#IM SO FUCKING SICK DUDE IM UNWELL!!!!!!!!

[lycan-subscribe]

BY THE WAY. IF YOU EVEN FUCKING CARE

[catholic-character-tournament]

Round 1 - Side A

Galahad art credit @spiralstain

Propaganda below ⬇️

Junk Rat

I wish his Catholicism meant if he got killed in game it would take him 3 days to respawn

Galahad

OKAY SO . "Galahad (played by Jonny d'Ville): a travelling preacher/religious zealot who is told to sit in the Siege Seat by Merlin, and discovers the fact that Fort Galfridian is falling into the star Avalon. He sparks the quest for the GRAIL, and willingly goes to his death to overcome its final defences." DUDE SAT IN THE CHAIR THAT IS KNOWN FOR KILLING PEOPLE BECAUSE HIS CRUSH [MERLIN] [AKA HANGED MAN] [AKA DRUMBOT BRIAN] TOLD HIM TO . SORRY I THINK THATS REALLY FUNNY. he found out the whole shitshow of a spacestation he lived on was gonna fall into the sun and he went around yelling about it incomprehensibly and got fucking gunned down trying to get the GRAIL and just kept going through the gunfire because of how Religious [tm] he was . he died . in once and future king it just "galahad's blind faith" . also hellfire goes really hard . he is the definition of going insane with the knowledge of the universe . also jonny dville played him thats bonus points

There was a prophet. The prophet gave three separate people three separate instructions. 1. Stop being racist 2. Love your son 3. Sit in the Chair That Makes People Insane Galahad received number three. He was the only one who followed the instructions. He sat in the Chair That Makes People Insane, saw the sun for the first time, and immediately starts preaching about how everyone will burn in hellfire

i dont know anything about this guy i just wanna help make Kai happy please dont like not count my submission just because i dont know anythinf except for the Kills You Chair im trying my best im sorry 😭

his themesong is called hellfire and it slaps btw go listen to it. anyways he is my blorbo blingus he is Deeply unwell i could fix him but also whatever is wrong with him is incredibly fascinating to watch. a robot dude who's been hanging from the gallows since forever told him 'hey go sit in the Chair That Kills People Who Sit In It' and he was like 'I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT MY ENTIRE LIFE'. the getting-his-brain-fried thing definitely made him worse but he was also clearly kind of fucked up before that. his death is probably one of my favorite scenes in any mechs album. maybe just straight up my favorite. ahem. SAY WHAT YOU WILL ABOUT FAITH, BUT IT CAN HAVE POWERFUL EFFECTS ON THOSE THAT HAVE IT. IT CAN KEEP YOU FROM FALTERING AS THE BULLETS START TO SLAM INTO YOU. IT CAN KEEP YOU WALKING AS YOU LEGS ARE SHOT TO BLOODY STUMPS. IT CAN KEEP YOU LAUGHING AS YOUR LUNGS ARE FILLED WITH SHRAPNEL AND LEAD. IT CAN KEEP YOU SMILING AS HALF YOUR FACE IS BLOWN AWAY. IT CAN KEEP A MAN LIKE GALAHAD STANDING TALL UNTIL THE GUNS. CLICKED. DRY. anyways go listen to high noon over camelot <3

my friends my people my... flock I HAVE HAD A VISION!! A VAST FIERY ORB FLOATIN IN AN ENDLESS VOID!! and there so small so feagile US!!! BUT FALLIN FALLIN FALLIN INTO THE FLAMES!!! your soul is connected to the world youre in youre draggin it down with the weight of your sin surrounded by temptation and y'just give in we're fallin into the flames OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HEEEEELLLLLLFIIIRE YOUR BROW BECOMES SLICK AS YOU PERSPIRE YOU THINK YOURE THIRSTY NOW WAIT TIL IT GETS DRIER AND YA FEEL THE HEAT OF THE FLAMES OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE YOUR SICK AND SINFUL LIES WILL BUILD A FUNERAL PYRE YOUR PERVERSION SCARS THE STATION SON ITS GONAN FRY HER AND WE ALLLLLL FALL INTO THE FLAMES... oh i have SEEN DAMNATION MY BROTHERS!! ive FELT its searing heat within my VERY BONES !!!!!!! but there is a way me be saved... "OH TELL US FATHER GALAHAD, TELL US" I HEAR YOU CRY "IS IT PIETY IS IT PURITY IS IT VIRTUE?" NO!!! ONLY WAY TO SAVE US NOW IS THE HOLY GRAIL ITSELF... HAHAHAHAHHAAAA.... WELL THAT ORB OF DAMNATION MAKES THE SUN SEEM PALE YOURE QUITE CORRECT TO QUIVER YOU ARE RIGHT TO QUAIL THE ONLY WAY TO SAVE US IS TO FIND THAT GRAIL OR WE ALL FALL INTO THE FLAMES OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE YOUR SKIN STARTS TO SIZZLE AS YOU EXPIRE YOU CLAIM TO BE VIRTUOUS BUT YOURE A LIAR !!!!! AND YOU FEEL THE HEAT OF THE FLAMES ... i said HEEEELLLLFIIIIRE HEEEEEEEELLLLFIRE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLFIIIIIREEE HEEEEEEELLLLLLFIIIIIIRE OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE AT THE HEART OF THAT INFERNO THAT WILL NEVER TIRE IVE SEE THE END IS NIGH AND DAMNATIONS NIGHER OH WE ALL FALL INTO THE FLAMES

Ok i know this is kind of a shot in the dark because hes so obscure but i need to speak my truth. Hes so insane. The narrator calls him a “holy roller.” He has a vision which is meant to tell him that the place they live is LITERALLY going to get burnt to a crisp because its slowly falling into the sun. But hes like Oh my god i just had a vision of hell i need to save everyone from eternal damnation. And he happily gets killed and turned into a pile of slop because he believes its what he was “chosen to do” he quite literally dies for his religion. Hes also quite funny. I like him. Thank you

[jokerlennon]

going to ask you formally for your thoughts on chess…… favorite song favorite character thoughts on the nature of it all et cetera. also at the beginning you said you hated freddie has that changed i am actually curious 💞

i dont Hate him hate him but i do not actively like him nevertheless. hes an intriguing guy absolutely an asshole but hes just as insanely wrapped up in chess as anatoly so really can i fault him. my fav character is florence she is my bestest friend also she is literally from hungary or if she isnt and her father was just conincidentally there in october '56 and i missed that detail im saying she is now idont care. #representation🇭🇺🇭🇺 also freddie saying florence is betraying her father by going after anatoly made me a little insane tbh. like wow okay fuck you dude <3 umm songs. the deal (no deal) + you and i reprise are the ones that made me go aughghghghghghgh,.,.,..,., the most but soviet machine & merano were very fun music wise. ALSO ANTHEM WAS SICK. <- deeply unwell abt ever moving out of his country . umm what else the nature of it all is that one post thats like love was there. it didnt change anything but it was there. & the nature of it is also that there is literally no winnign but u still have to try. also have i talked abt how both freddie and anatoly esp anatoly tbh are so so insane abt chess and so deeply wrapped up in it. & anatoly winning the match but going home anyway was so. and his relationship 2 russia is also so.. like he left but he still loved it and i get exactly why he did what he did but its so muchhh. there is no other choice that would have given him more amount of things he wanted but he literally might have not done anything good for the love of his life at all. okay this is getting really really long but oh my godddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! btw did u like all my liveblogs :3

[37q]

eating disorder tw but its not the main focus rly i dont think hm wait ok maybe.. mostly gender talk actually

anyways personalizing "it's incredible what women will come up with if left to their own devices" for a sec: ive had trouble articulating this recent phenomenon in my life but lately ive been working on the values i hold "capability" to and the ways that i allow those values to make decisions for me instead of just living life with whimsy.

still caught up in optics as ive always been maybe as a disease of childhood transness but far better than i used to be and yet! im always weighing how material, physical empowerment will be gendered! i saw a quote a while back from like this one transfems lil memoirs and a conversation she had w a friend abt their eating disorder i think? and the friend was like yeah i mean transition and life as a woman has been excruciating enough already but whats another pain if itll help me pass? or whatever. im so scared of gaining any mass anywhere above my waist!!! i wanna throw up thinking about it!!!! oh my god ive never said that before i feel so sick!!!!!

anyways i struggle w NOT presenting weakness or frailty when im fearful of a gendering Eye of Patriarchy or fuckin. male panopticon inside my head but thats the thing! 🥰 ive been divorcing from that panoptic on my head lately! its still there lowkey but my drive to make my life better has been overcoming that adolescent "avoid male interests at all costs" fear :)

so now im like fascinated by like engineering again im thinking of ways to produce more effective hand rests on the bottom of my steering wheel (maybe i wont even have to remove the plastic on the wheel if im good enough at making sockets? for the rests if i make them attachable via clip :3c) and ive been making moves to get into woodworking and throwing together rudimentary furniture which is just so different than what id previously felt abt it. ive been fixing things so often lately like OBSESSED with getting tools for problems i understand 40 year old dads now. that thought is what kills me n saves me tho interestingly enough

what had previously been like a grand gendering process of establishing my princess status (its still there tho) had actually just been reinforcing the unhealthy habits i used to get there in the sense of physical and emotional weakness -- going largely untreated for like 3 or 4 disorders which either obliterate my prefrontal cortex, the integrity and efficacy of my synaptic response in neurotransmission, or my reception of the macro resources necessary to maintain basic body function to name a few... but like theres something to be said for how explicitly gendered it is to be starved-stupid crazy weak and feminine as fuck. not assigning values to those terms (anymore) i was just like leaning into being insanely unwell and calling it a gender role. which tbf is like the predominant myth ALSHSLFHDKD...

... but also im working on stepping away from internalizing a relationship w the myth of gender and using that reaction as my behavioral starting point! (affirmation and argument time) im not a man, i wont even trip and fall into manhood no matter what endeavors i pursue! no matter how much goes on in others ppls heads! there is no way to look at or engage with the world in an explicitly man way because life doesnt actually function on categorical dualities, not to mention bimodal distributions! and thats lesbianism (and therapy) at work! like no presumption of a male occupation of an Entire Sector Of Life And Economy and working on that latent projection of gendered insecurities (and thus production of gendered karma in my materialization of such a projection via action or inaction) onto a life thats literally Just Life Dude. i literally make it. the future doesnt exist yet and the only value it has it the karma we bring to it and take from it!

huge mood change ugh solemn now im forgetting the śūnyatā of the self, the śūnyatā of its form, the śūnyatā of the conception of form itself... of course its only determined internally via extant thought forms and reproduced via tangible, material projection... thats literally the whole racket! of course im suffering with it!!!!!!!!

sooooo yeah im working on recognizing impermanence and encouraging WWP (wonder whim play) just as long as i dont root it in a sense of stability or security! currently that security comes from my sense of any (patriarchal obvi) gendering processes at work in any social situation at hand so i could work on 1. shallowly, my proximity to men or 2. conventionally, my personal processes of projection and reaction to a psychological proximity to men or 3. ultimately, my necessity to ground my "sense of self" in an illusory, impermanent, and universally imprisoning process extant to saṃsāra such as the social mechanisms of gender. i dont even have to fight to have a name for what my wife n i got goin on not because its too complex or too hard but literally i dont care. my words are as empty as yours

[fairycosmos]

dude im SO MAD at my parents, my mom is the most self centered person and while during quarantine she stayed home from work she now decided that she didn't want to give up on going on holiday in france (we're in italy - and btw in france the virus sitch is pretty bad) and they've been there for a Whole Week now and tonight she called me saying that she felt sick I SWEAR I CANT im so scared and so fucking mad bc i told them the risk is not worth the trip but she just has to have what she wants

BRO .... the way my blood pressure just kept rising while reading this omg i literally feel my pulse in my forehead i CANT 😤😤 i have no idea how anyone can look at how bad things were/are here like even just around europe especially italy and STILL decide to travel. it really is pure privilege and selfishness and people being stuck in their own bubble - my grandparents are the same. they travelled before the uk lock down and got stuck in lockdown in the canary islands because they're fuckin degenerates and i spent weeks pissed at them, still am, can't even verbalise the disgust 😐 im so sorry you have to put up with your mum. i absolutely understand your frustration and it is COMPLETELY justified, no matter how much they act like you're being neurotic. you're really just displaying common sense and thinking of others, as should be common practice, but apparently it's not. i think your mum will have to quarantine where she is if she's displaying corona symptoms and if not i really hope you can stay away from her as much as possible to protect your own health and wellbeing until she's confirmed to be alright. but at the same time try to remember that there's a million reasons she could be feeling unwell ESPECIALLY while traveling, and flu like symptoms are very vague. obviously it's natural for your mind to jump to corona but try to take it one day at a time love, check in with her when you can and trust that she will receive the medical assistance she needs if the situation does escalate, which as of rn is not guaranteed. obviously words don't do much to calm this type of intense anger and anxiety so i just want you to know you're not alone at all and it won't be this intensely stressful forever. im clinging onto that sentiment too !! if you need a friend or someone to vent to feel free to hmu any time 💖 i hope everything is okay, all my love.

[phoenixfire-thewizardgoddess]

so everyone came home after their weekend away and it started

the first thing sibling said to me was they demanded i help them with the stuff or they’d throw me out (of the house) something they had no authority to do, but they think being a tallish man makes physical force their right and have caused damage in the past

i was like Fuck Off?? bc i was desperately tired, everything aching, got-winded-bringing-washing-in-which-means-im-clearly-not-chill-physiologically considering everyone was really unwell all week, and i’d been trying to help/dodging contamination like neo vs bullets in the matrix... they were slamming on the screen door, and would you want to let that in? no, so i was waiting for them to calm down, but they have the unconditional support of the parental unit, and i’m being told open the door... ah yes, shall i get a ouijia board to allow additional demons in as well, or is sibling enough for now?

oh, then it started, everytime i turned around the sibling was spewing something cold, hateful, mocking. Poking and prodding, pointing out the world didn’t need me, throwing insults like this was competitive and he was an angry 13yo being dominated mid-match (this is a grown man, btw), talking about how whales (my fat ass, though that motherfucker can’t throw stones in this particular glass house) should be killed, etc. you get the idea, it’s been this way for as long as i can remember.

I was like, “I’m not helping you put shit away” and tried to go to sleep on my temp bed on the couch... which i only use bc that way the puppy can come get me if they need me in the night. 

The sibling hovers over me, as i’m trying to get warm again, it’s not that cold but i sure as hell am. turns the light on bc it’s blinding, the couch isn’t great, bed-wise but it’ll do... 

their main complaint is that (gasp) i ate the packet of chips I bought, over the weekend... (and they clearly wanted it) i literally bought them a shittonne of food and treats to go away with? and they always want more?

“just be nice, they’re sick” was why i put up with their shit before they went away... but they were not as much of an ass as they were when they came back (even though they were better).

“you never help” who the fuck else stocked the fridge full of iceblocks & jelly & yoghurt & butter menthols for your red raw throats, and drove in like a dozen times to buy all the little things you fuckers needed even though it ate up all my petrol, and cooked ill-friendly meals and cleaned, and maintained. who bought ridiculous amounts of tissues? but sure, i’m the worst

maybe i shouldn’t have told them to fuck off and suck a dick, but i’m tired of not even getting a hello anymore “do this/do that” demands the first thing i get, of course i’m ‘a fucking bitch about it’ what do you expect. where’s the reciprocity when i’m not at 100% capacity... 

they stand there and insult, and i just ignore them, they eventually go to help

they came back, but this time the parental unit was there to hear this fucking landslide of attacks, see the fucker just about stabbing me in the spine with their poking finger as they ‘made a point’...  little shit even started piling clean laundry on my trying-to-sleep ass, like are you fucking kidding me... 

well, eventually, they both went out to eat bc i hadn’t made dinner or anything, it was just too big a damn task to come at the way i felt... i remember they came back, but mostly i just went to sleep

woke up just now at 3:30am, wide awake... feeling great, discovered certain things (books, some of the MH dolls I have a collection of) have been tossed about... 

not a big surprise. when my sibling was little, through to a few years ago, if they got mad... they’d walk into my room and trash it, something important to me would always be broken. god help me the one time i did it back... never mess with the favourite...

fucker is every one of those twenty something entitled white dudes you hear about, and while i’ve spent years pulling the fucker up and even throwing down bc i will not him think it’s okay to use force against women without consequences... it clearly hasn’t gotten through the thick haze of ‘everything is handed to them without ever having to try’... i’m tired, on a level that transcends 

...probs gonna play overwatch now, mostly annoyed that i have dared to be excited the fam was coming home... 

[hauntedeyes]

.. again a rant

[catholic-character-tournament]

Round 2 - Side A

Propaganda below ⬇️

Sister Michael

She drives a DeLorean. She does judo on Fridays. She likes a good statue and despises the French. Her full nun name is Sister George Michael, after the guy from Wham!. She is the fiercest nun you’ll ever come across and, if you’re attending Lady Immaculate College, she’s the woman in charge. So whatever you do, if you’re feeling anxious or worried or just need a chat: don’t come crying to her.

joined the nunnery for the free accommodation?

she does love a good statue it has to be said

She is the headmistress of a catholic school <3

Galahad

OKAY SO . “Galahad (played by Jonny d'Ville): a travelling preacher/religious zealot who is told to sit in the Siege Seat by Merlin, and discovers the fact that Fort Galfridian is falling into the star Avalon. He sparks the quest for the GRAIL, and willingly goes to his death to overcome its final defences.” DUDE SAT IN THE CHAIR THAT IS KNOWN FOR KILLING PEOPLE BECAUSE HIS CRUSH [MERLIN] [AKA HANGED MAN] [AKA DRUMBOT BRIAN] TOLD HIM TO . SORRY I THINK THATS REALLY FUNNY. he found out the whole shitshow of a spacestation he lived on was gonna fall into the sun and he went around yelling about it incomprehensibly and got fucking gunned down trying to get the GRAIL and just kept going through the gunfire because of how Religious [tm] he was . he died . in once and future king it just “galahad’s blind faith” . also hellfire goes really hard . he is the definition of going insane with the knowledge of the universe . also jonny dville played him thats bonus points

There was a prophet. The prophet gave three separate people three separate instructions. 1. Stop being racist 2. Love your son 3. Sit in the Chair That Makes People Insane Galahad received number three. He was the only one who followed the instructions. He sat in the Chair That Makes People Insane, saw the sun for the first time, and immediately starts preaching about how everyone will burn in hellfire

i dont know anything about this guy i just wanna help make Kai happy please dont like not count my submission just because i dont know anythinf except for the Kills You Chair im trying my best im sorry 😭

his themesong is called hellfire and it slaps btw go listen to it. anyways he is my blorbo blingus he is Deeply unwell i could fix him but also whatever is wrong with him is incredibly fascinating to watch. a robot dude who’s been hanging from the gallows since forever told him ‘hey go sit in the Chair That Kills People Who Sit In It’ and he was like 'I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT MY ENTIRE LIFE’. the getting-his-brain-fried thing definitely made him worse but he was also clearly kind of fucked up before that. his death is probably one of my favorite scenes in any mechs album. maybe just straight up my favorite. ahem. SAY WHAT YOU WILL ABOUT FAITH, BUT IT CAN HAVE POWERFUL EFFECTS ON THOSE THAT HAVE IT. IT CAN KEEP YOU FROM FALTERING AS THE BULLETS START TO SLAM INTO YOU. IT CAN KEEP YOU WALKING AS YOU LEGS ARE SHOT TO BLOODY STUMPS. IT CAN KEEP YOU LAUGHING AS YOUR LUNGS ARE FILLED WITH SHRAPNEL AND LEAD. IT CAN KEEP YOU SMILING AS HALF YOUR FACE IS BLOWN AWAY. IT CAN KEEP A MAN LIKE GALAHAD STANDING TALL UNTIL THE GUNS. CLICKED. DRY. anyways go listen to high noon over camelot <3

my friends my people my… flock I HAVE HAD A VISION!! A VAST FIERY ORB FLOATIN IN AN ENDLESS VOID!! and there so small so feagile US!!! BUT FALLIN FALLIN FALLIN INTO THE FLAMES!!! your soul is connected to the world youre in youre draggin it down with the weight of your sin surrounded by temptation and y'just give in we’re fallin into the flames OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HEEEEELLLLLLFIIIRE YOUR BROW BECOMES SLICK AS YOU PERSPIRE YOU THINK YOURE THIRSTY NOW WAIT TIL IT GETS DRIER AND YA FEEL THE HEAT OF THE FLAMES OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE YOUR SICK AND SINFUL LIES WILL BUILD A FUNERAL PYRE YOUR PERVERSION SCARS THE STATION SON ITS GONAN FRY HER AND WE ALLLLLL FALL INTO THE FLAMES… oh i have SEEN DAMNATION MY BROTHERS!! ive FELT its searing heat within my VERY BONES !!!!!!! but there is a way me be saved… “OH TELL US FATHER GALAHAD, TELL US” I HEAR YOU CRY “IS IT PIETY IS IT PURITY IS IT VIRTUE?” NO!!! ONLY WAY TO SAVE US NOW IS THE HOLY GRAIL ITSELF… HAHAHAHAHHAAAA…. WELL THAT ORB OF DAMNATION MAKES THE SUN SEEM PALE YOURE QUITE CORRECT TO QUIVER YOU ARE RIGHT TO QUAIL THE ONLY WAY TO SAVE US IS TO FIND THAT GRAIL OR WE ALL FALL INTO THE FLAMES OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE YOUR SKIN STARTS TO SIZZLE AS YOU EXPIRE YOU CLAIM TO BE VIRTUOUS BUT YOURE A LIAR !!!!! AND YOU FEEL THE HEAT OF THE FLAMES … i said HEEEELLLLFIIIIRE HEEEEEEEELLLLFIRE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLFIIIIIREEE HEEEEEEELLLLLLFIIIIIIRE OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE AT THE HEART OF THAT INFERNO THAT WILL NEVER TIRE IVE SEE THE END IS NIGH AND DAMNATIONS NIGHER OH WE ALL FALL INTO THE FLAMES

Ok i know this is kind of a shot in the dark because hes so obscure but i need to speak my truth. Hes so insane. The narrator calls him a “holy roller.” He has a vision which is meant to tell him that the place they live is LITERALLY going to get burnt to a crisp because its slowly falling into the sun. But hes like Oh my god i just had a vision of hell i need to save everyone from eternal damnation. And he happily gets killed and turned into a pile of slop because he believes its what he was “chosen to do” he quite literally dies for his religion. Hes also quite funny. I like him. Thank you

[mininecro]

I don't really like killing stalking but there's no need to be condescending towards people who do. I think if they can enjoy the comic for other aspects than the porn it's fine to read it, it's just a comic. like it made me really uncomfortable but just because someone else enjoys is that doesn't give me or you the right to call them sick

i never called people sick, i never treated people like they were garbage humans for liking KS, it’s just that the media itself is inherently flawed and open and gleeful engagement with it helps cultural dismissal of Real-Ass Issues gain traction. i (and basically everyone else) have frequently called the deep pleasure people extract from KS disgusting, but that like, doesn’t really reflect on you? its just being ignorant...i’ve done plenty of disgusting shit because i hadnt thought empathetically enough about the big picture.....

and honestly why should i be all nice and kind for what basically boils down to “you had an OPINION? well FUCK YOU”. there were plenty of ways to communicate how much i hurt their worthless feelings and anon hate wasn’t fucking one of them

anyway actual breakdown of why no one likes KS under cut since this is a mere Ignorant ask that i was expecting at the start of this hot mess

the biiiig issue is that it takes popular controlled, socially contradicted Dark Interests (murder, violence, kidnapping, torture, psychological manipulation) that we take pleasure in with general fascination and curiousity, and pair it with uncontrolled, socially ignored Dark Interests, which is any level of victimization

e.g. you see a protagonist torture/kill a villain, you’re okay with it. jack bauer can be a war criminal and deadpool can kill just, everybody

but if they raped or abused someone, it is NOT okay. not because we’re clutching pearls, but because these aren’t controlled and socially contradicted. the way we interact with this type of violence is completely different. 

and when you see people outraged over depictions of it, it almost always isn’t because it was written at all, it’s because it was written as if it were in that controlled socially contradicted subgroup (which KS is). and because they think these two genres of violence are at all comparable, the reader can instantly know how engaged in rape culture the writer is. a villain can’t just do horrible shit to the hero if it’s victimization, that’s misunderstanding the very structure of how society views these 2 types of torture! one is helpless violence, one is a direct attack on a physical, emotional, AND psychological level that actively detracts from their base personality in some fashion. one is straightforward, one can’t be well-written without exploring from the victim’s point of view and with constant upkeep

it’s basically the difference between ignoring a redshirt character’s death and ignoring the death of, like, the dueteragonist. they aren’t comparable.

so, the anon way back called me a “hypocrite” for being fixated on writing rape subplots in my stories, but the reason no one’s called me problematic yet is because i understand this structural difference. the extreme levels of violence are never paired with the victimization; the main character is traumatized by both events, but the former is “how do i deal with this anxiety stabbing a dude in the head 50 times gave me” while the latter is “how is this trauma affecting me, how has it impacted my life until this point, how deeply will it affect me in the future, what’s my relationship with it” etc etc etc, because the focus of victimization has to be on the victim in order for it to parse sensibly. the deeper you go into the impact, the more compelling it is, and the more of the full impact you communicate, and the better the writing ends up. im not saying i wrote it WELL, i just did it serviceably and with good sense, so no one has a problem with it! 

and victimization can’t be Tragedy Porn either; writing about how the victimization dominated their mind and broke them as a person is still not going to write well, because it turns off the character’s status as human just to really drill in how horrible this situation is. again, taking focus away from the character breaks the writing at the base. suffering is an emotion, and going “he was sad. he was unhappy. he was crying. he was emotionally unwell.” would be bad writing in any other context. nothing about being abused should be magically fixing how bad that writing is

which brings meeeeee to the example i listed in my reply a month ago that the anon hated so much; the last house on the left. there’s an explicit rape scene that only exists to exhibit how brutal and irredeemable the villains are, and the main character completely ceases to be a character at all after it. like, she might as well be a housecat for all of her personality we see. it’s aaaaall about the torture porn, it’s aaaaall about the thrills, and she’s reduced to her parent’s rightous anger. it fails! if it were about the main girl fighting back and trying to collect herself after a traumatizing experience, that rape scene would still be too long, but it wouldn’t be such a cheaply-written fat sack of garbage

this problem is just especially obvious and thus contentious in KS because the writing in KS is, i’m sorry to say, even shittier and cheaper

[catholic-character-tournament]

Round 2 - Resurrect Bracket (Losers Bracket) Side B

ashes to ashes, dust to dust; in sure and certain hope of the Resurrection to [make it to the finals]

Propaganda below ⬇️

Galahad

OKAY SO . “Galahad (played by Jonny d'Ville): a travelling preacher/religious zealot who is told to sit in the Siege Seat by Merlin, and discovers the fact that Fort Galfridian is falling into the star Avalon. He sparks the quest for the GRAIL, and willingly goes to his death to overcome its final defences.” DUDE SAT IN THE CHAIR THAT IS KNOWN FOR KILLING PEOPLE BECAUSE HIS CRUSH [MERLIN] [AKA HANGED MAN] [AKA DRUMBOT BRIAN] TOLD HIM TO . SORRY I THINK THATS REALLY FUNNY. he found out the whole shitshow of a spacestation he lived on was gonna fall into the sun and he went around yelling about it incomprehensibly and got fucking gunned down trying to get the GRAIL and just kept going through the gunfire because of how Religious [tm] he was . he died . in once and future king it just “galahad’s blind faith” . also hellfire goes really hard . he is the definition of going insane with the knowledge of the universe . also jonny dville played him thats bonus points

There was a prophet. The prophet gave three separate people three separate instructions. 1. Stop being racist 2. Love your son 3. Sit in the Chair That Makes People Insane Galahad received number three. He was the only one who followed the instructions. He sat in the Chair That Makes People Insane, saw the sun for the first time, and immediately starts preaching about how everyone will burn in hellfire

i dont know anything about this guy i just wanna help make Kai happy please dont like not count my submission just because i dont know anythinf except for the Kills You Chair im trying my best im sorry 😭

his themesong is called hellfire and it slaps btw go listen to it. anyways he is my blorbo blingus he is Deeply unwell i could fix him but also whatever is wrong with him is incredibly fascinating to watch. a robot dude who’s been hanging from the gallows since forever told him ‘hey go sit in the Chair That Kills People Who Sit In It’ and he was like 'I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT MY ENTIRE LIFE’. the getting-his-brain-fried thing definitely made him worse but he was also clearly kind of fucked up before that. his death is probably one of my favorite scenes in any mechs album. maybe just straight up my favorite. ahem. SAY WHAT YOU WILL ABOUT FAITH, BUT IT CAN HAVE POWERFUL EFFECTS ON THOSE THAT HAVE IT. IT CAN KEEP YOU FROM FALTERING AS THE BULLETS START TO SLAM INTO YOU. IT CAN KEEP YOU WALKING AS YOU LEGS ARE SHOT TO BLOODY STUMPS. IT CAN KEEP YOU LAUGHING AS YOUR LUNGS ARE FILLED WITH SHRAPNEL AND LEAD. IT CAN KEEP YOU SMILING AS HALF YOUR FACE IS BLOWN AWAY. IT CAN KEEP A MAN LIKE GALAHAD STANDING TALL UNTIL THE GUNS. CLICKED. DRY. anyways go listen to high noon over camelot <3

my friends my people my… flock I HAVE HAD A VISION!! A VAST FIERY ORB FLOATIN IN AN ENDLESS VOID!! and there so small so feagile US!!! BUT FALLIN FALLIN FALLIN INTO THE FLAMES!!! your soul is connected to the world youre in youre draggin it down with the weight of your sin surrounded by temptation and y'just give in we’re fallin into the flames OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HEEEEELLLLLLFIIIRE YOUR BROW BECOMES SLICK AS YOU PERSPIRE YOU THINK YOURE THIRSTY NOW WAIT TIL IT GETS DRIER AND YA FEEL THE HEAT OF THE FLAMES OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE YOUR SICK AND SINFUL LIES WILL BUILD A FUNERAL PYRE YOUR PERVERSION SCARS THE STATION SON ITS GONAN FRY HER AND WE ALLLLLL FALL INTO THE FLAMES… oh i have SEEN DAMNATION MY BROTHERS!! ive FELT its searing heat within my VERY BONES !!!!!!! but there is a way me be saved… “OH TELL US FATHER GALAHAD, TELL US” I HEAR YOU CRY “IS IT PIETY IS IT PURITY IS IT VIRTUE?” NO!!! ONLY WAY TO SAVE US NOW IS THE HOLY GRAIL ITSELF… HAHAHAHAHHAAAA…. WELL THAT ORB OF DAMNATION MAKES THE SUN SEEM PALE YOURE QUITE CORRECT TO QUIVER YOU ARE RIGHT TO QUAIL THE ONLY WAY TO SAVE US IS TO FIND THAT GRAIL OR WE ALL FALL INTO THE FLAMES OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE YOUR SKIN STARTS TO SIZZLE AS YOU EXPIRE YOU CLAIM TO BE VIRTUOUS BUT YOURE A LIAR !!!!! AND YOU FEEL THE HEAT OF THE FLAMES … i said HEEEELLLLFIIIIRE HEEEEEEEELLLLFIRE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLFIIIIIREEE HEEEEEEELLLLLLFIIIIIIRE OF THAT FIRE THAT FIRE THAT HELLFIRE AT THE HEART OF THAT INFERNO THAT WILL NEVER TIRE IVE SEE THE END IS NIGH AND DAMNATIONS NIGHER OH WE ALL FALL INTO THE FLAMES

Ok i know this is kind of a shot in the dark because hes so obscure but i need to speak my truth. Hes so insane. The narrator calls him a “holy roller.” He has a vision which is meant to tell him that the place they live is LITERALLY going to get burnt to a crisp because its slowly falling into the sun. But hes like Oh my god i just had a vision of hell i need to save everyone from eternal damnation. And he happily gets killed and turned into a pile of slop because he believes its what he was “chosen to do” he quite literally dies for his religion. Hes also quite funny. I like him. Thank you

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"When did Catholics become so judgmental?" hahahah

Gloria stealing the twins to get the secretly baptized is so funny to me. My auntie stole me as a baby to get my ears pierced. Just latino things