you hadnât wished him to his grave in your youth, outweighing your anger. An apology for putting you here was like grasping at the sky and hoping to hold a star, if his reputation proceeded him. So you let it go as best you could.
And Kenpachi settled back in the chair, grunting in acknowledgement. He didnât think learning your name was gonna make him stronger, but it felt nice to hear someone talking to him like a person and not a beast.
If he was being honest, itâd always felt nice to be given your words, when so many people refused to give him any. A bit awkwardly, he stayed while you fell victim to sleep, your breath slow before he spoke again.
âThanks.â
#kenpachi zaraki#kenpachi x reader#kenpachi zaraki x reader#bleach imagines#bleach fanfic#kenpachi having to grapple with his love for battle having direct consequences on someone he comes to care for more and more#and reader having to decide if they can move past the fuck ton of harm he's done to them or if they can't make peace with it#especially since he is not going to apologize for it#like lmao Kenpachi you keep calling Unohana a weak coward in your mind but just you wait JUST YOU WAIT#can you bare to lose the only one who loves you when both yachirus are dead and no greater enemy than a god will ever come again#tybw with this au would be pain#bc tbh i don't think reader would make it#unless they were also put in a pod
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hehe so recently i hit 300 lovelies and as a thank you i wanted to create an event! bare in mind that this is the first event i ever initiated, so it might suck ass LMAO (or nobody will participate) however, let me not get ahead of myself and anticipate what could go wrong.
i started this blog initially bcs i was bored during covid. never in a million years did i expect to meet such lovely sweethearts who i can now call my moots/friends and even family. a lot has happened in my personal life and writing became my safe sanctuary. the fact that i could use writing as a positive coping mechanism and having ppl actually like the shit i write, made me feel validated in a sense. so yea, i truly thank you all for sticking around with me. enough being sappy tho, iâm sure yâall would like to skip that and see what i have to offer for my very first event â¨
THIS EVENT IS CLOSED | REQUESTS LEFT: [0]
đ˝ event #1 : match-up
i know this has been done a lot already by other very talented creators/writers, but i always enjoy receiving one so why not do it on my own event? basically based on the info you provide me, iâll match you with a character, include pics of the vibe you both give me and a song that reminds me of you both.
the info i need from you :
fandom: tokyorev, hq or bnha
if you want the character to be female or male or if it doesnât matter
short description of yourself
your rising sign and mbti
your aesthetic
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đ˝ event #2 : drabble
based on the character you want, i will write a short drabble for you (circa. +/- 300-500 words). it can range from anything tbh and i hope to be as accurate as possible.
the info i need from you :
fandom: tokyorev, hq or bnha
top-3 characters youâd like me to write a drabble for
give me a short description of your personality
your rising sign and mbti
your love language
likes and dislikes (a few will do)
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đ˝ event #3 : moodboard
this idea is thanks to bby sum sum (thank you babes đ¤) basically this one is pretty self-explanatory. based on the info you give me, iâll make a moodboard for you and the character of your choice.
the info i need from you :
fandom: tokyorev, hq or bnha
character of your choice
general theme (aesthetic, color, etc.)
đ guidelines:
you can submit an ask from today (sunday April 3th) until next sunday April 10th
this event is primarily sfw, purely bcs i havenât written as much nsfw yet and i donât want to give yâall something i donât 100% stand behind off
pls be patient with me since iâm a fulltime intern and student. it might either take me a bit of time to get to all the events (or if iâm procrastinating, i might get to them quicker hehe)
this event is open to anyone. i know itâs to celebrate me reaching 300 lovelies, but i donât want to exclude anyone. followers and non-followers can enter two times and moots can enter four times
each fandom is one entry (same applies to the characters). you can enter an event multiple times, just be mindful of how many times you may enter in general
if any of the results/finished pieces i give you are not to your preference, then iâm truly sorry about that. just know that i strive to give yâall as much quality content as i can, but iâm only human and i can make mistakes as well. pls refrain from sending any hate, be civil.
lastly, have fun with the entries! iâd love to read all of them and iâm excited to provide as much serotonin induced content as i can.
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Š sennsational 2022 - all rights reserved. please do not copy, modify, or repost my works and claim it as yours.
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AOT : HOLIDAY HEADCANONS
these totally werenât supposed to go up yesterday ahaha-Â
P.S: this is my first writing post!! i thought it would be an easier transition by writing hcâs, and i got my friend saniya (@bokesaniyaboke) to help me out with writing them, so i hope yâall enjoy :) (enjoy our 2 am chaos-)
i have more writing planned for the future too, and decided that iâll be writing for:Â
- attack on titan
- bungou stray dogsÂ
- free!
- fugou keiji: balance unlimited.Â
donât be shy to send in your requests, iâm more than happy to do them ;)Â
anyways, i hope you guys enjoy, let me know if you want more! and to those of you that celebrated, hope you had a merry Christmas :)Â
LEVI
Decorating the house with him!! Except heâd be trying to get out of doing it at first lol
Heâd be pissed about the mess that would come with decorating the houseÂ
But if you keep pestering him enough heâll eventually give in lolÂ
Heâd be very meticulous about which decorations go where, but youâre just gonna have to put up with thatÂ
Pls donât complain too much, he really wouldnât be doing it with anyone elseÂ
(in the words of saniya: âur the only exception be happy about that)
Idk why but i feel like heâd be really good at hanging up the lights?? With the placement and whatnot?Â
He probably has a very keen aesthetic eye i feel like (saniya: âpinterest but as a person vibesâ)Â Â
At the end of it, while yâall are sitting on the couch drinking some tea, he quietly mumbles how he likes the work you two didÂ
But you felt like teasing him and he got all huffy and said it louder, obviously calling you a brat right after cuz why wouldnât heÂ
ERENÂ
Ask him to make gingerbread houses!! pls heâd be so excited about itÂ
Heâd even go to the store himself and get all the supplies on his way home and you both wouldnât waste a minute to start a baby
Look heâd start getting competitive (pls we all know how he is) and would turn it into a competition so be prepared for that lolÂ
But when his gingerbread house falls over he starts getting angry
Proceeds to drive to the companyâs factory to break it down in his titan form (thereâs no stopping him now)Â
Gets Armin to join him and they smash the houses in their titan forms together LMFAOFNDND PLEASE IM WHEEZING-Â
But for real, heâd probably get pouty, and turn into a whiny baby
Donât call him out on it though heâll just get even worse lol Â
Shower him with kisses right after and heâll be blushy but heâs fine dw about itÂ
Heâll get over himself eventually and then proceed to ask with a boyish grin on his face if you wanna give up and just eat the houses as they areÂ
Yâall end up with stomach aches but itâs fine he makes it a little more bearable :))
MIKASAÂ
Making ornaments (pls itâd be so cutenjdjn)
Saniya: âshe would stab me with an ornament and iâd say thank youâÂ
Comfortable silence with a little chatter here and there
Every now and then she rests her head on your shoulder (softie)Â
Just like Armin, getting super flustered and blushy when you compliment herÂ
She helps hang the ornaments onto the tree and the tree turns out to look so pretty
Would take your hand and sit the two of you on the couch and just admire the tree in silenceÂ
Itâs so comforting you slowly feel like youâre about to fall asleepÂ
Make her some hot chocolate pls all she really wants is to cherish this atmosphere the two of you have created, all huddled up on the couch togetherÂ
Sheâd totally fall asleep cause the girlâs always working in overdrive pls does she even sleep-
Make sure sheâs warm alright?? If u donât iâll stab you ;)
JEANÂ
Watches hallmark movies with you, only to make fun of them (romance at itâs finest amirite)Â
Popcorn fights while watching themÂ
Will get mad when you see a horse and say âlook itâs you horse faceâÂ
He says the dumbest pick up lines during the movie as an attempt to impress youÂ
âhey y/n, can i have your picture so i can show santa what i want for christmas?âÂ
âjean, weâre literally dating-âÂ
Something romantic will happen in the movie and Jean will continuously ask you to recreate that scene. ây/n can we-â âif your about to ask me if you can spin me whilst ice skating, then noâ âaw :(âÂ
Oh to be spun by jean while ice skating- but thatâs not the pointÂ
Wrap him up in a blanket while watching the movies, heâll meltÂ
Call him out on it and heâll turn into ereh 2.0 (aka another whiny baby)Â
Jkjk but heâll definitely try to deny it cuz u know heâs a âbiG oL maNLy maNâ but heâs a softie ;)
ARMINÂ
Making holiday cards with himÂ
When you bring up the idea his face lights up instantly itâs the cutest thing omg
I can see him bringing his own supplies to help with getting started
Envelopes, letter paper, markers. Hell, heâll show up with glitter markers (those things are god-tier istg-)
he gets super flustered and red when you compliment his card
SUCH A CREATIVE BOI
If you mess up on your card heâs totally gonna be there to cheer you up!!
âHey donât worry, you can just start on a new one :Dâ
He probably wonât ask but he lowkey wants the card you messed up on cuz he thinks itâs cute
Makes cards for everyone and then takes you with him to deliver them
Would be really shy at the post office cuz heâs never done this beforeÂ
*cue you falling even more head over heels for him because heâs just so?? endearing?? itâs insane??*
Eventually, he gets the hang of it and ends up having a really fun time :D
Let him be the one to place the stamps on the envelopes, itâs ~therapeutic~ for himÂ
Overall, heâs probably the best person if you wanna use this as a healing opportunity tbh, the entire day is just filled with the calmest atmosphere one could wish for, and the smiles never leave your faces, even after youâve finished
CONNIEÂ
Snowball fights w/ our resident baldy jKJKJK
Pls you wouldnât even plan for it to happenÂ
It just kinda,, did,,Â
Yâall weâre walking through the park, on your way back from lunch or somethingÂ
But you decided to make a pit-stop at the park cuz you saw an ice cream truck (do yâall know how rare those are in winter?? Iâd be running to get to it pls i have no self-control)Â
Anyways, other ppl had the same idea, so now yâall were standing in line waitingÂ
As he was looking around, his eyes landed on some other kids throwing snowballs at each other, and ideas started forming in his head uh oh-
And there just so happened to be a pile of snow right next to his feet-Â
Yâall can probably guess what happened-Â
âHey y/nâ âyeah-?â *throws it right at your face*Â
And so the war beginsÂ
Two words: S N O WÂ F O R T S. pls ppl would be concerned as they walked by and saw yâall just trying to fucking PUMMEL each other (sounds like fun tho i wanna do it now :( havenât done it in years pls-)Â
But you have to stop it before one of you gets hypothermia considering how long yâall have been going at itÂ
Anyways, heâll buy you a hot chocolate to make up for making you frozen to the bone dw :)
SASHAÂ
Popcorn and cranberry garlandÂ
Look away for one second and the popcorn is gone but you donât really mind
Make sure to bring a second batch of the popcorn because the first one WILL be goneÂ
(maybe even a third stashed away-)
Sheâs really excited about it tho!! But didnât expect it to take so long omgÂ
I imagine her to be really clumsy while making them, so pull a move straight out of a cheesy romance movie and help her out while holding her hands ;)Â
She probably wonât notice whatâs going on for a good minute thoÂ
Pls be patient sheâs doing her best đđ¤đť
But once she does she has the cutest blush on her face pls (i just love her a lot can yâall tell-)Â
Sheâll eventually get the hang of it and you both make really pretty garlands!!
She suggests hanging it up in the bathroom as a snack pls-
HANJIÂ
Caroling with them omfg-Â
Itâs gonna be chaotic
The neighbors hate yâall but its fineÂ
Look man if ur like me and canât handle people being loud all the time bring earplugs cuz itâs gonna get L O U D
But if you tell them that their screeching is giving you a headache theyâll absolutely tone it down!!
But donât be surprised when they inevitably forget about that-
But if you're more energetic than I am then have at it ;)Â
Pls me and my lazy ass could never handle that-Â
Anyways when yâall reach the houses where they refuse to open the door?? Hanjiâs breaking that shit down and hollering into their house at the top of their lungs
Ur literally gonna have to drag them away before someone calls the copsÂ
Moblit pls get over here and collect them Iâm begging u dude-
Donât be surprised if yâall spend the night in jail thatâs just how itâs gonna be oopsÂ
#these were supposed to go up earlier im so sorry folks-#but these were so fun to make#attack on titan x reader#aot x reader#aot headcanons#aot christmas hcs#attack on titan#levi ackerman x reader#eren jeager x reader#mikasa x reader#jean x reader#armin x reader#connie x reader#sasha x reader#hanji x reader
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