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staycalmandhugaclone · 25 days ago
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My 65Ib malinois keeps gets bullied by our 9Ib cats who keep stealing his food, which their tummies don't like and they then tear through our new apartment spewing it back up in the hardest to reach places...
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He's a cute little shit at least
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oiblackestsheep · 3 months ago
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what, in your opinion, are an intp’s needs in a relationship? (coming from an infj.) love your blog, you’ve got some amazing insights 🫶
Aww, thanks INFJ anon. 🫶 I try my best to have interesting insights that bring something fresh to the table!
INTP's Needs in a Relationship
I've been in the same relationship for 8.5 years (and we actually MET ON TUMBLR BECAUSE OF THIS BLOG WHICH IS SO FUNNY AND NERDY), all of this to say, I've had a lot of time to think about my relationship needs even from the MBTI perspective as an INTP, because that was how my ENFJ and I kinda started out getting to know, like, what we each needed from each other, so, here we go!
Disclaimer: This is assuming that the INTP is already getting everything that everyone needs in a basic healthy relationship like, you know, feeling emotionally safe and being treated with respect, etc..
Intellectual stimulation: INTPs generally love understanding new things and how they work, so ideally their partner can share that interest with them in some way! They can be pretty curious people, so joining them in their quest for uncovering the "how" and "why" of everything will make them feel understood, themselves, and closer to you in the process!
Clear explanations of your feelings: Because INTPs have inferior Fe, they tend to have a habit of intellectualizing their own emotions when they talk about them, which can cause complications with understanding other people's emotions, too. Finding a way to be patient and know that even healthy INTPs might still struggle with connecting with other people's emotions (especially at first in a relationship) isn't necessarily because they don't want to, but more that it doesn't always come naturally, so they don't always know how to. If they're a healthy person, they will want to understand, just try not to take it personally while they are practicing/learning!
Alone time: This one should be pretty straight-forward lmao. They're introverted, so they like to recharge doing solo-activities, and they're intuitives, so they have their own little theoretical world full of bizarre ideas to entertain themselves with that might not always be easy to follow at first. I find that introverts in general (maybe the INxx types even moreso) like to engage in parallel play where their partner also does something quietly nearby, but still a separate activity. As an INFJ, yourself, I'm sure you can relate in your own way, so it's likely easy to give them what they need!
Humor them/hear them out: This might sound a little vague, and I guess in some ways it is, but this is mostly about their auxiliary Ne. ENTPs and ENFPs get most of the attention when it comes to high Ne, but INTPs (and INFPs, too!) place a lot of importance on it, too, which can often manifest itself in conversations like "what if __", "imagine if __", etc.. To put it bluntly, it might seem a bit... directionless, and that's because sometimes it kind of is! It's just about thinking of random possibilities that are non-serious and funny in the moment, and don't really go anywhere else outside of the current discussion or hold any larger, overarching significance. Sometimes it's less about the actual topic itself, and more about having some random fun and "playing along" that makes a world of a difference to a playful INTP (or high Ne user in general). This point got away from me a little bit which I think, in a way, is the perfect exemplification of what I was trying to say in the first place, lmao. Hope that makes sense! If your INTP ever sounds like whatever the hell I just said, just try not to disengage right away, because they probably have a point that they are struggling to reach. Put that dom Ni to work and summarize it for them, I know you can do it from experience with my own ENFJ lmao.
Anyway, uhhhhh: Every single point on this list has gotten progressively longer because my Ne loves extrapolating (and I love Ne, but sometimes its gotta CHILL you know?), so I'm gonna end it here before it gets WILDLY OUT OF CONTROL.
This was a fun question, anon!: Thanks again for reaching out, and basically giving me full range to just write multiple paragraphs about myself and my relationship!
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palespawn · 3 months ago
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MUN MONDAY THURSDAY: GETTING TO KNOW YOU
respond to the following prompts out of character, then tag others you'd like to get to know a little bit better.
roleplayer name: courtney roleplayer pronouns: she/her muse name: astarion ancunín
preferred communication: i say discord, but i'm terrible at keeping up with communication anywhere you find me. a lot of the time i read messages and think i've replied when i haven't 💀
experience: i don't remember what year i started writing but i know it's been more than a decade, damn. i've been all over the shop, from disney to star wars to marvel, where i was for a long time and i took a break when life got busy, tried a multi muse half a dozen times, the witcher, briefly dabbled in asoiaf, and then the animanga & final fantasy rpc leading up to astarion's debut ✨
preferred roleplay type: it really depends but i'm a waffler so i do prefer at least one paragraph. i like a mix of dialogue and descriptive writing, so i suck at one-liners. if we're talking genres, i'm not overly picky but i find conflict and dynamic exploration the most interesting to write. despite absolutely loving slice of life in media, i struggle to maintain interest in actually writing it out for an extended period.
pet peeves & dealbreakers: i guess breaking general rp etiquette, guilt-tripping or vague posts of course, particularly in regards to activity or engagement.
plot or memes: honestly, i'm better with memes. i can struggle to come up with plot ideas right off the bat, so memes help get the braincells going and writing juices flowing. i also find it can be a nice ice breaker if we're new mutuals!
long replies or short replies: i do prefer long replies so long as there's context and purpose, if that makes sense. i'm not going to give you five paragraphs of nothing to work with or try not to.
best time to write: i am mostly available on weekends, but the best time for me to write overall is at night. if i have the day off, i will find something else to do until then, unless i'm overloaded with muse inspo. however, overall, i'm trying to not place so much pressure on myself to be constantly dishing out replies and it's helped with keeping a hold of his muse tbfh.
are you like your muse?: i definitely think we have some similarities. i can take a little while to honestly open up to people or just drop bits of personal lore at random times lmao. i do have my own stuff that i'm working through, so i can have moments where i distance myself from people i care about. it's like tunnel vision, so i can hyperfixate on something and neglect other aspects of my life both online and offline. i can also lean into humor or sarcasm in situations i'm uncomfortable in ( ˶˘ ³˘˵)♡
tagged by: sacredflorist 🤍 tagging: @sarastuss , @darkrelic , @dekarsus , @fjaorhamr , @vydmak + anyone else who's interested!
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arklayraven · 2 years ago
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I'm gonna answer this in parts, since it's a lot I'm writing out I'm noticing. lol But this is already turning out fun to work on! Thank you, anon! 💖
Starting off with the first introduced units of Paralive, like Bae, TCW, etc in order. Also I am gonna set this up like the demon brothers were sent into the Paralive universe separated from each other at first. And then they were found and taken in by the teams they are in now and that's how they ended up joining them.
Asmo joining Bae
It was in the very job Anne was working at that they met Asmo first. He wasn't taking the whole "being separated from his brothers and sent into a new realm" fact too hard and seriously right now. Especially since he decided to take this time to have some fun in the clubs around. And Club CANDY just happened to be the one to draw him in and seem the most fun.
Typical of Asmo, he instantly drew in a crowd of new adoring fans, and was having a fun time there. Though this was causing a problem when it comes to business there at the club, and Anne had to step in to deal with the situation.
Now Asmo thought he could just charm his way out of any situation of course. But this was Anne were are talking about here. They were a charmer themself, and usually got what they wanted in the end by how determined they could get.
So in a rare turn of events, Asmo's charm failed to effect Anne the way he wanted. So he decided to leave the club since the party was "ruined" in his words and took some of this adoring fans with him.
Fast forward to the next day. Hajun will find Asmo struggling with a vending machine outside, and trying sweet talk it to work but to no avail.
"HMPH! FINE! YOUR PRODUCTS SUCK ANYWAY!" Asmo will kick the machine once and then mutter a swear under his breath, because that kick accidentally hurt himself.
Hajun would see Asmo amusing already as is and quickly will approach him to tease him for fun. "I hear if you actually take it out for dinner first, then you'll get the rewards you want~" He chuckles, but Asmo finds no humor in this as he pouts and crosses his arms.
"This isn't funny! I spent my last change on it...If only those cute people last night gave me more to use and spend..." Asmo sighs "How did I even get into this mess?...At first it was fine, but now a whole day has passed and I have yet to see any of them and I don't have anywhere to stay..."
Hajun raises a brow and stares at him for a moment. Seeing the clear frown on his face and tears building up in his eyes...Hajun knew well how it felt to find yourself suddenly alone in the world too personally. But lucky for him, he had money, and friends, to help support him from that moment to now.
"Them?" Hajun asked with some hope to pry more information from Asmo.
"My brothers...I'm sure they are around here too but have yet to see any of them. Which is odd. Since they usually make themselves known pretty fast. Especially Mammon..." Asmo only kept frowning, looking more sadder by the minute.
"Ah...Perhaps they are busy sight seeing. The is a large place after all." Hajun tried to give some reassurance but worried the worst might of happened...People do go missing around here often after all...
"Maybe..." Asmo sighs, rubbing his eyes a little to clear up the tears before they fell.
There's was a short pause between the two, then finally Hajun broke the silence first.
"Anyway...If you need a place to stay just until you can find your brothers. You can stay with me and my friends, I'm sure they will understand and be fine with until once I explain what's going on. However you're following my rules there, understood?"
Asmo's eyes widened with shock but joy to hear that. "Really?! Oh! Thank you! And mhm! Understood! Oh! I'm Asmodeus, by the way~"
"...Asmodeus?...That's a very interesting name...I guess your family loved that demon's name enough to give it to you huh?" Hajun's smirk made Asmo smile. He already knew he was going to like him lots.
Asmo giggles, not revealing he is in fact the real Asmodeus yet. "You could say that~"
"Hmm...Well I'm Hajun Yeon. It's a pleasure to meet you, Asmodeus~."
Fast forward to a half hour walk back to Bae place of residence. Then instantly Anne is like "YOU?! WHAT IS HE DOING HERE?!!" when they see Asmo in their home.
"Ah...You know each other?" Hajun says with a curious gaze.
"Know him?! He was a issue last night in the club!" Anne sighs and glares at Asmo. "Honestly I had to work extra hard afterwards after he finally left!"
"Aww I'm sorry. But it was a club. So I should of been allowed to have as much as I wanted with my fans as long as I was paying. Than have the fun and party ruined by someone jealous I was hogging up all the attention~."
"WHAT?!"
Hajun let out a small snicker, already not regretting bringing in Asmodeus here.
"Uh...Why is there so much yelling happening? It's hard to focus writing our new song with this much noise." Allen finally shows up, coming out of his room, which Asmo instantly is fixed on him and what he just said.
"You're writing a song?! Wait, he said "our". Oh my gosh! Are you all singers?!" Asmo's voice raises with excitement.
"Wait...You literally don't recognize us?" Anne said with a annoyed tone and confused expression.
"Recognize you? Should I?" Asmo smiles, clearly oblivious to the fact who these three before him were.
"Hmm...You're not truly from around here after all then, are you, Asmodeus?" Hajun finally added, finally believing this was in fact the real demon himself.
"Asmodeus? Isn't that the name of that demon of...uh..." Allen trails off, trying to figure out which sin Asmodeus is.
"Lust...The demon of lust...But there's no way you're--" Anne is clearly in disbelief.
"Mhm! I am~!" Asmo smiles brightly, as everyone just stares at him in silence for a moment.
"...No fucking way." Anne, now is in denial over this possible fact.
"That could explain the sudden chaos in Club CANDY for you, Anne." Hajun is finding much entertainment from this news and turn of events.
"YOU CAN'T BE SERIOUS! I HAD MY NIGHT RUINED BY A ACTUAL LUST DEMON?!" Anne turns around and is now in a fit of rage over this all.
"..." Allen just stares at Asmodeus.
"ALLEN! SAY SOMETHING!" Anne shouts at Allen, demanding he does and says something to fix this or rid of the problem.
Allen walks over to Asmodeus finally and looks him in the eyes. "I have a important question...Well two actually. First, can you sing?...Second, how do you feel about hip-hop?"
The questions take Asmo off guard but he answers them. "Sing? I can, I mean I'm the best singer in my family I feel~. And uh hip-hop?...It's alright...I'm more into glam rock though..."
Allen's eyes instantly widen and sparkle with excitement. "LET'S WRITE A SONG TOGETHER!"
"Haha W-what?" Asmo is very taken off guard now by his words, and just stares at Allen.
"ALLEN!" Anne regrets ever asking Allen to say or do anything now.
Hajun lets out a laugh, while Anne is yelling at him to stop.
Anyway, after some needed introductions, and Asmo coming clean on who he is, and where he comes from. And still having Allen determined to write a song together now...Asmo ended up staying with Bae for a bit until he found his brothers.
Though even after he found them. By that time, he started to bond with Allen, Anne and Hajun after they all finally got to know each other better. And once Anne finally found middle ground with Asmo, and realized just how much they both have in common when it comes to beauty and fashion. They practically became inseparable now.
But staying with Bae didn't come free obviously, so Asmo had to get a job somewhere. So what better place than with Anne in Club CANDY...Right? lol
...Cue a week or two later after Asmo finally is working there with Anne. He finally finds Mammon and Beel. Who surprise, were taken in by the owner of that very club. What a coincidence. This only helped Asmo in the long run in finding a place to truly stay now, while staying close with his brothers.
Also Allen, after much talks with Hajun and Anne, finally convinces them to let Asmo join their team. Especially by how well Asmo fits in their songs and performances they noticed. Bae feels even more confident on winning the next upcoming competition with Asmo in their team now.
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nordplasma · 5 months ago
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"Loneliness Epidemic" and Plants
I've been on a new medication recently that's periodically blocked my ability to feel anything other than the passage of time. It's led to some really interesting character ideas and creature designs like the time beast. But it also has left me feeling a strange, apathetic bereavement.
This is my first day off of it. Fortunately it's a safe medication to stop cold-turkey. And I'm realizing how lonely I feel. Many of the people I've attempted to become friends with since moving back home are unable to talk about feelings. Or rather, unable to listen and respond to someone else's feelings, and that fact is very painful. My friends from high school, we worked hard to build relationships between each other that balanced the fun and humor we loved and the willingness to be serious to listen openly and discuss things. We debated a lot about unimportant topics we were passionate about and still loved each other. The reason I'm still in contact and deeply in love with my friends from then today is because of the work we put into those relationships.
I tried to make friends in a similar manner at my first college, an over-priced private liberal arts joint, with a much higher rate of mixed success. The pandemic obviously fucked everything up. The foundation I had started to build, living as the person I want to be and making friends as that person feels... I don't want to believe it was destroyed but it was certainly fractured. When I came back to school following a gap year and a semester abroad, I felt completely lost. I had started building roots with other people when I left, and by the time I returned I felt as if everyone had grown into tall shoots without me. I didn't know how to fit, or who I had been when they had liked me. I was trying to find the exact hole in the earth I had been plucked from and grown the way I would have grown if I had never left. I can see how futile this was looking back, but at the time, I felt sick in the presence of my peers. Physically nauseous and dizzy like I had done too many somersaults in the pool.
Now, two years, a cross country move, and a school transfer later. I still feel dizzy. I still feel sick and all the people I love have already moved out all over the country. It feels like the safety of the experiment of being myself is gone. Like there will never be anywhere on earth where I will or can feel safe trying to actually be myself. Trying to just be and be forgiven, cared for, tended to. This obviously also has to do with the fact that my mother also fervently rejected my coming out as trans two years ago and cannot make moves to reconnect with me. This, and the fact that the people I'm meeting now are dissapointing me in ways I haven't expressed leaves me feeling sick. Not sick of me per se but certainly sick of who I pretend to be to bare the world around me.
I know this is connected to my Blackness, my transness, and my maleness. What I am struggling against is what I struggled against in high school, middle school, and honestly throughout my childhood and life. How can I be a person when I live in places that do not want me to be? How do I become my self when the world cannot see the self I am? At first I was too Black, because I wasn't White. Then i wasn't Black enough because I didn't fit my non-Black peers idea of Blackness. Funnily enough I wasn't girl, but I was effeminate. Finding out who I am has to be a partially solitary experience by necessity of my being, it feels like. And now that my peers live all over the world in disparate locations there is no one space for me to figure out who I am for a while. I think that's the space I'm looking for but it doesn't, it can't exist externally at this time. Which doesn't feel fair, and does feel scary. Holding the love of people so far apart and away is hard and its hard accepting external loneliness for internal peace.
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revoltinggirl-urethra · 10 months ago
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growing pains are an interesting thing to consider, especially since i've always been a bit of a late bloomer. and i don't mean the literal kind necessarily, moreso the emotional and social sides. sure, the first puberty results in a ton of new physical sensations and shifts, but you can also see a grander sense of self arise as well. except middle schoolers don't quite have the practice at being a capital p Person yet that comes from years of having this social awareness under their belts. so they're bumbling, awkward, brash, shy, and so on.
i am going to do my best not to ramble too much. each time i go to start a new sentence i think of three things i want to say simultaneously and its resulted in a number of meandering paragraphs with no purpose (like this one ;p). i trust anyone who reads this (if anyone even does (not that it really matters)) to be able to do so without my millions upon millions of disclaimers and elaborations and vain efforts to contain the entire scope of my thoughts as well as their infinite addendums that strive to acknowledge the depth of discussion that i am not engaging with, because if i didn't allow myself to just fucking say the thing i would be here typing until the heat death of the universe. holy fucking shit dude that's all only three sentences. physically restraining myself from deleting that entire post-intro preamble and MOVING ON
so. i was a late bloomer. i've always struggled with this. the people around me seem to move through life at a pace i'm not quite capable of. i remember anxiously waiting for hair to finally start growing on my body years after my friends had fallen prey to voice cracks and gangly growth spurts. between this and my short and scrawny body i've always had a bit of a complex about my masculinity. it felt like something that others found very natural and yet i was constantly having to work to maintain mine. i once got very upset at a girlfriend who would not stop calling me cute. i wanted to be handsome, i wanted to be hot, i wanted to be desirable and respected as a Man. cuteness reeked of femininity and emasculation, of a debasement that felt awfully validating of my inkling that my grasp on manhood was tenuous at best. it's bad enough to think it, but now other people thought it too, and worse, they Liked it
as i got older i approached this issue by carving out a niche into masculinity that felt more comfortable for me, as opposed to trying to live up to an ideal that i didn't fit into. i began taking pride in looking bad. i grew out my facial hair despite being very aware that it was sparse and scraggly and unseemly, clad myself in garish, loud and clashing clothing, and played up my voice cracks for comedy. being me became a comedy performance, and it was around then that i think my fixation on finding social acceptance through humor really blossomed. i found that if i discarded my shame and made myself a spectacle purposefully, it became a kind of confidence that many people were attracted to.
this isn't to say that i didn't find genuine happiness in these things, whatever "genuine" means in this context. making people laugh made me very happy! it's satisfying, and almost nothing on this earth compares to a strong audience reaction to a piece that is honed as closely to perfection as possible. i took to theater like a fish to water because i think that i carried that infamous fourth wall with me anywhere i went. i was content to plop it down wherever and whenever i felt and make myself into a kind of show. behold!! an iconographic class clown, the ever-watched ADHD wonderboy! David himself is democratically constructed in the purest fashion! go ahead dear audience member, cast your vote with nothing but a laugh, and see as your pleasure becomes flesh manifest.
i'm getting pretentious. i'll back off it a little. the point is that i've spent a very long time struggling incredibly hard to figure out who the fuck i even am. i am obsessed no longer with an ideal of masculinity for my fixation is now one on an ideal of the self. as i say that i think that they are the same hunt, merely with different labels. it just so happens that i've found masculinity no longer essential to defining who i am as a person.
my egg cracking feels very similar to that middle school awkwardness. i can see in my younger brother, who is about that age now where he has begun to conceptualize the world in firmer terms than however the fuck a four year old does it. i watch him fumble about and play at a burgeoning sense of style (inspired by the perceived men around him, including me, funnily enough. i've lent him shirts and accessories of mine a number of times now) as well as dig deeper into what he wants out of life at large. his future career is no longer a mild dream but a goal to be worked towards, and with that comes both self-actualization and the growing need to define a goal to fulfill.
i also am going through the hell of puberty once again, even though the hormones haven't come yet (working on that though, fingers crossed on my HRT consultation going well and my anxiety not making me shit myself to death about it all). but even then, isn't that the norm for me? to experience that social awakening and then have to wait for my body to catch up? i'm a bit of an old hand at this song and dance, which one would hope means i'm more adept at it than otherwise. that doesn't really seem to be the case, however, hence the growing pains in question. i've become once more painfully conscious of my body and voice and self and expression and the way that the world interprets all of that and paints a picture of me in response.
it's.... harder now, even. maybe that thought is born of the distance between the me now and the me who yearned to be a proper Man, but in this case i am striving to break out of both that masculine box and the box that i've constructed myself independently to cope with it. there's a russian doll of eggs to crack here and they only become more intimate and raw and tender as i make more progress. instead of this threshold crossing becoming one in which discomfort is assuaged by the crafting of a persona, it is one in which i escape the comfort of falsehood and attempt to come down from my stage and be "me". how terrifying! what does that even mean!
there's a concern in the back of my mind now. one that wonders if chasing femininity now is not just another side step into a box. even now, on the eve of being twenty years old, i have not really figured out what it means to be content or happy with something. it's hard for me to conceptualize joy and to recognize it as it happens. or perhaps i can recognize it, but acknowledging it is what is hard. because it is true and real and things that are true and real are a little foreign to me. i'm making strides to remove the performative filter and in doing so exposing myself to a world of sensations, and well, it's overwhelming.
it would be easier to stop. it would be easier to sink back into this role and play the part of David the Man.
but just as much as i hope becoming Lily will be "good" for me, i must consider that remaining David will be "bad".
it's aggravating that there is no real way to quantify this, but that's just sort of how the cookie crumbles i guess.
but for now i am Lily. my name is Lily. my friends and family all call me Lily. i am a girl, even if i don't look the part yet, even if the painting that the world constructs based on the input i give it contradicts this idea. because that painting has always been wrong anyways. it's always been subject to my own manipulations and i am well within my power to separate my Self from it, because that's how it's always been anyways.
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magentagalaxies · 2 years ago
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that story concept sounds fucking awesome in every version and i'm so excited to see it!!
also i'm definitely gonna check out daniel sloss soon bc that sounds awesome. another comedian who i think does genuinely edgy comedy in a great way similar in spirit to kith is chris gethard. everything he makes has this punk energy to it but in a way that's less about being needlessly offensive and more about celebrating the people society deems as weirdos and outcasts and purposefully trying to break the conventions of typical comedy formats. my favorite thing he's done is "the chris gethard show" which tbh the more i think about it the more i'm realizing is very similar in energy to kids in the hall. it's not a sketch show, it's a "late night talk show" but at every turn it rejects the kind of showbiz hierarchy of celebrity and instead invites its audience to participate as much as possible and tries to get its guests to embrace the side of themselves they typically wouldn't promote on mainstream television. honestly i wouldn't be surprised if chris gethard has kith as an inspiration with how offbeat some of these bits are (the "human fish" character in particular kind of reminds me of bellini being a background character in the original kith series). if you're interested in watching it the first two seasons are fully on youtube for free, along with hundreds of episodes from when the show was on a local public access station before it was picked up by an actual network
(y'know, the more i think about this the more similarities i find. the chris gethard show started out on new york city's public access station, which is a taxpayer funded tv station where they could get away with pretty much whatever they wanted because it would have a very niche viewer base. maybe i just need to get the government to pay for my punk comedy and then i'll be all set!)
but beyond that show, chris gethard also does a lot of standup as well, including the comedy special "career suicide" which basically recounts his mental health journey and his struggles with suicidal ideation with humor that doesn't detract from the severity of the events but instead provides an element of hope to these stories since humor can be found anywhere. it's one of my favorite standup specials of all time and has really helped me when i needed it most and i definitely recommend checking it out
feeling the buddy cole brainrot today i just wanna infodump about him and research him so much thank god i'm getting academic credit for this next semester
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randomshyperson · 3 years ago
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The Scarlet Witch Prophecy - Chapter 10 - The Fifth Year (Part Four)
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Summary: As the youngest daughter of Howard Stark, you have ordinary expectations for your years at Hogwarts. Little do you know what adventures await you when your destiny is intertwined with the legendary Scarlet Witch.
Warnings: +16. Adaptation of the Harry Potter Saga, Magical Thematic, Prophecies, Mentions of Violence, Torture and dark magic, Language (swearing and minor/major offenses), manipulation of will, Underage kissing, insinuation of smut with minors, Smut (overage), descriptions of death, aggression, obscurity, angst, fluffy, soulmates analogies. Chapter Warnings: Dark magic, violence, magical torture.
A/N> I really hope i don't put this fic into another hiatus, but i got a feeling i will. The only I can promise is to finish it. Hope you all like this chapter.
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Part X - The Fifth Year (Part Four)
You walk beside Headmistress Harkness in silence, deeper into the dungeons of the castle.
She leads you to a wooden door, and then you enter a large stone room, which you imagine to be an office for the study of ancient runes, as you notice the symbols around the room, carved into the rocks and the corners of the walls.
"Professor, what did we come here for?" You ask with your arms folded across your chest, feeling your body shiver slightly at the creepy atmosphere in the room.
"I am going to help you reach your true potential, Miss Stark." She declares simply and waves her wand.
You feel your body being pushed until you are in the center of the room, your arms uncrossing and stretching out at your body's side, but soon there are thick iron chains conjured around your ankles and wrists.
Letting out a surprised exclamation, you look at Harkness in fear, but she is muttering softly, and walking around while touching the runes with her wand, and the symbols light up a purple glow one by one.
"Professor, what's going on?" You question trying to struggle against the chains, which seem to get tighter with each movement. You let out a grunt of pain.
"Stop fighting." She orders as she turns to you, her gaze assessing your face. "It's almost time, it will be painful if you resist."
"What are you talking about?"
But Agatha didn't answer and walked back behind you. You deduced that she was touching the runes on the walls at your back, because you could hear the rustling on the rocks, and then she came back into your field of vision.
She rummaged through her pockets, and pulled out a small watch.
"Now, now, you're almost late." She remarks, and looks back at you with a little smile. "I bet Erik asked about Pietro."
You frowned, but Agatha looked away, moving to the cabinet in the corner of the room. She returned with four candles in her hands, and deposited them around you.
You watched her use her wand to make the candles stand perfectly still in the four corners, and then light itself. You felt your heart race. Agatha was going to do a ritual with you. Of what exactly you had no idea. And judging by the events, it couldn't be good.
"Professor..."
"Quiet." She interrupts earnestly, one finger raised in the air while she looks back at the clock. You wriggle uncomfortably, and it takes only a moment for Agatha to let out a sigh and turn to you. "Let's get started."
You were about to ask again, but Agatha raises her wand toward you and mutters words you don't recognize.
Your vision dims for a second and then you think you are having another vision, but you cannot understand exactly what it is.
It looks like the nightmares you had with Mephisto, but everything is quieter. You can only hear your own footsteps, but it is as if you were walking on water.
The shelves in the ministry are completely empty, and the image is dull.
This time you are not looking for something. You are calling out to someone.
You walk and you walk, and then you come to the center of a room. And you choke when you see yourself.
But your face is completely bloodied, and you are whimpering in pain.
"I found you." The voice is Mephisto's, but you don't see him anywhere. Your bruised self is dying, and you begin to feel desperate, but when you try to scream for help, what comes out are the words. "Where is it? Find it for me!"
"I don't know." Your self whines. "And if I did know I wouldn't tell you."
"Filthy half-blood!" The voice that is your accuses, and then there is a red light and your bruised self screams in pain. It is the cruciatus curse, and it only stops after a moment. "I have no time for your lies. I'll end it at once."
You gasp and are back in Agatha's room, falling to your knees.
"What was that?" You manage to ask as you try to calm your breathing, grumbling in pain as you realize that the sudden movement has made the chains hurt your wrists.
"That was just what it took to get Wanda away from the castle." Agatha replies as she lowers her wand. You frown in confusion, but the woman is getting closer. She makes a motion with her hands and you feel a sharp pain on the tip of your forehead, and you grumble.
A little blood trickles down her face, but it doesn't hurt that much, and you figure it's just a small cut. Ancient runes are not your specialty, but it's not hard to imagine that she just drew one on your skin.
"What do you want from me, professor?" You ask half breathlessly, feeling your body weak. Agatha is muttering some incantations, and you feel as if your energy is slowly being drained away.
When she stops, you can barely keep your eyes open.
"Now we will wait a little while, dear." She says as she kneels in front of the candled square she created. "Wanda needs time to get to the ministry."
You shook your head, feeling your vision go blurry and your mouth go dry. Agatha sighed before she stood up, and you were surprised that she brought you water.
"I don't want you to collapse now, we're not even halfway through it." She declared as she forced the small bottle against your lips. You grumbled, but she held your chin tightly and forced you to drink.
It wasn't water, but it didn't taste bad.
"There you go, drink it all." She guided and only when the item was empty she pulled away. With a flick of her fingers, the bottle disappeared and you gasped as you felt a wave of heat pass through your entire body.
It was a potion of vigor, and although confused and frightened, you had no physical discomfort.
"What did you do to me?" You questioned between teeth. Agatha moved around the room, grabbing one of the books from the bookshelf. She muttered something about making sure she was doing everything right, before she stopped standing in front of you.
"Isn't it obvious, my dear?" She retorted with debauchery. "And I thought you would be smarter, but perhaps the hat was wrong."
Agatha crouched down again, and put the book down on the floor in front of you. You looked down to notice that it was open on a page that contained a map of England.
Before you could ask, she was forcing your head down, and you grunted in pain. When your blood dripped onto the paper, she let go.
"Thank you, dear." She declared without looking at you. "Now let's find out how close they are."
You gasp in surprise when your blood moves on the paper, circling around the lines of the map. Agatha makes a noise with her mouth in contentment.
"Ah, judging by the speed, I'm sure they used the thestrals." She comments. "I suppose Miss Quinn joined the quest in the end."
You look at the professor with confusion, but she is already raising her fingers to your forehead.
"Let's take a peek." She declaims, and you feel your skin burn where she touches it. Your vision dims for a second before you see the sky.
You are mounted on something, and you look around to see all your friends mounted on thestrals, flying beside you. You want to ask what is going on, but soon realize that you are just watching.
"Are we far away?" Gamora asks beside you.
"No! Just a few more minutes." It is Tony who answers from the front horse. He looks upset, all of them do in fact.
You want to shout to ask, but your vision dims and you are back on your feet.
Agatha lets out an impatient sigh as you pant in pain, trying to understand exactly what is going on.
"It's a pity." She mumbles to herself and you force yourself to ask.
"What is it?"
"Mephisto takes no prisoners, Miss Stark." She replies. "I hadn't expected your friends to interfere, it's really a pity. Perhaps you should already pick out a dress for the memorial ceremony."
"What are you talking about?"
"In reality it's your fault of course." She declares with a mischievous giggle and you stare at her in confusion. Agatha sighs humorously, as if what she is telling you is obvious. "Silly girl, the cloak of course! The legendary invisibility cloak that you lent to your dear brother."
"What?"
Agatha rolled her eyes.
"It's not funny when you don't know what I'm talking about." She commented impatiently and leaned against one of the pillars of the hall, her arms crossed. "But I think we have time until they reach the ministry, so let's talk a little."
You think the effect of the potion is wearing off too quickly, but you force yourself to keep your gaze on Agatha.
"The story is much simpler than you might imagine, of course." She begins. "I needed to find a way to help Wanda unleash her power completely, and you were the solution to all my problems." She says with a nostalgic chuckle, and you look at her wide-eyed.
Your vision is darkening again, and Agatha notices by your tired expression, so she lets out a laughing exclamation and moves around the room. When she returns, there is a wooden compartment in her arms, which she lays on the floor. You notice the dozens of small glass jars, and she forces you to drink another one.
"Dear, Dear, there you go. There's no reason to look so pale, you just need a little encouragement." She smiles at her own pun, and you move your head to push her touch away, making her laugh before turning away.
"Where was I? "Oh yes, in the beginning." She asks rhetorically, her posture amused. "I'm going to assume that Erik told you about the nature of Wanda's powers, dear, it would be sad to know that he didn't after so much."
"He did." You grumble and Agatha smiles.
"Oh, great." She says. "Well, of course he said what I told him, of course. But he couldn't know everything. He wouldn't approve of my methods. As a father and as a wizard I suppose."
You sighed lightly, your body was shaking, like a fever, but the potion was keeping you pain-free.
"Professor..."
"Don't interrupt!" She cuts off quickly, but her tone is amused. "What an education you've been giving at Hufflepuff, my goodness. Maybe the hat should have sent you to Gryffindor, you would have learned better about manners."
You clenched your jaw and Agatha giggled a little before continuing.
"I told Erik that you two should stay apart, and he bought that story like the fool he always was." She comments with amusement and you feel your stomach sink.
"Was it you?"
"Don't make that face, honey." She says. "I couldn't risk you getting in my way."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
Agatha sighs impatiently.
"Your bond, Miss Stark!" she retorts as if it were obvious, "I needed to shape Wanda's progress according to my agenda. If you were around her, you could develop the bond and your abilities would be a problem."
You looked at her with confusion and Agatha took another look at the map before looking back at you.
"They are arriving, shall we take another peek?"
"Tell me what you want to say!" You ask, but the witch just ignores you while touching your forehead again. You gasp in pain, but this vision is quicker.
You see a dark concrete, and a tall door. And then Agatha brings you back.
"Great, they're at the ministry." She mumbles as she releases you, you gasp helplessly, your head weighing down. But Agatha brings another vial of potion to your lips. "This is going to get a lot worse before it gets better I'm sorry to say, Miss."
You motion for her to take the bottle from your lips, but she insists that you drink it all and only backs away when you do.
"What do you know about my bond with Wanda?" You question next, feeling the elixir kick in again.
"Everything." She states simply and you look at her. "How it was made, how to break it and how to improve it."
Agatha draws her wand toward you again and you widen your eyes.
"Let's make sure she remembers why she''s there, dear." She speaks before bewitching you.
You watch yourself being tortured again, but now the shelves are full.
When you return, you fall flat on your face on the floor.
Agatha approaches with a grimace, pulling your hair to make you look at her again, and you grunt in pain.
"Do you need another potion or can you stay awake?" She asks.
"Fuck you."
Agatha laughed and let go of your hair, you managed to keep your head away from the floor by millimeters.
"I'm being so nice and you so badly behaved."
"You chained me to the ground." You retort with indignation.
Agatha rolls her eyes, crossing her arms as she leans against the pillar again.
"This is only to keep you from disappearing." She comments causing you to raise your eyebrows. "Oh, right, I forgot that you have no idea what I'm talking about."
You grumble in pain, but don't interrupt.
"As I was saying, I know all about your magical bonding, dear." She says. "It took some time, but I managed to figure it all out. And that's exactly why I kept you away from Wanda this year."
"Why?"
"Because I want Wanda's magic for myself, of course."
You let out an exclamation of surprise and anger, but before you could say anything else, your body tensed all at once, and you felt your heart soar as if it were racing.
"W-what's happening?" You muttered in confusion, feeling the adrenaline wake up your senses. Agatha looked at you intently, moving away from the pillar to look at you more closely. She touched the side of your faces, assessing you.
"You can feel the danger she is in can't you?" She asked with fascination in her voice and gaze. You gasped, feeling the room getting smaller. "It is absolutely magnificent to witness such power."
"What did you do?" you ask with difficulty. "Where is Wanda?"
Agatha laughs as she walks away. She moves around the room again and you think she is going to go back to her original position, but she makes a motion with her hands and floats in the air. She sits down with her legs crossed and stands at the same height as you.
"Sorry, Miss Stark." She says with her palms up and lying in the air. "We've reached the part where it's going to become very painful."
The candles around you float at head height, and the flames light up, but they are blue. You also notice the runes glowing on the walls.
"Please." You plead but Agatha doesn't answer you, all she says are words in a language you don't recognize.
When she falls silent, you wait for the pain to come, but all is quiet.
"It's done." She announces with a sigh.
"What's done?"
"Now she can become a scarlet witch for good."
"Professor what..."
But your voice dies in your throat as you feel a sharp pang in your chest and gasp breathlessly. A whistle hissing in your ear, and a sharp pain takes over your entire body in the next second.
You don't need much to deduce that Wanda is suffering.
"Stop it!" You beg as you hug your own body, feeling your skin burn. "Please stop hurting her!"
"Focus, Stark." You hear Agatha's voice in your head. It's hard to push through the pain to pay attention.
"Let me go!" You plead but you have the impression that it is only in your thoughts. You know that your body is screaming in pain. "Let me save her! Wanda!"
"Pay attention, girl!" It's Agatha again. "You never needed to be with her to protect her. Concentrate. Don't let her get hurt."
Agatha's sentence echoes in your head for many minutes, until her voice replaces the pain.
You open your eyes, but cannot see the room. There is a golden light all around you, and it takes a moment to realize that it is your hands and eyes that are glowing.
"What?" you gasp in confusion but your body is shaking again and you can taste blood in your mouth.
"Not yet, honey." Agatha says and you realize she is still in the room. You blink, trying to see her, but all you can see is the light. You can barely feel the chains, but they are still on your wrists. "Just a little longer. He needs to use the curse."
"Professor, what's going on?" You try but there is no answer. The pain returns and your body hangs forward, but you rest your hands on the floor, panting. "Please help me."
"Help yourself." Says the woman. "What will make the pain stop?"
"Wanda." The answer escapes in a sigh and you can barely keep your eyes open.
"Then go to her."
And then your vision dims.
You think you are falling into a portal key, because it feels the same. But you land before reaching the ground.
Everything is muffled, and you look around to see spell lights.
You see your friends dueling wizards you don't recognize, in a place you know as the Ministry of Magic.
You know because it is like your childhood memories, on the rare occasions when you were with Tony and your father in search of some package.
But it's empty now, except for the wizards fighting.
Your friends are losing, you know by the way the masked men are surrounding everyone in the corner.
But you're not looking for that.
Your attention is on the girl in the center, the bright red light surrounding her hands.
Your body immediately relaxes at the sight of her, and you walk on.
Wanda is also struggling. Her energy escapes from her hand towards the black-clad sorcerer, who has a devilish grin on his face, but who seems pleased to see so much power.
You lift your hand to touch her face, and then the sound returns.
The effect of your touch on Wanda's skin is immediate.
Her magic explodes in her hands, creating a force field that pushes Mephisto and the walkers meters away.
The leader lets out a laugh as he falls backwards, while his followers stare at the scene with confusion, surprised by the sudden blow.
Wanda falls to her knees, and you stoop down to the level of her face, raising your hands to your face.
"Wanda? Can you hear me?" You call out, but it is as you thought, she cannot. Neither she can see you. But something makes you believe she can feel you. You sigh watching her try to pull herself together.
Mephisto stands up and waves for his followers to stand still.
Wanda stands in front of her friends. You swallow dryly, and stand beside her.
"Your protector is here, isn't he?" The man questions with a murderous look on his face. "I can feel it."
"Where is she?" Wanda asks angrily, but the wizard continues to smile.
"Do you really think I would risk exposure to steal your girlfriend from the castle, Miss Maximoff?" The wizard retorts. "You are as foolish as your father."
Wanda raises her hands again. You feel your body tingle.
"I won't ask again." She says and Mephisto's gaze flashes with irritation.
"It is I who will not repeat myself, miss." He strikes back and points his wand toward Wanda in a quick motion. You see the green light approaching in slow motion, and your feet are already moving forward.
The Death Curse hits you in the chest, but all you feel is the tingling in the back of your head, and all they see, is a golden light.
"This is getting embarrassing for you." Wanda teases the wizard, and you want to smile, but you are feeling your connection grow weak, the atmosphere begins to glaze over.
"I've had enough of games." Mephisto speaks impatiently, and moves his wand toward the fountain in the center in the hallway. Water pours out of the marble and rises to the ceiling, forming a three-headed serpent. "I'll just drown your friends and eliminate a few names from the list of blood traitors."
"No!" Wanda says as she throws an energy ball at the sorcerer, but he deflects it with ease. The water Hydra moves and Wanda attacks again.
You think the water will reach your friends, but the ministry's Floo powder fireplaces are lighting up and the order's wizards are coming out of there.
Mephisto's smile fades. His followers begin to duel, and he forms a shield to stop Wanda's attacks while turning to look at the incoming aurors, as you watch Hydra's enchantment being controlled and undone.
It is satisfying to see Mephisto choke in surprise as the rest of the Ministry officials begin to Apparate and use the floo powder net to arrive on the scene.
You see the expression of pure shock when the Minister of Magic sees the sorcerer, before Mephisto apparates and disappears.
There is an immediate commotion afterwards, the aurors of the order preventing the walkers from fleeing and the rest of the officials looking on at the scene of the fight with confusion.
The atmosphere is getting stuffy again, so you turn to Wanda again, and she has tears in her eyes as she looks around.
Erik reaches her within the next minute.
"Darling!" He says hugging her with concern, but Wanda sobs and he pulls away looking into her eyes. "What happened?"
"I couldn't find her, papa." She cries. "I looked everywhere."
Erik shakes his head.
"Wanda, Miss Stark is safe." He assures you and you frown. "It was a false vision dear, she was never here."
Wanda gasps in confusion, you want to touch her but can barely keep yourself watching.
"But i saw..."
"I know dear, but it wasn't true." Erik interrupts, "Let's go back to the castle, I'll tell you everything. But breathe, okay, she's safe."
Wanda nods, and you feel her exhaustion invade your body immediately. The aurors of the order help your friends, and you watch Erik help Wanda walk to the fireplaces, and the realization that she is safe is enough for you to surrender to the darkness.
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You know something is different the moment you open your eyes.
Maybe the way all the sounds invade your ears at once, and you grumble, trying to figure out if you have a headache or just reject the sudden gain in consciousness.
There is no pain, though, you notice.
There is only softness and lightness.
You blink a few times, and understand that you are lying on a bed. Straightening up, you eventually identify the room. It is an infirmary, but it is not Hogwarts. You frown in confusion, and straighten to sit up.
It looks like a hospital room, and there are other beds a few meters away, but they are empty. You also notice the "get well soon" balloons and the gift wrappings and food baskets on top of the cabinet at the end of the bed.
When you notice the sleeping figure in the armchair next to you, you gasp in surprise.
"Wanda!" You call out with a mixture of shock and relief.
The girl opens her eyes sleepily and then widens them when she realizes that you are looking at her curiously, babbling about what had happened and if she was okay. All Wanda does is let out a tearful laugh and jump at you, her arms around your neck as she hugs you tightly.
"Hey, is everything okay?" You ask fearfully, letting your arms encircle her waist and pulling her into bed with you. Wanda buries her face in your neck, and you want to close your eyes to enjoy the feeling of having her so close, but you are too curious to know about everything. "Wanda?"
"Fuck I was so worried." She sighs against your skin before pulling away, and you frown, looking into her watery eyes. You reach out to caress her face and she smiles as she leans into your touch, one hand rising to yours on her cheek.
"What happened?" You ask and she shakes her head slightly.
"A lot." She says. "But everyone is fine. You...merlin...you're here."
Wanda rests her forehead against yours and you both close your eyes.
"Where else would I be?"
She doesn't answer, just presses your lips together in a sweet but firm kiss. You feel your whole body shiver all at once, and gasp in surprise.
Wanda pulls away with a sigh and hugs you again, and you decide to give yourself over to the feeling, inhaling her perfume as you bury your face in her hair and feel your whole body relax all at once.
"Finally!" Your brother's voice startles you slightly, but you don't have much time to absorb his sudden presence in the room, because soon all your friends are entering as well, and Wanda is breaking the embrace so that your brothers will hug you and then your friends.
As soon as you hug everyone, and receive pats on the shoulder and questions about how you are feeling from the adults, you intertwine your hand with Wanda, who remains sitting next to you on the bed. The feeling brings you an instant sense of safety.
"Can someone tell me how I got here now?" You ask just as Carol Danvers turns away from you and stands next to Erik and Fury, who are in the corner next to Mantis and Harley, all squeezed around your bed.
"What's the last thing you remember, YN?" It is Tony who asks and you frown.
"The room with Professor Harkness, I think." You say feeling your stomach turn. Wanda's touch tightens a little, and you appreciate the sensation. Many flashes pass through your mind at once, and you use your free hand to massage your forehead lightly. "I think I remember a spell... Professor!" You exclaim suddenly looking at Erik, remembering the schoolmistress's words. "Agatha, she was the one who planned everything... the ministry, the prophecy! She knew everything and...!"
"Calm down, miss Stark." The professor interrupts with a nod. "We already know about what happened in the dungeon."
"Oh, okay." You mumble clumsily. "H-how did I get out of there?"
Erik exchanges a look with Wanda before turning back to you.
"Your last memory, Miss Stark, what would it be? Do you only remember talking to Agatha?"
"If you call torture talking." You mumble clumsily, and Wanda squeezes your hand hard, making you bite your tongue. "Hey." You say to her, but she doesn't let go of the grip. She says nothing, and you sigh. "Yes, professor. I just remember being within the spell. And then I woke up here."
Erik clears his throat and you think this is the time he's going to ask everyone to leave, but he hasn't.
"Well, then we have to update you on some important things, miss." He says as he puts his hands in his pockets. "I believe Doctor McCoy would prefer to talk to you first however, and he is looking at this small crowd with a certain disapproval."
You frown at the phrase, but there is a man dressed in aqua green approaching the bed and beckoning your friends to stand back. It's the healer in charge, you read the little plaque with the name "Doctor Hank McCoy" on the coat as he asks everyone not to be so on top of you.
"Good morning, Miss Stark, it's very good to see you awake at last. How are you feeling?" He asks as you approach, you squeeze Wanda's hand as soon as she makes mention of getting up. She gets a slight flush on her cheeks, but ignores the doctor's gaze and continues sitting next to you. Hank realizing that the witch won't move away, decides to approach you from the other side of the bed, a metal stethoscope in position on his neck and hands.
"I'm fine." You say with a smile.
"Let's make sure you are." He says as he places the object against your chest. "Take a deep breath, please."
The check is quick, and a little awkward as everyone is looking at you. Doctor Hank grabs a wooden clipboard as soon as he's finished.
"You've recovered almost completely, that's impressive." He comments sounding pleased and you look at him curiously.
"Was I sick?"
Hank gives a little laugh and then frowns, realizing that you really were curious. He clears his throat.
"Are you experiencing memory loss?" He asks looking at you intently. You swallow dryly, pulling away slightly as you feel the blue orbs analyzing you so intently. "It's a common symptom for this type of magical occurrence, of course, though it's a more recurring one in patients who have experienced the cruciatus curse."
"Doctor?"
Hank straightens his body again, putting his hands in his pockets.
"What is your last memory of the ritual, miss?"
"Ritual?" You ask confused.
"The bonding ritual, Miss Stark." He clarifies. "Your family members explained to the team that you were in the custody of a dark witch and went through a level five rated magical binding ritual against your will."
"I..."
"Doctor McCoy, please." Erik interrupts with an embarrassed smile. "We haven't had a chance to talk to her about everything. Perhaps some less technical language."
"Oh, yes, of course." Hank agreed with a smile, and his posture became much friendlier. "What exactly do you remember, Miss?"
"Only to be caught in a spell doctor." You reply. "My professor, she used some runes on the walls and tried to keep me trapped. It was... quite unpleasant if you ask me." You recount feeling really uncomfortable. "I didn't really understand what happened."
"Don't worry, we know what happened." Hank says. "From a medical point of view at least." He jokes and Erik smiles, but you are too nervous to do so. "Sorry, but the room is too crowded. Why don't you all wait outside while I talk to Miss Stark?"
Your friends let out a disgruntled exclamation together, but Carol and Fury are already pushing everyone out.
"She can stay, right?" you ask quickly and Doctor Hank gives a chuckle.
"I wouldn't try to keep you and Miss Maximoff apart anymore in any manner at all." He comments and you look at him with confusion.
Erik also stays in the room, standing at the end of the bed. Wanda strokes your hand with her thumb as the doctor speaks again, and you want to pay attention to his words rather than her touch, but it is a difficult task.
Hank sits on the edge at the height of your knee.
"You have undergone a magical bonding ritual, Miss Stark." He begins. "More precisely, through a kind of spell to strengthen a magical bond that already exists in you. In this case, your bond with Miss Maximoff."
The doctor adjusts his glasses slightly as soon as you nod in understanding.
"That kind of spell is very dangerous by itself, Miss." He says. "But it is even more so when done without the consent of those involved."
Hank gropes his pockets and then takes out his own wand, extending it into the air with a smooth motion. You watch intently as two golden figures resembling two people appear in front of you.
He also draws a thread connecting them at chest height.
"What we know about natural protective magical bonds, Miss, is that they act as a string of energy between the bodies of the witches who are connected." He narrates as he signals the golden magical wave with his finger. "That string stretches, and bends, and can only be broken in three ways. With the length of the magic contract, the withdrawal of the spell, or the death of one of the witches. And in this third, if the witch to whom the link refers, dies before the other, the other will suffer the same fate, since the link remains intact."
"Doctor, I don't mean to be disrespectful, but I already knew that information." You comment clumsily, but the adults don't seem annoyed, they just giggle. You are surprised to realize that you know Wanda thought it was funny even without looking at her.
"Yeah, yeah, sorry, I'm getting there." He hits back with a chuckle. Hank makes another motion with his wand, and this time, an energy rune appears between the figures in the center of the link, and you frown as you recognize the image.
"It looks like the one Professor Harkness drew on the floor." You comment.
"It's exactly the same." Hank says. "This is rune needed for the power release spell. Ancient magic, very powerful." He counters. "It was common for witches to use this kind of spell in the wild, before magic societies were fully formed, since no one learned how to grow their own power through study and practice. Other methods were used before the schools of magic existed."
"What did she do to me, doctor?" You ask fearfully, understanding where the conversation was going. Doctor Hank exchanged a look with Professor Erik.
"Well, Mrs. Harkness wanted to rush things, I believe." He says. "You see, magical connections are very unstable magics, Miss. Especially if done between living things." He adds and moves his wand again. The rune multiplies and lands on the chest of each of the figures. "The ritual that Agatha performed served to stimulate the full magical potency of your connection all at once."
"But what does that mean?"
"It means that after that night, she merged your magic and Miss Maximoff's magic as one." Hank clarified and you frowned, trying to understand exactly what that signified. Seeing your expression, Professor Erik cleared his throat and approached the side of the bed, close to Wanda.
"What will happen now, Miss Stark, will be the peak of a magical bond." He says with a worried look, and you look at him curiously. "You two will both present new powers, and you will need to learn how to control all of them."
You ran your fingers lightly through your hair, sighing.
"You still haven't told me how I ended up here." You grumbled slightly impatiently. The teacher hesitated, but then told you.
"Agatha underestimated the power of your bond with Wanda." He said and you were about to question what that meant when he spoke again. "The ritual served to potentiate the Scarlet Witch's magic, using your body as a bridge for contact, since through the connection between you, she was able to force Wanda's magic to evolve."
You looked at Wanda, but she was looking at your hands entwined together.
"Is everything okay with you?" You asked her immediately, and she raised her eyes to you. Nodding in agreement, she gave you a shy smile. You wished you were alone with her.
"Agatha wanted to use the bond just to stimulate Wanda's magic to its full potential, and she knew she could use your magical bond to do that." The professor then added. "But, I don't know if you remember, Miss Stark, as we talked about earlier in the year, there are limits to what the human body can handle. Just like you, Wanda didn't even come of age yet. Her magic simply wasn't ready."
"And that's when the magical bond between you two interrupted the spell." The doctor added and you widened your eyes slightly. He waved his wand so that the illusion of the figures shattered. "You see, Miss, you have a protective bond with Miss Maximoff. The minute the spell became strong enough to injure her, your magic merged with hers, and all was restrained. The ritual was immediately interrupted."
"You may not remember, but Agatha took you to the ministry." Erik said next and grimaced slightly. "Well, not exactly brought, but projected you. She was the one who set up the visions in Wanda's head so that she would see you wounded and fight Mephisto again. All the danger she was going through triggered the bond. And then she could project your consciousness to Wanda, giving her the power to face Mephisto in a duel."
"I don't remember that." You mutter, scratching the back of your neck lightly.
"Don't worry." Hank adds. "It was a very intensive magical exhaustion, I'm sure your memories will gradually come back. If not, Miss Maximoff can help you." He jokes and you frown in confusion, but the doctor is already getting up. "Well, I need to check on other patients, I'll come visit you later. Try to eat something before I get back, okay? You should still be here for a few days, until we're sure you're fully recovered."
You thanked the doctor before he left. Erik cleared his throat.
"Do you have any other questions?"
"Many sir." You say making him laugh lightly. But then you sigh. "But I wanted to stay with Wanda for a while."
Erik nods in understanding, and exchanges a look with his daughter before turning to leave.
You straighten to lie down and look at Wanda and she mimics your movement, but looks up at the ceiling.
"Wanda?" You call out and wait for her to turn her face toward you. A sense of lightness and assurance immediately invades your chest at having the green orbs stare at you. "How do you feel?"
She gives you a short smile, and straightens up to turn her whole body toward you. It's uncomfortable to hold your hands like this, so she lets go, but raises her fingers to your face, tracing your features.
"I feel different." She confesses. Every touch of her fingers is warm and comforting. "What about you?"
"Different too." You reply, resisting the urge to close your eyes. "But a good different."
Wanda smiles, shaking her head in agreement. You are silent for a moment, Wanda using her thumb to caress your cheek tenderly, and you let your gaze on her mouth.
"Why were you almost crying when I woke up?" You ask next, and her body tenses before she sighs. You look into her eyes, waiting.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you." She mumbles and you shake your head, bringing your faces closer together. Wanda sighs and brings her hand to the back of your neck as you press your foreheads together. "I can't talk about it."
"Show me then." You ask and she closes her eyes just before you close yours.
The visions hit you in the next second.
You see the false memories Agatha implanted in her, they were images of you being tortured in the ministry, your screams echoing among the corridors. You feel Wanda's desperation, her helplessness, the way her heart squeezed and the despair at every door she opened in the ministry and could not find you.
You gasp when you see the duel with Mephisto again, feeling your own touch in Wanda's magic, the way she had never felt so powerful, every cell vibrating.
A surprised sigh escapes when you see Wanda being carried back to the castle, as she feels her whole body tired but cannot close her eyes without hearing from you. You feel her tears when Professor Erik lets her see the state of the dungeon where Agatha imprisoned you, and the yearning when she sees your blood on the chains and on the floor.
The anger when her father tries to send her to sleep, and she insists on going to the hospital with your family, and the way her body shakes when she sees you on a stretcher unconscious.
Your own image scares you. The deep wounds on your wrists and ankles, made by the iron chains you have broken. The rune cut on your forehead, bright and red, and the blood that dripped down your nose, ears and mouth.
You feel the way Pietro's tight embrace, or his words of affirmation, assuring her that the healers will heal you, helps Wanda relax, but you also see how it's not enough. How all Wanda needs is for you to be at her side.
The feeling of fear and insecurity that lingers in Wanda's chest during the days she lies beside you in bed, waiting for you to wake up. Unsuccessful in sensing your thoughts even when she tries to sneak up on you during the nurses' shift change.
And then the sense of relief when seeing you open your eyes.
You gasp out the memories, feeling yours and Wanda's tears too.
"Oh, my love, I'm so sorry." You ask in a hoarse voice. "I should have woken up sooner."
Wanda lets out a tearful laugh, shaking her head.
"It's okay." She assures. "I'm just glad you did."
You smile, bringing your fingers together to take a strand of hair from Wanda's eyes and place it behind her ears.
"I will always be by your side, Wanda." You say. "I promise."
Wanda sighs, opening her eyes again. You use your thumb to wipe away the tears that have trickled down her face.
There is a moment of silence, and then your heart soars at her words.
"I know about the prophecy."
You look away before looking at her again.
"I'm sorry." You say. "I should have told you."
"Yes, you should have." She retorts seriously, but she doesn't sound angry. "But it's over now. And now everyone knows."
You widen your eyes, and probably sensing the way you've grown anxious, Wanda firms the touch of her hand on the side on your neck, murmuring lightly.
"Don't worry, eventually everyone would find out." She says and you swallow dryly.
"H-how did they know?"
"That's why Mephisto was in the Ministry." She explains. "He was looking for the prophecy in the mystery department. Steve found it first."
You swallowed dryly and Wanda continued to tell.
"I think he hesitated to tell Tony for a moment." She says. "But then he did. And then everyone knew. My father told the order as soon as you were admitted."
"How did Tony take it?" you asked fearfully and Wanda sighed.
"Better than I did if you ask me." She grumbled and you smiled shyly. "He only calmed down when they poured some potion for him. And well, I broke Dad's nose so it didn't really go down too well."
"Wow, you did what?" you ask in surprise, and Wanda grumbles, tucking her head into her pillow. You giggle, digging into her hair with your fingers. "I want to see that one."
Wanda chuckles against the cotton before looking back at you. She shows you the memory next. Everyone around the St.Mungus waiting room when Steve arrives accompanied by Erik and he tells everyone the truth. You see Tony squirming and being calmed down by two nurses, and you can feel Wanda's irritation and indignation as she looks at the "I was doing the right thing" expression her father has on his face. And how the feeling explodes in her chest when he comes to say he was trying to keep her safe and she just punches him in the face.
You gasp out of the memory with an impressed laugh, moving from the image of Erik with a bloody nose to Wanda with flushed cheeks, impacted by the way your laughter makes her heart soar.
"I can't believe you punched your father in the face." You tease with amusement and Wanda laughs lightly, reaching out to rest her arm on your waist. Her hand caresses your back gently.
"If he hadn't kept us apart none of this would have happened." She mumbles bitterly and you sigh.
"He thought he was helping." You retort but Wanda just hums. You let out an exclamation next as you remember something. "Wanda, you didn't tell me you were having nightmares! Are they still happening?"
Wanda sighs, denying with her head.
"No, not since the ministry." She says. "Papa hasn't figured out what they are, and now we can't count on Professor Harkness to help us find out. But since I fought Mephisto at the ministry, they've stopped."
"Why didn't you tell me about them?"
"Because they were about you." She retorts as if it's obvious. "I didn't want to worry you anymore. Not when all I do is cause you problems."
The confession catches you completely off guard. And Wanda's guilty tone breaks your heart. She is looking down at the sheet and you let out an incredulous laugh.
"That's so very far from the truth, my dear." You say as you catch her chin between your fingers, and make her look at you gently. "You have no idea how good you do me, do you Wanda?"
"I..."
"It' s okay, now I can show you." You interrupt with a shy smile, bringing your lips together in a gentle kiss.
Everything feels more intense now. It's a simple touch, but it warms your whole body. You leave your fingers at the nape of her neck as you slide your tongue against hers, and you both sigh with the touch.
It feels so good to kiss Wanda, it warms your whole body from head to toe, but remembering that you are in a hospital bed, just as a familiar warmth begins to form at the tip of your stomach when Wanda's hand squeezes the fabric of your shirt and her tongue moves against yours slowly, you sigh as you break the kiss.
You smile at the image of Wanda's swollen lips and ajar, dark eyes.
"Why did you stop?" she asks breathlessly, her voice husky. You raise your eyebrows in amusement.
"Baby, our families and friends are in the next room." You clarify and Wanda mumbles, coming closer to rest her forehead on yours. Her hand squeezed the fabric before adorning your t-shirt, her fingers on your skin making you shiver slightly. "Behave."
Wanda giggles mischievously, pecking your lips before moving away. You feel your body relax completely as you gaze into her emerald eyes, but the moment is broken when your friends are back in the room.
Ignoring the hissing and the giggles, you tuck yourself into bed so that Wanda can snuggle up next to you.
Things are going to be different now, you know. But something tells you that as long as you have Wanda's hand in yours, you'll be fine.
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ladyc0312 · 3 years ago
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A Jikook Guide to RunBTS: 112-121
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Yes, I'm still doing these! It's just happening more slowly than I'd like because writing for work + writing fic + trying to go to bed before midnight + so much amazing content being released that clearly must be poured over and dissected = less time to make guides. For anyone still with me, he's the next section!
Ep 112 “Dalbang School Part 1” (Ep: 5 / KM: 4)
The ones with BTS in a classroom driving Teacher Jin insane
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5:58 - JM declares that he and Taehyung will pair up (by being the first to hug each other in a game), but then when Hobi blows the whistle at 6:38, JK runs over to hug JM before Tae can get to him.
6:58 - Jin asks why JM said he wanted Tae and then hugged JK. JM explains that he didn't hug him, he just found himself in JK's hug as JK cackles in the background.
7:24 - When Jin blows his whistle at the class, JK and JM mirror each other in putting a finger in one of their ears.
7:35 - Teammates JK and JM are immediately on the same page about wanting their team name to be Kim Seokjin. When they have to change it, JM quickly picks up JK's suggestion that they call their team Bang Sihyuk. These don't sound like particularly unique moments, but when you watch it, it just really strikes you how in sync the two of them are in terms of physicality, ideas, and sense of humor.
9:52 - After Jin comments that he heard JM did very well in school, JK adds that JM was the top student. When someone else asks if JM was the best or second-best, JK forcefully reiterates that he was the best student.
12:45 - When they get a question right, JK and JM clasp hands and bump their shoulders together.
13:10 - JM and JK both goof around, speaking in satoori and challenging JHope to a fight of sorts.
13:27 - When Jin repeats that they got the question right, JK and JM do exactly the same as 12:45, but seated this time.
14:22, 14:36, 15:13 - In all three of these moments, JM nearly falls over laughing at something JK did that no one else found anywhere near as funny.
23:36 - When JK says he's good at this game, JM laughs and pokes JK in the chest with a marker.
BEHIND 2:30 - JM takes a selfie of him and JK with his personal phone while they're supposed to be paying attention to Jin.
6:35 - JK cheers on JM and calls him Jimin-ssi when JM announces he's doing well on this spot-the-difference round. When Jimin modifies the brag to say he only found four, JK says "that's still quite impressive."
Ep 113 “Dalbang School Part 2” (Ep: 5 / KM: 4)
4:50 - We all know how JK is when he gets into his "focus" zone, especially in a competitive environment. But here, when JM rather rudely interrupts JK's melodica practice, JK just starts playing around with him and giggles.
7:41 - As RM & JH take their turn, jikook are whispering to each other in the back row.
11:42 - After quickly agreeing on a lunch option, jikook do a high five / handshake thing and then JM says "we think alike" and "we get along pretty well." JK responds "that's exactly it" and the on-screen captions tells us they are a "good match."
22:20 - This is where JK and JM start switching back and forth carrying each other on their backs to get under a limbo stick.
They go again at 23:35, 26:11, and 28:13.
And again at 30:22 and 32:16 and 34:30 because, even though they lost, they want to try to do it again to show that they can as a "matter of pride."
25:00 - JK points something out to JM and then pats his butt.
33:33 - JM announces they lost, and then jikook do another handshake / high five thing.
34:33 - JM does an... interesting pose for the camera where he puts his hand on a bent-over JK's back and smirks.
34:56 - Yet another handshake and JM pats JK on the back when they finally pass the limbo challenge.
BEHIND 5:55 - While examining the limbo setup, JM comments that JK is good at this. JK comes over to give a demonstration and JM watches him be silly with it and says "he's a strange kid" fondly.
6:21 - Another jikook limbo attempt - this one was cut because they did it too easily.
Ep 114 “League of Number One Part 1” (Ep: 3 / KM: 1)
The ones where BTS play games with League of Legends world champions
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3:55 - After Jimin protests that he shouldn't be out, JK tells his hyung to turn around and face the back.
14:40 - JK fake-boxes JM after losing the hammer game.
18:18 - JK mimics Jimin's BWL intro.
Ep 115 “League of Number One Part 2” (Ep: 2 / KM: .5)
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7:05 - JK comes over to check on Jimin's phone to make sure he's actually visible in the selfie the teams take.
Ep 116 “Team-Building Special Part 1” (Ep: 4 / KM: 1)
The ones with random games in that rec room-looking place that are a lot more fun than they sound
22:14 - JM and JK play around with the jump rope during breaktime.
22:26 - JM and JK play around like they're boxing with each other.
BEHIND 5:15 - JK appears to take an interest in watching JM's... back as he moves around acting out potential poses.
Ep 117 “Team-Building Special Part 1” (Ep: 4 / KM: 2)
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5:30 - Despite showing pretty much everyone else touching everyone else in the pose guessing game, we don't get a single shot here or in the behind of JK feeling up Jimin. The above photo proves that it happened, though, so definitely side-eyeing the editors, here.
BEHIND 5:35 - JK keeps throwing water bottles when they're supposed to be taking a group photo. Jimin pulls him back next to him and puts an arm around his neck. JK puts an arm around Jimin's shoulders in return.
7:51 - After it's explained that JK is staying late to watch Jin do his penalty, a packed-up Jimin comes over and stands next to JK, waiting until they're done to leave.
Ep 118 “Photo Story Part 1” (Ep: 3 / KM: 3)
The ones where BTS play a Samsung-sponsored game involving getting specific pictures while a spy tries to ruin the fun
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4:22 - JM appears to direct JK to go punish Tae and pats JK's back when he starts to obey. Something happens that we don't see when the angle changes - next thing we see, JM seems to be pushing JK? JM then giggles at JK pretending to beat up Tae. (After this, JK spins around like a ballerina. Not jikook-related, just adorable.)
29:51 - JK calls Jimin twice without adding "hyung."
32:28 - JM pulls JK along by the wrist. Meanwhile, J-Hope once again mixes up their names.
32:44 - Though there is now a group walking slowly together and he doesn't need to pull him along anymore, Jimin takes JK's hand again.
37:02 - There are a bunch of seats open in the room, but Jimin walks over to sit right next to JK.
BEHIND 5:40 - When JM tries to steal a post-it from JK, JK scolds him in satoori banmal. JM calls him out for not calling him with hyung and JK quickly apologizes (in a way some k-army jikookers have said is like how a married person would respond to their nagging spouse!).
6:09 - JK and JM meet up and JK tells JM he's exhausted. There's a kind of weird moment that I fully admit I may be reading too much into where JK seems to be walking right towards JM, then abruptly stops and turns, looking at the camera, before walking with Jimin in a different direction than he had been heading. Then, JM says he thinks their matching shirts are hilarious and that it's funny they're wearing them for the show.
Ep 119 “Photo Story Part 2” (Ep: 4 / KM: 3)
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8:21 - "You are me, I am you" moment: Jimin does a ballet spin the same way JK did in part one.
11:18 - JK is the only one to vote for JM to be able to keep a picture in other than Jin (who has nefarious reasons for doing so).
29:40 - JM goes over to help JK see how many of his photos the spy ruined and almost falls over laughing when it becomes clear it's nearly all of them.
34:21 - JM puts his hand on JK's shaking leg to help calm him (see above photo), but JK is so irritated that it doesn't work like it usually does. Poor bunny!
35:17 - JM pulls at JK's shirt and hand, then folds over his back while trying to get him to confess that he actually lost.
38:24 - JM has a comforting hand on JK's neck when he's acting upset about losing.
38:32 - When it seems like JK is struggling to come up with an ending statement, JM helps prompt him.
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0:55 - JK talks about how amazing it is that Jimin found so many cards.
3:51 - When JK is playing with the sequin art on the front of his shirt, JM leans over and starts rubbing on them, too.
5:11 - Jimin tells JK that, if he wins, he's going to make the loser hike Mt. Achasan. JK asks why he's looking at him when he says that and they both laugh. Jimin pats JK's chest and they laugh even harder. Jin and Tae both have "omg, these two" looks on their faces.
Ep 120 “Reply BTS Village Part 1” (Ep: 3 / KM: 2)
The ones with a real-life Mafia game inexplicably set in a 1970s village. It's... fairly difficult to follow, but the guys are into it and the outfits are great!
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24:40 - Jimin breaks character and laughs when asking JK if he's the culprit.
29:40 - Caption: "The air is undeniably tense between Gamer Jeon and Chief Park." Not explicitly jikook, I just find it funny that the writers seem to be playing with some real life relationships, making sope best friends and jikook have tension that leads to banter...
BEHIND
5:34 - When Jimin is playing with the yo-yo, JK expresses concern that he's going to hurt his fingers (caption: Kook is just worrying for his hyung). Then, JK asks poutily and in banmal if he can play with the yo-yo multiple times and Jimins says no. Like, JK straight-up gives his hyung a command ("let me try that") using informal speech and no one bats an eye!
5:58 - Jimin starts singing a song about an ants. JK watches him. JK initially says to Hobi "look, he's a fool/dummy!" (in banmal again), then starts singing along. He jokes that JM doesn't know all the lyrics and Jimin says back "quiet, you."
Ep 121 “Reply BTS Village Part 2” (Ep: 3 / KM: 2)
38:48 - After having asked for it a bunch in the Behind of the previous episode, JK now has Jimin's yoyo.
non-jikook note: At the end of this one, they "time travel" to solve a mystery in Joseon-era Korea and I can't express how badly I want to see that. Please come back to that, Run!
BEHIND 0:58 - Jimin and JK play around accusing each other with exaggerated accents and formality. Jimin comes up behind JK and reaches out to touch his shoulder, but stops when Tae joins them and accuses them of plotting together.
9:05 - When JK says everyone else is so good at acting, Jimin compliments him that he was very funny towards the end.
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iamnmbr3 · 3 years ago
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I know you're not happy with the show but making things up is really damaging your reputation. The show is not a failure; it's the biggest launch of any disney+ show so far with the highest ratings. The first trailer has so many views because it's 7 months old, compared to the first episode being out a week and a half. The CGI doesn't look like it was done by a two year old (seriously lmao??). The tesseract looks dull because it powers down once in the TVA. Stop pretending Loki was mind controlled when Marvel confirmed in his character bio that he was emotionally influenced by the scepter. Bucky was mind controlled. Selvig and Hawkeye were mind controlled. Loki was influenced like Banner and the others were by the sceptre when they were around it on the helicarrier. Please consider that care has been taken to make Loki more multifaceted in this show, not OOC - he's just got more emotion and character to him now and feels to me and a lot of others, more like a living, breathing person who is struggling in the immediate aftermath of being shown the most traumatic recap of his life. I'm really sorry you're not happy with him, but his emotional core and inner heartbreak is being treated with love and respect by the show.
Hahahahahahahahhaha oh my god anon this was a funny read. Ngl usually when ppl come clowning in my inbox with incoherent rants I just delete it. But this was some quality clowning. This was just too funny to not share with everyone. So I’m gonna go line by line here.
“I know you're not happy with the show but making things up is really damaging your reputation.”
I’m gonna be real with you anon. This makes me sad because I will never write anything this funny. This made me laugh out loud. My reputation? My reputation?!?! I run a blog on Tumblr dot com. No reputation can recover from that. Also as to making things up? Uh. Where??? Just because you don’t like what I have to say doesn’t mean it’s made up. However with that kind of attitude I think you have a bright future ahead of you working in PR for the GOP. They love people who talk like you.
“The show is not a failure; it's the biggest launch of any disney+ show so far with the highest ratings.”
Ok I literally just talked about that HERE. But let me add a few more points here for your convenience. First of all, Disney+ hasn’t actually been doing that great. In fact Disney’s stock recently fell precisely because Diseny+ has underperformed. It missed growth expectations and none of the shows have attracted that big of an audience. Loki had MASSIVELY more interest than either WandaVision or TFATWS and yet it only drew 890K households for the premier - just barely more than either of those shows got. There haven’t been any numbers released for the episodes after the premier but given how boring and unfunny and uninteresting the premier was, I wouldn’t be surprised if a lot of viewers, especially more casual ones, didn’t come back for more.
“The first trailer has so many views because it's 7 months old, compared to the first episode being out a week and a half.”
Incorrect. Trailers get most of their views in the first week, and the vast majority in the first 2 weeks. Indeed, they get the most engagement in the first DAY usually and then it starts slowing. The early trailer that got 18 million views got most of that very quickly and then has grown extremely slowly ever since. The more recent trailers are not tracking to get anywhere near than engagement. Why? Because interest is dropping. Now maybe people just aren’t as interested in the trailers because they’re just happy to watch the actual show now or because they loved the first trailers so much that they decided to watch the show just based on that and didn't want to spoil themselves watching later trailers. Who knows. I certainly have my theories though.
"The CGI doesn't look like it was done by a two year old (seriously lmao??)."
Actually I said the posters looked like they were done by a 2 year old. Most of the CGI looks like cheap made-for-tv effects done by an underpaid and under qualified adult. But go off I guess. Also don’t even try to defend those badly photoshopped posters to me. I have eyes. I could argue with you but a picture is worth a thousand words. And just. Look at this thing! This is real. It’s so bad but it’s real. Who wants this?
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"Stop pretending Loki was mind controlled when Marvel confirmed in his character bio that he was emotionally influenced by the scepter.Bucky was mind controlled. Selvig and Hawkeye were mind controlled. Loki was influenced like Banner and the others were by the sceptre when they were around it on the helicarrier"
That’s mind control lmao. The scepter was magically influencing his mind. Do you think emotions come from our feet or something?! (And that’s not even getting into the torture and conditioning he underwent or the fact that the Other had his claws in Loki’s mind and was hurting and threatening him in addition to the mind control). Also why do you think it’s appropriate to come on my blog like this and make these sorts of demands? This is my fandom blog that I run for fun. I can engage however I want. You need to learn to cope with that. If you enjoy the show that’s great. Go enjoy it. Don’t tell other people what to think. That’s not appropriate, reasonable, or healthy. If you find yourself truly unable to cope with strangers having different opinions from you about a tv show based on a comic book I definitely suggest you seek help from a professional.
"Please consider that care has been taken to make Loki more multifaceted in this show, not OOC - he's just got more emotion and character to him now and feels to me and a lot of others, more like a living, breathing person who is struggling in the immediate aftermath of being shown the most traumatic recap of his life."
I don’t see any evidence at all of care being put into the show. The writing and storytelling is incredibly sloppy. It gets even the most basic things wrong - like Loki’s speaking style or the fact that he wasn’t young in the 70s or that he speaks the Allspeak not English or his skin tone or hair length or the fact that Jotun!Loki should’ve had ridges on his skin. The head writer and story creator also is openly disdainful of Loki and talks about how he’s a “shithead” and “proper and pompous” and how he needs to be put in a situation where he has to stop “blaming” Odin and Thor for all his problems. He shows no understanding of Loki’s character or care for it. Maybe care was put into the show and they just messed up but I don’t see evidence of that. There’s certainly no way you could know that for a fact unless you are involved in the production in which case you are a biased source who has an ulterior motive for silencing critics of the show.
Also TV!Loki doesn’t feel like a real person to me at all. He feels like a caricature. He doesn’t act like Loki or do or say the things he would or even stand like he would. Look how Loki behaved when being interrogated by Natasha or when being berated by Odin. Loki is someone who puts on a performance as a sword and a shield. TV!Loki is a stupid clown.
"I'm really sorry you're not happy with him, but his emotional core and inner heartbreak is being treated with love and respect by the show."
No it’s not. It’s being turned into a punchline. The “humor” in the show derives entirely from invalidating Loki’s feelings and retconning his motivations and humiliating and mocking and denigrating him and turning him into a literal punching bag. The show robs the character of all dignity and seriousness and makes a mockery of him and the fans he meant so much to. And for what? The humor isn’t even funny.
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Dress You Up In My Love (Darren Treacy x Jeanie Turner)
Word Count: 3k
Warnings: angst, smut, language, cross dressing kink
A/N: Darren needs just one night to hide after pulling a hit on Dublin's biggest drug lord. He turns to secondary family where he finds out something surprising about himself and unfinished business from his cousin's wedding. (Takes place in series two between episodes 5 and 6. There ARE spoilers for series two of Love/Hate.)
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A frantic knocking sprung Jeanie out of sleep that she didn't remember falling into. She hurriedly pulled on the hotel bathrobe and shouted at the door she was coming. A glance at the clock told her it was 8pm. Still plenty of time for him to come by.
Jeanie opened the door and gasped. “Dazz?! What's going on?”
“Is Gordo here?” The man shifted from foot to foot outside the doorway. He had a motorcycle helmet in his hands and a wild look behind bright green eyes.
“No. He's been up at Trinity in that fucking lab all day. I've not seen him.”
“I need a place t’crash for a few days,” he half-begged, half informed Jeanie as he pushed past into the suite. “Crikey this is posh. If I knew Gordo was gonna grow up t’have this kinda cash, I wouldn't have poked fun at the specs n shite.”
“Darren is there something I can help you with? As we've not seen you in four years?” Jeanie crossed her arms over her chest.
“I.. Did something. Just need a place t’lay low. Figured my cousin was th’last place anyone would look.” There was a shrug in his voice.
“Why not Rosie?”
Darren started to shed his jacket then ran a hand through his shaggy hair, “Best not involve her either. Not exactly talking these days.” He held his jacket out to Jeanie.
“Fuck off with that!” she swatted the jacket away.
“Oi! Just hold it while I take off the rest.”
“Rest of what? Your clothes? Hi Darren. Haven't seen you since the wedding. You've grown up. Sorry about Robbie and your mum. Thank you, Jeanie. How have you been? How's Scotland? Just lovely. Don't see Gordon for days and he's had TWO affairs.”
“Fair point, darlin,” Darren stepped out of his boots and unzipped his sweatshirt. “The Treacy side ain't exactly one t’write home about. Are we, yeah? ‘Cept Mary.”
Jeanie took the leather jacket and pinched her nose. Eyes closed. Something sticky about it made her recoil. Eyes popped open. She held her hand up; it was speckled brownish red.
“Dazz is this blood?!”
“Best you don't know. Can I shower?”
“I don't know, can- JESUS DARREN PUT SOME FUCKING CLOTHES ON” Jeanie covered her eyes.
“I'M IN UNDERWEAR!” he shouted back, laughter in his voice. “Alright, Ginge. Haven't ye ever seen a grown man in his underwear? You just need to get rid of those anyway ye can. Please?”
“Well you certainly aren't 16 anymore.”
“I was 18 when ye’s got married. Don’t ye remember?” his eyebrow arched suggestively.
“I would say I tried to forget, but when I'm stuck alone at night, or in a hotel for days at a time, I don't feel bad. It really was foreshadowing for the rest of our marriage.”
“Gordo’s cousin trying t’shag his new wife th’night he got married? Almost got that tossover. Pride myself on that.”
“I was hammered and you have very hypnotic eyes. Like Kaa in the Jungle Book”
Darren frowned, his brows knit together in confusion. His lower lip turned out as he struggled to comprehend that as compliment or insult.
Jeanie couldn't help but stare now. A proper look. Darren's body hadn’t changed much since she last saw him. Still thin, muscles a bit more defined. Scars littered his chest and stomach as he exhaled deeply. It was labored.
“Are those from a gunshot?” Jeanie looked minorly distressed.
Darren absently ran his fingers over the old wounds. “Aye. Working on one lung and I'm a bit barmy now.” Like it was no big deal.
Jeanie sighed heavily, but stopped to gather up his clothes. “I'll take a walk, and ditch these. Against my better judgment. Clean clothes are in our bags. You're about his size I suppose.” She rummaged around in the closet by the front door for a garment bag.
“You're a fucking beauty!” Darren snatched his cousin’s wife up in his arms. He pecked her cheek awkwardly.
“Towels are in the bathroom,” Jeanie grappled with what just happened. “I'll be back in half an hour. I hope whatever you did is fucking worth it. Dazz.”
“Trust me, love. No ones gonna miss him.”
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Jeanie sloshed out of the canal bed glad she packed her Wellingtons for the unpredictable Irish weather. Grateful too for the stones she found along the water side. She had put the hotel pub news bulletin out of her mind warning of a gangland hit on a local known drug lord. One that showed up to her wedding on the arm of Darren and Gordon’s aunt.
“I hope Darren shot you right in the fucking face, and you knew it was him.” Jeanie muttered as she watched the clothes sink after she pushed the bag under the surface.
Maybe it was hypocritical she was relieved JohnBoy was dead. Dazz wasn't the only one who tried to fuck her that night, but he was the only one she welcomed. Maybe, Jeanie owed Darren a bit of physical gratitude.
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Jeanie shut the door behind herself and popped her boots off in the closet. She changed quickly in the bathroom.
“You hungry or anything? I hope you found clothes that-”
Jeanie stopped in her tracks when she came around the wall that divided the suite foyer from the bedroom. Darren with his back to the full length mirror, was twisted so that he could look at himself. He seemed to be staring at his own ass.
“What are you doing?!” Jeanie was surprised, but amused more than anything.
“Oh! What kinda fookin underwear does Gordo have?” Darren's cheeks were just a hint of pink as he caught Jeanie’s eye. “T’ere’s no place for my cock when I piss, but they feel nice? Like t’ere comfortably snug?” He caressed his ass for emphasis.
“Well, those are mine. Not Gordon’s boxer briefs. So that answers the cock question. And they look snug because you have.” Jeanie's eyes strayed down over the bulge that had grown inside the boy shorts. “Well you must REALLY like them.”
Darren's eyes were wide, but he didn't seem embarrassed. Not really. His gaze followed Jeanie's downwards to his erection. “Yeah looks t’at way, doesn't it. I promise ye, I've never done t’is before.”
“Who cares if you have. Women wear boxers all the time. Back home, when I was in uh, what's it here? 1st through 4th year, all we wore was boxers as regular shorts. If you like them, Dazz, you could try some more?”
Jeanie had sat down on the bed. One knee crossed over the other with her hands clasped together. She bit her lip while her heart drummed loud in her ears. A pleasurable discomfort as she began to throb at the sight of Darren in her panties. The anticipation of him getting into a sexier pair. Letting her feel them. It had been so long.
“I mean, I'm not going anywhere t’ night. I’m not dressing in full drag though,” he insisted.
Jeanie stood and rifled through the suitcase. “I didn't think you wanted to. My regular clothes wouldn't fit you anyways.” She bit her fingernail and debated between a deep purple and cobalt blue. “I'm built like an hourglass and you,” she laid her choices on the white duvet, “are built like a baby giraffe.”
Darren rolled his eyes but joined Jeanie at the bedside. He gravitated towards the purple ones. Mostly lace with a bit of satin, they would look absolutely obscene on him. In the best possible way.
“Ye were wearing these t’at night,” Darren was full of nostalgia.
“I didn't know your side of the family could be sentimental besides Mare,” Jeanie giggled. She couldn't help it. “I definitely married the wrong cousin. Sometimes, I wish I could legally kill him,” there was an uneasy humor in her voice.
“I mean, I would do it for ye.” Darren didn't even hesitate.
“Um..” Jeanie's face matched her hair.
Darren burst into laughter, “Ease up, darlin’. I'm fuckin with ye.”
Jeanie wasn't certain about that but she played along. His smile both unnerved her and turned her on. The way he studied her and then the panties with a curiosity and delight.
“Why don't you put those on, and I put on the bra. Then.. we can make a full set.” There was innuendo in Jeanie's suggestion.
“We can't.”
“We CAN. The right sentiment is whether or not we SHOULD.”
“Should I really put these on?”
“Would you really kill someone you care about?” It was a strange reciprocation.
“If I cared about Gordo, I would not have tried t’fuck his wife the night he got married.”
Jeanie licked her lips, flames curled around her ears and cheeks. “Put them on. Anything I can do to make you more comfortable? Liquor?” She reached inside her shirt and produced a small bag that she swung back and forth, “Cocaine from your jeans?”
Darren reached for it but she was quicker. Stuffing it back in her bra, she swatted his hand away. “How about you.. don't do stimulating narcotics with a PTSD chaser?”
“It keeps me awake so I don't have nightmares. Just go so I can put t’ese on!”
Jeanie planted herself on the bed after taking her shirt off. She leaned back on her elbows, legs crossed. “I'm not going anywhere.”
“Fine! But close your eyes, so we can both be surprised. Wait, why’d ye take your shirt off?”
“Won't this make you more comfortable?” She pushed her chest forward a bit.
Darren’s eyes darted down to Jeanie's tits where they lingered longer than she expected. “Alright, sweetheart.”
Jeanie could listen to him talk for hours. Still she squeezed her eyes shut with a dramatic flare. “Go on then. I can't bloody wait.”
There was some shuffling around as Jeanie sat without peeking. Her heart raced in anticipation as she realized Darren had tossed what he was wearing at her feet.
A few minutes went by, and she lost patience, “Can I look? You've gotta have them on by now.”
“Fine, but don't laugh! I can't seem to get my junk in these.”
Jeanie opened her eyes and her mouth, “Fuck me, Dazz. Those are..” She stood up and made her way over to him from behind as he faced the mirror. Completely unable to stop herself. “You look delicious.” A word no one has ever used to describe either of them.
Jeanie’s hands on Darren's thin hips. They ran back and down over the sheer and lace over his ass. There was a playful squeeze before changing direction and flattening her hands on his. Downwards and into the indentation of his abs. Then she stopped to trace her fingertips over the angry red scars. Jeanie ran her fingers over them as if she wanted to memorize them.
Darren’s stomach convulsed a bit under her touch. “Jaysus,” he muttered under his breath. Eyes shut as Jeanie watched him in the mirror.
“Let me take care of you. Just one night,” she kissed between his shoulder blades. “You certainly deserve it after what you did today.”
“What did I do t’day?” Darren challenged Jeanie with his question. His hands covered hers, but not to push her away. To guide them down further over his erection.
Jeanie playfully squeezed again. The man in front of her let out a sound between a gasp and a moan when she began to rub the satin barely containing his cock. Her open palm gained friction as she worked faster. Where a man might find a woman's clit between her legs under the fabric, Jeanie moved her palm over Darren's balls.
“Eradicated part of Dublin’s largest pest population,” each word punctuated by her hand moving faster. Jerking him off without ever touching more than the underwear.
“I hope..” Darren's breath hitched and grew heavy. “Someone else..” his hips started to twist. “Ro-”
“I don't think we should talk about her right now, do you?” Jeanie cut him off. She finally let herself reach inside of the panties to properly take his cock in her grip.
Her thumb played with the head, slick with precum. Fingers wrapped around the shaft and stroked the length down and back up. She wasn't used to doing it from this angle but found it even sexier. The power she felt surge being the one in control. How wet she was inside her OWN panties.
Darren's head hung back as he lost himself in the ecstasy of what his cousin’s wife was doing. He didn't care that she was married. To a man who neglected her, ignored her.
Nidge. Tommy. His own sister. His cousin. They fucked around all the time. He and Rosie, that almost got her killed and they weren't even shagging. He knew he'd be livid if he caught her cheating. not violent mind you, but pissed. Just like if Siobhan or Trish did it. Or even Gordon. Everyone was a hypocrite.
Yet here was Darren. His cousin’s wife wanking him off while he wore her knickers. And he didn't give a fuck for once. His dick hadn’t been this hard in ages. That day he and Rosie had sex felt so long ago. They didn't do it much if at all since then.
Maybe this wasn't right, but Darren couldn't care anymore. He stood three feet above a malicious drug lord reduced to a cowering pussy and killed him. It was the same feeling as Jeanie's fingers as they twisted and kneaded his cock. Euphoric.
“If we don't take this to the bed. only one of us is gonna get a happy ending.”
Darren turned quickly. Faster than Jeanie could focus on. Their mouths finally crashed together as he gripped a handful of her. He shoved his tongue in her mouth and hands in her the pockets of the jeans she still wore. He dug his fingers into the thick of her ass as they stumbled back towards the bed.
Jeanie's hands labored in an effort to unbutton and unzip her pants around Darren's body as it thrust into her. She didn't want to stop the war their tongues waged as she struggled to tug the denim over her hips, but there was air as her husband’s cousin intervened. They laughed as he yanked them down to the floor and he went with them.
Darren looked up at Jeanie, who now sat on the edge of the bed, as he knelt on the floor by her feet. He helped each ankle as she lifted them out and literally kissed the tops of her feet as she drew them up on the comforter.
“That was romantic,” her voice thick and barely above a whisper. No hint of her usual sarcasm or humor, only some embarrassment. Her cheeks were pink.
“I've wanted t’fuck ye since we met. And I want ye to remember this for a long time.”
Darren stood up and hooked his fingers in the elastic of the underwear of hers that he was wearing. Jeanie covered his hands and leaned forward to kiss his stomach and his scars. Using her tongue this time to trace over them like she had her fingers.
“Leave them on? I'll never forget it if you let me fuck you wearing those.” Her fingers tangled up in the lace. Tips of her nails just brushed his cock through it.
Darren smiled in a way Jeanie wasn't sure he was capable of doing anymore. Right now, in this moment as his eyes changed from darkness to almost emerald, she knew he let himself forget. That's all she wanted. One night for both of them to forget.
“Can't say I've ever had sex like t’is,” excitement in his voice. “I'm right curious t’see how ye manage.”
“You lay down, and I'll play it by ear. This is definitely a new one for me too.”
They switched places. Darren laid down on the bed, head on the pillows. Jeanie unhooked her bra and slipped out of her own panties. She stood naked and exposed in the lamplight. Her heart raced when she realized he couldn't keep his eyes off of her. They traveled over her breasts and stomach and further still as she crawled on the bed beside Darren and straddled him.
“Fuck me,” it was a response. And a suggestion he made simultaneously. His hands spread out over her back and caught up in her long red hair.
Jeanie raised a bit up on her knees to situate herself. She lowered her body so that the outline of Darren's cock beneath the satin and lace was between the folds of her naked sex. Her hands anchored on his chest as she started to ride him.
“Jaysus your so fucking wet already,” Darren breathed and ran his hands up and down Jeanie's body. Over her shoulders and to her ass where they settled on her hips.
“It's you in my bloody knickers,” her voice wavered as she started to rock harder back and forth.
It was like a pleasurable rug burn on her cunt, as Jeanie closed her eyes and twisted her hips just a bit. She rode the length of Darren’s hardened cock completely from bottom to top and kept gaining speed each time. His strong hands buried in her waist helped her pump over and over. Then he angled himself underneath her so that the tip could hit her clit just right as she moved down.
Jeanie rode harder and faster. The satin and her cunt on fire as Darren's cock started its familiar twitch. She clawed at him without caring if someone else saw the marks on his chest. That explosion was building deep in her walls as they throbbed and ached for him to be entirely inside of her.
Instead Darren slid a thumb into her cunt. It replaced his cock as Jeanie started to lose control. Circled and fucked as she fucking him.
She clutched his wrist, “Harder. Rub my clit harder. Like that.”
He obliged all too eagerly. Especially when moments later she cried out unexpectedly. Her body rolled into an orgasm. He never let up with his thumb or his own hips as they bucked up into Jeanie as she came.
“Let me fuck you properly,” Darren begged as her cunt constricted around his hand. His thumb, the knickers and Jeanie's body slicker than before they started.
Then Darren's mobile rang. Darren's mobile was always ringing.
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hollyhomburg · 5 years ago
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I'm so excited for packtan!!!!
i’m glad you are! here’s the second part! the warnings are the same as the last one! THIS ASK IS CONCURRENT TO THE LAST ONE SO MAKE SURE YOU READ THIS ONE FIRST 
 you try to knee him in the balls but he sees through your move, blocking your knee by darting back before he grabs you by the hair. 
it’s so quick, the way he tries to steer you into one of the side rooms, grabs you by your hair and pulls, you fight back, kicking even as the door shuts, luckily its one of the ones that locks from the outside so he can’t make sure you’re undisturbed, and you should and scream and land a savage kick to throat, he splutters, but knees you in the gut sending you to the floor gasping, he stalks towards you as you back up on your hands and knees towards the fireplace. you hook your ankle around the back of his knees sending him crashing, but the only place he can fall is onto you. 
you roll around for a second, pushing at his face, as his hands settle around your throat. it almost ends like that you’re face to face with him as he snarls, blinking blood out of his eyes, your nails had cut the skin under his eyebrow as you continue to claw at him and get his hands off of you, jamming your thumb everywhere you can to no avail. nothing makes him let go of your throat as he squeezes hard enough to make your lungs scream for air. 
”you fucking bitch, I’ve been dreaming about this moment for the last 3 years- dreaming about killing you with your own two hands, don’t you wonder what happened to your precious sister’s petal? don’t worry, I kept them alive until they gave me a pup a piece, without you to protect them it was easy,” you scramble against the carpeted floor, feat kicking madly, your hand closing around something- you don’t think you just use it, bringing up the small hatchet used to cut firewood, the blow connecting to his head with a savage thump.  
he falls like a sack of potatoes, and you don’t know if you’ve killed him or just knocked him out, the sound of your ragged gasps for air and your thundering heartbeat is the only thing you hear, as you scramble to you claw your way out from underneath his dead weight. you stumble to the door and have the forethought to lock it before your instincts to get away make you break out into an uneven run, black spots blinking in your visions. 
you round a corner and crash into a chest, yoongi lets out a little oof as you collide with him. wide hands coming up to grab your arms, a basket full of silverware clanging to the floor, you flinch backward “y/n jesus christ- what are you- what’s wrong- what happened” you’re gasping, you can’t get enough air into your bruised throat, let alone enough to speak it feels like you’re breathing through a straw. Yoongi can’t cut through the panic- “baby” he says, reaching out slowly and carefully, gently taking your hands in his, worried that you’ll flinch away from him again “I can’t help you if you don’t tell me what happened,” you shake your head, and its that motion that slings your hair out of place and he sees the bruises on your neck,
that’s when he realizes, that whatever is going on, it’s bad. 
he slowly, ever so slowly, lifts up his hand to tilt your jaw to the side so he can see the bruises budding, clear lines where fingers where the broken blood vessels already darkening from pink to purple, your eyes wide and shivering, the small breathes you let in shivery and so not there- you look terrified. Yoongi is going to cut off the hands of whoever touched you, Namjoon’s rules be damned. it’s a struggle for him to keep his words even and not growl, he doesn’t want to startle you more than you already are, “who hurt you?”  
your hands shake, yoongi thinks you’re not going to be able to answer him until you ever so slowly, reach up to take his hand. he’s confused for a moment when you start dragging it underneath the side of your shirt. but then the pads of his fingers meet a raised scar. of course, yoongi knew they existed. jin and jimin had relayed enough to the rest of the pack the first day you’d been here, and they are the only one to see all of your scars in their entirety. But feeling them was a whole other thing and he feels his anger rise all over again, 
“The person who gave you these is here?” you tug at his hand again, more surely, and he’s sure he’s wrong. and you make him trace over the scar again- what is that- is that an initial? yes it it, it’s the first letter not of the pack alphas name but of his second in command. Yoongi’s met him a handful of times before. 
before yoongi can think to do anything on the matter, Hoseok rounds the corner, and you nearly jump into Yoongi’s arms, shaking even harder, even though you can smell that it’s just Hoseok- it’s still alpha- and the surprise makes you on edge, “there you both are I was looking- what’s going on? baby why are you crying?” his senses suddenly on high alert now that he can see and smell you, your scent shot through with fear making the hair on the back of his head stand up. 
yoongi tells Hoseok what happened- and Hoseok’s blood boils. he’s not going to let the other alpha get away with this. between the two of them they manage to coax you into showing them where he is, and you lead them to the end of the hall, the sitting room at the other end. there are no angry shouts, the door- locked from the outside isn’t rattling on its hinges. hoseok goes in for barely a minute before he’s out. he’s no stranger to dead bodies, “we need namjoon, this could turn into an all-out war.”
hoseok turns to leave but you won’t let him, hands suddenly fisting in the hem of his tunic, you don’t want either of them to leave, you need them right now, need them to stay and keep you safe. but you can't relay it, your mouth opening and closing a bit before you get frustrated and just pull him in. “we’re not going anywhere baby” hoseok says, words soft and low like he’s talking to a spooked animal. hands rubbing soothing circles onto the small of your back. 
They decide to take you to namjoon’s rooms, where yoongi will wait with you while Hoseok goes and tells namjoon. along the way, they run into Jungkook and Tae, and the plan is quickly switched, Taehyung holding you softly letting you set the pace for how fast they go to namjoon’s rooms. 
 “do you have her kookie? or do you need me to stay?”  “i’ll protect her till my last breath Hyung” Hoseok can see the determination in his eyes, and knows that yes, he would. “i have to find jin and jimin, and make sure they’re safe too.”
 yoongi is the one to find namjoon, “I’m going to need to not to fly into a murderous rage when i tell you what i’m about to tell you,” namjoon barely resists the shift. out of all of the alphas on the Compound, namjoon is the only one who can shift into their wolf form. it’s an old special kind of ability, one that’s been slowly disappearing for generations, and yet, his wolf within him flares to life, demands blood and viscera for whats been done to his omega. 
yoongi can see how hard it is for namjoon to resist the pull, his every muscle taught as he gets a hold of himself. Yoongi’s presence always helps, especially when the smaller man leans in close, his forehead resting against namjoon’s scent gland, which settles the pack alpha more firmly into his human body. “take me to see her yoongi, I need to make sure she’s okay.”
the world is a rush of stimulus, voices talking and hands, gentle hands that you know trying to cut through your haze.  after the adrenaline and panic had faded there’s just this- this nothing. This haze and cloud that won’t let a single thought or action gets through, you don’t even nod when Seokjin asks you a question, asking if you’d like a glass of water, a change of clothes. you don’t even try to speak anymore, not sure that you really can right now. 
And it’s scary to the others. how quickly you’d just disapeared. none of you usual wry humor, your cagey kindness and unassuming friendship- the person they love just buried under all of this resurging trauma. the only thing you do is keep ahold of taehyung’s hand where you’d stumbled, legs finally giving out once you were safely inside namjoon’s room, the smells of all of them finally lulling you out of the adrenaline high, and now this, the utter exhaustion.
jimin is there, dabbing a cool cloth along your neck, both Jungkook and Hoseok by the door, agitated, Hoseok pacing until Seokjin makes him stop it sensing it was making you more agitated. Tae and jimin never stop their slow string of words, never above a comforting murmur, they keep most of the conversation basic. “I think we’re going to need to go on a little trip to get some more clay for the potters station, I think it would be good to have a little extra before the winter season starts, I always feel like they break so many of my plates when the winter rolls around,” “I can go with you too!” jimin pipes up, now dragging the cloth down and across your arms, soothing in its coolness. it’s nice, you tighten your hand and shift a little more firmly next to jimin, he and Tae notice, and he keeps doing it, glad they can at least do this. 
at the door, yoongi announces he’s there before Soseok opens the locked door and he and namjoon enter. the effect of the pack alphas in the room is immediate, the tense feeling in everyone’s shoulders relaxing. namjoon carefully, and slowly, sit down in front of Tae and jimin and you, where you’re wrapped up in some of the furs in front of the fireplace, crackling with warmth thanks to Seokjin. namjoon takes one of your hands in his. turning over one side and then the other, finding a small cut there, bringing it to his mouth. you let out a little noise, a little whimper, and immediately Tae and jimin are holding you tighter. 
“you’re going to be okay, I promise im not going to let anything else happen to you, you’re safe here,” namjoon stands, “I want-” he breaks off then starts again, “you should stay here tonight if you want to go back to your own place you can and I’ll have a guard stationed out but please-” he needs you here, all of you, safe in his arms where the world cant hurt you. 
you nodd, eyes flashing up to meet namjoon’s before they dart away, still not able to meet his eyes. and it’s settled. already jimin and tae nervously offer you some of their pajamas, ready to prattle onto you, Seokjin is already dragging some of the furs out of the bedroom to set in front of the fire, and namjoon knows they’ll all sleep in the main room tonight. Seokjin already smells like he’s about ready nest. 
it takes another 30 minutes to mobilize. the feast is just underway, the pack people knowing not to wait for namjoon’s pack, it’s not the first time they’ve all been absent from the head table. but when he does, it’s with a line of alphas behind him, Jungkook and Hoseok, as well as a few others, all holding their hand and a half swords at the ready. “finally our glorious hosts have decided to join us” the other pack alpha says, annoyance coloring his smile more of a sneer.
 “I have an announcement to make,” namjoon says, ignoring the clear provocation. “the ironhide pack has attacked one of our omegas,” “that’s bullshit! i would have noticed, the whole packs been with me the entire night!” the alpha goes on to insinuate that this is a fabricated crime that namjoon has made it up only to get out of the alliance, every single alpha and beta in the room stands and turns to look at the pack. some of them holding their knives at their table settings, ready in their hands, ready to attack for one of their own always. namjoon is sure that if they knew it was you they wouldn’t hesitate to fight the 2 dozen or so alphas of the others pack, 
namjoon just raises his eyebrows at the alpha, “are you so sure you’d notice? when you haven’t even noticed your own brother is missing from your table.” the alpha’s head whips around, and then back to namjoon, voice deadly low. “what did you do to him,” 
“I didn’t do anything, but the omega he tried to harm did enough. he’s dead” more than one growl ripples out from the other pack. “As pack alpha- I demand you hand the omega over to us, to face retribution for their crimes.” more than one omega in the room lets out a feral snarl, namjoon see’s one of the older woman, an elderly omega known for her fiery attitude actually get up with a steak knife in hand, luckily she’s restrained by her beta son, who looks half endeared half shocked that his mother would look so ready for a fight. 
“the law of the land states that any wolf who sets foot on pack lands other than their own will be subject to the laws of that pack, and an omega killing an alpha in self-defense is not a crime on my lands, alpha lee”  he tries to interrupt. But holds up a hand, and he falls silent, and namjoon sees feer in the alpha's eyes. he’s afraid of namjoon’s next words, as he should be, namjoon could order all of them to be killed on the spot. and part of him, a small part, wants to do it sweep in and free all of the omegas and betas from underneath these alphas clutches. 
but he restrains himself, “our treaty is broken, leave our compound within the hour or your lives are forfeit, and if you fail to leave our lands within the next day so is your pack and all it’s assets. the clock is ticking alpha lee.” namjoon turns to his awaiting pack. “everyone else, please see to it that you enjoy the food and the feast, the summer months are nearly upon us, and hopefully this year will be as pleasant as the last.” namjoon sends Hoseok and Jungkook back to guard the room, they’re the only ones he trusts to really make sure you stay safe and stays for a few more minutes to make sure that the alphas of the pale hide pack leave. 
in namjoon’s rooms, Seokjin’s nest making is well underway. the thick and plush furs laid out more than thick enough the sleep you, you recline against hoseok’s chest, playing with the hands of the alpha your eyes drooping. you straighten up when you see namjoon enter, eyes wide and imploring, “they’re gone, I made sure I watched them go” you relax almost instantly, letting out a little huff of breath.” 
the others clean up the remanets of a makeshift dinner, the mood of the room is significantly less tense, and now- they can really put their full focus on you.   one of them must have gone down to the kitchens to get something, “she refused to eat,” jimin says, as namjoon pauses, tossing his robes onto the couch- pushed up against the wall, jimin fusses, shoving a bowl of soup into namjoon’s lap but even the alpha isn’t hungry as he watches you. 
you’ve put on one of his long tunics. they finally must have gotten you out of those wine-stained pants and your shirt because you're wearing one of his tunics, large and gauzy almost, the linen fabric dyed a deep navy blue. even though you doze, every few minutes, your jerk awake against Hoseok’s chest. unable to fall asleep. 
it’s just after the omegas have gone to sleep, Jungkook curling up to spoon jin  Taehyung asleep behind you, Hoseok at your front, that you jerk awake again.  yoongi and namjoon are still awake, namjoon still sitting facing the door and yoongi sitting beside him talking it over. his hand and a half sword balanced across his knees. 
“Yoongi” you say, your voice little more than a whisper in its threadyness, yoongi is quick to come to your side, a hand delicately against the back of your head, crouching down “yes my angel?”  “I can’t sleep” you rub at one of your eyes with a clenched fist, he’s never seen you act so childlike or ask so readily for help, help that he is more than ready to give, “let me make you some tea.” 
Namjoon watches as his eldest beta sets the pot over the fire, carefully sturs in the special nighttime blend you’d taught yoongi how to make when he’d started wondering after your recipes. he holds the cup to your mouth, your hands shaking too much not to spill it all over. Namjoon watches and feels his heartbreak with how full it is, when yoongi presses a soft kiss to your forehead.
 you pull at the edge of his shirt, a low whine in your throat until yoongi gets in next to you, making tae scoot over,  so now you're in-between hoseok’s chest and yoong’s. Hoseok pulling you closer in his sleep. your eyes are wide as you look up, meeting Namjoons, he can sense your question before you voice it, you shouldn't strain your throat.
“I’ll turn in soon little one. You should sleep,” the sleeping draft yoongi made seems to be doing the trick, already your eyes are drooping, more lucid, but you do nod, turning over to tuck your head under Yoongi’s chin, the beta making a happy surprise noise in his throat 
Namjoon turns back to the door as his pack sleeps on below him, standing vigil until the first light of morning crests through the window. his hand tightening on his sword with every sound, he won't let anything hurtyou- not tonight or any other night, never again he vows, looking at the bruises around your throat, never again will he allow his family to be hurt. 
it’s a promise that Namjoon keeps.    
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itshesdimples · 4 years ago
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-Hello to anyone reading. This is my first time writing something and putting it out for the world to see. That being said, I would love any constructive criticism you have to give me. Thank you for any support you may give me, I cant thank you enough xoxo ~H - 
I remember the day as if it were yesterday; the day you crossed the unimaginable line. 
I thought we had everything, I thought I was your everything. 
2 MONTHS AGO
"Hey sunshine, just calling to let you know I wont be able to make it home this time. I'm sorry, the label has me doing something that I'm not sure is a good idea but they say it will help me in the long run." He sighs at the end, I imagine him palming his forehead.
"Look, I need you to listen to me when I tell you that you are everything to me, you make me want to become the best version of myself. During the months we have been together I have seen the best and worst side of you and I'm not running, promise. I want you to be mine forever, do you hear me? Just remember that." Harry expelled.
You were a little worried, seeing as you two had been together for a little over nine months and it was extremely rewarding. The time apart has always been different to the other relationships she had been in the past but with Harry it seemed like more than she had ever received from the previous men. 
As a surgical intern you work countless hours and never really get more than a few hours to yourself, so when you met Harry you really never saw it going anywhere. You were just too happy for your own good, openly expressing your life to perfect strangers and expecting them all to be accepting of who you are.
* 9 MONTHS AGO* 
The hospital you worked at allotted 80 hours a work week and as hopeful as you may be feeling, there is a little voice in the back of your head telling you not to go bar hopping. "Just one drink and then water." you emphasize to your good friend Mike, the bartender. 
"Vodka soda coming right up, Dr. Demanding." He chuckles. You turn around in the chair and stare at all the fellow drunks, looking for your intern comrades who should be here by now. 
Although you dont find your friends, you spot a very handsome, familiar face coming toward you. Admiring the face across from you, you decide to take the first step following by the downing of your vodka soda. " You dont seem to be familiar with the very famous bar here in town so you must not be from around here," you tease, holding out your hand to shake. "I'm [Y/N]. Not to sound weird but have we met before?" You get a very bold feeling of deja vu but laugh it off. "I'm sorry, my friends are supposed to be here by now and I'm socially handicapped, sometimes I dont know when to stop talking." Now you're just rambling at the breathtaking man in front of you and feeling red in the cheeks. 
"Its alright love, I sometimes feel socially handicapped around exquisite women such as yourself. Actually, that sounded like you're one of hundreds but I-- what I meant to say was that, you seem a little lonely. Can I buy you a drink?" He rambles, tugging at his jacket. 
"I am only allowed one drink, I know it sounds weird but I'm on a ticking time bomb, you see this?" You pull out your pager, "any moment this thing will go off and I have to skip back to work like a dreamy little school girl but inside I am dying of starvation, need a beer and twenty hours sleep." You just keep spitting up word vomit and your face is permanently pink but you just cant stop because what if it gets quiet? Now that's when it gets awkward.
"I don't think we have ever met because I'd remember you" Harry confirms, looking you up and down your shapely body. "What do you do for a living that has you on such a tight leash?" Taking a sip of his beer, he stands up and walks next to the chair you're sitting in. 
"Surgical intern, Dr. [Y/L/N] at your service, sir." You cant help but crack a little bit of the tension you have building up in your stomach while talking to him but that doesn't stop you from staring him in the eyes and trying your best to flirt. 
The aura around him is too intoxicating, too much to handle without trying to add a little humor in the mix. "I like it when you call me sir, Dr. [Y/L/N] but how long have you been a doctor? I'd love to get to know you before you have to leave me." He articulates, trying to captivate her attention.
"I love my job but it has been a long winded road, it feels like years but I've only been a real doctor for a little over two months. It takes a lot out of me but that is why I'm glad I have two great friends who I can lean on. We keep each other afloat and they're also my roommates. I don't know where I would be without them." All of that poured out of my mouth before I had the chance to cork it but I couldn't help telling him something about myself that was at least surface level.
He just seems like an eerie case of the best illusion I've ever seen. I cant help but shake the feeling that I've known him all my life, like telling him the ins-and-outs of my life wouldn't be detrimental to my health. 
"Now tell me something about yourself. For starters maybe your name? I've never seen you here before and I'm here all the time so I'm pretty good at knowing who is an out of towner, and I don't know how much time I have left." You're trying to get to know him and that is so unlike you. Having had boyfriends in the past, you were never the one asking the questions or wanting to get to know them more than a few dates and drinks. The longest relationship you have ever had was two months and you two went to high school together. 
"Hi I'm Harry, and I don't know how much longer I get to sit next to you so please can I have your number, sunshine? I would love to take you for dinner sometime soon." Harry is going out on a whim asking for your phone number but keeps going, "From what I have gathered you are a very busy woman and I admire that, love it even. I know this sounds crazy but I feel like I know you already and I have never felt that with another person so please give me a chance, I will work around your schedule. I dont care what it--" he is stopped when your pager goes off as an emergent patient being admitted, all hands on deck you assume. 
"Sunshine, huh? I like it." You wink at him and ask Mike for a pen so you can scrawl your number on a napkin and thank Harry for a very pleasant chat. It was good to know that he felt for you, as you did him after just meeting the man, and his nickname for you was adorable. 
For the next two weekends you spent getting to know Harry on a personal note. He told you he loved writing music, performing and was already an amazing talent. Harry showed you his latest music and you wondered how you hadn't connected the dots sooner. You knew he was a very private person, as he told you on your first date. 
(FLASHBACK)
"I'd love to get to know your friends, and see what kind of person you are. I can't wait to know you but I just want you to know that I can't have a lot of people knowing what is going on in my personal life." He sighs, you two sat down at dinner and he couldn't help but spit out what he wanted to tell you when you first met. "I don't want to sound pretentious or come off as someone who cares about his appearance to others but I have to tell you that I make music for a living and have quite the lot of fans. Screaming fans to be exact, " he chortles, asking the waiter for a bottle of wine to start off, "but I can't help but love them all. They made my career but I have to remain a private person. I adore my fans but they are very protective and I don't want our relationship to struggle because of a few of them saying unkind things." He grabs your hand and looks you in the eyes, trying to make you understand the reason for privacy.
"I've never met anyone like you Harry and I meet a lot of people on the regular. You have this way about you that draws me in and I want to get to know you. If that means that I cannot post my gushing about you on social media, so be it. I really like you and would like to know who you are." You declare, hoping he understands that he as a person means more than everyone understanding her lifestyle choices. 
(END OF FLASHBACK) 
Tonight was the night you knew you wanted to understand him on an even more personal level. You knew that the way you felt for him wasn't a normal crush, wasn't even a normal type of love. You knew he had the power to hurt you if he wished to do so but that was so far in the back of your mind. He meant so much to you already that it didn't matter you two were keeping your relationship a secret from most of the world, apart from a select few. It was the best date of them all, Harry cooked you and your best friends dinner so when you got off work, dinner was on the table. He was always so thoughtful of your needs and you thought it was the time to prioritize his.
"Take me to bed Harry." You whimper, "I want you." 
*7 MONTHS LATER* 
Things were hectic in your life but that was the way they always were but now it seemed like days stretched past 24 hours and turned into a marathon sprint that never ended. 
The day Harry unmistakably broke you was the day that sleep had everything on you. Going for days on end was something you were accustomed to but after he cut you deeper than you could ever be, sleep seemed to be your only friend. 
You thought you knew him better than anyone. He was your Harry, your everything, even your person maybe? 
But when his decision to take his career to the next step interfered in your relationship, your life; that was the day to call it quits no matter the devastation. He may have been your soulmate but maybe, just maybe it wasn't right. The timing, the place of it all was just too much. Your life just didn't have room for much else, especially someone who was willing to hurt you unimaginably and not walk away in order to lessen the blow. 
*2 WEEKS BEFORE THE INEVITABLE *
"Hey sunshine, just calling to let you know I wont be able to make it home this time. I'm sorry, the label has me doing something that I'm not sure is a good idea but they say it will help me in the long run." He sighs at the end, I imagine him palming his forehead.
"Look, I need you to listen to me when I tell you that you are everything to me, you make me want to become the best version of myself. During the months we have been together I have seen the best and worst side of you and I'm not running, promise. I want you to be mine forever, do you hear me? Just remember that." Harry expelled.
That was two hours ago and within those two hours you knew it was best to stay off your phone. You keep telling yourself to not look for anything leading you to clues about his voice mail. It wasn't like him to express his feelings over the phone, he was an in person 'declare-my-love-for-you' type of man so when you listened to it you thought it was best to stay off your phone. 
Trailing off to the shower in pursuit of getting to work, you hear your phone's inescapable shrill from your bedroom and decide to opt away from contact to that thing. 
As soon as you leave for work is when your heart stops, skips a few beats and then plummets into your stomach. 
"Harry Styles in a relationship with Camille Rowe? That is the best thing I have heard all week. The star tells us that they met months ago and kept it a secret in order to get to know each other. We cant wait for updates on their relationship. Now on to the juic--" That's all you can hear for the rest of the day, ringing in your mind like it is an announcement on the P.A. at work for all to hear. 
You knew that was the end of everything. Devastation didn't even hit the mark, it was like everything in the world was on fast forward and you were still trying to get through the commercials. Nothing made sense any more, the glass was no longer half full. It was completely drained and then smashed on the ground into a million little pieces. That was how her whole body felt, like it was just shattered on the ground, irreparable. 
The damage was done and there was nothing holding you back from wailing like a siren in front of all of the patients waiting for surgery, but your best friends always had your back. Making sure you eat during lunch and taking you to the bar at the end of your shift so you can drink the bottle dry. 
Just shy of a half hour sitting at the bar was when you were cut-off by Harry running into the bar rambling about how he thought they were spinning the tabloids another way. 
"I thought they were going to report that we just met and were already dating, I would have never let them ruin what we had by saying I knew her while you and I were together. I told them exactly what to say! I don't even know her, we just met." He jumbles his sentences trying to get hold of his clear message. 
You stand up from your seated position and start motioning for him to join you outside. Once out there, you decide what is best moving forward. 
"While we were together?" You scoff, trying to be as civil as can be under your obvious exhaustion, throwing your hands up in exasperation.
"At least you said something truthful in the last two minutes you decided to interrupt my break. Yes, you and I are no longer together. Honestly we should have never started something, our careers couldn't be more opposite and honestly I cannot afford to ruin my career over someone who wants to build his on lies. So thank you for what we had but from now on I would like to move forward, away from you." You keep talking in order to get your point across, hoping that when all is said and done there will be closure on both ends. 
You know that Harry does care for you but in these last twenty four hours you've learned is that maybe you can't have it all. Maybe happily-ever-afters are only for the imagination. 
Maybe life throws things at you so you can overcome them but there are times like these when she wonders what the message is supposed to be? 
Is there a message? 
That you can have one person in your life that should be your forever but just cant fit in there? 
"I know we never said it but I do love you, I think I always will but we can't make it fit. The time we spent together was great and I hope there is a lesson in there somewhere. I can only believe that closure is what we need now." She grabs on to his shoulder and goes in for a hug to end the conversation but he pulls back,"How could you think that we need closure? What we need is each other. I need you, in my life with me forever. You are always going to be the only one for me, I just know it." He grabs on to her and holds for dear life, hoping that he can convey her to stick it out for them both. 
"I know what I'm feeling is selfish because I never want to hurt you but my career is part of my life and I can't run away from who I am but I want you in my life, always. I will never stop loving you." Harry pulls away and looks in her eyes with tears in his," I cannot fathom a life without my sunshine. Maybe the timing is wrong but cant we make it right?" 
[Y/N] pulls away, trying to compose herself and make the most rational decision. She needs to think about her life and what she needs, not anyone else. "Harry Styles, while being with you was the best rollercoaster ride of my life, and if I could stay on forever I would do so; I have to get off. I need to pull away for the sake of my head and heart. Being with you makes me happy but when it interferes with my work, which is saving lives, I have to be on one hundred percent all the time. You have clouded my thoughts and judgement, and while being a star is part of who you are, being a doctor is me so I cannot give up who I am. Sometimes maybe love isn't enough?" By this point you can't hold back the sobs you have held in since you knew the inevitable truth and holding them back would be foolish, so you let them come. 
Harry tries to grab onto you with the little strength he has left from crying and lack of sleep. "I cannot let you get away. You are my everything! I canno--" he tries to catch his breath in between the racks of his heart," please, please do not leave me [Y/N]. We can make this work. I love you and that is enough, it is enough for me. Please." Harry whispers the last part, crouching in front of you and trying to hold you to him. 
"It isn't enough for the both of us Harry, and you know it." You're trying to hold back until you can be alone. All you want is to crawl in bed and become dead to the world because that's how you feel right about now. " I will always love you and maybe one day that love will be enough but right now I just don't see how that is possible Harry. I can't rationalize what is happening in our relationship and tell you that we will make it through it. The best thing to do is cut our ties before we start to resent each other." You take one last breath, looking at your friends inside the bar. You signal to them that you're leaving, and say the one thing that you know will hurt the most. 
"I can't try anymore to be with you so this is my goodbye. I wish you the best Harry, I really do." In the middle of all this you had a death grip on his hands but now is the time to walk away from one of the best things to happen to you. As gut wrenching as it is, the best thing for the both of them was to move on. Worry about the time in their career when it is at the peak so as hurtful as it is, she knows that she is doing what's best. 
You pull away from his grasp, looking down at him kneeling on the ground and kiss his forehead. "I love you." You whisper through tears. 
All you can hear behind you is wails of sirens, drunk people cheering on the football game inside but the one thing that is the loudest is Harry's cries. As soon as you walk away you break down into a blubbering mess. Your friends catch up after you, while looking at the mess you and Harry made behind. You can hear Harry's cries of desperation and the only thing your heart is telling you to do is 'go back, go back to him' but you know it's not logical. 
If it is meant to be you will make it work at a better time. Things will come together and make sense one day but not when her mind is a fuzzy mess. Maybe weeks, months or years later she will understand what it means to have love be enough. It has to mean something right? 
Good byes may hurt but sometimes they are unsurpassable. Sometimes they come barreling into your life totally unexpected and ruin something you thought could be forever. 
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"I knew they would kill me when they found out, but…” He struggled for words, releasing a sharp breath. “I think I realized that I would rather die because I betrayed them, than live because I betrayed you."
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In the sequel of the thrilling Lunar Chronicles series, Cinder, the cyborg mechanic is trying to break out of prison and even if she succeeds, she'll be the Eastern Commonwealth's most wanted fugitive.
Halfway across the world with her grandmother missing, Scarlet Benoit meets a street fighter going by the name Wolf who many have information about her grandmother's whereabouts. Scarlet hates having to trust a stranger but is inexplicably drawn to him. As Scarlet and Wolf unravel one mystery they encounter another when they meet Cinder. Now they all must try to stay one step ahead of the cruel Queen Levena of Luna who will hesitate at nothing to make the handsome Emperor Kai her husband and prisoner.
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And dear author has done it again! She's managed to take an age old childhood tale and twist it around to write this magnificent book! I mean our little red didn't know what hit her when she met wolf.
"ʙᴜᴛ ɪ'ᴍ ᴀ ᴡᴀɴᴛᴇᴅ ꜰᴜɢɪᴛɪᴠᴇ, ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴄɪɴᴅᴇʀ." ᴛʜᴏʀɴᴇ ᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇᴅ. "ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏ ʀᴇᴀʟɪꜱᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ᴍɪꜱꜱɪɴɢ, ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛʜᴇʏ?"
"ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ʀᴇ ɢʀᴀᴛᴇꜰᴜʟ," ᴄɪɴᴅᴇʀ ᴍᴜᴛᴛᴇʀᴇᴅ.
Another gorgeous gorgeous read that made me want to squeal! It's only the second book but I'm starting to think this series is just perfect. It has the perfect amount of gushy romance, action, humor, and how can I forget the mind control, and all the other kinds of crazy.
And the characters! So many characters to like. I love Thorne, he's such a sweetheart. Honestly, I can't wait for more of him.
"ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴏꜰ ɪᴛ ᴀꜱ 'ꜱᴛᴏʟᴇɴ'. ᴛʜᴇʏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ɴᴏ ᴘʀᴏᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴅɪᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴘʟᴀɴ ᴏɴ ɢɪᴠɪɴɢ ɪᴛ ʙᴀᴄᴋ."
I had a little bit of a struggle opening my heart to Scarlet but by the end I was totally hooked. I think that's probably because I absolutely love Cinder and wanted more of her. And Wolf, where can I find him? I need one! And all of them together! Their relationship is just amazing. Also I was just so hapoy to have Iko back! She's just too cute!
"ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ... ʀᴀᴛʜᴇʀ ʜᴀɴᴅꜱᴏᴍᴇ, ᴄᴀᴘᴛᴀɪɴ ᴛʜᴏʀɴᴇ." ᴄɪɴᴅᴇʀ ɢʀᴏᴀɴᴇᴅ.
"ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ, ᴍʏ ꜰɪɴᴇ ʟᴀᴅʏ, ᴀʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏꜱᴛ ɢᴏʀɢᴇᴏᴜꜱ ꜱʜɪᴘ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇꜱᴇ ꜱᴋɪᴇꜱ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʟᴇᴛ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅɪꜰꜰᴇʀᴇɴᴛ."
ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴍᴘᴇʀᴀᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴅʀɪꜰᴛᴇᴅ ᴜᴘᴡᴀʀᴅ, ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ᴄɪɴᴅᴇʀ ᴅʀᴏᴘᴘᴇᴅ ʜᴇʀ ᴀʀᴍꜱ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ꜱɪɢʜ. "ɪᴋᴏ, ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪɴᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟʟʏ ʙʟᴜꜱʜɪɴɢ?"
ᴛʜᴇ ᴛᴇᴍᴘᴇʀᴀᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴅʀᴏᴘᴘᴇᴅ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛᴏ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴀɴᴛ. "ɴᴏ," ɪᴋᴏ ꜱᴀɪᴅ. ᴛʜᴇɴ, "ʙᴜᴛ ᴀ�� ɪ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ? ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ꜱʜɪᴘ?"
"ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛɪᴇꜱᴛ," ꜱᴀɪᴅ ᴛʜᴏʀɴᴇ.
I just really really wanted Cinder to comm the world including Levena and be like "hello there aunt". I so badly want to see their reaction! Ah the drama, the absolute best! This is precisely why I would never live past 5 chapters as a main character. Honestly, my klutzy self would never live past the introduction.
I kept putting off reading this as much as possible simply because I didn't want it to end and whenever I picked it up to read a couple of chapters I just flew through the pages. It really is that good! Also was I the only one thinking what the heck happened to Dr Erland? Like he doing good or what?
ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ɴᴏᴅ, ᴛʜᴏʀɴᴇ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴡɴ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴇᴛ. 'ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡᴀʏ.'
ꜰɪᴠᴇ ꜱᴛᴇᴘꜱ ʟᴀᴛᴇʀ, ʜᴇ ᴘᴀᴜꜱᴇᴅ, ᴘᴏɴᴅᴇʀᴇᴅ, ᴛᴜʀɴᴇᴅ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ. 'ɴᴏ, ɴᴏ, ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡᴀʏ.'
'ᴡᴇ'ʀᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴅ.'
'ɴᴏ, ɪ'ᴠᴇ ɢᴏᴛ ɪᴛ ɴᴏᴡ. ɪᴛ'ꜱ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡᴀʏ.'
'ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀɴ ᴀᴅᴅʀᴇꜱꜱ?'
'ᴀ ᴄᴀᴘᴛᴀɪɴ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴋɴᴏᴡꜱ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ʜɪꜱ ꜱʜɪᴘ ɪꜱ. ɪᴛ'ꜱ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴘꜱʏᴄʜɪᴄ ʙᴏɴᴅ.'
'ɪꜰ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴡᴇ ʜᴀᴅ ᴀ ᴄᴀᴘᴛᴀɪɴ ʜᴇʀᴇ.'
And can I just say that our beloved Emperor Kai is the perfect Prince Charming. Just like Charming he keeps missing all the hints and is oblivious to everything going on around him. Kai just can't connect the dots just like Charming who completely forgot the face of the girl who caught his eye and who he freaking danced with through the whole evening. But we love them so that's fine!
Scarlet was packed with so many good quotes even though they don't seem thought provoking at first glance but once you read them over it just hits you. Like this one.
"ꜱʜᴇ ʀᴜʟᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ꜰᴇᴀʀ, ʏᴇꜱ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟꜱᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀᴅᴏʀᴀᴛɪᴏɴ. ɪᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴇᴀꜱʏ ᴛᴏ ᴀʙᴜꜱᴇ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʀᴇᴄᴏɢɴɪᴢᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ᴀꜱ ᴀʙᴜꜱᴇ."
And this.
"ɪ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴡᴇ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴊᴜᴅɢᴇ ʜᴇʀ, ᴏʀ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ, ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʀʏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀꜱᴛᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ꜰɪʀꜱᴛ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴡᴇ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴜʟʟ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ᴊᴜᴍᴘɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏɴᴄʟᴜꜱɪᴏɴꜱ. ᴄʀᴀᴢʏ ɴᴏᴛɪᴏɴ, ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ."
And this.
"ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ᴍᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛᴇʟʟɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴜᴛʜ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪᴛ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴍᴇʀᴄʏ ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴇ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ."
Also, didn't Wolf just melt your heart? Was I the only one swooning? Perhaps I just have a thing for wolves.
So I just watched the kissing booth 2 and lost in the wild got stuck in my head and I can't help but imagine the rampion crew dancing to it at the end of the series! Weirdly I think it's so fitting!
I was so confused as to what props I could use that would relate to the book and make for a half decent picture. Yes, yes I used vegetables. I mean Scarlet sells vegetables so that totally makes sense! Not like I could find a wolf anywhere! Or a spaceship!
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ngame989 · 6 years ago
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SVTFOE 4A Prediction/Analysis Master Post
So we just had the first two episodes come out, and overall I enjoyed them. There’s been a lot of mixed reactions to the details, from myself included, so let’s dive in a bit. Apologies for when this becomes a giant wall of text in the back half, I'm not digging through promos for images.
Butterfly Follies
In the first episode, 98% of it is focused on Star feeling like shit because Moon is missing and nothing she does to try and find her works, and other people keep telling her she is screwing it up. Yeah, many of us thought this theme of “Star screwing up” would extend a bit more concretely to stuff with Marco and Tom, and it was present but only a tiny bit as a reminder. Her interaction with Tom was basically just a reminder that the situation from after Booth Buddies hadn’t budged - Star still was barely paying attention to him, Tom was still not really a companion to her at all, it just isn’t working, but they haven’t talked about it yet.
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Tomstar has always had the candy coating of a romantic relationship (nicknames, handholding, occasional smooching, gossip and drama, etc) with virtually nothing underneath. We see this over and over - Demoncism has a genuine emotional connection between them in that moment, but once their relationship starts up again, it takes until Is Another Mystery for even a hint of true, genuine support between them, and it still doesn’t extend to either of them considering the other as a life companion at all. Most of it is going through the motions for both of them. When everyone’s lives were on the line, Tom stepped up, but this doesn’t immediately make him Marco 2 - the issues that existed before, the lack of commitment and drive between them (still candy-coated by nicknames and whatnot) is as present as ever, and arguably more so, now that Star has the events of the end of S3 dwelling somewhere in the recesses of her mind. Plus we get a moment of Tom checking in with Marco about Star’s comment, showing once again that Marco is the one Tom actually turns to for genuine support.
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Contrast that with Starco in these episodes. Yes, it’s not magically perfect, there’s still lots of stuff to resolve and many people (myself included) have felt that it was a bit “off” (more on that soon). But there’s still a genuine sense of progression, where Marco is comfortable being close with Star again, being emotional support, even if he doesn’t always know how to help.
As predicted, Eclipsa’s style of ruling has mostly been “make disliking monsters entirely illegal because that’s Equality™” and it’s not working out so well for true social change. I expect this to be a major plot point moving forward.
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Honestly, I dunno what all to make of the details of Glossy’s lines here. Considering the situation with Toffee was pretty explicitly Glossaryck’s intentional method of teaching Star how to do things her own way, this definitely isn’t literal. Maybe he’s playing 4D chess, and Star questioning whether Glossaryck was misleading her is all part of how he leads her. There’s a... nonzero chance, I suppose, that there is some more direct connection here and trying to fix past mistakes (since time travel is brought up very shortly) but I’d be incredibly shocked and largely appalled if that’s where things actually head.
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So let’s talk about this for a moment, shall we? I’ve seen a lot of talk about this photo and how it’s really sketchy that Star apparently knew it was from the future the whole time, given its past importance in Starcrushed. Granted, we don’t know exactly how it’s going to pay off yet, but I’ll take a strong educated guess - it’s basically a gag because the writers thought it would be fun. A relevant gag and kind of an asspull, yes, but still just a gag. Yes, the photo is now factually from the future and will be relevant again in that capacity, but I’m entirely convinced that the point of it wasn’t to intentionally retcon something about Starcrushed or anything like that - a meaningful photo of Star and Marco was used in Season 2 to generically remind her of their “good times” and their relationship as a whole, and that same photo was used here as a promise of happiness to come, and the primary purpose of the photo in each case is how it was written for that case.
I know it’s not a satisfying explanation, but it is entirely consistent with this show to have details occur that are largely arbitrary and inconsistent, and there’s a consistency to that inconsistency. Adult Marco is another example, Janna implying Kelly maybe had feelings for Marco in Stump Day is another, any time Star yeeted a high school student into some pit of horrors is another. All of these are situations where, if you examine them thoroughly as a whole and consider all the possible implications, they get kind of sketchy really fast. Yes, it is frustrating at times, but I think you just have to roll with it - Marco has memories of a 30 year old when the boarders want to make a cool reference before Marco does a bunch of fancy weapon tricks, but it never affects his normal existence unless it’s needed for a joke/reference. Janna says something that implies complicated romance drama incoming when the boarders want girly banter to accompany dudes fighting, but it doesn’t go anywhere beyond that. Star has a body count on Earth but she’s not a wanted criminal, probably. The consistency here is that if the show kind of glosses over some sort of possible implication and plays it off for a gag, then that’s what you should take it as.
Again, I don’t know exactly how this will pay itself off, but I have an incredibly strong suspicion that the answer to “what were the boarders thinking when they did this??? It screws up a core moment in Starcrushed!!!” is that they weren’t thinking about that. COULD they actually do something more in-depth with the time travel aspect? I guess, but “throwing organic core moments of character/relationship growth under the bus for the sake of wacky over-the-top plot” sounds like the opposite of this show. I’ll cover more about how I think this might actually work later.
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A lot of people said Star and Marco felt like acquaintances this episode, and not best friends. I understand where they’re coming from - there weren’t all kinds of hugs and affection flying around, their talks were awkward. But this honestly makes a lot of sense for where we’re at now. We’re completely over the hump where they they're hesitant to even think of themselves as best buddies, where they’re struggling with their feelings just to spend time with the other. Marco is back to making all attempts to be her close friend and companion and support, Star is comfortable around him... but, there’s still some lingering “OK we moved forward from here, what now?” We saw in Divide that a simple hug between them brought out strong feelings for both of them. I think a lot of the awkwardness remaining could be attributed to the strong sour mood of the situation overall, but part of it could also be a subconscious “OK, Marco confessing his feelings made things better, and we’re OK being close, but...” lingering, waiting to be addressed. And given pancake and cereal clips, it will be soon.
Escape from the Pie Folk
I have less to say about this episode, it was fairly straightforward, honestly. It was 22 minutes of adventure and fights while trying to find and steal away Moon - lot of really fun and well-executed humor, it definitely was a strong showing for pretty much all the parts of the show besides “focus on the relationship growth of Star and Marco”.
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More Marco trying to be constantly supportive, but still maybe having a bit of lingering tension in the how.
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And sweet family moments.
Overall, a very isolated situation, honestly. The actions and interactions of the characters were put in a very specific, very focused situation where “finding Moon” overrode anything else, and didn’t allow for much other special elements to shine through. I liked the episodes, but some part of me was disappointed that most developments besides Moon were put on pause for the premiere. Still, resolving this in its entirety straight away sets up for some pretty strong coverage of the rest...
INTERMISSION
Let’s take a moment to talk about compartmentalization and the rules of TV pacing. I love Star vs the Forces of Evil, and I’m sure many of you do, even if its infuriating and painful at times. A lot of times. But I definitely think the show is special and does things differently than many others, to an extent. And that extent is key - I like to think of it as content vs structure. Content-wise, it is rather different from what you might expect (especially with character/relationship development). Characters come first, always, and there isn’t a sense of outside drama pushing characters around like ragdolls, changing their relationships and emotions in ways that they aren’t already naturally primed to at that moment. Romance isn’t handled as a drama-fest love triangle, with Star and Jackie or Tom and Marco directly vying for the affection of their love interest, nor do those love triangles ever damage the development of the main dynamic, Starco. Basically every shift in Star and Marco’s relationship, the ebbs and flows of it, can be entirely explained by just the two of them. Yes, seeing the other be romantic with someone else was a partial catalyst to individual moments of growth, but by and large Star and Marco themselves have been their own biggest obstacles, their own insecurities and missteps guiding the path of Starco 1000x more than Jarco or Tomstar or plot.
However, this doesn’t mean the show is magically free of the confines of episodic story pacing, and that’s where people often find faults in it. Many, including myself, went into the premiere thinking/hoping that it would include some relationship payoff, or skip some steps and just have Tom and Star break it off right away. And while anyone is free to disagree with the general concept of the premiere being entirely focused on Moon and plot setup, it’s completely logical for the show to take its development in concrete, compartmentalized chunks. An episode dedicating itself to a theme, to a concrete piece of plot, is likely going to focus on that. And this can be nuanced - I don’t think it was wrong of people to think that Follies could have had a theme of “Star confronted with her screwups” in a broader way that included multiple aspects of that, but it doubled down on Moon and it’s totally understandable that she didn’t take time during her hunt to figure out her feelings, etc. Still, it included reminders of the current situation, and we’ll see those pay off very soon. It’s not so reasonable to expect the show to bend over backwards to steamroll through Starco development right away, but it’s also unreasonable to expect no chunks of development at all, or for them to stop randomly. 
More specifically, the way the episodic structure handles these chunks is to follow up underlying buildup with inevitable realizations. It’s very, very rare for an episode that confronts a character with a specific question (e.g. “How do I feel about my Earth life” - Marco in Sophomore Slump, or “How do I feel about Marco” - Star in Starcrushed) to actually have the emotional development required to understand it occur within that episode. Star isn’t confronted with her crush on Marco until it’s developed enough to be ready to burst out. Marco isn’t confronted with his priorities in life until he’s experience enough of a bold, adventurous life with Star that his heart has already decided, and in both cases it’s a matter of a climactic wake-up call to what’s already there. On that note, onto predictions.
Moon Remembers
Well, I dunno much specific to say about this. Seems like this will be the episode dedicated to trying to get Moon her memory back - we have scenes from the promos of them riding warnicorns and Eclipsa playing guitar with her, maybe just trying to jog it. Could lead to some type of plot revelation (”I remember something big I saw in the Realm of Magic!” etc) but who knows. Seems likely that it’s entirely plot/Moon-focused, maybe with some more tie-ins to magic lore.
Swim Suit
This is a big one. So from the synopsis, we know that this is when Star and Marco attempt to have their beach day (which we now know is a celebration of things being “back to normal”, with Moon being back) but get interrupted by Eclipsa. I don’t know specifics of it, but in general, I think this is going to be the episode where Star truly settles in to an understanding of how she feels.
Quick tangent about the photo and how I think it’ll be used: in Follies, it was primarily encouragement for finding her mom. It’s still definitely interesting, and intentional, that the particular reminder of future happiness is a time with Marco, but it wasn’t relevant immediately - I think it will be used that way moving forward. Basically like this - “I kept this photo as encouragement to think positively and know I’d find my Mom. We found Mom, so now I can be happy like in the photo. It feels really good being happy with Marco like I am in the photo. Huh, I wonder why it is that my ideal of happiness is having fun with Marco...” Clearly the underlying feelings are already there, this is just bringing them to the forefront, actually giving Star a chance to reflect on how her heart feels after recent weeks/months and big events. As for specifics, I think they won’t actually take the photo here. They’ll try to have a beach day, get interrupted, and throughout the course of Eclipsa shenanigans, the episodic plot will tie in towards thinking about her feelings, with the end result being a “well, we didn’t achieve Beach Happiness™, but it was still nice.” We already know that an Earth beach is in episode 16, so maybe the photo comes full circle then (and at that point, they’re completely together already, and the photo is spontaneous). Or maybe I’m wrong, but who knows, this is a level of specificity I can’t predict with any confidence.
Also note here that, provided animation studio order stays consistent as expected, the cereal/pancake/babysitting Meteora scenes aren’t actually from Swim Suit, so who knows where those end up.
Overall, my general expectations for this episode are to set the stage for Starco developments, to start the ball rolling on payoff from last season and to start characters recognizing those changes and truly moving forward. Of course Tomstar is likely not going away officially until Lake House Fever, so I don’t exactly expect Star and Marco to talk about their feelings in depth here, but it’ll still be an important episode for Starco regardless.
Ransomgram
Alright, let’s just make something clear here. Yes, we already know Star is going to be fawning over adult Marco’s hot bod here, and very likely before breaking up with Tom. I know a lot of people are gonna find that sketchy, and I don’t entirely disagree, but adult Marco (and Star thirsting after hot dudes in general) has always been a gag never treated with any real serious weight. Both Jarco and Tomstar overall, but especially Tomstar, never really ever are treated with any true weight in the story. Like, yes, it’s acknowledged that Marco and Star kissing while she’s dating Tom are bad, but none of the moments of Marco abandoning Jackie to be with Star, or Star ignoring Tom to be with Marco, or Tom being a really unhelpful/unsupportive boyfriend, are ever treated with any real gravity. In the real world, perhaps these would be frowned upon much more even in weaker relationships, but in the show, “Star and Tom are dating” is taken as a given in the background, and none of the actions that characters take are really ever truly treated seriously as hurtful. So yes, on some level it’s weird and questionable that Star will be drooling over Marco (again) while STILL not talking to Tom, but Compartmentalization™ and the general lack of concern for treating the possible implications of situations like this seriously add up to explain it. Feel however you want about it, but this is how I expect it to work, because it’s how it’s worked in the past.
MHC is gonna come back here, and there might be a connection to the monster side of the plot, figuring out where the old guard fits in with the new regime and how politics are moving forward. Also, as far as Starco goes, I think this will be a sort of emotional payoff to Swim Suit. Not that anything tangible will result within the episode, but showing the differences in how Star acts around Marco when she’s actually admitting to herself that she loves him. Just like how Marco Jr., for instance, showed a very clear and different Starco interaction than 3A episodes, as a result of the concrete development moments in Deep Dive. Or how their interactions in Divide were very clearly the result of changes in Booth Buddies. So on and so forth.
All of this, then, leads into...
Lake House Fever
So this is where Tomstar finally rots. We have all-but-confirmation from animation studios, hints in the title, and background/SFX “leaks” that this is where the Tom and Star clips in the promos are from. So how exactly might this work? I can’t even say for sure, but I think it’s going to follow the usual trend of Tomstar episodes and basically be a vehicle for Tom development. Let’s face it, Star basically got nothing out of Tomstar besides a general passive armor against having to contemplate heartbreak/feelings since Tom filled the checkbox of “romance” in her life. She initially at least did truly fulfill the role of “normal teenage girlfriend” by spending time with him, dates, etc, but that started to wane after Lava Lake Beach and kept doing so more and more, and it’s now basically at the point of Tomstar being a couple in name only, with 0 effort between either of them put into actually... being anything. 
Let’s compare to Sophomore Slump for a minute, shall we? So in that episode, we had Marco who had undergone a ton of previous developments in how much he cared about adventure and a greater purpose in life and Star, and his heart had already basically made up its mind (Scent of a Hoodie’s ending and wearing the cape in Rest in Pudding, as clear signs of this). Sophomore Slump was the direct reality check, the final piece of the puzzle slotting into place, at least with regards to specifically “where he’d rather be” (even if the why still needed a bit more). So we could say, in effect, that Marco had fully developed everything underneath to answer the question of what mattered more to him, the old safe kid Marco’s ideal Earth life, or the new Marco’s life, and the breakup was simply everything that was already there clicking into place - he moves to Mewni immediately afterwards.
So how does this fit into Lake House Fever? I think the positioning of the episode is going to revolve around Star’s “growth” from it to work like Marco’s. In the Jarco case, the breakup wasn’t about Starco specifically, but Marco’s overall goals and focuses in life (Star was a part of that too, of course). It’s fairly clear that the Tomstar breakup will be different - the tension in their relationship is FAR more directly related to Starco itself (and also a much greater overall dysfunction within Tomstar compared to Jarco). It’s not a case of “this is a perfectly working relationship but it’ll eventually have issues, so let’s end it before we both become miserable”, it’s “this relationship isn’t working at all right now, for multiple reasons, among which are that Star prioritizes/loves someone else, but also general incompatibilities between them for committed companionship”. 
I think on Star’s end of things, we’re going to enter the episode with her knowing, very close to the surface if not on the surface already, that she has feelings for Marco and they need to talk, but will just have the one last hesitation holding her back. Not a “I genuinely don’t know who I like/whether I want to keep going longterm with Tom”, but a “this overall situation needs resolved and I just don’t know exactly how to handle it”. From the very limited info we have from the title/promo (no synopsis yet), it seems like Star might be helping Tom with something - he kind of looked ill in the promos. Regardless, I still sort of predict a semi-arbitrary episodic plot leads them to meet up in the episode. Give em a reason to interact that isn’t directly related to awkward and complex feelings, and let the handling of those naturally evolve from there. 
So as for Tom, I think the bulk of the change in this episode will be on his end. I think he’s going to sort of have an attitude not too dissimilar to Star - knowing they should talk at some point, but not really knowing how. I think the bulk of the episode’s plot, whatever it may be, will lead up towards Tom getting the wakeup call that it 100% won’t work and that he needs to pull the trigger on it. It would give Tom a really solid moment to follow up on some of his initial moments in Season 3, would give him some critical agency when he honestly hasn’t had much of it for a while (Starco developments just kind of happen around him, although of course his general lack of presence in Star’s life contributes to this as well - Star’s a fairly absentee girlfriend, but Tom’s no angel either). Getting over that initial hump of awkwardness would still accomplish things for both of them, but Tom being the one to first make the leap of faith into starting the uncomfortable conversation would fit best imo.
As for afterwards, much like how I said Jarco was the final puzzle piece for Marco decisively figuring out his priorities, I think this will be the same for Star’s feelings. She’ll be aware, nearly-consciously, that she has feelings for Marco ahead of time, but will just be stuck on inaction, not being confident enough to take a bold step forward on her own. So I think the breakup for Star’s feelings will do what the breakup did for Marco’s sense of accomplishment - the final domino will not only help her realize that she has feelings for Marco, but prime her to actually act on them.
Now if this breakup occurred earlier, I’d say it could have a major impact on Star’s own growth and understanding, and it still could, but I don’t think it’ll be so likely. There are certainly situations where the breakup would serve as a shakeup for her to consider her feelings, which would then take some more time afterwards to solidify, but I can’t help but assume that’s what the purpose of multiple Starco episodes beforehand is. The situation is too much of a powderkeg for Star to have any downtime with either of them that doesn’t start turning the gears in her brain. Anyway, that’s all for this.
Eps 5-7
Yada Yada Berries/Down by the River
The Ponyhead Show!/Surviving the Spiderbites
Out of Business/Kelly’s World
These, I have no clue on specifics, to be honest. There’s an RDK Ludo episode coming up, so that would be part of episode 5 most likely. Second half of that seems like a River episode contender, but who knows. The first half of episode 6 is some type of variety show involving Eclipsa in part - this may be part of the plot of Eclipsa trying to find her place as Queen. Spiderbites is a possible contender for the babysitting Meteora clip, the first half of episode 7 is Quest Buy with the Ocrams, and Kelly’s World is something with Marco and Kelly. We’ll circle back to these, but let’s look at broader strokes first.
Curse of the Blood Moon
I’m entirely confident that by the end of this episode (at the latest) Starco will be 100% canon, ready to move forward into Season 4 as a couple, romantic uncertainties behind them. It’s the only possible next “big” step in their development, one that was set up very directly in Booth Buddies with the idea that things were different now and they could no longer ignore their friendship meaning more than friendship. I’m sure it will be tied in to Starco relationship progress, but as I’ve said many times before, it’s entirely out of the realm of how this show handles development as a whole to actually prioritize plot over characters and obstruct character development with plot. The “Curse”, whatever it may be, could very well be activated by Starco itself, but it’s entirely out of line with everything the show has ever done with characterization to actually claim plot is “forcing” feelings, capisce?
Now how could this be accomplished? Well, given the pacing of the show in general, concrete chunks of development along the way seem most likely. And Star and Marco acknowledging the stronger nature of their relationship and stepping over the edge towards mutual romance, to me, seems like a different piece of the puzzle than something so strong as becoming 100% canon forever. After all, Bonbon for Jarco still had a Naysaya before it, a setup with clear and direct Jarco moments nudging it over the edge of romantic before going the whole way. Similarly, Tomstar had Demoncism before they officially confirmed they were a couple a few episodes later. 
Curse is definitely going to be a big episode, but I don’t see it being very likely that we entire the episode with the entire prospect of Star and Marco talking about their feelings still completely looming over them. Another major reason I have to believe this, which is in some ways related to the above point, is that the show doesn’t overly fetishize romance. It’s all-too-common in media, especially family-friendly/kid media with romance, to warp the whole concept and make the “confession + big kiss + happily ever after” one monolithic moment at the very end, as the pinnacle of romance, often going so far as to delay natural developments and put roadblocks of misunderstanding in the way to keep the pair apart until both could have this moment. SVTFOE, on the other hand, historically hasn’t done this. It has always, thus far, recognized the ebbs and flows and slower progression of natural relationships, with steps in between “I guess we might like each other” to “yup we’re 100% dating”. So I can’t guarantee anything about the specific pacing along the way, but I’d wager that Starco has already crossed the threshold into mutual romance before Curse begins.
I have genuinely no idea what the plot will be here overall. We have a shot from the promo which is a newly animated version of the Blood Moon Waltz... flashback? Recreating the event? Time travel? I hope not the last one, but I have no clue.
So circling back around, we have the cereal, pancake, and babysitting Meteora scenes which (as far as I can tell, assuming animation studio order holds) are unaccounted for. There’s... I suppose a nonzero chance for a huge curveball, with some of them being Lake House Fever? Star wears the new S4 outfit in cereal/pancake as well as then, and they’re all Sugarcube. Another option I’d been considering was for Surviving the Spiderbites to be their attempt to spend time together, either resulting in feelingstalk or being the result of feelingstalk and tiptoeing into romance, with the cereal/pancake scenes being about trying to have a good “date” but getting interrupted... which is now the plot of Swim Suit, so I don’t know. Quest Buy has always, historically, involved heavy Starco importance, so perhaps that episode is a leadin to Curse on that front. Note that either everyone actually thinking Kelly’s World (and their baking scene in Ponyhead Show) is actually implying more love triangles is wrong, or the writers officially gave up and we can all go home.
As a note, I’m of course not really making any bold claims of confidence in the minutiae of these predictions: there’s so many options for curveballs that I can’t say anything for sure! But I think, in a general sense, the path of Starco buildup towards and through Curse is a sure thing, one way or another, because there’s basically nothing else meaningful that could happen!
Hope you enjoyed the read, and stay tuned for any new updates we get on future episodes.
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prettyboiiharringrove · 6 years ago
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Ohhh on the drabble of billy expecting multiples, imagine billy making a comment about how stressed he is and SOUNDING angry/upset about having three and steve has this moment of dread listening to billy rant and he gets really quiet. "Do you...I'm...you don't want them?" Because STEVE IS INSECURE TOO
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Billy presses the heels of his palms into his eyes, tryingto sooth his headache.
“God, I can’t stand this shit,” he groans, stretching as hefalls back onto the couch next to Steve. “I’m so fucking done with this.”
He leans against Steve, craving his warmth, and lets hiseyes fall shut as he tries to ignore his own discomfort long enough to relax.He knows it does him no good to be so tense and stressed, but he doesn’t reallyknow how to be anything else.
Steve takes a shaky breath as he tries to bite back thatsinking feeling and comfort Billy instead. He needs to rest, not to deal with Steve’smessed up shit. He’s a grown man, an alpha,he should be able to figure this shit out himself.
He tries to swallow the lump in his throat but it won’tgo down. Every time Billy makes comments like this Steve gets this sick feeling inhis gut, like he’s somehow going to lose Billy or the kids, or both. He worriesthat he’s going to have to choose, and that ruins the whole point of family.
Billy has insecurities about his appearance and rejection, butSteve has insecurities about being alone all over again. He can’t stomach thethought, but he’s usually able to save his anxiety for when Billy’s out of thehouse or sound asleep.
Apparently, it’s finally become too much to contain.
“Billy?”
“Hm?” Billy stirs from where his head is rested on Steve’sshoulder.
“Do you…do you not want them?” the question has been a heavyweight on his chest since he found out Billy was pregnant. There are timeswhere Billy will coo at his stomach or talk about their family as if it’s adaydream, but the more the triplets grow, the more stressed and disappointedBilly seems and it makes his heart clench, takes his breath away, and makes himfeel constricted and cold.
“Want who baby?” he sighs, clearly not in the mood to have aconversation, tucking himself into Steve’s side and inhaling deep, findingcomfort in Steve’s scent. He’s curious enough to open his eyes when he smellsthe fear, hates the look he’s greeted with when he looks at Steve. His heartstarts pounding, his own fear becoming a phantom floating around the room.
Steve almost loses the confidence he’s built up for thismoment, almost loses the ability to speak entirely.
“The babies, do you not want them?” he questions, his heartlodging in his throat directly under the lump he’d been trying and failing toswallow down, making it harder and harder to breathe.
Billy jerks up, gets overwhelmingly angry, feels his entirebody burning up with rage. He’s set to yell at Steve, to rip him a new one, tomake him cry until he’s throwing up because how fucking dare he ask him that,but then he looks at Steve and sees that there’s already tears brimming in hiseyes. The look in his lover’s eyes is a bucket of cold water that douses thefire.
He’s still angry, still hurt by the question, but he calmsenough to actually talk to him instead of scream.
“If I didn’t want them, do you really think I would have letit go this far?” he tries not to snap, but the slight bit of venom that dripsoff his tongue can’t be helped. Still, Steve looks hopeful, but he can’tanswer, and that both breaks Billy’s heart and makes him feel guilty. “How longyou been thinking about this?”
“Honest answer?” Steve looks like he regrets this entire conversation,which means he’s let his fears consume him for too long without saying a damnthing to Billy. That hurts Billy too, because he wants Steve to know that hecan always come talk to him, that he should, that he doesn’t have to walk oneggshells because even if he is an irritable asshole when he’s pregnant, ifthings are serious he’ll sit down and listen.
“Yes Steve, honest answer. We agreed, no bullshit, remember?” Steve still cringesat the word, which means Billy’s going to keep using it to prove his pointbecause it makes Steve listen, makes him realize that Billy is constantlytrying really fucking hard to be a better person and not hurt him like Nancy oreven worse, he himself, has done in the past.  
“Since you told me. I know you say you love them, and mostof the time I believe you but, sometimes when you wish for this to be over itfeels like you’re wishing them away and I just…if I lose them or if I lose you,it’s gonna kill me.”
Steve’s actively crying now. Billy takes a deep breath,moves so that he’s completely turned to Steve, reaches for his jaw and gentlyturns Steve so that he’s facing him too, cups his face in his hands when he’sfinally got his full attention.
“I want them, I promiseI do,” he leans forward, kissing a few tears away before pulling away and wipingaway those that continued to fall with his thumbs. “I want this, you, a family,it’s all I’ve ever fucking wanted, I swear to God baby. I know I’m literallythe worst person you know, but I would never put you through that, I wouldnever promise you a family just to take it away.”
“You’re not the worst,” Steve argues through sniffles, his owntense shoulders finally relaxing. Billy lets out a comforting rumble, can’thelp the slight smile that graces his lips when he sees Steve lighting up withhope again.
“Whatever you say big guy,” he leans forward, struggling abit with his swollen stomach. He kisses Steve, feels the babies flutter andthinks they must be trying to show their papa that they love him too. “We’renot going anywhere Steve. You’re stuck with us.”
“Stuck with you?” Steve finds humor in that, because stuckisn’t exactly how he’d describe it. He thinks he’s the luckiest guy in thegoddamn world. Billy loved him enough to change for him; he admits that it wasn’tall for him, that some of it was just Billy finally getting to be the man hedeserved to be, but they also know that Billy probably wouldn’t have if he didn’tgive a shit about someone. He loves him enough to give a shit, loves him enoughto give him a fucking family, he doesn’t think he’s stuck with Billy, he thinkshe’s fucking blessed.
“Yeah, three pups and Billy fucking Hargrove. You sure youdon’t wanna back out while you still can?”
“Hm, Billy Hargrove is kind of an asshole,” Steve teases,stealing a kiss of his own this time, warm hand affectionally cradling Billy’sbump, smiling against his lips when one set of little feet finds his hand andstarts kicking. Billy tries to look offended, but he’s too relieved that Stevehas calmed down to be anything other than delighted, and maybe a little tiredtoo but that just comes with the territory. “But he’s my asshole. I’m not going anywhere.”
“Good. Now stop crying and hold me, I think we both coulduse a nap.”
Steve doesn’t have to be told twice, he’s already wiping hiseyes with his sweater sleeve to get the last few tears away, and then he’sturning, pulling Billy to him and putting his arm around him so that his headis rested on his chest and he can run his fingers through Billy’s hair.
Billy hums in content, closes his eyes again and curls uplike a kitten.
“I love you,” Steve whispers, feeling the last of that heavyweight he’s been carrying around leave him after all those months. Relief issuch a pleasant feeling, almost as good as what he feels when Billy kisses himor his pups kick.
“Love you too pretty boy,” and somehow Steve knows thatthose words, words that are already so special in their own right, somehow meanmore than they ever have. They’re a promise that he’s going to hold on to untilhis dying day.
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