#I've had this song stuck in my head since yesterday and I saw a comment that said it sounded like something from Sonic Rush

[krafterwrites]

Behold

[cryptidsurveys]

Thursday, November 28th, 2024.

What did you have for dinner tonight? I haven't had dinner yet, but I've made / will be making chicken drumsticks (no turkey because it's just me and my dad), green bean casserole, macaroni salad, sweet potato, and probably pumpkin pie and / or pumpkin cake for dessert.

If you were given a million dollars, what would you spend it on? Probably just some home repairs and then just save the rest.

Have you ever cried in front of your parents over a boyfriend or girlfriend? Mmhm.

What does your bedroom smell like right now? I can't smell anything in particular beyond the yogurt bowl I'm eating.

Have you ever shaved off your eyebrow before? No.

Do you want to have a boy or girl whenever you have kids? I don't want to have kids, but hypothetically speaking, I wouldn't care what gender they were.

Your pregnant with twins: What do you name them? No idea. Naming is not my strong suit.

Describe your outfit. Gray sweatpants, dark blue long-sleeved animal shelter shirt, and a plain gray hoodie.

What gigabyte is your memory card?

What brand is your digital camera? Sony Cybershot. I've been relying on my phone for photos for years now, though.

When was the last time you hung out with your best friend? Never. They live all the way in California. Maybe one day we'll manage to visit one another.

What is a movie you're waiting to see? I'm not waiting to see anything, but I saw Wicked with my mom yesterday. Never saw the original Broadway show but thoroughly enjoyed the film. Had the final song stuck in my head the whole rest of the day.

Who was the last person to cook something for you? It wasn't just for me, but Riley brought some homemade brownie bites to the animal shelter on Tuesday.

Do you ever sit and think what if about something? If so, what is it? What if I don't go back to my eating disorder; what if I fully recovered this time? What if I could just be myself instead of trying to please everyone; would I be more or less likeable? What if suicide isn't the answer to all of my future fears; what if I actually manage to build a stable life for myself? What if I'm always lonely? Etc.

What’s on tv right now? Nothing.

Do you ever stop and smell the roses? Yeah. Figuratively speaking, I feel like I'm frantically trying to grab and smell every rose I can. Time just moves so quickly these days and it's kind of freaking me out. Sure, there are instances when I stupidly wish it away - wish for the day to end, wish for the "weekend," wish for the holiday season to come back around once it's over - but time passing is also one of my biggest fears. I wish I could live in my happy moments a little bit longer, or somehow engage with them more fully.

Where do you download music from? Nowhere.

How many channels do you have on your tv?

What are you most scared of? Losing my dad, ending up homeless, never forming strong friendships / relationships.

If you were given a chance to bring someone back to life, who would you choose?

Do you talk to any of your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend? No.

If so, which one?

What is your mom doing right now? I don't know what she's doing right this second, but she told me yesterday that she was going to her roommate's sister's house for Thanksgiving.

Are you currently listening to music? I'm not.

What is the weather like right now? 29*F and sunny.

Do you like new music or older music? I tend to prefer older music. Classical and classic rock. I do like some new stuff, but I just don't really keep up with it.

If you could make a law, what would kind of law would you make? I wouldn't.

What was the last video game you played? I'm not sure… It's been years since I last played a video game, but possibly Maple Story…?

What is currently going on in the room you're in right now? Not a whole lot. I'm just taking this survey while Karenna, one of my kitties, sleeps on a beanbag in the alcove.

Do you know where your best friend is? Cali.

Who was the last person to comment you on Facebook?

What is your display picture of on Facebook?

Do you ever sit and think about the past? I still think about it, but I don't spend a whole lot of time dwelling on the deep past. I'm much more likely to ruminate on or replay recent events.

If you could relive any moment in time: what would it be? Backpacking memories with my dad.

Are you a talker or a listener? Around my mom and dad, I'm more of a talker. Around people at the animal shelter, I'm more of a listener. I would like to talk more, but I either don't have anything relevant to contribute or I don't know how to jump into the conversation.

What is one food you will not eat? Seaweed. I've tried it before and I am not a fan. Also don't think I could bring myself to try anchovies.

Do you eat anything now that you never used to eat? Lots of things. I used to be a pretty picky eater.

Have you ever kissed the same sex? Yeah.

When does school start this year?

Do you ever shout for absolutely no reason? Pure zest for life…?

Have you stuck with your new years resolution? Had to go back to past IG posts to see what I actually intended to do… From Dec 27th, 2023.🌟 Therapy day! One of the things we talked about near the end of the appointment was how 2023 has felt like "The Year of the Boomerang." So many things I lost or let go of have returned to my life - driving, the animal shelter, reconnecting with my mom, being somewhat consistent with art, going out to eat regularly, going to the movies, going out more in general��even accidentally stumbling across an ex-partner's social media account (lol, I definitely didn't appreciate THAT blast from the past 🙅‍♂️).

I can honestly say that this has been the best year I've had in…I don't even know how long. At least a decade, but maybe even longer than that. It might even be the best year I've had in my LIFE, if only because so much of it felt like I was finally starting to take real control of my path.

I don't know what 2024 has in store for me, but I hope to continue making positive changes. One of the things I really want to focus on is that ever-elusive concept of Self Love. I've tried for so long to break this cycle of self-hatred, but I just haven't quite managed to crack the code. I feel like that's a huge missing piece for me, though. If I can finally "get it," then I think this whole recovery thing will really come together. ���

And then… From Jan 4th, 2024. ☁️ Been a few days, but I've basically been up to "the usual" - animal shelter, etc. 🐱 Starting to make more changes to my food/eating. Just this intuitive feeling that I need to make some improvements before I can unlock new opportunities. Trying not to think about it in terms of weight, but as a way to increase my energy levels, decrease migraines, improve sleep, lessen anxiety, and that sort of thing.

In the past, there were times when I would only change my eating after a big opportunity came along, which left me playing catch up (with questionable success). This time, just in case, I want to be ready. If nothing else, hopefully I will feel better and be one step closer to food freedom. Still a long way to go, but so far from where I was. ☁️

SO... My eating has improved so much compared to last January. I'm pretty close to the "normal" BMI range. I eat a wider variety of foods with more freedom and less anxiety. I don't rely nearly so much on my eating disorder for comfort / identity / security. As for self-love…I think I've made some improvements in that realm as well. Not as much as I would have liked, but…eh. Overall, 2024 was like 2023 turned up a notch. Feel like I basically succeeded in my goals.

Do you need to lose any weight right now? No.

What is something you want right now? Deeper friendships and social connections. To feel like I really belong somewhere. I think people generally / superficially like me, but they don't know me. And that's my fault. But sometimes the loneliness hits me and it's just like…damn. This hurts.

Do you hate when you see teachers in stores? Hasn't happened in ages, probably wouldn't even recognize them / be recognized if it did, but don't hate the idea of it.

What always puts a smile on your face? Kitties. :')

Where can I find you on a Saturday night? Home.

What is the best thing about Sundays? Half-days at the animal shelter. Relaxing afternoons / evenings at home.

What is your music provider (itunes, windows media player)? I just use YouTube.

How many songs do you have?

When was the last time you had a period? Beginning of this month.

Why do you think the sky is blue? Particles and scattered light wavelengths and whatnot.

If you could change the sky to any color, which would you choose? Cloudy, pearlescent, golden dawn / dusk.

Is there anything wrong with you right now?

Do you hate when people stare at you? It can be awkward.

[loubouskz]

who's going first

(3racha x afab!reader)

part 2 for: your moans would sound nice

description: y/n comes back to the studio to hear the song the boys have been working on...and to fuck as well.

warnings: smut, foursome, unprotected sex, slight switch!reader(only to jisung), dom!changbin, dom!chan, dirty talk, praising, petnames(baby(girl), sweetheart, sweetie, etc.) prepping, reader back talks chan- so slight brat!reader, jisung being impatient, oral(fem and male receiving), deepthroat, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, creampies, some aftercare

wc: 3,000+(somewhat proof-read)

a/n: long time no see! how is everything going? you doing well, eating, sleeping, drinking some water? for me...I've been okay. the last few months I stopped writing because a lot of devastating things happened and I wasn't in the right mindset for a while. but now I'm slowly coming back. as you saw above this is part 2 to my 3racha fic(FINALLY)! I'm so happy that I've finally finished it. and I couldn't have done it without the help of a friend who stayed on the phone with me, yesterday and today. I had about 1,000 words already written, but with my friend. I wrote 1,000 yesterday and 1,000 more today. I'm so happy that this is finally finished. but enough talking. I hope you enjoy this part 2.

also fill free to comment or inbox me about this fic or upcoming ones, I love read the things you guys have to say!

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I knocked on chan's studio door, waiting for one of the boys to answer. jisung had texted- with a whole bunch of emojis that the end might I add, saying they wanted me to hear the finished product of one of their new songs, and to bring some drinks. it had been a few weeks since everything happened, I felt my body become warm just thinking about it. the door opened to a smiley changbin in a pink hoodie and joggers. 

"good evening y/n." changbin said, opening the door wide enough to let me enter. I saw jisung and chan sitting on the couch, looking very comfy man-spreading on the tiny couch. "hey guys." I said, sitting the drinks I brought with me on the desk. "hi, y/n-nie, did you get my favorite?" jisung asked, standing up to grab his cup. "of course I did." I said, grabbing his and putting it in his hand. he immediately took a sip, "hmmm, every time it feels like I'm drinking it for the first time again." he said, throwing his head back then taking his seat back on the couch. I laughed as I handed chan and changbin their drinks as well. that's when I looked at what they were wearing. chan wearing his iconic black muscle tee and shorts. jisung wearing a black hoodie over and jeans with rips in the knees.

"you boys look nice today." I said, sitting in between jisung and chan. "thank you, y/n." changbin said with a wide smile as he took a sit on the chair in front of the desk, spinning around. "you don't look too bad yourself." chan said, with blushed ears. "you mean the one of the five whole outfits that I own, that look good together that I've worn multiple times." I said with a laugh, making the boys laugh too. "yes." chan said. "okay enough small talk!" jisung said, grabbing the attention. "I want y/n to hear the song." he continued, while slightly bouncing in his seat and bumping into my shoulder.  "jisung, she just got here. we haven't asked her about her day." changbin said, kicking jisung in the foot. jisung whined and looked at me. I laughed and told them about my day.

"so you didn't do much? okay! SONG TIME!" jisung yelled. chan laughed and changbin rolled his eyes. "damn, yes I want to hear the song now. impatient brat." I said towards jisung, who just stuck his tongue at me and I stuck mine right back at him. changbin turned around and clicked around on the laptop, till an alluring melody and slow bass filled the room. I leaned back and closed my eyes, letting the music enter my body.

 a r&b intro started with changbin singing including chan in the back, then fell into the first verse with jisung rapping. I felt the boys' eyes on me, watching my reaction. soon the chorus began, the same as the intro, just more full and enticing. my head bobbing the music. next was the second verse, changbin fast rapping the first part then chan slow rapping the next. the mixes of the two different rap styles, feeling more and more captivating. then was the bridge of the song, jisung was singing then chan was next. that's when I was caught off guard with familiar sounds in the background, right in the middle of the two voices. I stopped moving, my eyes snapping wide open as I felt my cheeks heat up. jisung started smirking at a giggly chan and changbin. soon the song ended with chan vocals and the same slow r&b beginning.

“wow” I said, not really having any words. “what’d you think of it y/n?” chan asked. I looked at him and smiled. “It sounded amazing like always channie.” I said. chan laughed and looked down. “what about the bridge?” jisung asked. I whipped my head to jisung. “it sounded sexy, you pervert.” I said. “you’re just as much.” jisung said. “did you invite me here to listen to the song or just to fuck me again?” I asked, looking at all three boys. “both.” changbin said, leaning forward, resting his arms on his legs, I laughed. “alright then.” I said, “who’s going first this time?” I continued with a smirk.

“jisung.” changbin said, nodding his head to him.

very quickly, clothes met the floor while kissing jisung as I got on top of him. I ran my fingers through the back his hair, pulling on it a little. his hands exploring my body, giving squeezes here and there. I moved my hips to feel some more of his hard on that was growing under me. he groaned into my mouth as our tongues fought over dominance. I made my way from his lips to his neck, leaving a wet trail in the process. I sucked right where his neck and collarbone meet, making him moan loud.

“fuck, that feels nice baby.” he said, pressing my body more into his. my hands traveled down his chest and brushed over his nipples, down his abs till they made it to his cock. I quickly got off jisung and sat on my knees in front of him. keeping eye contact with him as I did a bold long lick up his length. jisung’s head fell back as he groaned, keeping eye contact though. 

“don’t tease him too much, y/n.” changbin said. I looked back at him and smile at him. “of course not. I want to feel him inside me this time.” I said as I jerked jisung off with a firm grip. I turned back around, kissing the tip of the head. slowly pushing him inside my mouth, not stopping till I made it almost completely down to his pelvis. jisung’s hips bucked up out of pleasure. he ran his fingers through my hair and started to guide me how he wanted.

“you’re doing so good. getting it all nice and wet.” jisung said, making me whine on him. “want me to prep her for your cock jisung?” I over heard changbin ask. “yeah.” jisung groaned out. changbin left his chair and shuffled close to me, kneeling down at the level I was at.

I felt changbin’s hands grab my waist and trail down my legs, making me spread my legs naturally. changbin’s hand cupped my sex, groaning at the feeling of how wet I was. “baby is already so wet.” he said as he pushed one finger into me. I moaned around jisung’s cock, bucking my hips into changbin’s hand. “focus on jisung, baby. I’ll do the work here.” changbin said, rubbing my ass. I closed my eyes as jisung guided this hand to my hair, pulling on it a little.

“you’re doing so good baby.” jisung said through his moans. I hallowed my cheeks harder around him at the praise. I felt changbin add a second finger, scissoring inside me making me pop off jisung and jerked him with my hand. “god, do I make this hard every time you see or think of me?” I asked jisung, making him groan and changbin stop his movements below.

“oh she’s feeling bold this time.” i heard chan say in the background. I turned my head to him, “yeah, and what can you do about it? nothing as of right now, it’s jisung’s time.” I said, looking back to jisung. “right baby?” I said, with fake innocent eyes and a firm grip on his cock. “yeah, fuck off chan.” jisung said. “watch it.” chan said, I giggled and was about to take jisung back in my mouth. 

“come on y/n.” jisung said, grabbing my hand to help stand me up. changbin removed his fingers and sat back down in his seat. “let’s get a move on baby.” he said, making me sit onto his lap. with my legs on either side on his, he grabbed a hold of his cock and slowly pushed down inside me. feeling his length fill me up nicely, so firm and hard in me,

“feels so fucking nice. god damn.” jisung said, grabbing my hips. I moaned as my pelvic bone met his. rolling my hips in a circle to get used to his size. “you feel good too sungie.” I said, looping my arms around his neck before kissing him on the lips. jisung squeezed my hips as I slowly brought my hips up and going back down. breaking the kiss as I was working up the pace with each bounce. “fuck you’re so tight y/n. shit, i’m not gonna last long.” jisung said. “that’s fine sungie, you be good and cum whenever you need too.” I said out of breath, making jisung throw his head back once again. “just keep bouncing like that and i’ll cum in no time.” he said back with his eyes closed. I closed my eyes too, focusing on the feeling of his cock inside me.

“angle your hips a little more y/n.” I heard chan say next to us. “be quiet channie, it’s jisung’s time.” I whined out, but I did what he said anyway and gave out the biggest whine.

with the new angle, jisung’s cock hit my g-spot perfectly every time I came down. “oh fuck.” I said, pushing my head into jisung’s sweaty neck. i pressed my lips on his ear and whispered in it. “you’re doing so good baby. I love how you feel inside me. I can’t wait for you to feel me up.” I said, before leaning back and holding his head up- making him open and lock eyes with me. “you can do that for me right sungie?” i asked as I bounced harder, feeling my first climax coming fast. “I’m about to cum.” jisung said, as he started pushing his hips up to meet mine. “please cum for me jisung.” I said as I felt myself tighten around him. with one final thrust from him, he came inside me, triggering mine at the same time. both of us moaning and whining at the feeling. jisung held on to me tight, not letting go. taking some time to calm down as I messed with the back of his hair as we waited

after some minutes, jisung slowly pulled me off him, making me hiss. i sat down in the middle of the couch, between him and chan. “wow, that was amazing. i loved everything second of that.” jisung said in his hyper self again, like he didn’t just get down fucking me. making the other boys laugh. 

“still need a few minutes y/n or we start my turn.”changbin asked, with a smirk. “i just need a sip of my drink and I’ll good.” I said. changbin handed over my drink that was on the table, “you better be for me.” he said as I grabbed the drink from him. I felt my cheeks heat up at his comment.

I took a few sips from my drink before standing up and walking over to the table to place my drink down. I turned to changbin and smiled at him, “hey there.” he said. “hi.” I said as i sat in his lap. he tilted his head up and place his lips onto to mine. soon the simple kiss turned into a heated makeout session. changbin pushed his tongue into my mouth, making me groan. his soft lips left my lips to my jaw, down my neck. leaving sloppy wet heavy kisses all over, sucking hard in areas that made me whine. I pressed down into his crotch, trying create friction. 

“no sweetie, stay still for me.” changbin said, holding on to my waist. I quickly stopped moving and waited for changbin to do or saying something. “take my clothes off me baby.” he said as his hands slid down to my body, onto my thighs. i slid my hands under his hoodie and felt up his body. he leaned his head back, till holding eye contact with me. I pushed his hoodie up, slowly working up his body. he lifted his arms up as the hoodle came off. I leaned down and kissed down his chest. I got onto the floor and pulled at his joggers, making him lift his hips. his underwear came off along with his joggers. I looked at him as my hands slid between his thighs as I pressed them apart. I kissed his thighs as I made my way to his hard on.

“just get it wet enough for me to slide right in.” changbin said as I kissed my way on his cock. I took my tongue and licked up and down a few times before taking him slowly into my mouth. bobbing up and down each time coming up, circling my tongue around his tip. changbin bucked his hips up, making me gag on him. "will you let me fuck your throat?" changbin asked, I nodded my head with my mouth on him. he carefully stood up and grabbed the back of my head. bringing his hips back before thrusting into my mouth, quickly picking up the pace. I closed my eyes and focused on not gagging. I felt my spit coming out of my mouth down his cock, falling to the floor and my thighs and hands. 

“she takes cock in her mouth so well, doesn’t she changbin?” jisung asked in the background. “yes she does, fuck.” changbin answered. “you’re gonna have feel her mouth.” he said to chan. “i’ll have to next time, when I’m not fucking last. I won’t last if I feel that pretty little mouth of hers.” chan said, I whined hearing his low voice enter my ears. changbin removed his cock of my mouth and sat back down in the chair behind him. he patted his lap, making me standing up. “turn around baby. face the boys, I want them to see your pretty face as you ride me.” changbin said. I turned around and went to sit on his lap. he grabbed my waist with one hand and I felt him pushed his cock into me as I sat on him. my head fell forward, hair falling into my face and moaning at the same time. I placed my hands on his knees and looked back up at jisung and chan.

jisung was still naked, slowly playing with his dick in hand. chan had his tank top off now and pants just down enough for the cock to be out. chan spat in his hand and jerked his cock off, watching me carefully. “come on baby.” I heard changbin say, pushing his hips up, making me gasp. I lifted myself once and back down. “oh god.” i said as I picked up the pace. not too fast, but enough to feel the knot building up inside. “you look so good.” I heard jisung said. feeling their eyes on me, hearing the wetness that was being made from me and changbin. I tightened up around him. “shit, you’re already about to cum?” changbin said, but I didn’t respond. “huh baby?” he said, grabbing my waist. “yes binnie.” I whined out. “open your eyes y/n-ie.” I hear chan say. my eyes snapped open and looked at both the boys with watery eyes and a wide mouth. I was starting to lose my pace, changbin quickly noticed and started helping me- guiding up and down. 

“cum all over me y/n.” changbin said in the low voice, his hips thrusting up as mine pace down. mind went out as I came all of him with my thighs shaking. “oh fuck.” changbin said as he kept going to reach his high. “cum in her bin, just like jisung did. make her even more messy for me.” I heard chan say. I let out a high pitched moan as changbin filled me up with his cum. changbin groaning with a tight grip on my waist. “shit.” changbin said, rubbing his hands up and down my body. “your tits looked amazing as you were riding him y/n.” jisung commented, I busted out laughing. “thank you sungie.” I said. I looked over to chan who was already looking at me with smirk. I slowly lifted myself off of changbin and slowly made my way to chan. he hugged me as I sat on him. I brought my lips to his and gave him a heated kiss. before it could go farther.

“I gotta use the bathroom guys.” jisung said as he quickly stood up. we watched as he put back on his clothes in a mess and left the room. chan chuckled and looked at me. “you’ll be brave with jisung and a good girl for changbin. how are you going to act for me?” he asked with his head tilted to the side. “I don’t know. how do you want me to act?” I answered back, tilting my head with his. chan smiled before he flipped me into my back on the now open space on the coach, I yelped at the fast movement. he climbed over my body, hands on other side of my head, “how about you lay there and take my cock like a good girl I know you can be.” chan said before pecking my lips and heading to my neck. kissing down to my chest, taking my right nipple into his mouth. “ah channie.” I said as my hands ran through his hair and stayed. he kissed down my navel til he was right above my clit. 

his eyes locked with mine as he brought his hand up my slit, gathering the mixture of cum that was spilling out. popping his fingers into his mouth, groaning at the taste. his fingers slid out and quickly into me as his mouth came in contact with my clit. I cried out at the overstimulation, pumping his fingers in and out at a slow pace as his tongue played with my clit. “chan.” I moaned out. I arched my back and rolled my hips into his face. his left hand gripped my thigh tightly. the sounds in the room would make even the devil turn a blind eye. “fuck, I wanna cum channie.” I said, as I gripped got tighter on his head. he moaned with his mouth on my clit, curling his fingers into onto my g-spot. I tightened around his fingers and my high hit my like wave. he took his mouth off me, “good girl.” chan said, taking his fingers out before hitting up.

he grabbed my legs and lifted them up, slipping right between my legs. he brought one leg down as it fell off the side of the couch and held the other up to his shoulder. chan grabbed his cock, stroking it once. “think you can held my cock today babygirl?” he asked. I nodded my head as I grabbed his hips and rolled mine into his. “please.” I begged. chan rubbed his cock over my slit before pushing in, moaning at the feeling.

“so tight still, after being used twice before me. but also messy for me.” chan said as he pulled out and pushed back in. I closed my eyes, loving the feeling of how full i was. “feels so good channie.” I said, digging my fingertips into his skin. he hissed at the feeling and snapped his hips quickly into me, making cry out. “take it baby, I know you can.” chan huffed out, hanging on to my thigh, picking up a fast pace. my head fell to the side to see changbin watching the show. I moaned and tightened around chan. “so good.” chan said, placing one hand next to my head again. I turned my back to him and slid my arms up to his back.

chan placed his forehead on mine as we kept eye contact. “I’m about to cum channie.” I said, dragging my nails down his back. “oh shit, hold it a little longer for me.” he said closing his eyes, giving me harder and faster thrusts. I nearly screamed, chan quickly brought his left hand to my neck, giving it a light squeeze. my eyes rolled to the back of my head as my orgasm washed over me. chan gave some more hard thrusts before cumming hard, deep inside me. 

chan laid his body on mind with head in the creek of my neck. after a few seconds of silence, the door opened up. we snapped our heads to the door to see jisung poking his head in. “just saying I heard you scream.” he said as he walked in, closing the door behind him. I blushed and hid into chan’s chest as the boys chuckled. chan sat up and slid his cock out of me, making my whence. “changbin, hand me some tissues please.” chan said, holing out his hand. changbin grabbed them and placed them in his hand. chan cleaned me up and help me sit up. jisung helped me put on his hoodie he wearing that he had over his shirt, kissing my forehead once my head popped through the hole. I stood up and put my underwear and pants back on as chan and changbin put their clothes back on. we all sat down in our original spots, I laid my head on jisung’s lap and brought my legs up on chan’s lap. “take a nap y/n for a few minutes.” jisung said, running his fingers through my hair. “you sure?” I asked, looing up at him. “yeah, we have to review a few songs before we leave for the day.” chan said, rubbing my legs, massaging them a little. “okay.” I said, closing my eyes and almost falling asleep immediately.

“y/n-ie.” I heard as someone was rubbing my arm. I hummed out and turned my head. “we’re done here. we can leave now.” the voice said. I opened my eyes and saw changbin. I smiled and sat up and stretched my arms and back. we stood up grabbing our things we had laying around.

“let’s head to the dorm and watch a movie with some take out, I'll pay for it.” chan said, smiled sweetly as he picked up the left over clothes on the floor to bring with us. “that’s sounds good to me.” I said, looking at jisung and changbin. they nodded their head, “hell yeah!” jisung said, opening the door. changbin threw his arm around my shoulders as we followed jisung out the building.

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G O T 7 JB PT.2

Guerin arrived at her favorite flying spot by the han river. Since it wasn't a work engagement she had allowed her vanity to insist she show off a bit. Earrings dangling from her lobes, a pattern blocked mismatched long sleeve crop top and high waisted shorts with plain black sneakers were what Guerin had finally settled on after several outfit changes. Topped off with an orange lipstick she felt particularly bold.

She was at the top of the stairs and looked out over the view. It was a weekday so there wasn't a lot of people, but the weather was clear and warm without much wind. A perfect day for flying. She couldn't help but grin before setting her backpack styled bird transport down gently. Opening the door she reached in and stepped up a severe macaw. The bird look around, clearly excited and knowing what would be going on.

"Go Guerin-ssi!" JB approached from behind.

Guerin looked up to see JB, then turned to face him with her smile still in place and a bird on her hand. He froze for a moment seeing the mini macaw, who had let out a small squawk and flapped her wings, rustling her feathers with anticipation.

"Hello JB! We were just getting ready. This is my little girl Mihi." Guerin fed a safflower seed to the parrot and pinched her beak lovingly. JB had a thin grey t shirt with an oversized collar, the fabric draping from his broad shoulders and hanging tantalizingly from his fit form poorly hidden by the material. Guerin had to refocus and looked away from him back to her bird.

"Is she mad?" JB asked, warily approaching as the bird cocked her head, chewing the seed and watching him.

"No, she's just excited. She seems interested in you but she looks comfortable." Guerin assured him, giving the bird scratches on the top of her head.

"Can I take pictures?" He asked, suddenly eager, holding up the camera he had brought.

"Yeah absolutely. You want to get started?" Guerin responded, handing another safflower seed to the Mihi. The bird thoughtfully raised a foot to crack the shell, still watching JB as he raised his camera and took a couple snapshots. Once Mihi finished the seed, Guerin turned, moving the hand Mihi was sitting on up and open toward the river.

Almost immediately Mihi took off her hand with a loud happy scream, flapping and swooping to catch the currents of the air to get more lift. JB stepped up beside Guerin as she watched her bird fly, holding a hand to her forehead to block the sun. He watched Mihi looping and screeching, taking some more pictures. He glanced at Guerin, seeing her purely elated expression. He couldn't help but smile too as he snuck a quick picture of her.

"Hey now," she put up a hand to block her face, which made him laugh and take another picture as he dodged away from her, "Mihi is the star of this show." She protested but laughed at his suddenly playful demeanor and stuck her tongue out, which he snapped another picture of. "JB! I gotta watch my bird and you're distracting me." She pouted at him for a moment before turning back to the circling green bird in the sky. He beamed in victory, looking at the new pictures he had taken before refocusing on the show.

Guerin held out a hand and blew a whistle. Mihi didn't seem to respond right away, causing JB to look at Guerin with concern. She didn't react so he looked back. With one final loop that put her in position against the wind, Mihi angled her way down to Guerin's waiting hand, JB snapping pictures the whole descent. Once Mihi had landed Guerin began praising her and handed her an entire nut, which she took despite panting and catching her breath. She sat with the nut in her mouth breathing before finally catching her breath enough to crack into it, holding it in position with her foot and using her dexterous tongue to tease the treat out.

JB finally lowered his camera and just watched the bird. Guerin sat on the stairs, moving the bird to her knee and leaning back on her hands while Mihi rested. JB sat next to her.

"Once she rests a little we can fly again. She can usually go two or three times depending on how long each flight is." Guerin said.

JB nodded and looked around.

"No one seems to have noticed." He stated, confused.

"You'd be surprised what people don't notice." Guerin chuckled. "Sometimes she likes to fly just in front of people. That gets them to notice."

"Do people talk to you?" He asked curiously, flipping through the pictures on the camera.

"Sometimes. I've gotten people interested, scared, impressed, angry... one person tried to take a swipe at her." Guerin frowned at the memory and JB looked up in shock. "They missed, everything was fine. It was still while I didn't know much Korean so I'm not entirely sure what they were angry about." She shrugged. "Hey girl, where are you going?" Guerin redirected her attention back to the macaw. She had climbed off Guerin to the ground and was slowly walking toward JB, cocking her head to look at him and his camera, still holding what was left of the nut in her beak as she took tentative steps toward him.

JB automatically leaned away, understandably nervous. Guerin offered her hand to the bird who paused a few moments still looking at JB before slowly stepping onto Guerin's hand. The decision earned her a couple seeds. "She's very interested in you. Not a lot of people come flying with us." Guerin smiled and kissed Mihi's beak. Guerin glanced at JB, "Do you want to hold her?" She offered.

JB hesitated, "Is that okay?"

Guerin nodded, "I think so. Hold out your hand." She instructed. He followed her orders as she gave him a quick explanation on how to hold Mihi before holding out the bird, who stepped to his hand for another couple of seeds. Guerin couldn't help but laugh as Mihi studied the new human, chewing thoughtfully, paired with JB's dubious expression along with his uncomfortable body posture. Mihi finished the seeds and began squawking and ruffling feathers again. JB flinched slightly.

"She wants to fly again." Guerin laughed at his nervous behavior. "Just turn and hold up your hand like I did."

JB did as he was told and Mihi took off with another screech, flipping playfully in the slight breeze. His expression went from apprehensive to a deceptively chic smile. Guerin tore her eyes away from him to watch her bird circling.

Mihi landed on JB for another nut, crawling back and forth between the two and foraging around on the ground, always keeping close and returning to Guerin when she called for random check ins. The two humans talked at length, interacting with Mihi at intervals. JB got another photoshoot of her foraging on the ground, and a few cute photos of the parrot reaching for his lens before Guerin warning him that the little beak could do damage to his equipment. She had climbed to him several times and now he looked a bit more comfortable holding her on his hand. He also made sure to get pictures of Guerin being sweet with the bird, giving kisses, offering scritches, and even laying directly on the ground to play with the bird as Mihi rolled on her back, kicking her feet in the air to play wrestle.

At one point JB started playing music, humming along as the two focused on the bird, comfortable despite the lack of exchange. Guerin sang along softly to a few of the songs before JB commented. "Guerin-ssi." She glanced at him from the corner of her eye, still focused mostly on giving Mihi scratches on her head.

"Yes?"

"You have a great singing voice." He said.

"Oh, it's passable for karaoke." She laughed, "But I've got no training, I'm not a professional at all."

"I am." He said, earning another glance this one a little longer and clearly showing her dubious thoughts. "I mean it. You have a nice voice." He managed to sound nonchalant but decisive as he shrugged and leaned back.

"Well... thank you." She smiled shyly at the compliment, still not looking at him which meant she missed the proud smile he had.

Finally it was time to pack up and head home. Mihi climbed into the transport cage and Guerin slipped it carefully onto her back.

"I'll take you back to your place." JB offered.

"You don't need to do that." Guerin protested.

"I know." He answered with a charismatic smirk. She tsked at his sass but couldn't help the smile. Guerin's apartment was close to the park so the escort didn't last long, which JB felt disappointed in.

"Thank you for letting me come." JB said as they hovered just outside her apartment building entrance.

"Thanks for coming. You did great." She praised him, "It was a lot of fun."

The two stood in an awkward silence for a few beats, the desire to be in each others company longer unspoken.

"I'd love to see some of the pictures of Mihi you took!" Guerin said eagerly.

"I'll show you, after I pick out the best ones." JB agreed, hiding his relief that there was another excuse to meet up again.

"Well... I'll go in now." Guerin backed to the door, waving before turning to head inside. JB waved back, watching her go until the door closed securely behind her. Looking around casually and seeing no one he did a little dance, tongue out from his open grin, before playing it cool again and meandering back toward his own place.

JB chose an expensive bbq restaurant for Jackson to treat him. Jackson had complained exageratedly once he saw the menu and prices but with some well placed jibes from JB, he acquiesced.

"How is MinNao?" JB asked, taking a sip of barley tea.

"She's doing amazing. Guerin came by yesterday too. She went over everything again. MinNao loves her it's so cool to see them work." Jackson was excited and impressed.

"She definitely knows her stuff." JB nodded.

"I learned so much, I kept asking her questions and questions and she was always so thorough answering." Jackson was still enthusiastic. JB nodded and smiled, taking a bite of meat while his friend talked.

"I think I might like her. Like I might ask her on a date." Jackson added unexpectedly.

"What?" JB froze, already holding another piece of meat despite his bulging mouth. His eyes had widened as he looked across the table to his friend.

"I might ask her on a date." Jackson said again with a grin, "aaaah she is so fun to talk to!" He gestured happily.

JB slowly resumed chewing, "Did she seem like she liked you too?" He asked carefully.

"Well she stayed late and talked with me a lot, and she seemed like she enjoyed it. Yeah, I think so?" Jackson reasoned, not really put off by the question before thinking for a moment and frowning, "Why, do you think she wouldn't like me? Why wouldn't she like me?" He pouted at his friend.

"Eeeeey I didn't say that." JB cocked his head and leaned back.

"So you think I should do it?" Jackson recovered quickly to being his bright self, leaning in with a smile.

Before JB could respond a call from a familiar voice behind him interrupted the conversation.

"Hyung!"

Jackson and JB looked over to see Jinyoung, waving in greeting with Mark and a pretty woman with dark purple hair. The four men embraced as they greeted each other.

"This is Charlie." Jinyoung politely introduced Charlie, "She is working with Mark and I on our movie and has been very helpful and supportive so we're treating her to dinner."

"It's nice to meet you." Charlie bowed politely.

Both Jackson and JB greeted her politely in turn.

"We haven't seen each other in so long, sit with us!" Jackson invited the three newcomers.

Mark and Jinyoung hesitated but JB spoke up, "Sit down, we can order more food!" He said, eager for the subject change.

The three obediently followed suit. Charlie was sat between JB and Jinyoung with Mark settled across from her and next to Jackson. She was already somewhat nervous being out with two ridiculously attractive men, but now that problem had doubled. Still, it was hard to be shy when someone was as aggressively friendly as Jackson.

"How do you all know each other?" She asked after they settled in and ordered more food for the party. Mark surreptitiously put a piece of meat on her rice bowl, which Jinyoung noticed and glanced up at his friend with an unreadable expression.

"We were trainees together." JB answered.

"We were supposed to debut as a group but it fell through. JB was the leader." Mark added with a teasing tone and matching smile.

"Heyyyy. Why do you need to mention that?" JB said brandishing his chopsticks at the snickering trio of men. Charlie ducked her head down and toward Jinyoung to avoid JB noticing her poorly hidden smile, amused by the relationship.

"Jackson, I saw you got a new puppy." Mark mentioned as everyone calmed down.

"Yes!" Jackson pulled out his phone and began showing off pictures of the puppy and how much he loved her but how frustrated he had been with her, "But I just hired this trainer that works with HEET and their mascot Eneoji and it's already making a huge difference."

"Oh, is it Go Guerin?" Charlie asked suddenly, a moment of recognition crossing her face.

JB and Jackson both looked at her shocked.

"Yes, that's her!" Jackson answeres surprised.

"I worked with her." Charlie said excited, "She had a web mini series on animal training with a couple celebrity clients. I helped produce it."

"We were talking about her just when you three showed up!" Jackson said. Charlie noticed JB suddenly detach from the conversation, looking away and pulling out his phone as though he was uncomfortable. "You've worked with her, what do you think?" Jackson continued.

"She's great at her job." Charlie said confidently.

"No no I mean as a person. Is she nice? Does she have a boyfriend?" Jackson persisted. Mark and Jinyoung looked at Jackson somewhat surprised, JB seemed to dissociate and act like the conversation wasnt happening at all.

"Uhhh well yeah I liked her a lot. She is very fun but we fell out of contact cause we both got too busy. I don't... think she had a boyfriend at the time...?" Charlie cocked her head thoughtfully, "Why do you ask?" She inquired curiously, but already pretty sure she knew the answer.

Jackson seemed to realize he was being dangerously obvious and he straightened up, "No reason." He said not convincing anyone. Charlie was polite enough to play along. The subject changed again and JB rejoined the conversation. Jinyoung suddenly refilled her cup with barley water and she looked up at him thanking him. He smiled and she was forced to look away from him, unable to take the visual assault in such close proximity.

The two women met like old friends, hugging each other and greeting each other cheerfully despite the time apart. They each got a coffee and settled in to catch up, Charlie telling her about the programs she had worked on since the web series and how she ended up finding a fairly high profile company that she was doing well with.

"So that's how I ended up meeting Jinyoung and Mark." Charlie wrapped up.

"At least one of them likes you." Guerin said without any doubt. "Probably both." She sipped her coffee pointedly.

"Oh stop." Charlie dismissed her, waving her hand. "Tell me what you've been doing! I heard about HEET and Eneoji!"

"Oh you'll like this. Do you remember Han Jisoo? She's the CEO of PWER which is HEET's label. We met by chance after I just got Eneoji and long story short she hired us to work with the boys. They're absolutely delightful, and they LOVE Eneoji. Now that they're done with promotions there's a bit of a lull so I'm just meeting with private clients now." She explained how Jackson knew HEET and found her that way, and then the mix up with JB being the one at the first session.

"That's incredible! Are you still flying your bird too?" Charlie asked.

"Yeah! A few times a week weather permitting. JB just came to watch a session, and Jackson said he wants to as well. You should come too!" Guerin answered enthusiastically.

Charlie was listening intently. Guerin had a habit of not really looking people in the face when talking or she might have noticed her friend looking more and more smug earlier.

"... What does that face mean?" Guerin asked suspiciously, finally noticing.

"You're so good at reading animals but you're kind of lost on humans." Charlie shook her head.

"That's not true. But humans are much more likely to deceive so it's not very reliable." Guerin looked thoughtful, "But what do you think I'm missing?" She pressed.

"You, my friend, have a classic love triangle going." Charlie said confidently.

"Oh come on. We only know each other professionally." Guerin protested.

"That bird flying with JB sounded like a date. And now Jackson wants in?" Charlie argued.

"It's not a date, I just invited you too so what does that mean?" Guerin reasoned.

"I'm just saying. They clearly wanna spend time with you outside of training sessions." Charlie shrugged.

"You should talk, you're the one simultaneously going on a date with an actor AND a model." Guerin teased.

"That's not what it was and DON'T change the subject. Besides, I saw Jackson and JB talking about you. I have inside knowledge." Charlie redirected.

"Yeah okay." Guerin rolled her eyes. She had enjoyed spending time with JB, and Jackson had been so friendly and fun to be around. She wasn't sure how she felt about either one of them maybe liking her in a romantic way but it wouldn't be unpleasant... she shook her head. It was unlikely. Both of them were ridiculously good looking, and Jackson was a famous musician while JB was consistently working with attractive celebrities. There's no way they'd like someone like her.

Charlie watched as her friend got quiet and thoughtful, her thoughts similar. Jinyoung and Mark hadn't offered to treat anyone else one on one but maybe that was an indication that they just felt that unthreatened by being seen with her? Yeah... that might be it.

Both women took a sip of coffee before starting to talk again, on a different subject.

JB had Guerin train a few times with his friend and JYPE vocal coach Choi Youngjae before they started recording. In the meantime he had fine tuned the song until it was ready for recording. His friend and fellow producer Hojun was in the studio now with him, Youngjae and a very nervous looking Guerin who kept sipping water and clearing her throat. Youngjae kept reminding her to stop clearing her throat and encouraged her through some exercises until JB and Hojun were ready.

"Alright, let's get you in there." JB swung around in his chair. He walked with her into the soundproof studio.

"Wow this feel disconcerting." She laughed awkwardly as the soundproofing ate any echo.

"You'll get used to it. And the headphones will help." JB smiled encouragingly. Guerin offered a tense smile and licked her lips as she looked around. They had already briefed her on what to expect and how she shouldn't wear noisy clothes or accessories. Once JB gave a brief run down on the equipment he put the headphones on her head, making sure they fit her ears before their eyes met.

He was struck suddenly by the memory of Jackson saying he liked Guerin. Feeling like he took a hit to the gut his smile fell and he dropped his hands from her face. All business now he turned and left the studio.

Guerin watched him go, she noticed the sudden change in demeanor but with no context she wasn't sure what it could mean and it made her more nervous. What if he had changed his mind and regretted asking her to do this? Clearly she wasn't as good as most of the people he was used to. She cleared her throat again.

"Stop that." Youngjae said through the intercom suddenly, startling her.

"Jesus the fuck." She jumped, english escaping her as she was startled.

Her temporary vocal coach laughed loudly, or so she guessed since he had let go of the button and she could only see him delight in her reaction. She forced herself to smile as she apologized.

JB settled into the chair next to Hojun and they began recording.

It did not go well.

Between Guerin's nerves and inexperience it started rough. She missed the timing the first two times, and the third time her voice croaked out. JB was no longer smiling or being friendly which made it worse. Hojun had started off friendly enough but was getting obviously annoyed as the takes kept falling short of expectation. They were slowly making progress with Youngjae being the only one now offering tips and encouragement to Guerin who was having a very bad time. Even the successes she had were resulting in relief rather than joy and they seemed more like luck than any skill.

Finally after another mistake take Hojun held up a finger to Guerin and turned to JB.

"This is going to take forever. Is this some kind of joke? Are you trying to impress some girl and wasting my time?"

JB grew irritated, already in a bad mood over the memory of Jackson deciding to pursue Guerin, "No, she really does have talent. This isn't what I expected."

"You need to consider switching her out if you want this song to have any success. Almost none of these takes are usable." Hojun threw up his hands.

"She's just nervous. She's not a musician. This is all new to her." JB argued back, getting more angry.

"Hey, you don't need to get mad at me for telling the truth. You're the one wasting my time trying to get into the pants of some untalented foreigner." Hojun snapped back.

JB stood so fast his chair fell over, teeth clenched, hands balled into fists as he fought to control his temper. Hojun stood to face him as Youngjae moved between them trying to stop a potential fight.

Guerin had been watching the soundless fight with growing worry. Sometimes humans were hard to read but the behavior had been increasingly aggressive until she saw JB leap up. Quickly she took off the headphones, leaving the booth and booking it to the control room.

"I don't have time for this. Hit me up when you're serious about recording." Hojun said just as Guerin entered the room. He nodded his head to her as he left the room. Guerin stepped to the side allowing him to leave, looking back to JB and Youngjae.

"I-I'm so sorry." She stammered.

JB was still steaming, the impulse to hit his friend was still subsiding and his anger still palpable, "Sorry doesn't give us time back. I know you were nervous but this was pretty much all a waste of time." He snapped.

Guerin recoiled as though she had been slapped. Hurt and anger overtook her nerves.

"Hyung!" Youngjae said in protest.

JB was already kicking himself. He hadn't meant to sound like that. But he was so worked up he didn't even know how to recover or explain himself.

"Yeah, I was nervous." Guerin started, "But you know what didn't help? Your cold behavior from the BEGINNING of the recording. Or how Hojun oh so obviously gave up on me three whole takes in and you sat there and let it go on with no encouragement or feedback. Youngjae is the only one who tried to help at all. I agreed to do this as a friend and with the clear disclaimer that I'm NOT a professional. I don't know why you thought I would magically step up but you don't have to be a DICK."

JB knew he was in the wrong but he didn't know what to say so they stood in silence for a few moments. "I... I didn't mean to..." he struggled.

"Nevermind. Youngjae, thank you for everything. I had fun with you and learned a lot." She bowed to him and turned to go.

"Noona wait, let's work this out." Youngjae protested.

JB walked forward taking her wrist to stop her from leaving. Incensed Guerin yanked her arm away from him, staring at him furiously, "Don't you ever touch me without permission." She demanded, "I'm too angry to discuss anything. I need space." She walked out the door leaving JB and Youngjae looking after her.

"Hyung... why were you being so cold with her?" Youngjae asked.

JB didn't even look at him as he left the room.

"What is going on?" Youngjae asked the empty room out of frustration.