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Mental Illness in Anime

I saw someone say Komi Can't Communicate is the only anime they've ever seen that talks about mental illness and that's kinda sad, so for you to not end in the same boat, I've decided to put together an overview of mental illness in anime, what I'd recommend, what comes with caveats, and so on.

It's a little nebulous what "talks about mental illness" means as lots of anime depict characters who are very obviously depressed, traumatized and even suicidal (suicide will be mentioned a lot in this list, so watch out for that), but don't directly name mental illness. It is very stigmatized in Japan, even moreso than many other countries, you don't see much talk about therapy and so on.

However, naturally there are many Japanese people who are mental health advocates, and I found an interview with Makoto Kageyama, a mental health awareness advocate who volunteered at Aokigahara forest. He points out anime he feels deal with mental illness. One we'll cover fully, many of them I haven't watched:

I think the most accurate and positive portrayals I got were actually from Kiriyama Rei (March Comes in Like a Lion), Naruse Jun (The Anthem of the Heart), Miyamura Miyako (ef: A Tale of Memories), Takeya Yuki (School-Live!) and Smile (Ping Pong: The Animation)

I'm super open to suggestions for additions, and might be adding them as reblogs and under the cut.

I'll also be making a post on mental illness in manga if this post does well, which I will link here when I post it.

So I'll start:

Anime that directly discusses mental illness:

March Comes in Like a Lion- not only is the main character one of the most accurate depictions of depression I've ever seen, it's the rare anime that actually talks about counseling, showing a traumatized character attending counseling and slowly getting back on her feet.

Orange--it...certainly is about mental illness, but it's a pretty mixed/problematic one because it seems to be confused by how mental illness works at times. It centers around a character who's suicidally depressed and his friend's efforts to save him after receiving a time travel message about his future suicide. It also does mention offhand that this character was supposed to go to therapy and is skipping out at one point. But yeah, how it handles it is...not always great. It kind of gives an impression that if you try hard enough you can "fix" someone's suicidal depression. With friendship. I guess. You have been warned.

I haven't watched it in a really long time, so it might even be worse than I remember. But I'm including it bc I definitely cried and felt parts of it were very relatable when I saw it way back when. so there's some resonant stuff there.

Monster: Kind of mixed, but it's definitely notable as an anime that not only has a psychiatrist as a major character, but also shows prominent characters going to therapy and getting better. Characters go to him for alcoholism, depression, PTSD (PTSD is not named but yeah it's definitely PTSD). At one point he helps a main character recover some repressed traumatic memories.

What makes it mixed is that while several heroes definitely are mentally ill in some way, the (complex) antagonist of the series also has some sort of mental health condition , and the story is often weirdly muddled about it. At one point they make it out like he has Dissociative Identity Disorder (calling it "split personality") but then he never shows any symptoms of that and it's kind of dropped and not bought up again. He does definitely have repressed traumatic memories though, so maybe that's all they were getting at but said it very badly.

A heroic character that actually seems to have Dissociative Identity Disorder and YMMV in how it's handled and how accurate it is. It's a "the other personality is violent" one, but rather than the other personality being evil, it's. a defense mechanism, and the violence is always in self defense or defense of others..

Sort of names the problem:

My New Boss is Goofy: One of the main characters is recovering from an abusive boss, and definitely has anxiety attacks and flashbacks as a result. This is directly named as "trauma" (though much like in the West where the loan word came from, anime characters use the words to refer to minor things that aren't mental illness too. But in this case it's treated very seriously). At any rate, the entire anime is about others helping the MC slowly recover with his new boss and friends showing immense compassion for his anxiety and other problems. Here's a good article going into it!

Anime that focuses on social anxiety:

I think what stands out about Komi is that it directly says she has a communication disorder, but tons of anime focus on characters with social anxiety, and even state what the problem is directly.

Bocchi the Rock- The girl with the social anxiety is the main character and not the bland self insert guy who has a crush on her?, amazing. it lets her be a mess too? whaaat. Yeah, Bocchi does say directly she has severe social anxiety, and the series is very relatable in how it explores that. There are a lot of gags about it, but in a knowing, sympathetic way. Her recovery is realistically slow, and sometimes she backslides. She talks directly about her social anxiety, using the term.

Tsuritama: MC's social anxiety is so bad he can have panic attacks when people talk to him...the attacks are also represented in this really interesting way where they have water come in to drown him.

My Roommate is a Cat: Man dealing with social anxiety slowly recovers with the help of his cat. It's cute. Here's an article going into it!

Anime that don't namedrop mental illness directly, but really resonates:

Natsume's Book of Friends: I wrote an entire article about how relatable it is to me and my mental illness, how it uses the characters seeing yokai as metaphor for mental ilness at times (Natsume was textually mistreated by so-called guardians who thought he "wasn't right in the head" and his grandmother was often called that too) but also Natsume shows a lot of textual symptoms of trauma (possibly PTSD), depression and so on, and they're explored very poignantly. Here is my article: “The Courage to Speak”: Mental illness and recovery in Natsume’s Book of Friends

Revolutionary Girl Utena: Probably one of the most poignant explorations of what it means to be depressed and traumatized as a teenage girl. Several moments with Utena herself resonate, starting with when she was a child and declares she doesn't want to go on living, Anthy is also...dealing with a lot, and it's powerful how the show goes into it.

Neon Genesis Evangelion-- Many characters in it show symptoms of mental illness. Though it isn't named as depression directly (i think?), but Shinji shows every symptom you can think of, and the director Anno has said that he was extremely depressed while making it and channeled a lot of that into the characters, and we definitely see his mental journey for the better very strongly reflected in the reboot.

Kyousougiga: One of the main characters is suicidally depressed (this one is graphic, because he commits suicide on screen...only it turns out he can't die), and his journey towards becoming okay with living is a focus and was very resonant to me.

She and Her Cat: A short anime about a girl who definitely has depression and how her cat helps her. Rather simplistic ending but it's good otherwise. CW animal death too, but in a very gentle way.

Haibane Renmei: It deals with suicidal depression and other mental health struggles in a pretty intense way, it's touching, but if you have triggers consider looking into it.

Fruits Basket: Truly a cocktail of mental illnesses among the cast. YMMV on how it's handled but some parts really resonate. These articles go into it:

The Always Smiling Girl: How Tohru critiques toxic positivity

“A Man Who Can Experience His Feelings”: Fruits Basket, toxic masculinity, and mental health

Colorful: This is a submission from Nickyenchilada from the notes of this post: "I would also recommend the movie/novel Colorful. I think YMMV on how it handles the central issue of suicide but I think it does portray how even kids can be thrust into very complex situations without necessary outlets for coping with them."

Vinland Saga: This was an addition I got from a discord conversation, the entire second season explore the main character's PTSD

Yuri on Ice- A conversation on discord reminded me that a lot of people read Yuri as having an anxiety disorder, which I can totally see!

A Silent Voice- a submission from @boku-no-anime-phase who says: "I think it deserves its own shout out! This movie is nuanced, gentle, beautifully told and brimming with hope. I love the fact that just like in real life, things don't resolve particularly easily; but the characters make important progress that's rewarding to watch. TW for suicide discussion, ideation and attempt".

Rascal Does Not Dream of Bunny Girl Senpai - From boku-no-anime-phase who says: "YMMV but there's an arc that deals with bullying and memory loss where a character who deals with those things is supported and encouraged through it".

My Happy Marriage - From boku-no-anime-phase who says: "also YMMV but I think there were some lovely moments in this where you can see Miyo beginning to heal from her trauma and abuse, and learn to trust."

Anime Feminist has a whole host of articles on mental health in anime and they're all here. It covers a lot of different anime I don't know about or didn't mention and offers a lot of cool perspectives, so check 'em out! Here's a few that stuck out to me:

Finding Inner Magic: Depression in The Ancient Magus’ Bride

(I don't like this anime's narrative due to the issue with the ending pointed out in this article, but it did have resonant moments of exploring depression).

How Clean Freak! Aoyama-kun compassionately handles mental illness

The Sound of Depression: Liminal spaces, sound design, and Super Cub

From Yandere Girlfriends to Social Anxiety: Handling mental illness in The Future Diary and A Silent Voice

Footnote on Hikikomori in anime:

Any anime that focuses on Hikikomori characters are dealing with characters that are mentally ill, as being so depressed/traumatized/agoraphobic/anxious you can't even leave your room or house is obviously not mentally healthy. But what really matters is how that’s handled and if these issues are explained, as Makoto Kageyama notes:

Usually, the most common issues I’ve seen covered is the “hikikomori phenomena” and light eating disorders. Basically, a bullied character that becomes a recluse out of social anxiety, but… The characters don’t usually get shown correctly, since their issues are not explained properly and basically it ends up with a “Hey, see? People are not that bad, we are your friends!” and “Yay, I have friends, I am cured and I can trust others again!” Which is not the case, because real hikikomori can take a lot of talk and patience to get them out and when they get back to normal society (if they do), they become very wary of others. And ironically, “hikikomori” has also been used as a “moe trait” in anime even though it’s a mental health issue.

One I saw a lot of people namedrop as handling it well when I googled around was Welcome to the NHK, though I haven't seen it. But, if you look at Nickyenchilada's take in the comments to this post, it's mentioned as being resonant and it's noted that the recovery is not an easy fix, and it's also noted that several characters in the story are mentally ill.

Bonus list:

Neurodiversity in Anime- (that don't namedrop mental illness directly, but really resonate)

I initially didn't include a neurodiversity section in this post because I honestly could not think of any anime that directly talks about neurodiversity or has a textually neurodivergent character.

(However, there are manga that actually do! I pointed some out in my Mental Illness and Neurodiversity in Manga post I did to complement this one!)

You can also read some articles about neurodiversity in anime here

And the list of characters that can simply be read as neurodivergent is huge, and if I tried to list every popular read it would be endless, plus I don't feel comfortable "diagnosing" any characters with developmental disorders I don't personally have. However, I am willing to take suggestions from others on this one, so here are a few!

Mob Psycho 100 - submitted by boku-no-anime-phase, who says " Mob is autistic and I will die on this hill; the trouble he has with fitting in, relating to others and knowing the right things to do imo stems directly from that."

Princess Jellyfish - submitted by boku-no-anime-phase, who says "I'd be willing to bet that all the women who live in that apartment are neurodivergent. They all have their special interests and they live together in mutual neurodivergent infodumping bliss and it's wonderful. (Unrelated but TW for sexual assault and some transphobia)"

Chihayafuru- submission by @noisepartythumpingmusic who says "It's never noted explicitly, but I firmly believe the main character of Chihayafuru has ADHD, which is perfect for a main character of a sports" josei. As someone who does have ADHD, I personally can totally see that read of Chihaya (the main character)!

Anti-recommendations (as in seems potentially resonant but then drop the ball hard, because if I listed all the anime that's blatantly gross about mental illness from the second the subject comes up we'd be here all day) (Dead Dove Do Not Eat)

Wonder Egg Priority: Starts out like it's going to be a nuanced exploration of recovering from abuse, suicidal depression, and so on, only to end up incredibly stupid and offensive. The writer also believes some stupid and misogynist things about "reasons" girls commit suicide. This article goes into it a little.

Your Lie In April: Depiction of depression and trauma is completely undermined by how all the characters tell the MC he needs to get over it because his talent for piano is more important, and the clumsy, gross take on forgiving your abuser, and so many other things. This article goes into it.

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And that's it for now! Again. I might be updating this with new stuff based on feedback or me remembering something I missed, through both updates and adding stuff under the cut.

[roxoxoxoxy]

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if you start off doing a line, pls start off w the maknae🙏🙏🙏

thanks in advance!!!!!!

Zb1 members if they had a crush on you

I'm gonna do all of them in one post 🙏🏼

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Jiwoong

Probably the most obvious out of all of them, he's confident enough to approach you directly but because of his naturally flirty personality it's hard for you to pin point whether he's being serious or not. He'd use a classic pick up line on you and you'd just assume he was kidding. It gets to the point he's almost directly telling you he likes you but you're so used to his shenanigans you assume he's escalating the same joke. He wanted to be cool but ends up doing a direct confession because you won't take the fucking hint.

Zhang hao

He's so annoying about it. I just know it. Type of guy to be kinda mean to you to get your attention. He still goes with the good ol hair pulling method he used in middle school 🙏🏼🙏🏼. It's mostly in a light hearted way, like dropping something and making you pick it up or taking a bite of your food without asking. He doesn't really know how to flirt properly so he just hoped being around you enough and borderline begging for your attention will work.

Hanbin

Probably the most direct about his feelings for you, he likes taking his time to confess but if you ask whether it not he had feelings for you he won't hesitate to say yes. Also teases you a lot, something like holding something over his head so you have to reach up to get it. Pinches your cheeks too, doesn't mind showing that he likes you. I feel like he's not as afraid of rejection as everyone else.

Matthew

Ends up in the same boat as Jiwoong, he was too direct too fast and now you won't take him seriously. It's not just words though, he's an acts of service type of guy so he'll hold your bags and carry heavy things for you. That may or may not be because he's trying to show off his muscles. Adores talking to you so much, will talk your ear off so much that he'll accidently confess. It just spills out randomly in the middle of conversation.

Taerae

Avoid you. Like literally avoids you like you carry the plague. You're here? Sorry something just came up. So unbelievably shy around you, he cares so much about what you think of him that he would rather just not find out. You're under the impression you did something to upset him so you try to reconcile and apologize but it's borderline impossible because he keeps disappearing. You eventually track him down and try to work things out, he feels guilty for making you think you upset him and his feelings come spilling out.

Ricky

Buys things for you, like you're out with a group of friends and spot something you like, he'll immediately buy it and then act like it's not a big deal because he's just so cool and chill. He's screaming on the inside though. You assumed he was just being nice but after you went out to dinner with some friends and he payed for your food and noone else's you kinda got the hint. You'll have to confess first though because he's shy.

Gyuvin

I think he's more of a easy going guy in romantic encounters, in the sense that he'll take things slow. Tries to be your friend first and really get to know you, shows you he likes you by prioritizing you. Things like grabbing your favourite drink when he goes to the vending machine, opening up drink cans before handing them to you so you don't damage your nails, focusing extra hard when you say a thing. It's one of those situations where everyone knows he's smitten with you but you're oblivious.

Gunwook

Gets so shy around you, the tough guy persona doesn't hold up at all. He's practically giggling and kicking his feet in your presence. Looks at you like you're the only person in the room no matter the situation. It's so noticeable to everyone around you because he has the biggest doppiest grin on whenever you're around. Doesn't take too long to confess because it's so hard for him to contain how much he likes you.

I need to make a masterlist soon </3. If you have any more suggestions my ask box is currently open!!

[chaysreality222]

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hii lovelies (๑'ᵕ'๑)⸝* it feels like forever since i've been active on shiftblr and you wouldn't believe how much i've missed it. i've just messaged back a few of you and i apologize for the long awaited responses! i'm going to be as active as i can, in hopes you guys can see my growth in my shifting journey as well. there's nothing like being able to share that with you guys <3 life just kinda took over, and i put shifting on the back burner. it's all i ever think about really, so it was time to come back. it's time to stop telling myself that "life is in the way", "work is in the way", "school is in the way". what i want is for shifting to be apart of my life and not just a hobby i need to find time for. i'm sure a lot of us are in the same boat and can work on it together. i've seen some posts and it's exciting to see that so many of you have shifted or are close to it <3 there's also many of you from shiftok on here now which is exciting as well! i feel like 2020 is back in a way and the spark has some how awoken again.

xoxo, c!

[happyheidi]

I'm turning 29 this year and regret not being where my parents were at my age. They weren't rich or well off at all, but they were married and had me and their own place. I don't think I'll ever have a relationship that doesn't end with being cheated on, or my own place, let alone the stability to have a BABY. I see my high school friends on facebook having babies and travelling and getting great careers and feel like I missed all my chances already. I'm almost 30 but I'm still doing the same shit I did 15 years ago. The only difference is now I'm hyperaware that life is fleeting. I don't know if I have a question to wrap this up, I just needed to tell someone that and I saw it was therapy hour so I might as well tell you.

Ok this is every girls way of thinking when they reach that 30’s spot. I did it. You did it. They did it. Its programmed in us PLUS we have our biological clock ticking away as well. If I were where my parents were at my age I would have a kid and a math degree. It’s a totally different time so we can’t see ourselves in that light. I’m a victim of it too. I’ve thought of taking out a loan so I can freeze my eggs but it costs like 90k for 3 eggs so yeah but I digress. I turned 33 this December and yes it sound cliche but I don’t feel a day over what.. 24? I’m stunted. So I’m not the person to answer this as I’m kinda in the same boat.

What can we do? Think about how it should be… “how far we should be" by now? Doing so doesn’t change anything other than our moods. I’m actually getting kinda queasy as I’m writing this cus it’s this weird innate feeling that I have no idea how I turn of..

But remember that not all that glitters is gold. And it’s not always greener on the other side. But let’s try to break the fence anyway.

but hey let’s use lots of money on skincare and makeup in the meantime so we help capitalism and ruin ourselves slowly 🎉 (oopsies..)

[johanna-swann]

The fanon Tommy & Lucy friendship is also very interesting. Because of course we want Tommy to have a friend, we like Lucy and we know she works air ops. It kinda makes sense, but timeline wise they can't be that close, not in the way many fanfics depict their friendship.

Lucy transferred to harbour after the season 6 opening (Bobby wanted her as interim captain, but she was down with an injury) and before the season 6 finale. Depending on the injury, her maybe being on light duty for a couple of weeks and her probably having to do some extra training or certification to join harbour, my guess is she transferred sometime in 6b maybe? I'm also not sure if she was a paramedic before, but she was in charge of a med call in 6x18.

Then in 6x18 we not only see Lucy as a member of the 217 for the first time, we also see Bathena board the cruise ship - the same cruise they have to be rescued from only a few days* later by Tommy. So by the time Tommy and Buck start dating he couldn't have known Lucy for more than a few months, even if we assume there's a bit of a timejump within 6x18.

Let's be generous and say maybe Lucy has been at harbour for about a month and then there's another entire month between the bridge collapse and the capsized cruise ship. Then Tommy starts hanging out with Eddie a lot and also gets together with Buck. So he probably doesn't spend much time with Lucy outside of work.

Besides the logistics there's also Tommy saying several times how his team isn't like the 118, he doesn't feel like they'd have his back always no matter what. All of that under the assumption that Tommy and Lucy even work the same shifts at all. She wasn't on shift when Tommy flew Team Who Cares into a hurricane. They might be on different rotations.

Lucy did however work at the 118 for several months during season 5 and fit in so well with the team that Bobby considered her as interim captain before Chim, Buck or Eddie - even Hen because she was still in med school at the time.

So yeah. It's fun to toy with the idea, but I don't think the fanon version of those friendships (Lucy being vaguely familiar with the 118 and bestest buds ever with Tommy) is very spot on. They've probably only known each other for 7 months or so by 8x01 and aren't particularly close outside of work. It'd make more sense if Tommy was still close to Sal or a different colleague at harbour.

[*Athena is worried during the cruise ship arc that she and Bobby might not have much in common or to talk about once they step away from their jobs as first responders and the crazy emergencies. That sound like a fresh problem, not one she's been managing for weeks on a boat.]

[baker-coded]

Barbie and Ken {S.H.}

𝓟𝓪𝓲𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓰: Steve Harrington x reader

𝓦𝓸𝓻𝓭 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓽: 870

𝓢𝓾𝓶𝓶𝓪𝓻𝔂: Steve sees you for the first time in a while at the bookstore while getting a present from Robin.

𝓐/𝓝: I wrote this in an hour. Be nice. Also I'm back to writing again so woo fucking hoo. This is set up to be a series btw. And Barbie isn't reader's name but I really hate typing {Y/N} personally. It feels unnatural to me. Anyway. Enjoy <3

Ah yes, Steve Harrington. He goes by many names. "Steve". "Steven". "The Hair". "King Steve". And, sometimes, simply "Harrington" by teammates and coaches... and rivals. Most notably Billy Hargrove.

But this story isn't about those two.

It's about you. And Steve.

You've gone by a few names yourself in your high school years and post-high school it's like no one bothered to learn your name.

"Queen Barbie" is what they called you. "Queen Barbie" was known as a sweet girl by most people and regarded as a bitch to others. But nothing played into your "Barbie" persona as much as your love for the color pink and the smile that constantly adorned your face.

Always smiling even while you worked. It was a job you loved in all fairness. A bookstore. Quiet. Not a lot of people passing through. And you loved it.

The bookstore was a nice change of pace from high school. It was small and family owned. Not by your family of course, you and your family had... issues to say the least. But that's a story for another time.

In school you wore hot pinks and baby pinks paired with white or gold. Working you went for more muted pinks. But pink is pink and nothing has made you less "Queen Barbie".

And nothing made Steve less "King Steve".

Especially when he came in to buy Robin a book for her birthday. If anything that made him better in your eyes. Steve was always kind to you but you never were into him like everyone expected you to be. He was sweet to you but you knew he was kind of an asshole to others.

He came up to the counter with a copy of Patience and Sarah. You saw the book before him and got excited about it.

"Oh this is a wonderful book. Good choice." You said happily as you took it. You turned the book on its back and put the price in the register as you spoke. "It's about a woman and her lover, who's another woman. One of the main characters is pretty masculine and she eventually 'transitions' to a man kinda. Then she goes by- You know what? I'm sorry. I'm rattling on. Uh... it's five nineteen."

Steve just smiled and nodded at you as he got out his wallet. "I didn't know you read that much Barbie."

Your head snapped up to see Steve, in all his glory. His hair was shorter than you remembered, maybe a bit flatter. He was definitely more muscular but you didn't really know what he's been doing to be so much stronger looking.

You hadn't realized how he had freckles in school. They looked good. And he had the prettiest eyes. And he also-

"Uh... receipt?" Your mouth stopped your thoughts. Auto pilot can really be a bitch sometimes.

Steve seemed to be in the same boat. He looked startled when you asked. "Oh, uh, yes please. It's a gift for a friend."

You smiled and handed him the receipt. "I think we have gift wrap in the back. I can wrap it for you!" You offered, totally not still thinking about his eyes and freckles.

Steve's eyes widened as he nodded. "Please. Their birthday is tomorrow."

"King Steve doing something last minute? I'm surprised!" You teased. "I'll go wrap it."

You took the book and went into the back room to wrap it. It wasn't official wrapping paper. It was just brown paper with book covers printed on it. You put a "To/from" sticker on it and came out with a sharpie.

Steve was standing awkwardly by the counter and his face lit up when he saw you with the now wrapped book. He went to grab it from you and you pulled the book back.

"I remember your handwriting." Was all you said to him. You set the book on the counter and took the lid from the sharpie. "Who's it for?"

"Robin Bobbin Buckley."

You blinked at him in confusion. "Is that their name or...?"

"It's more of an in joke."

"Cute."

You could have sworn Steve's cheeks turned pink slightly but you had no idea. You knew he didn't really blush so it was hard to decipher if it was blush or the summer heat was seeping into the store.

Steve rocked back and forth for a few moments as you wrote down what he told you. You had barely finished when he blurted out: "Barbie let's go on a date."

"What?"

Steve stumbled for a second before finally getting out a coherent phrase. "Date. Me. Please?"

You smiled and handed him the book. "How about in two days yeah? Your friends birthday is tomorrow."

Steve smiled and took the book from you. "I can do that. That works. Movies?"

"Just like school."

"Exactly Barbie." He chuckled. "I know how much you love drive-ins and milkshakes."

"It's fun!"

"I agree! That's why Saturday at 8 is going to be the perfect time."

"I can't wait Steve."

Steve left the store as casually as he could before absolutely freaking out in his car. He couldn't believe he got you. And he was gonna do his damnedest to keep you.

[moonstruckme]

babe I’m a yapper by nature so you want the long story here u go!!🗣️☺️🫡

soooo basically I’ve known/been mutual friends with this guy since high school (we graduated in 2021, we’re 22 now) and all throughout high school (so since I’ve known him), he’s been known as a really good and kind person. We were involved in different things and never really ran in the same circles, but we still kinda knew each other because we had a lot of the same friends. We started actually regularly seeing each other at functions and hangouts my junior year of college, and god knows my neurodivergent ass can’t tell but somewhere along the way he started flirting with me. And somewhere along the way, I started flirting back, and now we’re kinda stuck in the weird limbo phase. I’m just so bad at telling if people are flirting with me that I genuinely can’t tell if it’s a one-sided thing or not!!!!🫣

(For context, I’m queer and somewhere on the aro/ace spectrum - it’s rare for me to be romantically attracted to anyone, much less a man, so I’ve had casual things here and there with people but haven’t been in a relationship since I was 18. So this is all a bit weird for me lol but it’s been fun and I forgot that it’s fun to have butterflies/be giddy about someone! So even if it goes absolutely nowhere I’m okay with that, and I’m grateful it’s giving me some joy in my day to day life haha)

Basically we were out just the two of us (we had a third person who went home early) and he had bought my drink earlier (and winked at me while doing so, mind u!!!!) so I bought his pizza at the little late night pizzeria we stopped at, and when we were eating it walking home to our friend’s apartment we were both crashing at, and he said “this pizza is so good I could kiss you right now” but I was pretty drunk still so I just elected to ignore it and said something else. Then back at our friend’s apartment, he has a TINY ASS FUTON that is literally the width of a twin bed and he’s like “here, you guys can share it!” So we literally almost got ‘TWO FRIENDS ONE BED’ TROPED ON A TWIN SIZED FUTON. Buuuut I didn’t know at the time that I liked him, so I told him he could have the futon because I like to spread out and insisted that I take the floor (because I actually do like to spread out lol). And since then, there’s just been moments here and there and glances and touches and we’ve started texting and I came SO close to kissing him at my birthday party in February and AH.

so basically what r ur thots, bae. am i overthinking it? should i give it some time? help🫠🥲

Ooh whoa babe idk all that flirting sounds to me like it wouldn't be negatively received! The only alternative I can possibly think of would be if he was just one of those people who flirts with everyone for fun, but honestly it sounds like he's flirting with youuuuuu so if you like him and want something to happen I'm on team go for it ! Like he's been initiating one bed tropes and almost-kisses and winking at you idk lovely I'm pretty sure my ego would be like "wow he's obsessedddd with me this is embarassing for him" so like while I completely get your hesitation about not wanting to rock the boat you seem like you're in safe territory to me :)

[officialpenisenvy]

okay yay!! confession session. so my dad had custody of me till i was like ten—parents families are both really catholic but my parents are like kinda chill with it. but my dad less so. my mom got pregnant+ he proposed to her and she didn't want to marry him bc he was physically abusive+kinda sucks, her parents didn't take her in obviously so she stayed w a friend (she was like 30 yrs older than her and they had a weird thing going when i was younger. she should've lezzed out. sad!) before i was born then moved back in with him b4 leaving when I was like 3 months or so. he followed her then moved out w me+got almost full custody bc he was way more well off at the time

so then I lived with him and we shared a bed and he gave me baths+dressed me up. also like oblique sexual contact ig. but I think i was too small for him. I did have my own room. technically. but i do not remember ever being in there. neither of us had friends over+lived in a beautiful bubble where we read together+ate together+went on trips. he lost his job and is shit w money so he went to live with his mom+ i moved in w mine

after I moved in with my mom I lied to him about our living situation+my schooling bc neither of us wanted him getting mad. felt awful bc he was like the only person I knew and it felt weird to not live with him and to not be able to talk to him

my mom+ her dad had a thing but she doesn't want to acknowledge it neatly so she just does incestuous stuff but like separate cognitively maybe. had less oblique sexual stuff w her and a weird+unstable living situation but I was older so it felt like we were on even footing which was nice. she started sleeping around more when I was 12 and I was really jealous

I went to vist my dad for holidays sometimes and we kept sharing a bed but he stopped giving me baths. he asked me to move in with him a few times (still unemployed+living w his mom) but only like seriously when i was 13. our relationship was really weird then bc I was. kind of trying to distance myself from him?(slept with my feet to his head which he didn't. outright object to. but yknow) and was bulimic which he thought was kinda embarrassing+ blamed himself for. didn't want to stay bc I didn't want him to find out about some of the stuff i lied about bc I knew hed be pissed+didn't want him to go after my mom so I stayed w her

he tried to get me to move back in with him again after that but then kinda gave up+mom got full custody. when she told him she was filling for custody he said that if I had been living w him he would've been able to pull himself back together. which i am not sure about but does haunt me bc he is in a bit of a state rn

she also got really upset about our relationship+ got the judge to tell him I need my own bed. which is embarrassing to have in writing. and he kinda gave up on like moving forward in life+trying to talk to me as much after that

I shared a bed with him (against the custody agreement) for the last time when I visited him at 15 but now he's moved rooms and got a twin as like. penance ig. he's still unemployed+lives w his mom

I'm still with my mom+we have an apartment now but I am scared that i will be stuck with her forever. so kind of the same boat as my dad which is sweet

apologies for grammar+structure

holy shit a lot is going on here. first and foremost teenagers should be allowed to kill their parents indiscriminately. second of all im so sorry you had to go through all this honey, it sounds like a really complex and uncomfortable situation to say the least even aside from the oblique incest, and im glad you have a modicum of stability now, even if it's not quite a good situation. third of all you seem really young to me, though i might be way off base, so i just wanna reassure you that there is a proverbial light at the end of the tunnel, you are gonna make it out of your mother's grasp eventually, and you're not going to end up repeating the same cycle your parents are trapped in 🙏🙏 when everything you've known your whole life is this oppressive uncomfortable incestuous bubble it's so hard to imagine anything beyond it, but there's a whole world out there just waiting for you to join it, and i really wish you well in your journey to healing and building your own life, whenever you're ready to start it.

[arcadian-vampire]

Can you tell us more of what it’s like to be a system if you don’t mind? I’ve been questioning myself for a while now and would like to know about your experience. Only if you’re comfortable with it though!!!! 💕

Hiii anon!! Sorry it took me so long to answer this,, it can be kinda tough to talk about sometimes. Also, apologies if this is a lil messy!

I used to be in the same boat as you, where I was questioning and looking for other people's experiences to compare to. I followed lots of blogs that were out as systems and asked them questions, watched plenty of Youtube videos where people discussed their DID, and did a fair bit of research into what systems are supposed to be like, all while mentally shaking my alters by the shoulders and yelling ARE YOU REAL?? ARE WE ENOUGH [to count as a system]???

Eventually though, I decided that worrying about whether I Really Actually Do have DID/OSDD or not wasn't super helpful, especially considering I won't be discussing this with a professional due to the severe stigma surrounding such disorders, meaning I won't get a proper diagnosis. At the end of the day, the way I experience the world is similar to that of a system, and I find that label helpful to express my multiple identities 🎉 Things are also a Lot less tense between me and certain alters now that I'm not constantly doubting them!

So basically, what I'm trying to say is what I wish someone had said to me when I was first discovering that I might be a system: Try not to worry too much about if you Actually Truly Have This Condition And Count As A System And Are Valid (though you can totally seek a professional's opinion if you want + if it's a safe option for you); what matters most is finding out what works for you, all of you.

Also, do your best not to be ashamed of any parts of yourself, as they're there for a reason and deserve just as much love as the rest of you!

All that aside, I know it's interesting and can be helpful to hear more details about different systems, so I'm putting a bunch of info under the cut :3

The Clandestine System

A real quick introduction:

[Note about the term "front" and "fronting": imagine a system is an ocean, with alters swimming in it. One or two (or three, which can be chaotic as hell) might be floating at the surface where they can see you and interact with you, while others are swimming deeper, where you can't reach them. Fronting means an alter is hanging out at the surface, saying hi!

In the system map I've made, I tried to show how deep certain alters are. There are 3 main ones that stay closer to the surface, with ~6 others that generally stay further from it]

Aloe-- they/them or ne/nem, host

Aither/Red-- he/she/they or prince/princeself, caretaker (and everyone's favorite)

Ra-- he/they, gatekeeper and rule-maker

The Fragments-- don't worry about it 👍

So! Wayyy back in roughly 2014 or 2015, I was Really Fucking Struggling. I'd moved pretty far away from my hometown and started highschool without any friends, and at that same time, my disability was getting worse, which in turn made my mental health worse too. I was constantly in pain, quite depressed, experiencing pretty frequent panic attacks, and I was falling further and further behind in school, with unfinished homework literally piling up around me. I felt like I was drowning, like there was no escape, like my situation was just hopeless.

Then suddenly, there was a guy?????? In my head????? I somehow knew what he looks like, and what his voice sounds like, though at the time I didn't know his name. He was very gentle, very reassuring. He'd take over and take care of things for me, and it made life soooo much easier, though it was veeeery confusing. I'd always had memory problems, and I'm pretty decent at improv, so it wasn't too hard to pretend to remember the gaps that he caused.

We got through that rough patch, so things got better. I didn't need as much help. I kind of lost sight of him, if that makes any sense, and quickly forgot about the entire experience.

I continued to have annoying memory issues, and I could never explain why I felt SO different sometimes (i.e. having different favorite colors, different hobby preferences, different opinions on things, different skill levels), but I wrote it all off as totally normal. It's totally normal, right? I'm just inconsistent, it's fine!

I did have a psychologist clock me when I was 16 and try questioning me about all this, and I panicked so bad and did my best to reassure them that I was actually normal. I had no idea WHY it scared me as bad as it did, I just knew it was awful and this was secret and I couldn't let them know anything. I HAD to convince them I was a single person that never ever heard anyone else in their head, no sir!

I'd still occasionally hear that one boy alter in my head, and it startled me every single time. I continued to just ignore it. 👍 I had no idea what to make of such a confusing experience.

Then 2020 came around, and I was SUPER stressed. My disability was causing significant issues for me again, and there was the pandemic, and my ocd and anxiety were just killing me and WOOP there's another guy????? In my head????

This one was chirpy, bouncy, eager to introduce themself and happily take care of things. They said their name was Aither, and they'd been here for a while, but they couldn't keep quiet any longer.

We talked a little, got to know eachother, I learned how they expressed themself and let them do things a little differently than I personally would. They're very fond of cleaning, and looove arts and crafts, and singing. They love to sing so much.

As I learned more about them, I also started to notice traces of someone else hanging around... he refused to come forward and let me see him, but he was there. He'd grown a bit snarkier over the years, but he was still caring, and he was super secretive for quite a while. He thought I couldn't handle knowing him just yet, because I was already super overwhelmed by Aither being so over-the-top in-my-face overjoyed to interact with me.

I freaked out a lot, and I started desperately researching DID, trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with me. Months passed, and I slowly got used to Aither being around, so that boy alter started to hide a little less.

He never introduced himself, I only learned his name because Aither mentioned him: he was called Ash. He's smarter than me, and he enjoys goofing around, and videogames, and he's interested in technology. He can be a little rude sometimes (he's called me a dumbass on more than one occasion), but he means well. He cares a lot.

It was a lot of fun getting to know them both tbh, though it was often stressful and scary because I knew it wasn't normal, and that I had to keep it secret. I slowly learned a little more about other alters too, though they're far less defined than Aither and Ash (who later changed his name to Ra, the name of his favorite band).

I also learned more about my childhood through Ra, who's ??responsible?? for that whole mess. It was really, really rough, though I didn't have to go through it completely alone, since Aither and Ra were there.

I won't go into detail, but my dad hits dogs and kids, and I felt so so alone as a child, wahoo.

So ANYWAYS, it took a long long time, but we're all pretty comfortable now. There's still the stress of keeping this Secret irl, trying to maintain a somewhat consistent identity so people don't start asking questions. But we know eachother pretty well now, and we have fun.

When I eventually admitted I'm likely a system, I started thinking about what I would call our system, because I saw other systems had cool system names. I made a list with a bunch of names related to our interests, but none of them felt Right, and I was getting super frustrated.

Finally, one day when I was getting huffy while looking over the list again, Ra went "Just call us the Clandestine System", and oh goodness, that one sounded so nice! I had to look up the definition of "clandestine", and I was so surprised when I learned what it meant.

Clandestine, adjective: marked by, held in, or conducted with secrecy; surreptitious.

"A clandestine love affair."

It was so fitting, considering how hugely important we all felt it was to keep this a Secret. The slightly romantic vibe to it was nice, too, considering SOME PEOPLE (cough Aither and Ra cough) are partners now.

We're slowly opening up about being a system, trying to do it safely and keep it contained, but the name still fits. It's my favorite word now-- it's just perfect.

SO! I guess that's all I have to say about it right now. If you have any other specific questions, feel free to ask, and I'll see what I can do!

[stray-tori]

Yingdu Reactions

these are summarized from the Site That Shall Not Be Named.

EP1 |

oh yeah when the bell rang in the hideout i totally heard tides start in my head and saw the episode end shshsjsj- the trauma.....

after sitting on it, my personal take on the photo studio inconsistency is that its an error. I do think they skipped sth (bc LG's wound) but the COUNTER itself being inconsistent (+ room changing in the middle of a scene) makes me want to write it off. ↪ could eat my words! maybe LG thought more room between the counter and the wall would..... idk. give Vein more room to miss CXS or sth lmao-

the chokehold "blaze" specifically has on me is gigantic after yingdu basketball scene. idek where it played in s2 but goddamn.

EP3 |

it was too gay for me to focus on anything else dhsjsd- the shoulder lean?? one bed??? drunk scene?? cxs' continuous bi energy??? everyone and their mom having the hots for Felix??

my friends were like "omg!! we gotta search the book number" so we did: it's 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁 nothing -_- (it's not even a valid ISBN ashjsa-) (edit: it's a code for WQ's ability)

the yingdu trailer being just a previous timeline that LG is flashing back to (with the Felix poster) is Very Neat. I like that. I like that a lot!!

very curious to learn more about vein……. esp with XF. At first I immediately thought "oh no" but it seems…. less toxic than I would have thought? I wonder how manipulative vein is being here…. 🤔

so this is how it feels to have your culture portrayed to an extreme haha. the soccer people being So Intense is silly but hey this is the show where CXS!LG jumped off of a racing boat like 7 meters onto CXS. So. Just Funny Show being Funny. + westeners deserve some stereotyping too pfft. ig it feels weirder for me bc i literally cannot be bothered about sports.

yingdu being so gay even my non shipper friend is asking if they were always this gay

EP4 |

IT WAS TWO BEDS I'M DEVASTATED my friends: "timeline shift omg!!!!1" pfft-

Vein: grins us: "Oh damn he's happy to see CXS" CXS: (why is he staring at me?) me and a friend in vc: "he's gay" Vein: "you look tasty" vc: bursts into laughter

the SIGH of relief i let out when CXS didn't introduce himself as Charles in english was gigantic. thank god.

EP5 |

so uh is ep6 gonna be an hour too or are we cooked?

the tasty comeback killed me I was laughing so hard. such a good bridoner, good job cxs.

Are we still like....... in the "keep the timeline the same" route?? bc originally they didn't meet vein alr right so.... did they just ask felix and meet vein for the first time here?

Also wow geee i wonder who that kid at the school was (also why was the hair dying alr a kid thing haha) uNLESS they are trolling again-

WAIt isnt felix chinese? why would he be here at such a young age. am i dumb. (maybe.) shiguang has been too gay for me to pay attention.

also is lu guang still checking too many images to keep the timeline in check? the connection cut off was worrying....... (and also re-contextualizes the earthquake cut-off in s1)

EP6 |

my disappointment is immeasurable & my day is ruined. (retcons)

on a positive note the mom seems to actually be doing things and have agency! yippieee

we did initially think LG was just "puppeteering" Vein's death (i.e. artistic) but then the eyes confused us. honestly as out there as the XF steals Vein's identity thing was, I kinda was hyped to see it happen sdhjd- idrk what to make of this whole fake death thing pfft-

wait this also means that LH0 saying someone dies in Ep6 was an outright lie too, right?? unless this confirms XF is not just gone but also dead

im amused btw that WQ's power is just a fake death note sushs- say name, they get heart attack. but also thats terrifying. like. imagine being buried and waking up in the coffin. Vein was lucky LX seemingly knew dhdhd

i also thought LG answered "detective" to the story thing. mostly bc i can't see vein having the same answer as CXS, and I kinda imagine LG would be more pessimistic.

it's interesting that CXS' mom seems to have a power as well, a really similar power if not the same. from what we know, LTX/LTC's mom didn't have powers, and while LG's dad seemed to know about powers we've never had someone have outright the same power. so it makes me wonder, since powers can be transferred, did CXS get it from someone else? Do they simply both have this power or is something more sinister/timeline-fuckery going on? 🤔 ↪ I was informed that the interview revealed powers CAN be genetic. SO. IG that answers that (sighs)

OVERALL |

I like the presentation more than s2, so I hope that aspect will carry into s3. please leave forced cliffhangers in s2~

My friends had a way better experience with it I think because they, unlike me, weren't standing in front of a pinboard with all contradictions like an idiot. So when LG said this is the last time, they were like "oh okay neat. same timeline as s1/s2".

If LH0 can reveal sm information in an interview I'm sure he could have given us a headsup to yingdu being like "yo we had to change the timeline, beware". A timetravel show can't just do this. Theorizing LC is always SO unrewarding and I'm sick and tired of it.

We also still don't know what happened in CXS' death where LG just gained a shot wound inbetween scenes. I am going insane. I am so sad. I'm going to cry (period hormones are not helping). why are things I love always falling short of my expectations-

[thatoneerin]

The Life of Sky Young

cause I have a LOT of thoughts about this girl. my little blorbo...

let's start with her begining.

Sky is from Zaun. she has a last name because her family used to be from Piltover, two generations ago. her family owned banks, but they had to declare bankruptcy and were ran out to Zaun. now, they stay in the higher levels of Zaun because they're not impoverished, but they still have it pretty bad compared to what they used to be.

but, Sky doesn't care about most of this. she's only known Zaun her whole life, so she really couldn't care that she's the only one of her friends to have a last name, or a "legacy" to live up to. she is a Zaunite, through and through.

of course, she's insanely smart. her parents noticed before she could even speak, the way she could recognize people and colors before she even knew her first word. and when she did get around to talking, she was incredibly enhanced for her age. they knew she was destined for greatness

and, of course, this put a bit of pressure on Sky to be great. she couldn't give two craps about being some aristocratic Piltie scientist, but, as accepting as her parents were with most of her decisions, she still felt like she at least had to try for them.

and after growing up and starting to realize that her brilliance could help Zaun thrive, well, she had to try, right? and really, the only proper way she could get the education needed was at that big fancy academy in Piltover. so, to make her parents proud and to help her home, she enrolled.

it, of course, cost her parents a very pretty penny to enroll her and to keep her enrolled, but they'd do anything to support their little innovator. Sky felt terrible that her parents had to spend all that money on her. After getting to Piltover and getting a job of her own, she regularly anonymously sends her parents money, because they'd never accept it from her. She, herself, wasn't making much, but just anything she could do to start pay them back would have to be alright for the moment.

So, she's enrolled in said big fancy academy, and day one, in her first ever class, hears a somewhat familiar name. Viktor.

she remembers hearing the name within her friend group from Zaun a few times. just that he was kinda weird and kept to himself and his "inventions". but, just the fact that there was another Zaunite in this school, the fact that she wasn't alone, makes her heart race. she has to talk to this guy.

so, after class, she manages to track him down in the wave of students, gettting a small glimpse of his face and, wait a minute.

she remembers that face! vaguely, and the face was much smaller and chubbier when she last saw it, but those golden eyes (the same color as hers!) don't lie. that's the boy she saw that day, long ago, with the small motorized boat. the memory, of course, was incredibly foggy (she was only about 8 or 9), but this boy was truly unforgettable.

she practically smashes her way through the crowd to get to the boy man. after many apologies and "excuse me"s, she finally gets to him, and, after a second of hesitation, very lightly places her hand on his boney shoulder.

when he turns to look at her, it only solidifies the fact that she has seen his face before!

she stumbles over her words a bit, before introducing herself and telling him where she recognized him from. his confused face scrunches a bit more, before his eyes widen in recognition, confirming her story and adding his own.

after that day, the two became fast friends. of course, both were quite busy, so they couldn't talk much outside of class, but they sat next to each other in the few classes they had together. they'd often help each other through the lessons and speak on theories their professors would propose (idk, scientific stuff, I'm not science brained lol)

and yes, after a while, Sky developed a small crush on the fellow Zaunite. it was more admiration for his wisdom and drive to make the world a better place than romantic feelings, but he was also just so charismatic. he somehow always knew the right thing to say, whether it was to get himself out of trouble for coming in late, to get someone to leave him alone, or to get Sky to burst out laughing right in the middle of a lecture (he liked doing that a lot. it's the thing that embarrasses Sky the most, and he finds it *hilarious*). and the thing is, most people wouldn't know it. he isn't exactly the most approachable person, and most people probably assume he's got the personality of a thumb tack. shoot, Sky wouldn't have approached him if she didn't know he was from Zaun, too. but, she's grateful to be one of this fellow insanely smart Zaunite's few friends.

and suddenly, graduation is slowly creeping up on the two. Sky fully plans on going back to Zaun to help her home, but then a month or two after graduation, Viktor comes to her and offers her a job as his and some other scientists' she's never heard of's assistant to help with new magic. she's torn at first, very much wanting to go back to Zaun, back to her parents, but then considers it. It would be a LOT more money than whatever she could get in Zaun, and her botanical studies aren't even finished yet. plus, getting to work with Viktor again and with this new exciting magic makes her heart flutter at the potential. heck, this new magic could even help with her studies. so, reasoning to herself that, with this job, she could probably support herself and her parents for a long while, while also working on her botanical studies more, takes the job.

working with Viktor again is great! and this Jayce guy isn't half bad (for a Piltie, but she only ever says that to Viktor, which he chortles at) . things go amazingly for a few months, the three of them starting to build a special sort of bond with each other.

Sky and Viktor play pranks on Jayce all the time. That man is as clever as a whip, but is somehow always susceptible to their tricks. They both pick pocket him throughout the day, seeing who can nab the most from him (Viktor has the highest standing record). Sky pulls her own little pranks on the boys sometimes, too. Many a 'what is updog?' type tricks has been pulled on both of them, and it makes her cry laughing every time.

then, things change. Viktor's a secluded man, but he becomes even more closed of than usual, if that's even possible. it starts with him just closing out Sky, which hurts of course, but she gets that he's closer to Jayce. then, he starts pushing Jayce away too.

then, she starts to really pay more attention to him, and something is terribly wrong. he seems even more frail than normal, and has been obsessing over this "hex core" for months now. she tries to reach out, but he constantly is pushing her farther and farther away.

then, she finds him. runes painfully carved in his skin, chaotic violet magic tornadoing around him.

the hex core

she tries her damnedest to save him, believe her she tried. but, the hex core was too much. the last thing she sees are the tear filled golden eyes of her hero, before she's consumed by the magic.

then, all she feels is... floating. she's neither warm nor cold, she can't really feel much of anything besides the fact that she's not tethered to any kind of surface. she wonders if this is the afterlife.

she slowly opens her eyes and sees... space? but no, she's studied space before, this isn't what their galaxy looks like. there were stars all around her, but they seemed almost too bright. and space was supposed to be the absence of color, but she was surrounded by brilliant greens and purples and blues.

she doesn't know where she is, but the only thing she can seem to feel right now is... peace. absolutely blissful peace. like, she never had to worry about anything ever again. and you know what?

that sounds pretty good to her.

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

Rewriting the DCLA endings Part 1: Violetta

There's a common theme with every dcla show I've seen: I didn't really like the ending.

I didn't hate any of the endings, and there's a lot of good there too, but... I really could change a lot about them. First off, we got Violetta.

Also note: This MAY be how I will end it in the rewrite of S3. But, in my rewrite I will also change a lot of other things so things will be different in that, too. In this version, all endgames except for one will still be the canon ones (no matter if I like them or not), while in my rewrite there will be different endgames for several more characters.

So, to change the ending, I'm also gonna change some things in previous episodes for it to make sense.

They are going to Sevilla. I don't want Gery nor Clement there and to have them there just because they "need to", feels so annoying. At the same time, they need to be there for the confrontation of their stupid plan to separate Leonetta. So, what I am thinking: They notice some of the kids have sore throats, and might not be able to sing. So, just in case, they want some understudies. They notice Clement knows all the choreography and songs, so he's picked out to join them. Same with Gery, even if she's just Beto's assistant, because "they need a female understudy too" (off topic but the fact that Gery just. Isn't a student at all and yet gets to participate with them... so wild to me). I don't like them there, but they need to be there, and this is the only way I know how to solve it. The whole thing with Leonetta finding out and then getting back together all stays.

At Sevilla, there is NO ONE who assumes Germán and Angie are married, because WHY would that even happen... what... we're removing the "only one bed" trope. I don't think they even have the same hotel room at all, but I'm not gonna do the whole "Germán sleeps in a closet" thing, because... I just don't think he deserves screentime.

So: While I love Fran and Diego getting lost, there is still the plot hole of where tf they slept at night. So, I am thinking, just to fix that: They took a night bus that they THOUGHT was going back to Sevilla, and fell asleep there. But then, as they woke up, they realized the bus went the wrong direction. And this is when they take the boat back like we see in 3x80. Everything else is the same with them.

Now, here's where things are starting to change for real. Violetta and Leon do not try to set up Germán and Angie. Instead, it was just supposed to be a casual dinner, and then Leonetta decided to have some alone time instead (because Violetta didn't feel like being with her dad). And then Germán couldn't come either. Angie was left there... until someone joins her... Pablo :) We don't see Angie and Pablo eating dinner, we only see him come up and ask if he can join her.

When they visit that school in Sevilla, it does not get revealed Germán went there. I feel like that was just some weird thing they decided to do to show "actually him and Violetta were more similar than she thought!! :)" but it does not make sense for his character. Nope, he did not. What they instead do at the school is focusing on remembering Antonio, and MAYBE we get confirmation that the principal at the Sevilla school is Jackie's dad (and then we can get some update on what Jackie is up to)

Now, the ring scene... it might be there just because it is sweet that Leon buys a ring for Violetta, but it's used to nothing more than that!

Everything in the show in Sevilla is the same. Same songs, same performances. Backstage, Angie and Pablo hang out a bit and Pablo mentions something about not dating Brenda, he's not into her like that. Angie kinda smiles at this.

As mentioned earlier... the ring they bought is just Leon buying a ring for Violetta. Violetta does NOT give it to Germán.

So, what happens after the Sevilla show, if Germán has not propsed?

We cut back to Buenos Aires, some time later. I don't know if it's outside the Benson mansion the mansion they were outside in the canon final scene, or if it's outside the Studio, or on another stage... but the Studio teachers are up on stage, and they make a little speech. It is the graduation day. All the students either are up on stage or are standing on the side, ready to get up (if they went up one and one getting diplomas that would be so cute, as you'd have everyone having different reactions as they look at the audience).

They either sing Crecimos Juntos, Ser Mejor, or possibly a medley of a bunch of different songs. I think, however, whatever they sing, it's more of a slow version of it. If they all stand on stage, they perform it live, but if they just go up one and one, the song is played in the background and then, as everyone has gone up on stage, they start singing live.

Angie and Pablo do not end up dating, but they exchange looks as if to say something is there. In my opinion they should have been dating, but now I only fixed the last episodes and they need some more buildup to date again.

It ends with Violetta winking at the camera, as per usual.

So, in the end, the last episode is pretty similar, but with some minor changes at some places and one MAJOR change for one of the things. Stay tuned for the next post.

[dreamtydraw]

hiya!!

first of all, absolutely adore your new pfp! it's so cute!! (*^-^)

second of all, my sorry I couldn't answer after my last ask, but I really hope you'll feel better soon! (>.<) feel hugged dreamty!!

we're kinda in the same boat, tho. I'm not feeling too great myself atm (*´-`)

anyway, lots of love!! <3

~🌿

Djdidi hi plant anon !

Know that the silly dog gif is suppose to be a 30 sec animation i’ll have to finish for this week so i’ll soon post them ( this is my fav animation of the semester)

Thanks for the new pfp ! Second time someone mentionned and funny enough it’s from this set of 3 stickers i made for my school holliday market.

I add them to stickers package of people I know or people who made big purchases ehehe

Tons of love to you plant, I hope you’ll feel better soon.

Now answering the rest of the ask I’ll drop the update about my mood under there because it’s not pretty.

I’ll admit i am not doing well this days.

I can’t say why exactly i’m feeling bad, I always had up and down mood and some down mood really makes me feel low.

I know that it’s not based on anything factual but i can’t help but feel hated or judged. Everything that i say or show in front of more than one person is doubted by my own brain. I have to force myself to not delete everything that i type because i feel awful.

If i tried to put words on it, i hope that it’s not true despite knowing i dont’ have any real reason but i just feel like a pathetic person who is annoying and who’s presecence is a nuisance. Anyone who say the contrary is saying it out of pity and if I try to say that i’m sad it’s for attention because why the heck should i say that ? It’s not like I’m important or anything i must have a huge ego.

I’m doing a lot of things wrongs, I feel awful for taking so much time doing my packages or doing my homeworks.

I know it’s temporary and it will go aways because it always goes away at some point so i just try to live with it until it fades and I can go back on doing alright.

Right now only thing that helps me keep my head distracted is working on my game or being forced to go to class because going out at least force me to take care of how i look and all.

This is a big vent post and i’m really sorry about it but i can’t post on insta without feeling bad, i don’t have the strenght to text my friends without feeling bad and tumblr is the only place i managed to show sign of life with minimal feeling of being worthless.

It may be worrying to read all that but like i said it will go away but i just don’t like going trough it, i’ll be better in a few days it’s alright.

Anyway, thanks for reading and tons of love. I’m trying to work on some exclusive valentine days stickers but i don’t think i’ll be in time for it.

[down-with-the-mafia]

hmmm some random ahit holiday headcanons

- The mafia celebrate a holiday called Fishmas. It's basically Christmas except everything is fish themed. Their holiday lights are shaped like fish. It never snows in mafia town and I'm pretty sure the only trees there are palm trees, so they decorate the palm trees with lights and garlands and stuff. It's chillier than usual in winter even if there's no snow so they might dress a bit warmer than usual but probably not heavy coats or anything

- the people originally from the island don't celebrate that, though, it's just the mafia. Mu used to celebrate a holiday called Star Day with her family. It was celebrated winter solstice (the longest night of the year) and is usually spent stargazing with friends and family. Stories would be shared about constellations, like legends and mythology and stuff. Mu doesn't really celebrate anymore because she doesn't have a way of getting decorations and if she tried to throw a party of any kind the mafia would ruin it, but she might still try to give little gifts to the coffee clerks and stuff.

- idk what they'd call it but I think the owls would like. get a week off of work and school and all that to spend at home with family. Probably a lot of bird food, like idk birdseed pie or something. Conductor spends the holiday with his whole family, they all get together (his brothers, kids, grandkids, etc.) and eat a big meal. They don't really give gifts other than the food, but Cond usually tries to release a holiday movie before then and he'd watch that with his family. It's cold so they hang out around the fire place. Cond probably drinks too much =/

- Penguins just celebrate the new year. Celebrations are pretty much the same as normal (as in our world I mean), but again I think Grooves releases a holiday movie. He gets very dressed up and throws a big party. He would absolutely have those sunglasses that say the year on them. He gets gifts for like, all the penguins, and they all get gifts for him too. How do they determine the time (for midnight) if they're on the moon you ask? Um lol idk I don't care don't talk to me

- Subcon has a very old holiday called Day of the Frost that is based on an old legend that was probably true about a being with ice powers that covered the world in ice and snow. (Very old legend, started long before Vanessa was born, I say it's probably true because someone before her probably had ice powers, maybe even her ancestor or something.) Because of the legend's nature being kinda creepy, the holiday generally has a campfire story kinda tradition (except it's more often around a fireplace instead of a campfire). Snatcher owns a lot of old books that were common day of the frost stories, and he still reads them sometimes around the holidays.

- it does snow in Subcon in winter, but it's usually a pretty light snow (what with the constantly burning forests and shit lol) unless it's near Vanessa's manner, where it gets pecking blizzards. The fire spirits have trouble burning bright enough to die in the cold, but they try to burn as bright as they can, so they might stay indoors or huddle up close to each-other by a fire.

- Alpine celebrates Twilight Fest, which is about celebrating their history and the Twilight Goat through spending time with their community with games and treats. At home, they'd probably eat a lot of soups and pastries, and common festival food would include a lot of sweets and maybe some kind of nut coated in cinnamon or caramel or something. Like Star Day, it can include star gazing and discussion of constellations, but it's usually a bit more focused on ringing bells and playing songs.

- The ocean would be frozen over in winter, so boats would have a hard time going anywhere lol. The Walrus Captain and the seals wouldn't have work because of that. Not sure if they'd have a specific holiday, but they'd get a break from work. I could picture the seals making snowmen or something tbh.

- I think the metro also just celebrates New Year? A lot of the stores probably go on sale for people to buy gifts. A lot of winter-specific foods and drinks at the restaurants, like hot chocolate with peppermint or something. Timmy just goes to McDonyald's to eat chicken nuggets because he doesn't care but Bow would probably love the holiday drinks. A lot of holiday decorations all over the place, lots of pretty lights and stuff.

- Hat and Bow din't really celebrate any winter holidays back home, but they're happy to join their friends to celebrate whatever on this planet. Some of these take place over multiple days, so they have the time to celebrate a buncha stuff. I imagine they'd both prioritize spending time with Mu, just so that she has someone to talk about the island's old holidays with and have a little mini celebration or party. Maybe they'd also get cooking cat, and they'd bake holiday treats together. Hat and Bow could maybe try to get some decorations together for Mu's cave.

- Not sure about badge seller and tourist. Idk if badge is even from that world?? They feel like they might be from another dimension so idk if there are holidays there lol. I can't really picture them celebrating much. Tourist might celebrate something but idk what, he'd probably enjoy travelling around and seeing the winter holidays all over though.

- Hat and Bow like the holiday lights, they put those around the ship. Maybe they give Rumbi a silly little Santa hat or something.

[nikatyler]

Zeph 1.0

can't believe that yesterday i was like eh i'm not sure about that armor, it looks so good on them

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oooh a pretty evil lady!

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same girl, same, about everything that has ever happened to me

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it's been 84 years (more like 16 hours) but i'm finally opening bg3 again ✨

i think i'll do some more goblin camp shenanigans today if possible 👀

ohhh right. essentially i've already murdered like half the goblin camp so now the other half of the camp is trying to murder me, huh?

Me: "ah yes I'm far enough" *the explosion hits Zeph and Zeph dies* *reloads* "ah yes now I'm definitely far enough" *the explosion hits Zeph again and Zeph dies again*

"yeah we've got this" *the entire party dies*

Fucking gnolls man

yeah it's been a long bloody day

HELLO SAY THAT AGAIN

hUH

jesus christ this man is h🫣rny

Okay so I'll go watch a baking show with my mum in a bit and then we're going back and doing da thing 😏

Sorry for not giving updates if you were looking forward to them, anyway a little thing I love is how everyone sleeps on their back. I do that and apparently that's weird to everyone around me? 😂🤨

I will literally be in my bed like 🧍‍♂️

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newest development in my bg3-rotten brain

did i mention this game is doing things to me because it is doing things to me

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Anywayyyy you know what time it is 😌

I may have just spent an hour organizing everyone's inventories and figuring out who gets what armor and all but we're good to go now I think

Explosive shrooms, yay 🤩

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I'm 💀💀💀 I need to go to bed lmao

Okay so basically what happened um. I don't know how but it did. So I wanted to help Astarion. But I clicked the wrong thing. And I pushed him off the boat. And he died.

I RELOADED BUT HOW DID I EVEN DO THAT 😭😭

If there's one thing about me it's that I'll accidentally murder my favourite vampires

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I love Zeph so much they're so prettyyyyyy

Kinda wanna make a modern day version of them in ts4 and have them interact with my other characters. They'd fit right in

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hole hehe. hole

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my bi ass is having a bit of a dilemma rn

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gay gay gay they're in love your honor

HELL YEAH KISS

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Raw footage of me during my latest combat

I was actually so stressed dude 😭 thankfully we made it through but ahhhhh

Does anyone else apologize to the characters when they get hurt? Like sorry lil guy in my computer I'm sorry I'm putting you through this I promise you'll make it out I PROMISE ah fuck you're getting hit again oh no sorry sorry ahhhh

So uh. The adamantine forge fight huh. 🙂

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Granted it doesn't count ts4 correctly rn probably because I haven't updated yet but…yeah 😅😅

(also I have way more hours on ts4 actually, this is just since Jan 2023, I played through Origin/EA app before and then switched to Steam for reasons)

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my fucking thoughts exactly, i hate this battle 😭😭 on a real note i relate to him so much when he's whining DUDE WE LIVE

i should've known he wouldn't take that as a good thing lmaoooooo dude creases when you smile is the biggest compliment smh

FREN!!!

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oops

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I'm sorry what

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pwettyyyyy

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I'm sensing that I may have messed up real bad in Last Light Inn yesterday...ooops

I should've reloaded to see if things could turn out differently but I've done a lot afterwards, idk if I wanna go back now 😂 No spoilers pls, that's something for me to figure out in my next playthrough

"ooops" people DIED 💀 people i had previously saved died 💀

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You're never gonna believe who I murdered again

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I'm fucking crying I need you to resurrect him you moron stop shaming Zeph for having a sex life Update we are so back lads

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Funny how fast I went from "I think Zeph is mostly good, they just want to get rid of the parasite and help people along the way" to "actually fuck it darling you're so right some power would be nice"

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Crying laughing sending this to my sibling who's in art school. On point

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"eh we'll be fine i don't need bonuses" *rolls 1*

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daddy Ketheric omg💀💀

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uh anyway

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this is the best they are the best 🥹

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Don't be upset, I will reload, just don't be upset with me pleaseeee 😭

The "please a videogame vampire at all costs" disease is real I'm afraid

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Uh oh it's almost 3am, tomorrow will be an eepy day, well it's worth it

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I'm so close to having a funny number of hours played 🤭

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Killed the workout, now let's kill this guy that I struggled with for half an hour. Almost killed my whole party in the process so I quit and decided to kill my legs instead 😂

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