#IM SOFUCKING PROUD

[artbyace]

my wives were on SNL if u even care

[gayspock]

he's going off on it again 🤪👈

its really fucking embarrassing it really fucking is when the littlest shit sends me off the fucking rails i tried to fucking pull myself together i feel like shit again i want to blow my fucking brains up please please please just fucking get it together get up i try to get up i try to go out its stupid it takes so fucking much go to the gym its the only fucking thing that can nearly fucking level you out just please fuckingdo it just this fucking once you idiot then i fucking get there theres no machines you cant even do it today and its a normal fucking thing just fucking cope with it handle it anybody else could the fucking cogs in my head turning realising im not going to be able to go again until thursday, but no now thats twice a week, its alloff again its all fucking off againa nd my brains shutting the fuck down for no fucking reason other thantrying to rearrangeeverything in my head is making meblow up and need to fucking collapse in on myselfand then the self-eating snake spiral of you are making this worse you cannot cope with anyhting you will never cope with anythingi keep thiniking about how nothing else manages it how this doesnt even manage it notreally im doing this im deluding myfuckingself i fucking hate it actually i fucking hate fucking everything and i think i need to make myself throw up instead something something to Level This Out i certainly need to fucking punch myself in thehead this time wo its even you cant get into that my point is its not just about that i dont know i feel so fucking embarrassed who am i justifying it to its just its not just about that i feellike its so fucking stupid imaginable dogshit ever that makes me crumble it takes so much just to do the most basic fucking shite imaginable and when i try i really fucking try nobody believes me and wheni do manage to fuckingmanage the bare fucking minimum it never even fucking matters and i feel like im just fucking shovelling dogshit into a fucking hole a nd i feel like im going to claw my dfucking skin off theonly thing there is is fucking endless fucking sentiments of cope cope just fucking keep doing it youre not doing it enough you dont fucking TRY enough you dont suffer enough you dont endure enough you dont know anything im a fucking child i dont care its alwyas worse its always worse before it getsbetter. i dont know i think about how its never been anythingbut worse how it gets worse i keep trying my hardest it never means anything it never matters i wish it fucking mattered how its not fucking worth it i wish it fucking wqorked out just once please please please i feel like i just keep trying i spent yearsfcking trying and trying and it never means anything and the endless fucking chorus of "oh it shouldnt matter!" well i dontknowwhat to fucking tell the world im a vapid bitch i m a fucking pussy im a fucking pathetic personi cant fucking cope with it i cant fucking cope with it neverending no fucking people tobe with no fucking end in sight nothing to be good at nothing to be proud of jsut endless fucking noise to fucking keep running at with no . fucking . meaning . and not justin sight but no way of it ever happening other than some fucking

voicelesspeoplewho justwant you to shut up and think youre fucking stupid tellingyou youre not doing it right . something something i cant make it to the end of that and i dont think its fucking worth it how many times do i say andeven when i do and thats it thats the fucking problem its sofucking pathetici just want it tofucking help just this fucking once fr something please please god fuucking make a difference ifeel like everything just makes me fucking miserable everything makes me fucking sad i keeptrying to fucking be normal but i donthave the energy to try and ufcking swallow the fucking horsehsit right now i dont have the energy for anyhting i keep trying to put it in what did isayit doesnt matter it just breaks down im not enough to get from point a to point b i cant fucking manage anything howma i ever meant to fucking pickmyself up i dont fucking think i wever will i think about how i'lldieand i get so so fucking angry thinking about hwo im still going to be a fucking joke if people remember me at all how im the stupid fucking btich who dug their own grave i feel so embarrassed abouit people who dont fucking care but in my fuckinghead i cant get the sentiment out ofdesperately wanting to prove that im not please please just i want to feel like a real fucking respectable fucking person i want to kill you i realise im never going to im so but i cant fucking manage anything i cant fucking find anything that helps it ikeep just shovelling dog shit down my own fucking throat iis anyone going nuts i think im going nuts

[reynasheart]

evwrest made me cry just a little its sofucking good im so proud of him🥹🥹

[hyperfixationtimego]

I haven’t. been posting because I'm in a play rn and we only have two weeks to get everything done so I'm exhausted and sorry for not posting but I really just fucking can’t sometimes

[lifeofswiftie89]

TAJAY WHAS SOFUCKING GOOD IM SO DUCKING PROUD

[byeolbe]

SHANGHAI HOLY SHIT

THEY DID IT THEY BROKE THE 1-3 CURSE!!!! MAP 5 MAP 5 MAP 5 M