#I've had maintenance in and out of my apt at all hours of the day and night this week on top of traveling and I've been a husk

[tendermiasma]

simmering Halsin on low for patreon :)

[jerseydeanne]

Henry Cavill has never been afraid of a challenge.

The British actor, known for his ripped physique in Man of Steel, spends hours training for his physically demanding roles. But the 38-year-old says he didn't discover his love for the gym until later in life. "When I was in school I played sports," he tells PEOPLE. "I wasn't the most spectacular physical specimen back then, but I definitely had drive."

That drive helped him land his first major physical role in Immortals. "I was doing a lot of martial arts and bodyweight exercises because it was apt for the character," he says. "And the first time I really moved into lifting weights properly was for Man of Steel."

From there, says Cavill, his fitness journey took shape. "It's evolved and developed in its own way depending on the characters that I've played or what I've had access to — the facilities, where I've wanted to go with my body and what I've wanted to do."

These days, he says, he likes to maintain a baseline level of fitness that can be adjusted depending on his work. "I will do a lot of body building work for an aesthetic look for a project or a role," he says, adding that he focuses on different body parts on different days.

Cavill's fitness came to a halt in December after injuring his hamstring while working on The Witcher. While some people suffer a mental blow when injured, the Justice League star chose not to see it as a setback.

"When I look back, I realize, yes, it was a hard time," he says. "I think one of the skills I've picked up over the years is just forging ahead regardless of difficulty or hard work or trials and tribulations. So when the hamstring injury came, I tried to look at the silver lining. It was like, 'Ok. I was working insane hours and it was exhausting and I now physically can't work because I'm on crutches.' So I was focusing more on taking the time off and going, how can I best heal myself?"

He explains further. "When it comes to my mental health, [I] focus on what I can control and work on that. And that gives me something to work towards rather than something to deal with or work through or manage my life through."

With the injury now behind him and no immediate roles coming up, Cavill is working on sprinting. "I want to build a better engine," says Cavill, who has partnered with MuscleTech supplement company. "One of the things my physical therapy for my hamstring showed me was that I have a lot of capacity in my engine but I have not accessed it. And it's something which I really want to build upon."

Nutrition plays a big role in this endeavor.

"Fuel is extremely important," says Cavill, MuscleTech's Chief Creative Director and Global Brand Ambassador. Over the years he has learned what works for him — and it works so well that he eats nearly the same thing every day.

"My diet at the moment is more maintenance because I don't have any shirtless scenes coming up," he explains, before listing his daily intake:

"Breakfast is a scoop and a half of 100-percent grass-fed whey protein with a cup and a half of oats and berries blended with water, plus a two-egg omelette with two turkey rashers and 4 ounces of beef filet."

"Three hours later I'll have 6 ounces of chicken breast with white rice, and three hours after that, another 6 ounces of chicken breast with brown rice. Three hours after that I'll have 5 ounces of filet of beef with sweet potato." Before bed, he'll have another protein shake.

He also allows himself one cheat meal a week. "It all depends on location and what I'm feeling. One of the great things about cheat meals is that you'll probably be thinking about it for a week and once you get there, it'll be an excited order of a pizza or Indian food or it will be a Sunday roast which I'll cook to make an event out of it."

Cavill admits that mental health plays a huge role in his overall wellness.

"I've been dabbling in stoicism. I like some of the core tenets: Don't let that what you can't control affect you, don't let it affect your mental state. Only worry about the things that you can control."

The message complements MuscleTech's new "Strength Redefined" campaign, which is redefining what it means to show strength through the accomplishments of everyday individuals, including first responders.

"We have all the necessary ingredients within us to become whatever we wish to become," says Cavill. "We have that strength, we have that resilience. And it's just about keying into those necessary ingredients and then utilizing them to intentionally create a physical self as well."

[apimpnamedgetback]

iiiiii feel like this is tew tew much. it's just so much happened to shake up my state of being in the past 36 hours. it's like i had a relaxing spa day & then while on the way home i got pulled over & then somebody rear ended the cop car...just really random.

so big rona has definitely shifted things for the greater good more than likely. i had finally found my rhythm with this new version of life. and then BOOM. "oops, i did it again" plays in this very jordan peale kinda way in the background of my circling, cycling thoughts. i felt myself slowing down with my practice of good thoughts so i got more active with trying to stay up. if i had to be home to be safe, then i'm gonna make the muhfuggin most of it! i'm going to act more than i think when it comes to creating, i'm being more honest, less shy, ya know? just getting good practice at being the me i felt i deserved. i eerily here the universe saying, " ahhhh yeah, reverse back to me, draw two, skip you, skip you, uno out!!" lol, what i mean is that something is testing me to see if i can get comfortable quickly to make my practice become more of a natural talent.

wow, i think i just gave myself the y'all i needed to break the negative cycle. but i'll still tell ya what happened.

anyway.

i'm just chilling & quarantining. water, fruit, cookies, water & wine in rotation. bouncing between different world and disney princesses. having a blast! & jamming to rih rih in the background. i hear this bubbling / gurgling sound. it really sounded like somebody was flushing the biggest shit ever in the apt above me. so i'm wining & dining myself to forget about it. the next morning, someone knocks on my door, i think it's the mail peeps bc i've been ordering so much shit, but they knock again so ik it wasn't them. now, i dont really wear pants so i scrambled & just wrapped my blanket around my waist bc that second knock scared me lol. so an old yt dude is there & says, "hey, i'm your neighbor. how's your plumbing? any problems?" (dafuq?) "nah, it's making some noise but that's it." he says, "oh really? my shower blew up & there's water in the hallway, are you sure?" i'm like, niggah whaaaaaaat?! "no sir no sir, that's wild." he calls management & maintenance so they can get on this. main man of maintence, da homie aka older black man, knocks on my door. again, i needed to put on pants, but i chose sweats this time. they say the plumbers are on the way, don't use the potty or sinks or washers for a bit. ooook, i can manage that...usually, but this time my stomach was like OK YOU THOUGHT! so i went to a friends & then management sends an alert to all tenants that they're working on plumbing issues on the first floor bc there was water in my neighbors, shit in the gym & hallway! like whew! but i'm like ok, i saw then working before i left so that's fine i spend the night at my friends, no biggie.

the next morning, i get a call from management. and it's her cell number bc i have the office saved. she says, "hey can you not stay at home for a bit? they're gonna tearing down the walls in the hallway & y'all can't be there. so if you need a hotel, lmk." i'm like 😳☹️, WTF. ok ok, let me see if i can make arrangements i'll get back to you. i call my mom & tells me to ask what hotel & then get it....that made me hellllla nervous. so i text her, naturally.

so i rush home to clean, pack & get shit out👏🏽the👏🏽way👏🏽!!

that took 2.5 hours because so many negative outcomes filled my spinning head. i just tried to put everting on a higher piece of furniture. so nothing is really on the floor. i really hope it works if anything crazy happens. so then i leave to go pick up an order from my friend. i got us some emanadas! when i finally got there, everything set in because my dad finally called me back and i gave him the scoop. shit was wild! & i ended up needing a hug, several actually. but i relaxed down. then when i started to get up so i could dip, i started spinning negative possibilities and the fact that i cant cook anymore lol. all the groceries i bought...dead. & i forgot soap lol. so i had to go back. when i did, i saw ripped up base boards and carpet in the hallway. stickered up walls to mark where the pipes are & hell fans blowing super cold air. oh yeah, the door was closed to the hallway...i aint even realize that that was possible, lol. so i grabbed my stuff & dipped to finally check in the hotel. that was tiring. i finally got down & comfy in the bed...& it set in. that could be the last time i see my place, lol. it feels dramatic but it could happen. idk. but since it's out of my control, i'm letting go & taking care of what i was able to grab.

[8bitmickey]

I’ve stumbled across the single greatest review of an apartment complex I've ever read...

It is quite literally a wall of text so you can read it all after the cut. 

BEWARE!BEWARE! IF YOU LOVE YOUR KIDS!!!!!!!! AND YOURSELF!!!!!! KEEP LOOKING CAUSE THIS PLACE IS DANGEROUS!!!!!!!!!.IF YOU DONT WANT YOUR KIDS AROUND DRUGS N VIOLENCE dont MOVE HERE!!! TENANT FROM APT 1131 I JUST MOVED OUT OF FALCON RIDGE JULY 31 2012 AND IM GLAD I DID...THANK YOU GOD!!! I MOVED IN MY APARTMENT FEB 7, 2012 AND I SIGNED A 6 MONTH LEASE. WE ARE NEW TO TEXAS SO WE WERENT FAMILIAR WITH THE LOCATION OR ANYTHING WE JUST STARTED LOOKING AT APTS THAT WERE IN GOOD DISTANCE OF OUR JOB. THE OFFICE STAFF WERE NICE "BEFORE" I SIGNED THE LEASE. WHEN WE FINALLY MOVED IT I WAS THE FIRST TO ARRIVE BECAUSE I PICKED UP THE KEYS THE DAY OF MOVE IN WHILE MY HUSBAND DIRECTED THE MOVING TRUCK TO OUR NEW HOME. I WALKED IN AND A "ROACH" FELL FROM THE CEILING I STARTED SCREAMING LIKE CRAZY BECAUSE IM DEADLY AFRAID OF BUGS IM CALLING MY HUSBAND PANICING LIKE BABY PLEASE HURRY AND GET HERE. HE GO THERE AND I RE-ENTERED THE APT WITH HIM HE KILLED THE ROACH THAT FELL FROM THE LIVING ROOM CEILING. SO WE SLOWLY WALKED THROUGH THE HOUSE IM LOOKING UP AT THE CEILING AND HE'S LOOKING AT THE FLOOR. AS WE APPROACH THE KITCHEN I SPOTTED ANOTHER ROACH CRAWLING UPSIDE DOWN ON THE KITCHEN CEILING I SCREAMED THERE GO ANOTHER ONE BABY GET IT GET IT.. HE PICKED UP THE COPY OF THE LEASE PAPER I HAD JUST PICKED UP FROM THE FRONT OFFICE AND KNOCKED IT DOWN IT FELL ON THE COUNTER N HE SMASHED IT WITH THE PAPER. AS WE SLOWLY WALKED AROUND THERE WAS ABOUT 10 JUICY DEAD ROACHES ON THE FLOOR AND A LOT OF BABY ROACHES THEY LOOK LIKE SPRINKLES OF BLACK PEPPER IN THE SINK THE MOTHER HAD JUST LAID HER EGG IT WAS LIKE 60 BABYS I TOOK OFF RUNNING OUT THE APT I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE I WAS OUTSIDE STALLING THE MOVIES TELLING THEM TO WAIT BEFORE THEY PROCEEDED TO BRING OUR BELONGINGS IN.MY HUSBAND FLUSHED THE BABY ROACHES DOWN THE DRAIN AND SWEP THE BIG DEAD WAS OUT THE BACK DOOR WITH THE LEASE PAPER.WE WALKED IN THE MAIN BATHROOM AND THERE WERE ROACHES IN THE BATH TUB AND IN THE HALF BATH WE OPEN THE PLACE WHERE THE HOT WATER HEATER IS AND AND WAS A BILLION IN THERE...I STARTED CRYING...I COULD GO ON AND ON ABOUT THESE ROACHES BUT IM GETTING UPSET JUST THINKING ABOUT WHAT I WENT THROUGH ON MY FIRST MOVE IN DAY. THIS WAS ME AND MY HUSBANDS FIRST APT TOGETHER WE ARE YOUNG AND WE WERE SO EXCITED TO FINALLY TO FIND A HOME TO CALL OURS. I WAS READY TO RUN BACK HOME TO MY MOMMY..THERE WAS SO MANY PROBLEMS WITH THE APT THE KITCHEN LIGHT FLICKERED SOME OF THE SOCKETS DIDNT WORK THE CABINETS IN THE BATHROOM AND THE WHOLE COUNTER IN THE BATHROOM LOOK LIKE IT WAS MADE FROM DRESSERS THEY HAVE TERMITE DAMAGE THEIR WERE WEAK SPOTS IN THE FLOOR THE AIR IN THE APT NEVER GOT COLD ENOUGH ANYWHERE NOT EVEN IN SMALL CONFINED AREAS LIKE THE SMALL BATHROOMS YOU'LL BE SITTING ON THE TOILET SWEATING THOSE BLACK SCREENS ON THE WINDOW ARE SO IRRELEVENT THERE WERE HUGE WASP NEST OUTSIDE THE DOORS IT WAS SO DEVASTATING. I WROTE DOWN EVERY THING I COULD THINK OF THAT WAS WRONG WITH THE APT. I EVEN BROUGHT THE LEASE PAPER THAT MY HUSBAND SMASHED THE ROACH WITH THE ROACH WAS STILL ON IT I TOOK IT DOWN TO THE FRONT OFFICE AND SHOWED THEM THAT THIS IS PROOF THAT THERE'S A PROBLEM I ASKED THAT THEY MAKE COPIES OF THE PAPER WITH THE ROACH ON IT SO THEY CAN KEEP IT FOR THEIR RECORDS. I REQUESTED IMMEDIATE ATTENTION TO THE ROACHES AND THE WASP NEST..I NEVER LIVED WITH ROACHES AND WASP DWELL IN AN AREA WHERE THEY'RE ALLOWED TO.. THEY TOLD ME THEY WOULD PUT ME ON THE LIST TO GET SPRAYED WHEN THE BUG LADY COME OUT LATER THAT WEEK THEY ALSO SAID THAT THEY WOULD SEND ONE OF THERE MAINTENANCE GUYS OUT IMMEDIATELY TO KNOCK DOWN THE WASP NEST. LATER THAT EVENING I WAS LEAVING OUT MY FRONT DOOR AND I NOTICED THE WASP NEST ON THE STAIRS AND THERE WAS LIKE 3 WASP ON IT I COULDNT PASS THE WASP SO I HAD TO GO BACK INSIDE AND LEAVE OUT MY BACK DOOR TO PREVENT GETTING STUNG BY THE WASP. IT WAS A TOTAL NIGHTMARE. I CONTACTED THE OFFICE THE NEXT MORNING AND THEY HAD ONE OF THE GUYS COME KNOCK IT OFF MY PORCH WHICH TOOK THEM HALF A DAY. TIME PASSED AND ANOTHER APPEARED IN THE SAME SPOT THIS TIME I WENT DOWN AND REQUESTED FOR THEM TO SPRAY AND KNOCK DOWN THE NEST THE GUY CAME AND SPRAYED I OPENED THE DOOR AND THE NEST WAS STILL THERE I CALLED THE OFFICE AND SAID WHY DIDNT HE KNOCK THE NEST DOWN HE SAYS WELL I SPRAYED IT I SAID NO SWEETY THEY CAN STILL COME BACK I NEED IT KNOCKED DOWN..SO HE CAME AND CALLED HISSELF KNOCKING IT DOWN AND IT WAS HALFWAY STILL UP THERE HANGING. I CALLED AGAIN AND SAID CAN YOU SEND HIM BACK HE DIDNT COMPLETE HIS JOB THEY GOT UPSET OF COURSE HE CAME BACK LOOKING AT ME LIKE LADY I SHOULD KILL YOU..THE LADY GABBY IS A TOTAL CHARACTER ..YEA THE ONE THAT ANSWERS THE PHONE "THANK YOU FOR CHOOSEING FALCON RIDGE APTS THIS IS GABBY SPEAKING HOW MAY I HELP YOU" PLEASE GET ANOTHER LINE. AFTER SHE FIGURES OUT THAT YOUR'RE A RESIDENT ALREADY THAT VOICE CHANGES TO WHAT YOU WANT WHAT DO YOU NEED.THE OLD LADY LYNN IS A TOTAL NUTCASE SHE SMOKES DOPE LITERALLY...ALL IN ALL IF YOU LIEK THE GHETTO LIFESTYLE THIS WOULD BE THE IDEAL PLACE THEY HAVE ALOT OF DRUG AND GANG ACTIVITY IN THIS APT COMPLEX DONT LET THE GREEN GRASS AND FLOWER BEDS FOOL YOU THE POOLS ARE NEVER OPEN BUT DONT GET ME WRONG THEY CLEAN THEY REGULARLY BUT THE NEVER OPEN THEM BUT THE HOOD KIDS AND THERE FOLKS JUMP THE GATE AND STILL SWIM. ALSO WE RECIEVED A LETTER ON OUR DOOR STATEING THAT THEIR HAS BEEN NUMOROUS OF ROBBERIES IN OUR APARTMENT COMPLEX AND THE SUSPECTS ARE TWO YOUNG BLACK GUYS BETWEEN THE AGES OF 20-30 THE ROBBERIES MOSTLY HAPPEN BETWEEN 10PM-2AM SO PLEASE TRY TO STAY INDOORS DURING THESE HOURS IF POSSIBLE OR HAVE SOMEONE escort YOU INTO YOUR APT OR IF YOU DONT HAVE ANYONE CALL THE PATROL UNIT. I SAID WHAT TYPR OF ---- IS THIS I NEVER HEARD OF NO CRAP LIKE THIS I GET OFF WORK AT 10PM MAKE IT HOME AT 11PM AND MY HUSBAND HAS TO LEave FOR WORK WHEN I ARRIVE HOME AT 12AM..O DID I LEAVE OUT THEY ROB DURING THE DAY SO EVEN IF YOU STILL WANT TO COME VIEW THE COMMUNITY DURING THE DAY BRING A PISTOL CAUSE THEY MIGHT RUN UP ON YOU WHILE YOUR'RE WALKING IN THE OFFICE..THE SUSPECTS WERE CONSIDERED ARMED AND DANGEROUS.. DAYS LATER AFTER WE RECIEVED THE LETTER MY CAR WE BROKEN INTO THE DESTROED EVERYTHING THEY MUST GOT ANGRY CAUSE THEY COULDNT FIND ANYTHING AND JUST WENT CRAZY IN MY CAR I WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNING TO FIND MY CAR DOOR WIDE OPEN GLOVE COMPARMENT OPEN AND MY CAR PAPERS AND EVERYTHING THROWN EVERYWHERE TAKE NOTE IT WAS MY RENTAL CAR A 2011 DODGE AVENGER IF IT HAD ACTUALLY BEEN MY CAR THEY MIGHTVE WOULDNT GOT SOMETHING. SO I CALLED THE COPS TO REPORT THE INCIDENT MEANWHILE A LADY WAS WALKING OUT HER APARTMENT AND WALKED TO HER CAR THAT WAS PARKED BEHIND MINES AND SHE WAS GETTING READY TO PUT HER LIL BOY IN THE CAR AND SHE BURST OUT SCREAMING I JUMPED LOOKING BACK LIKE WHAT THE HELL GOING ON SHE SCREAMING THEY TOOK EVERYTHING THATS WHEN I LOOKED CLOSELY AT HER CAR AND WHERE SHE WAS PARKED WHICH WAS IN THE VISITORS SO THAT MEAN SHE WAS A GUEST OF SOMEONE AND SHE HAD A RENTAL CAR AND HER LICENSE PLATES READ NEW YORK SO SHE WAS HERE VISITING HER PEOPLE AND HER CAR GOT BROKE INTO. I WENT OVER TO INFORM HER THAT THE COPS WERE ON THEIR WAY AND ASKED HER WHAT THEY TAKE SHE SAID HER GPS THAT SHE RENTED TO GET DOWN HERE TO TEXAS HER LAPTOP AND HER SON HAD A PORTABLE DVD PLAYER SHE BOUGHT FOR HIM FOR THE ROAD TRIP.. I WANTED TO CRY NOT ONLY WAS SHE GOING TO HAVE A HARD TIME GETTING BACK HOME FROM TEXAS TO NEW YORK BUT SHE WAS GOING TO HAVE A HARD TIME WITH THE BABY THAT LONG DRIVE CAUSE HE HAS NO ENTERTAINMENT. THE COPS CAME WROTE A REPORT AND TOLD US TO BE CAREFUL AND SORRY FOR THE MISHAP THEY OING THEIR BEST TO FIND THE GUYS I SAID HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE THEY ARE HERE DURINF THE NIGHT BUT THE POLICE NOT HERE DURING THE NIGHT SO WHERE YOU GONE FIND THEM AT AT YOUR HOUSE??I FELT SO UNSAFE AFTER THIS MY HUSBAND WAS SO SCARED TO LEAVE ME AT HOME AND BY THIS TIME I WAS 3 MONTHS PREGNANT.WE STARTED A COUNTDOWN TO JULY 31ST..THANK GOD HE PROTECTED US FROM THESE MONSTERS.