#I'm so excited I'm literally abt to explode

[bread-is-my-life]

I'm an advocate for Stainmight. I love them so much and have been trying to convince others just how much sense they make as a ship. Stain would absolutely do anything for Toshi. He'd reform himself and become the best version of himself if Toshi asked it of him.

They deserve the world 🥹😭

HI HI NICE TO MEET YA!!! :3 You are so real for that... Also HE ABSOLUTELY WOULD!!!

Also let me give you those weird school doodles of em :3 ignore how their height makes no sense in every pic and other mistakes lol I did those instead of studying ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ I PROMISE THAT I WILL COOK SMTH SOON!!!

(btw on the second pic Toshi forgot his scarf and Stain forced him to wear his but then they just decided to share it :D I might redraw it later and fix all the mistakes like Toshi's height LMAO)

ANYWAYS I LOVE ALL STAINMIGHT SHIPPERS GUYS PLEASE I WANT TO HUG YOU ALL AND SHAKE YOUR HANDS AND AND *explodes*

[teddybeartoji]

HELLO MICKEY !!!!! bf!gojo anon here and i just wanted to say i was jumping in joy reading your reply to me ily i am covering you in kisses too mwah mwah MWAH!!!!!!

i come with more bf!gojo brainrot because he's genuinely all i think of these days it's getting concerning.. what did he put in my drink ?! and i want to share them with you bcs he rly makes me happy and i hope these silly rambles make you feel happy too! :D

anyway.. he'll be so into whatever.. all kinds of marking !! whether it may be something like hickeys or or sharing clothes :(( HE WOULD WEAR YOUR CLOTHES TOO!!! like those oversized shirts or jackets or hoodies he doesnt care if theyre small or big on him he will. WEAR it!! him wearing your hoodie.. and your hoodie smelling like him.. while you wear his one that atp smells like you ://

ok and hickeys. clears throat i think at first he'd be a bit shy (but excited) about having to walk around with a BRUISE on his neck but .. now.. it feels weirder if he doesnt have a mark of some sort.. also him with lipstick on his neck ? his smooth milky neck ???? rattles cage YOU GET ME ?!

necks.... he immediately melts and turns into a whiny mess when you get near his throat.. when you start kissing him there he never wants you to stop.. ever.. he also loves doing the same thing to your neck ^_^ ok i think i need to stop bcs im going to hyperventilate and this might get nasty real fast bcs needy gojo baring his neck is something tht makes smoke come out of my ears THANK U FOR LISTENING HAVE A GOOD DAY

BOYFRIEND SATORUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE MAKES ME SO NERVOUS HE GIVES ME BUTTERFLIES EEEEEEEEEEEEE I'M SO GLAD WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER THOUGH NONNIE<3333333333

AAAAAAAAAA YOU'RE SO RIGHT ABOUT HIM LOVING ANY FORM OF MARKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE LOVES LOVES LOVES TO SHOW THAT HE'S YOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he wears the hickeys you give him with pride and the same goes for lipstick marks and your clothes too. and he obviously loves marking you up too but tbh i think it's more important for him to be yours and not the other way around.

he also likes to buy you clothes that he knows will fit him too,, he wants you to wear them for some time just so he can steal them for himself later lmao i think he loves hoodies the most!!!!!!!!!!!! i might be biased here but idk i feel like hoodies are always so warm and comfortable and now that they also smell like you satoru wishes he would never have to take the piece of clothing off!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND HE FUCKING ADORES LIPSTICK MARKS THEY MAKE HIM SO FUCKING GIDDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! esp when you're messing around, sitting on his lap and just kissing him all over it feels like he's in heaven he can't get enough of it. and he just soo so handsy while you do it too he really is like a puppy sometimes lmao but mmmmmmm nonnie just imagine how pretty his smile would be:(((((( his cheeks are dusted pink bc he feels so warm all over, his body burning from your love<3333333333 i love smitten satoru so fucking much i'm gonna explode i think

NONNIE. HIS NECK. IS SO. FUCKING. SENSITIVE. literally his weakest point btw... you could just look at his neck and he's already feeling warm lmao he's so cute godddd he loves it when you lick and kiss his neck it gets him so needy and pliant in seconds he's just putty in your hands you could do whatever you want with him (he's into that)

and you're right abt him loving your neck too though.... ooouughhh he really likes licking your neck (??????) and biting too. he likes the way you twitch and squirm under him:33333333 btw i just need to say that kissing overall is one of his favourite things ever. not even like making out he loves Kissing. he wants to feel your lips against his at all times, he wants to taste you. you're so soft and you feel so good in his arms and he goes wild over the little sounds you let out whenever he nips at your bottom lip mmmmmmm fuck that's so hot...

OKE BUT WAHHHHH I'M SO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT ON THIS MY BELOVED I AM SO GLAD YOU'RE HERE THOUGH BC WOW HE MAKES ME FEEL INSANE he's thee loverboy of all times he just needs to be loved and held and taken care of. and he wants to do the same to you. you're his everything<33333333333

[plushiewannabe]

I'm actually so excited to get my new plushie literally daydreaming abt what my first words to her will be WHY CANT IT ARRIVE NOWWWW

IM GONNA EXPLODE

[buggbuzz]

alexithymia is crazy bro. gaslighted my autistic ass into thinking i didnt have to worry abt that shit cause im pretty emotionally intelligent but recently ive been thinking and like. yeah lol i dont get excited over things that are objectively exciting and i dont get upset when something should piss me off, but maybe hours later on i'll get amped up or upset about it. i dont get very emotionally invested in things either. i literally only experience my vague background mood, super strong emotions, and feelings that are congruent with what im thinking. like, my thoughts are angry about something, so i can feel angry about it. but if there's a cognitive dissonance between my thoughts and my emotions, i won't really experience the emotions.

but like the emotions are still there, so wells of resentment can still build up until i explode out of nowhere, or i won't realize i'm romantically attracted to someone but i'll still act very gay without realizing it until later lol (which makes figuring our whether you want to date someone VERY HARD btw😭)

anytime people are excited to see my reaction to something i groan internally because i know im not gonna have a strong emotional reaction to it so i'll have to play it up for their sake cause i know how fun it is to show friends things.

i also realized yesterday that maybe this is the reason i get so easily overwhelmed and stressed by literally so much, even if its not that big of a deal or actually a good thing, cause i don't feel those positive emotions or excitement, but i do very clearly feel the stress about new things to deal with. and so there's no excitement/sadness/anger to counterbalance the stress of "New Things and Uncomfortable Situations" which means i have no motivation to follow through and a lot of motivation to avoid it.

like, if someone was like, "dude your favorite thing is happening in this place!!!" there's a very muffled oh wow that sounds so fun and exciting i would love to see that that i cant even feel at the moment and a very LOUD but then i have to go outside and have everyone staring at me and i have to disrupt my schedule and go to this new place with new things and so i end up with this net result of "that sounds like hell" because the excitement doesn't show up to make it feel like it's worth it

ive also just never been the type to care about holidays or outings which does not help💀

anyways not sure to do with this but i feel like understanding this was the next step to getting more control over my life so 💪💪💪 we will figure it out!

[cyaino]

Chapter 13:

FUCCCK MY HEART IS BEATING SO FAST, IT FEELS LIKE ITS GOING TO EXPLODE OUT OF MY CHEST. THIS ENTIRE CHAPTER HAS MY PULSE ELEVATED BEYOND THE ATMOSPHERE—ANAKIN PULLING US ALONG SUCH HIGH SLOPES AND DEEP LOWS IN A ROLLERCOASTER RIDE OF EMOTIONS.. I HAD TO TURN OFF MY PHONE/GO TO ANOTHER TAB AND SCROLL FOR A BIT TO CALM MYSELF DOWN. THIS CHPT IS SO GOOD AT THE PACING AND TENSION IN MULTIPLE SECTIONS OF VARYING SCENES???! HOW DID U DO IT??? AND I LOVE HOW U CONNECT BACK INFORMATION IN PREV CHPTS (The reward) AND U DONT FORGET ABT IT (i was thinking if you have, and then I myself forgot about it, only for you to surprise me back with it in such amazing timing); EVERYTHING FEELS SO THOUGHT OUT AND ON PURPOSE.

ARRRGH WHATS WRONG WITH HIM (I LOVE HIM;

YOUR CHARACTERIZATION OF HIM IS SUCH AN ENIGMA, SO ALLURING DESPITE THE CREEPINESS, IT’S LIKE REACHING OUT TO A FLAME BRIGHT BLUE OF COLOR, CURIOSITY BITING AT THE EDGES, DESPITE KNOWING HE’LL BURN YOU (similar to him burning to a crisp in Mustafar).

The last few chapters I kept screaming in head for Padmé to come and save me, OOH PADMÉ SAVE ME PADMÉ (I am still rooting for poly endgame…)

WAAA AMAZING WORK AS ALWAYS THUMBS UP XOXOXOXO

(I was gonna post it on ao3 but then the website crashed?? What timing 💀 ao3 got so overwhelmed with my intense love of your work)

sJFHBDSDHJFB dude having to tab out is so relatable i get so overwhelmed when reading sometimes like aaaaaaaaa

I literally have a document to help me keep track of my own plot cos I have so many things planned, and I have so much fun dropping little annoying hints as I go.

I loveee writing Anakin he's such a perfect clash of good and evil it's muah. I'm so excited for his perspective to gradually be revealed, I've had a few times when I almost dropped the bomb and ended up re-writing the scene because it was too soon.

There's a Padme scene coming up that I'm so excited for, I've had to stop myself spoiling it three separate times now, it's one of the scenes that inspired me to start the fic to begin with :>

[minquiec]

GOOODDD morning min nation it's One Am and I'm pushing Hobie little spoon agenda 🦅🦅🔥🔥💥🎉🎉❓👌🫶👍👍

It's one am are we shocked

Anyyays

This is, literally just personal hc cause ajbbdsjjj so it's gonna be a stretch in more ways then one bc my brain is deluded into thinking they are in a romance tgt 💃💃 so maybe ooc cause I wanna see them be sweet till my teeth rots in my mouth

I like remembered this doodle I did back a while ago and I sat up in my bed in cold sweat to type this out before I forgor it's thos one

It still makes me a little nauseous with how much it makes me AAUUUEEEGGHHFHHHHRKKKKKEJJKE 🤧🤧🤧😭😭😭😭‼️‼️❓‼️❓‼️❓‼️❓ but that's besides the point

hobie likes receiving affection

Obviously he's a big giver of it but givers still wanna be receivers some!!!times!!!!!

Bro wants to be cuddled ok it's been a while since he's felt that warm and cozy ahrhhrvvgrvg he's a big fan of tucking his head jus under her head and into her shoulder cause like

Her skin can surround his face if that makes sense

Skin warm -> warm make happiii -> yippe 🎉🎉

He also likes it cause usually she starts scratching at his neck or patting his back cause he's just a lanky dog

Also likes it for the reasons of her face being close without him having to maneuver around tm

it's either cause,

one. he can just kinda look up and he can see her

see gf -> YAYYYY 🗣️🔇🗣️🔇🗣️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

two. ez for kith cos he likes it when she kisses his face

kith ->

three. it's long winded but

I think he likes hearing her say his name

...

Uegrhghueueu crying noise

Bc she says it so nicely and so affectionately it makes him feel a little giddy and wanna throw up in excitement a little (maybe not but I just talk like this leave me be)

It sounds like that to him is bc SHE rlly likes say HIS name

She thinks its cute

Like the 'ie' at the end??? Are you kidding me?????

She gets a little embarrassed to say it sometimes cause she feels too strongly Abt it that it makes her aaghrhkkjgnk and explode internally but when she does say it oiuuuuhhhhmuuuuiiogoooddd

Makes her want to squeeze him till he pops like a balloon but affectionately

Went on a little tangent there but reason three is

It's so she can just kind of like repeat his name for no reason

And everytime she does he kinda just gives a mumbled 'mmh' back (I'm going to cry)

She says it w sm fondness that it IS her term of endearment for him

"hobie" "mm?" "hobie" "mmh" "hobie" "mh."

Literally can't do this anymore im in both despair and incredible joy simultaneously

Not my proudest post but a girl needs to be insane sometimes (all the time actually)

[softhairedhotch]

no, thank YOUUUU <3333 and it's okay HEHE remember to take it easy!!! 🫶 i can tell u for sure i will be here ready to absorb and consume n love anything that u create <3333 ive already read ur new fic Too Many Times . it struck sooo many chords like . I WOULD REALLY DO ALL THAT 😭😭 n ya fr there's too many good ideas out there to explore n there's only so much you can do at One moment. i personally have this long standing problem of starting sooo many things that i cannot finish bc i'm a master procastinator... so the only way i function is with looming deadlines ☠️ wish i was getting paid to just sit down n think about aaron bc man... i'd be a millionaire by now 🗿

TEHEEHHEE OMGGG PLEASEEE PHONE SEX . another big weakness of mine . idk how many times ive said smth is my weakness BUT like there's just some tropes that NEVER GETS OLD ... also sometimes i focus so much on aaron n how he makes you feel that i don't think about how HE would be so affected by everything about you GOSSHHHHHH please . like you're captivated by him but he's literally also soooo smitten and down bad for you to that he has to fight his urges to just give into anything that u want 😭😭 but unfortunately he can't always magically teleport to wherever you are so he just talks you through it and gives you such clear instructions BRRRR IMAGINE IF HE USES HIS WORK VOICE BC HE WANTS YOU TO LISTEN TO HIM EXACTLY STEP BY STEP . like my god i can't believe how i can giggle n kick my feet whenever cm has a scene of aaron giving instructions n delegating work to the team... like it's just so hot . n when he shows off his intelligence WOWOWWEEWW major turn on . n wooooof.

AND??!?$$;&; him sending pictures of himself 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ also i love the idea of aaron being away from u but being soo pent up that he takes the initiative to surprise you with a special video of him jerking off or using a toy <333 and u BET he knows to send it with sound so you can hear all the sounds he's making <333 bc what is nut videos without SOUND 😤😤😤

omg.. i luv daddy kinks BRRRR n sometimes it just especially HITS SO HARD . like omfg got me actively looking for those daddy asmr porn audios 😭😭😭😵‍💫😵‍💫 sometimes it takes awhile to find a good one but when i strike gold... Wow . GODDD i know aaron would say such filthy things that are downright insulting n degrading... BUT HE DOES IT IN THE SOFT AFFECTIONATE VOICE sparkled with some praises... AGRGRHRHHH .

omg REALLLL he's SOOO the type to make you say what you want directly in words. he isn't going to budge if you're just whining n hoping he'd take the hint bc he himself also loves to hear such filthy things come out of your mouth <3333 "you know daddy really loves to give you whatever you want... but not if you don't use your words. come on, does your pretty little mouth only function as daddy's cocksleeve?" HARGRHRHEHEJE i am Dead . n STOPPPP ENCOURAGING MEEEE ure gna make the can of worms EXPLODE ABOUT ALL THE FILTHY THOUGHTS ABT AARON'S CUM PLSSSS (not actually complaining ! i am Egged)

also omg... TEEHEE... i will tell u more abt my lovely male oc soon!!!! omfg im SO EXCITED . bc i literally have never talked about it to anyone even though i've thought abt it in such detail LMFAOOOO its just hard out there to find someone who shares the same brain ... damn 😭 i'm really glad i happened to stumble across ur page n decided to send an ask <333 bc i rly enjoy talking to u too!!!!! <3

-🤲

you're so sweet bless <3 hehe i'm glad you liked my new fic!! and YEAH I GETCHA omg that used to be me, like i couldn't do stuff without deadlines, AND NOW I CAN'T EVEN DO THINGS WITH DEADLINES LMAO. sometimes i can, but if i set it myself then you best believe it ain't getting done. i procrastinate sooooo much it's painful. like i could sit here and write for most of the day because rn i currently do NOTHING ELSE in my life (rip, i'm working on it lol) but do i??? no!! i mean that's just a lot of effort innit lol, writing constantly sounds exhausting even tho it's all i wanna do

phone sex my beloved <3 and awwww yeahhh he'd be sooo so so in love with you and he'd wanna do anything and everything you ask :') but GOD YEAH him using his work voice?? all stern and professional and demanding?? goddd i need that so bad. and YESSS when he shows of his intelligence it's soooo hot, like that one scene where he does the maths and penelope goes "is this reid?" and he goes "what, you impressed?" YES I AM BABE I LOVE YOU SM

i loooooove the idea of his sending pics <333 that's why i love looking at nsfw stuff sm bc sometimes i strike GOLDDDDD and its like the most aaron pic ever and it makes me lose my mind. once i found one that was so him i fully forgot to breathe and was blushing like mad (this one i think!). it was... a lot LMFAO. but god god GOD him sending a video of him jerking off when on a case??? i need that soooo so so much. and yes FR there needs to be sound in nut videos. once was sent one from a guy WITHOUT SOUND like babe? dude? what are you doing? where's the fun in that? i mean it was hot don't get me wrong but i was like "buddy wheres the sound at 🤨" LMAOOO

YESS I KNEW YOU WOULD BE INTO DADDY KINKS LMFAOOOO. and omg real, they're sometimes so good and for what. or any video of someone with daddy vibes,, godddddd sometimes it just HITS FR. YESS HIS VOICE WOULD BE SO SWEET AND GENLTE AND LOVING BUT ALSO DOMINATING AND THE STUFF THAT COMES OUT OF HIS MOUTH IS SOOOO FILTHY N HOT

yessssssss he'd looove to hear you say what you need. "come on, little one, let daddy know what you want, hm? i need to hear you say how much you want my cock" and "you want me to ride you, sweetheart? want daddy to ride you until you can't cum anymore? hm? let me hear you say those words, baby, i need to hear you say it."

and yayyy i'm so excited to hear about your oc!! i can't WAIT it's gonna be soooo good i just kNOW IT. i'm also really glad you stumbled across my page too <33 thanks for sending me all these asks!!!!

[faebriel]

fanfic end of the year asks: 1, 3, 12, and 14 !!

HI LAMBBBB :D happy new year!!

1. favourite fic you wrote this year

ez clap rousseau's man in the state of nature. yeah it's still in progress but idgaf. that one is so specifically for me and like four mutuals and i love it and i'm so excited to be able to clear out time to work on it more this year. i literally cannot listen to loscamp without getting infected with The Brainrot over it for hours

3. favourite line/scene you wrote this year

OOH. i think i would pick the fight scene from you think they'll make it? - i'm really proud of the imagery and descriptions there, and the image of niki smashing schlatt's face in with a guitar as it explodes into splinters is something that's been in my head for A While. also between the three of them schlatt is definitely the most difficult character for me to me to stick the characterisation landing on, but i feel like i did his villainous side justice pretty well in that fic (compared to rousseau's man, which is more of a before-it-all-went-wrong vibe). i'm still really happy with the following exchange right before hell breaks loose, esp bc we love an allusion to the festival:

“You made your deal, loverboy.” Schlatt jerks his chin towards the stacks of iron. “Get back on the line.” “That deal was made between you and I. She’s not involved.” Wilbur’s voice is raspy, dry and overworked, miles from the smooth melody it once was – but firm. “I can’t – I won’t let you hurt her.” “Oh?” Schlatt’s eyes light with sudden interest, floodlights zeroing in directly on the two of them. Niki’s skin crawls under the heat, and in spite of it all, she casts a wary look to Wilbur before she can remember to stop herself. “You won’t let me, is that it?” Niki watches Wilbur’s throat shift as he swallows. “I won’t,” he confirms – but the waver in his voice betrays him, blood in the water. He’s afraid. Schlatt heaves out a sigh, heavy, world-weary, as if the disappointment of the entire underground can be expelled through his lungs alone. A cigarette appears between his fingers – gods know where from – and Hadestown holds its breath as he flicks his lighter awake, a small, silver-oil thing, and turns to Niki with a conspiratorial look on his face.  “You lot,” he remarks – lifting the lit cigarette to his lips, and taking a long, complacent drag, “are beyond fucking insufferable.”

he's such a cunt in that fic. and it's awesome

12. favourite character to write about this year

C!NIKI SWEEEEEEEEEEEEP C!NIKI 🔛🔝❗

i also started a death note fic abt near a while back, although it's on the backburner until they say we are asleep is finished at least. i feel like i'm flying blind on it but like i was having fun

14. a fic you didn't expect to write

and you caused it!! i had kind of accepted it wasn't ever gonna be fully finished a while ago and had no more thoughts on that. but around the anniversary of cause most of us are bitter i thought it would be a really nice way to tie up all the loose ends there, and i'm glad i did :]

ask game!! ✨

[canongf]

this month i had to stay at my dads house which sucked. but while i was there i got 3 WHOLE NEW F/O’S. WHICH RULES. i’m so in love with them what the hell. how have i been missing out on such perfection for so long. they’re literally perfect my cheeks hurt from smiling thinking abt them i’m going to EXPLODE!!!!!!! <3333333 sunshine and rainbows

I LOVE THIS FOR YOU!!!

not the. you know. staying at your dad's house part. i'm sorry that sucked. but the 3 new f/os!!! i love the 3 new f/os for you!!! falling for just one is already so happy and so exciting but THREE!!! that is INCREDIBLE!!! i am so glad you found them and i am so glad you're not missing out on perfection any longer!!! they are so lucky to HAVE YOU!!!!! 🖤

[wearingaberetinparis]

ever since you mentioned an upcoming Indian wedding in RAKWME I've been so excited. I've only ever seen an Indian wedding written out in a fanfic once... I'm curious to see how you describe it since it's quite a large event to write about.

despite the fact that I come from a fully Indian family, I've only ever been to one wedding (that I remember) when I was younger. I don't remember all the details since it was years ago and I was completely exhausted by the time it was over but there are a few things that I thought you might be interested in...

1. so. many. people... it's almost comical the number of people you don't know despite them probably being related to you. I don't even know whose wedding it was 😭 there were so many people coming and talking to me and I didn't have a clue who any of them were... but that didn't matter because in Indian culture everyone (and I mean EVERYONE) is called uncle/aunty/brother/sister... doesn't matter whether you are related or not.

2. the outfits. the makeup. the mehendi/henna. the jewellery!! for some weird reason, the amount of colour there reminds me of the ball in the 2015 Cinderella movie (the one starring Lily James... can't stop thinking abt jily when I see her name.) I've seen the pictures of my mum's and other relatives' weddings... they looked unreal... like literal Bollywood stars. the detail of the mehendi is insane and takes HOURS. it's quite wholesome seeing all the women helping the bride to get ready.

3. THE FOOD. first you think the preparation for the wedding is exhausting... just wait til you get to the actual event. once you're done, the food all laid out on banana leaves looks and tastes like literal heaven. I'm not even exaggerating bc I'm not that much of a food lover... at that time I was incredibly picky. the food is exquisite.

4. the music!! the singing!!! the dancing!!!!!! the party vibes are incredible and I usually hate parties ( I'm not the outgoing type.)

I did not expect to write this much- it's like my brain exploded into this huge rant due to my enthusiasm (sorry!) hopefully this is useful to you in some way??

overall, what I wanted to say is that I'm so excited to see what you have in store for Ishani's wedding... your writing in general is just incredible and I can't wait to see my own culture reflected in your work :)

I will try my very best to make it an amazing experience for you! Although... be patient. The wedding is a couple of chapters into the future still!

[sheepoftheseus]

i'm extremely sad so i've been reading & writing a lot lately. here's a story: was at an art build for lny. a comrade who was just getting their feet wet w/ this stuff along with me asked "why [i was] doing this" accompanied by a huge sweeping gesture bc ig she didn't know the word for organizing?? fueled by some dumb desire to make a good first impression i said something about how helping people runs in my family. an older comrade who has been at this way longer than i have talked about being a social worker said something extremely poetic & beautiful about how she doesn't want systems to ruin people the way they ruined her. i changed my answer out of the same butch desire to impress this other chinese lesbian & what i settled on was basically something like

i'm a substitute art teacher. i don't gaf abt sending kids to college i just think they should have adults in their lives who they feel safe around & a means of expressing themselves. i work mostly at low income schools & keep having to do panopticon shit which makes me fucking sick to my stomach. lots of stuff w/ monitoring bathroom breaks & homework & timestamped signout sheets. mostly coz these schools don't trust the kids

i get sent to the same school bc it's understaffed as hell. one time an established teacher yelled at my students & called them animals for misbehaving. no fucking kid deserves to be dehumanized so i started talking about how well it's my fault coz i didn't reinforce rules or call for backup or that i wasn't a good enough cop. i dont think i got thru to her but she did leave them alone & these kids reacted like no adult had ever stood up for them before which fucking exploded my heart. literally an hr before the only words these 13 yr olds would say to me were slurs & the rest of the day was spent listening to them be excited about winter break

i think i do this out of some vague desire to speak up for the people who are too fucking beat down to speak. kids don't have the language to tell their parents that things are bad as fuck & the parents are too tired to listen anyways

maybe that's really corny or maybe that's super meaningful idfk. by the end of the thing these two comrades were kind of fighting each other over who got to drive me home though (chinese dyke comrade won 👍👍)

all of this to say it is so goddamn easy to overcome the 2 inch tall barrier that is being afraid or unmotivated to organize

[wrongcaitlyn]

Hi I hope your week is going well !!

THE POLLEN UPDATE KILLED ME AND BROUGHT ME BACK TO LIFE UGHHHHHHH GOD THE PINING IN EVERY SENTENCE. Screaming wailing crying. literally bookbinding would not be enough I need to engrave thisinto my brain. THEYRE SO!!!!!!!!!!! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Also I love Kayla to BITS. PLEASE that last bit is so funny my poor girl. So excited to see the group chat explode (or something to that effect). ALSO I WAS SO SO happy to see Apollo being a bitch about the couch… god he really does have the same heart he did 20 years ago. The “this couldn’t be a dream because of the metal something or other poking him” line made me cackle out loud he’s such a petty bitch but now in all the best ways. unmovable part of himself. And good lord the mutual ignoring of Apollo being able to just simply not stay in TORONTO anymore let alone Darren’s APARTMENT LET ALONE HIS BED is so funny god these fools . You write the POVs of people in love with each other so so well . The touches. The physical descriptions. AUGH

Anyway sorry the question !! I was looking through the tgol Latricia lore and I love her and Apollo’s friendship so so much (sending him sobriety chips 🥺) . and bc we’ve heard about Latricia being there for Apollo / supporting him in various ways, I was wondering - how does he support / love Latricia in turn (aside from like buying Austin’s apartment and stuff) ?

AHHSDF THANK YOU SO MUCH <33 and no fr i love apollo changing in the ways that matter, growing up and maturing, but in the end he's still gonna be extremelyyyy annoying about the uncomfortable bed. which is totally validJSDFJ i'm so glad that you like the way i write these pov's!! a lot of times (esp in the side fics) it's my first time writing that pov so it always means a lot to hear that <3

and as for latricia, i think that the biggest thing that apollo does is just to be there for austin and be available, but i also think that latricia does entirely feel comfortable just calling him up every now and then to vent about whatever is frustrating her abt her job/students/anything that's going on in her life. apollo isn't really the best at advice, but he's there to listen, and he doesn't ever judge bc well- latricia's seen apollo at his worst moments, so yk. but just being there, both for her and for austin, is what helps the most

[namgyunation]

Li, I got so excited to write back because, honestly, I have no one to yap with about my love for Nam-Gyu, and this is everything I needed!!

First off, I’m so happy you liked my message—it really means a lot! I absolutely love the way you break down his character, and every time I read your thoughts, I swear it’s like we share the same braincell. I completely agree with everything you added because that’s exactly how I see him too. Nam-Gyu would definitely act just the way you described. He’s so bitter and prideful that there’s no way he’d let his ex know he still cares, even though he’s dying inside. He’d force himself to act indifferent, to convince both her and himself that he’s “moved on” (even though he absolutely hasn’t cuz yeah he a loser ).

And YES, an interaction between Nam-Gyu, Dae-Ho, and the reader would be pure gold because their dynamic could be written in such a hilariously awkward, petty, and chaotic way. This kind of funny exchange makes a fic so much more engaging and alive—balancing tension with moments of forced politeness, passive-aggressive jabs, and Nam-Gyu absolutely malfunctioning while trying to act indifferent. It’s the kind of interaction that elevates everything, making the drama hit even harder. This trio’s energy? Immaculate. Also I just have a soft spot for Dae-ho, he was my crush at first..but then I ended up obsessing over my loser nam gyu:,)

And the part about him dying inside waiting for the reader to survive the pentathlon—PERFECT. I swear I had the same thought. The fact that he cares so much but tries so hard to suppress it is literally his defining trait. He plays it off like he doesn’t give a damn, but you know his heart is about to explode. I definitely though abt that too.

And honestly, I think keeping all of this contained up to the aftermath of Gi-Hun’s plan is the perfect choice. It also keeps everything grounded within what we know rather than speculating too much about what comes next.

I genuinely can’t wait to see how you write all of this because it already feels like it’s going to be insane in the best way possible. Thank you for letting me ramble about this with you because I truly have no one else to talk to about my obsession with this pathetic, self-destructive man LMAO. I wanna keep yapping abt him with you ahahah . I love him so much If smth happens to him I will die bye 😭

PS: YOUR ART , THE WAY YOU DRAW IS ABSOLUTELY MIND BLOWIND. You re so so talented oh I love it. WELL DONE<3☁️

yess plspls yapppp to me about him all you want haha <3 i'm glad that we see eye-to-eye on our specific flavor of how we'd imagine nam-gyu to be like outside of what little we're given in the show

also omg i literally had the same transition LMAO. i honestly didn't even care for season 2 of squid game when my friends told me about it. i loved season 1 but was just casually into it and also adamant in thinking that they shouldn't have made a second season at all and just let it stand alone.

i had to be forced to watch it, but the second i started and saw how fun the cast and the character interacations (thanos, specifically loll) were, i was sucked in immediately. and dae-ho was actually my first favorite, too!!! did not think there would ever be a universe where i was obsessing over fucking squid game of all things and being actually active in writing for it LMAOOO.

i actually even disliked nam-gyu and thought he was annoying + generally didn't give a fuck about him or even thanos, like at all..😭 i was really focused on gihun and his whole team. then i forced my bf to rewatch it with me so he could understand all the memes i was saving, and then i randomly stumbled across a fucking tiktok edit about nam-gyu later that same night and then started thinking more abt the crumbs of his backstory we were given, initiating my descent into madness in the span of a day LMAOOO. tiktok edits r so powerful..

more talking about the fic idea + the show in general beloww

also fuckkkk yessss i love emotionally constipated nam-gyu. i often see him depicted as being very verbally direct and open with his feelings, but idk, to me that man seems so guarded and desperate to keep up a certain image that something would really have to drag him to a certain point to get him to actually give in and say some shit. i feel like he'd be more likely to show he gaf through actions rather than words if at all. he has like -100 communication skills, anyways, considering everything that comes out of his mouth is just him being an asshole or like. begging thanos for drugs or something

and yeah i honestly am hoping for some sort of nam-gyu and dae-ho interaction in s3 haha. they're such opposites, it'd be interesting to see what they'd say to each other, especially now that nam-gyu is completely alone and thanos isn't there to bridge the gap between his pathetically timid ass and other people. hopefully i can imagine their interactions somewhat nicely since they've never directly talked to each other

i'll try and see how i can plan out the fic so it doesn't get toooo long. maybe i'll attempt to do a chapter system thing or just abuse the fuck out of time skips. but please feel free to continue sending me any random ideas you have about it! i've also been preparing to grind it out by compiling my list of songs to listen to while im writing it >:)))

ok now don't mind me i'm bout to dump all my show thoughts rq bc u opened the flood gates and i'm thinking about nam-gyu in the canon realm now.. with the next season, a part of me is delusional enough to hope that they give us even a crumb... a fraction of something about nam-gyu's past or at least just a little something more about his character that we don't already know. like omfgggg i just wanna know wtf his outside life is like, his relationships, his family, does that loser have any real friends, what pushed him to be like this and start abusing drugs.... like omfgggg give us somethinggg. JUST ONE FLASHBACK. PLEASEEEE (they literally won't, but i can dream)

one thing i loved so much about season 1 was how we got to see just a little bit deeper into a bunch of the players backstories / outside life after the majority voted to end the games, or at least way more when compared to season 2. like i loved seeing a glimpse of ali confronting his boss and then going home to say goodbye to his wife and baby. made his death hit so much harder. my friend with the dae-ho bias made a comment on how season 2 is always mentioning little details of the characters' pasts but never showing it (and understandably so, that would be wasting screen time and budget for flashbacks that aren't integral to the plot at all, but i mean, i still want it LOL). like wtf i wanna see thanos rapping and forgetting his lyrics in the final round like myung-gi said... i wanna see the day nam-gyu met thanos at the club... i wanna see dae-ho interacting with his big family and his older sisters and find out more about why he's so hesitant to talk about his father... :( s2's cast is just so fun i wanna know all abt them </3

anyways, back to nam-gyu... with how the plot set the drugs up to seem so important, i just feel like his death (or dare i say........... life? 😭😭🙏 please please please) will have to be an "important" one to the plot, or at least somewhat of a high point, like with thanos' death. considering the last we saw of nam-gyu was when he was high out of his mind, murdering people blindly and spiraling like crazy, something big has to happen with him next season. no matter what does end up happening with him next, i feel like it's gotta have something to do with min-su now that they're the last remaining from team thanos. also nam-gyu's entire character is SUCH a death flag but idk. i'm delusional enough to think he could potentially pull through long enough for gi-hun to pull some crazy shit to negotiate for everyone to live idkkkkkkkkkkkkk..... i need him to run out of drugs and freak the fuck out and have someone from team gi-hun to have pity on him so he survives.... who knows i'm just coping

manifest the following with me:

NAM-GYU WILL SURVIVE. THANOS IS ALIVE. SAY IT WITH ME NOW🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️

ALSO AHHHH thank you sooo much for the kindness on my art, i'm glad you enjoy it <333 :') hopefully i can post some more of it; i've been going crazy and imagining animatics i wanna make to random songs and parts of fics that i've read/written to make little mini-comics of, so hopefully i actually get the time / motivation to do them!

[royallygray]

stalked my own bookmarks for this lol

believing in the country of me and you by remrose [E, 10k, 1/1] idk your policy on shipping or nsfw but this is a scarian fic with some smut at some points. it's so heartbreaking and it is a fic that I tend to reread every two weeks or so because it's just so insanely good. the entire series (fireworks exploding in the distance) is just god tier and I cannot with it I love it so much. I named one of my AO3 pseuds after this fic. It explores Grian's issues really well. And it uses repetitive language to tell the story and I just. wjrjwkadhakbnaa. oh yeah also it's mostly canon compliant

closer to another shore by remrose [T, 56k, 15/15] This is again a scarian fic by the same author. Scar and Grian are exes, but Scar has to do this Vex dating ritual thingy that is required and he's really not comfortable doing it with anyone but it's required to appease the council (bastards). So Grian offers and Scar takes him up on it. They figure out more about themselves, how they knew/know each other, and just. they figure some things out. OH ALSO SCAR AND CUB BROTHERS AND THATS ACTUALLY THE BEST PART OF THIS FIC CUB IS AMAZING AND JUST. AGHHH I was there when this was coming out I love it so so so much. You can probably read my frantic comments on this fic lol

this is the death of beauty by weareallstardustfallen [T, 6.6k, 2/2] canon compliant. flower husbands. after session 7, Scott goes to Dogwarts to get Jimmys body. my note on my bookmark is "I feel like I’m crying but tears are not falling down my face" so do with that what you will

stuck in a lonely loop by atomicpixiedust [T, 7.8k, 1/1] sobbing screaming. this is a mumbo and Grian fic in the same world as closer to another shore and it is. one of the funniest lines (either in this fic or this one) that Mumbo is trans and he named himself Mumbo to rhyme with his last name and I died there

Wake the Dead by Kiki_the_kiwi [M, 62.6k, 10/10] I FOUND THE OTHER GOD TIER ONE. I have such a soft spot for time loops it's not even funny. I would marry this fic. Lim Life centered. Martyn centric. It throws you in the first chapter with Scott pov (I got rly excited about this and then the rest was Martyn and I was slightly disappointed but ultimately I love this) and then. minor spoilers bc it literally happens in the first chapter. Scott dies. And then you get yeeted into Martyn's pov and you get to watch as he tries to figure out what to do bc he's the only one that remembers the loop. :)

Chickenman, Hold My Hand by crystalrainwing [M, 30k, 5/5] desert duo. Scar is the menace-iest menace to ever menace. Found family by committing crimes. needst I say more. quite chaotic

Through the Sky-Blue Cracks by Amethystfairy1 [T, a series, 464k, 58/?] okay my brain is dissolving it's 1am but this is important. so. this is a superhero AU (Hotguy/cute guy) and it uses hybrid discrimination to tell half the story. and it's super cool. just. super cool. recommend. ALSO FLOWER HUSBANDS IS SO CUTE IN THIS. THEYRE SO CUTE AND SO AWKWARD AND JUST. I AM NOT NORMAL ABT THEM. it also has scarian and also some other ships and also there's a REALLY lovely soup group episode. I say episode. its a fic

bfop au by @insomnya777 it's superhero smalletho. and gem. rip Joel he's not having a good time. Joel and Etho are complicated af and just. stuff happens. I'm so sorry I am not doing this fic justice. literally cannot believe this god of an author is my moot but y'know. Joel is villain, Etho hero. enemies flirt but ooooh they actually care omg ~problems~

anyways I gotta sleep now so my brain works again

you know what I haven’t seen going around in a while, and could use some of myself? fic recs! so, consider this both a rec and a self-promo post: recommend some fics to me in the reblogs and I’ll reblog your recs! in general, try to include both a summary and why you’re reccing it (whether it’s a self-promo or someone else’s), and let’s get some eyes on fics!

[minkkumaz]

ITS SO WEIRD NOT PUTTING THE ‘ASK ANONYMOUSLY’ BUTTON ON… at one point ill accidentally turn it on i can feel it TT

and yes thats quite literally me!! that was my smile after i saw UR NEW SERIES. YOUR NEW SERIES ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ because pause we need to DISCUSS.

its crazy cause i was literally talking to my friend about danganronpa last saturday.. im not well versed in the game(show???) but i remember watching those silent playthroughs when I was bored.. A bit boring but i love the blue haired mc.. (suichi?? shuichi?? i know his last name was saihara..)

BUT SERIOUSLY RHOUGH 8TURN AND DANGANRONPA?? frothing at the mouth. i’ll literally stay by minho all the way to make sure nobody does something devious..

knowing you,, you’d definitely sneak some yungyu love in there LMAO (not that im complaining bc recently his white hair has been resonating within me.)

i was supposed to be playing valorant w a few friends today.. but i overslept and napped for EIGHT. EIGHT HOURS 😭

so i woke up around 256am. its like 430 now and i have classes starting around 3hrs.. struggling.. BUT VERY EXCITED FOR THE SERIES ^^

(and yes leehan strutting in heels. he’d eat it UP??? he’d make his fish decide which strut looks better too. sungho and riwoo would be peeking at him through a crack in the door, just watching leehan talk to his fish as he demonstrates the way he walks.)

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omg its okay if you put on anon accidentally, its your split personality LOL

MY SERIES! i am extremely well versed in this game, and i have been hyperfixating on it lately so i seriously couldn't help myself ><

i have all of the games, and i also love the blue haired mc!! shuichi saihara! he has always been my favorite i'm constantly hyperfixating on him he's the love of my life since day one!

i cannot confirm nor deny any of your speculations.. but yes some yungyu love will definitely be snuck in because how could i not? he is the love of my life of course :D

no romance as of now but definitely some implied with a mystery member...

EIGHT HOUR NAP?? naps are either super refreshing or make u wanna explode after.. I HOPE YOU GOT SOME GOOD REST THOUGH YOU DESERVE IT! good luck with your classes ><

also u are so funny abt leehan he totally would LMAOO

[thekidsarentalright]

atlas bff i have no idea how i’m gonna get any sleep, holy shit!! i’m so hyped for tomorrow but i’m gonna explode by then i fear 😭 that p2 photo was A Lot by itself and then the caption… they’re just abt ready?? that’s good bc i don’t think any of us are lol

and the calm before the storm hint?!?! oh boy. ohhh boy. i need to lay down. i need to know the setlist Right Now bc not knowing feels like fob has a sniper or smth pointed directly at me lmaooo… if they play calm before the storm or anything surprising i think i’ll like. collapse or smth 😭 and the thing patrick said abt how the tour is gonna be visually different from anything they’ve done before?!? literally WHAT does that mean i’m so scared but so so excited

anyway i’m gonna like… attempt to get some sleep and survive tomorrow lmao pray for me 😅 i’ll def come tell u abt it afterwards!!

(also i hope your final goes well so u can just focus on being in fob mode!)

- 🧋 anon

ahhhhhh omg bestie i wouldn't be able to sleep either if i were you!!!! i'm not even going tomorrow and i'm so excited for it to start and my own show i feel like im gonna struggle to sleep 😭 but no fr that pic was SOOO much already??? and ya good thing they're at least Almost ready bc. god none of us are fjrnf i am so excited and so afraid of whatever they have up their sleeves.....

it feeling like they have a sniper pointed at you w all the setlist possibilities and everything is SO real i feel that way w fob constantly... why are they so scary i just wanna know the setlist and what the show is gonna look like and everything SO badly like what could patrick possibly mean by that 😭 what deep cuts are we gonna get we Need to know 😭 and we will. in less than 24 hours!!!!!! im so excited and scared toofjdkfk esp excited for you and everyone else getting to go tomorrow tho!!!!!

i Hope and Pray ur able to get some sleep fjrkfndk and hope that it is SO much fun, have the time of ur Life at the concert fr, i just know it's gonna be so great and i cant Wait to hear all abt it 💕💕💕