#I'm adding this tag because it needs to exist 😂

[serenitywinter-twe-if]

Helloo there! I'd like to give lots of love for this story! I'm a fucking pusset, and I avoid horror with all my might, usually, but your story has been really intriguing and I'm, above all else, deadly curious! I think there's only one other horror IF that I actually like, and now there's yours too! The story seems to be pretty interesting and the MC being a private investigator only adds to that (me loves sniffing around where I shouldn't). When I read the whole swamp scene there was a giant storm here, and when we reach the parking area, the lights started to flick here, the game's sound made it a whole lot worse and I was like "Well, damn you wendigo sir, you already found me". 😢

I looved Elias, he's a real grumpy and my MC was so terrified that she resorted to violence, never my first option, but I loved the outcome. And I'm sooo curious about Shepard, and literally everyone. As Elias said "curiosity killed the cat" and oh man I'm in for a ride, no regrets.

Thank you so much, I'm looking forward to learn more about the world, the characters and the story as a whole. Let's love these guys/galssss and enjoy this amazing writing!

Awww staaap it ! I blushed reading this >.> I mean it went straight to my little heart 🥹 I'm so happy to know you'd tried reading it and actually loved it ! (Which other horror IF do you like ? I'm asking for a friend 👀. Nah, in truth I'm quite an IF enjoyers to the core as well 😤).

Haha, MC being a private investigator will sure sniff all around the country 😂 Nothing will stop their nosy ass.

The hours I put to find the right effect to add a little tension when the creature comes back I'm glaaaad it works ! 🥳

The fact that everybody wants to bully grumpy Elias is sooo much fun to read 😂 Did you punch him ? 🤣 It's so funny to read reactions about him ! Feel free to ask, if you have questions about the other characters ! I'll do my best to write some spoiler-free answers 🤗 (Sheppard getting so much attention is getting me a fluffy feeling in the chest. Like, I'm seeing them like my smol bean instead of all, y'all making me 🥹👉👈 "Please continue to love them edgy child". )

Welp, it's decided, I'm pulling all nighters for this part 02 xD

Thank you so very much for your kind words and cheers ! Do take care of you 🩵🌟

[harruandlou]

✨Writing Self-Evaluation 2024

thank youuuu @red-pandaaa for tagging me 🫶🏻

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 4 this year! (10 total!)

2. Word count posted for the year: 262,441

3. Fandoms I wrote for: One Direction

4. Pairings: Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles

5. Story with the most:

Kudos: i would know you from touch alone

Bookmarks: sunshine, baby! (literally 1 single bookmark more than iwkyfta or this would be a clean sweep)

Comments: i would know you from touch alone

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why): I think sunshine, baby! I did a lot of research for that fic into swimming and law school (and the olympics) and it's the longest thing I've ever written on my own.

7. Work I’m least proud of (and why): I'm really proud of all of them, but probably your brightest star only because I wasn't in a good place writing and pushed myself through most of it. I think it could have been better if I hadn't been so strict on myself for posting time, etc.

8. Share or describe a favorite review you received: I got so many really wonderful comments this year and every single one makes me go mush inside. In particular anytime someone says I'm one of their favorite authors or my fic is one of their comfort fics I just want to cry lol.

9. A time when writing was really, really hard: I started slipping into a rut in like May and didn't really claw out of it until October. During that time I wrote ybs and about 25k of a wip I've since put on the shelf. The whole time was such a struggle.

10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: Louis' roommate Mina in sunshine, baby! surprised me a lot this year. I added her in a scene because I wanted Louis to say something in particular, but fully expected her to show up once. But I really loved writing her and then she ended up bring the kick in the ass he needed more than once and i love her so much.

11. A favorite excerpt of your writing: this is from i would know you from touch alone. I added this scene in editing and it's one of those moments that it seems impossible now for the fic to have existed without it. I love it not necessarily because of how its written, but it like such a good reminder that editing a million times can be really important to shaping the fic 😂 (I need that reminder for the next time I edit something to death)

Hours passed, the night crawled towards dawn, but still Harry and Oli sat diagonally to each other. At some point Liam came in. He had Harry’s broken phone in his pocket and a sad look on his face. Oli eyed him warily, but Liam just clapped a hand on Harry’s shoulder and sank into the chair next to him. Some time after that another Tomlinson came over and sat next to Oli. Harry didn’t know his name, but he’d been at the warehouse. Harry could so clearly picture him glaring at Harry over the barrel of his gun. Before long there were a handful of them who had migrated around Harry and finally he realized what it was. He was surrounded on all sides. He was protected.

12. How did you grow as a writer this year: I got really good at outlining this year! And being a bit more strict on myself about making sure I have things properly planned before I start writing (can you tell I've had problems with this in the past lmao). I also picked back up something I'd put aside that I was really afraid to try to rework and had convinced myself wasn't worth the effort. So I think trusting myself and the process more in general.

13. How do you hope to grow next year: I think maybe be a bit more risk taking lmao. I tend to play things safe or overthink everything, but I think some of the best stuff happens when you let yourself get a little silly.

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): 2024 was the year of @red-pandaaa saving my ass every 5 minutes lmao. We started working together at the end of last year and they helped with everything - beta reading, cheerleading, listening to me bitching and moaning. Oh and the friendship was nice too 🤣

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year: Oh for sure, always. A lot of Louis in sb! was based off a friend of mine (actually a lot of sb! I pulled real life experiences for). I'm always putting places I've been, food I've eaten, weird personality quirks I have or friends have in fics.

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: Always know the ending before you start. You don't always need to know how to get there, but at least know where you're going.

17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: I'm really excited to get back to the fic I put on hold in the summer. I think I'll start working on that in January (once edits for you're all i ever dreamed of are finished!!!)

18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read.

@blueskiesrry @petitommo @wishingforloushair @28goldens @lunarheslwt @larry-hiatus

[bourbon-ontherocks]

20 questions for writers

I was tagged by @pia-writes-things (ty!!! ❤️)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

46!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

703,271. Which is, um, a lot.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Good Girls (formerly), HPI (formerly), and l'Art du Crime. There's also a random bit for les Combattantes, and one GG fic has a shared universe with Graceland. I'm very mono-fandom lol.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Take A Dip

It's All Coming Back To Me

It Hurts When I See You Struggle

Love And War

We're Living In A Powder Keg And Giving Off Sparks

Unsurprisingly, these are all GG fics, although I don't think my kudos ranking is accurate because most of these were impacted by the great kudos-bombing gate from 2020 so it's hard to tell what's actually my most kudo-ed fic.

5. Do you respond to comments?

Absolutely. My secret goal is to keep the conversation going back and forth for the longest possible time because I love the opportunity for a good ramble about my writing 😈

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I wanna say Ad vitam æternam (L'art du crime)? I mean, it's literally an MCD fic, so, not that merry... Also if I remember correctly, Always lost in the sea (HPI) doesn't end on a very hopeful note either.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I don't know? All of them? None? I generally tend to go for happy open endings with that extra bit of bittersweet so I really couldn't tell. But hey, maybe the ending to that thing I'm currently writing actually is the happiest of it all, because oh boy, things do get cheesy at some point 🥺

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No at all! Unless you count that one person who commented on several chapters of whichever long GG fic I wrote just to point blank hate on Beth character lol

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Of course I do (in English only), I like my porn toxic and desperate and angsty with just the right amount of power play and mutual hatred. Basically, I write hatefuck 😂

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not really, no... I've tried a couple of times, but I think I'm better at/more interested in mimicking existing interactions than inventing a dynamic between characters who never met canonically (and also, boy the kind of SETUP you need to justify some characters crossing paths... it's just too much work). I'm more of a cameo/easter egg kind of writer, so once in a while I'll allow a character from another fandom to pop up in a fic and say hi, but it's really a blink-and-you'll-miss-it kind of encounter.

I guess my craziest attempt would be that Crazy Ex-Girlfriend / Good Girls crossover that I never finished though, cause like, super different moods?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of but I don't really attempt to know

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! By myself lol. I once posted a fic in two languages before acknowledging it was a hell of an additional work 😭

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Kinda? We never finished nor even posted it but at some point we shared a quite unhinged co-writing story with @whiskeyjack and @00gangfriend00 and it was a lot of fun 🥰

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

You... you guys have that? You don't just live by your Ship of the Moment just to instantly forget about it and hop on the Next Ship when it shows up? I'm sorry but I don't think I have one of those.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

What a trap question!!! 😂

It's All Coming Back To Me, obviously. Look, I really really want to finish it, not even for me at this point, but for the 120-something people who subscribed to it, for the faithful readers who still leave me comments every now and then hoping for closure. I know how it ends. I have it partially written. I just don't seem to know how to write for Good Girls anymore, and getting my head back into it feels like such an insurmountable load of work, I just- I'm trying, ok?

But like, if someone's interested in helping, or even writing that ending based on my notes (and getting full and proper credits for it obvi), just let me know! I'm really open to it 🥲

16. What are your writing strengths?

Probably dialogues? I've been told many times that my dialogues feel very close to the original, and the thing is, I write about TV shows and I have a very good ear so I think I catch quite easily the actors' voices and tones and mannerisms in my head, so every time I write down a line, I play it several times in my mind with the character's voice to determine whether they would say it like that or not. Looks like it's not working so bad.

Also I *think* I'm not too bad at stream-of-consciousness inner monologues. At least it's one of my favourite things to write so there's that.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Action scenes (that includes sex lol). Filling the gaps between the important parts. Descriptions. Setting up the scene.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Like, featuring two different languages inside the same fic, or writing in different languages? I'm not sure I've ever really written the first one? I guess I find it a bit clunky, occasionally I've written scenes that included a character whose native language wasn't the one of the fic, and I'd give them a line or two if that's relevant to the plot (for instance, if characters are lost somewhere in another country, I can add a line/dialogue in another language for comedic effect. Or it can be a way for a character to whisper something for themselves), but the logistics are quite nightmarish, you gotta either assume your audience knows the second language, or translate the lines in the author's note, or have another character translate it in a way that doesn't sound too articifial, that's really really tedious haha

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Good Girls.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

You think I know that? Out of FOURTY-SIX??? Lol. Get out.

Tagging: @sdktrs12 @joeyjoeylee if you're around @riosnecktattoo @humanbra @hemerae-ramblings @sothischickshe @asteraceae-blue

[forsakenwitchery]

Finished Veilguard the other day and I need you to see my Rook. xD idk I tried to create something similar to my face, but then it hit me I had Tallis on my hands. 😂

In case someone's interested in my thoughts (no spoilers): it was kind of a mixed bag experience for me. I couldn't agree more with the sentiment that the game's too sanitized, but I did have some fun with it and I did grow to like the companions after all. ALSO MANFRED NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS! And Lucanis reminds me of Gale so much, guess that's my new type. xD Men cooking is the hottest trait ever, legit a dealbreaker no griffon or sentient skeleton can beat.

More rambling under the cut & adding all the critical tags I could think of.

I do think they sort of shot themselves in the foot by calling it Dragon Age, because I kept thinking it reminds me of Guardians of the Galaxy A LOT which was a good & imho underrated game!!! but it's not the best comparison for a DA game. I didn't like Bellara at first, but then it hit me she reminds me of Mantis. SO. MUCH. And I loved Mantis! So Bellara just felt so out of place in DA. I have a lot of thoughts, yet my main takeaway is that it should have been a new IP. Literally had it been called anything else 70% of my beef with this game wouldn't exist, and I think it's true for most people who are critical about it. Like, I played as a Crow, and literally all the Crows in the game are good(TM). My Rook told Harding she did some bad things, but nothing too bad! Literally no Crow in this game is willing to kill anyone. The banter about Grey Warden contracts... Was wild. What's the point of even having assassins who are so uwu goody two-shoes. :( Legit had they made a game in the vein of DA, but not DA, with new not preestablished factions, I wouldn't have this critique. And you can't say or do anything too bad in this game which is wild for DA. I think I was only allowed to be mean about Solas, but even tho I always chose the dialogs akin to 'he can go F himself', the game kept telling me 'he's just a poor sad little meow meow' by legit every character around me. WHICH GIVEN THE FINAL TWIST OF WHAT HE DID. FUCKING FUCK. There are not nearly enough mean things this game lets you say about him, and it's mind-blowing why half the characters would toot his horn so much. Sorry, I hate Solas' guts, I didn't think it was possible to hate him even more, but holy shit was I not prepared...

But like, had it been a new IP, my only critique would be all the handholding, especially the constant 'pointing out the obvious' at the start of the game. The first hours were driving me insane with it. Like guys, I'm not stupid, I don't need to be told the same thing 3 or 4 times. Or how to proceed in a linear location if I stop for one second. Yeah, it gets better with the obvious part, but not with repeating the same info, which made me wonder what age were they targeting with it. Because I don't think kids like to be talked down to, either.

BUT I expected way worse. It was overall not a bad game. Not a super great 10/10 one, but it had its moments. For me, it was a solid 6/10, maybe even a 7 in some parts. idk why, but I especially loved Evka and Antoine. And the cooking party banters. Super pretty, too, once I got used to the style.

Oh, and I also called my Rook Anthea, and since the Crows had a character called Teia, I got an added bonus of Lucanis actually saying that name a few times. xD

[elyonblackstar]

You know, it be preferable if certain Jily artists would bother to tag their art with poc/desi james potter tag. Cause not all of us consider that headcanon to be ‘canon’. The author is problematic and all, but that doesn’t mean race swapping existing white characters is any better/makes y’all superior. It works for Hermione because she’s a muggleborn and the added subtext of her being picked on by a racist, pureblood white prick like Draco and the garbage Malfoys. And this doesn’t fucking mean Jily=Dramione! Fuck no. If anything, James being the reverse of Draco, but similar in he too was a white, pure blood privileged boy raised and pampered but was actual taught to not be a complete dick to those who’s blood status isn’t pure. Changing his race to fit a certain headcanon is bs and makes Dursleys hypocritical and worse(but skin color logic, they should hate Kingsley too). And it’s always James & Harry. Never Sirius, Remus, or Lily(who has the most reason to be race swapped). So overall, this fandom is a joke

This message has been a wild ride ngl 😂😂😂😂 thank you I needed to laugh at some nonsense today!

But just to be clear: idgaf if you specifically don't like an hc of mine and no, I'm not gonna tag it like it was a trigger or something. This is literally a fantasy series set in a country that actually has LOTS of POC but somehow we only encounter like... 3 into the wild. So it's only natural people would like to see more and share their preferred hc for characters race and look. Many of us also change the canonical Pansy pug-face and make her basically a top model, don't see people complain about that uh! 😂

If you don't like a certain way people draw a character it's fine, everyone has the right to enjoy things the way they like it. But that doesn't give you also the right to come to random people and tell them 'oh you feel superior bcs you race swapped the characters!' and all of this load of crap. Learn to curate your online experience better, block the people/things you don't wanna see and move on. Life's too short to argue about fictional characters

[rattkween86]

Yes its me 😁 ive sorta been on and off a lot and not been the best at keeping in contact with everyone, lotta shit in my personal life, I'm on a writing Hiatus at the moment, but planning to come back soon hopefully.

I probably need to do another playlist clean out as well... after i make one for Billy and add all the songs we have discussed so far haha

Pour some sugar on me is so clichè for a sex song, but its hot and it works and Def Leppard is one of my favourite 80s bands by far, i think Billy would definitely be a Def Leppard fan, so many of their songs have a sexy vibe and thats Billy lol

That mirror scene where he shoves the colonge down his jeans lives rent free in my head 🤣 i think anything in the adult entertainment industry would suit Billy because he loves female attention and what better way to get it and the added bonus of money lol

Loverboy is such a good band, i definitely need to add more of their stuff to my existing 80s playlist.

Even though this one is a bit older than the 80s, i think Billy still would have heard it, I cant quit you baby by Led Zepplin.

I have never heard anyone call Aussie slang beautiful before, that's definitely a first haha

I'll have to make a post some day with some Aussie slang and tag you in it 😁

Here's one for the day:

We call a liquor store a bottlo pronounced bottle-o kinda like Jello haha

-🇦🇺 anon

Ahhh, yeah I totally understand. 💗 I took a pretty long break for a while and just recently came back, but the writing part is imaginary at the moment lol. I sometimes take a bit to post/answer asks because I'm usually scrolling in between schoolwork as a procrastination tactic, and it's bad lol. But I always love reading your work though, and I'm excited to see what comes next, but definitely take all the time you need! A break can be really nice. I know my brain always cooperates better after one 😅

I'm so excited for this playlist. I've been slowly adding things over the past few days as I listen to music while doing schoolwork, and it's a whole vibe. Billy would totally be into Def Leppard. I know he's into the heavier stuff too, but I always envision him also loving the glam rock/sexy summer songs. And he has to be into Led Zeppelin, that is a perfect idea. I've been listening to Cover Queen by Tesla, and I think it's something he would add to his tapes. I also hc that he's into ZZ Top even though it's a bit different from his usual vibe lol. BUT - I don't think he's a Poison fan. I'm not sure why, but that has never meshed in my mind.

The cologne asjdfl; and the stupid little face he makes when he does it is just....yeah, I hate that it does something for me, but it's real 😂 That man would have a lucrative adult entertainment career. He could be changing a lightbulb onstage, and I'd throw my money at him lmao.

A BOTTLO, I LOVE IT. I just think it's creative. All the other slang people have are usually just shortened versions of words or words that mean something totally different and just have a metaphorical context. Aussie slang says "we're just gonna make up a whole new series of sounds for this and go with it," and it's really the best.

If you do make that post, please do tag me, I would love to see all of it lol.

[heartbrake-hotel]

Ugh. You won't believe this. I'm sorry to bug you, but I just needed to vent.

I saw some idiot on twitter saying that when E met Priscilla he had an eleven year old girl living with him in Germany. They mentioned Scotty Moore said that in his book so I looked it up. What he said was at the time E met Cilla, he had an "even younger German girl" (his words) living in the house with his father and grandmother. Except...well, I can't find any proof of this; there’s no evidence nor mention of this girl (or how old she was) anywhere else in the book nor in any other books written about him. No proof he had anyone else like that living with him in Germany.

So I don’t think that claim is true. Where do people come up with this stuff anyway? How do you not get into an argument with these idiots? Because it's super annoying.

ugh, believe it or not, baby, im not surprised at all. but you could never bug me !!! 💖 sorry it took me so long to answer this, but rest assured i haven't calmed down about this any since you first sent it 😅

a couple notes‐ honestly, i'm inclined to believe scotty. NOT TWITTER to clarify lol.. eleven seems young for him even if you are looking to view e through the most unflattering light possible �� but it seems likely to me that he had another teenage girl maybe not uh. officially on the lease or anything but staying over most nights ! more than ONE even sounds plausible.. we all know that someone didn't like his bed cold.!

people who claim to hate elvis sure spend an awful lot of time reviling him on the internet, especially by regurgitating half-remembered anecdotal evidence without citing their sources. 🙄 on the other hand, it's also easy to fall into the trap of too-faithful elvis historian; by that i mean that the fact that so much of his life is documented sometimes makes us complacent in our belief that if it can't be verified by multiple primary sources that it must not have happened. but we can't always say, and getting too involved as if the historical accuracy of one particular proposed event is the end-all be-all of elvis fandom can get exhausting.!

i wouldn't be surprised to find out either way, that this was or wasn't true. but you're free to make up your own mind, and if it distresses you, then fwiw i think you Totally have a leg to stand on affirming it never happened, like you said !! ultimately, it doesn't have much bearing on right now- if you like elvis, this vague and nebulous criticism probably isn't the thing that'll make you stop liking elvis, and if you hate elvis, you're probably determined to keep doing that regardless.

regarding the twitdiots- while looking into this claim i found a lady on there who legitimately believed that agent elvis tells the true story of how e was experimented on and mind controlled into drug abuse by the government.. like she said That with her whooole chest. so i don't put much stock in public opinion over there 😂😂💀

i want to fight those people extremely often (they're not just on twitter, either- it seems to have died down a little praise GOD but especially in early days after the movie there was a wave of ppl on here who would put their elvis hate in the main tags. WHICH DROVE ME BATTY), but i come from the "don't feed the trolls" era of fandom. as much as id like to rip 'em a new one when they rehash the same two issues over and over and OVER again ad nauseum, i content myself with the fact that they're living a pathetic existence in which they actively choose to fill their life with something they dislike for... no discernable reason.?

no one who spends their time bringing up a dead celebrity at all opportunities just to bash them is actually open to a discussion. and i do think there is a discussion to be had- his life was certainly very troubled, and i think there are a lot of nuanced issues that benefit from being spoken about openly !!!

but i like to debate bc i like to WIN- so jackasses tend to be a waste of my time 😘

[whoopsitswincest]

@according2thelore

I just went through your entire ES/LS tag and FUCK me. It was everything i needed but still not enough. I could read 5 million words of your thoughts on it all. I would read a 40-part series set in this universe. I want to write a 40-part series set in this universe, but I wouldn't be able to do justice to what you've created.

I'm dead serious when I say: everthing you've written about the ES/LS verse - the fics, the drabbles, just the general musings - is SO good. You understand these characters so well. You capture their mannerisms and voices and inner worlds so aptly. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us! I have officially joined the ranks of your raving fans.

I'd love to share some of my thoughts, if that's okay! Adding a break cause i ended up writing waaayyyyy more than I thought I would 😂

1. Sam's similarity to John:

I think LS!Sam has probably done some self-reflection on that topic, and has mixed feelings about it. I think he makes a conscious effort to NOT be like John, like in his interactions with Jack or in his role as Chief. But we've also seen him become most like John when Dean is dead or missing (the flashbacks in 4.09 of drunk Sam begging a demon to switch places with Dean in hell; Sam going full terminator for six whole months hunting the trickster in 3.11; Sam torturing a demon in 10.01). So I think Sam is most like John when he's at his worst - his most despairing, his most terrified, his most livid.

I think that's part of what contributes to LS!Sam's more gracious opinion of his father. He knows that John was doing his best because LS!Sam himself is doing his best. He is more forgiving of John as he ages because he understands him more. But conversely, seeing John in himself makes him hate John a little more, too. LS!Sam most definitely hates himself. It's just a low hum of the refrigerator in the background of his life - ever present, hardly noticeable most of the time. He's just learned to function with it and not dwell on it for the sake of his loved ones or the world itself. So because he hates himself, and his behaviours mimic John's, he hates John in a sort of backwards way because now John reminds him of himself.

But ES!Sam doesn't have the experience and knowledge that LS!Sam has. Even as early as 1.02, he starts to act like John and ES!Dean can see it, but ES!Sam is a bit more in denial. In 1.20, Sam says that he and his dad have a lot more in common than anyone else, but he's just thinking about Mary and Jess. Earlier in that episode, he and John had been fighting as usual and they continue butting heads into 2.01. I think after John died, Sam's shame makes him treat John's memory more gently than he treated John himself, as well as the absence of John's attempted imposed control, which Sam had always resented.

So if ES!Sam sees LS!Sam acting like John and gets mad about it, and he spits out, "you're fucking just like Dad", all venom and vitriol, LS!Sam will understand that as the insult ES!Sam means it to be, and LS!Sam will feel it like a knife.

(ES!Dean, on the other hand, would want to be fucked through the mattress by LS!Sam while ES!Dean sobs out "Daddy" and LS!Sam growls "good boy".)

2. I think ES!Sam would trigger LS!Sam.

Not like anything ES!Sam does would remind LS!Sam of the cage or anything like that. But ES!Sam doesn't even know about the existence of angels, or that he's Lucifer's perfect vessel. He's young and he's college educated and he's angry and cocky. And sure, maybe he's not the best version of himself, but he has such self-assuredness and purity of conviction that LS!Sam is smacked in the face with the self that he lost, the self that was almost 200 years ago for his present self. I think it really forces him to confront how traumatized he is and how much he has changed because of that. I think he misses how simple everything seemed back then, and how right he felt about everything, how righteous. And I think realizing how different he was and missing how different life was would send him into a spiral and maybe trigger a panic attack. ES!Sam would be confused and a little irritated and his older self who just seemingly fell apart out of nowhere and LS!Sam would be jealous of him for that. LS!Dean would totally Get It, because he grieves that version of Sam, too. ES!Dean would be absolutely terrified.

3. The crux of it all is free will.

ES!Sam rebelled against John because he wanted to exert his own will and forge his own path, not one laid out for him by his father. ES!Sam views hunting as a choice - a self-destructive one. To ES!Sam, the Winchesters have no particular, unique responsibility to be hunters, any more than any other human. And to choose that lifestyle is to make an objectively unhealthy choice for yourself and your loved ones. And why should you sacrifice your own family for a mission that promises no peace, no safety, no reward, not even an end?

But LS!Sam knows that he was destined to this lifestyle many times over, but not in the way he's living it presently. LS!Sam knows that Azazel fed him demon blood to make him Lucifer's perfect vessel. LS!Sam knows that the angels conspired to join the Campbell and the Winchester bloodlines - hunters and men of letters - to create Lucifer's and Michael's vessels for the long foretold battle. LS!Sam knows that Chuck has been pulling the strings all along, playing with LS!Sam's life for his own amusement. LS!Sam chose hunting because it was the rebellious choice that would save himself, his brother, their loved ones, and the whole world. LS!Sam willingly jumped into a cage in the deepest pits of hell with Lucifer because he wouldn't let Lucifer use him to kill Dean or let Michael use Dean to kill Lucifer. LS!Sam saw that Dean was losing himself to the Mark of Cain and said, "let's use dark magic to unleash an unknown curse of cosmic proportions because it'll save Dean. We can worry about the curse later. Whatever it is, we can handle it. Because of course we can." "Hunting" for LS!Sam doesn't mean the same thing it does for ES!Sam. "Hunting" for LS!Sam means "my brother and I were appointed a destiny by forces far beyond our control but instead of accepting that destiny, we became the poster boys for the indomitable spirit of humanity and the defenders of free will for all humans and if we have to hunt God Himself then so be it."

And that's why LS!Sam seems so foreign and pathetic to ES!Sam - ES!Sam thinks that LS!Sam gave up his free will. But it's also why LS!Sam refuses to tell ES!Sam anything about the future and comes off as patronizing sometimes, because he knows that ES!Sam can't even understand the sheer force of his own will yet and can't even imagine the vast, immense powers that will be made to bend to his will.

4. The idea of ES!Sam discovering The Voicemail is sooooooo juicy.

If ES!Dean heard it, he would literally try to rip LS!Dean's throat out. (Another excellent opportunity for LS!Sam to restrain him and bodily lift him off the ground in doing so.)

But I am a sucker for a happy ending, so of course I want LS!Dean to hear it too and be like, "what the FUCK is THAT?" because he, of course, would be equally as angry as ES!Dean. Perhaps moreso, given everything that LS!Dean knows.

And at first no one believes that he didn't say it because it sounds just like him. But he tells them what he really said and of course he figures out that the angels were fucking with them, because Dean is clever and he would put that together very quickly. But he can't outright say that in front of the ES!Sam&Dean so he just lamely says, "it was...tampered with." And ES!Sam&Dean, who are from the early 2000s when deep fake and AI bullshit doesn't exist, and who probably aren't caught up on CSI, are all like "yeah right".

But LS!Sam gets it right away and probably begins to feel the tiniest glimmer of hope. But it's hard for him to really believe because of his deeply entrenched shame and self-loathing. And this voicemail was before the cage, so of course Lucifer used it to torture him for over a century. It's from such a long time ago and Sam knows it so well that it's a part of him now. It's stone number one, if you will.

And as you said, they probably don't want ES!Sam&Dean to meet anyone, but I can see LS!Sam&Dean arranging to meet Castiel somewhere and asking if he can confirm that there was angel interference, and even maybe retrieve the original. And when LS!Sam hears the original, it's like a dam inside him breaks and he just sobs and sobs and sobs. Later that night as they lie in bed together, LS!Dean strokes LS!Sam's face lightly and whispers "Baby" over and over again. And LS!Sam curls into him and puts his head on LS!Dean's chest. And LS!Dean wraps his arms around LS!Sam as LS!Sam shakes and takes shuddering breaths. And LS!Dean whispers in LS!Sam's ear, low and gruff and rare, "love you." And then they actually make love, staring into each other's eyes, touching each other's faces, clinging to each other. And it's slow but it's hard and deep, passionate and desperate, and LS!Sam cries some more when he comes. And afterwards he feels happier and more peaceful than he has in a long time.

5. I agree that LS!Sam&Dean would not take any firsts from ES!Sam&Dean.

I also agree that they would, however, want to force ES!Sam&Dean to admit their feelings for each other. They both know that they wanted each other way back then. And sometimes, when they can't form the words they need to say, they just fuck instead and communicate that way. It's also a good outlet for adrenaline or aggression, or for venting their possessiveness of each other. LS!Sam&Dean think that it'll only help ES!Sam&Dean if they get started.

It's a three-pronged approach.

First, the LS!Sam&Dean chat up the ES!Dean&Sam. When LS!Sam and ES!Dean are hanging out, LS!Sam will talk about how much Dean always made him laugh when they were younger and how he was secretly glad to see him when he showed up at Stanford, and how desperately he always wanted Dean's attention and approval but didn't know how to express it. When LS!Dean hangs out with ES!Sam, he talks about how he always admired and respected Sammy so much and would do anything for him. Both LS!Sam&Dean pepper in some light, strategic flirting throughout those conversations with each of their ES!brothers. It makes it ambiguous whether their meaning is strictly brotherly or something more, and it blurs the line between ES! and LS! versions. When LS!Sam talks to ES!Dean about how he felt about Dean, his Dean, when he was younger, he'll say "you" instead of "he". When LS!Dean talks to ES!Sam about the things he felt for his brother, he'll say "he" instead of "I".

Second, LS!Sam&Dean advise their younger selves. They'll say things like, "I see how he looks at you. I know what that look means. I've seen it on my Dean," or "you should hear the way your Sam talks about you. It's like you hung the friggin moon."

Third, and most importantly, I picture them continuously upping the ante with their pornographic theatrics and allowing ES!Sam&Dean to catch them in increasingly compromising positions in increasingly obvious circumstances but still pretending that it is always by accident and they're still trying to keep it secret. One night, they're almost certain that both ES!Sam and ES!Dean listen outside their door the entire time they're having sex, and they giggle to each other afterwards about how tense it must be for them to share a bed after that.

AND, once ES!Sam&Dean DO finally get together, LS!Sam&Dean would be SO smug about it. ES!Sam&Dean would come into the kitchen a little later than normal. ES!Sam's sitting a little awkwardly. ES!Dean has bite marks on his neck. They keep exchanging sly smiles. LS!Sam&Dean sit down at the table next to them and high five over the eggs. "Sooo?" LS!Sam starts, "late night?" LS!Dean winks at ES!Dean - "working on your night moves?" ES!Sam goes bright red and covers his face. ES!Dean rolls his eyes, but he can't stifle a small grin.

6. A foursome would be VERY hot.

Okay, that's all I got. If you read this far, you are a TROOPER and I commend you.

✌️

Okay hear me out

THIS dean -

- with THIS Sam

[hexenmond]

a fediverse tumblr

Dumping this here real quick because my brain is running away with me again and I can't follow fast enough.

I read some posts about transfem having to play whack-a-mole here on tumblr in the role of the mole… and it reminded me of two things:

tumblr has, for all its differences, some of the same problems as other corporate-owned social media sites, namely the users having to roll with whatever gets thrown at them.

Years ago (back when porn bots felt like the bane of my existence, ugh) I already had this idea of a fediverse, open source version of tumblr, like Mastodon is to Xitter. (is that pronounced "quitter"? "shitter"? idk)

And honestly? While I'm not currently active on Mastodon I've hung out there enough to know that it's by no means perfect, but it's a really good space to build a home in. And if you don't like the server you're on, you can move without losing any connections! That's a hell of a lot better than only being able to do an export of your blog that contains no information on your mutuals at all.

The biggest issue with fediverse is that somebody has to run, and very importantly pay for, a lot of servers. I've been looking for a PeerTube instance that accepts new people and there are vanishingly few at the moment, which I can totally understand but it's a serious hindrance to large scale adoption as it would be needed for tumblr folks.

On the other hand – there's AO3. Proving that it could be done, if enough people wanted it. And gods, we could do so many cool things with open source, user accessible code!

We could put in so many Easter eggs! Like that million and a half reblogs post that I saw this morning that summons a weird ask into your inbox. Or boops for April Fools. Or a spooky skeleton hunt for Halloween. (Or, indeed, swap the two in one year 😂😂😂)

We could keep the tags as they are but consolidate the most common ones in filters. We could optionally do reblogs with text versions of tags. We could have a fucking excellent search function! We could communicate with other parts of the fediverse, strengthening the whole.

Naturally we'd build a really well thought out import function that lets everyone import their tumblr blogs, even if they've been shitposting three times a day for fifteen consecutive years (woooo the minds boggles at that raw amount of data – I hope tumblr can even export it???), and re-link the usernames whenever someone new imports their stuff, so the usernames on posts with many reblogs would be named "iamatumblruser-not-migrated-yet" until they do, and they're maybe "ichoseanewusername (iamatumblruser on tumblr)". Opt-in of course.

Oh! We could get companies to sponsor the whole thing, or single servers maybe, and let them run ads in exchange. BUT those ads would of course be opt-in as well! So the companies would really have to up their ad game. (Not sure this would work with any crowd except the weird tumblrinas, but I think this could produce some really interesting results. I for one would pay attention to those companies.)

We could do public requests for and votes on code features. We could have a whole server only for trans women who got banned on tumblr. We could let people tag their blogs as a whole to make finding friends easier. Hell, we could give the thing a solid algorithm and make those "based on your likes" posts etc. opt-in! So if you want them they bring you cool things, and if you only ever want to see the posts from exactly three blogs that you follow religiously, that is also totally easily achieved.

Sigh… my brain is inventing paradise send help…

[fivewholeminutes]

ALRIGHT i am finally in front of a laptop, so i can shamelessly promote myself cause i don't reblog my own art/analysis posts so i'll just use this opportunity

I think that worshitposting is what's I'm best at, with stuff like:

that cult band outfits post which, due to recent events, desperately needs updating;

the tumblr ST fandom out of context post (please check the answers, they're adding a flavour);

and some of my old shitposts, because fuck it, shameless promotion;

But sometimes, if my brain graces me with enough focus, I delve into analysis territory:

that one time My Beloved Anon made me spiral and analyse the entirety of TMBTE (the song) [btw, miss you, anon 🥺 hope you're doing well!!!];

my "was it all planned from the very beginning" post, bc i am still insane about it and it consumes my thoughts every day and i cannot promise i will not mention this at least 47659 times more;

and many other shorter analysis posts;

Not analysis per se, but this got unexpected attention too, so here ya go:

the 'you are so loved' sign thoughts;

that iv's keychain's runes post that wouldn't exist if i was more active on insta lmao;

the song vs song polls that I make with @vesselsscarlet and which we constantly keep forgetting about 💀😂

And last but not least, my art!!!! Which I hate hate hate, but I feel safe sharing it with you all here (and for which I am very grateful to all of you 🙏🙏🙏):

just dropping my art tag, won't jumpscare you with any actual pieces mehehe (sitting by the laptop now I see how terribly edited the photos of all these pieces are lmao).

Sleep Token Creators shout-out post

I had been thinking of doing this for a while, and now that the last Ritual of the year has come and passed, and the holidays/end of the year are quickly approaching, this seems like the best time to do it (also to get all the recent bad vibes away).

If you're a creator/fan artist for Sleep Token, please use this post as an opportunity to share your art! Could be a painting, a drawing, a piece of writing, a meme, an analysis post, or something else entirely - any and all fan creations are welcomed!!

Reblog this and link as little or as many of your own creations as you want - the sky is the limit! [eg: this is a cool painting of (band member) i did // i wrote about X song here ]

Share your beautiful art, and take a moment to look through all the other lovely creations as well. (you're welcome to shout-out your favourite artists, but the point here is to share your own artwork - be as shameless about it as you want!)

Take a look around, leave a nice comment, reblog it, go nuts in the tags, share it with the world! Let's get as many cool pieces linked as possible, and spread some positivity around 💙 As always, be nice and respectful! 💙

[brummiereader]

Thank you for the tags @zablife and @peakyltd ❤️!

@zablife this little snippet was beautiful! Ada's words were so loving. The fact that she has been bringing Lily flowers every day just shows you how kind and thoughtful she is.

"These flowers only close at night and open in the morning. Like an anticipation of something soon to arrive," what a beautiful gesture ❤️. You know I'm about to go and Google if these flowers exist now 😂! Your writing is so poetic, i'm really looking forward to reading this 😊! Please add me to your tag list!

@peakyltd the title of this series is so intriguing, what does it mean 🤔?? I'm so curious about this! What has got Tommy so worried? Because she definitely knows something is going on, with her search for information. I'm scraping at the little breadcrumbs you keep leaving for us with this story, I need more...AGHH 😤😂! Can't wait to read it ❤️!

Here's a little snippet from the next part of my series "Killing Me Softly" ( it starts off from where we ended the flashback in Part One of the series)

" Tommy please, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, wait…wait!"

With the bloodied knife in his hand Tommy pushed you up against the closed door of your bedroom, the handle digging into your lower back as his other hand wrapped around your throat.

" Tut tut, now don't you start crying darling, your brought this upon yourself. Go on, look down, look at what you did!" he said grabbing your face, his bloodied fingers digging into your cheeks as he made you look at the large gash on his forearm.

"Tommy please..." You pleaded, an unstoppable flow of tears streaming down your face as you looked down at his bloodied arm.

" Dont worry love, I won't cut you, don't want to scar my pretty little wife's skin" he smiled darkly as he dropped the knife on the floor. " But I will punish you" he added, anger in his stare as he started unbuckling his belt, your eyes widening in fear as he smirked at your reaction.

No pressure tags: @call-sign-shark @gypsy-girl-08

WIP Wednesday

Tagging @shelbydelrey, @confidentandgood, @moral-terpitude, @runnning-outof-time, @zablife, @call-sign-shark, @peakyltd, @detectivelokis, @eclecticwildflowers, @roofgeese, @amyowl470, @areyenotfondofmelobster, @scaryscarecrows, and anyone else interested!

Dance of Darkness Chapter 7: Ride or Die

(Tommy Shelby x OC)

Apologies in advance to all the Polly fans out there!

“Business first,” Tommy ordered. Polly leapt from her seat, physically shoving Lucy out of the way in her haste to get at Tommy. Lucy caught herself against the wall with a yelp, head whirling to stare at her in shock.

“They took Michael.”

Tommy held up a hand. “I said business first. And don’t push Lucy, Polly.”

Polly continued to try to talk, but Tommy shouted over her. 

“Polly, business first!” he barked. She went silent, glowering. Lucy moved so that she was on the other side of Tommy from her, putting him between them, just in case. A movement that wasn’t lost on Tommy, if the way that his eyes tracked her were any indication. He turned back to his brother. “John?” he said, encouraging him to continue with his report. All of their whiskey had been taken, vans impounded and warehouses locked. They’d lost the Eden Club back to Sabini. Alfie had framed Arthur for Billy Kitchen’s death, so their truce with the Black Country boys was over.  

“I don’t give a fuck about whiskey,” Polly interupted. “I don’t give a fuck about Billy Kitchen. I want my son out of prison, now!” she slammed her hand on a desk.

“Thomas, I spoke to Johnny Dogs–” Esme began.

“This meeting should just be family!” Polly raged.

“I can help–” Esme tried.

“Let her talk!” Lucy said.

“It’s family only, she’s not blood, Tommy!” Polly practically screeched. 

“Let her speak,” Tommy ordered.

“Or is this a business–have you forgotten our family–” her eyes locked on Lucy, like she’d just realized that she was there, and her face turned bright red, all the hatred that she’d kept locked up towards her spilling out in one sudden, demented roar. “Get your soulless, disgusting, bitch of a slut out of here, now!”

Lucy recoiled like she’d been slapped, sinking into herself, her back hitting the wall behind her.

“Enough!” Tommy shouted. 

But Polly wasn’t done. “We all know that you just keep her around as a hole to shove your cock into–” 

“Enough!” Tommy roared, in a voice Lucy had never heard him use before. He sounded monstrous, terrifying in a way that wasn’t wholly human. Polly went silent, eyes widening, taking a step back, like she’d actually realized that she’d gone too far. Lucy stared at the floor, eyes blinking hard, feeling the rise of warmth in her cheeks from humiliation, unable to look at any of the other people in the room, though she could feel all of their eyes on her. “Enough, Polly,” his voice was lower, but the dangerous growl was still there.

Dance of Darkness Chapter 8: Happy or Sad

(Tommy Shelby x OC)

Don't worry, there are no spoilers for chapter 7 here!

She’d picked out a bright red dress with a long skirt and intricate black beading, and had swapped out her usually simplistic and less flashy jewelry for a few of the more expensive, lavish pieces she owned. Most of which had been gifts that Tommy had gotten her throughout the years. Fussing over her hair one last time, she sighed, and began to climb down the stairs, careful in the heels she was wearing so that she didn’t fall. She heard the door open and close, as James finally left for the night.

When Tommy saw her, his eyes lit up, crossing the room to her in several quick, long strides, hands landing on her waist as he kissed her.

“You look beautiful.”

She blushed under the praise. “Thanks.”

He’d prepared the sitting room while she was upstairs, turning on a few of the lights and getting a fire started, the dim glow leaving the room feeling seductive and romantic. He had shed his coat, leaving him in only his waistcoat, slacks, and white button down shirt, making it easier for her to feel the muscles in his biceps flex as she ran a hand along his arm. 

“What if she doesn’t show up?” she asked, nerves spiking again. Tommy looked her up and down, clearly appreciative.

“I’m sure we can think of something to do.”

She laughed, leaning more solidly against his chest. He rubbed her back.