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~Special Agent Dana Scully~
Hi X files fandom ?
I've been lurking around for a while since I started watching (I just got to season 8) and it's so cool to see such an old fandom be so active and so nice to newcomers
I don't feel like I fully did Scully justice, but I'll keep trying
#the x files#im actually so nervous to post this ???#dana scully#mulder and scully#ill try mulder eventually but I'm scared to draw him#txf#txf fanart#anyways if anyone wants to talk about this show to me pls do#also her hand is totally covering the fbi part but that's fine
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I was going to wait and poke at this a bit more, but the excitement of Upcoming Episode 7 took over. :') so here's one of my alt ideas for Silver's UM poster! this time with more Diasomnia-appropriate colors (that said, you can tear the pink fluffy clouds away from my cold dead hands)
I also recorded this one, for anyone who's interested in that kind of thing! it includes all my fuckups and changing my mind and spending forever adding details before deciding it looks better without, so, uhhh, enjoy my failures! (I kept trying to draw in his jacket details...it never worked...) also featuring lots of drawing on the wrong layer, forgetting how jackets work, and the black censor boxes of continually forgetting to turn off pop-up notifications. hope you like watching me draw birds!
here it is, combined and compressed down to about 10 minutes long (with a warning for flickering and flashing colors from sped-up zooming/layer changes): [ link ]
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#eyestrain#not pictured: every time i had to stop working on it for the day because i was getting so mad at it#and honestly if i don't post this now i'm going to hate it too much to ever post it so HEY here we are#we're not going to talk about the ring. we just aren't.#genuinely the hardest part of this style is trying not to overdo it#something i struggle with a lot...as you can see š« #i actually don't normally do color thumbs (or at least not to that level)#but the bird overlay and the dark jacket against a dark background made me so nervous#and then i ended up changing basically every color anyway#whoops
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I don't know what happened but I fell into the Evka/Antoine pit overnight after rereading parts of Tevinter Nights, and there's only a handful of things when I search for them so I'm adding to that pile myself!!
They've appeared multiple times in short stories and even the comics so I'm just waiting for DA4 stuff like "š". Bioware pls give us the cute Wardens (preferably alive and well shjhfg but I'm expecting them to hurt me emotionally anyway bc this is DA after all, and there's been so much foreshadowing ;;v;;)
(Lineart below)
#2024 art#da4#dragon age the veilguard#tevinter nights#evka ivo#antoine#grey wardens#I'm SO NERVOUS about that ending in Hunger but also intrigued by all the ways it could go if they do appear in the game#also uh antoine what is your actual hair color it's red-brown in the short story but blonde in the missing and ?????idk#i love evka's design in the short story art so much#they're engaged pls let them be happy#that side profile killed me i redrew it like nine times#i was about to post this moments before the trailer dropped and got distracted hahah
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After this most recent episode i'd like to remind people that the word g*psy is a slur. Some Romani people have reclaimed it but you shouldn't use it if you aren't Romani. I wasn't personally angry (though slightly taken aback) that it was used in the show because i felt it was realistic, not excessive and was portrayed in negative light, while also telling us something about both Nicki and Armand as characters. I still don't want to see it used by fandom in everyday language and discussions. Many different names have been used to refer to Romani people but 'Romani' and 'Roma' are what communities around the world generally accept themselves.
Nicki calling Armand a g*psy doesn't necessarily mean that he is Romani (though he easily could be since we don't know much about his background yet), but it tells us that people in-universe assume so when meeting him. The way the society treats Romani people is extremely hostile and Romani have been widely hated and discriminated against for the entire recorded history. The Paris timeline of s2 also takes place in the immediate aftermath of the WW2 and the Romani genocide. Regardless of is Armand actually Romani or not, being perceived as such would have a major influence on him, his life and relationships, and how he moves through the world. I don't know will the association with Romani be addressed in any way in the future, but i hope that people are mindful of Armand as a character existing in this framework
#i would be really excited if armand was actually a romani i wrote that one really long post about it but the fandom makes me nervous#(just to be clear i'm romani)#iwtv#iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire#iwtvposting
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January 8, 2015: A man after my own heart-- Dan cleans his room at 1 AM! šļøš§¹
#dan#daniel howell#dan howell#danisnotonfire#y:2015#via:twitter#10yearsofdnp#i desperately need to clean my apartment but i just have not felt up to it#it's HARD when you work full time man#speaking of i am actually making this post at work since i'm busy tonight hehehe#in fact when this is posted i will be in my dance class! super excited but also super nervous about feeling awkward but it's fineeee#also ignore the timestamps - they're always gonna be 6 hours behind since i'm in CST lol
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Pages from trying to keep a little sketchbook-scrapbook type thing going for two weeks lol. I gave myself specific rules in hopes they might all end up more cohesive/consistent seeming, but alas, scribbly chaos reigns, it seems
#sketchbook#scrapbook#Actually I feel like these are kind of incomprehensible in photo form like.. In person holding the book its easy to look at#but as images on this scale I feel like there's so much tiny little text and small scribles and stuff you'd have to 'right click > open#image in new browser tab > zoom in' just to actually really see the thing. which for 7 images is excessive lol.. so. probably not the best#medium for sharing really but. I suppose I thought they might look cooler lined up next to each other. The whole part of using a#limited color palette is so that maybe they kind of seem to have more consistent color schemes or something throughout. but I dont#know if they look all that 'related' or not. I think these types of challenges I have always sucked at because I am a being of clutter and#excess. I can't just do like one little simple nice looking design and have that Crisp Neat calligraphy with evenhanded perfect lines#and perfect symmetical composition and etc. etc. Like some poeple post very aesthetically clean and cohesive looking sketch#pages or something but I simply cannot hold back the brain impulse to add more. more. more. Fill every single blank space with color#or a little drawing or a sticker or something. I take away 500 things and there are still a million there. Even when I thik I'm being#'simplistic' I'm still usually being 2x more complicated and cluttered than the standard or whatever lol. I guess thats clear from my#outfits/costumes though too. Like whatever that saying is from that person about something like 'before you leave the house take off one#more accessory. you dont need it' for me is like.. 'before you leave the house. add 10 more accessories. and 6 more layers. and another'#AAANyway. I wonder if also maybe some people would try to plan theirs in a way to look good or something or like.. plot things on the page#before placing them. I did sometimes have a theme for a day kind of (like day 10 I ended up finding a few gold and green things and then#was like.. hey... what if I looked for a few other things and only used these colors today') but aside from that I was just slapping down#stickers randomly and working around them to fill the page. Maybe a lot of neat minimalistic asthetic design is about planning and#having a Vision set ahead of time. instead of just complete random whatever. doodling whilst watching youtube videos or eating lunch. It's#a miracle actually I've managed to not spill any food on the book the whole time. anyway.. I do wish the highlighter really showed up. the#scanner kind of makes the colors look VERY different to irl. But also it got much clearer images than just camera pictures of pages. alas..#..Still oddly enjoy the phrase 'Salisbury Steak gently kissed with industrial pollutants'#probably my favorite section of 'gluing random papers and things onto the page' lol#Also I wonder if it's super obvious that I literally never ever use references when I draw (save for the few freakish looking youtube#face sketches) since everyone is always in the same positions and looking very similar ghhb. This could have been a good opportunity to#work on not solely drawing from my mind and try to do more Dynamic Experimental scribbles. NO. Same exact eye for the 90th time#be upon ye. But I guess it was meant to be casual 'daily doodles'. True 'practice' would make it seem too effortful like a full project. hm#(lol the one decimated pencil in the set... never hand me a writing utensil. i will passively destroy it somehow. shaving the sides of a#pencil off with a knife or snapping a pen in half as a nervous fidget without even realizing i've done it. sorry to the drawing implements)
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Maybe I should do. Linktober? A bit? I would post egg carvings on some days
Egg carvings! :D it's an area of art I do a lot and would want to grow in... it's wierd tho ':D I hollow eggshells and engrave on them or carve them into shapes... I did this one quick today for examples
If yall want me to do it a bit I will... and that top photo would count for day one- mirror. The reflection setting in the sksw final boss is so cool to me and also I love drawing lightning, tho this isn't my favourite egg I've ever done. Anyways. I could do some days? What do y'all think?
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Edit: well I guess I'm doing it then! Happy October yall, this should be fun :D
#loz#zelda#smoll art#skyward sword#sksw#linktober#<even using that tag feels wierd#but I'm trying to post art and stuff on here#even if my art is odd hehe#this egg cracked and broke right after I finished photos. I dropped it I felt so ashamed.#perils of the craft lol#but itās really fun! itās delicate work. and itās an area of craft I can safely say Iām good at. Iām an egg artist lol#egg carving is actually a super old art that Iām very passionate about and have worked on for years#havenāt shown yāall that before tho *nervous*#this egg didnāt take long. just triforce and silent princess flower and mirror boss battle thingy#I wanted to show yall some example sketches#I also would maybe engrave on glass a bit some days#I count the third poll option as a positive maybe#let me know what you think because I canāt do decisions
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...Yeah, I'd whore myself up for him like this. Next question.
#I drew this middle of pride month as an indulgent treat for myself#I'm not quite used to drawing risque art and I was very nervous about posting it for the longest time#but like#fuck it you know#im an adult that can enjoy adult things#and this is one of the few places where i can actually express myself without shame#i need to stop obsessing over the possibility of someone from my irl life discovering this#like do any normal people even use tumblr anymore?#i should be alright#dr baggs#baggs#my art#utmv#megalosomnia#fanart#digital art#sona#self insert shit babyyy
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Hi!
Marioās distaste for mushrooms is so funny and it gives material to draw stuff like this hehe
(Based over a fic I read years ago where the guy craved a fruit that literally every single person in that world hated and so he ate it shamefully ajksdjsad here Mario just eats angrily bc he hates it)
Also I say that at any inconvenience regarding the pregnancy Mario goes >:c to his belly, like heās mad at the babies asdlaskd and Peach plays along.
(Also- sorry to people that actually speak italian, I did translate what Marioās saying in google akjdjksdak heās saying btwĀ āhow dare you two? To betray your own mother...ā)
#super mario bros#mario mario#princess peach#mareach#mpreg#my art#also it's been years and yet I can't understand how to make basic lighting work but it was needed sorryyyy#thinking of that concept art where he is suffering trying to eat a cooked mushroom#also I love dad mario but also i love mama mario so im conflicted#it could be mommy peach and mama mario IDKKK#I actually don't like 'mommy' but I was thinking of Mami Peach in spanish and that's the translation alskdskad#t4t mareach for the win#also i'm not sure if poke is the correct word for when you touch something repeatedly with a finger#but I think it is#i'm cringe and yet not free#I still get kinda nervous about posting mpreg akjsdj#mareach preggy stuff
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ā Beginnings.
Characters >> Lily Castellanos, Nathan Dixon (oc), Sebastian Castellanos Total >> 3.5k words Warnings >> Alcohol mention Context >> The first chapter of my own TEW3, taking place some months after the conclusion of the in-game events of TEW2! You can read more about it all here!
It snowed in Krimson City.
The sky had been the same dull gray color since sunrise, snowflakes slowly cascading down and covering the street in a thick blanket of snow. A heavy fog held the city tightly in its graspā an eerie atmosphere hanging in the thin afternoon air and low-hanging clouds swallowing entire buildings wholeā and with only limited visibility on the road, traffic was forced to crawl by in slow motion.
While not an unseen phenomenon, it was far from a common sight for early January, only days after Nathanās birthday. He had spent that day snowed in in his little apartment, had celebrated it alone; not as if it mattered much, he doubted Kid even knew and besides his ex-colleague from MOBIUS he severely lacked other friends to hang out with those days.
He stood motionless at the fence of the small playground located in Krimson Cityās public park, gloved hands stuffed deep in the pockets of his long, black coat with the collar popped up to shield the lower half of his face from the occasional sharp gust of wind. He had not moved in a while, shoulders and tousled black hair covered in a thin layer of fine white powder, frost nipping away at the tip of his nose as his eyes followed a group of kids excitedly running around.
It did not take a genius to notice Lily was significantly older than the others there, but none of the kids seemed to mind. It came as no surprise to Nathan to see her thereā she had not once lost her playfulness even after everything MOBIUS had put her through, and without a proper outlet for it in all her years trapped in the shadow organization it only made sense for her to want to have a chance at spending the remainder of her childhood like she had always been supposed to.
He watched in silence as she scooped up some snow in her pink and orange mittens, wincing when one of the other kids threw a snowball directly at her face; she was smiling, though, and quickly pressed the snow together to then hurl it back, the surprisingly well-aimed attempt hitting someone else on the back of their coat.
āYouāre startinā to freak out the other parents, standing there like that.ā
The corners of Nathanās mouth lightly curled up upon hearing the familiar, low voice, not needing to turn his head to know who joined him on the other side of the fence.
āWas starting to wonder how long itād take for you to notice me,ā he said, his own voice a little rougher than usual on account of the cold, and his severe lack of proper rest in the past few weeks. āWas gonna give you another five minutes before Iād walk over to introduce myself. Youāre getting slow.ā
āIām getting comfortable,ā Sebastian Castellanos corrected him with a scoff, returning Lilyās little wave as she ran by the both of themā Nathan merely greeted her with a single nod of his headā before quickly shoving his hand back in the pocket of his green jacket.
āNo need to keep my eyes up anymore, Nate. Threatās gone, MOBIUSā gone. Lifeās improving day by day.ā
āGood.ā
Nathan wished he shared Sebastianās sentiment.
If anything, life had turned rather sour for him after they had successfully gotten rid of a large chunk of MOBIUS several months ago. He had never expected to walk away from it alive to begin withā and now, without the steady income the organization had provided him with for years, he found himself struggling to get by.
He glanced to his right, gaze briefly meeting that of the ex-detective before he quickly averted his eyes and let them wander back to the playground, trailing over the various snow-covered playground sets.
Sebastian looked good, healthyā much better than the state heād been in when Nathan had last seen him all those months ago. Part of him regretted not reaching out sooner, the sudden reconnection now an obvious sign that something was wrong; though the wiser part of him knew that had he stuck around the Castellanos family they would not have been able to move on and heal, which was the last thing he would have wanted to be responsible for.
āWhat about you?ā Sebastian quietly asked, as if heād been able to sense Nathanās melancholy. āYou look like you havenāt slept in days.ā
Nathan scoffed, slightly tilting his head to look at his feet and he absently kicked some snow off his boots. āThat obvious? Sure feels like it.ā
He had teamed up with Juli Kidman to deal with the remainder of MOBIUS, after the Union incident. Of course the destruction of the STEM environment hadnāt led to the fall of the whole organizationā it wouldāve been stupid of them to link all of their employees directly to the mainframe of a single STEM device, despite the Superiorsā obvious lack of knowledge concerning the technologyā and while MOBIUS had suffered massive losses, it would only be a matter of time before they would regroup.
But he was not there to talk to Sebastian about how their hunt was going.
Something else had come up.
Nathanās silence did not go unnoticed and Sebastian turned toward him, leaning sideways against the fence with a concerned look in his eyes. He did not need to say anythingā and neither did Nathan, as he slowly pulled his hands out of his pockets and removed one of his black, leather gloves.
The pale top of his left hand had a burned appearance, as if fire had scorched away skin and fleshā the wound only partially healed leaving it broken and torn clinging closely to his veins and bones. Though despite how recent he had received the scar, its appearance instead implied years long possession, and despite its severity it did not hurt at all.
He could tell by the look on Sebastianās face the scar reminded him of someone.
āNow, I know what youāre gonna sayāā Nathan started, but Sebastian cut him off.
āI canāt do this, Nathan. I have a daughterāā
āāI know.ā
His voice came out a lot sharper than he had meant for.
āIām not asking anything of you,ā he said, his heartbeat pounding in the back of his throat.
āNot this time.ā
It had started as police radio chatter.
Late in the afternoon, Nathan had already been getting ready to go home. Kid had picked up a mention of Beaconā its doors long closed for the public yet the building remained in the heart of Krimson City, left to rot and wither awayā supposed ghostly activity reported within its decaying walls, and she had wanted to investigate.
Nathan sharply exhaled and put his glove back on, exposed fingers growing numb in the freezing winter air. He leaned forward with his arms on the fence, to move a little closer to Sebastian; as if he was afraid someone would overhear them, as if they could make sense out of any of it to begin with.
āHeās back, Sebastian,ā he defeatedly stated, and the other man lowered his gaze. āI saw him. He did this to me.ā
āImpossible.ā
āWish it was.ā
Despite hearing many tales, and having worked on his project for years as developer within the MOBIUS branch he had been part of, Nathan had never seen or met Ruvik face to face. The brilliant mind behind the STEM technology had always remained in the shadows; up until his death, after which his brain had become the core of MOBIUSā very first STEM device.
Naturally so, when Nathan had run into the man while wandering the abandoned hallways of Beacon, his first assumption had been that he was asleepā followed by a brief moment of panic in which he had believed he was dead, or somehow back in STEM.
But Ruvik had touched himā had forcefully grabbed his hand to make him drop his gun and had left a burn similar to his own scarsā and had then vanished the second Kidman had yelled out Nathanās name, the old and presumed broken STEM device in the room next door whirring and humming as if it had never been deactivated in the first place.
āIām here to warn you,ā Nathan softly continued, eyes fixed on a random spot in the bright snow covering the playground and thumb absently running over the gloved back of his scarred hand.
āWe donāt know yet what exactly heās here for, what exactly heās tryinā to do. Investigating as we speak, butā shitās looking serious. Somehow reverse engineered the STEM signal to reach outward, expand into reality. Push itself out rather than draw people in.ā
āMeaning?ā
āSimilar to the wireless connection that pulled you into STEM the first time round, butā without being pulled in.ā Nathan had to bite his tongue to stop himself from getting too technical. āAnā An active environment in our world, if you follow, rather than on the deviceās mainframe. Signal seems to be inactive still, but weāre gettinā the readings. No idea how heās planning to activate it yet.ā
They had moved the device to their own headquarters, on the outskirts of town. Had needed to connect it to the second prototypeā the device that had supported the Union environment, which they had taken from MOBIUSā headquarters after wiping out its agentsā in order to gain access to the mainframe, get any data extracted from it in the first place.
Their initial hope had been that it was nothing more than echoesā malfunctions in the STEM device caused by neglect promptly activating the wireless signal allowing shades from within to wander the Beacon hallwaysā anything but Ruvikās actual return, however that was even possibleā
āDaddy!ā
Nathan blinked, drawn out of his thoughts by Lilyās voice. He watched her run over to the two of themā the front of her coat, face, and hair completely covered in snow and a bright smile on her face as she attempted to wipe some of it from her forehead, but if anything her mittens just further spread it out.
āIām getting cold,ā she said, squinting when Sebastian reached out to help her with the snow. āCan we go back home soon?ā
āOf course honey,ā he replied, barely able to mask the exhaustion in his voice now that Nathan had explained the situation to himā and for a brief moment it was as if they were back in Union, radioing back to Kidman from the momentary safety of one of their established safehouses. āDonāt want you catching a cold.ā
Lily looked up at Nathan and smiled at himā but she was a smart kid, and he watched her expression change as she looked back up at her father, head slightly tilting before she shook it to get some strands of her ink black hair out of her face, the single white strand in her bangsā matching Nathanās ownā a grim and constant reminder of her motherās fate.
āIs everything alright?ā she asked, and Nathan couldnāt help but wonder if she still associated him with MOBIUS, if she still associated him with the tests and experiments they put her through and if she still associated him with the STEM device, meeting one another within in some facility in the Marrow where he was forced to watch over her like a vulture at all times, all to keep the system stable.
āNothing to worry about,ā he simply answered her, unsure if she would fall for his lie, but knowing it would give her infinitely more comfort than the truth ever could. āJust came to say hi.ā
The breeze picked up, howling loudly in Nathanās ears as if the whole city softly cried for him; the cold boring its way through his clothes and eating away at his skin, exposed or not, freezing him all the way down to the bone. He lowered his headā a futile attempt at shielding his face from the biting wind and snow, individual snowflakes cutting like knives across his forehead and cheekbones.
He watched Lily smile at both him and Sebastian again before running off to get back to the snowball fight for just a bit longer, diving behind the slide to get cover. His gaze was pulled back toward Sebastianā but said man appeared deep in thought, eyes pointedly fixed on something in the distance, head anywhere but in the present.
āI gotta go back in,ā Nathan quietly continued; an unnecessary statement, the gravity of the situation like static in the air between the two of them, though to put it into words was to accept the harsh reality of it allā acknowledgement of what had to happen, what was going to happen, something he had not been able to do before.
āItās nothing like Union,ā Sebastian bluntly replied with a shake of his head, turning his back to the playground and resting heavily with his elbows on the fence. āHeās nothing like Stefanoā nothing like Theodore. He doesnāt need a weapon or a core to draw his powers from, you get too close and itās over. You understand?ā
Nathan didnāt know what else to say.
He had never thought heād have to go back into STEM after Union. Heād be alone this time roundā no Sebastian by his side, no Kidman to radio back to. They had reconnected some old friendsā Joseph, Yukiko, Esmeraldaā but had no idea whether or not their consciousnesses would still be somewhere within STEM, and for all Nathan knew he would be diving into a world entirely of Ruvikās creation, with the same horrifying creatures haunting it as last time, if not worse.
Of course he was terrified. All it took was one encounter with Anima and he would never see the light of day ever again.
āYou should go,ā Nathan said, pushing himself up from the fence and stuffing his hands back in the pockets of his coat, āget out of town while you still can. Grab a bag or two, grab Lily, take her on aā on a road trip up north or something, while we figure this out. Just in case heāā
He couldnāt finish his sentence. The thought of Ruvik succeeding and trapping the world in a constant state of STEM was something he would rather not think about.
āāyou know.ā
An uncomfortable silence followed. And rightfully soā what else was there to say? The whole situation was ridiculous to begin with, and for Nathan to show up only now instead of at any other point in time, months of radio silence after nearly dying together in a simulation of reality lingering between real life and a dreamā
He carefully watched as Sebastian shifted his weight from one foot to the other, able to study his face for longer now that the other man refused to make eye contact with him. He truly did look a lot better; Nathan could only assume the man had stopped drinking, and had been getting a much better nightās sleep.
Though despite the improvement in his appearance there was still that lingering sense of dread, the dark shadow that had washed over his face the second he had laid eyes on Nathanās scarring and had realized what he had come to him for.
Nathan couldnāt blame him. But heād had to let Sebastian know.
He licked his lips and nodded to no one in particular, ending the conversation himself by taking a small step back and turning back around to return to his car, drive home, drink himself blind and pass out to hopefully get some sleep in before he would have to dive back into his worst nightmareā
āHey.ā
Sebastianās hand on his upper arm was unexpected and Nathan hated how he could not stop himself from flinching, a reflex more than anything else, and he hated how it made Sebastian pull his hand away as if heād touched fire, the tips of his fingers on Nathanās body despite the layers he wore the first physical contact he had experienced in months.
āWho is āweā?ā Sebastian quietly asked, briefly glancing behind him to see if Lily was still far enough away. A surprising question; though not out of character for the ex-detective, his curiosity piqued just enough for him to try and get a little more information out of Nathan before they would say goodbye and possibly never see each other again.
āMe,ā Nathan plainly answered, āJuli. Used to be just us two but we gathered a team of old STEM developers to help us with this. They got moved on to other projects while we were working on Unionā they removed their chips, came back for us.ā
āSo all MOBIUS.ā
Not even a question, simply a statement.
Nathan bit the inside of his cheek. āEx MOBIUS.ā
The atmosphere changed, a sharp tension bouncing between the two of them as Nathan straightened his back and lightly tilted up his chin. He couldnāt exactly place the look on the other manās face, though by then knew him well enough to know his hesitation wasnāt caused by uncertainty, but moreso distrust.
āThought the program was meant to kill them all,ā Sebastian said, a somewhat hostile undertone in his voice that had not been there before.
āJust our branch.ā Nathan paused, watching as Sebastian slowly nodded and mouthed a soundless ārightāā not entirely sure what his reaction was supposed to mean, but he decided not to ask. āAlready told you it runs a lot deeper than you thought.ā
Myra's sacrifice had put an end to the Administrator's reign of terrorā had destroyed his legacy, and all research and findings on the STEM system as designed by Ruvik and improved by MOBIUS. Whichever branches remained did not nearly have enough resources or knowledge to pull off something even remotely similar; and whatever scraps of code they could have gotten their hands on before Kidman and Nathan had wiped their systems clean would prove insufficient to provide them with a stable environment.
And even if they would make it that farā provided theyād be able to recreate the STEM device from written instructions alone, Ruvik's original blueprints lost to time and MOBIUS' own burned to a crisp in the aftermath of the Union incident's conclusionā the mental erosion Union's residents had suffered from and the Anima manifestations that had happened as a result had never been resolved, leaving any future STEM residents with the all but comforting promise of a similar fate.
'I'm diving in tomorrow,' Nathan said, knowing there was nothing else left to say. The breeze in the park was picking up again, sweeping snowflakes that were starting to feel more like hail than anything else into Nathanās face with a lot more force than before, melting on collision and dripping into the collar of his shirt. 'First thing in the morning. Canāt waste any more time. In case you wanna come say goodbyeā'
He reached into the pocket of his pants, then held out a note to Sebastian; handwritten, containing an address located on an abandoned warehouse site, not too far from Nathan's own home.
'āour headquarters.' He waited for Sebastian to take the note from him. 'No pressure, of course.'
No pressure.
The note was almost a blatant sign that Nathan wanted him to be there. He could not ask it of him directlyā but gave him the option anyway, leaving the decision up to Sebastian instead.
But deep down Nathan knew that Sebastian knew that he really did not want to go back in aloneā and if it had been up to him they had recruited Sebastian a week ago already, when things had first started to go wrong.
āDo you have backup?ā Sebastian softly asked, as if he could look directly into Nathanās headā asking the one question he had hoped for, with an answer to it that could easily enough change Sebastianās mind about letting Nathan walk away if only he would play his cards rightā
But despite how often he had practiced the entire conversation alone in his car, despite going over all the different things he could say at least a million times, just to get Sebastian to feel sorry for himā as selfish as it fucking wasā Nathan found himself unable to speak.
He simply shook his head instead.
The other children and their parents were leaving, now. It was getting late, and colder, and Lily slowly wandered back to Sebastian to start dragging him back to the car if he were to take any longer than he already had.
Nathan looked up at the sky, eyes fluttering shut as he allowed more snow to drift down onto his ice cold skin, and he breathed in and out deeply before turning back to Sebastian.
āTheyāre expecting more snowfall tonight,ā he said, locking eyes for only a split second and shooting a smile in his direction, as he began walking backwards into the direction of his car. āDonāt wait up. Andā Drive safe, okay?ā
Sebastian did not answer him.
It snowed in Krimson City, accompanied by a deafening silence weighing it down and choking it out, as if the whole city was expectantly holding its breath.
Nathan left.
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#nuclearwriting#kinda nervous posting this and also genuinely don't know if i'll keep writing because i haven't actually written much more yet LOL#i do really wanna work more on this because it's just nice to have for myself. but i'm definitely not gonna do the one chapter a week#that i used to do for king of fools. i don't know how i managed to do that like genuinely don't ask me#but yeas hi =] nathan introduction <3 obviously he and sebastian have already worked together during tew2 but i didn't feel like#writing about all of that just because it's basically what happens in the game except nathan is there. commenting on everything#this is the first part of the story where he gets to actually lead a bit more himself rather than just following sebastian around#and most of it will be written from his perspective if i do end up writing more =]#if i did my math and timeline right nathan did in fact already work for mobius when ruvik was still alive. so logically they could have met#but they didn't... closest nathan got was when he led the operation to burn the victoriano estate down after ruvik was killed#and then he wasn't there for beacon so he didn't experience any of that. and obviously in union ruvik wasn't there#so him running into ruvik as described in this chapter is the very first time they came face to face with each other ^_^
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King Regis has appointed Noctis, an omega, as pack leader. The problem is, none of them were expecting this. Least of all, Gladio.
So I finally posted something to AO3. I really wanted to dive deeper into the dynamics between Noct, Ignis, and Gladio in my AU, so I wrote this !
There are a couple of scenes I'd like to explore more, but I'm really not sure yet if I want to try to write my own entire fic? Or just do some one shots to explore the scenes that I want?
Obviously there's already First Impressions which I couldn't even hold a candle to, but there are some things in the AU I wanted to change up and play with.
Growing Pains (2044 words) by rkcart Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Final Fantasy XV Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Gladiolus Amicitia/Ignis Scientia, Gladiolus Amicitia/Noctis Lucis Caelum, Noctis Lucis Caelum/Ignis Scientia, Gladiolus Amicitia/Prompto Argentum, Prompto Argentum/Noctis Lucis Caelum, Prompto Argentum/Ignis Scientia Characters: Prompto Argentum, Noctis Lucis Caelum, Gladiolus Amicitia, Ignis Scientia Additional Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Omega Noctis Lucis Caelum, Alpha Gladiolus Amicitia, Beta Ignis Scientia, Omega Prompto Argentum, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Fluff and Angst Summary: King Regis has appointed Noctis, an omega, as pack leader. The problem is, none of them were expecting this. Least of all, Gladio.
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Day 2 of me backing up my platonic skk agenda: (long post ahead)
It would be pretty hard to convince people with my point of view on this one, I almost gave up lmao, but I'm relentless when it comes to proving myself as right so I'm putting this out there āš¼ I'm not expecting many to agree lol
We all know, and love/hate/have complicated/no feelings for Beast!Dazai, right? I won't be focusing on him either way since he's too unstable/not really focused or have the time for love atm, so any romantic emotions would've been dispelled way too early on due to his unique situation. (Honestly it's less 'dispellled' and more suppressed until supposedly numb)
At least I'm sure we all love Beast!Chūya. What separates between him, and his canon self is how outwardly protective Chūya is of Dazai, but it isn't exactly out of nowhere. A lot of people in the fandom just think of it being the result of Soukoku spending more time together, which isn't far removed from what I believe, but not exactly it either.
I believe that the key reason why Chūya is like this is because of Oda's absence.
Oda was such an important part of Dazai's life, he treated him like the child he was, while upholding the appropriate boundaries due to the drastic difference in their positions, and eventually gave him a purpose to keep going. Oda was arguably the older brother Dazai could've had if it weren't for the circumstances, Oda's untimely death, and the Port Mafia's tight hierarchy system.
In this lifetime, Oda wasn't present, or more precisely, Dazai didn't give him the chance to be present, which ultimately led to Dazai being much more withdrawn, outwardly sadistic, yet inwardly vacant, his self proclaimed apathetic self ever present. Chūya witnessed his steady decline in both health, and mentality since Dazai returned from that mission; the day I picked up Dazai never happened as in canon, and Oda never knew Dazai beyond his facial features until their reunion.
Oda isn't there, so Chūya had to make sure that Dazai's self destructive behaviour didn't destroy him, subconsciously looking out for him more, and paying more attention to him by the day, but disguising it behind threats, and insults; It's rightful with how Dazai acts to be honest.
He was there during the time where Dazai rose to the Boss position, and it must've been paranoia inducing for Chūya, not because Dazai can't protect himself from the assassins, (that man will not die unless he allows you to kill him) but because he could very much allow them to kill him if they were trying a painless approach such as poison; this is what probably made Chūya stand so closely to Dazai, he needed to be close by to deflect any incoming attacks, yet far enough for his ability to not be nullified, and even then I think he only resorted to such close proximity because of an incident that threatened Dazai's life too much. The following panel is what somewhat backs up what I've been blabbering about for the past sentence.
ChÅ«ya did it out of care, and worry for his partner, but was it ever romantic? Well, no opinion is ever right in such situations, but I'll humbly say that it feels somewhat familial-ish/closest+only friend-ish from ChÅ«ya's side. HEAR ME OUT ON THIS OKAYā
I feel like the way Chūya is reprimanding, and absolutely forbidding Dazai from this despite their positions could be interpreted as a concerned brother/friend yelling at his ignorant younger sibling/best friend. Chūya went on a rampage after Dazai's suicide, and wouldn't a brother or a friend do that too? Yes, a brother or a friend would, the proof being Chūya's course of action after finding out about the flags' death, and Verlaine's talk about them being brothers in inhumanity. (ik how different both situations are, but they both have people that Chūya cared for die, the former being more painful because of how long they knew each other, and because he tried so hard to prevent this from happening, yet it happened either way. This isn't the first time Chūya lost someone important to him, so it's bound to hurt a lot more.)
We didn't see enough of their current dynamic to rule out any familial/platonic relations, so I don't see why this wouldn't be valid. There could be hundreds of interpretations, but all of them sum up to Chūya caring about Dazai; it's up to you, and how you choose to view it.
Exasperated exhale I rest my case, and god the hate I might get for this simple opinion is on sight lmao-
#bsd#saff-ron tag#writers on tumblr#bungou stray dogs#dazai osamu#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#chuuya nakahara#bungo stray dogs#bsd beast#beast dazai#beast chuuya#platonic skk agenda#platonic skk#this took too long omg#i'm actually pretty nervous about posting this#here goes nothing#(?)
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i've been very excited to post this but here are my ocs haha!! meet lune, cecilia, nox, and aster!
close ups, more info, and a more detailed relationship chart under the cut! this is gonna be a long post haha. there's also some more info about rowan!
cecilia's twin (he's the older twin) ((by two minutes. lol))
the type to go āhere to here, iāll buy it allā
he's got a temper
possessive, devoted, and jealous yandere
people think he's a tad bit insane (and he's self aware mostly,,)
gets into fights often
āwant me to kill that guy for you?ā (heās serious btw)
heās not nice lmao, but to you he is (in his own special way of course..!)
kind of like a cat who will proudly leave dead rats and leaves on your doorstep as a gift bc it thinks you canāt hunt for yourself
hates nox LMFAO
difficult to approach at first but once you get close he wonāt ever let you go.
extroverted
LOUD. someone shut him up, this mf does NOT stop yapping bro
annoying as hell and he doesnāt know that lmao
if he absolutely has to, heāll behave. but it's... odd
constantly needs to be doing something or heāll get bored lol
has a bit of a sweet tooth (typical)
Bastard (not literally)
played the piano when he was younger with his sister, but he hated playing it
bad terms with his family except for cecilia
huge rebellious streak
shockingly will not kidnap you! everyone already knows youāre his, and heās yours. and he wonāt let anyone get in between you two. yay..!
hates it when you donāt pay attention to him (will absolutely start sulking too)
heās impulsive but heās not completely reckless
you probs shouldnāt trust him too much though he has good (????) intentions lol
seems silly (debatable really) but heās dangerous.
half of the things he says sound like jokes but trust me, he means it. heād do anything and everything for you, donāt forget!
shockingly pouty and whiny, only in front of you though
him and cecilia have matching bracelets from when they were younger which they both wear to this day
heās oblivious as fuck, and an idiot
lune's twin (she's younger)
normal (somewhat) ((not really))
sweet and friendly
really likes giving gifts to people she cares about
jumps to conclusion and freaks out easily, but sheās subtle about it
constantly stressed (lune is her brother, soā¦ i get it)
introverted (runs on a social battery)
says things without thinking sometimes
people pleaser
awkward as hell tbh, but itās really not obvious because sheās good at putting on a frontĀ
kinda has the āāāāāprincelyāāāāā persona (i didnt know how to describe that better lmao
has abandonment issues
girlfail tbh
hardworking
shes really protective of her loved ones
likes cute things
has issues with her family but still talks to them (lune does NOT)
on really good terms with lune, theyāre very close (even though heās a huge troublemaker that stresses the shit out of her) ((if he fucks around too much sheāll give him a good smack))
packs a good punch
SENSITIVEā¦
potential yandere? still not too sure if iāll make her a fully fledged yan but she def has some of the traits lol
her and lune have matching bracelets from when they were younger! (she wears it everyday!)
she doesnāt mean to put on a front it just kinda happens automatically lmao
could kill someone... probably wouldnt tho
used to play the piano with lune, she still plays it now too (as a hobby)
cunning and annoying
def the type to kidnap you
oddly sweet (???)
but also ominous as hell
docile with the one he loves
isolating and manipulative yandere
dislikes lune
nice but you can tell heās putting up a wall (with strangers and friends)
introverted
wouldnāt put stalking past him tbh
heās the type that wants to know everything about you.
he has a tough time interacting with others. he feels awkward in social situations
the type to go to a party and spend the whole time petting the cat in the corner (he would not go to the party in the first place tho lmao)
heās not misunderstood tho, he just canāt socialize and doesnāt really want to
grabs the end of your shirt in an awkward situation (its kinda cute)
takes time to open up, but when he falls for you, his love is so strong, itās almost overwhelming. so just accept him, alright?
shittiest sleep schedule known to man, like srsly, what is bro doing
this manās brain probs short circuits every 5 minutes LMFAO go to bed you idiot
really good with his words, very convincing
loves cats
hidden piercings
careful and patient
is really good at taking care of others (but he would only wanna take care of you) youāll let him, wonāt you?
startles easily lol
elf oc
ditzy and kind (to you)
bit of a mean streak (not to you!)Ā
wants to appear princely in front of you
kinda stupid (a farce but not completely lol)
has a bit of a temper, but nothing too bad
clingy and cunning yandere
two faced
struggles with empathy (he tries, heās not human, whatās he supposed to do!)
extroverted (?)
heās really lonely
when he met you for the first time he was absolutely fascinated as heās never interacted with a human being before!
BLUNT. heās not used to convosā¦ just give him some time!
at first it was simple curiosity, but that curiosity turned into somethingā¦ deeper
he was completely alone before this, but now youāre here, and youāre going to stay, right?Ā
is obsessed with the idea of you staying here with him forever, so why do you keep talking about going home? canāt you stay here?Ā
but then you bring up the idea of him coming with you, well why didnāt you say that earlier! he's happy to come with you
It takes him some time to grasp certain concepts so please be patient with him, heās not used to humans
heās paranoid and hostile to other humans. itās not fair, he wants all of your attention, so why is everyone trying to take you from him? he doesnāt like that everyone is getting in his wayā¦Ā
heās terrified of bugs. will scream incredibly loudly if he sees one lol
he pulled you through a mirror, thatās how you ended up in his land
so if you wanna go back, just ask and heāll take you!Ā
gives you jewelry, expensive jewelry. (maybe heās slipped on a ring before. haha. jkā¦ unless..?)
prefers to stay inside your place because he really doesnāt like people who arenāt you lmao
donāt stray too far from him, okay? heās always waiting for you
rowan (who i don't have a new drawing of rn </3 sorry!):
he absolutely hates not being a priority, so please donāt ignore him. please? he just wants you to love him.
clingy, devoted, and obsessive yandere
if you donāt reciprocate he might (unknowingly) try to guilt you into liking him back. will appear like a kicked puppy to really sell it (but itās not an act lol heās just like this)
at least his intentions are pure! (?????????) but is that better..?
if when (it will happen) you two end up together, heāll give you the world if youād asked for it
used to cut his own hair! :D (not great at it tho tbh)
very attentive and will work hard to keep you happy! just donāt forget that youāll love only each other for the rest of your life. please donāt leave.
has tripped over nothing, will definitely happen again
here's the shitty relationship chart that i rushed </3 its very ugly im sorry HAHA
i really want to clarify that NONE of them will ever hurt you physically on purpose (they might have to pay up for emotional damages tho. they have your best interest in mind ig)
also i would say that they all share some traits like being clingy, devoted, possessive, obsessive, jealous, protective, and loyal. but if i specifically wrote it, it's probs just a bit more intense... just a bit,,, haha...
#num draws#oh hell yeah new tag time#lune posting#cecilia posting#nox posting#aster posting#rowan posting#technically lmao#yanderes#yandere oc#male yandere#yandere male#not tagging female yandere just yet </3#oc art#digital art#yandere#original character#i've been really excited to post this#i mean i know it might not get a huge response#but i really wanted to introduce them#and i do hope you like them!#i'm really bad at writing characters too so please be patient with me and hopefully i'll soon improve :]#if you have any questions about them at all PLEASE don't hesitate to ask#i would love to answer any questions!#i'm also nervous to be posting this haha... but its OKAY. im doing it#also i overused the SHIT out of the coloured text#ive never done it before i think i deserved to do it at least once HAHA#sorry that its super long btw </3#i might do actual profiles at some point too if anyone is interested :]#realized i accidentally added asterās info twice š
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"Or married person."
The More I See You || Episode Twenty-Two || Season Four
#hawkeye pierce#bj hunnicutt#hunnihawk#beejhawk#m*a*s*h#mash#fair warning I'm gonna be posting all three parts of this scene tonight like#it's a sporting event and not an over giffed scene from a decades old tv show because I love it#I know it's been talked about a lot but BJ isn't being mean here#Hawk is flighty and nervous because he thinks he's fucking up and he needs BJ to tell him what to do#and BJ can't do that he's not actually being judgemental#this is the total absence of judgement#like he wants Hawk to figure it out himself#john-irving gifs
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Do you have any more ideas about the dead dove vampire!dickxtim au you wrote a while ago? It's lived in my head ever since and I'd love to know more.
first of all thank you so much that's so sweet! second of all, i have SO many ideas you have no idea. that fic ate at my brain for like a month before i found the time to write it so i had plenty of ideas i didn't fully explore. i'm adding a read more just bc. that was one of my more fucked up fics so i don't want to subject anyone to a necro kink jumpscare
so one of the big ideas i've thought about with that fic is Tim dealing with the aftermath of it, right. bc he's of course going to hide it from everyone. the Batfam all just neds to hold onto the hope that they can save Dick somehow, and knowing what Dick did would kill any lingering hope that there's anything left of Dick Grayson in the walking husk that he's become. so Tim has to deal with the worst of it alone, probably not even mentioning he ran into Dick.
the fun part tho is that above everything else, Tim wouldn't be able to let go of Dick's comment about fantasizing about Tim before being a vampire. Tim knows the comment was made just to get in his head, but that doesn't stop it from working. he spends hours pouring over old footage of him and Dick training, hanging out, on patrol, anything he can find. just to like. try to find evidence of Dick's gaze lingering. it eats Tim alive not knowing one way or the other if it was a lie. if it's true, at least it makes it easier for Tim to move on from the memory of Dick. but not knowing is worse. and he never finds anything that satiates the question so like. that'd destroy Tim the most. (the real answer is that Dick genuinely didn't feel attraction to Tim before being a vampire, *but* Dick is convinced he did bc being a vampire fucked him up so badly that he's become his own unreliable narrator. so it's both true and untrue, and in the end, it doesn't matter either way bc Tim is fucked up by the thought of it and even if they "fixed" Dick by curing him, i think Dick's romantic feelings would linger in the horror of what he did.)
i'm really just. in love with Dick's feelings toward Tim in the fic. the most difficult part of the fic was figuring out how to end it, bc sure as a sexual fantasy Dick is obsessed with killing Tim, but he's also deeply in love with Tim, so it's difficult to follow through on. Dick wants to make Tim a vampire more than anything, but he is genuinely worried about how well it'd take for Tim. the fic doesn't really go into who's on Dick's side as a vampire, but i personally believe he's turned most of the Titans. probably some of his own rogues as well, i could see him turning Slade. i can't explain why, those are just the vibes.
it is important to me just how much of Dick's feelings for Tim are based in him not wanting Tim to live under Bruce's thumb. like the whole vampire brain has convinced Dick that Bruce is somehow the villain in this, and it was Bruce's control keeping Dick from being the person he wanted to be. it's a very warped reality and if i continued the fic i'd love for the second part to be from Dick's perspective just to have fun with the unreliable narrator of it.
back to the porn tho. Dick would seek TIm out again. probably in Tim's own apartment, just bc he wants to destroy every safe space Tim has. getting into Tim's head is an important part of breaking TIm down. the fear of Tim fighting back against being a vampire is one that Dick is trying to figure out how to manage and his current plan is to break Tim mentally. it's why he brings up wanting to sleep with TIm before being a vampire. he *knows* it's gonna fuck up Tim. and the more he puts these little cracks in Tim's psyche, the more he's sure he's breaking Tim down enough to be able to turn him. so going to Tim's apartment and proving that at any point, Dick can easily find Tim and fuck him. always holding the threat of killing Tim over his head. and Dick knows Tim didn't tell anyone when days pass after their first meeting and no Bat comes after him so like. Dick really just pushes the limits. i think he would brand Tim just bc he can. i also got a comment on the fic that mentioned Dick stabbing Tim and fucking the wound and i canNOT get that image out of my head either-
and the necro/snuff kink just. Dick playing the long game, so it takes maybe months of stalking Tim, going after him. sometimes he fucks Tim, sometimes he just fights and taunts him. and all the talk about killing Tim fucks with Tim's head a little bit. i think it'd be fun if it killed Tim's ability to have vanilla/normal sex with someone else, like Kon. it's hard for Tim to understand anyone being attracted to him in a way that doesn't involve him being a dead body. i don't think he develops the kink fully, but he does end up convincing himself being a corpse is the only way he's attractive bc of all the things Dick has said to him. it all plays into Dick psychologically breaking Tim.
i am a lover of fucked up/unhappy endings so. for me. the ending would be Dick following through on his plan to kill Tim and turn him. it'd take months for Dick to work up the courage bc TIm was absolutely right when he pointed out that Dick was too scared to actually follow through on his fantasy. Dick tries, multiple times. he convinces himself no less than five times that this is going to be the one. this'll be the time he really does it. but just as Tim starts to die, Dick panics. i think it's especially fun if once Dick even gives Tim CPR bc of his cold feet. so Tim does "die" for a second and has to brutally come back while Dick is buried inside of him.
but when Dick does it, his fears manifest in that Tim does *not* take being a vampire well. he's constantly trying to kill himself (in the time it takes for Dick to break Tim, Tim probably does figure out what poison can kill a vampire) and Dick ends up having to keep Tim locked up so Tim doesn't kill himself. would truly love to try to write Tim as mentally shattered as possible. part of him loves Dick, but he's fighting himself so hard he's not even sure if it's the vampire side that loves Dick or the human side. he's kept like a human pet, bc Dick is convinced he'll get Tim to accept it sooner or later. just a very fun, very fucked up sort of ending. i say this about all the fics i write but this one specifically i do *really* want to continue someday. i know exactly the direction i'd take it, and it could turn into a pretty long fic with a lot of fucked up porn, a lot of unrequited love, and an eventual mind break for Tim.
#necrotic answerings#kindly praise#your dream turned into a nightmare when i crawled inside it#batcest#dicktim#dead dove do not eat#seriously this is a VERY dead dove if you have not read the fic be warned about reading this post lkjhklkh#shock of shock. the person with necrotic in their username. likes necro shit in fanfic.#i might explore necro kink in other ships#i've got a fucked up ra's/tim brainworm where ra's kills tim and brings him back to life with the pit. over and over.#waiting until he 'perfects' tim#(all while fucking him. obviously.)#anyway yeah i coudl easily turn this fic into like. at least 50k of fucked up shit.#which is funny bc when i wrote it i was SO nervous about posting it#i genuinely almost didn't post it. my partner can attest to this.#but i'm delighted it found it's niche.#necro freaks unite#i should mark this post mature. i will not.#you can tell i have a LOT of thoughts. i thought so much of this fic out that didn't actually end up in the text#some of it was just bc i couldn't include it from tim's pov#and some of it i did want to leave up to the reader#such as whether you believe dick had a crush on tim beforehand#in my head the answer is no but i think it's also fun if you believe he did#so i welcome that interpretation
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THE PACT OF ICE AND FIRE
so there's an aspect of this one i don't think has really been delved into that I think may be important when it comes to canon jonsa and I wanted to do my own lil analysis, along with maybe some tin hatting at the end here.
this is what the pact is (or what we know of it at any rate, Munkun is not exactly a good source of information):
Cregan Stark and Jacaerys Velaryon reached an accord, and signed and sealed the agreement that Grand Maester Munkun calls āthe Pact of Ice and Fireā in his True Telling. Like many such pacts, it was to be sealed with a marriage. Lord Creganās son, Rickon, was a year old. Prince Jacaerys was as yet unmarried and childless, but it was assumed that he would sire children of his own once his mother sat the Iron Throne. Under the terms of the pact, the princeās firstborn daughter would be sent north at the age of seven, to be fostered at Winterfell until such time as she was old enough to marry Lord Creganās heir.
There's two parts to this that I think are important here. Here is the first, which is the basics of the pact, and that most Jonsas are familiar with:
Jacaery's First Born Daughter Is Fostered At Winterfell -> She will marry Cregan's first born son and heir.
Obviously, this never happened for several reasons and the pact is forgotten but perhaps it will be fulfilled anyway by...
Jon, a secret Targaryen bastard, is "fostered" at Winterfell -> he will fulfill the pact by marrying a Stark Maiden aka Sansa.
Basically, it's a genderswapped version of what the pact entails. I think given George's fondness for how Tolkien was a hater of Macbeth because he thought the "no man of woman born" should have indicated a girl and not just a man born via c-section, I think the genderswap aspect fits George's style.
The second part however, has more to do with Jacaerys and Sara and I feel like it's glossed over a bit. See here:
They had spoken their vows in Winterfellās own godswood before a heart tree, and only then had she given herself to him, wrapped in furs amidst the snows as the old gods looked on.
Jacaerys, a "secret" Targaryen bastard who gets his family name and allegiances through his mother, not his father -> Rumors of a secret marriage in front of a Weirwood with a Stark bastard, Sara
Listen. It doesn't matter whether Sara Snow is real, you believe whatever makes you happy! But what IS real and relevant is that this part was included in F&B for a reason, and is indicated to be the catalyst for the pact. Jace and Sara get secret married in front of a Weirwood, and this is what calms down Cregan so they can make their pact. And here is how (I believe) it applies to Jonsa:
Jon, a secret Targaryen bastard, but who gets his look and his allegiance not through his father but Lyanna's blood -> Jon, a Stark bastard, will marry an Heir in secret in front of a Weirwood tree.
THAT is, imo, the most important aspect of this scandalous story from Mushroom - that a secret bastard, a targaryen and a stark, secretly marry in front of a Weirwood tree just before a bloody war kicks off. People tend to make Sansa the Sara in this part, which is valid, but I think Sansa's role in this is not just to be the pretty Stark maiden, but to be the HEIR that is secretly marrying for love, like Jacaerys is, and that Jon's role will be about his status as a bastard, so that both parts kind of apply to both characters. And given that, if Jace and Sara had married, their daughter would have been a Starkgaryen with "secret" bastard heritage (from both her parents), marrying a Stark Heir, it does make sense (at least in my mind) that this may apply to Jon and Sansa's future plot. the That's something I touched on here in my "what will Jon's endgame" post.
Then there's the Vermax of it all...
Mushroom also claims that Vermax left a clutch of dragonās eggs at Winterfell, which is equally absurd. Whilst it is true that determining the sex of a living dragon is a nigh on impossible task, no other source mentions Vermax producing so much as a single egg, so it must be assumed that he was male. Septon Barthās speculation that the dragons change sex at need, being āas mutable as flame,ā is too ludicrous to consider.)
This brought to mind the ole' Jonnel and Sansa (the first) thing - beyond the J&S similarities (Jacaerys & Sara, Jon & Sansa, Jonnel & Sansa), I think it's also important that Jonnel and Sansa never have any children, though they're married for several years. Jacaerys and Sara also never have children, yet there's the rumor Vermax laid eggs in the crypt, with some believing this may have meant Sara was pregnant (but perhaps miscarried) when Jacaerys left. I think however, the fact that both J&S couples kind of mysteriously do not have children of their own, and that their Houses descend from someone else to be important.
I've kind of briefly gone into the idea that Bran rules in a parliamentary style over (what's left of) Westeros, and while I'm not too committed one way or the other on whether he physically has children or whether they elect the ruler on the Iron Throne more often starting from Bran, the succession is significantly less of an issue because of the permanent Great Council/Parliament that will exist. Sansa (and Jon, for that matter), however, is the heiress to a long line of kings and lords and needs some sort of heir. I don't think it's out of the realm of possibililty that while in the Vale, she connects with some of Jocelyn Stark's descendants (the famous "Vale cousins" that Catelyn mentions as heirs for Robb) and makes one of them her heir, or even names the children of Arya her heir, and pulls a Queen Elizabeth, but then I thought of Vermax laying dragon eggs that are never found, and Jonnel and Sansa never having children, and George's love of threes and thought...perhaps Jon and Sansa will have an heir, but Sansa can't claim the child as hers.
In that same vein, itās noteworthy to me as well that Serena and Edric (Sansa's younger sister and Jonnel's younger brother) have TWO sons but the line completely bypasses them. We have no idea how the Northerners felt about these marriages beyond the fact that they didn't like Lynara's sons because their rules were plagued by troubles. Is it possible that they chose to bypass Edric's sons because of the incest, and Sansa/Jon may be forced to reconcile with how the realm views him (as Ned's son) and what he actually is (Lyanna's son) when it comes to the line of succession? IE - Vermax is rumored to lay an egg in the crypts but no one ever finds out, Sansa is rumored to have have had a child with her ābrotherā but no one ever finds out the truth.
TO SUM UP: I think the Pact of Ice and Fire is a hint that Jon and Sansa will secretly marry in the godswood of Winterfell, and it's likely that when Sansa is named Queen in the North, her heir will be "fathered by a wolf" or a "wildling" and she and Jon won't be able to tell anyone that Jon is the father.
#i was going to end this with the 'much to think about' billy ray cyrus meme but i stopped myself#jonsa#jonsa meta#actually jonsa#jon snow#sansa stark#jacaerys velaryon#jacaerys targaryen#getting on my soap box#serena stark#jonnel stark#edric stark#sara snow#rani attempts meta#twow speculation#ados speculation#stone and snow remains#i think that's all my tags#i'm literally so nervous posting this bc i think the last part might be a stretch so if u think its dumb do Not tell me or i'll throw up lo#i also know a lot of non jonsas follow me and the opinion of most non jonsas tends to be 'those people are crazy' :'(((((((#it's not relevant to the meta but i have kinda theorized that sansa was going to say her kids were fathered by a wolf for a long time.#and then i read twoiaf and f&b and this all clicked into place for me. so i feel even if jonsa doesn't happen. we'll get something similar#where *we* the reader knows that sansa has a secret husband/lover and he's the father but the north doesn't know (and doesn't care tm)
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