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God, I'm so happy with what they did with Maddie Nolen.
I'm sure there will be plenty of people mad because obviously there was a weird backlash over a character who has sex with one half a ship, so I'm sure some people worry this will lead those people to feel justified in their initial response.
But ignoring people who can't emotionally regulate for a second, because those childish impulses aren't worth dictating the fun things a narrative can do: Maddie is SO INTERESTING as a character and she fills in a lot of the questions people seemed to have about the rest of the season.
Consider for a moment that it wasn't Caitlyn who convinced Vi to be an Enforcer. It was Maddie.
I know that some people took this line to be about Zaunites, a sort of obvious connection to the very racist idea of "one of the good ones," but since Maddie is talking about Marcus and his betrayal of the Enforcers just before this, I'm pretty sure her framing here is something else. The point she's making is specifically targeted at Vi's own beliefs and weaknesses, her desire to protect. That seems clear to me now with all we know about Maddie's capacity for manipulation.
She's not saying, "You're good, for a poor."
She's saying, "Wow, I agree with you, the Enforcers are really bad; it's so upsetting. I think you might be the only one who can change it, but only if you join us." This is what convinces Vi to do something she never thought she would.
Well, this and the fact that Caitlyn believes in her so much which, again, is information she gets fed to her directly from Maddie. It even seems like Maddie seeks her out just to say this, which on first viewing felt oddly convenient. Wow, Vi just happens to meet this naive girl who just happens to say exactly what she needs to hear to do something so out of character.
Except obviously none of it was coincidence. Everyone already knew how much Vi meant to Caitlyn and getting Caitlyn under control would require either controlling Vi or removing her from the equation. This was a push in that direction.
Then there's her more obvious role as the spy in Caitlyn's bed, there to reassure her that the Noxians are only trying to keep all of them safe. Then when Caitlyn expresses larger doubts, she's immediately ready to lay out an alternative. You could just give up, Maddie seems to whisper gently in her ear. Just reestablish things as they were before.
But she knows Caitlyn isn't going to go for that. She's not going to go back to the council as it was, because it's only going to remind her of the empty place her mother left behind. Maddie knows that Caitlyn isn't going to take this offer, which is precisely why she suggests it. She frames quitting as the only clear alternative to going along with everything Ambessa wants because she knows that Caitlyn will refuse, which leads her right back into alignment with Ambessa. She makes continued obedience into an active choice that Caitlyn affirms she's making.
Even Maddie's comments that suggest direct opposition to Ambessa â "you're our leader... I follow you" â are designed to frame herself and her true leader in direct opposition, just as Ambessa's own warning about entanglements is there to further that point. They both make a point of reminding Caitlyn that they are her true ally, isolating her further from anyone who isn't the devil and (other) devil on her shoulders.
This way Maddie and Ambessa can both tug at Caitlyn, pulling in what feels to her like opposite directions, all so that she lands precisely where they wanted her all along but with the illusion of active agency.
And look, I'm not saying my read on her is gospel, because I think they intentionally gave us enough room to really speculate and wonder about her, someone who could have been just a background nothing character but ends up being such a huge part of the second season. That's so interesting!
I especially love that she comes across as really naive and innocent, just some poor little thing swept up in the fervor, when in reality she's a true believer who has been manipulating things to go her way from the start.
#maddie nolen#arcane#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane spoilers#when maddie first showed up my immediate feeling was ''oh noooo they made a sweet and innocent cop''#BUT NOPE.#they did NOT and that's so fucking funny
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hello, you can resquest scenery, TFO Orion Pax, D-16, B-127 and Sentinel wait for their Conjux femme reader to give birth to their Sparkling. (about the others except Sentinel, where they go to the surface and return to Iacon and it would be that they meet their newborn Sparkling)
TFO Chars/Pregnant!Femme!Reader [hcs]
featuring: Orion Pax, D-16, B-127, Sentinel Prime tw: pregnancy, very brief mentions of violence, slighty yandere!Megs by the end, mixture of fluff/angst. word count: ~1940 a/n: I hope I understood your request well. Feel free to correct me if I did something wrong so I can remake it.
Orion Pax.
I feel like Orion (cogless, since it's before they went to the surface) is probably that typical young dad that has no idea how to take care of a child and might as well set on fire the kitchen in attempts to warm the bottle of energon for the sparkling.
But! He is very enthusiastic about it, and he supports you in every way he can; it's just that he lacks any real experience with it. Reading in the archives about sparklings, pregnancy and how to be a good mentor is easy; the hardest thing is to actually deal with it.
There is a big possibility that you are also cogless like him, and I'm not sure Sentinel actually cares about poor pregnant miners to give them at least a one-day off. Your supervisors would constantly remind you to continue working, since there's always a big need for energon.
Orion often picks up fights because of it. Can't those big bullies see that you're sparked? You need rest and good care, not lifting heavy equipment...As usual, he gets scolded by Elita for not doing his job properly, but he makes sure that he helps you with everything. You can rest during your shift, while Orion is happily working for both of you, so you won't be reported to the higher-ups. It's a little hard, but there is nothing he wouldn't do for you.
Following my last statement and the previous headcanons, Orion desperately wants the best future for all Cybertronians. He hates the thought that his sparkling will grow up in the same place as him. No actual home, no equality, only hatred from the others. That's when he sees the opportunity to change the future, he grasps onto it.
It pains Orion to leave you in Iacon. It wasn't really his fault, though. He would have come back to you after the Iacon 5000 race immediately if it wasn't for Darkwing throwing him on sublevel 50, and the next events after that...
Orion gains the maturity he lacked, and with realization of his other past mistakes, he also understands how careless he was before. You're probably scared to death without him; he left you without a word, and now you have to only guess where your conjunx is. How stressed you will be after someone tells you that he's dead.
Just as much as it scares him and makes him angry at himself, it also motivates him for more. No matter what, he will come back to you.
The moment he sees you, he is relieved. The reunion looks awkward, his form towering over your smaller one, but that doesn't bother either of you. When he finally meets the sparkling, his own little spark, all the pain from the last battle is gone.
Orion swears to you that he will never leave you alone after today; with a new spark born in this world, there is a hope. How meaningful it is for his own child to be born the day the Iacon becomes free.
D-16
Just like Orion, D-16 has a little to no idea how to take care of the sparkling. If his best friend will be so happy to be a sire, D-16 has mixed emotions about this.
Don't get me wrong, he is excited about it just like you, but D-16 is the bot who is reluctant when it comes to going against the rules. He is not sure if this is actually the right place and time for the sparkling to be born now. Both of you are cogless, and there is no great future for you. Maybe after countless cycles ago he can get a higher position, a bit better life, but will it be enough to raise someone so young?
Even then, he shows you that he is happy. He doesn't want you to think that he hates the idea just because he's not so sure about your current life.
D-16 is a naturally strong bot, probably one of the strongest when compared to other miners. He gets extra affectionate with his conjunx, holding you close and maybe even carrying you around if you show him the tiniest sign that you're tired. He is really sweet.
As Orion drags him into the race, he begins to slowly lose his cool. His outburst in the cave after finding out about the truth is even stronger. The betrayal, pain, the sick feeling of worry about you and his sparkling. If only Orion didn't drag him into that damn race, he would have been with you, making sure that you're safe, none of that would have happened.
The frustration boils over with each step he makes. He needs to come back to Iacon, to you, but first, he has to get rid of the one who caused the cycles of pain and humiliation.
 The time D-16 gets his servos on Sentinel, ripping him apart in front of anyone, he thinks it is the only way to solve everything. Only he can fix it, and only he can trust himself with protecting you.
You weren't there to see him deal with Sentinel, thankfully. It is for the best to avoid all the stress it could have caused if you saw him. Your dear conjunx is seething with hatred. Sentinel took many things from him; he wasn't even able to be there with you when your sparkling was born. D-16 Megatron will cherish both of you forever, and he will make sure to raise his little one as strong as him, so they won't live through the same events as D-16 was.
B-127
Oh, this one is a little too sad to speculate. Let's say, both of you are cogless but met each other a long time ago before you two ended up on sublevel 50. The moment you two failed to please the higher-ups and also the moment you find out that you're sparked up. What bad timing!
B-127 seems to be more happy than you are when he realizes that he is going to be a sire. A little too happy. Even though he doesn't fully understand it. You might go like, âYou're going to be a sire, Beeâ and then he hits you with, âI am sparked up??â which is kind of funny. Is that really your man?
Out of other bots, I can see being the best sire ever. Of course, he gets a little confused, but who wouldn't be if they dealt with their first child? You try to explain to him everything you know about the topic, and he quickly catches up on it.
B-127 is already thinking about the names. Does Badasstron Junior sound like a good name for sparkling? Or maybe he should practice combining your names together? Anyway, it really helps him not to get insane down here. Having you around is good for Bee's mental health, though you're not so sure how much time passed since you were demoted.
Even then, Bee shows his caring side. He does get serious when the situation really needs it, so he is constantly tied to your hip because he wants you and the sparkling to be safe. The conditions are not great, but he makes the best of it. No matter how bad it gets, he always makes you smile, even though sometimes he has no strength to keep his cheerfulness.
Bee is happy to have more new friends and to partake in the journey of finding the matrix of leadership, but he doesn't want you to get hurt. That's why (with tears in his optics) you two agree that you should stay. But hey, it will probably not take too much time. He will come back with his new friends to Iacon with the matrix; the energon will flow again, so there's no need for you to stay!
Bee doesn't stop yapping about the fact that he is going to be a sire to Elita. This fella just likes to talk and when he sees the opportunity, he doesn't miss it! Poor Elita has to listen to him how hard it is to choose the name for the baby, or how he is going to be the best sire ever once the group comes back. Ohh, did you know that he also really-really loves you? And his sparkling? Elita barely handles him, but even though she never met you, she knows everything about you.
After Bee comes back to Iacon, he almost faints. First he got a cog, then met the high guard, got a job with the government, AND became a sire? When he sees his sparkling, he feels a little sad that he wasn't there with you, but he will compensate it in no time. Every little move your sparkling makes is cheered by, and Primus have mercy on the poor bots around him. He is probably that dad who will show you the pictures of his kids...
Sentinel Prime
Being a conjunx of Sentinel has its own perks. Lucky you, no work for you! It will be too bad if you get sparked up and cogless, huh?
Sentinel is a busy bot. There is always work waiting for him, especially the oh so important ââsearching for matrix of leadershipâ thing. Even then, when he is in Iacon, there are lots of paper jobs and meetings being here and there since everything should be personally controlled by him.
One of the cons while being sparked up and being conjunx of Sentinel is that he doesn't have much time for you. By the end of the day, he always comes back to your quarters, but it's just so lonely without him! You're always surrounded by the guards, the medics, but they can never replace the presence of your loved one.
All the changes in your body don't help at all, the mood swings, the certain energon cravings in the middle of the night, so-so hard to deal with, but he's a Prime, after all, so that shouldn't trouble him that much...
Sentinel might be a little irritated with it. When you wake him up, just to ask for something Primus-knows-what-next, that will probably take hours to search for, but he has no strength to deny you. If his conjunx wants it, he gets it!
I like to think that Sentinel is probably always aware of your and sparkling's health, but in a slightly concerning way. Yes, he can miss one or two meetings at the doctor's with you, but that doesn't mean he is ignorant. Everything is reported straight to him, so if anything, he will drop his work and join you. There is also a looong track of every checkup you had, and he has a timer that counts seconds to when the sparkling is born.
Imagine how annoyed Sentinel is when he gets humiliated by the quintessons and misses the birth of his sparkling? He practically scowls when someone reports him about it and totally has to restrain himself from strangling someone on his way to Iacon, but he manages it somehow.
Sentinel's mood quickly replaced with warmth for you and the sparkling, even though inside his head, he is still annoyed. How could he miss it? When he planned everything to the last second? The one thing that keeps his mind occupied is the little one he has in his servos. He's not going to leave you two again. At least, when he still can.
#transformers x reader#orion pax x reader#d 16 x reader#bumblebee x reader#sentinel prime x reader#optimus prime x reader#megatron x reader#transformers one x reader
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the tower by the forest | lhs
part one!
pairings! sorcerer!lee heeseung x fem!reader
synopsis! the immortal sorcerer lives in a tower by the forest filled with dark creatures. he protects the surrounding villages from its dangers, and in exchange, every decade, a girl from one of the villages is chosen to live as his companion. this time, itâs you.
genre! fantasy romance, angst
content warnings! swearing and the fact this is unfinished so this is part one
word count! 11.4k
author's note! i'm scared of making this longer but i'm literally just halfway through...
Throughout your life, a girl from the villages has only been taken twice. And the first time, you were barely one year old, so it could hardly affect you in any way. The second time, however, you were eleven. At the time, you already understood what was happening and why. A girl around the age of twenty had been chosen to live with the lone and mysterious sorcerer who lived in a tower at the edge of the Forest to prolong his protection of the villages.
Nobody likes to talk about it much. How the girls are chosen, when he comes for them and what he does to them. None of that information is known. Although youâve heard that usually, once the decade passes, the girls are free to go and live as they please with a solid fortune to their name. The girl you witnessed being taken away ten years ago has been released recently, and you heard from the whispers of the other villagers that she moved to the city and is starting her own business in dressmaking.
For that very reason, every village surrounding the Forest lives in restless anticipation. Any day now, a new girl will be chosen to join the sorcerer in his tower. Ten years, she will live with him and do whatever it is that sheâs got to do to keep her family and friends safe from the darkness of the Forest.
You wish you could know how the girls are chosen to be better prepared. Itâs glaringly obvious that some villagers think you might be the next girl chosen. Youâre the perfect age for it, and apparently, there is also the fact that the girls that go to the sorcerer are usually deemed objectively beautiful or somehow talented.
Youâre not exactly talented, but youâre not that beautiful either. Youâd argue that Yeji or Chaeryong are far better choices in that regard, but somehow the eyes are still on you. Itâs strange, knowing that everyone is convinced you will be next while you canât see a single reason why. Maybe they just want to be rid of you. Although that is most certainly not the way the girls get chosen.
Everyone simply overestimates your talent with the violin and your voice. That has got to be it. Youâre not a genius nor a prodigy, you play the instrument and sing merely because you want to. Itâs a hobby, but itâs not something to make you a desirable choice for the sorcerer. And you donât want to be his choice either. Youâd rather stay in your village with your family and friends.
âY/N!â One of those friends, Jaeyun, calls after you with a grin on his lips, waving enthusiastically. âDo you have time today? Iâd like to practise together.â Because both of you play the violin. In fact, it was Jaeyun who made you fall in love with the instrument in the first place.
You smile and nod. âOf course. I always have time,â you say, although untruthfully. For Jaeyun, however, everyone makes time. He is the villageâs golden boy. Loved and adored by everyone. He can talk his way into and out of anything. Youâre sure heâs never paid for anything either because everyone is happy to give him everything for free â a gift for the beloved boy of Riverfeld.
Whenever you and Jaeyun visit the local tavern, the tab made on his name is never paid, and the owner has never even asked for it to be paid. Itâs as if his mere existence is payment enough. But you guess thatâs what happens when youâre the peopleâs happy pill.
âAwesome! Letâs go,â Jaeyun says, grabbing your hand.
You expect him to let you get your violin at home, but it isnât necessary as he has done that for you. He prepared the whole scene, already knowing you would say yes because why would you not?
âLook,â Jaeyun says, grabbing a sheet that is laid by his instrument. âSunghoon and I have been working on a new composition and I wanted to try playing it with you.â
You hum, waiting for Jaeyun to approach you. He practically sticks himself to your side with the sheet in hand, showing you the new song theyâve been working on.
Itâs a love song.Â
There are no lyrics, but as you imagine the sound of the melody, your imagination bringing it to life, you know itâs a ballad. A song of love meant for someone specific. A confession of adoration and admiration.Â
âYou think you can do this?â Jaeyun asks, solemnly looking at you.
Smiling, you nod. âOf course.â
Both of you grab your violins, sharing the singular sheet in between as you prepare. Sitting down on the ground, you settle the violin on your shoulder and rest your chin atop. A smile adorns your lips at the feeling of holding the instrument in your hands again.
âCan we?â Jaeyun asks softly, also ready. All he needs is a nod from you to lift his bow to the strings of the violin and start the melody. He acts as your guide as this is your first time playing the song.Â
It starts off slowly. A sweet melody of two people getting to know each other, growing closer and beginning to care. The tempo picks up when the two lovers begin to realise they are in love. They struggle with the fear, the melody conveying the uncertainty, until finally, they gain the courage to confess. And by the time the song is over, the two lovers are together.Â
âWe named it Only If You Say Yes,â Jaeyun grins.
âItâs beautiful, Jaeyun,â you say, fighting the growing uneasiness within your belly. Not because of the boy across from you, but a general burning feeling in your body that spreads from your chest to the rest of your body. As if itâs pumping fire instead of blood.Â
The frown that contorts your expression springs Jaeyun up to his feet, dropping by your side. âY/N? Are you okay?â he asks, and while youâd love to nod and say yes, it would be a lie. Nothing about this scorching feeling is okay.Â
You hiss and groan, grabbing onto your wrist where most of the pain begins to concentrate. It leaves your other limbs in favour of your right wrist where it burns so much you think your entire limb might melt.
The scream that escapes you is unintentional. You wanted to hold it in, but it was impossible with the pain coursing through you. Jaeyun grabs you by the shoulders, holding onto you. Confused about what is happening to you.
And as he holds you in his embrace, the pain subsides. Slowly but surely, it leaves your body the same way it entered, and you slump against the dark haired boy with your head buried in the crook of his neck.
âY/N,â he whispers softly, one arm wrapped around your waist to support you while the other moves up to cup your face. He examines you, sweat coating your forehead.Â
âMy⊠wrist,â you breathe out, and try to pull away from Jaeyun, but his grip on you is strong, and you can barely do anything without him supporting your weight. So you wait for him to look for you.
âThereâs a tattoo,â Jaeyun says, discomfited. Staring at it closer, he grabs onto your wrist. âGolden antlers,â he describes it while his fingers softly trace the pattern, and you furrow your brows, getting a look yourself.Â
Jaeyun blanches with a realisation that pains him, glancing at you. âY/N,â he mumbles, cupping both your cheeks to make you look at him. âItâs his sign.â
You both know who he is.Â
Your eyes widen. âBut⊠that canât be,â you breathe out, shaking your head vigorously. âI know everyone thought it would be me, but I didnâtâ Iâm not specialââ
Jaeyun smiles ruefully, disagreeing with you. âClearly, youâre more special than you realise,â he says, voice low. âHeâll be paying us a visit soon, then.â
âI donât want to go,â you say quietly. But what else is there to do? If you donât go, you will put everyone you care about and other innocent souls in danger. And for what? For your own selfish reasons?
Jaeyun sighs mournfully, hands still cupping your cheeks. âWhat am I going to do without you for ten years?â he asks himself.Â
âLive your life,â you say pragmatically, your hands grabbing his own. âItâll be fine, right? As long as it means youâll be safe.â
âY/N.â Jaeyun licks his lips, wishing there was something he could do for you to make it easier.Â
âItâll be fine,â you repeat to yourself.Â
It has to be fine.Â
It was not supposed to happen so soon.
Usually, the Forest takes about a month or more since the previous girlâs departure to choose another. But the Forest is not dallying this time, having picked its next target.
Heeseung stares at the golden tattoo on his wrist that connects him with you, not knowing who you are just yet. He will, soon, however, as once the Forest picks a girl, she has to come to him as soon as possible.
He hates doing this, if heâs being completely honest. Heâd be just fine living on his own and protecting the people, but in order to keep the darkness in check, there has to be some light. Heeseung isnât exactly a good fit for that. Which means that every ten years, a girl with the purest of souls must live near the Forest to control it. And with a carefully crafted spell from him, the Forest gets to choose that girl by itself.Â
That is the only reason he is now away from his home, riding his horse toward Riverfeld. The village where you live.
Nobody ever knows that heâs coming. He figured itâs better this way, since it stops the villagers from making a scene whenever he does arrive. He learned pretty early on, when it comes to this. He hated how awkward it was when they used to line up just to see at least the tiniest bit of his face, or when they tried to give him gifts instead of their daughters.Â
Not how it works. Unfortunately.Â
Heâd rather take the gifts, too.Â
But here he is, entering the small village almost unnoticed aside from the few glances here and there as people wonder who he is. To them, heâs a stranger, and they probably donât get many of those. He did make sure to dress as a regular traveller, so hopefully they donât suspect him much.
The tattoo on his wrist calls for its twin, and it pulls him toward the villageâs tiny square. A stage has been set up in the centre, and a girl and a boy sit there, both playing the violin together, creating a beautiful song of wistful love.Â
A concept Heeseung isnât familiar with, but he does like the sound of it. Itâs a youthful song full of hope. Asking for acceptance where it truly can be found.Â
His eyes fixate on the girl playing.Â
You.
You are smiling brightly despite knowing your fate, and you donât stop playing until the song is well and truly over. Both you and the boy stand to bow to the audience when they begin to clap and fawn over you and your talent.Â
You keep shaking your head, acting as if you deserve none of it. And the boy throws an arm around your shoulders with a grin, proud for the both of you. Another boy, taller than the other, joins and celebrates with you.
So Heeseung waits. Until everyone around you has said their praising piece to you. Until youâre well and truly alone, and the smile from your lips has dissipated the tiniest bit because you know what will eventually come. That these people who adore you will not be with you for long. That you will have to leave them.
Youâre not surprised when he approaches you as a complete stranger. Instead, you look him in the eye and face him directly. âItâs you, isnât it?â you ask, examining him from head to toe. âYouâre the sorcerer.â
It takes a second for Heeseung to recover from it. He has met many girls over the years, each different but same in spirit, and he never thought much of them. But you stand in front of him with a pensive smile, accepting what is to come. There is a beauty to you that many probably donât see. Though you are gorgeous in general, with big cheeks yet defined features, hair falling over your shoulders. One would have to be blind not to see it.
âAm I that obvious?â he asks, and you shake your head.Â
âI think itâs the tattoo,â you reply. âI can sense it. You have it too, right?â
Youâre quite clever.
Heeseung nods, and rolls up the sleeve of his cape to show you his identical tattoo. âIt connects us,â he says plainly.
You hum. A playful glint enters your gaze, and your smile grows slightly. âI thought youâd be older,â you say matter-of-factly. âYou lookââ
âHandsome?â He cuts you off because he does not like it when people say he looks young. He knows he looks young. Heâs looked the same for the past two centuries, and will continue to do so for as long as the Forest exists.
âMy age,â you finish instead. Not young, just your age. That is certainly a new way to describe what he looks like. And he decides at this very moment that he likes it the best. Yes, he can accept looking your age â whatever it actually is. âBut I suppose handsome is also a reasonable descriptor,â you add, eyeing his face.
This time, Heeseung is truly robbed of words. Whenever he arrives to take a girl to the Forest, theyâre usually afraid of him. The last thing theyâd call him is handsome. Yet here you are, standing in front of him, calm and accepting. Youâre not crying, screaming or begging to stay. You just are. (a/n: Very demure, very mindful.)
âYou should stay for a bit before we leave. My parents are making supper that could feed the whole village. It would be rude to leave before we got to taste it.â You donât wait for Heeseungâs response before you are making your way toward what he deduces is your home. Itâs humble enough, a house fit for a family of four, perhaps. But when you enter, it is filled with more than four people.
The two boys that Heeseung saw with you at the performance are both present alongside some older villagers and a girl some years younger than you. Heâs not even sure why he followed you anyway. He shouldâve stayed outside and waited for you to say your goodbyes. Thatâs usually the standard procedure for him, so why is he thoughtlessly breaking tradition all of a sudden?
âY/N! Whoâsââ
âThatâs the sorcerer,â you say nonchalantly, shrugging.
âBut whyââ
âIâm not a monster,â Heeseung speaks, facing the boy you played the violin with. âI wonât take her away without saying her goodbyes⊠and itâs Heeseung.â
âWho?â you ask.
âMe.â
âYou what?â
âHeeseung.â
âThat doesnât make sense.â
âMy name is Heeseung.â He rolls his eyes, lips in a thin line.
âOh! Well, Iâm Y/N. Then this is Jaeyun, Sunghoon, Mum, Dad, Mrs Sim, Mr Sim, Mrs Park, Mr Park and Sunghoonâs little sister.â You point at everyone respectively with a soft smile upon your features. âIâm guessing Jongseong forgot he was supposed to come?â you say more to yourself, but Jaeyun hums in agreement.
âHeâs been working on the new guitar that heâs trying to make,â he responds. âForgets he has other duties or the fact he should, you know, eat and drink and sleep to live.â
âSaid itâs for you, though,â Sunghoon mumbles, glancing at you. âHe thought heâd have enough time to finish it.â Then he throws an apprehensive glance at Heeseung.
âBut I donât play the guitar,â you reply with a pout.
âHe was going to teach youâŠâ
Look, the next words that leave Heeseungâs mouth will probably make him regret it later, but watching you with your friends is doing weird things to the organ in his chest he thought had long been forgotten. So itâs a surprise to not just you and your friends when he says: âI know how to play the guitar. If your friend will not mind it, I will allow that guitar to be sent to you.â
The way your eyes widen in sheer surprise and gratitude makes Heeseung think that maybe itâs not such a regretful action.Â
The Forest mustâve truly known what it was doing this time around. Everyone in this village seems to genuinely adore you. The purest of hearts among them all, living without the knowledge of it.
âIâm here! Iâm here! I got it!â A boy bursts through the door with a guitar in hand, and Heeseung makes the safe assumption that this is Jongseong. Even in him, Heeseung can sense a very beautiful soul through and through, though the innocence is gone.Â
It makes sense that you would surround yourself with people just as lovely as you on the inside. Whether you knew it or not.
âJJ,â you coo when he goes toward you with the instrument to hand it to you. âWhy would you do all this for me?â
âSo you remember me. Us. To come back to us.â
It occurs to Heeseung then that all three of these boys around you love you. As friends or more that is out of his field of knowledge, but the love between you is raw and just as pure and innocent as you are.Â
âI could never forget you guys.â You smile and shake your head. âAll three of you better be married and with kids by the time Iâm back, though.â
âItâs not fair,â Jaeyun says, properly looking at Heeseung. âSheâs a good person. Never done anything wrong in her life. Whyââ
âI know,â Heeseung cuts him off, shaking his head. âThatâs why.â Maybe being curt with them is not the best choice, but they wonât dare attack him.
âNothing in this life is fair,â Jongseong murmurs sagely, his eyes finding you. But you are staring at Heeseung, brow arched with curiosity.
âY/N! Boys! Come eat! Supper is done.â
Your parents did not say much when you introduced the sorcerer to them. They merely stared to assess him as if a mere look could tell them what kind of person he was. But, whatever their consensus was, they let him eat supper with you, so it was probably quite positive.
âWonât deny supper to the man who fights to protect us on a daily basis,â your mother murmured before you all sat down at the table to eat.
You enjoyed yourself for the rest of the day because Heeseung let you. He was letting you say your goodbyes before ultimately whisking you away to his tower, and you appreciated it.Â
Everything is going to be fine, you constantly remind yourself.Â
Especially as you saddle your horse with Sunghoonâs help because heâs the tallest of your friends. Jay and Jake help carry your bags and attach them to the white mare.Â
Heeseung says the ride to the tower will take a few days, which means that your mother packed enough food to last you a month. Itâs a bitter kind of goodbye, knowing that youâre leaving to protect the ones you love. You still donât really want to leave.
You never imagined yourself leaving home before. But now you have to.
âAre you ready?â Heeseung asks, his inquisitive gaze searching your expression for whatever lie you want to tell him.
And you smile, shaking your head. âNot really,â you reply honestly. âBut I have to do this, donât I?â
Heeseung blinks at you, discomfited by your transparency. âYes,â he says. âThe Forest chose you, and its decision is final.â
âThen Iâm as ready as I can be.â You purse your lips, nodding. âLetâs go.â
Heeseung is not a very chatty sorcerer. Like, you havenât known any sorcerers before him, of course, but the books usually depict them as these supernatural and immortal beings who like to have fun. Heeseung is anything but that. He is quiet and brooding. He only speaks up when itâs important, and you decided it would be better not to ask him many questions while youâre travelling lest you annoy him too much.
But by the second night of staying over at a tavern while on the road, it brings you a sense of peace. Usually, youâre not a fan of lack of communication, but with the sorcerer, it seems to be its own form of speaking and conveying what needs to be known.
You lie on the bed, reading a book provided to you by the innkeeper, biting your bottom lip as you wonder whether the sorcerer would scold you for daring to speak at him. He sits on the chair near the fireplace, merely gazing into the fire in silence.
Sighing, he turns his head ever so slightly to glance at you from the corner of his eye. âIf you have something to say, then say it,â he grumbles before his attention is snatched away by the snapping fire again.
You shift in your seat, allowing yourself to fully stare at the sorcerer. His hair is as dark as night, loosely framing his face in waves. His honey-glazed skin looks slightly darker with just the fire casting light upon him, and despite his tall frame and broad shoulders, it seems he makes himself smaller in his chair. He must be exhausted.
âCan I ask a question?â
There is silence at first as if Heeseung ponders whether to say yes or no. Then, he responds, âIsnât that already one? What stops you from asking another?â He doesnât even look at you as he speaks, and your cheeks heat up in embarrassment. âI appreciate you being considerate, but if there is something on your mind, just say it. Iâll decide whether I want to answer or not.â
Closing your book, you put it aside. You allow yourself to admire the sorcerer from afar, quite taken by his beauty. Though that is not what you need to quell your mind. âSoâŠâ you start, unsure of how to word your question. Though what you come up with is not exactly an elegant way to ask either. âWhy me?â
Youâre met with another round of silence. It almost feels like a decade of stillness, the only sounds made inside the room being your breathing and the crackling fire. But the sorcerer finally turns to you, swallowing whatever comes to his mind at first to give you a composed answer. âBecause the Forest chose you,â he says plainly. âAnd once the Forest chooses, it cannot be undone.â
âThe Forest?â You furrow your brows in confusion. âI thought you chose the girls that stay with you?â
Heeseung shakes his head. âThat is not how it works. I made the spell that chooses the girls, but ultimately, it is the Forest itself that chooses which girl must live near it.â The solemn expression in his eyes makes you stop for a moment and think about it.
The girls are taken in order for the sorcerer to protect the surrounding villages from the Forest. And now you know that the Forest chooses the girls itself at that. It makes sense, in a strange way. Because you still donât understand why you only need to live near it, for it sounds like the girls should be some sort of sacrifice to the Forest. Except you will be allowed to go back to your old life after ten years.
âThen how exactly does that work?â you ask, frowning. âIf the Forest chooses the girls, what are the specifics? And what do we do? We just live with you?â
âYes,â Heeseung answers with a sigh. Licking his lips, he glances back at the fire, then at you. âThe Forest is a dark place. In order to control it, there needs to be light. Which is when you come in,â he explains, pointing at your heart. He makes a pause, checking your expression to see whether you were still listening to him, only to find you intently staring at his face, not missing a single word that left his mouth. Clearing his throat, he continued, âI designed my spell in a way for the Forest to find the purest soul within the radius of the villages. This time, itâs you.âÂ
You purse your lips in thought. Never in your life have you thought of yourself as somebody with a pure soul, but apparently that is who you are, according to the sorcerer and his spell. Which is what got you into this situation of having to leave your childhood home and friends. Because the Forest chose you.
âWait,â you say, a thought coming to you suddenly.
âYes?â Heeseung raises his brow, watching your expression slowly change into that of distress.
âIf the Forest chose meâŠâ you start, frowning, âDoes that mean that the creatures of the Forest would be after me? Whether I am at home orââ
âYes.â The sorcerer nods in affirmation. âThat is part of the magic. The Forest is drawn to you, and therefore, it makes my job of protecting the other villages from monsters that much easier. Since all of them are, well⊠headed for the tower.â
âFor me, you mean.â
Heeseung gives a thin smile. âEven now, the Forest is already searching for you. But while we are on the way, and you are with me, you should be hidden until we reach the tower.â
âYou didnât have to tell me that,â you mumble, wondering how youâre going to fall asleep now, knowing that there are monsters specifically looking for you. Which means that, in a way, you are a sacrifice to the Forest, after all. The sorcerer just protects you and the other villages from them by killing said monsters.
âYou asked,â he says with a shrug. âNobody has ever asked before, so Iâm not sure to what extent youâre interested in the topic,â he adds.
It occurs to you then, that maybe the only reason Heeseung hasnât spoken much is because the other girls never had any interest in speaking to him due to the circumstances. Heâs being distant simply because thatâs how itâs always been for him.
âSo, what exactly am I to do at the tower, once we get there?â you ask to continue the conversation. And unlike you thought, Heeseung does not seem annoyed by your questions at all.
âWhatever you want to do,â he replies. âI have an extensive library if youâre fond of reading. I can teach you to play the guitar your friend gave you. You can choose to pick up whatever hobby you want. All you have to do is just⊠live there as if it were your home for the next ten years so I can continue to protect your real home and other villages.â
âOkay,â you say, smiling, which takes Heeseung by surprise (again). âThat sounds like a good deal, I suppose. I will miss my friends and family dearly, but I can do this.â
The Forest chose far too well, this time around, Heeseung thinks to himself and shakes his head. Heâs been doing this for centuries, and he has never met anyone quite like you.
Home.
Heeseung lets out a huge sigh of relief when he finally steps inside the tower that has been his beloved home for many, many years. You trail behind him nervously, all of your luggage already sent to your room with a single flick of his hand. Youâre not used to such magic just yet, but as time will pass, nothing will be able to surprise you later on.
Although Heeseung has still been keeping rather quiet around you, you felt more comfortable simply speaking at him because you knew he was listening. During the remainder of your travels, you told him much about your life at home and your friends. Oftentimes, if you asked a question regarding his life, you would wait for his answers even if it took him minutes to respond.
âLet me show you all the important rooms,â Heeseung says to you, the corner of his lips lifting in a smile. Heâs not sure what it is about you that makes him behave this way, but your aura seems to wear off on him, too. Heâs caught himself smiling more often than usual.
When you nod, he starts the tour with the library. You had told him you werenât that big of a fan of reading, but whenever you had the time and the mood, you liked to nestle with a good book. He also shows you the kitchen, the washing rooms, his office and your bedroom. There are more rooms within the tower, but for now, Heeseung leaves those doors closed.
âUnpack and make yourself at home,â he says, pointing at the plain room. It is not the same one as the girls before you have had, for this one is much closer to his bedroom and office. He knows he probably shouldnât have done that, but this strange feeling in his chest told him that he might need to keep a much closer eye on you than the other girls.
âOkay,â you say, nodding. âWhat will you be doing?â
âIâm going to make us supper,â Heeseung informs you.
âOh. You can cook?â you ask brightly, and the sorcerer scrunches his nose, shaking his head.
âI hope you like bread with butter.â
You blink at him, speechless. âWho doesnât like bread and butter?â You tilt your head to the side. âBut that isnât all you eat whenever youâre at the tower, is it?â
Heeseung presses his lips together. âNo?â he lies, and you narrow your eyes at him.
âYou must let me cook, then!â you claim, ready to storm past him into the kitchens rather than to unpack your things, but Heeseung places his hands on each of your arms to stop you from going anywhere.
âI donât have any ingredients for cooking,â he says, shaking his head. âUnless you are the one with magic, capable of making food out of thin air.â
âWellâŠâ You pout, looking into the sorcererâs eyes. âI do not have magic, but I know a hefty trick for getting ingredients.â You grin, aware of Heeseungâs hands still on you. âItâs called shopping.â
âYou canât leave the tower on your own,â Heeseung sighs. âItâs too dangerous. It wonât happen.â
âThen come with me,â you suggest nonchalantly, still smiling. âYou will protect me, and I will make sure we have proper supper. Did the other girls truly agree to living on plain bread and butter?â Your brow furrowed, and Heeseung shrugged.
âSometimes we had meat,â he says.
âIâm surprised they lasted ten years like this.â You shake your head in disbelief. âWe live in modern times. There is much more food to eat than just bread and butter and meat.â
âI never needed anything more,â Heeseung grumbles.
âWell, now you do,â you say finally, crossing your arms. âTomorrow, first thing in the morning, we are visiting the closest village and visiting their market for ingredients.â
âAs long as itâs not too early,â Heeseung says defeatedly.
Living with the sorcerer was much easier than you thought it would be. Even if he constantly complains about you waking him up far too early for chores such as shopping for ingredients.Â
Today, however, when you approach his door to wake him up as usual, he opens the door right in front of your nose, pushing a cloak toward you. âHere. With this, you can go to the village on your own.â
âBut⊠itâs a cloak.â You pouted, eyeing the piece of black fabric. It had a slight purple shimmer to it, however, and when the sorcerer spoke next, it confirmed your suspicions.
âItâs enchanted. To protect you from the Forest. It shouldnât be able to track you while youâre wearing it. So put it on and let me sleep.â Heeseung runs a hand through his hair.
You raise your brow at him, noticing the dark bags under his eyes. âSomeone woke up on the wrong side of the bed today,â you attempt to tease him, but he merely sighs.
âMore like someone didnât wake up in the bed because they havenât even gone to bed yet, trying to figure out the enchantment on this damned thing.â He points at the cloak indignantly. âI need my beauty sleep. I canât keep going to the market with you,â he whines.
This is the revered sorcerer who protects the people from monsters that you got to know. Heâs not any different from your friends other than the fact that heâs centuries older, yet somehow his mind seems to be stuck at a specific age â perhaps that is a thing of immortality. Because one doesnât age, their mind nor body does not develop any further.
âWell, I was never forcing you to,â you say, finally accepting the cloak from him. âBut thank you. Iâll make sure to wear this well.â
âGood.â The sorcerer nods.
âYou know you couldâve just told me to stop going to the market if you donât like it so much, right?â you ask, tilting your head to the side. âYouâre the one with power here. And Iâm the one in danger.â
Heeseung licks his lips and shrugs. âThat means youâd stop cooking, though,â he says, not keen on admitting that he prefers your meals to anything heâs had in the last several decades. âJust⊠go by yourself. And make sure to come back in one piece.â
âHow are you so sure I wonât just run away?â you keep questioning him, and he rolls his eyes this time.
âYou see this?â He grabs your wrist, pointing at the magical tattoo created by his spell. âWeâre connected, Y/N, remember? I will find you wherever you go. But it also means the Forest could do the same thing. Eventually, the enchantment on this cloak could wear out, and if you get stuck somewhere without me and something from the Forest comes for you, then youâll have nobody but yourself to blame.â
You bite your lip, nodding. Heâs certainly made his point. Not that you ever truly considered leaving on your own. You truly are not well equipped to fight monsters on your own. âI understand,â mumbling the response, you yank your wrist out of Heeseungâs grasp.
âSorry,â Heeseung sighs, rubbing his eyes leisurely. âI donât mean to be so⊠irritable. Iâm justââ
âTired,â you finish for him, offering a thin smile. âI know. And Iâm thankful for this, really.â You raise the cloak. âGet all the sleep you need, Heeseung. Iâll make sure to come back and prepare breakfast in the meantime.â
âOkay,â he says, allowing himself to grace you with the tiniest smile. Heeseung doesnât smile often, so the few times that he does, itâs a precious sight. One to be remembered for days to come.
âIâll get going now. Sleep well, Heeseung.â
As always, the market is buzzing with its early morning magic. Farmers from around the village and many other merchants have their stands prepared, beckoning anyone who shows even the smallest bit of interest in any of their wares. You always like to buy something from each to help them. Besides, the sorcererâs resources are not exactly limited the same way your familyâs used to be.
âNo sorcerer today, Miss?â asks the farmer whose wares youâre eyeing. Heâs an older man with grey streaks in his hair, and you remember him mainly because heâs always been the nicest to Heeseung out of all the villagers. While the others treat him with distrust and fear, this man has been nothing but respectful.Â
âUnfortunately, he chose not to make the trip.â You give a thin smile, shaking your head. âBut I plan to make a nice breakfast for him. So, what would you say are your best products today?â
âThe sweet potatoes.â A new voice joins the conversation. A boy probably around your age steps into your view, grinning from you to the farmer. âTheyâve been growing really well this season.â
âI see,â you hum, examining the newcomer. His big eyes and warm smile are incredibly inviting, and you hope you will see him more often from now on. âIâll take five, then.â
âGreat choice,â the boy says cheerfully, immediately getting to work. âIâm Taehyun, by the way. Are you the new girl living with the sorcerer? Itâs a bit novel for us that youâre here since they used to always stay at the tower.â
You smile, making a noncommittal noise. âIâm Y/N. And I think this is new for everyone involved.â
âIâm glad youâre here. It would be a waste for someone so pretty to rot away at the tower,â Taehyun claims, handing you a bag of the best sweet potatoes that he could pick in their batch.
âStop flirting with the customers, son,â the elder farmer scolds, glancing between you and Taehyun.
Your cheeks burn due to the unexpected compliment. While you are used to your friends telling you that youâre pretty, itâs quite different when it comes from someone you donât know. âItâs okay, sir. Thank you.â
Taehyun grins, his doe eyes lighting up. âDo you need any more help? I want to ask you some things,â he says, and you turn to his father with furrowed brows.
âWhat aboutââ
âDonât worry, Miss. Iâm not that old.â He chuckles, letting Taehyun do whatever he wants. âBesides, you were always curious why I donât regard the sorcerer with the same apprehensiveness as the others, no?â
You blink at the man. âI suppose yes, but how is thatââ
âI have magic,â Taehyun answers simply. âItâs nothing quite grand like the sorcererâs, but I have it. Look.â Lifting up a sweet potato, Taehyun makes it float in the air, just above his hand. Then, with a snap of his fingers, the potato vanishes and appears back in its original box.
âWoah. Thatâs still impressive,â you say. âIsnât it rare, still? To have magic.â
âI think so. But apparently, I wasnât powerful enough to be allowed to study about it more in the capital.â
âOh, Iâm sorry.â You pout, but Taehyun shakes his head.
âDonât be. I learned all I needed to know on my own. And now I get to help my parents with the farm, and donât have to leave them.â Taehyun smiles, sharing a fond look with his father.Â
âThat is admirable.â You nod, your affection growing for the boy in front of you with every passing second. Besides, youâre possibly going to see him more often, so why not make a new friend?
âSo would you like any help? I can carry a lot on my own.â Taehyun speaks proudly, and you giggle, watching him flexing his arms the tiniest bit just to show off.
âIf it is okay with your father that I steal you for myself, then I wouldnât mind another hand, since Heeseung decided to miss out today,â you agree, your heart swelling at the sight of Taheyunâs toothy smile.
âCompletely okay,â the farmer says, shaking his head amusedly.
âSo, what are you looking for?â Taehyun claps his hands, plastering himself to your side. âI can recommend all the best stands for everything.â
âThat would be lovely, thank you so much.â
âItâs no problem, Y/N. Iâm really just trying to spend the most time possible with you.â
You giggle again, taken aback by the boyâs frankness. âIâm not that special, you know?â
âAnd yet youâre all I want to see.â Taehyunâs lines are smooth, making your face feel hotter than the sun. âCome on, would you like to know where to get the best bread around here?â
And so you follow.Â
Maybe you shouldnât have let Taehyun help you all the way back to the tower, but he was so insistent. You couldnât tell him no. Especially with his large deer eyes. They almost reminded you of Heeseungâs.Â
Almost.
Until he stands in the kitchen, looking well-rested, glaring at Taehyunâs figure. To him, heâs a complete stranger in his home, and you invited him in without asking for permission.
âWhat is this?â he asks, pointing at Taehyun who has been diligently helping you put all your newly acquired items away. He intended to stay in his study until youâd call for him, but then he heard laughter bouncing off the walls of the tower, and it filled him with dread. âI let you out by yourself once, and you bring a stranger to my home?â
âTechnically, itâs also my home for the next ten years,â you argue, shaking your head. âAnd Taehyun is very sweet.â Smiling at him, Taehyun gives you a grateful nod.
âJust because you think someone is sweet, doesnât mean itâs still not dangerous to let a stranger into the Tower.â Heeseung scoffs, running a hand through his hair. âDo you realise how dangerous that is? Maybe I shouldnât let you go out anymoreâŠâ he speaks to himself, but you and Taehyun can hear him perfectly well.
âYou canât be serious. Just because the other girls were fine staying inside, Iâm most definitely not going to be,â you say, putting your foot down.
âIt would be for your own good,â the sorcerer says matter-of-factly.
âMy good, or your benefit?â You raise a brow at him. Heeseungâs face contorts in anger for the briefest of moments before he schools his expression, staring you down.
âMy benefit? You think any of this is beneficial to me?â he asks you calmly, but itâs somehow more terrifying than if he had exploded with fury. âI have been fighting whatever creatures come outside of the forest for centuries, and I donât even know why, or why I have to. How in the world could that be beneficial to me?â The question is aimed at you, but itâs clear that it is rhetorical â something he has long given up on finding the answer to.
If you werenât furious with the sorcerer, you wouldâve empathised with him, but all you could hear in your head right now was his threat to keep you locked away in his tower by the forest. âSorry, I misspoke,â you correct yourself, frowning. âI just meant that youâre the reason why I even have to be here.â
âYou think I enjoy that?â Heeseung tilts his head, glaring at you this time. âFine! Whatever. You are free to leave of your own free will, Y/N. Since youâre, oh, so fine without me.â He says, looking at Taehyun this time. A different emotion flashes in his eyes as he presses his lips tightly together. âIâm sure he would love to protect you anyway,â Heeseung scoffs and runs a hand over his face.Â
Your face falls as you glance at Taehyun and then look back at Heeseung. âWhat do you mean?â
âY/Nââ Taehyun attempts to speak, but Heeseung only laughs. Itâs such a deprived sound it almost scares you.
âAre you telling me you donât know that the person you brought here is currently the youngest Sorcerer General? That he works for the capital as one of the most powerful sorcerers aside from me?âÂ
âWhat?â This time, you turn to Taehyun fully. âBut you saidâ did you lie to me?â you ask softly, and as Taehyun apologetically stares down at his feet, licking his lips, you know that he, in fact, did lie to you. âWas the farmer truly your father?â
âYes! Yes, he was!â Taehyun exclaims immediately, shutting his eyes close tightly before meeting yours again. âThatâs why I came to the village. Because he told me that Heeseung has been coming there with you⊠so the capital sent me.â
âOh.â You step away from Taehyun, not knowing how to feel. âBut you still lied to me.â
âY/N, Iâm sorryâ I just didnât want to scare you offââ
âSo you made up a whole lie about how you were helping at the family farm with your magic?â you scoff, shaking your head.
âYou shouldâve been honest with her.â Heeseung chuckles, rolling his eyes. âY/N is the most honest person Iâve ever met, so the truth would have hardly scared her off.â
You look at the sorcerer, surprised to hear those words leave his mouth. Youâre never sure what exactly he thinks of you, but somehow, knowing that he considers you an honest person warms your heart. He certainly mustâve met many liars in his lifetime. And Taehyun is clearly one of them.
âYes. So whatever you or the capital want from me, or from Heeseung, just leave us alone. Let them know heâs doing his job just fine.â
âIs he, though?â Taehyun questions, staring at you. âHe did let you out of his sight this morning.â
âI have protections placed on me,â you claim, but Taehyun laughs dryly.
âIf you mean that flimsy scuffed cloak, then I doubt it was powerful enough to protect you from a monster that wants to directly attack you,â he says, unimpressed. âSo, Iâd dare say he should do his job better.â
âYou littleââ
âDonât.â You sigh tiredly, stepping in front of Taehyun. âI can sense animosity between the two of you, but Iâm not willing to hear it. Iâm sorry, Heeseung, I see your point, Iâve made a mistake.â
âYou donât need to apologise to him, of all people,â Taehyun says from behind you, and you turn to face him, meeting his big eyes with a blank stare.
âWhatever your problem is with Heeseung, I donât care. You lied to me, and I donât appreciate it. The last thing you get to do is insult Heeseung under his roof.â You place your hands on your hips, frowning. âEither be nice, or stay quiet.â
Taehyun clenches his hands into fists, glaring back at Heeseung. But he gives in, sighing in defeat. âHeâs not just the reason you have to be living in this tower for the next ten years, you know?â He tells you quietly, enough for Heeseung not to hear. âHeâs also the reason the Forest is as dangerous as it is. Thatâs why heâs the only one tasked with fighting it. So donât think heâs being honest with you either.â
Colour drains from your face as you listen to him. This time, youâre certain it is the truth because of the graveness in Taehyunâs voice. Though you donât understand why heâs being secretive about it. Why doesnât he say it directly even to Heeseung?
Shaking his head, Taehyun moves to leave. âIf you ever need help, let me know. Iâll be around, making sure that Heeseung is doing his job well.â
âDickhead,â the taller sorcerer murmurs under his breath even before Taehyun departs entirely, possibly having heard him. But he didnât react in any way, simply leaving you alone with Heeseung once again.
You look at Heeseung, not knowing what to think of him now. Though when he smiles at you as if nothing happened, you want to forget Taehyunâs harrowing words.
âDo you need any help with breakfast? I can fry eggs.â
Despite Taehyunâs words, you continued going to the market on your own. You noticed a deer following you around whenever you did so, and you assumed it was another one of Heeseungâs protective precautions to keep you away from danger.
Whenever you come across Taehyun now, he has this distinct look on his face of sharing a secret with you that Heeseung doesnât know about. Of course, you didnât tell him. How could you relay such information onto him, not knowing how heâd take it? How would one react to finding out they are the reason so many lives are in danger?
âAh, crap!â you curse under your breath after what feels like the millionth time of failing to strike the correct chord on the guitar from Jongseong. It shouldnât be difficult considering your expertise with the violin, but youâre struggling regardless.Â
You close your eyes, knowing itâs probably because you canât focus. You keep thinking back to Taehyunâs words and how itâs somehow his fault that the forest is dangerous. Which also means he is the reason why youâre in danger, and why the forest wants to take you. Though you donât know how, or what it means.
âDo you plan to torture the poor instrument for long?â Heeseung, as if hearing your thoughts, appears in the music room with a soft, amused smile playing on his lips.
âSorry,â you say instantly, looking up at him. âI simply canât seem to figure it out.â
âAllow me.â Heeseung steps closer to you, outstretching his hand to take the guitar.
You let him, watching him nestle next to you on the small sofa that you had chosen for practice. With a smile, he begins playing a song that both sounds foreign and familiar to you. The melody begins merrily, yet as it goes on, the song turns into a mixture of fury and betrayal. A tale that strikes to the very core of your heart, leaving you breathless.Â
âWhat song was that?â you ask once the sorcerer is finished.Â
âI donât know,â he replies honestly. âItâs just been on my mind for a whileâŠâ Heeseung tries to hide his confusion, but not even he knew that these emotions have been festering within him.
âHere.â He hands the guitar back to you.Â
Accepting it, you let the instrument sit on your lap while Heeseung moves to kneel on the ground in front of you. Heâs tall enough to still be at eye level with you, and you startle when his fingers brush against your hand.Â
âSorry, allow me,â he says quietly, taking your hand in his and placing your fingers on the strings of the guitar. âIâm going to teach you some basic chords first, so you donât torture the guitar at random.â
You blink at him, not sure how to react. With the sorcerer this close to you, itâs hard to process anything, let alone his words. All you can hear is intense buzzing in your ears, and the storm within your heart.Â
Gulping, you nod carefully. Heeseung smiles, guiding your fingers along the strings to show you each chord, making sure that you understand everything perfectly.Â
It becomes easier when you know the chords. Now that you can connect each sound to what you already know, it doesnât seem as difficult anymore. With a grin, you find yourself playing the very melody Jaeyun and Sunghoon composed, and it makes you miss home â though in a good way.
Being here means they are safe. That is what matters most.Â
âYouâre a natural,â Heeseung says, but the proud feeling is gone within moments.
He makes an expression unfamiliar to you as his eyes roam the music room, and you wonder what he is thinking. He abruptly stands up instead, walking toward the window with a frown.
âStay here,â he commands, closing the window. You shouldnât be surprised when he disappears as fast as he appeared, but it hurts the tiniest bit.
You watch him head to the forest from your closed window, wishing for him to have told you that he had sensed danger and needed to leave instead of departing almost without a word.Â
After hours had passed, you considered running to the village over to find Taehyun so heâd help you find Heeseung somewhere inside the Forest. But as you open the door of the Tower, Heeseung comes stumbling through the entrance, collapsing on the floor with blood splattered all over his clothes.Â
âHeeseung!â You cry out, going to examine him and his wounds instantly. He groans when you turn him to his back, and you notice a large bite from what you can only assume was an oversized wolf on his shoulder. âWhat happened?â you mumble.Â
âYour music,â Heeseung whispers. âItâsââ
âNo, shh.â Putting your hand over his mouth, you shut him up. âI need to treat your wounds first. Then you can explain yourself,â you say, heart pounding in your ears.Â
Heeseung is an immortal sorcerer. This is probably not as severe as it looks to him, but it doesnât change the fact that it worries you. That you are worried for him.
From the kitchen, you grab a dittany solution and a piece of cloth to wash the wound with, before finding a kit for wound-treating in the bathroom.
Your hands shake while you tear Heeseungâs tunic off of him for better access to the wound. It allows you to see not only his toned chest and stomach, but also the many scars that tatter his honey-coloured skin.Â
Pouring the solution over his shoulder, you ignore the hiss he lets out, grateful that he isnât fighting you.Â
You do your best to wash the bleeding wound before dressing and wrapping it in bandages. See, being close to three boys of your age gave you some expertise in treating wounds, but it had never been this severe before. It was never a large bite from a monster of the Forest.Â
âI need to get you to your room,â you say weakly, wrapping your arm around Heeseungâs torso. âCan you move?âÂ
The sorcerer doesnât respond with words, but he doesnât let you use all your strength to carry him around either. While most of his weight is still on your shoulders as he drapes his arm over your shoulders, he does his best to walk on his own.Â
You never complained about the stairs in the Tower before, but today is the day when they seem to be your absolute doom. Luckily, Heeseungâs bedroom is not too far up.Â
Huffing and puffing by the time you reach the door to Heeseungâs room, youâre happy to find relief in opening the door that leads into a large bedroom with⊠almost nothing inside. Sure, there are some books and a desk, but other than a bed, the room is painfully empty and plain.
You have no time to question it. Instead, you lead Heeseung toward his bed, helping him lie down. But when you want to leave him to rest, he grabs your wrist, not letting you go.
âHeeseung, you need to rest.â
âDonât leave,â he says, shaking his head. âStay, please.â
âHeeseungââ
âI need you here.â
âThatâsââ
Heeseung, with what strength he has left, pulls you toward him onto the bed. You fall on top of his chest with a yelp, and you seem to be the only one bothered about it. Especially when the sorcerer wraps his arms around you, refusing to let go of you.
âItâs you the Forest wants. He wonât let you go. I canât protect you if youâre not with me,â he rambles into your hair, strangely frantic. Though you write it off as a side-effect of his injury.
âHe canât have you, Eunjin. Please donât leave me. Youâre my heart.â
Eunjin.
Whoâs Eunjin?
When Heeseung wakes up, itâs in a cold sweat. The room spins in his vision, and when it finally settles on the open window, he can only feel a strange sense of emptiness.Â
Attempting to move is a terrible idea. Heeseung groans in pain, hand reaching for the bandaged shoulder that you treated. The wound is still fresh, but you made sure to keep it from getting infected.Â
His recollection of yesterdayâs events is blurry, but he does remember you helping him to his room and him asking you to stay. So finding his room cold and empty without your presence hurts. Not that he would admit such a thing out loud.Â
Heeseung is supposed to be the aloof, mysterious and brooding sorcerer from the Tower, yet youâve made him smile more times than he can count in the past months that he fears more than usual for your safety.Â
He always managed to keep a professional relationship with the other women during his time as Keeper of the Forest, one could say, because keeping distance between himself and people who didnât want to be here was never hard. However, it proves to be difficult with you. Especially when you act like you actually enjoy his company rather than him being a nuisance in your corner.Â
You enter Heeseungâs room without knocking. Though in your defence, you did not expect him to be awake just yet. Breakfast is clutched in your hands, ready to be served to Heeseung on an actual silver platter.Â
âOh. Good morning,â you say softly with a tiny smile. âAre you feeling alright?â
The sigh of relief that leaves Heeseungâs lips at the sight of you and the knowledge of your safety is unfamiliar to him. Obviously, he has always worried for the women staying with him, but never this much. Not when he is the one who got hurt.Â
Besides, they never brought him breakfast to bed either. In fact, nobody has ever done that, as far as Heeseung is aware. So maybe the way his heart begs to jump out of his chest when you approach him is an entirely reasonable reaction.Â
âI could be better,â Heeseung replies quickly, when he notices a frown forming on your lips because he was quiet for too long. âYou didnât have to do all this,â he says.Â
âBut you got hurt.â You shake your head in disapproval. âI feel like this is the least I can do,â you sigh, running a hand through your hair.Â
A sigh of defeat leaves your lips. One that Heeseung is familiar with as he has felt powerlessness many times before. But the last thing you are is powerless. You donât even know it, but the reason Heeseung had to leave yesterday was specifically because youâre too powerful.
Your music is its own kind of magic, and unfortunately, it lures the creatures of the Forest directly to you. But Heeseung canât tell you that. Music is an important part of your life, and heâs willing to fight whatever comes for you rather than disappoint you or make you upset.Â
There is also this underlying feeling of having come across this kind of magic before. It was from⊠he cannot not remember who had the magic or when exactly in his life he came across it. Yet he knows itâs important. This person who wielded this magic meant something. Whoever they were.Â
âAll I need from you is to be safe,â Heeseung says almost too intimately, surprising even himself. Your lips part in shock as you stare at him, hands tightly gripping onto the tray with breakfast.Â
Gulping, you nod. âI am safe.âÂ
You dare moving closer to Heeseung, offering the freshly made breakfast to him with a timid smile, which he accepts gratefully. It isnât just the tea you prepared that makes him feel warm inside.Â
âPlease, rest now. I promise not to leave the Tower while you recover,â you reassure the sorcerer.
âBut how will youââ
âI wrote to Taehyun,â you reply, and Heeseung hates the pang of jealousy he feels within his heart at the mention of the other sorcerer. âI know heâs been keeping an eye on us, so it was easy to contact him and ask for a small favour.â
âYou mean turning him into a delivery man?â Heeseung's brow raises, and you shrug.
âItâs the least he can do.â
Heeseung snorts, amusement filling his bones. Of course, you would be the one to reduce a Sorcerer General of a large army to something as measly as a delivery man.Â
And the best part about it? Taehyun is going to do it.
âThank you,â you say to Taehyun when he enters the Tower with bags of ingredients. Since Heeseung got hurt, you plan to make a large lunch and dinner to help him recover faster.Â
âNo problem.â The man shrugs. âYou had something to ask me?â he adds, since your request for groceries was not the only one you made in your message to him.Â
Pursing your lips, you nod. Leading Taehyun into the kitchen to put away the food, you think of the best way to form your question. Though the base is simple: you want to know more about Heeseung. Things that not even he knows, it seems.Â
âOh.â He chuckles in understanding. âYou want to know what I meant before.â Looking at you, his brows furrow. âWhy the sudden interest? Did something happen?â
You shake your head. âI just want to know what you meant by it,â you argue. âHow can the Forest be Heeseungâs fault only?â
âItâs simple, isnât it?â Taehyun answers with a question of his own. âItâs a curse that heâs not aware of because the curse itself makes him forget. He doesnât know it himself, but heâs far older than two centuries.â
âHe is?â
Taehyun nods. âI donât know that much myself, but his history is something sorcerers study in the capital. Itâs just that all the details are very blurry and every book that mentions him is merely a different interpretation of what could have happened rather than what truly did happen.
âA detail that remains the same, however, is that there used to be seven of them. Seven Sorcerer Guardians who protected a princess of the Old Kingdom. She was a powerful priestess and her magic was beyond anyoneâs understanding, so she created these seven sorcerers who helped her as her power grew. But she died alongside them in a war that destroyed the Old Kingdom, and unlike her, the seven sorcerers were reborn in a completely new world with magic that likely came from the princess.
âNobody knows where the other six sorcerers are. Theyâre likely alive and well, but weâre not sure where they are nor who they are. But Heeseung⊠The power he wields now is only a sliver of what he had two centuries ago due to a curse of an unknown origin to us all. And the speculation is that the power that he lacks is now what makes the Forest what it is.â
âWhich is why heâs the only one fighting itâŠâ you finish for Taehyun, and he hums.Â
âIâm not saying heâs a monster or anything. Itâs just that there is so much we donât know about him.â
âI understand.â You nod. âThank you for telling me.â
âWhere is he anyway? Are you alright?â Taehyun worries for you, and you chuckle. âDo you need anything else?â
âIâm fine, donât worry. But Heeseung got hurt last night, so I donât want to leave him here all alone.â
âHeâd be fine,â Taehyun scoffs. âWe heal faster than normal people. Immortality and all that.â He continues to help you put things away in silence for barely a minute before speaking again. âYouâre different from the other women Heeseung has protected in the past,â he claims.Â
Biting the inside of your cheek, you glance at Taehyun. âAm I?â
âSomething is different about you.â Taehyun nods. âYour aura is so much more⊠itâs stronger. Like⊠I think you have magic, Y/N.â
âWhat? No.â You shake your head in denial. âHow could I have magic? Am I not way past the age for finding that out?â
âMagic manifests in many ways, Y/N. Yours could be so subtle nobody ever noticed, but it is there. Itâs strong, just not⊠obvious,â Taehyun disagrees with you.
âBut then⊠why wouldnât Heeseung tell me that?â
âWhy would he tell you that?â Taehyun counters. âI think heâs scared, Y/N. The Forest behaves differently than it used to. It no longer searches anywhere. Itâs dormant.â
âBut Heeseung fought some creatures yesterday.â
âBecause something called them forth. I monitored the Forestâs activity, and it was like⊠they found what they were looking for last night.â
âWaitâŠâ you pause, staring at Taehyun. âIf you were monitoring the Forest, why didnât you help Heeseung?â
âItâs not in my jurisdiction.â
âBullshit,â you spit, shaking your head. âYou couldâve prevented his injury.â
âHeâll be fine, Y/N.â
âBut heâs not fine now!â you counter, shaking your head. âHe was partly delirious yesterday and⊠he called me Eunjin.â
Taehyunâs face turns grave at the mention of the name. âEunjinâs dead,â he says with a deadpan.
âYeah? I figured,â you scoff. There are many things you could guess based on what Heeseung said last night. But you did not like the way it made you feel.Â
âEunjin was different from the other women Heeseung has protected,â Taehyun sighs, offering an explanation in an attempt to quell your indignation. âShe was a sorceress studying in the capital before, you know, the mark.â Taehyun points at the one you have on your wrist.
âAnd she died? I never heard of anyone dyingââ
âIt was covered up well,â Taehyun says. âBesides, we donât really know if she died. All we know is that she went into the Forest on her own and never came back. Heeseung searched for her, I think, but she disappeared.â A frown settles on Taehyunâs lips, and you study him with your head tilted to the side.Â
âSheâs the reason you donât like Heeseung,â you say matter-of-factly.
Taehyun chuckles, shaking his head. âThat obvious, huh?â he asks, running a hand through his hair. âEunjin was my best friend in the capital; we studied together. She was⊠stronger than me.â
âOh. Iâm sorry,â you say, moving toward Taehyun with uncertain steps. Not that long ago, you were still upset with him, but now you want to comfort him somehow. The way he looks at you, with big sad eyes, you canât resist the urge to take his hand in yours and offer a warm smile.Â
âYou really need to be careful around him.â Taehyun looks at you solemnly, covering your hand in his. âEunjin wanted to go into the Forest because of him. Please, donât make the same mistake.â
âI wonât.â You canât promise that.Â
Taehyun smiles ruefully. âWhoâs the liar now, huh?â He clearly wants to say something else, perhaps a wish that should not be spoken aloud, but he doesnât get the chance.
âY/N, I think my wound started healingââ Heeseung walks into the kitchen, watching you jump away from Taehyun, yanking your hand out of his grip. Confused, Heeseung glances between you and Taehyun.Â
âWoah, thatâ that is great news!â you exclaim hastily, a large grin breaking across your lips as you pretend not to have learned about Heeseungâs past.Â
âSee, I told you heâd be fine,â Taehyun adds lamely in an attempt to resume the conversation.
âItâs a relief.â You nod. âDo you need anything, Heeseung? More food? Water? Tea? Coffee?â
âIâm fine, thanks.â Heeseung gives you a weird look. He knows youâre hiding something, but doesnât press the issue with Taehyun right next to you.
âYou do realise youâre not his maid, right?â Taehyun raises his brow at you.Â
âTaehyunââ
âWould you prefer it if she was yours?â Heeseung challenges in turn.Â
âSheâs not property to give out like that.â Taehyun glares at the other sorcerer.Â
âStop talking about me like Iâm not here,â you say firmly, fixing both men with a stern stare. Itâs especially pointed at Taehyun because of the conversation you two shared literally moments ago. âI know you two have issues, but do not make me a ball the two of you get to kick around to prove a point.âÂ
This gets both sorcerers to look at you, their expressions turning apologetic.
âIâm my own person, and I can do whatever I want. If I want to offer Heeseung a cup of tea then I can do that,â you say, looking at Taehyun. They seem to look regretful now, realising that their words may have been hurtful toward you, when that is the last thing they intended. âI think itâll be better if you leave now, Taehyun.â
âY/N, Iâmââ
âIâll walk you out.â
tags: @moonpri @addictedtohobi @superbbananananana @strayy_kidz
#enhypen#enhypen fic#enhypen imagines#enhypen fanfiction#enhypen fluff#enhypen angst#enhypen x reader#heeseung x reader#lee heeseung x reader#lee heeseung fic#heeseung fic#heeseung imagines#heeseung angst#heeseung au#lee heeseung#heeseung#enhypen heeseung x reader#enhypen heeseung#haia writes
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I know it's a day early but I have to put it out now
Friends AU: After team RWBY throws a big Halloween/Birthday Party that involves all of Atlas and part of Mantle, how does the gang react to finding out Jaune never went to the party because he never got an invite even though Team RWBY all swear they invited him?
One Invitation Short
Ruby: WHOOO!
Ruby: It's my birthday~!
Nora: Let's fucking party!
Yang: Happy birthday sis!
Blake: Halloween birthday party! WHOO!
Ren: Happy birthday, Ruby.
Weiss: Congratulations, Ruby.
Penny: This is my first friends birthday party I've ever attended.
Oscar: Mine too.
Yang: Then we'll have to make sure this is one hell of a party!
Ren: But, not too big of a party. The janitorial staff haven't been looking at us kindly since the soda bottle rocket incident...
Weiss: Hey don't look at me like that. That was totally their fault!
Nora: Hey, it was an accident!
Weiss: You got pink soda all over me!
Ruby: We said we were sorry!
Weiss: My clothes are still in the drycleaners getting all the pink out of my clothes!
Yang: I have some photos of her all drenched in cream soda, wanna see?
Blake: Oh please!
Weiss: Noooo!
Blake: HA! Oh you look like a princess from a kids book in a pink dress!
Yang: Pfft! Oh shit, she does!
Weiss: guys?!
Ruby: Don't worry, Weiss, you'll always be beautiful even in pink!
Weiss: Shut up...
Nora: Don't be a downer guys! Let's eat some cake, and celebrate!
Yang: Yeah! I want some cake!
Oscar: What kind of cake is it?
Ren: Cookies, and cream.
Oscar: I've never had that before.
Weiss: Me either, it sounds nice.
Yang: Alright everyone around the table so we can sing happy birthday, and eat the cake.
Nora: Cake!
Blake: Okay.
Ruby: I'm so excited.
Yang: Okay, birthday girl is in the main seat... Penny... Weiss, Blake... Nora, and Ren... Oscar, and Penny have a seat. And, we're just waiting on you, Ja...?
Yang: ...?
Yang: Wait...? Where's, Jaune?
Weiss: He's here... right?
Nora: Y-You guys invited him... right?
Yang: Well... I was going to tell him, but I got dragged away on a mission, so I asked, Blake to do it.
Blake: I remember, Yang asked me to tell him. And, I was going to tell him! but, then I saw that there was this sushi restaurant... and, I haven't had sushi in so long... A-And, I heard, Mantle sushi is really well know for how good it is... and... s-sushi...
Yang: Uhh, Blake...? Blake? (Snap, Snap, Snap!) Hey, stay with us!
Blake: Sorry! I went to the sushi restaurant, and I sent a message to, Weiss to have her tell him instead.
Weiss: I remember that call; I was going to complain to, Blake about dumping her responsibility on me. But, she sounded like a junkie needing her fix when she was talking about that sushi restaurant.
Yang: That...! That sounds true...
Ruby: Yeah, she enters this weird trance when it comes to sushi...
Nora: It rather scary really...
Weiss: Well I decided to tell, Jaune so, Blake could get her... fix... And, I was about to tell him...! And, then the soda bottle incident happened...?!
Nora: Sorry...
Weiss: And, you all know what happened... So, while I went to get changed, and have a shower. So I asked, Ruby to do instead.
Ruby: And, I did!
Nora: If you did, then why isn't, Jaune here?
Ruby: I don't know?! I went to him during dinner, we chatted about out missions, and then I handed him this handmade invitation letter!
Weiss: A handmade invitation?
Ruby: Yes!
Weiss: That same letter that's in your hands, right now...?
Ruby: Ya, this the same lett...?!
Ruby: Oh...?
Ruby: Oh shoot...
Nora: So... you all weren't able to tell, Jaune about the party because you were distracted by one thing, or another... And, when you finally got to him, you didn't hand him the invitation?!
Ruby: Sorry...
Yang: I got called away...
Blake Sushiiiiiiiii~!
Weiss: I'm not apologizing...
Nora: Ohh... Penny?!
Penny: Yes, Friend Nora?
Nora: D-Did you send, Jaune a message?
Penny: Let me check.
Penny: ...
Penny: I do not have, Jaune Arc in my list of contacts...? Odd... I must preform a self-diagnostic...
Penny: Scanning...
Penny: System corruption located... Fixing.
Penny: Fixed! The contact information of one, Jaune Arc has been found!
Penny: I shall contact him, and hopefully, Friend Jaune will come join us soon!
Nora: Awesome!
Weiss: Oh thank goodness, hopefully, Jaune will join us soon.
Yang: Yes, it wouldn't be a party without my best blond pal!
Ruby: Hopefully he will come here soon, and we can continue the party, and...
Penny: What...?!
Yang: Is... is something wrong, Penny?
Penny: Jaune just replied to my invitation... He said, 'No thank you...'
Nora: What?!
Ruby: Jaune... rejected the invitation... to... to my birthday party...?
Penny: I'm afraid so...
Ruby: But... why...?
Penny: I... I don't know...
Ruby: But...?!
Penny: I'm sorry, Ruby.
Ruby: ...
Ruby: I see...
Ren: We did it again... we failed our friend...
Nora: What are you talking about, Ren...? We're not, Jaune's friend... We never were...
RWBYNPRP: ...
Ruby: ...
Ruby: FUCK!!!
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Winter: Who was that?
Jaune: No one important... Sorry about that interruption, Sir.
Ironwood: That's alright, Mr. Arc. Now then, tell me what is it that you wanted to talk about?
Jaune: Winter made me an offer the other day, and I wanted to know, what would my duties be if I accepted her offer, and became, a Specialist.
#rwby#jaune arc#yang xiao long#blake belladonna#weiss schnee#ruby rose#nora valkyrie#lie ren#winter schnee#penny polendina#oscar pine#james ironwood#friends au
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Hello! Havenât been here in a while but didnât you have a whole giant list of arcane headcanons and imagines at one point or am I crazy and thinking of a different blog? Anyway! Could I please request an imagine of reader finding out sheâs pregnant and is trying to find a way to tell Vander but the kids find out first and accidentally ruin the surprise? Or just something similar, it doesnât have to be exact! Feel free to follow where inspiration leads or skip! Thank you!
That was on my deactivated blog, I started over. And yes, I'm more than happy to write your request.
Pairing: Vander x Fem!Reader
Tags: fluff, pregnancy announcement, established relationship, kissing, celebration
Ko-Fi | Rules | Fandoms and Characters
A/N: Arcane brainrot cam back HARD. I'm not sorry for anything I'm gonna write.
You've been trying for a baby for a long time
Both of you were parents already now that you adopted Vi, Powder, Milo and Claggor but that didn't stop you from wanting one more kid
When you started feeling sick your mind didn't immediately jump to the possibility of pregnancy
A lot of illnesses were common in Zaun so if anything you thought you were just sick
Vander was worried and urged you to work less until you feel better
You began to suspect something was wrong when you skipped your period
It could be a false alarm so you wait a little more to be sure
Vander notices you've been acting off, and so do the kids
You tell them first but make them promise not to tell Vander, you want it to be a big surprise
Because the kids are excited about the idea of getting a new sibling they're a little bit too loud when cheering
Which results in Vander overhearing something about a baby
He doesn't ask you right away, but he can hardly keep his own excitement off his face
Together in bed you cuddle up to him and his hand falls on your stomach, asking if he was hearing thinks, was it just wishful thinking on his part
You realize he overheard you and the kids talking
Of course you're not mad at them and judging by Vander's soft, wide eyes he wasn't expecting this either
Neither of you can sleep that night, you're too busy kissing, giggling, talking about the wonderful future you're gonna have
The next day you throw a big party at the Last Drop, celebrating the good news
But it pales in comparison with the party your husband throws when the baby is born
#arcane x reader#vander x reader#arcane imagine#vander imagine#arcane headcanon#vander headcanon#arcane fluff#vander fluff#arcane x you#vander x you#arcane x female reader#vander x female reader#league of legends x reader#league of legends imagine#league of legends headcanons#league of legends fluff#league of legends x you#league of legends x female reader#x female reader
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Act 3 Thoughts
Watched Wicked, came home, waited 20 minutes, binged Act 3. I do not recommend this lifestyle. Anyway...
I was so satisfied with where we ended up, but I would have also appreciated about 20 minutes to an hour more. It felt like some beats were skipped over, they wanted to get to specific endings and didn't have the time to wrap them up as neatly as I would've liked.
Maddie is a good example. She's a plant for Ambessa, okay but when and why did she become one? She couldn't have been one before Cait being named commander and when we next see her she's pushing for Cait to take power back from Ambessa. Did Ambessa just message her right after Cait and Vi started working together again as like a "the woman you love's actual love is back in the picture, you can either wallow or get revenge with me", but also made a smarmy remark about Cait 'at least being warm' or something. We didn't need to absolve Cait or villainize Maddie for their 'relationship' because they didn't even have a relationship-just a coping mechanism for Cait, similar to Vi's drinking. At best it was all unnecessary and at worst a waste of time.
Away from that, I want to focus on some good.
I am officially a JayVik shipper now. Them disappearing into a void together, encircled with each other, after Viktor spend however long within timelines/multiverses in hopes of finding a Jayce able to bring him back to his humanity? Come on, they needed to kiss. Especially after Jayce and Mel's low key break up. Honestly we were denied the three of them working together, because they would have been unstoppable.
Speaking of Mel, I love her. I love her design, her powers, her matricide, her taking command of Ambessa's armies, etc. I wish we could have seen more of her adapting to her new powers, finding peace with what she now is. There could have been a cool interaction with Viktor over how Arcane power has changed them both for better and worse.
I don't think Mel's story is done. With other characters, I can see them coming in for future story arcs as like, cameos or background details, but if the next LoL story is in Noxus I fully expect Mel to be a major player again.
Back to Jayce. I like Jayce, that could be my Arcane hot take, and I definitely want to write something more in depth on him. On all the characters really. For now, I'll just say that his determination to destroy everything he has built, because the only creation worth saving is his relationship with Viktor is just... glorious.
Viktor was amazing. I love Viktor in the lore, and they took his traits from the lore and amped them up to eleven. His body being destroyed and rebuilt, the process of which has chipped away his humanity and mutilated his dreams. He lives up to his own quote: "In the pursuit of great, we failed to do good. We have to make it right."
Ekko is a character I never realize I miss. That sounds mean, it probably is, but I am never the less so happy to see him every time. It's like finding the missing piece you didn't even know was lost: that is Ekko to me. His mini adventure in the parallel universe was adorable. Us getting to see what could've been alongside learning what matters most to Ekko, him getting a taste of a near perfect life and still choosing to return to his own time. That's why Ekko is the true hero of this story.
In terms of Jinx, I'll just say I'm not a hundred percent sure she's dead. The airship leaving at the end followed by her scribbled sign off, plus not getting a dead body shot. It was definitely left open ended. Her looking to do something good, to not mess up, alongside her fear of not wanting to try again because she is just tired of failure, of being a Jinx, was too real in many ways. I will go in depth on her at a later date.
Caitlyn's arc is going to be argued about, no question. It needed more time (see the start of this long post) to make her point of her anger burning away, of it not being sustainable, hit harder. I would have made her realize what her anger was doing to Vi, have Jinx point out that they really are acting the same in their treatment of Vi, and use the whole Ambessa was literally stoking the fires of her hatred to help fit what time they had left. Honestly just have Cait learn Ambessa was the one behind the memorial attack, that would be a much better way to explain her anger diminishing enough to look beyond her own hurt to realize and take account of her mistakes.
Vi, as usual, needed more screen time. Not necessarily because her story would've been helped by it like in act two, but just because I wanted her to have more time to enjoy her life. I went into act three with the sole hope that Vi would have a nice day, only for her to loose everything again. The only people she has left are Cait and Ekko, and god help anyone who tries something against those too now. Her ending being the chance to finally rest, to lean on someone else, was beautiful. She is my favorite character and please let her have only good things in the future, she was traumatized in almost every scene this season please-
Nobody tell Vi that in a universe where she died young everyone else ended up living. It would destroy her.
Vi and Cait relationship was great. I wouldn't say it was rushed in act three, because it felt like it was where it should be for a final batch of episodes, if that makes sense. It felt like the set up was Cait being genuinely remorseful and Vi just wanting someone in her life who wanted her in return. It helps that they have great chemistry and that when given the chance they fit so neatly together. I think Jinx encouraging Vi to be with Cait is what sold it to me. Jinx realizing how much Vi has given/sacrificed and giving her blessing for her sister to be happy with someone she disapproves of; not to mention Cait pulling the guards from their posts to give Vi the chance to actually meet Jinx in order to have that conversation. All in all, it comes down to Vi's "I don't care" because that's really all there is too it for them. Vi is done being miserable and Cait makes her happy, vice versa. Cait is someone Vi can rely on, Vi is someone Cait can find strength in.
Spitfire round:
Sevika being made a councilor
Every single one of Mel, Cait, and Jayce's designs were 10/10s
Vi not being given an actual uniform, just armor and the gloves
Jinx cutting her hair further to match Vi
Ekko getting his crystal sword/bats
Heimerdinger dying after living a life where he could make his city something to be proud of
I was fully expecting Vander and Silco to kiss in that one shot
Everything with Benzo
Loris' name being said
Vi humming the song and the song being their mother's lullaby
Viktor being held within the Herald
Sky leaving so Viktor was free to bring Jayce to his space mind palace
Caitlyn's rifle never surviving
Fishman McBlue being the only one of Cait's soldiers to stick to his guns and stay loyal
Sevika and Shoola side eyeing each other
Vander and little Vi and Powder with the bunny
The bunny being a passenger on Jinx's balloon
Singed's messed up family getting a happy ending
#arcane league of legends#arcane#arcane thoughts#arcane season two#arcane s2#arcane spoilers#caitlyn kiramman#ambessa medarda#mel medarda#jayce talis#viktor arcane#jayvik#vi arcane#caitvi#jinx arcane#ekko#ekko arcane#this is all preemptive to some bigger arcane thesis i wanna write for each character#so long as a i remember to do so#wicked was good btw#but seriously wicked and arcane back to back was not my best idea for my mental health
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listen, Price already knows how scary Nik can be, right. He's seen him in combat, seen him do some things without even blinking. So it's no news. Guys big, scary and efficient.
But imagine if Price got to see him in his element. As a leader and a businessman. Guy runs a private military company, he's sure to be busy. Talk with buyers, partners etc. One day when Price happens to be visiting Chimera (wherever the hell their headquarters may be), Nik gets called up. There's guests. So Nikolai invites Price (since it'd be rude to send him away, and Nik doesn't want him to leave just yet) to the meeting, just to observe.
Nikolai is a damn good businessman, he takes what he wants, can negotiate his way in and out of things. Things get serious during the meeting, Nikolai and the others speaking in heated Russian. Price has no idea what's going on but he can see Nikolai isn't happy with whatever they're offering, although slightly amused. He doesn't feel threatened, Price can see that. Price also knows that Nikolai wouldn't hesitate to put a bullet to the man's head right now, with the way he's getting so arrogant and out of his lane. It sends a shiver down Prices spine, once again reminded just what Nik is capable of. The fact that the other men in the room are scared of Nikolai doesn't help either.
They treat him with so much respect, mostly out of fear for their own life, but it makes something swell in Prices chest with pride.
Price almost wants to laugh, with the way Nikolai can switch up so quickly. The gentle, soft-spoken Nikolai that only Price gets to see is not here right now, but rather the colder side of him. Price can't help but feel a little giddy even, having the privilege of getting to see both sides of this beautiful, brilliant man.
The meeting ends with some very unpleased Russians, muttering complaints under their breath after Nikolai stated his conditions and maybe even threatened them a little, the guys being forced to accept it. Y'know, just to make sure they get home safe that day. (I'm kidding. Nikolai is a reasonable businessman. He wouldn't do that now would he?) ((although i do like the idea of him playing dirty ;))
Price would be lying if he said he wasn't impressed by the Nik he saw in there. Cold and harsh, but also quick witted and clever. Gets Price a little hot and bothered to see his man put the fear of god in other people.
(this could be like a... mafia sort of au if you want to make nik more... evil hehe. i do like that idea. nik shooting someone in the head point blank and while price is startled, he feels a sick sense of pride at that. also a raging fucking boner but that's another story)
#i posted this b4 but got scary#so here it is again i guess#i just#i just like nikolai#sorry#nikprice#cod nikolai
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What if Sol started writing a journal after capturing MC...
Just some little entries for the idea.
Warnings: Kidnapping, murder, death, abuse, blood mention, etc
Journal #1
It's been a few days since we started living together. I never been so happy!
Of course Pumpkin needs some time to get comfortable in our new home and life. I made sure to give them a room full of comfort and love...and hope the shackles aren't too tight. But it's just for the time being. They understand.
I love them so much
Journal #57
I had a run in with him...Ichabod. I thought about killing him in that moment but went against it.
He spoke about them, my pumpkin, he looked honestly so depressed, so devoid of life...It was pathetic, yet satisfying to see.
If only he knew they were happy, safe and sound in my care and home. He'll never know though.
I won't let him ever know.
Journal #63
That pest decided to come visit. It was unexpected, how did he even find out where I lived?
I had to quickly deal with pumpkin, keep them quiet. I didn't want to be rough but they gave me no choice.
If they were to scream, and give away their location. Our happy life would be destroyed then.
I can't...No. I won't let that happen.
I hope I didn't tie the gag too hard on them...I hope they forgive me...
Journal #73
(The page is stained with blood.)
It was sudden...One moment I left to do something. The next, he was in our home and found them.
I had no choice...I had to end them there and now in front of pumpkin.
He put up a fight however. I won't be going out for a few days until l these scratches on my face are healed and gone.
Pumpkin sobbed, begged, kept calling out his name...I hated to see them so distraught, so hurt before me. But I had no choice.
I DID IT FOR US. HE WAS GOING TO TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME. HE WAS GOING TO DESTROY OUR HAPPY FAMILY.
...I had to cover their mouth, stop them from screaming anymore. Else risk someone else hearing and finding them, finding us.
I'll start to dispose of the body tonight. I'll need some tools however first...I need to call Hyugo...
Journal #86
Pumpkin won't eat much or at all some days.
They either hardly sleep or sleep too much now.
They rarely spoke to me before, but now, they won't even look at me.
What can I do to fix this?
It was all his fault. If he never arrived...
No.
If he never EXISTED. Then this all wouldn't have happened.
I'm sorry, pumpkin...I swear...This won't ever happen again. I won't let anyone hurt you ever again.
We'll move somewhere else, find a new happy start elsewhere. Safe, far away from these damned people, this damned place.
Just you and me...Together forever, like we're meant to be.
We'll be so happy together again soon. I promise.
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Dance Like Nobody's Watching
Dick Grayson x Reader
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Written for Fictober 2024!
Fandom:Â DC
Day Twenty-Seven Prompt: "Let me remind you."
Summary: Dick's SO is having trouble adjusting to the new scrutiny of attending Wayne galas as his date, but thankfully, he has an idea to help with that.
Word Count: 1,449
Category: Fluff
Putting work into an AI program without permission is illegal. You do not have my permission. Do not do it.
I sipped my champagne, trying to get a handle on my nerves. I could handle fighting the Joker and Scarecrow with no problems, but attending a Wayne gala as the partner of Dick Grayson was throwing me for a loop.
I fought the urge to scowl about it. If one thing could make this night more awkward, it would be some person I barely knew finding me making faces in the corner.
What irritated me the most was that this was by no means my first Wayne gala. I'd grown up with Dick and spent countless hours in the manor with him and his family. We'd been each other's primary entertainment at these things as kids. But being here as his date, and as an adult expected to do more than turn the banquet tables into a fort, was turning out to be surprisingly stressful.
When we were kids, nobody seemed to care what we did much beyond just noticing and thinking we were cute. Now, it seemed like everybody in this room wanted something from Dick, and either saw me as a threat to their ability to get it or as a secret backdoor to him, if only they could get me on their side.
I was seriously on the edge of losing it and going back to the buffet tables kid-style.
Dick had done his best to stick with me, but people kept showing up to pull both of us away from each other for a conversation, and we hadn't been able to do much without being incredibly, obviously rude. I'd finally managed to extract myself enough for some breathing room, but I could see Dick still in the middle of things, a group of old men who almost certainly wanted money from Bruce talking his ear off.
Even from here, I could tell Dick was barely paying attention to them. His eyes scanned the crowd, and after a moment, they landed on me. He raised an eyebrow, and I gave him a reassuring smile. Unfortunately for me, he knew me too well and was too good of a detective to believe it.
Dick quickly made his excuses to the men around him, and didn't take no for an answer as he left the conversation and headed in my direction. He crossed the massive room quickly to stand before me, and this time when I smiled at him, it was much more genuine.
"Hey," he said, returning my smile and leaning in to kiss my temple as soon as he reached me. "How are you doing?"
"Good." I tried to strengthen my smile, but Dick saw right through it. He raised an eyebrow at me.
"...Are you sure?"
I sighed. "It's just... this all feels a little weird. I've known you forever, you know it's never been important to me that you're the famed son of billionare Bruce Wayne. But it seems like that's all anybody else here can think about, and they all either hate me because they want to be with you or want to be my new best friend, all so they can get to you and Bruce. It's fine, none of their opinions matter to me, but... I just didn't expect to feel so weird coming to one of these things again."
Dick took a step closer to me, reaching out to take my arm with a concerned look on his face. He spoke quietly enough that, even if someone had been intentionally eavesdropping (which had happened more than once tonight), they wouldn't be able to hear him.
"Do you want to go? I'm happy to leave if you want to. We don't have to stay here."
I shook my head before he'd even finished his sentence.
"Running and no-showing Bruce's galas isn't a long-term solution. And seriously, it's fine, I'll adjust. I just... I don't know. I miss the days where we hid under the punch bowl giggling out of sight of everybody, you know?"
My boyfriend grinned. "I mean, if you really think about it, there's nothing keeping us from doing that again."
"I can think of a few things," I laughed, swatting his shoulder lightly. He hummed, but sobered quickly as he scanned the room, clearly thinking.
"Well... if you're sure you don't want to commandeer the space under the desert table?"
"I'm sure."
"Then why don't we try dancing? That's a little more... socially acceptable than hiding under the tables, but it's one of the things we used to have the most fun doing at these things. Remember how we'd just take over the entire floor to do whatever we wanted when we were kids?"
I laughed. "Yeah, of course. Although it's a little harder to remember the feeling that inspired us to just run out there before."
Dick smiled softly and extended his hand to me.
"Let me remind you."
My heart did a little backflip, especially when I met Dick's sparkling blue eyes. I huffed a little laugh of disbelief, especially at the thought of stepping into the center of the spotlight when I knew just how many people were going to be watching. But then I looked at Dick again, and I decided that, as long as I was with him, they didn't matter.
I took his hand, and he didn't waste a second before pulling me after him to the dance floor. I laughed, unable to hold back a smile even as heads turned towards us. Dick ignored them completely. He pulled me to his chest when we reached the center of the floor and wrapped an arm securely around my waist, the other taking one of my hands. I rested my free hand on his shoulder, and as we started swaying together to the music, his eyes didn't leave mine for a second.
"You know..." he started after a moment, drawing my attention back from a glance over his shoulder to where people were watching us. "This is nice, but a slow dance wasn't exactly what I had in mind."
I gave Dick my full attention and raised an eyebrow.
"I'm almost afraid to ask, but... what did you have in mind?"
He grinned. "Something more like this."
Suddenly, Dick was spinning me out and away from him, twirling across the floor before pulling me back. We'd know each other long enough and spent enough time as vigilante teammates that his steps were easy to follow, even as he started something closer to swing that didn't match the music at all.
I laughed, a warm feeling spreading through my chest as I shared a smile with my partner. In the back of my mind, I knew more people were probably watching and judging than ever. But suddenly they didn't matter like they used to.
Dick swung me around again, then pulled me close and into an exaggerated dip. If I didn't know he was a superhero, I probably would've been a little worried about him dropping me. Instead, it just made me laugh, especially as Dick grinned and led me into something way too close to something you'd do to Cotton Eye Joe.
With every second that passed on the dance floor with Dick, everyone else in the room faded further and further away. It felt like when we were kids, just me and the most important person in the world to me having the time of our lives.
"Feel any better?" asked Dick, whispering in my ear as he pulled me close again, both hands wrapped tight around my waist. I smiled, running my hands up his arms and across his shoulders.
"So much better. Thank you."
"You don't need to thank me. We're partners, you know I'd never leave you hanging."
I pulled back enough to meet Dick's eyes, and found their familiar sparkle and a smile waiting for me. I gave him a soft smile back.
"I love you, Dick Grayson. So fucking much."
Dick beamed back at me. "I love you too. Now come on, the band's finally catching on to what we want. I want to dance with the love of my life to music that's actually fun for dancing."
I just laughed as Dick swung me out and away from him again, the two of us twirling across the floor, this time in sync with the now-faster music. Suddenly, after a few minutes with Dick, the propsect of all these Wayne galas didn't seem nearly so daunting anymore. Sure, I might have to deal with a few unpleasant strangers whose opinions didn't matter to me. But I'd also get to do this, laughing and dancing and having the time of our lives, with my favorite person in the world.
Worth it in the long run, as far as I was concerned.
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Grand Arcane S2 review
because I really need it to move on
Remember how I mentioned I could write an entire book about everything that went wrong with this season? Well, this is what a little excerpt from it would look like.
Let's start with a personal note to clarify my relationship with this hell of a piece of media.
S1 was this miracle show that was able to break through the several years of depression and anhedonia and make me interested in something, make me try to get back into making art (or at least try to try), to put myself out there on the internet a bit, to try be a part of something and not ashamed of enjoying it, which I never allowed myself before. Coincidentally, I've been at what I thought then was the worst place in my life when it aired and it helped me a lot to get through it. I didn't even think I would make it to see S2, as thee years felt like forever then. Taking all that into consideration, I think you can already tell where this is going.
I honestly thought I was prepared for S2 not being good, as no show could be this perfect. Turns out I wasn't prepared at all. Act 1 made me very happy, so happy I watched it two times, but the rest is something I would've never watch again and rather forget about.
The characters I wanted to see the most were Warwick (body horror, The Wrath of Zaun haunting the streets - got just a glimpse of that, but it felt like nothing) and Viktor (cyborgs and cyber gore, misunderstood idealist, Blitzcrank - got basically nothing; the idea was kinda there somewhere, but got changed so much it didn't matter at all).
I can't believe they took a godforsaken champion like Viktor and not only ruined his story completely, but also managed to fuck up everything else by all of a sudden making him a center of all of this mess. The center being the arcane/hextech/magic, which never even gets resolved/explained. Still no idea why it got corrupted and what was the nature of it; the void was never taken anywhere despite being heavily hinted - everything was evil because it was, but luckily the magic of friendship saved us!! (I'll get to that)
Speaking of crucial plotlines that weren't taken anywhere.. Basically every character got screwed over and made empty. Let's use Vi for a quick example (may not actually be the best example, but hopefully you'll get what I mean) - when I saw the pit fighter scene released early, I expected to see it have a continuation in the show, but instead it ended up just being the exact same music video, nothing more. And that goes for some more events - they get compressed into music videos that make it all incredibly hollow. Fight scenes are fine like this, sure, but not something that was supposed to be a bit more emotional and serious. Anyway, they successfully made me hate most of the characters. Either hate or just straight up not recognize them, and in a bad way.
Long story short the pacing is awful (it only gets back to normal in ep7, as it resembles the structure of S1) and the writing sucks ass. I can't for the love of god believe it was written alongside S1. There's no way in hell - it's literally all the worst fan theories I've seen come to life and get mixed with fanservice. *puts on a tinfoil hat* Maybe this is the real why they needed an extra year or two, as S2 was initially supposed to be released earlier. No way in hell the same people who wrote S1 and cared so much about the characters would do anything like this. Riot must've gotten heavily involved, making us believe they cut the story short (I think 5 seasons in Piltover/Zaun were planned initially?) for the benefit of it, but all it really was is greed - let's make a bunch of bullshit happen and quickly move to another region to sell more skins for new champions.
Now let's get back to the ending. Man, it really had it all - the nonsense, the multiverse bullshit which basically makes nothing make sense anymore (if there was anything left), the (yes, I'm going to say it, because that's exactly what I felt) cringe and embarrassment. Never seen anything more hollow trying to convince me it was deep and emotional (sums up the whole show perfectly).
How the hell the only thing that was supposed to save Viktor from himself was Jayce telling him he's perfect the way he is? Sure, don't try to cure your illness (that my city caused, but "fortunately" another crucial part of the plot, which is the sister cities conflict, ceased to exist), it makes you beautiful, this is who you are (miserable, unwanted, feeling meaningless and like a burden, dying). I am at loss of words.
Now buckle up jayvik fans. I wasn't a fan of the ship as I'm not a fan of any ships in general, but now I despise it. I wouldn't mind if they actually went on with it, which no, they didn't. We don't want two men kissing (women making out is fine tho, won't make the gamers too angry), so let's play extra safe to make sure it could be explained as any type of other close bond (and that's exactly what Christian Linke does when asked about it). You disgusting cowards, either you show me this in plain sight and I wouldn't give it a second thought, or don't even try bring it up at all (and you can't deny it wasn't implied in S1 with all the Viktor's looks and parallels to Mel).
Where do I even begin? Because I don't think you have any idea on how many levels it actually sucks. If you read it as romantic it's basically telling me that if I was a gay man struggling with my feelings and not being able to confess for years, because I'm convinced I'm unworthy of love as something is inherently wrong with me, then the best I could get after surviving all this (what honestly seems like hell) is a hug, because you're ashamed of me and thus I should be ashamed of who I am till the very end.
Something equally bad is Jayce finding out (or rather we finding out) how wonderful the world could look like if he let go of his beautiful dream, his life's work, and killed himself - it never gets denied, as the corruption of hextech doesn't get explained.
Long story short, if you're struggling with your mental health, trauma issues, disability or any of the problems the characters you related to deal with, this show spits you in the face.
I could go on forever about everything that's wrong (even Jinx got played dirty), but let's finish with the few things I liked: act 1 was promising (it's when I believed they could still make sense of Viktor), fun Sevika's arcade arm fight, the epic fight at the Janna's temple (Woodkid goat), Jayce killing Salo (I felt something) and Jayce's glitchy madness in general, young Vander flashback (felt something), ep7 and Singed's story (the only one that makes any sense).
Other than that the show left me with nothing but void in my heart (I guess that's when it all went). The saddest thing being the masses love it anyway, as it seems they'll watch anything that's colorful enough. And Riot will make lots of money of off it, because in the end they never loose. I'm not denying Fortiche absolutely outdid themselves with the art, it's just heartbreaking nothing else even remotely stands up to it.
#hor.txt#it'll probably take me a few days to fix the spelling; pardon me#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane review#arcane season 2#arcane critical#arcane rant#anti arcane#jayvik#viktor arcane#jayce arcane#mental health#arcane league of legends#league of legends#riot games
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the misogyny deal that I'm hearing about with the lesbian ship being endgame and everybody now discarding them and being more invested in the straight ship or the gay one is like. god like i get it I do. it is tragic it feels wrong. it's so fucked up that everyone is going utterly insane over jayvik and caitvi is kinda in the dust. we literally scored a show with a central lesbian relationship that is fully canon and in theory this should be insane and awesome, and in some ways it is, but it's somehow not nearly as exciting as it was supposed to be. and I don't think the misogyny is completely on the viewers, if at all.
the reason that people are not as invested in it now as they were in season one is because the writing ended up accomplishing basically nothing solid in the whole damn show, and there were no through lines to latch onto that had meaningful or new themes attached, and so now everybody is flailing for anything to grasp onto. and they just didn't write caitvi in season 2 to be a good handhold. they started a lot of cool things with them and then changed direction in the middle, maybe even several times, and I also feel like the fuckass end to jinx's storyline and involvement (which I have plenty of thoughts about that I shan't get into here) kind of wrecked anything they would've been able to salvage from it. it just wasn't written in a way that is easy to parse or navigateâthe ship OR the show in its entirety.
and so people are reaching for the easiest things to latch onto: timebomb had a simple, straightforward storyline and tragic ending, and it was pretty cute I guess. jayvik had one of the most central storylines to the narrative, was supremely gay, and did the howl's moving castle thing. I'm sure you can see which of the camps I'm closer to LMAO but like. caitlyn and vi DID have lesbian sex in a prison cell and I think that was very important, and they had some other concrete things going for them, but beyond that?? they're still alive and together but now they're kind of physically and mentally destroyed, and grieving, and for what. what was their story even about. what was the theme here; what were we trying to say with this. that oppressed people and cops can get married to each other and we should be happy about it?? like I dont get it; it didn't DO anything. and that's why it's falling into the background. and that's not on shippers or any of us, that's on the writers, for failing lesbians Again.
a theme isn't just a word or a statement. you've got to say something new, or say something old in a new way, or point out something new in something old. none of those things happened. they just threw some characters onscreen and some of them had very meaningful relationships, but because those relationships weren't tethered securely to one of these things, they didn't stick. vi and caitlyn had nothing to stick to. I don't like it either but I think that's why this is happening. the idea about lesbians getting trampled on is still relevant, I just wouldn't blame each other so readily
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Even if I haven't been very active lately, 9 years is still pretty significant- happy birthday to the blog!
So like Percy up there I'm gonna do so dome reflecting. This blog's where I've often done that for some reason, but here's the tl'dr for blog related stuff.
âą I would like to keep drawing stuff but feeling generally unsure in myself, and I'm wondering if all the years of fandom harrassment have caught up with me âą I have one big project in mind, I've been dipping my toe into what I'd need to do it. No spoilers but it was one of the first things I played around with this series, so do with that what you will âą If I can keep myself drawing, I want to use more of the original source material since I'm struggling with original ideas. So stuff like redraws, hOpEfULlY even animatics, just like what originally got me so into trains yknow? Because that's fun and sparks joy. And that always goes down a treat with you guys so bonus âąÂ As always I appreciate you guys not coming after me for being so inconsistent
The rest of this is me doing what Percy's doing in the drawing and reflecting, as there is indeed much 2 think about. It's also a little sad and venty so, there's your warning there.
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Ok so obviously a busy year, we moved into our new house that we actually own, I spent most of the year planning our wedding, and then got married. Big stuff. Also! I came off antidepressants in the summer. I've been on them for...basically as long as this blog, 6 months after I started it I think. Which also means I'd been on antidepressants my entire adult life. Feels like a big deal and I guess I'm still adjusting.
Another big thing, but sad, is that my dog died about two weeks ago. If you follow me on twitter you'll have seen her but she did make an appearance here a few Halloweens ago
I got her when she was 13 and had her 8 years after that. So that's been difficult. Unrelated to that (probably), but I just feel...really mediocre. And before you point out the obvious, this has been present even before I came off antidepressants. But yeah just... mediocrity. In myself as a person, how I look, what I draw, my whole life really (barring my marriage thankfully). What have I achieved? I'm 26, I'm not working, I don't feel well, my art isn't good (I don't think so anyway- like yeah it's technically fine I guess but it's not, and has never been, very stand-out or impressive). And lately art doesn't bring me the same joy it once did, and I'm wondering if all the years of harrassment from this fandom (mostly the twitter side, tumblr's been pretty good to me) has finally caught up with me and put me off the whole thing. Or worse, that I just don't have as much of an interest in it anymore. I don't think I'll ever be like "ok yep I'm officially done with this blog" because I'm so stubborn but idk. I want to make things and be creative, I want to make more train art, but it doesn't feel the same. I don't know what's wrong. What do you listen to? What you want vs what you feel? I still enjoy train stuff, I love going to Awdry Ex every year. It's been like this for awhile. It's not even like I have a strong feeling of what I'd rather be doing as far as careers go. And even if I did, oh yeah I'm sure my two degrees in animation will be very relevant in another field (sarcasm). I feel adrift. My sails are open but there is just no wind. Planning my wedding gave me something to do and work on and just, feel useful but now that that's over I feel lost again. Losing my dog, who had become the center of my life because of how vulnerable she had become, hasn't helped.
On the more creative side of things, I also don't really know what to do with this blog's story either. The show's ended as far as most people are concerned, and I kiiinda wrote myself into a corner because once Thomas turns 18 he's going to leave for university, and that sets off this whole arc with James but basically the problem is it involves characters leaving and for some reason that feels like a no-no here. Don't get me started on the timeline lol. But Thomas works on a railway on Sodor, that's how it has to be...right? I guess I'm sort of at a crossroads of, ok do I want this to be close to the source material, and thus easily digestible to newcombers? Or do I want to make it more and more my thing and distanced from the source material? I doubt there's many new people coming since the series ended. And even then, there's a lot more humanization artists around now than when I started, so it's not like I'm filling a niche anymore. Just to be clear it's fine and also good that there's more humanization artists, variety is good, I just don't feel as "needed" anymore (which is 100% in my head and not an actual role that belongs to me or something). I started this blog when I was 17, so my interests and what I relate to have changed obviously. The character designs certainly have. It's never followed a super rigid story plan, but the core of it has always been the central cast doing things on Sodor. I however have always had a scene/project/animatic/whatEver in mind for when this 'series' would '''officially''' ''''end''''. But then what comes after that? I've always tried to run this blog like they are Real People that You interact with. But in real life there is no ending to the story, there's always more stuff to come. You get married, and it's wonderful, and then life goes on. The credits never roll. So maybe that's what I'm having trouble coping with...the progression of time. Ah, my old nemesis. I've always had trouble with letting go of things. There's nothing to say that I couldn't still draw stuff after the series "ends". I guess any story after Thomas leaves could be like... a sequel series or a spin off or something. Spin-off of a spin-off. Famous 8 All Grown Up. Famous 8 Qurter Life Crisis. Who knows. I certainly don't.
I've also been really into an original project unrelated to this but those don't get as much attention and while I'd like to do something with it one day, I don't feel very confident in being able to make that happen right now. But you know... as far my as art not being super spectacular goes... I think my individual talent has always been is my ideas, like the writing side of things. And then brought to life with my art, which normally isn't anything to write home about but is good enough to convey the idea and be not-awful to look at, lifts both of them beyond what they were individually. Maybe that's what I should focus on. Maybe that's wishful thinking.
So....idk. Idk what I'm doing but I'm trying to be gentle on myself and just let myself continue to drift, to heal from this heavy loss, and then in the New Year I'll try and pick myself up. Then there will be no more big once-in-a-lifetime events coming up, no more just-moved-into-a-house-and-oh-no-there's-a-bunch-of-things-that-need-attention-NOW scenarios, and no more big holidays for awhile. I guess we'll see.
If you read all of this I am so sorry but also thank you for reading my ramblings. And thank you for being around, whether that's been for a few months or for several years, but especially if it's been several years
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nothing i donât have | pjs (1)
pairings! park jongseong x reader, ft. huening kai x reader
summary! it was supposed to be simple, you and jay would fuck whenever either of you felt horny â no feelings. but it was hard not to catch feelings where park jongseong was involved. so you took the easy way out: you ended it.
genre! texts, written fic, college au, love triangle (corner)
word count! 1500
content warnings! swearing, jay is delulu and jealous
author's note! toenze is my new roman empire... i don't think i'll ever shut up about it. also realistically i'm only posting this bc yolo since i have nothing ???
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It didnât affect Jay anyhow, really. That you ended whatever the two of you had for another guy. Like, this was all just casual. And you still wanted to be friends which was exactly what the two of you were before⊠so not much had to change between the two of you. Other than, well, the lack of physical intimacy.
He didnât care, really. It wasnât like you were the only girl he hooked up with (you were) or that he couldnât get any other girls, but⊠you ending the situationship was kind of exactly why he liked you. Because you understood everything was casual and there were no expectations, no feelings. The others, they always got attached.
And, look, Jay understood that maybe he was being too nice or whatever, but it was in his nature to help out when necessary, or to cook for people in the morning â it wasnât like he made breakfast only for those girls anyway. He had roommates to feed, too.
You ended the deal because you had no feelings for him. Which was exactly what he wanted. So why the fuck did it bother him so much? And for Huening Kai, no less? The tall emo kid that barely spoke and people thought he was being mysterious or whatever.
What could you possibly see in him?
What did he have that Jay didnât?
Jay let out a frustrated sigh and ran a hand through his hair, eyes still fixated on the conversation between you and him. So Huening Kai asked you out. And you liked him enough to say yes. That was certainly not on his bingo card. Realistically, he thought the type of guys you liked were someone like Sung Hanbin or Choi Soobin or⊠him. Not Huening Kai.Â
What the hell?
âWhatâs up? Someone steal your cat?â Heeseung entered the shared living room with a grin. Jay had to dryly laugh at the irony of his question since, in a way, yes.
âNah. Itâs Y/N,â Jay replied, trying to sound nonchalant. âWants to be just friends.â
âDamn, got tired of you already?â Heeseung teased, but he knew not to go further when Jayâs scathing glare nearly burned him. âWhat did she say?â
âHuening Kai asked her out and she said yes.â Jay shook his head. You and Kai werenât even dating yet, and you already wanted to be exclusive with him? Why? Who even does that?
âOh, Kai? Heâs got music classes with me,â Heeseung said with a grin. âHe knows how to play like five instruments. Heâs kinda cool. A band kid, too. Pretty sure he has a band.â Jay didnât need to know any of that. Not yet anyway. And then Heeseung added: âI think he was planning to ask Y/N out for a while. I caught him asking around about her once.â
Jay clenched his jaw. How long had you been talking to Kai before he asked you out? Was it out of nowhere or did you befriend him before? Which gave him another reason to be upset because if you did befriend him before, you didnât tell Jay anything. In fact, you hadnât been telling him anything about yourself or your life for a while now.
Which stung.
âKaiâs a good guy. You should be happy for her.â Heeseung made a point, giving Jay a long, meaningful look. There was more he wanted to express, but chose to not push his limits.Â
Jay huffed.
Thinking about it, maybe heïżœïżœd have actually preferred it if you were in love with him.
Upon entering the Sanctuary CafĂ©, you noticed that it was already packed. But you were instantly recognised by Taehyun, who greeted you with a bright smile and led you toward a table that was empty, save for your reservation. It was in front of the stage set up for live performances, and it occurred to you then that Kaiâs surprise was very likely just that. He prepared a performance for you.
Your eyes widened as you stared at the stage. It had a full instrument set up for a band. Drums, bass, keyboard and an electric guitar. The sight of it made you think of Jay for a bit, but you shook your head and got rid of the thought.
This would be your first date with Kai. The boy who actually doesnât only want to sleep with you, but also wants to do everything else that real relationships include. Like holding hands and hugging in public and being affectionate without being judged. (The things you wished you couldâve had from Jay.)
A group of three guys entered the stage, none of which were Huening Kai. They glanced toward your table every now and then with a knowing smile, though. You watched them set up their instruments â the guitarist, the bassist and keyboardist. But the drums were empty.Â
Because of course, he knew how to play the drums. He was a genius that never flaunted his skills, and the reality of it hit you just now. Huening Kai was a drummer â which was actually sexy as hell.
âHello, everyone, welcome to the Sanctuary CafĂ©,â the guitarist spoke into the microphone with the largest smile. He had a cute dimple as well, and you thought he perfectly fit Kai â whenever he wasnât closing in on himself. âIâm Kim Taerae, lead singer and guitarist of our band, Toenze. Weâve prepared a very special performance today because one of our members wants to dedicate it to a special girl.â
A round of awes went through the crowd. You looked around in hopes of catching a glance of Kai, but he was nowhere to be seen. Instead, your eyes locked with a person you did not expect to see today â at all.
Jay stood at the back of the café with Heeseung by his side, and you wished you could unsee him. Your heartbeat raced, and your mind felt like you needed to come up to him and apologise. But what would you even be apologising for?
âOn my left is our bassist, Choi Beomgyu, and on the keyboard, youâve got Han Yujin. And, of course, weâre missing a key member â the drummer,â Taerae spoke lightly, his smile hearable in his voice. âSome of you already know him from our previous performances, but for those who have yet to meet him â please give a round of applause to Huening Kai!â
Kai wasnât even inside the cafĂ©. He entered through the main door in a dark grey hoodie, the hood covering his face. The whole shop held its breath as he looked up. And when his eyes met yours, a smile spread across his lips. Taking off his hood, he revealed his face and carefully styled bangs.Â
From the pocket of his hoodie, he pulled out a bouquet, and when he aimed through the crowd toward you, your heart nearly melted. All thoughts of Jay being here, too, evaporated from your mind. All you could think about was Huening Kai, looking beautiful as ever, heading toward you with a bouquet of flowers.
âFor you, my lady.â He knelt down to hand you the flowers, and you stared at him with wide eyes. Grinning, he winked before standing up and heading toward the stage, leaving you absolutely flustered and frozen in place.
âHello, everyone! This performance is dedicated to the girl that didnât reject me. Itâs for you, Y/N,â he said into the mic jokingly, but there was a hidden meaning behind his words.
The memory of how he asked you out lingered, and you giggled. You could still picture him, approaching you with his hands hidden in the pockets of his jeans. And then he asked you, in the most embarrassing way possible, if you were dating Jay. The smile that spread on his lips when you said that what you had with Jay was only casual was an unforgettable sight, really.
âI can make you forget him,â was Kaiâs closing argument, and the confidence with which he had said it sent shivers down your spine. You couldnât possibly reject him then.
Jayâs glare was palpable. You could feel it at the back of your neck, but you ignored him. Why was he glaring at you anyway? If there were no feelings involved, he shouldnât care about any of this.Â
âThe first song we prepared for today is called Higher Than Heaven,â Taerae informed the crowd. âAnd the second song is Kill the Romeo. Hope you guys like them!â
Both songs were amazing, and both conveyed one pretty clear message: Iâm better than him. You couldnât help but laugh and enjoy yourself while Kaiâs band performed. They were good â really good. And eventually, you even stopped sensing Jayâs gaze burning through you.Â
Naturally, you turned around to check on the spot where Jay had previously been. Except he wasnât there. Instead, you were met with Heeseung, who shrugged when he noticed you looking at him.
âHe left,â Heeseung mouthed.
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Hero, Villain God 15
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*Scar's pov*
Cub has called you... He said it was something really important so you did your best to make it as fast as you could...... He hasn't really been very happy with you after the Mother Spore incident so you didn't expect him to be the one to ask to see you... You are a bit nervous...
Wait! What if he's quitting?!? You could never manage to do your work without his help! You'll have to beg! You will do it if that is what it takes.
You sigh ...Here goes nothing.
"Mayor Ren and Martyn have been taken hostage"
What? What does he mean they were taken hostage? Doesn't he have bodyguards to protect him??
"How? When? Where is he?"
"Oh he's still in his office"
Come again? What is Cub on about then?
"But you said he was-"
"Yes, it seems it is the office that's holding him hostage"
..."What?"
"Specifically, the mechanical door and windows have all been locked by an unknown attacker. The defense system has been turned into a threat on his life."
"Oh"
"We believe either an hacker or a villain with power over technology might be at fault."
You see, what you don't understand is why you were called for this. It feels suspicious.
"Do you want me to go after this hacker -"
"No. Not now at least. The mayor needs you to get him and his vice out of the building unharmed. The defenses he installed are quite dangerous when made into weapons so be careful"
"Am...am I going to work alone then?"
"Yes. Ocean Queen water manipulation could backfire around so much electronics and the building is too cramped for Sheriff's wings."
You think you understand, you nod at him, he looks at you.
"I'm ready"
"And don't stay out too long"
Cub wasn't kidding, as you dodge a literal laser you wonder just how paranoid the mayor must have been when he set up this defense system... This is a level of security you would think to find in a super secret governent base, not the mayor's office.
You don't have much time to wonder though as another laser almost hits you in the face and w- IS THAT A MACHINE GUN!?!?
You sigh as you take out one of your explosive arrows, you'll have to fight fire with fire if you want to get anywhere... hopefully the mayor won't mind a bit of property damage.
You really don't want a lawsuit right now by the mayor...or exile! Wait could the mayor even exile you if he wanted?
... You should ask Cub later.
*Martyn's pov*
You have been trapped in this office with Ren for what feels like hour now... It might have been, It's not like you can tell with the windows blacked and no clocks in the entire office... Why does Ren have literally 0 clocks in his office!?
Your thoughts are suddenly interrupted by Ren shouting in your ear.
"We are doomed Martyn! Doomed I tell you! I knew they were coming for me and now we are going to die here!"
Who was coming from him? This is news to you.
"I ... I'm sure they must have sent someone to save us Ren. You are still the mayor, pretty important guy if you ask me."
"Who knows how long that will take my dude, we might have to stay here to starve for days! We'll have to result to cannibalism to stay alive!"
Ok what, how have we got to this point.
"Woah there, how about we *don't* do that actually? How does that sound mate?"
"Right, right... I am sorry Martyn."
...You stare at eachother... Without his voice in the background things are weirdly akward... He's always seemed so confident, you have never seen him this worried before...You hold Ren's hand, he seems surprised for a moment.
"It's going to be alright, I'm here with you"
"Yeah... Yeah, you'll protect me!"
Uh... You don't remember saying that but telling him no would just be too cruel.
"Right, you can count on me Ren."
"Of course dude! I trust you more then I would trust myself!"
Ren's face is suddenly so close to yours, right in front of you. You didn't expect it so you scream and fall back.
"Ah??!"
"Oh sorry dude! I didn't mean to jump at you like that... I got excited"
"It's...it's fine Ren"
"Are you sure?"
You are staring into his eyes and he is staring into yours... It wouldn't be too hard to just lean in and-
"Hello people! Hotguy here to save the day! Is everyone ok?"
...Motherfucker.
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nightfall's descent
When you're observing me, who do you think I'm observing?
This time, it is you, who's been left wide awake for far too long.
mature themes; implied insomnia, age gap, issues. nsfw content, but there is no actual smut.
The crackle of thick paper crumpling in your hands makes Alexâs arm twitch. It must be very late, or very early, it is hard to tell the difference because the sun has already gotten into the habit of being distant at all times. It is cold. The outside world is freezing, all shades of blue and uncomfortable.
He is snoring softly. Lying on his stomach, one leg bent, his face is squashed against his forearm. He would feel his eyelashes tickle his skin if he were to open his eyes, thatâs how bad it is. He looks relaxed, almost miraculously so. His stubbly chin rests on his other hand and it makes you smile. You are not sure if there is an actual smile on your face right now, but it makes something deep in your chest pulse with aching fondness and that is enough. More than anyone else could make you feel just by existing, that is for sure.
You canât sleep.
This is normally his problem. Itâs not that your sleep schedule is divine, but he needs much more sleep than you do, you have come to find out. Heâll never pass an opportunity to take a nap. On the sofa, on his favourite armchair, sitting at the dinner table â
it is, a breathy whisper of âtired today...â when he stretches his arms and sighs, then yawns and his eyes are visibly more droopy by the time he closes his mouth. Or, âI am gonna need to rest me mind after this...â when you ask him to stir the pot and he canât tear his gaze away from everything swirling and spinning effortlessly. You know, you always know, you are gonna find him later just like this. Heavy and content, snoring softly.
Alex will do anything to avoid going to bed alone.
The unexpectedness of it had caught you off-guard at first, making you wonder what else you had assumed wrongly about him. He says he does not wanna get used to it, sleeping alone, because he has a habit of turning things into habits, and that has never been a good thing. You take it as a compliment, really, when he waits for you like a good little pet, and you didnât even need to teach him a thing. To be more specific, it makes you want to grab him and kiss him all over, eat him up in bruising bites, and isnât that just the best thing you could do for him? He has everything else, doesnât he? Money, reputation, even love â adoration, fascination, obsession, â might not be the healthiest forms of love, sure, but itâs still much more than you ever got.
He is always tired after making love, too.
Making love, apparently that is what you call it now. It is just what it feels like. Itâs not the bad kind of love, either. Everything he touches turns to gold, and you are just happy to be underneath him, on top of himâ he is never out of reach. You are never out of his head.
It feels like a privilege to see him this way.
You put your sketchbook to the side, shutting it closed and instinctively holding your breath for a mere second to hear the soft click it makes. You reach out for him with your hand, the one you had been holding your pencil and smudging the ink with. It makes your skin rough like ash would, although, it could not be more obvious how this is not ash or dust, not the remnants of finality, but rather the opposite of it â you wanted to draw him. Couldnât sleep, and observing him like this is as close as you can get to dreaming without shutting your eyes and falling backwards into the darkness people call âsleepâ... but, no... sleep isnât like this...
This is not still and lifeless, it is pretty radiant here.
âDreamland?â Oh, yes. This is it.
Bizarre, pretty, yours.
Your fingers touch the softness of his eyebrow, and his eyes tremble slightly, before he sighs and moves his head to the side a bit. His eyebrows furrow. So expressive, even in sleep, even when everything outside is cold and grim, it makes your lungs ache and rattle your ribcage a tiny bit.
Nothing new.
He is mostly bare underneath the covers, you are pretty sure.
A small part of his thigh is exposed from how his leg is bent. Firm, yet soft, kissable. You pull back the covers slightly to see his knee andâ there it is. The bruise.
You had bitten him in the afternoon.
He was busy coming back down to earth. You had kept him all safe and tender in your mouth for long enough to make some part of him believe in the sacredness of this thing. That it wasnât fucking or any kind of animalistic instinct when he held your head down and an obscene noise escaped his throat. Without his permission, too, he always tries to be quiet when your mouth is full of him. As an act of showing empathy, or maybe it would feel dangerously close to silencing you, and he doesnât want to get used to that either.
The bruise makes his skin pretty like the sunset kissed it.
You lean down to kiss it now, softly, gently. He squirms.
âHm?â
You watch his face as he slowly wakes up. Stretching modestly like a house pet.
âWhat time is it?â His voice sounds somehow even rougher than usual, you feel a shiver run through your spine.
âI donât know.â
That sobers him up, for some odd reason, and his eyes search for your face. Alex holds a hand up before he drops it next to yours.
âI was waiting. For you to come back to bed when you got up in the middle of the night. But I couldnâtâ could not keep my eyes open, you know? I tried, though...â his voice trails off into a quiet mumble. He is apologising for something you have never even mentioned or thought about.
âI know, Alex.â
âWhat are you doing?â
You pick up the sketchbook again, handling it with an air of carelessness that does not belong to you. As if this part of you, which you are holding in your hand, has somehow become less important now that he is watching.
âNothing, really. I couldnât sleep again.â
He moves closer to you, still on his stomach. Lazy boy.
âWanna show me?â
Your hesitation is undeniably palpable and thick in the air, he could cut it with a knife. Youâd pay him to do that if he could.
Your numb fingers grip your sketchbook a tad bit tighter, with his sleepy eyes following the movement, he takes a deep breath.
âI want to see, love.â
Alex looks more awake now than he did when he woke up in the morning. He loves the sun, but it is not always there for him. It is cold now, even in the morning. Especially in the morning. Still dark, still freezing, and you werenât there. It felt like the day after a perfect day, and he woke up not with a hazy, blurry mind but a very clear head and thoughts so sharp that they hurt.
He grows amusedly suspicious when your eyes widen with hesitation. This is not the first time.
âIs itâ mmmââ his voice turns into a soft croon, the cartoonish quality of it making his own eyes twinkle. âIs it me? In there...?â
âHuh?â
âWere you drawing me?â
You let out a huff at the accusation. âI've not drawn anything for so long. And it is literally just a rough sketch, I donât even like it. Iâm not trying to hide, it is not aââ
âBut it is mine, isnât it?â He crawls again, just wanting to be closer to you. He does this thing, getting closer to you so you can hear him more clearly, instead of just raising his voice like everybody else does. He is pressed up against your form now with a smirk on his face. Only a second or three passes as he is observing you, expecting you to hand over the sketchbook, and then he is chuckling, his face scrunching up. âAre you hiding me from myself? Come on... that is my job.â
You canât help but laugh with him. âYou always say I see you somewhat differently, though... I wouldnât want to end up making a fool of myself or whatever it is that I'm so afraid of."
Something glimmers in his eyes, just a subtle flicker of it, and it is almost as if he never slept, once again. âNever have I said that to you.â
âNot to me, maybe, no... Does it matter?â
âAre youâ hold on, tell me when was the last time you slept properly, and donât lie.â
You almost comment on his tone, but you decide to answer him, only to realize that you can not.
His eyebrows furrow, and he sits up. It is difficult to handle this, you don't think you are ever gonna get used to it. Being so close, he looks too real. His skin is shiny under the moonlight, the tan is gone, pale again from the way he has succumbed to solitary lifestyles similar to those they teach you about in the bible. His scent... Cigarettes, is it? Something bitter-sweet and addictive like thick honey on his skin, too, and it ought to make you crave more when you let your teeth cut loose.
Not again... what was he talking about?
âHoney?â
You look at him. Alex. Al. God, he is going to get actually old one day, isnât he? You almost wish he isnât. You almost wish you had met him when he was younger, he could have broken your heart that way, the casual way, it certainly would have been easier. All kinds of leather were tight over his muscles back then, hair slippery and tousled and apparently perfect. Dark, but shiny like jet, steel, something solid and useful. Something you definitely wouldnât have seemed, if you had been the one standing next to him in those messy, flashy polaroids and countless paparazzi shots.
You always had this thought about how his hair and his leather jackets shone the same way, and that thought used to make you giddy then almost teary. At least you never forgot how to fantasise and daydream about and do everything but avoid men like him, because he is actually right here now and he is... different.
âYes.â You talk in a whisper, your voice soft and quiet like the rustling of your sheets underneath him as he shifts to caress your neck with a gentle hand.
âWhere did you go?â
âIâm here.â
âHmm. Yes, you are. I believe you now.â Alex hums, smiles. Looking thoughtful for a second before his face is hovering over yours, and he leans down to press a kiss to your neck. There is a hushed mumble against your skin. You nudge his shoulder.
âHoneysop,â he mumbles again, but this time, a giggle makes his voice sound chirpy.
âWhat the fuck?â
âI said... Iâve got a new nickname for you.â Alex looks down at you. (Studying your face with the expression of a man who knows he doesnât have to tell his kid that Santa Claus isnât real or something along those lines.)
You smile â a toothy, sweet thing to make his eyes shine even brighter. You can not help but notice the way his chain is dangling from his neck. Why must every single part of him shine like that? You touch it gently, soft fingertips warm against the cool metal. There are tiny pink marks left on his chest from how the chain had pressed into his skin in sleep. You find it soothing to watch it rock back and forth above you, and you are very sure that he is amused by that fact.
Suddenly, you find your voice again. âI think, had this been some other time, any other time, I would have asked you to fuck me right here. You know, itâs midnight, you are all just the perfect amount of wound up and silly. I canât sleep. But... can I...â You impulsively kiss the tip of his nose just because it is the part of him closest to your lips. His eyes are wide and sweet, intrigued.
âYou could pose for me... I want to draw you. And when Iâm done, I wonât hide it from you, no... I could even draw it in your notebook. I know you prefer the ones with blank pages, I do, too.â Alex ducks his head slowly, listening intently, but all of a sudden, too busy leaving loving bites on your throat and pressing his lips against your heart. You grab his hair firmly, hoping to keep his eyes fixated on you.
âThen Iâll let you fuck me. I wantâ," You giggle when his stubble tickles the softness of your chest accidentally, but you keep going. He can feel your heart thumping faster and faster. "I want you too tired and distracted after you're done, justâ too stupid to care for finding whatever the hell I drew in there. Be- because God knows it is gonna be horrible, Al, don't even..."
Alex grabs your face with a firm hand, his thumb digging into the skin near your mouth and the rest of his fingers wrap tightly around your jaw.
"Shhhhh... dove..."
You whimper quietly at his cooing, the contrast between his soft murmurs and the strength in his hand causes your mind to get filthier with each breath. And not just your mind, really, you would be pressing your thighs together right now if he wasn't straddling them so rudely. He presses his cheek against yours, his mouth just hovering over your ear. Tilting his head back for a few seconds, just to see your pretty earring up close. It makes him smile, even though he can barely make it out of the darkness.
"You've got to stop it, love, stop hiding. I need to keep seeing you, all of it, okay?"
You nod the best you can, chest trembling and hips twitching from the intensity of his words. Alex keeps hushing you as his touches travel down your torso, stopping at the waistband of your underwear. Tracing the hem, tapping his blunt fingernails over your stomach like he might do to the strings of a guitar he's yet to be familiar with.
Alex sits back, pulling away from you entirely with a huff. He grabs your sketchbook from where you left it earlier. A twitch in his bicep and a weary sigh on his lips, as if he's been forced to pick up some of kind of evidence.
You try to touch his knee, or just any part of him that you can possibly reach, but your fingers accidentally curl over him right where a bruise is still blooming and tender on his thigh and he hisses.
Cool cat... or is he, really?
It is something of a blur after that. Like you pressed a button and you are waiting to find out if it was the good one or not.
Alex takes your sketchbook and lets the poor thing covered in charcoal marks rest in the drawer of your nightstand.
The sheets he has tangled himself in bother him way too much. And they smell like you, as always, it is messing with his head right now and more importantly, it makes him want to mess with yours. He pushes them away, your relentless pawing at the worn white fabric anything but helpful.
Alex tugs at your shirt to pull it up, too, so he isn't the only one feeling cold and exposed. He clutches your waist, settling lower on the bed this time and resting his cheek on your hip. You can feel his chain touch you. He looks up.
"Thisâ can you feel it?" He gently caresses, presses down on your lower tummy with his fingers, before moving his face slightly and planting a soft kiss right there. "This is where I need to be."
Just that sentence, the last one â it makes you cry out, your shaky hand coming down to grip his hair.
"No need for any... paper or ink or cameras. It is just us, dove. Even put the sketchbook away for you, so just let me, huh? It'll feel much better, 'cause it is more special."
A muffled keen leaves your lips when he starts to slowly slide your underwear down your legs. You didn't even realize you were biting down on your knuckles until now. Until you see the red mark you have left on your hand and the string of saliva connecting your parted mouth to it.
Alex stops when he hears the desperate noise you make, frowning. Something felt off. He lies down beside you now. Face to face. His touches turning delicate and patient, instead of demanding. "What's wrong?" He asks, sweet and every single thing that makes your heart ache all over again. He strokes your cheek, gentle warmth spreading over the parts he had grabbed and got a bit close to bruising earlier. Your eyes grow softer and so does his.
"I'm cold, Al. But if you put a blanket over me... I'm gonna get sleepy, too."
He kisses your lips once. A reward for not hiding from him again, perhaps.
Alex studies your hazy gaze for a moment. He grabs the blanket you had apparently used as a pillow when you hopped on his bed a few hours ago. Pecks your collarbone, covering the both of you with that warm blanket and he smiles as you move lazily to curl up against him properly.
It is easy for him to adore the way you cling to him, let out a soft noise when you are shifting to your side and swinging your leg over his, remembering that the only thing you are wearing is your shirt not exactly right on time.
"Pardon me, if I sound too crude, but..." He chuckles against your neck, the sound scratching his throat. "You wereâ well, are, fucking dripping, girl."
You giggle. "What was that word? Ah, yeah. Honeysop."
"You are ridiculous." He shakes his head and tuts when you try to move away from him, wrapping an arm around your torso and hugging you even closer than before. "No. No hiding, stay here."
There is a soft smile on your face, your mind full of fuzzy, messy bits and you are sure that feeling his warm breath on your skin must be something from your personal heaven.
Your voice comes out as a quiet, soft murmur. "I don't know what it is, but, sometimes you say things in a certain way and it just... there is this moment after I hear you, when I feel as if you could do anything you wanted to me and it wouldâ nothing else could possibly be better than that."
Alex kisses your temple, carding his fingers through your hair. "That's a lot."
You squirm. "Maybe that's what makes it special... no? You said it wasâ"
"You pay a lot of attention to what I say, you know? I think that's exactly what makes it special." Another kiss. "That I trust you to see me... like I want to be seen. Not differently, you used that word, and I got a bit silly over it. It's never about differences between us. I try not to make it about them, at least."
"Always had a thing for that," you say, a bitter-sweet tint to your tone. "Contrasting subjects, juxtaposition... maybe that's why I got into painting, too. And oh, yes, there we have another difference for us to avoid admitting to, I guess," you laugh.
"Is this funny to you? Or are you just... amused by it?"
"Why?"
"You are laughing."
"I'm tired."
He could close his eyes and he would still be able to see the smile and that hidden yawn in your voice.
Alex sighs, delighted.
"I guess you're just gonna have to sleep now, then, honeysop."
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In your opinion, what makes Andrew's interest in Ashley romantic rather than just sexual? Love your analyses and wanted your expert opinion, bc personally I'm kinda on the fence about it
I am very flattered that you like my analysts and consider me an expert! It is a great honor to be told that.
The first evidence Andrew is romantically in love with Ashley is this dialogue back in Episode 1. This was actually one of the big reasons why I did not check out Episode 2 for a long while because of how fucking weird Andrew is. I already knew he was weird and actually down bad for Ashley, but that moment really shows how deeply fucked up this guy is. What do you mean you think it's too romantic to commit suicide by jumping off the balcony with your sister? Even Ashley thinks he's weird there.
And then he explains that he thinks it's romantic because that'd mean their bodies would be be entangled together and have to be buried in the same coffin. Despite this, he likes that Ashley wants to join him, which wow, okay dude.
We now fast forward to chapter 2, where we get a lot more of incestuous hints from Andrew.
The first obvious one that you will always see is Andrew checking on Ashley because she's obviously in a bad mood having their burglary thwarted and having to talk with, cook for, and eat with their mother who abandoned them, likely sold them out, and wanted them dead. Ashley doesn't want to talk about it because this confirms her desire to sacrifice them and was hoping she didn't have to say it to Andrew, so she is also frustrated he's not picking that up either and being snappy. Andrew then thinks, "I want to hug her until she smiles", which okay, that's innocuous enough, but is then followed by, "I'm not going to do it, it's another thought that I wish I never had." What kind of thoughts do you have that makes you not want to hug your sister and comfort her Andrew? Isn't it a good thing you want to make her happy especially in this really shit day? And why are you blushing at that thought???
After that, you can have Andrew go talk with their mother and have this gem:
While it's easy to think Andrew thinking, "I don't want to grow fonder of Ashley because she's a bitch" if you see this the first time, notice that he starts blushing there. He very much does not want his romantic desires for Ashley intensified, nor does he ever want to be separated from her as we find out later on at the fireplace if you are on Burial route.
And before that, Andrew eats Ashley's mom-and-dad soup despite his obvious reluctance to and his outright refusal in Decay. He is only doing this to make Ashley happy, when the day before, he was holding back from just hugging her to cheer her up because of the fear that intimacy with Ashley will expose his feelings, which is why Ashley is surprised. That is, quite weirdly, a romantic gesture of Andrew.
And finally, no matter how you get Burial Sane, Andrew is still on better terms with her than before their parents died. Sure he's grumpy and aloof, but he still is happy to be with her and he doesn't start blaming her for their situation. This unnerves Ashley because she now realizes that he doesn't "need" her, but he's still hanging around for who knows how long and she can't guarantee he will stay.
It's easy to think that Andrew's feelings for Ashley is just sexual when the main focus has been Burial Questionable and the confirmation that they can have sex in Decay. Sane often gets neglected for being boring, "pointless", and Ashley being "out of character" for not teasing Andrew about the incest vision, but it is still a major route of the game and is worth analyzing. People often miss the main point of the game is that Andrew's and Ashley's (mostly) platonic relationship is already under a lot of strain due to their mutual distrust that the other will betray and/or leave them, Ashley being too stuck in the past in the most obvious form of being attached to Andy, and Andrew being cold to Ashley because he can't be honest with his affection for her. They have to rebuild their relationship as family and friends first before they can have a relatively healthy romantic relationship. Even after that obstacle, the fear of being rejected for their incestuous feelings is very real and valid when they're also family, and if the other leaves them for that or stops being on good terms with them, they are completely alone and/or heartbroken because they have no one left to love them and for them to love back.
This is why Andrew represses his romantic desire for Ashley, and Ashley can choose to stay platonic with him or tell Andrew that they will not have sex. They are both aware this really is not normal, they are most likely going to be rejected because it's abnormal, and they are afraid of what will happen after rejection. They value each other so much that they will be happy to give up their own desires if it means that they can still have each other around. That is also quite romantic, and needless to say, a very common experience for people who have trouble with confessing or never confessed their feelings to the people they love.
If Andrew merely had sexual feelings for Ashley, he can just keep dating and having sex with other women that look like her and move on. Even though Ashley doesn't like it and resents him for that, at least they still have a relationship, which is better than none at all for Andrew. It is much more difficult for Andrew when he is romantically in love with her, and he actively has to hide it away from her in hopes she won't reject him. He tried to make the best of dating Julia to try to get rid of his romantic and sexual feelings for Ashley, but even that is not enough. As seen in the Voicemails video, he needs to imagine Julia's Ashley to say romantic declarations of love to her, but that makes him sad.
On a more meta level, and one a lot of fans forget, is that TCOAAL is a psychological horror game. It is so much more revolting and well, horrifying that Andrew has romantic feelings for Ashley. My revulsion at Andrew was so strong that I stayed away from the game for months, planning to wait until Episode 3 because I want Julia to show up so I can root for her because neither sibling was sympathetic enough for me. If it was just Andrew being very sexually touchy with Ashley, I and many others would have thought he is sexually abusive or he only sees Ashley as a sex doll, and thus find it easier to root for Ashley and hope she leaves him or retaliates against him. But it is way more fascinating and accurate to a codependency that there is no clear abuser-and-victim or good guy and bad guy dynamic, that the siblings are mutually horrible to each other, but also mutually in love and lust for each other. Nemlei makes their romance an integral part of the game's horror, which is a masterful display of her skill as a creator to blend two seemingly opposite feelings into one work of art.
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