#I'm just so tired.

[noodlesarecheese]

Full disclosure I'm a couple episodes behind in WWW, so I'm not 100% on every thing that's being discoursed about, but I've seen enough that I just want to remind people/beg people to remember:

You are watching The Nuance Show, DMed by Mr. Philosophical Nuance and played by Notable Lovers of Nuance.

[jingyismom]

if you only think thin women are attractive, or you only ever reblog images of thin women, or you only mostly do, maybe investigate that

"oh so people aren't allowed to have types? or aesthetic preferences?" of course we are. but when our types align as strongly with western imperialist patriarchal ideals as traits like "white" or "thin" or "young" or "feminine" then we should probably like. dig into why we're attracted excusively to one or more of those things

in case it's. you know. the inescapable patriarchal propaganda making us complicit in the punishment of women who deviate from those demands

"how do i investigate that?" ask yourself questions when you find a thin woman attractive. what is it i am attracted to about this woman, other than her thin body type? ask yourself questions when your eyes slide over a fat woman with the same style or attitude of thin women you find attractive. what is it about her that makes her invisible to me? or what is it about her that awakens a feeling of negativity or disgust? or of camaraderie rather than attraction?

i don't expect this post to change anybody's preferences or actions. and i'm not making it to shame anybody. i'm just exhausted by the relentlessness with which thinness is championed and fat bodies are erased from existence and particularly from desirability, and i'm tired of the fact that i have to notice it every second of every day, while most everybody else is free from thinking about it at all.

[raspberry-vinaigrette]

i hate venting on main and especially about this when i'm trying to be a beacon of positivity and hope -- i've been the one all day talking to friends and trying to be hopeful, but. god. it's so fucking hard. i've listened to my dad rant and rave all day about how this is white women "taking america back from black people" after black people have been so racist to the poor frail white women, in his eyes. i've heard him gleefully cheer about how 20 million immigrants will get deported, how excited he is for them to be hunted down. i've heard him be practically giddy over trump's policies. and he still looks at me and says he only cares if it means we have more money.

i'm so tired. i just want to drown myself in a world where i'm safe. i need to be the person making strides, i need to be the person making an effort, i need to be the person everyone can lean on because nobody else will, and i refuse to let myself complain because that would be letting the people who caused this win.

but fuck. it's so hard.

[anistarrose]

"there are huge sustainability problems with the meat and dairy industry" and "perpetuating guilt-based appeals to dietary change and/or moralizing people's actual or perceived choice of food is profoundly fucked up and incompatible with social justice" are two statements that can, and in fact, should coexist

[llycaons]

night shift is genuinely so exhausting tho. I don't have time to really do anything these past few days - I haven't been able to compile any more fundraiser lists because I've been either sleeping or at work - and it's happening again where I can't remember the last time I've showered

[gay-chef-boyardee]

me watching my favorite stand alone series get consumed by a dying franchise in an attempt to revive it (they believe it's going to draw in new viewers when im reality it's just going to deter fans):

[swiftiefirefighters]

anyway, my doctor is really concerned about my mental health (great, so am i!!!) and upped the dosage on my medication and wants to virtually see me in two weeks to look at it again.

she also thinks i need to lose weight (i'm the smallest i've been since high school, mind you) and my a1c went up, so now I have to give myself a shot of ozempic once a week (this is a nightmare) and somehow lose weight. no more carbs (which i absolutely don't think i can cut from my diet completely i'm SORRY i'm just sorry), and more exercise (i already never sit still or take 5 minutes for myself so yay great). i'm so tired. i feel like none of the adjustments i make ever work. my health is literally worse *every time* and i don't know what else to do. i am just at a loss.

i'm so fucking tired. i hate being chronically ill. i hate diabetes. i hate that i never feel like i'm working hard enough apparently to get better. i just don't know what to do and i feel so hopeless. this certainly isn't *helping* the mental health issues.

[lovelaceisntdead]

might just walk into the sea forever.

[dickinfectionbez-deactivated2011]

I don’t know exactly what you’re going through because I live in the states, but I remember watching the election results when trump was elected and I remember the feeling of dread/disgust/fear. It’s terrible seeing evidence of how hateful people are. My heart is with you and your family. 🤍

🫶🫶🫶

[israelifepotato]

I love you Jewish and Israeli people on Tumblr replying to these hateful idiots with long paragraphs explaining why they are wrong, explaining our history, explaining the complexity of the situation.

But if these people cared to read, they would have done so by now. If they understood nuance and complexity they would have by now. They are hateful and ignorant because they will not read anything longer than an Instagram infographic, if at all. We are not willing to shrink down and flatten out the situation but others are and that's why we're losing the biggest PR game of our life.

[curiouscalembour]

man. all of my friends are in or have graduated college. those who aren't actively in college have jobs. I'm so disabled i can't get into college or hold a job but the government is still debating my case. i have literally nothing that give my life purpose or meaning. there is nothing fufilling. i can't even make this dress correctly. it's so hard hearing everyone talk about college and jobs because i can't do any of that. I'm a proverbial princess in a fucking tower here

[weirdgrrlgerard]

this winter already has me exhausted and i can't wait to sleep for half a century

[neonganymede]

I feel like my writer's block is getting worse.

[ask-artsy-oncie]

I know (I know) that it's up to us to tailor our own online experiences (and of course I do try) but. Fuck, man. Sometimes wading through all this awful transphobic shit that feels like its EVERYWHERE now. It's just too exhausting. It's draining. Having to fight constantly for your right to just *exist*.

[charmcoindied]

re: last post

i think that's also part of why i'm kind of ready to go home. i didn't realize until last night i really felt kind of pressured to drink while i'm here and i don't want to feel that way anymore. and i know it's not gonna be super great once i actually turn 21 (especially since alcohol is much more accessible in the states than it is in sweden) and school starts back up (i go to a pretty big party school) but i think also being in school again i'll have more stuff to focus on besides behaving around alcohol. i'm gonna be working pretty hard in the fall so i'm hoping that keeps my mind off drinking

[lgbtlunaverse]

The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.