#IM DATING MY FP WHOS NOW MY BF

[mickfuckingmundy]

remembered i exist

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anyway, enjoy this art dump! none of these except the first one are new... oh also me and my fp are dating now!! i love you scout :3

[angelcakecals]

ok im gonna vent about this now bc it won't leave my brain otherwise

we chased each other for 3 long long years. started dating and it was AMAZING. she was everything I wanted and more at the time, the amount of love ill forever have for that girl is insane even friend wise now. being together for a year, things started going downhill very quickly and suddenly. I was struggling so much with my ed at the time probably the worst its ever been. I did NOTHING but think about losing weight and food etc. I was angry all the time, felt tired and weak from under eating for months. we both have bpd so distancing urself doesn't really help. she panicked and started arguing with me everyday over everything and so did I. we were fucking AWFUL to each other. a lot of people who know what happened say it wasn't my fault, but we both had a part in the horrible months of manipulation and mental abuse that took place. we were both hurting about the thought of losing each other. we would be ok for a few days, then itd all start again. during this time, I spent most of it staying up at night just sobbing like a little bitch bc I loved this girl so so much but I didn't know how to fix what we both broke. I had undiagnosed bpd at the time, so all of this happening with my fp literally broke me. my brain split on her and I was just tired of her shit one day and I called it off. I tried to fix it man, so many times we both did, we were meant to take a break for a while so we can work on ourselves we talked about it etc but we were both so so unwell. the break up was horrible, she said things about not caring about me or whatever just constant arguing. I told her to fuck off and go to therapy or something and blocked her. After the breakup losing nkt only my gf but my fp was one of the worst things i could experience that I cant even put into words.

months passed, many months and one say I was looking over the playlist she made me being all nostalgic and said fuck it and messaged her best friend to ask how my ex is going. one thing led to another and I ended up msging her. we met up a while after and just spoke about everything that happened, we stayed in a hotel together just drinking and talking about the past and it was great. we both said things that had to be said and apologised and those few days were honestly one of the best I've had I was so happy. we said that we both missed each other during the months we didn't speak and constantly checked on each other on socials and tried to give hints to encourage one of us to reach out. we ended on bad terms so yk. since then we've been friends, not even friends we're family. now. 2 months ago, she stopped answering my texts which made me very very worried about her cus its not something she does. found out its cus of her new bf who's a cheating and lying asshole. she said that everytime she spoke to me something went wrong in her life?? she basically just blamed me thst she can't keep a relationship stable and said she's cutting me off. I mean I want whatsbbest for her she can cut me off if she wants but the way she went about it was horrible. the things she said to me. its funny to me as she did tell me even tho she's dated ppl in the meantime we weren't together she still thought about me.

im not blaming my ed for our arguing back then, but it played a massive part. my ed was more important to me than anything at the time and it ruined the best thing I've ever had.

its my ex's birthday today and also marks 2 years since we broke up. today will be depressing.

[bpdconcept]

all the lovely asks !!! or if that's too many, any five? ^u^

🌹- Are you/ do you want to be in love?

yes, i am in love! i mostly talk about my gf as she’s my main fp and also my depended, but i am dating other people too! i love them all!

🌸- Do you have a crush?

i have a fleeting crush on this one person right now who im not dating…help…i love too much

🐝- Tag three friends and your three favorite things about them!

@bifox - my wonderful bf whomst i love - i love how i can talk about The Discourse with u, also i love ur bad jokes and our inside jokes, but my favorite thing about u is that u kinkshame me 24/7

@lesbianmonarch - a very good gay friend - i love how passionate u r about woy and lt, we started talking bc i laughed at her bpd blog url which i saw through this blog so i messaged her and followed her, AND UR ART IS GORGEOUS

@transloser - a fucking loser who is trans - we’ve been friends since like i was 14 wow, we’ve both come a long way and ily, i love ur art and ur sense of humor is the best like u literally made me pee my pants more than once, pls follow him he loves attention

💐- Are you/do you want to get married?

yes! i used to actually be very, very afraid of marriage bc every marriage around me ever has failed…but i’ve gotten over that fear! and i! really really want to marry my gf so bad we talk about it a lot i cannot wait aa!!

🌺- Do you have a best friend?

i do have a best friend! usually i’d say it’s my gf but to just mention more people Whomst I Love With All My Heart i will say that my best friend is someone in my system. and really, he is my best friend. he helps me through so much.

🦄- List your three favorite things about yourself!

oh gosh uh…..my passion!!! and also my loyalty!!! and my perseverance!!  

��- Have you ever had your heart broken?

ah, yeah….i have :c twice ive had old fps leave me, but one actually came back and is still in my life right now and it’s really good!!! no bad feelings or anything.

🌻- What is the longest relationship you’ve been in? 

my first fp i ever had……man our relationship lasted for around 2 years? but it was off and on, so i dont think we even made it longer than a year w/o breaking up. but rn im 1 month away from my 1 year anniversary with my gf……bless her soul

🦋- Tag three people you want to get to know better and state why! (i only did one because im not sure if the other two ppl would be ok with me giving out their blog)

@kaleochu - we just started talking not even a month ago and ur so relatable and i feel like i can just talk to u forever

🌼- What are you attracted to in people personality-wise?

i love people who are emotionally open and spontaneous! soft personalities are so good…..so precious im love u? good sense of humor, loyal. basically i’m attracted to people who are just like me.

🌷- What are you attracted to in people physical appearance-wise?

girls can look like anything and i will love them. with men im very particular. i say “wow, masculine men are really attractive!” and then i see one irl and run away. feminine/androgynous men are…..very good….keep up the good work boys…and nb people are always good and wonderful

[rottenbutrecovering]

dear donnie: valentines day is coming and im very anxious. since i started dating something bad always happens in that date (in 2015 i discovered that my ex bf/fp went back with his ex gf without telling me anything and last year my ex bf/fp was ignoring me and i even made some gifts for him).. now i have a crush in someone and everything was going well but lately they started acting like the guys who rejected me in the past ("haha ur so nice xDXD" stuff like that) i feel like dying :c

Try asking specifically what his plans are on valentines so, if maybe he’s bust, you’re ready. Maybe even ask to make plans with him, so you’re sure! Your crush isn’t your ex fp(s) so has no reason to do the same things