#I'm still not all that into the marvel fandom anymore or writing but i saw ffh last week with my bestie and it's been on the brain 💖

[moonstruckholland]

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[blueberrypancakesworld]

Coldness is my love for you

Loki x fem!reader

warning : obsession, kiss, Loki using is powers, wounds, hurt/comfort kinda, kidnapping

Summary : What was supposed to be a simple meeting between the representatives of the twelve worlds. But an attack not only changes everything, the King of Jotunheim also strikes and finally takes what is rightfully his.

Info : The first Marvel work here wow finally a little motivation for Marvel eventho I'm not really anymore watching the latest movies and shows and stopped after Loki Season 1. I still wanna write for it so here we are plus the Fandom is still in me somewhere ;) Have fun reading.

Ps : Favorite movies : Thor.1 & Blade

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She had never seen him as cold. She never had. Ever since she had met him, the prince no the king of Jotunheim at a gathering of the worlds.

She, as a human representative of Mitgard, was also present, together with the Avengers, only as a legal representation, even if this seemed almost superfluous in the face of the gods. But then what? Right, the attack by someone unknown, something or someone who did not belong to the twelve worlds, someone from outside.

But the attack, even if the gods could defend them well, she still felt the fear as she faced these hideous figures. Herself without weapons, without strength and without a plan of battle.

She was a human, not a god or a super-trained assassin. She was just a damned substitute. She had seen Black Widow stand in front of her as the Avengers protected her agent and fought the creatures.

She could do nothing but clutch the pen in her hand tightly and hide behind one of the already overturned tables. Clutching her "weapon" tightly, she felt the floor vibrate as the powers of the gods and fighters seemed to break the room.

Her heartbeat was almost chewing the drones inside her as the battle went down. In her trembling hands the pen that had almost made her cry as she realized she should have stabbed the monsters with a pen. But in her fear she let out a scream as suddenly the wooden table was torn away. It wasn't one of the Avengers or well-meaning gods.

These creatures had found her in the turmoil of battle and made her the new target for death. Fear was in her eyes as she looked up and backed away, staggering and barely standing on her feet.

The pen in her hand all the more ridiculous as she held it in front of her. What was she supposed to do? But before she could even use the pen, something else reached her. Ice. Light and dark shimmering solid ice that had placed itself between her and the creature like a wall.

Her breath escaped in a cloud due to the rapid drop in temperature. ,,No monster should hurt a lady in my presence," she heard that voice, the silver tongue, the serpent, the god and king of Jotunheim. She saw the green eyes looking at her with amusement. This god of mischief was having fun with all this chaos as the scriptures and books always said.

His words at that time were still full of goodness, so disturbing that she didn't recognize the lie. But she should have seen it. She was only half aware of the brutal, almost joyful act of killing the creature.

She saw exactly how the warm red blood ran down the ice, steaming slightly, but it was a minor matter in the sight of the god. Because the only thing that mattered was his beautiful eyes, the green that attracted her and slowly turned red, the red of his true form.

The red of the ice giant's true form before she felt his cool hand and her vision blurred. The last thing she saw before he took her in his arms and disappeared was her friends, the end of the fight and the feeling that she would never see them again.

A feeling she was to prove right.

Because even now, weeks later, they had never seen their homeland, the earth, the avengers, their friends or family again. The only thing she saw in this cold great palace was the ice, the green of magic, when she tried to get out his spell simply created a new door, wall or end.

As well as finding him sitting on his golden throne. ,,The throne that belongs to me" she heard his voice in her head, a painful memory as his hand gripped hers so tightly that his ice threatened to pass to her and she was reminded every day by the freezing burn of what that meant.

He was a god and a king of this ice planet, but she was sure he couldn't feel love, he was simply obsessed with her. ,,My dear, you quickly understand that here on this ground... you are my property" he had said to her after a few days when she still thought the Avenegrs would come or he would take her home.

But no. It was more her fear and questioning that annoyed him when he told her this. A fact she knew to be true. For he presented her with a room of considerable size with bookshelves, a bed and although not made of ice it seemed freezing cold.

The walls and floor, though barely visible, were covered by a sheet of ice that he could see. When she moved, walked around or just breathed, he saw everything. Like a bird in a cage. Like his property as he placed more and more precious jewelry on her body.

The gold rings, the dark red gemstones, the green of her rings or the blue on her necklace. No matter what he gave, it wasn't for her, it was for him to make his property even more beautiful. ,,I've brought you something pet," she heard, as she did every day, if you could call it a day on this planet. She was almost grateful for every moment she didn't spend sleeping when he let her sleep in peace. She didn't have his attention.

But even this was only at first. ,,Thank you" came from her lips, a word she had said too often recently. She did almost nothing else but thank him, thank him. Being grateful to him was the only important thing for him.

Because that meant her love it was not a question for him she had no choice and the sooner his darling would accept this the easier he would become for her in the long run. His steps came closer, his magic passed through the ice and a chair formed beside her.

His form, though now human, she knew that when the light of the other worlds shone through the ice, his emotions came out or when he frightened her. Which he did with every second. Ever since he had "saved" her.

She barely felt the cold of the jewelry because nothing could be colder than his love. The love he gave her, she tried to lie to him when he didn't care. But she knew she would be lying if she didn't respond to him. The beginning of the beginning that still made her heart beat.

His touch was warm and not cold, his love in the form of tenderness and understanding was attractive and there was even a moment when she had loved him. But now she was his pretty jewel. Feeling his cold blue hand on hers, she looked up and gazed into those mesmerizing eyes.

He licked around her jewelry, his touch gentle, and yet she felt the warning chill he could freeze her into a sculpture, and yet he didn't. ,,Fear doesn't suit you dear," he said and something stirred in her eyes and she came back from her aversion, her thoughts.

She was with him again and saw from his grin that he knew. ,,I'm-I'm not afraid," she said to him, but she knew that he didn't even hear it, on the contrary. His hand wandered further up her warm body, searching for her warmth, something he didn't have.

She knew she was tense, knew he still needed her as leverage for the other worlds, or at least her earth. His kisses, which seemed nothing but cold, were full of love. ,,Of course you didn't," he smirked, the green of his eyes returning as she saw his true form recede.

He knew that although it fascinated her, it was like an escape reflex. You could burn yourself on any fire and you could also get freezer burn on a cold blue flame like his heart of ice. But despite everything, despite everything, she leaned into his arms, let him hold her, let him kiss her, let him tell her stories.

Because something inside her was afraid that something worse than this would happen if he stopped loving her one day. ,,You know all this coldness is my love for you," he reminded her as he felt the goosebumps shivering a normal stupid human reaction he hated it made him realize they weren't right.

But it didn't matter, it didn't matter that she knew she didn't love him. Once he had the Infiniy Stone, she would be his one way or the other, then everything would be his forever.

He gave her one last kiss knowing that it was all just a game, a trick at the cost of time. But he was the god of mischief, he could play this game for a long time to come.

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[evilwickedme]

I saw in the tags you mentioned spideypool fic recs 👂 I'm listening

breaking the DC streak to go to Marvel because fun fact I've been into DC for six months and into Marvel comics for eight years so

anyway a majority of my spideypool bookmarks are from 2015 and I have no idea if most of them are any good which is an interesting problem to have but I still have a solid list for y'all

Say Anything...Except That - I was following this from the first chapter and I'm now mutuals with the author which was very fanboy moment for me (if you're seeing this, hi!). it has a lot of old school fanfiction.net quirks to it which might be a bit difficult to swallow if you've only been reading fic for a few years, but honestly I think this fic is really good and holds up to this day. it's been a while since I read it last but iirc Deadpool has to protect Spider-Man or Peter from assassination attempts and there's a lot of pining involved. also mattfoggy ended up having a nice arc because this was 2015 and Daredevil had just aired (this is technically incomplete there's one chapter left but if I had to reread it multiple times when there were only like ten chapters you can handle it)

under attack - more fics by people who are wayyy too cool to have followed me back and yet somehow did? anyway this is part of stackthedeck's team red slash series (ELITE ship fyi) but this one is spideypool focused and has some nice fluff. fighting as flirting idk what else to say it's golden

#NoPlaceLikeHome - do y'all know ask-spiderpool? you should it's one of the best blogs on this damn website and a must-read for spideypool shippers. anyway this is that version of spideypool's first time together which is cute :D short and sweet basically. sciderman has a lot of fics for the spiderman fandom in general and their ask-spiderpool au in particular and they're all worth reading

Dissonance - another longfic that took half a decade to write about deadpool protecting spider-man from harm. I actually don't know why this trope is so good peter really can defend himself but there you go

Perfect Enough - ohm y gOD this fic series is so good. this au hinges on such a tiny difference in peter's history but it makes ALL the difference. anyway in this world basically nobody has a functional secret identity anymore except for spider-man. meanwhile, wade wilson and peter parker start dating. so much plot, two separate longfics each around 140k, good luck this CONSUMED my life

speaking of consumed, rippling - this is part of a series called Into the Multiverse and is based on the Spiderverse film so it's Peter B. which I LOVE (spideybpool FUCKS). the series spun out of the authors' other series and it is, in fact, a pain to read the main entries in the series without reading the other serieses which means that I did spend two weeks doing little to nothing except reading deniigiq's work, but a. it was worth b. this one can be read as a standalone! wade jumps in front of a bullet for peter b and he angsts about it I love it

finally ahem speaking of Peter B, did you know I've been writing spideypool fic since 2015 and I wrote one specifically for spiderverse? I'm a mess (but I'm the mess that you wanted) is really a mix of spiderverse and comic canon like, five years into the future, and deals mostly with like, depression and suicidal ideation on Peter's behalf, but hey there's also a plot AND a happy polyam ending which, what else could you want really

anyway sorry the list isn't longer I didn't bookmark so many of my favorite spideypool fics and now they're lost in the void forever :/

[canonizzyhours]

Hot take: Both the 'canyon' and the wider OFMD 'fandom' can turn people away from the show. This fandom's infighting is a waste of time and everyone would be happier looking for fans they agree with vs. spending hours wasting their life arguing about pointless shit. (Yes, this post is ironic, but I'm tired of moralizing, and wanted to rant.)

You as a fan are responsible for curating the community you care about and finding passion there, not endlessly posting rants about how weirdly passionate other fans are.

Fandom is just a bunch of very opinionated people who get online and try to find community and for the most part, that's okay! You consumed a piece of media and have opinions about it, but know why you're creating a post. You're not actually going to get murdered by Izzy lovers if you properly tag your Tumblr posts as Izzy-critical. For example.

I write OFMD meta, it's very easy to pop on Stede Critical if I'm discussing why I don't like aspects of his arc, or Ed-Critical for how he was written in S2. Proper tagging shows respect to Ed-focused or Stede-focused fans without clogging the tag with hate. I enjoy aspects of Izzy's character, and if I'm negative I STILL tag Izzy-critical.

Trying to claim moral superiority for 'choosing the right side' in fandom looks immature on both ends. In the end, yeah, I'm sure people in both camps were harassing people. I've got 15 Izzy-focused words on AO3 in this fandom on all branches of loving-to-hating aspects of his character. I have gotten death threats, from both camps, I get it. But those are shitty people, regardless of fandom affiliation. I don't hate an entire subgroup due to that.

Izzy having a subsect in fandom is not really that different than Ed, Stede, Olu/Jim, or hell, S2 positive fans having their own spaces and communities.

I was in fandoms for Marvel (Loki), Supernatural (Castiel) and Witcher (Jaskier). I know how prevalent some side characters can be, it's as if it's y'alls first time seeing this shit. Liking or disliking a character isn't a moral failing. THIS is the ACTUAL reason I saw people leave the fandom.

Moralizing if participating in Izzy (and TBH, Stede) fandom made you a good person or if you were 'filling AO3 with another white man'. Don't complain you don't have water if you haven't even tried to dig a well. Vice versa with only 'pure holy radical leftist non racists' holding themselves above everyone else for liking characters like Edward, Oluwande, or Jim. Why are you wasting time complaining that they aren't represented on AO3?

If you want more Archie fic? Write Archie fic. If you want Ned to get the villian arc he deserved? Do it. If you really hated Izzy and wanted him to die sooner, you have your audience, be respectful of people and their time.

But reader of this post, you are not the moderator for all content created. Why do you spend your time caring about what another ingroup is doing instead of having fun with YOUR in-group??

When this fandom dies out, my stand-out experiences will be the fond memories of what fic I created and the many friends I made along the way. Can you say the same? Or will you remember OFMD because you keyboard warrior'ed your way into not even having fun anymore?

#304.

[bookishtheaterlover7]

Hi all one of bookies friends here.

Everyone needs to calm down

Look at the facts.

Video- showed her without ANY ring a lot

Video-could he be anymore obvious with his left

hand.

Everytime he does or has something come out she does something. This time she shot herself in the hand twice.

And no I no longer find Chris attractive. If your team real i dont care. I just dont like seeing my friends on here who are team or get all worked up bwcause its nothing. It is for nothing we've, proven its fake.

How many holes can you put into a hot air balloon before it can't fly anymore?

To the GP (genaral public) they are married so right after all it was exposed the rings are fake. teams are gunna have to do or try and do clean up for a while. We knew this was going to happen. I expect to see shit about one flying here or the other flying there or they both fly to meet each other. I mean how many roumers in 2 days can start about who is where? It just

makes it look worse and more comical. A real couple wouldnt do damage control at all. Just because a website publishes an article doesn't mean it's a website that reports news or the truth. Remember People mag, US weekly etc is are still mags they use click bait. Don't freak out everytime you hear a rumor that she flew here or did this or that . The fact is its been de bunked disproven if they choose to continue on with the PR BS thats on them a lot of fans are not playing along any more. Im.not playjng along anymore im done with it. I saw a post in instagram that sums everything us well it said

"I am on team PR. But if he wants people

to believe he's with her, then we should

just leave him to it. It's true he owes

us nothing but we also don't owe him

our support anymore."

What point is there to get upset or nervous or anxious over something just because there a rumor about a plane ride. If you wanna believe theres a plane ride maybe its to sign a new contract that this shit is over.

You know its fake i know its fake. And you know what they showed they were gifts from cartier. Maybe her team would shse poney up the money to get cz versions. Frankly it would be even funnier.

We dont owe chris anything.

If you feel silly or stupid or being duped by thibking he was a better man than he is dont be, everyone was. It only goes to show the man could've had awards by now if he picked better scripts

Clean up is gunna happen. WE HAVE SEEN IT. the less you play into it the faster itll be over with.

But dont let this distract you or upset you from a joyus holiday season or take away any happiness you're experiencing or could be experiencing. Focus on something positive and happy. At the very least i saw a blog with a debate about who qas hotter Sam or Castiel. Now THAT is some shit worth arguing about. Not an airheaded Nazi

Thank you, my dear An🫶n.

Honestly, this is a serious wakeup call to a lot. That ring debacle/exposure is something to note, and it could be the sign to many of being done.

And if they aren't, well, I'm happy to partially become the blog that becomes a nostalgic stop for old Chris, Chris Evans before he was a shit person in a shit relationship with a shit person, and Chris Evans Characters Appreciation and absolute SIMPING!!! Oh, and the occasional Albitch hate post, because I still hate her 😆

I'm even thinking it's time to add more Fandoms to my roster. Marvel characters are high on that list. So are book discussions, because I am enjoying that as well 😁

We'll see. The world is my oyster now, especially with that big bomb that fell into our laps, as well as the fact I'm on break and about to undergo the busiest month of my life!!!

It's going to be filled with holiday cheer, family love, Christmas shopping, reconnecting with everyone, and focusing on improving the one love that came back a few months ago, after years... Writing 😊

So, my beautiful weirdos, can we PLEASE take steps towards something new? I think we could use some respite after months, maybe even years of PR Debunking Hell... 🫶

Also, there are certain topics that I don't want to be discussed on here. Because I don't feel comfortable being in the middle of any debate whatsoever (you can ask my dearest friends on here, they know I hate politics and avoid discussing, and eventually debating it, as much as possible). Until my next post, Beloveds 🤗

[amazing-spiderling]

F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom?

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?

What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom?

Hmm... I guess it depends on how you define "in". I feel like my role in fandom circles has a lot to do with making things (whether it's art or fic or scanning in materials that are hard to fine or whatever) and that can be hard to keep up for years and years (especially if your media of choice doesn't HAVE new stuff to share.)

That being said, I think I'll have to say X-Men? I fell into Marvel comics when I was in, oh, fifth or sixth grade, when a friend I saw in the summers introduced me to her collection. She had a lot of X-Men and Excalibur comics (which were current at the time) and I think she had a subscription to get them mailed to her? I didn't have that kind of money and for a long time my comic collecting was sporadic at best. (This is how I ended up with 3 copies of the 1985 Nightcrawler miniseries in my possession today.)

When the movies started coming out in the early 2000's I was SO hype because my friends were smitten with the various actors and I was just excited that for once, my Pride and Prejudice reading pals gave a hoot about that thing I loved.

I don't make a lot of original content for X-Men, but I still read comics, watch stuff, (share stuff) and engage in fandom discussions. It's been... //checks watch// 28 years since the start, so I guess that'll do.

Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

I want more manga style Mattfoggy art and I want it *yesterday.* Every time I see a Japanese or Korean artist dabble in it on Twitter or Tumblr I LAVISH them in compliments because I need them to know how much I appreciate it. I love all of the western style art too, but my 90's anime kid heart wants what it wants.

Collaborative works! Maybe I'm a little biased because I love a little co-writing project, but I would love to see more team-ups between fans. Whether that's illustrated stories, co-written fic, art style swaps or whatever. This fandom is full of so many talented people and I'd love to see them working together more often. :3

Cute fanmerch? There's a little bit out there, but not that much. I know DD isn't the new hotness anymore, and artists have to make things they know will sell, but I would love even some print-on-demand designs that weren't just LOGO or SILHOUETTE or whatever.

Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?

A tricky question for someone who thrives on friends-to-lovers! XD For the sake of this question I assume you mean a platonic relationship that fans explore versus what's canon. In that regard... hmm... While a lot of it can seem really hokey (because people tend to write MCU Peter Parker as even gee-willakers younger than he feels on screen) I think there are many fans who have done more for Team Red than Marvel ever will. Even the silly memey shitposts make me smile, but the comic interactions can be downright toxic. Eesh. I also enjoy it when people write a fun interaction for Jess and Matt, because Defenders didn't give us nearly enough and the fans know what the fans want. :3

[lesslie-sass]

Finale response (tw for panic attack description and mention of cyberstalking)

This took pretty long for me to start writing, this response, mostly cause I was just recovering mentaly, distant myself from this situation for a bit to collect my thoughts and not be so broken while writing it.

This one accident happened in the middle of the night of 3 to 4 november.

Tete-a-tete, I had a panic attack last night. I honestly didn't feel very well all day, nausea, weakness, headache and irritation.

I was so hyperventilated that my stomach started to hurt, tears were rolling down my cheeks, such a warm but bitter feeling, my mind was teeming with thoughts of how lonely I was, that no one cared about me, that I was really so terrible that everyone hated me. With a heavy, trembling hand, I reached for my Cheshire plushie, because there was no one around to comfort me, and at the same time I wanted my mother to hear my ragged breathing and try to comfort me, to show me, that she still cares. Thought her behavior, for several years already, show that she doesn't anymore.

After it was all over, I just lay there clutching a bun in my hands, marveling at my stupid brain. And when I sat down, I saw my cats near my bed on the floor, it made me smile again and cry again, a really bittersweet sensation, a mixture and pains from loneliness.

Yeah, this whole situation affected me even physically and I do still feel aftermaths of it. I fell into terrible manic state, just being angry, annoyed yet energetic, then it was over and grown numb over time. I didn't felt like posting or even draw anything because it feels pointless without passion for it and I don't feel comfortable to post anything here. Even this post I finished only because of recent stupid message I got, though while showing this prick may as well explain why I went on hiatus.

I could go on yet another rant about bigtittiecomitte terrible post but I won't, I'm done and will be pretty brief about it. That post at best nitpicky and at worst just flat out lies (like me ONLY bashing on Uzi and n*zi ship on tumblr, completely ignoring bunch of other content I did and only focusing on small bit of rants you didn't like, lying that I tagged n*zi on multiple posts when theres literally only one and it wasn't about hating n*zi at all) and that's post was in some way a catalist for panic attack I had. Hope it was worth it, you sure did educate me of how terrible this fandom can be and that I really should put myself first. (You know who you are, user with stupid nickname, I know you will read it through your friends accounts, like some creep and get butthurt again and try to further ruin my reputation again)

Speaking of creeps, also the other reason I don't feel comfortable on tumblr:

Yep, they straight said to have their buddy stalking me. Which is gross but from I what I've seen this person is pretty creepy lunatic by themselves, so not much expected. (And I know you will see this post too and I hope you would like to be called what you are, creep)

And in the end, I honestly not sure what to do anymore, this all situation just took any passion for art from me and made me constantly worry that if I do something here I just get harrassed again, that my already shattered psyche get even worse. I'm practicly having depressive episode at this point, I literally don't feel much joy from things I love and just exist in constant numbness, just wishing that after sleep I somehow would feel slightly less numb.

I posted my unpopular takes, so people who also have same opinion, would feel less lonely among the mass who screams that it's "wrong" and "problematic", it's just unpopular. Not for anyone who has different opinion to get uncomfortable or butthurt over it, especially with how I did try to put warnings for it, but people just ignore it and read it to get angry and harrass me.

I don't wanna sympathy, I know I'm not the best person but I do try to be better, I have low empathy and may say something blunt that might come rude, I'm hateful and strong about my opinion on things in media. I just want for this situation to just stop, I won't post my takes anymore if people just stop treating me like a monster, when I'm just mean-spirited but didn't outright harrass or attack anyone.

[frostycatblr-fandom-files]

What am I grateful for, and what does The Bad Batch mean to me? Gosh, honestly, where do I start...?

[Just like your request fic I've been working on, Dragon, this is likely going to be not-so-brief. 😅]

Credits where credits are due: The Bad Batch and The Mandalorian got me into Star Wars again. TBB gets slightly more credit than Mando when it comes to what made me willing to engage in fandom spaces again.

I saw (and experienced) so much negativity, misogyny, and gatekeeping following the release and aftermath of The Force Awakens (2015), The Last Jedi (2017) and The Rise of Skywalker (2019) that I shied away from the franchise and fandom almost as a whole.

I wasn't seeing a lot of "support" for people with my viewpoint of the sequel trilogy at the time. People just couldn't accept nuance; it felt like you either had to hate them or love them from what I saw, no in-betweeners. (I'm able to acknowledge they were the weakest "leg" of the franchise, but I still enjoyed those films for what they were (inherently ridiculous sci-fi). I accept that I may be something of an oddball for that.)

I got so sick of experiencing gatekeeping and/or misogyny in just about every discussion I (perhaps incorrectly) thought was safe to engage in, too. If people (read as: mostly men) I was discussing things with realized that I was a woman, they saw it as an invitation to try QUIZZING ME on my knowledge of the franchise to see if I was "actually a fan, or just some casual".

I didn't really have an interest in keeping up with a franchise I "previously" loved following all that mess as closely as time went on. I grew less and less interested in SW and Marvel became my big thing for a while.

Star Wars was just kinda. There. I didn't feel like entertaining the fixation with any kind of urgency anymore.

Then The Mandalorian dropped in 2019. Like most of the world, I fell in love with Mando and Baby Yoda. That tided me over until 2021, when we got season 1 of The Bad Batch. And oh boy.

That's when things really clicked again. I fell in love HARD with the franchise again and a whole bunch of things fell into place once I decided the Clone Wars era was were I felt most comfortable being and found the most interest (because so much ties into and branches off from that three-year period!).

I started writing fanfiction again, slowly, and Sorry, Wrong Comms! became my first major series following season 2 of TBB.

I started making a few friends and connections in fandom spaces again. Better friends who showed me *support* and *ENCOURAGEMENT* rather than *veiled mockery* in hyper-fixating on a 15 year old animated show and it's spin-off. Friends who've never made me feel like I was enjoying the material in the "wrong" way, or that I wasn't allowed to like certain characters.

I started making art again last year because of Star Wars after years of letting those skills lapse! I taught myself Aurebesh for my art upon realizing that while I may not be able to draw people anymore due to skill degradation, I can still make fanart of the characters I love by using their helmets. (Hell yeah for symbolism!!)

I have a pretty nerdy family. Nerdy stuff makes up a large part of how we bond and spend time together. (I should talk about how my sister and I have been parallel-playing Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom sometime.) My dad has been into Star Wars for a long time and I used to go to him with all my SW questions because he was "the" family member for it. Now it's gotten to the point that I've dug so deep into all this stuff that follows after TCW (TBB, Rebels, Mando, Andor, Kenobi, Ahsoka, even Jedi: Fallen Order and Jedi Survivor) that I know more about some of this stuff than he does! So now I get to talk about it with him. Nearly every Wednesday morning (or shortly after) I get to tell him about the episode(s) I watched once they released.

I know people have expressed worry that once TBB ends, the fandom's gonna go dormant again, which will be partially true as some people will lose interest and move on.

But I do not see myself breaking away from the franchise any time soon. Not when Mando and TBB brought me back in. There will still be plenty to talk about. Make art about. Write clever and/or silly AUs for. Fix-its. The works.

I will still be here because while I'm not the target audience for a couple of kids' shows, this is the stuff that makes me happy, and (not to get too dark) gave me something to use to get me out of bed each day when my depression got terrible in the winter months, not too long ago.

A goofy space opera of all things was what I used cope with my Seasonal Affective Disorder while it absolutely kicked. my. shebs.

And it worked. Depression's back to its baseline as the temperatures slowly rise where I live (there's no shortage of sunshine!) and things feel "normal" again as we're creeping into May.

And though it may be the end of the line for our beloved Defective And Effective Clones come the 1st of May, the love will last for a long, long time.

Before TBB Ends...Regardless of HOW it Ends...I've Got to Say Something...

In 2021, TBB was released, and over the last few years, it's grown to mean a lot to me. Not just the stories, the storytelling, the characters whom we've fallen in love with and hope to see more of someday, whose stories we've learned important lessons from, but how it profoundly affected my life.

And it is something I am incredibly grateful for.

Regardless of how the show ends, if it's something I'm going to love or be totally heartbroken over and hate, I'm so glad it happened and went on this journey.

For one, it gave me the plug to start writing. Writing was always a dream of mine but it wasn't until I discovered fanfiction, because of TBB, that I actually realized it. I had this idea of writing and thought I'd never really be able to accomplish that. The show enabled me to move past that and I've been able to be enflamed by my love for writing. It brings me so much happiness. No other show pushed me to write like this one.

Secondly, my writing has allowed me to touch and interact with people. I can't tell you how much it means to me and how thrilled I am to hear and learn my work has touched you in some way. I'm humbled by your words and taking the time to actually read and appreciate what I've written.

Thirdly, I've gone on so many adventures, crazy amazing adventures because of what other brilliant minds I met through the show have written. There are SO many great stories that just hit me so.....I was touched by your stories that you wouldn't have written if you hadn't watched the show!

Lastly, but CERTAINLY not the least, I have made SO many friends and writing buddies because of this show. It has connected me to so many cool people that I otherwise may never have found. I've grown really close with some of you, while others, though we may not be friends per say, I hope we can someday. In the meantime, I will admire your work from here. You guys mean so much to me and I can't even begin to express how wonderful it's been getting to know you over the past few years. The fun experiences we've shared, the theories, the stories, all of it. I am not putting this as well as it was in my head so please forgive that.

This includes but isn't limited to: @eclec-tech @photogirl894 @apocalyp-tech-a @lizartgurl @jedipoodoo @arctrooper69 @carolinetano7567 @trapezequeen @ghostofskywalker @masterjedilenaaa @ladysongmaster @moonstrider9904 @klmwrites @techs-stitches @ovaa-bi-bia @frostycatblr-fandom-files @imabeautifulbutterfly @sverdgeir @oceansssblue @marvel-starwarsfangirl @jedi-hawkins

How about you? What are you guys grateful for? Reblog and share what TBB meant to you!

Copy and paste the red as your header and let's see how many people we can get so share their stories!

I will end with no other quote than this!

"With love comes loss; it's part of the deal. Sometimes it hurts, but in the end, it's all worth it. There's no greater gift than love."

[devotedtomarvel]

It's Been A While...

Out of curiosity, I decided to take a look at how long ago I posted my first fic on ao3, and couldn't believe what I saw. I posted my first fic on April 4th 2021! That wasn't counting my previous posts on fanfiction.net and Wattpad!

I genuinely can't believe it's been so long since I started posting because it feels like it's hardly been a year, despite being a year and a half! There were moments when I was fully prepared to ditch writing altogether, especially when I was writing Meaning of the Multiverse, but I'm so glad I kept going.

So much has changed since I started, in the world and also in me, and reading my old fics, I can see the difference. I've found myself in so many fandoms through that time too, starting off with Once Upon A Time fics when I wrote on fanfiction.net. I've coasted through writing for Hamilton, Wicked, Marvel, Sherlock, Ghosts and various others.

With my constantly changing fandoms, it was obvious that the same people would stick with my writing. When I wrote for Marvel, I wrote for the hits and the kudos, loving the feeling I got when someone liked my writing. I only really write for Ghosts now, so I'm not getting 3000 hits anymore, but I've found that I don't care.

I write for myself now, prioritising my own feelings and happiness over the people who read my stories, and I know a lot of people would find that selfish. Still, I encourage all of you fic writers out there to do that for once. It makes all of the difference when you decide what to write instead of wanting to please your audience, however big it is.

With Ghosts, my audience isn't as big, but I love each and every person who reads my fics, no matter what fandom you read for.

Be proud of whatever you want to read, however kinky or questionable it may be.

Oh, and on Halloween, I have a few surprises for you all, but I'll tell you more about that later!

[iwasbored777]

I have been back into the fandom for like,,, a week now and honestly sooo tired of people having to demonize a character in order to justify their continuous rage against them. Can we all just agree that the writing is shitty in this show and move on??

Demonising a character is when you make a little thing sound like they killed the president and enslaved a whole town. Criticising is when you openly dislike something a character did. The difference is when you're explaining fact without letting your opinion influencing the fact. Yes, this is a huge problem in our fandom.

Fact: Ladybug was rough to Chat Noir in Glaciator 2 but he was wrong to ask her to kiss him if front of everyone while she was already angry with everything and everyone.

Demonising: Ladybug is abusive b*tch who deserves to die and Chat deserves so much better.

Demonising 2: Chat Noir was going to sexually assault her if she didn't reject him and he would do it again even though he said he won't anymore.

Until I see some well thought takes on characters and their behaviours and their acts and I can't appreciate that person. That's why I hate it that so many YouTube geeks let YouTube change their opinion. And this is not just about ML. I saw a hate video on Brie Larson's Captain Marvel like "if you look her name up you'll see a lot of hate articles which means that people have good explanation for it" cool but I don't need that to form my opinion on Captain Marvel. I know what I think of her live action adaptation ever since I watched the movies and I don't care if my opinion is popular or not - that's what I think of her.

I wish I could agree with the last part but I can't. I don't think the writing is that bad. There are some stuff there that I hated and I still hate, like Jagged Stone and Coufaine family subplot, love rivals, new characters who are usually evil appearing out of nowhere and being more relevant to the whole plot than some other characters who were there since the first episode and a bunch of some other stuff that lead nowhere and don't make a lot of sense. But overall, if I had to sort Miraculous Ladybug in either bad or good I would say it's good. As someone who's seen so many movies and TV shows and cartoons and everything Miraculous Ladybug is one of the better stuff. It's interesting, unpredictable and messed up. I wish there were less characters here that's true but I still think Miraculous Ladybug is still doing a good job with so many characters. When I hear "some of them are not treated right by the writers" doesn't always mean that a character is suffering, it's that a character doesn't have enough screen time and that's not bad writing because of course if we're talking about a minor character it CAN'T have more screen time. Sometimes they get more but not always. This is also a difference in opinions and facts. Of course you want your fav to be in the centre but that's not up for you to decide.

Fact: Chloé's character development was too rushed and it isn't a surprise that it didn't work. (see how I didn't say if she deserved it or not, I'm just saying it was rushed and it really was, it felt out of the place and it ended just the same)

Opinion 1: Chloé is a great character and she deserved so much better. The writers failed her.

Opinion 2: Chloé doesn't deserve character development because she is a bully and I hate bullies.

I hate bullies but if they can make it work, let Chloé have her character development.

Sorry for this much text 😅

[fringyrasa]

How Strange New Worlds led me to a happy place in a sea of negativity.

Not to sound like SUPER dramatic, but it's hard to be a fan these days.

I genuinely think this really started rearing it's head in 2013's Man of Steel or 2017's The Last Jedi, but this year especially, it feels like being in a big fandom is so hard to find a place to just talk about stuff you love without being drowned in negativity. I used to love to talk about Star Wars and Marvel with other fans, but honestly with Phase 4 and recently with Kenobi, I don't even want to anymore. Kenobi especially was like a miserable 5 week experience for a show that I loved. I love Ms. Marvel and honestly after last week's episode, I didn't even want to log on to talk about it because I just knew it was gonna be constant negativity. It was. I haven't even texted any of my friends about it because I'm so exhausted.

That's not to say you have to love everything (The "Just consume more content" meme is so annoying because it used to have a very critical point and now it's just used for every time someone likes a franchise product) Since the dawn of my existence it's been the balance of people who liked the thing vs. the people who didn't like the thing. But recently, it feels like it's just so many people who will argue with you to invalidate your opinion. It feels like we go into things ready to pick it apart. I had to distance myself from the Marvel and Star Wars fans because it got so bad. I used to love to go conventions and meet fans and just gush about all the stuff we loved, even if we didn't see eye to eye. As an introvert, it's like the only social thing I actually looked forward to and now I don't even want to do that. It was something I loved. It made me feel at home, where I could be myself and I just dread even bringing anything up with another fan.

And this is def a "Me" problem, but the discorse of these projects has made me feel so isolated and alone. Made me feel like I couldn't be myself, I couldn't feel at home anymore. Part of what I love about movies, tv, games, etc. is sharing that love with other people and I watched so much stuff this year that I just did in solitary because I didn't want to love something only for 17 replies about how that thing is actually horrible. I know that's such a small thing but fuck it, it's been a rough few years outside of fandom and to have so much negativity in my escape places, it made me feel depressed. The thing that was so much a part of my DNA, sharing my passions, felt like I could only do it to myself, and it was such a lonely depressing feeling.

That was until I saw Strange New Worlds. I had heard about the show, used to be a regular Discovery watcher (the show kind of lost me in Seasons 3 & 4 but I admit I still try to keep up with it) and knew this was something fans had been asking constantly for. I missed it when it aired, just picking it up on Friday and found myself binging the first 7 episodes straight. I LOVED it. Was everything perfect? Hell no. The show has a lot of flaws but I didn't even care. I was so in love with the characters and the presentation it was just such a joy to watch. I can totally get critical of the things I think it fails to do, I can defend it against some criticism that I just can't get on board with, but the thing that really solidified my pure love for the show was the fandom.

I came out of tumblr retirement for this. I didn't even want to dare to go on reddit or twitter to talk about this, I could already feel some of the responses. It would be trying to tip toe over the "bad writing" and "ruins continuity" and "this ruined my childhood" landmines. I really hoped I could find maybe one or two users here who felt the same love and excitement for this show that I had. Seriously, I just needed one or two. I was hoping I could just talk to one person who had the same joy I had. Imagine the smile on my face to find there were tons.

FINALLY!!

Are there people that hate the show or hate the parts I love and have completely valid reasons? Absolutely. I totally get it. But I can't tell you what a RELIEF it is to find people who love something you love. I feel like between Doctor Who, Star Wars, Marvel, His Dark Materials, and I'm sure more that I'm forgetting, it felt like finding those spaces where you can just share your love for something with other people who loved it, were getting narrow. I found a place where we can just enjoy something again and that feels so freaking good. For the first time in awhile, I didn't feel like I was in a sea of negativity, desperately holding onto an inflatable life raft hoping a like minded fan would come and rescue me.

Anyway, love you Strange New Worlds lovers, don't ever change. You actually made it feel good to be a fan again.

[charturnus]

from wht i hv gathered, you are in fact, relatable (for me atleast) and interesting 😤🧐

and omg i agree this is fun

uuhhh how about 3, 22, 24, 62, 65, 66 (u dont hv to answer all of these im sorry 💀)

- 🍊

3. what is your favorite part about your body?

Well... I'm still in ED recovery, so body stuff is very weird right now 🧍🏼‍♀️ But I think my hands look nice sometimes, especially when my nails are done!

22. reason you joined tumblr?

There's a bit of a story to this.

I was never interested in marvel until I saw clips of wandavision on my twitter feed and became infatuated with Kathryn Hahn. And because I have no chill, I then proceeded to watch (and rate/review) most of the mainline films until I finally got to wandavision. Along the journey my love for Wanda, Nat, and loads of other characters grew and I knew I had to join the fandom online.

I've been on tumblr since 2012 so I used my now dormant blog to browse around some fandom stuff and found the fics of course. Accounts like caroldantops and maximotts made me want to set up a separate account for my fic writing stuff, because it just looked like so much fun.

24. what’s something most people love that you hate?

Hate is a strong word, but children and motherhood 💀 I just can't bring myself to like kids, and I have nightmares about being forced into giving birth. Kids just aggravate me, and it's not their fault bc they don't know better, so I prefer to stay away. My sister has children, and I watched my baby nephew not too long ago. I was dead tired after only 3 hours 😩

65. favorite term of endearment?

Darling!!!! Dear!!! And if we're talking old school, beloved and dearest!!

God I am such a hopeless romantic, I'm telling you I am a SUCKER for little things like that. Give me a flower that you picked out on a walk bc it made you think of me and call me darling and suddenly I'm planning a wedding.

66. who was your celebrity/fictional gay awakening?

Helena bonham Carter, specially as Bellatrix LeStrange, at the ripe age of 12.

That just goes to show that I've always been the way I am.

I left 62 to the end bc this is kinda dark, so maybe look away if you're not down for that 😭

62. worst thing you’ve ever done?

This is simultaneously the worst and the best thing I've ever done.

Saw my mother for the first time in 10 years in 2020. She abused and neglected me as a child, was telling everyone she was dying (she wasn't), so I went to see her. I told her how much I'd suffered at her hands and she laughed. So, I told her exactly how happy I am that she isn't a part of my life anymore, how she would die alone because she has turned everyone who loved her against her and how my sister is more a mother to me than she ever was. She cried and I didn't.

[vole-mon-amour]

OTP tag game.

Tagged by @captainjowl. You know for sure than I'm struggling to pick only 10 & fit them in here. But hell, that’s fun, thank you <3

Rules: Choose 10 OTPs BEFORE reading the questions, and then get to answering

1) Harry James Potter & Sirius Orion Black

2) Daniel Le Domas & Grace (Ready or Not 2019)

3) Samuel & Nathan Drake (Uncharted 4)

4) Corvo Attano & The Outsider (+probably Emily Kaldwin; Dishonored series)

5) Steve Grant Rogers & Bucky Buchanan Barnes (Marvel)

6) Tony Edward Stark & Peter Benjamin Parker (Marvel)

7) Handsome Jack & Rhys (Borderlands video game series)

8) Damon Salvatore & Elena Gilbert (TVD Books & a tv show)

9) Batman & Joker (in every universe, really)

10) Adam Jensen x Francis Pritchard (Deus Ex video game series)

1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?

I believe it didn't hit me before Spider-Man: Homecoming. Civil War was about Steve & Bucky for me, but when I saw that growing up Peter with Tony, their dynamic, chemistry. Tom & Robert are really just like that.

2. Have you ever read a fanfic about 2?

Lmao. I've read like 50% of the tag on AO3, I wrote my own & started a few wips on them. They are amazing. Plus, with that shitty canon? We didn't get enough of them & they deserved better, so it's only logical to save yourself with fanfiction.

3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr screen saver?

I was living with The Outsider icon on my twitter & tumblr. That one is still my Google profile picture I believe. Don't remember about having an icon with the two of them. Also had The Outsider as my lockscreen on my smartphone for a while.

4. If 7 were to suddenly break up today, what would your reaction be?

Funny how it fits canon, lmao. Rhys literally tried to erase Jack's AI in TFTBL, so I guess another day on Pandora, nothing new. They torture each other, they kiss each other, they kill other people in the process. It'll be fiiine.

5. Why is 1 so important?

I love them since the first time I met them, which was much more than 10 years ago, I don't even remember when. At some point they were the reason I was waking up & forcing myself to eat just to read more fanfiction & feel something. Even if I was drowning in pain (I was extremely depressed), it was still something. I read every fic I could find at that time. The depression that Harry went through, all these feelings, his love for Sirius. I was living through it, I could relate.

I'm currently drowning in these two again, though in a much healthier & happier state. I see their flaws & I know as much as I can. I see them differently as an adult. They saved me, they keep being my number one, I still consider making a tattoo of Padfoot/Sirius or of both Harry & Sirius together. I have many headcanons, ideas, I write fics about them. They are everything, you see? They were my choice when there was nothing, no one. They are HOME.

6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?

Both. There goes the dynamic of Jack & Rhys: torture, fighting, flirting, a lot of trauma. I'd definitely say that they are wild and comical sometimes, but they are definitely serious. With the Asylum, the mental health issues. There is so much more to it, the complexity of their relationship. The struggle of loving who you probably shouldn't (but hey, when does it work like that?) Thinking about Tettlate's Batman, about Batman: Europa & how Joker was: "You must be crazy, putting me in charge of the plan, letting me decide. Okay, well..."

Nah, they are entertaining, but this is a serious ship.

7. Out of all the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?

Are you kidding me? They are all the definition of CHEMISTRY. I'd say 5, but then go 2, 6, 7, 8. Come on. I'm not choosing. Most of they are WILD.

9. How many times have you read/watched the 10’s fandom?

The fandom itself? Idk. I found one of my favourite artists through this fandom. If it's about the characters themselves, I played the first game with the DLC from start to beginning, looking around every corner. Spent more than 60 hours in there. Watched a second game (my laptop can't run the game) and the DLC (obviously), since Francis is in the DLC & not in the main game. I have a tag for them on tumblr, I read fanfiction, I tried to write my own. I still follow Elias & want a third game. Elias liked my tweets about Adam and Jensen being an actual couple a few times. I'd say I interacted with all of this a lot? Still do, actually.

10. Which ship has lasted the longest?

5. Best friends since childhood, fought & died for each other, still found their way back to each other. "It would break your Captain's heart, to see what they did to you." That only the MENTION of Steve can pull Bucky out of this brain washing(ed?) state, distract him in the middle of a fight. When Steve died in the comics because of Sharon & Tony sent Natasha to take Steve's shield from Bucky because even Tony knew how much Steve means to Bucky. And Bucky was like: "Oh, I see what he did. Not happening!" Fought Natasha (that is his ex in the comics) & kept going for Steve's sake.

Well, you see the point, I can go on and on.

11. How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up?

They're not actually canon so none? They had a few fights: In Civil war (the comics), in Homecoming (the movie).  That only means that they’ve got history & love each other.

12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?

As fierce Grace is, they wouldn't stand a chance against Damon & Elena. Those two had to deal with worst thing than brainless stupid zombies. On the other hand, if there were no alive humans to drink their blood... It's either an animal diet that Damon hates so much or I don't know? Still, they're faster & more powerful. Their bodies have advantage of healing the wounds as well.

13. Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?

From some people, yeah. Don't tell Athena, don't tell Vaughn, don't tell Fiona. Though Rhys wasn't very subtle about it & Jack just doesn't give a fuck. You will probably end up dead if you disagree or bore him, or if you're useless.

"I can take you to the top, but you gotta know where the top is" & Rhys doesn't tell anybody until Jack makes him the President for like whole 20 minutes lol.

Fiona & Sasha: "This can't be happening." Sure it can, darling.

14. Is 4 still together?

I have a headcanon about The Outsider finding Emily & Corvo after Billie frees him from the Void. He doesn't have anybody & they are his only friends aside from a potential friendship with Billie. And if we don't consider TOTO dlc, they definitely are! The Outsider visits them both when they sleep & takes them to the void sometimes. How could he not?

15. Is 10 canon?

Not really but also sort of? Let's say that they really care about each other in canon, despite Adam pushing Francis away because of his trauma & fear that Megan caused him. :/

16. If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?

Can you imagine wizards fighting extremely powerful vampires? Superheroes with venom in their bodies that make them super strong with people that made a deal with the Devil himself (hi Le Bail)? 5000 y.o. God and his lover that share his powers and an augmented human protecting his tired IT guy? Combine mental health issues to that, Jack and Rhys with Batman and Joker. Corvo & The Outsider would probably slay them all as Corvo and Emily did in both games with entire islands, though it will still be a slaughter anyway.

17. Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 5’s ship?

All the fucking time, lmaooo. I’m not even talking about it.

18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?

I feel like I already did with Steve & Bucky after many Marvel movies (we're not even mentioning Endg*me, I fucking died & was dead for full 4-5 months).

19. Do you spend hours a day going through 3’s tumblr page?

I used to do that a few years back, but not anymore. There is not much content since the trilogy is finished.

20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all forever, which ship would you sink?

1 already went through it & fandom lives, so I'd say maybe 7? Rhys will find a way to bring Jack back & they are both so wild. It’s what happened in canon anyway. Jack kidnapped Lilith & forced her to do Angel's job, so I'd like to see that witch try at first. Jack is an immortal bastard. <3

Now that I think about it, Corvo would also deal with her in seconds as she waits to curse them.

As a conclusion: no one breaks up forever, we're killing the witch.

I tag: @ianmillkovichgallagher​ & @aledbr​

Whoever else wants to join the game, please do.

[aridushku]

Take my hand

Chapters: 1/?

Fandom: Amar a Muerte, Juliantina

Rating: M

Relationship: Juliana Valdés/Valentina Carvajal

Summary: Valentina plans a surprise trip to celebrate their first anniversary.

For the next chapters, go to AO3 :)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17598101/chapters/41482229

A/N: This is my first fic in a reaaaally long time, so please let me know what you think!

A/N: The song mentioned in this chapter is Take My Hand by Picture This, make sure you listen to it while you read.

“But you have to promise you won’t peak!” Valentina laughs nervously, while adjusting her girlfriend’s blindfold.

Juliana rolled her eyes behind the blindfold, holding back a smile. For weeks now she had been suspicious of Val’s actions. More than once she had witnessed her talking on the phone at strange hours and blocking her phone as soon as she approached. One night Valentina used even sex to avoid having to explain who she was texting.

Despite all this, Juliana wasn’t worried. Their relationship had been through so much in an year. They had to be strong together so many times through dark moments. She loved and trusted her girlfriend. She knew Val was up to something, just as she had some surprises of her own planned out. Except Juliana’s surprise took place during this morning, when she made them breakfast and then had sex on the kitchen top.

“Well, this should be a new tradition” Valentina said, coming back to breathe.

Juliana moaned deeply “yes, I definitely agree. We have to do this every year now”, she opened her eyes slowly to marvel on her girlfriend’s swollen lips, her hair all over the place.

“Year?? I was thinking more like everyday” Valentina laughed and licked her lips.

“Come here” Juliana pulled her in a deep kiss, tasting herself while slowly running her fingernails all over her girlfriend’s back.

Valentina escaped the kiss for a second to glimpse at the clock. She then fought the urge to deepen the kiss even further, knowing it would only lead to a few more hours, on the kitchen top or even on the floor. “Let’s take a shower, it’s time for my surprise!” She clapped in excitement and jumped on the floor, taking one last look at Juliana’s naked figure.

Juliana noticed Valentina’s hungry eyes and decided to take her time “right now?” She pouted “I thought maybe we could go to bed and...”

Valentina licked her lips again. That was in fact an amazing proposal, but all her planning could go to waste if they were late “aaand, I love you so much but we really need to get going. I promise it will be worth it.” Val wrapped her girlfriend around her arms to help her down the counter just to feel her hot body pressed against her, her nipples still hard and begging to be sucked. “Please let’s hurry or I’ll have to eat you just one more time.” Val whispered on Juliana’s ear, knowing it would make her shiver.

“Fine, you win!” Juliana smiled, taking her hand upstairs. The valley house really was starting to feel like home for them. Now that her mother was safe from the cartel and had Panchito watching her back, she was finally starting to enjoy her life with Valentina. The majority of her clothes was already in Val’s closet, and she tried to remember if she even kept a toothbrush at her mom’s anymore.

“Juls, can you run the shower? I’ll just... see if I can find the dress I want to wear, ok?”. Juliana nodded and smiled, shaking her head. She was such a lousy liar. Maybe she was still figuring something out for her surprise, but Juls decided to let herself be surprised. It was really a miracle, considering almost every other surprise she planned, she ended up ruining herself, for telling something earlier or even seeking Juls for her opinion.

Juliana smiled at the memories. Recalling they left the house with Val wearing skinny jeans and a blue silk blouse, which matched her eyes beautifully. No dress insight. A lousy, but oh so cute liar.

“So, any tips about where we’re going?” Juliana casually asked as she felt the car moving. It was new having Val driving her around. She was not the best driver — mostly due to the fact that she had chauffeurs all her life — but she was trying her best to give them more privacy, even if that meant having an extra security car behind them.

“Well...” Valentina was dying to tell her everything. The past few months had been torturous. She wanted to know Jul’s opinions and suggestions but it could ruin everything. More than once she caught herself almost spilling her plans. Hiding something from her loved one didn’t feel right, but she knew it would be worth it to see the look in her eyes. “I promise you it will be the best surprise ever!”

“Oh, so better than mine? Sorry about the pancakes and sex then” Jul shrugged and crossed her arms against her chest.

“No! Babe! Never!” Valentina pressed the brake pedals a little too strong, wanting to kiss Jul’s pout away.

Juliana laughed, knowing she had got in Valentina’s head, but still worrying about the breaking and crazy curves “okay, I’m kidding. Are we too far? It’s starting to feel a lot like Bird Box with the blindfold and the driving...”

“Aw, c’mon” Val knew Juls loved to tease her on her driving, even though she didn’t know how to drive herself. “Here, let’s put your playlist on. We won’t be there for another...” she looked at the car’s GPS “30 minutes or something”

Juliana agreed and sighed in relief she made them a Spotify playlist. Their first weeks driving around all Val wanted to hear was Eso Es Amor in repeat. It was a cute song, but it got old really fast. She leaned back against the leather on the car seat and let her body rest, still a little sore from their morning activities. She realized that being blindfolded really heightened her senses. She could smell Valentina’s shampoo separately from her perfume, as well as the flowers in the backseat. Just as she took a deep breath, concentrating in the lights flashing on the street, she felt her girlfriend’s hand touch her thigh. This was probably the best part about them being alone in the car.

“I really love this song” Juliana caressed Valentina’s hand softly, feeling every inch of her skin.

“Me too. If costume design isn’t for you, you could be a DJ.” Valentina laughed, turning up the volume.

“You're all that I'm needing You're all that I'm feeling And I'll be the one that's kicking and screaming When you have to go every evening

Your feet in the sand And mine in the water We can explore these hills if that's what you want to do You know I can't stand, when it gets cold in the evenings And I'm standing there freezing, but my clothes look so good on you

You play with my hair like there's no other And I'm no longer scared of your older brother He said, "we're cool, man, I know you love her"

Juliana smiled at the mention of older brother, knowing how much Guille had been supportive of them the whole time. “Speaking of brother, does Guille know about your surprise?” She tried figuring something out from a different approach.

“Well...” Valentina measured her words, not wanting to give anything away “Yes, I’ve had help from some people.” Val replied, looking for signs to point her in the right direction “We’re almost there” her smile widened when she saw that all her preparations were in sight and everything looked amazing.

As soon as Juliana felt Valentina shut the car off, the music stopped and external noises filled her ears.

“Ready?” Valentina asked, removing her seat belt and running to the passenger door to help Juliana out. “Take my hand so you won’t fall”

Juliana had to speak a little louder “Val, I love you but I know we’re at the airport, I can hear engines everywhere” her heart beat a little faster. The idea of an adventure was indeed fascinating and she couldn’t wait to find out their destination.

“I know, just... you need to take like more 10 steps” Valentina guided her and she followed until she felt a smooth ground beneath her feet. “Ok, ready?”

Juliana smiled widely “Yes!” She expected to find Valentina holding a plane ticket to some beach and the usual airport sight. But not in her wildest dreams she could picture the scene in front of her.

No busy terminals, no lines, no baggage claims, no screaming children running around, not even the smell of yesterday’s bagel reheating in some dirty café.

She looked up to see Valentina smiling like a kid on Christmas. Behind her was their car, surrounded by more than ten security personnel. Her feet touched an incredibly smooth red carpet. In front of her a shiny white private jet. The golden details almost blinded her in this morning light. The Gulfstream G650 golden writing beneath the cockpit window caught her eye, as it was being polished by the local staff. Everything seemed perfect like in a movie, and immediately she noticed Valentina had put so much effort into making this perfect “Val, I...”

“Happy anniversary, my love” Valentina hugged her tight, caressing her hair as she tried to calm herself. The stress of the planning and of coming to this moment had worn her out.

“Ah... Happy anniversary” Juliana felt her knees weak and felt grateful Valentina had such a strong grip on her. She couldn’t believe her girlfriend had planned all this to so much detail.

“Come on, you need to see inside!” Valentina pulled her as they climbed the small steps.

Juliana could hear her playlist softly playing. To the left she noticed two female pilots talking inside the cockpit. They seemed incredibly professional, discussing the weather enroute and navigation charts. The woman on the left seemed more experienced, her blonde hair mixing between some white ones. The brunette on the right was definitely younger, but her voice tone was so calm and collected as she stepped out to the greet the passengers “Ms. Carvajal, Ms. Valdés” she formally greated “it’s a pleasure to have you aboard. We hope you enjoy your flight.” She smiled and respectfully lowered her head.

“Thank you, Sarah! We will!” Valentina excitedly pulled Juliana closer to continue the tour.

Juliana tried to collect every detail. The bar, the seats positioned to form a private cinema, the small kitchen, the bedroom at the end of the plane had roses on top of the bed. Suddenly the girl realized how far from her reality she was. The only plane she had ever been on was the one coming from San Antonio, which couldn’t compare to this even in the slightest. “Val, everything looks great, but is also looks really expensiv...”

Valentina jumped to stop her “Juls, I know what you’re thinking. But really, this plane belongs to my father’s best friend and he’s been offering me for years now.”

“I know, and it’s amazing, but there’s also all this...” Juliana didn’t know if she would address the fancy champagne, or their favorite chocolates, or maybe the flowers spread around the airplane.

“All part of my surprise from me to you, baby. Please, I know it’s a bit more than we’re used to, but I wanted to do this so bad!” Valentina had her puppy face on. She knew this would be an issue, but she wished it wouldn’t.

“I know, but we could travel by car, or normal planes even, they get you places as well you know...” Juliana didn’t want to seem ungrateful, but everything felt a bit overwhelming for her.

“Yes, but can’t I do this just once for you? Pleeease?” Her blue eyes widened as she begged.

“You are annoyingly cute when you do that face and you know that” Juliana rolled her eyes and chuckled.

“So, it’s a yes?” Valentina almost jumped in excitement.

“Well, yes!” Juliana smiled widely, not even sure what she was concenting to. “But where are we going?”

Valentina hugged her tightly, kissing her deeply “ Hmmm... I can’t tell you that.You’ll have to wait a little bit longer.”

“Val, c’mon... you know how curious I am. And to be honest, I would be glad if it were just the two of us here, with the doors closed and...” Juliana played with her hair, teasingly. 

“Well, what do you know?” Valentina pulled her inside the room and closed the door behind them “Voilà” as soon as they got closer, Valentina’s hand was already inside Juliana’s shirt, feeling her tight stomach beneath her palm. She could tell her breathing was erratic, matching her own.

“Ok, I get your point now, Ms. Carvajal...” she teased, adding a sexy tone. She urged herself not to throw Valentina on top of the bed and make love to her. The whole environment made it very difficult, but also Valentina’s hands caressing her were driving her off the edge.

They were stopped to the sound of a light buzzer and Valentina sighed in disappointment, but still answering the phone “Yes? ...ok, sure. Is Kit here yet? Fine, we’ll talk to her in a few... Yep, ok, no problem, thanks.” Valentina hung up the phone in a hurry, looking forward to resume their makeout session.

“Everything ok?” Juliana asked, not breaking their distance.

“Yeah, just... We’ll be taking off in 10 minutes. They told us to wear seat belts” Valentina shrugged.

“Ok, so, what are we waiting for?” Juls pulled her girlfriend outside, just to notice the outside cabin was now also separated by another door, making a small and cozy living room with a wide TV and snacks all around. “Everything looks so nice, baby” She pulled her in another kiss, before seating in the couch trying to find her seat belt.

Valentina sat beside her, gently helping her secure the seat belt as they began to feel the aircraft slowly taxiing towards the runway. “Well, thank you for choosing Juliantina Airways” she giggled, fastening her own seat belt this time.

Juliana laughed at how silly happy her loved one looked. “Oh, no problem. I feel like I’m getting the VIP treatment over here...” she watched outside the window and could already spot larger planes leaving the ground. “So, are there no flight attendants on this flight?” She asked, genuinely curious.

“What?” Valentina frowned, not getting the question until she realized her girlfriend had never been on a private jet. “Oh, no, there is!” She promptly responded “that is me, ma’am” she extended her hand “I’ll take very good care of you. But first you should hear about our safety instructions” she put on a straight face, but saw Jul was having a hard time taking her seriously “in the event of an emergency I can scream really loud and if there is a depressurization I can provide a wonderful mouth-to-mouth” she ran her tongue along her lips, trying to hold back her laughter.

“Oh my god you are so silly” Juliana bumped into her lightly, the aircraft was now moving a lot faster, and in less than a minute she could feel them off the ground. “Have I told you how much I love you?”

“Well, you could tell me again...” Valentina joked, proud of herself for making her girlfriend look this happy in such a special day for them. She watched fluffy white clouds go by as their plane climbed up to its cruise altitude.

A/N: Please let me know what you think, and if you have any clue where Val might be taking them!

[rreader]

Hey there! So I'm not sure if requests are open, but if they are would you mind writing a marvel oneshot where Loki and reader have been best friends for years but recently he is mean to her and makes fun of her because he she is also friends with Thor and they've become closer and he thinks they like each other and is jealous. But one time he goes too far and really upsets the reader and Thor confronts Loki about his behaviour and how much it hurt the reader because she likes him. Fab! Thanks!

Pairing: Loki x Reader / Thor x ReaderFandom: MCUWarnings: angst + cliffhanger

A/N: THIS IS GOING TO HAVE A PART 2! (also, thank you so much for your request my love

                                                        *****

“Areyou ready?” Thor asked, patiently waiting outside of your room.

Hisbreath got stuck in his throat when you opened the door, his mouth forming an ‘O’ and admiring your beauty.

Thered dress looked like it was a second skin. It suited you perfectlyand made you look like a goddess. Like a goddess that would fitThor’s side perfectly.

“Isthis okay?” you asked self-consciously.

“You look like a queen, (Y/N),” he kissed your hand and then grinned atyou.

“Ohstop it, you..,” you laughed and hooked your arm with his, then youboth went down to where the party was being held.

Alot of eyes were on the two of you when you entered and even more people started whispering immediately. 

You really didlook like you were made for each other.

Andone man in particular wasn’t thrilled about that.

Lokiwas sitting in a leather chair, gulping his drink down, while eyeingthe two of you. The way he dug his nails into the arm of the chair and in which he knocked down his drunk should’ve been a good indicator of how jealous he really was.

Hehated his brother. 

Right now, more than ever before.

Healways took what Loki wanted for himself. And from the looks of it, you were no exception, apparently. The way you glanced at Thor from time to time.. 

Loki wanted to throw up.

He honestly thought you and him had something special. All those nights, just talking to each other, the training sessions with more body contact than necessary..

WhenThor excused himself, your eyes scanned the room and quickly foundLoki. You went over to him with a big smile and spun around once, so he could see every detail of the dress.

“Whatdo you think?”

“Redisn’t your color,” he said in a monotone voice.

Yousat down next to him.

“Thorlikes it..”

“Yes.Thor likes it. How great for Thor,” this time, the spite in his voice was clear.

Youcocked your head to the side, confused by his attitude.

“What’sgoing on? You’re acting strange.”

Thorjoined the two of you before he could answer.

“Brother..how good to see you,” Thor had a small smile on his face.

“Can’tsay the same,” he still nurtured his drink, which he could fill upwith his magic at any time. 

Useful skill, to be honest.

WhenThor looked at you, confusion written all over his face - just like on your own - you simplyshrugged. You had no idea what was going on with Loki tonight. You had never seen him like this..

“So,I see that you’ve finally found yourself a.. what was the word again?‘Sugar Daddy’?” you completely froze when the words left his mouth. “Isn’t that how your mother got you? Should I expect achild in nine months then?” he laughed.

Youdidn’t think this was funny at all, especially since his voice wasn’texactly low. A few heads turned towards you and gasped, others giggled about this revelation.

“What’sa sugar daddy?” Thor asked, confused by the expression and that really wasn’t helping the situation.

“Itold you this in confidence,” the hurt in your voice was clear.

“Well.Now EVERYONE knows how you were made. Isn’t that magnificent?”

The grin on his face didn’t last too long. Once he saw tears form in your eyes, it disappeared. The giggles had turned into whispers and it seemed like everyone was now talking about it. Talking about the secret you never told anyone, exactly because of what was happening there.

You cleared your throat to get rid of the emotions that were sitting there, got up, head high and turned around to face Thor.

“Would you excuse me?” with that, you slowly made your way out of the room, walking past the rubbernecks.

Thebrothers both watched you leave, then Thor turned around to face Loki.

“Idon’t know what this “sugary daddy” is supposed to be, but it upsether, so you’re going to fix it immediately,” he didn’t leave room for discussion.

“Gofix it yourself if you’re so close to her now,” he sat back downand angrily grabbed his drink. Now he wasn’t mad at Thor anymore, he was mad at himself. What was he thinking, upsetting you like this?! Of course it would end badly. Of course you’d be disappointed of him.

Thorsighed and sat down next to his brother, folding his hands in hislap. It seemed like he had to take another approach on this topic with Loki.

“Icare about her, it’s true. But not in the way you think I do. Not inthe way you care for her,” he waited for Loki to say something, butthe god of mischief simply downed his drink, so Thor continued.“And she really cares for you, has stated it many times, actually. Which is why hurting her like that wasn’tthe best of your ideas. So you have this one chance to apologize, oryou’ll lose her forever."

Fora moment neither of them said something.

Lokiseemed to consider his options and wordlessly stood up a few minutes later,following you to your room, where he assumed you had gone to.

Thorsmiled and nodded, proud of his brother, even if still a little mad at him for hurting you.

Lokifound himself in front of your door, knocking once, twice.

“Nota good time,” you said from a distance.

“Openup,” he simply said.

“Goaway, Loki!” he was the last person you wanted to see and you let him feel it through the anger in your voice.

Hetook a deep breath and closed his eyes, then he opened them again a second later, saying something he wasn’t used to say. Ever.

“Please,”words that rarely left his mouth.

Itseemed to have surprised you, since you opened the door a few momentslater.

Youhad put off your make up, your eyes were red from crying and you hadput on a sweatshirt that was way too big.

Youdidn’t let him enter, but you looked him straight in the eyes.

He really admired your strength in situations like this one. 

“Whatdo you want?”

“Ididn’t mean to upset you, (Y/N).”

“But youdid.”

Hesighed and wanted to touch your cheek but you slapped his hand away before he could do so.

“Youmade a fool out of me. In front of everyone.”

“Iwas angry and..-”

“Stop.Just stop,” you held up your hand and shook your head. He could victimize himself with other women, not with you. “You werethe first person I ever told that story. Because, somehow, I thought I couldtrust you. Because, somehow, I thought you cared enough for me to respect me,” your voice grew louder by the end.

“Ido!”

“Youreally made that clear tonight. And all because you thought I likedyour brother,” you laughed humorlessly. “Shame I had to fall inlove with the wrong son of Odin,” then you closed the door, leavingan ashamed Loki behind.

Didhe just ruin his chance with you?

[paintedface]

minor rant (about minors even though I'm a minor)

I’m talking about minors. I, myself, am a minor, and I completely understand that, I don’t pretend that I can do the things that people 18+ can do. And you know what else I don’t do? I don’t keep ignoring the 18+ blog’s wishes. This fandom, the marvel and Seb Stan fandom, has a lot of 18+ blogs, that’s understandable. And some of them, once again, understandably, will refuse to have minors following them.

So I’m asking this to other minors: how hard is it to click that unfollow button? How hard is it to just tap one little button that says ‘unfollow’ and not have to get blocked by that 18+ blog, or get in trouble? You might say 'oh, but by following them, I’m supporting them, and they wouldn’t want me to unfollow them because that’s bad.’ No. They would rather have you unfollow them because that’s the right thing to do. It keeps you safe, and them safe from charges. Unfollow them, if they tell you to unfollow them. 18+ blogs have a right to keep you safe.

Some minors may not understand the laws around minors around smut and pornography. And I didn’t too, until maybe… March? BUT. Here’s the deal: you may like smut, you may be interested in that sort of thing. I feel that, and that’s okay. What you do, is do that in your own approximations. HOWEVER, what you should never EVER do, is click that like button, or click that reblog button on some smut. Once again, you might be thinking, 'oh but I’m helping the author to get more notes.’ No. They would rather not have you distribute their work, you being a minor and possibly you distributing the smut to other minors. They can get in deep shit for that (jail time, charges etc), and you could also get in shit not so deep, but still shit. I’m not sure how the rest of it goes down, except that all of it is really terrible. Point is: if you do want to go read smut, don’t do it if you’re only gonna redistribute it, because that’s wrong. I’m not saying you should go around being sneaky and reading smut under a torchlight or something like that. If you are to read smut, then do it in your own discretion, without purposefully interacting with it.

Also never request smut. That’s even worse and probably even more illegal. Somebody could confirm that but I’m lying in bed at 10:55am and I’m too lazy. Sorry. And turn on safe mode, please? We don’t want that porn there, I’d frankly be so happy if I never saw a porn blog ever again. Take all precautions to not see that stuff until you’re older. Actually, safe mode could be a bad idea considering as it is still faulty and can block completely safe LGBT posts from minors, so, hopefully tumblr fixes their really fucking faulty monitoring system.

Don’t think I’m being a total bitch overlord, because I’m not, I’m a minor like the rest of you. I’ve been guilty of reading smut. We’ve all been there. I’ve done that sort of thing before, believe me, but I don’t do it anymore because I know that it’s wrong. Not all minors are like this, majority of minors hardly have anything to do with smut on tumblr. Majority of them listen. To the 18+ blogs, most of us unfollow, most of us respect you. You, 18+ blogs, aren’t the only ones who get fed up with minors, us minors get fed up with minors. But some of them just don’t listen, and you’re the ones I’m talking to, if you ever see this. But next time, remember that your actions can heavily impact the authors of the smut. I saw someone who’s going to delete their blog because of some minors ignoring their wish to adhere to federal law, and they had to shut down their safe place, to write and to share, because of the risk that some minors would come in and get them in trouble.

I know it’s hard being a minor sometimes, but you have to put up with it, okay? I get pissed about being a minor, and that’s fine, but being pissed doesn’t mean you have to send someone to jail because you don’t want to be a minor anymore. Am I hypocritical? Probably. Am I still a hypocrite? Probably. But one thing I do understand is that it’s important to keep us all away from getting in trouble with the federal law. 

My rant is over and other people are free to add. My arms are so sore.

Okay? Okay.