#I'll post it sometime I finished it yesterday but I've been waking up late and I use natural light for my pieces with color bc-

[morelikesin]

The beast was uh. Not wrangled let's say

The urge to throw Sam in one of the outfits from the You Like It - Bimbos music video is a beast I am struggling to wrangle

[lredmage]

I just created a blog lol. I like the idea of the personal net. The small net. So here it is. It's just on tumblr right now, but if I maintain it, I told myself I can have my very own domain website. There are blog posts of me talking about whatever I want, and then other sections dedicated to my music, YouTube channel, and system.

I guess I'll just talk about stuff I've been thinking about now. It's Sunday. I'm crashing from my ADHD meds since I don't take them on the weekends. I slept all day yesterday, literally. I slept from 1:00am to 3:30pm, and then from 5:00pm to 8:20pm, and then went to bed at 1:00am. My waking hours I spent eating. This is what happens when I crash on my meds. Today I made a deal with myself that I would get up in the morning, so I got up at 10 something. I took a wellbutrin, which can help sometimes. And then I decided to make a website, so I did that.

Next week, I'm going to hopefully get a video out, and then work towards if not completely finish my album, which I want to come out in October. It's amazing. You'll love it. I have a job interview on Wednesday to work at a library. An autistic dream. I work as an administrative assistant now, and to be honest, it's shit. I hate desk jobs. I want to move around. But I DO NOT want to work in retail or food service. I don't think the neurotypicals in my life quite understand what I mean when I say that working one of those jobs or working a 9 to 5 will kill me. I mean it. Literally. Quickly or slowly.

I am hoping very hard that I will get this job. I have practiced the interview over and over in my head. It's the perfect job. Touching books, sorting them, putting things in alphabetical order and counting Dewey Decimal numbers. It's quiet. I just don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get this job. But that doesn't matter because I'm getting it.

I'm also throwing myself at YouTube a little more lately because I'm usually slacking. I need money. I really do.

[jayflrt]

did you edit the header yourself? it's so nice. i also made an edit today morning. it is a class of 2021 txt edit. like i was so proud of it but the doodles were not my cup of tea. also if you want i can show it to you but how do i link it to you, maybe i'll post it on my pinterest so that you and everyone can see my edit or idk. help!! but i was actually so fucking proud of the edit :) but i didn't doodle near the class of 2021 😭😭 but it still looks neat kinda ☺— 🦔

(cont.) and also, i've been writing all my ideas in my diary and just thinking of writing everything once i finish my grade 10 so i am just wishing for the best. god!! please help (also how do you manifest?) how was your day yesterday and also if i observe your status of being online. i feel like you wake up at 10-11am and sleep at 3-4am (hope i am wrong🤡this is called observation!) i love being observant and that's like the best advantage i have because i can easily know people's habits and routine. i'm not more observant these days because i'm getting distracted due to personal problems and social media, so it's just a normal thing for a teen to go. i still remember how jay would just soften by seeing jungwon and the way jake always clinges on to the people near him :( and i am just remembering and reminding myself that i once had passions too, i used to sing and i'm still singing, used to learn classical dance and my body is like so stiff and i can't learn kpop dances :(

(cont.) I might sleep by the time you answer my ask so I'm just linking my edit incase you wanna check it out. I'm super proud of it but just the doodles were a little you know upside down :( also i had to take inspo from Pinterest for those doodles of course 🙄 here is the edit— https://pin.it/4iliGtH

i did edit it !!! the psd credits are in my navi but i used a psd from dreamydrips on deviantart :’) but thank you v much !!! 🥰💗 i just looked at your edit on pinterest tho and it looks SO GOOD <33 i rlly love the doodles omg seeing the class of ___ edits on pinterest are always so cool :’)

ooh are these ideas for fics?? i’ve also attempted to write a bunch at once like that and it didn’t work out HAHAH but i wish you all the best 🙏 your determination is probably stronger than mine :’)) and manifestation?? HAHAH i mean i’ve talked ab manifesting as a joke i don’t think i’ve ever tried it seriously !! but im sure there are ppl who have but im personally not sure how to actually manifest smthn 😵‍💫

LOLL actually i wake up around 8-9 bc of classes !! and honestly my sleep schedule varies a LOT like sometimes i’ll stay up to 2-3 ish but i’ve been sleeping around midnight lately 😳 i guess i don’t rlly have a set schedule for sleeping/waking up, it’s very dependent on the day and what i do LOLL like when i was home for break i stayed up until 6 am a few nights 🏃‍♂️ but my day yesterday was pretty good !! i just did some homework and then went to get coffee with my friend (and she gave me a squishmallow 🥰) and then my other friends came over and we watched howl’s moving castle (again 😪) together ♡ how was your day love??

ooh you sing ?? :o some of my friends are amazing singers and take vocal lessons but i just like singing to myself(??) for fun LMFAO i definitely cannot mariah carey my way thru a song 🥲 but it’s okay you can reignite those passions !! skating used to be all i did so i felt pretty empty when i had to stop for uni, but then i started doing other things that interested me so that i wouldn’t feel so bored 💘