#I'm either going to delete this post or remove the read more + add the ship tab later

[sag-dab-sar]

Lesson Learned: Theoi.com Isn't Perfect

*I'll probably be taking my modern Theogamia Ritual down. Maybe contacting reblogs to see if they'll delete it there were 4. Sigh

So when constructing my modern Theogamia ritual. I made a conscious decision to—in a sense— tell a progression story via the ritual by which epithets I invoked— with them beginning as "Adults", then "Marriage", then finally "King and Queen".

From my post

There is a purposeful timeline in this ritual: it starts with Zeus and Hera as “adults” [Teleios / Teleia], proceeds to Zeus and Hera being “marriage participants*” [Gamelius / Gamelia], and finally ends with them as married “King and Queen” [Basileus / Basileia] of the Gods.

*"marriage participants" wasn't a translation it was my intended meaning behind the epithet. Hera Gamelia is apparently a real epithet (but Gamelia doesn't have a wiktionary entry) but the source I had for Zeus Gamelius has vanished. So I guess I'm yeeting those two epithets in the ritual.

On Theoi dot com it translates epithets on the cult pages that I have used extensively

Teleia on Hera's Epithets is translated "adult woman." Written as: Τελεια — Link | Some epithets have elaborations on the page but this epithet does not.

Teleios on Zeus's Epithets page is translated "of marriage rites." Written as: Τελειος — Link | There is no elaboration on this epithet on his page either.

Turns out these epithets mean "perfect"

Now τέλειος— I had to add the tonos έ not ε to find it more readily—has this wiktionary entry under Ancient Greek

Now technically it does have "full grown / adult" listed, but as humans; it specifically has a different meaning listed for Gods which is "perfect omnipotent infinite." And no where in wikitionary does the word carry the definition "marriage rites" the closest is "a royal banquet." But that quotation mentions a royal dinner not in relation to a wedding dinner, apparently an annual dinner to a king (Herodotus, Histories 9.110) Link, though it could be something to do with a wedding........ I can't read ancient Greek.

As a non-academic this is supremely frustrating because

I can't trust easily accessible sources apparently. One I've used for a very long time

I don't know Greek well enough yet to spot anything off I can only go on translations

Even if I did know, ancient Greek is just different enough that research is hard; looking up Τελεια gave me Modern Greek Teleia meaning "full stop / period" and nothing more, with no Ancient Greek wiktionary entry for the word.

So if I wanted to keep the ritual story line I'd have to take Teleios/Teleia out of ancient context and also use the definition that denoted humans. Which is significantly less than ideal. So options:

Remove the story I enjoyed telling. And go with just Teleia / Teleios since I believe thats the ancient Theogamia's epithets ... though I can only find the claim on Helpol sites so I don't know.

As I said Hera Gamelia apparently exists but not Zeus Gamelios or Gamelius

Make modern epithets, which I usually do in modern Greek; "adult" or "fully grown" would be: enílikos/eniliki ενήλικος / ενήλικη; groom/bride; fiance; suitor; bachelorette/bachelor..... no idea. I prefer ones that exist already.

Or somehow magically find attested ones that actually fit my idea.

Also there is this on Theoi Project

ZYGIUS and ZYGIA (Zugia and Zugios), are surnames of Hera and Zeus, describing them as presiding over marriage. (Hesych. s. v.)

Which I have found more information on outside of Theoi project and also had discussed it with @/sisterofiris a long time ago so there is that

edit: *takes a big giant breather* I have an entire year to figure it out. I need to be nicer to myself

[random-townie]

Hi!

Hi, I'm just another random townie on Simblr. Welcome!

I will sometimes post some random sims stuff, but also Sims I created with download links to the tray files and sort of a journal on how my Random Save file creation is going to keep me motivated and store some small gameplay and storyline ideas.

Here is the navigation on topics that may resonate with you to filter out random posts:

✨ Random Save File sneak peeks & updates

✨Random Townie Sims to download

If you are more curious about me and how I play Sims, read below the cut. Thank you so much for being here and remember to be good to yourself. ❤️

How do I Sim?

I do use mods, but I still consider myself a Vanilla player. I mod my game to add difficulty, depth and fix things EA can't be bothered about and remove as many of the BS annoyances and immersion breaking things from the game as possible. I sometimes test more extreme gameplay mods, but rarely stick to them long term.

For my gameplay I use some skill overhauls like Srsly's Cooking overhaul, tons of custom foods and harvestable for my gardening and cooking obsession, custom crafting mods etc.

I sometimes use CC for both CAS and BB for my gameplay, but when I build or create Sims to share with others I usually disable my CC and non-essential mods.

I have my likes on Maxis Match CC. Nothing against alpha, just not my aesthetics.

I do play with all the packs and kits - usually except for the latest content, I never update my game until major EA's f-ups are either fixed or fixable with mods. Not after HSY update destroyed my game completely.

Sometimes I limit myself on the pack usage, sometimes not. Depends on my mood. Remember you can always download any Sim or build, items will be missing or replaced, you can restyle missing parts with packs and CC you own.

When I create my Not-So-Random Townies and Households to replace game generated ones I always give them love: jobs, skills, education, glimpses of personality. They have short backstories to give them purpose in the Sim World and inspire a gameplay. I want my Sims to meet interesting Sims, not just ugly, unemployed randoms.

I may be dropping Not-So-Random Townies packs of 8 Sims with skills/jobs/degrees/skills to place them in your game to slow down a little generating random uglies and use more pre-existing Sims instead.

I don't care about original TS4 townies, I lately deleted them all and create Townies from the scratch for my save file. Don't look for Bella Goth here.

I might post builds later after they are playtested and polished up. My builds are not overcluttered, but decorated. I love to decorate with clutter but tiny, cluttered spaces are often unusable and contribute to Sims being stuck, too many items slow down the game. It also increases the number of packs used to build. If you like more detailed, cluttered builds then it's not really my style. I adore looking at them, but find them impossible to play.

About me?

I'm just a Random Townie, your average Simmer. Not a great builder, neither talented storyteller. I play many other games than TS4 (I love survival-crafting-building games, my other regular game of choice outside of difficult relationship with the TS4 is No Man's Sky).

I played TS1 when it launched as a 13 yo. Go figure how old I am. I skipped TS2, but played TS3 for years and loved it. When TS4 released in 2014 I got it and I hated it. I was playing TS3 exclusively until memorable 2020. I thought after 6 years that might be playable now. Little that I knew..

But I stuck to it, so I complain but play. It is what it is, right?

I'm an expat from Central European country living in Portugal. I have 3 cats.

English is not my first language, though I use it daily for 7 years and my brain often thinks in English instead of my native language, I do get lost in the grammar sometimes. Correct my mistakes if they're bothering, I'm always happy to learn since it is my main language on a daily basis.

Também falo um pouco de português, caso tenha os seguidores de PT ou BR aqui.

I created that Simblr to help me fight my mental health issues and have a creative hobby. I tried many things that didn't work out long term, but one thing I always come back to all these years is The Sims games. So I thought - why not?

If you like or use my creations leave me a comment or a like, so I know you were here. It will cheer me up ❤️

[kncrowder88]

You said you’re starting the Lewis arc soon. I wondered if you knew. Since the beginning of season 13 (ep 3 or 4 I believe) Olivia has had Elliot’s mini badge on her gun. He sent it to her with a note that read Semper fi. Unfortunately, the scene was deleted. Just a little SVU trivia.

I started it yesterday. I saw the deleted scene when it was first shared (I have yet to find a working link to it again these last few days though which really is annoying as I want to add deleted scene links to the excel I'm making). As I recall, it wasn't just the mini badge on her gun but also a necklace (one she tends to wear with the Joyful Heart foundation necklaces that is worn on the show). The necklace was a Semper Fi medallion while the mini badge ended up on the bottom of her service weapon (something we see a few times in fact in the Lewis arc). Personally, despite the canon statement of "haven't talked in 10 years" and what they are currently doing I like to think that given we SAW the mini badge WITHIN THE SHOW ITSELF that the deleted scene still happened. Along with that, I also like to imagine that Fin or Cragen (or both) worked to get it back for her post everything (likely working with Tucker in IAB because they may have gripes with him but at least he does strive for the truth). Part of why I like the scene itself (despite knowing it was removed because how long could she pine after him thinking) is that I think it actually helps her. We see her struggling in S13 to balance her reaction to being left - once more. Along with this, she's got Casey and Alex bouncing back into her life (are they gonna leave ... again?) ... of course she is going to struggle. Having something appear in the mail (probably with no solid return address at that) that is from Elliot ... giving her his badge and a Marine token? That means something. That says something. She's understand that message and know what it means ... he hasn't left HER ... he left the JOB. That would help her settle, help her calm, and we actually see that happening on the show - she actively begins to accept Amaro and Rollins about half way (really a quarter into) S13. I want that scene mentioned in one of the current episodes (could easily have her wearing the necklace and him notice, her shrug "well I gave the compass away figured I'd put this one on again") type thing.

Now, again, I could be wrong on what precisely she was given (i know the mini badge rather well given it reappears in the show, she wears so many necklaces though and they are hard to see I can't tell which one is which all the time) but either way ... the message being sent by him is the same. And I think it be so easy to bring that back with ease in the current series going on. Anyways this was long sorry ... I am aware. If you can't tell I thrived on that scene awhile back.

[vegan-kaktus]

Aaaah omg, thank you so much for your wonderful tutorial! You're a hero!

With your help, I (think?) I just managed to successfully default something for the first time (at least it looks alright in game), even though I had to do it slightly differently than you described.

In case it is helpful to someone else struggling with the same SimPE problem I had/have, I'll describe what caused my issue and how I (hopefully) worked around it:

Reading your tutorial reminded me that when I first tried to make object defaults (many months ago before I stopped again in frustration), I got into the habit of using the "Import" function in Plugin View instead of clicking directly one the GMDC file and selecting "Replace".

Why? Because every time I try to replace a mesh this way, SimPE throws me an "Invalid CRES: System.OutOfMemoryException" error. And then SimPE doesn't let me do anything anymore with the file.

When googling, I found a post by letomills on Tumblr (letomills.tumblr.com/post/749025761566015488/trying-out-simpe-07769-it-gives-me-the-same) describing the same issue.

I have tried literally every single fix suggested to them in the notes of their post (restarting, clearing cache, applying 4GB to SimPE exe, trying different versions of SimpE etc) and also the one leto finally found that fixed the issue (CCleaner).

I tried it all again today and NOTHING has worked to fix this cursed error for me. (Which weirdly enough only appears when I try to replace a mesh - unlike leto, I can replace textures with Build DXT just fine).

So in despair, I tried again with the "Import" function since it's my only option. This gives me a pop up window where I can select an action under "Group Settings" (Nothing, Replace, Add, Rename, Update). I selected "Replace" since that is what I wanted to do and clicked "OK".

But even though I clicked Replace instead of Add, I now had 4 groups instead of 2 (including the shadows). Going by your tutorial, I assumed that it wasn't supposed to be that way and deleted the two original groups and made sure the group names and everything were correct, like you said.

I tested the resulting file in game and it seems to have worked! Though maybe you can tell me if this is a legitimate alternative way of doing this or if I'm celebrating too early and there is an issue with this I'm not seeing?

But either way, thank you so much again, I really appreciate your help, you're amazing <3

Hello again anon! :-D

Your SimPE problem is very weird, I can get a similiar error whenever SimPE has been open for quite a bit and has opened too many files (I have the 4gb patch successfully patched), but then a simple restart fixes the problem for me. You mentioned that the 4gb patch didn't solve your issue, how much ram does your pc/laptop have? The 4gb patch is only useful if you have more than 4gb ram. If you have 4gb or less, maybe this could be worth a try? I only skimmed through it but they mentioned 2gb etc.

The import button is 100% an option and valid way to import meshes! That's how I added the penguin's hat in my default. Just remember to delete the original groups (like you mentioned you did), and all is good!! (I would personally click "add" and then remove the original groups, I don't trust any kind of "replace" option ahaha but that's just me lol). And no worries at all, I'm just happy I could be of some help!!

[galvanizedfriend]

hi, yokan <3

I read that in Brazil there's a week-break because of carnival, therefore I hope you're finally having a bit of rest!

I was wondering if you could post an outtake with the klaroeve scene? from you comment I understood that there was more than that little scene in the latest chapter, and I would LOVE to read it!

sorry if I sound rude or pressuring, it's not my intention at all :(( I'm just Eve's third parent, I need more scenes with my babygirl being adorable 😭😭

I totally get why you don't put more of her in the main story. I ALWAYS say that babyplots are terrible due to a lot of factors, one of them being the constant present of a baby who basically does nothing (rightfully, since, yk, it went out of the whomb last year) and that adds nothing to the plot but just terrible fan service.

I think most people would agree with this, maybe even you!

HOWEVER, my little wolf/fish/mermaid is THE exception and I would love to see more of her, and, since u have a series dedicated to those fluffy moments that don't exactly fits with the plot, I really wish you will post something there 😭😭

sorry for bothering you, I hope you'll have a good day!

P.S.

totally off-topic but I also read some of your comments in Portuguese (AT LEAST I think it's Portuguese 😭) and I understood like 80% of it, privileges of being Italian ‼‼ so lol now you really can't escape me >:)

Yes, it's Carnaval right now! It's a nearly weak-long holiday, but it sadly ends on Wednesday. 😢 And I was technically on call yesterday, so 😂 But I am very much enjoying not doing anything 🤷‍♀️

About the baby thing, yes. 😂 I've been so lucky to get some passionate readers almost from the start with this fic and to have people who are still reading it a ton of years later, but I've also had to read some very mean things over the years that have stuck with me. It has made me extremely self-conscious about this story. I sometimes find myself almost apologizing for writing it, like I'm commiting some kind of crime against fandom or like I should be banned for inflicting this upon people for as long as I have. I wish I could be the kind of person who just doesn't care and remains blissfully unbothered, but I'm not. I'm not a naturally confident person in any way, and that kind of thing does get to me.

It's gotten better, of course. I care a lot less now than I used to, and the fic is not as popular as it was a few years ago either, so there's that But some of that stuff has just ingrained itself into my brain. Objectively I know this is stupid and I don't owe anybody anything, I don't have to apologize for writing a fanfiction for god's sake. There's room for everyone in fandom. I can have a corner to rewrite the show and have a magical Klaroline baby, fuck it. Who cares, you know? But it's almost stronger than me sometimes, I don't realize I'm doing it. I get this feeling that I need to be more critical otherwise people are going to think it's ridiculous and OOC and nobody's gonna want to read it anymore and etc etc. It's exhausting. And it's obviously nobody's fault, it's just me in my own head, but that's how it goes.

The scene you're talking about in particular. I had it written years ago. Literal years, maybe 2021 or early 2022. Some of my friends had even already read it a loooong time before the chapter was finished. And I was convinced that it was so cute and totally fine. Then as I wrapping up the chapter, I started getting this itch that it was actually ridiculous and the folks who had read it didn't say anything because they were being nice, they didn't want to hurt my feelings, and I had to get delete it. So I did. In all truth, I think the chapter is more polished like this. But then I removed a family scene and ended up writing smut that also had no place in the chapter, so. 🤷‍♀️

Anyway, I'm sorry for the rambly response. 🥲 I'll tell you this: I will read the deleted scene again and if I feel it's not dumpster-fire bad, I will post it here. But I need to check it first, because there is chance that it's not just my paranoid head telling me to get rid of the baby scenes and it really is just that bad. 😂

And as for the last part, yes, it's Portuguese. It's my native language. And it's so funny how Italian, Spanish and Portuguese can be so similar. I understand Spanish much better than Italian, but I do get some of it as well. Latin languages 🤜🤛 (except French, I don't understand French at all 😂)

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

They (the ear piercings) look gendered to /you/! This is actually internalized sexism, as in, you were taught that it was "girly" when you grew up and now are under the impression that there is any kind of correlation between being a girl or a boy and the kind of piercings you wear (or more generally the way people decide to dress).

The impression that boys or men can't have the same ear piercings as most girls without being men or without it being at least a bit feminizing is incredibly sexist.

The same thing goes for girls and women and everything people consider masculine. So what? A girl can't play football without being a tomboy? Can't play in the dirt and be rowdy? A woman can't be loud and take place, wear short hairs and wear comfy clothes?

None of this is against you, this is a societal problem, but we could all do with more awareness of it.

All of this to say, I don't think you should feel bad about the ear piercings looking girlish (even if it can be hard). Not submitting to gender stereotypes is rad as hell, you could feel proud of it.

Pardon the anonymous ask, reading your post made me feel bad for you while making me really angry and by the time it was better I had already written all of this. I could delete it all and go on my way, but I still hope maybe it will help you feel better about your piercings.

Feel free to ignore it if you want.

I'm going to stop you right fucking there.

This is stealth TERF rhetoric, and you should be careful who you are learning this from and who you are repeating it to.

Listen to me you little shit <3

Recognizing that external culturally normal gender signifiers are read by OTHER PEOPLE as signifying gender isn't "Internalized sexism U.U" It's called understanding social norms.

People also gender me "female" more when I concede to wearing a dress or wearing pink. Because that's the common bias, not because it's what -I- believe.

And I don't need to be told I ought to feel comfortable wearing pink otherwise I am sexist.

Understanding what the common bias is doesn't mean I believe it myself, you absolute wad.

You should be aware that what you are spouting is TERF rhetoric.

Where "abolish gender" only applies when someone is trans. I am going to charitably assume you might have meant this by accident, or aren't thinking straight right now and dignify this with a response.

Telling a trans man he should "just wear pink and dresses and have pierced ears, because that shouldn't be considered gendered, that's on you U.U" is fucking TERF rhetoric Telling a transmasc that he "can like programming and cars and mechanics and be "tom boy", but can -and is implicitly encouraged to- still identify as a girl u.u"

IS FUCKING TERF RHETORIC

I am not going to ignore it because I have more respect for you as a human being than that.

Either this is "just say'n" U.U softgirlTM TERF bullshit done knowingly...

Or you should be aware you are being led down dark path.

I would like to reiterate that the pierced ears do not make me internally uncomfortable because they "feel girly" to me, they make me uncomfortable because OTHER PEOPLE take them along with other visual cues as an excuse to keep misgendering me.

I am not being sexist, I am recognizing that I live in a sexist society and am being perceived by other people who treat me differently depending on whether I pass TO THEM. There is a big fucking difference.

Pierced ears don't just look girly to /me/ they look girly to every chucklefuck around me who tries to call me "mam".

I don't even normally think about my ears, I'm just very aware they are one of the "gender signifiers" people pick up on, along with boobs or longer hair, to add together and have them say "miss" instead of "sir".

There is a REASON one common transition surgery for trans men is to have their ear piercings REMOVED. It is explicitly because people read it as a gender signifier.

Part of my discomfort with it also breaks down to "yes I agreed to get them pierced, but under the impression I could take them out after a day and let them heal shut, only to find out my step mother was making it her personal mission to make sure I kept them specifically because they are a gender signifier."

Choosing how to adorn your body is very different from having that choice forced onto you.

Choosing to wear pink as a transmasc is different from being FORCED to wear pink and being told that if you don't like how it makes people see you, that you're the one who's sexist. You need to unlearn this shit.

[viovayo]

This this this. Writers owe their readers keeping their fic up as much as they owe them posting it in the first place: not at all, and I know I wouldn't post Anything if I didn't know I had the option to delete without any shame attached.

That said, there's several ways of handling a work you no longer want on your profile, and not everyone might know of all of them, so here's a list of options I can think of off the top of my head and what they do so (general) you can pick whatever feels right.

Just don't want it easily visible in your list of works?

Shove it onto a pseud that's not your main one. This keeps it associated with your account and your name stays visible on the work itself, but anyone who checks out your profile from a different work or comment made via your main pseud would have to take some extra steps and navigate to that other pseud to find the fic. Not the most groundbreaking option but sometimes that's all you need.

Don't want it associated with your name at all, but don't mind it being accessible for reading?

Add it to the Anonymous collection. You name will not show up on the work or in the work's comments and it won't link back to your profile, nor will the work show up on your profile itself. You retain full control over the work, and your subscribers will not be alerted if you update, so this is a great option for ongoing works you just don't want to publicly associate with. You can still see your anonymised works on and access them via your own stats page, visible only to you, and you can remove them from the collection at any point if you change your mind about wanting them anonymised. OR Orphan it. The work will no longer be associated with your account, instead having "Orphan_Account" listed as the author. It's out of your hands now, you can't undo this, you can't change or add to it, and you can't take it down more thoroughly in the future. But! People who loved the work will still be able to read it. Be careful though to edit any identifying information out of author's notes and comments before you do this, unless you don't mind it being there forever or having to go through support to change it after the fact. Another thing to consider is that, should you ever decide to reupload the work with your name attached, there's nothing you can do about a version of it already floating around the archive.

The thought of anyone being able to look at the work at all cause you pain?

Create an unrevealed collection and add the fic. You basically hide it from view. It won't show up in tags and I think (? correct me if I'm wrong though) it won't show up on your profile for anyone but you either. People who have bookmarked your fic will still be able to see the bookmark exists, but unless they've added identifying notes to their bookmarks, they won't be able to tell what or whose fic it was. If you ever change your mind, you can remove the fic from the collection or just reveal the collection. OR Delete it. It's gone.

As someone who doesn't like making decisions I can't easily take back, I definitely prefer some of these to others, but there you go, some options to consider the next time you want to disassociate yourself from a work. I hope among them is one that works for whatever you want to accomplish.

Note to Ao3 users

If you no longer want to be associated with/acknowledge the existence of something you have posted, please, for the love of your fandom community, use "Orphan Work" instead of deleting it or shoving it in a locked/unrevealed collection. Then people who liked it, have bookmarked it, etc., will still be able to read or see it without seeing your name attached.

[disarmd]

☉ what do you do when you get stuck writing?

✎ how do you think readers would guess a fic was yours if you posted anonymously?

(fic ask game!)

☉ what do you do when you get stuck writing?

there are so many different ways of getting stuck, which require different strategies, but some common ones of mines:

i usually have a mental list of scenes i already know i want to write and expect to be fairly easy, and i try to "save" writing some amount of those. so then when i'm stuck, i can write something easier instead, and that helps.

i'll reread everything i've already written and then take a shower. it puts the fic in my head and then no better place to have a think than the shower.

sometimes a scene is stuck because you've let the characters back themselves into a wall. like it's time for them to kiss and they're all the sudden like sooo shy or difficult or stalled or whatever. i think this is a common way for people to get stuck, because i'll see stuff like this in fics a lot: "Do the thing." "I don't want to do the thing." "no, do the thing." "I will not." "why not?" "I don't want to." "just do it." and you can kinda infer that the writer is actually just having trouble getting the characters to move forward. i personally don't think that type of arguing is that fun to read (if you want to have the characters fight, it should be for reasons of emotional devastation), so when I see a scene going like that, I'll either a) delete the last few paragraphs and restart the scene from earlier, removing whatever obstacle was preventing the scene from moving forward, or b) decide if the character has a legitimate issue and if yes adjust course accordingly. in Green Thumb, I ended up writing a whole other chapter because Alex needed more processing time after [thing]. I had planned for it to be resolved in one conversation, but it ended up being fair for alex to need more time, so instead i (all together now:) brought in lando to keep the plot moving forward. which leads me to:

add lando to a scene. okay, fine, you don't literally have to add lando. but sometimes it can really help to add some kind of external element as a catalyst, and characters with big thoughts, big feelings, big personalities etc. work well for that, because they bring a lot to a scene. "hypothetically, what's the wildest thing that could happen right now?" and then actually write that.

if i'm the kind of stuck where it's that I need to make a decision about something, i'll talk it out with writing pals. having other people's thoughts is obviously great, but even just the act of typing out the two options and articulating your concerns for each can be super helpful. like "i'm worried about this thing if i do xyz, but i mean of course i could just deal with that by abc.... damn, okay, maybe i'll go with that after all."

work on a different story. sometimes you just need a break.

for rpf fandoms: wait to find out what happens in canon/real life. sometimes i get stalled because i actually need to find out how [real life event] actually goes

✎ how do you think readers would guess a fic was yours if you posted anonymously?

i have actually never posted a fic anonymously in the entire time i've been in fandom (i stand by my mumble mumble and the most insane stories, even the ones with the mumble mumble). so like trying to think of the circumstances that would lead me to post something anonymously... guys, the story would have to be so unimaginably insane. something that eye felt i couldn't post??????? i can't even imagine, but i'd have to say at that point probably you couldn't guess it was me, lolololol.

but like more generally, for the purpose of a thought exercise, do i have a recognizable writing style? i don't think particularly. people have said i write very simply, so i can't really think of anything that would give me away.

[1-800-c0sm1c]

I recently saw a suggestive gif with an ice lolly, before quickly stumbling upon a post with Ryuji.. You can probably see where I'm going with this.

Could you perhaps write about a gn reader and Ryuji on a super hot day grabbing some ice lollys, the two enjoying the other's presence before Ryuji looks over and sees reader unintentionally deep throating it? (Like it looks suggestive) Ryuji gets really flustered, and now it's even hotter...

I hope this doesnt overstep into more heavier nsfw, if it does please remove what you arent comfortable with or feel free to delete the request :) Also you can add more characters if you want! Though I only really know Persona 5 Strikers, so if you can add characters from that! Anyway enough rambling, hope you have fun with this!!

-Solar/⭐ (If I can claim either or that'd be great!)

꒰blue lemonade !꒱

eating popsicles with everyones fav electro boy !

character x gn!reader

includes ryuji !

warnings : suggestive content !

word count : 2273

beta read by : @cagethefrenchfuck​

a/n : solar anon youre a genius ,,, im here to make it even better with a friends to lovers prompt added into the chaos mwahahaha >:) i hope you enjoy this !

this summer heatwave was reaching record high temperatures, you were sure if you stayed out in the sun for too long youd melt into a puddle and evaporate almost immediately. you wanted nothing more than to feel the cool ocean breeze on your face and soak up rays in the sun. however, just like the rest of the phantom thieves, you and ryuji were broke and had decided to stay inside for most of summer vacation. whenever you werent grouped up together at rens house for mementos business, chances are ryuji was laying on your couch, complaining about the heat with a bag of frozen vegetables on his forehead, but you dont mind. if youre together, everything becomes colored by him. if you were into aura reading you swear everyone around the blonde would be a bright and sunny yellow, but yours turned blue the moment you met him. if he was the sun, youd be the ever changing sky, never one without the other, the tide and the sand.

despite the random movie playing on the tv, your attention was focused solely on your dramatic friend sitting next to you. ever since youve joined the phantom thieves, you and ryuji have been inseparable. ren and ann have called you the dynamic duo on multiple occasions, meanwhile morgana is simply just jealous that someone likes ryuji enough to want to hang out with him that often.

“oh come on ryuji, the fans are running on overdrive, theres no way you can still be that hot.” you rolled your eyes as he complains for the nth time this hour. “thats what you think, but i swear im gonna die if this heatwave lasts another day, man.” he sighs, sinking further into the couch. “if the heat doesnt kill you, then i will.” you mutter under your breath, but ryuji hears you loud and clear. “oh so you want a fight, is that it? lets take it to the metaverse right here, right now!” ryuji yells back with more energy than youve seen him with since school let out for the break. he puts his fists up pretending to swing punches at you across the couch, proceeding to drop the entire bag of (not really frozen anymore) peas on the hard floor of your living room. the bag breaks open, littering the vegetables all over the place. “oh shit. how thin is the materials of those frickin bags?” he quickly says, panic obvious in his voice. you sigh, quickly getting up to grab the broom to sweep up the mess ryuji had made. 

he follows you to the kitchen like a lost puppy, offering to clean everything up *plus* scrubbing your whole house before you quickly reassure him its not a big deal. “i doubt we were ever going to cook those up anyways, dont worry about it ryuji!” “but still! i feel bad for making a mess of your house. i dont want to give your mom any reason to hate me.” you raise an eyebrow at that. “oh? why do you want to be on my moms good side so bad? you planning on moving in or something?” he shrugs. “with how much weve been hanging out i might as well. last thing i need is to be banned from seeing you over some bags of frozen vegetables.”

theres a mysterious feeling inside of you, and you feel heat rising to your cheeks over that. hed go through all the trouble of deep cleaning your house just so he can still hang out with you? itd obviously never need to come to that, but the fact that its the first thought he has cant help but make you feel special, despite how silly it is. of course he wants to be able to hang out with you, hes your best friend. if he didnt, that would be more of an issue than anything else. “you could always just sneak through the window, you know.” you mutter without realizing. he snickers. “i dont think i play the role of knight in shining armor very well, but what the hell? im always willing to try new things.” he laughs at his own remark, completely oblivious to how much redder your face has gotten in the small amount of time youve been sweeping up the peas from the floor. it may be hot outside, but surely not that hot, right?

“well how about you go make yourself useful and get something less likely to… explode for us to cool off?” you quickly respond to change the subject. ryuji thinks for a second before grabbing his shoes, stating hell be right back. you feel a weight be lifted off your shoulders you were unaware of as soon as the door shuts behind him.

theres never been any kind of tension that youve noticed before between you and ryuji, so where did this random feeling come from? you cant help but feel different around him, has he always looked at you with such admiration and you just never noticed? with how hot your body is now you might as well shove yourself into the freezer.

putting the broom back you sit back on the couch noticing how empty the room really feels without ryuji there anymore. where had he even run off to anyways? you groan, noticing that the temperature had gone up another 2 degrees, before instantly feeling bad for sending ryuji out into town during the hottest part of the day. that was definitely a lapse in your judgement, but surely hed be fine with how quick he was to go along with it. unless he just wanted to get away from you? wait where did that thought come from? you cant help but internally sigh at how youve managed to make the situation even more awkward without him even being there.

after about another 5 minutes of sitting alone with your thoughts (terrifying, isnt it?) ryuji bursts through the front door with a grocery bag in his hands. “i dont know about you but i think some ice cream is the perfect thing right now!” your face drops the second you realize its dripping, presumably already melted from the trip back in the scorching sun. ryuji notices a second later, quickly dropping it outside by the front porch. you cant help but find his slightly pouting face adorable, and also totally heart wrenching. “you know, i think youre on the right track there with ice cream. how about we just go down to the convenience store together? im pretty sure ren is working there right now anyways. then we dont have to worry about anything melting!” 

ryuji was just about ready to give up on going anywhere else today, especially if it meant having to walk around again in the heat, but he couldnt resist the sweet smile on your face. hed do anything for you in a heartbeat if youd always look at him so sweetly. he was so caught up in his staring that he completely forgot to answer you, you having to snap your fingers in his face just to get him to come back down to earth, because surely when he was with you he was in heaven. “huh? oh! yeah, lets get going!”

you both ran to the train station, out of breath and sweaty by the time youd have reached shibuya. you almost gave ren a heart attack with the amount of noise caused by you and ryuji walking in to the convenience store. after almost getting him fired for talking way longer than he should have been, you and ryuji walk back to the station in no rush, eating your popsicles quietly. 

“what flavor did you get?” you ask ryuji as you stand waiting by the station. “cherry limeade, you wanna try?” he brings the popsicle closer to your face, assuming youd simply grab it in your own hand. what ryuji was not expecting, however, was for you to lean yourself closer to him, taking a lick of the popsicle while it was still held in his hand. his eyes turn wide like a rabbit would, incredibly surprised as you get closer to him, he swears he can feel the tingling electricity throughout his entire body. where did this boldness come from, and why are you so nonchalant about it? he can fell his ego deflating when his whole arm shakes after you pull away and lick your lips, the artificial fruit flavoring tasting cold yet electrifying. “ooh that ones super tasty!” you exclaim, and ryuji swears he sees your eyes shining.

your icy treat smells of the sweet ocean, like someones squeezed a freshly picked lemon into it. “do you wanna try mine? its blue lemonade.” you hold the popsicle up to him in the same way, but ryujis too nervous to even grab it out of your hand, let alone lean in like you had. “oh uhm… no thanks, im allergic to uh…. lemons?” he stammers out, leaning back a bit. you shrug. “more for me then!”

ryuji was sure it was getting even hotter outside, even though it was painfully obvious the sun would be setting soon. he tried not to make eye contact with you again, but the image of you staring at him so excitedly a moment ago was still fresh on his mind. 

he regrets when he gives in and looks over at you again, as youve gotten down to the bottom of the popsicle by now. hes even more surprised to see the way you take almost the whole stick into your mouth, and suck on the remaining of the icy treat. he feels his eyes travel down to your adams apple, watching it move as you swallow. he notices the mixture of sweat and fruit juice dripping down from your chin, which in any other situation he might have made fun of you for. suddenly hes more flustered than hes been all day, and cant help but look away suspiciously quick.

as soon as you turn to look at him, he feels much smaller under your gaze, unable to hide how much you affected him, without you even realizing. now you know its not just you whos been feeling the tension thicken more as today has dragged on. youre not sure what to say, or if you should even say anything. clearly theres something going on between the two of you, but neither of you are able to muster up enough courage to address it.

youre about ready to just say your goodbyes and make your way back home, but ryuji decides to speak up before you can act out your walk of shame. “hey y/n, have you noticed anything uhm, you know, weird between us recently?” he asks, you cant tell if youve ever heard ryuji sound so unsure before. you pretend to think for a moment before responding. “now that you mention it the air seems much hotter today, and thicker too.” you dont miss the way you see ryujis face heat up at that remark. he mentally curses for not having a way to hide the way the blush creeps up his neck and ears.

“yeah i think ive noticed that too. but i havent been able to put my finger on what exactly has been bugging me.” you, unlike some would say about ryuji, arent stupid. you both know that he knows whats going on here, but hes going to make you say it first. you hold back a sigh, something youve been doing a lot recently, and finally find the right words. “i think that theres… something going on between us, ryuji.” you dont dare raise your eyes from their look on the ground. you can see ryuji let out a breath of relief, he wasnt sure if you were actually going to go along with this. “yeah, i see what you mean… i uh, i mean i see it too.” he drags his foot against the pavement of the station square. your heart that points to him is a deep blue, like the sky before the storm clouds build, or the ocean on a late night stroll.

even if you swallow, your words fill up on the tip of your tongue, feeling so close to overflowing. “have you ever thought of us as more than friends?” you ask in such a low voice you werent sure if he would hear it, and ryuji almost didnt over the loud beating of his heartbeat. now what is he supposed to do? there was so hint in your tone of voice that you thought of him the same way. he wasnt even sure if you were nervous, for all he knew you were more uncomfortable than anything else. he struggles to think of an answer that wont totally humiliate himself and also not hurt your feelings. “well… i guess so, yeah.” he responds. he doesnt miss the way you tense up at his answer, and he feels his heart sink.

you finally look up at him, that same sweet look in your eyes from earlier, and suddenly he thinks that maybe its so bad he decided to be honest. “oh my god really? wow.. im so relieved!” you sigh out. ryuji thinks he likes that tone of your voice. “i honestly thought i was going crazy! like i never noticed just how… close we are until today! everything just seemed to click and i swear i dont even know where it came from but im starting to really like-” ryuji leans in closer to you, effectively shutting you up with a nervous kiss to you lips. you can feel him smirk against you when you melt into the kiss. you feel yourself return to the original soft blue youve grown to love the moment he embraces you.

reluctantly pulling away, ryuji wipes the excess popsicle off of his lips with the same stupid smile on his face. you stick your tongue out at him, showing now that your tongue is purple instead of blue, and that immediately wipes the confident expression on his face. youre starting to get used to seeing ryuji flustered and different shades of pink or red. you grab his hand, dragging him off to go catch your train. 

as the doors close behind you, youre suddenly reminded of what he said earlier. “wait a minute, i thought you said you were allergic to lemons!” he rubs the back of his neck, embarrassed. “well i only said that because i was too nervous to.. you know, grab the popsicle out of your hand.” you cant help but laugh at him. “whats so funny? you act like if you were in my shoes you wouldn't have reacted the same way!” you shrug your shoulders. “summer isnt over yet, i guess well just have to wait and see until next time.”  he sighs, exasperated, before whispering under his breath “youre gonna be the death of me.” you smile at him. this is perfect, youd wish for nothing more, just the two of you. like this summer, it melts in your mouth like your feeling of love.

inspired by blue lemonade by red velvet , give it a listen if you havent before !

[not-poignant]

🤯, 🤭 & 💔 for the kinkmeme

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

The ones I'm not writing, lmao.

Okay but in all seriousness, I would say I struggle with mysteries, because I don't enjoy them in general. (I'm that person who always looks up the answer so I don't have to deal with the 'mystery' part which I generally find incredibly boring, so no, I can't really write the genre either). Ditto westerns.

I actually don't think I really struggle with romance, contemporary, action, fantasy, adventure, science fiction, erotica etc. I don't even struggle with hard science fiction. I don't think I'd struggle that much with horror or psychological or even supernatural thriller. Every time I've written elements of horror or thriller genres into my works, it's been pretty well-received actually. I'm just not really drawn to it. Genres are pretty easy to 'get' frankly (I did a media degree, I have done tertiary study of genre, so...formulas I understand). I struggle less with genre and more with base conceptuals that can be found in any genre - for example, I struggle with plot-based over character-based storylines. And that's true in any genre.

Oh! Actually I think maybe I struggle with procedurals and 'case of the week' style writing. That's what Eversion was supposed to be, and I profoundly did not like doing it, so basically removed Connor from the case and told a different story, lol, so I think that's one too!

🤭 Do you have a favorite tag to use when posting your works?

It's two and they go hand in hand: Angst and hurt/comfort. I think they're on just about every single one of my works. And they're usually among the first two I add.

💔 Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?

Hmmm.

Strange Sights because it represents a time in my life that was extremely damaging for me, to the point where I nearly have deleted it several times (I won't though, it doesn't hurt in the same way anymore - time heals some wounds and all that).

All of The Ice Plague because it just did so badly re: engagement (Underline the Black is about to eclipse TIP 3 for kudos in almost a quarter of the time and far less words, lol, sigh), and it became the death knell of the Fae Tales canon, which was supposed to continue. I grieved that for years, on and off, until I finally accepted reality. In TIP 1, we could say it was just...teething issues. In TIP 2 (which did worse than TIP 1) we could be like 'oh well, these things happen.' In TIP 3, which has done the worst of any long fic I've ever written, across two separate accounts, I just put my head in my hands and never felt further away from trying to draw in readers and keeping my career going. I can't tell you how many times I nearly quit.

(I had some great times writing it, but I also had a lot of 'why am I even still doing this to myself' times while writing it too, and then I'd remember the readers that were engaging with it and commenting on it, and I'd remember like... I need to make a living, and I'd also remember that the characters deserved their happy ending, and I'd keep going).

Honestly, nothing else really comes close to TIP, especially TIP 3. I actually felt relieved when it ended. Everything I've written since has been more popular and drawn in more people. It speaks for itself. It just makes me sad as well, that proportionately, less than 1/7 of the readers of Game Theory ever got to read Augus and Gwyn's true happy ending and epilogue, in All that We Were, All That We Will Ever Be. It's just a massive drop off overall, and makes me feel like I let folks down.

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From the fandom meme

[tokkiyuna-rkgk]

You don't seem to give yourself enough credit for the eyes. It takes a a lot patience to draw them and I don't have it. Even if it's just plopping it onto the symmetry. I normally don't like to use symmetry to do the eyes (like the ones you draw) because it always gets angled? So, you definitely have some good skills using that tool compared to me. Which you would think I would already know how to use perfectly since I have used this program since I was 15.

I didn't even noticed the different eye colors either! It looks like Commander Darami in the photo you used has brown eyes while Commander Goseumdochi has gray? Heh, at least Dalnim's eyes are "show accurate" lol. Oh, with the eyelids, I assumed it would be more simple. But, I can defiinitely see the issue.

I actually ended up drawing the helmet you speak of with a round face hedgehog. This is what I was referring to with the "deleting/removing an image because of a bad dream". I kinda drew it as a guide and I was gonna post it for you to use as a reference. But, you seem to have solved the issue and add nice details to the face. The fur on the face looks so cute! I really like it and does match what a hedgehog would realistically look like. Even if it doesn't match the helmet, it looks nice actually.

I had to do a bit of research on hedgehog quilling period since I didn't even know about that. But here's a sketch to answer to that question:

As you can see, it was painful and he had skin irritation as well. Definitely was not a good time. I tried to draw him younger but I don't like to draw kids lol. Could've just done a chibi or smth but nah. Also the red blotches are obviously where the skin is being irritated.

The adults don't really question his age much due to his height. He's 5' 7"? I need to check his profile that I made. But some do because of his quills since you know, some kids can be tall for their age. They normally would just turn to Noeul for verification of his age. She is sort of annoyed of how many times she had to answer to question.

I did see that one post you made about the Wobbly Hedgehog Syndrome. I do think it would be better to go with that condition. I can see how it would be less disrespectful. Also, be like me, just bend the rules a little to make it work. Tbf I bend the rules a lot more than I should be doing but that's cause I'm being lazy and need to save whatever braincells I have left for my college classes.

I would need to look for the time to read it. Currently busy with a project that me and my group are behind on. Which is why it took me a while to get back to your reblog and answer your question (since I had to look for time to draw and did some research).

Hello :))

Here's a small sketch of Siwoo (Haven't drawn this man in ages)

A quick explanation of the sketch:

The Raliaen Mountain Crescent Base doesn't have a formal financial department or anything related to it. Aera has tried to ask for a financial department to be established, but the Central government told her that they can't spare any for her as her base doesn't need one. Aera knows that's a lie since she and Hyeonsik are stuck maintaining the budgets and resource allocation of the base. Eventually, Aera is unable to keep up due to higher number of suspected enemy spies being reported. Hyeonsik hates to do anything related to finance beause he hates money (long story). So, he just gives them to Siwoo who had studied a bit of accounting before. Siwoo is genuinely still confused on why he is given the documents. Hyeonsik does actually give Siwoo a bonus for doing them, so Siwoo can't complain.

One of many reasons Siwoo needs coffee.

[pastelsapphy]

I needed context more than air so if anyone also wants to lose faith in humanity, (i was gonna add a TL;DR to each but.... there's no way these can be summed up like that. bruh.)

"ESH. You're both just enabling each other's mental illnesses. You're both perfect for each other. Never change. Just never involve anybody else in what you've got going on." It looks like the OG post was deleted but the comment is still there. Every time I read another thread and think I have a grasp on what it was the next thread comes in with a battering ram.

"ESH you all are horrible people."

"INFO: what the fuck" Another removed post and uh. From what I'm gathering from the comments this was an entirely appropriate response.

"Print out EXACTLY what you've said here. Take that printout to a therapist. Ask them to fix you. Holy shit."

"ESH but frankly iconic on both sides. Love the lying. Love looking the guy's lie up right in front of him. You two would be really fun to watch in a sitcom, I don't want to know either of you irl." Honestly? I was expecting this to be worse.

"YTA what the hells wrong with you. Don't go out in public and interact with people anymore. Just stay home and be miserable" Another deleted one but google autofilled "AITA for how I handled the pizza creep?" so do with that what you will.

I couldn't find the other two and it's 3am and I scrolled through so, so many comparatively bad threads, I'm going to bed.

my favorite AITA ruling comments