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"I'll be honest with you, I really didn't realise CDs were poppin still...I haven't used a CD in about, it has to be ten years!" - Ashton Irwin, June 8th 2024
#anyway she kinda went off oops#when he didn't release a cd so i decided to make my own lyric book and jewel case insert#if anyone wants it with the bleeds included i mean what hmm 👀#literally i've never posted a fan art i'm always so scared when i do pls be nice i guess aaaaaaa#5sos#ashton irwin#blood on the drums#5 seconds of summer#i'm actually so pleased with these as someone who had to google how to rotate text when i started thiskdjhfsd#graphic design actually my passion but i never have ever done anything this big#i'm so especially pleased with the insert for under the cd like the final picture is actually like#i squashed the insert and the back page into the same size pic for posting sake but like#u can see the lil roses part through the case and it looks so dope it looks so good y'all and i haven't even like#printed it on good paper yet i'm literally :')#i would rather an official any day but actually this was really fun
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https://www.tumblr.com/louisupdates/754934426217152513/goodbye-faith-in-the-future-world-tour-272024?source=share
did he or did he not lose fans then?
I will answer this because this anon actually brings a concrete question to the table rather than just "hurhur but you're a larrie??" (tell me you can't actually refute any of our points…). Anyway this post shows the decrease in Louis instagram followers between the screenshots taken directly after the release of Faith in the Future in Nov '22, when he changed his bio to promote that album and the tour tickets, and now, when he changed it again to mention the current release. But I'm putting that response under a cut because I'm tired of the actual POINT of all this nonsense getting lost in a sea of made up things people insist are important:
There is no rational argument you can make to say that Louis has less fans now than he did 2, 4, or 6 years ago. You don't need a spreadsheet of details you need to USE YOUR EYES! He has gone from filling theaters to filling arenas and stadiums. His second album made a higher chart position than his first album. His festival has doubled in size EVERY year of its existence. And for that matter: his insta post engagement numbers remain about the same (despite the fact that older posts should have way MORE likes due to having been there longer, even aside from follower counts.) SO WHO FUCKING CARES ABOUT HIS INSTA FOLLOWER NUMBER???? Serious question: what does the word "fans" mean if these things aren't what matters? ALL of this quibbling about what he should do to make things better and people can't even see that THINGS AREN'T BAD.
Anyway to address the specific question- (con't......)
NO- HE DID NOT LOSE FANS. HE LOST SOME INSTA FOLLOWERS. THESE ARE NOT THE SAME THING. As I said above, literally what does it mean to lose fans if that number change coincides with him having higher sales, more audience members, and higher engagement than ever before? Whatever he lost ISN'T FANS. I wouldn't be surprised if a significant factor was something like a bot purge, but also yes: I'm sure a lot of casuals followed him around the time of his big album release and later unfollowed him. That's extremely normal because that's how casual engagement works, and why the definition of fan really matters. Louis and his team understand this and have referenced it repeatedly, talking about how lucky he is to have *us* specifically, to have the kind of dedicated fanbase he has, to have the KIND of fans he does who will allow him to do what HE wants. @dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram named the issue of depth vs breadth with regard to fans a long time ago, and pointed out why having DEPTH is so much more important. It's like this- artists who are on top 40 radio have more numbers on things like insta follows, and for a time on sales and tickets. But those aren't FANS- they're people with a casual interest. And as soon as that person isn't being forced in their ears 10x a day, those people lose interest and stop supporting them, stop buying stuff and unfollow, and those artists end up doing the 'opener on the jingle ball' circuit rather than their own tours. One Direction as a whole, and Louis maybe most of all or near to at this point, have something MUCH MORE VALUABLE than that- DEPTH FANS. Louis has fans who will support him even if he takes years to release music, or stops parading around with a pretend girlfriend to stay in the headlines at least once a month, or completely changes his image and genre, and that is UNHEARD OF. It's ASTONISHING and worth SO MUCH MORE. And they get that! THAT is why he always bragging about us, why industry people he works with are always so agog about us, why he will do anything for US- not for randos. He is also growing his breadth- and it's OBVIOUSLY WORKING whatever his follower counts are, but that is always going to be secondary to doing things for THE FANDOM because that is his sustainable business model. That is what keeps him onstage and reaching number one. And not coincidentally, the things they do are also working to grow that- much more valuable- commodity. So the fact that that's exactly what these chuckleheads complain about- that he does things that are just fandom facing or serving rather than everything being aimed at recruiting casual fans- does nothing but betray how completely they, unlike Louis and his team, misunderstand the actual drivers of his (actual, existing, happening) success. Luckily for Louis, he and his team rely on their own data harvesting (they do a LOT of it) and growth metrics (they're off the charts) rather than the smug assumptions of random (mostly quite new to this) fans and the few bitter people leading the complaining about everything Louis does.
#louis promo#all this nonsense about this tag or that tag or this or that number is so getting lost in the trees#when the forest is RIGHT HERE: WHAT THEY ARE DOING IS WORKING#so for now#I'm pretty done with this discussion unless someone actually engages meaningfully with the content of anything I'm saying#rather than just repeating the same things- but he needs to tag more! or the even more boring-#but you're a larry! if you send me a bitchy response that doesnt actually address any points I've made#I will assume it is because I'm right and you have no rebuttal other than to act like a preschooler because deep down you know it#honestly the discourse around this makes me feel a little sad and scared about the state of literacy and reading comprehension#and just general analytical thinking#but I hope its just that no one over 15 spends their time sending hate anons about fandom#if I'm wrong please come engage in actual conversation! but otherwise... let's just... not#blah blah blah#anyway there's a reason Louis is always so afraid no one will be there for him and that he started out solo era playing those radio fests..#because we are IMPROBABLE we are UNBELIEVABLE we are NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN EXPECT OR COUNT ON#and making nurturing and maintaining that his number one priority ALWAYS is extremely correct and smart#actually#I was originally going to be like here are when there were bot purges here are other artists that have seen numbers go down etc#but then I was like WAIT WHO CARES. You're letting these people dictate the conversation... but the premise is stupid#it DOESNT MATTER#depth v breadth
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and y'all think it's the southern voters' fault right? y'all think it's cuz we are all maga crazy right? y'all think we like living like this right?
#i'm sick and fucking tired of hearing southern states lumped in as if we're still the goddamn confederacy#Alabama has passed half the laws everyone is scared shitless about already#you think it's because the people living here actually have an equal right to representation as those in northern states do?#and that we all just want that?#the south has never had equal representation within it#it's getting better but it's hard and it's slow#maybe if northern states could help us out#but i think you'd rather us all just disappear#election#us election#election 2024#us elections#black belt#alabama#abortion#abortion rights#transgender#trans rights
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reeeaaally really empathizing hard w/ rots anakin right now. like. oh yeah ok i get it. he's been sleep-deprived & running w/ a high level of stress hormones nonstop for months. he keeps asking for advice and help and the jedi just say "what does yr heart tell you?" and "try not worrying about it. 🧘♂️" and the only person who actually seems to care about him is.... evil? but. that can't be right... what?
but there's no time to think about it because he did what he were supposed to do and told the jedi and now events are moving very fast and oops he got in the way and did something very impulsive and now mace windu is dead and it's anakin's fault, actually. and he still hasn't processed anything that's happened in the last... week? two months? ever in his life? but his friend palpatine is there and telling him that it's okay. that he did the right thing, that he did good. and guess what anakin? you don't have to worry about making any more hard decisions, because palpatine is gonna make them for you and you just have to do them. isn't that better? isn't that easier? isn't it?
#keeping it fun and funky fresh#personal#uh the empathizing part is that i am feeling Real lost and confused and scared rn. p rock bottom.#and i'm like. ohhh if my mentor/father figure/the only person who treats me like an actual person came up to me and was like#hey matty. i am gonna take care you from now on. i am gonna take care of *everything.*#i would absolutely be like. yes please. god. finally. what do you need me to do in exchange? i'll do it#and i haven't even been living in a cult of warrior-monks while fighting a seemingly futile war after growing up a slave.#the guy is... pretty primed for it is what i'm saying. inured to violence; accustomed to living in high-control environments#not to mention the decade of grooming palpatine has been doing offscreen#D:#i've also been watching star trek & any time there's an episore that's like...#would you rather live in that fake but peaceful+joyful world? or this real and violent+tragic world?#and it's like. hey man. at this point in my life i would take the good fake world p much without hesitation.#star wars
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i feel kinda bad for shirase for being like the villain of so many fics. poor guy didn't do anything wrong other than being 15
#i mean he did stab and poison chuuya in betrayal but that's like bsd's equivalent of someone stepping on your foot#also he was 15#from what i remember he's relatively chill in sb. he's just a scared kid yknow?#but 😭 ig it's easier to use a character ppl at least vaguely know rather than invent a random oc#in one fic i'm subscribed to he's actually a good friend to chuuya! but he also died before the story started. so. not great
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I don't typically post about this, because I like to leave talking about serious topics to those more eloquent than I, but it's really scary being a trans teen in the uk. They're trying to permanently ban puberty blockers. And if that happens, I feel like restrictions on gender affirming care will only get tighter and tighter, until they decide to make trans people entirely illegal. I wish I could grow up safe, but I'm scared I won't be allowed to grow up at all.
#my random stuff#uk politics#trans#it doesn't help that my parents are transphobic#and also recently I've been wondering if I'm actually a binary trans man rather than just a trans man sometimes#I'm so scared.
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Hi!! I’ve never had a pet snake so this might be a dumb question but is it harder for snakes to see when they’re in blue?
It's not dumb, snake eyesight is different from our own so we can't assume they see exactly how or what we do. For the longest time people believed they couldn't see red, and used red lights to light their enclosures at night- that's bad for them. Please do not light your snake like a rotisserie chicken, they can see it. Red light can be detrimental to reptiles because it can make it difficult for them to perceive depth, which can lead to mental distress. Red light bulbs can mess with your pet's ability to tell if it is day or night, since a light is always on, and that can cause stress and health and long term sight issues too.
But back to your original question, yes, snakes have difficulty seeing when they are in blue. Many will stay buried and hidden, not even eating until they've completely shed. That is the norm, and if a snake wants to be left alone, they should be. Sakura will hide most of the time, but I'll sometimes see the tip of her nose near a burrow hole, and I'll dangle something tasty in front of it and she'll eat it- but I won't dig her up if she's having alone time. Scoria will hide unless I'm around- they both know my voice and scent, and Scoria has complete trust in me so much that even when blind she knows I'll keep her safe.
She allowed me to take her out and feed her today, and then asked for pets. This behavior is unique to her, and if she were not specifically asking to be pet I would not do it after feeding (any other snake might throw up). I'd stop petting her and she'd ask again and again like, "Nope! Need more, come back and pet me." I really don't mind, she's found a way to tell me she enjoys being pet, and that's amazing- and also makes me happy. After many many pets (I guess we had a few days to make up for, I've been leaving her alone for the most part, only saw she was in blue, and then it was food day and saw her looking at me from her mossy hide) she buried herself underground in her bioactive area.
Perhaps some day Sakura will trust me to touch her while she's in blue too- but if not that's just fine. Sometimes we all need a few days to ourselves.
Oh, and don't feel bad asking snake blogs questions. It makes us happy when we get nonbot or spam asks! I imagine most of us love sharing about our snakes! And if sharing what I've learned helps lead a snake and their caretaker to a better life or bond then they would have had before, that's such a win for everyone!
#Snakes#shedding#in blue#hognoses#reptiles#Scoria is the most loving trusting baby#She rarely hisses and usually does it to say no#The other day I wasn't sure if she was thirsty and while holding her lowered my hand into her pool so she had an opportunity to drink#She gave a little hiss “no!”#So I took her out. Communication successful. We cuddled a bit before she asked to go back in her enclosure#Sakura wants very much to be social#she is overcoming crippling fear of people#And my goodness she has been so good and so brave#She learns by watching her sister#She saw me hold my hand protectively over Scoria (like a cave) and Scoria nuzzle it#Scoria will often curl into a cinnamon roll under my hand and nuzzle me while we both relax together#our happiest moments are with each other#Sakura saw this and tried to understand#So she asked to come out and actually went into my hand (usually she likes the door open so she can dangle and look around)#And then she went under my hand for about five seconds to try to see what we were doing#She is so shy and skittish so I'm proud she found the bravery to do it at all#She immediately got scared and asked to go back to her enclosure#I did it immediately as knowing they can go back any time helps them feel safer and will want to come out more#Rather than have a scary memory of being trapped and unable to get back home#She asked to come out later and I had her out about five minutes and when I TRIED to put her back she wrapped around my hand!#She wanted to spend more time with me!!!!#She WANTED more time with me#As someone who has been struggling to reach this frightened shy girl#There are no words for what I felt in that moment#I must never break her trust she's worked so hard to get
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Baby duck guy, again.
#I'm considering making an au or something but idk because its been forever since I last created one#The last one was like 5-6 years ago?? idk but I do know it didn't go well#it wasn't dhmis related though but it was for a fandom I rather not talk about since I still haven't fully recovered from lol#If anybody actually reads my tags I appreciate you for handling whatever is going on in my pea sized brain#dhmis#don't hug me i'm scared#dhmis duck guy#my art#bubbee's art
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marc meeting valentino when valentino was on a three race win streak and immediately having to watch his hero fail to win again for four races in a row
#marc canonically an astrology girly so maybe he was doing cleansing rituals because he was scared he'd given vale bad luck or something#jokes valentino did actually have a really fun catalunya race. just a duel with casey for p2 rather than p1#admittedly marc would've been justified in disowning him after assen#anyway to ME it is very important they'd already met that first time when laguna seca 2008 happened idk.....#lower categories never went to laguna so that was like the one sunday where marc could pay full undivided attention to the motogp race#oh you just know he was going crazyyyy watching that go down... dfw religious experience and all that shit#casey girl i'm so sorry ik these people suck#//#brr brr#idol tag#compiling the vale rec list and lovingly using up 10% of my 30 image allowance on the most important race *checks notes* catalunya '08#one of my favourite dumb thought exercises whenever i'm watching noughties races is imagining marc watching them#eleven is actually a great age to watch 2004... he thought the sepang sweeping celebrations were soooo funny prove me wrong
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I finally finished an unfinished sketch and watercolored the Doe 💜
I just love the uwu blushing looking away Doe, okay?
I ALSO GOT MY CHARGER FOR MY LAPTOP SO I'M WORKING ON A LITTLE ANIMATION SORTA BASED ON A LITTLE STORYBOARD (?) I MADE ON PAPER
Plus there's an animation in progress in flipaclip using pics of traditional art 👉👈
I promise to finish them 🥺
#john doe#actually saving me from art block doe?#my art#art#sketch#fanart#traditional art#watercolor#watercolour sketch#watercolour pencils#john doe fanart#john doe art#john doe visual novel#john doe game#hes scared and also embarrassed and looking away and IT'S SO CUTE#I never intended for myself to go full limerence obsession over this creature I'm so sorry#I would rather this than some irl person being subjected to me though. it'd scare them and I'd be arrested ^^;;#maki mayhem#my bestie is jealous lmao. or ig disappointed in me and worried that I won't care about him :< I'm so sorry that he has to deal with me 😂
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I think I'm "used" to antisemitism until I watch a sermon which enthusiastically says that jews will be sacrificed for the rapture and then I'm baring my teeth
#jumblr#jewish politics#antisemitism tw#i would rather the people i love live forever (which will happen)#like it doesn't scare me because i think the rapture will happen and jesus will like... personally convert every jew or whatever#what gets me is when people are ENTHUSIASTIC about that idea. that just tells me everything#i never grew up with the rapture being taught to me and that's one thing i'm grateful for. they never focused on that#so i'm definitely not used to... that#amyway i saw that sermon last night and remember just... this feeling of awe (bad) because people were cheering in this megachurch#it just gets me harder knowing how much i love my community especially at shul. i love them all and it just... it's weird to see that now#i think i just say 'im used to it' so i won't have to confront my feelings about all of this actually#because i'm used to being... made an other for different reasons of who i am but. it's just. it's hard to explain
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Tldr: treatment not working, got rare dangerous skin condition, dermatologist and gastroenterologist finally found an agreement, new treatment expensive and scary 😌
But I lived bitches
#Heyyy y what's up#Del.txt#it's an actual shot rather than prefilled :( I'm scared#Also hi I'm still obsessed with F1 so I have banished myself to other blog
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my bro gave me his old drawing stylus after he heard i lost mine i gotta start animating again i have no more excuses!!
#i just feel so intimidated#like there's all this science to it and a Right Way to do it#but when i realy think about all that stuff i realize it Isn't all that scary but i still#cant helkp but feel inadequate Or like i won't even be able to do it Like i'm actually honest to god incapable#but i know i could learn#ive done it before .. stuff i thought i wouldn't be able to do isn't so scary once i actually start it and give myself a chance to enjoy it#rather than blaze through scared and get disappointed that the stuff i did in 10 minutes isn't that good#anything worth doing is hard to do At first#and takes time and practice#i just need to stop being so scared!#and stop rushing#art isn't something you Get over with i need to stop that#i enjoy the process when i allow myself too. when im not worrying about all the ways i could be doing it better#my rambles
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It is time to get to business and play the HSR update now.
#I've read things#and I'm scared#I'm also very skeptical#when the HCQ is a topic of discussion#actually I get war flashbacks every single time#because there... tends to be such a big dissonance#and also a lot of interests at play#like certain ships I would rather not mention#that distorts everything so much more#anyway#here I go#pray for me djfhjg
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oh boy... i'm never gonna be able to trust anybody because if i start wanting things from someone and putting faith in them i will literally kill myself if they leave... the only thing i can do is try to make myself as independent as possible and never rely on anything so i never feel like i will crumble into dust if someone i love and rely on disappears from my life
#got intense anxiety earlier because i have no human adult life skills so thinking about leaving my parent's place or them dying legit sends#me spiraling. which is funny because like... i'm not blaming my mom but the fact that i rely on them so much#and they really haven't taught me a single thing about how to be an actual functioning human being...#lmao it's just funny.#like i still need to learn how to drive and uhh lots of other things that would be pathetic for me to mention#but i'm just so scared at the thought bc i don't know how to do anything rn and any change in my life feels like a finger getting severed#but like. emotionally. eh whatever#point being idk if i can ever genuinely feel secure with anyone who i'm not tied to completely and utterly#if someone has the possibility of leaving me i feel like they will take it at any opportunity because i'm. too much#so if someone doesn't want me and they leave me and i put any amount of hope onto them. god#i know this all sounds majorly stupid because it is and i'm sure that's just life for most people but#excruciating emotional pain is not fun so i'd rather just not
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not that my relationship with my mother has ever been particularly good and simple but i do think it's going to get worse soon
#i'm scared. i'm fucking terrified.#i'm scared of my chronic illness getting worse i'm scared of pushing myself i'm scared of the future#because i don't know how to prepare for that eventuality. i don't know how to make that plan#and i understand that deep down she's also scared. i don't know if she understands that.#she definitely doesn't understand that sometimes there just isn't a cure. not that she believes cfs is an actual thing either#but i understand she's scared of my future as well. i'm grieving a life i'm never gonna have#but. that's my grief. and i understand it's grief.#this is also a generous interpretation of her.#god and i can't even get into the trans thing. i don't know if i'll ever be able to get into the trans thing.#she's. she's not a terrible person. but she'll never understand me on any deeper level#maybe that's my fault.#god and she'd much rather say it's anxiety. literally don't have anxiety#i mean im fucking miserable but that's not because of anxiety it's because of the. everything else in my life#well. i guess it's oversharing thursday.
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