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la-cocotte-de-paris · 1 year ago

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What are your experiences with drugs?

Just weed tbh. But I never purchased anything, I'd just join the circle at parties. Haven't touched it in almost a year now just bc I've been in a different environment.

#mixed it with drinking alcohol but that's it nothing crazy at all #i had been quite curious to actually smoke opium but obviously that's stupid #i would also love to try ayahuasca but I've heard the revelations are only useful once you're in your 30s or 40s #and tbh idk if I'd call that a 'drug' per se #the effects of drugs do facinate me tho from a scientific point of view #I'd love to see more research into it and more aids for rehabilitation etc #I'm boring ik lol

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demuredeadbeat · 1 day ago

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I don't consider myself part of 'the queer community'. I actively avoid groups, labels, gatherings. I don't need to describe why.

But is transandrophobia one of the reasons?

Lol, duh. No shit.

#deadbeat talks.#trans nsft #gay nsft #mlm nsft #transandrophobia #transmisandry #misandry #'being a man must be so boring' 'don't you just hate it when men' 'being a gay can't be a choice bc who would willingly pick men?'#choke?? lol.#vent post #personal vent #hell repackaged and internalized homophobia is just shoved in my face by fellow gay men like. im not laughing at your self hatred.#i like men. you wanna be friends with the manhaters so bad go kiss them then. since kissing men is SUCH a fucking pain.#you wanna specify bigots specify bigots. you wanna specify trends specify trends.#you're not specifying when you fucking say men and congrats i don't wanna hang around your fucking fem only club.#saw 'being a man must be so boring' as a reel comment and ik exactly who they meant and ik exactly who it actually hits.#not interested not interested not interested blocked blocked blocked - I'm very. Fucking. Tired.#Ive ditched several 'friends'. girls. fem aligned ppl. nonbinary ppl. 'oh im not talking about like- TRANS men-' I'll say it again. choke.#i did not work through cultural fearmongering as a child teaching me to be scared of my male classmates and scared of my masculine self.#i did not work through unlearning homophobia and accepting femininity through detaching dysphoria from hating all things feminine.#i did not learn the difference between toxic masculinity and healthily being oneself and ultimately accepting myself as a man.#i did not go through being accepting myself as tomboy girl then a hesitantly queer nonbinary then a finally steady trans man.#to have practically EVERYTHING I FUCKING SEE from supposed allies queers and feminists be 'lol men amirite'.#again.#choke.#i did not learn the markers of abuse assault and true predatory behavior and how it was separate from gender and anyone could do it.#for ppl to then turn on ME for being a man.#you want your abusive boyfriend your misogynistic father your creeper uncle your hatecriming classmates whoever to treat you as a person.#you're not. talking. to all. men.#and you're sure as shit not talking to me.

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buglaur · 1 year ago

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rufus is learning how to grow his own nectar ingredients, sawyer is bonding with the newest residents, tiny tilly is no longer tiny and mack is taking over horse maintenance duty!

#ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 gameplay #horseranchgp #boring posts recently ik i'm sorry #it gets good tmrw <3 #i've been having fun playing and taking bare minimum screenshots lol #i've got a 4 post long queue now tho!!!#biggest its been this gameplay

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beehop · 4 months ago

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#park junhee #junhee #a.c.e #i had to keep the collection (mostly) complete #maybe i should have made a specific tag for these lol i don't usually post original things what's the protocol here #and ik byeongkwan has one he needs to post it bestie please where are your photobooth pics #if i'm bored enough tomorrow maybe i'll try to do the sehyoon 6 cut with the stupid text in the way #the text is mostly over the red area so i think i can remove it but...no guarantees

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forest-fairy-wren · 4 days ago

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askbjfh why must i feel so shit and anxious all the fucking time???? can't i just be happy and feel safe and not constantly on edge??? maybe have some motivation too?? maybe stop being such a disappointment all the time??

#ik it's irrational but like. i bet everybody hates me lol #i'm boring and a disappointment and awkward and stupid #idk why people continue to tolerate me 😭#anyway whatever #wren vents

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foreverxdaydreaming · 2 months ago

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#just needed to vent for a sec but oh god am i tired of people #'friends' both irl and online got me fucked up lately #mental healths been in the shitter almost nonstop this year #familys always got me up the wall #i just feel like I'm constantly treading water and i am *tired*. like so fucking TIRED #it's never enough; it's too much; no not like that; but not that either; it's all wrong wRoNg WrOnG #ik im sleep deprived and possibly pms-y and that is most certainly not helping things rn but...#gods i see less and less of a reason to get out of bed and bother with anything ever again #wtf is the purpose #i can't keep friends to save my life bc im apparently a fuckin doormat and interesting as unflavored rice or smth #how hard is it to feel like you maybe sorta kinda matter and aren't an unlovable worthless piece of shit #years of therapy; trying meds; everything under the sun.... and nothing. lows and highs and dips of every kind and yet ..nothing #and maybe im just very much in my feelings rn and just yelling into the void.. but it hurts and im tired of pretending it doesn't.#i hate how hard it is to make friends as an adult especially irl. and how gossipy and cliquey and gross and mean ppl can be #of getting called childish and naive and boring for wanting to be a decent person and having interests outside of partying #(not attacking those traits but tired of getting attacked for *not* being 'fun' enough or 'social' enuf or 'sensitive' for having feelings)#enough*#i just want to go eat drywall and stand in the rain and let it help me pretend im not crying blood rn.#like every cell in my body isn't trying to spontaneously combust.#'it gets better' ..yeah? when. when i was 14? when i was 23? when im 37? when im 55? 82? WHEN.. bc im so sick and tired #and no this isn't me writing a final note or whatever it sounds like; i just wanted to word vomit bc ive never been good w sadness #and ive got such an overwhelming amount of it rn i can't even turn it into anger & spite & use that for productivity... i just want to rot #to lie down and be covered by plants as i sleep and just slowly fade into a cloud or smth like it's a ghibli movie or wtv.#im like shaking from how stupidly emotional i feel rn. the lack of empathy these days is fuckin astounding #common sense & empathy are lacking in absolutely droves these days. some days i hate the internet & tech for its irreparable damages sm #but here we are and here it shall remain. long after us; and *long* after us ..... *sigh*#anyway ima go try to take a nap or smth. I'll see ya when i see ya. take care my lovelies #if u read all this i prob owe you a cookie lol

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applesaucesims · 1 year ago

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Pt. 2: Babies and Chores (1301-1303) Light TW for child loss

Nikolaus and Klara have picked up new hobbies, since there isn't all that much to do outside of their farm chores.

Not sure if you can see, but Klara no longer has her baby bump. Their first daughter, born in 1301, unfortunately was a stillborn. Her name would have been Dorothea.

Well, this means getting to work on the second attempt as soon as possible.

Nikolaus being smelly and fishing for dinner. And also looking adorable because just look at his lil smile!

The fish is immediately prepared for a grand dinner. It has been a while, but I know for sure this was for Easter. Since the original rules start in England, but I based my game in Germany, I researched which holidays were celebrated in Germany at the time and the traditions for them myself.

The second child and she made it! Her name is Helene Huber and she was born in 1302.

Work on the farm doesn't wait. So, even after giving birth, Klara is right back to reaping the harvest. I also may have been harvesting a bit too often at first, but I changed that later because it was getting too easy.

Anyways, you know what also doesn't wait? The need for an heir. So here we go again trying for a baby!

We're currently in 1303 and Helene has grown into a (sad) toddler!

But thankfully the farm animals are there to cheer her up! Yeah, she also has her parents, but they are busy with the farm.

Speaking of the farm, here's what it currently looks like! We've got a big field of crops and a bunch of animals, accompanying the little typical medieval German farm house. The toilet is, of course, outside in the outhouse and there's a small hot spring pond under the biggest tree on the lot.

Pt. 1

#ts4 #sims 4 #ultimate decades challenge #nikolaus huber #klara huber #helene huber #looking through all my screenshots i'm worried the next few gens are gonna be very boring to post since there is so few pics #so i've decided to take a few more pics from now on again lol #now being in the 1420s lol #ik it's been a while since i last posted about this but i don't wanna post too often since there isn't really a story #edit: forgot to put stuff under the cut but i just remembered i was gonna do that lmao

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violentlydefending · 24 days ago

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genuinely always so shocked to see mirei hate. like literally god forbid women do anything.

#y5 haters in general... does playable haruka mean nothing to you...#DOES SHINADA TATSUO MEAN NOTHING TO YOU...#for legal reasons this is a joke people are allowed to feel however they want about whatever it's just viddy games #and i fully acknowledge y5 and its litany of flaws #of which there are certainly enough for any given individual to justifiably dislike/hate its entirety but I AM A Y5 LOVER THRU AND THRU #saejima's arc is just an arguably less interesting rehash of the one he had in 4?#(jail; jailbreak; betrayed by his lil buddy guy #but now we're sans the interesting character stuff of his feelings regarding the hit. & also i miss his hair.#& that's not even to say i think saejima is boring in y5 i think there's some interesting subtext to take away from his character #unique to this entry but it's pretty hard to deny how much is literally just y4 again but now he's bald)#BUT WHO GAFS he got buffed to hell gameplay-wise and punches bears now #and also baba's a great character and he doesn't have to do a whole chase minigame if a cop sees him anymore #bloated/unfocused feeling in general to the game?#WELL THAT'S JUST MORE CONTENT BABY!!! only a real issue if you're a completionist imo #+ are u telling me you don't wanna drive a taxi? u don't wanna play a video game in which the goal is to drive as normally as possible?#and i loveeeee multiple protagonists yay <3 y0 y4 and y5 are my favs so far lol (up to y6)#kiryu's inclusion in y5 also feels way more justified than in y4. he was so tacked on there i'm trying to remember what he even really did #other than tiger dropping as a boss fight before instantly forgetting how to tiger drop the second he became playable #and losing track of yasuko and getting tag-teamed by akiyama and tanimura (cough) and beating up daigo #but in exchange akiyama becomes the protag that feels kinda tacked on in y5. way less so than kiryu in y4 tho for sure #anyway. weird/strangely justified plot beats? WELL THAT'S JUST EVERY YAKUZA GAME #an arguably strange/poor writing choice for majima especially given how he ended up being written in y0?#well honestly other than the age thing i think it makes him more interesting... he's kinda fucked up!#but i do get why people are /really/ not a fan of it. ik i just said i think it makes him more interesting but if it gets retconned #or even just never mentioned again i wouldn't be surprised tbh and i wouldn't say that i'd mind either #but additionally he's not even a major character in y5 so it feels like it's not really a significant complaint imo #anyway anyone can do this ('this' being acknowledging the flaws of a thing and then letting how much they otherwise enjoy #said thing determine how much they let said flaws influence their overall opinion) ...such is the beauty of subjectivity... i love you.#contra.txt #yakuza

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halfdeadwallfly · 4 months ago

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also i gotta tell ya

i am so. fucking obsessed. with jonathan sims ohhhhhh my god

he's so ?? ridiculous?? dramatic???? for good reason?????? idk just finally getting to actually meet his character outside of the absurd statement readings is just so fun and i am soooo hyped to see where it goes

#boink #tma #i also am loving sasha and martin #i've been around here enough that ik jon and martin is a canon(?) ship which tracks i think for where im at in the series atp #i dont think ik too too much abt sasha already?#but i am a fan #she just has great vibes idk #for some reason im kind of finding tim annoying so far #for like no discernable reason #i just #don't like him lol #also maybe this isn't right but for some reason i had the memory of seeing that elias ends up being like evil or something? idk #but he's been fairly boring so far anyway #but yeah #jon fucking sims #i'm fascinated

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bigmonsteras · 2 years ago

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meanings of "Heiwa to Kazuhira no Blues"

PW has several characters with names that symbolize "peace". As already mentioned, two of them are Paz and Kaz. Paz means peace in Spanish and Kaz is Kazuhira, meaning peace. Peace(平和) and Kazuhira(和平) mean slightly different things. That is the theme of PW.

PW is a story of men who intervene in the name of peace (Paz) to help a country without an army but are eventually taken in by the "20th century's system of deterrence."

From Showa to Heisei. The "wa" of the Showa era. The "hei" of the Heisei era. "Wahei" expresses the century-long "wish for peace" of the Japanese people. The "original CD" of PW by Kaz and Snake was created based on such a theme.

The following two character songs will be included in the PW drama CD to be released in September. Both connect Showa and Heisei, Kazuhira and Heiwa. Snake (Akio Otsuka) "Showa Blues" Kazuhira (Tomokazu Sugita) "Minato no Yoko Yokohama Yokosuka"

↓ 和 wa = peace, harmony, serenity 平 hei = flat; flattened / something ordinary 平和 heiwa = peace (peaceful situation/state) 和平 wahei = peace (ending a war, wish or act for it, used in context like 'peace talks' etc.) "Kazuhira" is a native reading for the kanji

knowing the background also gives a bit more meaning to how miller later chooses to abandon this name given by his mother

#mgs #ik ik no one cares lol #but i'm bored & hangover rn so✍️#monsteradds #peace walker

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smol-tired-binch-blog · 1 year ago

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At this rate I'm not gonna be able to unmute Gaiden spoilers before adding Infinite Wealth spoilers am I

#smol speaks #I'm gonna be waiting ages before I can click spoiler tags on Discord cgfvbhjnghbjnk #but like i AM kinda sad cause it's like the brainrot is fading? but it's not? the problem is it hyperfocused itself onto a character who wa #there for 2 games. yes i can say 'he's alive to me' as much as i like but it's funny coping denial. i am still legit upset by this fact lol #AGAIN ik it's dumb but he means a lot to me and i love him and it does make me sad when people go 'HES DEAD LMAO' and like. that's the joke #in and of itself yknow? like im somehow dumb for wishing a character received better? but that's a different post entirely #POINT IS im already bored with 6. im bored of Kiryu. i want to see Ichiban but we dont play JRPGs so that may take a while as well. and THE #we play Gaiden. oh fuck when are we gonna play Ishin??? damn there's a lot to play #anyway all this to say Nishiki is still my gf but something about the games and fandom are slowly losing me but not just the regular #'hyperfixation is dying down' way cause i still have a lot to say i just. am i having less fun? maybe? a little bit?

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witchyvixie · 1 year ago

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finally got tiki properly playing again =w=

#she's spent like. a month or so only half-heartedly playing #and ik it's just bc she got bored of toys easily #so I took some of her favorite yarn and put it on a fishing rod toy #ik she'll get bored of it eventually but I'm just really happy to see her run around like a kitten again :3 #gotta get her a bigger variety of toys so I can rotate them to keep her engaged #old girl is hard to please lol

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birdietrait · 2 years ago

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hihi birdie! how's your day going??

hiii !! i've had a pretty good day so far 😊 i went on a car ride (which is hands down my favorite thing to do...i am a golden retriever at heart apparently) with my dad bc he needed to run some errands <3

#birdie replies #i need to get my license so bad lol #i'm boring ik JDKSKD

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kuiinncedes · 6 months ago

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:D