#I've been so motivated lately its a bit scary

[benetnvsch]

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[aew-kun-age-regression]

Hi hi! Could you do a Dean Winchester agre thing? SFW only please. Whether he regresses or is the cg (gn little please), either is fine! Thank yous!

Hiii!! Thank you for being the first person to request Dean, I've wanted to do something for him but have had no motivation until you requested this! I really hope this is what you were looking for! <3

"Restless Sleep.."

Pairing: Caregiver!Dean Winchester x Little!Reader.

Summary: After you decide to join the boys on a hunt you have troubles sleeping.

Warnings: Mentions of having a concussion, mentions of going on a hunt, talk of having Nightmares, mentions of avoiding regression, Nicknames (Kiddo)

(Gender neutral reader)

‼️THIS IS NOT NSFW‼️

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It had been a difficult hunt and despite the fact that you had been slipping all day you had decided to join the Winchesters and Castiel. Overtime you had bonded with the two boys and the angel. Sam and Dean currently sat in the front of the impala, while you and Cas sat at the back.

Your head was pounding and Sam and Dean's bickering was not helping. Laying your head against the cool window seemed to sooth the dull thumping. You were not okay, you'd hit your head during the hunt and although you thought you wetr doing a good job at hiding it, the boys were smarter than that.

By the time Dean has pulled up to the motel you had slipped. You hadn't mean to but yer pain in your head was overwhelming and you had already been putting off regression for hours.

Everyone got out of the Impala and began walking towards the motel. You turned your back and began walking the other way.

"Um? Where are you going?" Sam called out to you.

"Home" is all you said.

"Don't you live a few hours away? How are you going to head home?"

"Mm don't know. Walk. Bus?" You mumbled.

This time Dean answered. "Absolutely not. Just stay here for the night."

How could you tell your friends that you needed to go so you could play with children toys and watch cartoons.

"No.."

"Then at least let me drive you there. I'm pretty sure you have a concussion a d I don't feel comfortable with you walking or getting the bus this late at night."

"..fine."

Sam and Cas proceeded to the room whilst you and Dean got back into the far, this time Dean telling you to sit in the front with him. You carefully yit in the seat and Dean started driving.

"You look pretty tired. Why don't you get some sleep, I'll check on you in a bit to make sure your okay."

"Mkay" is all you could mumble out ad your head lolled to the side and you gave into sleep.

Dean didn't need to wake you up as soon after falling asleep you awoke with a jump, breathing heavily.

"Woah! What's up?"

You couldn't speak. You tried but all you could get out was a small wimper. Dean was worried now and looked over to the side of the empty road, choosing to pull over and help you.

By the time he pulled over you were crying and your thumb had made its way between your lips. You began to rock back and forth.

Dean knew that out of him and his brother, Sam was the smarter one. However Dean was far from dumb and although Sam normally figured out things first, Dean knew what trauma responses looked like, and by just looking at you he could tell what was happening.

"Hey kiddo.. what's wrong?" Dean asked gently, turning to look at you.

"Scary"

"Scary? Did you have a nightmare?" He, once again asked in a soft voice.

"Mhm.."

"Oh.. its okay kiddo. Come here.."

Dean opened his arms and allowed you to crawl over the middle section of the car, so you were in his arms.

"Nightmares can be pretty scary right?" He said almost in a whisper.

You nodded into his chest.

Dean sighed knowing there wasn't much he could do for you as he had nothing on him.

"Would you like to try to go back to sleep?"

You shook your head fiercely.

"No!"

"Are you tired though?"

"Little bit.." You said whilst yawning.

"What if I let you sleep in my arms that way I can keep you safe?"

"Mmm... okay"

Dean leaned in and kissed your forehead before you rested your head on his chest, closing your eyes.

Withing minutes you were asleep and Dean drove extremely slowly and carefully with you in his arms back to your place so you could get some things.

The two of you would talk about it in the morning but Dean had already decided that if you'd let him, he wanted to take care of you.

[valeriianz]

fic talk! yay! tagged by @beatnikfreakiswriting and @hardly-an-escape <3

How many wips do you have currently?

okay, let's be reasonable about this (lol). WIPs that im currently working on, only 4. don't- hey! don't look into my Google Docs! ignore all those files. sometimes i like to jot a sentence or idea down, that doesn't mean it's an active WIP! that also doesn't mean they are abandoned. they are just... marinating. snoozing. biding their time.

Which one are you finding the hardest to finish? Why do you think that is?

oh geez, probably Savory & Sweet. it's so silly because the first chapter of that flew out of me. it was so fun to write and its a verse i definitely revisit from time to time... and technically the first chapter works as a stand alone- i don't need to write a follow up. but after i had posted it, i really had every intention to write more. but for some reason the motivation to actually sit down and write it out is fleeting. but it's a year old at this point and i just want. it. FINISHED!

What does it usually look like when inspiration strikes for you?

it never strikes when i want it to, firstly. never when im sitting down and writing. it sometimes comes when i dont have access to a pen and paper or my phone- like riding my bike or in the shower, so whatever great idea/line of dialogue/scene that pops into my head in that moment, i repeat in my head over and over until i can finally scramble to get it hastily written down lmao. but it is very random... and usually strikes when im alone and in my own head, doing nothing in particular.

Do you curate playlists for each fic or is your process different?

no. and i write in absolute silence as well. lyrics distract me and music has never spoken to me that way- not enough to influence writing at least. of course the big exception is Bolt in the Blue lmao. but i think it makes sense that im making playlists for that fic. (oh and i made one for Let Me Down Easy as well... but these two fics have literally been the only times in my entire fanfic history that i've made playlists haha)

Do you go balls to the wall and write as you go or are you more organised?

for the moooost part i have a bit of organization, even if it's a few scattered notes. i learned my lesson quite late about making sure to at least have an ending in mind before i start writing and publishing (to be very real with y'all, the reason the dreamling Road Trip au hasn't gotten off the ground yet is because i can't think of a good ending for it). that being said though, once i do have an ending sorted out, my writing process is basically chaos. sometimes plot points or arcs will change entirely... which is a little scary, but as long as i can keep my ending the same, fuck it.

tagging, no obligation/tag me in existing posts: @issylra @delta-pavonis @valiantstarlights @tj-dragonblade

[alasmydearatlas]

thinking about writing again and how a character's biggest flaw is often also their biggest strength

and how no trait is wholly good or wholly bad and it's how you use it and take advantage of it and play to your strengths

and im thinking ab that in terms of relationships

im feeling very insecure in my relationship rn

i guess this kinda our first (second??) really big season of change

it's our second and it's not about me this time

and i have to figure out how to deal with that and be supportative and also take care of myself too

and i'm trying to figure out how i dont want to feel and how i do want to feel and how this can be smth that makes us stronger not just tolerate

and also prevent premptively contempt

scary

terrifying thought

falling from love to contempt

ugh its crazy this is totally one of those chose the relationship times

we in real life now grrr

not in a honeymoon phase

it okay i think we will get back as we settle in

there is just a lot and anxiety is high

right now (in context of our relationship) i am feeling:

disconnected

on the wrong foot

helpless

insecure about what i bring to the table

oversaturated ??

shut out a bit

and i keep thinking about our conversation in the car on the way down from this weekend

and like the phrase "giving up on you" and how he said he didn't want to and i don't want to

but it's humbling that that thought would cross my partners mind even briefly

like not that i think i'm above being broken up with

but like it's grounding and a reality check a bit i guess

and super vunerable

like someone saw me and sees me and still loves me and actively chooses me even when sometimes my actions hurt them unintentionally and so now i am very intrinsically motivated to do better and wear down some of my sharp edges

i wish to work on my patience

and my judgmental comments

and actively pursuing an "us" and putting him into consideration of my plans

and not like rouge lone wolfing as much

i think some of that comes from unmet needs of alone time and independence

i dont want to feel like i disappoint you every time i hang out with my friends

but i also want to be sensetive to the fact that he is alone here in terms of no friends and stuff

and learning to adult alone, like almost totally alone for the first time ever

but i can't neglect myself to do that

and i really don't want to feel like a crutch

that would make me very resentful

and i think that's why i've been acting out a little lately and this weekend

i think maybe some of it comes from feeling trapped and smothered a little bit

our lives are typically much more seperate

and i'm not sure how much to check in and make plans and how far in advance and etc etc etc

idkkkkk

long distance is kinda nice sometimes

not ideal set up fs but it does have some really nice perks

like he was so quiet and distant today but then still called dell ab my power chord???!?!?!?

maybe it's just not about me

idk i'm still feeling really raw and oversensetive

i think we shall have a chats on or after our walk tonight

maybe i invite him back for a cup of tea !! or smth !

okay i go read about biggest flaws in relationships on the internet and come back to reflect in a bit

[astrojoy]

so ... i wanted to share something with you.

about twenty minutes ago, i received my results for an exam and i didn't do as well as i'd expected. extremely disappointed because i held myself to high expectations and i'd really thought i did a good job once i completed it. i also felt cheated because there were several questions which i knew i calculated correctly at the time, but were either unaccepted due to the way i wrote it or simply because i mistyped the wrong numbers. i'm still content with my results, but i know i could have done better.

i was looking through the questions and received a notification from one of those motivational apps and it said:

“for no word from god will ever fail.” - luke 1:37

it's not common that i receive quotes from the bible, they're usually just standard motivational notifications.

on second thoughts, these were my most recent notifications from that app. there's a bit of a trend here ...

i noticed the time on my phone and it was 3:33. then, lightning struck outside (it's raining now).

i've been feeling up-and-down lately and the rain has been stopping and starting. at the start of this week, the rain began coming daily.

i have no idea what this means, but i wanted to share it with you because it seemed like something you might find interesting.

edit: wow, it's starting to hail now. the rain is nothing new because it's been raining this whole week but it's never hailed before. it hasn't been this harsh either, usually it's quite soft.

YOO THATS LIT!

Id say that if it's your guides then they could be trying to get your attentions with the motivational quotes. The lightning strike can actually be them trying to show you to feel "empowered" and to not let a simple grade get the best of you! What matters is that you tried your best and that's all you can do. 333 as I've read up on before on one of its meanings as "support" so that time with the lightning kinda shows me the whole "power" move

Lightning is energy. It looks very scary when it zaps the ground and is quite loud. However it does this while causing change on the ground. It's practically indestructible. Think of the Greek God Zeus for instance. He is a bearer of lightning bolts and stereotypically is shown holding a bolt in some artwork and etc. Zeus was also extremely powerful of course. Lightning also reminds me of the "tower" card in tarot representing change, however, it also - atleast in this instance - can show not letting the worst get the best of you and to zap the worries away. There is always another exam and always another day ^

Id say with that much effort in the message they were trying to convey to you that they really meant to try and cheer you up some. "For no word from god will ever fail" reminds me of God and how he cherishes everyone so deeply, unconditional love for his family. He made us all and he believes in us. Sure, as spirits/angels and etc, we all have our hiccups. We all have our mistakes. But he never sees that as a bad thing- in fact- he expects it. It's an opportunity to grow and learn something from what we did mess up on. We talk to him before we plan our next life and he knows we will have to learn a lesson however he never talks down to you. He understands emotions, he understands you. When he made us he never saw us as failures, he saw us as neverending possibilities. Therefore he wouldn't want you to think so low of yourself and as if you were one. A popular saying is "God knows all" which is true. So he doesn't want you to believe the false "For no word from God will ever fail"

Oh also the lightning can symbolize "don't expect what you don't know is to come" you didnt expect the lightning to strike. In tarot the "tower" card with lightning can show unexpected turns and twists. You didn't you expect to actually get the grade you got the test too. Maybe this was a smaller tip they wanted to show you 😉 this definitely isnt saying not to be ambitious and hopeful, but it means not to get too caught up in "im sure of this" sometimes since we can't control everything

Have a beautiful day love and thanks for sharing! Very interesting experience 🥰

[hidden-otaku-stuff]

(1) Hey! So sorry for replying late, a lot has happened these past couple of days D: but I hope you've been doing good! (I say as if I've been gone for months aksjdf) anyway, yeah, they're definitely scary. I think it'll be worth being able to be that soft and open with someone though. And I'm glad it did have a positive impact on you! Even if they were hard you came out stronger or wiser in some way. And thank you, you're so sweet :') So do you hon ❤️

hey honeymoon! sorry for taking my time to respond, i hope everything’s been alright with you! 

(2) Terushima really does just seem like a big dork who loves volleyball haha. I feel like his initial vibe would make me not want to interact v much lol but once you get to know him he's actually a good person. and that tongue piercing tho 👀. "that one definitely hurts a lot more than Falling does" then I think I'm good for awhile hahaha. I've already read a sad hospital AU so I'm going to stay FAR away for now. Honestly I wish there was an interesting story behind it but there's not :')

(3) basically I had an art blog and the name of it was kind of a pun with the word "honeydew." but that nickname was already taken and I wanted to be ~original~ sso I didn't want to use it lol. I still liked the honey aspect though and I thought Honeymoon sounded cute. I'm also kind of a secret hopeless romantic and at the time I kept my identity on my art blog a secret, so it kind of felt like an "alter ego" of mine? long story short I liked the nickname and it kinda stuck haha

ok i mean, to be fair, he was super aggressive when he was meeting kiyoko. but i definitely feel like there’s that dorky side to him LMAO.

oooof idk if I can handle any angst rn tbh so i can definitely relate 😭 

that’s honestly such a cute story though??? like, that’s literally so freakin’ adorable. what type of art did you use to do? (and honestly girl, this whole blog is on the DL and i tried super hard to keep it hidden from my life LOL).

there’s nothing wrong with being a hopeless romantic though! it gives you a chance to day-dream hehe 💞 what’s your favorite romantic trope? it could be as cliche or non-cliche as you’d like! 

(4) "i’m sorry for being a sadistic fk 🥰" 😀 something tells me you're kind of not LOL (really though I know you're sweet and don't actually want to hurt people akdhf) and honestly I'm glad you decided to expand on it! Chapter one is also great as a standalone but I'm so grateful for the rest so far, and you're doing an amazing job with it love 💖 I understand the chara x chara thing. I don't know if I've ever actually shipped anything to the point of me /wanting/ it to be canon

(6) like, it'd be cool if it was, but I don't actually care y'know? unless it was actual romantic tension built up in the movie/book/series. Fanart and fic is what mostly got me lol. I think the HQ fandom is super diverse/creative in its shipping. Not only because of an incredible story with great characters, but great fans and creators as well. And yes! someone else who likes KuroIwa!! I think that ship is really cute (and they're my top 2 faves so I'm biased haha) have you seen neutinya's art?

i swear i’m nice 💞 thank you so much for the love!! 🥺 i’ve been having writer’s block for a bit, and your comments have honestly motivated me to write so much more for it LOL

i definitely agree though, like, i can’t aggressively fight for one ship over another because it’s literally just not canon. it just feels wrong to “shove that agenda”, so to speak. but it’s always interesting to see all the different character combinations. i never would’ve imagined half of the ones out there if not for this fandom LOL

neutinya’s literally why I have a thing for KuroIwa!! LMAO. i really like the art that they put out. same with bright_stars_45 on IG. Their stuff is literally why i ship Bokuaka soooo hard. 

(7) (did I skip 5?) I really hope I'm numbering those right it's 12:30 am here lol. anyway, it's probably a good thing you weren't in the fandom then. I don't know how it is now, but it was p chaotic and toxic and there was actually controversy surrounding one of those fics. I'm sorry about you and your sister love :( I don't know if you'd ever want to have a strong one with her but I hope you do if you do! and if not then there will always be people you share that with, blood or not 💕

LOL you did skip 5, but it’s okay bby 💖 it’s not too serious tbh. i’m not really close to my family, so i’ve always believed in the “my family is the one’s i choose, not necessarily the one’s i’m blood-related to” :) 

(8) Piglet has always been my fave, but Eeyore and Lumpy are also great. do you have any favorite characters or ones that mean a lot to you? and that's really cool too!! I know being mixed can get super complicated but knowing you have all of those cultures in you in some way is pretty amazing. Honestly I've been undecided for the past 2 years but after everything going on in 2020, I've felt this need to release the truth? no matter what that may be. I know a lot of people say journalism 

(9) isn't an honest profession but, and this will sound arrogant, I want to change that. Even if that just means me being an independent journalist while being an editor to make a living, I'm okay with that. Also it can give you the opportunity to travel, and writing has always been my strong suit. socio is so I can have a better understanding of the world and learn to be less biased and more objective and understanding. What about you? :O

my favorite Disney character is honestly Tiana from Princess and the Frog! her hard-working story is hella relatable to me, and it inspired me to be better for myself if that makes sense? 

TBH the most annoying part of being mixed is being called eXoTiC by guys who are tryna sleep with me 💀 there’s definitely a lot of fetishization about it lol

i hella respect that! the need to release the truth. journalism is honestly a raw and authentic profession that people underestimate because they read from biased sources or the things they read isn’t accurate. i have mad respect for you for following that career path! if there’s anything i could do to help, lmk love 💖 TBH, i chose business because i wanted to open my own business and i love psych because i love understanding the world and the people in my lives. psycho-analysing is one of my hobbies hehe. so similar as to why you did socio!

(10) and yes!!!! tbh I've always liked theatre but was never really one for the stage. I was in a child friendly version of macbeth in 6th grade and that was it lol. In my senior year of high school I performed a slam poem about my depression and my teacher called me emotionally constipated lmaoo. and because of how hs went down for me I never got to take classes anyway. I started getting into sfx/film makeup though and I really want to do that! I also just love the energy of backstage tbh

(11) this is getting really long akfdjh. but yeah I want to learn more! I'm actually kind of struggling in my stage management class right now because I honestly don't know much about theatre so it's overwhelming. I haven't even seen a lot of shows (I did see The Lion King when I was a kid though!! and a few hs productions). enough about me though, what's your favorite part, or what are some of your best memories? I love seeing that it makes you so happy :D

omg i’m so sorry that your teacher called you that. that’s so inappropriate, especially considering the subject matter. i hope that you’ve had a more positive experience involving your work since then. if you ever want to talk about your struggle, please feel free to reach out, ok? 

you must be pretty talented with makeup though! that’s so cool 🤩 i’ve always admired sfx and people who are talented with makeup tbh. what’s your favorite part about it so far? 

i was fortunate enough that my hs had a super talented theatre program that i could be a part of. i had the opportunity to be in both tech, management, and on-stage. i honestly really enjoyed being behind-the-scenes in the management part! it was so great seeing a production from start to finish and knowing that i was involved with that process. i’m a huge theatre nerd tbh 😅 i love watching shows like Phantom of the Opera, Hamilton, RENT and I’ll routinely watch them haha.