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spockandawe · 2 years ago

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Here's a big project I've been sitting on! All That You Love Will Be Carried Away, by our very own @ceruleancynic! And a box, naturally, building boxes for books continues to bring me immense joy.

What we have here is not just the main fic, or the main series, but also All That You Love (The High Hope Remix) alt pov short fic by byzantienne, and, a detail that I was really excited to include: the initial comment exchange between these two fantastic authors of m the first fic in the series. Did I title that second little book 'all that you meet cute will be carried away' as a silly placeholder? Did I then get super attached and refuse to change it? Uh-

Hell yeah, I refuse to be dignified about any of my favorite hobbies!

But the real secret delight here was that I've been looking for the right opportunity to get weird with boxes. Peller boxes, hinged slipcases, yes, fine, but those are like the box version of my sixfold book adventure. I'm still shooting for some parallel to my fourteenfold book, I'm looking for a way to go completely off the rails. I have some ideas, but it's hard, finding a good large chonk and a small number of equally sized texts, which made a unified and complete set, AND which excited me to work with. That might sound unnecessarily picky, but I swear, there was a good reason for it!

Oh baby. Oh baby.

This worked out so perfectly. I wanted a large book at the center of things. And I wanted two small books oriented in a different direction, placed end to end, at its edge. And I got it! I didn't want to commit too early, and it would have been heartbreaking to fail, but once the big book was together, and the preliminary typesets for the two little books were almost identical? I just HAD to try.

Tumblr is already silencing me and refusing to let me attach as many images as I want, so for this post, let's talk about the main book a little! Cute little quarto bricks are my new FAVORITE favorite thing, as I'm sure you can guess from my archives, and this one was a dream to put together.

It had to be a three-quarter leather binding, naturally. And I was sitting on some gorgeous iridescent maroon paper for endpapers (no photos in this set, it refuses to photograph well, as is the way of pretty iridescent things). I spent some time agonizing over my other material, and whether to use two different marbled patterns, but I went with it in the end. The vibes were distinct enough but the palettes overlapped enough that I really enjoyed the effect. And with the northcott art of marbling fabrics (my beloved) I was able to use lines of symmetry to get some nice fussy cuts for the big book and the little ones. All of the books have leather endbands, matching the spine. And the big book has the big thick faux raised bands I tried out with my last svsss! I don't have enough pictures to show off all the book interiors, but I used this cover plate for the series and main fics within it.

And then, like I showed you above, I put it all together. Marbled paper and silk moire for covering the box, a lot of very tense wrangling of glued-up paper in very small spaces, and, at one point, carefully lowering glue-covered pieces of moire bookcloth down these little pits (walls already covered) using that tab in the front like the world's awkwardest elevator shaft. But the EFFECT!

I'm very, very pleased with myself, and delighted to have delivered this book to its new home. I've been absolutely VIBRATING with a desire to share, so! I can't be contained by tumblr's image limit. Hold on for two seconds (approx.) and I'm going to reblog this post with some wip pictures and more detail about how I worked this thing out and assembled this box and modified my initial design on the fly

#crafts #bookbinding #ceruleancynic #all that you love will be carried away #box making #did i manage to photograph the main book with the foil all reflecting in decent light so it shows up properly?#please dont expect too much of me i get overexcited when i can see the finish line 😂

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ratsoh-writes · 10 months ago

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I may have rambled on for a while but here ya go rat a tat, pair me with whomever you think is best

personality traits:

I'm a bubbly, high-energy kind of person, and I like to joke around a lot! For strengths, I'm easygoing, affectionate and forgiving, and I believe that anyone can be their best if they try. I'm very perseverant- once I set my mind to something, I'll stick to it and work hard and consistently. I do my best to be kind and understanding, and I have a lot of patience emotionally. I'm mischevous and playful- which some people like and others do not.

For weaknesses, I run my mouth without thinking sometimes so I can say the wrong things. I overthink a lot and can get really anxious if things aren't clear, so I'm a bit high strung in that aspect. I'm dense, ngl, so things that might be obvious to others often go over my head. I'm kind of avoidant when it comes to things that upset me since I'm not a confrontational person, so I don't stand up for myself in most situations.

hobbies:

I'm an adventerous person- I like exploring so much that I will get lost on purpose just for the thrill of it. I love making art, writing fiction and poetry, and learning/researching the sciences. I embroider ocassionaly. I practice tae kwon do regularly. Medicine, biology, astronomy, engineering... I love understanding the world. I read A LOT. If I had the money I'd turn my home into a library.

favorite items:

Flowers are a big one. I LOVE pretty things. Plants, pretty rocks, shells, coral, cool looking bottlecaps I find on the ground- I like to collect bits and bobs. I wear headscarves- and flowy, colorful ones are my favorite things to wear hands down.

traits I'm attracted to:

I'm hetero, and physically anything goes! In terms of personality traits I like people who are sweet and steady. I'm drawn to reliable, gentle people who don't mind being playful or mischevous on occasion.

deal breakers/pet peeves:

First off- I make a lot of friends. It comes natural to me to be as friendly as I can to anyone I meet; people who are overprotective or jealous won't do well with me. I don't mind secrets, as long as communication about them is clear. I respect that sometimes secrets are necessary but if you refuse to explain at all and provide no reasoning, I'll work myself up and get really anxious. I also don't like people who are unnecessarily cruel, selfish, or harsh- the world is mean enough, why add to it? I need a lot physical affection too, I'm a hugger! people who aren't big on touch won't be happy with me in a romantic relationship.

-wisteria

Alright, adventurous, not overly protective, and cuddly! Plus male presenting preferably, I can work with that easy. I match you with…. STITCHES! Baubletale sans!

Stitches is just the guy for you if you like goofy and playful! He’s a child at heart, so things that would embarrass many don’t bother him! He’ll love all your antics, and will go along with a lot of your less dangerous ideas! And he places a lot of trust in his SOs so no worries about him trying to limit you. Within reason

Another thing about stitches is that he’s physical~ that can be both platonic and romantic affection. He moves pretty fast in a relationship though if his partner doesn’t say anything. All it takes is a conversation for him to slow down don’t worry lol. You’ll get your fill of hugs and nuzzles from this cutie

A big reason I picked stitches for you is because of how open and accepting he is. His cute puppy energy is hard for others to resist, and when introduced right, he’ll get along with almost anyone. Stitches knows no enemies. So naturally he’s a good choice for anyone who has less than… legal friends. Stitches won’t mind as long as they aren’t hurting you! He knows how to look the other way lol.

And finally, gifts! While he isn’t a flower guy, he is a big fan of pretty things! And he quickly learns his partners tastes. He’ll happily fulfill your inner dragon!

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countlessrealities · 1 year ago

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😤 — what do you dislike the most about being part of the rpc?

Munday asks || Accepting !

Picking one thing over all the shit I can't stand about the RPC is really hard. I could write a novel about all the unnecessarily stupid and bad behaviours that are so very popular in it, and that gives the idea of the amount of things I have to say on the topic. Also, what makes it difficult to choose just one thing over the others is how connected all said behaviours tend to be, to the point that each of them can be born out of another and vice versa.

You're all lucky that I'm knackered, so I don't physically have the energy to go on a full rant, so...I'll pick one aspect that, at least for how I see it, might as well be the base of all the others, in a way or another.

The one thing that gets the most on my nerves, in more than one way, is how self-centred the members of the RPC have become. Ofc, we're here to handle our blogs, get interactions for them, share our ideas, and so on. However this has become so extreme that a lot of people have forgotten how RP is supposed to be a two-way street, how it's not just about you, but it's about your RP partners too.

Asking for attention is fair, we all like to see our ideas acknowledged and all that. It's also a great potential chance to develop them more, if you get feedback or get to discuss them with others. However, you can just keep demanding attention and time and energy from people without ever giving a crumble back. That's not how it works. Not in collaborative hobbies, not in real life. You had to do your part, you can't just sit on your ass and expect others to give you everything you want without asking for some interest towards them in return. It's not a bad thing, it's not a do-ut-des. It's how collaboration works, people. Especially when it takes 2 minutes to read a post and 2 seconds to like it.

I honestly find this kind of behaviour incredibly disheartening. It kills my motivation to reach out to people, to be curious about their ideas and muse, when I know that I'll never be anything more than a number in their followers list and a chance to go all "I, me, myself, my muses, my ideas". Not to mention that it gets old so, so fast. I'm too old for that shit.

I could talk about how people act without ever thinking about hurting the ones around them, because they forget that there's a person behind that screen and that other writers are not fanfics machines for your fantasies, but...I don't want to get too close to a few personal experiences I had this year and that made me really mad. Still do. So, I'll just end it with one, simple rule that would make everything better in the RPC if everyone followed it.

Don't be a self-centred, tactless asshole 🙃

#[ ooc :: mun scotty on comm ]#[ ooc :: about the mun ]#sinruby #;; mobile #[ ooc :: scotty's big cup of salt ]#[[ I'm so very salty about A LOT of things ]]

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rockethorse · 1 year ago

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Get to know you: Sims Style

I was tagged by @goatskickin

Yippee! Talking about myself!!

Q: What’s your favorite Sims death?

Probably running with scissors. It's really just dying of fright (like when a ghost gets ya) but it was such an easy way to cheese the "defeat Death"/"be rescued from Death" Knowledge Sim Wants. Electrocution also feels kind of rare to me, though I'm sure it's far less rare than other deaths, and the yellow ghost is radical. Death by flies is also a classic.

Q: Alpha CC or Maxis Match?

I think I'm known as a Maxis Matchhead, and I do love MM, but it's not because I dislike realistic CC. I actually really like it when it's well-done and I respect realistic CC makers a bunch. When I first dipped into CC, I played a more semi-realistic game myself. I love how flexible and adaptable every Sims game is depending on what CC you load yourself up with. But, MM always has a special nostalgic place in my heart.

Q: Do you cheat your sims weight?

Only when I'm making a Sim to be a Townie or NPC or some other sort of character. If I'm doing regular gameplay, I won't use cheats, but I might put a Sim on an enforced pizza-and-cookies diet if I feel like my neighbourhood is severely lacking in minuscule body diversity.

Q: Do you move objects?

I literally can't play without it any more, lol. I'm always stunned when I pop in to a lot to "just quickly make a minor edit" and realise how soon I need to turn moveobjects on.

Q: Favorite Mod?

Hands-down, it's Shiftable Everything. It completely changed the way I decorate since not only is it less tedious than fiddling around with OMSPs but it allows lots to stay CC-Free and thus more easily shareable. I adore that mod lol, and buyable accessories + Nopke's walk-under spiral stairs mods for the same reason.

I also really like Phaenoh's holiday calendar (which I consider to be a mod, even though it's purely flavourtext and doesn't affect gameplay) and the version I use with modified holidays. It gives me mini goals to keep my gameplay exciting and I haven't taken it out of my game since I found it.

And lastly, it's not an exaggeration to say Meduza's mod to make hobby blogging increase social as well as fun made my week when it was shared. It may not be the most game-changing mod in the world, but it scratched an itch I had been holding in for DECADES.

Q: First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?

I strongly remember my first - and, for a while, only - TS1 expansion pack was Superstar, and I hardly learned how to properly use a lick of it. I was young and TS1 was ridiculously hard for a sandbox game. But sooo many of that game's objects and functions and songs are instant nostalgia bait for me because of it, moreso than TS1 already is. (Also, like many it seems, I was never allowed to get Hot Date, LOL. I remember my mother promising I could get it when I turned 13 and then chickening out of that promise when the time came.)

I played without any TS2 EPs for an unnecessarily long time. A friend at school who also played TS2 mentioned something about Lifetime Aspirations and I had no idea what they meant, which was highly confusing to the both of us. I think my first Sims 2 EP was possibly University...? I remember the first time I got the "your teen can go to uni!" message I panicked and thought it meant right now, so I sent my poor Sim off to Young Adulthoot on, like, day 2 of teendom. The guy never got to let loose! Nowadays I don't let move my Sims off to college until they're on their final day of teendom anyway.

Q: Do you pronounce live mode like aLIVE or LIVing?

I always and still do pronounce it in my head as liv(ing). On the one hand, (a)live mode - as in, the game is no longer in stasis, and time has resumed - makes more sense and is probably what the devs intended. But in my defense, build and buy are both verbs, so to me, it makes sense that "live mode" is where you go after building and buying to live in the house that you just set up.

Q: Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made?

Most of my favourite Sims tend to be born-in-game, so not really ones that I've "made"... I do like the townies I've made with the semi-randomised method, though. It was always hard not to keep them to play with myself, but so far none of them have had great chemistry with my Sims to become playables, LOL. I'm gonna have to say Iris Kopper will forever be special to me. (Not that the Koppers are done yet!)

Q: Have you made a simself?

I tend to make a Simself first in every new Sims game I play as a way to test the system, but I usually don't play them. I had a Simself running around in my old TS2 'hood as a Townie, and I let myself wander around unbothered in TS3 until "I" aged up into a hot pink minidress and I had to interfere.

Q: Which is your favorite EA hair color?

I like making MM black hair recolours because they're the easiest and soooo satisfying, but I think my favourite is brown, especially the more complex ones that have purple/blue cool undertones. It's always struck me as such a tasty mahogany treatment that bown hair usually doesn't get.

Q: Favorite EA hair?

Since there are so many to choose from, let's go by age group!

For EYAM Sims, it was hard to pass up the classic Rocker, but i think Caesar is a very classy handsome hairstyle that suits a wide variety of Sims, and it's nice to have been given the option by EA.

I've always really liked this TM hat-hair from TSS and the fact that it came with a matching hatless version too. I like teens having their own styles, I just wish EA had given it to us for TF Sims too.

For EYAF Sims it was a difficult skirmish at first - I've always had a soft spot for the silly pointy-ear hat that came with M&G, and the matching hatless hair it came with, but that's so similar to longpart from BV I also enjoy - but in the end I realised it was clear;

Sweep sweep. It's versatile, it's nicely modeled and textured, it can be sexy or professional, it's as gender as you want it to be, it's TREMENDOUS on Elders, and it reminds me of Sailor Uranus. What's not to love? Other than its lack of age options.

For TF, JUST LOOK AT THAT. How perfectly Y2K! The fact that it reminds me of Minako "PGSM" Aino is just an added bonus.

Combining CU into one tier - look at these. Look at how precious the little doggy face is. Augh.

And finally, for PU, the most perfectly darling hair in the entire game they knew they had to limit to toddlers or else nobody would ever bother to use anything else. No wonder we all immediately converted it for other ages. It's the perfect boho pigtail look. No notes, Maxis. (Wait, it was introduced in Nightlife?? Why? Whose baby is that on the dance floor?)

And an honourable mention for updo, which would be my favourite EYAM hair, if not for the fact it's technically an EYAF hair.

Q: Favorite life stage?

Probably teens, because they were such a fascinating introduction to me when I shifted from TS1 to TS2. Sims aging and passing away intrigued and terrified me all at once, but the unique middle-ground of autonomy vs. immaturity of TS2 teens must've resonated with me. They could have a job, but not a great one. They could date and go steady and make out, and it could be deathly serious to them, but they couldn't cross the line or get married or start a family. They could look after younger Sims and drive and drink (probably illegally) and buy things and run the household if need be, but they were still trapped with limited freedom or opportunities.

I know other games have given teens more agency and there are mods to do the same in TS2, but as a pre-teen who was just playing TS2 for the first time, it was a really perfect encapsulation of the middle-ground between adulthood and childhood and the excitement but frustration it brought.

I also really like Elders for similar reasons. In many ways, they often have more freedom than Adult Sims, but they can also be harder to play in other ways. Plus they get the short end of the stick in terms of content so I gotta cheer for them.

Q: Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay?

I used to hate building (or at the very least, think I sucked at it) and was 100% dedicated to gameplay. Gameplay is still important to me, which is why I'll probably never move on from TS2, but these days I've really been enjoying building and decorating a lot more. It's also something I enjoy being able to do in TS4. Setting myself limitations like "CC Free" also adds interest to the challenge.

Q: Are you a CC creator?

Yep! Try to be at any rate, lol! It's interesting to see how I used to almost exclusively make build-buy content and now a lot of it is BodyShop CC.

Q: Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?

Not on a private/personal scale. I have lots of people I recognise from Simblr who I chat with and reblog from frequently, and I think we have a good rapport, but I'm not around enough to really engage 1:1 with other Simmers like that. But I'm also really happy and proud to be a part of the little TS2 Simblr community and always smile when I recognise the same URLs and new posts popping up.

Q: Do you have any sims merch?

Other than physical copies of the games, not really! I've been meaning to invest in some fan-made merch like a pair of earrings or something. Any recommendations? (I also want that unofficial cookbook so bad.)

Q: Do you have a YouTube for sims?

No, but I keep thinking about it...

Q: How has your “Sims style” changed throughout your years of playing?

I've always been a rotational player, whether it be a specific challenge or not. I think the most interesting change in my style has been my intentional choice to cut CC back as far as possible. It's really pushed me to not only embrace a Mega Maxis Match aesthetic but it's also encouraged me to get more creative with the content already in the games.

Q: Who’s your favorite CC creator?

If I listed out all my favourites I'd be here all day and then I'd forget someone and feel terrible. I'm so lucky to be around at the same time as so many incredible CC creators, builders, storytellers, and modders here on Simblr who still make for TS2, and trust me, if you're here still posting updates for TS2 in the year 202X, I see you and I love you and I'm sending you all the positive energy you could ever use.

As a CC creator, though, I'd say my biggest inspiration is @crispsandkerosene. Their textures, models, animations, and especially their eye for the Maxis Match aesthetic are everything I aspire to some day, especially in their authentic TS1 recreations.

Q: How long have you had Simblr?

Since 2011... wow.

Q: How do you edit your pictures?

With The GIMP mostly just to resize. If it's an important screencap I might edit lighting/saturation for clarity, or mess around for storytelling purposes, but mostly it's just to crop and resize, lol. You guys all have to put up with my game's borked lighting.

Q: What expansion/gamepack is your favorite?

For TS1, I never had Makin Magic, so probably Pets. The animals themselves were fun but I was always transfixed by Old Town and gardening. Vacation is pretty close in my nostalgia, though.

For TS2 it's Bon Voyage. It's just such a jam-packed and well-thought-out EP, and you can tell it was Maxis's final love letter to the Sims franchise before they knew EA would put out their fire. Obviously I love Seasons and OFB as much as the next guy, but I think BV adds a surprising amount of replayability.

For TS3 it's 100% World Adventures. I love those gimmicky little tombs, lol. I always yearned for more life sim/time management elements to other exploration games, but I had never considered adding exploration/puzzle elements to a life sim instead. It's the perfect balance for me, lol; the tombs themselves may not be the most difficult puzzles, but having to manage your Sim's needs, finances, time, etc on top of those puzzles is exactly the kind of gameplay I was waiting for. (Why is the vacation EP basically my favourite for all these games?)

I don't have any TS4 EPs and I doubt I'll ever buy any, simply because I don't play the game enough, only decorate, but the one I'm most tempted by is the Tiny Living pack. I think I like the concept of it more than I like any of the objects it actually comes with, though, and technically I don't need an EP to make a tiny home.

Thanks for letting me ramble so much! For anyone who wants to do this, I add the following new questions:

What's your favourite in-game Sims food/meal?

What's your favourite supernatural life state?

What's your favourite way to grind for each skill?

If you haven't done it already then I tag @sixamese-simblr, @persimmonthusiast, @vegan-kaktus and @tvickiesims!

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sternbilder · 2 years ago

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It has been brought to my attention that since I had translated the self profiles for the Top 5 previously, a new tweet has come out for the Ha siblings! I have a day off today, so I took a crack at translating this real quick—Su-Chang's words/things that apply to both are in black, and Su-Yeon's are in orange:

"BURIED STARS" TOP 5

LET'S TALK ABOUT OURSELVES Feat. PD Shin Ha Su Yeon

Name: Ha Su-Chang / Ha Su-Yeon

Hometown: Human City Suwon [1]

Former Occupation: Office worker Librarian / High school student

Blood Type: B / Harmonious B

MBTI: ENTP / ENTP what do you mean I'm an E

Nickname: PlugHole [2] / (Illegible)

Date of Birth: Blossoming mid-20s / Delicate late teens

Height: Over 180 / 162

Weight: 69kg / Secret

Specialty: Following instructions / Giving instructions and evaluating the results

Hobbies: Watching films / Watching videos and performances

Habits: Scratching the back of my head / Raising my eyebrows

Top 3 Likes: Family, books, movies / Doyoon-nim, Han Do-yoon, Doyoonie♡

Top 3 Dislikes: Doyoon-nim, Han Do-yoon, Doyoonie♥ / All of what he did above

Motto in Life: Everybody lies [3] / ↑ This guy lies like he needs it to survive

A Person I Respect: Me / ↑ [3] But quite often is not that respectable

A Recent Worry: She keeps telling me to televote / He keeps telling me he won't televote

The TOP 5 Contestant I’m Closest To: No such thing / Doyoon-nim I would like to be unnecessarily close to you please

My Rival in the TOP 5: I don't even know who the options are so even if I were to be their rival... / I know right? I mean even if you were their rival... / You know what in that case I pick Han Do-yoon / I'll kill you

My Best Physical Feature: My intelligently shining eyes 👁️👁️ /My dainty but pointed nose ✨👃✨

When I’m Happiest: When I'm simply lounging about / ↑ When I bestow a task upon the one who is lounging about and verify its completion

When I’m Saddest: When Han Do-yoon is frowning... Reason is ↓ / When Doyoon-nim has that forlorn look on his face T_T....

Who I Want to See Myself Become: (Part of a) harmonious family / Watching one of Doyoon-nim's performances from VIP seats☆ / But what about harmony...?

Goals for This Year: Just do well for myself [5] / Watching one of Doyoon-nim's performances from VIP seats☆✫✬ / Stop it with the stars / I'll do what I want

What I Want to Say to Myself 1 Year from Now: Thank you for your service, and again going forward [6] / Doyoon-nim, thank you for everything this past year. / What about me...?

A Message for the Viewers: Thank you for your service re:all your hard work watching this at home / Let us all do our part to show our endless love and support for Han Doyoon-nim!

[1] Seems to be a reference to the official slogan of the city of Suwon, "People are welcome: Human City Suwon."

[2] Pun on the word "하수구" (hasugu) which sounds like the start of his name, Ha Su-Chang. Literally means sewage drain, but apparently in British English the word for this is "plughole."

[3] May be a reference to a quote/catch phrase of character Ha Mu-Yeol from the Panic Room (검은방) series, another games series by the same creator. Also what Su-Yeon literally says is "he lies like he eats meals," the implication being that the lies are frequent and regular. :P

[4] Ambiguous whether this is referring to Su-Chang or herself. I think it's Su-Chang but I could be wrong.

[5] Idiomatic, lit. translates to "eat well and live well," meaning just. Doing well; looking out for/taking care of yourself.

[6] Again quite idiomatic. 수고하다 means to like, take the trouble, put in the effort, do the work, etc. and 수고하셨습니다 means "thank you for the trouble" etc. but he's clearly being a little flippant here.

#Buried Stars #��리드 스타즈 #베리드스타즈 #My stuff #My translations #cam thoughts

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shytastemakerthing · 1 year ago

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Hello dear! By a stroke of luck I saw you were doing matchups and I'd love to join <33 I'd like a matchup for Ikemen Prince please, if that's okay!!

My pronouns are She/Her and I'd like it to be romantic please <3.

For some positive personality traits: I'm overall very friendly and easy to approach. I'm very patient and slow to anger. I'm very empathetic and sympathetic, I have a very easy time putting myself in others' shoes and rarely judge others. I'm a good listener and very attentive to others' needs. I tend to remember little things about the people I love and if I'm passionate about something I will always put my 110% in.

For some negative traits: I have a bad habit of being a people pleaser and have an overall hard time saying no unless I'm asked something blatantly dangerous. I'm a big daydreamer so I often have my head in the clouds which can make me less attentive to my surroundings and may lead the to zone out every now and then. I'm a BIG procrastinator and when I don't really like something I'll leave it until the very last moment to do. And lastly I tend to beat around the bush when I have to say something negative to someone or about someone to them or at least take a while to at least get to it because I try to sugarcoat it as much as possible. So... Basically not very straightforward.

Zodiac signs:

Sun: Taurus Moon: Pisces Rising: Cancer Venus: Pisces

Mbti and enneagram: INFP-T 9w1

Love languages: All of them tbh but primarily Words of affirmation and Physical touch.

My hobbies include:

-Ballet

-Cooking/Baking

-Playing Piano and Bass guitar

-Writing (poetry/songs/books)

-Reading

-Listening to music

For other details:

I like animals, I like to go on unnecessarily long walks, another unsung love language of mine is just feeding people? It ties in with my hobby for sure but with me you'll never go hungry, I like dressing up, my favorite season is winter, I'm very affectionate both verbally and physically and will tone it down depending on the person, I can be very talkative with the right person, other than ballet I'm quite proficient in a viennese waltz too and... That's all I can think of at the moment.

I hope that's enough!

Thank you so so much dear <3

-🩰

Hello! Thank you so much for your request! I'm sorry that this took forever to get out but I do hope that you enjoy it!

Tw; none

I match you with...........

Yves Kloss

Just the reason that you are such a friendly and easy going person alone was enough to actually get this friendship started to begin with. Look, the man absolutely cares about anyone and everyone, but showing that love on the outside is a whole different story. He just needs a little help.

What really got this going, to where you two officially became a pair was when he walked in on you baking. It was later in the evening, you had music playing and he couldn't help but to watch as you danced your way through the kitchen throughout the baking process. It was something that he wanted to see more of.

This then starts baking dates, cause he quite likes baking as well. So the both of you are always making something for one another that you both either sit there in the kitchen and eat, or pack it up for each other if it's a more busy day. Absolutely no one touches the little box of sweets that you made for him. He will hold onto that like a vice.

Please read to him. He finds your voice just so soothing and it can be rather crazy around as we have all seen. Bonus points if he gets a cuddle out of you. He will never refuse. But the chances are, between your voice reading to him, him cuddled next to you enough to hear your heartbeat, there is the possibility he will fall asleep. It's just too comfortable.

He does not mind at all if you space out and begin daydreaming again. It's a sign of a creative mind, at least, he thinks so. During one of these times, he actually brought a journal with him. It's a gift just for you. Perhaps you would like a place to write down whatever it is that you day dream about. Your own little dream journal.

Overall, his favorite way to be able to spend his time with you, is when you both are just able to enjoy the company of one another. You don't always have to be doing something. He will gladly join you for your walks or time in the kitchen. Just so long as he gets to be with you, he is happy.

#ikemen prince #ikemen prince x reader #ikemen prince yves #ikemen prince yves kloss #ikemen prince yves kloss x reader #yves x reader #yves kloss x reader #romantic #matchups #shy answers #shy writes

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emmythespacecowgirl · 2 years ago

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Hey babe <3 I know I asked for a Band of Brothers ship before (Dick Winters), but I didn't ask for a Pacific ship, so I thought I'd cover all my bases <3

About Me: – your gender/pronouns: Female, She/Her, but really sort of indifferent.

– your sexuality/gender preference: Also indifferent, but for the purposes of the ship, men.

– your main flaws and most defining traits:

My friend said it was my stubbornness, but my most defining traits based on her assessment are my hardworking behaviour, my hyper-independence, and my intelligence. I also like to think I have a pretty good sense of humour (wry/observant/playful) and am secretly quite giving and warm. For example, if someone does something for me, I'm old school and will usually write them a physical thank you note, or make them cookies.

I also am pretty solid at shooting down anyone who tries to go toe-to-toe with me, and I can usually read people pretty well. I easily cut off people who I mistrust or who think they're pulling one over me- I pretty much live by "If I cut you off, chances are you handed me the scissors." I don't sweat the small things and small slights. But if someone thinks because I don't sweat the small stuff they can walk all over me, they're sorely mistaken (I'm not a serial killer, I promise).

– your hobbies and pastimes: I like culture, so anything surrounding literature, history, architecture, you name it. I also like long walks in nature and sports/weight lifting (I used to play elite-level volleyball before my knees/ankles gave out (cause I'm old, wahay), but I like to just get outside in fresh air now and listen to music/make playlists on long walks. I like good coffee shops and places where it's just quiet and civilized.

•Optional: – your appearance: 6'0, athletic, just past shoulder-length ash brown hair with some face framing blonde highlights/money pieces. People say the prettiest part of my face are my eyes, which are pale green.

Some people who don't know me well see me as "aloof" or "intimidating"- probably just based on the fact that my Dad is Eastern European and I have natural RBF, but you get to know me, I'm sensitive and described at work as a "positive" person who's a "delight" to have around (their words in my quarterly review- not mine lol).

– your personality type (example: ENFP; Enneagram 7 or 7w6): I'm an INTJ , and an Enneagram 5. I forget what my wing "officially" is, but I feel Enneagram 5w6 is more fitting. I used to be more of the "philosopher" type in the past, but I feel life has forced me to bring practical solutions to the forefront.

I'm also a Virgo, but with a Leo Moon and a Leo Rising sign. Which basically means I like things organized and neat and plan ahead, but people assume I'm gregarious and probably more a "Leo" than I actually am. I can fake being an extrovert, while needing time on my own to decompress.

I've also always been between a Slytherin and a Ravenclaw. I like learning for my own sake, just like the only person I'd be in competition with is myself. I'm never the type of person to step over someone else in order to accomplish my own goals- I work hard and let my work speak for itself, and let others who might be jealous or try to take me down fail on their own merits. I'm not a game player and I think it's honestly petty and stupid when people are, because I'm a good judge of character and 99.9 percent of the time I can see through someone's behaviour.

– any pet peeves: People who mistake kindness for weakness, people who don't smile at people when they make the effort, people who don't respect basic manners. Basically, people who are unnecessarily cruel for no reason.

– your love language: I just took this- acts of service, followed by works of affirmation. But I'm going to be honest- my heart swells when even coworkers or someone who's a friend does something to take something off my plate, or pays me back in some way by getting me a coffee or tea. (I'm a cheap date, what can I say).

Anyhow, work your magic, sweetheart, and thanks again <3

Hi again @currahee :)) I would love to give you a TP ship! I hope you like this one :)

I ship you with:

R.V. Burgin from The Pacific!

Ship theme song: The Woman in Me by Shania Twain

this man admires you sm and has the most respect for you <3

you have no idea

you are the love of his life

but also just like a really good role model in work and life

and Burgie really likes that in a person

for Burgie, work and family are of equal importance

so he completely understands your inner drive to do well at work

and he doesn't mind taking on more of the domestic side of life while you go out and conquer the world

the first time that you take down some sexist prick in an argument

you can bet that Burgie totally had a hard on haha

"I literally married the hottest, most smart lawyer lady in the world!!"

is what he's screaming in his head the whole time

he also just loves when you start unraveling y'all's kids' arguments

y'know lol once they get to that precocious little goblin-mode age

this man will literally make some popcorn and just sit at the dinner table and watch it happen

basically, anytime that you're using your intellect or being objective in an argument is when Burgie realizes that he's so in love with you

he's the kinda guy who memorizes your coffee order

and then goes home and makes it for you exactly to your liking the next day

he also loves taking you to scenic places to go hike around Texas

he would 100% agree with your co-workers:

you are a total delight and the most positive person he's ever met

and the most beautiful ;)

your pale green eyes captivated him the first time you met

I'm pretty sure that our sweet Burgie is also an INTJ :)

you're both pretty good at hiding behind your "extrovert mask"

but at the end of the day, you both enjoy just staying in and reading to each other on the couch

Burgie isn't much of a game player either tbh

his mama taught him from a very young age to be intentional in his actions

and he is very much intentional with you

Burgie's mama also taught him that "please" and "thank you" are the bare minimum

he's a Texas Gentleman after all!

Burgie is also an acts of service kinda guy

he's incredibly handy

so any kind of household item that needs repairing

he's your guy to do it

or car stuff

he's all over that

his heart swells 3x when you write him a sweet thank you note

or make him his favorite dessert

Burgie considers himself the luckiest lad in the world to have you!

#enjoy #my work #ships #bob ships #the pacific ships #burgie #rv burgin

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ay-chuu · 2 years ago

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Heya beauty! I'm here for a request from the best Tumblr user ❤️ drums please!!!! Matching event (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

So here is my informations about myself;

❄️ my hairs and eyes are brown, height is 163(sometimes 165😅), weight is 52

❄️my zodiac sign is Scorpio, rising is Aries and moon is Leo (I have basic knowledge about zodiacs but these tree together felt like hell)

And my mbti type is Intp (I'm introverted but not like Idia, I have no problem with my confidence or making speech in front of groups doesn't bother me. I just can't find enough courage in myself to make the first step or volunteer for something without force.)

❄️my favorite hobbies; playing games(mostly otome or joseimuke kind of games + bsd and genshin) writing something (as long as I'm pouring my feelings in it I'm good. Poets and short stories are more common because I have no patience for long writing) and lastly talking with my friends and check how they're doing (I choose my friends so carefully so I give them my full love and care. So if any of them being sad for a reason, I immediately help them or just talk about it and make them feel better. It gives me real joy) ❄️three things I hate the most... Hmm

Chewing noises 🫠 I just can't help but my eyes start to itch when someone chews loudly

Those who do not take care of the trust well enough. Trust is my first priority, if my friend trusted and gave me their item or anything else for my use, I will protect it with my best. It doesn't matter if it's a simple book or their help etc, the matter is their trust

Egoist people, I feel instant disguise when I see someone who looks down on everyone and pretend like they are the best. They're close minded, unnecessarily confident etc etc

❄️ My favorite games... They're mostly otome games and there are more than a hundred but Afterl!fe,Twisted Wonderland and Genshin Impact are my current favorite games.

I love comedy films and series, I don't like to watch something though. I don't have much but currently 'Leyla and Mecnun', 'Sherlock' and 'The Office' can be my favorite series.

I love every kind of music actually, as long as I love their melody and rhythm it will be in my list. But my favorite music genres are ethnic, classic and any kind of dance musics. I love especially lively ones, I don't listen moody and slow ones that much.

❄️ My favorite artists is probably Michael Jackson . I am so in love with every song of him.

My life idols are Mozart and Nikola Tesla. For Mozart, I love how creative he was. He literally created hundreds of pieces despise his short life span. Plus he was cheerful and brilliant, still a genius. It makes me remember, a genius doesn't have to be serious and cold all the time.

For Tesla, I love everything about him too. He had pure heart, most brilliant brain and unending love for human. He didn't care all hard situations he faced. He didn't give up when Edison stole his exertion, rather than that he created more and better. I can't explain how much I respect him with words so I'm cutting it here :')

❄️ Huh, I really wrote so much. So sorry for keeping you this long but questions were so good ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ I still wanna talk more about how perfect Tesla is.

Thanks for reading until here. Have the nicest day and don't forget to make yourself happy. Plus, please take it easy. Everything will be better when you feel better, you shouldn't push yourself so hard about writing or results never will be satisfactory. See you later 👋❤️ (you can choose fandom yourself, I know and love them all)

OMG HI HI! THANKS FOR YOUR AMAZING WORDS LOVE!

( ◡́.◡̀)(^◡^ )

For your fandom, i choosed genshin, because i wanted to be you become first genshin impact match!

I match you with... (っ＾▿＾)💨

THOMA!

First of all, when we look at your physical and astrological characteristics, Thoma immediately looks like the best malewife for you! Capricorns are loyal, selfless, and usually trying to do as much as possible for their loved ones. And I think Thoma likes the color brown, so I can definitely imagine he's obsessed with your brown eyes. Also i can see that he always pick you up because you are shorter than him!

As MBTI he's your complete opposite, but hey! Opposites always attract as long as they are healthy! He will complete you in the aspects that you personally have difficulty in (I guess there are some things like leadership, trying to not getting angry when trying to explain yourself, etc.). Connecting this aspect to your character fit, Thoma certainly fits any specific you want.

First, Thoma is quite far from egotistical. An angel programmed to help anyone he loves or dislikes <3 And I think that's the partner feature you need! Secondly, I think Thoma gives off the "I save or die" vibe. Rather than breaking the trust of someone he loves, he would rather lock himself up for life. Other than that I can imagine you being a little tsundere towards him and he likes it a lot hihihihi. I also think he loves giving you comfort hugs and talking/listening to you for as long as possible. In his lap hehe

Looking at the things you don't like and the things you've watched/described, it seems like the main thing you don't agree with Thoma is your love for dramas KLJDLFJKKGJG Thoma definitely likes calm and peace more but you're more like "Yo bro I just created total chaos-" and it gives him a heart attack. KJDFKSLGJLDJKLH Still, I can see that you somehow handled this situation between you <3 Because your love for each other is too big to care about such things.

Finally, in terms of what you love, I think Thoma really likes your interest in science and music. This is because Thoma loves passionate people and sees it as a duty to support them on this path. When you talk, he remembers the things you like in detail and always reminds you how he adopted you by telling you his own opinion or what he knows <3 I can imagine you trying to play mozart music together! And he loves that you protect innocent but wasted people. Because so is he...

A little detail I wanted to add, you said you were sewing jackets, right! I think Thoma loves to knit or sew with you <3

Hope you like it <3 Thanks for your great wishes again, please take care of yourself very well (ɔ◔‿◔)ɔ ♥

#genshin impact #Thoma #thoma #by.aychu #love youu #he is a baby boy T^T #matching/shipping event!

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celestialmancer · 6 months ago

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low filter bs, i'll delete this later

Emotions come & go in waves, just ride them out, I'm told...

...

Yet it feels lately like the metaphorical tidal waves of emotion I feel are more on par with tsunamis, with the intensity of the way they hit, with how extreme they are, & the fact that they just keep coming in relentlessly has been hard.

& for some reason this shit has decided to target me via just... Finding myself getting. Legit angry with myself anytime I ramble a lot about things I'm passionate about, especially things with my own characters. Lately there's this festering self frustration that tells me I need to shut up, quiet down, knock it off, whenever i just prattle on & on unnecessarily about shit w/ them, & this whole urge that I need to shut up, stop talking, "Stop going on & on about something no one fucking cares about, you're annoying the living shit out of them", so my mind tells me. & I hate it, because it feels like i'm not allowed to even talk anymore wrt my own stuff or muse things w others because the moment I start typing a little too much or talking a little too much, I already am mentally berating myself like "here we go again, how long til they get sick of your ass eh?"

...

Lately I've been getting exhausted, exhausted, exhausted, with the way I seem to immediately turn aggressive with myself for talking ab it too much. Being so hyperaware of how much I talk, of how intense my emotions can run in general over stupidly small things wrt creative work & things w my chars & whatnot or stupidly excitable over things regarding chars I like, is... Its almost like I just have this hatred towards myself for being so overly excitable, so intensely fixated on these things, & this whole ordeal that I just..

I'm, overly anxious over appearing too pushy or something, overly anxious over how I express myself, this whole feeling that I need to dial it back, tone it down shove everything down shove everything down shove everything down stop talking, stop feeling things too much over those things I mentioned, just stop. fucking. being this way. Because its fucking shameful.

The talking on & on & on is also fucking shameful because why the fuck do I think any of what I have to say on my own creative shit matters, right? Stupid to think this means anything & me rambling on & on is probably making ppl drive me away or shut me out or do anything to not have to fucking listen to my insufferable yapping.

& its...

I feel like i just talk too much. In general. I... think this is just connecting to a deeper seated issue of just the fact that I find myself absolutely fucking insufferable when I'm "too much" or whatever I feel is me showing too much emotion & passion on anything. Because I'm supposed to be dialed back, I'm supposed to not let myself show I feel intensely, I'm supposed to not be so excitable over something so small & insignificant because its fucking stupid, I shouldn't be so... Like this.

I mention things w my characters or also w chars i like because that's the main thing rn that's fucking w me in this way & esp w my own lengthy rambling, & watching myself be a fucking embarrassment when i have chars that make me feel things also can cause this shit to rear its head in because of how I've been shamed before over this shit but this also has applied to t hings I like in general, hobbies i ramble on about or interests--& ngl, its bc of this factor that I can't handle just having someone go "ain't reading all that" or anything that insinuates that @ me because it's just a reaffirmation of the very nasty shit i'm telling myself in my head wrt any moment I get even a little too carried away & passionate w these things.

I'm... so accustomed to being dialed back & i find genuine shame & anger when I show anything because i don't feel i'm allowed that. & When it DOES come out when it DOES show because i seem fucking incapable of suppressing it as well, I just can't help but feel instantly like I'm being looked at through a lens of shame, of disgust, of just... repulsion, & like I'm inadvertently driving people away over my intensity of my emotions. This is in ref to my pos emotions but applies to all really. All my emotions. & hell, could apply to subjects im passionate about or that I go on & on about that are rants or what have youk, or just... anything in general I want to express.

Hatred. Hatred. Hatred. I don't know why I'm defective like this.

Was it better to just be emotionally numb like i was years ago? Where I could barely react or express excitement much? Where I didn't have as intense reactions to things wrt the things I like or things that make me happy or things that I am fixated on or attached to or feel things towards or--just, anything? Because this shit just feels humiliating & shameful. I feel fucking humiliating sometimes when I'm so emotionally expressive or something over these kinds of things but that's bc that's all I've been taught I am.

I get reacted to with disgust, with aversion/avoidance, & its just... I get it. I get it, you don't like me being like this. I get it. I'm too much. I don't know. I don't know, I don't know. I think its worse yet when i have had my intensity be treated as some sort of... well, I won't get into that on here, that's more for me to talk abt w friends ig, but its just me being painted in some weird sexual light.

& Hell, the issue of me feeling like I say too much talk too much am too much also extends into when I vent too--watching my vents be lengthy makes me legit feel nasty towards myself because I can't help but feel like I'm too much, yet again, & just... a sries of other things that come out that just...

...No surprise my sona carries the them e of feeling they're too much when I feel that at my core wrt myself.

i don't know how to stop myself from being this way. I don't know how to change. I wish I did sometimes.

it pains me that I can't just be more emotionally stunted like i was years ago after the things i kept going througj (well, stunted yet simultaneously emotionally haywire bc emotional bs always has been intense for me but, my numbness is what showed instead of being overly excitable when it came to pos feelings), before I started going through trying to heal shit.

Because now i get. this shit slipping out from the cracks & im just struggling, struggling, struggling to know how to keep myself composed throughout it all.

i know i'm too excitable. I wish it didn't drive people away. I wish ti didn't put people off. i know i'm overwhelming, i know im a lot. I mean, at least it feels like i put people off for coming on too strong. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.

& just. I don't know. This whole thing is a lot of messy self hatred that for once is coming out I guess. Normally I can manage my own view of myself fine but lately that too has been... hard to really figure out wher e I stand in terms of self image.

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freya-rat-face · 1 year ago

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Don't bother.

The fuck am I even supposed to do?

I want it back.

I do not want to fucking hear again that my standards are too high, unnecessary, or otherwise unreachable. I don't want to hear again that I shouldn't try anymore, even in the form of "This is good enough". Who cares if it is to you, it's not to me, and it's my fucking hobby, fuck you. "Fuck the standards" fuck your standards, dipshit, go game without transmogging anything, game without maximizing a fucking build, without demanding synergy from literally every element of your kit. Handwave all your fucking shaders and use Metro Shift over and over again forever.

God fucking dammit, do you not realize how condescending you sound?! "You can stop now" The fuck would you know about it?! You don't know what I was doing!

I WAS TEACHING MYSELF A REALLY FUCKING BIG ASS THING, I'M SO FUCKING SORRY I DIDN'T SATISFY MYSELF ON THE FIRST TRY AND INSTEAD OF QUITTING LIKE ALWAYS I STUCK WITH IT.

JUST TO GET DISCOURAGED EVERY FUCKING STEP OF PROGRESS I MADE.

"Rewriting AGAIN?!" Yes, for fuck's sake, yes, I am rewriting it again because the edits are too numerous to to back through and fix without recursing on myself so it's easier to just start the fuck over. Yes, I will spend years on this, fuck you, and in my spare time that I never fucking get because no one will let me have any, and I swear to FUCK, "you wanna act like I did something" "I felt like I said something wrong" Yes, you fucking did, over and over and over and over and over. And you couldn't hear yourself doing it.

"Why are you doing this again?"

'cos I fuckin' wanna!

Even with the BEST, kindest, most good-faith take on what I'm hearing, you're telling me that I need to stop straining myself because it's too much.

Asked me why I was doing this until I couldn't remember the answer anymore. And I still can't. Why WAS I trying? I liked it? Did I? I can't even think of it without wanting to scream, and not in the good ways where I was figuring stuff out. Now it's just shit smeared on the walls and ugly and a nightmare and a mark of failure.

'cos giving up means failing, but I'm gonna fail anyway. Too fucking much. Good enough. Not good enough to send to an editor, but good enough that I can stop now.

Oh, why can't I send it to an editor? I mean. I guess, go ahead, you can do it for me, send in that first one where my last three chapters are an introduction of four random ass characters, a dragged out wrap-up, and a meandering conclusion. The confusing ass dungeon scene, the excessive monologue aren't unforgiveable, but that shit is four-and-a-half acts, I fucking promise. It's my first, it's going to be fucking terrible. I was teaching myself a bigass fucking hard thing to do. I would HOPE that my first shitty try wouldn't be great. Hell, send them my first and my last and let THEM tell you how much better I got! My technical got lost, but my composition, my arcs, the fucking beats and timing, god fucking dammit, you have no idea what I was doing or what I was trying to fix and there was no way to explain any of it without feeling stupid until I just felt stupid because I got asked.

I know how to write, dammit, I know how to make the words pretty and I can even occasionally be profound and shit, and I'm fuckin' funny-- that is not what I'm working on. I'm working on writing books.

Or I WAS UNTIL I GOT TALKED OUT OF IT.

Let me call all your shit "finished" halfway through. Let me accuse you of unnecessarily high standards when you're trying to work your fucking minions into your loops, fixating on a specific spell and making it viable BECAUSE someone said it wasn't.

And I can't get it back! It's pissing me off! I have no idea what the fuck to do with this! I wanted to write a fucking book and now I can't even think the fucking phrase.

And this is before I get into the part where it feels fucking dead now. It feels gone and out of reach, and like he's gone and I can't get that shit back because working together on this has become more and more working on the same project from different rooms, and here and there it's even completely different projects, with both of us looking at the other one like, "Engh."

Sometimes it feels like he did it on purpose, because he didn't like where I was taking it, and rather than let it go, he just killed it for us. It's not hard to imagine and he claims everything is intentional.... but he can't predict me worth a damn. I'm just so sure it's anxiety, but of course, the nature of it means that I'm afraid to let go of it just in case, too.

I couldn't keep defending myself. I couldn't. Sharing my goals always feels so fucking stupid, trying to explain what I was doing, what I was trying to do, how I was trying to do it, trying to explain myself, and I fucking can't, and every time anyone asks, fucking EVER-- I feel so fucking stupid. I can't explain what I'm doing. I can't. You need me to tell you in words the pictures in my head and the only way I have EVER done it is with writing and I can't even do it directly, I can only give examples and analogies.

Hell, you saw what happened. I freaked the fuck out. I had to lean on the idea of publishing because the right words weren't happening. I only had what I was doing because I knew that 's what I was fucking doing goddammit, and then I had to tell someone and I felt so fucking stupid because... can't you tell?

Couldn't you tell?

Is it really that bad?

And no amount of telling myself that it wasn't meant badly is helping. No amount of reassurance is helping. I know I CAN do it, I can do anything I want to. Give me time and maybe fifty bucks of junk.

But I have to want to, and my motivation is gone.

I don't even know what's wrong anymore. I've run myself in circles, I can hardly stand to bring words to my lips anymore because it's too much fucking work, and I'm so fucking upset and...

"That's on you"

Yeah. All on me. I hated myself out of it. Thanks for pointing out my mistake. I shouldn't have tried. I should never have tried, I just spent ten years and five million words on nothing. It was never anything. It never was going to be anything. I thought it was. Because I can make books, but I can't make shit happen, and there's a fuckload that, even if I got my part done right, wouldn't happen.

I can't get me to want to. I can't bring myself to try anymore.

"But why this change?"

For the theme!

"But you could just handwave."

Yeah, okay. You're right.

"What's wrong with a second introduction? Leave it! Do your own thing!"

Yeah. Good point. Do my own thing.

"I don't see why anyone would want to take their hobby to a professional level."

Because it was a lofty ass goal that I could have reached and it sounded cool as fuck to be like, "Hey, I wrote a full ass book that got approval from the grown-ups whose job this is to know is done right."

I wanted my fucking cookie from the grown-ups. I wanted my picture put up on the fridge so I could point and be like, "Hey, look what I did!"

Just like you fight the fucking bosses and dive into dungeons to make sure your synergized builds work. Who cares if it's viable? It looks good, just play it like that.

And he doesn't give a fuck. I'm ranting at no one, because the person who's supposed to hear it thinks that it's all well and good, 'cos he said he was sorry and I'm supposed to forget the months and years of condescending bullshit and ignorant ass discouraging suggestions.

I don't want it anymore. You fucking win. I wasted time writing instead of playing video games, and that's all there is to it.

And you want to know why I'm hiding from you. You've shown me what you think of something I value about myself. You've shown me how you feel about my working to improve. You've shown me that there was no fucking point in trying.

Yeah, Souls is whooping your ass, how about some Jak and Daxter? No? Crash Bandicoot? Why not? You're straining yourself so much, you're doing good, you don't have to beat the game. You don't even have to beat this boss, you can just quit and play a different game.

It doesn't matter. It never did. It never will. I'm too tired to argue anymore. I can't remember why I thought the theme was important. I can't remember what about writing real books sounded appealing. There's no pride anymore. It just feels like I'm wasting time.

Never mind, of course, that it's STILL SCREAMING IN ME and I don't know what the fuck to do with this.

I don't know what to do. I've been trying not to punish myself, but it's real easy. Neglect is easy as fuck, and it's practically promoted. It's locked and I can't find the fucking key. Don't even know where the lock is, what kind it is, whether I should be looking for a fucking combination or a door or deadbolt, or if it's just one of those little flimsy screw-on shits I should be able to kick down.

And I say it again. even if I got that back, Anagod is gone. There's nothing for that one. It's dead. He's gone and it's dead. So even the motivation doesn't matter. I was never doing anything.

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softxsuki · 2 years ago

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Hello dear! By a stroke of luck I saw you were doing matchups and I'd love to join <33 I'd like a matchup for tokyo revengers please, if that's okay!!

My pronouns are She/Her and my gender preference is male and I'd like it to be romantic please <3.

Zodiac signs:

Sun: Taurus Moon: Pisces Rising: Cancer Venus: Pisces

Mbti and enneagram: INFP-T 9w1

Love languages: All of them tbh but primarily Words of affirmation and Physical touch.

What I value in a relationship:

Truly I appreciate honesty and communication. In relationships I'm quite good at being both of those with a partner fortunately and I appreciate it if they do the same. I'm a very big romantic and they don't necessarily have to be too but I like it when they don't mind gestures, unless it something that genuinely makes them uncomfortable of course. I like it when my partner is thoughtful and I like at least a bit of patience.

My hobbies include:

-Ballet

-Cooking/Baking

-Playing Piano and Bass guitar

-Writing (poetry/songs/books)

-Reading

-Listening to music

-Pottery (just started though 😅)

For other details:

I like animals, I like to go on unnecessarily long walks, kind of embarrassing but sometimes when I'm nervous to go somewhere for whatever reason I have this little plushie I take with me in my bag, I collect pink snack packages?? It might've not been delicious but at least the packaging is cute 😪, another unsung love language of mine is just feeding people? It ties in with my hobby for sure but with me you'll never go hungry, I like dressing up, my favorite season is winter, I'm very affectionate both verbally and physically and will tone it down depending on the person, I can be very talkative with the right person, sometimes when I laugh too hard I snork a little :/, I'm busy getting a degree in pedagogy, even though I dance ballet I'm a terrible dancer in all other aspects and... That's all I can think of at the moment.

For my ideal type:

I've thought about it but I'm not very picky. I just like people who like me :D

The scenario I'd like to see with them:

I'd like to see what they do for a date please!!

I hope that was enough 😩 tysm dear, I hope you have a great day <3

-🩰

1000 Follower Event Matchup #1

Want to participate in this event? You can figure out how to do so in this post

Note: Welcome to my blog and thank you so much for sending in a matchup request! You were the first one! :D I'm not sure if you're a manga reader or not, because this character talked about more in the manga, but hopefully you know him! I hope you like that I paired you with him too. It literally took me hours to narrow it down NFHEKABF, but this one is definitely perfect for you (he's one of my favs that I learned to love after starting the manga SO CONGRATS, keep him happy :( )

I match you with…HAKKAI SHIBA!

runner-ups were sanzu and kakucho, but I decided on hakkai for the reasons I'm about to list heh

To start off with the technical stuff, Hakkai is an INFP, just like you, and his enneagram is 9w1, just like yours as well so you two would definitely have a lot in common and that would bring you both closer together! Two peas in one pod, we love to see it. He's also a Virgo which based on the site I used, they are compatible with Taurus'. :3

Onto the more personable details, Hakkai would absolutely love how friendly and approachable you are, he’s pretty shy with women, so you being the way you are made it that much easier for him to approach you when you two first met. He’d fondly watch as you get lost in your head, daydreaming away. For the moments when you can’t say no to people, he’d step in and draw the line for you. No one will walk over you with him around, or take advantage of your kindness. He’s super protective over you and watches over you whenever you guys go anywhere together. He does look pretty intimidating, so that helps in keeping some negative or unwanted attention away from you. His main goal is to keep you safe and happy!

Get ready to have your love language filled, he’s very touchy as soon as the early, awkward stage of your relationship is over. ALWAYS has to be holding your hand or touching you in some way–whether you’re walking beside him or sitting next to him at a Toman meeting. He’ll also always tell you how much he loves you and how beautiful you are (while blushing because even though he’s been with you for so long, that awkwardness still pops through every now and then). TRULY a perfect match. I SHIP IT. AND ARE U KIDDING ME?? BALLET??? HE would make it his mission to watch you practice with hearts in his eyes and you better believe he’s attending all of your recitals (if you have any, if not, he's perfectly fine supporting you in private).

He would find a way to incorporate himself into your hobbies, by joining in on some like reading or cooking. Would definitely be willing to have a sneak taste if you want to feed him, and I think he’d enjoy feeding you as well. JUST VERY CUTE ROMANTIC THINGS WITH HIM OKAY. I'M SO JELLY WRITING THIS BC HE’S ONE OF MY FAVS BUT WOW HE WOULD LOVE YOU SO MUCH. He really enjoys watching you do the things you love like writing and playing instruments. Hakkai loves the little snort that sometimes leaks through when you laugh–it gets him blushing like mad bc you’re just so adorable to him and can’t believe he’s lucky enough to be with you. Invite me to your wedding please :(

Date Night with Hakkai:

First of all, as soon as I saw pottery on your list of hobbies, this idea instantly came into my head

BUT YES HAKKAI WOULD TAKE YOU ON A POTTERY DATE EEEE SO ROMANTIC

He knows you’re still learning pottery and he figured this would be a perfect time for him to hop in on one of your hobbies–he’s excited to learn!

He takes you to this quaint local studio that allows people to come in and do their own pottery for a small fee

At first he’s just watching you do your own thing; collecting the clay, throwing it on the wheel, and working your wet hands into the clay, shaping it to perfection

He tries to follow along, but you’ll probably have to give him a hand, guiding his hands the right way (little “ghost” pottery scene action here NFHEKAFEKJ)

You both have a great time, especially Hakkai, but he’s mostly happy about seeing you enjoy yourself

He could honestly have fun doing anything at all so long as he gets to spend time with you

Of course once your creations are made and ready to be thrown in the kiln, you leave and make an appointment to come back to pick your ceramic pieces up another day

After your pottery date, he walks hand in hand with you to a nearby restaurant where your wonderful date continues

10/10 would recommend, now I wanna make pottery again ahhhhhh

EVENT REQUESTS ARE CLOSED

REGULAR REQUESTS ARE OPEN

Posted: 9/18/2022

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samthesimpssss · 2 years ago

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Hello love! I got a notification and saw you were doing matchups and I'd like to join 😈 (I hope I didn't misread and it's already open)

The Fandom I'd like a match-up for is Tokyo Revengers. My pronouns are She/Her and my gender preference is male and I'd like it to be romantic please <3.

Some positive traits: I'm overall very friendly and easy to approach. I'm very patient and slow to anger. I'm very empathetic and sympathetic, I have a very easy time putting myself in others' shoes and rarely judge others. I'm a good listener and very attentive to others' needs. I tend to remember little things about the people I love and if I'm passionate about something I will always put my 110% in. I'm a very not judgemental person and I think it's fair to say I'm quite mature as well. I can be spontaneous and go along with spontaneous ideas very well but I'm not impulsive. I'm also overall polite and will be very talkative with the right people.

Some negative traits: I have a bad habit of being a people pleaser and have an overall hard time saying no unless I'm asked something blatantly dangerous. I'm a big daydreamer so I often have my head in the clouds which can make me less attentive to my surroundings and may lead the to zone out every now and then. I'm a procrastinator and when I don't really like something I'll leave it until the very last moment to do. And lastly I tend to beat around the bush when I have to say something negative to someone or about someone to them or at least take a while to at least get to it because I try to sugarcoat it as much as possible. So... Basically not very straightforward.

My mbti and enneagram: INFP-T 9w1

And I don't know if you also wanted zodiac signs but I'll add it in anyway:

Sun: Taurus Moon: Pisces Rising: Cancer Venus: Pisces

Some of my hobbies:

-Ballet

-Playing piano and bass guitar

-Writing both books, poetry and songs

-Reading books

-Listening to music

-Visiting museums (I like both art and history)

-Swimming

-Sewing

-Cooking and baking

-Watching both Vintage movies and classic Disney movies

-Going around petting stray cats

-Recently I've been learning how to knit

Other random things about me:

I like animals. I like to go on unnecessarily long walks. Mind of embarrassing but sometimes when I'm nervous to go somewhere for whatever reason I have this little plushie I take with me in my bag. I collect pink snack packages?? It might've not been delicious but at least the packaging is cute 😪. I like pink in general. An unsung love language of mine is just feeding people? It ties in with my hobby for sure but with me you'll never go hungry. I like dressing up and doing my makeup. My favorite season is winter and I love love ice skating. I'm very affectionate both verbally and physically and will tone it down depending on what the person I'm with is comfortable with. Sometimes when I laugh too hard I snort a little :/, I can dance a Viennese waltz My favorite Disney princesses are Cinderella and Aurora and both are actually quite similar to me. One night when I was younger I decided to teach myself 1800s etiquette and now old ladies love me. When I'm excited about something I bounce on my toes a little, I'm adept at flower language and every summer I get up early to pick some pretty ones and press them, only one of each though. I can sing a little but don't expect a power ballad out of me :(. I knit my neighbours cat a little hat. I like exploring local markets for trinkets. I cry pretty easily. I think that's everything I can think of at the moment.

I hope that's enough!

Thank you so much <3

-🦢

I have match you up with…

Manjiro Sano!

- his carefree nature + You = a relationship full of adventures. Y’all will just never be bored with each other

- Expect him to tease you when you snort but he does it lovingly and think it’s cute, he thinks everything that you do is cute—

- he would love to go ice skating with you in the winter, just because he has an excuse to hold your hand when skating :)

- he finds you feeding him very enjoyable. What can I say he likes to be taken care of :)

- he will gladly help you knit a hat for your neighbour’s cat, just so he can spend more time with you :D

- but when you do end up crying for whatever reason, he will always be there for you to comfort you with open arms

“There there my princess, is everything all right? Oh just a bad day? Well… would you like to go for a walk with me? It will help you feel better hmm?”

#tokyo revengers headcanons #mikey sano #tokyo revengers sano manjiro #anime matchups #Tokyo Revengers #tokyo revengers matchup

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ratsoh-writes · 3 years ago

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Ok then...here we go!

Your basic personality traits: ex: laid back, bubbly, playful, organized, stable…

I'm a bit high strung, bubbly, and I like to joke around a lot. My sense of humor is literally everywhere- dark humor, memes, chaotic shenanigans, you name it I'll probably laugh at it. I am prone to being pessimistic and though I love the idea of being organized and productive, I always end up displaying an alarming lack of discipline. I admit I'm not that stable.. I'm a little reckless. I'm passionate about the things I care about. I use pet names with everyone. Friends. Family. If I know you I'm calling you hon or dear or love or darling, deal with it.

Some of your strengths

I'm easygoing and forgiving, and I believe that anyone can be their best if they try. I'm very perseverant- once I set my mind to something, I'll stick to it and work hard and consistently. I do my best to be kind and understanding, and I have a lot of patience.

Some of your weaknesses

I am a little bit cowardly and can let my fear paralyze me at times. I run my mouth without thinking sometimes so I can say things I don't mean. I overthink a lot and can get really anxious if things aren't clear, and I'm not very good at understanding social signals. Clarity is key- though I'm always up for teasing~

Likes and dislikes/hobbies

I love making art, writing fiction and poetry, and learning/researching the sciences. I embroider ocassionaly. I practice tae kwon do. Medical, biological, astronomy, engineering... I love understanding the world. I read A LOT. If I had the money I'd turn my home into a library.

Any deal breakers in a relationship

I don't mind secrets, as long as communication is clear. If you tell me your not ready, I won't push, but if you refuse to speak at all and provide no reasoning, I'll work myself up and get really really anxious. I also don't like people who are unnecessarily cruel, selfish, or harsh- the world is mean enough, why add to it? I need a lot physical affection too, I'm a hugger but only with people I know.

Physical description is ok, but I only use it in the case of a tie breaker. The guys prefer soul over the looks

I have mid length black hair, brown eyes, olive skin, average build and am 5'1. If you didn't catch it, my soul trait (after like 100 undertale quizzes) is perseverance.

I'm interested to see what you come up with, ratsoh dear!

-wisteria

Hmm, you’re pretty well rounded so I say about three guys you could’ve worked fine with. After a bit more thought it came down to whether you’d prefer the fun option, the safe option or the risky option. I decided on the fun guy from what I know about you outside the description

Annnnyways i match you with….. drumroll please…

Charm!! (Underlust sans)

Alright hear me out! You’re a very numerous person, and your sense of humor is pretty well rounded. Charm is a total tease, doesn’t mind being the butt of a joke, and can definitely handle chaos. You two would get along really well for all those little moments just chilling together

He’s a good match for your dealbreakers. Once in a relationship, charm is pretty open about how he’s feeling. He’s never done commitment before and he wants to get it right. It also helps that sugar is giving advice from the sidelines lol. You’ll just have to expect relationship milestones like meeting the parents or moving in together and such to take a while. Charm wants to take it slow. Well slow in every area except physically of course ;)

Unfortunately for you two, charm also tends to run his mouth. Together you two can draw in some serious trouble lol. Hopefully y’all have a protective buddy around to get you out of the jam

With how many pet names you two use, it’ll probably be rare to even hear your actual name from his mouth lol. Charm only uses your real name when he’s being serious, or about to say something genuinely romantic

Good thing you like physical affection. Charm is a cuddly one. When he isn’t trying to get in your pants lol, he’s usually on your lap, holding your hand, head testing on your shoulder. Whatever you let him get away with

I noticed you had some interest in science, specifically biology? Charm doesn’t advertise it, but he used to be the head scientist for his underground and is part of the top ten smartest of the skeletons. He’ll understand all of your rambling about that subject and will actually share some fun facts you never knew

#matchups

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vrnicky · 3 years ago

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Ok then...here we go! (I copied the suff from my matchup from ratsoh, I hope thats ok! didn't have the energy to write this all out lol)

Your basic personality traits: ex: laid back, bubbly, playful, organized, stable…

I'm a bit high strung, bubbly, and I like to joke around a lot. My sense of humor is literally everywhere- dark humor, memes, chaotic shenanigans, you name it I'll probably laugh at it, though I'm most prone to making really really dark jokes out of no where. I am prone to being pessimistic and though I love the idea of being organized and productive, I always end up displaying an alarming lack of discipline. I admit I'm not that stable.. I'm a little reckless. I'm passionate about the things I care about. I use pet names with everyone. Friends. Family. If I know you I'm calling you hon or dear or love or darling, deal with it.

Some of your strengths:

Some of your weaknesses:

Likes and dislikes/hobbies:

Any deal breakers in a relationship?

Physical description:

I have mid length black hair, brown eyes, olive skin, average build and am 5'1. If you didn't catch it, my soul trait (after like 100 undertale quizzes) is perseverance.

-wisteria

I dont mind you copied this tbh! I changed some stuff with the final boy because of the new things i know about you! But its finally here, your matchup!!

I match you with... Allen! (Storyshift Sans)

Okay, to put you in context right now, Allen is that dad friend basically, he's all soft and patience around everyone. He's an Asgore after all.

Even tho it would be a small chance when you enter his flower shop, he's friends with almost everyone so you could have meet him through them too! He is a sweetheart, dont worry!

He loves how bubbly you can get, literally, he wants to pinch your cheeks lol. Just be patience with him when he doesn't get a meme, he's an old man...

You would end up using a lot of pet names, he calls you cute human and when you started using dear or that, he changed it to sunshine, if you ever got together he will call you cutiepie or sweetheart, no take backs.

He's in love with how perseverant you can be! Even tho he lose some of it when he got to the surface, he is really good motivating you! Either with cute cheek kisses, cookies, tea, anything he can do, he will do it to be a little helpful!

Please, talk to him about what you dont like or when you want him to stop, he doesn't know everything and he has his own stuff going too and if you dont want to listen, he will start to close a lot :(...

Your dates would be either a picnic outside or in his garden, he enjoys the calm places so either outside or inside but just if its calm enough, you can bloom some flowers if you like it too! He loves it, no matter how many times you do it, he's looking at you all lovey dovey.

So... many... cuddles...

He's also a hugger, he cant help it, getting out of bed living with him is hard, only if its his day off tho. Thats when you have to beg him to let you go lol.

Thank you and hope you enjoy who you got!! <3

And if you were curious, the other close option was Garo! The follow one was Carrot!!

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whaleofatjme1920 · 3 years ago

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HOLD ON! Ignore the last matchup if it isn't too much trouble please. I'm indecisive and changed my mind, please forgive me. I still want a matchup, but I want NSFW.

So, I’m 18, and I use she/her pronouns. Not really sure exactly what my sexuality is atm. I lean towards men, but I’m open to being with girls.

My big 3 are Virgo sun, Pisces ascending, and Cancer moon. I’m an INFP and enneagram type 2. Massive introvert because I get drained so quickly in social situations.

Likes/Hobbies: Board and card games have a special place in my heart despite never playing them as a kid. I’d kill to have people willingly play monopoly with me just so I could lose. Passionate about psychology and true crime. Found family is one of my favorite troupes, probably because of all the family issues I had growing up. Enemies to lovers is one that tends to pull me in as well. Daydreaming takes up a good portion of my day and causes my idealistic and fantastical views. I spend time reading and listening to music. I tend to listen to bands that are soft and sweet because love songs melt me in a puddle on the floor. I have a weird thing where I like to buy lots of things that smell nice like candles, soaps, perfumes, lotions, and stuff, but never use it. I have the same attitude with nature. I love the outdoors but leaving the house is just so much effort. I have definitely left the house solely to visit pets though, because animals are like my kryptonite. Oh oh oh! And protective partners melt my heart.

Dislikes: The obvious, homophobes, racists, ableists, etc. Obnoxious people who are so unnecessarily over the top with everything they do. Narcissistic people (I can handle self-centered people if it’s not to the point of narcissism). If someone kicks a person while they’re down, that’s a no-go even if the person they’re kicking needs to be knocked down a peg. Loud noises (this one is super big because trauma). Things that overpower any of my senses. Grown adults who use 3-in-1 WILLINGLY despite knowing that there are entire aisles of options for them and have the AUDACITY to think it works just as good. Arguing (I will give up if it goes on too long if I even bothered to argue to begin with)

Negative: I adapt my personality based on the person. I’m never fake, I just choose what traits of mine I wanna show. I take a while to warm up to people, but they have a tendency to overestimate how close we are. Definitely upset some people when they found out I wouldn’t run into a burning fire to save them. I’m an anxious overthinker, and it can push people away. I don’t get mad easily, but when I do finally lash out it’s hard to get me to stop, and I DO use low blows and remind you of every mistake you ever made. I will not regret or apologize afterward either unless you’re like my best friend or lover because if I get THAT angry with you, you deserve it. Depression hits me really hard sometimes and I can’t bring myself to do anything. I can sometimes freak out over small stuff like a misplaced object, sometimes going so far as having a panic attack over a spoon not being in the right slot in the silverware drawer. Openly voicing my opinion and putting my foot down is something I really struggle with, and I’d much rather a s/o who’s willing to take lead in that aspect.

Positive: When I finally let down my walls, which has only happened a handful of times, I am super snuggly and ramble. Physical touch and talking more than absolutely necessary is my way of saying that I’m comfortable and care about someone a lot. Cuddles are crucial! Not all the time, because I’m still very finicky and a bit jumpy about it, but sometimes. I’m a hopeless romantic who just wants her “I’m cold” “Here, take my hoodie” moment. I jokingly flirt with my friends more than I’d like to admit. Sarcasm and dry humor are my way of coping with the fact that I exist in this universe. I’m a super good listener, and people who aren’t usually open feel more comfortable around me. I tend to put my own qualms with people aside to comfort someone if they’re really feeling down and alone. I don’t care about looks or material things my partner can give me, I literally just want someone who will love me with no strings attached other than maybe spending some time together every once in a while.

Okay, so fun story. I was like 5, maybe 6 at the time. Fishing with my dad (back before he went on a milk run) was a common occurrence, and I would kiss the fish before we threw it back. Well, my dad had just gotten a new fishing pole, first time using it. We were chilling, waiting for the line to catch something. Finally got a bite on my dad’s new rod, and we pulled it up. Now, idk if you’ve ever seen them, but pulling up an alligator gar when you’re barely in Kindergarten is kind of terrifying. So what was my response? To the fish back in the water, pole and all. Needless to say, I don’t think he was very pleased.

Kinks: I am definitely a sub in bed, but I love a power struggle every now and then that ends with me getting absolutely railed into the mattress. I’m into choking, as in please choke me until I can’t breathe. Being edged until I can’t think straight has me a lil...uh...hot. Marking is also really hot, possessiveness in general is. And jealous sex is such a turn on.

Thank you again! <3 Take your time. Excited to see who you match me with!

Your matchup is… Eyeless Jack!

Only a read more because of NSFW

In General:

The first things that brought me to the EJ conclusion was when I first saw “psychology and true crime”. One, I adore those things and two, so too does EJ, at least from how I tend to write him. I also,,,,, admittedly like the whole “found family” and can see that kind of working between you and EJ. Y’know what, ngl the kinks solidified that decision too, but I overall believe the rest of you is just 100% in tune with him.

Things He Likes About You:

EJ totally understands the introvert thing because he’s honestly the same. Having a partner that’s similar to him on that front is really nice for him. He’s also a sucker for you liking animals. EJ doesn’t actually get along with humans that well anymore, so he just kinda fills in the blanks himself. I like to think he actually enjoys birds, like ravens, crows, and even pigeons! He also lowkey likes your physical touch thing AND cuddles. He’s touch starved! Please hold him once he finally gets used to you!! He likes your sarcasm and dry humor because he’s got a similar vein of wit when speaking. You also mentioned being a good listener, which he just finds really, really nice. Is he always going to say anything? No, but it’s nice that you’re open enough to do so. After getting into a relationship with you, yes. Yes he will come to you just to talk. He likes spending time with you. Also, I get the inkling he just really likes your personality. From how you come off here and what you’ve written, it’s just something that would melt his heart RIGHT AWAY (if he had one lol). But seriously, the man just adores you? He’d,,,,, want to hear about your daydreams,,,,,, and your ideas and fantastical views,,,, while he’s ultimately rooted in logic and the real world,,,, please,,,,, show him otherwise and that magick still exists,,,,,,

General Cute Stuff:

The first thing I thought of while actually considering this part was just “omfg this man doesn’t have a hoodie anymore because he’s always giving it to you” which I find ADORABLE. He probably has different hoodies for different occasions so he knows you’ll be prepared for wherever the two of you are going lmfao. He probably wants to hold you a lot (or whenever you’re comfortable) or have a hand on you in some way because highkey the man is jealous and a bit possessive. While your music choice isn’t something he was previously aware about, I think he’d end up really enjoying it just because it makes you so happy. Seeing you smile and hearing you laugh are his favorite things. Furthermore, he’d probably bring in some fun smelling things just because you tend to collect them? Like, if it looks nice, or smells good, he’d just bring it back for you. “I found this bar of soap thought you’d like it - look, it’s in the shape of a cupcake!” Kinda guy. Luckily, this man is protective as ALL HELL so like, you got your wish this man is sometimes wattpad levels of protective. Seriously, he’s just got his sockets on you and he’s not taking them off. He also understands not liking something and having a heavy aversion due to his own experiences with trauma, so he’d keep you away from loud noises and stop them before they even happen if that was possible. He doesn’t really like arguing either? It really depends. With Jeff? Sure. With you? No. Also the board and card game date nights are an absolute must? He likes those too please throw them at him he’d enjoy them SO MUCH. Especially monopoly,,,, but he might,,,, he might let you win,,,,,,

You two as a couple & NSFW:

SO, I can just see you two working out 100%, that is a given. He understands the adapting a personality thing ngl. After his whole “you’re a demon Jack!” he had to relearn what it meant to be human - and he’s still trying to figure that out (at least how I write him.) And he just really gets the whole: yeah. Never fake, just fronting another part of my personality I want to show. He gets it, in short. He also understands not wanting to move too fast in a relationship and build it up until he’s sure of where he stands with you, but he’d also just ask if he was really uncertain. The man has little to no grace sometimes lmfao. EJ won’t ever get you to the point of lashing out. If there’s a problem, he’ll talk it out with you - or he’d find some other way because he’s,,,,, he’s prone to lashing out too,,,, and it’s,,, it’s not nice but thankfully, rarely happens. ALSO, depression slumps? Totally understands that too he will take care of you as best as he can and attempt to motivate you. Be patient with him he’s trying. But he legitimately wants what’s best for you. It might come off as a little overbearing? But once again, he just has your best interest in mind. He’s also really repespectful of making sure that small stuff is the way you like it if that’s what you express to him. He doesn’t fight you about it, just says “oh my bad” or “Sure thing.” He’s just super, super respectful. EJ is also a little,,,,, relieved,,,,, you’re not harsh on his appearance. He’s admittedly still insecure about the whole thing. He’d adore spending time with you. Would probably show you some of his creepy stuff if you’re cool with that and his library full of creepy, occult stuff. Lil dates that are just existing together <3

ALRIGHT here’s what really, really solidified my decision it was the kinks. It was so quickly, the kinks. You have like the perfect man for these things? EJ is a total dom. He just likes being in charge and telling people what to do, having control over them is so hot in his opinion. Did you mention a power struggle? Omfg one of his favorite things is wrangling and then fucking someone back into submission. He’d just bend you back over, pushing you into the mattress growling as he rails you for being so disobedient. The choking thing too?? He’s got you! His large hands would just wrap around your throat and squeeze, bringing you further and further to “omfg I can’t breathe”. But he’s a safe breathplay guy so like. You get it. He will edge you!! He will edge you until you can't think straight! EJ will absolutely ruin you on your way to orgasm and dangle it in front of you like sweet release until you believe it’s nothing but a myth. ONly when you're completely destroyed would he finally praise you and let you have it. He’s also really big on marking. I mean, have you seen his teeth. All over your thighs, your neck, just anywhere he can claim you as his, really. And we’ve established this but he is possessive and jealous! You act a certain way you’re gonna get fucked a certain way. That is the rule. If someone flirts too much with you? He’s gonna be dragging you to the nearest closed off location and fucking your brains out with little bites on your shoulder and neck jsut to be like “mine.”

Closing Thoughts/Other Stuff:

Hi love bug! No worries, I completely understand lmfao. My inbox is entirely empty across all three sites I’m on! Feel free to absolutely spam me lol. Thank you so much for the ask! This is genuinely the first one I’ve been able to look at and have a match in mind like, RIGHT AWAY. That was super fun! I also really like the story because alligator gars happen to be one of my favorite fishes! I think they’re so great. I think you’d tell that story to EJ and he’d just LIGHT UP. LIke, absolutely, 100% omfg I am cherishing that story and it’d become a lil joke between the two of you. He also finds it cute that you,,, would smooch the fish. Wholesome. Again, this was like the first matchup I’ve seen that I had an immediate clear “yeah okay this is who you’re with” and I absolutely adore that so much. You and EJ? It’s just a chef’s kiss. Other than that, I hope you enjoyed this!

#eyeless jack #eyeless jack x reader #eyeless jack headcanon #creepypasta #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta headcanon #nsft #matchup #creepypasta matchup #conversations with a fish woman

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