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I want to add on to this because I just want to get my actual perspective of Damian out there,,
People should take into account that Damian is not only an assassin but a prince. I do agree that if the measures called for it, yes, then he would bite but in basic fighting or sparring? No. He absolutely wouldn't. My depiction and view of Damian, as I've stated in the past, is very polished and germaphobic.
As Brucie Mun mentioned, screening for diseases afterward, if it were to happen, would be something Damian would think about all the time once he's living with Bruce. Damian wouldn't like all the germs that come with biting, aka the whole mysophobia thing that was mentioned.
I like to think that Damian would use biting as a last resort if no other resources or methods are available at the time.
If all else fails, ✨️bite.✨️
Help sorry if this comes off rude or anything, but I just wanted to add on to this with my own agreements and understanding so that people get where I am coming from when I say that I believe Damian wouldn't bite.
I fully agree with the girls biting, though, because they absolutely would. Steph for SURE would (along with Babs & Cass ofc).
Personally, I like to see Damian witnessing Bruce, Dick, Jason, or any of the girls biting someone in a fight / spar and be grossed out completely. He'd have one of those faces where it's so obvious how grossed out he is, and you can tell he really wants to put a 10 foot pole between him and the other recipient until AFTER they get checked & cleaned.
Look, if you don't think all the Robins bit/still bite people, idk what to tell you.
#ooc. headcanons#ooc. I think to say Damian bites all the time isnot really in character but to say he NEVER bites is also limiting his resourcefulness#ooc. Bruce still has an inner demon that yells CHOMP when he's upset#<- prev tags#I'm yapping in response
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How old do you think lived to be in the Heian era?
Also do you think the marks on his body are like birthmarks or tattoos to mark criminals?
Not a clue about Sukuna’s death age. The Buddha reached enlightenment at age 29. Sukuna is “enlightened” so I’m going to put him at 29+ years old at death.
I’ve been meaning to do a Sukuna Tattoo post so I guess I’ll use this as an excuse. They aren’t birthmarks that’s for sure.
Sukuna's Tattoos
Notes before we start.
1) I will be mainly using the TCB scans for the manga because of their accessibility.
2) Written as of JJK 267.
(Click images for captions/citations.)
Preface
I'm drawing from a lot of sources here because documentation of Heian Era specific tattooing customs is not something I could find. The reason I’m comfortable using non-Heian sources as a reference is due to Sukuna borrowing both language and arts from other periods.
For example, Sukuna scolds Yorozu for not using a Haiku properly. The form of Haiku that Yorozu uses did not exist until the late 17th century. A good 500+ years after the end of the Heian Era (794 to 1185). The Haiku is actually derived from Waka poetry that became popular during the Heian Era. (Very short summary: Waka (Sedoka specifically) -> Renga -> Haiku)
It should also be noted that Chinese influences greatly shaped the development of arts and social attitudes in early Heian Era Japan. These influences declined over the this era as Japan looked towards itself for cultural development. Since the Heian Era was from 794 to 1185, most of the Chinese influences came from the Tang Dynasty (618 to 907).
For all these reasons, most of this tattoo analysis draws from the Tang Dynasty in China and the Edo Period in Japan. However historical Chinese tattooing in general is referenced more due to its availability.
Anyone with more historical Japanese or Chinese knowledge are free to correct me if I get something wrong.
Facial Tattoos
Let's first compare the facial tattoos on Yujikuna Megkuna and OG Sukuna.
Yujikuna and Megkuna have identical facial tattoos, but OG Sukuna lacks the markings over his nose and forehead. I think this is because those markings have something to do with Kenjaku's vessel creation. When Kenjaku casts Idle Transfiguration to wake up the Incarnated sorcerers for the culling games, they also have markings on their foreheads.
Sukuna's vessel markings might be different because his incarnation occured outside of the culling games. It could also be from his cursed object’s division into multiple pieces instead of just one. Whatever the reason, these forehead and nose tattoos prpbably hold more information about Sukuna’s relationship with Kenjaku than his past in general. All 3 versions of Sukuna share the chinstrap markings, so those tattoos likely have significance outside of Kenjaku.
Now onto what they could mean…
Sukuna has already demonstrated that he knows his Chinese literature and wordplay via Enchain/契闊 (Keikatsu). (The person who brought this to my attention may or may not have their account nuked. A doctored version of the Tweets is screenshottes here). What's important for this analysis is knowing that Keikatsu comes from a Chinese Poem.
The poem referenced belongs to the Shijing or The Book of Odes. This book is a part of the Wujing or Five Classics, a series of documents believed to be compiled by Confucius that has greatly influenced both China and Japan. Amongst the Five Classics is the Shangshu or Book of Documents that cites the use of punitive tattooing. Quoted directly from Wikipedia:
"It lists the "Five Punishments": the five primary penalties employed by ancient Chinese officials on criminals. The first (and least severe) of these punishments was the tattooing of the criminal's face with indelible ink."
In the Edo Period of Japan, the criminal markings on the face seem to only appear on the forehead. These were given to any lawbreaker as a punishment and a warning because they didn't have prisons. (Source)
These sources both suggest the facial markings are for criminals. However, there are alternative meanings that should be considered.
Kenjaku’s vessel markings are on the forehead and many of the culling game players consider themselves to be manipulated by the promises of incarnation. It’s also odd that the strongest sorcerer is unable to incarnate properly due to Yuji acting as a cage. Kenjaku is all but outright confirmed to have done that on purpose.
For these reasons, I think the following historical tattoo practice from the Chinese Song Dynasty (960 to 1279) should be considered. Quoting directly from the source:
“Tattoos for slaves were things like a label of ownership, or a brand on the forehead. There are some examples of slaves, and concubines, receiving tattoos as punishment for things like trying to escape…”
Uro is a former slave, a military slave to be exact. I go more into detail about this in my Initial Sukuna Backstory Theory. There is also the fact that Kenjaku sees the incarnated and has access to their lives/bodies like this...
They're essentially toys with built-in tracking devices for Kenjaku to monitor and tinker with as needed. The forehead and nose tattoos on Yuji/Megkuna can therefore be seen as a mark of ownership by Kenjaku. And maybe this is why Choso has one across his nose too.
There is one more meaning I can propose for the facial tattoos, though it mostly applies to the chinstrap.
Within China there are tribes that used facial tattoos for other purposes. The Dulong women had their faces tattooed to make themselves look undesirable to invaders that would abduct them for slavery and rape. (If you've read that one revised Sukuna backstory of mine, this is significant.) But more commonly, these markings became a tradition for girls coming of age.
The Ainu women in Japan also used facial tattoos for coming of age, beauty, and preparing for death. I bring up the Ainu because they’re mentioned as a non-Japanese group of sorcerers. There's also this Yuji is of Ainu heritage theory to consider. (This could link Sukuna to the Ainu by blood.)
The tribal uses are discussed here because Sukuna’s tattoos are vaguely tribal in appearance. Though tribal tattoos tend to be more detailed, his feel like a simplified version of them. I think that works well with Sukuna being labeled an unwanted child at birth. Japan has wiped out a lot of its indigenous populations and customs (see the Emishi). After all, what minority group practices haven’t been demonized and associated with criminal activity by the majority?
So the facial tattoos for Sukuna may be a marker for his vessel status, a claim of ownership, a punishment for being a criminal, a deterrent for sexual assault, or a signifier of belonging to a tribe. You can come to your own conclusions about this, after all none of this is confirmed.
Chest and Belly Tattoos
Comparing the versions of Sukuna again. (All these sections are going to start like this.)
Yujikuna and Megkuna once again have the same tatts. OG Sukuna has “C” hooked markings over his pecs instead of the “S” hooks of the other two. He also lacks the belly markings entirely. Since his belly mouth seems to be replacing the belly tattos, I think those markings on Yuji/Megkuna are a stand in for that extra mouth. The pec style differences I have no explanation for.
Due to the chest tattoos extending over Sukuna’s shoulders and onto his back, I won’t looking for possible meanings until the back tatts are addressed.
Back Tattoos
The tattoos running down Sukuna’s back appear to be the same for all 3 versions. Differences are slight enough to be considered inconsistency in the art and not deliberate.
The neck tattoos between Yuji/Megkuna and OG Sukuna differ slightly however. The bands of Yuji/Megukuna remain separate while OG Sukuna’s fuse together and extend further down his back. I don’t really have an explanation for this difference, much like the hooks differing on his pecs.
Back and chest tattoos are associated with criminal activities in Japan rather than criminal punishments because they are hidden under clothing. (Well not in Sukuna’s case, but you know…) Most notably the Yakuza have very intricate chest and back tattoos.
But going back to China, tattoos were also used as dog tags for military members and could signify loyalty, mainly during the Song Dynasty (960 to 1279, which is still within the Heian Era). Despite this, cultural opinions at the time seemed to be conflicted due to tattoos sharing an association with criminals. Quoted directly from the source:
“According to Yue Fei’s biography, when the legendary general was slandered and interrogated for treason, he tore the shirt off his body, exposing four characters tattooed on his back: “Exhaust one’s loyalty in service of the state.” This study looks at two components of the Yue Fei story—patriotic tattoos, and tattooed generals—and examines their meaning in the broader stretch of Song dynasty history. Yue Fei was not the Song dynasty’s only tattooed general who came to a tragic end.”
“This study shows that underneath the nationalist historical narrative of the Song dynasty, of which Yue Fei is a famous example, there lies a different story of social conflict within the Song state. Rather than a story of Chinese fighting non-Chinese and of traitorous and cowardly officials struggling with loyal patriots, this study offers a narrative of a social conflict between high-born clear-skinned officials and low-born tattooed military men.”
Now that sounds a lot like how the higher ups clash with the Jujutsu Sorcerers who do all the actual work. This mentality existed even in the Heian Era, where Uro was exploited as a military slave by the Fujiwaras. And since Uro is a Sukuna parallel, these tattoos could also indicate a similar type of exploitation.
There are still tribal purposes to consider. Drawing more from Chinese sources, the Dai men had body tattoos as a symbol of strength that would accentuate their muscles. Sukuna’s chest and back tatts really draw attention his brawn. The Li women had body tattoos as a right of passage and as identifiers. Sukuna’s neck tattoos in particular are similar to these ones.
So my spattering of explanations this time around for the chest and back tattoos are criminal organization affiliation, military “loyalty” claims (this is a form a slavery), decorative pieces to accentuate the muscles, a right of passage, and an identifier.
Arm Tattoos
Remember how I theorized that the belly markings on Yuji/Megkuna were a stand in for OG Sukuna’s extra mouth? That’s what I think is going on with the arm tattoos as well. The double bands and circles on Yuji/Megukuna represent the extra limbs on OG Sukuna. When this fusion is pulled apart, you get the single bands and dots on the 4 limbs.
As for their meanings? There’s the criminal markings of the Edo Period that indicate where the particular criminal is from. (Courtesy of this Reddit post.)
Since Yuji/Megkuna tattoos are more related to Kenjaku’s vessel creations, this could hint that their deal took place in Nara, Oosaka, Koufu, or Edo. (Nara is most likely because of its significance in the Heian Era.) For OG Sukuna, this is more indicative of where he first got them.
However, the single band is not for a location but rather a status—Hinin. These are the undesirables and social outcasts that were marked for their uncleanness. Sukuna was born a conjoined twin and unwanted. It’s likely these markings directly correspond to that fact.
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(An unserious suggestion. On queer men in the US, double rings on the arm can represent how far they can fist someone.
I don’t think Gege is referencing this at all. This is just an example of why cultural context is very important to consider.)
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There are some other meanings to be drawn from armbands specifically, but those are easier to group with legs.
Leg Tattoos
Differing from the other sections, the leg tattoos have only been seen on Megkuna and OG Sukuna. As referenced in the image below, we have the ankle of Megkuna (top left), the upper thigh of Megkuna (right), and ankles of OG Sukuna (bottom left).
Instead of having the double rings, like on his arms, Megkuna only has a single band, which matches OG Sukuna. (It’s reasonable to assume Yujikuna is the same and that OG Sukuna has the upper thigh bands too.) This further supports the idea that the double bands and shoulder rings represent the fusion of the extra limbs. Sukuna never had extra legs so there’s no need represent missing limbs.
For what they mean? I have only the non-Japanese/Chinese sources to go by. Gege may be a fan of non-Japanese cultures, but I'm not sure if that means Sukuna's design elements would borrow from them.
In other cultures, armband tattoos can represent mourning. Which ones exactly I have no idea because all the sites making this claim don’t specify them in detail. (Source 1, Source 2, Source 3) It’s honestly pretty infuriating. If you’re going to “borrow” designs from “cultures” to sell, at least cite your got danged sources.
But if we are to read these as indications of mourning, I don’t believe they’re for a person. Throughout this analysis, tattoos recurrently are associated with some form of oppression—slavery, uncleanliness, social damnation. If Sukuna’s bands are to be read as mourning, I think it’s for the loss of his autonomy and personhood.
What does it all mean?
Sukuna's tattoos are permanent marks that appear to be directly linked to his soul. How he acquired them is currently unknown. Traditional means of application can be quite painful, using metal or bamboo rods to carve skin and fill the abrasions with ink. (Here's a video if you want to watch it be applied.)
If we consider Kenjaku’s use of brands to mark and control vessels, it could be assumed that Sukuna’s tattoos are ones others put on him through binding vows for his control. They could also be symbolic in nature, hinting at his heritage and origins, indicating that he was branded an outcast at birth or even blessed by deities for protection. Perhaps Sukuna wanted the tattoos himself as an act of rebellion against the changing social norms. Whatever the reason, one thing is clear, these tattoos separate him from other humans.
Existing on the Border
I think the ambiguity behind the purpose of these tattoos this fits nicely with Sukuna and other people not knowing how to categorize his personhood. He's so strong and different that he might as well be something other than human. But he's not a curse, he wouldn't be able to used Reversed Curse Technique if that were the case. Is he a monster? A natural disaster? A god? He's kind of all these things at once by way of projection. Other people assign these labels to him and Sukuna doesn't correct them. There's something profoundly gender about it all.
And if you noticed, tattoos in ancient China and Japan have purposes that differ by gender. For women they were used for beauty and protection, while with men they were used to mark ownership and criminality. Sukuna has a melding masculine and feminine elements which is why I consider the tattoo meanings for both with him.
That sounds kind of crazy given that Sukuna very much embodies strength born of toxic masculinity. However, he actively wears women’s clothing and seems to have no qualms with being associated with feminine things. (Godbless marketing team for leaning into that.) He may have a rough and masculine speaking style, but he loves poetry and flowers.
(Sukuna is lying when he tries to deny it. Megumi's hobbies have everything to do with animals, not flowers.)
The earrings he wears, though a direct reference to the Buddha (basically it’s shorthand for how Sukuna isn’t truly enlightened yet), are another symbol of Sukuna's non-conformity. Earrings are something the Japanese government went out of its way to ban for Ainu men during the Meji Restoration after it decided they were only for women.
Even the short hair both he and Uraume wear are quite rebellious for those times, if not an indication of their lower standing. Regardless of gender, long hair was seen as desirable, high-class, and attractive during the Heian Era. (Source for men and source for women.) Most of the Heian characters wear it that way.
Notice how the servant has her hair cut shorter. Sukuna and Uraume's is shorter than that. It would be considered ugly and possibly dehumanizing. And yet when Kashimo sees Sukuna's true form, he calls him beautiful. He uses 美しい (Utsukushii) to do that.
That kind of beauty is a bit deeper than the English language can get across. From the words of someone else, "...utsukushi can express the beauty of something that catches your heart."
Kashimo isn't really wrong, but he's also not entirely right. For every panel of Sukuna looking like an ethereal god, there's another of him being an amorphous creature or a rabid goblin. All of these types of faces for Sukuna occur within JJK 253 alone.
These contradicting elements that somehow fit together are what make Sukuna, Ryomen Sukuna. He both participates in and rejects beauty. He’s crude and classy, violent and merciful, masculine and feminine. That duality, that two-faced nature is Sukuna.
I think his tattoos reflect this. Directly quoted from the source:
“Tattoos have many different symbolic meanings in Japanese culture and can denote where an individual ranked in society or serve as a permanent means of defense against evil forces or perhaps members of the animal kingdom. With the arrival of the seventh-century, the idea of tattooing one’s body in order to make it more beautiful began to lose its appeal due to the strong influence of Chinese customs in Japan—specifically when it came to identifying and tracking criminal activity. Around 720AD during the Nara Period, it appears that tattooing as a form of punishment began to infiltrate Japanese culture. Once the dawn of the Edo Period began the art form was more widely used as a punishment for criminals as at the time there was really no such thing as a prison to send lawbreakers off to.”
The purposes and attitudes towards tattoos in the Heian Era morph in the way Sukuna morphs both physically and in perception. Since Sukuna is the Fallen One, that means he must have been Honored One first. What caused him to fall remains a mystery, much like the meanings behind his tattoos.
One last thing...
A small caveat in relation to everything else, Sukuna referring to himself as The Fallen is the only time he has introduced himself.
He’s not given someone his name nor identified himself as anything other than a former human (which was internal). Combined with the ambiguous nature of his form, tattoos, and origins, I don't think it would be wrong to read him as someone who has transcended gender.
#cactus yaps#Wow I went down a research rabbithole for this.#I don't think this counts as weeb posting. This is more in line with Erika Furudo. Yeah I'm Erikaposting now.#Beatoposting is when I suggest Sukuna lacks a gender.#Where's that one meme that's the enby flag but with a hyper masculine bearded dude in front of it going “Any Pronouns Lmao.” That's Sukuna.#I am once again asking what the hell happened to Sukuna and how much of it is Kenjaku responsible for.#Read Umineko btw.#ryomen sukuna#jujutsu kaisen#jjk asks#asks#jjk spoilers
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Who dya think Pomni would've bitten?
well when i was drawing it i wasn't thinking of anyone specific... so it can be whoever you want!
however... let's go through the suspects
jax would definitely bully someone into a violent rage... no need to explain that one i think
caine and kinger might unintentionally startle pomni into attacking, but i think they're a little too... uh. weird for it to be all that climactic? caine would just go "BAD!! BAD POMNI!!" and spritz her with a spray bottle until she let go, meanwhile kinger probably wouldn't even notice until pomni had already stopped...
gangle and zooble probably wouldn't be bitten just because they'd avoid a high-strung pomni. gangle out of fear, and zooble because they're not stupid enough to poke a ticking time bomb
and for ragatha... i'm just gonna leave this other anon's idea here because... yeah
definitely unintentional on both sides, but isn't that where the best tragedy lies?
#ragatha bite anon you are a shining star#i'm keeping that ask in my inbox for now because i might come back to it later. no promises though#ughhhh another long reply sorry#this is why i try to answer question with doodles instead bc i have can't stop talking disease and it's chronic 😭#but there's like 50 of them piled up now so i might have to admit defeat and just. let myself yap... sorry 😔#ask response#chompni
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Everyone clap for me setting BOUNDARIES on my babysitting (said they have to be back by 10 so I can go sleep before driving tomorrow)
#i do love babysitting truly#it's good work that needs doing and the people i do it for are never frivolous#and all of them are good and dedicated parents and their kids are only normal amounts of difficult#that said. i have done um 4 babysittings for total about 15 awake kid hours in just over a week#my voice is shot and so is my patience#bones boy and then all the others are 3 and under#while i'm yapping in the tags i will say for posterity#that i didn't quite get everything done i wanted to today/this week#BUT i finished my chapter draft and all but one of the house/cleaning chores i wanted to#yesterday i spent all day at my small group leaders' first watching the kids and then hanging for dinner#and then book club that evening (they were like why don't you just stay? so i did)#today i returned my library books and got a turmeric latte on the way to babysitting#feel kinda crappy physically cause i haven't worked out consistently and had sugar too much this week#and the early dark is messing with my appetite so i'm trying to figure that out and be responsive#but! i am very excited to be going home tomorrow (first time since may!!) and see everybody and rest with them#it's not rest from everything hard but it is rest from being responsible for my own time and that sounds so lovely right now#i had the best time with the twins yesterday. they were yelling LEAVES and picking up pine needles#so i said it's Pine Needles#and they started going Pine Noodles! Pine Noodles!#they never watch screens and it shows. they're so good at thinking of stuff to do
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I like how Jason's reputation amongst the gods kind of cements his character as a dutiful leader. I know most ppl don't like the fact that he's all goody goody, but it really fits his arc well, and i like reading about it. it's one of the things about Jason that Rick didn't fumble. He was consistent with his character being dutiful and noble till the very end and makes it a point to show that through others perception.
Zeus- Okay he's a horrible dad, but he did initially respect his son (before jason opposed him in front of the gods, that kinda warped his ego) even going as far as to saying that he was proud to have him as a son and stuff. Which was a pretty ooc thing for Zeus to do especially to his sons. Too bad it only lasted for a few seconds before he went back to being bitchy.
Hera- Jason changed her perception of demigods, we know Hera hated all demigods bc half of them are sired by her husband, she wanted to use jason as a pawn to Gaia's defeat. But all those times she treated jason as her champion, she ended up actually caring about him and considered him a son. She mourned and cried about Jason MONTHS after he died, even going as far as to yell at her husband for not caring or grieving about the child that HE sired.
Apollo- self explanatory, Jason stood up for Apollo from the very beginning, and ended up dying for his sake, even when didn't have to do that. Jason made Apollo understand to have empathy for humans ("Remember what it's like to be human") and made Apollo stop being so full of himself with his selfless sacrifice. So apollo is the Olympian who has the most amount of respect for Jason. And made sure that Jason's sacrifice would not be in vain.
Artemis- if you go to the official Riordan wiki fanpage for Artemis, it's mentioned that Percy and Jason were two of the only male demigods that she had immense respect for. She mentally thanked Jason for standing up to Zeus for Apollo. Of course, being Thalia's brother could also give jason browny points aswell lol.
Athena- She seemed to respect Jason's wisdom in blood of Olympus, when he told his dad that it was unwise to punish apollo for Gaia's waking. Well know Athena respects anyone who has shown wisdom. She shot Jason a very approving look. So it's nice that Athena, who is very critical and picky, observed that Jason is a well thought out and insightful individual.
Aphrodite- kind of self explanatory too, she called jason a lovely boy in piper's dream, even alluding that jason needed absolutely no physical improvement in his looks aswell. I know this has nothing to do with Jason's dutifulness but Aphrodite can sense a person's heart and nature, and she immediately thought jason was perfect for her daughter even before they started dating. We know how picky Aphrodite is when it comes to who people date lol
Bacchus/Dionysus- We know that Bacchus had somewhat remembered Jason (calling him John green and all lol) because jason had done services for him (something about a leopard, iforgot lol). And annabeth pointed out that it was a good thing that jason and Bacchus were on fairly good terms. So there's that.
#Thank you for listening to my long yapping.#I like doing these book observations#I'm such a pjo nerd#I think it's very refreshing to see a character with so much responsibility.#Ik ppl are more into Leo/Percy bc they're rebels and stuff and I totally get that.#But I just like that Jason is also very differently written compared to them. Jason isn't everyone's cup of tea and I respect that.#pjo series#pjo#pjo fandom#percy jackson#pjo hoo#jason grace#pjo hoo toa#annabeth chase#piper mclean#leo valdez#frank zhang#hazel levesque#zeus pjo#pjo toa#toa#artemis pjo#athena pjo
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i find it really interesting how some Cait defenders talk (and don't get me wrong, i actually sympathize A LOT with her, and i hate that she's in pain) because they act as if the only thing she's doing is trying to kill Jinx (and that's what she says, sure, and i don't blame her for wanting that) but like. she literally used a biochemical weapon against a whole community to "get them out" so they wouldn't "get hurt" in the crossfire. girlie ????? that shit can literally kill you or fuck up your lungs/organs forever. it's the whole reason (SPOILER FOR THE GAME!!!) Singed's daughter Orianna (if that's really her) "died". Caitlyn shot Vi and was willing to risk shooting a kid to get Jinx. no one is mad at her for wanting revenge (it's completely her right, even if you morally disagree), they're mad because a privileged cop keeps putting people she barely sees as humans in danger for a personal feud. also she's a fascist now.
#like there's a lot of intricacies in the interpersonal cycle of violence between the characters#and jinx is definitely NOT innocent despite how much her fans (me included) might love her#but. you have to remember that cait's not just a girl from piltover#she's an aristocrat. a counselor's daughter. AND a cop#she has a lot more power status and money than all of zaun combined#she was complacent to the undercity's oppression for years#and now she's an active participant in it#her position is not the same as other characters' in this conflict#personally she can go beat jinx up all she wants. just duke it the hell out#politically though her actions carry the weight of years of violence against a disenfranchised community#police brutality is a very real thing both in the show and in real life#as long as she wears a badge caitlyn will never be exempt of that#and that's why there's such a negative response to her#ANYWAYS#yapping section over#arcane#arcane spoilers#league of legends spoilers#important addition just so we're clear: i do not!!! think cait is irredeemable#i'm a big fan of redemption to anyone who seeks it#you can become a better person always and forever
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can u talk more abt his apparent affairs w teachers and relationship w sex in general? so many ppl gloss over that bit
of course! i'll link a couple posts for preface, although i'll probably paraphrase some stuff anyways.
[my commentary on sex and consent in saltburn.]
i received an ask regarding farleigh's queerness the other day, to which i tied in this little tidbit about farleigh's affirs with teachers. the explicitly male/male language that felix used when recounting farleigh's sexcapades with teachers was interesting to me. farleigh is pansexual (as stated in the screenplay), but felix uses male/male language exclusively. part of this could be the erasure of pansexual or bisexual reality. people either exclude the homosexual aspect of someone's identity, or the heterosexual aspect. but this could also mean that farleigh did only harbor affairs with male teachers.
that would be an interesting complex to think about. although women in positions of power are absolutely capable of abusing that power and asserting dominance over others, men have a different dynamic within that. the fact is, farleigh does things to gain the affections of other people, because he isn't automatically handed that affection. farleigh does play into teacher/student dynamics, whether it's overtly sexual or not. you can see this in the tutor scene and the brief montage moment where fareligh is sitting on the floor in front of the tutor, while they both ignore oliver. consider it an investment, of sorts. there's always a possibility that a white teacher will have academic bias against you, and the need to mitigate that is strangling sometimes. teachers are also just dicks. i find myself in "teacher's pet" positions for a number of reasons, a few of them are bias related.
where it gets complicated is the sex aspect specifically. if it is true that farleigh has been expelled from an absurd number of schools specifically for harboring teacher/student sexual affairs, then this is can really only be perceived as compulsive. also, can i just say, the fact that farleigh was expelled instead of the teacher being fired is disgusting. i kinda wanna call this evidence of discrimination, as well. queerness and perceived sexual deviancy, blackness and the constant inability to be seen as human and innocent. arghgh. i digress. the fact is, if farleigh truly was harboring sexual affairs with teachers for his own benefit and that alone, then he wouldn't have made the mistake so frequently. he would've recognized that the disadvantages outweighed the benefits and found other ways of playing teacher's pet. archie talked about the quickstart dynamic and said that although it was ambiguously consensual, farleigh is attracted to and aroused by power dynamics. many people are. where that compulsive need to buy into power dynamics comes from, i'm not sure. it could be a lot of things.
the neglectful nature of farleigh's upbringing could've resulted in a need for validation and attention from those who are in a position of authority. farleigh's queerness could've resulted in an internalized feeling of perversion that was then externalized through a desire to be taken advantage of. the nature of submission is also often linked to a need for control in other areas of life, and therefore relinquishing control in sexual dynamics. some marginalized people play into eroticization because it can be more validating than exclusion. many people learn to crave their own objectification, and it's often a manifestation of sexual trauma or other forms of trauma. if i get really convoluted and let my angst-fanfiction brain run wild, i start to imagine what environments farleigh was in throughout his childhood. as archie said, farleigh was involved in overly "mature" conversations and situations through his mother. what that could mean for farleigh's perception of sex, nobody knows. i can let my imagination go insane though. i can imagine a lot of weird scenarios. those are all conjecture, of course.
i'm just going to conclude that whatever sexual complexes farleigh has, they're not healthy. i don't think that they should be fetishized or ignored. i think that they're relevant to farleigh and oliver's on-screen dynamic, especially considering oliver was in a position of power over farleigh when they had sex.
#farleigh start#saltburn#meta#so much meta#i'm yapping and i love asks#thank you for the ask teehehehe#hope this was a good response <3#oliver's absurd extrospective posts#just constantly yabbering away#you guys are validating me though ^-^
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adam and lawrence could potentially be a biblical allusion to judas and jesus. btw. if you care
#i hear the word betrayal and have a pavlovian response where i immediately have to compair whatever it is to judas and jesus#inspired by the lyrics 'you'll believe me like a god / i'll betray you like a man' from mitski's im your man#good song btw very chainshipping core#anyways. i'm barely awake so if this sounds nonsensical i blame it on that#saw#saw franchise#chainshipping#adam stanheight#adam faulkner stanheight#lawrence gordon#jesus x judas#biblical allusions#religion#si yaps
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Jimithon Mouthwashing is such a good representation of untreated, enabled NPD like it makes me want to squeeze the life out of him. I'm endlessly fascinated when watching him interact with his crew, surroundings, and himself because he's so fucking lost in his own sauce. It's insane. If I'm being real, it makes him my favorite character in the game.
It's a little scary to say, but watching Jimmy is like seeing a mirrored version of myself two years ago before I truly committed to treatment for my NPD. He's like a shadow. The opening line "I hope this hurts," which I believe comes from Jimmy right before the crash, is such a poignant statement. It's a simple line, but I can tell you from experience that the desire to hurt others when in a narcissistic rage is overwhelming. It's such a good line to sum up Jimmy's character in that moment. Luckily, in the real world, I had my friends and family there to catch me when I hit my lowest, even though I'd hurt them so many times. Jimmy probably could've used friends to force him into therapy (cough cough Curly cough cough)
#also I don't mean we're similar in any way when it comes to rape or SA. Please don't twist it that way at all.#I mean like in terms of the jealously resentment revenge hurting others to feel thrilled not taking responsibility not seeing flaws etc#I'm diagnosed with NPD also but pls know my experience will be different from others. We're all different people obvs.#also Jimmy has like wayyyyyyyyyy more things wrong with him not just untreated NPD lol#I would say that untreated NPD is a hell most can't describe#you barely feel anything except rage boredom and jealousy (in my case)#love is a form of ownership and control because you can't really feel it the right way#so your -person- is an object of intense obsession and also a tool for you#if that makes sense? I see that with Jimmy and Curly for sure#You want to tear others down and hurt them because it makes you feel good to put them below you#there's a constant feeling of insecurity and it drives you crazy fr#kind gestures from friends feel insulting#and oh my god achievements made by friends and family in my case feel like I've been shot like I hate when they achieve things#It's not logical obvs but that's something I instantly noticed in Jimmy so i was like .....oh brother lol#and also if they achieve something my brain needs it to somehow be tied to me or I'll make it tied to me so they can be thankful#they should always center their attention on me and if they don't I immediately resent them#these are just some of my thought processes on the matter so I can show the similarities I feel with Jimmy#the KEY DIFFERENCE is all of these thoughts I have are left in my head and not exhibited in my actions (any more. took a long time)#but he is such a nasty human with ZERO introspection that he prob never even thought about treatment#also doesn't help that the hot blonde he's friends with never did anything to help with that#idk sorry for oversharing but ahhh this game is so well written I gotta yap about it lol#also kind of a funny unrelated story to show how weird the achievement thing can be lol#my friends announced they saved up enough to go to Vietnam (their dream trip) and I was happy for them (I really was)#but of course my delusional ass immediately also took it as a threat#and I booked a month long trip to Europe a few days after so I could also announce it LMAO#that is a kind of innocent incident when compared to Jimmy but it just shows how annoying NPD can be#Jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#NPD
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I
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GOING
GO-KARTING
TONIGHT!!!!!
LET'S GOOOOOOOO-
#The one good thing about college is that they can set up some fun events#I'M SO EXCITED ITS BEEN TOO LONG SINCE IVE BEEN TO AN ARCADE#I'm talking a decade bro 😭#I am going to run over everyone#I am a responsible driver#Demon when I am competitive#Only gone go-karting when I was like 10#I just kept winning baybeeeeee#😎😎😎#Can you tell I'm bursting at the seams?#I need to dress like a winner tonight#Riding circles around people is serious business#LD Goofs#Yapping#Rambles#My teachers will never look at me the same again
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Web-weaving of something to do with Catholicism/ Christianity
Sun-Bleached Flies - Ethel Cain /// American Teenager - Ethel Cain /// Iris - The Goo Goo Dolls /// Matthew 27:46 /// Isenheim Altarpiece - Matthias Grünewald
#the yapper yaps#I GOT A SHITTY ASS REPLY (DELETED NOW) ON THIS SO I'M JUST EDITING TO SAY#THIS IS NOT TRYING TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT ANY RELIGIONS BEING BETTER OR WORSE THIS IS SOMETHING I MADE IN RESPONSE TO MY OWN EXPERIENCE WITH#IT. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE IT AS SUCH#TO BE HONEST I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THAT PERSON FOUND THIS OR WHY THEY THOUGHT IT WAS WELCOME TO SAY ANYTHING SO THIS IS PROBABLY PREACHING TO#LIKE ONE GUY#anyway#now back to your regularly scheduled programme#Ik tumblr loves religious imagery (don't we all) and I'm having a time about that stuff rn so bonne appetit#web weaver#web weaving#poetry#sun bleached flies#american teenager#ethel cain#iris#the goo goo dolls#tw religious themes#religious themes#religious imagery#Catholicism#catholiscism#catholic#catholic imagery#the yapper edits
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okay i'm finished cooking up the pwp, it's 4am. am i allowed to post my angst oneshot as a treat when i wake up LMFAOO
#i feel fried#ykw spending an hr picturing the noises gale would make while being edged does to a man#it makes him hop into a cold shower that's what#jk i'm ab to roll over and pass out gn soldiers#ETA PEEING LAUGHING AT THE REPLIES AND RESPONSES IN MY INBOX ALREADY#johnslittlespoon yaps
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sneaky peaky cuz i busted ass on this wedding venue (super long ramble ahead. it's 1am on a friday night. amen)
this is st totterson's, a church i built on totter park in copperdale. guys. i don't be building. this was pressurizing.
i got weirdly into the Roman-Catholicism of it all, so i wanna point out the stuff that makes me smile:
the fountain is a stand in for those lil holy water fonts you find at each entrance of the church
the memorial stand was used as the like candle section where you put a dollar and then you can pray n light a candle? someone hear me on this someone needs to know what i mean (also there's a fake wedding album for sims to sign behind it. i went in.)
Very Very catholic ass wedding loading. it's gonna be fun. i'm not gonna get any of these angles once my sims get in the way so lemme have em now.
attached to the church via a spooky ooky walkway is their event hall, decked out for the upcoming wedding!
dj booth that wont be used but is true to the receptions i've been to
a lil entrance sign and in my head that display holds favors. again, stuff i remember from various event receptions.
the STINKING CUTEST couple table for the bride n groom to sit at guys. a whole pergola. CURTAINS FOR THE BACKDROP. if someone else sits here even once they're getting deleted.
ANYWAYS now i'm really hype for this wedding and everyone's gonna need matching formal attire and they're gonna have to dress on theme i fear. i'm gonna have to make a duplicate save and turn off autonomy and remember how to use poses i fear.
(thank you thank you @wolfxdreamersims for keeping me company via long-play video as i grinded. life saving stuff.)
#quixoshutup#new tag required i fear#sometimes a girl needs to yap. and this girl doesn't require an active audience or responses.#crossing my fingers n toes some other ex-catholic sees those little details on goes omg that! and i'm not crazy#sims 4 build#sims 4#boba tea tales#btt1 extras
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What is a Monday? A miserable little pile of obligations.
semester turnover restructure
generate/send out error reporting
figure out how to separate out unique counts
create polite reply to Massive Dick Move email
finish the bad book >:(
bò kho (not an obligation. dinner)
laundry
lizard bath
#yapping tag#I spent my weekend trying to sleep and now all my chores are due today and I wanna complain. grump grump grump whine.#the semester turnover restructure actually is a pet project so that part I like! I wish I could take my time with it though#the error reporting is. well it's easy to generate (it's actually running now) and it's tedious but uncomplicated to send out#but then I'm going to spend the rest of the day getting passive-aggressive responses from everybody#in a just world my coworkers would respond to careful itemized lists of all their fuckups with 'thank you Alexis you're so helpful#we really appreciate you flagging our mistakes two weeks before the system final-saves them forever into stone. have a cookie!'#but alas#if I'd been any less stressed and frantic when I first established the error reporting I'd have set up a separate address to send them from#write up some template emails and let the reporting all come out of the mythical 'automatic system thing'#--every 'automatic system thing' in our college is me or IT on my behalf. even the people who hired me for this don't seem to realize#if only I'd known from the beginning that nobody would ever connect me and my systems! I'd be exploiting the shit out of it--#the unique counts is going to be a headache. no idea how I'm going to structure the coding for it. might be fun to invent? we'll see#the Massive Dick Move email response also will be an invention. 'hello Mr Massive Dick I am karma here to smite you' but polite#the bad book >:( I don't want to read any more of but the deal I made with my friend is he sends me free books and I report back#we did not discuss a special 'get out of book free' card for when the main character is a godawful shit sibling. (should've done though)#beef stew is good! mostly it's on the list so I don't forget to set the timers#laundry and lizard bath can wait until tomorrow if they must but they shouldn't wait any longer than that. lizard and I will get stinky
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FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFEEEEE TELL ME WHY TRESPASSING DUDE JUST ASKED ME IF WE ARE FRIENDS... SIR I WANT YOU UNDER MY SKIN WDYM
#he didnt friendzonenme. theres context but ohhhh my godddd#so basically i said smth like 'oh idk if u care but in case ur wondering the reason I'm messaging u at 4am is bc i fucked up my sleep#schedule lol“ and he responded like ”wym idk if you care#ofc i care. im not heartless'' and i told him like 'you said at length how much your brother and others yap at you and volunteer random in#formation you didnt ask for and at times it huts me like oh lol wait a minute i do that'' bc like. i Know its different. and he didnt say#that to target me. but like... i cant fucking help it. i like him i take it personally and want to be cautious yk#trauma response or whatever and i also want to clarify where i stand with him bc he doesn't tell me anything if i dont say shit like this#and he responded to that with 'i care because we're friends (or at least i hope so'' and im like... sir we met on a dating app. I'm inviting#you to my house to bake bread... and to meet my friends... i want you!!!#hhhh god i need to craft a good response bc i do intend to tell him i like him. just not over text!!! this is an in person conversation#type thing!! hhhh
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About a month ago my new coworker told me he didn't like LoK (that's fine). When I asked why he said it reminded him too much of The Last of Us 2. And I was like ??????? HuH???? So I asked him to elaborate, and due to time constraints (and maybe him just....refusing to really elaborate????) the most I could get out of him was "Korra/Ellie choosing not to kill Kuvira/Abby at the end" and that was "bad."
AND THAT'S IT! Nothing else, no expansion. So I have to tell y'all, my ass hasn't been ok since. It's keeping me up at night. I'm trying to figure out what he means. Cause the math ain't mathing lemme tell you. I think it's all bullshit TT0TT Like this man had a vision, but god does he need some fucking glasses.
I haven't been this inside my own head since I was debating with air about P5. TT0TT
#ahhhhhhhhhhhh#silly talks#listen no he's wrong I have like an 800 page book on why#the take of all takes#i made a post about it but it's so buried I don't feel like looking for it so I'm just posting this here#i made it the night I heard it jfdklasjfka but yeah I'm still feeling emotions#him: I don't like LoK#Me: it's fine to have wrong opinions#(i'm joking. Korra's best critics are her biggest fans ok)#What really happened “Me: yeah yeah yeah anyway KYOSHI!”#we're a communist country here. if I have a hyperfixation then EVERYONE in the orbit h as a hyperfixation (and it goes vice versa)#i'm yapping about Rangshi and I'm getting responses about FF14 in return the ecosystem is thriving let me tell you#the conversations make no sense but we're all vibbing#listen I'm not a fan of TLoU2 but??????#my dude.........i'm pretty sur the arc and themes of those chars are going in complete opposite directions TT0TT#ok decided to vent for a second at lunch time back into my hell hole#SOS please some one help me~!#It's not healthy~ for me to feel this~!#Y-O-U are makin' this hard~ I can't take it. see. i don't feel right~#SOS please someone help me! It's not healthy~ for me to feel this~#Y-O-U are makin' this hard~You got me tossin' and turnin'. can't sleep at night~#(oh wow those lyrics actually fit my predicament kfljdksalfj)#(this take is literally making me lose it)#(I should just vent and I'll be fine kfljdsalkfj)#it's all just surface level???? the actual depth of comparing them is WILDLY DIFFERENT THO????#I'll be fair that I'm not the most knowledgeable about TLoU2 but even from what I know it's just....surface level comparisons??? TT0TT#what was bro onnnnnn????? TT0TT#it's like comparing apples and oranges...yeah both are fruits but they are so wildly different outside that!!!#i was gonna go on a bender ranting about how none of that adds up but then I fell asleep#so I'll postpone the real rant later TT0TT
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