#I'm so exhausted. It feels like it should be way later than it is 😴

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Hello!! I was wondering if you might do a doctor reader x max where she is a junior doctor working long shifts and feeling very tired but doesn’t tell max because she knows he also has a very tiring schedule? But he takes care of her and makes sure she is well looked after? Maybe a bit spicy in the end if you are ok with that!!

Hello! Was written in the pause actually, as you got my situation explained there too 🤣🫡🩺 only thing missing is Max coming to take care of me 😴😂

Hope you like it! 💙

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Taking care

(Those who always care about others, sometimes need some care too.)

Another night, another double shift. The only regular meal she'd had in the past couple of days was black coffee, and the Red Bull cans were strewn all around her office. Even exhausted, she smiled to herself, thinking about how she was promoting her boyfriend's team and consuming probably more Red Bulls than he was.

She was getting ready for her last round of checking up on patients at the crack of dawn when her phone pinged.

[One new message]

Love: "When should I pick you up from work, babe?"

She was surprised that he was awake so early, but she figured that he wants to go on a jog.

She didn't want to be a burden to him at the moment. She knew how much stress he alone was under, with all the training, debriefs and she wasn't doing her best lately in supporting him, with her shifts getting in the way. She knew the pressure that he was under. He didn't need to worry about her too.

So, she tried to spare him.

She texted back quickly:

"All good, love. I'll probably stay a little longer; I got lost in the paperwork. You go home and get some rest. I love you."

She was quite disappointed when he left her message on "read," but she was already on the verge of sleep. Deciding to go back to work and let it go, she knew that he was likely already out jogging.

A couple of cans of Red Bull and two cups of coffee later, in the deathly silence of the office, she nearly jolted from the table when she heard a loud, hard knock at the door.

She quickly ran her fingers through her now-messy hair in an attempt to tame it and straightened out her coat.

"Come in."

What she hadn’t expected was to see Max standing at the door, his cheeks slightly flushed and his hair disheveled. He held two takeout bags and a Starbucks coffee in his hands.

“Got some time for one more patient, Liefje?” -he asked, smiling at her as he put the things on the nearest cupboard before she ran into his arms.

"Max? Baby what are you doing here? I thought you'd gone out for a jog." She pouted at him, but he pulled her away from him and toward one of the two comfortable armchairs.

"You were never a good liar, especially when you're sleepy. You texted me half the letters wrong (which she didn't notice in her moment of sleepiness), and I had a good feeling that these all-nighters would mean coffee for every meal without the actual meal. So you're not moving from that spot until you eat this." He opened the box with two sandwiches and the other one with croissants. Starbucks lay on the table beside her.

"I'm sorry, Max. I never meant to worry you. I just..."—she huffs—"...it got really tough the last couple of days, and I couldn't even find time to watch your race and support you, and..."

She doesn't get to finish her sentence because he's already towering over her, his large hand on her chin and the other gripping her thigh.

She lets out a gasp at the contact, craving it nonetheless, but unable to move.

"You always take care of everyone, especially me. Now, it's my turn," he said, leaning down further and cupping her face in his hands. He kissed her so gently, but passionately that she couldn't help but let out a whimper.

He quickly pulled her up from the chair and changed their positions, pulling her on his lap, tracing his fingers up her thighs, all the way under her coat..

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It is safe to say that the sandwiches lay long-forgotten on the table, and the proper meal had to wait a bit longer while Max had his own dessert.

|P.S. Sorry for any grammar mistakes; the next one will be longer i promise 💯 |

[add-the-account-yourcosmicguide]

5:27PM 09/15/2021

🌺🍃 So, I've been having mad anxiety; full blown panic attacks and everything 🙃😐and my depression 😒 it's bad, pretty bad. So bad that I spent this past week in bed every day all day and ight I'm in bed just sleepy, exhausted! 😴🛌💤

🌙🌾 🎃⚡🍂🍃🍁🌟🌻🌟🍁🍃🍂🍂🍃

Ever since New Moon

🌟I have been slacking big time !! !

🌺🍃Well, it's all started when I couldn't upload more than one photo at a time on Instagram and then I just quit Instagram altogether. Which I had been started up this Tumblr account and started a couple Tarot games on here and divination services🌙🔮🎉 but that hasn't been keeping me that happy either which it usually keeps me going and keeps me out of trouble and keeps me occupied and helps me to feel productive and like a normal citizen or whatever you want to call it I don't know what it makes me feel whole I guess I'm not really sure but it gives me the sense of being connected to the world. 🌎

🌺🍃 I've made quite a few pick a card Tarot readings; I mean for ME, that's actually, with everything I'm going through.

🌺🍃 I'm not able to really do Tarot full time because of my depression and due to health reasons my chronic illness. My cancer always gets in the way. I'm not going to say much on it because I don't want to put a damper on your day because I know how depressing cancer can be too everyone.❣🎗🧿🎱

🌺🍃 I've written a small piece of poetry ✨💕it's nothing to flex just a bullshit mood put on paper 😌 I call it Moody Confusion.

Poem: MOODY 😕CONFUSION

Written By: F.R.

❣🌻💙🧿❣🎗❣🧿💙🌻❣

MOODY BLUES IN MY BED

MOODY CONFUSION IN MY HEAD

Feel IT IN My CHEST

Heart DROPS

Beat Rocks

HE S LOST

CANT STOP THESE THOUGHTS

I COULDNT BELIEVE IT

I still Can't Believe It

RUN AWAY , BUT WERE RUNNING IN CIRCLES

WHERE TO RUN

WALK IT OFF

NOW IM IN BED

FUZZY DRAMA IN MY HEAD

LOSING MY GRIP

LETTIG THIS SLIP

MOODY CONFUSION IN MY HEAD

Moody Blues in my bed

MOODY CONFUSION GETS THE BEST

Of me

MOODY CONFUSION

LOST THE REST OF ME

🌺🍃 I did turn to divination as a method to help solve my little problem too; I did an Oracle Reading and I feel it's fairly accurate. 😅 I'm sort of relieved that I didn't pull out Oracle deck for nothing and cleanse it with brand new "Tangerine Cream" incents... they smell oh so Divine!! !

🌺🍃For my Oracle Reading I simply had one thing on my mind: my anxiety and depression 🙃🙂 I wanted to know why I feel this way and what can I do to fix it.

🌈Q::WHATS THE TRUE SOURCE OF MY DEPRESSION AND PANIC ATTACKS?

A: Father Sky- Trust in the Unknown, Earth Element- Stability, Leadership

🌈Q: HOW CAN I GET OVER THIS ?

A: Libra- Balance, 12- Change, Look at the Bigger Picture

🌈Q: What magick should I concentrate on in my mystic craft? Spells I should work on now that woukd boost my self esteem and get me out of this depression and rid me of my anxiety ?

A: 7-Jupiter-Abundance, Middle World, Appreciation, Roots, Meditation Protected: You are safe and Supported While you Change Your Career.

🌺🍃⚡ So, I'm going to very very briefly summarize this up; in case I need to read this again later! This is a personal entry in my blog ... it will be listed under the tag #YourCosmicGuide #PersonalPost #CosmicGuideSays ( all one word except personal post ) . You will just have to bear with mg tagging system to look and search my blog for the posts you desire to see. Because I'm new to this experience here and I'm unsure of how to create links properly like I have seen many ppl use !? Anybody want to give me some guidance on this 🙏🙏???? I'd be ever so grateful.

⚡So let's discuss the above Oracle Cards that I pulled ..

🍀🍃So, basically I see that my anxiety and depression has a root cause and it's my lack of stability and there are issues with myself assuming leadership roles. This could stem from the fact that I do not have as close of a relationship with God/Creator/The Universe as much as I use to in the past ... I used to have a more balanced Spiritual life N I seemed to make time for more religious studies and communication with Spirit; just more of a connection to the other side , even my SpiritGuide, Elm . I've been slacking in my meditation and could use some empowering , uplifting , guided meditation tapes 🙏 I should also be manifesting abundance 🙌 I could do a Spell for abundance even add in prosperity since I just happen to have orange peels 🍊🟧📙 and I've been making my digital grimoire ! Oh yes there's a reason I've been depressed! Because I lost it my hard copy Grimoire or someone stole it. Then someone stole my old tablet my Samsung galaxy tab A , this new ones an A7 . it's not as good.

🎃🌾🌙 I should take my picture of my white pumpkin from the grocery store. I'm impressed with it. I'm shocked that me and Kyle picked the same one out too !!

🌟🍂 I did edit this just a bit . Hope yall enjoy 😉 it. I work hard!!? Actually yah I do. Really it probly takes me on average so much longer than ost ppl doing just a regular upload like this .. and I'm still not done explaining my reading but I'm sure you get the jyst of it.its pretty self explanatory.

🌺🍃So I'm hearing from this reading that I need to gain courage in order to move on and basically I need to communicate with Spirit and the universe my higher self and also God completely need to let go of my need to control things and let go and let God. I need to give off these ideas of perfection and I need to just move on the best I can with what I have left because I will have nothing at all if I don't just pick up here and at least pick up the pieces and move on. There's not much more I can do other than that so I'm going to have a lot of healing to go from here. I'm going to have to do a lot of self-care work and I'll have to put a note to self that I'm going to be doing more Shadow work also so that's October coming and working on working with spirit channeling guidance from the other side.