#I'm doing everything right and taking my meds and drinking my salty water and I've still felt woozy all day

[halogalopaghost]

It's just so absolutely crazy insane to me that doctors think the solution to my fatigue is to exercise more. Like. Bitch the fuck?? I used to exercise more, I used to be extremely active. I used to run around and play with my dogs and my siblings and jump on the trampoline and walk for hours through the mall and go for nature walks and hikes for the hell of it

Now I have to claw my way through a four and a half hour shift at work and pass out for a few hours afterward. Now I can barely walk up the stairs without being short of breath. Now I have to ration my energy just so I have enough to get through the necessary tasks of living.

You know what changed? I WAS STRICKEN WITH DISEASE AND DISABLED LIKE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF OTHERS IN THE FUCKING WORLD WHEN WE HAD THE DAMN PLAGUE

I'm not the problem. It's not ME. It's not my CHOICES. Don't you think I would if I could?? Don't you think I want to play with my puppy and enjoy the world around me? FUCK every doctor who's ever implied that my inactivity is my own fault and FUCK my dad for it too while I'm at it. IM NOT THE PROBLEM!!!

ITS NOT ME