#I'm trying to be real optimistic here but at the same time like... I dont have time for games or w/e I don't do that

[the-cooler-king]

Doubling down on taking my s/o out so we can talk about all the shit we are both afraid to talk about

[infinitedideverythingwrong]

fuck it i dont have any other ways to share my jackal squad headcanons without Making A Whole Thing so im just gonna infodump about them here

general headcanons

the jackal squad are all siblings, with infinite being the eldest and quatre the youngest

the shadowy ones in the background in the one panel they appear in are not consired. no design no character. trois does get the katana used by one of them though

their names are the same as their semi-official ones: uno for the kunai thrower, deux for the one with the beret, trois for the girl, and quatrre for the one with the green bandana

the number names are codenames. infinite's codename is cero. zero, while cool-sounding, is just a bit too generic for me, so i have him share uno's quirk of being named in spanish rather than french. the other ones presumably have real names but they never come up and they always call each other by their codenames

they were initially collectively called the ultimate mercenaries until around the time that they were emoloyed by eggman, when infinite started trying to distance himself from his siblings. that's also why eggman calls him by his real name and why he acts so selectively dismissive about the apparent demise of his family in the flashback

the jackal squad survive getting fridged shortly before the episode shadow flashback, but infinite doesn't know this. i am Not coping they are Not dead they are So much more plausibly alive than the guy who killed them was at the end of his debut game!! coping? me... he's calling me coping? no...! i am not coping. i'm... i'm not. i'm not coping! i! am NOT! COPING! GRAAAAGH !!!

dynamics

cero: the leader of the whole operation. a bit more domineering than some of them would like. a bit self-centered, but ultimately means well for his siblings. always insists he has a plan even though he usually doesn't. he always finds a way to improvise out of every sticky situation he gets them into, though. well i mean other than that one situation that he very notably did not get them out of

uno: plays up the cool and distant act but actually cares a lot about his siblings. he might get snippy with cero from time to time but ultimately he trusts his older brother. he's a good tactician and as such ends up acting as second in command a lot of the time. when cero leaves the squad, uno readily fills the position of leader.

deux: techie. if he's not physically there for a given run, he's usually running mission control. the jackal squad hq has a giant computer specifically for him. when he is there, he's a very calculating and relatively independent fighter. has a dry but nonetheless present sense of humor.

trois: a bit hotheaded and standoffish. the primary one to question cero's choices. cares openly and passionately about her brothers. has a habit of overthinking.

quatre: optimistic, always tries to see the good in a situation and encourages his siblings to do the same. often makes quips to try and lighten the mood. sometimes makes it easy to forget that he does, in fact, kill people for money, alongside the rest of the squad.

[mercykatze]

I will walk into your house and (politely) demand you to explain all of your lore, hello???????? I'm listening!!!! I will read! I will gobble!!!! I will consume!!!! I'm so interested..... plsplspls don't feel like no one's interested because I am now???? What is the story omg?????

sorry i took so long to reply work is killing me 😭

ive posted a few comics of the story here under the hiddenclan tag but i dont think ill have the time/emotional availability to draw out the rest so ill do a little lore dump under the cut

so what i had envisioned for the story was like. Shineclan (Warmflick and Bluffpaws original clan was Very unpopular in their area, mostly for their disbelief in Starclan. The clan culture acknowledge Starclans existence but saw them as just dead cats with no real power over the clan. The highest power to Shineclan was the current clan leader and that's who theyd refer to for any ceremonies or giving of thanks (hinted at when Warmflick calls upon Thymestar to approve the name she was giving Bluffpaw).

the current leader, Thymestar (Warmflicks father) was a similar sort of leader to Oakstar. very popular within the clan as a strong and fearless leader but was very aggressive to any outside cats, including other clans, loners, ect. eventually it got to the point where the other clans joined up and decided to drive Shineclan from the forest, one way or another. Warmflick, as the only pregnant queen and Bluffpaw as the youngest cat in the clan were both sent away as soon as the fighting started to protect them.

I wanted the story to show in particular, Warmflicks son Jumblekit slowly picking up on signs from Starclan and trying to tell his mother abt them and culminating with her receiving nine lives and the name Warmstar.

I really wanted to show how tragic i found Warmstar as a character. she is painfully optimistic and self sacrificing, even after slowly losing everyone she cares about. where i played the save to, she only had one kit remaining, had lost both Bluffnudge and Jumblekit(now Jumblebear) to the same tragic fire and had lost the mate she found. all of the lives shes lost so far as a leader have been while protecting clanmates. the one kit she has left, Gullgrove, she is incredibly close to. but he has a mate outside of the clans (has brought back 3 litters and is constantly spotted in the twoleg place) and i imagine she is terrified that shes going to lose him through this too.

i just have a lot of feelings about warmflick and shes really special to me so im sad like. with myself for losing motivation in telling this after getting no engagement </3

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[kpdeek]

Personal (PCOS)

I've been meaning to write a KP fanfic since before the show ended, I've had inspiration stirring nonstop since EP1. I thought with the amount of free time I'd have this Summer this would be something fun to put my time and energy into, a project I can utilize everything I've learned from all the wonderful people I've interacted with on here in one way or another, but July has officially become the month of declining health for me.

I literally never used to see my doctor, I never had reason to. And suddenly I'm seeing 3-4.

It's a bunch of minor things piled on each other to create one BIG thing, but the main concern weighing on me is that I apparently have PCOS. And one particularly large cyst on my right ovary has been a real burden. It feels like constant cramping near my right pelvis, throbbing, bloating, heavy. I'm trying to go about my days as normal as possible as I monitor this thing (because it's supposed to go away on its own. & if it doesn't, then I'll need a minor surgery to get it out). But the discomfort is so constant it's all I'm ever dialed in to. I can't enjoy the vacations I'm going on, or just day to day activities.

It's not an agonizing pain, more like a dull pain. After doing a lot of research and educating myself on PCOS and related issues (to the point I drove myself into a panic attack in the middle of a family road trip 🙃), I realize that the stage I'm currently in is nothing compared to how bad this might be (or get), so I'm trying not to psych myself out too much. And yet, I've cried for three nights straight.

The mind is a strange thing. On the one hand, I know this is relatively common with people who ovulate, and what I'm experiencing isn't anything deemed too serious. In fact, it's pretty normal. On the other hand, I can't believe I'm spending the one summer I chose not to work doctor hopping instead (and not in the fun sense), and that I might need to get surgery for the first time in my life.

If this is a normal cyst (just a bit too big for my doctors' liking), then the 'surgery' isn't anything too complex. But I still need to run a few more tests (while waiting to see if the darned thing will clear up on its own) before I even know if it's worth removing, or what it even contains. (Don't search up images of a teratoma. Just...dont).

In the meantime, my brain is supplying me with all the helpful (sarcastic) things I've learned throughout all this. Namely, if it shrinks, I'm good! If it doesn't, teeny tiny incisions to get it removed. And if the bitch grows, or spreads, or turns out to be endometriosis, this is God or the universe's karmic retribution for all the times I've said "I don't like kids" or "I don't want kids", & I might say bye bye to one or both of my ovaries soon, and the option to have kids will become difficult, or be taken away from me altogether.

You see how my brain turns something that isn't anything yet and freaks me the fuck out? This was me for three hours until I finally broke down on hour 4 of said road trip.

Anyway, I'm trying to process everything it is and might be, driving myself crazy as I do. I don't want to be pessimistic, but at the same time I know I shouldn't be too optimistic. I've talked to close friends and family about it, I am thinking a lot about it, and the next step is to write about it, because that's how I've always processed things and ultimately comforts me more than my circle's generic words of encouragement (though I know they mean well & aren't intentionally trying to downplay the physical & mental toll this has taken on me. And honestly, I think the mental is exacerbating the physical).

I'm still going to write that KP fanfic, dammit!!! but as I write primarily for myself, I'm not going to put a specific time frame on it. I'm just gonna go about it as I'm comfortable.

Ummm...yeah, so this isn't intended for people to feel bad for me, or share my story, or whatever. I'm not even exactly sure how bad this thing is, or if my overthinking is getting overdramatic. Sometimes I just feel better after releasing everything I've got pent up into the void, as if I'm finally letting go of a bit of what's burdening me so I can care about it a little less. But if anyone else has or is going through something similar and would like to share their experience, I'd love to hear from you. It'll be cool to connect with others who get what I'm going thru.

[whoreforpens]

The Same

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AU!Erik Stevens x Black Reader

This story has 1081 Words.

Summary: Erik leaves, but comes to "reclaim" his own

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These niggas tell you what you

what you wanna hear ( these niggas) everything has

a price woo, here goes

sacrifice, don't know exactly what you

wanna hear(these niggas), still I can't tell you

if you hardly here, I mean that shit both ways, your friends all ask you what you waiting on

used to procrastination, don't get

distracted baby, I can tell you

think it's funny, but it loving at its hardest so if it's easier to show than

say, then show so things fall in

place, fall in place, fall in place

Always drunk on the phone when

you call for me (that's right), always say that it's love when it's not

and they know what they doing is

wrong (that's right), never say

too much, always play too much,

always wait too long (that's right), always say that it's love if it's not let me know what you waiting on

(that's right)

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He collapsed on top of me

" Y/n?"

" Yea"

"If I left and wouldn't come back for a while, would you wait"

I thought about it

" Yea"

He put his clothes on and left. I didn't know what he meant, but little did I know that was going to be the last time seeing him til...

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" Well don't"

*knock knock knock*

I groaned angrily, cause whoever the hell is knocking at my door just FUCKING woke me up.

*knock knock knock*

" I'm coming I'm coming, just hold on" I was in a state of shock, but respond anyway.

" Salutations"

" No need to be formal"

" Yea, I bet, what do you want" I keep my normal calm manner

" I wanted to see how you were doing" He smirked

" Well you've seen me bye" I attempt to close the door but he sticks his foot in the way

" You're not gonna ask how I found you or what I'm doing here?"

I shake my head no

We just stood there for a minute

" Come in" I invited him in, he looked sort of impressed

Erik POV

Her condo looked good, but she look better than I left her. Her hair grew out, she straightened it but it had more length and volume. But that's not the only thing that had more volume, she had gotten thicker and everything.

" Take a seat" She gestured for me to sit on one of her couches

I took a seat, but she went somewhere. She came back with a plate with pie. She always treated people like she knew them for the longest

" You allergic to coconut?" She asks

" Nah" I reply

I take the plate and fork and eat a piece. This shit is FIRE! Then all of a sudden I hear giggling.

" What?" I ask

" The way you're eating that pie is funny, you eating it like you've never had it before" she continues giggling

I laugh too. " I'm not eating that pie the way I ate that pussy tho"

She gave a " Nigga the fuck up" type face, I just chuckled.

I put the plate and fork down.

" Why you all the way over there ma, come sit next to me" I smirk

" Nah I'm good" she responds as she situates herself on the opposite couch

" State your purpose for being in my presence" she sighs

" I came to take what's my mine" I leaned forward

I could tell she got mad in an instant she started smiling and laughing. Y/n doesn't yell, she doesn't scream, she doesn't argue, she just speaks. She was always kind, humble, calm, laid-back, optimistic and don't let her good natured background fool you, she is a REAL FREAK

"Dont treat me like I'm some type of possession of yours"

" C'mon baby"

" Oh so I'm baby now, that's really funny, I wasnt baby when you left for three years without a word all men are the same, should have listened to Keith " she laughed

" Not that nigga, c'mon. Don't be like that girl"

" Don't be like what" she raises her eyebrow as she asks

" I didn't know where you was going, what you doing you just left me. I had to figure out from Sterling to know where you was headed, and you went to the army, he said one year, I waited and waited and waited, and you never came back but now, you wanna walk up in here like you own shit, I'm not even your girl, never was, never will be, remember" Y/n smiled at me

" The past is the past and--" I started but got cut off

" The past is the past huh, then why you wanna go after your own cousin, if his father killed your father over some money that he can---"

" I lied" I admit

" Okay so first you try to claim me, then you try and arouse me, and now you lying" She started yelling

Y/n was yelling, this was a lil scary and sexy as hell. I love it

" I did what I had to do" I shrug it off

She takes some deep breaths

" So you just gon shrug it off" she questions calmly

" Aww I miss the angry you, do that yelling shit again, you look hella fine yelling you know" I chuckle

" Oooo,I swear on my Daddy's grave" She started talking to herself

" Why would you swear on my grave" I ask as I smirk once more

" Ooo my gosh, JESUS please take the wheel, ok look, get out, take your pie and get THE FUCK OUT" she yells and laughs

She looks crazy and bad. Just my type.

" Ok, just look me in my eyes and tell me you don't have feelings for me, look me in my very eyes and say " Erik, I no longer want you"." I state

She looks me in my eyes, but doesn't tell me what I want to hear

" The fuck out, just in case you don't know your way to the door, I'll escort you" she points to the door

She escorts me to the door. I get in her face

" Just know I'll get you one way or another, if I can't have you, nobody can" I warn her

She sizes me and gets in my face as well

And with that she slams the door in my face, if she thought that was the end she best get ready cause this is just the beginning.

" Go fuck bitches, hoes,prostitutes, strippers or whatever it is you do"

i really don't like this story. its cringey to me. everyone on wattpad seemed to like it. just thought this would be a good introduction story.

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[khiphop-discussions]

I do think the diss battles have kinda fallen off but tbh I dont want them to leave. I think the degree to which people believe its fallen off varies based on what you want from it! If someone want lines that really hurt (which is fair as thas the og format) they'll think it really fell off but like me, for example, I just need witty bars whether they hurt hurt or they're just a jab (granted even the witty lines of any sort are becoming far & few in between 🥴) And I can tend to be optimistic so it may just be that coming out hoping they get better lmaoo I do, however, think they should listen to the majority here & boot it if most people are bored of it. It doesnt needa stay just off tradition if its gonna lose views imo

You definitely have some good points! I agree.

I'm really not sure if I want it to go. Cause it's kinda like, what are y'all gonna replace it with? I feel like it's valid to have a diss battle on a hip-hop show since that's been like a huge part of hip-hop thus far. Careers have been derailed, people have DIED, fights break out at rap battles even though everyone KNOW they are there and even potentially got PAID to talk crap about each other.

You mentioned boredom but that's another thing, I only know if it's boring AFTER I've seen it. BUT every season I AM looking forward to it. I can't help but wonder what would happen.

Another (small) issue tbh is that it seems like the people who have or had issues with each other always end up not being able to battle. One ends up eliminated before the battle. So we miss out on that. Nobody really disses prior to the diss battle anymore because they already know what's coming. It'd be dumb to waste too early. It'd be VERY interesting if they had a season where they shuffled around the diss battle so contestants are genuinely shocked when it comes. It creates a bunch of tension and shakes people up a bit. Like in real life when you pretty much have no clue a diss is coming. It's also way before the contestants have time to get comfortable with each other so they don't really care about pissing off the others the same way. The longer they spend together the closer they get. Also, earlier on, less people have left.

Like imagine a Euiyoung vs Mudd battle right when the 1v1 choosings just happened cause Euiyoung was actually upset Mudd chose him. Same thing with A-chess and Gwangil. But as we saw, the process of the 1v1 made them closer.

Honestly, a season where they shuffled ALL of the missions would probably be a bit too cruel though tbh. BUT I can't lie that WOULD be a way to shake things up. Kinda like Squid Game where everyone KNOWS they are gonna play games, then they find out it's children's games which narrows it down a bit. However, they still spend portions of each episode trying to figure out what the next mission will be and doing all types of shit just for the chance to figure it out. It'd be interesting but CRUEL as shit especially since the contestants don't expect that level of cruelty from the show anymore. The cruelest thing is getting eliminated in round two in the fire pit or treated coldly by the judges in round 1. Plus, the anxiety and unknown would make some people act out too. So it'd probably just be really hostile. Like I said, very cruel.

I don't think just shifting the diss battle (which would in turn only shift ONE other mission which wouldn't be all that bad cause it's likely less cruel than the diss battle anyway) would be that bad though. It just kinda hard to see where to shift it to while not putting the thing it replaced somewhere awkward and unfitting.