#I'm tired y'all and my emotions are everywhere

[yustinamishka]

You know that scene in Turning Red? What if Jin Ling saw that lost and traumatized younger version of Jiang Cheng…

[selfloverrrrrr]

Request:

Yandere Sukuna noncon's the reincarnation of his late unwilling wife.

Reborn..?

Warnings : smut , heavy smut, unprotected sex, Noncon, Kidnapping, physically and emotional abuse, biting, torture, size difference....

( All characters are aged up/18+)

Minors Do Not Interact

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I'm a student of jujutsu high Tokyo. I'm a first year.... Gojo satoru is the one who took the responsibility to make us understand our cursed energy and how to use. And us means me and my friends. Actually We're best friends... Me, Yuji, Megumi and Nobara.

IT was a normal day. I was gossiping with my friends. Yuji and Nobara. Megumi just left the room because he got a call from someone. He just left. So we three were gossiping when Yuji mentioned how much disgusting Sukuna's fingers tastes. Sukuna, about whom I heard that he's possessing over Yuji's body. But I haven't seen him yet.

"Hey...it can't be that much disgusting taste!" I said. "No y/n believe me!!! It's taste is so disgusting!" Yuji replied. "How can I say? I haven't tasted it...lol" I said. "But you can..." Yuji said. "What?!" I asked. " I have a finger... you wanna taste it???" Yuji replied. "Do you think it's safe?" Nobara asked Yuji. " Yes I do... cause I haven't eat so many fingers... I have just eat two fingers...so I don't think three fingers will do anything " Yuji replied. "Sounds interesting... give me the finger " I said.

Yuji handed me a Sukuna's finger. I unwrapped it and put it inside my mouth. And ewwww....it does taste disgusting!!! I closed my eyes tightly and swallowed it anyway. "How was it???" Nobara asked. "What did my expression said??!!! Ewwwwwww" I replied. "Hahaha told you" Yuji said. "Ok ok but don't tell it to anyone else...or else you gonna be in trouble!" I said. Nobara and Yuji nodded.

After a while Megumi returned. "Who's call was it?" Yuji asked. " It was Gojo sensei...he told us to return to droom" Megumi said. "Ah okay then... let's go...bye, see y'all tomorrow" I said. And give me a good bye back. After that we all went back to our room. And I was too tired so I changed my clothes and went to sleep.

I fell asleep. But all of a sudden I saw a dark place. Then I saw a red light. When I went close to that light I saw skulls everywhere! I got scared why is so many skulls here?! Then I saw a throne on all of those skulls. And a guy was sitting on the throne wearing white kimono.

"Who the hell do you think you are to come here without my permi-" he paused his sentence when he looked at me. "Y/n?" He spoke again. Who is he? And how did he know my name? Within a blink of eye he was standing infront of me. I screamed and almost fell on my back but he grabbed my hand.

He pulled me towards him and grabbed my waist. "Y/n....?....how?!" He said. "Who the hell are you??? Let me go!!!!" I screamed. "You don't know me?" He asked. "No I don't!! I'm asking you who are you???" I asked. "Y/n...clam down. Try to remember! I'm Ryomen Sukuna.... your husband!!!" He replied.

My eyes widened. So he is Ryomen Sukuna??? But why is he saying that he's my husband?! "No I don't know you and I'm not your wife" I replied. He stared at me for a second. "What's your name?" He asked. "Y/n l/n" I replied. "Rebirth... I see" he said.

"What are you talking about" I asked. He looked at me and smirked. "You died...in your past life. You were my wife. Someone poisoned your food. I don't know who or how....but let's not talk about that time... I don't wanna remember it. Now look... I got you again" he said still smirking at me. I tried to push him away. "Let go off me!! I'm not your wife....let me go!" I said. "You know what? First time I liked something which is done by that brat" he said. He was holding me too tightly with his body.

"I don't want to know anything just let me go!!!!" I said and tried to push him away. But his grip was too strong. "Tsk tsk... I found you after fucking 1000 years! And you think I would let you go" he said. I started crying in fear. "Yuji!!!! Nobara!!!!!! Megumi!!!!!! Gojo Sensei!!!!! Please someone help me!!!!" I screamed with all of my power. Sukuna smirked. "Noone hear you darling.... Noone is gonna help you!" He said and cackled. "W-what.... w-what do y-you want?" I sobbed. "What I want?" He spoke. I stared at him with teary eyes. "Are you a virgin, y/n?" He asked with a smirk. I could feel where it's going. He grabbed my face and dig his nails in my cheeks "I asked you a fucking question" he said with grinded teeth. I just nodded. "You waited for me to take your virginity again?" He said. I still tried to push him away but he was laughing at my weak attempts.

He threw me on the floor. Took off his kimono and threw it on the floor then knelt on the floor infront of me and started crawling towards me on the bed."please stop" I said and tried to push myself backwards but he grabbed my leg and pulled me towards him. I gasped. He was still smirking."stop?... You should be great full that it's your husband who's taking your virginity! The fun part is about to began ~" he whispered and crashed his lips on mine.

I tried to push him away but his grip was too strong. I can't even move myself. He was kissing me too roughly. I couldn't breathe. He grabbed the hem of my top and pulled it over my head. My boobs bounced out. He looked at those with lust in his eyes. He didn't waste any time, crashed his mouth on my breast licking, sucking and teasing the nipple and squeezing the other one with his hand. I moaned in the sensetion. I grabbed his hair and tried to stop him by pulling it but it didn't even effect on him. "S-stop ...... Oh god please stopppp" I scremed but he didn't stop.

Then he took off my pant and then took off my pantie."spread those legs wider, slut " he whispered and then looked at my pussy. He rubbed his finger on my clit and whispered " filthy whore is fucking wet". Then he licked my pussy. I couldn't help but moan loudly. He smirked at my reaction and undo his pant.

His dick sprang out. It was big and thick. Fear grabbed me by my neck. " P-please no... s-stop" I begged but didn't even listen to me and slammed his whole dick inside me in one slide. I scremed. " You whores will never learn how to behave " He said and slapped me. He didn't even give me time to adjust his size and started thursting in and out roughly. I was throughig my legs with pain and begging him to stop. And he was licking it so much. His thurst became harder and harder. I clenched around him tightly and he moaned loudly "you're still fucking tight " he started rubbing my clit with his thumb and I bite his shoulder scratched his back to control myself. With a few more thurst I came. He was still thursting roughly. I felt his cock pulsing inside me. I tried to push him away with all of my strength. I moaned. He grabbed my throat and chocked me down to the bed. " Stop struggling slut...!!!" He screamed. Within a minute he came inside me I could feel his seed inside me. He pulled out. My vision blurred out. All of sudden I woke up taking deep breath and saw everyone sitting infront of me.

Megumi's POV

I was laying on my bed and scrolling through my phone. Suddenly I heard a scream. "Yuji!!!! Nobara!!!!!! Megumi!!!!!! Gojo Sensei!!!!! Please someone help me!!!!" I heard that scream and get off my phone. I knew it was y/n's voice. I run out of my room. I saw Yuji and Nobara also run out of their rooms. "Did you all heard that scream too?" I asked. " Yes we did" Yuji and Nobara said together. We all rush towards y/n's room.

"y/n!!!! Open the door!!!! What happened??? We're here... open the door!!" We all screamed. But not a single answer came. "We have to call Gojo Sensei" I said and called Gojo. "Hmm Megumi" Gojo pickup the call. "Sensei whatever you are doing right now stop that there and just run infront of y/n's room" I said. "What happened?" He asked. "We even don't know what happened! She was screaming for our help...she was screaming for your help too!" I said. "Hold on" Gojo replied and he teleported himself infornt of us. "Is she inside?" Gojo asked. "Yes" we replied.

Gojo teleported himself inside y/n's room and opened the door. We all went inside. We saw y/n on her bed. She was shaking in her sleep as if she was struggling with something and she was groaning too. We all rushed towards her bed and tried to wake her up. "Y/n wake up! What happened?" I asked. "What the-... why can I feel Sukuna's energy inside her?" Gojo asked seriously. He was too serious. I was shocked. Sukuna's energy inside of y/n??? How's that possible?! Gojo was glaring at us. "Sukuna's energy? But how's that possible?" I asked.

"I'm asking the same question to you all!!!" Gojo said angryly. "A-actually sensei...." Yuji began to speak "we all were playing... and we feed her one of Sukuna's fingers " Yuji said. "What!!!" I and gojo exclaimed together. "Yuji that's a special grade curse spirit! Not a play thing!!!" Gojo screamed. Yuji and Nobara were silent. "Megumi quickly go to the office room at the ground floor and there's a Sukuna's finger... quickly bring it here" Gojo said and I run to bring the finger.

Gojo's POV

After a while Megumi returned with the finger. "Yuji...eat it" I said. "W-what...oh ok ok" Yuji replied. Megumi sit on the bed and gave Yuji the finger. Yuji unsealed it and put it in his mouth. He swallowed it. Immediately y/n woke up taking deep breath. She took some breath then looked at Megumi. She grabbed Megumi's hand "M-Megumi please... P-Please call Gojo Sensei" she sobbed. "I'm here" I said putting a hand on her back. She looked at me and hugged me. "S-sensei please.... please I don't want that again... I hate him.... I hate Sukuna" she sobbed. "I know y/n...now clam down and tell us what happened?" I asked. Y/n took a deep breath. "Idk.... Idk what he was saying... believe me I've never seen him in my entire life! Sukuna was shocked when he saw me first. Then he told me that I was his wife 1000 years ago then someone poisoned my food and I died... and he said I reborn again " she said. She's reincarnation of Sukuna's dead wife?! "But sensei I don't know if I was his wife or not but I don't want him" y/n sobbed. "Hey it's okey.... Can you tell us what he did? Why were you screaming for our help?" I asked. "H-he took my...." She began to speak. "Took your what y/n? " Nobara and Megumi asked. "M-my virginity " she whispered. Our eyes widened. I glared at Yuji. "Look what your play have done Yuji!....do not let Sukuna take over you inform of her!" I said. "I'm sorry y/n I didn't know he's gonna do that kind of anything!!!...and Sensei don't worry I won't let him out infront of her" Yuji replied and I nodded. "Nobara you're gonna sleep with y/n... I'm gonna talk with the principal tomorrow and make you two roommates... and y/n, don't worry I won't let him touch you ever again... just sleep okey and call me if you need me " I said and we all left the room.

Sukuna's POV

"this brat!!! He has to eat the finger again?! .... Doesn't matter... she's mine... I'm gonna have her again and nobody's gonna stop me" I said with a smirk.

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[not-magdi]

"Be my Valentine?"

Warnings: none :)

Summary: Lando surprises you on Valentine's Day.

Word Count: 1k

Reading Time: 4min 12sec

A/N

I am so sorry for not updating again, but life has been really stressful lately. I sadly can't promise you that it is going to be better a school is about to start again but I'll try.

Love y'all Magdi <3

February 13th, tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and you just ended a call with Lando, who was currently in Barcelona testing the new car. When he first told you he would be away for the 14th, disappointment and sadness were the only emotions you felt.   

Valentine's has been your favourite holiday since you were a little girl. It didn't matter if you had somebody or not. The pink hearts everywhere, the smell of roses in the air, and people all around being in love made it so special for you. 

And for two years, you got to spend Valentine's with the love of your life, Lando Norris. Although every day was special with Lando, he always made extra efforts for the 14th, such as preparing breakfast in bed, presenting flowers in a rainbow of colours, and gifting sparkling jewellery.

So, him not being here home with you this year crushed your spirits for tomorrow completely. Lando felt incredibly bad when he found out when the tests were, but nothing prepared him for how the spark in your eyes disappeared when he told you. 

Guilt was eating him up the entire trip to Barcelona. Even Oscar noticed and asked what was up. 

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After you hung up with Lando, you decided to cuddle yourself up on your couch and do some self-care while watching some nineties rom-com. 

You knew it wasn't Lando's fault he didn't have a say in when the testing was going to be, but you were still really disappointed he couldn't be with you. 

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Your stiff back and sore neck were the result of you falling asleep on the couch yesterday. The TV was still running when you decided to get up and make yourself breakfast. 

The second you unlock your phone, you are bombarded with posts of couples enjoying Valentine's Day together.  

Letting out an annoyed huff, you throw your phone on the couch and decide to take a shower, wanting to escape all that valentines crap for a bit. 

Afterwards, you felt way more refreshed and optimistic for the day. So you decided to throw on some of your favourite jeans and your most flattering top and head outside to the centre of Monaco. 

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You spend your whole day wandering through Monaco, strolling through a few shops and taking a few breaks in some cafes. And even though you were still a bit mad at Lando, an addition to Lando's Valentine's present made its way into your bag. 

Your mood improved gradually throughout the day, but not hearing anything from Lando made it hard to stay positive. You texted him, "goodmorning ❤️" to show him you were not ignoring or mad at him. 

He reacted to your message, but it has been complete silence since then. You thought that maybe he was too busy, as he told you that today would be the media day, but not hearing anything from him hurt you were not going to lie.

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And you were indeed correct in your assumption. Lando was incredibly busy today but not giving interviews and making content. No, he tried to convince Zak to let him fly home earlier today so he could spend some more time with you. 

"Oh, come on. Please Zak, I'm done with all my stuff, for what do you even need me here?" Lando begged his boss, quite desperate to let him fly home. 

Zak looked at him with a slightly tired expression. "Do you really have to fly home. I mean it's just Valentine's day."

Lando tried to put on his best puppy dog eyes. "It's really important for Y/N. I can't do that to her." 

That seemed to do the trick, as Lando is currently on a plane home to Monaco. He spent the whole flight on his phone, trying to make the time go by faster. A smile made its way onto his face when he saw you posted a photo of you sitting in one of your favourite cafes, enjoying the sun.

He felt so incredibly guilty after your call yesterday, already forming a plan for how he can make it up to you.

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The second he touched the ground again, he immediately rushed to your favourite florist to get you the biggest bouquet of sunflowers he could find. 

The friendly old lady who runs the shop smiles as she sees Lando entering. You also visited her today, telling her your dilemma while buying a bouquet of pink tulips. 

So seeing Lando buying your favourite flowers made her happy for you, knowing you weren't spending the day alone anymore. 

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You just came home from your trip, putting the flowers you bought in a vase and starting to make yourself some dinner. 

You were about to start eating when you heard the doorbell ring. Confused, you make your way to the front door. Looking through your peephole, you rip the door open in excitement.  

You couldn't believe your eyes when you saw your boyfriend standing before you. Well, you could barely see him between all those sunflowers. But what you could see. Was his adorable smile while he held a pink sign saying, "Be my valentine?" 

Rushing over to him, you tackled him in the biggest teddybear-hug, burying your face in his neck. 

"Hi baby." Kissing your head, Lando wraps one arm around you, squeezing you tight. 

"How-when, why are you here?" 

Chuckling slightly at your confusion, Lando answers, "Well I couldn't leave my girl alone on Valentine's now, can I? Besides, Zak couldn't withstand my puppy-dog-eyes." 

Laughing, you tilt your head, giving Lando a loving kiss while murmuring a sincere "I love you" against his lips.

"Mhm, I love you too, baby."  

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After standing in your hallway like two teenagers, you ushered Lando inside, not letting go of his hand, wanting to have him near you all the time.  

You were now cuddling on the couch, your wrist decorated with a new bracelet, a sparkling "L" adorning its front. 

Lando broke the comfortable silence you two were basking in, "You didn't answer my question from earlier." 

You look up at him, confused. "What do you mean?" 

Wrapping his arms tighter around you, he says, "Will you be my Valentine?" 

Laughing, you take his face to kiss him, "Yes, Lando, I'd love to be your Valentine." 

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[ldrfanatic]

i love you

part two of the breakup series

i'm really digging this y'all, sorry not sorry

one two

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song listened to while writing - i love you, i'm sorry by gracie abrahams

"why am i always in the wrong?!"

you pinched the bridge of your nose between you index finger and thumb, desperately clinging to whatever semblance of sanity you had left. after deciding to go back to being friends, you and theo had been butting heads for weeks.

admittedly, he wasn't the only one fucking this thing up, but he continued to act as though nothing had happened. he repeatedly crossed decidedly not friendly boundaries and acted like an overprotective boyfriend.

but he wasn't your boyfriend anymore. and you were starting to get tired of reminding him of that.

"i can't do this with you."

the finality of your tone seemed to dissolve theo's anger nearly instantly.

"w-what?"

"i said we could talk, we did. it was a beneficial conversation. but i set boundaries with you, theo. boundaries you've blatantly ignored. how can we be a good couple if we can't even be good friends?"

"but I don't want to lose you."

you looked at your ex-boyfriend, your best friend really, with a torn look.

"that's just the way life goes." you gathered your things into your arms and headed towards the door. you lingered in the archway, turning over your shoulder to blow theo a tearful kiss. "i love you, i'm sorry."

-=-

theodore nott had no idea what to do. now that he was officially without you, it seemed like he was just spectating life. nothing felt real.

after a few weeks, you'd gotten to the point where you would talk and even joke occasionally, but only in public settings. theo tried not to push his luck with it. he was fortunate that you would even look at him after what he did.

instead, theo did his best to push his emotions away. he tried to drink them away at first, but once you heard, you immediately cut contact with him until he promised to drink only when he was in a good headspace.

everywhere he went he'd slip up with an inside joke or a code that only the two of you knew. even mattheo had started to flash him rather pitying looks.

finally, after a grueling charms lesson, theo had worked up enough courage to talk to you before lunch began.

"Y/n."

you graced him with a smile that would've made him feel better. that is, if it had reached your eyes enough to be considered a genuine smile. after three years of dating, no one could detect one of your fake smiles like theodore.

"yeah theodore?"

you'd finally stopped calling him nott but theodore wasn't much better if he was being honest.

"i just wanted to apologize. i know i wasn't at my best when we were-"

your voice interrupted him.

"you were the best. you were also the worst."

"i know. i was a dick, it is what it is. it's a habit i need to kick."

"age old curse."

theo took a few steps closer, and gently grasped your hand when you didn't step away.

"i just want to make amends. lately it seems like shit is never-ending. but i needed you to know that how everything ended, everything that went down between us, it haunts me."

"it's okay theodore. we're friends now."

you smiled and gave his hand a squeeze. it may not have been completely genuine, but it was a healing smile. you were healing. and who was theo to disrupt that? loving you and wanting you to be happy had to also include stepping back and letting you be happy even if it had to be without him, right?

"right. friends."

theo wanted to be more than friends. way more than friends.

-=-

"i'm wrong again."

"what?"

pansy looked up from her potions textbook as you stomped into the dorm room and plopped face down onto the bed.

"i slammed the door closed on theo earlier. whatever might have been is definitely never going to happen now."

"i thought you didn't want anything more to happen?"

you had to curse your best friend for being so accurate all the damn time. did she always have to be right? your voice was muffled as it sounded from the other side of the room.

"i thought so too. but, i can't get him out of my head."

pansy placed a spare piece of parchment in her book, and closed it, clearly resigned that she wouldn't be getting any work done tonight. instead, she perched on the edge of the bed and rubbed your back soothingly.

"that's normal. you guys dated for over three years."

"but this is different. what if he's my soulmate?"

your eyes welled up.

"then he'll come back to you."

-=-

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[natriae]

nsfw, Atsumu for t, i, & z 😖💗

ofc baby <33 reading back on my other tsumu one can yall tell im dyslexic lol :/

T: Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

i think at first toys aren't a thing he uses. I don't think he thinks about them a lot until you bring it up. I do think he would be so cocky (haha pun) about his cock. Like instead of just getting you a normal dildo the mf got you a custom made dildo THAT'S A MOLD OF HIS COCK. (he demands videos)

I: Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

For tsumu it depends on the moment. We saw how he cries when someone is really loving to him (manga/anime) so i completely headcanon that when he is deep in his head and his emotions are everywhere he loves having sex as a way to show his love. He will hold you so tight and keep you close. He loves eye contact too that's extremely necessary. Whn he's close to you body and looking deep in your eyes he can't help but tear up a bit because he just can't believe someone loves him this much. For the romantic aspect he loves surpising you for special holidays like Valentines day i'm talking cliche shit. He'd be laying on y'all's bed in nothing but a rose in his mouth and candles all over the room because it's "sexy"

Z: ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

this man is knocked out after sex. He basically gets the zoomies while yall have sex and then once the high is over he's so fucking tired lmao. This ties into his aftercare....yeah good luck getting some aftercare with him most times.( ofc he'd do it if you brought it up to him cuz hes a cry baby and doesn't want you mad at him) You could literally not be able to move and call out to him and all you hear a snores cuz man is gone.

[chaotic-on-main]

Who Could Leave Me? | ModernAU One-Shot

☾ Pairings ➼ Levi Ackerman x gn!Reader

☾ Content/Warnings ➼ angst, death, funeral, depression, if you squint really hard there's comfort? but mainly all hurt, alcohol mentions

☾ Author's note ➼ I'm actively going through my abandonment triggers and what better way to explore my emotions than to write about it. Betrayal, being left behind. They're the same thing to my ill brain. Anyways, I'm so sorry for the hurt I'm about to spring on y'all but I hope you'll forgive me. Now, back to my summer commissions and UW!

☾ Word Count ➼ ~2.5k

☾ Songs I listened to while writing:

Betrayal was nothing new to you. Being left behind was just the same. But when you’re left behind and betrayed at the same time, that’s a whole new feeling. Especially when it came from someone you trusted.

But it wasn’t your fault, was it?

Your name floats by in a whisper, a voice you know all too well.

You wake up with a start and a pounding headache. The autumnal sunrise filters through your sheer curtains in light blue hues, illuminating the room enough to see the outlines of the mess around you. You’re on your stomach, face half buried in a pillow with your arm splayed out on the other side of the bed. Your fingers curl up in the empty space.

Oh, yeah.

Maybe if you go back to sleep, you’ll wake up and everything will make sense again, you tell yourself.

What a stupid thought, you tell yourself.

Rolling onto your back, you stare up at the dark ceiling. It didn’t matter how much you tried to slow time down, today came anyway. You weren’t ready. So, you stay in bed until the blue turns into oranges and finally yellows.

What time was it anyways? Then again, why did it matter? You didn’t care.

“Love?” You hear whispered from the other side of your door. It’s Hange, a mutual friend you met a while back. They stayed over last night no doubt to make sure you didn’t drink yourself into oblivion. It didn’t work, but you vaguely remember them checking in on you every hour, so you imagine that was enough for them.

They knock softly against the wood.

“I’m going to step out to get some preparations ready. I’ll be back in a couple hours to pick you up. Try to be ready by then, okay?” You turn your head at their voice and spot their shadow in the slit of the door. After a minute of silence from you, the shadow slips away. The sound of the front door closing reverberates through the house and then it’s silent again.

The hours that proceeded were spent in a catatonic state. Your wide eyes stayed glued to the ceiling, not a single thought floating by. You suppose that wasn’t a bad thing. You’re not sure how long it had been, but another soft knock echoes through your room eventually.

“You’re still in bed, aren’t you?” It’s Hange again. They sound tired. “I’m coming in.”

You roll on your side so you’re facing your friend as they step into your room with a squeak of the door. An onyx pantsuit drapes over Hange’s tall frame, their rectangular spectacles glinting off the only source of light in the room – the afternoon sun.

 “I knew you’d have trouble getting up.” They make their way over to you. Grabbing your blankets, they pull it all the back so that you’re exposed to the chill in the room. It makes you groan in displeasure, but you let it happen anyways.

They pull you out of bed with a ��hup!’ and lead you into the connected bathroom, you follow with shuffling feet. Despite the sun being out and being under baggy long sleeves, the air is still cold so goosebumps pop up everywhere along your arms and legs.

They release your arm, leaving you in the middle of the bathroom as they zoom around you. The bath faucet is on in mere seconds and as the tub fills, they grab a few towels from the linen closet.

It’s weird because you watch all of this happening but for some reason, none of it is comprehending in your brain. It’s all a blur as they strip you down, lead you to the bath, and help you in. Before you know it, you’re half sunken and leaning all the way back, only your nose and up sits above the steamy water.

“You know, Levi had to help me with this in college, too.” Hange whispers behind you as they massage shampoo into your hair. It smells like roses. You hum back softly, not really sure how to respond.

Levi’s name doesn’t hurt you as much as you thought it would, but you’re not certain if that’s a good or bad thing. Everything feels numb, even the hot water that felt like it should be stinging against your skin.

“It kind of feels like the passing of torches, you know?” They chuckle quietly at the nostalgia.

The rest of the bath passes by. Rinsing off when asked, getting out when told, holding still when Hange dried you gently with a towel. Staying when Hange tells you to wait as they go grab the clothes that they had set out for you to wear today. You were a robot awaiting orders and nothing else.

Hange adorns your body with a simple long sleeve black dress. It goes down to your knees and the rest is covered by fleece leggings and warm socks. Eventually, they drag you out to the bedroom and sit you down while they lace up your boots. This is all done in silence, though you don’t miss the looks Hange gives you.

They’re the same looks that everyone has given you since the incident. Like you’re fragile and ready to break at any time. Though, you guess you can’t fault them for that. Your actions the last few weeks haven’t told otherwise.

“Hey,” Hange whispers down to you, and you shift your gaze up to their light brown eyes, full of sadness. “Did you…?” They hold out a ring to you.

It’s simple. Silver, studded with a handful of diamonds. You can’t see it, but engraved on the inside is the word ‘yours’ in Levi’s neat handwriting. A wedding band.

You reach out hesitantly, hand shaking as you take it as if you were afraid it might crumble on contact. With those same shaky fingers, you slip it on your left ring finger. It had been a bit since you last wore it, but like a bike you find familiarity with it again. Only this time, it feels heavier than ever.

“Are you ready to go?” Hange holds their hand out to you with a small smile.

.

It starts raining as soon as you both leave the house, heavy clouds eclipsing the sun for the rest of the day. Perfect for a funeral.

Outside of the warm tent, gentle but cold raindrops splash on the trees above and trickle down to the white plastic and onto the muddy ground. With the overcast of stormy clouds, the day is cold. It’s almost fitting, like a movie you’ve seen a million times. And you were the main character. It would make you laugh if you weren’t so drained.

As they call your name to wrap the service up with a eulogy, you feel your heartbeat quicken. You had requested to have it last as it was a job put on you and you wanted to push it off as much as possible. But your pulse racing isn’t from nerves, it’s from anger. Sadness. Frustration. Like a fissure in a dam, realization comes to you.

You can’t do this. How could he do this to you?

Your feet are running before you know it. Out the tent and up the hill into the enclosure of the forest that lines the cemetery. You don’t stop until you feel someone grabbing your wrist tightly and holding you back. It’s a strong grip from a warm hand.

“Le-?” You turn around and almost slip on the leaf littered floor.

Standing in front of you is a man about a foot taller, blond undercut and misty blue eyes that stare hard at you. Erwin Smith, Levi’s closest friend – Levi would always deny being called best friends, something you always teased him with.

“You can’t keep hiding and running from the truth.” He says gently. Downturned eyes and a frown to match, he gives you the same look everyone else is giving.

“Stop looking at me like that.” These are the first words you’ve said aloud in a few weeks. Your voice comes out scratchy and it hurts.

“Like what?”

“Like I’m just going to break down at a drop of a hat.”

“Maybe you need to. Have you even cried yet?”

“I don’t want to cry.”

“Maybe you should.”

You narrow your eyes at him. You haven’t seen him in about a month, but he was always a good confidant so to say that your high walls weren’t about to crumble down would be a lie. That fissure is growing with every second he stares at you.

“Erwin, why are you here?”

“I’m here to celebrate the life of my friend, same as everyone else. We’re all upset, too. We need you just as much as you need us.” His grip tightens on you. The rain is coming down harder and you start feeling the cold seep through your clothes and into your bones. You notice Erwin’s usual combed back hair is now in his face, dripping water into his eyes.  

There’s silence as you try to figure out what to say. That was the problem, wasn’t it? Your eulogy sits half finished on your dresser because you had no idea what to say.

What was even appropriate for others to hear? What would be selfish and what wouldn’t be? You suppose it’s all considerably selfish. The one who could call you out on your shit effectively isn’t here.

A low roll of thunder rumbles from above as you face off with him.

“There’s nothing to celebrate.” You mumble.

“You don’t me-“

“He’s not here, Erwin! He left me!” You feel your voice rising with every syllable. He opens his mouth to say something else but now that you’ve found your voice, you can’t stop the word vomit.

“He chose to go back into that building because of who he is. And I hate him for it! How could he do that to me?? Didn’t he think about me?” A sob racks in your chest, and it takes a moment to catch your breath so as to not choke. The water streaming down your face turns warm and you can practically taste the salt of your more-than-late tears as you continue on.

“What it would mean for him leaving me? Nothing feels right anymore, nothing feels like home because he was my home. He promised he’d be around for as long as I wanted him. But I still want him!” Erwin pulls you into his chest and holds you close as you start sobbing harder. They rip out of your throat just like the words you shout, voice becoming hoarse with every line. You don’t fight his vice grip. But you don’t stop either.

“I said I would always follow his lead. But why did he have to go somewhere where I can’t follow. He left me behind. He said he never would and he did it anyway. I hate him so much. I hate him for making me love him and then leaving me like this. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.” You trail off, losing yourself in the cries of your pain. Everything hurts as you shake - the only thing holding you together is Erwin’s tight embrace.

The rain pours around you two as you continue to weep into Erwin’s drenched suit. He doesn’t say anything, only placing his hand on top of your head and holding you closer.  

“I don’t know what I could say to help, truthfully. But I know that Levi wouldn’t ever want you to feel this way.” He says finally, his voice rumbling deep in his chest. “Terrible things happen, and they can’t be explained. But it’s no one’s fault, not even his. It’s easy to point the blame, but sometimes there isn't anything to blame.”

“That’s not good enough, Erwin.” You mutter in between hitched breaths.

“I know, especially not now. But it will get easier. You need to be more patient with yourself. And be kind.” He whispers down to you, a hand rubbing up and down your back as he talks.

Erwin stays with you until you can breathe again. He offered to take over the eulogy for you, which you gladly accepted. You didn’t even show up to the rest of the funeral, instead opting to sit in Hange’s car until they came for you and drove you home in silence.

.

A few weeks had passed since Levi’s service. At Erwin’s request, you had been more patient with yourself in that time. Of course, none of it was easier - but you weren’t running anymore. With shaky resolve, you were able to bring yourself down to the cemetery.

You twist your wedding band in between two fingers as you walk down the path to where your late husband rests. Your heart feels like it’s about to explode in anticipation. You hadn’t seen the tombstone that Hange helped pick out, so when your eyes finally fall on it, it’s enough to make you stop in your tracks.

Levi Ackerman

Dec. 25th 1983 – Oct. 17th 2023

“The only thing we’re allowed to do is believe that we won’t regret the choice we made.”

He often said to live your life with no regrets. The thing that has been gnawing at you finally comes to you in a new light. Levi wasn’t the type to do anything without thinking. He knew the risks, and you knew the risks of loving him.

Your feet stumble over the soft grass, and you lean down to place a small bouquet of flowers onto the fresh dirt. There’s a layer of permafrost from this morning, just barely starting to melt. Today is warm with the sun out, but that doesn’t stop the fog of breath that comes out with every spoken word.

“I’m sorry for everything I said, Levi. I’m not mad anymore. I just miss you so much.” You sit yourself down carefully, facing the tombstone.

There’s no answer, of course. The only thing you hear is the whistling of the cold wind blowing through the almost empty trees that came with this time of year. You tuck your chin into the scarf wrapped around your neck. It still smells like Levi – clean laundry and pine.

“I don’t want to be here if you’re not. I see you everywhere.” Your words start to choke again. The day of the funeral made that dam within you break open and since then, you find yourself to be more vulnerable. More fragile, like everyone expected. “And I can’t pretend that it’s okay when it’s not. But I’ll try for you, because I know that’s what you’d want.” You whisper, silent tears streaking down your face into the scarf as you shudder.

“I love you. And I will see you again.”

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[thoughtfulbearpanda]

Halle Bailey Reading

Hey, so I normally don't do this but for some reason I keep seeing Halle and her baby daddy everywhere. I don't follow either of them but they keep appearing on my IG feed for some reason. So I thought maybe this is a sign from the Universe to do a pull for her, to see what's going on so here you go.

**THIS IS FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY. NOTHING SHOULD BE TAKEN AS FACTUAL**

GENERAL PUBLIC'S CURRENT FEELINGS ON HALLE BAILEY -> 4 of wands, page of pentacles rx, knight of pentacles rx, 7 of cups, judgement rx [4 of swords]

So what I think the general public's feelings towards Halle is bit of a mixed bag. On the one hand, there this sense of joy and celebration for her and regarding her. With the 4 of wands here, there are those who are genuinely happy for her and her baby, and they wish all the best of luck for her new family. She will always be seen as Our Ariel, Our Black Little Mermaid, etc. She is that representation for a lot of people and there will always be a sense of appreciation for her from this role.

But I think for the most part, people are starting to grow tired if her and her antics. Judgement rx gives me the impression that there poor impression of her that is steadily increasing. People are starting to see past the cracks of this angelic persona that she managed to cultivate for herself throughout her career. I think last year's shenanigans have really opened up everyone's eyes to her true character. The rose colored glasses have been removed and everyone is starting to see past the illusion. With the knight of pentacles and the page pentacles coming out in the reverse, people feel as though she dimming her shine, particularly for her partner. People may feel as though she basing her brand around her relationship and now her baby; and people may see this action as 'trashy' and 'childish'.

Halle, to some folks, has become a bit cliche if that makes sense. Like they know her antics by now (i.e Snapchat posts etc.) and they're tired. The four of swords rx at the bottom of deck is the overall energy. People have a reached a 'burnout' mentality regarding her, and some may have started to draw their support from her.

FEBRUARY 2024 -> 8 of pentacles, ace of pentacles rx, 6 of pentacles, knight of swords rx, 9 of swords rx [judgement rx]

Overall I think the month of February is not going to be a particularly good month for her. There are a lot of pentacles here so most of this month will be about money. With the ace of pentacles rx, Halle may be losing money this month. Coupled with the 6 of pentacles, she could end up losing business contracts or business deals being terminated, not falling through. Someone may end up stealing. money from her, since we do have a knight of swords rx here as well which talks about conflict, deceitful etc. This knight of swords rx could be someone close to her.

The 9 of swords rx also indicates mental exhaustion, turmoil, despair. So something may happen to Halle this month that will just leave her broken mentally and emotionally. There is something about 'failure to learn lesson'. So if there was a lesson that Halle has neglected to learn, it's going to hit her full force and leave her in this broken state. This is going to cause her to be in a state of self-loathing, self-doubt. I'm getting her asking herself, 'Why didn't see this coming sooner?', 'Why did I ignore the signs?', 'I should have listened.'

With the 8 of pentacles, Halle may be working on her music this month. She could find some solace in her music despite the financial, emotional, and mental troubles she may find herself in.

So yeah, this is all I have. I have no intentions of making this habit, regarding Halle in particular. I've done readings on her before and just left me with countless headaches so, hope y'all enjoyed this mini reading!

Stay safe, stay blessed!

Asé

[dani-the-goblin]

WIP WEDNESDAY

Tagged by @streetkid-named-desire

Oh boy have I been working on a lot...

1. Organizing already existing photostories! I like making them in separate posts, so there's gonna be hyperlinks everywhere.

2. MORE PHOTOSTORIES! Currently in progress are: a bit o' Twiggy backstory that wasn't covered in the Daisy Document, Tire Swing date night, Criminal Kiss date night, and Giah's continued mental breakdown that y'all actually already got a sneak peek of last week!!

3. Part X: Level of the Devil. It's gonna be a longfic, everybody!!! I'm very, very excited. Some of my recent VP has actually been either scenes I'm planning on writing or happening parallel to it. 😁

Sneaky peeks below the cut ♥️

I'm suddenly sensing a theme in the Twiggy puzzles 😂

Chapter 1: Paris

Ah, fuck. Well, guess I have an audience now.

V looked to her family. Joss had hesitantly picked up V's camera. She watched Twiggy fumble with his phone before holding it up with a smirk.

“Y'all are gonna wanna see this” she read on his lips, just too quiet to hear over the ringing in her ears. Joss nudged her own over to him to hold up in his other hand.

Chapter 4ish? : Title TBD

“You know that… right?” Her voice raised.

“Right, ‘course,” he turned slowly and leaned, almost falling, onto the wall. His eyes flickered back and forth as if searching for an emotion.

“It's okay if you don't want it.”

“What do you want?” Twiggy looked up at her.

[sweetswesf]

Update

Hey Fam,

Still grinding and hoping to bring y'all good news soon. My friend/ex-colleague/neighbor who I've been on this unemployment journey with and checking in w/finally got a job. Shout out to her. I knew she would get one before me, and she got a GOOD one. Like...one I have been praying to be at. I was of course happy for her, but it did get me a little sad. I have been working really hard and I feel really far from my goal. I know I shouldn't compare, but I often feel like things take me a super long time. I'm already meeting with my old tech mentor once a week for an hour, doing practice interviews with others for another 2.5 hours a week, getting advice from engineers everywhere, attending 2-hour engineering sessions twice a week, in addition to coding/interview prepping about 6 - 10 hours a day by myself. I know I am operating on God's timing, but I just hope that I'm moving at a pace He wants me to. I am getting better at a lot of these concepts, but I feel like there is still so much I don't know. Every day it feels like I'm adding on to what I need to study. I just need to be patient and keep trying my best.

He reminds us not to be envious of others. I don't want what she wants, I want my own role, I just happen to want to be at the same company, in a similar role, and at this time. I know He has the perfect job for me.  I just am really tired and thought about how sweet her relief is right now. It's been almost 9 months since we were let go and it's been a grind all those 9 months. 9 months of no vacation planning. 9 months of spending much lower than I used to. 9 months of thinking about finances in a somewhat unhealthy way. I've learned a ton. I can cook for myself. I work out more. I'm more frugal. I pray more often. I no longer care about my appearance much or materials that I was DYING to have even months ago. Day in & day out though, it's me problem solving for hours, exhausted in the gym, always cooking & cleaning something with no car. I don't remember the last day I went without crying. Sometimes, I cry so much that I disassociate to the point where I don't even realize I'm crying. Then I snap back into my body and tears are just rolling down my cheeks. I'm grateful I have the ability & funds to do all of these things independently. A lot of people don't.

I've been through a lot. During this time I've even lost another grandparent and another family member's life support. I tried to make my grandfather's funeral and my flight and all the flights that would have gotten me there on time were canceled. My mom is about to move hours away from my hometown to live with her sister that I don't get along with. Makes me feel like I won't even be able to see her because of this and because she rarely ever visits me here. I've been given so much grace and care during this journey though. I need to appreciate what I have but I really want to know if I'm moving at the pace I should. I decided to push out the interviews of the companies I really want to be at so that I can make sure I'm really prepared for them, but will I get there in a reasonable amount of time? Reasonable as in, will I run out all of my savings? I cried. I felt bad for crying because I'm happy for her and I know my blessing is on the way. It was SUCH a mix of emotions. And I knew I wouldn't feel good if she got her role before me. And this is no diss to her. She deserves it. She's been working hard. But I have too. Sometimes when I'm doing the same thing as another person and they do better or go faster than me, which is often the case, especially when I am already giving it everything I have, I feel like there's something wrong with me. I shouldn't feel that. She's had a career slightly longer than mine, but not by much. We're battling different things and God is using us in different ways. I even started thinking, "Well damn, I know I'm living in a more Christian way than her," but that's not how God determines when and how to bless people.

I used it as fuel to work on some hard problems today, and I got a lot done. I even scoped out some more material I want to focus on that will hopefully set me apart in the future. I know timing is up to God and I have to sacrifice my timeline and trust that He's got me and has a great life planned for me. It just feels like I've been on a long streak of "bad news" in a sense? Like, fresh out of college, I didn't get the job I wanted due to racism and ended up interning in Jersey City. I was promised a full time role and they ended up rescinding it and sending me on contract to BUFFALO. Then I moved to the Bay Area and as soon as I got here, my grandmother passed, my parents got divorced, and I landed on the racist team that rejected me. I did get into tech, but I constantly faced racism and bullying there, had vision and roommate issues, and stayed stagnant in my role and salary for YEARS. I did get into a bootcamp and apprenticeship as I dreamed, but I never got the training that I needed and asked for. I didn't even know what I didn't know. I was WAYY below my level technically. Pandemic happened. I had such bad managers and teammates. I couldn't go home because my family was being unsafe, confrontational, and didn't make me feel welcomed. I moved to New York and had the WORST landlord and ended up getting sexually assaulted. I got covid on my 29th bday and celebrated it alone in a hospital bed. I was REALLY close to getting a promotion that was overdue by like 3 years and then I got let go. I've had so many heartbreaks from family, friends, and stupid boys in between and I'm just tired. A lot of good has happened and I have to appreciate that, but man...I'm VERY tired. I know I've grown tremendously and have gotten to do some amazing things and everything happens for a reason but...I'm just tired. That's it. I shouldn't get weary in well doing.

Sometimes the bad is more memorable and easier to harp on because it hits us harder. I know I'm not immune to bad days/bad times and God is putting me through it for my good, but I want to know if this is normal or if these things keep happening because I am causing these things by my actions or mindset. Sometimes I just feel like most people don't go through this. Sometimes, I wish I could just focus on working hard at my job, exercising, eating well, spending frugally, giving generously, investing in myself and the things & people I care about,, praising the Lord, etc. I don't bring drama to no one. I feel like I'm a great friend. I don't want to be at a company I don't want to be at, but will that be God's plan for me. God's plan has often not been my plan, but I have to learn to accept it with open arms and trust that it's for my good. It's just hurt. Will my next decade be full of tears and hard times like this past decade has been? Maybe I need to change my attitude around it all. I pray for that too. It feels like I am often paranoid that something bad will happen given how it feels like such bad news back to back, but I should be hopeful the future. I need to instead assume it's all good in the future and that when bad comes, I'm equipped to handle it. It's okay to admit fatigue, I've heard from pastors. Rejection is simply redirection and delay is God's protection. I just get caught up in thinking if the delay is because I'm not ready. To which, I constantly respond to with, "I'm trying my BEST!" Why does it seem like my best is so much lower than my peers/where I think it should be?

One thing about this "delay" is that I'm learning a lot of system design concepts that I think will make a HUGE difference in my interview score since my score won't be only based on coding and especially now since I'm being considered for Senior roles more and more often. Thank God. Another thing to be so proud of. This is all things I NEEDED to learn. And I need to stop trying to copy every little thing down. It's inefficient. There's just simply not enough time. I need to humble myself and recognize that. Hopefully through highlighting, quizzing and reviewing, I can get retain it.

I'm not going to give up and I hope you don't. I know I'll regret complaining about fatigue when I get an awesome role, and just the thought of even sounding just a little ungrateful doesn't feel great. i don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I just want a relief of some sort. Whatever journey you are on, or unanswered prayers you have, just keep believing in Him, know that you're not alone and that your breakthrough is coming soon...

[thetiredapprentice]

...

[br4influids]

How the Obey Me brothers would react to me.

So I'm going to go ahead and put y'all in my shoes. I'm a chronically ill 16 year old, I've been diagnosed with Autism ADHD and generalized anxiety disorder. I tend to trust the wrong people like with my life. I struggle with bone marrow failure resulting in a lot of fainting but like while i'm still conscious I just can't see... or stand. Alright.

You arrived in the Devildom and you're absolutely terrified, like scared shitless. You're shaking and they can 1000% smell your fear. But you power through it and speak to these odd demons.

Lucifer:

Man thinks he got the wrong human.

This human is going to get killed. They just asked no questions and followed a demon home.

After a while he gets to know your personality and loves your dark humor.

He WILL let you follow him around like a lost puppy, you follow directions way better than any of his brothers.

He loves that he only has to scold you once and you'll never do it again. (He doesn't realize thats only because you're terrified)

This man is always watching you. These awful demons would love to take advantage of your blind trust.

Lucifer learns what situations you're okay in and when he needs to step in and help.

He would make sure you got all your meds on time.

Mammon:

He's probably laughing at this stupid, weak human at first.

He starts talking to you and realizes you're kinda cool... I mean no you're not. (Little tsunedere boy)

He would not leave you alone

Yes, you can follow me again. BUT it's only because I was trusted to watch you.

He'd randomly burst into your room only to find the countless pill bottles on your bedframe. He'd freak out and ask you about them so you explained your "wonderful" disease to him.

Man is watching you even closer now.

Bitch if you pass out in front of him and say your normal "I'm alright" line to him he'd be like WTF YOU'RE NOT "ALRIGHT"

The man loves you.

Levi:

Hey, you're not a normie? You watch anime and stream on Twitch.tv???????

Y'all are binging anime 24/7 and playing fucking Turnip Boy Commits Tax Evasion while streaming together.

His room is an actual sensory heaven

(I cant think of much more for Levi)

Asmodeus:

OMG YOU'RE SO CUTE AND QUIET LIKE A MOUSE

he loves the fact that you do absolutely nothing to stop him when he hugs you, you just kinda stand there and accept it.

He'll pamper you

He'll brush your curly short hair and style it.

Days you're in pain or too fatuiged to move you're getting special treatment. Hes giving you a warm melatonin bath, hes taking care of your hair and skin. he's giving you his most comfortable silk pyjamas.

Throwing pill bottles at you when you need them, he keeps them in his purse for you.

Hes dragging you around everywhere with him because he knows you have separation anxiety. And when you're out with him hes not letting go of your hand.

Satan:

He's done research on all your diagnosis' and medications.

He's ready to be the one to remind you about your meds.

Satan is the one to get called when you fucking fall over and basically pass out.

Oh, you like reading? Whats your favorite book?

He'll read you to sleep on the nights you can't sleep.

You're struggling to write an essay because its all about emotions which you can't explain? He's got your back.

He's ready to have a debate with the teacher to get you out of a presentation.

If you like cats just as much as he does you're going to get an emotional support cat for the house.

Oh, someone tried to take advantage of you? I'll be right back :)

Beel:

Why does this human keep forgetting to eat?

You're tired? I can carry you the rest of the way.

Excercise raises Dopamine levels, come work out with me!

You pass out he'll probably offer you food.

You're scared of the other demons? He'll keep them away from you :)

He's going to protect you from any anxiety triggers

Belphie:

Humans don't normally sleep this much right?

You explain your illness and he's helping you sleep on nights that you can't.

Belphie will set reminders on your D.D.D. to remind you to take your meds.

He'll hold your hand when out in public and try to shield you from any unwanted attention.

He is a little worried about how quickly your trust built with him even after he killed you. So he's sticking by your side at all times.

[catcatb0y]

I lied about taking back that vent post, do I really need to unfollow all of the BakuDeku and HeroAca blogs I have just to not hear "Bakugou is dead" five times in one sitting?

Like I'm starting to get tired of the 'He's not even dead' ones because it's just everywhere.

Post-leak mania, fine, but now? Seriously? What kind of fucking manga are you guys reading? Y'all have THAT LITTLE faith in Horikoshi?? After literal years of joking about how much of a simp they are, years of meta and anyalysis about Bakugou and the tropes he contributes to, access to every and any Shounen series ever like???

Aizawa cut off his own fucking leg. Miruko lost an arm AND a leg. Midoriya broke all of his bones so many fucking times AND used one million (or some thousand) percent of his power.

It's not even about 'curarting your own experience' anymore, because everyone is doing it. You didn't post about it yesterday? Well, it's being posted about today. Haven't talked about leaks in months? Talking about leaks now. Don't like angstposting? Angstposting.

At this point I want him to die so that he stops suffering again and again. So that you guys can shut up and this series will finally dissolve all of the last bits of joy I feel from it so I can unfollow you all and sit in the void.

Death is already a reoccuring thing in my life irl, and I really don't need it from fandom right now, so like? I dunno block me or something lmao. Blacklisting the tag doesn't work or help, I've already unfollowed a dozen people, like I've started blocking people ffs.

I want to follow Bakugou-centric (or just Bakugou enjoying) blogs in general because I like his character. I want to interact with people who like and care about him, but god fucking seriously?

Go pick up AoT where Erin LITERALLY DIES in episode, like, three or something. Bleach where Ichigo spent three days in a hole trying not to become a Hollow and failing. Naruto where Sasuke got stabbed a bunch of times by literal shards of glass. (And those are JUST the early game deaths)

"Overcoming death" is literally just a popular Shounen trope- and that's not even counting 'gets maimed horribly and beyone compare, but comes out scott free' like??? People have literally been OVER THE MOON about the fact that Midoriya!!! Has scars!!! Because Shounen is so notoriously awful at showcasing the results of Heroes' mistakes. Even then, the series still uses the same 'ohohoho they are dying horribly!!1' trope all the time.

Not only are y'all not reading any other series, but, hell, you're not even reading THIS series. Like I followed people for their deep and insightful takes, for their understanding of the characters at hand... Where did all that go?

Even if he does die like???

What fucking themes are left???

'Save to Win, Win to Save'? One of the biggest themes Gone.

'Society creates Villains just as it creates Heroes'? Still there, I guess, but Bakugou's addition to that narrative was huge- a supposedly "villainous" kid rejecting villainy?

'You're worth more than your power'? Bakugou is one of the only people who saw Midoriya's worth BEFORE he got his power. He's also one of the only people (save Aizawa) who has acknowledged and pointed out Midoriya's recklessness and his self sacrificing tendencies.

'Heroes need to work together'? Bakugou is still one of the only people that Midoriya has actually fought side by side with other than the Stain Arc. Bakugou was the person who said "Don't go playing Hero on your own." (He's also one of the biggest showcases (bleh) in how Hero Society fails at teamwork- every time he has

Is it really a coincidence that his biggest win was a 'complete victory' that came from him working with his team? Him pushing Jirou out of the way during the 1A/1B showdown? How everyone pointed out his growth, and how he inspired the rest of the class?

During the Provisional License Exam he and Todoroki both failed (because they let their emotions get in the way of their Heroism), but remember what Aizawa said? About how Midoriya and Bakugou inspire the rest of the class to do better?

Especially now with the parallel to the Second User- WHY would they be using foreshadowing and parallels if he's gonna die? What the fuck would be the purpose??

"If all you see is your strength, then you won't be able to acknowledge your own weakness."

[ganon-binary]

Overwatch Heroes Ranking & Honest Opinions part 2

Part 2 of my ranking and opinions of the playable characters of Overwatch. This is where things start getting spicier. Parts 1, 3 and 4.

Jamison "Junkrat" Fawkes: 7-/10

Junkrat is a great comedic relief character with a surprisingly deep backstory. I personally am not a fan of his aesthetic, but his voice lines and interactions make up for it. Don't really care for him in game either. 7-/10, not my cup of tea but i can see why people like him.

Lúcio Correia dos Santos: 6/10

Lúcio is a fun character.. but i don't care for him at all. He has a great attitude and his interactions are hilarious, but for some reason I can't bring myself to like him. like with Junkrat, I can see why other people like him. In game he is my least favorite support, but I might be biased bc many Lúcio's have gotten to my nerves and scratched my oh so fragile Widow-main ego. 6/10, maybe i like you in another universe.

[REDACTED]: 3-/10

Oh cowboy, how I love to hate you. In my opinion, Mr. Dave Overwatch here is the most boring and over-rated character in the game and I am so tired of seeing him everywhere. Really not a fan of how favored of a character he is. Really not a fan of how he appears in almost every character's backstory and he seems to be getting even more lore. Really not a fan how he keeps getting skins meanwhile some characters haven't gotten skins in literal years. Really not a fan how he appears in every match I'm in. 3-/10, only redeeming part of him is the fan art.

Mei Ling-Zhou: 8/10

Mei is such a good character. She has a really likeable personality, really sad backstory and really good skins. My one critique of her is how I would like to see more of how big of a huge genius she is. Winston has a lot of these science-y voice lines, so why can't she? Even though she is infamously known as "Satan" in the game, I really don't mind her! 8/10, very cute.

Angela "Mercy" Ziegler: 5/10

There is the good kind of sassy, and then there is the bad. Mercy is the bad kind of sassy. She has so many unnecessarily rude interactions with the other heroes. The official profiles call her nice and caring, and I want to know how much she paid them to make her look good. She is such a mean and bland person, but at least she is pretty to look at! In the game she is very fun! I love her smooth movement abilities. 5/10, no one likes a preacher.

Moira O'Deorain: 10/10

Moira is my favorite character lore and personality wise, there is so much depth to her. Even though she is portrayed as a villain, i truly think she is a good person (though very questionable). Really love her snarky and cold personality, but she can be nice as well. Her design is so cool and I truly don't think they will ever be able to top it. She better appear in OW2 and she better roast the fuck out of the Overwatch characters. In the game she is kinda lack luster but still p fun. 10/10, god is an androgynous lady with a resting bitch face.

Orisa: 9/10

Orisa should be a main character in OW2. The storyline they have been teasing says so. She is a great heroine and I am very much looking forward to her journey to defeat Doomfist, though i expect it to be way more complex than that. She has a really good female omnic design, a centaur with so many refences to Efi's culture. She is really cute and I will never forget the first time I saw her sitting emote. 9/10, she IS the main character.

Fareeha "Pharah" Amari: 8/10

She deserved so much better story wise and fandom treatment wise. She is so much more than Ana's daughter or a love interest in a ship. I honestly cannot believe they scrapped her animated short. Her storyline of wanting to join Overwatch should have been explored more. Hopefully we see her more in OW2. She is very fun to play but I wish her flight felt more smooth. 8/10, once she leaves her nest, it's all over for y'all.

Gabriel "Reaper" Reyes: 10/10

Reaper is SO cool. His backstory, personality and hinted storyline are SO good. His appearance in the halloween comic is one of the highlight of the lore for me. Something about this cool and broody guy sewing costumes and being an extra fashionista is so fun! His dynamic with Widowmaker and Sombra are some of my favorites in the game. His backstory with Soldier is so spicy and totally not mlm. very looking forward to his storyline in OW2. Don't care for his playstyle though. 10/10 this man is perfect.

Reinhardt Wilhelm: 9/10

Ah yes, the himbo. Another character with depth as much as the Mariana Trench. His backstory is really sad, and i have this feeling his storyline in OW2 is going to be sad as well. Don't you dare hurt the GILF, Blizzard! The character arc he went through in "Honor and Glory" put so many other character arcs to shame. His design is very fun though a bit generic. I could never complain about having a Rein in my team.. unless they charge to the enemy team all alone. 9/10, let him show off his muscles.

[wangxuzhao]

✨🌺❣️ your love life in june, 2020 ❣️🌺✨

breathe, relax and choose a seashell to learn about your love life in june 2020 ✨

i hope you all enjoy the reading 👉👈

my photography skills are non-existent 🤡

Group 1: this month will be a time of transition. it is time to walk away from the past, and past relationships, no matter how hard it is. this is definitely the ending of a cycle, and that is never an easy phase.

you might see immediate results when you leave the past behind you. i'm also hearing making peace with yourself.

you will see this results in your work, positively. working on yourself counts as well.

honestly, i don't like to talk about work in love readings, but this is actually good. let your emotions inspire your art and your creativity. let yourself focus more on work or studies because it will pay off. or simply take this time to work on yourself and self care.

i have been hearing this message a lot as well, which is perfectly in line with the venus retrogade. so i can say confidently that this is a true message for many of us. this is a great time to work on self love, as it is the most important. and remember that when you love yourself, love everywhere comes flowing to you.

also very strong water energies on this group for both you and your person!

your angel card says: relationships are being carried to a new level. trust your intuition. take of yourself and others.

i'd really appreciate some feedback ✨

*excuse the bad lighting :(

Group 2: very similar messages to group 1, because as i said this actually is a great time for working on yourself and self love.

i can't sugar-coat this, don't expect movement, progress or communication too much this month. and if you have plans to take a step towards a relationship or a person, it's just not the right time. not sure who needed to see this message. hOWEVER,

this is an amazing opportunity to actually step back and take some time for yourself. you are tired from whatever you were dealing with, for a looong time. and now, you can rest. allow yourself to enjoy the pleasures of life this time, and be lazy. take a nice warm bath, lay down, watch your favourite show, treat yourself a nice dinner. learn something you have been interested in while you have the time.

you are tired darling, you deserve some rest even if it's just from your thoughts or overthinking :( don't be too harsh on yourself, it is perfectly fine to take a break aight 🤧❣️

your angel card says: see what's happening and people in a different perspective. temporary lag. it's important to be yourself!

i'd really appreciate some feedback ✨

Group 3: this is a very simple message.

someone from your past, most likely an ex is coming back into your life.

this person hurt you in the past, and for some of you, they are going to do it again. whoever this person that comes into your life, this. is. not. a healthy relationship. now i don't want to tell you to cut this person off immediately, (i know y'all wouldn't anyway 🤡) but please don't rush into things. most of you already will be patient with it, which is good.

don't give in immeaditely but rather wait for a bit to see if this person changed for the better, or what their true intentions are.

this can be an opportunity for healing, but if you rush into it you might get your heart broken again.

your angel card says: sadness. take time to heal. need to forgive yourself and others.

i'd really appreciate some feedback ✨

[hanniejji]

rules: ship yourself with your favorite character and give headcanons on how your relationship would go

→ tagged by: @bnha-homeroom

→ tagging: @wesparklebitch @bakutae @cellotonin @bnhcs @jojosmilktea

look it's asking for only one character. and it's not specifically asking for a bnha character. you can't expect me to choose one and not feel bad because the others deserve love too gjsbf so i chose two i wanted to do all of them but that's too greedy of me tksbd im sorry :'<

warnings: this will be long. that's it.

TODOROKI SHOUTO

quiet duo™

it I met someone like shouto I wouldn't even like him at all

but there comes my considerate and civil treatment to all even with my resting bitch face

i watch everyone from the back so id notice if this man is having a hard time with socializing

me too boi we can be both antisocial

but tbh it'd be a quiet relationship with an occasional me screaming from emotions because that's how I am

we're both going to be uncomfortable with pda at first because tbh i only do that when I'm sleepy but it's ok we gotta take baby steps sometimes

but that doesn't mean I won't mother him and we all know this baby is touch starved so yes im going to give u all of the love u deserve

"get some rest pls you've been training for hours"

"i made your favorite soba, take a break bitch"

istg I'm a mother not a girlfriend

"let's both annoy enji and use his credit card until he's broke"

I CANNOT GUARANTEE THE SAFETY OF YOUR SHIRTS AND HOODIES BECAUSE THEY'RE MINE NOW

like damn id be giddy if he ever looks at me with those cute confused eyes for help with simple things or if he looks at me and ask if he's doing it right

mother mode level 1038104729

also damn id give him every food I can make like I don't need to stress bake to bake him some sweets or whatever

he'd probably do the same for me since I tend to overwork myself when I'm into things

but,, honey,, I don't want you to burn the kitchen

like yes pls pull me away from my textbook because I really don't understand a thing and even if I don't I'm sure my brain will still make me go read it over and over again

im never good with listening to others comforting me

like yes thank you very much but words are never a big impact to me after hearing it so much from people who don't even care anymore

so I'd appreciate his silence when I'm sad and he'd just hug me for comfort

he understands that all I need is someone to keep me on the ground, not force their words upon me

tbh I'd be more sleepy when I'm around him

he's the right amount of warm and cool, he's perfect dkfks let me just rest on his left side for warmth or his right side for some cooling off and boom. sleep.

there wouldn't be much of a fight tbh

I'm an open minded person and even if I don't agree with someone's opinion I wouldn't give a fuck

it's probably going to take the both of us long before we both open up to each other because we're both secretive but it'll probably be me who'd give in first

he'll probably catch me in my sulking mood and ask

I may be a mom but I'm also a dad

I'd fight bitches who think bad of shouto I WON'T HESITATE BITCH

he has to stop me physically from attacking a mutt because these claws are ready for some scratching

we're so similar yet so different at the same time lmao

that's all :D

LERO-RO

have you heard of this man's voice??? have you heard of this man's voice??

because what the fuck

i will not be able to not be in awe whenever he speaks and im sure my stupid self wouldn't be able to stop staring

like please talk to me more

speak with your morning voice pls

bless my ears

bless my fucking soul

idk man how did i end up with him?? im stupid and he's smart and im clumsy and he can kill a bitch for just two seconds??!

pray for me because this man is going to tease me for being 5"0 and he's a fucking tower pun intended

he's probably going to end up teaching me how to use a shinsu because— and I quote— "you're going to end up dying without me" but it'll be a bad idea because there's no guarantee that I won't use it to prank him or mess with people who irritate me :D

he's stressed™

"nO. you can't beat up another admin"

"i swear to fucking god if u do that— oh fuck u"

"please do"

like how did you end up with a quiet evil little bitch like me? go get yourself an angel because you're an angel yourself, we don't fit man

but he's also a sweet mf uwu he'd end up mothering me instead of me mothering him

but it's gonna be nice to be pampered y'all can't understand the pain of being a mother to everyone

and yes we're bam and khun's parents now

excuse me while I climb this 6 ft tree

he probably loves cuddling me from behind and placing his chin on my head

"I'm not a furniture go get your chair"

he's an test admin, he's gonna be stressed and tired of taking care of a bunch of children so it'll be my turn to smother him in love uwu here's your favorite food, a massage, a tea, some cuddles, and a warm bath for u and only u

I can sleep on him so watch me ask for a piggy back ride just to sleep

and he can't deny me of that ride because I'd look sluggish and tired and sleepy and no one can say no to my face

ill kith his two moles uwu

honestly, we'd probably have petty arguments sometimes because of my idgaf attitude while he's more of a respectful + polite + appropriate person

let me have my freedom pls I don't like being uptight :((

and there goes my insecure ass because no, this man is too good for me, and im just stupid for giving it a try

and masking my emotions wouldn't work with him

he's gonna see it from miles away and he's going to confront me about what im upset about and he's going to blame himself for it because that's just how it is

but it's ok, it takes two for a relationship to work

we'd reassure each other from our insecurities and we'll be ok

he's probably going to treat me. like I'm some cat or something which I am

I'm pretty sure he'd be weirded out by my weird habits like yes I can sleep everywhere unless it's noisy and yes I stress bake and yes I drink coffee but still fall asleep and yes I love food give me food

he's an observant man, he's going to notice how I say no to thing even tho I want to say yes because I don't prioritize myself and he's going to scold me for it

we probably have a "us time" every so often because we both need to rest and just enjoy each other's presence

in other words, shouto and leroro deserve someone better than me :'D

[castielearmy]

🌸White Love🌸

Pairing: Chae Hyungwon (Monsta X) x Reader

Genre: fluff

Warnings: none

Word count: 1073

A/N ~ Hello tumblr people who read my mediocre imagines! 🤗 I has comes back (yes, I know that sentence isn't grammatically correct). Anyways, I haven't written anything since spring I think, which is acceptable since drawing is more for me (if you wanna follow my art ig it's castiele_rose, lol shameless promo, which nobody will probably see or care about lol) and writing is just so I can share my thoughts and fantasies with y'all, I ain't gonna be greedy and keep 'em all to myself. Okay so this imagine was inspired with Hyungwon's line "I love you" in the White Love/Girl MV by Monsta X. If you haven't listened to it yet, what are you waiting for????? 😐 Okay enough talking, wnjoy the imagine, hope y'all like it 😊

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( gif made by @mingied )

Homework. Ugh. Who invented that? You wished you could just get your education without all the homework and stress.

You were hanging out with Hyungwon at the practise room after your classes. Well more like doing your homework and studying while he was practising a new song they had to record tomorrow.

You always liked listening to him practising for a song. His voice helped you relax and concetrate and you liked to say that your work was done quicker and had better results. And of course you didn't feel tired afterwards, unlike the times you had to do it alone. After those times you would just collapse on your bed and fall alseep in matter of seconds.

"White girl you can fill up my everyting", you listened how he treid to repeat some words to adjust his voice to the note he had to sing. He made a small pause to write something down on his paper.

"I love you", he said with more softness and emotion than you've ever heard come out of his mouth.

"I love you too", you responded almost immediately and then you realised.

You two are just friends. Yes, you fell in love with him over the years, because he never once abandoned you or said bad things about you, but you never told him. Well, now you did. Oops.

Your eyes went wide and you covered your mouth with both of your hands after you dropped the pen on top of your book. You were scared but you still turned around towards him.

His eyes were big dark circles shining and starring at you and his mouth were slightly open. His singing and your sighs in the big room were now replaced with the echo from the pen that slipped out of his hand and fell onto the hard wood floor.

"What?", he asked, still shocked, not moving from his spot on the chair.

"What what?", you tired to play dumb like it wasn't obvious that you just said those 4 words to him.

He blinked a few times before standing up and saying, "Can you repeat that?".

He started walking towards you slowly. Your heart skipped a beat and you started to panic slightly.

"Repeat what? What did I say?", you started ranting because you didn't know what else to do while he was getting closer by second, "I can't quite remember because I've been studying all evening and y'know my brain's fried so I don't even know what I'm saying anymore I'm probably just tired and stressed so I don't really know what I'm...", he kneeled down and was now very close to you, "... saying".

You were looking into his eyes with yours wide open because of fear. He was looking at you but when you noticed him looking down at your lips for 3 seconds you almost fainted.

He started leaning in slowly, touched your chin with his index finger and lifted your head slightly.

"Repeat that, love", when you heard that nickname come out of his mouth with a low voice, you felt your stomach drop.

You couldn't say anything. You were in complete shock. Was he going to make you say it again, which wasn't supposed to happen in the first place, and then laugh at your face and walk away? No, he would never walk away from you. Was he going to laugh at you and say he said it for the purpose of the practise and not to you? Was he gonna laugh it off thinking it was a joke?

"Do I have to force it out of you?", he asked quietly, moved away from your face slightly and looked you in the eyes, "I love you", he said it again, with a slight smirk, to what you exhaled sharply.

Sudden rush of confidence hit you with those words being pointed at you this time, or so you thought, so you, without hesitation, said, "I love you too", to what he smiled and then chuckled.

"She loves me too", he said cheerfully, more to himself, as he sat down across from you. You were confused. 5 seconds ago he was making you dizzy by being incredibly close to your face and almost kissing you and now he's being all cute and soft.

"I'm confused", you furrowed your eyebrows and blinked a few times quickly.

"You're so cute", he laughed a little and put his hand on his stomach.

"Wait, was this a joke?", you said feeling embarrassment filling up your body.

You wanted to dig a hole for yourself and crawl into it and never look him in the eyes again. Why were you so careless and let that slip out just like that? It's because of school and stress, you convinced yourself.

"Do you want it to be a joke?", he asked calmly.

"No, wait no, I don't know what to think", you looked everywhere but towards him, which is why you didn't notice him crawling towards you.

With quick movements he got closer, took your face with both of his hands and kissed you softly but deeply.

Unconsciously, you pulled him closer by his arms which caused both of you to fall on the floor, breaking the kiss.

He moved some strands of hair from your face while you just watched his beautiful face above yours.

"So what are we?", you asked while looking at him.

"I don't know. What do you want us to be?", he asked looking back at you.

"A joke", you said, making fun of the previous conversation, to which you both laughed.

After you both stopped laughing he started leaning in again.

You two almost kissed again, but then you heard the door of the practise room open and someone walk in saying, "Are you two done being cute?"

You recognized the voice as Changkyun's.

"How much did you see?", Hyungwon asked looking up at him.

"Nothing", Changkyun said. You couldn't look at him from embarrassment so you were just looking at the ceiling.

"How much did you hear?", you asked him, fearing the answer he was about to give you.

"Everything", he said through laughter to which Hyungwon barried his head into your neck to hide from the maknae.

You bet your love for Hyungwon that Changkyun is gonna tell the whole story to his hyungs with the biggest smirk on his face.

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