#I'll write about the reverse au too at some point but it probably won't be as long as this lol

[which-qsmp-egg-would]

Hey I'm realising ive never given you all the full rundown of my Stardust AU for my egg ocs and that's a TRAGEDY because its a super cool au that I might do someday maybe

I'll put the rambles under the cut for everyone's sake but keep in mind that this is a tragedy story. It won't end very happy. at least in some endings.

So! the stardust au! this one has been rattling around in my noggin for a long while and has only been spoken of in DMs at this point I might get SOME of the details wrong since its late and this is all from memory.

SO. let's start from the beginning, shall we?

This AU starts before Poll meets Tequilla. The major difference here, is that TQ never escaped from the Federation. With his memories fully wiped and him recycled, he basically died. But that's not the end for him!

Back to Poll. Poll has always been a lonely kid, right? They try to interact with other kids their age but its HARD to get the amount of attention they want. And with their papa always being away from home and them having to take care of themself, they get REALLY lonely. So, they wished for a sibling. A friend. A brother. Someone to be by their side.

Their papa hears this, of course. Even if they're far away they keep an eye on their little star. And I think you all know that Stardust is like, a minor deity spirit thing or something. Whatever they are. Deus ex machina and all that. WHATEVER THE CASE. Their papa decides to weave a friend out of stardust.

And of course, Death made a promise to help Tequilla in any way she can, right? It's a big reason why he escaped in the canon timeline.

So who's to say she didn't nudge his untethered spirit into that empty shell so he could get a little closure or something?

So Tequilla, now in a body of stardust (I imagine he had a very fuzzy, slightly opaque look to him. not quite all there around the edges and glowing golden. Clearly ethereal. Light, like plumes of condensation in winter air, leaving his lungs every time he breathes or speaks or laughs) becomes Poll's brother. He doesn't have all of his memories, he knows there used to be something before this, but at the same time he's never experienced anything different.

(I also consider a possibility that he DOES remember but he's kind of thethered maybe? or maybe he just wants to help Poll because he knows he's dead. idk, that parts not terribly important rn)

They have a really good time together! Sure Tequilla gets floaty and distant sometimes, sure he struggles to remain visible during the day or cloudy nights, sure he sometimes appears weak for no reason, but Poll has a FRIEND. Poll has a brother.

It takes a long time before they finally listen to their papa.

It becomes very clear that TQ's body isn't meant to house a soul like this. He needs to pass on. He's done his job and needs to go home.

Now it's important for you to remember that Poll is a child. They're a kid that struggles to let go of the things they love or want. They are inherently selfish because of their fear of letting go. This is a thing ive been playing with recently (IE, the Christmas fic. Withholding information about TQ's mom so he won't leave them)

So when Poll finds out TQ is hurting and needs to leave? They don't take it very well. They try to get him to stay, show him all the fun games they get to play together. And he does stay. He stays for as long as he can, he loves Poll just as much as they love him and he doesn't want to leave either, but he KNOWS he needs to. Death is calling his soul back into her arms just as the sky is calling his body.

They part on a clear night, when the stars are at their brightest.

Poll has known this was coming for a long time. They still haven't accepted it, they still haven't processed it. Of course they haven't, they're just a little kid. But they understand that their brother is hurting, and they don't want him to hurt.

They hug, one last time. They hold onto each others arms for as long as they can before Tequilla flies into the sky, becoming part of the tapestry once more. His soul finally at rest.

In the first version of this story, Poll becomes an only child again. They're better at interacting with people, they have a better grip on their emotions and connections. And everyone they meet will eventually lay on that field with them and shown the brightest star named Tequilla.

Of course, I can't help but add another version of the ending or two.

One ending had Tequilla being able to visit on very specific days. The clearest nights when the stars shimmer. Lunar eclipses. His birthday. Whatever it is, they do get to see each other, if only rarely. Poll rarely sleeps those nights, not wanting to miss a moment with their brother.

Another ending is where Death allows him to visit Poll in their dreams. There's a few ways this can go. Maybe he fights off their nightmares and stokes their dreams, unseen and unknown. Maybe He talks with them, visiting them nightly to hear about their exploits. Maybe he tries to make his entire existence feel like a dream. Whatever ending we choose, it at least gives Poll closure.

ANYWAYS THAT'S EVERYTHING I CAN THINK OF. IF YOU WANT TO ASK ANYTHING ABOUT THIS I WILL GLADLY ANSWER. SPOILERS MEAN NOTHING TO ME.

[justagalwhowrites]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you for the tag, @sawymredfox!!!

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

21

2. what’s your total AO3 word count?

1,032,269. When you throw in the Tumblr only stuff I think I'm closer to 1.2 million overall.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Pedro Pascal fandom, mostly TLOU! But I'd love to spend some time with Poe Dameron, my beloved, so I might dive into Star Wars beyond Mando at some point :)

4. top five fics by kudos 

I'm really not sure on Tumblr? Individual chapters don't get as much attention and I don't write many one shots, my highest single post on Tumblr is probably a one shot but I have NO CLUE which one!

On AO3:

Lavender

Beskar Doll

Yearling

New in Town

Lavender No Outbreak AU

5. do you respond to comments?

I used to be so much better about doing this and I've just not been keeping up with it lately. I want to get back to it! I LOVE getting comments, they make me so happy! Part of my issue is I read them immediately even if I don't have time to respond and I'm like "I'll respond when I post the next chapter" and then I post the next chapter super late at night and I'm so tired and I'm just like "I'll reply later" and then I never do.

ANYWAY! I want to get back to replying to comments because I love them. I used to reply to every one. Less now.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably Proof of Life, an angsty as hell QZ!Joel era one shot. I traffic in angst but I like my happy endings, especially for long fics :)

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Lavender I think. After all that angst, they got the life they wanted and saved the world. Not too shabby.

8. do you get hate on fics?

I haven't really! I've had a few people disagree with directions I took characters or plot lines and a few people send asks that didn't feel so nice but I'm not sure they were intended to not be nice. I try to not take those things personally. But everyone as been exceedingly kind, probably kinder than I deserve!

9. do you write smut?

I do but I feel like it's my weakest area. If you're looking primarily for smut and reading my stuff, you're probably in the wrong place, I'm sorry! I wish I was better at it! I feel like I'm getting better at it. But alas!

10. craziest crossover?

I haven't written any and I haven't really read any, either. Closest thing I came to a crossover I think is tying the prequel trilogy and the original trilogy of Star Wars into Doll's history in Beskar Doll.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

None so far!

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Not shared anywhere but I do have commenters in other languages tell me they've put my fic into Google Translate to read it! I think that's immensely cool .

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

I haven't but I'd be open to it! 

14. all time favorite ship?

Of characters that actually exist in canon? Probably Han Solo and Leia Organa. I LOVE them. Love love love love LOVE them. The "I love you" "I know" in Empire followed by the reversal in Jedi? TO DIE FOR.

15. what’s a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

As far as fics go? None. I have the stories so thoroughly planned there I'm compelled to finish them, I can't help it. I wasn't always this thorough of a planner, though, and I have so many books that I've started and written like 40k words of that I'll probably never finish. That breaks my heart a little. All these characters who won't get to live their whole lives because I can't get their stories across the finish line. But I'm not sure I have enough hours left in the rest of my life to tell every story I've got inside me so it'll have to be what it will be!

16. what are your writing strengths?

Dialogue.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Everything else lol especially smut. I feel like my descriptions are often lacking, too.

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

Yes please! As long as the author can do it right (either because they know the language enough or get help from someone who does - the translate tools just aren't great at grammar and it takes me out if it's a language I know.)

19. first fandom you wrote in?

The Pedro fandom! Specifically, the Mandalorian. Beskar Doll, my first baby <3

20. favorite fic you’ve written?

Probably Lavender? Maybe Yearling. It's so hard to say! I'm probably the most attached to Doc and Joel, though.

NP tags: @dancingtotuyo @beardedjoel @ramblers-lets-get-ramblin @netherfeildren and anyone else who wants to play!

[pqrachel]

Oh heck it's past midnight and I didn't do today's OC-tober. I don't have time for an art so let's do some writing. The prompt is "Future" so there's a bunch I could figure out. My Blanksford story spans a lot of years and I don't have any concrete plans for the future of the timeline even though it's technically important for the overarching story.

Well let give this a go...

It's late and I'm gonna ramble so it's probably gonna be pretty long and depending on if I keep any of it would be heavily spoiler-filled so under the cut it goes.

So with a timeline this long I've been thinking for a while that I need to kill one of my main characters at some point. Like technically I don't have to, I've already had them give up their powers so they aren't an immediate threat to the limit of 6 supers, but I do kind of want to. I just don't really know how. Cuz the last time I killed a major character in a story (I won't spoil who, but it was in my Colostle story) I kinda lost all motivation for the story and I couldn't go back on it cuz of the formatting. But this time I can think about it and if I don't like it than I can try again in a different way.

So my first idea a while back was to have Artemis go overboard and accidentally kill a super. Since she doesn't resort to killing despite her role as one of the most dangerous villains it'd be an interesting turn for her. But now with what I've set up with her and Taylor it seems less likely, though still technically possible. But it'd probably only worth it if she kills Taylor, which would be a shame since I like him so freaking much as a character so I probably won't do this.

I could also have Gabby regret giving up their powers, maybe go the vigilante route. Help out Mercury's new Super Wing fight the Y13 & Y14 villains. ...Which does actually make a lot of sense (and would probably motivate me to write some Phase 3 plot points / stories too).

Okay yeah I'll have that be a good starting point. Take the really old idea of Twin & Distress and make it less about Twin being the villain and more about Distress betraying Twin for whoever I make the Y14 villain be. Then Distress and that villain end up kinda strong, so Mercury and Splash can't handle it themselves. They turn to Gabby for help off of Gordon Wheeler's recc. Gabby has another crisis about their powers (or lack thereof this time) and gets pulled back into the drama. And then either Distress or the Y14 villain kills Gabby after they got in the way. And this overstep would definitely bring Artemis and Blank into the drama too, and I'd get a good old-fashion classic superhero war. And all those fight scenes I've been avoiding would get to happen pretty much all at once. And maybe that war takes long enough that the Y15 super emerges and creates even more for everyone to deal with.

Aeri and Gabby's sister Katie would be fucking heartbroken over Gabby's death of course. They both live together at this point and the person who connected them is gone. They'd probably stay together for a while but I imagine Aeri would quickly get overwhelmed without Gabby and leave in some way; whether that's trying to get revenge, or straight up running from D-City, or something else entirely. So Katie would turn to Madi and Taylor, and they're all friends at this point so it'd probably work out. (Assuming I don't mess with the friendship dynamics by this point with what I'm also working on with Taylor and Artemis' storylines, who knows.)

But if I was going to kill off Gabby I'd want to get some good stories in for her send off, so the Y14 villain would probably end up being the fear-based villain that I've been thinking about. For that villain's inspiration don't think Scarecrow (Batman) but more of a villainous reverse Alex Chen (Life is Strange). Although I'm not too studied on scarecrow maybe that's more his vibe than I think. But anyways I'd get to do some AU stuff that takes place in character's heads and Gabby would see some dark timelines and stuff like that.

ACTUALLY... now that I think about it Distress is kind of a weak villain (I haven't even drawn her yet despite having thought of her like 5 years ago), so maybe I skip Distress altogether let the fear villain be the Y13 super. Hell Distress works as a name for a fear villain too, so I could just rewrite my plans for Distress / Twin and I'd get to keep the few things I liked about Distress and make that work out. Cuz ditching Drake really worked out for the story maybe this could work out too.

Okay yeah that works really well! Guess it turns out that forcing yourself to think about the future of your story for an hour and a half really helps you figure out the future of your story. Weird probably could've tried that before at some point.

...now to go to sleep and let a less tired Rachel wake up tomorrow and deal with this long ramble and turn it into actual actionable story beats. Good luck <3

[incorrectshantaequotes]

Blast was the star of the show clearly, and that put me in a Blast drawing mood. So have some Blasts (featuring everyone else)

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REALLY GOOD FANART THANK YOU. everyone thank @volcanolotus for the fanart

also. unrelated but since I don't know where else I'm going to put this - I will say that while I didn't expect to do so much with Blast in Mermaid Falls, writing him there was a lot of fun! going into this under a read more because this ramble was longer than anticipated

my mindset regarding Blast when coming up with the transcript was "okay I want Blast to be funny because that's just how he is but I also don't want to do him dirty like the HGH writers did with Bolo. so how do I do that" and then it hit me that he was in a very unique position in regards to the personal conflict Risky's going through

I'll get more into it with the post about how HGH would play out in the Reversal AU (because I really DO need to get into that at some point) but unlike the canon version, there's a lot more discussion about the implications of the Dynamo and what it means for Risky - because unlike Shantae, who's worked through her self-image and self-confidence issues by the time HGH rolls around since a lot of that was tied to how much she was bothered by only being a half-genie, and is therefore mostly unbothered by the whole Dynamo thing, R!Risky has NOT worked through those issues, because her self-image and self-confidence issues are completely UNRELATED to the issues she has with her heritage, which have been resolved by the time the Reversal AU equivalent of HGH rolls around, so the Dynamo is very much weighing on her mind

and it occurred to me that Blast is like. probably the only one who'd actually say something? at least at first, and definitely the only one who'd say something about the whole situation so openly and brazenly. Risky may be bothered about the whole Dynamo thing immensely but it's objectively good for the town so she staunchly refuses to admit how much it bothers her at all, Rattle realizes that she's bothered by the idea of being replaced but is too conflicted between his concern for Risky as a friend and his connection to Mimic as a mentor figure to initially say anything, and when he does it'd be a more private conversation, 'Pod would definitely notice Risky's conflict but wouldn't initially connect it to the Dynamo with how insistent she is on helping Mimic build it, and even when he does make the connection he drops the topic pretty quickly when Risky makes it clear she doesn't want to talk about it

Blast, meanwhile, may not be the brightest fuse in the box but he knows Risky well enough that when he thinks about the Dynamo situation for more than two seconds it's enough for him to go "wait this sucks for you actually. why the fuck are you going along with this" and then immediately voices that loudly and right in front of Risky's face. After all, he's concerned for her as his heroic rival! He's used to Risky being more bold and blunt with her opinions thanks to their sort-of frenemy dynamic, so he doesn't really see why she just doesn't tell Mimic outright that she can do better than the Dynamo and kick that hunk of junk into the stratosphere. Blast wasn't expecting Risky to go nuclear on him for bringing that up, and it kinda freaked him out at first, but her little rant of visceral rage DOES explain why she isn't saying anything, so ultimately he really doesn't mind and is completely unbothered by the whole thing

Blast DOES still hold the opinion of "just tell him to scrap the damn thing you're already doing a good enough job on your own," and will still tell Risky that if she asks, but ultimately decides to let her take the lead since he knows she can be as stubborn as he is and won't be talked down out of it

[awkwardgtace]

I know you've talked about it previously for the Mafia AU, how there's a chance the process that shrinks giants could spontaneously reverse later down the line. How would the family feel/react if Dabria was reverted back into a giant... but not the twins? Not to mention, how would the twins feel about all of this?

I keep waiting to have chill time to answer this. But I'll do the best i can now

First this is 100% a what if i want to write at some point cause it's a fun change to a dynamic that people are already adjusting to. Now for the answer

Vitus, alessia, felix, and rhys would be ecstatic at first. Especially vitus since he can hold her again. It wouldn't take long for worry to creep in about sola and luna though. Especially since Luna has shown fear around giants and, while she seems fine, Sola is mostly confident because Dabria says it's safe.

Gonna pause on the young kids to go over Ryder though. He'd be a bit terrified. He's improving but years of thinking you were kept because you were useful doesn't go away. Especially depending on where Dabria is with her memories. He'd probably worry she'd demand he leave with Sola and Luna, one of his biggest fears. Even kept for use he doesn't want to lose the family he found.

Now Sola and Luna would be ok at first. Because mom is happy and won't be scared anymore. Then they'd notice the differences. Mom can't cuddle up with them like she used to. Can't hug them, pet their heads, whisper where only they could hear. The one constant, the one promise of safety, is gone.

Luna would be the first to visibly show problems. Withdrawing from the others, only really talking to Sola and Ryder. Even then it wouldn't be much. He just doesn't know what this means. He'd also share Ryder's fear of being sent away. As I've tried to point out in other stories, Luna unintentionally eavesdrops a lot. He'd hear the worry straight from Ryder, he'd know his mom kept him with his family. Now that she was big why keep the human kids around?

Sola would be really excited for a while. She can trust her mom so she doesn't have to worry. But Dabria is prone to panic with her kids around giants, even if that giant is herself. Sola would realize she couldn't play games or really connect with her mother easily anymore. She'd struggle and go from a bright, happy, and vibrant child to one much quieter and conservative in behavior.

The giant kids would just be happy to connect with their mother again. Alessia would be the one most reluctant to get too close. Afraid it would go away and she'd be the only one there when her mother reverts to a human size. She'd make sure to be home almost all the time though.

Felix would show all the work he does and just prove she should be proud of him and his siblings. That she raised them right. He'd also be the one trying to stay close to Sola and Luna. He wouldn't want them to feel like they're forgotten about or don't belong in the family anymore.

Rhys would be kind of reluctant to be around his family. He doesn't believe this will last and knows it'll hurt to lose her after reconnecting. He'd hug her once. Then be kind of a ghost. He'd keep checking on Ryder though, dragging him out. Making sure there's no way his younger brother could get too in his head again (it doesn't work well).

Back to Vitus. His worry about the kids would come minutes later. They don't know enough. Sola and luna might grow. They might grow at different times. He'd spend a day/night just close to Dabria then focus on how to make sure the twins can't accidentally hurt each other if they suddenly become giants.

He'd also be checking on them a lot, but since he doesn't talk much it would be head pats and soft looks. Not enough to be reassuring. He'd talk to Ryder more, hold him in his pocket. Just kind of close because none of the human family is getting sent away, they're where they belong.

Dabria herself now. She'd be confused and scared. The world would be right and wrong all at once. Vitus would calm her. She'd be so happy to really reconnect with her giant kids. At the same time she'd be afraid of hurting Sola, Luna, and Ryder. She'd barely touch them, never hold them. Barely talk even in case she was too loud.

All in all it would be a mess and lots of emotions at play. Honestly i do wanna do this what if and i might do where each character gets a focus of how they feel and what's happening. Lots to consider

[blueflyingturtleontheway]

Can you tell more about 'Chłopiec z gitarą' but Luisco, fanfiction from Spanish lessons, Dark!Avalor, and all of marvel ones?

Aasjkajsaksj sure

"Chłopiec z gitarą" as you probably know is a Polish song but I'll link it for the foreigners. The singer basically sings how what she wants in a boy(friend) is just for him to play the guitar and since some of the lyrics are literally "Even if there was/A prince or a higher noble/I'd never join my life with him/Unless besides the title he'd have/A guiter and would play it" and we know that both Francisco and Luisa play the guitar, and he's a noble... I've connected the dots. And imagine how funny it'd be if Luisa had previously brushed Francisco off as just "some pompous noble" but later fell in love because of his music skills?

Luísa huffed, still fuming from her interaction with the previous client. She took a deep breath, straightened her apron and finally answered: "Some noble. Extremely pompous and extremely irritating." "A noble? What did he want? He didn't look exactly like a client." "Yeah, because he wasn't. He just… came to invite me to tonight's dance."

"Fanfiction from Spanish lessons" is called this way because I've started writing it on the front of my Spanish notebook XD The core idea is that Luisa is cooking a recipe from a cookbook she has after her mother, who got it after her mother and it brings back a lot of her memories. At one point though, Esteban enters the kitchen, at first worried because she's crying, but later asks if he can help her cook. Of course Luisa doesn't want to agree at first, but she was just reminescing the times when her grandchildren were little and everything was easier and so convinced by nostalgia she lets him stay. After a moment Isa and Elena also find themselves in the kitchen and finally, when the food is almost ready Francisco enters as well, absolutely offended that they're spending family time without it! It was supposed to follow a recipe for a dish I've found online (since I sadly don't know any Latin American dishes first hand) and intertwined with many, many retrospections.

Okay this fragment is a little long but I'm so proud of this scene.

"I'll miss living here," she said to her mother who had just entered the room. "You both will always be welcome here mijita, it'll always be your home," she said, pulling her daughter into a half hug. "But now you should go, and start your own." Luisa unwittingly rubbed the wedding ring, still so unfamiliar on her finger but so pleasant. "And as your abuela used to say," her mom continued, smiling softly at her. "There isn't a good home…" "... without good food" Luisa finished. She could hear her abuela's voice in her head. "That's why I want you to have this." Her mom broke from the hug and pulled out the notebook seemingly out of thin air. Luisa gasped and covered her mouth with both her hands. "Mamá, I can't take it…" "Your abuela started this notebook when she married your abuelo, then gave it to me when I married your papá," She explained, putting the notebook in Luisa's hands. "Now it's your turn to have it." Luisa closed her in a tight hug. "I love you, mamá." "I love you too, mijita."

As for "Dark!Avalor"... this is one story I'm almost sure I won't ever write x) The basic idea spawned once on the discord server, as a fun Reverse/Dark AU and honestly brainstorming it all was extremely fun, but when one would try to actually write it... well I realized the story would be too dark so headcanons in the groupchat it shall stay.

Thank you for this second ask! I'll put the marvel ones in a seperate post, cause this one is already extremely long.

WiP list

[atiny-piratequeen]

Oh okay, in the story I'm writing the character who is being penetrated is the dominant one, and I think it would be really hot for her to train him gradually over time to adjust and be able to accommodate her body, moulding and conditioning his dick as well as his mouth to be able to take her, purely for her own benefit. I'm into d/s and powerplay so I assume this is why I like it. I into everything that comes with it, her "training" his dick to adjust to her pussy including being made to have his dick inside her for extended periods of time as part of his training, as well as him being told to use toys to size train himself on his own. And then slowly introducing different sizes (could be bigger or smaller, honestly I was kinda confused when you immediately started talking about smaller sizes cause in my head I was actually imagining size training to take larger orifices like how you were saying about in my first ask with larger insertions), and how it would be slightly painful/uncomfortable for him at first but she praises him and tells him how good he's being the whole time. I have some sadist tendencies I'm also into the idea of him getting to confident and trying to take more than he can handle at that moment and going to rough and hard and it being painful for him as a result and ending up "bambi walking" as you put it lol (although I feel like this is a different topic to gradual size training, and also even though I find the idea hot I don't actually want to send anyone to the hospital by fucking them, I don't find sexual injuries sexy in real life). Maybe it's weird, but I find the idea of his body literally needing time to physically adjust to her extremely hot, as well as his body being trained to take something it couldn't before and her needing to spend time on with him to help him and prep him properly to take her without being in pain and not risk hurting him if he's not ready for it, I like the vulnerability of him possibly being hurt so she has to help him prep and be gentle with him.

I'm not talking about if the partner being penetrated isn't turned on enough or isn't wet enough, or if they're uncomfortable or in pain, I'm just talking about them training their partner to take them before actually fucking them. Also, what if it's a demon au like with your fic and they literally have a different biology to humans and their genitals are different and so their dick needs to be trained to get used to it (this is not what I'm currently writing, it's just another thought I had).

Obviously using a toy that's way too small can be uncomfortable and cause injury but like you said, that's also true of someone who just decides to insert a 12 inch dildo up their ass no?

"there’s no real reason to train someone’s dick for insertion" "i suppose the only 'training’ you can do is with fleshlights that are a bit small for your dick size but like…thats a bit of an extra step when you should be prepping your partner" Idk tho isn't it kind of weird to prescribe what is the "right" way to do things or what "should" be done or that there's no reason to do something because surely that is down to the people involved and what they like/prefer? It seems you're saying that size training is necessary if you want to have sex with a toy/dildo that is larger than average? And quite a few people liked it so I'm assuming they agree, but what I don't get is what do people do if someone with a larger than average dick and/or their partner don't like or want these roles? Like I assume this must have happened before? You said that words of praise are important but what if the other partner doesn't particularly like to receive praise and would rather give it? What if the person with the larger dick likes the idea of being trained by their partner more than their partner being trained? What if the person being penetrated prefers to be the one to give foreplay and help prep their partner for sex and the big dicked person prefers to receive foreplay and be taken care of and be gently and slowly prepped by their partner?

Like I like having vaginal sex and I'm not into painful sex or receiving pain during sex but if I meet a partner who happens to have a larger dick, does that mean I have to do this if I want to have sex comfortably? Honestly I hate the idea of needing to be "trained" or "prepped" to take someone's dick, just thinking about it is kind of making me feel sick to be honest. I would much rather be the one doing the training and prepping, I want that role instead, but I still want to be penetrated at the same time, so where does that put me?

It sucks that it's not called size training, because for better or for worse the more edgy or obscure the kink or tag is the more attention and notes it tends to get and size related kinks in particular are usually very popular. I guess it just sucks that I see so many writers writing for these kinds of kinks like with your demon au fic and they get so many notes and comments from people who just love it praising them and gushing about how hot it is and it sucks to know that I'll probably never get that kind of attention because like your saying it isn't possible for me to write those kinks in reverse or if I can it won't appeal to as many people because there's no real reason for the act or doesn't make sense like it does the other way around and then I just, feel like I can't compete because I can't write stuff like that or write those kinks because it doesn't work that way around. And then I feel bad for feeling bad or for wanting that same kind of popularity or attention because I feel like I'm being ungrateful or bitter and I don't know how to deal with it. But thank you for talking to me.

I...m not gonna lie like the end of this ask really has a kind of vibe that rubs me the wrong way tbh.

I was going to try and tackle the several points here but on fucking god the way you came at me over this and how shit in here is worded really comes off as fucking rude. I never said every single time someone takes someone larger they need to be trained for it. Your first ask was literally "what is size training" not "does someone always need size training to take a larger person"

People always write things that may not be 'common' or have a specific name for it but the fucking passive aggressive (whether intentional or not) "I'll never get as many notes as you/people who write it like xyz" really rubs me the wrong way and felt like a fucking punch in the face to someone i was trying to help in earnest based on the questions you asked me.

Write whatever you want. But you dont go into someones fucking ask box and basically guilt trip them because of note count just because of a difference in the content you make and how you make it and the way readers consume it.

I cannot tell you how many times I've written something maybe my readers have never seen before or dont quite have a popular niche but people end up loving it. If you're that passionate about your work, write it the fuck anyway but don't ever go into someone's box sideways with the way you spoke to me at the end there.

By the way, what you're talking about sounds closer to cock warming with a submissive male and possible orgasm denial. Because like i said in both asks, you cant really train a dick for tighter things. If HES too uncomfortable taking a partner thats too tight, his partner should be looser. If your female character sits on his dick to get him used to her vagina, thats still her body slowly loosening up and eventually it'll be easier on him. And obviously size training isnt needed in every case and people are different. I never said anything was a hard line in how sex should happen.