#I'm sorry if i ask a lot my brain in a very indecisive thing

[here-2suffer]

Guys I finally typed out the genie au thing! Sorry this took so long to complete, my brain decided not to cooperate with me. @all-things-fandomstuck here it is!

"Hey! What brings you to my store today?" A chipper voice asks.

"Hey Cindy, how's the business been going for you?" You look at Cindy, who's currently at the counter wearing her usual smile.

"Been pretty good, actually. Got five more customers! How are ya?" She leans forward on the counter, holding herself up with her arms.

You grab a bag of some cute clear glass ball charm pendants with tiny decorations inside, tiny stars, tiny seashells, tiny hearts, and other tiny stuff. You hold them up in the light to test their shine, and they passed. You walk over to Cindy, handing her the bag so she can ring it up. "Yeah, been doing well. Where'd you get these?"

Cindy smiles. "My sister Anne gave 'em to me. They're a real beauty, aren't they?"

You smile. "They sure are." She bags up the bag of glass balls and hands them to you. "That'll be a hundred bucks!" You look at her in shock. "A hundred bucks? You're kidding." You're already taking out your wallet though. It may be a lot, but you're willing to pay for it.

"Yeah, I'm just messin' with ya. It's only 3.99" You look inside your wallet, and somehow you only have 5's with you. You pull one out and give it to her, watching as her smile turns playful.

"My, my, five dollars all for little ol' me? You're just too kind." She puts it in the cash register and starts pulling out some change, but you're feeling generous today. "It's okay, you keep the change."

She looks up at you with a bit of shock, but her smile quickly returns. "Thanks, you're a real star, y'know that? Have a nice day darlin'! Maybe next time I'll bring you some cookies from the bakery!" She waves at you as you leave, you wave back. "Bye Cindy! Have a nice day, I'll be looking forward to those cookies!"

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You're looking for any shiny or antique looking things in a new part of the forest that you've somehow never noticed before. It's kind of weird how you've never seen this part of the forest despite looking through it your whole life, kind of like it just appeared out of nowhere.

But that had to be wrong, right?

Yeah.

Even though you don't remember ever seeing a tree that thick in these words before, or you don't remember seeing that type of flower here before. Youre sure you just missed it, maybe you were too busy looking for things to add to your ever-growing collection to see it.

Yeah, that has to be it.

Never mind that this part has a lot more shiny things than you would normally find in this forest, or that you thought you've already scavenged this forest at least a hundred times by now. It's just your mind passing tricks on you again-

The light breaking through the many leaves of the many trees lands on two lamps. The lamps are very dirty, they've lost their shine. Well, not completely. You pick them up and examine them, they feel rough and bumpy, but that's penalty just from the layers of dirt it has. You bet that you have the cleaning supplies necessary at home to make them look brand new!

It's kind of funny, they look like the lamps people say genies live in. Not that they were ever true, it was all just stories for children, genies don't actually exist.

You internally joke about driving them and getting genies, it's a fun thought. You'd probably kill them with your indecisiveness though.

You decide you'll clean them when you get home. Putting them in your satchel, you think you hear a tiny voice.

No, that can't be right. Just your mind passing tricks on you again, it's always been a problem. You continue your search through this part of the forest for anything else to add to your collection.

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Once you're back home, you go too the room you keep your collection in. You used to keep it in the corner of your room, but when it got a little to big to fit in your room without making you have to parkour to get to your bed and closet, you decided to move it to an empty room instead. It's kept growing ever since without any problems for you.

You pour everything from your satchel onto your sorting table (yes, it's weird, but you like to be organized with this). The two lamps go out almost last, knocking everything else off the table.

You sigh and pick everything up and put it back on the table, seeing where in your collection they would fit best and putting them there. You found an unusually large amount of stuff today, so it takes longer than usual.

Eventually you look back to the table to find only the two dirty lamps. You pick them up and bring them to your garage, where you keep all your cleaning supplies. You look around for the cleaning rag you normally keep here, but you can't seem to find it. It somehow takes around 20 minutes to find it, but once you did, you got straight to work.

You were determined to make the lamps shine again. You drown the lamp in the cleaning solution and squeeze out excess water (it makes a little mess but that's the fun of it) and pick up one of the lamps. You start scrubbing all the dirt and grime off, it comes off easier than expected. There's a noise, like a swirling sound, but you pass it off as one of the neighbor's TV.

Once you're done with the lamp, you start cleaning the other. And just like the other one, the dirt and grime come off very easily. The swirling noise comes back again as you scrub.

This whole thing only took about 3 minutes, surprisingly. You turn and put the rag and cleaning products away when the same swirling sound comes back, this time louder. It kind of sounds like it's right behind you.

...

You quickly turn around and are faced with... quite the sight.

There are two people (half ghosts?) in your house. One of them is yellow with triangles decorating its head, making it look like the sun. Its face has two colors, separated by the crescent shape. It has red ribbons with bells on both of its wrists. It looks at you with some beautiful blue eyes.

The other one is blue, with something atop of its head spotted with yellow stars, making it look like it has a nightcap on. It has the same crescent shape on its face, this time with white and black colors. It also has red ribbons with bells on its wrists. And it's staring at you with some gorgeous red eyes.

...

WOAH WHAT THE-

They notice each other and look at the other with shock. They look back at you with a mix of shock, confusion, and maybe a little bit of anger? "Who are you?" The blue one asks you, yeah, he's definetly a little angry (probably more than just a little).

You must look so stupid right now. You're so flabbergasted you can't even speak, so you just stare back at them with wide eyes.

The blue ghost-human-thing seems to be getting more impatient. "I asked, who are you?"

You take a deep breath. "..I.. uh... Who are you?"

The blue one growls. The yellow one seems very uncertain about something at the moment, looking back and forth between you and the blue thing. After a moments of silence, the yellow one speaks. "Hello, I'm Sun. Your... genie."

Genie!?

Your eyes are wider now. "Genie? No. T-that can't be right. Genies don't exist!" You gasp, breathing seems to be getting a little harder.

"Oh yeah? Then what the hell are we?" The blue one growled, you gulped.

Okay, so genies are real. No biggie, right?

...

"Who are you?" The blue one asks again, a little harsher. You take another deep breath and tell then your name. "Uh, who are you?" You try to calm yourself, but the way he just glares daggers at you is not helping in the slightest. You've started fidgeting with your fingers now.

"Moon. Your genie. What do you plan to do with us?" You furrow your brows in confusion. "What?" He groans and Sun answers instead.

"What are you going to do to us? What are you going to use us for? What are your intentions?"

What?

Before you can even open your mouth to answer, Moon speaks. "How did you find us? What do you want, to take over the world?"

"I- What?" You can barely catch what they're asking. They're firing questions at you at the speed of light, and your brain is still processing the fact that genies exist.

Sun speaks. "Don't act clueless. You wouldn't have gotten two genies for nothing. What are you plotting?" So they think you're evil or something?

"What? I didn't even know you guys existed! I-I thought genies were just fairytales!" You're starting to feel a little offended, these guys saw your confusion and shock when they appeared, and they somehow think you're going to use them for... whatever evil things?

"Oh really? How did you magically stumble upon two genie lamps then?" Moon crosses his arms. You huff. "I was looking through the forest for anything to add to my collection, then I saw your lamps together. They were dirty so I-"

"Together?" Sun interrupts you. He doesn't look like he believes a word you said, neither of them do.

"Yes, together. I saw your lamps dirty, and I thought maybe if I cleaned-" And you're interrupted yet again, this time by Moon, go figure.

"Our lamps would not be together. Two genie lamps are never together. You're just saying that to appear innocent, we don't-" Now you interrupt him (see how that feels).

"Oh well that's too bad, because I actually did find your lamps together. Whether or not you believe it, it's the truth." You cross your arms.

He grumbles something about disrespect (as if he didn't interrupt you first) and Sun sighs. "Well either way, you still have two genies now, so you'll get to make your wishes. But there three very important rules." He spoke that last part to you as if he was speaking to a child, even holding up his finger while doing so.

You sigh. "Yeah, I know. Now wishing for anyone to fall in love with me, no wishing people back from the dead, and no wishing for more wishes." He looks surprised. "How did you know?"

"Because everyone knows that. It's in the children's fairytale books." Sun now looks completely lost. Moon, on the other hand, just rolls his eyes. "And we're just supposed to believe that? How do we know you didn't just do this before with another genie?"

Boy, is he being annoying right now, but you must stay calm. Calm. "Listen, as I said earlier, I didn't even know genies were real until I met you guys. How would I have done this with another genie and still not believe genies were real?"

Sun seems to be understanding, if only a little, while Moon still seems unconvinced. Moon opens his mouth to say something, but Sun speaks before a sound comes out of his mouth (thank god).

"Well, let's not fight for any longer-" Moon interrupts him. "Fighting? Who's fighting?" Sun pouts at him. "Stop interrupting us! Where's your manners?"

Moon scoffed. "As if you didn't interrupt this genie catcher earlier." Now you scoffed. "Genie catcher? I told you I just found your lamps on accident!" "Pshh, yeah sure. As if we're going to believe that-"

"Stop fighting!" Sun held his arms out between you and Moon, as if separating you from each other, even though you were already like 5 feet away from him. "Look, whether you like it or not, they found our lamps and rubbed them. Now they're our master, so we have to stick with them until they've used up all their wishes." He sighed and turned to you with a kind smile. "So, what will your first wish be?"

Your anger and annoyance was totally lost now.

Right. Wishes. Forgot about that.

You chuckle nervously. "Yeah, uh, I don't actually know what my first wish is." You start fidgeting with your fingers again. Sun's smile remains kind, and it doesn't look forced either, that helps you feel a little better.

"That's okay, we can help you with that. What's one thing you've always wanted? Or something you want now? A new pool? New house?" Moon seems to have relaxed, well, no. He just doesn't seem angry or annoyed anymore.

"You want a new car? Can't promise we'll give you a good one." Sun nudges his arm. "Can't promise he'll give you a good one." Sun chuckles, as if this was a normal occurrence. Maybe it was, who knew what it was really like in those genie bottles.

"Uh, I don't really want any if those right now. I don't actually know what I want, I'm fine with my life right now.." They look at you weirdly.

Moon starts questioning you (again). "So, you have no idea what you want for your first wish at all? You slowly shake your head. He groans and covers his face with his hands.

You start to feel a little bad. "Sorry, I'm kind of... very indecisive." Moon stays with his face in his hands while Sun's smile falters a little.

Well. Guess you'll be stuck with them for a while... Actually, it's more like they'll be stuck with you for a while...

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Angel Of Lost Hope AU

Cw: alusions to ptsd, nightmares and divorce, Desmond is in a coma like state.

Summary: Desmond Wales lost his battle to Agent Rainbow, now trapped within his own mind. Luckily, his patients find a way to reach put to him and possibly bring him back to the waking world. Alusions to age gap (between Lucas and jerico)

->AU idea Belongs to @theallenshorefangirl I'm just merely writing it.

->"Jerico" is my self insert. They're genderfluid and in this fic they use they/them.

->Sorry for the weird formatting.

->reblogs appreciated.

Well, this was a pickle.

Milton-haven and Its residents have been ramsacked with crime,insecurity and violence. Amidst it all people took comfort in the smaller things in life, loved ones, Friends, and some even went to therapy.

The pickle in question was that the town's reisdent psicologist, Dr.Desmond Wales, was...out of comission. Well, that was one way to put it.

--Well? Have you guys thought of anything?-- Virginia asked softly, handing Allen a cup of tea-- here

Allen, who was sitting on the couch looks up at the rest of his companions, his attention diverted to the Virginia for a quick moment-- thanks-- he answered giving her a nervous smile before returning to the rest of his companions.

Rosemary sighs audibly, passing a hand through her forehead, stress settled deep within her mind. In the background they can hear the heart monitor noise coming from Lucas' bedroom. --if we can create a diluted solution of agent rainbow, we might have a chance at taking him back, but if we dont do it right theres a risk we either succumb to our shadow or we die

Max raised a brow,arms crossed over his chest-- Well isn't that wonderfull?. How the hell do we beat our "shadow" self?

--Well,we'll have to fight them. Not in a physical sense but rather....-- the scientist trails off trying to find the right word-- accept them? They are all we repress About ourselves.. it would be a very shocking first engagement. Thats the part that could kill us, besides the chemical melting our brain

--Well that doesn't sound appealing-- Virginia muttered and Allen couldnt help but chuckle a little.

At this, the only person in the room that has not yet spoken was Lucas, the owner of the cabin that they were all in. The ex military Man leans on the door frame, arms crossed and setting his weight on his right leg. Hes deathly silent.

--Lucas?-- Rosemary calls out-- whats up?

--I'm going in-- he simply replied-- Now I understand if y'all don't. Max has his family and the rest of ya have a life. I lost enough people in mine, and 'm not 'bout to lose 'nother one

Then, the room quietens. Theres a sense both dread and indecisiveness, the sound of the heart monitor is almost deafening its both a grim reminder of why they were all there and a sliver of hope that Desmond was still in the realm of the living.

Allen's eyes fall on his tea,dark as night yet sweet to the taste,Much like him, he looked intimidating and people didn't really like him much, but truthfully he was a sweet guy, he just wanted to help people-- I'm going too, he helped me a lot and..it wouldn't be right for me to not help him back.

Rosemary looked at Desmond and then Lucas-- seems fitting I go too, I was the one who brought back that thing from retirement. I gotta set things right.

Virginia was nervously picking at the hem of her sleeve, the purple material soft to the touch-- if theres anything I can do to help desmond then... I'm in

Max sighed, scratching the back of his neck-- well... the doc here has been a great help. I might need to call my daughter first

Lucas' face softened, he turns to Max and says-- ya don't gotta come with, ya have a little girl to take care of

The other Man just let out a somber huff of air through his nose-- without desmond I can't see 'er. Court mandated sessions and all...even if I changed therapists I doubt they'll understand me like the doc did...

--Well...it's settled then?-- Rosemary asked-- we're all going? -- she gets a Group nodd in response-- 'kay..I'll need some time to dilute the chemicals so maybe a couple of days

Then Allen perked up-- just one quick question...if we're all there... who stays here to look after us?

Lucas' lips purse, his fists tighten but then he relaxes his hands, shaking his head a little. Rosemary notices this and asks-- you have an idea Lucas?

--I...do-- the ex soldier replied-- there's this other patient of Desmond, young gal. I met 'em some weeks back I thought I was running late to an appointment with Desmond but turns out I wasn't, talked to them in the Hall..-- he sighed-- I just don't like the idea to rope them into this, they're young and I know what being pulled into things you dont understand can cause

--well, If its not them...-- Virginia trailed off looking at Rosemary-- you could guide us through the...what did you call it again? Collective unconcious?

--Yes-- the scientist answered-- but... I have to go-

--You can help from this side,you understand this thing better than any of us, you can pay your dues that way-- Lucas reassured.-- we'll need a voice to guide us, we can use radio wave signals to communicate

--That's actually a great idea-- she replied-- well...guess I'm staying..

--Not to be that guy...-- Max interjected-- but we should need a way to pull us all out in case something happens on this side

--If I could make your bodies process the diluted solution faster, you'll be able to come to conciousness...there might be side effects like..maybe you all hear eachother's voices in your own head-- rosemary explained-- wont be for long, just until the entirety of the solution is gone from your bodies

--So you're saying we would have telepathy?!-- Allen exclaimed and Virginia looked at him as if he was onto something.

The scientist chuckled at the kid-like joy Allen had displayed-- something like that

--Cool!-- the lighthouse keeper mutters with a smile.

--Well, Rosemary and I Will stay here and figure how to dilude the chemicals,you Guys should go get ready, give us a few days-- Lucas answered sitting up Straight and pushing himself off the door frame he was leaning on.

After a few moments each person within the cabin leave, Allen and Virgnia seem lost in a quiet yet energetic conversation, Max seems deep in thought.

Rosemary looks at the floor for a moment-- you know...we could use some back up

Lucas Turned to the scientist with mild anger on his face-- Rosemary...

--Listen. I'm not saying rope them into it. I'm saying let them check in on me every few days, bring groceries and stuff

The ex military stands besides the scientist,arms crossed-- and risk 'em being followed and endager our mission?

--you care about 'em, don't you? -- she turns to him with a brow raised.

--W-well I care about them as anyone would do-- he answered, voice stammering and eyes darting away

--Y'know what I mean, Cole

--It's none of yer bussiness-- He answered.

--if anyone from mayer saw you talking to them they might be in danger-- she Warned-- don't think this whole thing won't go unnoticed

--The hell do you expect me to tell 'em?! "Oh hey why dont you come stay at my cabin in the middle of the Woods,why? Oh the goverment is looking for you!" 

--When you put it like that-- rosemary started, but then she sighed-- look I can call them and tell 'em I call on behalf of Desmond. The Office isn't a safe spot...in fact the only thing keeping us undercover is the tin Foil you set up and the curtains being drawn-- Then she took a moment to think-- Unless...how were they when talking to you? Did they lean in? Copy your body stance?

--uh..I guess? I noticed their voice go down a few pitches-- he answered-- why?

--that's great! Okay here's the thing. Call 'em,tell 'em you wanna meet and make 'em come here to the park -- she started,noticing the increasing flusteredness of her companion-- what?

Lucas scratched the back of his neck-- how do I put this? I don't know how to talk to people,I'm outta practice

--You're talking to me right now

--You know what I mean-- he huffed,scowling at the smirk the woman gives him-- don't look so smug

--So you do have a crush on 'em-- she smirked-- adorable

--You're the worst-- he complained,folding his arms over his chest.

--Look. Chicks dig a Man in uniform-- rosemary started-- what's the worst that could happen? They say no and that's the end of that

Lucas gives an "are you kidding me?" Look to the woman and answers--it's not that easy!

She stands up from sitting on the table and faces her companion--Trust me,Cole. You call em up, and say "Hey,I really enjoyed our talk the other day. can we meet at Elysium Park?" Its infalible, you're nice and honest and it's a place usually filled with people which means they know that there Will be people around,which makes it safe! Witnesses and all that

--And if they ask how I got their number?-- he asks.

--Phone books!

--Great,make me look like a creep why dont you?

Rosemary rolled her eyes-- fine. You can tell them Desmond gave you their number

--Doesn't that violate patient confidentiality?

--Seesh you're complicated! Just call 'em up! Go!-- she Gently pushed him towards the phone resting on a coffee table-- Check if their file are on that paper stack over there-- she pointed at one of the other sofas.

--This is unbelivable-- he growled with warm cheeks and a scowl.

--You'll thank me later!-- rosemary shouted as her companion left, Taking great enjoyment in the way Lucas stomps off towards the files grumbling curses.

Rumaging through the files he finally finds the one belonging Jerico, he sighs under his breath. After finding the number he closes the file a little too abruptly And quickly starts pressing the numbers on his phone.

From where he was sitting,Lucas could see the smug face rosemary was giving him. He finishes pressing the number and puts the speaker part of the phone against his trapezius mouthing-- Fuck off -- and then when she laughs he gives her the middle finger. A really mature interaction between two adults, as you can tell.

Finally, Jerico picks up. Their voice startles Lucas a little bit-- Uh, Hello?

--uhm Hi,it's Lucas the guy you met ar Dr.Wales' Office..

--Oh hey Lucas!-- Their tone was cheery and oddly energetic-- how are you?

--Oh uh- 'M alright. How about you?

--Tired but fine. Glad summer break is starting,university has been kicking my ass-- they reply.

--Yeah I bet. Hey lissen uh- I really enjoyed our talk the other day, can we meet up?-- he hears them squeal on the other side of the phone, he has to clear his throat as blush spreads across his cheeks. Good to know they were excited to see him too.

--Yes. Uh yes of course! Where'd you think we should meet up?

--Elysium park? On the entrance to the dinner?

--cool! Sure. What time?

--Does tomorrow twelve am work for you?-- he asked, looking at Rosemary whose just making kissy lips at him. He grabs a crumpled ball of paper and throws it at her, barely missing his target. Damn he had good aim.

--Yes. It does-- they answer-- One more thing though, How did you get house number?

His cheeks go dark red, he has to cough a little to play off just how flustered he was-- Ah well the doc gave it to me

On the other side of the line,Jerico had their brows raised. They humm as if to say "huh. Interesting" and then they answer-- alright then. See you tomorrow, take care!

--Y-You too, see ya

They hang up first, Lucas takes a quick moment to snap out of it. He clears his throat and settles the phone back to where it was previously.

--Sooo?--Rosemary asked peeking from behind the doorframe, Like a nosy younger sibling.

--I guess I'll be seein' 'em-- he replied looking away, arms folded over his chest and acting all tough and rough.

--Wonderfull!-- she squeals-- they grow up so fast

--aintcha s'pposed to be workin' or somethin'?! Dontcha have better things to do?!-- he exclaimed his flusteredness increasing.

--I'm waiting on some equipment to finish running a few formulas to dilute Agent Rainbow-- she replied nonchalantly,shrugging a little-- I'm just killing time

--I'm going out, 'M gonna practice my aim-- he grabs his jacket haphazardly thrown on the one person sofá and walks to the entrance to his cabin muttering-- so Next time I throw something at you I actually hit you square in the face -- he of course didn't mean it. He was trying to look all tough and manly, rosemary didn't buy in his threat.

Meanwhile, Max had just arrived at his house, muttering under his breath. The door of his house opens a little too roughly, he closes it with a slam and locks it. His jacket is thrown to the nearest chair and as he goes to the fridge he says-- weird chemicals, governent conspiracies...the hell did you got into now Nyaagard.

He takes out a beer and opens it hitting the underside of the bottlecap on the corner of the table-- Unbelivable...

Sitting down on his couch, he sighs audibly, he lands roughly against the cushioned surface. His feet propped up on the coffee table, he looks at the ceiling taking a swig from his drink.

Max's eyes dart to the phone Next to the TV. He had to at least try and call Madison, let her know he would be out,make sure his little girl was alright.

Another sigh falls past his lips yet again. Swirling his beer he takes another sip and stands up, leaving the bottle on the coffee table and picking up the phone

Soon he dials up the number of his ex-wife's home and he anxiously knocks on the wooden surface of the dresser where the phone and TV rested on.

A woman picks up,he knows the voice--Hello?

--Hey...-- He starts.

--Im hanging up

--No wait! Look, Can I just talk to Maddie? I gotta leave for a job soon and I just want to hear her voice

Theres a short but heavy silence that Is interrupted by his ex wife calling out to Madison. A smile appears on his face as he hears his daughter's excited steps up to the phone.

--Daddy!-- Madison exclaims.

--Hello sweetheart-- Max says softly, a kind of softness reserved just for his kid-- how are ya?

--'m fine! Oh I had this thing happen to me at school n'-- Max diligently hears his daughter go on a rant for a solid ten minutes, smiling tenderly.

When she finished he adds-- thats really interesting sweetie, Hey lissen, Daddy has to go away for a bit. I'm not sure when I'm comin' Back but.. I love ya sweetheart

--Love ya too daddy! Good luck!!

He chuckled and said his goodbyes to his kid, then his ex wife adds-- whatever you do,be carefull

--I Will, Keep her safe for me

--Will do

He hangs up and lets out a heavy sigh. Scratching the back of his neck, knocking on wood one last time before returning to the sofá and resume his drinking.

By sunfall Rosemary had the exact formula, she was nothing but efficient. She would spend the rest of the night up until she managed to dilute Agent Rainbow. Next morning Lucas would find Rosemary passed out on her desk.

As the sun rises and Lucas makes his way to the coffee machine, he barely got any sleep at night. Night terrors wouldn't leave him alone.

But, he had to focus on the good things. He was a step closer to saving desmond, and...he could see his crush before plunging into the uncertainty and almost certain death of his mission. Lucas decided to start by having breakfast and leaving a mug of coffee besides rosemary.

He pats her back shaking her a little-- Rose? Wake up. I made ya coffee

The scientist grumbles that she would wake up soon and he finished his own coffee, making his way to a duffel bag to Grab some of his clothes and walking up to the bathroom, he had to get ready for the day ahead

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Aahh! Thanks so much for replying to me, it was super helpful! I really appreciate how in-depth it was too. I shall try reblogging something now (v excited hehe). Can I be bold and ask for any writer recs? I've seen you talk about June and Ursa alot, so I'll make sure to check them out! (You prob have it somewhere, but it's 2am and I need sleep haha) I don't mind getting assigned a random emoji (I'm far too indecisive to pick one tbh haha). I hope your tummy feels better! Thanks so much again!!

sorry to everyone im about to @ in this post sfdkhsdf BUT

(also i saw ur first reblog and sdkfhd anon ur SO cute!! i recommend finding a profile pic somewhere and changing it so ppl don't block you while assuming you're a bot!!)

ok so all of these ppl write for svt and i believe also write for other groups? i'm mainly going by svt writers who ik have posted fics before!! i'm so sorry in advance bc i know i'm leave some ppl off btw just bc i don't want this post to get super long :(

even tho you said you've seen me talk about june and ursa, i'll @ them here again so you can find their blogs

although june i don't think has written anything (yet), she tags everything she reblogs/recs over at @junhui-recs so v good source to find writers <3!! i trust a lot of june's taste tbh + she's just a lovely person to interact with in general <3

ursa @thepixelelf is also a lovely person and writer and i fully suggest checking out her social media AUs if that's your thing!! they're super inclusive (gn!reader, no ulzzangs, generally ursa's writing has no reference toward reader's appearance too tbh!!) and honestly ursa is rly funny <3 love u ursa

i also recommend livvie @husbandhannie <3 livvie has very comforting writing that feels like home + she's so good about tagging things so if you need to avoid a certain topic, you most likely will (and if u dont, she absolutely does not bite and will add a trigger warning if you let her know)

(which btw i think every single person on this list is pretty solid about tagging things and open to being corrected if they leave something out!!)

sol @leejungchans also has popped up a few times on my blog i believe! sol is super duper nice and also has super cozy writing <3

aria @joshuas also has some lovely svt fics on her blog!! + aria is a huge sweetie as well (literally everyone i rec here is super nice)

elv @dokyeomblr is also a very very lovely person (mwah) who writes for multiple groups!!! one day i will go back through her masterlist n reblog when i have the brain cell to fully write out the tags she deserves <3

i don't think i've ever interacted with @suhnshinehaos aside from reblogging her renjun smau, but i like her sense of humor a lot <3 (also v inclusive smaus!!)

uhh i also don't think i've interacted with @blossom-hwa often but she seems cool and i also like her writing (i reblogged a hoshi fic from her once that i enjoyed!! + i believe she writes for both skz and golcha and being a golcha fan automatically makes u cool in my book tbh)

i will cap my list there but there are sooo many good writers out there tbh !!! i think almost everyone here i've interacted with (but even if i haven't, maybe one dayyy after i stop being hindered by anxiety lmao) but they're all super nice to people in my experience! :)

i also have a fic rec tag where i've reblogged from writers that are and aren't listed here!!

also goodnight anon <3 btw i hope 🍧 is fine with you? i can absolutely change it if you want! i just think its a cute emoji and ur cute n also sweet like shave ice is (esp on a hot day... i am so tired of summer weather)

[morganmerylhodgepodge]

So..... Mafia.

TL;DR: Should I combine aspects of the original Mafia and Mafia Definitive Edition into one for my project? Or not? And should this comic be colour or black and white when I eventually do the art?

Sorry if me asking these sorts of questions is annoying or bothersome.

On the one hand it also feels fruitless, because what if I can never draw again? On the other hand this is why Im doing all this, because if I CAN draw again, I'll still be doing something creative right now, and have all of the other stuff done pretty much, and I'll be able to just concentrate on the art and really make it good.

And... obviously... unfortunately... I'm a naturally indecisive person and someone who often sees value in multiple ways of things... for lack of a better way to put that.

But more in depth…

But Ive got several questions regaurding the adaptation process rattling around in my brain.

Thinking a lot about Mafia since I got into it.

I cant help but want to take hold of this energy Ive got going on.

Why not set The Quarry aside for a moment and work on Mafia instead?

First of all, for LA Noire I know that both because the game comes with a black and white mode I prefer to play in and because it fits the noir vibe better, Im going to make that comic black and white.

Mafia Definitive edition also has a black and white noir mode that looks fantastic. Even better than LA Noire's and it would be cool to have more than one black and white comic, since I know most will be in full colour. That said, it also looks gorgeous in full colour. and several set pieces from the original 2002 Mafia have nice colour as well. Not to mention an iconic character outfit from both the entirety of the 2002 game and the end of Definitive edition feels like it would be more iconic to say the least in colour.

Second and IMO more important, While this project was to adapt these into motion comics, using the games as audio, while I VASTLY prefer the Definitive Edition for several reasons, there are quite a few lines I like from the original game. But both games have VERY different casts.

Its made me wonder if:

A. I should Adapt JUST from Definitive Edition and still do a motion comic.

B. Adapt a story from both games and just do a regular comic, with no video.

C. Adapt a motion comic from both games, but only use the audio from Definitive edition and have the original's audio silent.

D. Adapt a motion comic with only music and SFX but NO voices from EITHER game.

or the big wild card option…

E. Fully adapt both games into a motion comic, including audio from both games, even though the voices are different, counting on the eventual art to do the heavy lifting on convincing that these different voices go to the same characters?

What do you guys think about all this? Not going to do a poll. Those seem unreliable and tbh I get antsy. Plus since I just got into it, I know not everyone is going to care since they might not know much about these games themselves. But just from an adaptational standpoint, I'd love to hear y'alls opinions on this. This is quickly becoming hugely interesting for a number of reasons, and I really want to do right by this story, as is with all the other ones I want to adapt for this larger project.

[waiting-on-a-dream]

is it okay to ask what kind of tarot nicknames would xenon give to my kids? 👉👈if you did that before, i'm sorry, my brain's been feeling kinda foggy lately.. (OH and i have a lot of rsa ocs, so i think that should make this job easier hdfjdksd)

Eh~? Someone wants their ocs to have Xenon nickname privileges? 😆 Okay!

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Vance Mintberry: Emperor

UPRIGHT: Authority, establishment, structure, a father figure REVERSED: Domination, excessive control, lack of discipline, inflexibility

The Emperor is a card of leadership and power. He is an authoritative force who has been through many experiences to achieve this status. He represents structure and solidity, and reminds you that you, too, hold immense amounts of power over your own life, and what happens to it.

I picked this card because Vance has ambitions to accomplish great things in NRC. Perhaps the Chariot card would fit him better, right? That's where the second part of the equation comes in. Deep down, Vance actually wants people to respect him and look up to him, but he will never say that. Emperor it is!

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Merrill Gardner: Hanged man

UPRIGHT: Pause, surrender, letting go, new perspectives REVERSED: Delays, resistance, stalling, indecision

The Hanged Man tells you that sometimes small sacrifices must be made in order to benefit the bigger picture. When The Hanged Man arises in your reading, you likely want to make a move, but don't even know where to begin. Begin by letting go. Lightening your grip on something that's no longer working for you or detaching from the outcome of your situation can help you release yourself.

Okay, the description of this card sounds very serious, but I actually picked this card kind of as a joke. Merrill has this whole deal with Idia due to Idia finding out about his Magicam account, right? I mean...He didn't have to make that deal if he just...didn't care about people finding out? Idia probably didn't care anyway.

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Austin Valiente: Hermit

UPRIGHT: Soul-searching, introspection, being alone, inner guidance REVERSED: Isolation, loneliness, withdrawal

The Hermit yearns to be alone. He knows that the only way to process what is happening in life is to withdraw from the noise of the world and create a quiet space of solitude. When The Hermit comes up in your reading, the answers you need will come from within. Be very still, and listen...

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Minnie Lynley: Justice

UPRIGHT: Justice, fairness, truth, cause and effect, law REVERSED: Unfairness, lack of accountability, dishonesty

Justice is your firm-but-fair reminder that karma is real, and there is a consequence for every action. Whatever life is handing you at this moment comes from decisions you've made in the past, and whether it's a punishment or a reward, it is exactly what you deserve. When this card comes up in your Tarot reading, make sure you are acting fairly in all your interactions with others.

I'm going to be honest with you Lina, the first time I read her profile, I thought she was kind of sexist? "Minnie is a very serious and hardworking girl, who is aggressive and rude with boys, but caring and affectionate with other girls. She believes that all guys are lazy and irresponsible and she doesn’t think that she can rely on them." I don't know what's her backstory, but I do think its mean for her to be aggressive and rude to boys just because of their gender.

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Hayden Dahl: Devil

UPRIGHT: Shadow self, attachment, addiction, restriction, sexuality REVERSED: Releasing limiting beliefs, exploring dark thoughts, detachment

The Devil card carries heavy feelings of restraint and powerlessness. When he comes up in your Tarot reading, you are likely feeling like you have no control and are stuck in a situation you don't want to be in. The Devil has convinced you that you have no options, but this couldn't be further from the truth. You are not being trapped by external forces, but by your own limitations or unwillingness to move forward. You hold the keys to your own freedom, but it's up to you to open the lock.

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 Riley Glacier: Lover

UPRIGHT: Love, harmony, relationships, values alignment, choices REVERSED: Self-love, disharmony, imbalance, misalignment of values

It's no surprise The Lovers card represents the close relationships in your life. If it comes up in your Tarot reading, your love life is in need of extra focus and attention. However, this is just as much a card about your values and decisions. You may find The Lovers come up when you are at a crossroads, and must consider all the possible consequences of your choices.

It seems he's a familial yandere with Allen as his obsession. But Allen doesn't like him, so maybe he should shift his priorities?

[miabrown007]

2, 3, 14 and 25 for the end of the year game!!!

2) least favorite fic you wrote this year

uh, probably The Sound of Silence. I don't think it's a bad fic, and collabing on it was a lot of fun, Lukanette just isn't my thing

3) favorite line/scene you wrote this year

“As long as I can spend time with my favourite civilian, I don’t mind.” She shrugged, her eyes twinkling playfully.

Adrien’s breath hitched and he broke out in a coughing fit. Honestly, it was quite fortunate — at least he could blame his red cheeks on the lack of oxygen. “Yeah um, that’s- that’s nice of you to say.”

“I mean, sure, I can very much appreciate a calm evening at home with someone special, but then when could I wear this?” she asked and spun around her axis with a tingling laugh. She extended her arms to the side but she didn’t take her eyes off of Adrien’s face, resulting in her stepping on the hem of her dress, which sent her stumbling forward.

Adrien wasn’t thinking. His muscles moved by their own accord as he leapt out to catch his partner by her waist before she crashed into the polished tiles.

He held her with steady hands, just a few centimeters above the ground as she looked up at him with those breathtakingly beautiful bluebell eyes that he could get lost in forever. She was so close, her scent was practically scratching at Adrien’s brain, prompting, trying, because she smelled of vanilla and-

“Looks like I’m falling for you, aren’t I?” she chuckled.

Adrien let go.

my favourite scene from don't ask questions you don't wanna know (aka the moment I realized the Ladrien agenda was creeping up on me)

and because I'm indecisive as heck, here are some of my favourite lines I wrote, conveniently wrapped in a single scene of love is an open door

“I’m… I’m not all that good with words. That’s why...”

Adrien shrugs.

“I’m sorry, but I find that hard to believe Mr. ‘you get a nickname, you get a nickname, you all get a nickname’ Noir.”

He stifles a smile with a grimace — a grimace with a smile? — and drops his eyelashes. “No one told you yet that everyone lies on the internet?”

“No one told you yet that to every lie, there is some truth?”

“But the real me- He is not- I am not even nearly…” He tries to explain, but a gentle squeeze tells him it’s unnecessary. She knows .

Pizza with extra pineapple.

“You know, Marinette is clumsy,” she whispers it like a secret. Because it is. “She gets easily carried away when the ones she lov—” a cough, artificial, “—when her friends are hurting. She is not nearly as bulletproof as Ladybug. But that doesn’t make me any less one or the other.”

Marinette has a gift, Adrien is sure. (Marinette is a gift, but that is not something he is quite ready to shout from the top of his lungs yet.) Marinette’s gift is finding the pressure points instinctively. Marinette’s gift is nailing the angle, until the resistance falls apart from a single click of the mouse, a word at the tip of her tongue.

Marinette’s .

14) a fic you didn’t expect to write

don't ask questions you don't wanna know

I didn't want to write this fic! honest! that's why will you be my girlfriend? exists, actually, because I thought I could be done with the prompt that kept bugging my brain, and move on to other things. apparently, I couldn't. but I don't regret it one bit :D

25) a fic you read this year you would recommend everyone read

a hypothesis, an experiment, and a coincidence by Peachcitt! this fic is just so good!! it's hilarious, and emotional with the perfect blend of angst, and it has two of my favourite things, love and science. (and it was posted on my birthday, the literal perfect timing of the universe!) and the writing is so good! I open this fic regularly to get inspiration for prpr and drunk fics, because it's just-- ughh, so good!!

from the end of the year asks

[hypnosis-micrpohone-things]

Hello! I loved your Blog! Matchup, please!! I'm 19, I'm small, I'm 1.52. I am shy, introverted and have problems with my self-esteem. I don't speak much, I speak little, low and fast. I am adaptable and changeable and for this reason I seem to have several "personalities". Anyone who knows me tells me that I am a very good and naive person. I am kind, sweet, sensitive, smiling, distracted, clumsy, I can say that I am always daydreaming. (1/4)🌸

I am self-critical, systematic,resentful. I may seem calm, but I get easily annoyed. I speak bad words and I like to make jokes, often even macabre. Strangers find me strange and macabre. I care a lot about people, I like to take care of everyone, be it an acquaintance or a stranger. I am generous, jealous, perhaps a little exaggerated. I like what is fair, wickedness, injustice and etc. make me extremely angry. I am helpful, lazy, indecisive, I have a hard time saying "no". (2/4)🌸

I don't like to hurt and hurt people or any living thing, when I hurt I feel horrible. I can cry easily, I am needy, I like the attention of those I love. I don't know what it wants to be in the future, but I hope I can help more people, animals, lives. They say I have an easy time healing people.I like dark things and I hate violent things (horror movies with gross murders make me horrified). I like to watch series, anime, movies, cartoons, research on the occult and many other things. (3/4)🌸

I don't have hobbies because the only thing I want is to relax and I don't have much of a heart for things, but sometimes I listen to music, play a few games and sometimes watch something. But I miss drawing and writing. Some characters that people say look like me: Rosa (Final Fantasy IV), Tina (Final Fantasy VI), Luna (Final fantasy XV), Ochako (Boku no Hero), Amajiki (Boku no hero). Sorry for the various messages, I feel it is incomplete (4/4)🌸

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So, this ask is a bit long...I forgot to put it in my last rules so I’ll let it slide, but I usually only take requests that fit in one ask. Anyways, based on what you’ve told me, I’d match you with...

Jiro!

You gave me so much information to work with, but every time I finished a paragraph my brain just went, “Jiro, it’s Jiro.” For some reason I don’t have a doubt in my mind. Now, since your ask was so long I’m going to explain your matchup a bit differently.

Age and Appearance: You are very close to each other in age, and I feel like he would love how you look! Being part of a similar generation usually helps people get along. He has no problem with your height. It actually makes him feel more “manly”.

Shy and Kind: Jiro has no problem being outgoing, but he is also very respectful of people who are not. He understands that everyone has different comfort levels when it comes to meeting/being around people. What he would look for in a person is what’s in their heart. His first concern is whether or not you are a good person, and your kindness comes through despite you shy nature.

Self-Critical and Caring: I feel like Jiro is also very self critical deep down. He knows he’s not the most logical person and that he often gets himself into trouble, and he can beat himself up over it sometimes. He would always understand the way you feel in that respect. Just know that he would never fault you for anything, and he would always try to cheer you up! You both are very caring people who would take care of each other. The both of you would also make sure to help motivate each other to be less self-critical.

Hurt, Injustice, and Attention: All of the Buster Bros have been through a lot. The last thing any of them want to do is harm anyone and they are always working towards a more positive outcome. They all also have a strong sense of injustice. You would fit right in with the whole family in that respect! Jiro would also understand your need for attention sometimes. I believe that is part of why he acts out a bit...the middle child usually has a harder time getting attention. He would give you all the attention he could as long as you do the same for him!

Hobbies and Fun: The minute you say you like Anime you are welcome in the Yamada house! Jiro would love spending time watching TV and playing games with you and his brothers. He’d be a little taken aback by your interest in the occult, but wouldn’t discourage it. He finds some of it really cool! (And other parts terrifying...)

I hope that was enough. I feel like I should write more with a longer ask, but...I don’t know? Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it!

Runner Ups

Ichiro

Extremely similar to Jiro, expect that you two would be closer in age.

Rosho

Understands your shy personality and is very caring towards you! Also very self-critical himself, so he understands you well.

Hitoya

He also can’t stand injustice or people being hurt. Would love your kind personality, and he would motivate you to try and not be as hard on yourself.

[prettiestvisitors]

If you’re still doing the ask meme, how about Jack Dalton?

Of course! Another character I would love to talk about to anyone who would put up with me

Favorite thing about them: I like how complex his character is (in the first two seasons at least 🙄)

Least favorite thing about them: After season two it felt like the writing got lazier and a lot of characters suffered, but I think Jack sort of suffered the most by getting downgraded from a competent character to a glorified extra gun. Ugh, i could probably talk about this for a lot longer but basically they made him stupid and two dimensional for no reason and then they got rid of him like he was nothing

Favorite line: Much like with Nick, Jack talks a lot and I have a tiny little pea brain, but my favorite lines of dialog from him are his snappy remarks or his references to other stuff

BrOTP: He and Bozer are definitely bffs

OTP: MacDalton feels like the only right answer

NOTP: I've never seen any Jack centric ships that really put me off

Random headcanon: The little aside he makes about Mac and Nikki being like Taylor Swift and "whoever she's dating right now" is actually proof that he listens to Taylor's music. Furthermore, he actually tried to play it off like he didn't know anything about her, but I fully believe she's part of his guilty pleasure playlist.

Unpopular opinion: Jack isn't dumb. He and Mac are both really good at their own specific things and Jack is well versed in the knowledge he needs to have to do his job.

Song I associate with them: I'm very indecisive, sorry

Favorite picture of them: he looks very small here

[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

INFP 4w5 back :) Thanks for answering things! I'm sorry I didn't give enough information to actually have you help me - I will do so now! I am 24. I love reading stories, both for the emotional connection to characters, and then fun of imagining myself in their adventures (I mainly read fiction). I am an artist and a writer - I do so because I enjoy expressing my views, experiences, and insights in beautiful/interesting/creative ways. I also love the act of creating in general - my mind is very

INFP cont: busy, and it helps me either slow that down or connect my brain to my body (I admittedly spend way more time in my head, but working with my hands and brain at the same time helps me feel connected to the outside world). 

So before I go on: this was a very long ask and I will therefore be ‘interrupting’ throughout in bold for my typing logic rather than rephrasing stuff down at the bottom.

Placing yourself in the story: that’s often the goal of stories anyway (and why self-insert is a whole thing) but it is consistent with Fi. Self-expression is something a lot of people like but it is particularly important to 4s. Brain-body connection as described here makes me think more Ne-Si axis but it’s hard for me to quite articulate why so...don’t quote me.

I like hanging out with my family and close friends - I hate being in crowds or in the spotlight. I find them overstimulating but also boring and I don't know what to do with body or what to say.

Pretty consistent for introverts who are intuitive (not just introverts who are intuitive but I’m going into this assuming it’s an INFP vs. INFJ thing unless I see blatant evidence for high Si or Se which so far I don’t.

I love being in nature - this is a new thing though, noticing nature for itself has only started happening since I was 20. I always liked the way it made me feel but didn't pay much attention to it in a sensory way until recent years. Now I love how peaceful and happy it makes me, how physically beautiful it is, but also all the ideas it generates in me - I think everything in nature is a symbol for something and it so fun trying to guess what those things are, or to make art out of things I find in the woods.

Could be either Ne-Si or Ni-Se for what it is; the age of onset is making me think tertiary sensing, plus the guessing the symbol rather than being more decisive makes me think Ne.

I also really love history and fantasy. History because I ideloize old ways of doing things (like gardening, pioneering, etc) ideal and exciting. I try to incorperate those things into my life and would like to be a homesteader or live in a bus one day, because it feels really free, and also I think connects us back to the way humans are meant to live.

Idolization of an idealized past is often weaker Si (nostalgia/sentimentality are often low Si things, contrary to popular belief that it’s higher Si. Seriously, talk to the average ESTJ, they have no nostalgia unless something changed drastically for the less efficient.)

I care a lot about people and social justice, but it tires me out, so I don't actually spend a lot of time engaging. I like listening to my friends and helping them sort out their feelings. I used to be really bad at DOING things for my friends, but I started to realize it was hurting them, so I am trying more and more to not just be a listening ear, but actively engage in their lives. I'm always torn between wanting to help people and make the world a better place, and just being free and doing what I want and find life giving.

At this point I’m already as you can tell leaning towards INFP much more. This also seems more INFP, with your Fi slowly realizing and maturing to a point where you are better able to care for others and meet them on their terms rather than your own.

I think A LOT, and I am very interested in understanding theories, concepets, anazlying people.

All intuitives like concepts, and while I dislike the assertion that introspection is the sole purview of introverts or intuitives, they definitely do it a lot.

Why I'm wondering if I might be an INFJ instead of an INfP? Mainly because two people I respect mentioned they thought I might be.

Yeah...without more than just “caring & empathetic” I wouldn’t put too much weight on it.

I had always thought I was just an INFP (MAYBE an ISFP, but I don't feel like a doer enough or in touch enough with the physical world - other then finding it super beautiful and day dreaming about it).

I’d agree, I’m really not getting much Se from your asks.

But they specifically thought my Fe seems very high - I am emotionally expressive, I care a lot for others, and I'm very sensitive to the emotional feel of people/places/situations.

So, sensitive to the emotional feel and emotional expressiveness are just feeler things. Without rephrasing the whole Fi/Fe post I always refer back to, I find that while high Fi users’ feelings tend to come from a more internalized place sometimes or are less typical in some of their reactions, they still are pretty emotionally expressive especially compared to your average thinker. There are a lot of very reserved IxFJs and very expressive IxFPs and the uneven stereotypes of constantly crying INFPs/IxFJs hiding their emotions for the sake of harmony hammer that point home.

I also tend to get hunches about situations and people, like what might happen or that I should/shouldn't do something, or about why someone is upset/happy, and am right pretty often (is that maybe dom Ni? with some Fe? or is that also Ne?)

Hunches can be anything; intuition is specifically preferring them over physical evidence (sensing is the opposite, so sensors often ignore their hunches if there’s evidence otherwise). Hard to tell because hunches are also related to thin slicing in neuroscience which is just a brain thing. Also this can be Si that you don’t realize is working - like, you’ve seen it before, but don’t consciously realize it.

I also wonder if my constant thinking and trying to figure things out (like obsessively trying to figure out my type) is Ti?

Eh, humans are curious and we all like to think. Ti is a specific approach to logic that for some reason got credit for way more (hint it was David Keirsey)

And I love talking about my feelings and am very comfy with it, which apparently lots of INFPs aren't?

Some aren’t, some are, see stuff above re: emotional expressiveness.

I also avoid conflict in public - I don't avoid it at all with my family, I avoid it moderately with good friends, and won't get into public debates. However, I will speak up in public if I think someone is doing something really wrong.

Could be enneagram 9 which is pretty common in Fi doms; it’s also just part of upbringing, that it’s not polite to start an argument in a lot of social situations, but okay with people you’re close with or if it’s something egregious.

I feel like I have a hard time expressing my opinions well verbally (Im fine writing), and it makes me afraid I won't say what I actually mean, and I also am afraid of the rage I feel in conflict and don't want to hurt others feelings by unleashing that.

W/r/t expression, that sort of conflicts with some of the emotional expressiveness you’d mentioned earlier, but either way tracks more with introversion than anything else. Fear of strong anger makes me wonder if you’ve enneatyped yourself correctly, though obviously I can’t tell if it’s your greatest fear. But I’d take a seriously look at 9 gut fixes.

I also don't like people trampling on my beliefs, so often just won't express them with those I'm not real close to. But I've read that high Fi users don't avoid conflict, and high Fe users do? And I am very willing to consider other people's points of view and MAYBE change my opinion, but thats pretty rare. I'm also a very empathetic listener - I think before speaking, ask good questions, and make noises to assure them im listening, which Ive also read is Fe. is that enough info?

Not liking people trampling on beliefs is pretty universal - even people who behave in an extreme doormat way usually don’t particularly like it deep down. For conflict avoidance see notes on enneagram 9. Openness to other points of view could come from Ne seeing different options, or Fi accepting other’s opinions as being able to coexist with your own usually; it’s also just a healthy adult thing to do regardless of type. Same goes for listening - those are all learned skills and so ask yourself if you did those when you were younger. I did mostly by the time I was 24 but I sure didn’t when I was 17, whereas people with higher feeling, and to some extent higher Fe more than Fi, tend to pick those up a bit more naturally and therefore earlier.

ah one last thing! I take a very long time to make descions - I want to make sure I'm doing/getting the best/right thing. which also seems not very INFP?

Not sure where you got that idea - indecisiveness until you know the optimum response is EXTREMELY INFP. Specifically Ne.

And I get very afraid of not having the idealized visions and dreams of the future I crave - I'm okay with the exact details being flushed out over time, but there are general dreams I will not give up. I've read thats more Ni then Ne?

It is but given the context of everything else, I think this can come from Fi if you see those dreams as identity, and ultimately everyone has goals and dreams.

Oh shit, thought of more things. I SUCK at finishing things - it takes crazy hard work for me to finish a project. I just get... bored and move on. Or procrastinate because other things are more interesting in the moment. But I'm also fairly academic and analytical - can INFP's be that? I find it very stimulating and when Im interested in a topic I want to learn EVERYTHING about it and understand it fully. And I hate when I have a mental problem that I can't solve. I will obsess.

INFPs can be analytical but it’s not your primary way of going about the world (nor is it for INFJs for that matter). Do you like it a lot in specific, lower-pressure contexts (say, academia)? That can be you exploring lower functions. It’s worth considering how you go about being analytical, and whether it seems more Te or Ti. The unsolved problem issue also depends on context, and learning everything can be Ne wanting all the information to fuel a very divergent thought process.

INFP 1,000: And I forgot the thing. I also orgionally started questioning because of my love for sensing things - I love physical beauty in home decor, nature, clothes, etc, and I love being in nature. When I was a teen and very stressed/unwell I overindulged in sensory things like sex/food/drinking/cutting, because it made me feel alive. In the same way now, engaging my senses in healthy ways makes me feel alive. But I do feel pretty crap at it. Which made me wonder if I had inferior Se.

OK so this isn’t directed at you but good lord does inferior Se get almost as much of a mythical out of proportion blow-out as dom Ni. A lot of inferior Se-credited unhealthy behaviors, while definitely present in dom Ni users, are also fairly universal. Namely, all the sensory things you mention will lead to endorphin rushes (hence the feeling alive - it’s brain chemistry) and all are pretty common coping mechanisms for depression, anxiety, or stress to the point that two of them are on the PHQ-9 depression screening. You would be hard pressed to find someone who’d never indulged in at least one under stress, and most people have indulged in several. This has been my PSA that typing based on inferior Se behaviors is a dangerous game for exactly that reason.

Anyway: overall, I see strong evidence for INFP and I’d look at enneagram 9 for some of the more conflict avoidant parts; perhaps more than 4 even though it could just be a strong 9 gut-fix as the second part of your tritype, and maybe a 5 head fix for the analytical stuff. Unless you have more details on the people who typed you INFJ I can’t really refute their arguments,but I see much more INFP for the reasons above.

[whittynovels]

you said she was boring without her crazy in an ask which i'm assuming you deleted now

because I have no memory of this, I highly suspect I posted it a while ago and then deleted it again a while ago. I couldn’t find it earlier this year when the post was brought up, and I still can’t find it now, and I know I haven’t said anything of the sort for a long time.

If it’s okay i’m just gonna tell you exactly what I told another person this year in regards to what the post meant.

the post where I suspect I said this, or in any post that i mention this idea, would have been in reference to writing juliette in my fanfiction. Normally when I write Juliette, she’s in this post-Ignite Me state of being very stoic, calm, and badass, but for one of my fanfictions I had written her in a really dark head space after killing Anderson and some of her old tics with counting and stuff were beginning to relapse as she reconciled what she’d done. Afterward, I got a message (again, that I now can’t find) that said something along the lines of “That seems really unrealistic that she would relapse,” which is a fair criticism to make and honestly I don’t think I would ever write that fanfiction now. Regardless, I responded and explained that I’d written it because I wanted to experiment writing her character like how she behaved in Shatter Me. Since I can’t find the post I don’t know if the way I phrased it was severely problematic, but I agree that it’s a really wrong thing to imply that juliette is more interesting when she’s “crazy.” I can remember other times that I’ve made stupid and careless comments about the series & characters, either trying to be edgy or funny, that can be interpreted badly. Back when I was 15, 16, and 17 and I was REALLY invested in the series, I knew a lot less about ableism, feminism, political correctness, etc. than I know now. Even now, I still have a lot to learn–clearly.

i read shatter me when i was 15. i had generalized anxiety, but wouldn’t be actually diagnosed with it for another 5 years, i just knew i felt guilty and dread and pessimistic all the time. because I spent so much of my youth with this unnamed dread and terror that wasn’t diagnosed in me until literally last year, I think there’s a part of me that identifies with the really scatted-brained and stream of consciousness writing of book 1. By all means, I’m so grateful for and inspired by Juliette’s character growth, but there’s still a part of me that really identifies with how she thinks in book one because it’s my everyday inner monologue. The indecision and the feelings of being overwhelmed and everything still just really speak to me. I hope that by stating that I like it because I can relate to it, it’s not being interpreted as Juliette was *better* that way. Does that make sense? But I do apologize to you for saying those harmful things. I know intention is void if I hurt someone with my words.

That being said, if you have screenshots or links to anywhere you think I’ve messed up, don’t hesitate sending them my way so that I can take those posts/tweets/messages down! I was still a teenager and learning what are right and wrong things to say, and again, I’m more than happy to clear things up and take them down if they’ve hurt someone.

again, unless there’s a screenshot or the post exists somewhere where I can’t find it, I don’t think that’s what I meant. If it was, that was years ago, and I know I’ve made mistakes and said things I shouldn’t have, so I’m sorry if it offended you or anyone you know. shatter me is still something dear to me and i don’t want to make the fandom uncomfortable with anything i’ve said. again, if you come off anon to talk further, i will respond privately, but it’s your choice.

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I am so torn between these three animals for the last sparkling

Either the opossum

The Cape vulture

Or go with another prehistoric bird, Argentavis

I love each of these creatures because it fits with the unique personalities and heritage between Dinobot and rattrap. I'm open to feedback but I might also do some mock ups of each creature as well