#If I saw these gays Id just let them to it yk

[lucktv]

Yeahhhh I wonder why too...???

[yomiurinikei]

okie. pride hcs uhhh im just gonna do dra for now kiss kiss

under the cut for length! i'm not discussing theeee ch1 killer in this post everyone else is here tho, and! mentions of internalized homophobia/transphobia, aaand minako being a bad parent- ALSO k1nj0ma3 mention in the last section, i don't know anyone who needs it tagged but yk

kiyoka: bi! i think she'd just like.... not even consider that she could be anything but her for a long time, then when she finally realizes, it's because she's crushing on a girl, and she assumes that like "oh ig im a lesbian then bc i don't like any guys!" it. takes her a moment, but she does eventually realize she doesn't have to actively be crushing on a guy and a girl to be bi. also shes cis i'm sorry i think. she's one of those characters who's like... their experiences can be seen as an allegory for being trans but it doesn't work for their character for them to be trans. obvi all trans kiyoka hcs are so so so valid! i just don't see it

kizuna: lesbian. i'm sorry her entire thing with guys is literally just because of how she was raised/it's entirely comphet. she hasn't even considered she could be a lesbian and prolly has some internalized homophobia tbh. i also think she's cis just because i. Do Not think minako would go "oh yes obvi if ur trans that's fine u just have to find a rich boy to seduce ☺️" it does not fit. however i think if she felt safe enough to question she may end up id'ing as a demigirl

ayame: trans wlw. she doesn't put a label on her attraction beyond that, she knows she likes girls, she knows she is a girl, and that's all that rlly matters to her rn. she's still working out how to even talk with people, let alone pretty girls, so she doesn't need to stress out about semantics

kanata: trans bi!! briefly considered trans het but i do think she'd like girls, i just see her as having a male lean? she's generally not very interested in relationships, just because she doesn't really socialize a lot with people who aren't patients, so...

kakeru: iiid say bi? i don't have a lot to say here i think he's just chill about things and takes any crushes or anything that happens as it happens. he knows and understands he can't control who he likes, so he's just. waiting for his person :] also i kinda see him as nb anywyas

kinji: cis gay but also if you asked him abt his gender and like..... gave him cause to think about it he'd definitely have a crisis over it. ultimately just can't find the words or anything consistent so he. decides to ignore it. he uses he/him, likes guys, and if/when he's with a guy, it's a queer relationship. that's all that matters to him

haruhiko: the thing with satsuki was comphet on his end and my proof is his ftes. why do you care so much about getting a girl, haru? so you can be closer to your bros by the shared experience? okay haru. he's so fucking gay and so oblivious. i think. he's another one who's not really huge on crushes though, he finds people rlly attractive sometimes, but it's mostly. appreciation, not a desire to be with them. also he's trans but i don't really have anything to say there he just. Is ftm

satsuki: trans bi. ik ive hc'd her as a lesbian in the past but i just think she's got a slight female lean. who knows what i'll end up saying next year!! ig we'll find out. anyways she did. like haru but also it never really felt right to her? didn't feel bad or anything, but as much as being all lovey-dovey with him made her happy, she just never rlly saw it going further/lasting . she's another one i can rlly see as being nb!

yamato: like.... mlm? nblm? not to get into like.... hyper specific stuff this is the first time i've felt the need to do this for this post so i feel a bit bad put. id honestly put him as genderflux. sometimes he id's as non-binary, sometimes a demiboy, sometimes hes solidly a trans guy, but since it usually stays in that range, and too him, it feels like a spectrum between those labels, he just sticks with genderflux masc + gay

mikako: lesbian also i'd say demigirl. i don't. have a lot to say here tbh. i can also rlly see her as pan but??? idk!

akane: lesbian. i can also. see her as bi but idk i kinda think that the utsuro thing would put her off guys. not that it was necessarily,, traumatic? she's rlly solidly at peace with what happened there and she's moved on from "he saved me i must devote myself to him i guess this is love" but she just... hasn't rlly been into a guy since/doesn't think she'll feel that way again, so she generally calls herself a lesbian, for the ease of it. also i have 0 thoughts on her gender identity oop-

utsuro: . ???????? tbh ive never.... really had utsuro ships (this is.... very close to the truth so well let the small lie slide). he's one where i don't rlly see him with girls, but also yk i don't. think he'd label himself or be into anyone. i also wouldn't say aro????? he's just completely abstained from having any thoughts or feelings on relationships whatsoever. ,,,in fact, would be really be able to have one? we all know. how he feels abt his luck, couldn't he pull anyone he wants? i don't think that would make him happy, and that doesn't make for a good relationship. he really just can't connect with people properly irregardless of love so. anyways he's ftm

teruya: COMPHET LEVEL 100 only kizuna beats him for level of comphet. he definitely gets really bad crushes on guys really easily but he can't.... recognize them as crushes, and latches onto any guy like crazy. but. yk. he prolly doesnt realize this for a while so......... rip. i think he's amab and like.. doesn't particularly feel like a guy, but calling himself anything else feels Wrong, whereas being a guy is just like. a thing to him so. it's fine by him!

rei: she's like. canonically celibate and i'm 90% sure linuj said she'd like. abstain from all relationships if she ever felt attraction and tbh i'm not.... gonna comment on that whatsoever but also she's definitely a lesbian. she's cis i think i don't see her as trans ig

tsurugi: gay. i know i've made a lot of the guys on this list mlm but it's not.... my fault i'm going off linujs writing and my vibes and i've written a whole essay about how you can read the entire franchise and track linujs shifting queer views so.. it's not my fault that all the guys in dra are limp in the wrist. anyways back to tsurugi. he was totally into kouhei he just didnt realize and it wasn't until his ftes with maeda. wherein he started to crush on maeda. he rlly is my poor little meow meow but anyways he prolly finds a good husband one day so it's okay. also we started off with "you feel so trans but it does not work with your story" and ig we're ending with it too.

im hungry now and also kinda dizzy i might go have grapefruit. if u read this far: make sure to eat ur fruits and get ur vitamins 🥰

[criminally--reid]

library lovers

I h8 the title- n e ways... here's the fix that's been promised to be posted at least twice a week for the past month 😌✋🏽also if u want untagged yk who u are smsbsj lmk,, i just thought id use the anon tag so u could see it snsbsj n e ways let's get on wiv d shit show

warnings: awkward chaotic gay, general smutty stuff y'know, mutual masturbation, i’ve never written mxm fic before so yonkers :| 

word count: 2.6k

Pairing: bi!spencer x (dom-ish)male!reader 

//a.n.\\ somehow the reader ends up in charge and i kinda like it tbh. i'm shit at storylines,  but honestly,, highschool homophobe masturbating with spencer reid? Call that character development 

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You hadn't seen Spencer in years. Remembering the terms the two of you ended on, you weren't surprised either. All throughout highschool, you were the movie-esque tormentors of the frail, nerdy kid. The bully that wasn't actually supposed to exist. The absolute nightmare that had kids like Spencer trembling, dreading to relive the same terror another day. 

Shock couldn't even begin to cover what you felt the day you watched him walk into the library you now owned. You had been working on forgetting him since graduation. Just when you thought the remnants of Spencer had dripped entirely from your memory, everything came flooding in the matter of milliseconds the moment he walked through your door. All the times you watched him eat alone, pick his things up alone after someone had thrown them out of his hands; all the times you could've stepped up and just chose not to. You promised yourself you'd be different. Now was your chance. 

You subtly watch Spencer as he looks through the many isles of books. Beginning at young adult, trailing quickly to non-fiction, and eventually ending up in the classic section. He doesn't spend much time amongst the books - 5 minutes at the most since he walked in - before bringing a stack of 6 books up to the counter; you anxiously waiting to scan him in. 

"Did- did you find all your books alright?" You manage to ask. Spencer merely nods his head, crossing his arms and bringing one of his hands up to his mouth, chewing on his fingernails. His brows furrow and you're worried he's about to say something. 

"I'm a little surprised to see you working here actually." This throws you off. You did not plan for this- this confrontation. 

"I take it you remember me?" 

"I'm not really one to forget things, you know." Fair enough. 

"Well, yes. I actually run the place now. My grandfather had passed it on to me." 

"Oh he's…? I'm so sorry for your loss." 

Spencer's look of sincerity throws you off. After all the years of you being his worst fear, he still had room in his heart to be genuinely kind towards you. 

"It's fine, really. It was so long ago now. And besides- now I have this grand, ancient bookstore." You end with a chuckle and finish scanning the barcodes in each of his books. 

"Thank you- uh actually, could you help me find something else?"

"Of course! What're you looking for?" 

"Everyone keeps recommending me Donna Tart, where could I find some of her work?" 

"Follow me," you gesture and move from behind the counter. 

You walk him over to the very back of the store where all the dark academia-esq books are. While sifting through the books, he asks you a question that catches you completely off guard; his voice nothing above a whisper. 

"And I take it that you don't still hate me-" 

You immediately know what he's talking about. How silly of you to think the past wouldn’t be brought up.  

You clear your throat before speaking up. "I- n-no of course not. I- I uh- I know this is extremely cliche, and I'm not trying to excuse away any of the horrible things I did to you but- I was hiding." 

"From what?" Spencer chimes in quietly. 

"I just didn't know how to feel about myself. Gay this and gay that- it was all so negative. I didn't want to be known for something that was apparently so wrong. I definitely couldn't let the football playing circle jerkers I called my friends know about how I felt towards other guys. An-and I saw how they treated people like you and I didn't want that, so I joined them." 

"So you're gay?" Spencer asks, and you nod slowly. "And you and your 'circle jerking buddies' tortured me because you all thought I was gay?" 

"Well- I- we uh- that's what they said. I knew it wasn't good, but I didn't do anything because of what I was. I know the word 'sorry' will never make up for anything I've ever done or said to you, but I am so so sorry, Spencer." 

"You guys just knew I was gay? -Gaydar that strong, huh?" Spencer ends in a chuckle, easing up your tension, allowing you to slip out a soft laugh, too. 

"Obviously, it wasn't too good. I somehow managed to skate by for four years." 

"That you did." For the first time in years, when you look at Spencer, he doesn't look upset. A content, lazy smile accompanies his happy eyes as he. "Well- actually, I'm not entirely gay so I guess their gaydar needed some tweeking, hm?" 

"Oh, you're-" you attempt, but get cut-off. 

"Bi? Yeah. I realized I was bi when I realized I had a crush on you and your tenth grade girlfriend. What about you?" 

Still skimming the pages of a Donna Tart book, never looking up from it. So nonchalant. Him being so upfront with you was honestly exciting. You never imagined that you'd be remotely friendly with Spencer Reid, let alone him revealing he had a crush on you. "Ah, about junior year, I figured out I kinda had a thing for you." 

"Say, uh," Spencer started, tucking his hair behind his ear and slipping the book back onto the shelf. "I liked you; you liked me. Why don't we hang out sometime or something-" 

You could tell Spencer was trying hard to mask his enthusiasm. You were too. 

"Erm- yeah totally! I get off in about an hour actually; I could call you, and we could grab coffee or something." 

"Sounds great," Spencer says hurriedly as he fishes around in his pocket, drawing out a small slip of paper and drawing the pen from his shirt pocket. He hands you the freshly used paper with his number inscribed on it in smudged black ink. 

The next hour, excitement coursed through you. You're bustling around, fidgeting, unshelving and re-shelving books, sweeping, mopping - anything to keep your mind off of the end of your shift. The busiest yet slowest hour of your life. Your shift ends and your excitement reaches its peak. Your finger hovers over the call button at the bottom of your screen, hesitating. For a split second you get the courage to press call, but then you immediately regret it - that is until his hurried, excited voice slips through the speaker. 

"Hey, y/n! It's Spencer! Uh- you know.. that.. of course. Anyways, uh there's this coffee shop about a block away from my place. I wondered if maybe you'd wanna go and have an early dinner or something." 

You can't help but chuckle at his excitement; trying to calm down your own. "That sounds great, Spencer. What's the place?" 

"Café Negra-" 

"What?!" you cut him off "I go there all the time! How have I never seen you?" 

"What? That's insane. How have we not crossed each other there?" 

"No clue.. Anyways I'll meet you there- uh about 20?" 

"Perfect." Spencer hangs up without any formal goodbyes, but you couldn't care less - you couldn't wait to meet him at the coffee shop. 

The date - which neither of you bothered to assign that title to the event, but you both knew it was, in fact, a date - went impressively well. It's like you two had never been enemies in the first place. Those four years in high school wiped clean of any hard feelings as the two of you drank coffee way too strong for 6p.m., ate double chocolate muffins, and laughed away. 

When it comes time to leave, Spencer stands up first, throwing away his cup and muffin wrapper; you follow quickly and do the same. 

A mutual agreement was somehow made to take it back to Spencer's place. Maybe it was the lack of goodbyes that he seemed prone to. Whatever it was, the evening didn't feel finished. 

Once inside his cozy apartment, he welcomes you to his couch before maneuvering to the tv stand, kneeling down and pulling out three movies. He gestures for you to choose one, and you choose Titanic. Not the greatest choice of the three, but you had a feeling you wouldn't be focused on the movie too much anyways. 

He puts the disc into the player before joining you on the couch. About twenty minutes into the movie, he moves closer to you, resting his shoulder slowly, cautiously as if asking permission. You ease his nerves by welcoming his head on your shoulder and leaning against him in return. The next half an hour is full of stolen glances, light touches, and snuggling. All innocent until Spencer slides his hand up your thigh. You try not to mind it much. Maybe he's just absentminded in all the contact. He doesn't know what he's doing. You try to focus on the movie and not on his hand getting ever so dangerously close until you just can't anymore. Looking down at him, he's already making eye contact with you, driving you wild. Instinctually you connect your lips with his. 

Spencer shuffles over and straddles your lap, never disconnecting your lips. Your hands roam around his shoulders and back before dipping underneath the hem of his shirt and pulling it off. He makes quick work of returning the favor. After a few more chaste kisses, he stands up, pulling you up with him, and pushes his pants to the floor with you following suit. Spencer places his fingers under your chin, bringing your face up to his in an attempt to place another open-mouthed kiss on your bite-swollen lips. However, you muster up a burst of courage and manage to flip the script. Placing your fingers on Spencer’s chest and holding him at arm's length, you keep eye contact while you take a seat on one end of the couch. You motion for him to take his seat at the other end. 

Spencer, still unsure of the current situation, watches you move. He watches as you run your fingertips up and down your thighs. As you wet the palm of your hand with your tongue before running it up and down your shaft. Lightly tracing your fingertips over your reddened head, hissing at the contact. 

“Your turn,” you say barely above a whisper. 

Spencer’s eyes go wide, but he still obliges, wetting his hand and repeating your actions on himself. Hissing and cursing at the contact with his eager cock. He soon gets lost in his own world of pleasure. Moving faster and moaning barely-there profanities. Watching the show, you bring your hand back to yourself. Your eyes shut as you listen to Spencer; his pretty gasps like music to your ears. 

“Y-y/n? I’m- I’m close.” 

“Awh, so soon? You sure you can’t hold on for me just a little longer?” 

Spencer lets out a strangled moan and forces himself to slow his pace. Watching him struggle to contain himself turns you on even more. His desperate whines and pleas for release getting you closer to the edge. “Look at me, bubbas,” you coax. 

Spencer looks up at you, pushing a tuft of hair from his eyes. His other hand still desperately attached to the base of his cock, awaiting further instruction. 

“Listen.. We’re gonna cum together okay?” Spencer only manages a nod in response so you continue. “I want you to move faster again; get closer. But I want you to let me know when you’re about to cum, okay?” 

You’re met with a furious nod for an answer as he works at his waist, bringing himself closer to his climax; you simultaneously doing the same.

“F-fuck fuckfuckfuck! -M gonna cum. Shit! I’m cumming!” Spencer's cries of pleasure send you over the edge and you both spill over together. Your head dips back over the armrest of the couch as you try to catch your breath. You bring your head back up and look at Spencer, only to see him leaning sideways against the back of the couch, still out of breath and coates in a layer of sweat. 

“Why don’t we go get cleaned up, hm?” 

Spencer nods his head in agreement before getting up off the couch and leading you to the bathroom. You definitely aren’t going home tonight.  

[usagidatta]

gender thoughts-

for a long time ive thought on yhe fact that it doesnt make sense to me the concept of same sex/genital attraction. although you can make a guess, you can't tell what genitals someone has, only secondary sex characteristics, which to me are the basis of attraction. for example i saw someone say oh?? just bc i see a person who looks like a woman and have a v*gina say they're a trans guy does that make me bi?? words don't change sexuality!1!2

no, it makes you attracted to femme presenting people, which historically and usually align with a certain sex (really sex SIDE since sex isn't binary but yk)

like. same reason that if you see a dude who passes really well for a woman, that doesn't make you bi for being attracted to them

brain saw woman so you think mm woman.

this goes into transness. trans woman are woman, and unfortunately bc of our sexed world, to be seen as that, you have to present as such. but the concept of woman is just that. a concept. it doesn't make it fake or have no bearing or importance bc it does, but woman has no tangible definition besides being sex based which is

wonky again bc sex isn't binary, and ofc gender isn't sex. so! if a lesbian is being all, i'm not attracted to men!!11!1! being a terf like. whos gonna tell them they're really just not attracted to ppl who they perceive to be masculine? imo there's nothing wrong w that. bc plenty of transwoman and transguys pass to be found attractive by monosexuals who like that sex. they're not being tricked, or fooled like.

you're still attracted to that combination of secondary sex characteristics that signal woman. however if you don't care abt those secondaries then i think that really is the measurement of bisexuality. bc a gay man finding an afab who identifies as a woman but passes perfectly as a man attractive isn't bisexuality. but i think this works IN TANDEM with identity. bc there are masculine women and feminine men who may or may not let into their secondary sex characteristics but are still attracted to by monosexuals. so.. what differences does the genitals make?? if that's a woman then that's a woman yk and the line can get blurred but idk god i'm just word vomiting

this also goes into my thoughts that you can't be attracted inherently to nonbinary people because there's no associated secondary sex characteristics no presentation to signal gender?? androgyny isn't that bc that's not inherently enby, however one CAN be inherently attracted to androgyny, and most ppl are

which only further my idea the attraction isn't and can't be genital based. its all perception based. if you're into guys, and you perceive someone as one you're probably gonna be into them if they're attractive. this is why unfortunately gender performance is a thing i think?? wanting to properly convey yourself even though your identity isn't invalidated by appearance. but also like

why would you want to be with someone who aligns with the characteristics you find attractive if they don't identify as that??? does that not automatically rid of attraction for anyone else is that just me.

but then ofc i also think sexuality is fluid and love can make it so the rules can bend a little on your definition of your sexuality.

also just wanted to mention that secondary sex based characteristics do NOT equal sex and. id hope we all know that but yk

bc it isn't exact it's more like brain collecting info based on the shit you've received your whole life. but it isn't perfect and trans and intersex ppl as well as ppl with mixed or different hormone levels exist. which influence sex based characteristics and thus are not intrinsically tied to genitals or genetics/chromosomes