#Idk. Maybe i need to make Vincent smaller

[bitchfitch]

I wanted to get a feeling for Vincent's Physicality and like. How he moves and would position himself and whatnot. And then tossed Lino at him to get a Vibe for Lino's character and posing and how the two of them would interact. But I Greatly dislike how little Lino is in this.

Most of my turbo twinks are 6ft+ for a reason I guess. I still want Lino to be on the dainty side since I don't make a lot of Properly dainty characters but I think I need to find a way to make him look less baby while keeping him dainty.

[rjalker]

Catherine, Vincent, Lisa*, Jeb*, "Dottie"*, Blaze*, Armon*, Yuna, Lulu, Anikah, Peter Lambh/Quail*, Fang,

Catherine and Vincent were going to get married and they were standing in front of a giant mirror and Vincent saw his Evil Self in it and was like (insert smoking man meme here). Put his hands(paws?) On Catherine's shoulders and was like, "Catherine, I love you, I want to marry you, I am GOING to marry you if you let me, but we're gonna have to postpone this I gotta go do something." And then punched the mirror and then ran off attacking his Evil Self. And everyone else was like "???????????? Omg Catherine this is so sad I'm so sorry he's abandoning you at the altar--" And Catherine was like "oh come on people, he's your brother! How do you not know about his Evil Self yet. Chill. The wedding is still on he, just needs to mentally kick his own ass first."

And everyone was like "aww how sad she's in denial" and Catherine was like -.- "literally I've known him for four years you've known him his whole life. What the fuck have you don't thay he doesn't trust you enough to tell him about his Evil Self -.-" (which was rude of the dream, it's only Jacob thay needs to die irl)

And then it was like I was watching a movie and Catherine and Yuna(X-2) were running after some dude named Fennir, which isn't even creative, and his two subordinates who didn't have names. He turned people into wolves and was also a wolf. Catherine turned into a white wolf like before and Yuna turned into a yellow one. Fennir was brown and the other two dudes were actual wolf colored grey. Maybe that means they were the only actual wolves there. Idk.

But there were subtitles, because this was like a movie, and they were really nice except for when Anikah was talking because whoever the fuck made them subtitled her name as "lesbian" and thays not how subtitles fucking work. Rude.

Vincent was at "Lisa and Jeb"'s house, and they had a giant three story house and a giant front yard and a giant backyard and a heated inground pool and a giant concrete deck. And also they lived part-time in the tunnels. Because apparebtly rich people are allowed to live down there now -.-

They were talking aboit their three kids and Vincent commented that they should be allowed to get more sunlight for their health since they had a giant yard and Lisa replied "lol well they only need 3 vitamin D's a day it's not a big deal".

And Vincent was like "that doesn't sound right but I don't know enough about nutrition to argue"

The Peter Lambh/Quail dude was some old spy or something spying on Fennir and was apparently an old companion of the Doctor. He had secret computer panels in the walls of his house and had a secret base beneath it that was the Hive from Resident Evil. Because that's smart.

And at some point o was about to kick a lot of idiots asses because we found a Definitely Evil cave / abandoned mine and they kept wanting to go in without any supplies or even flashlights and I'm like, if you morons don't stop being stupid I'm going to leave you here to get eaten by whatever is in that cave. Nobody fucking goes in unless we have at least twelve fucking people, got it?? Six go in and six stay outside. And you make sure everyone knows you're going to be here incase we all disappear. Teams of three are MINIMUM. No splitting up smaller than that! Everyone needs to have a flashlight, two walkie talkies, food, water, rope, and other supplies.

The idiots were like "we'll who made you the boss? >:["

"You want to die and probably kickstand the apocalypae???? Not happening. You follow my plan or I kill you myself."

Oh also o found a bag of shredded beef jerky because normal jerky hurts my stupid teeth and it didn't have any flavor >:[

[fattlestacks]

umm well idk i dont wanna hurt your feelings but i was kinda trying to say, as nicely as possible, how about something else besides the matsu boys? idk maybe other of your followers are thinking the same thing, there's just been lots of omatsu content and almost nothing else, i mean it in the nicest possible way plz dont be upset

Seriously though, there isn’t really anything I can do about who I’ve been inspired to draw. If it’s mostly Karamatsu, then it’s just gotta be mostly Karamatsu for the time being. Y’all don’t want to see me force myself to draw stuff, trust me… it won’t turn out good. But I can at least switch up scenarios if you guys want to see more weight gain stuff (not too terribly big since my tastes tend to run on the smaller side) or more like… too small clothes, force feeding or whatever it is y’all are into. 

Sorta on the same subject, I feel like I need to mention this… I spend roughly 2 days every week working on Chunky Skunk but because most of my followers aren’t my patrons (which is fine, I’m not saying you’re required to be) you don’t actually see that stuff for months and months until it comes out publicly. Then all of that work gets consumed in a matter of minutes and I think maybe people think it only took me a few minutes to make? It’s super disheartening to get comments every week or so saying how much everyone misses Vincent and how I never draw him, meanwhile I’m drawing him about 6 times a week and I feel like that’s never acknowledged. It’s not the only reason, but definitely contributed to why I decided to give up comics at the end of the current episode. I feel like my work has just gone to waste since everyone just accuses me of never drawing him… and that I just spent so much of the previous three or four months writing, sketching, inking and coloring those pages. 

There will come a time, I’m sure when I either move on to a different fandom or get inspired to work on more of my OC art but I really can’t anticipate when that will happen. But feeding me ideas can sometimes get the wheels turning, ya know? That’s really the only thing I have to rely on to maybe inspire something in the way of more variety, hence why I’m asking for feedback.

[sarasa-cat]

2k19. Maintaining my sense of chill.

My number one primary overriding goal for this year is maintaining my current sense of chill.

tl;dr: I am literally scheduling chillax fannish activities into my daily life (starting today) as key part of my chill maintenance routine. 

Writing Monsters (FFVII: Vincent, Lucrecia, Yuffie, Cast) is still a high level priority. 

Fandoms: FFVII, FFXII, other FF games, and the Persona series are still on the menu. Adding DA back in**. May add in a few other smaller fandoms for the sake of fanart and very short fiction.

Fic: Balancing EPIC FIC with flashfic + micro-fiction:  Monsters is the epic. But I want to get back into writing very short fiction for short-fic communities on DW.

Art and Graphics:  I have a fan art challenge that I have given myself (nervously bites nails, and a few prompt spots are still open) and I also want to spend some time on mood-boards and other graphics.

Stretch goal 1 - Meta: as time allows: finally do that Dirgepalooza. 2019 feels like the year to make it happen. ;)

Stretch goal 2 - Tidying, organizing, and republishing/reposting: After 12 years, my fan-mess is a mess. Content spread out all over the place: Livejournal, InsaneJournal, Fanfic.net, Dreamwidth, AO3, Tumblr. I want to tidy some day. Some day.... maybe this year.

Re: Adding DA back in.  As much as I enjoyed DA:O and its collection of DLCs, I don’t know if I will ever have the patience to play that kind of game again, especially for a completionist PT that covers all DLCs. Maybe? TBD.  

Replaying DA2 is easy and fun and enjoyable. Also, it runs on my small, portable work laptop! ^_^   

DAI is on my larger, aging gaming machine (a lugtop). I have never done a completionist PT, I haven’t played the DLCs, and, TBH, I rushed through the end of game on my only “play to the end” PT. I have many inquisitors who are twiddling their thumbs in various locations of the world. As much as I enjoyed (and felt annoyed by) my main PT with the character who eventually became my “primary” inquisitor, that character ended up being one big shrug and ... and ... idk. It was fun while it lasted? SO, my goals for DAI as something that interests involve one of the following old goals from a few years ago: 

Most likely: Restarting my Rozina Trevelyan PT and using it as inspo for creating aesthetics posts, mood-boards, graphics, and maybe some art, tbd. Flashfic on occasion.  

Alternatively: Inquisitor Merrill. Because. Omg because. Again, aesthetics, mood-boards, graphics, and FLASHFIC.  Obv, Merrill/Solas disastermance.

Alternate Alternative: Inquisitor Fenris. Because. Also, Dorianmance. Again, aesthetics, mood-boards, graphics, flashfic. 

Alternative to Alternative:  Inquisitor Isabela. :D

So much TBD on which I will do. Need to sort out all of my DA universes. 

[texasianotaku]

My Fall 2020 Otome Backlog

Crossposted on Otome Amino

Back in May, I got this little bit of a wild streak in trying to write up my backlogs, but in a smaller, more digestible way. For example, instead of overwhelming myself with extremely lofty goals of these massive lists of games and routes I want to play, I made a list of games and routes that I could feasibly complete in a matter of four months (through to the beginning of fall). I took into consideration that since it was summer (and also that I’m home with my daughter in the middle of a pandemic), that I should be able to accomplish it.

I didn’t complete the entire backlog that I had set aside, and that’s okay with me. I found that it was nice to have a directive instead of trying to blindly decide on my next route. Additionally, I feel like following the goals that I had written down in my last backlog blog really helped me with my focus and quite possibly allowed me to finish even more routes than I would have had I not written them down. It may or may not be really the case, but I feel it is. I think that this is something that I’ll want to continue to do seasonally to help me with tackling the monster that is my otome backlogs.

This is the list of routes that I successfully completed from my summer 2020 backlogs.

Abraham Van Helsing (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Arsene Lupin (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Azusa Kuze (Wizardess Heart) Comte de Saint-Germain (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Episodes 3 and 4 (A3!) Impey Barbicane (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Jaehee Kang (Mystic Messenger) Joel Crawford (Wizardess Heart) Karma (Cinderella Phenomenon) Kei Okazaki (Collar x Malice) Kent (Amnesia: Memories) Lupin’s Gang (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Matheus (Beastmaster and Princes) Mineo Enomoto (Collar x Malice) Rod (Cinderella Phenomenon) Satoru (Bad Apple Wars) Souji Okita (Hakuoki) Takeru Sasazuka (Collar x Malice) Toichiro (Ayakashi: Romance Reborn) Toma (Amnesia: Memories) Twilight Common Route (Ayakashi: Romance Reborn) Victor Frankenstein (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Vincent Knight (Wizardess Heart) Zen (Mystic Messenger)

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to get to these routes. I did not take into consideration that Collar x Malice was as long a game as it is. I like to listen fully to the voice acting, so it does take me longer than usual to push through a console route with voice acting than it would take me to play a game with no voice acting. Also, I’ve learned that I have difficulty playing PC games because of the personal setting aspect. I’ve recently set up my office due to starting school again and have found playing games in my office is more conducive to playing PC games in general.

707 (Mystic Messenger) Aiji Yanagi (Collar x Malice) Fashioning Little Miss Lonesome Finis (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Herlock Sholmes (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Jumin Han (Mystic Messenger) Kageyuki Shiraishi (Collar x Malice) Mr. Love: Queen’s Choice Main Route Obey Me Main Route White Mask (Bad Apple Wars) Yoosung (Mystic Messenger)

These are the games and routes that I transferred over to my fall backlogs that I never got around to during the summer. The only ones I omitted were 707, Jumin Han, and the Obey Me Main Route. I’ve found that Mystic Messenger isn’t one of those games that you can play in one go, at least for me personally. Also, I don’t have much motivation to play them because I wasn’t too particularly impressed or touched by Zen or Jaehee’s routes. Additionally, of all of the joseimuke games I play, I’m the least interested in Obey Me’s story line than Mr. Love or A3! So that particular game’s plot is on the backburner for me as well.

Aiji Yanagi (Collar x Malice) Fashioning Little Miss Lonesome Finis (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Herlock Sholmes (Code:Realize ~ Future Blessings) Kageyuki Shiraishi (Collar x Malice) Mr. Love: Queen’s Choice Main Route White Mask (Bad Apple Wars) Yoosung (Mystic Messenger)

For this section, I'll be talking about the new games and routes that I'd like to play and complete by the end of fall (December 20th). Each subsection within this category has a small exposition as to why I'm adding this to my pretty full list of games to play during the autumn season.

I really, really, really love both of these games. I feel like they both need more love, especially Ayakoi. Neither are strongly romantic, if at all, and I think that's a lot of the reason why they don't get as much play as some other games. I base this off of their sales numbers compared to games such as Mr. Love: Queen's Choice and Obey Me, which have made an explosive amount of money.

I have this tendency that if I don't need to read it immediately, I won't. And such is the case with both of these games. I have only played three routes on Ayakoi and am now behind on the new Act 2 episodes for A3!. However, my goal for this season is to simply complete the event stories that I haven't touched yet. That's eleven for Ayakoi and 8 for A3!. At least with A3!, I'm afforded the time to catch up since they are not doing events outside of the gachas (which I'm not counting here) and reading promotion for the Act 2 Episodes. I'm not too far behind, though, because I actually have been acting against character and making the effort to read the event stories as they come out.

I've been playing Ciagram games pretty chill for the past few months. I started Cinderella's Happy End when it first came out with the LOG app ("Love Stories and Otome Games for Girls) back in May. It's a simple game that doesn't require checkpoints or stat-raising. No avatars. Just 5 tickets a day, with the potential to gain an extra 2 tickets by viewing ads. I'm not exactly sure why I gravitated so much to this game. I think that maybe I needed a slice-of-life game in my routine. By now, I've completed the three other routes, and Kyosuke is the very last one I have to complete. 

As I've mentioned before, I've been playing Ciagram games really chill. In the past, you would've probably seen me playing 5+ of their games at a time. Now, though, I just don't want to do it. I think it's getting more stressful in my old age. 😝At any rate, with my full completion of Cinderella's Happy End coming up soon, I set my sights on Chocolate Temptation next.

There are a few reasons as to why this particular game as opposed to any. For the past couple of years, if I had some time, I'd play the ads on a lot of the Ciagram apps. I kept accruing story tickets, and back then, the tickets didn't expire. Now that it is on the LOG app, I've transferred those tickets as well as tickets to a couple of other games to the app, and now I'm sitting on 650+ free tickets. I need to use them by March 2021, so both Chocolate Temptation and Nightmare Harem are moved to the top of my list of Ciagram games to play.  

I could still also go for more slice-of-life otome. Seriously, I feel like there is a distinct lack of it in the past couple of years. And the art for Chocolate Temptation is among the more pleasing than many other Ciagram games.

I've been steadily playing through the routes that I haven't played on Wizardess Heart. It's not one of my favorite games, but I'm in such dire need for SWD content since they've officially decided to stop updating their still standing games with new content. 😭😭😭 Despite how they have perceptively done us otome players wrong by removing the bulk of their content from mobile game stores, I still have a soft place in my heart for them and will still be a champion for their content.

Guy's route is the last route that I have to play in the Day Class series, excluding all of the sequels that they did. I haven't yet decided whether I want to move forward this fall with the remainder of the Night Class routes I have yet to play. I'll probably take a break until the winter to start back up with the 11 remaining routes I have for Night Class.  😪 

I'm already exhausted thinking about it.

My completionist heart wants me to finish playing all of the routes available in SWD's The Niflheim. I played most of the routes on the standalone before it shut down back in March. I have extra diamonds on my alternate Story Jar account, so I wasn't in a rush to finish JJ and Philippe's route. Of all of the routes, I had the least interest in theirs, so I stopped where I did for a break. I have Jean listed because he's the canon, but I already played his route on the standalone; he's just there because it feels like Niflheim Academy follows as if he were to be the canon for that AU story as well.

 I'm pretty excited about playing these two indie PC titles, Ebon Light and Seduce Me: the Otome. Seduce Me has long been on my to-play list, and I've seen a lot of hype about Ebon Light. Apparently, on the Otome reddit page, it's their indie game of 2019. Tbh, even given the new circumstances of my PC habits, I probably wouldn't have chosen these games as my first games to play on PC, that other PC games held priority. I'm very thankful to the OA Book Club for giving me the push to prioritize these over other games.

I first heard about Piofiore when it first came out for the PS Vita from a friend of me. She effectively built up some hype, but not too much because at the time, I didn't know that it would get localized. I was super psyched when Aksys made the announcement that they would localize Piofiore. I love the mafia-theme as well as the time setting, regardless of whether is is the Taisho Era or the Roaring Twenties. Would the Roaring Twenties apply outside of the US? Idk, but I still romanticize that time period and really like it.

The only reason why Piofiore holds greater precedence on my backlog than Café Enchanté though, is just because of the release dates. Had Café Enchanté released earlier than Piofiore, I would have had that on my to-play list sooner than later. I'm hyped for both games. Realistically, I don't see myself starting Café Enchanté until near the end of the year, and that's me being ambitious. Despite that, I've still preordered both games.

This is another game that would've probably taken me forever to play had it not been for the OA Book Club. We've progressed through two routes, and due to the reading schedule for the remainder of the game, we'll be able to finish right before the long-awaited fan disk, Evermore, releases at the end of November.

 While I'm not dying over Cinderella Phenomenon, I'm floored by the amount of work that went into it. And for the developer to offer such a high quality game for free is astounding. The story is very creative and well-paced. I'm not sure if I'll be playing Evermore shortly after; I suppose that depends on how I feel when I completely finish the game.

 For the past year and a half, maybe two years? I've been working my way through the routes on SLBP. I'm sitting at seven routes remaining that I have not completed at least one ending (excluding Act 2 and Unification). I was a little conflicted about who I should play in this backlog round, but a dear friend suggested I play Saizo for a trope that I love. And she's been wanting me to play Shingen for a long time because he's her best boy. She may not tell me that she wants me to play him when I make my decisions, but I know that she dies a little inside when I tell her the next route that I'm playing. 

...But then, Kojuro's Act 2 Splendor was just announced. 😬 Even though I'm not a huge fan of avatars, there's something about an early completion challenge that brings out the event loving trash that I am.

Did you know that you can still access some of the Shall We Date? premium games that were taken off of the mobile stores back in March? 👀👀👀 As long as you still have the app on your devices, you can still access the content. This applies only towards the premium games that you had to pay for. The free to play games went offline almost immediately. RIP Modern Cinderella, I'll never forget you. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I was able to save these games by recording them on a high speed, but since they're still currently available to access for me, I'd like to go back to record and read them with the sound. This applies to Castle Break and Guilty Alice.

For My Sweet Prince and Ninja Love, I still had them on my iPad and hadn't updated the thing in years so that I could retain the stories. It's time that I finally complete these games so that I could bring my iPad to the 2020s.

If you know me, this one is kind of no-brainer. I usually play IkéSen and IkéVamp routes completely within three days of release, dependent on the story boosting times in the concurrent collection events that they do. Theodorus bears mentioning simply because his route is coming out soon, like a week from when I post this blog.

I will say, when IkéVamp first released in Japan, Theo was the very first I had my eye on. His character design is top notch and hits all of my favorite aesthetics when it comes to 2D boyfriends. However, as time passed, I kind of lost interest in him because of his penchant of calling the MC a dog in Dutch and his sadistic ways. I'm generally not a fan of sadists or LI that treat MCs as an animal. I am hoping, though, that he proves me wrong and I go back to thirsting for him like I did when the game first released. Come ask me again in a week.

This year, I played every route on Amnesia except Shin, whom I completed back in 2018. My friend and I played this together, and if it weren't for her, I probably wouldn't have picked it back up again, or at least any time soon. So I have her to thank because it quickly became one of my favorite games that I played this year. We're wrapping up our playthrough of the game with Ukyo, who you can only play once you've completed all other routes. Right now, I'm on Day 6, and I'm still wondering what the hell is going on. I'm looking forward to a wild ride, just like the rest of this game was. Since I played Shin so long ago, I might even replay him.

No outro for this blog. I've got my work cut out for me. ✌️