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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Live A Live (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Mad Dog & Sundown Kid (Live A Live) Characters: Mad Dog (Live a Live), Sundown Kid (Live a Live) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Vampire, Blood Drinking, Light Angst, Canon-Typical Violence, Vampire Turning, Homoeroticism, there is no romantic relationship yet it’s just extremely homoerotic blood drinking the fic, vampire powers, Vampire!Mad Dog, a light sprinkle of, Mutual Pining Summary:
After being mysteriously turned into a vampire, Mad Dog finds he doesn't exactly hate all of his new abilities. It can be annoying sometimes, that's for sure, but he's more focused on finding where The Sundown Kid has been hiding for months now. It makes sense that he'd turn up right outside of Success, and Mad Dog's never been more excited to challenge him to a duel. Mad Dog only wanted to beat him, turn him in for the money, and accomplish his years long dream, but things can never go according to his plan, can they?
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What’s this?? Yes haha, I couldn’t resist making a Vampire!AU for these too. If you know me, you know this was only a matter of time. I have nothing else to add, please enjoy:)
#hehehehehe#live a live#the sundown kid#mad dog#sorry if literally no one wants this but I did#also I said it in the notes but this was going to be 5 chapters and then I lost motivation#so maybe posting this will encourage me to finish it but just in case I wanted this to still be enjoyed:)#vampires#I'm such a sucker for vampires its not even funny#<- pun intended#oh also if anyone knows what song I got the title from you get 100 brownie points#more like 1000 I would be surprised/delighted if anyone knows
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Do You Know What It Means to be Loved by Death?
My meta and analysis of my favorite scenes from IWTV s02e02
Louis and Claudia at the Cafe
Been a favorite of mine since the scene dropped way back in February. I've always loved Louis and Claudia moments where the two of them are just acting like the siblings they are. Claudia's question of who Louis is, I believe, implants something within him. Louis does dodge the question, of course, but I think we'll see what happens once he's without her. Now, the question is whether he will be without the hallucination of Lestat (I don't think so).
Claudia and Madeleine Meeting
Claudia and Madeleine's first meeting! Eep! There was more tension than I was expecting, but I liked the interaction. Claudia bursting in and demanding her wants is music to my ears.
Louis Cruising
Baby...I'm so glad Mr. du Lac is in Paris living it up and doing so freely. I do wish we could have seen him cruising more...explicitly; especially with the way Armand and Louis described their love lives. But, it's nice to know he was free and without judgement to do as he wanted.
Louis and Armand's First Meeting
Can we talk about legit love and first sight?! They're both so cute in this moment, it's the sweetest thing. The awkwardness of Louis against the smoothness of Armand meshed together beautifully. And the way the two looked at each other as they recounted the story was so magical. "I will not harm you" "And I never have." Such a tender moment and I hope and pray Armand has not hurt that man in any way, even indirectly. I can see it in the both of their faces that they wish to go back to that time, if only for a little while.
Introduction to the Theatre/Coven
I am such a sucker for all things camp and theater and this was both of those on steroids. The theatrics, the acting, the usage of both the projector and the blurred lines between real and fake was amazing. It felt like a show all on it's own. Louis and his facial expressions were hilarious and you can clearly tell it's not his thing, but Claudia wants to fully immerse herself in that. It was so sweet looking at how in awe and happy she was to see the production. Cannot wait to see her on the stage. I'm glad the show have each member of the coven a bit of backstory instead of just sticking them in the scene. We can already see on stage Santiago's personality and I'm intrigued with how he'll develop. I also noticed Armand seemed to be a bit distant when watching them interact. I believe he's already began to pivot his focus to Louis, which is confirmed in the murder mansion scene.
Lestat Reading His Letter to Louis
The only time we see Lestat in the episode and of course it's a tense moment. The first time we hear from de Lioncourt himself (will we have more of these moments?) and you can feel the tension and despair in the air. It probably made things worse for Louis for a couple of reasons. One, even in "death" Lestat, his first vampire love, loves and trusts him. "Know only this, mon cher, you are the only being I trust, and whom I love, above and beyond myself. All my love belongs to you. You are its keeper." That probably made Louis' heart swell. But, as much as it swelled, it hurt him beyond measure. The mention of treachery and seeking revenge probably made him feel as if he was choking. He knows he's the one that's going to have to let treachery eat away at him and let Lestat's face press up against his longing. I'm not sure if his hallucinations of him are longing, but the idea of killing him is still eating away at him.
Louis and Armand Toying with Daniel's Thoughts
Whew boy. This was a doozy, wasn't it? I was not expecting the flashback moment in that scene but I have a few theories. One: Armand is Alice. Yes, it's controversial but after this episode I don't think it's as far fetched as it was in season one. Armand popped up at that moment for a reason. And it's quite funny how no one has checked on the man, not even his daughters. I get strained relationships, but was it that bad? Now, I still don't fully believe this theory, but it's a thought. Another theory is that Armand's relationship with Daniel parallels his and Alice's. We don't know the full extent of what happened, but the two got divorced and no longer speak so it wasn't good. Third, Armand could have simply planted that in Daniel's head, which I think is the strongest one here. We all know Armand possesses the capabilities to do this and that flashback could have been him planting that in his mind. I saw someone say something about the editor messing with Daniel as well since they were the ones who pointed out flaws in his book (read by Louis in season one), which would be crazy, to say the least, because why? And say what you want, that old bastard deserved it.
Murder Mansion Scene
Another scene I've been obsessed with since we saw it last year. These two are just lost in each other as there's a whole murder party happening behind them. I did like how protective Louis was of Claudia when Armand mentioned her (Armand please don't piss me off), but I hope he takes lessons from Maitre about shutting off his thoughts because that could definitely be his downfall.
#louis de pointe du lac#the vampire claudia#armand iwtv#louis x armand#vampterview#amc interview with the vampire#interview with the vampire#daniel molloy#lestat de lioncourt
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(Leaps in askbox now its clear) Howdy! I'm curious about your opinions on the companions, like initial thoughts and now that you've clocked in an unhealthy (affectionate) amount of hours? We know what you'd change but how about everyone as is? Thanks!
Alrighty, I can finally answer this one...
Ok.
Man. This is gonna be a long one.
We're gonna start with the shorter opinions first.
Minthara:
I have not done a run where Minthara was alive in Act 2. I literally know almost nothing about her.
I think she's hot and has the sexiest voice of all the female characters, but I know nothing about her story, other than she was a lesbian with Orin. I do wanna try and romance her, but.
Who knows if I'll ever get around to it.
Minsc:
I get that he's a fan favorite from the old games, but I kind of hate him. He feels like fanservice, and I didn't get a nostalgia boner for him, so he does nothing for me as a character.
I honestly kill him. Not out of malice, just more out of, why even have him be here?
Plus I tend to go through the entire game without swapping my party members, because I'm pretending it's a real dnd campaign.
And I ain't changing my team comp for this weirdo who only shows up at the very end.
Sorry to his hamster when I kill him, though.
Jaheira:
She's ok. I don't hate her, but she doesn't do it for me. I don't get why she's Russian. And apparently the only Russian in the whole game.
She also feels like fanservice.
Plus she fucking drops ice storms on everyone's goddamn HEADS when they're already in Hunger of Hadar, and honestly?
We have beef. I let her die sometimes, for that crime specifically. I also skip her house, because it doesn't have good loot, besides the scimitars, and I don't play races or classes that use scimitars. like ever.
Halsin:
I like Halsin generally, he's inoffensive to me, but his "romance" is so bad. It's shallow, it feels tacked on, which it was, and everyone knows how much I HATE how little his sexual trauma is focused on.
I romanced him twice, and both times, I was underwhelmed and kind of shrugged him off.
He should just be a fling option like Mizora. He shouldn't have become a "romance" option. It's fine for him to be a big buff bear hippie that you can fuck, but a companion?
He's got nothing to do with Act 3. It's a detriment to his character and the game, tbh.
Ok, that's the smaller ones out of the way. Now mains:
Astarion:
I got into BG3 for Astarion.
I fully admit it. I saw a scene of him screaming at Tav for blasting him with the sun beam from the githyanki creche, and it was funny as fuck.
Neil Newbon is highly charismatic, and truly elevates a character I don't find that physically attractive. His personality and enthusiasm shine through, and his voice acting is superb. And I am a sucker for angst and redemption and themes of abuse and breaking free of toxic relationships. And darkly, I admit. I do like the more twisted nature of his backstory, the way he had to use his body to survive, has a bad relationship with sex, and was tortured repeatedly. As anyone who reads my writing knows...I am a disgusting sadistic pervert.
That being said.
I no longer like Astarion. Well. No. I like Astarion.
I don't like his fans, or his rhetoric. Astarion has the better writing of BG3, but the lack of nuance from his fans annoys the shit out of me, and overexposure to him as a character, since Tumblr and TikTok are obsessed with him?
No me gusta. I don't hate him as a character, but I can't stand to see Astarion is so perfect posts. He's not, and that's the whole point. He's awful, but you people don't appreciate that. I don't want to see Astarion x Tav headcanons. And I especially do not care about the BookTok crowd being obsessed with him because they just like a dommy vampire, and disrespect his narrative with absolutely no self awareness.
BookTok Astarion is SO GODDAMN BORING. They really just reduce him to a hot dommy vampire daddy, and that's why I never take BookTok recs. Pure garbage.
So. TL;DR - I got BG3 for him, but overexposure to his fans made me be significantly less interested in him. It's a good thing. If I was obsessed with Astarion, I'd be forced to interact with his fans. Thank god for Gortash... I'm free of that prison.
Lae'zel:
I loved Lae'zel the minute she was mean to me.
She's hot as fuck, like seriously, so hot, her neck makes me sweat something fierce, and her voice is sultry and raspy and hostile. just how i like my women.
But I admit...she's too fucking meta. gameplay wise, she's probably the strongest companion you can have for DPS...so I admit...I've had her on my teams so much, that I am sick of her.
And again! It's not because she's badly written. I actually think her character is really strong, and really awesome. I also think her arc is amazing, going from this devoted cult member to basically saying I'm going to fucking kill a god.
I actually teared up a little at the creche this one time, when I had to beg her to stay, and she was like, you knew I had no other path to follow, but this one, or something like that.
But.
But I have beaten the game with her in my party like three times. I've had her in my party on Honor mode like...a million times.
So, tl;dr - I love her to death, but gameplay wise, she's so strong that I can't play her anymore.
Shadowheart:
Ok...I admit it.
I don't like Shadowheart. I find her boring visually, because she's just this generically hot white girl. She was designed to be the companion that all straight cis white men would want to see naked, and that's fine but uh.
Does absolutely nothing for me.
I don't care for her personality either. I don't like her lines, all coy and vaguely condescending. I don't really like how mean she is to you, and it's different from Lae'zel, because at least Lae'zel came from a warrior culture that doesn't put much value on flowery language. Lae'zel makes sense.
Shadowheart is an amnesiac who's just mean to you because.
I also don't care for her story, at all.
Don't care about Shar's Gauntlet or her kidnapped backstory. Don't give a shit about her parents. Don't care that she's scared of wolves or that her hand hurts.
I like the overarching thematic bridge that her character exists on, specifically that the gods will demand everything of you, and will hurt you for their own amusement.
But as a companion...no.
I have never been interested in romancing her. I never have her on the party, except to get that achievement.
I also don't like clerics. I think they're kind of weak, tbh. They're heal bots. They're really only good for spirit guardians, glyph of warding, and removing status effects. Just don't care for that. I'm an all dps team, we have no room for healers.
TL;DR: I don't think Shadowheart is interesting design wise, story wise, or gameplay wise.
Karlach:
I loved Karlach the moment I saw her, I fell deeper in love with her the second I heard her voice, and I knew I would die and kill for her, when I saw her excited "I love you" confession scene.
Seriously.
I have said this before, and I will say it again.
Out of all of these characters, romanceable or not...
I would only marry Karlach in REAL LIFE. I'd never date a man like Gortash or Astarion. I might be friends with Gale, but he's too smart to be my boyfriend.
But Karlach. She brings the wife energy. She could throw me over her shoulder and bash me against the concrete, and I would say thank you, ma'am.
she's also so fucking fun to play. barbarian options in bg3 are so goddamn funny. you can intimidate everyone and just break shit. it's great. you can also constantly throw people AT PEOPLE. And it's great. She's way more fun than Lae'zel because of it.
No notes. Top tier character design. My wife.
But also FUCK the developers for only giving her two fucking quests, one of which is a FETCH IT quest and the other is just a lame boss fight.
And FUCK THEM for only originally giving her an ending where she either dies or becomes a mindflayer. WHY.
And the Avernus ending still annoys me, because the ENTIRE PARTY should be there too.
FUCK YOU LARIAN. Why do you hate Karlach???? You're monsters. She's never done anything wrong, and yet all you do, is wrong her.
Bullshit.
Wyll:
Ok.
Hard truth time.
Wyll is the hottest male companion.
Like.
No cap. Everyone who says Gale, or Astarion, or Halsin-
Incorrect. It's Wyll. He is literally so hot, with the white eye and those sexy throat scars. Hrrrrrrr.
Also, controversial opinion. I actually like his devil form.
I think it makes him even hotter. I do wish he had wilder hair, though.
That being said...
He's horribly underwritten.
I went in, thinking, he's so kind and nice and hot...and then I was disappointed by how little they gave him.
He, like Karlach, got hit with the cut content curse.
And it's so ugly.
And gross.
And honestly, I suspect it's racist.
But yeah.
I think he's really sweet and I like romancing him and all. But they didn't dedicate any time or effort to his romance, and I hate that. But not him. Never him.
TL;DR - my first impression of Wyll was wow, he's hot, I wanna know more about him, and my last impression is, wow, he's so hot, I hate that he has nothing going on because Larian simply didn't bother to give him shit to do.
Gale
Alright, I left Gale for last, because he has the MOST complicated relationship with me.
So I initially missed Gale, because my friend failed the strength check to get him out of the portal.
So for a while, I didn't even know he existed.
Then I started to see more of him on Tiktok and Tumblr, and I was like oh...ok. So...we missed him. Damn.
So I decided to try romancing him fairly early on....only to find out...
I absolutely despised that when he dies, he killed me with necrotic damage.
That pissed me off. In the early days, when I was new to the game, I think I once had a whole team wipe, because Gale and Lae'zel went down, and then Karlach went rampaging, set me on fire, and then died to Gale's necrotic...which is funny in hindsight, but it was annoying at the time.
The eating magical items thing was mildly annoying, but that was far worse.
I pretty much never ran Gale for a long period of time.
As the Dark Urge, I'd often kill him, in fact, just so I wouldn't have to deal with his Arcane Hunger.
And honestly, initially, I kind of disliked his personality too.
I think the first scene I ever saw of him was when you tell him he's ok in bed, and his response is like, I guess I'll go kill myself.
And honestly, I thought he had incel vibes because of it. Then add to the fact that he's rude to you, no matter what, when he needs his third item...and also add that to the annoying gameplay, PLUS the fact.
That I was rocking Sorceror and Warlock for most of my early runs, so didn't need a wizard...I said, no. No Gale.
I don't like Gale.
BUT.
Here's the thing, right?
I got into Gortash... and then I stepped away from Astarion. Started being obsessed with the Dark Urge...
And then I noticed that all of my Durgetash friends were super into Gale, and I didn't get why...
But then weavewithshadow specifically alerted me to the fact that... there are Gale and Gortash parallels...specifically, that they're both brilliant, scruffy, are blinded by ambition, can't appreciate the things they have, and keep chasing after things they can't quite reach.
And then I was like...ok, maybe I've been harsh on him...
So I did his romance...and I felt bad.
Because he's actually very sweet.
And his voice is reallllly lovely when it's soft and fond.
He's a poet...and then I felt bad for all the times I had chewed off his arm.
And honestly, with experience...I now know what to feed him. Mostly garbage magic items like Komira's dumb locket or the ring of color spray from the harpies' nest, or those dumb boots that electrify the water you stand in.
Plus, I'm smart enough to know how to keep Gale alive now, so the necrotic thing isn't an issue.
So.
So. TL;DR I had a very complicated relationship with Gale, first with his mechanics, then with this random out of context scene where he's kind of nasty to you. But I came around, and honestly...right now...I like him more than Astarion.
All he wants to do is...live.
And I relate to that.
And his romance scenes are nice, and he has more of an arc than most of the other companions, Astarion aside.
So there you go, anon.
This took forever to write.
Thanks for the ask, though.
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HII i was the anon asking for a matchup hehe (both bots and cons, literally anyone) im just so interested and excited abt the matchup since its my first time doing one :DDD
Im quite short, around (5'6), i have a darker shade of green eyes (w long lashes) and long black hair with pink highlights that end around my mid back, (it's quite curly too); im very pale, and i mean "the first time they see me they tell me im a vampire" kind of pale, i have plump lips that are pink, kinda like a blushy pink! I have an ear piercing, and some snakebites, tho it's not pierced, its those ones where you can hook them on, ive also got a thing for silver rings (one is vine like and the other is a silver snake that goes up halfway on my pointer finger [i love snakes]; on my right hand tho is a single gold ring)
On how i dress, i usually do not give any fucks- literally, i just throw anything on (my usual fit is a black shirt, and some soft pants)
I'm an INTP (for some reference since i really suck at describing things) Me as i describe myself, am a very quiet person, quiet as in "my friends forgot i was in the backseat" kind of quiet, im usually a homebody, literally, another reason why i get called a vampire is that i hate sunlight, alot, i dont like going out as much as my friends do, since i hate loud and public places tho i would really be down to hangout with them whenever. I always keep to myself and refrain from ever speaking out, always observing, and just listening; but when i get closer to someone and get to know them more i usually get loud and very talkative. Even tho im always patient doesn't mean i wouldn't punch someone if they mess w me or my friends, as i could really have a high temper; on a side note, im very patient! Really im not even kidding i literally put up with someone's shit for 3 years and still going.
Hobbies or things i generally like/ like to do is art!! Mostly digital art, you'll always see me with my tablet everywhere i go, and i rarely share them as i have absolutely zero confidence, i also love to read! (Fav being tolkien books, both LoTR and TH) i also write my own stories and could be so into world building, its taking me 3 years to actually build my world properly. I love music like its not even funny; aside from seeing me w my tablet, i guarantee you'll always see me wearing earphones and jamming, im a sucker for roadtrips while i gaze outside just daydreaming and forgetting about reality (im a hardcore daydreamer). I really dont have a certain music taste since i just play whatever sounds good!!
Hello anon! I’ll match you up with TFA Prowl!
Prowl is fascinated by your piercings. How do you get one? Does it cause daily issues? How do you take care of them? What are the other kinds (He'll keep these questions to himself though, but he will encourage you if you start rambling about it or want to talk about it)?
He's also very quiet compared to the other bots, and he'd prefer to have a 'home date' or just hang out with you somewhere outside in a quiet and shady area.
Prowl is glad you get talkative when you two are alone, because he really won't speak up about anything unless it's dire or bothering him an insane amount.
He is very interested in your digital art process, he'd love to watch you draw if you'd let him.
You'll have to introduce you to your favorite authors and books if you want him to understand a specific reference/joke.
He's amazed that you had taken three years to... make a world? He doesn't completely understand but, tell him about it, please, he'd love to hear about it.
If he sees you wearing headphones/earbuds, he'll ask what song or what artist you're listening to, especially if you look like you're enjoying it.
#micro matchups#very sorry if this wasn't the continuity you wanted :/#transformers animated#tfa#tfa x reader#transformers animated x reader#prowl#tfa prowl#prowl x reader#tfa prowl x reader
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FIC REC WEEK 36 – MONSTERFUCKING
Bleeding out from the waist down (Biting) by Schren28
Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: E Words: 1,601 Tags: Vampire Steve, Smut and Humor, Biting Kink
Summary: “Please…” He panted spreading his legs even further, causing a few droplets of blood to run down his leg and onto the floor. Steve fucking growled at the overt display and kneeled before him to catch the streams of blood, from his inner thighs.
Reasons why I love it: Tony is so fucking funny in this, oh my god. His insults for Steve crack me up so much, honestly every word of his inner monologue is pure gold. And Steve goes from sweetheart to lust demon to puppy with its tail between his legs in three seconds flat, I love it. This fic is incredible, and you should definitely read it!
howling for you by starvels (dinosaur)
Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: E Words: 4,922 Tags: Werewolf Steve, Shifted Sex, Wet & Messy
Summary: Steve wakes up because the moon is screaming at him. He howls just once before he slips off the bed and slips out of his skin.
Reasons why I love it: This fic is just delightful. Steve's inner monologue when he's shifted is amazing, his emotions and reactions feel so visceral. The fluff with Citrus and Cherry made me aww out loud, and the smut later on is glorious. Pup-sub Steve is adorable, I love him. Definitely check this one out if you haven't, it's amazing.
Bugfuck Crazy (In Love With You) by Sadisticsparkle (sadisticsparkle)
Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: E Words: 7,912 Tags: Worm Tony, Multiple Orgasms, Overstimulation
Summary: It's the Avengers' first mission in a long time. Everything is familiar but awkward, but Steve is sure they'll find their groove. And then Tony is turned into a giant bug. Things get a little out of hand after that.
Reasons why I love it: Oh, this fic is deliciously filthy. Steve being so torn between enjoying what Tony is doing and feeling guilty for it is amazing, and I love how they deal with the aftermath in the end. Definitely check this one out, it's wonderful!
Love is the thing with feathers by Amiyusesha
Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: E Words: 1,182 Tags: Dragons, PWP, Intersex
Summary: Tony and Steve have sex as dragons. They do not have human genitalia.
Reasons why I love it: I'm always a huge fan of xeno biology, and this fic has a really fun take on dragons in particular. Tony and Steve feel totally in character despite their species change, and I love their banter and heartfelt words that lead into sex. This fic is wonderful, and you should definitely read it!
Sucker For You by Loran_Arameri
Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: E Words: 1,416 Tags: Vampire Tony, Blood Drinking, Bondage
Summary: After being turned into a vampire, Tony learns many new things about Steve. For instance, that Steve still loves him even if he's undead or that Tony sucking his blood is a giant turn-on for Steve. When Tony finds the best spot yet, the reaction is surprising. (It's Steve's thigh. It's thigh-biting fic.)
Reasons why I love it: As an avid lover of legs and thighs in particular, this fic is right up my alley. I love it when authors give their characters a specific sweet spot in smut fics, it's so good. And the whole biting aspect just makes it all even better. This fic is hot as hell, and I hope you go and check it out for yourself!
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20 Book Challenge
I saw this challenge on a post by @theresebelivett. The idea is you pick 20 of your books to take with you to a desert island, but you can only pick one book per author and series. Here are two further guidelines I set myself: They have to be books I actually own, as if I really am gathering them up under my arms and heading to the island; and I'm defining "book" as a single volume -- so if I just so happen to have 100 novellas squashed between two covers, it still counts as one book.
We'll go alphabetically by author.
Charlotte Bronte: Jane Eyre. An old standby, a classic, I can jump into it at any point.
Daphne du Maurier: Rebecca. Have only read it once, but loved it and I suspect I'll get more from it each time.
Clare B Dunkle: The Hollow Kingdom. If I can only take one book from this excellent and unusual goblin series that captivated me in the mid-2000s, it'd better be the first one.
William Goldman: The Princess Bride. This book had an outsize influence on my own writing. I can quote a lot of it, but I wouldn't want to be without it.
Shannon Hale: Book of a Thousand Days. I love the warmth and humility of its heroine Dashti. Plus, Shannon Hale very kindly wrote a personal response to a fan letter I sent her years and years ago, so her work always has a special place in my heart.
Georgette Heyer: Cotillion. I don't actually own my favorite Georgette novel, but the funny, awkward, and ultimately romantic Cotillion is definitely not a pitiful second-stringer.
Eva Ibbotson: A Countess Below Stairs. Countess was my introduction to Eva's adult romances, and she is the past master of warm, hardworking heroines who should really be annoying because they're way too good to be true, but somehow you just end up falling in love with them.
Norton Juster: The Phantom Tollbooth. I first read this when I was like eight, and even for an adult, its quirky humor and zingy wordplay hold up, no problem.
Gaston Leroux: The Phantom of the Opera. Can't leave without Erik, nope, the French potboiler has got to come. Perhaps I will spend my time on the island writing the inevitable crossover fanfic, The Phantom of the Tollbooth.
CS Lewis: Till We Have Faces. Faces is my current answer for what my favorite book is, so I'm taking that, though it feels criminal to leave The Silver Chair behind.
LM Montgomery: The Blue Castle. As much as I love Anne and Emily, it came down to Blue Castle and A Tangled Web, and I'm a sucker for Valancy's romantic journey.
E Nesbit: Five Children and It. Probably the most classic Edwardian children's fantasy, though still a hard choice to make. Nesbit is another author who had a huge influence on me as a writer.
Robert C O'Brien: Mrs Frisby and the Rats of NIMH. A childhood book I'm really sentimental about. I should re-read it.
Meredith Ann Pierce: The Darkangel. The first in the archaic lunar vampire trilogy. This will always be frustrating, only having the first in the series, but if I can only read the first, maybe I'll forget about how angry the third novel left me.
Sherwood Smith: Crown Duel. At one time, this swords-and-manners fantasy duet was one of my absolute favorite fandoms, and clever me has both books in one volume, so I don't have to choose.
Anne Elisabeth Stengl: Starflower. My favorite of the Tales of Goldstone Wood series. We'll have to test whether I can actually get sick of Eanrin.
JRR Tolkien: The Lord of the Rings. I've never actually read it through as an adult and, look at that, I have a three-in-one volume. Cheating!
Vivian Vande Velde: Spellbound. I've read much of VVV's YA fantasy and liked a lot of it, but none more so than The Conjurer Princess and its fast-paced tale of revenge. The Spellbound edition includes the prequel and a bonus short story, so I'm good to go.
PG Wodehouse: The World of Mr Mulliner. There are some hilarious novels I'm leaving behind here, including all the Bertie Wooster stuff. But there are some absurdly fun Mulliner stories and this edition is like three hundred pages. That'll keep me happy for a long while on my island.
Jack Zipes (editor): Spells of Enchantment. This is an enormous compilation of western fairy tales. I've owned it since 2004 or so, and I've still never finished it. Now, on my island, I'll no longer have the excuse.
Tagging anyone else who feels like doing this!
#reading#charlotte bronte#jane eyre#daphne du maurier#rebecca#clare b dunkle#the hollow kingdom#william goldman#the princess bride#shannon hale#book of a thousand days#georgette heyer#cotillion#eva ibbotson#a countess below stairs#norton juster#the phantom tollbooth#gaston leroux#the phantom of the opera#cs lewis#till we have faces#lm montgomery#the blue castle#e nesbit#five children and it#robert c o'brien#mrs frisby and the rats of nimh#meredith ann pierce#the darkangel trilogy#sherwood smith
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So, I usually check your Tumblr for any updates to #IALS, cause I really like the banners. But I was not prepared for this week's banner. The side by side intensity of Mavid was too much for my heart to handle. Holy s@#$!!!!!
And then the chapter? I was crying. Max's heartbreak and just complete disconnection is felt. But Lance? That child has so much strength.
Then all the parallels in the different timelines this chapter! I know all the chapters have some parallel. But I just loved all of them here. Especially little Arthur with his 'we need to brush their hair cause its so silly' (btw that whole scene just made me want to have a baby and I'm so firmly anti-children for my life that its not even funny) and then teen Arthur learning what silly hair means in different contexts!
I did not know about crown day, but I wish we could expand it to South Asia so people can learn to respect curly hair. I can't tell you how many times I've seen a brown girl with their hair tied back and it just being brushed out fuzz. My mom to this day can't accept that she has curly hair that shouldn't be brushed. It makes me so sad that we're so sanitized to fit public standards without realizing.
Then Max validating his son's needs and not sidelining them with the 'but I did this'. I never thought of my experience with my mom like that. That she loves me, but I didn't get that love the way I need so I can internalize it. I am so happy for Lance and Max to reclaim that home life they both so desperately need to heal.
And David, you obsessive French fu@#$!, 😭😭you're working so hard. I can't believe I didn't realize until this chapter just how much even though I could see it. I was stuck on the Jaden of it all!! Cause David chose to date Jaden, he just never even considered the possibility of moving on from Max. He could have chosen to heal in a way that didn't take over his entire life. But he went above and beyond. David just decided that fuck the rest of the world, if its not Max, it doesn't matter. So he chose to stay with Jaden instead of trying to actually find a less painful love. He could have moved on and tried to find someone he could actually love! But he didn't even try! That's so romantic and crazy!!!!
But then the wall scene, dude.😳 Dude.🤯 Dude.😖☠ I have re-read that scene so many times now. If it has me feeling things then RIP Max. David needs to get angry more. Also, I just kept imagining this whole scene of David losing it in front of Jaden and the kids. Jaden would bust a blood vessel 😈 Like yeah dude, compete all you want with Max. Try to get in the way of his relationships with his kids. It doesnt matter.
Also, you know something? I was compiling a list of my fave couples for my friend and #IALS of course made it to the list. But you know what else did? Hannibal and Interview with the Vampire.
Hannibal - Blond obsessive European serial killer (raised in France) who falls in love at first snark with a rude asf FBI profiler. Eats people. Is a gourmet level cook and loves taking care of his FBI agent husband who doesn't know yet that they're married and have an adopted daughter together.
Interview with the Vampire - Obsessive French fucker who falls in love at first sight with a very mean pimp (who does it to take care of his family). Eats people. Likes to spoil and keep his baby happy. His husband wants a daughter, well okay then, he's going to give him a child.
Do either of those shows sound familiar to you?🙃 But my main question is, when are we getting a dark!David that Max can't resist even when he's trying desperately and falls off the edge of sanity for? And DML doesn't count! Cause I said so!
Fun fact - I made banner ages go and i kept it until we got to this chapter hehe. i was so excited to share it!!
i am a sucker for parallels as y'all know so oops you will always see them generously sprinkled around :)
your comment about south asians and curly hair is so true because here in SL (curly hair is very common in the north because of genes + humidity) and a lot of girls feel forced to straighten or iron their hair (and save up money) because they feel like they are 'not pretty' if they have curly hair. i am so tempted to write a fucking article about this tbh because this is yet another way of setting and forcing unrealistic beauty standards.
the whole idea of 'tell me how to love you' is not always practical in real as you said. not everyone's love language is the same. but i think this is such a max thing to do. i think he cares enough to make that extra step. in fact, he will see it one more time 👀
And everything you said about David made me so emotional. We'll be digging into some of it in the next chapter! Because you are absolutely right in the sense that what he did was also a sacrifice. dating jaden was not an easy option. i wish we could have explored their relationship more but i couldn't without giving too much away but being with David (if you look closely) caused david a lot of pain too.
Hannibal and IWTV are two top tier shows and two of my faves. Not us having fine af taste oof.
Hahaha Dark David is truly something else. I would love to explore it (if yall have ideas 👀) because he truly has the potential to fuck shit up he just chooses not to smh. we will see a hint of dark david (or maybe unhinged david) in lbaf 5. we'll see.
SEE YOU NEXT WEEK <3
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
Thanks to @thepiper0fhameln for the tag.
1. How many works do you have on ao3? 68
2. What's your total ao3 word count? 666,406
3. What fandoms do you write for? At the moment just Captain America but also have done X men, Castlevania, Supernatural, Harry Potter, Witcher
4. Top five fics by kudos:
Obsessions Release (Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy)
Game Changing (Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy)
That Sinking Feeling (Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy)
The Vampire Sex Club (Trevor Belmont/Alucard)
He Ate My Heart (Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes
5. Do you respond to comments? Yeah I try and reply to all of them
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?God uhhh I don't usually do angsty endings but probably Betrayal which is a Drarry one but that's only really cos I never got round to finishing it, it was meant to end in a happier place
7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? lol god idk I am a sucker for a happy ending so that's hard to pick, it's probably gonna be The Officers Tent just cos that's gonna have a sappy as hell ending
8. Do you get hate on fics? I don't think I ever had apart from the first post I ever did on ao3 where someone told me my formatting looked ugly but someone replied to that comment before I'd even read it telling the to shut the hell up :D
9. Do you write smut? all of it is smut
10. Craziest crossover: oh uhhh I wrote a Libertines/Harry Potter cross over once but its safe to say you won't find that shit anywhere :D the other one I wrote was throwing Hannibal into The Meat Grinder
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? I don’t think so.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated? no
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes, but it was with one of my friends and a very long time ago
14. All time favorite ship? I mean Stucky at the moment but I may change my mind on that one day
15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I WILL FINISH THEM ALL how dare you
16. What are your writing strengths? probably smut, conversations and I've been told I'm funny?
17. What are your writing weaknesses? Long sentences with a million commas, repetitive sentence structure (according to every editor I've ever sent work to) over using the em dash, putting the word 'just' in about 5 million times to every fic...over exaggerating?
18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language? idk like I get why people do it but I have to stop and either click and translate or scroll to the bottom and that's gonna interrupt the flow of the fic, unless your intention is that I'm not supposed to understand it. I'd probably more go for 'he said something in Russian Steve didn't understand' . That being said one of my favourite fics at the moment does it all the time so it clearly hasn't put me off that much as it :D
19. First fandom you wrote in? Harry Potter.
20. Favorite fic you've written? Probably He Ate My Heart but I don't know if that's just cos it's the one that got the most likes/interactions in this fandom and I'm a praise slut?
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I don't know how I didn't stop to think that being anonymous actually makes me very mysterious - you just avoided my villain era. Oh yeah, there should be a complaints box, so we could inform and complain about this total mutual discomfort we are going through.
who knew my messy essay would save my neck, thank you for your mercy. I think it could be a result of the second star, the power has gone to my head, I'm going to try to change that😔
now you kind of have to tell this joke or I won't be able to sleep peacefully.
yeah! they actually did a titans show and it looks like it was something like 8 or 80, I didn't watch it either but the reviews are always someone either liking it or hating it, never in between. buying all the comics is my princess dream- but okay, since you're talking about game universes, I agree with you, but tell me I'm not crazy when I say that nightwing completely eat in the Lego games.
that's exactly why I started watching Legends of Tomorrow lmao, they're so silly and chaotic and I love it, not to mention it's the kind of humor that makes me laugh genuinely when I least expect it. OH NO- WAIT In that case I would happily get started for you with an honorable mention to the kiss after their first date and the phrase “I can't be normal” and right after the “I don't want you to be normal” HJSJWKSNDEKK time passes but I'm still stuck in this moment.
they... they canceled the show? haha what? 😀
“slightly traumatized” LMFAO- this shouldn’t be so funny but yeah, I totally get it. I know there's this supercorp thing (I think that's the name) and they are literally the golden retriever gf and the black cat gf 😭 do you still have this blog? asking for scientific research
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you're welcome, i'll be here all night [ignore the timezone difference] to remind you how cool and mysterious you are. i would joke and say my inbox is technically a complaints box too but i feel like we'd make one joke about it and somehow add another conversation to our list 👀
i'm not saying i told you so but i did warn you that the second star would be too much. keep that in mind if you ever want to ask for a third one.
honestly, the joke was just going to be the blood-sucker thing which is a direct reference to vampire [both the song and the fic] but then you made the blood-sucker comment for me so my reference is kind of irrelevant by now 😶
i would poke fun at the show for that but i think all my comfort shows have those types of reviews too. i'm pretty sure hawkeye didn't do that well with the general public so i can't hold it against titans. i cannot believe you're bringing up the Lego games because, this is embarrassing to admit but, i was OBSESSED with the Lego Batman 2 game and that's exactly what led me to fall down the DC rabbit hole and eventually the Nightwing rabbit hole. after Lego Batman came Injustice and then the Batman Arkham series which is still my favorite videogame series to this day. even though i never finished origins.
i'm serious do NOT encourage me to talk about this show, i can go on for ages, it's so silly but so important to me and it honestly has the best queer representation of all the Arrowverse shows. [with the exception of Batwoman which was taken from us too soon. and yes that is another rant.] ajksdfhjaghjhdagjh that episode will live in my mind rent free until the day i die! i remember watching it when it aired and i lost my damn mind at the "i don't want you to be normal!" outburst. i love them with all my heart.
whoops, i didn't realize you didn't know. i don't know what season you stopped at but basically, without spoiling anything, Season 7 ended in a cliffhanger and then the news came out that both Legends of Tomorrow and Batwoman were cancelled AKA the two shows with the most queer representation. meanwhile, the flash [aka the show with like literally zero rep unless you count subtext] got to do its last [awful, btw] season. as you can tell, i'm still pissed about it.
i have a love-hate relationship with supercorp because i adore them but [to no one's surprise] the CW ruined them and just used their relationship as queerbait since the show was obviously going downhill. the blog is actually still up but i am far too embarrassed to leak it because...yikes.
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My experience with Asagao Academy
As you may have guessed (or not), I like videogames. Since I was I kid, I used to play those pre-programmed one that eeeevery computer known to man has (you know, like solitaire and such) and maybe try the occasional random one that there is on it because your brother installed it (because you share the pc, obviously) ooor because your parents installed it for you. Anyway, though I didn't have much *variety* when I was younger, I've always liked videogames. My favorite type of games are visual novels and though I have played a decent amount of them, I'm always looking for new ones. And so, there I was, looking around in itchio for any good titles and then, I stumbled upon this game.
I sometimes had seen it while scrolling and I remember thinking the title was weird, but since I was pretty bored that day I finally decided to look at the page. The art-slyle was...pretty good, though I was taken aback when I got to see the routes of the game. They looked, well...weird to me 😅 Aaand I understood why once I read the summary: the routes were (based on) a group of youtubers named Normal Boots, which....I didn't know even existed in the first place ((O__o)) Due to that and my opinion about the character sprites, I laughed a bit and then continued searching.
Some looooong months and then, one day, I found myself EXTREMELY bored. Nothin remotely interesting to play was insight, so I just said *Meh, why not?* and decided to finally play: Asagao Academy -Normal Boots Club-. And I have to say that...I liked it more than I was expecting 😀
It is not something sooo out of the ordinary, but the different routes and characters are pretty enjoyable and funny. The game has maaany anime and videogames references (which I wasn't expecting) that make even the more random scenes somethin that can make you laugh. As I mentioned before, I didn't know about the youtubers who *inspired* these characters, so I had the opportunity to see and enjoy them as what they are portrayed here: just characters.
My very first route and absolute favorite one was PBG. What can I say? I'm a sucker for the childhood friend trope!! 🥰 Funny enough, I just chose him because I liked his *design* out of all the guys (and even got to compare him to Shaggy once 😅), but overall, ended up reaally liking him.
The pics and various moments on the route were soo cute and funny too! It may not be the very best for other people, but for me? It was practically a perfect fit! :D Aaaand as you know...I'm prone to create AUs of everything I come to like enough so...I came up with a little Vampire!hana AU XD
I played the game till its completion during a short vacation last year...but sadly, my save files got erased due to a certain accident...so I have to start from zero TT o TT But I don't mind! I will just have to play it again 😌
The game is kind old so the fandom is really quiet right now (which made me a little sad while looking for fanarts and such) but if you feel interested enough I recommend you try it out! ^ w ^/
#asagao academy#asagao academy game#my experience#with a game#visual novel#game experience#hana mizuno#asagao academy fanart#favorite route#opinions#pbg#asagao academy pbg#traditional drawing#asagao academy au#vampire au#childhood friends#sweet romance#cute romance#childhood friend trope#hana x pbg#hanabutter#asagao pbg#asagao hana
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So, I bought myself Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle manga volume 16 translated in my mother language for pure amusement and I'm having my friend reacted to it with me in several parts.
The first thing she noticed is the slurp sfx 😭 but on not-so-serious-side, if Kamui gonna lick me like that I'm going to evaporate Anyway the language here is so so so so cringy (but hilariously funny) I vowed to never translate like this.
This part is like softie cuter in here. Kamui was like "Subaru, wake up :((((( Since we arrived in this world, Subaru was brought to sleep in this reservoir and I'm always protected your sleep :((((" and it was so extra cute 😭😭😭
Now finally I can see how he attached his hand clearly and both me and my friend noticed that whoever translated this translated vampire as "blood-sucker". Both of us goes: mosquito?????? 😭😭😭 But still how that works?? Like he just took back his hand, put it close to his shoulder and it reattached itself??? Yuuko, there is more explanation to that other than super regeneration.
I truly want to know how Kamui called Seishiro in original version, because this version is kinder than the English one. I mean I would translate Seishiro as bastard but here he called him "that person". Anyway, Kamui being surrounded by his own blood??? How vampire works in this series (999+)
I love the font used for Subaru's telepathy in this part (it was different from the one they used for Subaru's words to Sakura). Kamui goes "DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE TO---" and Subaru was like "Wait."
What a powerful move.
I know I already commented on this before but this Subaru??? So fine???? I don't even regret throwing my money for him (again) when TRC is going to have its CPC version. God bless CLAMP for getting in their head during Tokyo arc and drew the vampire twins looking so fine in every panels.
Do you mean I'm gonna stop here? Of course no, because I have volume 17 as well. See me continuing this later.
#and i haven't add my favorite panel from trc#it deserves its own post anyway#tsubasa reservoir chronicle
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Thanks for the tag @that-bl-bitch !!!
Your all time favorite bl/gl character and why. Ooooo okay so I have to pick 2: Ink from Bad Buddy and Wei Wuxian from The Untamed. Ink because I am just in love with her and chaotic lesbian ways and I would let Milk Pansa trample me anyday. And Wei Wuxian because of course come on now he's one of my favourite fictional characters full stop and the series version is just a great adaptation of the poor chaos he radiates in mdzs
What’s your one character from a bl/gl you wanted to punt into the stratosphere (you only get one so choose wisely). Kengkla from Love by Chance bc fuck him what he did to Techno was rape and there's no excuse you can't pretend it was mutual Techno was in no way able to give consent.
The best music moment from a BL/GL Okay so you know that scene in episode 6 of Not Me (even tho I'd argue Not Me doesn't really count as a BL cause the point of the show isn't the romance but shhh) where Sean is trying to choke out White and I'll Understand by Roza is playing. Yeah I don't know why but I just feel like that song and that scene and the lyrics and the vibe of the song as a whole just really went well in that scene and made the scene so much more impactful and heartbreaking and it didn't just feel like generic sad music it like hit hard and I just love that scene okay.
What’s a popular heterosexual text that you would like to see adapted into a BL/GL? Twilight as a GL cause fucking why not. No one can tell me a GL version of Twilight wouldn't be fucking incredible. Plus I'm a big time sucker for lesbian vampires.
A scene from a BL/GL that always makes you laugh. Not Me again but the scene where Sean does the trust fall to prove he's talking to Black not White and so Black doesn't catch him and he just falls to the floor. And Black's just looking at him like wtf?? And he spends just like a second too long on the floor before getting up and it's just awkward and hilarious and I love that scene soooooo much.
Biggest disappointment. Oh boy so I don't know how many of y'all have watched Yuri Or Another but if you haven't pls never do it is just absolute shit and is honestly just offensive to all wlw like I had absolutely no knowledge going in and I kind of wish I'd never watched it cause I was uncomfortable the whole time and Hairi and Yuri didn't even end up together by the end Yuri just was ike wow strange that you're sexually attracted to me but you're my best friend and I'mma get back together with my ex. Like such a fucking let down.
What two random bl/gl characters would make hilarious exes? Todd(Not Me) and Wai (Bad Buddy). I have honestly no reasoning behind this other than I think it would be funny if these two violent lil shits tried to be soft around eachother.
Who would be funniest person to watch a bl/gl in its entirety and which one would you make them watch. I think if I had to pick I'd my make this one friend of mine watch Utsukushii Kare/My Beautiful Man with no prior knowledge going in cause I always enjoy her chaotic commentaries on movies and stuff plus I just would love to see someone live unfiltered reaction to alot of what happens in that series.
Best wardrobe moment/or character wardrobe from a bl/gl. I'm obsessed with all Rokkaku's non-work clothes in Cherry Magic like dude I would steal all those clothes if I could.
Tagging: @angelbesideme @isvisomewhere @multi-fandomms and @currentlyily (if you want)
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Cut Throat And All That Jazz
Having a somewhat large scar across your neck is just asking for attention.
I have a sizeable scar halfway down my neck and I get asked about it - often.
Usually, I say “oh this *rubbing my fingers over the sensitive raised skin* ha! funny story, I was held hostage by some pirates and they held a knife to my throat - left a scar,” people tend to step back and gasp. (i wonder why?) then I proceed to say “no I'm kidding - I had cancer.” They have the same reaction again. I find this very amusing.
So at 20 years old, I was diagnosed with cancer. it's an odd thing to say and even odder to live through. But first, let me just say I AM A-OKAY!!! Don’t worry, the C-word brings a lot of terrible connotations (for good reason) but I am fine, doing great!
I was operated on twice and had radiotherapy once. The whole story of radiotherapy is more than worthy of its own post because of the absolute complexity and peculiarness to the whole experience. But let me just tell you about my operations.
I was told I needed my thyroid out around March time, it was scary but back then I didn’t have as many things scaring me.
My operation got postponed twice - my user name doesn’t include unlucky fir nothing...
I eventually had my operation on August 23rd, an exact month after my brother's accident. Thank god my aunt had come to visit she was such a good help- she has a healing spirit.
Before my operation, was slightly nervous but I had gone through and was going through so much that I just wanted it over and done with. My mum brought me to the hospital - private, thank god for work insurance! I'm escorted to my room, that was almost like a hotel room and definitely nicer than the IBIS hotel room my mother and I had to stay in one time in Lisbon.
A young nurse comes in, smiling, very warm and she looks at my chart.
“Emma Wilson, is your dad called David?” Not exactly what I was expecting but ok, “umm.. yes?” “That’s funny a year ago when he was here for a couple of nights this was the bed he stayed in and I was his nurse!” Now, when a hospital knows you so personally that you're welcomed like an old friend you know that your family has a lot of medical issues.
Let’s skip over the boring parts. I get those tights on, I put on the robe, hair in a net, she tries to put my IV in (to any vampires out there - don’t even bother with me I’m useless my veins are so deep) I have a fear of needles so being prodded various times is not good for the nerves. I settle in, all set, my boss, co-workers and family members have all wished me luck, and so have a hand full of friends. I would like to mention that those who were there for me weren’t all people I had expected to be, but I am so grateful for them and their warmth.
I was wheeled into the operation block.
My mum warned me to close my eyes, she had been operated on a few times in her life, people don’t know that about her but she’s been through a lot, all through her life and yet she’s ever sweet, caring and helpful to everyone (even when I tell her not to be to certain people who use her and hurt her-karma will get to you buddy).
So, true to my very nature, I ignored my mothers' advice - but who was actually expecting me to obey orders (ha! you obviously don't know me). So I am trying to take in everything I can, it’s very exciting to me. I wanted to study to be a doctor so I love all the details and procedures. I meet my surgeon and anesthesiologist there.
Side story - my anesthesiologist is one of a kind. Now I’m not into ladies. But this woman glowed. She radiated this innocent, warm caring aura and I mean this (I wasn’t on any drugs yet so these are all conscious thoughts) she was an angel. And if you ever need a great anesthesiologist contact me because the whole team and her were top notch.
So I get onto the metal bed, bright lights, not what greys anatomy looks like but not too far off. There are quite a few doctors and nurses, but I guess slicing through someone's throat is a pretty big deal, don’t want to slip and cut my carotid artery.
So I'm allergic to some anaesthetics - and this is scary. If you want to research how easy it is to kill someone by anaesthesia you’ll understand why they get paid quite nicely. I was super scared that I’d have a reaction and die. Let’s not sugar coat things, I could, and I was scared. Not of dying, that's far too mediocre of a fear for me. I was genuinely scared of leaving my family when they were already so fragile. And when I got the news that my tumour was malicious and problematic as it actually was latched onto my artery I was so mad at myself, like Jesus, give your parents a break!
So they used the oldest form of anaesthesia which wouldn’t cause my body to log off for good - I was happy they were taking extra measures to calm me down. “This is very safe, but one side effect that modern medicine doesn’t have is that - it burns”. Now I was pretty overwhelmed and was like honey please, I feel no pain. But on my second operation, I felt it a lot more so I can really explain this to you.
The IV is in my hand, dripping saline fluid through my body. This new fluid though feels like battery acid. And I’m a sucker for pain (sorry mum you raised a freak - sue me!) But the fact that you can really feel it, going through the capillaries in your hand, to your fingers, coursing up your arm, finally to your shoulder, it feels thick, like your blood is setting into a thick custard. Then, after your shoulder, you're out, like a light. It works, and that's what matters, but it’s very weird. It's like it happens in slow motion but super fast all at once.
I wake up in the after surgery unit care *insert proper fancy name here*. The nurse is so warm, in fact,I can't fault any doctor or nurse ever throughout this experience. I guess because I was so vulnerable, unable to talk, move, communicate, its like a mother and baby like experience. It was reminiscent of a mother and her newborn (ok let's calm down that's too much ewey gewy for me).
I had read some articles others had written about their thyroid surgeries, a bunch of babies. Ok,I don't want to put people down that’s mean. But, if anyone is going to have this surgery and are scared, here’s how I calmed myself down the day of, the week before and the month before.
“Emma, it has to be done. You know this. It will only get worse. You’re young, you haven’t even turned 20 yet and you have your whole life ahead of you. Get it done. Jack got through what he got through, you can get through this. They wouldn’t put you through things you couldn’t handle - things have a way of working out - they always do.”
Now I know that’s super-specific advice and maybe - probably - didn’t help at all. But you can actually get through anything. Humans are quite the resistant bunch.
So I get back to my ward, there's a girl who’s just had her capillary on her nose burnt off or whatever that’s called. She’s my age and making so much fuss. I’m laying peacefully. I had the remote to the tv so I offered it to her (I’m for sure going to heaven I know).
Now,what did she choose to watch on tv? Guess.
The Fault In Our Stars. Cute right? NO,IT’S NOT CUTE! The girl in the film. What’s she dying of? THYROID CANCER. So yeah that’s what we watched to fall asleep to - lovely. God is playing some sick jokes on me.
I got home, I ate a lot of ice cream, soup and was pampered by my auntie. Everything was smooth after this. Apart from getting the results of the biopsy and having to go through it again 2 months later but it went well. All-in-all having a badass scar across your neck makes you look hardcore and it’s my ‘battle scar’ even if that’s super cheesy.
E. L. Wilson
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