#I'm craving bnha angst

[no-time-machine-available]

Honestly, I'm waiting for the bnha fanfics where Izuku turns into a villian after everyone abandons him because he no longer has a quirk.

Fanfics where we explore how Izuku tied his worth to One For All. Where he always questioned if his friends will still be his friends even if he was quirkless, and the answer is no.

Fanfics where Izuku slowly fades away in the background while his friends move on as heroes.

[thesakuragarnet]

Hi! (First Post I guess) MASTER LIST LINKED BELOW KEEP READING!

Hello! I'm Sakura_Garnet and I am chronically obsessed with My Hero Academia, specifically the Keeping Up With The Todoroki's subplot. I exclusively write Dabi/Toya Todoroki-centered fanfiction, ranging from angst to fluff to smut and various combinations. I have a few finished fanfictions and a LOT of WIPs, as well as a plethora of "oneshots" for various AU's. The majority of my writing is done on AO3, but I double post a few of my big works on wattpad. I am constantly listening to music, and most of my fics have been inspired by songs and albums. I have so so SO many headcanons for MHA/BNHA, and feel very strongly about DabiHawks/TouKei as you will see from the majority of my writings. I have ADHD and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and try my best to relay my experiences with these neurodivergencies in a few of my works. My main fic that is my pride and joy is PHOENIX: A Pro Hero Toya Todoroki AU, which covers 14 years of Toya Todoroki's life in an alternate universe (ages 16 to 30 to be exact) . If you do choose to read it, please mind the tags and the AO3 author's notes as it does deal with some heavy content (I tend to max out the tags on the majority of my works bc a bitch is nothing if not thorough). I don't know how much I'll be active on here, but I'm excited!

As always

The Past Never Dies,

<3

Sakura_Garnet

Master List (and my universes) 1 8 + ONLY

(Disclaimer: I curse like a sailor in real life so pretty much all fics have some form of swearing in them in some form or fashion. I tag my fics extensively, please pay attention to the tags listed in each fic as I will not be listing them here. Summaries and taglists will be on the links for each fic <3 fics with a sole focus on sm*t will be labeled smvtfics, but that doesn't necessarily mean that unlabeled ones do not have sm*t in them. Some links will take you to tumblr, but not everything is posted on here, so some will go straight to the AO3 fic.)

DabiHawks

- PHOENIX AU

PHOENIX: A Pro Hero Toya Todoroki AU

Private Hero Training Academy : PHOENIX AU Spinoff

Fire in My Veins

I'm Not Okay, I Promise

Separate Ways

I WANNA BE YOUR SLAVE (I WANNA BE YOUR MASTER) (smvtfic)

The Tape (smvtfic)

Perfectly Good At It (smvtfic)

HONEY (ARE U COMING?) (smvtfic)

-Fantasy AU

Flames of Fate

Your Body Is My Temple (smvtfic)

-Civilian Social Worker Toya X Pro Hero Hawks AU

It's Dangerous To Go Alone

Pillow Talk (smvtfic)

Grand Gestures

Light as a Feather (smvtfic)

Meet The Todoroki's

Home Late (smvtfic)

-Pro Hero Dabi X Villain Hawks (Talons)

And when he touched him he turned ruby red (smvtfic)

bad idea right (smvtfic)

When we're staring at the ceiling (smvtfic)

-Quirkless College TouKei AU

Pent-Up (smvtfic)

-The Mean Girls AU

On Wednesdays We Wear Black

-THE VOID (Not the canon timeline necessarily but something in between)

We Were Just Kids

Easier Than Lying

Distracted (smvtfic)

One Stupid Phrase (smvtfic)

Touch-Starved

I'd Rather Feel Pain Than Nothing At All (smvtfic)

My Eden (smvtfic)

What The Heart Wants

Conjugal Visit (short smvtfic with a LOT of plot)

that one Rihanna song

Flecks of Gold

Dabi X OC

-The FIREPROOF/ANARCHY saga (Dabi X Sakura)

A Mission

FIREPROOF

ANARCHY (apocalypse AU)

-Pro Hero Dabi X Pro Hero Sakura AU

Playing With Fire: A Pro Hero Dabi AU

The Limo Scandal (Pro Hero Dabi X Mirko X Hawks smvtfic prequel)

-Touya X Dusk AU

His Ocean Eyes

First (smvtfic draft)

MISA! MISA! (smvtfic draft)

On the Clock (smvtfic spoiler)

-Pro Hero Dabi X Villain Sakura

Secondary Location

DABI X FEM! READER

Random Villain Fem! Reader X Dabi

Only Stops A Sentence (smvtfic)

Good Graces

Liquid Lust (smvtfic)

Left Behind

Support Course Graduate Fem! Reader X Dabi

Crimes Of Passion (smvtfic)

Carnal Addictions (smvtfic)

Deal With The Devil (smvtfic)

Spies AU

Say My F*cking Name (smvtfic)

The Band AU

Music Keeps Us Alive: College Band AU

Cravings (FTM DABI X TWICE SMVTFIC)

Random Dabi-centric (ish) Fics

The League Of Villain Go To Disney: A crackfic mini series for just good vibes (slight DabiHawks)

Birthday (LOV Found Family Vibes) (slight DabiHawks)

Savior Complex (Big Brother Dabi)

Here Be Dragons (Alt. Fantasy AU)

If I Had Been There (Dabi X Magne Angst)

Embers In The Dark (Dabi X Burnin' smvtfic)

[mikulovingtrash]

General ⚙️

Hey, I'm Shortcake! Welcome to my blog!

My blog looks best on pride mode and my writing can be found in my personal tag: #shortcakewrites

Some of my works:

Mornings w Katsuki

Rodricks apology

Craving Misa

Rodricks eyeliner

Music luver reader

I will not write what i am not comfortable with. (multi-chapter works, cnc, noncon, dubcon, cis amab readers, etc.) If you have any questions about whats okay, feel free to DM me!

I will write x readers, smut, angst, and some hardcore stuff. Please let me know what pronouns and gender you want the reader to be!

Shows/Characters I will write for:

(Keep in mind I am an anime only!)

Death Note

L lawliet

Misa Amane

Diary of a Wimpy Kid

Rodrick Heffley (I have to)

Saiki K

Shun Kaido

Aren Kobayasu

Aiura Mikoto

Saiki Kusuo

Into the Spiderverse/ Across the Spiderverse

1610! Miles Morales

42! Miles Morales

Margo Kess

Hobie Brown

Any BNHA character you request! <3

If you have any special requests about characters or shows not listed, feel free to ask and I will let you know! <3

I look forward to writing for you and sharing my silly brain with you all!

Tags 🏷:

[miyakuli]

I've been tagged...

...by @oo-mi-ru-oo for some questions, thank you :)

• Last Song: Audition from La La Land

• Song stuck in head: Vivre from Notre Dame musical (because I went to see the new adaptation last Friday and it was amazing!!!!)

• Favorite color(s): Purple shades

• Currently watching: BNHA s6 bcs I'm late xD, I am rewatching all snk and I'm at s2, Spy x family s2, Tian Guan Ci Fu s2.

• Currently reading: I'm about to read TGCF books in english, I bought all the volumes

• Currently craving: Our Life Now and Forever (coming in two years x'D) I need more, the demo is so gooooood ;o;

• Last movie: The Boy and the Heron by Miyazaki

• Sweet, spicy or savory: Savory

• Relationship status: Single

• Current obsession: Karaoke xDDD

• Three favorite foods: Salmon Tagliatelles, Sushis, Black Pudding with Apples and mashed Potatoes <3333

• Last thing googled: "Fortiche Arcane"

• Dream trip: Japan with close friends (hi Kinga)

• Anything you want right now: FULL MOON EPISODE!!!!!! (Helluva Boss), GIMME THE STOLITZ ANGST I'M READY I'm not

Tagging if you want: @a-small-constellation @pelucherria @sajou-rihito @fismoll7secinv

[flfverse]

CTL chapter 13 was crazy!!! I'm curious, what made you decide on the limited/unreliable narrator situation we have with Katsuki? Like were you considering other povs or switching povs, or was this what you always had planned? It was a really good way of writing, I'm just curious if the process to get there was complicated. Also, do you have plans to backtrack and show other povs in the next chapter, or forge ahead and let the questions be answered in the future. Also also, do you have any plans to show what the media is thinking directly, or just through the lenses of the main characters? Because either way could be very interesting. I'm inherently nosy and am very curious what people thought of Deku's less than coherent interview, but I also really like the ways you filter information like that through the experiences of our very traumatise characters. Seriously this chapter was so good! Exactly the high stakes action I was craving after all the tension and recovery!!

ahh thanks! the ending scene (from roughly izuku talking to the reporter on) is one of the first things i wrote actually bc i was so excited about it. i did not expect it to take this long to get there and i’m happy i finally did!!

i kinda made the decision about katsuki’s pov on the fly—i knew i wanted the villain to somehow frame him, but it was only once i was writing the opening that i had an epiphany. i wanted to dart him as kind of a mirror to the first chapter with deku to bring it even more full circle, and then it was pretty clear i had to make him go feral.

from there, i thought about how i wrote shouto back in, what, chapter 3 maybe? and i just kicked that up a notch. i really really love writing/reading that kind of disjointed, weird, unreliable narration, so whenever i see the opportunity i like to lean into it. and i just love the trope of a character being so distracted they dont realize they’ve been hurt until, whoops, that leg doesn’t work. it’s so fun.

also, i really hate writing fight scenes, so the more vague i can make a battle, the better!

small tangent, that kind of writing like i did with katsuki is actually something i mostly picked up from bnha fic—i have a headcanon about todoroki and dissociation that i’ve written about once or twice, and i read a lot of dissociation fics for research purposes (and bc it’s just a good brand of angst). so it’s just kind of a thing i have in my back pocket now.

about future plans—i’m not aiming to have any other povs besides katsuki and izuku, but i do want to show some more news reports and twitter posts like i did in the beginning! as well as have other characters explain what happened a bit. i am also toying with the idea of combining chapter 14 & 15, since rn i’m afraid they’re both going to be small, so rather than delaying both to scrape together enough material i may just do one longer ending? i’ll have to see what happens.

[findroleplay]

Hi there, 18+ rper looking for a brand new rps with 18+ partners! 🔫

About me: I rp on Discord, I'm literate and can go up to novella! Multi-para, and third person! I love to chat ooc! Sharing ideas, arts, music and memes about our ship and all is amazing!

What I'm looking for: A literate / novella 18+ partner! RP-wise, I'm looking for something with a nice balance between angst, drama, and fluff and comfort. I prefer romance, and MxM, my OCs are transmascs. For the fandom RPs, I don't do double-ups. Please do not message me for double-ups or for pairings other than the ones I post here. Pairings: CoD: Simon 'Ghost' Riley (you) x OC (me) BNHA: OC (me) x Bakugou / other M character The Boys: M character (you) x OC (me) Stranger Things: OC (me) x Eddie / Billy / Steve

And that's all! If you're interested, leave a note, and note that lately I've been having quite a craving for angst lmao

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[roleplay-today]

Hi there, 18+ rper looking for a brand new rps with 18+ partners! 🔫

About me: I rp on Discord, I'm literate and can go up to novella! Multi-para, and third person! I love to chat ooc! Sharing ideas, arts, music and memes about our ship and all is amazing!

What I'm looking for: A literate / novella 18+ partner! RP-wise, I'm looking for something with a nice balance between angst, drama, and fluff and comfort. I prefer romance, and MxM, my OCs are transmascs. For the fandom RPs, I don't do double-ups. Please do not message me for double-ups or for pairings other than the ones I post here.

Pairings: CoD: Simon 'Ghost' Riley (you) x OC (me) BNHA: OC (me) x Bakugou / other M character The Boys: M character (you) x OC (me) Stranger Things: OC (me) x Eddie / Billy / Steve Scream: Idk, I like Billy and Stu and I got a serial killer OC

And that's all! If you're interested, leave a note, and note that lately I've been having quite a craving for angst lmao

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[spryzzi-writes]

FIC DIRECTORY ^^

art blog :: @spryzzi-arts

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my fanfiction/writing posts are tagged #spryzzi writes << click the link to see all posts !!

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all fics listed & linked down below !!

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BNHA ↷

tragedy craves fresh meat, honey / Dabi/Hawks / Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Cannibalism, Unrequited Love, Accidental Death / 13.8k words

Secrets Weary of their Tyranny / Dabi/Hawks / 5+1 Things, Traitor Hawks, Canon-Typical Violence, Secret Relationship / 8.7k words

the smile that you gave me (even when you felt like dying) / Sero Hanta/Todoroki Shoto / Future Fic, Major Character Injury, Angst / 2.5k words

Picture Perfect / Sero Hanta/Todoroki Shoto / Future Fic, Social Media, Fluff, Secret Relationship / 4.6k words

it's always for you (and never for me) / Shinso Hitoshi/Todoroki Shoto / Unhealthy Relationships, Hurt No Comfort, Angst / 2.8k words

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GENSHIN IMPACT ↷

turn the lights on, honey, honey, i don't wanna hide / Kazuha/Scaramouche/Heizou / Hurt/Comfort, Major Character Injury, Fluff / 5.8k words

wear your fragrence like an accolade / Lumine/Xiao/Venti / Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Cuddling & Snuggling / 1.5k words

angels walk among us / Diluc/Venti / Implied Sexual Content, Wing Grooming, Body Worship / 1.5k words

no one could fall for you quite like me / Kazuha/Aether / Fluff, Cuddling & Snuggling, Sharing a Bed, Chest Binding, POV Second Person / 1.1k words

please just lie to me (promise me) / Kazuha/Aether / Angst, Whump, Hurt/Comfort, Codependency, Unhealthy Relationships, POV Second Person / 1.3k words

the red means i love you / Aether/Venti / Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Rape/Non-con Elements, Body Horror, Corrupted Venti, Blow Jobs, Tail Sex, Blood Drinking, Blood as Lube / 4.1k words

call your name two, three times in a row / Aether/Venti / Hurt/Comfort, Major Character Injury, Fluff / 1.8k words

im in love with the unknown / Kazuha/Aether/Venti/Xiao / Hurt/Comfort, Nightmares, Modern Setting / 1.1k words

i can't promise you forever (because that's not long enough) / Aether/Venti/Xiao / Fluff, Cuddling & Snuggling, Mild Hurt/Comfort / 1.8k words

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PJO ↷

the death needs the breath (the grave needs you there) / Thalia Grace/Percy Jackson / Character Death, Murder, Whump, Hurt No Comfort, Angst, Dark Thalia Grace / 4.6k words

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TOKYO GHOUL ↷

embrace decay / Kaneki/Ayato/Touka / Cannibalism, Canon-Typical Violence, Blood and Gore / 2k words

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RWBY ↷

and when i'm feeling down (you're always around) / Blake Belladonna/Yang Xiao Long / Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Cuddling & Snuggling, Sharing a Bed / 1k words

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ARCANE ↷

start with silence (end with abyss) / Caitlyn/Vi / Fluff, Cuddling & Snuggling, Sharing a Bed, Hero Worship / 1.4k words

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OTHER ↷

All fics written in 2021 or earlier are not included on this list, because I feel that writing quality does not reflect my current abilities. If you are interested, my older fics come from:

The 100 (TV) - 40 fics

Game of Thrones (TV) - 4 fics

Percy Jackson and the Olympians - 3 fics

The Grisha Trilogy - 2 fics

^^ click the links to be directed to all fics I've written under that fandom

[timstolejasonscorpseagain]

what fanfics, that you've written, are your favorites? and is it the same ones youre most proud of?

Holo there! Thanks for the question!::,)

Hm.... In alphabetical order..

Bacterial Contamination.

Fandom: DC

Rating: Explicit.

Relationship: Jason Todd/Tim Drake (no romance)

A very dead-dove fic, yes, but it was pretty fun. It's angsty, and it's messed up. I think my strongest point when it comes to my writing is emotions (which I guess makes sense, since I write a lot of angst) and just, put characters through the wringer. The point of that work wasn't something deep. I legit just wanted to make them go through something terrible. I think the writing, as in the style and format and how it makes sense, is pretty okay.

Fun fact: I didn't know what to name it, and this is a common thing. I have a docs document with name ideas, but usually thats reserved for vibe-specific or plot heavy fics. When I don't know what to name a work, I'll scroll through my music playlist on youtube lol

This one was taken from the song of the same name (Bacterial Contamination) by Deino

Beast In Black.

Fandom: Linked Universe

Rating: T

Relationships: Time & Wild, Twilight & Time, Twilight & Wild

This was for a secret santa thing, and I almost didn't finish it and I was stressed about it. But I managed to finish it on time. Looking back now, I get nit-picky about it, but it could've been a lot worse in terms of fic and plot. In reality, all I really wanted was to transform the chain into animals. It's one of my favourites though because I managed to finish it even though it was hard, and because I think the writing style is okay.

Fun fact: Once more I didn't know what to name it, so playlist I went. This is inspired by the band 'Beast In Black' with the song of the same name, simply because 'Beast' was in the title, and the album cover is a wolf.

It's Better When You're With Me (but that's better left unsaid.)

Fandom: Boku No Hero Academia

Rating: T

Relationship: Shigaraki Tomura & Midoriya Izuku.

This is one of my favourite fics that I've written, honestly. It got longer than intended, and it was my first serious BNHA fic where I actually liked it. That fic is supposed to be sad, it's supposed to be drenched in grief and small seeds of hope. Izuku deserved better, deserved happiness, and it simply turned out that death was the key.

Fun Fact: The title is from the song "The worst in me" by Bad Omens. It's symbolises how Izuku feels guilty, and that it's ironic the first person to show him kindness is a villain.

Times of pain and times of craving left to resurrect the dead, as we dared to run with the wildest of wolves and ignored the signs of the end.

Fandom: One Piece

Rating: Explicit (because of horror/gore)

Relationship: ASL

Not a popular fic, and it's not really plot heavy, either. The idea was Luffy, in a modern AU sort-of, had nightmares that symbolised his failures in canon. It started off a year or more so before I actually published it, and I re-wrote it completely after I found it again. It's very heavy on the symbolism which was super fun. Oh, and cuddles. I love non-sexual intimacy.

Fun fact: Fic was inspired by rambles between my friend Arson and me, talking about Luffy having nightmares about Ace's death, and the song 'Alive or Undead'by Powerwolf, which is where the title comes from. I'm very aware it's a long title, I couldn't decide which part I liked the most lol

Thanks for asking!

[sundeathh]

Hello honey, I hope you are still taking requests. Maybe angst with a fluffy ending 👀👀👀 Like old regrets and heartaches are replaced by hope when Aizawa and the reader meet again

Hey sweetie! For now I'm still accepting requests, but my inbox is starting to queue up, so I may close soon.

I'll probably take a little longer to write the ones in the queue since I need to focus on some things in my life right now. But since I've been having fun while writing, I'll probably come back as soon as possible!!!

Now, about the request itself, I left a few things unspoken so you could fill in the blanks however you would like, but I still set out a little bit of the plot. I hope you enjoy! ♡

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WELCOME HOME

Request | Masterlist

Pairing: Aizawa × GN!Reader

Fandom: BNHA | MHA | word count: 2,7K

Categories: romance; drama; slight angst

CW: None I guess, though I almost cried while writing lol

At five in the afternoon, Aizawa is standing outside the dorm building, although he has no idea why he's doing this in the first place.

But in fact, his reason was simple.

He was hoping to make amends with the person who broke his heart so many years ago – he knew it would be a difficult task, considering all that you had gone through before, and the fact that you were still adapting to your new job.

However, despite all the obstacles, he decided it would happen today anyway.

As he stands outside your doorway, Aizawa thinks back to when you were just kids; about how you would tease him until he would be a flushed mess and poke him out of his shell because you couldn't stand seeing him alone while the other kids played with each other.

You became friends with him fast. You were talkative, easygoing, blissful, and so much more. You were everything good that he craved. And that was why you got along so well: he was the calmness you needed for dealing with your hyperactive mind while you were the strength he faulted, pushing him further to wherever he needed.

You did everything together, from playing hero and villain together through childhood, till studying together as teenagers. You went from two dumb kids that played with each other to two somewhat less dumb teenagers who got along too well. You would do anything for each other.

You also went to the hero course together at the prestigious hero school in Japan. 

You could even get married someday if he had asked you to.

Shōta sighed, smiling, though he felt sad as he stared absently at the wooden pattern on your door. He remembered how you used to cry so easily whenever you didn't get what you wanted from him as a kid; but wouldn't tell anyone, acting stubbornly around him as if the pain wasn't visible on your face.

On the other hand, he was always so dense. It took you a long time to finally break through his walls, slowly peeling them down until he started opening up to you. In the process, you made him realize how much he valued you.

It took time, of course, but you eventually succeeded. And Shōta cherished you dearly. He loved you in a way he didn't even know he was capable of loving.

Shota shook his head, trying to clear his mind before knocking on your door. No matter how hard he tried to fight and forget his struggles against it – he always felt the truth would come up sooner or later. 

And it came way later than he would like, sadly. But it didn't matter, he needed to know why you left.

He needed to know why you had left him as if he was nothing to you. Or why you ended things between you both before he could even say the words out loud.

It hurts to know you weren't together anymore. Knowing you could hate each other for what happened while you were still in high school.

He thought you wouldn't be willing to forgive him for what he did to you. And anyway, here he was: back to your feet, even though you also hurt him as much as he had hurt you. Even though he thought he knew better, or that he had gotten over you.

You were his first everything. And as much as he forced himself to deny it, you were also his last. He couldn't be with anyone else after you. And he didn't know why.

It just didn't feel right.

You were all he had, all he cared about, and all he ever wanted. 

Right now, however, this was not an experience he thought he would have to endure, nor one Aizawa ever hoped to relive again because, after you left, he buried his feelings deep in his chest.

That was why he thought he got over you in the first place. 

But he didn't. 

And all it took for him to realize it was seeing you again, walking as beautiful as ever through the U.A hallways, with the same grace you had when you were just another student walking there.

He was speechless. He was also static. At first, he thought he imagined things. Then, he thought he was confusing someone else with you. But he wasn't. It was you.

The news of your hiring as a homeroom teacher reached his ears only after he saw you there with his own eyes. But he hadn't spoken to you yet. He was avoiding you, watching you at a distance.

That is, until today, a few weeks after you started at your new job.

And when you opened the door, your relaxed expression faded at the sight of him. You weren't expecting him to come to you so soon. 

You weren't expecting him to come to you at all. You knew he'd must been mad at you and knew what he was going to say next.

You had prepared your mind to hear his scolding ever since your hiring – you knew he was working there beforehand, but you decided to go with the job application anyway.

After all, it wasn't like you hadn't thought carefully about meeting him again before sending your application. You were longing for it.

Anyway, Shota didn't say anything. Instead, he gave you a half smile and asked if he could come in.

It was the last thing either of you expected. But you let he in regardless.

The second his eyes met yours after you closed the door, he regretted coming there. The look in your eyes, the way you held yourself, and the fact that you didn't even greet him at all and just gave him a curt nod told him all he needed to know.

And that was all he needed to know. Because it was clear that you didn't want to deal with him right now.

There was still pain, betrayal, and sadness dancing in your eyes. But he also noticed something else.

It was fear, pure and genuine fear in your eyes. You had the same expression you wore the day you told him you were leaving: fear, sadness, guilt, and regret written across every feature of your face.

But that was all there was, and he chose not to dwell on the past, and instead sort out whatever he could fix up now.

He whispered your name. Your gaze immediately shifted towards his at the sound, and a soft gasp escaped your mouth once you met his piercing gaze.

His own eyes widened at how broken you looked. There were so many emotions filling your expression that he was sure you had never seen them all before in your lifetime.

He tried to speak, but no words came out.

Damn it. How he wished to just hold you again. But instead, he only stood there, staring at you. 

"Um… hi, uh..." you began awkwardly before clearing your throat. "Do you need anything?" You asked nervously, unsure about how to proceed.

And he only averted his gaze from yours, saying nothing else.

You sighed. "Okay. Have a seat, I guess." You said before turning around and walking towards your bed, without giving him another glance.

He hesitated for a moment but then followed in, sitting next to you. He tried to make it look casual, but it was awkward. And you noticed, so you glanced over to him, waiting for him to speak.

"Listen," Shota starts. "I'm here because-"

"Look, Aizawa," you interrupted. You saw him flinch at the usage of his last name, but he didn't say anything.

"I know." You said. "I know what you're going to say."

You paused for a moment, debating on how to proceed. Shota didn't say anything, waiting patiently until you spoke again.

"I understand if you are angry. I completely agree with that. But I didn't leave you. I promised myself years ago that I would never give up on you, and I still do, but-" You stopped yourself.

You didn't have any excuse, did you?

"We both know there was never a promise between us in the first place." He said calmly.

You bite your lip, colleting your thoughts. Aizawa knew you were holding onto some feelings you've kept hidden for years. It was beyond clear.

"Yes, you're right." You continued. "I am sorry for hurting you." You apologize. "I'm sorry for leaving and making you believe I didn't care."

He looked away from your gaze.

"And... for making you feel like I was abandoning you." You added quietly.

There was a long silence, but it wasn't as awkward as you were expecting it to be.

After what you said, Aizawa didn't seem as angry anymore. He seemed disappointed. Annoyed, maybe. At how long it took for you to admit to yourself how much he meant to you.

"Why did you leave?" He asked quietly, his voice calm. You sighed, feeling defeated – he wanted you to speak your mind, and so you did.

"I had no choice." You confessed, tears stinging in your eyes from the pain and anger you felt towards yourself, but you ignored it. There were more important things to focus on right now.

"I never wanted to leave you. I felt at home with you, but I had to go anyway. I had to... I didn't want to..." you trailed off as your voice cracked, causing you to tear up. He furrowed, worry etched on his face.

He wanted to pull you into his arms and rest your head gently against his shoulder, but he restrained himself. There was too much you still weren't ready for yet.

"You were my home." You whispered, your heart aching. "But you'd be too far away… because my parents wanted me to go to study abroad. They wanted me to follow the family lead and become a great hero like them. They pressured me to move away from everyone I cared about and take risks I wasn't comfortable taking. I- I didn't want to. But it was expensive for them, so I agreed, but that didn't mean I wasn't going to miss you every day!" You explained yourself through quiet sobs and sniffs.

He swallowed thickly as your hand brushed against his, and your fingers wrapped themselves around the hand he had clenched into a fist.

"My family... they had their reasons." You said. "But I didn't. I had no reason, and they pushed me and pushed me until it became painful to be where I didn't want to be." You laughed bitterly, your gaze blurry with tears as it drifted to the floor. "It sounds so stupid now. But I was young and couldn't choose for myself. So I stayed there until I could choose wherever I wanted to be on my own."

Your lips quivered as you struggled with your tears. "I'm so sorry." You said. "I'm sorry for leaving you. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize how much you meant to me and for taking me so long to act on it. Sorry for coming back so late." You wiped at the tears falling from your eyes as they spilled uncontrollably down your cheeks. "I'm sorry."

Silence fell upon the two of you afterward; your breathing became uneven due to how emotional you both were. Neither of you had realized just how close you were sitting until you found yourselves practically pressed against each other's side.

Aizawa's attempts on holding back his feelings during all of these years caused him to break down in front of you – and this was the last thing he planned to do when he knocked at your door a few minutes ago. 

He didn't even bother wiping his tears away as you broke into uncontrollable sobs, finally burying your head against his shirt.

He didn't expect this, and neither did you. He was too shocked to react as the two of you cried together, but once you relaxed into him, he hugged you tighter than ever, burying his face in the crook of your neck, closing his eyes as he inhaled your so missed scent.

It almost felt unreal to him, having you in his arms like this once again. He didn't remember the last time the two of you hugged each other this tightly.

Tight enough that it felt like he could feel the way your heart pounded wildly against your chest as if it needed air.

All this time, he thought he was alone in this world. And he had convinced himself about it.

Because you did let him. Even though it wasn't intentional, even if you didn't want to hurt him. 

And when you were younger, when you knew you would have to leave for good, you gave in, deciding to put a small piece of yourself in the past without a care, pushing him away from you. 

But you didn't do it the right way. He thought he had done something wrong, or that you had grown bored of him, causing you to leave him.

That was why his dumb young self thought you had found someone else. That's why he was rude to you the day you had planned to tell him why you were so distant. 

But his thoughts made sense inside his head, especially considering how you acted towards him. You were suddenly so cold. So not like yourself.

The sad truth is, after everything he said and done to you at that night, he deserved nothing but the coldest, most brutal treatment you could give him right now.

But instead, he was receiving a warm, caring, loving embrace. Something so sweet that reminded him vividly of how things used to be.

"I'm sorry." He whispered, tears still dripping down his face. "For not being there for you and assuming so much from you. I shouldn't have done that." He added, pulling back just enough to make eye contact with you.

You chuckled softly before shaking your head, leaning forward. "There's no need for apologizing. I don't blame you for anything anymore." You said truthfully. He looked at you from the corner of his eye, giving you a reluctant nod. He still felt guilty anyway.

And it seemed like fate knew that you both needed comfort right now, so it decided to grant you what you needed.

"Shota," you started, your voice sounding softer this time.

You looked at him directly into his eyes, your gaze holding a pleading you weren't even aware you were wearing on your face.

"Can I kiss you?" You asked.

You were surprised by how quickly his body reacted to your request, his lips immediately connecting with yours. His hands then gripped onto your waist, bringing you closer to him.

His tongue soon invaded your mouth as he kissed you passionately, almost desperate. And you let him, not bothering to push him away. You missed his kisses. You longed for how he always felt so secure against you. You missed him. 

A small part of him thought this was a bad idea, that you would push him away again. But as he pulled back, you grabbed his shirt, tugging him into another kiss. One he returned with equal ardor. 

You pulled away slowly after a few minutes, your foreheads resting against each other as you caught your breath. You both stared into each other's eyes for a while as your smiles faded into grins – one of joy, happiness, and relief.

That kiss was only one step closer to healing, and even though your relationship hadn't recovered yet, you knew that everything would work out eventually.

You both knew it. You both wanted it. And it was enough for both of you.

And now, you were just relieved that he forgave you, knowing it was all worth it.

Then, he nuzzled your nose with his own before capturing your lips again. And you returned the favor tenderly, wrapping your arms around his neck, pulling him closer.

He held onto you firmly, and you couldn't help but smile into the kiss, content as he held you in his arms, feeling safe for the first time since you left that night.

A faint smile appeared on your lips after you pulled away, gazing at him.

"I'm glad to be home." You whispered before your smile widened a little more.

And Shota smiled brightly just as well, reaching forward to brush a stray lock of hair behind your ear, cupping your cheek with his palm afterward.

"Welcome home." He said back. "Thank you for coming back."

[danihow]

WIP TAG GAME

tagged by both the amazings @mingigoo and @hyunnows

dynamic: post the names of all the files in your wip folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

I'm totally doing this from the eldest (2 years old) to the most recent (like a month)

The honeymooners Dick Grayson x Fem!Reader [DC Titans] CIA Agents AU, e2l, unrequited love, slowburn not so slowburn, multichaptered fic (0 chapters done).

2. More than just that Bucky Barnes x Wanda Maximoff [MCU] Pre!TV shows, hurt/comfort, f2l, one-shot.

3. Blue ashy sky Steve Rogers x GN!Reader [MCU] Angst, ex-relationship, breakup.

4. 95´love Luke Patterson x Fem!Reader [Julie and the Phantoms] S2F2?, fluff, unconcluded

5. Midnight Cravings Ushijima Wakatoshi x Fem!Reader [Haikyuu!] Fluff, pure tooth rotting fluff

6. I love you Oikawa Tooru x GN!Reader [Haikyuu!] ???

7. Flower shop ProHero!Todoroki Shoto x Florist!Reader [BNHA] Exes to lovers, requited love, ??

8. Red Aragorn x Reader [LotR] Blood, F2L, hurt/comfort.

9. Silver heart Jung Wooyoung x Reader [ATEEZ] Soulmate AU, angst, ???

10. I see it now Sim Jake x Reader [Enhypen] E2L, hurt/comfort, fluff?

11. Piece by piece Park Jay x Fem!Reader [Enhypen] Best friends, unrequited love (kinda?), angst, fluff

12. Atlas: II Lee Felix x Reader [Stray Kids] ???

13. ABC Seo Changbin x Fem!Reader [Stray Kids] Forced convivency, e2l, fake relationship AU.

14. You're pregnant? Enhypen's hyung line x Fem!Reader Imagine

15. Bright smiles, sad tears Jung Wooyoung x Fem!Reader [ATEEZ] Chapter 2 of Five feet is too much

I'm tagging now: @lord-westley @0x1lovebot @ddeonuism @spideyanakin @murswrites

[void-inked-pen]

Pen and Fanfics

I am... very particular about my fanfics.

when I want a fanfic about a specific character, I tend to hunt stuff down meticulously, trial run reading chapters of what people have written already, and compare that to what the fandom seems to take an interest in.

case and point: I feel like people have a very low bar for what they can read sometimes cause so many most liked or most read fics... are kinda just... bad? (that is just my opinion, I am not throwing shade I swear)

I am also an adult, and a lot of these stories are written by teenagers just getting into creative writing and stuff and that's totally fine! a lot of the more... eloquent fics out there are written by more experienced writers who have people to beta and understand the basics of good storytelling.

this is not to say anything that I've written is "incredible", a lot of my shit is not. I look back at Time Ticks By and compare it to some of the stuff I'm working on rn and LET ME TELL YOU THERE IS A NOTICABLE CURVE OF WRITING ABILITY KSJFHSKJFH.

Time Ticks By was a fic I started working on in college for a friend of mine who wanted more Mikey angst so I started brainstorming and brought up the concept to them. After that I just wrote the fic for the two of us, gradually building up chapters and throwing the turtles into some pretty interesting stuff. Then... after a while, I decided to post it.

That fic, was the first one I ever posted. one of my other friends graciously beta'd it for me as I went on (at one point they downright eviscerated a chapter and I am very thankful for the brutality but I was wrecked after that day lol). But as I look back at that fic I have noticed some interesting changes in my writing. My chapters are longer, I'm much more descriptive and meticulous with my wording, I avoid tropes as much as I can by describing a character's reaction by saying "the blonde", "the redhead", "the purple masked turtle", etc. when trying to avoid just saying the characters name (tho I still fall into that habit I'm avoiding it pretty well).

When I compare the way I am currently writing Let's Switch, my BNHA Kirishima-centric fic to Time Ticks By, my Rise of the TMNT fic, I can tell I've improved immensely.

That might be why I'm a bit iffy with continuing TTB, because the writing is outdated for me regardless of the fact I do want to finish it someday soon.

there's also the fact that my motivation for Let's Switch is... out of spite.

IDK why but when spite is in the mix for me, I get more motivated. Let's Switch is literally a non-romantic story that throws Kirishima into a situation that canon would never do because he's not a main character. I've seen sooooooo many fics where the angst is focused on Bakugou and Kiri is a supporting role, or if there IS an angsty story about him it's related to their ship or things like his depression. Those fics that actually focus on him specifically are so few and so short it irritates me.

I like long-ass fics okay! if a fic isn't over 20k I get mad because I WANT more long form stories! I wanna see Kirishima take the main character role for once and have it NOT related to romance! Romance is fine on some days but for fucks sake I just wanna read a story where my sunshine boy gets WRECKED and it has nothing to do with his attraction to his friend!

that's how Let's Switch was born.

out of me being frustrated at the lack of angst for Kirishima. Similarly to how TTB was started because my friend wanted angst for Mikey.

So yes, I have a very complicated relationship with fics. especially at the lack of my favs having anything. I am primarily a reader outside of animation so the fact that I got THIS frustrated and decided to work on my own story just to satisfy my own cravings, means I was pushed hard!

Thank you for reading my rant, if you know of any other Kirishima-centric fics where there is no romance, would love to see it. Otherwise, I'm out.

PEACE!

[i-cant-sing]

I'm bored and I like craving some scenarios (fluff/angst) of Bnha, especially president Kai, so... send some my way

[findroleplay]

Hi there, 18+ rper looking for a brand new rps with 18+ partners! 🔫

About me: I rp on Discord, I'm literate and can go up to novella! Multi-para, and third person! I love to chat ooc! Sharing ideas, arts, music and memes about our ship and all is amazing!

What I'm looking for: A literate / novella 18+ partner! RP-wise, I'm looking for something with a nice balance between angst, drama, and fluff and comfort. I prefer romance, and MxM, my OCs are transmascs. For the fandom RPs, I don't do double-ups. Please do not message me for double-ups or for pairings other than the ones I post here.

Pairings: CoD: Simon 'Ghost' Riley (you) x OC (me) BNHA: OC (me) x Bakugou / other M character The Boys: M character (you) x OC (me) Stranger Things: OC (me) x Eddie / Billy / Steve Scream: Idk, I like Billy and Stu and I got a serial killer OC

And that's all! If you're interested, leave a note, and note that lately I've been having quite a craving for angst lmao

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[niks-minion]

crack request of me right now but... is it bad that i kinda want this top three + deku teamup to fail 😭😭 or at least not go to plan.

like look, i get why the other kids got left behind, since they're neither deku the mc with the op power nor the top heroes with sometimes decades more experience, and the way horikoshi has been scaling their powers it's usually only deku who gets to have the bamf explosion of power moments outside of training (the other kids do help out for sure, but usually it involves careful planning like the put gigantomachia to sleep thing, and generally they're not allowed huge displays of power, so that makes u feel like they can't keep up with deku) but like... it rubs me the wrong way. what we're doing now is grooming deku to be the sole pillar (a concept proven shitty and unstable) while the other kids aren't granted the chance to have all might or whoever pay extra special attention to them. like all might sucks as a teacher tbh. even in 284 he has the other kids take time from their own training regiments to help deku instead of like... making up an exercise that benefits the whole class and deku. he left behind 39+ kids who looked up to him and needed guidance (basically implying they're not worth his time, are not gonna be able to make a difference) at a time when the world around them is falling apart.

and like... i get it, deku is the mc, he's gonna get special attention, he's gonna get the cool powers and the bonus training or whatever. im absolutely not mad about that. i'm also not expecting all the kids to get equal relevance or whatever. you could argue that we've got no time to waste on training the other kids and their feelings. but i can't help but be a bit frustrated that horikoshi created so many cool characters with so much potential only to have it seem like they'll end up sidelined. like it feels atp like the tertiary protagonist is endeavor not shouto.

and ig what im asking for is the other kids rising to the occasion. even if they don't have guidance from the symbol of peace or full support from the top three heroes, even if they don't have the generations passed down power, even if they're not the chosed one, even if they're left out of plans and treated like they're secondary, id like to see them defy expectations. I'd like to see a scenario where the old heroes won't cut it and where the kids take charge to bring about some genuine change in both the world and the hero system. i want to see a scenario where the current plan fails and they need to be bailed out by the kids (+everyone else). i'd like to see the other kids grow out of both a desire to be great heroes and spite lmaoo

like i know this is probably irrational wish fulfillment on my end, and im not a writer so this probably wouldn't make for a cool story to anyone but me, but damn do i want it and damn do i miss the kids.

Ok. Hello my dear anon. Now that’s a long ask.

Ok. Warning. My opinion may be a bit biased, and also more focused on the origin trio than the whole class, bc let’s be honest it was obvious from the start there the main focus would be.

1. Let’s start with the fact that I’m not a Deku hater. Yes I make jokes, yes the sole focus on him makes me bitter bc we all have our favorites and want them to shine, yes I’m dying to see tdbk team up, bite me. That doesn’t mean that me, you or any other person wishing to get smth more is a “die Deku die!” enthusiast.

2. Your opinion is valid and understandable. Honestly, I get it. More so I think that’s gonna be the case bc come on, you can’t tell me that this dream team is gonna just kick a couple of asses, scream “plus ultra” and restore the whole country back to normal. I call bullshit. I’ve heard the guess that it may be a mirror to Katsuki’s kidnapping during the forest arc. (Would be cool bc the whole class could come to the picture and save him, plus Deku realizing he’s not alone etc etc)

3. About Deku being op and others being in his shadow.

Well, yep, as you’ve said- our broccoli boy is the mc, so 🤷🏻‍♀️

But taking jjk for example I don’t feel bitter about Megumi. And in Haikyuu I didn’t feel bitter literally about any character, especially Kageyama, god damn it’s the most satisfying shonen manga for those who has “I usually like mc’s bff/rival more” mindset. (it’s me)

That’s why I’m gonna die in the hill of denial that in bnha at least Bakugou and Todo are not gonna end up eating dirt and be satisfied with the average place somewhere behind Izuku.

Welcome to my praying circle, let’s sit and drink cola/wine while waiting for tumblr to go mad with the frames of other class 1A ( 2a now) kids. Plus Shinsou. Plus shiketsu kids, why the fuck Inasa wasn’t at the war arc, wind throwing villains here and there?!

4. The most irritating thing for me is this.

And this

Again, I totally get it. They need to protect ofa. What’s the better place for it than being sandwiched between top to heroes. And yes you can say the others are just kids and dealing with real life threats is too early for them. Deku simply has no choice. I’m ok with it.

But holy shit, was I disappointed to witness this exact frame...Yeah, yeah, call me Shouto simp, whatever man. But the build up, the “here is my hand, let’s fight together”... it’s only natural for me to to wish Todo was there too. I’m craving for Shouto/Hawks/Enji team up.

About Deku’s arms. Excuse me, but... it had so great drama potential. That he injured his arms and for now is unable to use them to the full capacity or something. I’m a sucker for a good angst so🤷🏻‍♀️ but then it was solved just like that? Ok, what did stop you to order these gauntlets like half a year ago, ha?

Welp, It’s for the reason that our duo is out of the picture. Suspiciously so.

Let’s wait a bit and hope for the best.

[bookwyrminspiration]

I don't know if you're going to see this but I'm new to the keeper fandom (I'm a heathen that doesn't read the source material because it's expensive and it's funny having no content) but I absolutly /adore/ this account and am currently going through each post because I crave detailed analyses of different media and characters and you deliver wonderfully! I am also very interested in your wings Au but I've got so much school work and haven't got around to reading it, but what you you rate it on an agnst scale to someone who. Doesn't read angst?

Also I hate you now /I'm/ thinking about the waste management /j

But in all honesty I feel like they would leave it to the gnomes to sort it out, maybe they have a team that just shoves it in human dumps so that they can rid their hands of it and continue to thrash the humans reputation towards elves?

hello, heathen! i am going to see this! welcome to the fandom, it's always fun to have new people. honestly, fair enough about not reading the source material. not everyone has access to libraries and buying an eight and a half book series isn't always cheap--I mean, the keeper series probably cost me at lest 200 dollars in total over the several years I acquired them, and that's with owning several of them in paperback! definitely not cheap! but it can also be a lot of fun just trying to puzzle things together and knowing some of the basics but nearly none of how things work (that's how I am with bnha. my sister is really into anime right now and watches it with the whole family, but I don't really care for it and just look things up and get spoilers all the time and I love it. same with demon slayer and promised neverland)

but ahh!! thank you!! I adore you in return, nonsie. you sent this a few days ago so hopefully you enjoyed your stroll through my numerous posts about keeper! oh damn this reminded me that I need to update my character analysis masterpost. I've been meaning to do that for several days. but back to what you were saying! I love doing detailed analyses of niche aspects of these characters, so I'm glad you like reading them! I mean, i literally did a post theorizing on why Tam actually likes to wear black and once wrote several hundred words debunking a single inaccurate line from one book (Neverseen) just because it bugged me so much. so if that's up your alley, you're definitely in the right place! I simply do not know how to shut up /pos

as for the wings au: don't feel pressured to read it if you don't want to! if you stick around, you may notice me talking about it a lot, but that's just because it's a pretty big project and I like sharing it (in fact, I was working on it just before I started answering this ask), but you can absolutely interact with me and any of my content without paying attention to the wings au stuff at all. and it's pretty long, so completely understandable that you haven't gotten around to reading it! honestly don't even know if I would have time to read my own wings au...but moving on! for the angst thing, you might actually be able to find a few asks about it a little further back on my blog (I can't find it at the moment but I know it's there). one person said that as they are someone who prefers fluff, the wings au is the angstiest thing they've ever read. I don't think the au is downright bad, and there are certain things I can guarantee (like I can tell you right now none of the crew will die in this au), but there's a lot of other things that are up in the air. I can say that there is a warning before every chapter listing all the common triggers I can think to list (and if anyone has any personal triggers they are more than welcome to ask me to tag them). so even if a chapter is more dramatic than some of the others, you wouldn't be going in unprepared. i tag things like panicking, fighting, blood, mental spiraling, getting injuries, mentions of medical things, but it not much worse than what's in canon.

i think a lot of the angst comes from Sophie's introspection and attempts to understand herself and less from just reckless relationships and a desire to get hurt, if that makes sense. I guess overall I would say that it is angsty. not the angstiest thing out there, so if you've read angst maybe a 3 or 4? but if you've only read fluff before I'd knock it up to a 5 or 6. then again these are my personal opinions, and as I am someone who has read more angst my ratings are probably skewed.

so if that seems daunting you don't need to read the au if you don't want to! the only thing that would really affect your time here (if you choose to stick around! no pressure!) is that every other sunday is usually dedicated to the au, both with me posting the newest chapter and then prioritizing asks about it because it's relevant. doesn't mean i won't accept or answer other asks, just that they're usually not the first thing on my mind. so aside from that, reading or not reading the wings au shouldn't affect your ability to vibe and interact on here <33

but also like my waste management question is legit--what is their system? I've never heard Sophie mention a trash can before, so do they have them?? and then there's also the whole thing with sewers. all the houses have running water and functional bathrooms, but a lot of the houses are also in the middle of nowhere, so do they just...have their own filtration system?? or however that works? but seriously do they even create waste at all? I know they use paper, but what do they do with it?

it does feel like one of those problems the gnomes would be portrayed as being happy to solve because "the lost cities are out home" and they love helping and they don't need sleep and they're super efficient. and the elves would be very grateful and take advantage of them. idk I just think it's weird. and your idea of them dumping it into human landfills to make them seem worse fits well with the idea nilnaea brought up a few days ago about the elves not actually helping the humans with all that historical stuff, just taking the credit.

to summarize: welcome to the fandom! I'm glad you're here and flattered you like my blog! I'm here essentially all of the time, so feel free to send asks about anything and everything to do with the series and things you just like in general (I may be very kotlc focused but my propensity for talking ceaselessly does not end with this series). I hope you enjoy your time here!!