#I'm an anti and I'm proud 💜

[mizisuaenthusiast]

Introduction

Call me Li shu, I have a ding dong and I'm a minor. Pansexual and Genderfluid (I'm way too lazy to add colors) any pronouns will do, I don't really care.

I have mixed Chinese and Filipino genes (I grew up in the philippines however)

I am a victim of sexual assault and grooming. Good things about me, this shittt harrddd 😭😭🙏 anyway have a normal mindset and I'll treat you with decency 💜💜

Bad things about me, well....take a guess💜 and this account is a whole different persona. So anyone who knows me in a specific app.....

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IMPORTANT NOTE

Finally decided not to interact and engage with proshitters any further (recommended by my therapist) at first I was being stubborn and persisted about my decisions on continuing to ruffle some feathers (proshitters) and engaging in back and forth replies but whatever. My therapist is RIGHT, I shouldn't waste my time on engaging further with these weirdos who obviously needs help. (I made this after a therapy session)

Anyway I'm STILL making anti-proship posts

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DNI (DO NOT INTERACT)

Literally the basic criteria of DNI (tw!!)

— proship

⠀⠀— anti anti, pro fiction, com ship, etc

⠀⠀— you ship illegal ships

— incest, pedophilia, etc

⠀⠀— you think fiction doesn't affect reality

⠀⠀— you sexualize minors

⠀⠀— you fetishize lgbtq+ pairings

⠀⠀— you identify as a minor attracted person/pedophile

⠀⠀— you identify as a fujoshi/fudanshi

⠀⠀— you romanticize or glorify problematic media

⠀⠀— you romanticize or glorify problematic tropes in media, mental illnesses, self harm, physical, sexual, or emotional abuse/assault, rape and other illegal or immoral tropes

— racist

⠀⠀— xenophobic

⠀⠀— sinophobic

⠀⠀— colorist

⠀⠀— orientalist

⠀⠀— anti blm

⠀⠀— anti black

⠀⠀— anti stop asian hate

⠀⠀— you say slurs you can't reclaim

⠀⠀— you think people in racial minorities can't also be racist

⠀⠀— you think white people can be oppressed for being white

⠀⠀— etc

— anti lgbtq+

⠀⠀— homophobic, lesbiphobic, biphobic, panphobic, etc

⠀⠀— transphobic

⠀⠀— transmed/truscum, radfem, terf

⠀⠀— anti neopronouns or xenogenders

⠀⠀— anti non-she/her lesbians or non-he/him gays

⠀⠀— exclusionist

⠀⠀— radical inclusionist

⠀⠀— etc

— zionist

⠀⠀— pro israel

⠀⠀— pro idf

⠀⠀— anti palestine

⠀⠀— etc

— sexist

⠀⠀— misogynistic

⠀⠀— transmisogynistic

⠀⠀— you think men can be oppressed for being men

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Interests

alien stage, identity v, honkai star rail, reverse 1999, mononoke (2007 and 2024), nanbaka, danganronpa trigger happy havoc/goodbye despair/killing harmony, junji ito, bungou stray dogs, blue lock, persona 5, demon slayer and many more

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Characters I LOVE to a concerning amount

ITHAQUA(Night Watch), RICHARD STERLING(Knight), Michiko (Geisha), Galatea(Sculptor), Joseph Desaulniers(Photographer), Edgar Valden(Painter) ── Identity V

Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, Sua, did I mention Sua? Mizi, Luka── Alien Stage

Medicine Pocket, Tennant, Argus, Zima(Зима), Getian, Lucy ── Reverse 1999

MICHAEL KAISER, Chigiri Hyoma, Sae Itoshi ── Blue Lock

Ren Amamiya/Akira Kurusu, Futaba Sakura, Ann Takamaki ── Persona 5

OTHER FAVS

Braz Daniel Blood, Hydra Bell ── Blood Lad

Medicine Seller (both 2007 and 2024), Kame, Asa ── Mononoke (2007/2024)

KOKOMI TERUHASHI, SAIKI KUSUO, Nendou Riki ── The Disastrous Life of Saiki K

Jiaoqiu, Ling Sha, Stelle, Aventurine, Robin, Sparkle ── Honkai Star Rail

Epel Felmier, Riddle Rosehearts, Skully J. Graves, Idia Shroud, Ace Trappola ── Twisted Wonderland

[moviecritc]

june 18th ⋆ oscar piastri smau

pairing: oscar piastri x singer!reader

summary: everyone thinks that your new album is about break up and that you ended your relationship with your boyfriend

warnings: hate comments

a/n: i used midnights by taylor swift, it fits perfectly with the plot <3

english is not my first language, sorry for the mistakes

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user1 IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING?

user2 TEASING A NEW ALBUM???

user3 everybody stay calm GEWUIEORLGNFDSKVBGFDSFG

user4 FINALLYYYYY, it's been almost two years we miss singer y/n

user5 wait why isn't oscar in the likes?? 👀

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yourusername 'MIDNIGHTS' out June 18th 🌙🥀☁️

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user1 sabrina, billie, girl in red and now y/n WE ARE BEING FED

user2 LET'S GOOO

yourbff ok i'm so excited <33

user3 THE COVER, THE MAN AT THE BAACK

user4 it's giving break up album user1 it HAS to be a break up album user5 the tracklist feels very sad

user6 GUYS WHERE'S OSCAR.

user7 this can't be happening rn

user8 JUNE 18TH COME FASTTT

user9 guys, guys, june 18. 18 backwards is 81, OSCAR'S RACE NUMBER

user10 OH WE'RE GOING TO CRY WITH THIS ALBUM

user11 wait but we saw them together past month, i don't think she could wrote the album so fast

user12 idc IT'S GOING TO BE A BREAK UP ALBUMMM

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yourusername Some pics from the making off of 'midnights' 🌙

ps. when should i drop the first single?

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user1 wait she looks so happy

user2 she's healing from tha oscar guy

user3 DROP IT NOOOOWWW

user4 lando in the likes??

landonorris 😍

user5 ok this is taking a weird path now user6 he has never liked any of the posts on yn in all these years AND NOW HE'S COMMENTING user7 ARIANA WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE user8 this wasn't in my 2024 bingo card honestly

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user1 tf you think you're to hurt y/n user2 thank god you broke up with y/n, she deserves way better than this user3 not this guy thinking he could pull y/n user4 i hope you don't win any race for what you did to y/n

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yourusername Sometimes all that a girl needs is terrorizing herself for 3:20 minutes. Anti-Hero mv is now yours 🌙🌙🌙

Writing and directing this mv was an amazing experience, huge thanks to all the crew that make this possible.

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user1 SLAY AND SERVED CUNT

user2 MOTHER

user3 it's giving tyler durden and the narrator ngl

user4 THE "EVERYONE WILL BETRAY YOU" SCENE?? OSCAR YOU'RE DEAD

user5 AND THE ORANGE IS ALL OVER THA MV (that is oscar's color team) user6 WHO TF THIS MAN THINK HE IS?? dude hasn't even achieve anything and has the courage to hurt y/n user7 FRR, i love him when he was supportive with her, but now? he better hide himself user8 oscar we're coming from you

user9 wait oscar is back in the likes

user10 he can leave honestly, we don't want him here

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yourusername I know the album drops in one week, but... here's the Lavender Haze music video. Starring me and @oscarpiastri 💐

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user1 this is probably the most iconic thing anyone has ever done

user2 NOW THIS IS HOW YOU BEAT ALLEGATIONS

oscarpiastri my girl, i'm so proud of you ✨

user4 COUPLE GOALS. COUPLE GOALS COUPLE GOALS user5 oh shut up you were hating on him two days before user3 the fact that LANDO had to interfere bc of all the hate to oscar

user6 i'm so happy for them 💜

landonorris i wasn't aware of that part of you mr piastri

user7 so it's not a break up album

user8 it's literally a love letter 😩😩

lilymhe you guys are the cutest can't wait to the album to drop

yourusername you're so sweet lily 💖 user10 i need them to be friends user11 PLEASE

user9 ugh i'm so lonely

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oscarpiastri happy midnight release day for those who celebrate 💜

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landonorris booo go get a room

[antisepticcrayon]

Posting here too! Just so I can give a longer explanation a bit for the few pieces I've been able to scramble for Sean.

Now I'm not the best at drawing people so it's very rare that I get to try to draw fanart for Sean and the community but I'll share the few I've been able to do!

Starting with the spring banner I made for Sean's server! Has to be one of my favorites becos I loved how it turned out and the fact that I somehow won the banner contest. It's always such a funny shock to go onto the server and see my art there. I've never been so proud of an accomplishment like that.

Next up is the Chase brody youtooz plush concept. Now I did this for kicks and giggles (/hj. Please Sean. We need sad dad plushies.) But it was pretty funny that that reference sheet got way more attention than I thought. And at the time of iris being fairly new was also so funny to me. He looks so sad. I need 17 of them.

King of the daisies portrait! My one piece of fanart that got the most recognition from the community! I spent a grueling 5-6 hours on this piece. It was during a time of art block so I wanted to try drawing realism for a month (didn't go exactly a month but I tried!) And this was my second attempt of the month and it came out so well. I absolutely adore it. And the inspiration came from when Sean announced that white daisies were his favorite flowers. So of course to honor the flow3r king, I did that for him. (Also another reason the banner, he's wearing a daisy crown!)

And finally the anti portrait. This one I made at work actually right before I was contacted for winning a meet and greet ticket to face time Sean through moment house. And to calm my nerves for the next couple days, I worked on this piece. (I referenced an art piece done by turquoise magpie I believe for this one!) But also another part of my month realism challenge!

The 2 realistic portraits hold a special place in my heart. Becos even through the horrendous wifi (and my uncontrollable anxiety) and cutting out during my meet and greet, I had the chance to show him them. I just didn't get to hear or see his reactions properly but the fact I showed him at all for him to see was more than enough.

Annnd then these last art pieces (I'm frankly TERRIFIED of showing. Unsure if it counts as fanart buttt)

These first 2 photos are reference pieces for my "JJ" inspired OC/Fursona. He is considered my comfort character who I tend to draw and doodle whenever I'm feeling down or having a bad day. Jameson (and chase) are my favorite egos and I find comfort in them. Not sure why, but I do. I feel like they just came at times I was struggling the most and brought joy to me though. Just Sean in general has done as such.

And the last photo is a book cover I created for a short story I'm writing with my self insert OC and chase Brody (along with the other egos).

The short story takes part of a community I'm in that surrounds giant/smalls/humans folklore and certain cultures surrounding a time of creatures big and small, Aka G/T! Think of any fairy tales like jack and beanstalk or even japenese animes like the secret world of ariety or movies and books like "The borrowers". (Another comfort for me. I find writing helpful as well for bad days and to also center and express myself again)

Anyways one of my favorite human pieces I've ever completed on my own through lots of practice and failed sketches (my good friend zora rendered and shaded it for me! Actual drawing, linework and coloring done by me!)

Anyways, I hope I'm not overstaying my welcome so I'll cut it off here!

I thank you both for doing this revival! I was never able to participate truely with "septicart" but I'm glad I can right now through this :)

Thanks for reading!

- Dj💜

(I apologize if my wording is wacky! ADHD and dyslexia isn't a fun combination when trying to write and explain things ack)

@turquoisemagpie @rogue-of-broken-time

[plural-affirmations]

I've gathered thatvthis space is safe to vent to so I'm going to do that and... maybe ask for advice to lol. uh tw for lots of ableism btw!

So, when we first started realizing our system, we quickly decided to be anti-endo. As far as I know at least, I don't have the greatest memory in the world haha. But over time, we got fed up with it. We got fed up with the hatred of endos and our opinion started changing a bit, and by the time this next bit happened we wouldn't really be considered anti-endo at all, but we still followed and interacted with anti-endo blogs because we didn't want to push back and get harassment for uhhh, not hating endos. look, it's happened before, I've seen it a lot, so I was scared. So we just said nothing on syscourse.

But then, something happened. I had a realization. We aren't just traumagenic. Like, half my subsystem and a few of our main systems alters are likely endogenic! And now I don't know what to do. I feel like I don't fit into either spaces anymore. This is the only blog that feels safe right now. I don't know how to go about understanding ourself as endogenic as well, which is the part I thought you could maybe understand better than me

So I guess also, thank you? For giving me a nice place to go when I'm worried. Also you don't have to post this if you don't want and sorry if I was wrong about it being OK to vent here or something. Have a good day/night.

Well, strangely enough, I went through an extremely similar thing myself a few years ago. It's only been in the last year or so that we've been open about our origins and our support of non-traumagenic systems.

So, first off, I want to say: it's ok to change over time! It's ok to grow and have your opinions or outlook on life to drastically differ from who you were even a few months ago. That's the beautiful part about being here, and in case no one has said it recently... I'm really proud of you!

As for not knowing how to go about this sudden realization... I think the most important thing is to be patient with yourselves, and be open minded. You're already doing great on both of those fronts from where I'm looking at it, so you're on the right track!

Figuring out you're not quite the same as you thought you were can come as a big shock. But it's what you do with that information that matters, y'know? You know now that this is who you are. Now, you just have to learn to love the new you, wholeheartedly and unabashedly. That's really what most everyone I know is trying to do, even singlets.

If you're looking for a specific term that fits you, there's a couple I could recommend! There's multigenic, mixed origins, polygenic, isoscegenic, etc... I'm not trying to overwhelm you, just trying to let you know there's options :) I suggest going to this Pluralpedia page and seeing what resonates:

I hope this helps!!! Please feel free to follow up if you need or want to! /gen

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[mrs-monaghan]

I know it's only a fashion event but he is the ambassador and even robert and eunwoo are going. I SAW THE FLIGHT JIMIN

then yoongi called and he canceled the flight💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

I'm doneeeeee

Bye

Bro, are you okay? You're sounding kind of off the rails rn

Let's go back in history and try to remember that Yoonmin are actually close and that Jimin has always supported Suga.

They have a very special relationship going and they respect and value one another. Look at this face. Look how proud and happy he was

Sidebar: I will never let Yoonminers forget JK was there too.

He brought Jimin to support Suga. I say he brought because JK would not have gone by himself and we know it. He was here coz Jimin was. Y'all stop conviniently 4getting that 😒

And then of course anon we have this year when Jimin made sure to go support Suga when he had time

So you need to calm down a little bit and not be so anti Suga here. Like I mentioned to an anon a while ago Jimin is not going to a torture chamber he's going to a concert to support one of this closest friends. I know u felt comfortable to come to me coz I have expressed my dislike for Jimin going to this concert to perform but at the end of the day I know he will do what he wants to do. Not what I want him to do.

And if he does indeed get on that stage (I doubt it) I will sure as hell enjoy the killer performance. It's not that serious anon, honestly. Infact, the fact that Jimin can turn down Dior seems kinda bad ass to me rn 😏😏🤭🤭

*inserts bad ass Jimin photo*

Anyway, let's always try to remember we dk what happens behind the scenes. You dk that Jimin is cancelling FOR Suga. U dk anything. And u never will unless Jimin ever discloses that.

U love Jimin so much? Then support all his decisions. Whether u agree with them or not. Mkay? 💜

[cannibalisticdespair]

Thank you for the delicious sibcon posting. T b h I followed you because we had a shared mutual and honestly. You kinda helped make everything my system has been processing/my gf has been helping me get used to click and it's like. Damn. Kinda ashamed to have been an anti, but I'm happily in the "who gives a fuck proshippers aren't hurting anyone we're having fun" category. - graven-mistakes

No problem! I’m glad I could help, and I’m proud of you for making those steps. Introspection and self-acceptance are both hard as shit. I hope things continue to improve 💜🖤💜

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[xjoonchildx]

Sweet Ana, sending you and all armys a big virtual hug. Especially my fellow Hobi biased armys c'mere🫂

Ever since he ended that live, it’s been hard looking at pictures without bawling my eyes out. BTS came into my life when i needed them the most, and in a way they really saved me. But this man in particular, he was my anti anxiety pill for the past 3 years. It’s been so hard watching him leave and yesterday the tears just wouldn’t stop. Today even the sky was crying as our sunshine was leaving😭 But my heart got all warm seeing our boys together again to send Hobi off, and i’m just so proud of him. 🥹

Let’s all pray/send our positive energy and manifestations out into the universe for Hobi. That he stays healthy, eats and sleeps well. And that our time apart will go by fast. 💜

you broke my heart with this 😭 😭 😭 

i mean, listen. i totally get that hobi is this fantastic, stable presence in your life and that he's important to you. let's keep it real: even though i haven't struggled in that same way and i don't know this man IRL, i still feel like i miss him! and that's kind of wild 🥴

but we will get him back and that's the good news. i can imagine they will all return from that time away from the stage with a ton of new ideas and songs and passions they will want to pursue. i'm so sad but at the same time so excited to see what's waiting on the other side.

sending love 💕

[beloved-not-broken]

Why isn't God intervening?

Between the public drag show ban in Tennessee and the sweeping censorship of children's books in Florida, the U.S. is becoming increasingly hostile to the LGTBQ community, especially transgender kids. As an out-and-proud trans adult living in the South, I'm starting to fear for my safety.

So of course the thought of "where's God in all this" has crossed my mind. ("Right here!" would be the instinctive Sunday school answer, but I definitely need more assurance given the circumstances.)

Hearing soundbites of politicians spew vile, angry rhetoric about people like me has already made me pessimistic about the fate of the LGBTQ community in this country; discovering that "The ACLU is tracking 399 anti-LGBTQ bills in the U.S." (as of writing this post) made me want to crawl into a cave and never come out again.

Which brings me back to the question I asked to begin with: why isn't God intervening? Well, there are signs that God is working behind the scenes. And as we know from Romans 8:28, God works all things for good—even in situations that were intended for evil.

Very few anti-LGBTQ bills are actually being passed.

Organizations like the Human Rights Campaign have successfully fought most of the bills that were introduced on the state level across the U.S. According to a recent press release:

"In 2022, politicians in statehouses across the country introduced 315 discriminatory anti-LGBTQ+ bills and 29 passed into law. Despite this, fewer than 10% of these efforts succeeded."

Psalm 50:6 says that "[God] is a God of justice," so clearly divine intervention is happening here.

Individuals, families, and organizations are challenging these bills in court.

The Legal Defense Fund has filed a lawsuit challenging the Stop Wrongs Against Our Kids and Employees (“Stop W.O.K.E.”) Act in Florida, which was designed to limit the discussion of race, gender, and sexuality in colleges and universities.

The ACLU has filed a lawsuit challenging a law in Arkansas that would prevent trans kids from receiving needed medical care, and would allow insurance companies to deny coverage to any Arkansas resident seeking gender-affirming medical care.

Plus, media outlets like Vice have come up with practical steps that we can take to fight for the rights of LGBTQ people across the U.S.

Proverbs 31:8-9 says that we should...

"Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy."

Clearly, God is behind these efforts, too.

Similar laws have been passed and repealed before.

In an interview with NPR, Jules Gill-Peterson (a historian and professor at Johns Hopkins University) said that laws like the drag show ban in Tennessee have been passed before, and they were eventually repealed. Who's to say this won't happen again?

It sounds a lot like what Ecclesiastes 3:15 says about the cyclical nature of life:

"Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before; and God will call the past to account."

No matter how often history repeats itself, God (the righteous judge) will always win.

What's happening across the country is terrifying, but take heart—God knows what's going on and is intervening behind the scenes. 💜

[fromjannah]

12, 13, & 20!! <33

hi faun!! 💜

12. Which story took the most research?

that's probably an old old story i had that was supposed to be a historical fiction about immortals that spanned over .. 1000 years i think? it was supposed to be global in scope also so it would've taken an absolute ridiculous amount of research. (i also abandoned that one. i have a problem.)

13. Which story has the most lore?

that is my dear dear soft sci-fi anti-imperalist family drama saga that i write with @sa-heelies. it's about these mildly superpowered cousins trying to find out what a scientific research company contracted to the american government did to their family (including but not limited to: experimentation, murder, and brainwashing). and there's a side plot with art thieves! everyone should ask me more about it bc i've been writing it for literally like 5 years and i'm super normal about it

20. What story are you the proudest of? Why?

that's probably one of my short stories, which are mostly about things you love consuming you whole. or a poem! i've written a few good poems. i'm also very proud of a lot of fics i've written, which is probably because i do not write as much original work as i should.

[1d1195]

Okay so this part was SOOO GOOD! I'm literally BUZZING with their reunion! I think it’s just so cute that she has kept so many notebooks about her and Harry even after all this time😭This speaks to the journal obsessed part of me lol and the fact that she thinks he’s moved on is CRAZY but im not surprised since she did get insecure about their relationship(fuck Lauren lol) so I ger her! The detail of the pic on the figure was just so 💔 bc MY MAN WOULD HAVE AND WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF HER😭 oh and that little part about how ‘hope” feels, bestie that was such a beautiful way to explain it! 

also the image of Harry in a fireman uniform… yeah I just know he’s so😵‍💫 is it kind of creepy he knew where she would be? Yeah but like idgaf THEY ARE SOULMATES so I'm choosing to believe that their bond was calling him to go there lol the KITTEN NAME DROP AFTER SO MANY YEARS MY HEART😭 but ugh god the mention of Lauren still being somewhat close to her MAKES ME WANT  TO SCREAM!!!(trust me I love it for the plot) Now I loved their balcony moment and it was nice to see how his instinct was just to take care of her! Oh tell me why I was giggling so hard about everyone’s reaction to Harry sending that text! And you know I love a good jealousrry moment even if it’s small! Though I did love the mention of how each of them mourns the loss of their friendship with her differently and going through a friendship breakup is just as painful! Was so sad for Louis :( BUT OVERALL I LIVED FOR THIS SAM!! So well written and I'm so excited where this story is going to go! Very excited!!! Loved it so much!

Hope you have a lovely and relaxing weekend! Wishing you the best! LOVE YOU!!-💜

I realized I was writing almost entirely from Harry's POV. I try REALLY hard to split the POVs from Harry and my MC. This part was completely uneven even after I added her part, but it just was SO much better from his perspective lol. But I did end up really loving the part I wrote from her POV. I thought the notebooks were a cute touch and I actually am really proud of the candle/hope analogy 😭🙈 sometimes I get an idea in my head and I'm like "It would be so cool if I could come up with something profound right now. Like John Green saying 'slowly, then all at once'." I'm not sure I'll ever get that, but I'll keep trying. But humbly, I do surprise myself with what I come up with solely because I have this moment of clarity where I'm like "Okay, I'm writing Harry Styles fanfic do I need to inform the masses about how I think roses are prickly and wildflowers are strong?" probs not. But it happens I suppose.

Spoiler/not spoiler I'm really looking forward to writing about her finding out that Harry hasn't moved on even a little 🤭 I'm glad you liked the journaling part! Our little writer girly wouldn't do anything less I don't think. I don't know if I knew you were a journal-er! I need to start keeping notes of you on my computer to consult after a year 😭 It would look like this:

has 4 dogs that don't like fireworks

studies psych (and takes way too many classes)

enjoys drag brunches and record stores

Paramore [Wikipedia page biographer?]

journals

enjoys thrifting (and can alter her finds!?)

Anti-Victoria's Secret

has a competent MALE therapist

But anyway 😭 I know you're more than this and I would so add more but it's a good starting point to keep track of things 💕

I probably glossed over the explanation of him just knowing where she was so YES we should assume it's just that soulmate connection that brought him to her. I SWEAR I saw an AI photo of him in a firefighting uniform. I'm also DESPERATELY trying to get on fireman TikTok for inspo and for my own personal gain 👀👀

I know we hate Lauren lol it's so funny what you guys pick up on because I don't even THINK about her at all when I think of this series 😭

I believe so fully that Harry would be the kind of guy that lays his jacket down on a puddle for her to walk across (probs shouldn't have said that, now I gotta come up with another analogy to write 🤣) so I wanted him to just fall right back into being so infatuated with her and taking care of her immediately. I figured I needed a mood lightener and them all worried about Harry was the best I could do on short notice 😅 I like to keep the friends in my stories as mostly minor characters (except for Traditional) mainly because I struggle to sustain prolonged interactions with others (I just want all my couples to live in their own little love bubbles). UGH I wanted to make him more jealous! But I think rationally, he wouldn't be jealous of his friends. Maybe I'll do it for the next part hehehehehe As it is not in my notes above, I believe I recall that you weren't TOTALLY into 1D but Louis was always denoted as the goofball and I think that was a gross underestimation of his emotions (see also the times I've said his lyrics are 👌) ANYWAY

Thank you for attending this week's book club 💕

FINALLY A QUIET WEEKEND 🎉 Hope yours is good too! 💕

xoxo

P.S. In true-Sam fashion, my lack of feedback on this part is making me so sad and feeling like it's an absolute flop. I wish I didn't write so much sometimes because my series tend to start off SO good but fizzle by the end. My one-shots do SO much better. But I want MORE to happen. Maybe I'm just bad at having stories progress? I know, I know, notes aren't everything and summer is a weird time for people and I know with Harry being MIA in real life people are missing him and not writing as much and also not reading as much. But yeah, it's part of why my updates are far between :/

[loved-in-silk]

wishlist 💗🌸💝🎀🌟🩷💨🔥💜🫀🪷🌷🌺💐💮

from me, today, in my weird little anti-social media random, hedonistic and almost Buddhist practices phase(?) awakening(?) exploration!!

-I want one of those charging stations but for all my Samsung products and my fossil watch

-i want a shampoo and conditioner I can feel really proud of and confident about (don't ask me why this is important)

-i want time to play Minecraft more because I really do love Minecraft and it's allowed

-i want to audit some classes

-i want my ring and my jewelry game upgraded

-more fresh fruit

look, I've started this blog 3 times over and deleted all my posts and I'm just tired of trying to do the perfect intro. I'm extremely 22 and going through something. I'm in a really good place and I usually write when I'm in a bad place so just give me a little time and I'll pump out some cool shit.

[kae-karo]

hi it's the anon with the shitty parent. thanks for the advice idk why i sent that i've just hit a wall with my dad. i've been officially out of my parents house for a year so we have fewer conversations now but every one leaves me feeling sad, angry and bitter. i fought with him a lot as a teenager and honestly now i'm just tired of him and i can't shake the feeling that he'll never be proud of me. a lot of my family members are on my side but idk.. its the way he watches anti-queer fox news specials right in front of me on my one day visiting home. asks why i "want to look like a boy". rolls his eyes when me and partner want a picture in front of a pride rainbow. i'm sorry i think i just need to vent..

hi hello dear!!! for context (x)

that's totally fine and there's no need to apologize!! i'm so sorry that he's putting his hateful beliefs over his respect and support for you as a person and as his kid, but i'm glad you're in a place where you're able to, at least some of the time, steer clear of some of those upsetting conversations. sending many good vibes your way dear 💜

[blackbird-brewster]

hey it's TBF. I've had a *rough* week (kinda an understatement, but ya know) and it seems like there are a couple more of those to come and I'm already tired thinking of it... I want to stop taking my antidepressants (my psychiatrist suggested it) cause i have side effects and can't take pain meds with them cause of interactions, but reducing the dose makes me feel like I'll never be able to be off of them and idk I'm just so overwhelmed with everything...

Hello my love,

That sounds really rough! I'm sorry you're going through a rut. I know how hard it is to see the other side when things are going to shit, but please know this won't be forever. You're going to get through this!

I know how hard it is to change psych meds, even just adjusting doses. The cool thing is, you can go back on your meds if you need to, or try a different medication that doesn't interact with your other ones. And if you have to stay on meds for the foreseeable future because they help ease your suffering, then hell yeah!!! Take those meds!! I've been on anti-depressants on and off since high school. Currently I've been on them constantly since 2013. And you know what? I'm very grateful for them.

If you had a chronic physical ailment, let's say arthritis for instance, you're probably always going to be on meds to help manage your symptoms

Mental health is no different! Your mental illness is a chronic condition which requires constant treatment (yes, even when things are going well). Try to think about it that way and maybe it will help you with your hesitations around your meds

No matter what, please know I'm here for you and I adore you. I'm so infinitely proud of how far you've come since the first time we spoke (god, what??? Like 8 years ago?!)

You're doing incredible bb!!!! I hope your pain eases soon 💜💜💜💜

[stormblessed95]

what are the 2021 jikook moments that stood out for you that made you think nothing has changed inspite of the recent happenings related to LA and IG postings? thank you!

Lmao what do you mean inspite of? Tae and JK in America were clearly allowed to be free and were sharing their marriage with us! Taekook real, boyfriends, husband's, the whole 9 yards. The selcas and HS concert was truly all that I need to be convinced!! I'm not sure where you have been, but keep up with the shipping news please 🥰

Look, they even gave a thumbs up sign! This is them telling us, yes, this post DOES mean what you think it means! We got married here in LA! They just confirmed it all for me, truly. Idk what you mean inspite of, anon.

So proud of them for sharing their relationship with the world, uwu🥺🥺🥺

I mean, sorry anon. But the obsession with tkkrs has got to stop. Jin posted JK too. Tae posted Jimin as well. In LA there were tons of times jikook were spotted together out and about and they had very cute little concert moments as well. Joon posted a cat and tagged Yoongi. Stop obsessing over tkkrs and come to your own conclusions. Because this kind of behavior from "jkkrs" is verging into sheep territory and is edging along anti behavior. It needs to stop. Enjoy all the members for who they are, not for what their shippers say they are or anti rhetoric. Watch content. Form your own opinions and leave the ship alone. Stop caring what they say because they don't care about anything other than their fantasies, proven time and time again. If you care about the members, it's not a ship competition, you just care and you know that they all love each other. And if those selcas made you question if TK are more than friends... well then I really hope you have never taken a photo with a friend and posted it on social media together, unless you secretly have a crush on them or something. Because if you have, expecting rhat the members never do the same would be very hypocritical of you. Also ask if any of the members had posted a similar secla instead, would you still be feeling the need to use the sentence "inspite of LA and IG" because if that answer is no, then you need to address that within yourself and reevaluate how you view the maknae line and Tae. Because that's not okay.

Not to mention anon, THIS happened just 2 months ago...

Jikook shippers who aren't getting hickeys and ear sucking moments every two business days need to chill the hell out. Istg. This post is probably for you anon, it's about all the jikook being distant in 2021 theories out there. Hope you find it helpful. 😊

I don't meant to be rude or snarky or over sarcastic with you. But this is just... unnecessary. It's not a competition, its not worth being compared. You could have just said what are you favorite jikook moments from 2021 and I would have answered you excitedly! Same if you had asked for my favorite 2021 moments of jihope, minimoni, vmin, taekook, taegi, jinkook, hopekook, namgi, sope, etc etc etc.... sorry. Hope you all have a wonderful day. And I hope you all enjoy the precious taekook moments in this post too, even if I was snarky with it lol 💜💜💜

[beautifulpersonpeach]

I'm on cloud 9 rn Bpp. NOTHING can bring me down today. I'm going to get a manicure, make a cucumber salad, and binge watch jikook content on youtube. I hope you're having a great day.

Ask 2: Wow! 5X nominated artists. First Korean act in HISTORY to bag that many nominations consecutively. Namjoon, Yoongi, Hoseok all Grammy nominated songwriters. BTS KEEP WINNING. Even if they don't get the final awards, they have WON. I'm so proud of them!

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Ask 3: AAAAAAAAAAA IM SO HAPPY FOR BTSSSSSS

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Ask 4: Kpoppies are going through the 5 stages of grief right now and it's kinda funny cos don't they realize the only reason they can even ;hope; for a nomination is because of BTS? They spend all their waking hours hating BTS and mocking Armys, insulting all the work it took us to break this glass ceiling and then they start crying when their faves are ignored for even nominations?? BTS worked their way up from music show wins on Inkigayo, to MMA bosangs, to MMA and MAMA daesangs, to BBMAs, to EMAs, to AMAs, to the Grammys and other international awards. The entire time kpoppies were insulting them and saying BTS wanted Western validation that their own faves were above that. But now they're crying because groups that don't even have daesangs weren't nominated for the Grammys? Armys aren't my favorite people, but at least Armys aren't half as delusional as kpoppies. It must suck to be a BTS anti cos every 2-3 business days you need to work extra hard to top up your bitterness.

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Hi Anon(s),

I'm especially happy about the nominations for the rap line in songwriting, and for a song in Korean and English.

Anon in Ask 2, just as it was last year, I too feel that even if BTS don't win the awards, they've still won. I can't bring myself to get fully into celebrating for them though, because chances are yts are gonna yt. 🤷‍♀️ BTS will eventually be awarded. Whether or not it happens in 2023 is another story.

Anon in Ask 4, whew, have you got it all out of your system?

I don't blame you for feeling that way though. It's true the fact any k-pop stan can even speak about the Grammys in the first place, like the only reason k-pop is even being mentioned anywhere near that notoriously white institution, is because of BTS and BTS only. It's a fact we all know but because this is k-pop where people get offended for pointing out water is wet, it still needs to be said lmao. I did have higher hopes for another group this year because of their Western partner labels, but BTS is still the only Korean group that is objectively too big to ignore, a group that has a whole discography worth of proof to show they should've been fully recognized and awarded by that institution at least 4 years ago. Any groups recognized today or in the future can thank BTS for the hyper-visibility they've brought to the genre and industry. It's really that simple.

Anon in Ask 1, I'm up to my eyeballs in work today but I loved reading how you plan to take care of yourself. It'll take about 48 hours for the dust to settle and then we'll start getting the really hot takes from k-pop commentators and pundits lmaoo. So enjoy this nominations glow to the fullest while it lasts. 💜