#I'm worthless

[musicaddictt]

No one wants to put in effort for me or care about me and I'm tired of being so fucking worthless.

[i-am-trans-gwender]

I don't even have the energy to disguise this as a joke. Sorry for the vent post.

I really hate my past self. I don't like the version of me from pre two weeks ago. I was a horrible person. No matter how much I apologize and mentally torture myself I can't undo who past me was.

I have become everything I use to hate which makes me hate younger me even more.

I dont like any version of me but I especially hate who I was from the late 2010's to the early 2020's. Filled with self loathing that lead to me lashing at other people.

I have hurt so many people out of ignorance. Multiple friends of mine have left me because I'm annoying, i have trouble understanding others emotions, i have trouble communicating my feelings, I have trouble learning from past mistakes and no matter how hard I try I screw everything up.

I can't handle the bad things that happen to me but I also can't handle the good things that happen because i feel I don't deserve it. Everybody else has accomplished so much more than me.

I'm afraid of showing genuine emotion. I feel like I have to disguise all my cries for help as jokes or bury my feelings under a billion layers of irony.

[a-broken-worthless-monster]

I wish I was better. Just... better...

If I was, I could do more and be more useful to people...

I could be better for others too and be able to give more. Instead I'm quite useless but there's nothing to gain from saying that, though I desperately need to because the thoughts are constantly stuck and I'm rarely, if ever much good for people who are important.

I often feel like I'm just not good for others on a fundamental level, I can't even take basic care or do basic things and it sucks... that's before I'm often too much or too little.

Anxiety peaking with a meeting I'll have take because of my own failure to do anything...

I'm just a rotting waste of life.

I hate being an ugly, useless, horrible monster...

[xinheartswakeex]

I just push everyone away.. I should've died a long time ago.

[mynameisbillandimaheadcase]

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[morbidlittlebitch]

I am fucking worthless.

[uglytrannymess]

I'm such a terrible awful ugly disgusting person and this world is better without me in it, I'll always be a fucking monster.

[no-1canfindme]

I don't think I can be selfless anymore

I think I need to die

[sovaghoul]

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[king--koopa]

I saw a couple things today talking about knowing your worth.... I definitely do agree with it but they never talk about how some of us just aren't worth much. Some of us don't bring any value. Some of us don't have anything good to offer. I realized this years ago. My worth is way low. Too low for anyone else to want. Not wanted anywhere.

[a-broken-worthless-monster]

I'm tired and worthless...

Missing people who do not miss me and are important, but I'm not important to them.

No sleep, no self care and I'm just exceptionally tired.

I'm selfish and horribly unloveable.

[fuckyeahstufficareabout]

What I want in life is so far off from what I'll ever have and I want to fucking die

[stanleypollable]

we arent going to laugh, at least, everyone here that matters isnt. we care about you. im sorry that we couldn't overpower the soot-eaters, but once we lose hope, theres nothing left. dont give up, please :(? for me? -🥚

YEAH! we're not haters, we love you! we don't know what the story would be without you! you're important!

[sadsuddensuicide]

Never felt my soul so heavy

My heart was melting

Now drives so crazy

[mylittleredgirl]

my new thing whenever an embarrassing memory jumps up out of some backwater neuron to t-bone my present-day thought process is to declare a statute of limitations. like i can burn down an entire building in the state where i live and the law deems it both unfair and illegal to prosecute me after six years have passed, i think that thing i said in high school can be expunged from my record.

[fairuza-amputechture]

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