#I've got that shit down
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i really am the definition of wasted potential.
#lily talks#don't mind me I can't sleep#sorry for being gloomy on main#sometimes I think about how fucking great I could be at things without the anxiety and depression#because there are so many things I *could* do successfully if I just fucking managed to get out of bed consistently#or not be exhausted from the most fundamental things#But unfortunately I spend my days so desperate trying to *not think* that I procrastinate everything I could do#I don't know how I am supposed to handle anything on too of dealing with my own head#and anyone I meet is always so shocked when I fuck up the most basic things because unfortunately I've mastered *pretending* to be competen#I've got that shit down#Same with being the token optimistic person#I am very Fine (tm) always and if I'm not it's a conscious choice 99% of the time so that people think I'm normal#Because obviously no one is always doing well#But yeah it leads people to thinking I got everything under control and that I'm bound to do something fantastic with the brain the world#Has given me#Unfortunately it only spends its time getting into petty fights with itself and figuring out every type of self sabotage under the sun#... I don't know where i was going with this...#anyway#Sorry to anyone who ever had or still has expectations of me#I am committed to the failgirl lifestyle
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genuinely would love for some of the "both parties are the same" people to name me a single election in the entirety of the twenty first century where the outcome for the country wouldn't have been better if a democrat had won
#personal#like come on we all know shit would have been amazingly better if the supreme court hadn't couped al gore#kerry would have also been infinitely better than bush too#i'm very glad we got two years of obama rather than a mccain presidency or a romney presidency#and honestly if you think hillary would have been worse than trump or that biden has been worse than trump#or that kamala will somehow be worse than trump 2.0 as he attempts to install himself as fascist dictator for life#you're not a serious person and shouldn't be allowed outside without an adult and also should probably get smacked in the head#with a cast iron pan#every american presidential election for my entire life has very obviously been 'the democrat is infinitely better than the republican'#and has only gotten moreso as i've grown up#hell every election in general is still showing that dems are better than republicans#democrats control the house? they get stuff down#republicans control the house? they go to recess early and are legit gearing up to shut down the government in october#(of an ELECTION YEAR god please let republicans singlehandedly shut down the government a month before election day)#(as a republican tries to take back the white house please god it would be so fucking funny to watch them deal with that)#but like yeah literally vote blue no matter who because i've been alive for twenty five whole years#and in those twenty five years never once has the republican been remotely the better option or even the 'lesser of two evils' option
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then... how much pink will eventually mask the blue?
#project sekai#pjsk#mizuki akiyama#mizu5#nightcord at 25:00#25 ji nightcord de#my art#hi guys i know i'm insanely late but i've been looping bake no hana and posting about mizu5 an insane amnt#and i finally got motivation to actually draw wowww wowww#anyways. as a trans person she makes me insanely depressed. i understand her struggles i get her so bad.#i broke down crying last night thinking about mizu5 too hard#also transphobes go kys if you find this don't say shit i will maul you fuck off
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figuring out markers slowly but surely
#my art#dc comics#dc fanart#dcu#batman#jason todd#red hood#this was also torso practice i hate drawing abs but now i think i got a thing down#i've also been using my kneaded eraser? i love it actually#i hadn't touched it for months so it's sticky as shit but that's okay. probably
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commissioning @vos-videmus was a life changing experience. forcing you all to look at this immediately (please don't repost or crop out the watermarks. thanks 👍)
#kitakata sensei#lost judgment#judgment#kuwana jin#jin kuwana#i've been meaning to comm a kitakata render for ages and i finally just decided to do it#like i'm sorry the in-game flashbacks are just NOT flattering 😭#but this...... (touches my screen tenderly)#when i got the update in dms for this i got so flustered i had to force myself to do a few more housechores to calm down#anyway regardless to say i am very happy rn#he is also photocard shaped so i can hopefully eventually carry him around irl too#when i actually get my shit together and print it that is#it feels kind of illegal to see kuwana without facial hair which is funny considering that yamakoji is clean shaven most times ive seen him#i should... definitely do this more.... pull up to someone's dms comm something from one of my fics...#maybe i'm getting ahead of myself. i'm just so excited and happy#i love him and want all my kuwana mutuals to see him too
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So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?
Things I need to do:
Finish reading icebound land
Make a whole lotta art that I promised people
Research study abroad programs
At least one Dutch lesson a day
Keep my room clean
Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)
My math homework
Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane
Eat at 7pm
Various things I enjoy as to not go insane
All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00
So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks
But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup
#“but you never actually do that stuff! you just sit and scroll!”#yeah cause if I'm not doing what I need to I'm not Allowed to do anything else#but I'm just. too tired. to do what I need yo#I hate high school#rambles#adhd#executive dysfunction#<- I've heard that this kinda mental math can be a symptom of those things? idk#im so tired#burnout#adhd burnout#(????? I think????)#high school#I'm just so tired of all of this#the sun is going down way too early and I barely speak at all at school and I never finish work early anymore and the teen center is loud#and I still want to be active in the fandom but I don't have time to make posts anymore#and I don't have any in person friends anymore and I don't know when the last time I got a hug was#and I'm just. so. tired. my room is clean and I have good grades and I talk to my friends everyday and I shower routinely#why the hell am I so stressed#I do everything I'm supposed to do#I just want to go somewhere else man#The Netherlands hopefully#I wanna actually DO something#go on a trip for band#not just finish the work put in front of me day after day after day after day#I wasn't built for this shit#I'm so fucking tired
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Hello! 🦠 anon here again... I'm not sure if my ask wast sent so im gonna ask again,
What are your headcanons on swatch? Can you tell more of your concept of them? Like how do you view him? I would really appreciate it even it's like small fun facts! thanks a lot :)
you're fine i didn't have art to post so i didn't log in for a few days. uhhhhhh SwatchThoughts(tm):
they're the head butler ofc, but they're also queen's right-hand-man (gender neutral), her #1 bestie. they know everything about her, even about lancer before the events of ch2. they will literally do anything she asks and anything that will entertain her. it's tiring and they do complain sometimes but they enjoy their work, they know what a kind person she really is and that she's generally a good ruler, so they like to make her happy :)
weirdly competitive. nobody beats them in queen's monthly fruit-smashing competition and if you somehow do, they're a good sport but You Will Not Win Next Month. You Won't.
workaholic. oh god they wear so many hats in the mansion and they're so tired all the time, it's a miracle they get everything done
the color cafe is a regular butler cafe up front and a host club in the back. a handful of the birds, including swatch, can be paid (at quite high rates, swatch especially) to join you for drinks or sweets, flirt with you, cuddle - p much have a sweet and lightly romantic time. you would not believe how much money spamton dumped into the host club back in the day. their undisputed #1 customer even 20 years later
i generally view them as very asexual (demi specifically. + nonbinary) but they still love their host work! it's fun, they like making people happy and playing at being a romantic. and the sweets. they like the sweets just as much 🍰
damn good chef and an even better baker
very polite but short tempered 😔 they're quick to rough up people who don't follow the rules or who just personally annoy them/cause chaos, and they always win
they are the tallest swatchling, at 9 feet tall. Beast. good for carrying queen on their broad shoulders though!
their feathers, which are all slightly curly, have a slight iridescence to them that tint, along with accents on their outfit, in accordance to their mood or the paint they've been drinking . the default is pink
dressed to the nines 24/7. even on their time off.
they adore their birds. they spawned each and every single one of them (the ones in their own flock that work for queen, anyway), they know all their names even when everyone's the same color and they remember what's going on in their lives. which is impressive when there's at least a couple hundred of them ;;;
their favorite flavor of paint is dusty lilac
their favorite normal flavor is strawberry
as an art program they not only create things for lightners but also for queen ! they design a lot of things for her with her input, and with as quickly as they can draw things directly into the dark world they're always working on things for her, while dressing up their cafe for themed events in-between.
the underside of their tail is a swatchbook
they love being pet please pet them please please please p
#deltarune#swatch#ask#anonymous#anon#swatchlings#headcanons#its fun to make headcanon lists. its also an excuse to link a bunch of old art dhjdsbfhj#i've drawn like half of this already but it's nice to have it all together like this#tldr they're a big sweetie but with a short temper and a bad sweet tooth. and they're drawing near-constantly#i'm sure there's a bunch of really obscure little headcanons i could throw in here but if i list every single one of them i can hunt down#this post will be 2 miles long#shit like 'they love really frilly dresses' and 'they have exactly one (1)stuffed animal their birds gave them they pretend they dont Adore#(its a floppy little bottom-heavy plush crow with button eyes. one of the swatchlings made it for the host club's sleepover event.)#(cinnamon thought the customers would like it better seeing all these huge birdfolk with cute little stuffed animal buds. and she was Right#(and swatch just. never got rid of it. they love their little floppy guy look at that their bird made that for them they gave it a bowtie)#it sits on the headboard of their bed so it doesn't get lost among the blankets they nest in. -- swatchlings sleep in nests also#huge nests made of blankets and pillows. let them loose in a Homegoods and just see what fucking happens#see what i mean i can just keep fucking going forever. this is the shit i think about when im like. doing dishes#this is what i mean when i say i'm rotating my blorbos in my head#thinkin bout random ass headcanons that dont have anything to do with the source material. they're just fun. for funsies :)
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more scribbles to throw in the salad
#ft. frank being a disney princess. except better#have mercy on me my experience with buterflies consists of VERY simple scribbles#the first one is just me trying to practice the neighbors tho#ive got barnarby down to a science and im getting there with julie#but howdy is giving me trouble#i've barely attempted eddie so far. he gives me issues#idk what it is about that funky felt man but i Cant Draw Him#i got him right once!!! Once!!!!#scribble salad#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#welcome home fanart#ah shit have i been forgetting to add my art tag to my latest posts.#softly but with feeling: ....fuck#now im gonna have to go back and edit all of em#but thats a problem for future me! after i sleep! im making these tags at 7 am! i have not slept!
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You can talk about how much you enjoyed the film without bashing the show and you can talk about how much you love the show without bashing the films.
Of course, everyone has the right to voice their opinions and express that they disliked this or that.
But you look hella stupid when you're making ignorant takes and saying stuff like "omg astruc's writing is so shit lollllll love the film" or "the film gives us what WE want unlike the show lollll"
Both are different with their own sets of restrictions and budgets and having different creative teams and direction. The show is still ongoing and has not finished whilst the film can only rely on becoming a hit so that they can continue and flesh out the story in sequels.
#ml fandom salt#ml awakening#ml awakening spoilers#miraculous ladybug#miraculous ladybug and chat noir#ml spoilers#i've been seeing a lot of salt on both medias#some criticism and takes on the film and show I do agree with but many people are taking it way too far#i just really REALLY hate it when fans blame the writers and creators for things that isn't actually their fault that is caused by the#production team or other outside factors#i just find it so annoying that everyone's got that desperate need to bring one of them down just to lift the other up#like do you not have enough positive reasonings to enjoy what you enjoy without shitting on anything else????
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giving psych another go after having watched the first season and a bit a couple years ago before stopping because I hadn't really been feeling it
only like six or seven eps in this time, and I am enjoying it, and I would like to stick with it this time, but god, now I do remember why I gave up on it in the first place. for all the show has going for it (which is a lot!) so much of the tone (and shawn is usually the biggest offender) falls back on those really insufferable attitudes from the mid ’00s of like. hit on every woman you see, getting laid is always the biggest priority. kneejerk disdain for anything nerdy or "uncool." I'm a guy and that means I care about porn and sports and that's it
#like yeah it's fun when shawn gets blindsided by a woman (bc she's hot ofc) only to get a reveal later that she was the bad guy#but also I'd rather he just. treated women like people in the first place lmao#and I'm sure he does later! like everything I've seen of late series him and juliet looks good and intriguing#but we're starting from such a rough place. and like. is the show aware?#bc then you've got gus who doesn't conform to those same masculine behaviors (often to set up a punchline for shawn)#but gus himself doesn't feel like a punchline or stereotype. he feels well-rounded and is often validated by the circumstances#it's just bizarre. wondering if this is one of those cases where s1 of a show feels least tonally accurate#e.g. how it's initially pitched or what it plays up for viewership or attention vs. how it settles into itself down the line#but man I'm over s1 shawn. like I'm watching the convention ep and he's being so unnecessarily dickish and dismissive to gus and everyone#because it's nerd shit? it's uncool? this just feels like such an outdated sensibility#(which it is. it's 18 years old at this point. these sensibilities are now legal adults)#but I'm glad we as a culture moved past this energy and I'm ready for the show to do the same#psych#kayla posts
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*voice of boy who just experienced romantic/sexual attraction for the first time* did you guys see that. that was insane. wdym you live like this
#um?????#i've had “crushes” before but that was just guessing#it wasn't until *checks calendar* two days ago that i discovered what y'all are talking about#that was legit insane#also very proud of my initiative. underneath it all i'm quite bold. got his number (re: asked him if he wanted my number which is much more#fun. also he later told me that it made him blush which is cute) and he danced with me.#and it was such a vibe???#like. i've been flirted with before#specifically a guy asked to dance with me (we were at a dance) and like. i did but it was really not it. i'm very enthusiastic when dancing#and there to have as much fun as i can and he was doing that awkward shuffle step thing and i could tell he wasn't really into dancing and#it felt he was bringing me down. dampening the vibe.#but with this guy we were vibing like crazy. he liked dancing! there was energy! he twirled me! it was insane you guys#also he has the cutest little southern accent#i didn't notice at first but my friend pointed it out to me and y'all it's adorable#got his spotify and we like a lot of the same music too#unfortunately he lives 2-3 states over (depending how you count)#we've been texting though#i met him at my competition so if we both win again i'll see him next year lol#finn says shit
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I technically only have 8 scenes left of this book draft. That's fucking insane.
#and then like 3.5 essays but that's supplemental#the next chapter is gonna be the most annoying to finish of the bunch but then it's just like. WRAPPING IT UP#AHHHHHH#I AM SO CLOSE TO BEING DONE#HOLY SHIT#do intend to finish while camping this week#it would be so great#and then I have to EDIT BUT! I ALREADY GOT THAT FIGURED OUT I'VE GOT NOTES#okay gonna go finish this scene so I can be down to seven#megs is writing
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The Hazbin Hotel has one of those fancy rectangular dining room tables. Charlie makes them all eat dinner together every night and every night Charlie sits on one end while Alastor sits on the other. Everything is going fine until Lucifer shows up. They all sit down for dinner, Charlie sitting on one end and LUCIFER on the other. No one really notices at first because it's just a seat (except Husk who KNOWS that this isn't going to end well). Then Alastor shows up. Everyone except Lucifer realizes immediately what's going to happen. Alastor and Lucifer get into their usual dick measuring contest. "It's literally just a seat" "Okay then move" "NO FUCK YOU". Charlie obviously offers up her seat but both of them refuse and agree that she deserves to sit there. They will NOT stop arguing and talk like adults so Charlie treats them like children. She takes the chair and neither of them sits at the end. They all finish their dinner in silence.
The next night when everyone goes to eat dinner the regular table is replaced by a huge round one so nobody sits on the end and they're all "equals".
Charlie knights of the round tables her fucking hotel
#radioapple alternative#Alastor shoves Lucifer off the seat and sits down#Lucifer is pissed off and ends up sitting in his lap#they both take this as a challenge#like they're literally playing gay chicken#if either of them leaves this chair they lose#everyone is wildly uncomfortable#except Angel who thinks this is the funniest shit and Nifty who's already planning fanfiction for them in her head#Husk just wants a fucking drink#hazbin hotel#funny#charlie hazbin hotel#alastor hazbin hotel#lucifer hazbin hotel#husk hazbin hotel#I mean they're all there but I don't mention them in the post so I guess I won't tag them lol#I've got to stop thinking about this shit at 3 am#hazbin hotel headcanon#it's like that one dumbass part of hoo with percy and jason but worse
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Oooo you want to tell us more about fated bonds so baaaaaaad OOOOOOOOO
DW I HAVE NOT ABANDONED IT YET! IT'S COOKIN i think
The amount of docs I have written for this is immeasurable. And the amount of other brainrots plaguing my mind is also immeasurable.
Since the game Ren's playing is called Fated Bonds and the plot is focusing on Ren being in that game, I have now named the au 'Happy End Achiever' to make things easier.
I just need to figure out how the Fated Bonds plot is going to go so that I know what Ren is messing with. I know how his development with Akechi is going to go, I got it planned out and idk what else to tell you other than Ren Cringefail Amamiya- no wait - It's Akira Cringefail Kurusu now.
#kuru's mailbox#persona 5#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#goro akechi#akeshu#shuake#I also have another story in mind which I wanna do for spooky month and I've been shifting between writing both of them#got the vibe that ren would try messin around and be silly until shit goes down and he be like “oh fuck”#happy end achiever
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"Don't give patients the option to do the physical paperwork, tell them they need to do online. Other doctor's offices don't give them the choice."
As someone who works the front desk: I hate apps and patient portals so fucking much.
#text post#shark thoughts#they're a GREAT convenience when people do them I'll admit it. but when people forget or don't or don't want to#so now we're behind on the appointment cuz I need to sell them on the portal or walk them through step by step#and so my manager is breathing down my neck because HER manager is breathing down her neck due to 'portal engagement metrics'#i get it some asshole who owns a lot of the company spent a lot of money on the patent portal. I've got shit to do!!!!
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hey all sorry for. the radio silence. here have a Jin as compensation
#xenoblade chronicles#xenoblade chronicles 2#xc2#xbc2#xenoblade#xenoblade jin#jin xenoblade#xenoblade spoilers#xenoblade art#brother why you so transgender#i will give every male character top surgery scars actually#(ive been so busy with other shit though that i've hardly had time to make pieces#let alone something finished :sob:)#(but i finally sat down a few days ago and found a brush i really like n ive been having a great time with it)#(got another piece in the works rn!! gonna be coloured too :])
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