#I've been watching Down To The Bone
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I've broken a toe. One time in my life. And even that is only a maybe. So hearing Aabria say, "in my head, everyone's had their nose rebroken" made my soul leave my body for a second.
#watching adventuring party because i don't have time to watch any tlovm eps before i go get my hair done#i should elaborate: it was because of the instant fear lol#like i know i am pretty fortunate in never breaking any bones that matter#because let's be real a toe break is stupid#all you do is limp around and they can't do anything about it#and i had my mother in law who i don't actually know what she does but it's something at a hospital#tell me that my toe was PROBABLY broken and not to go to a doctor unless something which i can't remember because it's been years now#because unless it was like really serious they wouldn't be able to do anything#with the amount of times i've fallen down my stairs (still only twice in a year but that seems high)#i'm sure that i will not continue to be so fortunate#jeez i'm jinxing myself time to scoot down my stairs for a few weeks just to be safe
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sickening how Yang Chun remembers when Jang Hyun and Ryang Eum first came to him, and how Ryang Eum would stick to Jang Hyun's side like everything he knew depended on it. sickening how he saw that, as the years went by, and knew, what Ryang Eum had grown to want. especially sickening how he looks him in the eye, when Ryang Eum has come to ask him to try and change Jang Hyun's mind so he will not get hurt, and tells him that the only way Jang Hyun sees him is as the friend and brother he swore to protect. so, he must not be greedy. he must not allow himself liberty to show his ache. he must be quiet, and swallow it all. medically unsafe how Ryang Eum looks back at him, like he has been stripped to the bone and laid bare, and he cannot speak. not at first. there is terror there, and then despite it he must prove, to Yang Chun, that he does not dare to be greedy. say that he cannot, even if the opportunity was given him, and that he told him about Gil Chae bc if anything happened to her worse would happen to Jang Hyun. audit/investigation worthy violation how we know, and Yang Chun knows, the rest of what he does not say, that if anything happened to Jang Hyun worse would happen to him, and yet we are forced to acknowledge that we cannot do anything. it is left to Jang Hyun, to hold the world of a heart in his hand while he offers up his own. i think i'll need three to six business days to process that
#tv: my dearest#my dearest#mbc my dearest#namgoong min#nam goong min#ahn eun jin#kim yoon woo#kdrama#local gay watches My Dearest (and is subsequently f*cked up).txt#local gay watches k-dramas.txt#as a queer person when Yang Chun said that i felt like i had been stabbed. literally felt like i had been outed seen clear through to#the bone by this man and there was no way i could respond to that. i was scared af for Ryang Eum ffs if Yang Chun knows how obvious#is his want. how much does it leak from him the way he cannot have him#broke down then and there ok i've had this paused for ten minutes trying to compose myself and it's hard. God. they're hitting me#in every way they can think of
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for a moment I thought they REALLY were going to do the ridiculous “run through an airport to declare your love” trope in Grey’s Anatomy. I should’ve had more faith LMAO. the fact that Nick called Meredith as a last-ditch attempt and she hung up on him?? fucking glorious.
#i don't have anything in particular against nick. i don't think i've had a singular thought about him the entire time he's been here lmao#rn i'm not even confident his name is nick and i'm not confusing him with someone else#and i just watched the episode añslkdfjasdf#anyway. my point is that i'm not enjoying nick being a fail i'm enjoying the scenario of meredith saying ''nah. fuck that. not worth it''#iykwim. i just hope there's no last minute off/onscreen reunion to throw a bone a la callie and arizona#or even jackson and april. i'd admit that one had more development at least (plus it#negated the SAME FUCKING THING with april and that other dude of his whose name i can't remember#which was just... ridiculous. but still. c'mon grey's. i trust you to be down on love dammit xDD#grey's anatomy#talking to the void#my thoughts#grey's anatomy thoughts#meredith grey#ETA: how did i forget karev and izzy omg now THAT was ridiculous and out of nowhere lmao#and no i'm not saying it because i wanted him to stay or his new ship to go on. as i said: down on love xDD
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Someone else saw The Circle too 😭 I kid you not, I remember nothing about the film other than I came out of it going "what a massive waste of my time"
Oh, how I wish it was a better movie than what it was. The first time I heard about it was when my dad dragged me to see Kong: Skull Island with him and when the trailer started, I was immediately excited because Emma Watson was my fave actress as a kid and it also had Patton Oswalt and this was during my aos era, so I was already thrilled but then!!! it had Karen Gillan???? Who played my beloved blorbo Amy Pond? I was almost sold. And then, there was a voice over that just had me like "I know this voice I know this voice who the hell is this person talking I kNOW them - FINN?!?!?" and you know by the point I saw John Boyega, I was sold.
To this day, I think the trailer was a better film than the film itself. And I think a huge part of what made that movie such a let down was the trailer itself, because the trailer made it seem like so much more of a suspense/thriller and...what we got was decidedly not that.
(there's also the fact that the trailer made it seem like John was going to be properly in the movie and....not just in two scenes.)
Inexplicably, despite the fact that I think it's somehow the most boring film put together that painfully underutilizes its stellar cast (seriously can Karen and John do another movie together? I deserve that), my mom still loves it and thus I've seen it probably twice? More times, at least, than I wanted to. Either that, or that first time felt SO long that it seemed like two times.
#the trailer makes me so sad rlly bc there's clearly the bones for a good movie there! a genuine thriller that explores how little is private#about human life anymore#but that's just not what we wound up with#ask box#jubileen#I think it was after that and my many failed attempts to watch things for iain de caestecker and elizabeth henstridge that I became#far pickier about the movies I watched for the actors I like#which is why there's many movies of Oscar's#i haven't watched (or at least partially why. I've been banned from movies where he dies. understandably. and I don't wanna watch him play#bad guy so that really dwindles things down y'know!)#(but ofc I say that and genuinely love xmen apocalypse. the xmen hyperfix just comes first ig)
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As a Kpop fan now, if you've been here since at least 2021/2022ish~ you've outlived 2 apps. V Live and Universe, congrats, you don't get anything, but you can say you've outlived them.
#congrats on outliving two apps#rip universe app#rip vlive#the reason i say 2021 is because vlive has been dying since at least January 2021 - we no longer had vlive+ but i can't remember when#they deactivated that feature but wild#universe down#as a uni (ptg stan) this is the funniest tag i've gotten to say#i'd say dance on their graves but vlive was such a queen and we lost her- i loved her- she made my days easier... i would watch vlives in#class all the time- and now we can't- and we got so many good things from universe even if it didn't mean physical releases- it was still#nice- we had sth similar to bubble and we could talk to our idols ( i didn't do this but i loved seeing the translations on twt )#hybe is seeing each app as a cash grab and i cry sometimes- i can't forgive them- but anyways enough about that-#i feel like a fossil lowkey- it's not often i feel like a fossil in the kpop community but 8 yrs this year def takes a toll on your bones-#will i forever be keeping the uni app and vlive app? yes- they will forever live rent free- i will miss these eras as a kpop stan#achievement#outliving#congratulations#i've had this queued since feb. 17th when the messages from idols officially ended- it's so sad esp cause kyunbebes will have no access#to talking to him if starship finds a new way to make a new app because they won't include him 😭 i hope by the time this queues sony#comes up with a solution and treats our boy right- also ever think about all the idols that enlisted beforehand? like vlive died while they#were serving!? it's so sad- anyways i'm done rambling- pls enjoy this queued post#queued post#yes the app doesnt officially close til 5/31 @ 4 am et- but the messages being gone = huge loss#sorry besties- i seriously am gonna miss both apps i already grieved the former 😔
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The humour of me being in too much pain to concentrate on my reading about disability justice...
#was going to say irony but i don't think that's irony#literally it's been so bad for the past few solid days. i've been stretching in the mornings and watching my posture#and i haven't been carrying anything at all or doing basically any physical activity.#maybe i need physical activity. but literally just walking puts me in so much pain. WALKING.#standing up hurts and sitting down is almost worse. it feels like awful aching pain in my bones.#top middle of my spine and the backs of my ribs. it's always right between my shoulder blades and i can't reach it#tried everything i can do for myself at home... i think i'm going to go to class tomorrow w a menthol patch and some robax#i can't carry my laptop tomorrow bc i'll be crying by the time i get on the subway home...#at least we'll be talking about disability! i.... guess i'm disabled.....? but all my disabilities are invisible so rip.#drawing today was probably a mistake but i was already in pain before i opened the program so.#went to bed like this woke up like this. every day every day every day every day
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I miss when Hulu used to have a comments section under every video, there was always something interesting (in a human behavior curiosity kind of way) about scrolling down to see usually an absolutely ridiculous collection of people having a rowdy open forum discussion about something you just watched that you had a completely neutral non-reaction to
#unfortunately - everything still trends toward homogenization#people especially tech comanies can't just have their own fucign unique thing. they have to look and act like every other service#to ''''compete''' apparently (even though like... wouldn't having unique features be instead a NOVEL draw to your specific product? wouldn't#you want to stand out???)#Like OKCupid completely over-simplfying their site into bare bones sleek nothingness and taking away all the features that made it unique#in any way (high customization - various personality ranking scales and a LOT of various visible data/information) .. because oh yeah#actually we have to be tinder and just quick emoji blurb swipe swipe#Hulu trying to be netflix and taking away anything that made it stand out in any posiive way (comments section.. other things that I forget#since I've been using it since like 2009 or something)#Youtube.... everything youtube does.... god.......#All social media sites are exactly the same now with extremely minor differences and even then still frequently implement samey#features to try and close those differences#etc. etc.#ANYWAY . i think also the hulu comments sections were facebook linked - like..one of the ways you could actually verify yourself to#leave a comment was having a facebook login (AT LEAST in like 2010.. I don't remember if they changed this at some point)#so you could also usually (I think..?? again.. if I'm rmembering correclty) you could get to someone's facebook profile#from the comments section sometime. I used to watch stuff and then scroll down to see what The Masses were saying and sometimes#someone's comment would be so strange I'd like.. go investigate them as a person#see what type of posts they make on their personal facebook which was always way too public with none of their information#privated of course lol
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"Now what kind of crimes are we getting up to tonight."
#tag dumps go brrr#❋ OOC; Come and get that honey - Sweeter than I ever knew ❋#❋ IC; I've been a mess blame it on stress - Watching my step by not making friends ❋#❋ VISAGE; The forest that once was green was colored black by those killing machines ❋#❋ DASH GAMES; Now I can't say no - I'm losing control ❋#❋ MEMES; All my aching bones are trembling and I may yet fall apart ❋#❋ CRACK; I don't wanna come down - I'm floating on strange clouds ❋#❋ CYNO; The light tells my eyes turn right to the sky - and just watch as the sun shines bright ❋#❋ ALBEDO; Dust to dust our bones will rust and we shall start again ❋#❋ COLLEI; I'll keep you safe in these arms of mine - Hold onto me ❋#❋ AL-HAITHAM; I shall not look at your thorns on array ❋
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enough about taylor swift already. reblog and tag the smallest, least known artist you listen to
#The Ellie Badge#find them on bandcamp#he's the husband of my old roommate's best friend from college which is how I found the band#and it became one of my all time favorites#sort of garage band emo rock. very raw lyrics that I just love#I love the sound I love his style of writing I love everything about them they are Not well known. listen to the Ellie Badge#they have songs on youtube but the algorithm has to be shaken and yelled at extensively to get it to show them to you bc small band#that shares a name with disney song#excellent writing about grief. see: Only One (everywhere I go I feel my dead parent watching me from heaven and the guilt is killing me)#Hospital Song (your death made me a better person in the end but I'd rather be a total piece of shit and still have you alive)#Looking For You (our pets are waiting for you to come home and I can't explain to them that you're gone) (this was the first song I heard)#Heat Death (you're dead our hometown is dead everyone I know is moving away. the restaurants are shutting down. everything is ending)#This artist is the most lovely vibrant and wonderful and positive person to be around irl!! He puts all the angst in his music I guess!!!!#love him#other favorites: Godspeed Little Brothers#Bones (incredible breakup song for God)#Blood (goes with Bones. “I know that I've been everything from skin and bones to gasoline but nothing ever mattered like this did”)#811#The Shakes (has made me cry)#IS THIS THE WAY IT'S ALWAYS BEEN IS THERE NO PRAYER OR MEDICINE THAT CAN SPLIT THIS MOBIUS STRIP TEAR APART ALL OF THIS BULLSHIT#CAUSE EVERY DAY THE RICH GET RICHER WHILE WE KILL OURSELVES ON BLOOD AND LIQUOR#Everything I do I do it for you gonna leave you in a world where the oceans are blue#ok starting to cry I think that's enough song recs
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Very, very curious, you watch any new movies or shows that you want an excuse to talk about?
I wish, Bexxx. College is kicking my ass in a Very Specific Way. Ive been really selective about my free time, and I'll probably explode if I don't draw fanart, but I don't get anything out of movies and tv unless I pay full attention to them. So usually, I listen to podcasts and video essays while I draw/work on class projects. In fact, I think the most recent New Movie I watched was Emesis Blue last November (which I think is still really good even for folks not into the source material)
If you're curious about what sort of videos/podcasts I've been listening to, though, I'll list a few:
Draftsmen, hosted by Stan Prokopenko and Marshall Vandruff.
A very good art podcast that focuses less on technical skills and more on the sort of advice that artists of all levels might be looking for, but can't usually find in a book (Examples from episodes that would have interested me when I started getting serious about learning to draw: pros and cons of going to art school, should you study multiple artforms, ethics of tracing, building a portfolio, having separate professional identities, ect)
A Normal Creepypasta Retrospective, by hazel
I can't really say much about this without spoiling it, because the gimmick is SO fun. But it is unfiction (fiction presented as real for entertainment purposes)
No One Can Find This Creepy Dinosaur Game, by Sagan Hawkes
Pretty similar to the last one, but about a piece of lost media, rather than creepypasta
The Mysterious Rabbit Hole of Youtube's Strangest Anime, by CrunchyBagels
Technically about Nyan~ Neko Sugar Girls, the most infamous fanime still on youtube, but goes in depth on aspects of late 00's-early 10's Weeb Culture that I found particularly fascinating
Look Here: A Deep Dive On Eye Exam Landscapes, by Trey the Explainer
As it says on the tin. The video is just about the history of the various landscapes shown in Corneal Topography machines, but its incredibly fascinating!
#gopher rambles#sorry bexxx its been a while since I've properly sat down to watch anything. There's a few movies that have come out in the past year or tw#that I've been INTERESTED in seeing. but I dont really have anyone else in my life who'd be interested in seeing them. so I really dont#end up prioritizing them over stuff that I can watch while spending time with my dad and my girlfriend or my sibling :P#closest I have is that I rewatched Bone Tomahawk recently. Nothing really to say other than the fact that it still slaps incredibly hard
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#tag talk#watched “it follows” and I shouldn't have. didn't know it was horror going in but after a few minutes I did and I should have stopped#I'm apparently still not 100% past self-terrifying as a form of self harm. I knew I shouldn't have and I kept watching anyway#you know. most people don't know what terror is. they know fear. they know worry. they know anxiety.#terror is something different. I wish I could describe it but you really only know it when you have felt it.#that freezing up of your body. I guess some people get terror in different ways though. I freeze. others fight or flight. I just freeze.#that sense of helpless anticipation as you experience the certainty that the object of your terror is approaching. inevitably.#why fight it? you fucking can't. no matter what you do it'll always get you. it's stronger. more powerful.#hmmm. csa moment oops. I am tempted to make a joke here but I don't want to deflect from my issues.#I have trauma and I wish I didn't. I have hurt that I don't even consciously remember but my body does.#I do not have emotional trauma in the way that people have survivors guilt and feeling like it was their fault. any of those surface emotion#not calling it shallow. but like. it's like when you don't look at the needle and you don't even notice the skin prick but you feel it#you feel it hit your vein and you feel that deep body response that Something Is Not Right.#like when I got my wisdom teeth pulled and I elected to not go under for it so I was numbed but conscious for it.#part way through my body started uncontrollably shaking (well. sort of controlled. I'm good at that).#I didn't feel the pain. I wasn't afraid. but my body was feeling objective physical trauma and I had the response anyway.#I don't remember really. I don't have the surface level pain responses to the trauma.#but deep down my body knows something is wrong and I can't stop my bones from shaking even though I don't feel the pain.#hmmm. I should talk to my next therapist about this.#Lear chased off our last therapist when I was having my dissociative week after watching The Hunt.#which. tbh good riddance she was not equipped to handle us in the slightest. and we're talking to our friend/gf(?) again which is really nic#she and Lear had a few solid conversations too. which was funky cause before he snapped he didn't want anything to do with her#but we kinda had a moment where he realized he's just as fucked up as I am just differently.#anyone reading these tag talks might remember so I won't go over it again.#anyway. I'm not sleeping tonight. I think I should start taking the full pill instead of just the half. but it's just suppressing symptoms#I'm acting up because of my inner state. or maybe my inner state is tumultuous because of my outer condition? idfk#either way I'm suffering over here#not a sui risk but damn#I'm gonna finish patching the pair of pants I've been not working on for the past months
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Motherhood had altered your 'turn-ons'; not that you lusted after mankind as a whole-- Kento was enough.
His cologne, split with the smooth tang of sweat on work-ripened skin. His hands, alternately gentle and rough, peach-handling or blade-wielding. The authority only the world saw; the authority only you felt.
Dressed-up, dressed-down, undressed, dressing you down, undressing you. Breaking you only to reform you with gold, tied with red thread, whispering you to completion in the dark sacred night.
So (you corrected yourself, as you watched Kento jog after your daughter at the indoor play centre) motherhood had not altered your turn-ons; it had added to them. Stacking high now, you considered the tower of your adoration was just as likely to be stable, as unstable; its endurance or toppling entirely at Kento's mercy.
The arrival at soft-play was a sensory nightmare-- one of many you could tolerate as a mother when you wouldn't have, before.
Obnoxious children's music blared, cut by screams and shouts and cries and calls and whirls and swirls of kids darting and weaving, watched and unwatched, by helicopters or the disinterested. The cocktail was potent, spiked. Your headache started behind your left eye.
Kento saw you. He was unfairly loaded at his own insistence, with change-bag and snack-bag and car keys and your daughter, planking and chattering, a possessed surfboard beneath his arm.
"Sit down-- have a coffee." Kento rumbled, low and slow, unclipping his watch into your cupped hands as you began to argue. "You've had her all week. You need a break."
"You've been at work all week, Kento, you need a break--"
"Don't argue. You know it's not the same. Sit down. Have a coffee."
He lied to you for your benefit; you could feel the bone-deep weariness of him, surely needing a day of sofa-bound naps over a day of childrearing. Alas; parenthood. And he would continue to take bullets for you, even to his own detriment. You knew this. You had planned ahead for this.
As you peered down at your phone, smiling at an eagerly awaited reply, your daughter piped up, bouncing on little toes, her pigtails bouncing too.
"'lide, daddy. Let's go fast. Faster. Race you."
Kento hummed, smiling. "Slide, you mean?"
"I said it. 'lide." Your daughter moved to dart to the towering play area, a flash of lightning into a maelstrom, and you caught her. Kento was distracted, looking into the swarm of other peoples' children, oddly, as he looked at a swarm of Curses. You whispered into your daughters' ear as Kento slipped his boots off.
"Hey, missus, listen."
Your baby girl perked up, sweet and conspiratorial, goofy-teethed and dimple-cheeked, whispering back.
"What is it, mummy?"
"I've got a surprise for daddy. So don't tell him...come here, mummy needs to whisper."
Lips at an ear; tiny hands clasping over a mouth, fizzlepopping with excitement. A long finger against lips; a little finger against lips. A secret pact.
"Are you ready, young lady? I'll get you in three...two..."
Kento reached down for your daughter, his hands clawed, a wolfish grin on his lips. Your daughter knew what it meant; she shrieked with panicked laughter, bolting. The monster formerly known as 'Daddy' dashed after her.
The coffee was shit; you didn't mind, instead hyperfocused on how Kento and your daughter would dip out of sight into the rainbow maze, only to reappear minutes later, with Kento looking more ravaged each time.
On the first loop round, Kento looked unfazed, unruffled, still clipped in his t-shirt and jeans. You simply admired the sultry half-smile he offered you, and the cling of fabric to his thick biceps, before he swept after your daughter again.
On the fifth loop round, flicks of hair escaped over Kento's forehead, the veins on his arms prominent from throwing and tumbling and monstering. He panted, his muscle so much heavier to carry than your birdlike daughter's personal load. Kento's playful growl, running after your giggling daughter, was deeper; huskier. You squirmed, sipping your shit latte.
On the eleventh loop round, a fine sheen of sweat misted Kento's forehead, a flush dashed on high cheekbones. His broad chest heaved, and he stretched his arms back, cracking his neck from side-to-side, with a groan usually heard only when he exerted himself above you, for less wholesome pleasures.
With furrowed brows, Kento prowled the bottom of the slide, and your daughter shrieked, scrabbling to get away from him as he lunged. Your daughter was bicep-curled up to Kento's face, laughing uproariously at his ferocious tummy-raspberries, before being set free, once more, for the hunt. You could not cope, aching, desperately hoping you had the energy left to sweat for him at the end of the day.
By the twenty-first? twenty-third? twenty-fifth? loop round, Kento jogged to a heavy halt, his shoulder blades taut as he bent double, hands braced against his own knees. You heard him panting, cursing under his breath, one long rusty groan. It was all too much-- Kento needed a break. You were unhinged and unsupervised. Surely there had to be some relief--
"Yo, Mrs.Nanamin! Am I late?"
A vision in peach, Yuuji flopped into the chair opposite you, with hands in his pockets and man-spread with a square-jawed, boyish grin. He stood taller than Kento, now, a full-grown man...but still shrunk beneath Kento's chastisement and lectures.
"Right on time, Yuuji. Are you sure you don't mind? It's all a bit..." You looked into the raucous soft-play, searching for words, "...feral."
Yuuji beamed, ruffling his own hair and kicking his shoes off. "Nah. I was gonna go to the gym anyway, but this seems more fun as workouts go."
You called out to your daughter as she reached the bottom of the slide, and Kento looked up, sweating and exhausted. "Baby! Your big brother's here!"
A gasp of thrill from your daughter, and Kento was all but forgotten by her as she pelted towards Yuuji instead, leaping into his arms. She slapped his scrunched cheeks, aggressively overjoyed.
"Big brother-- big brother-- big brother--"
"Yeah yeah, little sister, little sister-- c'mon squirt, I'm gonna getcha! Hey-- Dad--- uh, Nanamin! Gotta go!"
Kento watched his children run away with dewy eyes, his body still thickened by exercise and heavy breaths. You bit your lip as Kento approached, eyes half-lidded as you drank him in. You watched his Adam's apple bob as he gulped back water and gasped, husky with relief.
"God, I love that boy." Kento rumbled.
You melted to see Yuuji reach the bottom of the slide with your daughter on his lap. "Yeah...me too."
"He's saved my life...three times, now."
You laughed, your eyes dipped, tugging Kento to you by the hem of his t-shirt and beckoning him down with one curled finger.
"Think you'll still have some energy later?" You whispered, your breaths mingling with promise.
Kento's eyes narrowed, glimmering, his nose kissing yours. "For that? Always."
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Okay, you know what, no. Let's talk about this. Let's talk about the fact that a lot of this user base tends to take creatives for granted.
How hard artists and writers have to work to get any sort of support. And just how DRAINING that can be. How crushing it can feel. How depressing it can be to have that spark, that passion, die down into a barely there ember.
“Tumblr is a bad platform for content creators” frankly, content around here isn’t so much created as perpetrated. We commit content.
#ive been lori's editor for years#and I've seen her jump through so many damn hoops#and ive had to watch her burn out so hard she's still trying to recover even as her physical health has gone to hell#i have always been happy to be my friend's editor#to read her work and help it shine#can yall fucking imagine how much it hurts to have that sort of passion to create get ground down to the bone?#so many of yall take creatives for granted#take my FRIENDS for granted#i have watched countless writers and artists struggle under the weight of how this site treats them#and god fucking forbid you're trans#or gay#or black#but yeah sure let's make a joke out of this#funny joke everybody! pagliacci's laughing! it's all okay! :D
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mma!bakugo who just so happens to train at the gym that you part-time at on the weekends (front desk stuff, bookkeeping, etc) and has always been a bit scary from afar bc he's got this constant scowl as if he's got a bone to pick with just about anyone and anything who crosses his path, but his coach (also ur boss) assures you that he's a big softie once you get to know him. you tell him in no uncertain terms that you think you're good, thanks.
mma!bakugo who's always the first one in and the last one out on your shifts, who's got shit manners but always holds the door open for you and sometimes you swear you can catch him watching you as you go about cleaning some of the equipment but goes tomato red whenever you catch him in the act and immediately yeets off to work on drills for about half an hour before he'll glance at you again.
mma!bakugo who doesn't know how good he looks when he's wiping sweat from his chin or chugging water from his massive 2-liter water bottle, a trickle of cold water dripping down his chin to run down his neck, his adam's apple bobbing as he gulps down the water, smacking his lips as he wipes his mouth on the back of his bandaged hand; doesn't notice the way that every girl (and a lot of the guys tbh) are staring at him, but he'll glance towards where he saw you last, standing helping a new guy sign up for the gym membership, smiling and laughing, and he knows it's what you're supposed to do but it doesn't stop the way his gut twists or the way he goes way too hard at the punching bag, hard enough for his coach to hike an eyebrow and ask what's gotten into him today? it's not like him to "lose control" like this
mma!bakugo who never calls you by your name where other ppl can hear, always says like "hey sweetcheeks, can you hand me a water?" or "dollface, can you do me a favor?" and you'd always roll your eyes and remind him that "that's not my name, bakugou-kun," even as you're doing whatever thing he asked for anyway.
mma!bakugo who keeps quiet and watches when a guy tries to hit on you (unsuccessfully) bc he knows you can handle yourself, but the moment the guy reaches out to try and put hands on you, he's on his feet, stalking across the gym to shove his way between the pair of you like "oi. she ain't interested." and by now, everyone's gone quiet, their eyes trained on him and the guy and you; the guy sizes bakugou up, puffing out his chest for a second, but the next, he seems to notice the thick cords of muscles braiding down bakugou's arms, the expertly wrapped knuckles on both his hands, and he puts two and two together fast enough to know that this really isn't a fight he should be picking.
so he scoffs and makes as if he weren't ever really that interested anyway, turning around and muttering beneath his breath that you weren't even that pretty to begin with.
"thanks," you say, but bakugo just frowns and cocks his head.
"don't let anyone talk to you like that, got it?" and there's still that signature grit to his voice, the sharpness to his eyes, but something about it is different today -- it's ever so slightly softer than he usually is. he opens his mouth like he's about to say something more but pauses at the last second and turns around, shoulders a little hunched, and you could swear you can see the tips of his ears go red.
mma!bakugo who, after you get him an omamori from a shrine visit that says "certain victory", can only stare down at his, mouth open, a lil speechless, until he looks up to find you blushing just as hard as he is, purses his lips, clears his throat and glances off towards the side, tucking the charm into his training shorts like "thanks. now i've really got no excuse huh."
mma!bakugo who when he wins (as you knew he would), throws up his hand, the charm you gave him clutched in his palm, catches your eye in the crowd, smirks and jerks his head; when you squeeze your way up to the barrier, he boops your nose with a gloved hand before tugging it off with his teeth, letting it drop to the ground, bending down so his eyes are level with yours, his chest still heaving, his skin flushed from the recent fight, there's a cut on his lip and a bruise blossoming high on his right cheek but neither of you seem to care -- all he can see is you.
he tugs on a loose strand of hair, cocks his head, you smile and glance at the omamori clutched in his hand and say, "guess the lucky charm really worked."
mma!bakugo who hikes an eyebrow at your words before his eyes track down to your lips and he sighs, leaning against the soft barriers, not caring that there are just about seven different cameras trained on the pair of you right now, runs a finger down your jawline till he can tip your chin back --
"or..." his voice is just a little hoarse, his normally bright eyes dark, his pupils nearly completely blown out, a total eclipse of the usual ruby red of his gaze --
"maybe my lucky charm is just you."
#⛈ monsoon season#bnha x reader#mha x reader#bakugou x reader#bakugou katsuki#bakugo x reader#bakugo fluff#bakugou fluff#i saw ONE clip of that japanese mma fighter and it was all fucking over for me listne i#gezuz christ LOL
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I will write this thought about Veganism and Classism in the USA in another post so as to not derail the other thread:
There are comments in the notes that say meat is only cheaper than plant based foods because of subsidies artificially lowering the price of meat in the United States. This is...part of the story but not all of it.
For my animal agriculture lab we went to a butcher shop and watched the butcher cut up a pig into various cuts of meat. I have had to study quite a bit about the meat industry in that class. This has been the first time I fully realized how strongly the meat on a single animal is divided up by socioeconomic class.
Like yes, meat cumulatively takes more natural resources to create and thus should be more expensive, but once that animal is cut apart, it is divided up between rich and poor based on how good to eat the parts are. I was really shocked at watching this process and seeing just how clean and crisp an indicator of class this is.
Specifically, the types of meat I'm most familiar with are traditionally "waste" parts left over once the desirable parts are gone. For example, beef brisket is the dangly, floppy bit on the front of a cow's neck. Pork spareribs are the part of the ribcage that's barely got anything on it.
And that stuff is a tier above the "meat" that is most of what poor people eat: sausage, hot dogs, bologna, other heavily processed meat products that are essentially made up of all the scraps from the carcass that can't go into the "cuts" of meat. Where my mom comes from in North Carolina, you can buy "livermush" which is a processed meat product made up of a mixture of liver and a bunch of random body parts ground up and congealed together. There's also "head cheese" (made of parts of the pig's head) and pickled pigs' feet and chitlin's (that's made of intestines iirc) and cracklin's (basically crispy fried pig skin) and probably a bunch of stuff i'm forgetting. A lot of traditional Southern cooking uses basically scraps of animal ingredients to stretch across multiple meals, like putting pork fat in beans or saving bacon grease for gravy or the like.
So another dysfunctional thing about our food system, is that instead of people of each socioeconomic class eating a certain number of animals, every individual animal is basically divided up along class lines, with the poorest people eating the scraps no one else will eat (oftentimes heavily processed in a way that makes it incredibly unhealthy).
Even the 70% lean ground beef is made by injecting extra leftover fat back into the ground-up meat because the extra fat is undesirable on the "better" cuts. (Gross!)
I've made, or eaten, many a recipe where the only thing that makes it non-vegan is the chicken broth. Chicken broth, just leftover chicken bones and cartilage rendered and boiled down in water? How much is that "driving demand" for meat, when it's basically a byproduct?
That class really made me twist my brain around about the idea of abstaining from animal products as a way to deprive the industry of profits. Nobody eats "X number of cows, pigs, chickens in a lifetime" because depending on the socioeconomic class, they're eating different parts of the animal, splitting it with someone richer or poorer than they are. If a bunch of people who only ate processed meats anyway abstained, that wouldn't equal "saving" X number of animals, it would just mean the scraps and byproducts from a bunch of people's steaks or pork chops would have something different happen to them.
The other major relevant conclusion I got from that class, was that animal agriculture is so dominant because of monoculture. People think it's animal agriculture vs. plant agriculture (or plants used for human consumption vs. using them to feed livestock), but from capitalism's point of view, feeding animals corn is just another way to use corn to generate profits.
People think we could feed the world by using the grain fed to animals to feed humans, but...the grain fed to animals, is not actually a viable diet for the human population, because it's literally just corn and soybean. Like animal agriculture is used to give some semblance of variety to the consumer's diet in a system that is almost totally dominated by like 3 monocrops.
Do y'all have any idea how much of the American diet is just corn?!?! Corn starch, corn syrup, corn this, corn that, processed into the appearance of variety. And chickens and pigs are just another way to process corn. That's basically why we have them, because they can eat our corn. It's a total disaster.
And it's even worse because almost all the USA's plant foods that aren't the giant industrial monocrops maintained by pesticides and machines, are harvested and cared for by undocumented migrant workers that get abused and mistreated and can't say anything because their boss will tattle on them to ICE.
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Water Wrinkles
Seven demon brothers sat solemnly in a circle around you. You did your best to ignore them. It wasn't often that you got to spend time at the human world villa, and you were intent on soaking up as much sun as you could before returning to the Devildom.
You reclined your beach chair back, crossing your arms under your still-wet hair. It was a gorgeous day. Perfect for being at the pool.
Leviathan let out a muffled sob. As the demon with the highest affinity for water, he blamed himself.
"Let us take you to a hospital," Satan insisted for the tenth time.
"They're going to laugh us out of the ER," you nonchalantly repeated.
Satan lowered his eyes and muttered, "I couldn't find any traces of a curse in the water... So how...?"
Asmodeus had his head in his hands, unresponsive. Sometimes his fingers curled around the ends of his hair. You briefly glanced over to make sure he didn't pull his hair out - that would be grounds for a real emergency.
"I can't bear to watch. Lucifer, do somethin'," Mammon whined. He was fidgeting all over the place and winced whenever he looked at your feet.
The oldest glared at you. You knew it was out of concern, but his fears were unfounded. Even Lucifer refused to listen to reason when he thought you were in danger.
"Actually, yeah. Lucifer, can you pass me a towel?" you asked. It was embarrassing having seven shirtless demons intensely staring at you. If they wouldn't let you go back in the water, maybe covering up would make you feel less self-conscious.
Lucifer didn't move. It was Beelzebub who plucked a spare towel off his younger twin and handed it to you with a shaking arm. He looked like a wet puppy, having been the one who first discovered your "condition" and swept you out of the pool.
Belphegor hadn't gone in the water that day. He only hogged the plush towels because of how comfortable they were and, following Beelzebub's lead, dumped them all onto your chair. Now he sat, wide awake. He was anxiously squeezing a loose chunk of concrete but at some point, without realizing, it got crushed to powder in his hand.
You had more than enough towels now.
"In half an hour you're going to forget this all even happened," you said to reassure the worry warts.
"In half an hour, you might be gone!" Mammon snapped back.
"You're going to be a wrinkled mess of skin and bones," Asmodeus weeped quietly.
Leviathan pressed his hands over his ears. Though, with nothing to cover his eyes he was forced to look at your wrinkled hands again. Based on the noises he was making, you'd think someone was torturing him.
"As I've said!" you reiterated. "All humans get wrinkly in water. Look, now that I'm drying off it's going back to normal."
Beelzebub grabbed your ankle, raising it for the brothers to observe at eye level. "I don't see a difference."
You didn't expect the sudden manhandling and slunk several inches down the lounge chair while the demons stared at your foot. Kicking and twisting your leg was futile. You modestly crossed your free leg.
"I think it's getting worse," Satan said.
"We need to take action," Lucifer decided.
Asmodeus was actively quivering now. Belphegor and Leviathan had crept behind you and started picking at your wrinkly fingers. You tried to swat them away to no avail.
"Give me 25 minutes! Literally! Probably even less, this will go away on its own! I just need to dry off."
"We need a solution now," Mammon asserted. The cogs in his brain were turning. "We need fire."
You tried to sit up, to jump up and stop Mammon before he burned the whole villa down in an attempt to dry you off, but Beelzebub had not let go and you stumbled. You grazed your knee on the concrete and winced.
A second round of panic overcame the demon brothers. Beelzebub let go, Lucifer picked you up, and Belphegor wrapped your knee with every available towel he could lay his hands on. Asmodeus and Leviathan were crying on each other's shoulders. Mammon came running back, oblivious to the second disaster that just occurred, with a flaming stick in his hand that Satan tried to keep at bay. If you got burnt on top of everything else, they'd probably go insane and destroy the human world.
In the midst of the chaos you caught a glimpse of your hand. It was practically dry. You couldn't even see the wrinkles anymore. You angrily wiggled in Lucifer's grasp as various hands fussed over you.
"Stay!!" you shouted over the clamor.
The brothers went tumbling to the ground, save for Lucifer who fought to stay rooted in place. You could finally hear yourself think again. There was primarily one thought on your mind.
"I just want to go swimming."
#eventually they're just gonna get a human doctor to live in the mansion. MC 2 is some med student who needs cheap housing close to campus.#files this under “more fussing over MC”#forget joint cracking. turning wrinkly is where it's at now /jk#i feel like these are repetitive so i'm not going to proofread it oops but i do enjoy writing stuff like this#obey me#obey me!#omswd#obey me scenarios#obey me shall we date#obey me headcanon#obey me x mc#obey me swd#obey me fanfic#obey me brothers#obey me x reader#obey me brothers x mc#obey me drabble#obey me hc#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me belphegor#obey me mc#obey me beelzebub#obey me asmodeus#obey me satan#obey me fic
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