#I'm Not a Kid Anymore ( Self )

[laurellala-comics]

I may not be in the Percy Jackson fandom that much anymore but drawing purple Nico to represent angst and sadness is one of life's simple joys <3

[cupcakewebkinz]

You know, I was thinking about an idea I had then realized just how angsty it would be on one side and how much fluff it would be on the other and I'm curious about other people's ideas too ngl

So like, I was toying around with the idea of Shanon coming back to Gardenview and snatching up the loser lesbians and bringing them home with her to save from... Whatever happened. Shanon has no idea, she was never allowed to know, so she just has two VERY traumatized toons now. She'll know how to keep Shelly entertained and happy, she was ALWAYS with Shelly, but I highly doubt she'd know how to keep Vee in check at all.

Vee would probably quickly spiral into a mental crisis about it too, as now everything has been destroyed in her eyes. Nobody remembers her gameshows because they ended years ago, nobody remembers her because Gardenview closed years ago, nobody's interested in learning about her as she's outdated technology to them now. She'd be alone, only able to quiz Shelly now, but she's heard all her questions and knows all the answers by now. She'd probably start self isolating because she just doesn't know what to do with herself, lashing out at Shanon because she genuinely doesn't understand why people aren't fans of her anymore and wants to blame someone except herself. She would be such a wreck and probably have major beef with any new technology Shanon brings home because it replaced her in her mind. Vee is now just... Vee. She's not a celebrity any more, she's not loved by anyone except the toon handler who took her in and her now popular dinosaur girlfriend, and she would not have a clue what to do about it.

Shelly would most likely have the opposite problem, she looks like a living toon just wandering around like she's a common sight to see - of course people would notice! Kids would ask her about fossils and she'd happily tell them all about what she is and their minds would be blown by how much she knows, she'd probably be asked to play by kids who think she looks really neat and be dragged to the sandbox to 'fossil hunt' whenever Shanon takes them to the park. Shanon very much would hide plastic fossils in there too just to see Shelly smile, like she used to before her museum shut down. She'd be such an interesting sight to see that she'd get stared at, often asked what she actually is, and probably would be the talk of the town for a while. Eventually everyone would know that Shelly is just there to have fun, don't bother her too much, but at first everyone would be so shocked by a living breathing toon they'd swarm the poor thing! I'm sure Shelly would be just a little irritated by the constant unwarranted attention and stares, but so happy she's no longer forgotten.

Their roles would reverse is what I'm getting at here. It gives so much Vee angst to work with and Shelly comfort... I am brainrotting over this idea if that's not obvious

[onyxclub5]

[volivolition]

wiggles my fingers at you ouuuu… you want to tell me about solace so bad…

HKJGG wiggles my fingers back lovingly!!! i really do, i fuckin LOVE solace :3 hey did you know i really like making fake skill descriptions?

SOLACE

Follow the north star. Find light in even the darkest places. Cool for: Optimists, Recovering lost souls, Sweet summer children

Solace is the skill you tucked away long ago, at the bottom of Pandora's box. The little one that tells you: despite it all, there is still hope. It needs a lot of nurturing -- and it's far from being the most helpful for police work -- but taking care of it is basically self-care. It enables you to find the glow in yourself that you often ascribe to gold lungs or brilliant halos in others. It encourages you to wake up and watch the sunrise, to play board games with someone you love, to forgive yourself and let yourself be a gentler kind of animal. Constantly looking forward to a brighter future, it also helps shield your morale from damage.

At high levels, Solace gives you a heightened sense of childlike optimism - which isn't always the sense to lead with in this precariously harsh world. Always looking for the bright side will blindside you with naivety. At low levels, however, you may just extinguish whatever keeps your soul alight. You've already lost her once. You may not survive the desolation if you let her disappear again.

[ch3rr13zk1n]

"its just teenage hormones!" Brother i don't think being exposed to suggestive content and straight up censored porn at nine years was a normal experience for me

[snobgoblin]

my mom is so wild 😭 she was like "did you sleep good" and i was like "yeah i got new sheets and I slept great. I think that was the problem" and then she starts going off on this whole rant of "oh so you think I'm neglecting you or something why do you keep buying shit like this" (she got mad i bought food for the house the other day but like. the fuck was I supposed to do there was nothing) like idk bc I'm a grown ass adult with money and if I have a need I'll just take care of it myself?? 😭 I wasn't fucking implying you were neglectful that's such a leap. can't say anything around her

[watermelinoe]

my niece once got upset w my dad bc he wouldn't buy her some overpriced drunk elephant skincare product. she was freaked out about getting wrinkles. at age eight. i wish her mom had never bought her that damn smartphone

[wereh0gz]

Going to chao gardens and playing with chao is like therapy to sonic I think

[notetaeker]

Wow I was so unappreciative of my own accomplishments when I was in college. I'm trying to put together a portfolio and it turns out I wrote 5 whole news articles for the school paper ???

[grassbreads]

Actually full disclosure, not to be a fake Mochijun fan, but the reread I finished this week was the first time I've read Pandora Hearts in its entirety since I was a teenager, and MAN it hits different now that I'm not fourteen.

I don't have the brain capacity to get into all of it now, but man. man. Experiencing the back half of Pandora Hearts with adult eyes and comparing that to your teenage half-memories is a wild time.

It's also very funny that my favorite character went from Oz to Gilbert given that I started reading this series for the first time when I was a year or two younger than Oz, and now I'm Gil's exact age.

[theshalesky]

I hate how, when i'm asked questions about myself, for example in a personality quiz, my mind automatically goes to the answer that has to do with intelligence.

Of course if i could choose a magical gift i'd choose wisdom. Of course i want to be remembered as the smart one.

Or do i? Is that really me, or is it just the only thing about me that has always been praised, that has made me feel loveable and good enough and even special?

[lynxgirlpaws]

[lost-kidd21]

okie guys ..

you can think of me as a boy sometimes, or a dog, or some sort of creature,

I also don't hate called a girl "sometimes" ..

it's a long journey, I guess I might be genderfluid, because I just float around, however I feel at the moment ..

it's hard to pick a side, I tried before but still something didn't feel right ..

I can't quite belong with girls, neither with boys, although it does give me this relief to let it all out when I'm seen as a boy .. to show the masc parts of me, and not to feel like I constantly have to hide it or it's wrong "because a girl can't do this, wear this, walk like this and etc"

so I want to explore how it feels to let myself be whatever, to be called whatever, to be your gf who is also your bf who is also a creature, who is a cat, or a dog or a puppy ..

I really don't know, like it's truly complicated, and I haven't made my mind about it after years and years ..

I sometimes feels soft, like being called a good girl "maybe not too much" because I know that I don't look or act like how girls do, or how guys see girls like, but also, am I a boy then ? but I still like soft and pretty things, and make up sometimes, sometimes I feel cute and pretty, other times I feel like a a dark creature, a dog, sometimes I want to be your cool bro or little bro ..

I don't mind to dom, or sub, I like to give care for others, I'm still not sure what title I like when I'm in a cg kinda headspace or a dom headspace ? .. but yeah, I think I can be whatever, I just want to let myself be, to let it flow without trying to hold back ..

also I'm into more freaky stuff than I post or reblog hahaa, should I keep that in a different blog ? I will see how I feel about it ..

soo, expect some weird stuff around here, I go through different moods in my life, different emotions and different ways of expression ..

as I've always said, I'm weird, I have all of these different sides of me, and I'm trying to make sense of it .. so .. I'm just a freak in some way hahaa .. who is kind and caring and soft and feels deeply, but there's other sides of me .. much darker and less pretty, like an animal .. a scary dog thing who wants to take care of you, who wants to be only loyal to you ..

but also a cat .. god I don't know anymore hahaa ..

anyway, that's your answer if you were wondering ..

I think something took over me and posted this stuff .. you can expect more weird things .. because, I don't care ..

I'm the same inside my soul .. and I'm this weird thing, it's not easy, but it's what it is :3

and me doesn't mind whatever your gender is, if I like you then it's because of who you are ..

I still haven't found the freaks who I can be a true freak with .. but it doesn't matter ! :3

will you match my freak ? uwu 💗💗

okie I will stop hahaa ..

[aberooski]

I honestly wish my birthday wasn't in 2 weeks. I always get really depressed around my birthday.

[snowstories]

I love not being a kid anymore. However bad it gets I'm no longer a heavily depressed bullied 8-year-old with hallucinations/delusions, severe anger management issues, record-breaking fear/anxiety issues, extreme self-hatred and a firm conviction that I'd one day kill someone despite my best efforts not to. AND I can just fucking leave places if I don't want to be there anymore.

[dalishthunder]

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