#I've been musing about this stuff for like two years and now you're getting to see it help

[mistfallengw2]

This is about to get rambly, but I headcanon that queerness is a completely normal fact of life in Tyria and that no one really bats an eye about whatever floats your boat, be it gender identity or who you want relationships with.

Labels are just vague descriptors for those who want to say “that specific thing” in fewer words. To an average person in Tyria it's like finding out there's a word specifically for “person who eats just vanilla and chocolate ice cream” and just going “oh cool that's me”, but they're rarely used in general conversation unless that becomes the topic of discussion and thus not known by many. Due to it being so normal, there might still be some general genuine ignorance about queer identities one hasn't experienced within their own social bubble, but it's not seen a big deal, while actually "challenging" others' existence is seen as a pretty scummy thing to do.

That said, of course different races and cultures had their own words for certain things and slightly different points of view: charr and asura are more culturally used to temporary/open relationships and even polyamory, due to their societal structure and lack of "marriage" in the human sense of the word; humans and charr are under societal pressure to procreate no matter who you're sharing beds with, because of their wartime circumstances; gender matters little in general, and gender-based discrimination is a thing only in specific instances/communities, usually in more "traditional" settings and often in negative ways, like the Sons of Svanir and the old Flame Legion; humans are the ones who most obsess about marriage, though often for reasons beyond simple romance; norn don't care who wants to smooch/marry who, as long as they're worthy of each other; sylvari are still relatively new to life, so they've been the more open ones so far; etc.

Also also, I headcanon that the Tyria Pride event is a minor festival that originated in Lion's Arch not long after its first reconstruction under Cobiah Marriner.

It's not known how it started exactly, but at first it was just a “let's celebrate different races working together as one" kind of event, rowdy, very pirate-y and held in the taverns and ships across town with little fanfare and plenty of drinking, and it became a recurring thing. Then, smaller celebrations of love started getting lumped in as couples (especially mixed ones, as Lion's Arch was the first place that officially recognized them) chose to get married at the same time of those events, and eventually it evolved and consolidated into an annual event sponsored by the city.

As the event grew in popularity, even non-residents wanted to join the celebrations, but only in recent decades it turned into a march across Tyria. First it started as independent groups in major cities (primarily Rata Sum, Hoelbrak and Divinity's Reach) organized themselves to follow merchant routes towards Lion's Arch, as their journeys evolved into smaller celebrations of their own before the big one at their destination. While unofficial, the numbers of participants in these extra marches swelled each and every year, and eventually they were counted as part of the event by most. Then, after the treaty was stipulated between the Legions and Ebonhawke, a big collective effort was made to connect all of those marches into a single one and extend it so that the event could start in the human city, and it got consolidated after the Pact's victory against Zhaitan proved once more the strength of all races working together.

Tyria Pride is still a minor festival by Tyrian standards, but even if not all can join the weeks of marching and partying across Tyria, it remains the biggest celebration of love in all of its forms and across all barriers.

[coollyinterferes]

The unmistakable sound of footsteps approaching begins to fill the air. Whoever is coming seems to have brought some company along…

They are getting closer… and closer… and closer…

…and closer…

……until..................

"Goooooood evenin'!!" Comes the loud greeting from a certain blond man. A big smile on his face and all.

"We beg your pardon for our prolonged absence. It was completely beyond our control..." Then adds the gentleman standing by his side, apologizing on behalf of both, offering a genuine smile along with the apology.

"...BUT! We're back!" And hopefully for good this time…

[lokisasylum]

This whole thing with the "stolen 5K acc" BS is pitiful as it is laughable

'Cause help me understand something...

And for the sake of those not on X/twitter, imma try to summarize this whole shit-show as quick as I can.

Basically on the LAST VOTING DAY for AMAs, two large Namjoon Solo fanbases (one from Indonesia & one from India) suddenly claimed that "5K accounts" that were ALLEGEDLY "distributed" got ALLEGEDLY "stolen" and used to vote for Jimin instead.

But here's the catch!

A) They claimed not to know WHO did it, but still blamed PJMs/Jimin biased armys and spread this info on multiple social medias (to which armys blindly believed).

B) Said they would expose the culprit or culprits, but when prompted to SHOW said evidence they later claimed they "didn't have all the evidence yet".

C) They only showed SS of ONE email that ends in " @ gheol.com"

But when you type gheol.com on Google you get this

Its a DOMAIN, not an email address and if you type the whole address shown above they come up as INVALID.

Now I've seen my fair share of strange email addresses in all my years of voting for Jimin and handling MULTIPLE emails.

But never have I seen that domain name.

So when shown this evidence, guess what these fanbases did?

One of them deactivated and the other went Private after dropping a bullshit statement that the reason they haven't "shown proof" is because of "lack of human resources" and not only that, but now they're stating that they will "hold off showing proof until AFTER the AMAs announce the winner."

WHY after? Simple.

A) They DONT have evidence, because these emails DONT EXIST. They just wanted to incriminate people who were voting for Jimin and on the same note discredit his achievements just like they've been doing since the nominees were first announced, because they DONT want Jimin to win.

B) If Jimin wins, they will claim its because of those "5K accounts that were stolen" and will continue their smear campaign against Jimin like they've been doing all along. (Just like when armys who never vote or steam for Jimin try to claim new achievements he receives).

And let me tell you guys something, as someone who's been helping the Admins of ThePJMSociety here on tumblr to find voters and distribute emails, I can tell you a thing or two of how this works.

ALL fanbases are well organized handling and distributing emails. There's literally a spreadsheet on Google Docs that we access that shows us the amount of emails BY NUMBER, the name of the voters, how many accs were distributed to each, the Admin that distributed them, and lastly a collum where we have to mark if the person voted that day or not. We also had to ask voters for screenshots evidence DAILY of them voting for Jimin and the admins responsible for the distribution of the emails who then log into those emails ourselves to make sure they voted for Jimin.

And for the record, it takes LESS than an hour to go through 200 emails to check the votes.

So you're telling me... that these fbs had NO idea WHO "stole" the emails... even though they have DIRECT access to them, are keeping track of all the ppl who ask for emails and all it takes is 5 seconds per account to check....?!

I'm calling bullshit to this whole circus.

And another thing that's fucking with my head is!

If these fanbases had SO MANY emails---millions of them and enough people to give support then..

Where is the support they claim to be giving to this member??

"Rapline Deserves Better" but then you see these numbers and these are real numbers from not only his solo fanbases but ARMY "ot7" too.

Meanwhile this is Jimin with PJMs, Jimin biased and GP up until Dec 2024

AND THESE ARE ONLY THE HIGHLIGHTS SINCE "MUSE" CAME OUT BACK IN JULY..

So idk about you guys but... something isn't okay in ApoBangoLand. Because RM isn't the only member getting piss poor support in his Solo stuff. The other 6 as well.

And its why they HATE PJMs and want us to disappear, because they can't stand seeing Jimin getting so much support outside of the fandom limits. And many are PRAYING for us to disappear when the group returns together (IF and WHEN that happens) so they can go back to shoving Jimin into a corner where they can forget about him until they need a punching bag again.

They're already openly showing their hate for Jimin by excluding him from important votings and nominations, they harass new and old reactors into accepting toxic narratives about Jimin, anyone who speaks up gets silenced and labelled a Solo-----imagine what will happen if we back down and quit our support? If we stop being loud and defending him from these hate campaigns? It'll be 2018 all over again.

And if Jimin DOES win on AMAs, we WILL celebrate it. Fuck it.

Fuck THEM.

We know they didn't vote for him, we know they didnt want him to win just like we know they never support any project related to HIM. We got receipts. So why should we hold back now?

[ckret2]

Ages ago I made a post about what Ford thinks about Bill (in a billford context), and I've had an infodump on what Bill thinks about Ford floating on discord for months, and an ask finally prompted me to post it, so here ya go:

If asked why he likes Ford, Bill himself claims that Ford overthinks everything, but in such fun, interesting ways, and Bill likes the way Ford thinks about things.

But really, Bill overthinks everything too; it's just he overthinks social things. He's always calculating how to persuade, control, manipulate people. He never has a conversation that isn't a chess game, it's exhausting and he won't even admit it's exhausting. When's the last time his top priorities weren't either "how do I convince some sucker to make a portal" or "ugggh I'm so SICK of the PORTAL I'm gonna THROW A PARTY and NOT THINK AT ALL"

Whereas Ford is guy who'd hear someone say something incorrect and bluntly go "no you're wrong" and accidentally offend the hell out of them because he's SO excited to share this fantastic information they don't know. The social world DOES NOT EXIST for him until he's reminded of it.

And so he's free to turn all his brainpower instead to. Like. The environmental impact of barf fairies on fern fertilizer or whatever.

Bill knows Everything™ but he's gotten tired of doing anything with that knowledge. They're all discrete points of information to him. He doesn't have time to muse over things, he's got an inventor to manipulate at 11pm and then a party to get to at midnight. He's never once in his life thought about the impact of barf fairies on the local flora. But he does happen to know the plants in that part of the woods are more acid-resistant and wow is that why???? He's never even thought to think about that before. Thousand year mystery that Bill didn't even notice has been solved.

(On the other hand "Ford doesn't think to think about the intricacies of social interaction" is also part of what makes him so easy to manipulate, he's so much more inclined to just accept at face value a friendly offer of assistance on a big academic project. Sure Bill's helping for the sake of scientific advancement in and of itself, why wouldn't he?)

Bill wants to just, fling random facts at Ford and see if he can think up connections between them. Go nerd boy go nerd boy go

"... So there you have it Ford, that's the problem you'll have to overcome with adapting alien machinery to human fuel sources, now I wanna hear YOUR thoughts on how to overcome that problem." "Well—" talks in an uninterrupted stream that by thirty minutes in has drifted over to the history of kerosene production, which he read an interesting book about between semesters in college— "... I've gotten off topic, haven't I?" "No no, I think you're on to something. This is how brainstorming works, free association of concepts. Keep going."

Ford in the morning: "... oh no I didn't let my muse get a word in edgewise for the rest of the dream, i didn't bore him did I?" Bill: "damn, I never noticed the patent process for hurricane lamps was so contentious. There's little dramas everywhere"

When things are going well, their relationship is,

Ford: "I just wanna hear Bill teach me things about the multiverse forever."

Bill: "I just wanna hear Ford think deeply on any topic that crosses his mind forever."

Both of them when they're in peak harmony: excitedly jabbering at each other at 200 words per minute about the stupidest topic you've ever heard, but you'd need a phd in at least two fields to comprehend it

That's love!!!

Ford, having historically been socially shamed: "... am I being weird?"

Bill: "💕❤️💓yeah❣️💖❤️‍🔥"

Sometimes I think about Bill watching Ford in his sleep and being in awe at this human-shaped genius: you with your beautiful electric mind, packed into this soft flawed uneven body. one would never know it from the outside—but you're in there. This genius with a mind like a galaxy. ... and he's like, growing hair and stuff. wild.

[symphonic-scream]

Okay. New little mini thing-

Makoto: ugh, tucking sucks,

Akira: I know, right?

Makoto: staring

Akira: staring

Makoto = Transfemme

Akira = drag queen

The silent just: ...which are you...

Makoto, who forgot she's not out to the Thieves: Uhm. Are you-

Akira, who forgot no one knows about his night job: im- are you-?

Makoto: don't tell the others. I'll do it myself soon

Akira: girl I'd never?? Unless you asked me to

The new solidarity

Makoto texting Haru like: going to the bathouse with Akira don't worry it's platonic

Haru: that's- i- what

Akira: I couldn't tell at all, by the way

Makoto: don't flatter me

Akira: no, like. For real. It's why I was so caught off guard

Makoto: I, wow. Huh. I never think about that

Akira: also, I say this in a gay way. Girl, nice tits

Makoto: thanks, Haru tells me that a lot

Both grinning and laughing, having a good time

"you're a good guy, Kurusu."

"Thanks, Prez. You're not half bad."

Haru and Yusuke joining them next time. Transmasc they/he Yusuke and Haru, who. Is dating Makoto and knows a lot about queer culture,

All four sitting in the warm bath late at night, just chatting about anything

Haru resting her head on Makoto's shoulder, chatting with Yusuke about an art gallery they'd all gone to before hand

Yusuke rubbing at their sides, and Akira frowns and asks if he's been binding too long again

"I forgot, it gets away from me"

Haru: I can call you every day so you remember to take a break? Or help you buy better ones?

Makoto, relaxed enough to actually look content: trust me, the expensive ones *do* make a difference in trans products sometimes.

Haru kisses at her cheek, giggling as Makoto pretends to melt into the bath more

The CIS friends join next. By now the year done. Graduation has just happened for two of them. Ann and Ryuji are eager to join in while Futaba stays behind to watch Featherman with Mona and Sumire

Ryuji: I wanna learn more about this stuff, I mean. One of my boyfriends does the hiding thing-

Akira: tucking, darling

Ryuji: and my other partner wears the corset!

Yusuke: my muse, it's a binder

Ann: if I'm gonna try to make the modeling world more inclusive I've gotten learn myself too! Best place to start is with my soul friends! Let's get this bath night started!

They both are trying so hard to make the two Gender friends more at ease

Makoto: I appreciate it, but I'm more than fine with this. Akira and I have been doing this since, July?

Akira: July, yeah. 'Koto was a bit stiff at the start, but like, that was then. We mostly just shared tips for tucking cause that shit sometimes SUCKS

Makoto: DONT GET ME STARTED-

Makoto: ugh, can't wait for my surgery in five months

Ann: we should celebrate after! I can have everyone sleep over at mine so you don't have to take the stairs at Leblanc?

Makoto: ...oh my god I hadn't even, dear god stairs are gonna hurt

Haru: hey, we have an elevator at our place, and we'll be all moved in by then! Besides, I'd carry you if you asked

Yusuke: I will be recovering from top during the same period of time. Thank you again, Haru

Haru: hey, if I have to keep my father's blood money, I'm going to use it on my friends! The family lawyer won't let me donate anymore to charity per month,

Ryuji: ...Uhm. I'm getting my leg surgery is around that time

Everyone stares as they realize three thieves are going to be in recovery at once

Haru: oh. Oh dear

Akira: I'm going to be in town. I'm. My parents are gonna have to accept it I'm not missing this opportunity

Ann: I have tons of room at my place? Uhm. What else can I do, oh god,

Haru walking into Ann's carrying a *very* loopy Makoto the first week of August, after finals and shit, their bags over her shoulder: hey, look who survived!

Makoto: they took my dick,

Yusuke, three days post op, from the couch: I'll take it

Ryuji, a week into recovery: bro I'll share mine

Ann: hey Haru, you two are gonna be in the second guest, third room on the right. It has the bath that should be easiest for Mako

Haru: thanks, I'll get her to bed and help with dinner?

Makoto: Annnnnnnnn! I'ma woman,

Ann: I know, girl!

Makoto: pussy party,

Futaba is recording everything and is having the time of her life

Haru: later, Mako-chan, pussy party later. You need to rest and heal first!

Sumire: ...what was that

Ann: I made a joke before she went under about celebrating with a pussy party

Futaba, cackling

Ryuji with his new crutches, hobbling around to try to kiss his partner, and Sumire and Akira swooping in cause he almost fell on Yusuke's chest-

Akira: ...having three of them recovering at once may have been a mistakr

So yeah. That

[moominlovely]

Hewwo, What about a Severus x reader one shot where the reader is gender neutral ? I hope you have a wonderful day

Partners

Summary: Both their potions partners fell ill on the same day, forcing Severus and Reader to pair up.

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Ahh, Severus could hear them before he saw them. Heavy feet and that awful laughing.

"Hello Severus, my old friend." They greeted, grabbing his shoulder. They were not friend, Severus thought, they were a annoying pest."Seems were together, finally. You know I've been waiting for you to ask me out on a date for years now." They leaned on the desk sleeve dangerously close to the open flame under the cauldron.

Severus moved quickly, pulling their sleeve away. They raised an eyebrow at Severus, a sly smile on their face. "Practice some safety!" he yelled.

"Jeez," they said, raising their hand in defeat. "If you wanted to hold my hand, you could have just said so." They shrugged and turned on their heels. "What are we even doing, anyway?" As he explained, they couldn't careless, their eyes only focused on Severus' lips. Blah blah blah. " You know you're really pretty." They could see the tip of Severus' ears turned red but he didn't stop explaining.

At the end of it Severus could tell that none of that got through. " You know what, you just stir and I'll do everything else. Ok." Looking deep into their eyes.

"You have really beautiful eyes, you know that?" they mused. Severus turned even redder, he didn't want to admit it, but it did feel good to hear this sort of stuff about himself. And they weren't all that bad. Severus privately thought he would date them if he had the courage to.

Later on in class, things grew calmer, and they were pretty good at potions. " You know I wasn't lying when I asked you on a date." They looked over at Severus who seemed to be in his element. His forehead smoothed out and his shoulders relaxed.

Severus glanced over at them, puzzled. "Why?" he asked, genuinely confused.

Still unsure, they looked over at him. Did he really not see it? "You're great, Severus, really. You're passionate and loyal. You care even if sometimes you don't show it in the traditional way, you care." They looked back down a the bubbling potion already finished. "I know I piss you of and I don't mean too it just. I'd like to see where we'll go even if it's not long term and even if it just friends. I like you."

They peaked at him now, just to see Severus pondering. "I think I'd like to try." They lit up at the news.

"Really?" they beamed, and Severus just nodded shyly. "Wow, I can't believe this!" They were bouncing on the balls of their feet. "I-I have to get ready!" Severus was now the one who was confused; it was half-past two on a Tuesday. But before he could say anything, they were gone.

And that was the start of a very confusing relationship.

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A.N: Wow, I think I lost it halfway through, I hope this is alright. thx xxx

[mettatoniic]

GET TO KNOW ABC'S: MUN EDITION.

A. AGE: twenny-seven B. BIRTHPLACE: california (where a lot of hot people come from) C. CURRENT TIME: 10:35am D. DRINK YOU HAD LAST: water. gonna be peach tea. E. EASIEST PERSON(S) TO TALK TO: my little brother (going on 22). we go out together a lot, seek horrors & halloween all year. we dress the same (goth lol). if I had his hair length (I chopped it to mtt length), we'd look the same from behind (minus height unless im doing heels maybe). he was the first to know im gay and has been a best friend. F. FAVORITE CURRENT SONG(S): emergency contact, pass the Nirvana, bulletproof love, kiss the go-goat, con clavi con dio, two, shut up and dance, sun always shines on tv G. GOALS: apartment. progress in career. improve art. H. HORROR YES OR HORROR NO: horror yes! I've grown up very muted with my style/interest in horror so since I've been an adult, I've been gradually getting deeper and deeper into horrors. being in a Christian household made it difficult to openly enjoy what I like (thanks bullying) but I've been more open about it and living my horrors w my brother. I. IN LOVE?: yes. she's v sweet and v patient (kero) with me and knows abt stuff I've dealt with and has been supportive (hatefueled) and can keep up. inspirational and motivational. gives a very safe environment and listens (kerokero). despite the difficulties we both deal with, my bby is pretty rad. my wei ying 😩 J. JEALOUS OF PEOPLE: not often, really. from a roleplay standpoint, mettaton was the muse who started breaking me from duplicate paranoia/anxiety. I get jealous abt wanting my gf's attention sometimes but that's different lol K. KILLED SOMEONE: wouldn't you like to know, weather boy? L. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT OR SHOULD I WALK BY AGAIN?: dunno about first sight stuff, I'd consider that lust more than anything. walk by again? 🤔 M. MIDDLE NAME: monique lol. haaate my first name and it doesn't help that people can't read it (it's not that hard) or they think they're clever breaking it up and giving me a new name with it. not as clever as people think. N. NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: four, if you count my dad's son. blood, it's three brothers. only girl and i'm a girl kisser oop. sorry. O. ONE WISH: my wish came true. "please get me out of this (now ex) department." I've been living a dream since I made it to my new department as security. there is another desire but I'll do the leg work from here. Q. QUESTIONS YOU'RE ALWAYS ASKED: "is black your favorite color?" oh you're creative. your eyeballs work. nice. "are you asian? filipino?" im brown i dont have percentages for u. don't really care to know what i am. "why are you (always) so quiet?" "do you like dead things?" blah blah S. SONG YOU LAST SANG: mr. sunshine T. TOP 3 FICTIONAL CHARACTERS: mettatonnnnn. vil schoenheit. lan wangji. (gilbert nightray * honorable ment) U. UNEXPERIENCED OR EXPERIENCED WRITER: experienced in terms of a hobby. professionally, probably not. i've made coworkers raise a brow and question my experience/authenticity when they see my writing for a report or something. V. VACATION: most of the places are scattered bc they have something specifically horror or oddity that piques my interest. salem in sept. new york for a library and some museums. japan. china. i'm open-minded just keep me in mind for heat/weather, yk? beach is a no unless its at night. W. WHEN'S YOUR BIRTHDAY: april 3rd X. X-RAYS: tired of 'em. but yes. been in the clear for a minute, thankfully. Y. YOUR FAVORITE FOOD: i'm pleased to say i've been branching out on food lately (stuck on comfort food for a while). love apples, spaghetti, turkey clubs w/ bacon. enchiladas (homemade). tacos/taquitos. peach teaaaa. baos are a new thing for me. grilled cheese (dont judge shutup). proud of my journey. Z. ZODIAC SIGN: double aries and sorry for it. but i make up for it, i hope

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[cowgurrrl]

Lavender Girl

Pairing: Joel Miller x fem!reader

Summary: A field trip [4.7k]

Warnings: financial stress, school fight, June once again introduces an ex, having a muse is creepy and weird, flirting that’s not flirting but it’s not not flirting, June putting her art history knowledge to work

Most days, you're a good teacher. A teacher that students want to eat lunch with or inadvertently include in their silly TikToks. Most days, you're patient and kind and only have to raise your voice a handful of times, if only to be heard over the blanket volume level of teenage conversation. Today is not one of those days. "Guys!" You yell, pausing the music on your computer and turning to look at your class, obviously annoyed. "We're supposed to be talking about Picasso. I don't know why I'm hearing so much conversation about lunch." It's a lie. There was a fight between two students at lunch. It'd also been the topic of conversation in the teacher's lounge, but still.

"Miss, we already talked about Picasso!" One of your kids bemoans, and you raise your eyebrows at them. 

"So, if I asked you right now, you could tell me what historical event his painting Guernica is supposed to depict?" You ask. The entire class goes silent as you wait for a response that never comes, and you sigh. "Please, do your work."

The day started with getting yet another email from another gallery, this time from down south, telling you they loved your work but not enough to showcase or buy it. Then, a text from your manager letting you know that paychecks will be late because of technical issues with the system, even though you're already beyond broke. Then, a sad text from Andie about how she's feeling homesick and misses you and wishes you could get on a plane to come see her. Then, to top it all off, an email from your ex, Henry, popped up the second you pulled into the school. 

Hey, long time, no talk! I hope you're doing well. I wanted to reach out and let you know I've got an exhibition going up later next week and wanted to invite you to the opening. It's about-

You didn't read any further, anger and a wave of past emotions drowning you before you could. You and Henry were together all throughout college. You met during a freshman art class and were inseparable after that. He was tall, sensitive, and had a penchant for listening to country music when he worked, leading to many delirious nights spent crooning to Emmy-Lou Harris together. He surprised you with new paint and spontaneous trips to scenic parts of Texas to fuel your inspiration. You were happy for a long time. You even thought you'd marry him at one point. He wanted to be the next young, groundbreaking artist, making you his muse, no matter how many times you tried to assure him you were also an artist. Your work would go up in galleries and exhibitions, and everyone in your small program would gossip about the two of you. "He's so talented. It's insane," you heard one of your classmates say once. "And she's so beautiful." 

The compliment dug under your skin and stayed there as your relationship failed. You didn't want to be a muse anymore. You stopped letting him paint you in various states of undress and started asking for more alone time to work on your own stuff. You went from being the perfect, polished doll he could position however he wanted and started living in your paint-stained jeans and old, ratty shirt. You started arguing more and more, first about little things like why he left his paint water cups everywhere, and then about big things like your decision to pursue teaching and the "inspiration" he found in an impressionable freshman. He suddenly moved out after graduation without a word, leaving you to nurse your wounds in a half-empty apartment for the rest of your lease, and you hadn't heard from him until this morning. 

There's something more than the sting of hearing from him all these years later that bothers you. You're a high school art teacher struggling to make ends meet, and he's doing exactly what he set out to do. He's getting his work in front of his eyes and receiving praise for it. "Why do you wanna be a teacher when you can just be an artist?" He asked you one morning as you studied for your certification exams. "Or, at least, an artist's wife." 

"And what if I'm not good at that?" You asked. "Then what? I'm just supposed to be your muse for the rest of my life? Have kids to fuel someone else's inspiration and have no time for my own work? Wither away while you go on to make art and give talks and become a cynic? Fuck that." 

You stand by what you said, even all these years later, but there is an irony in that, even as a teacher, you don't have time to do your own work. Still, fuck that. The bell rings and signals the end of another class, and you quickly stand as students start packing up their stuff. "Okay, guys. Remember, your art history essay is due in two weeks! I'm excited to read all about everything you've learned since we started this unit. I love you, and please make good choices." You announce, hoping that at least some of them are listening to you, as they spill out of the classroom and the next students stream in. Ellie's sweet face is a welcome reprieve when she walks in. 

"Hey Bellie! How's your day going, kiddo?" You ask, and she smiles. You'll swear up and down all day that you don't have favorite students, but if you did, Ellie would be one of them. 

"Good. I have my signed permission slip for the art club field trip." She says. After your experience with Joel outside the bar, you couldn't sleep and knocked out all the field trip paperwork before falling asleep on your couch. But you weren't safe from his lips and broad shoulders, even in your subconscious. 

"Oh, my hero! I've been meaning to remind everyone about those. Thanks for getting that in so quickly." You say as she hands the paper to you, Joel's scribbly signature at the bottom. Somehow, you're not surprised that the box indicating he wants to be a chaperone is ticked. "Perfect. Your dad knows when the field trip is?" 

"Yeah. He wrote it down on his calendar and everything." She says, rolling her eyes fondly, and you laugh.

"Well, good, because I'm gonna need all the help I can get when I'm dealing with you guys."

"Hey!" She feigns offense as the bell rings, signaling the end of the passing period, and the last of your students comes running in. Ellie takes her seat near the front, and you grab your silly, colorful pointer to talk about Guernica, which is still proudly displayed on the board. After a quick art history lesson, you release them to work on the projects they've been working on for a week now. They still have a few more days before it's due, so more than half of them are slacking off quietly, which you're fine with. As long as you get a finished assignment at the end, they can do whatever they want.

You play quiet music as they work to help them focus and answer some emails. One email that catches your attention is from the parent of one of your students, Dalton, who's an amazing football player but is less than passionate about art, to say the least. You emailed his dad to let him know he was missing some assignments and could still turn them in late for only a slight penalty, but if he turns in nothing at all, you'll have no choice but to fail him. You also CC'd the football coach so he'd know the academic standing of one of his star players. Needless to say, you've been subject to a few not-so-nice emails from all parties involved. 

Once you're done firing off another round of emails, you decide to step away from your computer so you don't have to see the next reply until absolutely necessary. Walking around the room to answer questions, give opinions, or just hear what's happening in students' lives always makes you feel better. In one period, you helped a handful of students put the finishing touches on their projects, heard the latest gossip, and talked one of your girls out of sending a nasty text to the boy who just broke her heart. And they say teachers aren't important. 

The second you get a little bit of peace during your planning period, your phone buzzes with a notification. Given all the notifications and messages you've received today, you're hesitant to even pull it out of your pocket. But curiosity wins, and you open your phone to find a text from an unsaved number.

Is there anything I should bring to the field trip? Snacks, gum, alcohol?

You laugh to yourself and start typing a message back. 

Alcohol won't be necessary, but it might be good to bring some lunch and a few snacks. I think we're gonna try to have a picnic or something at the museum. 

Yes, ma'am.

You still feeling up to chaperone? Teenagers are no joke.

Do I need to remind you that I've raised two? I think I can handle a few more.

Oh, I can't wait to see this.

It can't be that hard, right?

On the day of the field trip, it turns out to be that hard. The only adults accompanying twenty teenagers to the museum are you and Joel. They're excited to be out of school and doing something new, but you can feel your migraine starting before you even get on the bus. Thankfully, the ride to the museum (and the traffic) calms them down, and they're more manageable by the time you arrive. A curator meets you outside the front doors and begins by walking your group through the outdoor sculptures, giving a little bit of history of the museum and the pieces themselves. The kids ask insightful questions and take turns snapping photos or even sketching a rough outline of the piece before moving on to the next. You stay at the front of the group while Joel manages the middle and back, silencing kids with a stern look. You fight a smile when you catch him and Ellie lingering at a sculpture, whispering to each other before he urges her forward and takes a sweet picture of her smiling in front of it. 

After the initial walk of the grounds, you stop to have lunch in a sunny garden and listen to the kids gush about their favorite part so far and what paintings they're most excited to see inside. 

"Miss, what's your favorite thing here?" Kayla asks.

"I like Dream Village by Chagall. If you find it before me, you'll have to let me know." You say. "Do you have a favorite?"

"Not yet. Maybe I'll find it today." Kayla says.

"I like that attitude!"

"Kissass." Jacob coughs, and you both give him a look. You can feel Joel's eyes burning a hole in the back of your head as you stare at Jacob.

"What's my policy?" 

"Are you really gonna make me say it?"

"Yep." You say, and he sighs.

"You can be anything you want to be, but you're not allowed to be a dick." He mumbles.

"Exactly. So, please, be nice," you say as you fish around in your lunch box for something. "Here, have a cookie. It might help make you feel a little better." He mutters a little thanks and unwraps it, already in a better mood after one bite, and you smile. 

"You just carry around cookies, waiting for a kid to be in a bad mood?" Joel asks, and you turn to look at him. He's wearing a plain blue t-shirt and jeans with sunglasses sitting atop his head, but you think it might be your favorite thing he's worn in your presence. You like it when he wears color.

"It was my cookie, but he needs it more than I do," you shrug. "Besides, things like that are a great morale booster. It's hard to be grumpy when you've got something sweet." 

"I'm inclined to agree with you." He quips a little too smoothly, his eyes flicking across your face and down to your lips, and you feel your cheeks getting hot. Thankfully, all the kids have returned to their own conversations and couldn't care less about what the Adults are talking about. 

"You're relentless." You whisper.

"Do you want me to stop?" He whispers back, and you sigh. If you were a stronger or better person, you might be able to think fast enough to come up with a response, but you're not. So, you just look at him and rack your brain for something to say but come up empty. "That's what I thought." He smiles and offers you his sweating Dr. Pepper can as a peace offering. You roll your eyes at his smug look but take a sip anyway. 

Once everyone is done eating, you all stand and make your way into the museum lobby, the kids already chattering about what they want to see. 

"Okay, you guys are free to roam but please, please, please remember that you're representing not only the school but also me. Be respectful and kind, and please don't act like you've never been in public before, okay? Go, be free." You say before the kids split off into their little groups with their obligatory activity in hand. Ellie stays near Joel, only a little shy, until Kayla turns around suddenly and waves her on.

"Ellie, c'mon!" She says. Ellie takes a few steps in her direction before turning to look back at Joel.

"Go. I'll be okay." He says.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure. Now go. Have fun." She doesn't need any more encouragement after that and skitters off with the rest of the kids, leaving you and Joel alone in the atrium. 

"She's doing really well." You tell him even though he can clearly see for himself. 

"Thanks to you." 

"All I did was give her a push."

"Take the credit. You deserve it." He says, his lips pulling into that award-winning smile. 

You fall into silence as you walk through the different galleries, Joel never too far behind you. Sometimes, he'll start at the opposite end of the room and work his way down until you meet in the middle, making a deliberate effort to bump your shoulder or hand as he passes. Other times, he'll stay right next to you, and, for some reason, it doesn't bother you. You like being so close to him and feeling his eyes work over the piece like it's a puzzle he doesn't quite know how to work. When he can't stand the quiet anymore, he'll whisper a question to you about the artist or the history, his breathing fanning out across your neck and making the hair there stand on end. 

After moving through a big part of the museum together, you and Joel end up at the same painting as the dull hum of voices fills the space between you. You smile to yourself, practically hearing him trying to find something to say as he stands there and observes how the lines of bright colors follow each other. Some are stark and almost resemble lightning in how they move around the canvas, but others are muted, blended together with careful precision and patience. It's hard to imagine what West Texas could've been like in 1953, but this makes it a little easier.

"What's this one supposed to mean?" Joel mumbles, leaning ever so conspicuously into you. 

"I can't tell you." You mumble back, and he finally turns to look at you head-on. You meet his eyes with an amused smile, and he shakes his head at you.

"You're really not gonna tell me?"

"I can't tell you what art is supposed to mean to you. I can't tell anyone that." 

"But, you're a teacher."

"If you're asking me for an art history lesson, I'd be happy to help, but that's about all I can do for you."

"'S cruel and unusual punishment."

"If art and culture are cruel and unusual punishment, why'd you sign up to chaperone?"

"Maybe I wanted to see my friend," he says, bumping you with his shoulder, and you laugh a little too hard. "What? We can't be friends? Is there a school policy against that, too?" 

"Nope, no school policy. I just," You pause and revel in how enraptured he looks at every movement, pause, and breath you take. "I already have friends, so..."

"Oh, and you're 'fraid of bein' too popular?"

"Famously." You say, and he chuckles next to you. You go back to staring at the painting quietly with him so close you can feel his body heat. You're the one to break this time, knocking him with your shoulder to get his attention again. You didn't need to. When you glance at him, you see his focus is on you, not the painting. "It's Texas. Canyon, to be more precise. Up by Amarillo where there's nothing but cattle and desert. O'Keeffe taught out there for a few years and wanted to paint something that showed how big the West is. It's supposed to make you feel like you're two feet tall and seeing the sky for the first time. For her, it might've been the first time in a long time she'd gotten to see a sunset that big. So, she painted it so other people could enjoy sunsets like that. It's like a love letter." 

"How d'you do that?" He asks once you're finished explaining, and you furrow your eyebrows. 

"Do what?" 

"Make little things seem so beautiful." He answers easily, like you asked him what color the sky is. You don't know what to say. What are you supposed to say to something like that?

"'S just what art does." You shrug and break away from his gaze to look at the painting, if only to not feel him staring into your soul.

"No, it's what you do to it. 'S why those kids love you so damn much. You make everythin' feel like a masterpiece, even the little things." He's not flirting. He's not trying to persuade you to do one thing over another. He's genuine and heartfelt. You swear you would start crying if you had a little less sleep. You take a deep breath and lean into him for half a second, just enough to feel his body against yours, before standing upright again.

"Thank you." 

"It's what friends are for," he says, leaning into you in return. "I should make sure they haven't seized the museum or anythin'."

"Oh, I can do it. You're a guest."

"And you work too hard," he stops you. "Take a break and enjoy what you love. The world won't end if you take some time for yourself." If ever there were awards to be given out for sweet talking, you think Joel Miller would win all of them. 

"Okay," you say, and he walks behind you to move on to the next section. "You really wanna be my friend?" You ask before he can fully pass behind you, looking at him over your shoulder. He smiles devastatingly, light sparkling in his eyes, and nods.

"I really wanna be your friend." He says softly, his voice low and rumbling in his chest. He lingers for a second or two before finally making his way to the group of students, leaving you to scrutinize the painting you've been staring at for God knows how long.

The day crawls to an uneventful close, with you forcing all the students to take a picture in front of the museum for the yearbook. Joel takes your phone out of your hand and all but pushes you in the photo, and your students lovingly welcome you into their little group. In exchange, you grab Joel's phone and take cute pictures of him and Ellie for their own memories. They smile almost identically, and Ellie makes a fake annoyed face when Joel kisses her temple. Your fingers brush against each other when you hand it back, and for a second, you can feel the callouses from his job. It feels like unlocking a new piece of him or a new quirk. 

Too bad this isn't a date. Too bad nothing can ever come of this. Too bad you had to meet this way. Too bad. Too bad. 

The ride home is quiet and full of the clinking of backpacks and new souvenirs. When you get to the school, parents are waiting in the parking lot with fast food dinners and excited ears to hear all about their days. Almost everyone immediately slinks home, tired and happy, before you can even get close to the school doors. Almost everyone. Joel and Ellie help you carry your backpack and some things you bought for teaching purposes at the museum into your classroom. The school is virtually deserted, and you return to your room to find all the lamps flipped off and mostly positive notes from the sub. 

"Dad, what are we gonna do for dinner?" Ellie groans as you sit in your chair and open your email quickly before you can pack up the rest of your stuff. Their dinner debate becomes background noise as you find your inbox full of annoyed messages from Dalton's parents, coaches, and even Principal Martinez regarding his grades. Under all that vitriol sits Henry's half-read message about his gallery opening, and you feel the perfect bubble of your day burst around you. Joel and Ellie seem to realize it because they're both quiet when you tune back into their conversation, and you turn in your chair to look at them. 

"Are you okay?" Ellie asks, and you snap out of it, putting on your best teacher everything-is-fine face.

"Oh, yeah. Sorry. Just some emails. It's not important." You wave her off, but Joel isn't so easily convinced. He thinks for a second before pulling his keys out of his pocket and handing them to Ellie. 

"Go get some practice driving." He says, jerking his head toward the door, and Ellie's eyes light up.

"Really?!"

"Just bring the car to the front, and don't hit anything!" He says, but she's already taken off with the keys and her stuff in an excited whirlwind. You laugh at her enthusiasm, and Joel leans against one of the desks near you, crossing his arms in front of him. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong." 

"Your whole face fell when you opened that computer." 

"It's nothing." 

"If we're gonna be friends, you're gonna have to tell me if somethin's wrong otherwise I can't help you." He says, and you fight a smile. 

"I don't know how you're gonna help me with this one." You say. He bumps your foot with his and gives you a pleading look. Big brown eyes on men like him should be illegal, you think.

"Talk to me." He begs quietly, and you take a deep breath.

"When I was in college, I dated this guy. He was an artist, too, and we were like the little power couple of our program. Things ended kinda badly and abruptly, and I hadn't heard from him since graduation until last week when he invited me to his gallery opening. I really don't want to go alone because, honestly, I haven't been able to get anything showcased in years, and I'm embarrassed. Plus, he broke my heart and made me feel like shit for a few years." You can't stop the words from falling from you once the dam is broken, but Joel doesn't flinch.

"Well, you've got friends to go with, right?"

"I do," you say. "But I want to invite you."

"Oh." He says, seemingly unintentionally.

"Oh." You repeat. "You can say no. I just thought... since we're friends and all now."

"I just... I don't..." he struggles before finally giving in to what he wants to say, what you think he's wanted to say all day. "I don't think I'm smart enough to go to somethin' like that. I don't know anythin' about art. I don't even know how to dress for those kinda things."

"Nobody knows anything about art. Not really, at least. Especially not Henry."

"You do."

"Then I'll stick with you all night and feed you lines about composition or some shit," you say. "And you just wear a nice shirt and some slacks. Maybe a suit jacket if you're feeling snazzy. It's really not as big a deal as people make it seem. We'll go, drink wine, say something about the colors, play nice, and then we'll leave. I'll have you home by 9:30. Earlier if you really hate it that much." He rolls his neck like he's rattling something around in his head or thinking about your offer, and all you can do is watch him and the way his Adam's apple pressing against the delicate skin of his throat. You're convinced he's gonna say no.

"Are you asking me on a date?" He finally asks, and you laugh.

"Not a date."

"Sounds like a date. You even promised to have me home to my girl at a reasonable time."

"Fine, it's a friend date."

"A friend date?" He raises his eyebrows at you, and you nod. 

"It's perfectly normal to go on friend dates, Miller. You're just behind on the times."

"Seems like I am. Maybe you can bring me up to speed during the gallery opening?" He says, and your shoulders drop in relief. "I'll pick you up if you agree to help me not look like an idiot."

"You won't look like an idiot." 

"Not with you there, I won't." He says, and you want to laugh, but you also want to tear up a little at his kindness. It's been a long week. 

"Thank you, Joel. Really. I owe you." You say, and he nods. 

"'S my pleasure," he says. For a minute, you two just stare at each other in your empty classroom like teenagers with an obvious crush. You think that's what you feel like. You think that's all you'll ever be able to feel for him. "I should go. I've got an impatient teenager waitin' for me." 

"Yeah. Go get her some dinner, and I'll text you the details." You say as you stand to walk him out. He stands to his full height, opens his arms, and approaches you. You didn't think you were hugging territory, but as his arms wrapped around you, you couldn't help but hug him back.  

"Goodnight." He says into your hair, lingering for another moment before disappearing as fast as he appeared. 

"Goodnight," you say. With that, he starts walking to the open door with a smile stuck to his face. "Hey, Joel," you call before he can step over the threshold, and he turns around to look at you. "Art is for everyone, and even if it wasn't, you're more than smart enough to enjoy it."

"Yes, ma'am." He says with a half-salute and a wink before stepping out of your classroom. You let yourself rest against your desk and take a deep breath. Finally, you let yourself pull out your phone and read the rest of Henry's email detailing the time and place of the gallery. 

I hope you can come. It would really mean a lot to me. I miss talking to you and even though things ended the way they did, I still love you.

See you soon,

Henry Hall

"Fuck that."

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WEEKLY TAG WEDNESDAY

Thanks for the Q's @energievie and the tag @jrooc In this week's @weekly-tag-wednesday we'll be talking about music.. again! 👏🏻

I apparently had Thoughts on this one, sorry.

But first (as usual)...

Name: Annise

Age: This old *holds out hands*

Location: UK

And now...

Favourite instrument to listen to: probably piano. I love orchestral music, but not for any particular instrument... For singular instruments it's piano or possibly cello.

Instrument(s) you can play: I learned flute to a decent standard and played in concert bands through uni and a bit beyond, but I haven't really played in a few years. I taught myself piano, but was never really good... Practised for the first time since having kids the other day and I now want to take it up again but time is hard. I also played recorder (I was briefly in a recorder consort and I have a beautiful and neglected wooden recorder). I very very briefly started learning clarinet as well, but only for a few weeks. And does voice count?! Because I used to do choirs and sang in a band for a while.

Instrument(s) you'd love to learn to play: hmmm... Mostly I'd just love to be Actually Good at piano. When I was a teen I had ambitions to play an instrument of every type... I was gonna go for oboe, clarinet, trumpet, and viola, because then you are a short step from being able to play every orchestral instrument (and if you play oboe or viola you will always be in demand in orchestras even if you're shit). My ambitions were a lot bolder than my ability, needless to say.

Do you mostly pay attention to the lyrics or the melody and the artist's voice: I honestly don't know... My first instinct was lyrics, but I think actually it's melody and voice and then I properly tune in to the lyrics if the song gets me enough. But it probably depends on the song, and my favourites need to have stuff special in both.

Best live performance: ugh. So... I have really complicated feelings about it now, but probably the most fun I had at a gig was Amanda Palmer back in 2009-ish. Also really loved Delain (who were supporting act at two gigs I've been to and were almost better than the main in both cases). Judas Priest were one of my first gigs and I have very fond memories of that one too. And The Darkness were also so much fun!! And just because, I saw a Video Game Music orchestral concert in London a while back and it was incredible.

Artist you would love to see live: Iron Maiden!! Three Days Grace. Green Day (I missed out on them at a festival because they were playing at the same time as Supergrass... I loved Supergrass but still wish I could have seen both).

Best cover: I saw someone say Muse - Feeling Good and have been unable to think of a counter offer that comes close. I also used to sing that with my band, so it's got a soft spot.

Overrated artist: this is a cop out, but I feel like this would require me to have a better idea of how rated artists are, and I really don't pay attention. Maybe The Killers? But I'm mostly basing that on a single conversation with That One Guy that annoyed me so much it made me hate a song I was previously only indifferent to.

Underrated artist: Vienna Teng. I came across one song on a hard drive dump I got from a friend and fell in love but no one I know has ever heard of her. I recommend "Drought" and "Medea" I used to sing "Lullaby for a stormy night" a lot to my kids when they were babies.

An album you listen from beginning to end without skipping a song: I mean, most of them? I love listening to sounds albums in their original format and rarely skip unless there's something I actively hate. But the ones that comes to mind are "Within Temptation - The Unforgiving" "Green Day - American Idiot" and "Shinedown - Attention Attention" and all three are concept albums.

A song from your favourite artist you almost always skip: I can't actually think of one.

No tags today because it's been one of those days.

[potentialbreakupscng-a]

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i'm polyamorous and bi so picking a singular favorite is never going to be an option. so here are a bunch of people that i talk to regularly or semi regularly, and included in the bottom are more people that i truly enjoy and love.

@grimmusings et al - carrie has stuck with me on every blog, and through most of my muses. she's a wonderful person and a lovely writer and i'm so honored to be her friend. she was there for me when my mom was going through health stuff, and continues to be a lovely bean. i love all of our threads, and i love that we both know we can take as much time as we need. <3

@velvetnviolentviolets - kay doesn't really come on tumblr anymore, but i always have to give a shout out to my best friend. we've known each other since high school, and she's a talented writer, but she's an even more amazing friend. the two of us have been through hell and high water together, and i love her with all of my heart. she's one of my best friends. she puts so much energy into everything she sets her mind to, and just...is wonderful.

@dementrd - abi is the reason i started writing remus again, and i love her so much and i'm so glad that she's coming back to writing on tumblr again. we've been writing together and talking to each other for over a year now, i think? and she continues to astound me and awe me with her talent. not only that, she's so incredibly sweet and hilarious. our boys are very dumb but every time i see nicholas galitzine now, remus is like: wow there's my husband and i cannot unsee him as sirius black. i trust you so implicitly and i adore hearing about your day.

@lupiinee bitch u knew u were gonna be mentioned. - t feels like we've been writing together and have known each other for years which is absolute insanity that it's only been...what, two? three? weeks? i've talked about how wonderful your remus is and i love reading everything you do. but you??? as a human??? you're a wonderful human. you never miss a beat if i'm having a hard day to remind me that anxiety is a bitch and my brain is lying to me. i enjoy talking to you and i'm so glad i get to know you.

@everbloomingsoul / @wizardingsouls et al - catt has become a VERY FAST friend. i love yelling about our polycule, and all of our muses. you have become a staple friend in my life now, and every day seems strange if we don't talk. we had an instant connection and you're such a kind and wonderful person. you helped me set up my disco for my streaming community -- helped me with my stream in general. you're...so amazing and i'm in awe of your talent.

there are so many muns and blogs that i could spend hours talking about and write multiple paragraphs about so i'm just gonna speed run some others that i adore: @signetrings | @bornofthedawn | @bornbreathless | @mugglebrn | @thechosengryffindor | @vivaciousandcharming ( i already wrote a full thing about u ) | @starwrittenfates/ @magicwrittenfates | @knife-like

[phantom-overdose]

HERE'S A LIST OF CANON CHARACTERS I'LL (possibly) BE WRITING OVER HERE A LITTLE* *all of which are low activity, highly selective / possibly exclusive muses and/or solely test muses. Muses will be available within different age ranges (for example, I'll write Peeta at his age during the novels or after or would even be content with flashbacking to pre-novels), but smut will obviously be limited to being written with muses 18+. I will also be fairly selective with ships because these muses are low activity as it is and I don't want to feel overwhelmed or pressured or anything. If I feel pressured into ships and such I usually lose muse and I'll take them off of the roster entirely.

Muses with bolded names are likely to be higher activity than those without :) Muses with italicized names are going to be extra selective and may end up being taken off of the list.

Peeta Mellark - Hunger Game Gale Hawthorne - Hunger Games Haymitch Abernathy - Hunger Games Coriolanus Snow - Hunger Games (super, highly, selective about shipping and any shipping with him will be toxic. I loved reading about his character and I find him super interesting... but I don't think he's capable of feeling love without the toxic possessiveness. I don't think the possessiveness is romantic, either. I think it's literally just him only really seeing other people as a means to an end or as possessions.) Finnick Odair - Hunger Games Johanna Mason - Hunger Games Katniss Everdeen - Hunger Games

Anakin Skywalker - Star Wars (highly selective about shipping (unless we've written together before and you're willing to toss Padme at me because I love them dearly <3) but only because I think that as long as Padme was in the picture at some point, that's the only person he'd ever really want. He may be a mess, but my boy is COMMITTED to his wifey. So we'd have to do an AU where he was never with her and lost his crush on her from when he was a kid (maybe the whole second movie gets retconned so he doesn't have that time to spend with her and fall more in love with her) ^^; I REFUSE to write him cheating on her or to have it be a situation where Padme is actually horrible to him and he leaves her for your muse. Uh-uh. No fucking way. Those story lines piss me off because they're SO opposed to their characters they make no sense. I'm a massive prequels fan and won't do my babies dirty like that.) Padme Amidala Naberrie - Star Wars (kind of the same as with Anakin, I'll probably be pretty selective about shipping, though maybe slightly less so with her than with Anakin just because I could more easily see her with someone else. Though tbh without Anakin I see her more as "married to the job", so to speak xD) Obi Wan Kenobi - Star Wars Han Solo - Star Wars Leia Organa - Star Wars Luke Skywalker - Star Wars (all original trilogy muses will NOT follow the sequels time line) Darth Revan - Star Wars (will use any gender Revan- I usually prefer an AFAB, non-binary, Revan though) Meetra Surik - Star Wars

David Haller - Legion FX (don't know him well enough in comics to write him like that. Besides, there's a fic I've been working on for almost 2 years with him in something closer to this verse so it's nice to get to write him like that lol)

Wolf - The Tenth Kingdom Virginia Lewis - The Tenth Kingdom

If I find that I have time for them more or that I'm REALLY vibing with one / some of them, I might make a separate blog. This blog is, first and foremost, for the two bands! I've just been in the mood for HG and SW stuff and I've also restarted Legion with some friends, so I've been feeling that, too. Almost NOBODY writes as David Haller anymore, which is a shame, so I figured I'd try my hand at him again.

Face claims aren't particularly important to me, but I might add them later, anyway? Possibly updated ones for certain roles? I haven't decided yet. But, for now, feel free to just picture them as their movie fcs or to imagine them as you want to.

[nearestend]

will be moving blogs at some point in the new year. not sure when exactly (i'm busy right now) and it might just be temporary, but if you're interested in following me there, you can let me know. (feel free to like this post or send me a message on disco, anything really works.)

might make some changes? a lot of it is still being considered, but here's how i think it will go. (a lot of it is just me thinking out loud. that helps me. and i also just want to be transparent.)

canons will probably be secondary priority, if not lower. still really happy to write them with friends if we have ongoing plots or discussions, but generally not eager to put them at the forefront. for a lot of reasons. (i could say that i think a lot of canons get treated as trends that will die out eventually... and it's fine if that's your thing, but i don't really like it for myself and don't want to do that. there's a whole convo to be had about that. now is not the time for it.)

i think my general rule is going to just be, if i don't see potential for developing a character in depth, i'm not going to list them on my roster. there will still be some that are more developed than others, but if there isn't at least potential for me to do that, i won't be listing them. it's just a priorities thing right now.

honestly, if we're good enough friends and i've written someone previously that you want to continue interacting with, you can ask about it. just because they aren't listed, doesn't mean i won't write them but it will just be slower. that being said, i probably won't do this unless we know each other pretty well and you're still willing to write with the ones i prioritize.

in terms if who i will/won't follow ... eh i don't like this topic but i do think i should say that there is a chance i won't follow some people back. i don't have any actual beef with anyone, but there's been some stuff over the past year that wasn't really fun to even witness from afar (most of it pertains to how ableism and racism were handled). i don't care enough to hold that against anyone in a serious way or try to have that conversation with people who aren't willing to respond constructively, but it's not especially nice to see and better not to engage. idk. my general thing is that if it's not safe and enjoyable to engage with a certain aspect of this webbed site then i'm just not going to.

there might also just be some instances where i won't follow back because i don't know if we have anything to talk about. and that's fine! i think it's okay not to click with every person you know. but i'm not going to rule anyone out entirely — it's situational and i like to give anyone who expresses interest in being friends/mutuals a chance. no hard feelings to anyone if something doesn't work out.

i probably won't advertise my new url that much just because i like a small circle, but i'm not going to hide it either. most likely just going to privately message my new url to friends who want to follow. if you come across it in the wild, you're welcome to perceive it anyways!

in terms of what my actual priorities are ... we already know that it will always be alice (number one gal). probably lozzie and noah too (she's number two and he is number three but they're kind of interchangeable). hmmm everyone else is still to be determined because they usually fluctuate. i think mostly everyone on the current oc roster will stay though. might do a thing like "permanent roster, always available" and "who knows about these guys — they're here if you want 'em but (vague gesturing)". that being said, if i added any muses specifically for a friend, i'll keep them around because that's half the fun of this for me.

will continue to prioritize disco stuff, especially if it's for longer in-depth threads with more plotting. i think that disco's platform just makes it easier/more relaxing for me. tumblr tends to be a bit harder to write very intricate plots just because i'm conscious of perfectionism here, but i don't mind it for fun casual stuff. you can always let me know your preferences, i'm pretty open-minded.

triggers will be present. unfortunately, they will always be present due to the nature of a lot of these characters. and i'll include warnings for everything, but i do want to emphasize this very much. just be aware of your own needs and comfort, i'm available for a respectful and open dialogue as needed too, but ultimately i want us to make our own choices and not feel obligated to partake in anything just for the sake of it.

well. i don't know if any of this made sense because i did not plan this out when i began this post. but that's the general / important stuff that i wanted people to be aware of before following. i'll probably do the official move soon-ish, depending on my availability, and keep you all updated when i do.

AS ALWAYS! i'm on disco. if we are friends who talk regularly (or even semi-regularly) on there, you will probably get a follow from me regardless. pretty much anyone who i currently have an active server with will get a follow from me unless they don't want one (which you're welcome to actually say, if you want. i won't be offended even if you say "nah i'm good, see ya". honestly that would be pretty funny and i hope someone does that sincerely.)

[emberfcrged]

LET'S GET REACQUAINTED ! hey rpc ! lets be honest, datv brought us all back in one way or another either you're a veteran or new, i'm sure there is stuff that has changed or we don't know each other so let's have a game about it to reintroduce each other ! repost this to do the same & tag some pals if you want !

Name / Penname: Ray for veterans, did you go by something previously ? name &/or penname: nope, always just Ray age & gender ( if comfortable sharing ): 28, female what was your first dragon age muse: Does all of them count? Ha! I guess I would say Maverick though, but he was originally a BG3 muse that I converted over for the DA setting when I started this blog up again. do you have any other darp muses / blogs: Nope, this is my first. what muses / blogs do you have outside of darp: My personal blog is @sambergcrs and tbh I am so inactive on that it's not even funny. It's my general musing & gif making blog because I've spent the last like 12 years or so doing rp groups. I only made my indie last year when BG3 came out and I was ITCHING to write in that universe!! So now I'm here, took a bit of a break over the last like 5 months because of a new job, but I'm back with my Dragon Age obsession reignited (even though I have not finished Veilguard...oops). thedas has two moons: I am unfortunately TERRIBLE at keeping track of lore so truly Bioware I feel you.

single line, para, or novella: Para/Novella. I don't mind what other people do but I am incapable of shortening replies half the time. SORRY. plotting or winging it: I am fine with both but I find I typically reply a lot faster and become more engaged in threads where we've plotted things out. Winging it with memes, starter calls and such are a great way to gauge chemistry and can serve super well as a jumping off point, though. fighting threads, you bold enough for them? They scare me truthfully but I could be down! My writing style is very...internalized as far as my characters go. I can dive into their psyches and write about why they do and feel the things they do and feel all day. So, admittedly I wouldn't say I'm super comfortable with them BUT I am more than willing to as long as we plot something out in detail & my partner is patient with me. what content warnings are on your blog?: Very few, just a general NSFW content may be present. I can always add more, but in general it's just possible smeggsual content and possible violence/gore. what things do you need tagged for your comfort?: I truly don't need anything tagged for my own purposes, but if that changes I will update my rules & let my writing partners know..

shipping preferences: single | multi | no ship | polyship. Wrote up a rule about this earlier this week! I am very versatile, happy to pair my muses up for multiple ships, but when it comes to canon characters I impose a limit. For example, I probably won't ship with more than one or two, say, Fenris' (FYI, I currently don't have any wink wink) because I find coming up with so many different dynamics between multiple portrayals a bit tiring, personally. Also, if my partners have rules I will typically follow them. But! Overall, I'm a ship fiend. Happy to discuss anything and everything. Also, would love more polyship opportunities. shipping boundaries: See above regarding canon characters, but I don't have too many hard boundaries right off the bat. Nothing generally inappropriate, obviously, or outright problematic. I'll always be open to ideas but will enforce my boundaries when they come up, and I hope others will feel comfortable to do the same.

fun facts about yourself that may have changed since in the past ten years( when inquisition dropped )-- damn I mean I graduated high school and college and then went into the working world, got married, moved a bunch, bought a house. It's certainly been a hard journey, especially the past few years or so in dealing with some of my husband's health struggled, but overall it's wild to see how much growth I've had and see how long these games have endured the test of time.

be honest, did you miss darp. come on now: I have never been a part of this community before, but I love it. I've had a great time & I can't wait to interact with more people!

challenge round! put a small top five things unrelated to dragon age ! - i have a 9 year old pitbull/corgi mix named dingo, and a 2 year old tuxedo cat named suki. i would do terrible things for them - i have a degree in television production but now i market forklifts for a living LMAO - hot rod is the greatest movie ever made - diet pepsi is superior to diet coke dont even @ me - go birds!!!!!

tagged by: @alitlantern & @onlyinthedas & i think more a while ago i am SORRY IM SLOW

tagging: you!! bc i cant keep up with who did this already and im shy!!

[idolbound]

LET'S GET REACQUAINTED ! hey rpc ! lets be honest, datv brought us all back in one way or another either you're a veteran or new, i'm sure there is stuff that has changed or we don't know each other so let's have a game about it to reintroduce each other ! repost this to do the same & tag some pals if you want !

Name / Penname: Lexie for veterans, did you go by something previously ? if so what was it if you're comfortable sharing that name &/or penname: Nope, I've always gone by Lexie. age & gender( if comfortable sharing ): 30, female what was your first dragon age muse: I want to say it was my Cassandra, originally @stabbystabseeker , then I had my Hawke and Inquis both for a hot second as well as Meredith in 2015. do you have any other darp muses / blogs: I have Cassandra, my Rook, and soon to be Rana Savas on my multi @afraidofchange what muses / blogs do you have outside of darp: Mostly still just my multi, but I did throw my D&D/Bg3 Paladin Rama on a solo blog for the time being @wolfbluff thedas has two moons: true | false - is that not the canon?

single line, para, or novella: all of the above, but I don't like single line stuff to go on for more than a few replies/single evening. I need at least some exposition and description lol. plotting or winging it: Typically memes or plotting more generally. It doesn't have to be super specific but I like having mutually shared ideas. fighting threads, you bold enough for them?: I write a villain with a boss fight; of course I'm down to write them. Meredith is also a powerful templar, and isn't afraid to fuck someone up. (this would require plotting, obviously no god modding, but yknow). what content warnings are on your blog?: Drug usage with lyrium (or cocaine in modern verse), violence, PTSD, violence, gore/blood, uh, genocide of the Circle mages, etc. I don't sanitize Meredith, but I approach these topics with respect. what things do you need tagged for your comfort?: suicide & self-harm.

shipping preferences: single | multi | no ship | polyship (sorry Meredith is polyphobic xoxo)- typically, I'm open to separate ships, but because of who Meredith is, some plotting is necessary - I do not change her character to suit a ship (but I have a greater ability to ship her in post-DA2 verses or modern verse, where she isn't as limited). shipping boundaries: Meredith is a lesbian. I ship her with other female muses. She's also between 35-45 years of age during the Kirkwall timeline, and while I'm open to certain age gaps, I prefer to at least ship her with someone 25+ and has their frontal lobe fully developed. I'm pretty selective with my ships, but if there's a vibe, I'd be interested in exploring it (casual, short or long term). favorite ships in dragon age: There are so so many canon x canons, but if we're gonna count romance options in the games: Morrigan/Warden, Isabela/f!Hawke, Cassandra/Inquis, Neve/Rook. favorite ships from the rpc( tag your friends ships ! ): There are a few whose URLs are escaping me but trust me when I say that I see you, especially those of us that have been writing the same ships w the same people for years. So shout out to @sanctamater for writing Kirkwall's Worst Sapphics together <3

fun facts about yourself that may have changed since in the past ten years( when inquisition dropped )--

I moved halfway across the country and I'm 2.5 years into writing my doctorate. (Also it's been almost 10 years since I started writing Mere). My best friend is due with twins any day now (we only know Baby A is female, we still don't know what Baby B's sex is because they've kept their legs closed this entire time), but I'll be an auntie before 2024 is out.

be honest, did you miss darp. come on now--

I missed a lot of the people I wrote with back in the day and thankfully many of them have come back. I don't miss the crazy insane drama / insane behaviour that happened in this RPC, and quite frankly, I do wish more people would branch out and write more actually sapphic women, dwarves, and villains / morally grey protagonists (beyond blood mage Hawkes for example).

challenge round ! put a small top five things unrelated to dragon age !

Let's do Music things since spotify wrapped just dropped:

Chappell Roan's rise to stardom in 2024 (but I was a fan about a year before because @magicbound recommended me Red Wine Supernova on Discord).

Brat Summer.

Katie Gavin's solo album What a Relief emotionally destroyed me because it released a week after my break up, but I still bought it on vinyl.

Cat Burns did not only a cover of I like the way you kiss me but she also did teenage dirtbag and they're both amazing!

Megan Thee Stallion is the greatest rapper of our generation. I said what I said.

tagging: @sanctamater @theharellan @theodosiani @prophetries

[corcnaiism]

;-- alrighty so i have come to my decision. i will be moving my oc and my gf muses to another blog bc i feel like there is so much lore ive created and will be creating that will require its own blog for me to dump everything in without feeling like im clogging the dash.

i also been feeling like this blog has run dry and i need to start fresh again. i will keep it with the other muses i have just in case i get inspo to write them, but so far ive been nose deep in gf, especially with my oc that is heavily involved in that verse, so i feel like i just need another blog for me to throw all that stuff into.

i also just haven't been feeling comfortable in this blog anymore even with the things ive tried doing to make it easier for me to be around. it's like ive disconnected myself/been disconnected from the rest of the community, and i honestly just need to go somewhere else and start anew. even tho i might not get a lot of interactions for gf stuff, at least i won't feel like i'm blowing someone's dash and feeling annoying or something. sure, people would've just unfollowed/block me, but still idk i just feel uneasy speaking about the things ive been super passionate about lately. i might not get much traction either once i move blogs, but at least it'll feel like i'm throwing my ideas out there to those who genuinely want to see me yap my brains out or even just to myself without feeling awkward doing so.

i blame my low self esteem tbh. i just have zero confidence in myself when it comes to putting myself out there, and sometimes it gets to me that i don't have someone to talk to about things or feel like im being ignored/annoying. it's honestly just my own fault tbh and giving myself a hard time, and this is just something i deal with on a day to day basis whether it be online or irl.

so yeah ill just stop there before i get into trauma-dumping territory but uh yeah so ill most likely be creating a new blog and pouring all of my gf stuff on there with my oc and my other canon muses. i just feel like that's the better option bc like i said there has been so much ive written and still have to write about the worldbuilding for that universe where my oc exists within the gf realm that i feel it deserves to have its own blog. ill be turning this blog into my secondary blog and come back to it every now and then when i get muses for other fandoms. i feel like this will just be better for my own mental health too and stay away from feeling isolated.

if you read this far and you have written with any of gf muses, oc included, i will be moving our threads over to the new blog and tag you appropriately if you wish to continue. i'll post something on here whenever i've moved to the new blog so you're aware that it's me tagging you just in case you're confused as well as sending dms. i'll probably have this new blog up and running after the holidays and my trip, so expect an update or two on the upcoming new year.

and another note if you've read this far, i wanna wish you all happy holidays and please make sure you do what you can to stay safe. i love you guys and thank you so much for giving me another lovely year <3

[house-on-sand]

some general random questions!!! hihi levi i love you and i miss you bro hope you're doing well <3

what have you been up to lately? how's 2025 looking for you so far?

anything you're looking forward to? can be soon or in the future any time

three common comic related misconceptions you see in the dc fandom + what comics would you recommend reading to fix them?

pick any song, from your shuffle or anything you remember first; what oc or canon character does it remind you of and why?

would you and your icon be roommates?

your tumblr icon vs your discord icon: who'd win that fight

what's one hobby you'd like to learn one day? what's one hobby you enjoy doing now?

what are you reading currently? or last reas? can be comics, novels, fanfics, etc or even just academic stuff

what are three things you're proud of yourself for?

are your muses with siblings anything like you and your siblings?

what was your first fandom or special interes

favourite supernatural or mythical creature or cryptid?

have you ever been into creepypasta?

two truths and a lie?

you don't have to do this all, whatever you feel like doing!! 🩵🩵🩵

hiii sans!!!! i love and miss you too <3 <3

thank you for all the questions i had so much fun answering them :)

what have you been up to lately? how's 2025 looking for you so far?

mostly school! i was finishing up the semester so i can enjoy my summer break before i knock out my last two semesters before graduation. i've been reading as i have the time and the last couple days i've been cleaning n organizing the apartment because we've got stuff we can get rid of and im trying to clear out our dining room alcove thing so i can use it as my own space. i've already got like a layout planned n stuff i'm gonna get for over there! im very excited! 2025 has not been too bad for me! there's been some upsetting shit but its not been as bad as last year was.

anything you're looking forward to? can be soon or in the future any time

my top surgery consultation!!! its in july!! i'm so fucking excited you would not believe. also graduation but like less so lmao

three common comic related misconceptions you see in the dc fandom + what comics would you recommend reading to fix them?

1. that tim drake is a Weak and Defenseless or whatever. just the constant like almost infantilizing of him that i've seen a lot of. because he for sure is not incapable of defending himself or Weak or fragile or anything else people seem to think about him in this regard. i am not the tim drake expert so i dont know too many specific comics to recommend but i do have teen titans (2003) #29 in mind because a) i love it and b) it would also help clear up the misconception that jason nearly killed tim and that he'd gone to titans tower to kill tim. would love to see people know the actual context of the titans tower attack and not the angst version that makes tim out to be less than he is. 2. the idea that batman is either entirely shitty or incapable of doing any wrong. bro he's got layers and 8 billion different iterations it is not that simple. legit pick up any two different batman books, check out different characterizations and dont base an opinion of him off of fanon stuff or the one (1) book you did read. he's a cool character but he's not infallible but he's also not completely terrible all the time. same with a lot of comic characters actually. 3. i can't think of another one bc lmao so instead im gonna say check out kyle rayner's run as green lantern and damage (1994) pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease bc they're out here STRUGGLING for real. they both get superpowers and then are thrown into a world ending crisis event. kyle had been green lantern for like a week and he comes home to find his girlfriend has been murdered and he's then gotta fight fucking. former green lantern hal jordan as parallax all while time is disintegrating around them and he's still figuring out the whole green lantern thing. grant has his powers for 48 hours MAX when he's pulled into zero hour. the poor kid has just gotten his ass kicked by metallo, blown up his school or most of it at least, found out his parents weren't his parents, got sold out BY the people he thought were his parents, got kidnapped by the evil corporation that fucked over his life so bad, got his ass kicked all around atlanta by a different bad guy, had the TITANS called on his ass, AND got pulled into saving the universe when he didn't even know if he wanted to be a hero, legit having to have his powers overloaded so he could create a big enough explosion to restart the universe. this kid is going through SO much and he's only like sixteen at the time. he should've been in class n making friends :(

pick any song, from your shuffle or anything you remember first; what oc or canon character does it remind you of and why?

when i first hit shuffle the song that came up was CONTROL BABY by jhariah and i already talked about how that reminds me of jason todd so picking a second one! my boy builds coffins by florence + the machine!! this song makes me think of my oc micah ravenwood (he/it) because it's the personification of death / the grim reaper and idk it just became a song i associate with him. it also kinda makes me think abt my oc levi faust-laurent (they/them) for no reason other than i can easily picture them within the vibe of the song, like they could be the boy who builds coffins i dont get it exactly but that's their vibes.

would you and your icon be roommates?

we could be roommates i think, but i know that mark is gonna have some habits n stuff that would annoy me. i dont feel like he'd be quite as tidy as me and that would suckkkk + the fact that living with him would mean there's the potential our place would get attack on the regular + i'd have so much anxiety about getting rent n whatever shared bills paid (bc i cannot imagine a universe where me and another twenty something year old guy own a place) bc sometimes he's off planet or in another dimension or off doing his own thing + not making a whole lot or any money so that'd be a no from me.

your tumblr icon vs your discord icon: who'd win that fight

my icon here and on discord are both invincible akahsj so technically mark would win either way but it is show mark vs comic mark so? i'd have to say my tumblr icon bc comic mark just hits different

what's one hobby you'd like to learn one day? what's one hobby you enjoy doing now?

i enjoy crocheting so much now but i hardly ever have the time for it because i've got so much going on. as for one i'd like to learn? cross stitch! it looks fun tbh

what are you reading currently? or last read? can be comics, novels, fanfics, etc or even just academic stuff

god, i've been doing so much reading for school lately so i guess i'll drop a couple academic recs lmao first off two non textbooks i had to read for class, they're both nonfiction and for sociology courses if that is a turn off doing the best i can: fatherhood in the inner city by kathryn edin and timothy nelson. its a pretty good read focusing on what fatherhood really means and looks like for fathers in poor areas. the authors share the stories of some of the fathers they interviewed and idk its cool reading something where the authors dont immediately go in thinking the worst of these parents. like its pretty respectful and doesn't try to demonize either side. chasing the scream: the first and last days of the war on drugs by johann hari. this one. i could make a whole separate post about it honestly! the way hari writes keeps you interested as you're following him through his journey to figure out why the war on drugs is failing in america, what caused it, and what we can do instead of the harsh punishments for drug related crimes and the stigma surrounding drug use, abuse, and addiction/addicts. he follows several personal accounts from people that have been effected by drugs or addiction in one way or another and he doesn't shame or demonize addicts, he doesn't talk about them like they aren't still human which is something i feel like a lot of people dont do. he doesn't act like addiction is this moral failing either that is shameful or whatever, he recognizes that its something people struggle with for a variety of reasons and it doesn't mean they're bad people. oh my god and he highlights the benefits of harm reduction over punitive actions!! i fuck with that SO hard!!! he talks about places where drug use has been decriminalized and the general vibe has shifted more towards treatment and acceptance over judgment and punishment. bc he recognizes that environments where you AREN'T shamed and you have the support you need are ones that foster healing and they're more likely to be the environment where someone is able to stop using. and how its better and safer and just makes more sense for the use of illicit drugs to be somewhat regulated like any other medication where people that use them and have used them long-term are able to use safely and dont have to rely on getting their supply through illegal means where they dont know if its even safe for them to use because shit is coming out tainted and super fucking dangerous. just! harm reduction! dude! people would be safer and drug related crimes would come down and overdoses would decrease. he also discusses the importance of connection and kindness and compassion when it comes to addiction. which again is something a lot of people struggle with when it comes to how they think about addicts and how they interact with them. he also talks about both sides of the war on drugs, those for reform and/or struggling with addiction and those against it. he discusses the historical roots of america's drug war and how its inherently rooted in racism (& to a somewhat lesser degree, classism) and its just such a good read. i also think it would be a good read for people on here (along with other books n articles) because sometimes. i dont enjoy the way people talk n act when it comes to addiction. (this got so long im sorry, im passionate abt this stuff bc i grow up around a shitton of social workers / substance use/abuse counselors AND i almost became one myself (technically i still could if i wanted to i've done most of the classes) AND i'm the child of an former addict turned counselor AND i've dealt with my own shit so i care lot about all of this bc the way people talking about drug use and addiction is so wrong.)

the last book i read for pleasure was annihilation by jeff vandermeer and it was good! proper creepy n the vibe was eerie n i loved that it was unexplainable stuff but also like. Nature? i guess? like there was technically a monster and creepy things about but it was mainly the setting and the plant n animal life that made it so eerie bc things were not always obviously Wrong. it could look normal but things were always Off im not currently reading any other actual books but im gonna start the second book in this series soon.

NOW comics? i've read so so many akahs the last single issue i read was absolute martian manhunter which fuckeddddd and i'm currently working thru seven soldiers of victory! which is like a series of connected minis for seven different characters and how theyre going to save the world basically. the characters with minis are zatanna, klarion, the manhattan guardian, bulleteer, mister miracle (not scott, a different guy that i think was created for this series), shining knight, and frankenstein. i started with zatanna's mini at first not realizing it was part of something bigger but im enjoying all the other comics a lot as well!! klarion's was a little creepy n the vibe was interesting n tbh klarion has kinda endeared himself 2 me i think hes a cool weirdo, the manhattan guardian was also pretty neat, and shining knight is sososososo cool to me. so fuckjng cool. bc listen. i know they did not INTEND for the character to be read as trans (im assuming bc it was 2005 and just context) but you cannot tell me that that's not a valid take since, up until the dramatic "reveal," he's referred to with he/him pronouns, called a boy multiple times, and uses the name justin. like i get it, its supposed to be dramatic and whatever yknow the whole ooo the skilled knight was a girl in disguise all along well fuck that shit! he's trans to me. and i love him. also zatanna has a moment with her dad at the end of her series that made me so emotionalllll

what are three things you're proud of yourself for?

my grades, the fact that i've made it to 23 when i thought i wouldn't even make it to 18, and the fact that i'm my grandmother's favorite grandchild lmao, i've worked hard for that shit. i'm beating out all 3 of my older cousins, including the one who speaks japanese which is the ONE thing he has up on me. but i get points bc i want to learn and that made her so happy to hear. my spot at the top is truly unshakable <3

are your muses with siblings anything like you and your siblings?

yep! sometimes! most of the sibling relationships i write have some aspect that i've taken from my real life experiences with my brothers. there's no direct 1x1 matches or anything but there's little things like the vasilyev brothers have the same age gaps as me and my brothers and sometimes like the way i write or think of dick and jason has similar vibes i guess. like the whole "you're my brother and i love you, but i dont always like you" and "i love you and i'll protect you but in some ways i resent you because you didn't go through what i have". oh and a lot of them have a dynamic where the older sibling is kind of the protector yknow? always looking out for their younger siblings and that's. definitely something i pulled from real life because that's just. that's the only way i know how to be an older sibling, you're a sibling but you're also their protector and/or secondary caregiver/third parent. aeron & noah vasilyev have certain parts of their dynamic that are for sure like me and my brothers bc i, much like noah, would and have kicked someone's ass for my brothers. protecting my middle brother is pretty much the only reason i ever got into any fights at school tbh because i wouldnt stand for that shit if i saw it. being an older brother does help in how i write sibling dynamics imo

what was your first fandom or special interest?

uhhhh pokemon or maybe yugioh? for my first fandom probably idk. probably pokemon as well for my first special interest i really don't know. tbh the answer to both might also be teen titans (the show) bc i fucking LOVED it and i made my parents watch it all the time and i had like some toys n stuff for it? so yeah the superhero thing isnt new. ACTUALLY holy shit okay bc youre getting this stream of consciousness style baby! my first special interest was the hulk akagskab i was SO fuxking obsessed with him. i watch the old cartoon, the movies, i had hulk toys n clothes n i was just so into him.

favourite supernatural or mythical creature or cryptid?

jackalopes! i was so upset when i found out they weren't real (idk how i didn't know until. i was Older but i guess) and its also a little funny that i like those guys since im scared of rabbits. you'd figure they'd be a no go for me mothman is also cool. nd bigfoot i guess? bc that's a staple here in the pnw i also rlly like banshees n kelpies n selkies n dullahans bc theyre all really Neat and they give me interesting writing ideas sometimes. if only i could right them... OH and werewolves. they're the SHIT dude i like them over vampires! i have created so much lore in my little oc universe for werewolves (vampires too but not as much) if i was in some supernatural setting, i'd almost certainly be a werewolf. it's the himbo energy i have, i think it translates well to werewolf akahsk

have you ever been into creepypasta?

i was an alt preteen/young teenager in the mid 2010s of course i was into creepypasta /lh for specific characters i really liked ben drowned and eyeless jack, but i was mainly into reading different horror stories over enjoying any one of the really popular dudes.

two truths and a lie?

one time i had a professor tell me my paper was the best one she'd ever read. i used to collect matchbox cars and hot wheels when i was younger. one time i accidentally broke a kid's nose while i was at school.