#I'm super tired too

[starr-finn]

I'll crawl home to them: Bain (Payday) x Reader

Author's note: This was written at 3 am and I actually cried writing it, so Powered by Black tea and potato chips this was wrote, enjoy this mildly angsty piece of work based on an AU I made where Bain faked his death, I tried to keep this as gender neutral as possible. Song to listen to while reading: Work song by Hozier

Warnings: Mentions of death, grief, pseudocide (fake death), depression, a lot of crying, happy and sad, maybe long, suicide mentions and mentions of violence, proceed with extreme caution, I don't wanna trigger someone

It was barely 4 in the morning when you had gotten the call, Bain had been killed. You're sweet, loving boyfriend had been killed by some fucker you didn't care to know. You knew that wolf and jacket would handle him, that fucking prick wouldn't make it out alive, you had been assured that. It took a day and a half for it to fully process, Bain was gone. You broke down in the middle of a work day, the news had shattered your whole world. It felt like you had nothing left in the world. you had considered taking your own life, but you knew Bain would have wanted you to stay strong, and that was what kept you going everyday, the idea of 'If not for me, than for him' and it worked for you.

You had seen the world in such a blurry shade of gray since you processed the news. All the color in the world had been sucked out and replaced with blacks, whites, and grays. The gang noticed the changes, but they never brought it up, you had lost someone important to you, after all. They all missed Bain so tremendously, but it was clearly hitting you the hardest. You didn't talk, sleep, or eat much, only when you felt like it, everything felt so hard, you could barely get out of bed most days. You had started wearing his clothes to sleep. It brought you a small sense of comfort, like he was still there with you, working, or just sitting around and talking to you. the lack of sleep was eating at you by this point, It had been about 3 days since you had last slept, and by this point, you were hallucinating, really bad, most of it was people, places, or moments in your life, but it all seemed to fall back to that call at 3 am, the one that brought the news that flipped your whole world over. The house was a mess, you just didn't have energy to get up and do anything, but you were also unbelievably angry.

Why? Why did this have to happen? Bain was the only person you had ever loved like that, and it had been so easily taken from you because of what? A fucking dentist who was a traitor? Suddenly you had a reason to get out of bed, to take care of yourself minimally. You wanted him to pay, and you wanted the feeling you got from that to last forever, and it felt like it did. Wolf and Jacket helped you kill the dentist, and It felt good, but it didn't fix everything, and then you started spiraling again, you cried so much more this go around. Why? why didn't killing the bastard make you feel better? It should have, right? You went back to not eating and sleeping all day, It was really all you had this time.

You had spent most days begging whatever was up there for Bain to just walk though the front door like nothing had happened, like he had just ran to the store for some beer or something, but he never did. You partially felt like it was your fault, if you had tried harder to protect him, If you had just been home when he was taken, maybe, just maybe, the love of your life would still be here with you. You felt like you were primarily to blame, but the gang never blamed you, and that made you angry. Why didn't they just say it? It was your fault, you could have done something, and yet, they never blamed you. You were kind of pulling away for a while, before you broke down again, and this time, you wanted to talk.

It had been about a 3 weeks before you spoke to Dallas about how you felt, and he listened. He understood everything you felt, he never compared how he felt to how you felt, he just listened. It helped, a lot. By the end of the month, you were able to clean up the house, take a nice hot bath, and eat some good food. You felt good, but, It didn't feel right to move on, you knew it never would. Bain had been with you through so much, and it hurt to think about dating someone else, but still, you persisted. You had started going back out on heists after 5 weeks, and you felt strong enough to carry on finally, you had finally accepted it.

Then you woke up to a man standing at the foot of your bed, and you immediately tried to jump out of bed to either run or fight back, whatever your body let you do. You were then grabbed and shoved back down onto the bed, you started kicking, throwing punches, biting at whatever you could, until you heard a familiar voice yell out in pain

"OW! fuck! Woah, Lovebug! It's me, Bain!"

And suddenly, time slows to a complete halt, and the lamp is turned on, and standing above you is the man you thought had been dead for a whole 6 months now, and you immediately hug him as tightly as you're able too. you both lay there, just clinging to one another, you crying and him trying his best to comfort you, lightly shushing you and occasionally kissing your head or cheeks. It felt like a dream, was this even real? Did the man you love crawl out of his fucking grave just to come back to you? The thought made you feel all fuzzy. Bain was alive somehow, and you had never been more happy. You slept the best you had in forever that night, and when you woke up, expecting him to have been a hallucination, but no, he was still laying in your arms, sleeping peacefully. He looked a bit different, but he was still Bain, the man you had fallen so helplessly for 3 years ago, and the man you had been so lucky to be dating for 2 years now. The thought of everything made you start quietly crying again. It didn't take much longer for Bain to wake up, and he immediately reached out and stroked your cheek, smiling softly. He could tell the gang he was alive later, right then, all you both wanted, was to be with each other.

Bain had made it pretty clear a few times before, but now had settled the idea for you, Even in death, Bain will always find his way back to you.

(Mild exhaustion edit: Bain now has a bite mark on his forearm from where you bit him in self defense)

[hajihiko]

Sobriety crew gets no mercy from drunk shenanigans

[daily-odile]

AUGH I’d love to see more time looping odile if possible,,,,, how do you think she’d like; “devolve” over each of the acts as compared to Siffrin over time :O

ok im gonna be honest i did like portrait edits months ago and just never finished them. so here you go

act 3:

act 5:

[buttercupshands]

Fell asleep before I could post it here

Stressful week defeated with a result of me forgetting how to draw Siffrin before I sketched again

Too focused to keep a hold on it in a way

So there was this, which I prefer with a neutral-sad face instead

Like this but I thought it was a bit too... That

After that I've redrew an expression from that one scene. Just because Ost said "Here you go "Do You Remember? (Our Country)" time!"

Same thing is why Mal Du Pays are here

[anonymous-utility]

Hornet's no good, very bad, horrible road trip.

[deoidesign]

"I'm the dog they put with cheetahs to keep them from going crazy in captivity" x "I'm the cheetah that is threatening to go crazy" 4 ever

(I make a webcomic about them)

[dapper-lil-arts]

Was makin a muscle study for fun and it wound up being that sunset shimmer anthro design I made because I'm delusional. good times. And of course I got carried away and didn't stop there

Twilight is ready.

[doodlingwren]

I'd love to have something witty to say here, but I think this one post speaks for himself in a way no words could.

Originally, I wanted to do a "simple" redraw of a silly meme, I have no idea HOW it eneded up being a four pages comic. And WHY there's also a JOJO reference within of all things. So uhm, anyway...

✨ Sources and references ✨

The "Dilf Detected Comic" [original unedited comic, meme format, meme format if you want the rebloggable tumblr version]

The "Oh? You're Approaching Me?" panel from the manga JoJo's Bizarre Adventure: Stardust Crusaders (chapter 143)

Hope you've liked the Aries™ Rizz©® ok bye

[zeondraws]

Ok, Fellas, so today was wild

I'm at Gamescom atm and a week before this I tried to make a small plan for myself. Mostly because I had gotten such a big interest for the game, I wanted to see if I can meet anyone at the event.

After having had a big hurdle while trying to reenter the business area, I was able to go back and meet someone from the Chinese Room (I met two today). Which was wild for me, didn't think with this sudden interest in the game that I was able to meet someone from the team who worked on the game so soon.

I told them how I struggle to find interests in most games since those usually don't speak to me, but Still Wakes The Deep suddenly caught my attention. Where I ended up researching a bunch to find hidden details or eastereggs, looking through the game files and replaying the game to further understand the story.

I only had a small window to ask a bunch of questions, I sadly couldn't ask silly questions like "Does Muir look like a Bagpipe?" or ask some Questions about Caz.

Before the meeting I asked people on the discord server if they wanted to know anything. So I tried to take the questions I had for the moment and get through them XD

I did tell them how there is a small community on tumblr/discord where we gather. And that I asked some folk for questions I should ask.

Ok these are big spoilers, at least some suprised me, quite a bunch if them are of course about Muir and Innes.

I hope I remember everything properly that he told me, I immediately wrote everything down on discord for the others to read, but figured making a tumblr post will be good as well.

Innes:

Quite a lot of people asked about the VA of Innes, apparently they forgot to include him in the credits which made them feel extremely bad, even apologising to them. I can definitely understand how that must feel, I think I'd melt away. They'd fix it in the next patch, I can't check if it's already fixed atm.

At the very end of our chat, while shaking hands, I asked if Innes is bald. And the answer was "*laughs* yes".

Now I clearly asked this one as a joke, because I found it funny to tell the others on discord, however I very much support luscious hair Innes that many are drawing.

Muir:

I explained to them how I've been researching some stuff in the game. And figured out, that Muir must've died around the time when Caz flooded the Forward Pontoon in Marine Control. So I asked if that's possible to be the time when it actually happend- and they did confirm this! I was surprised that I got that on point.

But I got some further details about this, apparently they wanted to showcase how Muir would've died there.

Basically, once Caz flooded the Forward Pontoon, you would've seen Muir outside loosing his grip out in the deck and getting crushed under debris.

Which was so painful for me to imagine, to see Muir outside, walking on his tendrils and suddenly not being able to keep his balance.

I tried illustrating how I roughly imagine this scene, it ain't perfect, but maybe it helps everyone to visualise it.

The Flooding shifted the entire rig and debris fell onto him.

To have some sense where everything is, Accommodation Roof (where you find Roy) is on the left side, if you look at the rig from the Derrick entrance. And Marine Control should be on the right side.

The thing is Marine Control is facing the ocean (if I remember correctly, I hope I do, I'm currently not home to check), so you couldn't take a look at the derick while Caz does the thing. Which basically made them remove this and hid Muir nearby the Derrick for players to find. And I told him how I replayed the game and saw Muir lay there with Innes, it was 6AM and I just sat there like O-O

Muir & Innes:

A burning question for many was, what their relationship is. And they told me it's more like a father son relationship, saying how Innes is very strict to Muir.

Muir is the younger one of the two and also likes to tease Innes a bunch (so the pipe thing is one of his many shenanigans he'd do)

Here we see a wild Muir in his natural habitat about to prank his friend (caught in 4k) (I almost died) (look at him plotting).

Now, I could not forget to mention that the fandom decided to ship Muir and Innes and wanted to see their reaction. They took it with a smile and just talked about their complex relationship again. Which I found cool to hear.

I sadly don't remember every small detail of the convo, since I wanted to make sure that I was able to ask all the questions people wrote on discord.

Brodie & Raffs:

This was a surprise to hear, which also made me very sad. Brodie was also like a father for Raffs, he knew his mother too.

And apparently Brodie was supposed to tell Raffs mother incase anything happened to him. So that she can feel better knowing Raffs died quickly and without much pain. Which is just... I'm in shambles. sobbing

Gibbo:

Some folk wanted to know if he had an actual model, to which the person answered with yes. They planned to show him at some point, but decided that the player should see Trots firstly.

I also randomly asked if the Gibbo model ingame was a part of Addairs model (judging by the game files), if I remember correctly he nodded.

I hope we get to see it in the artbook, I preordered it but forgor to tell him that. But it's okay.

I sadly don't remember everything here, I had to check discord for the questions (I hope I don't say anything wrong), but with Gibbo they focused more on the sound design and the mystery. And I think in the end it worked out perfectly.

Other:

They implanted a bunch of eastern eggs into the game, the art director even said he's still finding new ones to this day.

He mentioned the pictures shown in various areas and mentioned that he inserted pictures of his family and cousins etc.

Also the Kid inside the TV in the Crew Lounge? That's the Art Director as a kid! Whaaaaaaaa- Didn't know this one for sure.

And another random thing, I showed him the meme that @cazrig made. Because I inserted it inside my piece of fanart. I sadly couldn't show him more memes of the community because I forgor/no time. The memes Robin made are also comedy gold.

It was this one (I keep dying of laughter)

He found it very funny, so did the other person I showed it to.

But he also talked about how worried he was how the game would be perceived in the end. Since it came out extremely close to the release date of the new Elden Ring DLC. And having worked on it for so long they didn't know how the reactions would be.

But were positively surprised how well it was perceived, people playing the game, tears being shed and so on.

Okay that took me ages to write, I just wanted to have it all inside a tumblr post. Otherwise I may forget stuff if it's scattered on discord.

The event day turned out well for me today. I was so worried, that my tiny plan wouldn't work yesterday. But somehow I had some luck on my side.

After I got home I added his signature to my physical copy. I also made myself a small card with my artwork for it. I also gave them a small card and a big printed version of the fanart as well.

Thank you John!

I go sleep now, tomorrow is another gamescom day

[skelecentral]

Day 6 of Bad Sansuary (hosted by @owl-bones!): Heavy

"WHY NOT??"

"because then you'd leave :("

[auriidae]

goofy hermit doodles!! because uhh why not!!

[hajihiko]

dream i had

it was something like, the survivors are living Normal incognito lives in a normal society, but somehow information about them starts leaking out and suddenly someone knows about a few of their aliases (is there a rat amongst them or are they up against genius? Who knows....)

Imposter, Hajime and Fuyuhiko were the ones who found out that there was a crack in their security and most likely Impostor's home address had been discovered, they rushed back because his ◇husband◇ is at home but he's not answering.... when they get inside, they search and go into the garage, no one answers them but Hajime notices blood leaking in through a window that reaches ground level. They were too late and Imposter had a really sad and intense breakdown :( poor Ryota was innocent in all this...

the end

[tropicalcontinental]

Saw this comment below one of andrewgaming67's videos and I got hit with a vision

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a digital drawing of Hunter and Willow from the owl house based on the "lesbians doing makeup" meme. Hunter is lying beneath Willow, who straddles him while doing his makeup. He looks at her somewhat dazed and she looks at him fondly. the background is a mid-tone blue. End ID]

This is what they are. To me

[taylorsabrina]

i wish hating colleen hoover was as universal as hating j.k. rowling.

[burinazar]

Birthday Completed.. Am Thirtey Twoe