#I'm sorry this is so dumb😭 I had to get it out of my system

[witch-craft-works]

Like I've said before I'm in love with @yuri-is-online Fyuuture Kid AU so here you go

Epel when he found out that Yuu is back in twisted wonderland.

For context: "When he learns you're alive he drops off the radar for a full week again, managing to drag himself out of the barricade and past Rook's watchful blotted eyes

When the boys in the Present find out who's responsible for Yuu's disappearance in the future.

Yutu trying to convince Yuu that his TusmTsum is evil (his Tsum didn't get the memo that it's supposed to be wearing a disguise and is about to undo all of his hard work)

[hwajin]

#! — ɢᴇᴛ sᴘᴏᴛʟɪɢʜᴛ | 3racha

genre: smut

pairing: fem!reader x 3racha

wc: 3.8k

warnings: 4some, fucktoy yn, slight (consensual) dehuminization (ig i think??), cockwarming, oral sex (m receiving), squirting, anal and vaginal sex, double penetration, unprotected sex, coming inside, cumshot, rough sex, just rlly disgusting i'm sorry i'm ovulating 😭😭

The agreement had occurred naturally. You’ve been friends with Chan who had introduced you to Jisung who had introduced you to Changbin. You and Chan had been fucking each other occasionally long before you’d met the other two, never much labelling your relationship and what you were; you’ve figured letting off steam and pent up stress with the help of a friend you everything but could see romantically wasn’t a dumb idea, which had proved out to be correct. Two years of the arrangement and you haven’t fallen for the other, doubting you ever would.

Changbin and Jisung had heard of it, at some point. You hadn’t much kept it a secret, though you weren’t going around telling people you were sleeping with a good friend of yours, regularly so. And yet, you had grown closer and closer to Chan’s two friends over time, naturally – it was impossible not to, the three of them being part of a same body, three strands of one economic system. It had been no surprise when you visited Chan in the studio to meet the other boys there as well, only the three of them, working on countless new projects and always together. It had been no surprise when they had started offering you to stay over, that they would drop you off after they were done with this track or that, rarely holding their promises and crashing the night, or only getting you home in the early hours of the morning. You had never minded, though. You had liked the attention. You had liked that you started being a fourth body in their system, when they would be the ones calling you over more often than you were the one asking permission to stay. And they only ever called you to simply stay, to sit by the couch and watch. To somehow distract, perhaps. 

Truly, you had always been distracting them from their job, calming them, in one way or another. Had brought food packs, had offered to order their favourite dishes when they had been heads deep in a track. Had given massages, had cracked jokes to brighten the mood when things got stressful – you’ve been always helping, in one way or another, and in friendly manners.

It hasn’t been until one day, you were talking during lunch, about anything and everything. Jisung had complained, thoroughly so.

“Look, I don’t want to sound like a sex obsessed freak, but I haven’t gotten laid in fucking ages, it’s actually frustrating.”

Taking a big bite out his burger as to accentuate his statement, and you had chuckled at him.

“No for real, not only am I bitchless, I also legit think it’s affecting my work, like I have no time to jerk off—and no privacy, for that matter,”, Changbin’s mouth full of food, and he glared a look at his two friends, “and I can’t just hook up with a girl at the club, like-.” And then, looking at you and Chan, taking another bite of his palm sized piece of pizza, “and I don’t have a friend like that, one I could like- make an arrangement with. If you know what I mean.”

You did know, and you and Chan had exchanged only a knowing look, listening to their complaints. Their words had no ulterior motives behind; solely two friends who shared the same frustration, and the whole conversation had shifted rather quickly anyways, continuing on either of your meal before you had left them to not be late to your job yourself, and before they had continued to work away as well, finishing late that night.

And while for them it was a matter as banal as any other, it had spiked an idea within you. A want maybe you weren’t aware of having; to offer yourself to the three of them, for their very own pleasure. The same you had done with Chan; only now you were speaking of two additional people. And yet, as absurd as the thought was, it was nothing but intriguing. Wholly filthy and dirty – but you had spent sleepless nights over it.

And then, after some thinking, you had brought up the matter to Chan.

“You- you want to- what??”

Chan’s face had been confused, it had made you flustered. Not enough to drop the matter, though.

“I mean, I’m just saying… they’re frustrated, and I’m right here anyways- so why not?“

Chan had looked right through you momentarily, shooting you a knowing look, a smirk planted on his visage; because truly, there was no actual advantage coming out for you with this whole deal.

“What, is this like your secret fantasy or something?” Words a whisper and you could have whined out at the teasing all alone. “Being fucked by three men, being used as a human fleshlight by us, huh?” You did, in fact. You needed each one of them to do wholly unspeakable things to you, needed them desperately to be on boat with the matter.

Chan had agreed after some more teasing – because truly, how could he not when you have revealed such precious information about yourself – and had argued he’d talk with the other two – though both of you deemed the boys to be as filthy as you were and agree upon the idea without seconds thoughts. Which you weren’t wrong about.

By now you were used to it. Found yourself on one of their laps more often than not, or below the desk with your mouth wide agape for them. It had all occurred naturally; none of the three were ones to shy away, you too desperate to be embarrassed of your offer – it was fate like.

You were seated on Changbin’s thighs, cock buried so deep inside you felt dizzy from it’s continuous poking. You weren’t fucking, not even moving in the first place; Changbin working away on his laptop, arms around your figure, your back pressed against his sturdy chest, watching his track come undone. Your skirt was scrunched up at your hips, though it had been all too short to begin with, not leaving much to imagination – admittedly, pants and underwear had grown an inconvenience whenever you were headed to the studio, so you – and the boys – had found a liking for dress-like attire.

Occasionally, when needing a quick break, or when stretching himself out, Changbin’s hand would wander around your body down your core, circling at your clit to get you wetter, hotter, more desperate – each one of them loved getting you to a state of being a whiny mess, cock drunk and eager to please.

“Fuck it, I need some food.”

After an hour and a half Changbin decided to take a proper break – though he wasn’t one to ever leave any of you hot and bothered. He let his hands wander over your body in needy manner, as though having forgotten you were actually sitting on his lap, as though reminded of the fact his cock was buried within you and that both of you were turned on beyond comprehension. Longing hands on your thighs, squeezing the flesh and moaning out at its softness, palms on your hips then, caressing waist and stomach, groping breasts and closing in on your throat, eventually. Chan and Jisung were left to watch – they had been for the past hour and a half, and Jisung had complained to be waiting for his turn way too long already; he couldn’t work well when sexually frustrated, he worked even worse when continuously bricked up watching you sit and grind on Changbin’s erection, moaning and whining softly under your breath for all over ninety minutes. After all you were theirs to share, not Changbin’s. Though the older man hadn’t minded him, and wasn’t now.

He started thrusting up softy, the slow movement ripping out a drawn out moan out your throat. You were aware to be quiet when the three of them worked, though you couldn’t help it most of the time. Not when each of them knew all the quirks to your weaknesses – because while you were primarily helping them out for their very own pleasure none of them were ones to forget yours.

The hand on your throat tightened, fingers closing in on the side of your nape, and you arched your back, head thrown against Changbin’s shoulder. The man felt tense underneath you, chasing his orgasm he’d been holding out on for far too long. Continuous thrusts, rhythmic and hard against your core, his thick thighs clashing against your ass in sinful sounds. Your eyes were closed, shut fully, seeing stars.

“Fuck- keep it down at least.”

Jisung, watching intently, eyes hooded and a hand down his pants – he wouldn’t be stupid enough to cum without your body on him, without your help, yet he’d always been the most eager, the most impatient of the three. Needing you on him and his cock twenty four hours of the day, seven days a week. Chan chuckled at his antics, though he’d lie saying he could focus on his own work – your voice was heavenly, audibly trying to keep it down yet failing miserable at Changbin’s attempts to finally release.

His hips were moving faster now, harder than before – and both of you came with hushed down moans, you first, him following moments after. You sat chest to back for another minute or two, recollecting yourselves, getting a hold of your sanity you are seeming to lose whenever in a room with the three. Though Jisung wouldn’t let you rest for too long, surely.

“It’s my turn now, c’mon.”

His whine was adorable almost, and you huffed in laughter, rolling your eyes in amusement and in aftermath of your orgasm. You were feeling sore, yet your eagerness overtook any feeling of possible pain and exhaustion. You stood up, weak on your legs though Changbin was quick to catch you, guide you up until your head grew clearer. A quick reassuring word, a fast question whether you were good, and he was out the room, wallet in hand and hunger in his guts. Making your way over to Jisung’s seat, passing Chan who looked you up and down for a moment or two, before you kneeled down beneath Jisung’s desk. He was stroking himself still, hard on as mouth-watering as could be. “Fuck, need you so bad, you can’t imagine.” Jisung’s voice entirely too desperate, pathetic some would say, but he was never one to mind.

“My god, let the girl rest, Ji.”

Chan’s scolding voice from beside, and then he addressed you. “You’re okay, yeah?” You gifted him a reassuring smile and a nod. You were tired, fucked out already, surely. Though there was merely anything you desired more this very moment. You opened up your mouth, tongue out and ready to lap up anything Jisung would give you. A smirk from Chan, then a chuckle.

“You’re nasty, would have never thought.”

He was back to work, though his words enticed a fire to flame up within you. You were, this whole idea was, the fact all three of them agreed upon this idea was. It was disgusting if anything, and you couldn’t get enough of it, ever possibly. You groaned out in purified need, Jisung’s hands at your jaw, holding you in place and thrusting in shallow grinds. He let you get used to him for a moment or two before his own need grew all too big, before his head threw back against his chair and high pitched whines left his throat. Your knees numb, your eyes teary, locks dishevelled. Jisung had a hard grip on the roots of your hair, guiding you along his shaft, giving you no control of jerking him off yourself – using you as a personal toy, as nothing but a human hole. A cry of pleasure left your throat at the thought alone.

All three of them were wary initially, when it came to purely using you, as you wished they would, as you had told them they should. Felt bad, felt as though dehumanizing a good friend of theirs. Though, with the establishment of safe measures all of you grew onto the idea quick, as though it’s always been in your nature. Grew an obsession with the fact your legs were ever open for them, you were so very desperate to have them inside of you in one way or another, as often as it was possible.

A hand of yours wandered down your middle, settling between your legs with two fingers against your clit. Jisung’s thrusts caused for your entire body to rock back and forth, the little friction that created enough for your eyes to roll back in utter bliss, for muffled moans to vibrate against the head of his cock. You knew it wouldn’t be long until he came, always the fastest to shoot since always the most eager to fuck. Two or three more thrusts and he came down your throat in thick spurts of white, hips stuttering in their movement, his brows creasing in the middle, huffing out air in scattered manner. His grip on your hair loosening, and you lapped up his remaining orgasm, licking up his thighs and shaft which the man nothing but shuddered at. Exchanging a smile, and a heated kiss right after – Jisung always loved tasting himself on your lips.

Chan was always one to give you a break, despite aware of your filthy wishes. He sat hot and bothered in his chair, uncomfortable erection in his pants, though he let you sleep it out on the sofa right behind them. Simply due to his higher amounts of self-control, partly because he knew your body had limits no matter how much you wished to be filled up continuously without a break. But god, was it difficult. The three of them working away – Changbin returned from his hunt down for food, both him and Jisung utterly pleased, satisfied, relaxed – while he sat between them, talking lyrics and production while you were the only thing on his mind. He heard your little huffs and puffs of sleep behind him, saw your scrunched up figure under some duvets, or an occasional bare leg that protruded from underneath the blanket. It was a game of the mind, as though you were challenging him to see how much more he could take. Except you weren’t at all, except you’d be glad if he woke you up to express the wish for a quick get off – maybe it was solely Chan’s own mind that played games with him.

It called for you to awake at some point though, and you did with groggy eyes and a pool of wet between your legs. It was fascinating truly – one might think that your body would grow tired of it, would grow exhausted of the constant and very regular fucking; yet it grew needier altogether. Every moment you weren’t in the studio or with any of the three you wished for nothing else, the moment you left for home your body on the verge of turning back around and sleeping over at their apartment, in their beds instead of your own. Your demeanour would have been pathetic, concerning even, if the need and longing didn’t overtake the entirety of your body, your every nerve and thought. You didn’t care how desperate you seemed, how embarrassing you might act in front of them – at the end you were, desperate and embarrassing, and they loved it as much as you did.

Chan was the first to hear your waking, recalling the tired groan from behind him, converting his eyes onto your half awake figure. Your top was scrunched up, your skirt sitting by your hips, revealing the lack of any type of underwear, revealing all too much skin for Chan to contain his need any longer. The three of them had been slowly wrapping up, anyways; deciding on finishing touches, talking more nonsense than work due to exhaustion. You eyed them with sleep drunken eyes, hunger flickering within them. You were wholly too pathetic.

“Good morning, sleepyhead. You good?”

You nodded, stretching out your limbs.

“Very good, yeah.”

A chuckle from each of them, and Chan made his way over to you, nestling up by your side.

“Mind if we make you feel better?”

His voice a whisper when he spoke, low and raspy against your neck, hot breath and kisses against it eliciting a longing sigh out of you. Chan grazed his teeth against your skin, the sensitive of your nape, waiting for an answer while hungry hands wandered your body. You shook your head, fast and hasty, eyes fixating on the two other men who looked as worked up as you were feeling. There was something utterly filthy about watching their best friend turn you on, about his hushed words against your body, about the thought of all three of them having you however they wanted. About you being the very first and most eager one to encourage the sinful act.

“I don’t mind at all… please.”

Voice frantic, as though there wasn’t anything you needed more in your life. It needed only that for three pairs of hands to be on you, sleep clouded mind not fully grasping each of their position though enjoying the attention, nonetheless. Sometimes it was an ego thing, if you were honest. The three of them agreeing on having you as their personal fucktoy, all three of them desperate to let off some steam with the help of your body – it was a feeling like no other.

Your skirt was discarded, slid down your thighs and thrown onto the floor carelessly. Your shirt followed suit not mere moments after, and you were left bare to the bone in front of them. You ate up each wanting eye, grew wetter witch each tongue that pocked out to lick hunger lips.

Your body was propped up against the head of the sofa in a half-seated position, legs spread as wide as you managed. Mimicking your desperation, giving a reason for them to tease you. You loved when they did.

Changbin made his way to you onto the sofa, kneeling beside you, two fingers pinching at your jaw to make you look at him. A filthy smirk, a nod which you returned, and he guided your head downwards, only enough for your mouth to be reaching his cock. You wrapped your lips around him momentarily, with no need of telling or reminding what to do. A laugh out the mans mouth, a groan following after.

“Good fucking girl, so needy to just be filled up, huh?”

You heard Chan huff out in amusement, watching the way your head bobbed up and down on Changbin’s length seconds into taking him in, at all. He himself was positioned above your middle, making way for Jisung right behind and lower to him. The younger was squirting an ungodly amount of lube onto his shaft, stroking himself relentlessly, getting lost in the bit of pleasure he provided for himself before he focused back on you, your body. Eager hands groping at your ass, mostly for something to hold on, stability. His tip circled around your hole, the slimness of his cock more fitted for the back than Chan’s would be. A bit more circling, more prepping before he slowly pushed in, head thrown back at the tightness, relishing in the way you groaned out in pleasure, in the way your body jolted towards the friction. Chan held you down, pushed into your pussy not long after – almost bursting when his tip was coated fully in your wetness, head thrown back and eyes shut closed. Him and Jisung were bottoming out simultaneously, gliding into your holes at the same time. It was a feeling that drove you to mere insanity, and quicker than you could look you didn’t have the mind anymore to be jerking off Changbin, making the man fuck into your mouth instead. Tears of pleasure built up in your eyes – you could cum any minute and all they did was fill you up yet, without much action.

Chan and Jisung were holding a steady rhythm, one thrusting when the other wasn’t, giving you no time to catch a break from the feeling of utter depth. Changbin was the first to fall off the edge, hips stammering quickly and hot liquid filling you and sliding down your throat, the bitter taste making you wetter if any possible. He made sure to clean up your face, wiping off his remaining cum off your face when he came down from his high – though it was to little use, watching his friends fuck up into you, their faces distorted in pleasure, their groans filling the room, your own body bouncing up and down with every of their movements – Changbin hardened up again in less than seconds. Jerking off beside you, watching your tits move with every thrust, watching your hands grope Chan’s shoulders, your nails prone to draw blood if you weren’t careful.

Jisung’s movements the first to grow sloppy, and it didn’t need the man long to throw his head back and cum with a moan louder you have yet heard from him. He stayed inside you for a while longer, thrusting up his release deeper into you, watching as it squeezed out the sides and onto the base of his cock, small droplets onto the floor, making a mess to say the least. Changbin lost his composure at simply that, and at the face you made when you felt the warm liquid spread inside your tight hole – pure bliss, mouth wide agape and your legs opened yet another inch, welcoming and eager. The buffer man came with stuttered hips, spurts of cum painting your face white, your eyes closed, your tongue out to lap him up if needed – and it was the sole thing that Chan needed to see, observing his friend and you acting the nastiest you ever have, feeling Jisung pull out behind you, smelling the aroma of nothing but sex – the oldest male increased his speed shortly before halting inside you deeply, and at the feeling of him filling you up you couldn’t help but orgasm yourself in spurts of wetness, covering Chan’s cock, his thighs, the bit of floor beneath you. Your body contracting, your thighs never seeming to still, seeming to keep shaking for another while. Drawn out whines and their names spilling past your mouth like a mantra, and eventually your body fell limp. The three men didn’t look any better, eyes hooded and sheets of sweat covering their heaving chests. Though all of you needed a minute or two to compose yourself they all hurried to clean you up, nontheless — feeling their duty to. Jisung in charge of water, Chan grabbing a towel, Changbin on to get rid of the mess he made on your face.

If it went after you, you’d propose to stay and continue on for a couple more rounds. Though that confession would be wholly too embarrassing to make.

@etherealeeknow @linoskitty @unexceptional-h @rseanne @diue @es-kay-zee @urcracksisx @jeyelleohe @yunkiwii @etheralsung @nyrasneedy @seochhj @spidercomics @chans-starlight @angelwonie @lix-ables @yvniek4ng @ppiri-bahng @sstarryreads @svintsandghosts @bokjaz @llunapastell @sensitiveandhungry

[vasyandii]

Hi, Vasya! I’m sorry, if you wrote it somewhere and I just missed it, but I was wondering, what are Naks relationships with other Chimera members (ok, Krueger is obvious and I remember you writing about Syd). Is it ‘just business’ for her or are they her friends? What does she think of them? Thank you so much!

Hi Thank you so much for the Ask!! Im going to section out by each individual operator if that's okay (I'm really bad at explaining things so please bear with me ;-;)

NAK'S RELATIONSHIPS WITH CHIMERA MEMBERS (+How I think Nak would draw them)

Beforehand: These are just my personal Headcanons from how I interpret their characters and voicelines!

SYD

I briefly mentioned Syd being someone Nak views as an older sister figure in her Bio so I'd like to touch more on that-

Nak, She sees Syd as a sister because Syd's the first person she's comfortable enough to talk about her personal experiences and cares enough about her that Nak shows interest in what Syd as to say. For a long while didn't have a healthy support system before she fled Laos . Being introduced to Syd, she was reluctant and dismissive for the first week or so. However, seeing how Syd was trying to at least be on good terms with her, she thought it was safe enough to give it a chance.

Syd (from her voicelines) is outgoing, friendly, strong-willed, and determined. Nikolai probably asked her to intergrate Nak into the group. Both of them being from wealthy families of people with political/military influence is something they have in common. She understood to an extent why Nak had difficulty trusting people (Not including the whole Naga Trauma stuff) and was willing to take up the challenge.

They hang out during breaks, Nak gets to experience Normal life stuff like a Girls Night, doing her hair, going shopping.

YEGOR

Yegor, having 3 kids himself, probably has an instinct to protect and look out for those who are younger in the field (from His interactions with Rodion and his discomfort with using children during interrogation). He's lowkey concerned abt Nak because she's one of the youngest members in the faction. He knows how people in their early 20s would act from his personal experience but Nak doesn't fit the mold and it's worrying, even if he doesn't say it.

Nak has cried because he called her "kid", she didn't even realize she was crying from that. It was like an inner child healing experience. She initially didn't like him because she felt like he was "treating her as if she's a child" but grew to respect him since they have pasts in organized crime and he feels like her idea of a dad.

NIKOLAI

Nikolai is hard on Nak (alot of cleaning duties, etc.) Because she's one of the youngest people in the faction. " If you wann work here you gotta be good at your job" mindset. He knows that she's a good operator so he pushes her to do her best, with boundaries of course.

Nak thinks of Nikolai as a better version of Naga. She says he's a pain in the ass but really respects him; He got her a job, he accommodated for her issues with routine mental check ups, and his methods with missions is efficient and more her style. She's called him Dad on accident a handful of times, I don't think Nikolai bothered to correct her though.

ISKRA

Iskra doesn't have an opinion on Nak, she respects Nak's ability as an operator but thinks she's a bit strange

Nak thinks Iskra is so cool. She doesn't know how to talk to her because she thinks Iskra is really pretty and admires her relationships with the other female operators. She wants to be friends with her.

Farah

Farah doesn't have an opinion in Nak, doesn't know her that well.

Nak is a bit intimidated by Farah because of her Accomplishments, respects her as an operator

Krueger

She thinks he's stupid and dumb (they kiss)

If you made it this far thank you or reading, the post corrupted initially so that's why it's longer 😭😭

[lovelyjasmari]

I hate to ask, but what is this new dumb take in the TWST fandom exactly? Sorry, I'm not on Twitter. 😅

Hello! 💙

So I was about to make a follow up post to my last one but I’ll just explain my feelings here.

Basically twst fans on the bird app are unironically defending Fellow’s actions because of his takes on the elitism in Twisted Wonderland when it comes to magic and arcane schools. Saying that the nrc boys were being unnecessarily mean to him and not even trying to understand his point of view because of their privilege.

Now, I’m not gonna say that elitism is wrong, it is. And there is definitely a discussion to be had about how the class system in Twisted Wonderland favors high level magic users (and more importantly, rich/noble high level magic users). It’s something I might explore in future writing but regardless, this isn’t the time nor place for that conversation because as Ace so eloquently put it:

And as Jack also put it:

At the end of the day, Fellow is a literal human trafficker, turning our boys and other people into puppets and god knows what kind of people seek these puppets out and for what. The boys have every right to be pissed at him. And beyond that, Fellow is an ADULT! So he doesn’t even have the excuse of being misguided. He’s not even doing this for any reason related to his frustration about elitism, he’s just in it for the money.

If education was really that important to Fellow, he’s probably clever and resourceful enough to find a way to go to school assuming his magic was strong enough. I feel like it’s probably a good thing Ruggie wasn’t in this event cause he’d probably give him even more of an earful considering he grew up in the literal slums and still somehow managed to get into NRC.

Yes, the NRC boys can be little shitheads sometimes. Yes, poverty sucks. Yes elitism sucks, but at some point you can’t use that as an excuse for abhorrent behavior. Honestly, if I have any sympathy for anyone it’s Gidel since I’m pretty sure he’s a child and doesn’t deserve this. Can Lilia adopt him please?? 😭

[neve-gallus-girl-detective]

honestly, I love undiagnosed high masking JJ hc. Because it fits.

Especially early seasons JJ with her mess of files. But it’s a system!

I can imagine maybe one day she’s away, sick or dealing with something, and Hotch needs a file from her office so asks Reid to get it. And thinking he’s helping Reid quickly reorganizes some of the files because he doesn’t understand how JJ can find anything.

the next day JJ is distraught. It even takes her a little bit to fully figure out why, but everything just feels wrong. It’s all wrong and she’s overwhelmed but can’t let anyone know, because it doesn’t really make sense. Then she finds out how happened and wants to scream and yell at Reid but she can’t, because she knows the team won’t understand why it’s such a big deal, she can’t let them see that, and also because JJ is so empathetic and she understands why Reid did it and that it was meant to help. but later she’s in her office looking for a while she needs and can’t find it and just loses it. She’s crying and her hands are shaking and it’s so stupid, because she knows it’s in her office and she knows it is just a few papers that got moved and she *shouldnt* be this upset over it. And she feels stupid and ridiculous and she knows everyone sees her system as “mess”.

then Emily comes in and sees her and is so understanding, and her hands are shaking while she tell Emily she knows it’s dumb but her files being moved has made her entire day feel wrong and she doesn’t know what to do. And Emily wraps her up in a hug and is just quiet and understanding and asks if she wants help looking or if maybe she’d rather Emily not touch anything but maybe just sit with her so she feels a bit more calm while she tries to sort through everything.

😭😭😭😭

My wife rearranged the furniture in my office area and I had a full blown meltdown. I was like "I'm not mad and it's better this way, but I didn't know you were going to change it!! I wasn't ready!!"

I feel like Emily would help JJ reorganize. They move everything to the floor and put files back one by one until it's finished. Pen answers calls that day and Hotch leaves them alone. Reid comes by with lunch and an apology. He's like "my autism thought it was better the way I fixed it, but I didn't think about yours and I'm sorry"

[summ3rhead]

Those were the two points that made me come to terms with the open ending you wrote. And it's glorious and painful both, at once. Your art moved me in a way no other story had done so far, it reached into my psyche and pulled a cord that is still taut and the snap it caused reverberated in me. You and me thinking about how love is always going to be complicated for them, about why an open ending left me in such an emotional place, about god and divinity and my own relationship to those concepts. Which talking about it would be another wall of text, so I'm gonna wrap it up. Thank you, thank you thank you so much sincerely. You gifted me a story that shook me, that has a personal meaning. And made me look at a couple issues about myself that I keep working on, topics of love, god, truth, the alchemy that is being loved by someone special and the possibility that letting go is the end of the road sometimes. But theirs is an open ending, as such I'll have to work hard to make my brain picture what could happen. To find the possibility under that bell curve that makes the most sense to who they are. I'm so sorry for clogging your ask box this way 😭 I could have written this dumb essay on ao3, but for some reason I do feel that reaching out through Tumblr is almost like knocking on the actual door of your house and drop by to say 'hello your art has touched me deeply, thank you' I sincerely hope none of the various parts of this ask are lost by Tumblr's system (it has happened to me sometimes) and lastly, your story moved me in a way that's made decide to try my hand at writing for them. Maybe I'll write my personal end to your story, if only for myself. I'm sure I will be bad at it, but they have taken hold of my brain and won't let go until I puke out whatever they want me to. Thanks for your story and your vision for it, you are insanely talented, this fandom is lucky to have you. If you want to publish all parts of my ask publicly it's ok, and if not that's ok too

This ask is in regards to my Avatrice Wings of desire AU (becasue i'm structuring this ask weirdly)

First off, thank you!! It took me a while to respond to this simply because I was figuring out just how exactly to respond. It'll probably be a bit unorthodox but I'm going to respond to your penultimate ask and paste your other ones in if anybody else wants to read through them and get a little context. 

To be frank, I’m pleased my fic gave you such a visceral reaction. I knew people were going to have mixed feelings over it, but I never intended for the ending to be easy, though I’d like to think it's not such a devastating open ending, but fairly hopeful. It’s so interesting to see people connect with my writing on a personal level (I also had a relationship that ended weirdly. The feelings were there but the circumstances were, quite frankly, dog shit. It didn’t work out, and you're right: those partings are always worse). 

Also, don’t apologise for sending me such a long ask! It was all so fascinating and really made me think. I had to read your comments a few times over to really appreciate the beautiful points you were making :) very interesting stuff.

In regards to this ask (which is long and wouldn't fit into one screen shot):

I’m so so so pleased because it seems like you’ve really grasped and understood the version of Ava and Beatrice I was angling for. This ask specifically… i think you really nailed what i was going for, and nailed Ava and Bea’s characterisations in general. This line particularly:

 “Ava did exactly what she was going to do. Keep trying to outrun her pain, with or without Bea. And Bea would stay behind because she's her own person, the person Ava helped to develop, and thanks to her she has the strength to say I cannot follow this time.”

And to answer this ask! All is not lost, an epilogue is still on the cards!

And in regards to your own endeavours, the first step to writing is just banging something out on a page and pushing through the discomfort of trying something new. I salute you on your journey :)

Thank you so much for such a thought out response to my work. It means so so much to me that I've written something that warrants this kind of response, truly I'm profoundly touched.

I really really appreciate people who not only comment on ao3, but also take the time to send me such thoughtful asks here on tumblr (you're right, it does sort of feel like knocking at my front door hehe)

Thank you, friend <3 I’m honoured that my work has touched you like this :’)

[pics-and-fanfics]

I'm sorry. I had a bad day and took offense to something you said. I didn't mean to actually hurt you, I just wanted to take out my anger on you and I guess make you feel angry too? That's why i sent that ask.

I'm 16 and I'm just having a really hard time in school and I'm scared of senior year and I was hurt really bad recently. I hope you can forgive me and forget about what I said. I'm just some dumb teenager who forgets how powerful words are I guess. I'm so sorry girl or nb or w/e you prefer. I hope you feel better by now, life is amazing and I hope you surround yourself with people who make you happy. Please go over this with your therapist.

I'm really sorry. I'll be more thoughtful next time i send people ask. I'll try and be a better person

Understandable, everyone has bad days, but maybe a better way to let out that anger would be to write it down and then rip it up or destroy it? Idk, I just isolate myself and hug my stuffed animals until I feel better tbh.

And yeah, I did get upset, but I wasn’t mad, I was just a little taken aback, maybe hurt? I get that school is hard, I’m still in high school too (it fucking sucks ass, I feel you there) and I’m terrified about the future. But I’ve got my friends and family and an awesome support system, in person and online, maybe find people that can be that for you, and vise versa?

Don’t call yourself dumb, that leads down a very dark hole that’s hard to climb out of and it forms into a very very bad habit, trust me. I’m working on that myself, but like everything, esp bad habits, it takes time and effort to fix. I still say stuff like “I’m so dumb” a bit too often, but I’m working on saying “no I’m not, I’m smart, I’m just having trouble” afterwards.

And yeah, words hurt. I’ve learned that the hard way, driving away people that I didn’t learn to appreciate until later, but I can’t apologize bc I have no idea where or even who they are now. Friends, strangers, even my niece (I’m working on not doing that with her tho, I love the little kid, she’s so awesome and smart and kind, at least when she doesn’t have her moms shitty attitude).

And I can forgive, but I will not forget. Kinda like the quote “The lumberjack forgets the pain he causes, but the tree always remembers.” I’m working on that too, trying to forgive others. I’m working on a lot about myself lately, I’m just realizing. I still hold grudges, esp against the person who sent the ask last year telling me to kill myself, but I don’t know if I have or haven’t forgiven them. I don’t know if I have or haven’t forgiven an old friend after what she pulled at my birthday 2 years ago, and I don’t know if I can. There are some things that can’t be forgiven, but this is so small, but it hurts so much still.

I forgive you, and I hope you have some better days coming, honestly.

If you want, you can keep sending asks when you have a bad day? They can stay anonymous, and I can try to help, if that’s okay with you. I can be part of your support system, if you want.

I’m working on a lot of things, and I hope maybe this can help you start working a little to be happier, less full of anger all the time?

But please, be kind to yourself, and if you can’t always be kind to others, then try to find a way to avoid them or ignore them. (I don’t know if I can do that with the boys in my math class tho, they are so loud and I got basically punched in the arm by one of them today, it hurt)

I love you, anon. Please be kind to yourself, and I’m here if you need to talk again. ❤️

You are enough. I love you.

(Also sorry I took forever to respond to your ask, but I saw this right before class, and then school basically drained all of my energy 😭 and then I had a shit load of homework I had to do, at least I get out for break tmrw thank god)

[mixedkid-matchup]

you do not have to answer this!! I'm using you to confess my dubious feelings for the Percy Jackson series bc you also expressed like some weird feelings about it, and I kind of thought the series was untouchable bc of how much everyone I see fawns over it, and I have GOT to get this off my chest to someone who might get what I'm saying. But I have major issues with the writing/premise/series bc it's just feels so deeply colonized and it's bothered me since it FIRST came out and everyone in middle school and high school was reading it and teachers were assigning it. Like the whole premise for the Greek gods being in the US is that they follow Western "progress" and it completely disregards all the amazing things Indigenous did and our way of life, and also removes the importance of place-based culture for both Greek stories and Native peoples (like okay all the Greek stuff moved to the U.S. but wth happened to all our spiritual figures?? The story completelya cts like Native people weren't here and didn't have complex beliefs and ways of life connected to the land, and the gods were just free to take over here with no issues). As a mixed Indigenous kid it just rubs me wrong in all the worst ways and the academic systems love affair with Greek and Roman stuff and Rick Riordan's sheer popularity has been forcing this stuff in my face foreveeeerrrr 😭😭 I was surprised to see your tags about the fandom being weird before too tho since I don't interact with it, so I hope you don't mind this ask and just know I kinda feel the same way!! Ok thanks bye sorry for the rant.

BRO I HAVE HAD THIS RANT ON HAND FOR A LONG TIME ITS OKAY!!!!!!!!!

I THINK IF HEARD ABOUT THIS ACTUALLY. but you explained it way better. like when i first read percy jackson ok fine i was 11, i obviously caught onto the ableism and such but i did not catch onto this until i thought about it when i got older. you're super right. the whole thing about ww2 being caused by demigods was the weirdest shit ever i literally did not remember reading it until i read lightning thief again last year. why did hitler need to be child of hades. THAT IS QUITE LITERALLY HOW PERCY DESCRIBES HADES WHEN HE SEES HIM. LOOKING LIKE HITLER. then what you're saying how they move with the places that are the most progressive and basically take over..... like it's just ..... incredibly misplaced and insensitive.

but about the fandom being weird (its literally encouraged by riordan's book tbh), in heroes of olympus, hazel is a black girl from lousiana in the 1930s?? or 40s idk anyways i think she dies and then nico brings her back. whatever, everyone draws her lightskin and with orange hair, and super skinny, (which she's from louisana. shes darkskin and does not have "caramel" hair i hate white men sometimes.) and shes like 13 btw and in a relationship with frank whos like 16. weird as hell and everyone thinks theyre so sweet. and also rick cannot write meaningful young women. and especially not girls of color. like its WEIRD how piper is portrayed as some pick me girl she constantly feels the need to express shes not like the Aphrodite girls. and rick had to make it weird with aphrodite anyway by making them a whole stereotype of snobby boys and girls who love putting on makeup. they had drew, an asian girl & counselor of aphrodite, straight up mean to piper bc she likes jason. like for no other reason. drew only wants to participate and go on the quest because of jason. and other stereotypes like making leo, latine, be super flirty.

and lets really talk about how annoying annabeth was about the blondes are dumb stereotype because, girl we can talk about misogyny and people not letting you do things because of it, but lets also talk about how you are TWELVE, and the blonde stereotype is tired. i never liked annabeth, she was really tone deaf as someone whos half black. OH AND FRANK. they had this weird ass arc where they implied he was fat because of lack of confidence? like when he got confident he, lost weight... because of a blessing of mars? i dont even know.

like as i get older its more and more annoying to see it. i literally rolled my eyes when i saw rick talking about colorblind casting when people got mad about annabeth. he could of said anything else. how this could reconceptualize annabeth's arc around misogyny and now racism. and purposely alter her character to fit this new black annabeth. but no. people treat colorblind casting as a pinnacle of progressiveness.

[k2ntoss]

Hiii!! Can i request “why are you acting like this all of a sudden” with dick x reader? I was thinking of scenario where they're having an argument or something like that, but anything is fine (as long as it has a happy ending cuz I read waay too much angst today 😭)

Thank you and I wish you have a nice day !! <33

I'M HERE READY TO DELIVER A SWEET ENDING BECAUSE I REFUSE (not really, sorry, i love angst) TO MAKE THIS SAD !!!!!!!! i feel like if i ever got into an argument with jealous dick i would literally cry like baby can't you see i'm in love with you???? but anyways, i'm almost asleep but i need to get this out of my system now that you made me think about it <3 and i hope you like it and also have a nice day when you read this

"why are you acting like this all of the sudden?"

you're not able to think properly about how you ended up like this, following your best friend as he walks away from you after he saw how a classmate of yours kissed you all over your face after you helped him studying for a test he needed to pass, you were too happy when he made it you forgot you don't really like it when people were too clingy so when your partner kissed your face you just giggled happily while hugging him, it made dick furious basically.

he was practically stomping his way to the dorms, shoving people out of his way while you followed, trying to apologize on his behalf to anyone that was ready to get into his way. when you made it to his dorm you stood on the doorway, arms crossed and breath a bit heavy from the way you had to rush your pace to get into the room before he closed the door "what the hell is going on now?" you ask when he tosses his bag to his desk, the pretty frame with a silly photo of you both falling onto the floor "nothing. leave" dick barks before he sits on the small couch he has there, eyes closed and head falling back while he ignores your presence.

"not gonna happen, pretty boy, you better tell me why do you look like you're about to kick someone" you say, sitting on the edge of his bed after closing the door behind you. the silence that follows your words makes you shift on your spot and you try to touch his knee when you lean in "you know damn well what happens, don't try to play dumb now" he scoffs before moving his leg out of your reach, which makes you frown because dick has never avoided your touch, he would usually lean into it like a little kitty and make your heart melt because lovely and clingy physical touch was only fine when it was him.

"i'm afraid i don't really know what's going on, dick" the use of his name instead of any pet name makes him sick, it shows on his face when he sits straight "yeah, you have no idea like with almost everything around you" and then it settles, you know he's really upset when his words intend to hurt you and you know better than giving into his little anger game but you can't help to snap back "oh, c'mon explain yourself, dick"

"not gonna happen, it's time for you to start working hard by yourself because i'm not going to be doing everhthing for your lazy ass forever" dick looks at you with narrowed eyes, he knows he shouldn't say things like that but he's mad at you, because you've let someone else cross your limits and he has to be the only one that is allowed to do so "oh god, i should thank to heaven because you've been solving all my fucking life, right?" the anger on your voice hits him hard and he's about to say something when you stand up "what the fuck is going on, dick, why are you acting like this all of the sudden?" and the moment you ask he feels stupid.

dick sinks into the couch, crossing his arms over his chest and going silent, looking away from you almost as if he wasn't listening to you "are you gonna answer or should i leave? because i don't even know if i really want to listen to another word from your mouth" you say with an annoyed tone, dick's behavior switches once again from his annoyance to his avoidance and now to what looks like a tantrum when he shifts on the couch, his snarl turning into a small pout "i don't wanna tell you..." his voice comes out almost like a whisper and it makes you kneel in front of him, giving him a nod before letting out a sigh as you stood up again, walking up to the door as if you were about to leave.

"why did you let someone else kiss you like that?" he asks before you can reach to open the door, the questions makes you turn around and tilt your head just to be met by dick and his best sad puppy eyes, he looks like he has been betrayed and you know thay this is him being a little shit and trying to manipulate you with how cute he is "isn't it supposed to be just me the only one allowed to be all clingy to you?" he asks and suddenly he seems really worried about it, like that could mean he could lose you.

"you must be kidding me, dick" you say and he flinches at the use of his name "why would you–? i mean, does it really makes you that upset?" dick hums at your words, covering his face to avoid your look but he chuckles softly when your hands take his to make him meet your eyes "it's stupid, i know" all of his cockiness has vanished, he's not that flirty now but you've seen him in pretty much any mood he could pull and this wasn't new "it's not stupid but a little bit weird, i thought you knew already that i can only stand that much physical contact when it comes from you but i'm allowed to feel happy when someone i helped achieves something" she says softly, if it were anyone else she wouldn't even been wasting time on talking about this but when it came to dick everything was different.

"am i allowed to tell you that i like you and that i got jealous because i don't like when someone else is kissing you?" he asks suddenly, breaking the silence where you thought he was thinking about your words but instead he was just thinking about confessing to you.

[papirouge]

hey papi, hope you're doing well and I hope your move goes as well as it can!

(apologies in advance for the following vent)

logged in to tumblr this morning to catch one of the rad-leaning women I follow reblogging a long string of screenshots about a woman fighting a man who had tried to film her in a changing room, and a bunch of tweets about it... from users like "EndWokeness" and Trump supporters... and then these women get up in arms when people accuse them of being conservative lmao

like it legit feels like women in the US are stuck between a rock and a hard place. there's trans activism on the left eroding women's rights but the right is no better (as radfems understand, yet keep allying themselves with men who are fundamentalists Islamists in all but name). and idk what the answer to all of this is but refusing to lie down with a bunch of "feminism is the root of all evil" moids would be a good start imo

Hi! I'm doing great 🧡 sorry for the delay (this ask is like 1 month old lol) I'm still very busy packing out my stuff since I changed place and I'm so busy with work 😭

But yeah, radfemistan went mask off since a while. BUT actual radfem call this out too. For example there's a post floating around with a radfem fawning on matt Walsh talking shit about trans and some replies (from radfem) were like "uh? are we really gonna give props to rightoids moids just bc they talk shit about trans people?". I feel like there's kind lf a schism happening among radfem right now. One side is now more comfortable than ever embracing an openly pro white/pro western clash of civilization mindset while the other is desperately trying to put against it - and being bullied for doing so (e.g menalez).

Those radfem are basically acting like white supremacist - just with added misandry. They have the same talking point as your average conservative moid but they'll also shit on men so they somehow think we won't notice their racism. Why? Bc those women don't acknowledge racism as a relevant axis of oppression, only misogyny. That's why they'll be comfortable saying dumb shit like "misogyny is worse than slavery". And when I ask them "were black female slaves slaves because they were black or women?" or "if misogyny is a more severe form of oppression, why were white women allowed to own (male & female) slaves? 🤔" They go MIA.

They'll talk about "shithole countries" male demographic and expect us disregard the racist undertone of their statement. If we don't, it means we are siding with those brown rapists from said shithole countries - obviously.

And TBH, let's get something straight: I personally don't care about those white women talking shit about black men (since I'm black), my problem is when they're painting the entirety of poverty ridden places as a monolith of intellectually backwards people whose obsession is raping & oppressing white women. The main characters syndrome is HUGE with those women. Most black men oppress and kill BLACK WOMEN at disproportionately rates. Black men themselves admit oppressing us is easier because we don't benefit the protection of white supremacy (and the justice system it established) like white women do. But those dumb white supremacist radfem be legit acting like they were the main target of men of my community...when it's a known thing that Black men will behave better with white women because they're scared of white supremacy. This matter of fact doesn't exclude the reality of non white men considering white women as a (social) trophy but statisticalreality trumps their narrative that white women are *the* piece of choice of non white men when it comes to misogynist attacks.

That is white supremacy is action : always considering themselves as the apex of desirability. Remember when radfemistan said Amber Heard was "perfect misogyny"? I was the only one to smell the racialist bullshit one mile away, and truth is the mask slipped even more off since that time.

They are the ones who entertained a smear campaign about an GNC athlete calling her a man, and when they failed having any evidence to back up their claims, resorted to ask genetic test from her(?!!), and went on to pull out copium theories about how women with higher testosterone levels shouldn't compete against regular women... Obviously without elaborating what's a normal level testosterone is, and not realizing how hypocritical they sound for bringing this issue just *now*. As if biological/hormonal inequalities were something new in sport. Interesting how we never saw them seeethe about "average" sized women being excluded from basket leagues because of those unfairly giant sized shemale threatening female sports uwu It's VERY interesting they waited for a north african gnc woman to suddenly clutch their pearls and go "WILL SOMEONE THINK ABOUT THE DAINTY SMOL WHITE WOMEN TRYING TO MAKE IT IN SPORTS??" 🥀

They are full of shit and crumbling under the weight of their stupidity and hypocrisy. Hopefully they don't ever whine about tra spreading "misinformation" about radfem ideology because they definitely were right for clocking the lingering racism and White femalehood bio essentialism among them lol

[wyllzel]

okie i will sum up my worldstate then give my two cents haha 😁

hero of ferelden (the warden):

human noble warrior! 🧍🏻‍♀️🗡️ her name is lady inhye (인혜) cousland and i'm headcanoning that she was adopted by papa cousland lol bc she does not look like anyone in that family haha

sword and board expert 🤓

champion + templar specialties, but mostly focused on champion talents

we were level 20 by the endgame, but i skipped a bunch of sidequests and combats bc they were stressing me out more than being fun lol :'D

worldstate / companion endings:

she was wearing the juggernaut armor set and wielding starfang (☄️✨) and i think branka's shield

also i did the alistair romance lol 🥰

alistair (not "hardened") is king of ferelden and my warden is queen consort 😌👑💅

wynne stayed in court to be alistair's mage advisor!

at the coronation, leliana said she would leave to take care of the urn of sacred ashes... but in the epilogue, the urn "disappeared" so maybe she took it and ran? 😯

morrigan is pregnant with an old god so that's cool LMAO ???

oghren is vibing and drinking his way across the surface 🍻

zevran is on the run from the crows :')

sten said he would go back to the qunari 🫡

shale is off to achieve its goals, whatever those may be haha

loghain is dead 💀 i prompted alistair to execute him lol

i sided w the mages at the circle of magi so i believe they are thriving!

also the dalish elves possibly have more rights now lol? and i uncursed the werewolves ;_; 👍

connor (the redcliffe son) is alive and with the circle! arl eamon said he seems weird tho so uhhh idk that's his problem my job is done 😌

the dwarves unfortunately seem to have resumed their civil war 😭 i put harrowmont in charge and destroyed that awful golem anvil, but it seems like harrowmont lost any control he had fairly quickly.. and the dwarves are still trying to put the anvil back together... ;_; also i tried to help that guy establish a chantry outpost in orzammar but he ended up martyred what the heck 😭

so that was unfortunate LOL

alistair does not seem happy being king (sorry my guy 😭) and is off gallivanting instead of trying to pass helpful policies, he has a bastard child out there somewhere despite being unhappy w his existence as a bastard child, but at least he's madly in love w his wife ????? 😭 uhh i'm in my lady macbeth era 😍🥰🫶

and obviously the dwarves seem to be in a bad state

but uh

mostly happy endings all around yay!!!!!!!!!!

my gaming experience:

i played on normal difficulty bc i watched a video of the head game designer guy (?) on the steam store game profile where he was talking about how 'tactically minded' and 'strategic' you have to be to beat his 'super mega realistic and dark and edgy' game (paraphrasing) and i am competitive at heart and took it as a challenge 😭 and also i am always thinking about freaking g*ry g*gax (i hate him) and how he thinks women can't play dnd bc they're dumb (i hate him) 😭👎

normal difficulty was pretty tough tho, especially at the beginning when i was trying to get the hang of things HAHA so maybe i should've dialed it down... but i did beat the game on normal the whole way thru so take that g*gax!!! >:)

i did enjoy the combat system!! it was a bit of a slog, but close enough to bg3's turn-based combat and spells system that i was vibing, mostly 😆 i did like sword-and-board a lot and i'm glad it was actually very useful (unlike dnd 🤣) and had a lot of ability options!!

my run was about 73hrs long, but that's bc i had to restart battles multiple times HAHA

i almost gave up after completing the intro and getting to ostagar bc all the npcs were so misogynistic ;_; like literally everyone i was talking to at that point was like "HA you are a woman, everyone knows women can't fight 🤣🫵 you look so STUPID w your SWORD" and it felt rly awful... like c'mon... this is a world where dragons are old gods and ppl use magic and visit another dimension when they dream, you REALLY can't fathom that a woman would want to learn self-defense?? (also the gooner boob armor w those stupid leather chokers... eugh 🤮) it was just too much for me personally 😭 i'm already in a male-dominated workplace irl i don't need more of this gendered hostility when playing fantasy video game tyvm 😭

BUT i am glad i pushed thru bc there was less of That Nonsense as i carried on... and all the different locations we visited and the lore there were all really interesting!! ofc some stuff is "spoiled" for me since i've already played veilguard, where a lot of questions (ie. where lyrium comes from, why elves are in their current state, etc.) are answered, but it was cool seeing how info that's made clear in veilguard is obscured in origins!!

i'm still super intrigued by the maker and andraste - the puzzles before finding the urn were really cool!! especially the riddle room about andraste's personal history, i love riddles 🙂‍↕️ and iirc the maker and andraste don't rly have a big role in veilguard since that's mostly about elf and dwarf lore? 👀 so my fingers are crossed for more andraste lore in da2 and/or da:i 🙂‍↕️

i liked all the companions a lot!!! i wanted to tote morrigan around but she kept hitting me w disapprovals LOL so my main party was alistair (sword and board templar), leliana (ranged bard), and wynne (healer w nature & cold damage)

wynne was high-key carrying HAHA but my warden and alistair were definitely the high damage hitters 🗡️💥 i have no idea if i built leliana properly lol she was okie but she was mostly around to pick locks

leliana did carry in the final battle!!! i had her sprinting between ballistae and shooting the crap out of the archdemon sooo let's go leliana!!! 🤩🥳

i liked wynne and alistair's dynamic a lot!!! when she was talking about her son who was taken from her, and alistair lost his mom... i was like ;_; whenever they had a convo where wynne was nagging him or offering to take care of him ;_; except 🤨 then they had a REALLY WEIRD BANTER IN "RETURN TO OSTAGAR". AND NOW I'M LIKE. WHAT IN THE OEDIPUS 😭

also back off meemaw that's my man!!!!! 🙄

wynne is kind of a baddie tho bc oghren was aggressively hitting on her and she was just rolling w it, i hope they have a weird hookup at some point post-game 🙂‍↕️👍

speaking of oghren, i really like everything going on in orzammar - it was really complex, and the environment and story were all so dark but so well done????? like i genuinely felt kind of sick when interacting w ppl on the deep roads ;_; i hated branka... i know she's kinda crazy from the exposure to darkspawn/blight etc, but she was pretty awful and siding w caridin felt right 😭

okay i am rambling a lot haha but in conclusion - fun game!!! great characters and dynamics and environment!!! really interesting lore, and i feel that everything presented in veilguard both supports and complicates the ideas started in origins and vice versa!!! 👀 surprisingly cohesive for a story/game series that's been produced over the span of 15+ years!

GUESS WHO JUST BEAT DA:O HAHA >:D

[3416]

emma, babes!! aw, that’s a mood, but i hope the Bad softens! ahh there’s around 145 songs, i can’t do faves 😅 but rn i’m on better days by roosevelt & it’s rlly nice :) 🥺 it's beautiful how you find smth beautiful in all the colors :') ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍💖 oh YES i see where you're coming from. the fact that it's the ""norm"" to choose a major/career straight out of high school is so. dumbakfdh i kinda always knew what i wanted to do, but rn i'm doubting it, so i might take a year off. (1/3)

and yOU WILL!! i believe in you & your ability to fill it out in time. i’m proud of you for taking the next step; we love that Growth for you. but aHHH!!!! production!!! that’s very, very cool. and :/ that’s the us of a babey :/ hopefully, it works out somehow 🤞 i’m sure whatever you do, you’ll excel in it. oh My, while i don’t listen to podcasts (yet), i’ve wanted to for a while and will give these a go, so thank you!! oh, i’ll switch between fics/books, but rn, i’m in a book period. (2/3)

BABE!!! YOUR TASTE!! i LOVED iwwv, i read it last fall and it was Beautiful. i watched tgf two nights ago and loved it!! djfshk yes, there is Rambling, and that’s why i’ve tried twice but haven’t finished the book. (a/n: may i suggest the secret history to read next?) ah yes, it’s amazing how much we’re willing to watch the ��"same”“ show again and again. now: fave holiday? describe your fashion style. do you cook/bake? hoping you get study visual media! rooting for you 💓 (3/3)

((last thing: i finished the soundtrack whilst replying and now i;m sad again 🥺😭 talk to me abt what you’d like to see robbe and/or sander do in s4/the future!!)) (4/3)

YOU are really.. the sweetest of all time. sorry it took me a bit to respond, i haVEN’T HAD TIME TO SIT DOWN N ACTUALLY GET ON TUMBLR IN A COUPLE DAYS SO I AM RN BEFORE I LEAVE FOR XMAS DINNER…. that song is so vibey and lowkey, i like it omg… i agree it’s so fucking stupid lollll, especially when the education system doesn’t really allow to explore your interests THAT much. it’s getting so……… involved and One Thing has to take up your whole time in order for you to be part of smth and it’s jsut.. dumb. it’s hard to navigate. WHAT DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL FOR?? or want to i guess? before you started doubting. there’s always time to decide :’) sometimes i feel truly paralyzed by decision-making, even when i logically know that there’s nothing stopping you from changing things up and learning throughout the entirety of your life, lol. NAYWAY. THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENT. it makes me warm.

OHHH you should totally get into podcasts!! if you have any monotonous work or a commute or anything like that, they’re SUPER helpful to pass the time… they’ve really gotten me through the past year and a half of work, lol. and LUCKY YOU’RE IN A BOOK PERIOD.. i love that feeling so much, one of the best in the world.FJKLDSJFKLSD I FEEL LIKE.. I COULD NEVER JUST SIT AND READ THE GOLDFINCH LMAOOOO, props to ppl who did bc LOL that shit just keeps GOING. i had it in audio form and took lots of breaks so it took me like a week to finish but it was really good!!! i liked the movie, and that’s why i decided to give it a go fkldjfsd. the way i’m TOTALLY a movie before book person bc i get the visuals presented to me before AND i can’t be disappointed bc the book is so additive and better most of the time. iconic. i wonder if that’s a popular opinion, but i feel like it’s not. also i’VE HEARD mixed things abt the secret history, but the ppl who love it really love it. i actually legit own a copy and have for years, i just haven’t read it YET FJDFKSD i have so many books like that.

oh YOU’RE A SKAM FAN LET’S GOOOO.. what’s your fave remake??? and your fave characters in all of the skamverse in general???? have u seen them all? as for robbe and sander in the future, LISTEN….. THEY ARE THE SWEETEST…. for s4, i dont really know, just lots of them being cute in the bg is what i want. i highly doubt we are gonna get much of them, but i need to see them being happy and couple-y and annoyingly sweet through the eyes of other ppl…. as for the later future… i want them to be able to enter careers they love aka art for sander, and for robbe… it’s so hard bc we don’t really know what he’s fully into??? i know he’s into music though, so maybe smth with that!!!! always got those headphones around his neck, my artsy boys. i want them to have a small apartment together where they have a million traditions of their own to make up for the lack of them in childhood!!!!!!!!!! and a CAT bc sanders a cat person as everyone agrees on (so are all the evens) and they name it smth bowie related…. oddity but they call him odie? tom………? jdkfjkdf ash? who KNOWS IM BAD AT THAT PART. sander with a little studio and sander with art shows once he starts gaining a bit of attention in the art world, and there’s always one work with a little piece of robbe in it somehow… probably more than one most of the time. the two of them getting to take trips togETHER!!!!!! sander proposing in some grand romantic way i have yet to comprehend. their wedding night they DO stay at that hotel just for shits and giggles bc sander meant every word he said!!!!! (except the naked part but hed still do it if robbe was up for it lMAO) i just want them to be happy. a great group of friends and family they still get to see all the time. meeting each other’s parents and working through their past trauma together…. just. sap.

my favorite holiday….. unpopular opinion but as a single person, i love valentines day even if it makes me ache for love. i just love a holiday that celebrates love. and generally christmas!!!!!! this year i have a LOT going on around this time, so it doesn’t really feel like it’s christmas at all so. less enjoyable, but ! still love the cheery vibe and i love giving ppl things. wbu?

my fashion style is……… lack of style. i have a hard time finding clothes that look good, in my opinion, on me, so it’s hardjdkfjdklfjs.. i wear a lot of like. leggings and tshirts and jeans with sweaters and cardigans, you know.. very basic, not advanced or remarkable in the slightest. which is not to say that i don’t love fashion bc i do have a style i like i just. don’t own much that fits into it bc i hate spending money on clothes for some reason.

the way i’m the least capable human… i don’t really cook. i feel like i overthink eveyrthing in the kitchen and it takes me 489593458 mins to prepare bc it has to be PERFECT, but cooking can also just be a feel thing and i’m not good at thatjdklf. if i had to, i’m resourceful enough to start making meals for myself, but i don’t really as it stands. with baking, mostly the same, although when i was younger i loved it!! i think i’m pretty good when i do do it, i just….. don’t often lol.

ANYWAY THANK U FOR ALL THESE QUESTIONS AND INDULGING MEEEEE… drop more abt urself any time, i don’t want to seem like i’m prying but!! i’m curious and you’re a sweetheart. merry christmas to you if you celebrate, and even if you don’t, hope you’re having a great day regardless!! ❤️ 

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And don't even get me started on make up. It's super sad seeing tradfem saying that they wear make up because they want to look pretty... like you don't like yourself already? Do you think women need to wear make up to be considered pretty? And men don't? Do you think God made womens faces imperfect thus why you feel the need to cover His desing with these chemicals??

And seeing tradmen saying that they want their women to wear make up... and then they excuse themselves saying "but it's only light make up!!!" Like are you really attracted to women? Or are you attracted to feminity? Would you still like your girlfriend if she stopped wearing make up? Or shaving? Like I suspect that some of these "tradmen" still secretly watch porn and are too used to seeing the made up women on porn... either that or they still haven't shaken up the effects that porn addiction left in them.

And then you see them refer to women who wear short hair and pants and don't care much about their appearance as wanting to be like men, while also posting or rebloging dumb photos that have a phrase like "choose feminity" that features a heavily dolled up women with a tight, revealing dress, high heels, long hair and obvious make up.

Like ok, by this logic then an MtF who has long hair, wears dresses, shaves, uses high heels, has long fake lashes and wears make up is more of a woman than an actual woman who has short hair, doesn't shave, doesn't wear make up and prefers to wear comfortable clothing to "hide her womanly curves" (I literally have seen some of them phrase it this way 🤢)

Like ok sir, you don't find most women in their natural state attractive, they don't make your peepee hard, whatver but what does this have to do with religion?

And then they have the audacity to make fun of trans people when they're literally using the same stupid logic! Just with different agendas.

Sorry for filling your inbox whit this rant, it's just that I have been thinking about this topic lately and then I saw that post about life being too short for feminity and your comment about it and I just had to get it out of my system.

Anon you really feel sorry for dropping in my ask box you've been spilling nothing but #facts and you're the best anon I ever received so far😭💙💙🔥🍵

Honestly I'm team #tradmenshutupaboutwomenchallenge at this point. 99% of tradmen on this hellsite give me overweight mouth breather teas, sorry not sorry. They should be quiet, stay in their lane, and stop interacting with tradfem to simp after "ideal feminity". Tradfem aren't out there obsessing around men's look to fit an idea of "ideal masculinity" and shoving themselves into every discussion about them, so why do men feel entitled to do that?

I just CAN'T with these men having sooo many things to say about women, what they should wear, how they should behave, when they're out there, having the audacity to exist doing nothing to improve their own life and work to better themselves & become a fitted husband. Sorry but men bickering over women's look is extremely tacky and I'm shocked that none of the tradfem -that this kind of creature LOVE orbiting around- never had anything to say about it. A shame they enable such typical weirdo around - they only seemingly draw the line at porn blogs lmao The bar is just *that* low.....

Ah yes the famous "just light make up :)" LOL what's the point anyway? don't wear any make up at all if you're hellbent on wearing as little as possible¯\_(ツ)_/¯ You're right on the money babe : one of my biggest turning point in me dropping make up altogether was how disrespectful it was to disfigure God's work like that. If anything, not wearing make up is a good exercise of modesty and humility because it forces us to go beyond our fleshly desire to be appealing. And that's such a liberating experience. Make up is ALWAYS portrayed negatively in the Bible, so it does say everything about what God thinks of it. So weird how tradfem will totally understand such narrative when it comes to polygamy (never displayed as positive + always ended up bad) but suddenly when it's make up, they go Stevie Wonder and be like "just little make up is okay :)" Just a little bit of polygamy is okay, then LMAO

I remember one tradfem in her blog saying that "women not shaving was weird" and my petty self got like "how is women not shaving "weird" but not men?🤔" and she NEVER bothered replying to me lmao

Say what you want about radfem, but they're lowkey right on the money on the fact that some tradfem are actually men identified and rehash male identified code of feminity and pass it off as "biblical feminity". It also explains why tradfem will gloss over male bs to not sound like an angry feminazi but one woman says something remotely harsh against men and 'masculinity is under attack' lol Why femicide and rape stats aren't enough to make you think women are under attack?🤔 see? male identification.

Sorry but cutesy dress aren't any more biblical than comfortable/practical wear. Make up isn't biblical. These tradmen just want a "Christian doll" but a "doll" nonetheless and tradmen are buying right into this fishy narrative.

And yes, these unnecessary strict gender roles are partly responsible for transideology. Female not feeling comfortable with traditional feminine code start to think something is wrong with them and/or that they're not female. Women fetishizing feminity aren't any better than TIM (= trans identified men) doing so. So yeah, it's very ironic to see trads clown trans when trans are a byproduct of this idolization of feminity and compulsive reinforcement of gender roles in an outward way.

Eve didn't have her body hair shaved or plucked eyebrows. She most definitely didn't wear make up or wore fancy dress. And yet, she was the model for womanhood. Let that sink in.