#IDK IF MORE THAN LIKE 3 PEOPLE WILL REMEMBER ME BUT IF U DO HELLOOOOO

[emptinas]

𝔼𝕄ℙ𝕋𝕀ℕ𝔸𝕊 ...

an independent and selective canon non - conforming 𝕍𝔸ℕ𝕀𝕋𝔸𝕊 from square enix / disney's 𝕂𝕀ℕ𝔾𝔻𝕆𝕄 ℍ𝔼𝔸ℝ𝕋𝕊 . following a personal twist on khiii, an attempted redemption arc with lots of self - sabotage, inner turmoil, and spite. original est feb 06 2019 - rebooted dec 25 2024. please like and / or reblog if you're interested in interacting. forged by pluto ( he / she, 26 )

[sugarlove12]

Hellooooo it’s meeeeee, to no one’s surprise I still haven’t recovered from given and I don’t think I ever will u can ask @queenoftheknight that literally my heart hasn’t moved on.

So like I said in previous posts I wanted to talk about it so muchhh but the words never came since I consider myself to be someone that expresses better in person than text, but I’ll try so prepare cause this shit is gonna be long.

1. THE FUCKING OPENING OMG

I’m a very critical person when it comes to openings and for some kind of reason I was like ok let’s listen to it and haha when I was reading the lyrics my heart went 💔 cause everything is so accurate to the storyline, everything fits perfectly. If u haven’t heard the complete song pls do so, it holds so much feelings. I’m gonna share with u guys some of my favorites quotes

All the things u left behind, became my everything-> WITH THIS ONE I DIED OK I WAS LIKE OH OK BAI.

Rainy, sunny, cloudy, spring, summer, fall and winter, 365 days, u remain in all of them-> THIS ONE ASDGFHJ IS THE PART WHERE YŪKI’S GHOST HUGS MAFUYU AND THEN HE HUGS TIGHTER THE GUITAR, look I can’t emphasized how much that scene hurts me.

Even if I meet u in my dreams, it’s meaningless cause u are not here-> bruh I imagine Mafuyu saying this and X_X (this is from the extended ver).

I still hear it, it's still so real, ur heartbeat, it becomes a part of me, u become me, I become u-> I think I don’t need to say any words.

2. UGETSU’S AND AKIHIKO’S RELATIONSHIP

THIS PART MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS TO THOSE WHO HAVENT READ THE MANGA

I’m a die hard fan of Haruki and Akihiko, but when I saw that scene where Ugetsu turns back to scream at Akihiko to not go and stay with him, while crying, THAT HURT SO MUCH OMG. Idk why but I could feel his pain like, he was so used to them fighting, breaking up and then getting back together, but this time was for real, that was a definite goodbye. Don’t get me wrong they were toxic as hell and even physical violence was involved cause he punched Akihiko more than once (I think, if my memory is working), but yeah I feel bad for Uge :(

3. Yūki omg this guy

I don’t know where to begin with this guy, I don’t want Natsuki sensei to draw much about him cause he’s my ship wrecker ok. Like I’m a sucker for the bad boy style and everything and he was so caring towards Mafuyu BUT YEAH THE POINT IS I DONT WANNA SEE HIM CAUSE I DONT WANNA LOVE HIM MORE AND FEEL KIND OF GUILTY FOR SHIPPING RITSUKA AND MAFUYU.

But there’s something that tickles me, like imagine a 15 year old killing himself just cause he had a huge fight with his bf, and this is a very sensitive topic but I remember when Hiiragi was talking about him, he said Yūki was a moody person so I thought what if he suffered from depression or he wasn’t emotionally stable like that would destroy the whole fandom. So yeah Yūki bby reast in peace we love u❤️

I don’t wanna offend anyone, this comes from someone who struggles with depression, so yeah kisses💕

4. Ep 9

Do I really need to explain how much damage it made to my heart, for starters I’m not emotionally stable and this episode broke the shit out of me.

All I wanna say is that I lost it when Mafuyu starts to talk to Yuki (u know what I mean) and starts reminiscing the past and ASDFGHJKL , the part when he screams AHHHH woahhhh My emotions left my body, if this platform were more safe I would show u guys pics of me that day AND THE VN I SENT MY FRIENDS OH GOD IT WAS ME SOBBING.

5. Mafuyu’s and Ritsuka’s relationship

I loveeeeee them soooo muchhhh, but there are maaaany things I wanna say and I want to see if I’m the only one who thinks like this.

There are a lot of people who say that Ritsuka is a replacement for Yūki but I don’t see that, on the contrary I think Ritsuka is the one who’s helping Mafuyu to heal, to be able to express himself, to allow himself feel whatever he wants to feel.

Now I’m not gonna lie if deep down I thought so in very specific moments. For example on the infamous ep 9 when Mafuyu is talking to Yūki while he’s singing, he says: I see u everywhere and the scene is Ritsuka turning his back and then Mafuyu sees Yūki, and at that moment I was TRIGGERED also in a manga ch Mafuyu sleeps over at Ritsuka’s and feels like crying cause Ritsuka had the same clock as Yūki, LIKE WHAT ARE THE ODDS, but yeah I don’t think he’s a replacement ok, those were just moments of doubt :)

Well I would’ve loved if the author had put more time between Yūki’s death and the beginning of the story cause idk the exact time but it was less than a year, and within months I think is SO HARD to get over ur ex who just committed suicide because of something U SAID, which also happens to be ur first love, childhood friend, someone who stood by u in so many aspects of ur life (his dad getting arrested) AND OH LET’S NOT FORGET THAT U REALIZED THAT WHAT U SAID WAS WRONG SO U CAME TO APOLOGIZE BUT OHOH TOO LATE BRO, so yeah to be able fall in love in couple of months and get over all that trauma seems a little unrealistic but I won’t fight it cause I love them lots.

Ritsuka is literally the only person that can be with Mafuyu specially in this time and circumstances, cause like I said, simultaneously as Mafuyu is developing a relationship with him,he’s also trying to 1. Move forward and get over Yūki 2. Forgive himself and Yūki, which if u ask me doing those 2 things while being in a relationship, the other person has to be very patient and we can see that with Ritsuka so that’s why I think that he’s gonna be Mafuyu’s second and last love ❤️.

Special mention to the quote on the title: can’t say goodbye, I’m still drifting with your echoes.

I hope I can see our baby Mafuyu always like this cause my god this smol boi deserves pure and entire happiness after all the shit he’s been thru

I think I got a LOT out of my chest and if u’ve made it till here thank u so much, I love u and appreciate it to the bottom of my very very small fujoshi otaku heart

[chanxyeollie]

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lmao tagged by my fave @stan-the-best-stan-monsta-x,,, u know one day i’m gonna tag u in SOMETHING

Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag 20 followers you’d like to get to know better. 1. Name: Aluri 2. Nicknames: well people have just picked apart Aluri into Ali, Luri, Lu, etc., so any of those i guess? 3. Zodiac sign: capricorn but fyi i am not the hardworking type so maybe that’s all a lie 4. Height: 164cm/5″4 i believe? 5. Orientation: straight 6. Nationality: British 7. Favourite fruit: um.....i don’t...have one? is it weird if i say lemon? 8. Favourite season: spring or autumn 9. Favourite book: Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clare even though i sob without fail every time i read the ending. 10. Favourite flower: uhh... orchids are nice 11. Favourite scent: the cinnamon bun incense we have downstairs! 12. Favourite colour: black/pink 13. Favourite animal: wolf (chogiwaaaa) 14. Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: can i cheat and say half coffee, half hot chocolate? 15. Cat or dog: cats because as i’ve said i can’t betray my cat lady reputation 16. Favourite fictional character: Sita bc she’s a badass 17. Number of blankets you sleep with: ideally as many as possible but as of now two 18. Dream trip: i want to go back to NYC but this time without a strict time limitation. i just wanna explore, man! 19. Blog created: o fuck like 2014 or something??? yeah i think so because originally this was a sims blog (lol) and TS4 wasn’t released yet. 20. Number of followers: 121 - thx to all u porn-bot blogs doing ur part to both up my follow count and horrify me every time i wonder who u are

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Nickname: here’s a different one: in my last year of high school it was ‘mom’ because of who i am as a person Gender: Female Star Sign: Capricorn Height: 5″4 - btw for the longest time i thought i was 5″7 which remains untrue Time Right Now: 10:41 pm (this is queued so i guarantee it will not be this actual time when it comes out) Last Thing I Googled: lenny face LMAO aka this guy  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) Favorite Bands: ah here let me refer to my trusty list;;; bts, topp dogg, exo, bigbang, seventeen, SHINee, Monsta X and non kpop: 5SOS, PVRIS, Marianas Trench Favorite Solo Artist: shit who do i listen to um Ailee and alternatively Lady Gaga lol Song Stuck In Your Head: i’m listening to music right now so that’s occupying my head instead right now but earlier it was Adore U - Seventeen Last Movie I Watched: Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 Last TV Show I Watched: lol Produce 101 When Did You Create Your Blog: 2014 What Kind of Stuff Do You Post: hmmm pretty much kpop stuff with some tiny bits of fashion/meme worthy posts sprinkled in When Did Your Blog Reach its Peak: um well this post got the most notes?? so i guess we’ll say then, i gained like 2 followers in that time wow amazing - but listen i love that post and i still laugh when i see it Do You Have Any Other Blogs: um yes but they’re unimportant and mostly placeholders Do You Get Asks Regularly: once in a blue moon Why Did You Chose Your URL: (lmao Réka bb i love yours) well my last one was a teen wolf one which i no longer post about so i just wanted a name that had someone i liked in it and thus chanxyeollie was born, but it was very close between that and ffschanyeol fun fact Following: 470 Posts: 4605 - my likes are more than three times the amount and i have!!! ONE THOUSAND!!! things saved to my drafts no joke its a problem Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff Pokemon Team: yikes i don’t remember which one i picked tbh Favorite Colors: black and pink Average Hours of Sleep: between 7-9, i use sleepyti.me to get the best amount of sleep lol Lucky Numbers: 16. that’s it. Favorite Characters: Sita, Will Herondale, Captain America, Quicksilver off the top of my head lol What Are You Wearing Right Now: a ~free~ university t-shirt, sweatpants, polar bear socks How Many Blankets Do You Sleep With: 2 or more because otherwise the night creatures will eat me Dream Job: something entertainment related, idk i think it would maybe fun to be a comedian or something Dream Trip: NYC hellooooo for the 6438946th time i have no one to tag D: so like ANYONE AT ALL PLEASE help a sister out lol

[hyun-seong]

Yeah true af and what’s even sincere mean in this world? I feel like they’re just a word to most of people who are insincere and don’t even feel guilty for that. I feel like even in my elementary school, I feel like they don’t want to be with me oh well. Oh- except my childhood friend who I always help her because she isn’t fluent in English and we were born from same country. It was a great memory tbh but it made me miss her more. (Actually I feel like I’m so used to missing people after (1)

After we part away except my ex friends I told you about otl. Idk if that’s good thing and like idk it just became a memory(?) idk how to explain it. Tbh I really hate being naive and suck at communication ever since I was little? And I’m still like that and I hate it (Well I kind of improve a bit) Idk why I’m talking randomly XD Have you try pudding or any food you tried for first time or want to try for first time? I still haven’t ate pudding and I really want to try that ;; I want to try (2)

Waffle cause I had one before and got stomach ache .-. Lol. I want to try gopchang which a certain member from certain group love gopchang a lot (3)

RIGHT its something thats totally distressing for me to see, and probably you too! Words are just the best concept and tool you can use to reach a lot of people in a constructive and positive way and they JUST WASTE IT??? for me it’s very hard to see because I sucked at communication too, I was autistic and I just...didn’t know how to do it and so I worked and trained very very hard and I worked my ass off to be well at it so it’s a skill thats dear to me, and when i see people who dont take it seriously and take it for granted its like....do you know that you are SOO lucky? I still hate it sometimes too but I promise it does get a lot better, I used to NEVER answer the phone and because I had to take a lot of phone calls for my mom when she was in the hospital i can pick it up like HELLOOOOO, the worst is when people ask you for information you don’t know tho....

THAT is sad to lose a friend and its even worse to lose a friend who is so similar to you and probably understands you better than anyone else does. I FEEL  U ...i have friends from kindergarten I miss, I want to see if I can somehow find them on facebook and be like HEY IT ME, but I just assume they definitely would not remember me...except maybe the kid who had a crush on me and asked me to marry him LOL 

PUDDING I love I find it is very good, when my mother was pregnant with me it was all she would eat basically so when I was born my nickname was Puddin’ haha I ALWays wanted to try Gnocchi because I hear its good but I just never have gotten around to trying it AND TONKatsu because Hyunseong loves it, I’ve have tonkatsu ramen and a little snack from Japan of it, but never the real thing